Suicide: An Honest Discussion | Kati Morton
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- Опубликовано: 21 окт 2012
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I wish you could be my therapist, I wish you would live near me. My therapist isnt nearly as emphatic as you are. You really seem to care and this video made me cry.
same and it made me cry aswell
Same
It made me cry too
a message for suicidal people. my friend you matter very much and you are worth saving. you have alot of value in you and you are so loved. I have so much love in my heart for you all , its so nice to have you in this world because you are so very special. I care so deeply about you my friend im so glad that you are still alive to read this message so you can see just how very special you really are and that you matter very much. god bless you all
I cried too!
This made me cry. I will keep fighting. I'm just so tired of crying and being sad. I cant handle life anymore. But i will try to fight.
+Adia Rafio I know where you're coming from being tired of crying and being sad. I found myself thinking the other day that I was tired of just being. So, here's what I did. I have this complex thing going on with my mind to where I'm not allowed to have negative feelings or something horrible will happen, I don't know why, it just is and my therapist has been working with me on it. One thing that I've found helpful is reminding myself that my feelings are valid and I'm allowed to have them. They're real. I'm allowed to experience them. I'm just not allowed to dwell in them. I've also found that getting sunlight is helpful. I try to sit outside about 30 minutes a day (even when it's raining). Being outside helps me so much. I tend to more of an introvert. I don't really like being around a lot of people, but getting out and going and seeing one person, a friend, a family member, is helpful because that other person that I care about may need my help in something. Also, I don't know if you have pets? I have cats, several of them. They force me to get outside to take care of them.
Will keep you in prayer
I know this is an old comment but, " I have this complex thing going on with my mind to where I'm not allowed to have negative feelings or something horrible will happen, I don't know why", is it a form of OCD you're experiencing perhaps? Look into it if you havent :)
When my parents die I won't have no one else to live for, I love them and I know they need me. But I'll be gone as well when the time comes. For now I'll keep fighting to be here for them, they are my reason.
Baby steps are painful, I agree. I hope we can climb our overwhelming ladders.
I understand how you feel me I'm fighting and I'll be around I'm sad and tired of fighting but the both of us will fight together in life
I came here expecting to get facts / statistics on suicide but this video really freaking hit me. I've never heard anyone speak with such passion and care. I never really thought anyone truly cared until I stumbled upon this video. I'm crying. I'm amazed. I love you and your videos. Thank you for everything you do, Kati x
BeliebInGaming it’s not even just the video but also the comments. She’s changing lives dude. It’s kinda giving me hope.
@@amber3574hope for what? It's been four years since your comment. Where are you now?
The sad thing is I know I have people who cares. It's just that I don't. I've honestly gave up on myself. I can't get a job. Lay in bed all day. My body and brain hurts. It's just years on top of years. And one day I feel like I'm going to just do it.
Hey, how are you?
Kendra Smith completely relate
Hey Kendra. I hope you're still fighting. I've been off and on messed up for at least 3 years (since my dad died, but maybe even longer) Thing is, I'm egotistical enough that, for the most part, I've never wanted to kill myself. It's always the world that's wrong, not me. I know I'm far from perfect, but that feeling's always kept me going. A couple weeks ago though, I did want to end it. I've been tired for the longest time. Then I met this awesome girl...who rejected me. Most of the time, I can think it's because they're not good enough; but this girl was special, and I wasn't good enough. Quit my job, laid in bed, and for a few days for the first time, really became obsessed with killing myself. I doubled down on my antidepressants, drank more than I probably should, but managed to get out of that obsession. I feel that if I let it, it'll come right back; and I still haven't done anything with my life. But I have to believe that if I try real hard, life might get better. Hell, if I'm wrong, there's a million ways that the world can kill me off without me having to give up. It's hard, very very hard, but we're at the worst point of our lives. It can't get much worse. But maybe it can get better. I mean I don't know, but isn't that worth waiting for?
I lost my first baby a week ago the doctors wouldn't save him because he was born a few weeks too early..and all I want to do is be with him. I've struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts since i was a kid. Ive never wanted to die as much as I do now. I have a bottle of hydrocodone from my hospital and alcohol in the pantry. The only thing stopping me from downing it all is knowing I could fail at killing myself and only end up physically harming my body and leaving my family to suffer with having to care for the aftermath.. 😔 truly unfair. I wish someone could help me do it right.
You doing okay now, Kendra?
Death just seems more inviting than life..
sameee here
I just want myself to go blank... I don't want to be a ghost, don't want to go to heaven or hell... I just want everything to end😭
bob meoff There’s no evidence whatsoever for an afterlife. This earthly life is the only one you’re sure to get, so don’t terminate it in hopes of some blissful existence on the other side.
SRIPARNA ROY I’m so sorry. I have felt the same way. Try to remember that those cruel inner voices are lying to you. They’re like Trump talking about the source of his wealth.
@@juicer67
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I tend to use suicide as a coping method when things get overwhelming it's kind of comforting to think , "Well I can always just kill myself and wont have to deal with this shit anymore."I bet a lot of people think that and those who say no probably have had at some point.
dreamworkd Yeah many people like myself have this thought but somehow it is not really deliberating, more like making me even more depressed
Same
Same as me, its a comfort for my anxiety. When i get to that place i can relax and get on
And when u say those thangs to people no one is Goan belave u a lot of people say that but don’t mean anything they just say it when they mad or upset
Yeah, it really is a way to cope sometimes.
I’m almost fifty years old and have suffered with depression for thirty five years.single and no kids and live alone most of my life.
She is a great therapist and great videos for all of us.she seems to genuinely care.i spent years with the feelings of not having a purpose.went to so many doctors and so many prescriptions and none of it worked,to be honest made it worst.what worked for myself was to get a rescue dog.he has taught me what true unconditional love is and I had a purpose to take care of him.this may seem small but made the world of difference.yes I still suffer with depression but at least he helps me cope.he makes me get out of the bed on the days I don’t want to.i hope this may help someone
I wish I could get a dog, but I can't afford to buy a house, and rental apartments that are affordable for me don't allow pets. ☹️ I hope to be able to afford a tiny home when I retire, and then I will get a dog. 🐶
I also live alone, and actually have no desire to get married or have a partner. Right now I wish I could could just go live way out in boony land, far away from people, and just have nature all to myself without all the noise pollution that irritates the hell out of me. But then, I only got about 3 hours of sleep last night, so everything is just that much more difficult because of that.
Listened to this next to the gun I was about to put in my mouth. I didn’t mean to. My phone was on auto play. Regardless for some reason it changed my mind. Thanks Kati.
I love you! I'm proud of you
I love you so much, I want you to know...
Amber Hagy Maybe there IS a God.
I hope you're feeling better! 💕
Kati Morton - an Angel in human flesh...
! word up ! was thinking something verry similar..
i always thought i could kind of see through people.
but with here i can not put a finger on anything, either she is extremely god at pretending, or she realy deeply, sencerly, wants to help others
Inspirational quotes? Bruh
Inspirational quotes? Bruh
Cheeky-mando u couldn't have been more right
I bet she is a really good therapist.
Inspirational quotes? F that. I bet her therapy is crap man. She’d probably just put ya on meds.
Jj Cool shut up
Jj Cool
@Daisy Richards I’m good. I’ll say whatever I want. What I said was being nice about it.
@@jjcool4184 meds help a lot.
Jonathan Mann She has been a big help to me on her videos.
I wish you were my therapist. I wish I had someone in real life to talk to.
Jennifer S Same.
I cried when you said "we need you around"
I would never hurt myself and kill myself, but now I am at the point where I wish that I won't wake up because I am too tired, just so so so tired of people that see only worst in me, while I was giving them last bit of my strength to make them happy. Left when I needed them the most, in the hardest period of my life.. I am thankful for people like you, its not eyes to eyes, but nice to see that someone is there that understands and giving us words of support instead of the ones that actually put you in these thoughts.
Natasa Mitic Radulovic I’m not trying to be funny at all when I ask... are you an empath? I am and got treated very badly by everyone until I made boundaries.
your a beautiful person LOVE keep going!
Yep I hear you. Very tired.
“There will be a day that you can say you’re ok and mean it”
-dodie Clark
My dad commited suicide when I was 9 years old. I wish he knew how much I would miss him, how I still think of him, and how so many things remind me of him. He did it the day before Father's day and it shattered my heart. I have been able to talk to people battling suicide and tell them how I felt on the other side of the situation. No matter how hard it gets or how much you feel like you wont be missed..someone loves you! Know that. Im in my 30s and my dad is still on my mind. I'll always love my daddy.
your right someone loves you so we got to stick around!
i don't know why, but as I read the end of your comment I suddenly started bursting into tears. like unexpectedly, something just clicked. it has been weeks I haven't cried because I can't manage to express my sadness, I keep bottling it up all inside of me. lately I've been struggling with really bad negative thoughts, I just don't wanna be anymore (though I wouldn't try to kill myself, the feeling of not wanting to be is there most of the time). I think your comment helped me. I deeply thank you because I didn't think I could still sincerely feel sorry or care for how I feel lately. i'm sorry also to hear about your father. I hope you are okay
Beautifully stated. Sending you virtual hugs❤️😀🙏
Oh god thats awful. My husband/father of our 4 kids..suicided on Fathers Day a few years back. I pray your healing
Love this, thank you so much!
I am no longer in danger, I am 98% healed from childhood trauma But I made 3 suicide attempts, once at 6, again at 12, last at 17. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, no matter how many years that "temporary" problem, no matter how many years it may last. I am now 65, and happy for the first time in my life. I would never have had the 4 beautiful children and 12 beautiful grandchildren I am now blessed with! Doesn't matter how long it takes, you can heal! I am living proof!
Not all problems are temporary so sick of hearing that repeated line.
@@cliffkonkle3467 I am so sorry I offended you, sir. That was in no way my intention.
Sometimes it's just too hRd all others do is criticize and tell you pull big girl panties up their been so many y traumas abuse continues even my kids say I could of been better who am I death does look ether even if a deep sleep
Iam really glad ive found this community. Kati is so awesome. I struggle with Borderline Personality Disorder and recently my wife and I separated. It was an unamicable split. She took my Son and moved 15 hours away from me. And in the same year, the only friend Ive ever had in my life decided he didn't want to be cool anymore and when I asked him why, he said he got tired of me being mad and then cool with him like nothing ever happened. Thats when I decided to inform him about my diagnosis but it was to late. Just like my wife he moved on. I had a very tumultuous childhood thats why iam like this. I cant even sustain a relationship with my 12 year old daughter. Sometimes I sit alone in a room drunk, listening to kid cudi stairing at candles with the lights out. Thinking life is harder than death.....living with this disorder has ruined every relationship ive ever had. Now ive become so isolated and withdrawn because I feel inadequate and unwanted. I saved this video to favorites because this video will save my life. To everyone struggle with suicide and depression..... Dont ever give up. You are loved, trust me.....we can fight and win in life together. *Mike Davis*
Sometimes our brain tricks us into thinking there's no escape (and feels like that) but if you reach out and get help, small nudges along the way will give you a different perspective which will start making all the difference. Kudos for having the strength and to open up to write this comment.
DBT workbooks are good for helping you keep those relationships and there’s loads that are free online. Also there’s a website called centre for nonviolent communication and it has stuff about how to ask for what you need in ways that helpful for everyone
michael Davis thank you for this. I struggle with keeping relationships because of bdp as well. Its so frustrating and can cause a lot of self hatred.
I'd like to think if my environment was different I wouldn't worry and have such a low self-esteem so much.... I'm scared that I may have a mental illness and worried becuz of my dad's methods of manipulation have deeply affected my family and my mom has talked about someone with BPD and acted like something was wrong with her. Even though I don't completely understand you guys I know that having BPD has a very bad rep too it and losing people is terrible which happens alot. I hope everyone in a bad place will someday see the light. No matter who we r, we're all ppl. We're all in it together, they're is support out there.
My favorite quote idk who said this “you’re track record for making it through the bad days is 100%” because it reminds you how much you’ve made it through and shows you how strong you are
People always talk about what to do when emotional pain is causing suicidal thoughts, but no one talks about what to do when it's physical pain. I have severe chronic pain and I don't have a cure. I need a break and it's hard not to be suicidal sometimes
“It’s not just a regular journal”. My bRaIn: “it’s a cool journal”
I had to stop when she said...I want to get married, I want to have kids, etc. I turned 61 last September and haven't met any single or let alone women who liked me since I was at least 24 back in 1986. That was the end of an era when it was socially acceptable for people to meet and make friends during one's regular flow of shopping, sitting in the park, it was so much more natural back then.
I’m 27 (I know, I’m young) and haven’t had a girlfriend in my whole life. I don’t know what is wrong with me. Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong place and wrong time. I’m afraid to try to meet girls because they would think I’m a weirdo because I’ve been single all the time. I’m struggling with that stuff right now.
I'm turning into you
@@maxivides That was very brave of you to be honest. At 61 I still remember my 27th year like yesterday. I still never had girlfriends. They just never enter my orbit or show any sign at all of interest. Just the thought that during all that time I have been struggling with loneliness and how to cope and adjust to a life without them...I just know it would be much too awkward for me to ever relate to any of them at this point.
@@natewalker7064 What does that mean?
I’m a young man and I’m honestly afraid for the next generation. My generation is so shallow and self absorbed that even basic kindness is considered creepy and flirting. I don’t even want to know what’s nexy.
Crying because I love Kati so so much. She's such an inspiration
I have a problem with the list bit since I don't have any goals and that's what makes it so much harder for me. It's that there's the thoughts of wanting to die and not wanting to be here, and I don't have anything to look forward to or aspire to either because I have no plans for the future. The only reason I wouldn't kill myself is because of the mess and disruption I would leave behind, I'm just existing for other people.
i'm still here because of my 2 brothers and my 2 beautiful cats!
Your goal can be to have a goal one day!
I really needed someone to say me this. I'm crying so much.
We care
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The other night, I was driving home from school late at night when all of a sudden, two bright lights were right in front of me, and I realized: This is a car. This car is coming straight at me. That car is going to hit me and we both may die.
I swerved into the median and managed not to hit the car, but the car kept going. Kept driving down the wrong side of the road, going maybe fifty or sixty miles per hour in a 40mph zone.
I didn't hear a crash, but I started crying. Not because I was scared I was about to die, or in anger that someone had seemingly tried to hit me, but because I was so concerned for the other person's wellbeing, both physically and mentally. I've never met that person. I have no idea who it was. But I know they must be hurting, and I know there was a possibility they were trying to hurt themselves.
I am not angry with that person. In fact, the only thing I feel for that person is heartbreak, because I don't know what their story is, and I don't know if they think they're loved, but I love them so much. I don't want them to be dead. I've never met them. They almost hit me. But I love them regardless because they're just as human as I am. They're just as worthy of love and recovery as I am.
So, if you've read this, please know: I love you, whether I know you or not, whether you've done some bad stuff or not, regardless of who you are or where you come from. And I am always available to talk.
YOU ARE SO LOVED.
Ppl like u r rare💖
I'm not an expert at all but if any of you scrolling through the comments need a stranger to talk to who will just listen, please feel free to message me at any time.
hi
Lastrevio Hey, how are you doing?
a bit lonely and sad. You?
Lastrevio Oh no, that's sad to hear :( I'm okay, just procrastinating online. Are your friends and family around? You could text or call someone?
My family is around, I don't have many friends though, mostly online friends or acquaintances or fake friends... But very few people have true friends, no? Hey, do you got facebook or skype 'cause talking through comments is just stupid and takes a lot longer
i was feeling better today and it scares me and now i just want to die. I dont understand why... because i was feeling okay. But the idea of not being depressed makes me so scared and alone.
Elley Henderson Listen, you don't know me, but I'm Callum. Message my RUclips account if you're ever feeling low. My Tumblr is Callumthegod, incase that's easier. I'll be an ear to listen to anyone's problems. I have my own story, as we all do. I won't expect you to tell me anything, because people aren't open. Of course! But if you, or anyone ever just wants to hear my story, you don't have to reply to it, or say anything. If you want to hear my story, just to know you're not the only one suffering, we may even have something in common, a problem, a hobby, anything. Drop me a message just asking for my story, that's all you'll ever have to type into that box. The offer is there if you're feeling alone. Remember. It gets better. You've made it this far!! You can do it!
same here stay in Love!
It makes perfect sense. After a while depression feels like a safe place, it is familiar and less scary than change. Mental illness is not logical. I had a CT to check for cancer while depressed and when it came back all clear I spiraled in to active suicidality. Something about being told I might have a terminal illness then being told I didn’t make me want to end it all. Straight up crazy.
I've been feeling intense things lately and isolated in my thoughts from everyone else in my life. Watching this is definitely a step in the positive direction. Thank you for all your videos.
I'm having a terrible evening, I'm in tears. A year ago or so many of my friendships ended, these were people I got in fights with. And quite often, it was because of me. I dwell too much on the past, I can't let things go. And today I tried to apologise again, thinking that things would be okay if they weren't left badly. And they said they never want to see me again. And whenever there are fights, I seem to be the only one who gets hate for it, even if others did the same thing. That doesn't condone it of course, I was horrible, but why am I the only one who gets the consequences? I have no idea what I'm doing with my life, j have helicopter parents who I can't stand, and no matter how hard I try at shook, I'm never smart enough, or organised enough. I procrastinate, my future is in my parents hands. And I'm basically lost. And I'm having suicidal thoughts, I'd never act on them but I really hate myself right now. I don't have control of anything, and my life is falling apart.
Thank you so much for this video. I wish I could give it a million thumbs up, but instead I logged it into my favorites so I can find it when I need it again.
+mamieleger I just did too, stored in my library under "for a real bad day" trying to find other things for it too. been having issues with this lately so it's good to have something to refer to. a voice of reason,..........
I wanted to but I couldn't I don't feel anything I think I'm too far gone already.
Wow, best video you made yet! The end got me in tears. I think a lot of people needed this. Thank you Kati, I'm so happy I found your channel.
I've watch this video so many times whenever i feel like giving up and it always makes me cry ... thank you so much for posting this video Kati xo
I needed this. My case worker was discussing journaling with me, but I'm always scared when starting something new. This was a good way to jump start my journaling that I would like to turn into a good habit. I told him that I've been watching your videos and he told me he would give em a shot too!
To all people who are suicidal, you can get through this. You can do it ❤️
thank you so much!
yea I'm bored of hearing that
No we can't!
I want to thank you for all your help and kind words.
I need to find a therapist like you. These videos help me lot and you help so many people.
Thank you so much. I am battling right now so I search for motivational videos and saw this. God Bless you Kati! You saved my life. :'(
YOU have so much strength, that's why you're still here
Doesn't matter if it's been a struggle that's irrelevant.
You've gone through everyday since the beginning of all of this, including today!
I love you ❤
Well said👏👏
When she said ur worth it i cried
Kati you have been helping me so much lately. So glad I found your channel.
This has made me feel so special. Thank you for always being so personal. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been thinking about suicide or going back to anorexia and I sit down and watch one of your videos. Thank you so much. Another night down and another day to go tomorrow.
Thank you, Kati, for this video, you are sweet and amazing. You have helped me so much!
25 years old, drugs and alcohol as a coping strategy for a neurophysiological disorder.
I've been experiencing a lot of chaos in my young life, and have developed agoraphobic traits. Yet, somehow.
This video makes me want to take the second step and accept that a neurological disorder can cause psychiatric phenomenon and illness.
As well as immunology, although this is another topic.
Thank you very much for your kind words, I will spend the early morning hours, although somewhat sedated watching any videos you have regarding mental health and strategy.
You're awesome Kati!
You've gain a new sub from the most easterly point of North America ! 😁
I hope your still doing well x
I can't possibly explain to you how much you help please don't stop making videos they keep me a call they protect me
sat here crying watching this video thank you kati for all that you do i know i dont just speak for my self when i say with out ur support i dont think i would still be here im literally at the end of my rope i have the local crisis team i started a journal i will keep fighting for as much as i can thank you xx
I just put down the blade after watching this. Thank you
I'm very glad!!! Keep fighting!!!
Stay strong.
I'm so glad that you did!! and I really wish that things have got better for you now
I'm glad you did. I hope you're doing better now, or at least still fighting. Don't give up.
I don't even know you but I'm very glad you did ❤
We as human beings always talk about "right's and freedoms" yet we can't don't have the right to leave a world that we may not be suited to? That really pisses me off.
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I sat on the floor doing homework and cried watching this.
This video put me in tears. Thank you so much! ❤️ you are amazing at what you do. Definitely my #1 favorite person on RUclips.
suicidal people are very special and need alot of love and compassion. if you are suicidal just know that you matter very much and you are worth saving. you're a wonderful person and its so nice to have you with us , you are a blessing to us all. I have so much love in my heart for all of you and to see you get well soon. you are wanted and you are needed in this world its so good that you are alive that's a real good thing. you matter so very much.
this made me cry. Thank you so much for all your videos.
I’m crying so much right now. Thank you I just haven’t felt needed in a long time
I kind of aimlessly chose this video to watch and now I'm crying, this video helped me so much. Thank you.
This is an awesome video and some great ideas.......saved to my healing playlist :) thank you Kati ♡
im ten and i can relate. please don't do it and the first step is to probably realize how amazing and special you are :)
I broke down in tears. Thank you Kati. You seem so loving and caring. Wish I had you as my therapist :)
Thank you for speaking to me in such a compassionate and understanding way. I haven't gotten a lot of that in life, so I truly appreciate this.
I suffer from BPD and am often fighting suicidal thoughts. I just watched this video for the first time today but am putting it on my favorites to play whenever I'm going through a particularly rough time. Thank you so much Kati, you know just the right things to say to help push me back on the right track and remind me why this life can be worth living. Thanks :)
this made me cry. saved the page and tbh your better on youtube than half the psychologists ive seen in person. thanks Kati!!
this made me cry soooo hard & im not even a crier. kati i can never thank you enough for your videos, or for your mere existence. thank you thank you thank you. this video legitimately saved me.
The last minute made me cry my eyes out. Thank you, Kati.
you make me feel so calm I love watching your videos on bad days they give me a sense of hope for myself
IF you want to die, you have the right. You didnt ask to get brought into this world
I watch this when I feel bad. It's been a long while since I last felt suicidal. Oddly, having consistency by adding episodes to my RUclips channel made me feel like I could have additional resources for support. Like this channel. Thank you for caring Kati. I appreciate it.
So glad there are people like you out there! :) Gives me inspiration that was much needed in my work place, thank you.
I have been watching your video's for at least a year now...I have never made a comment before, I had a brother....the kindest most gentle soul. I still grieve 15 yrs. later. Thank you for making this video...
YES WE ***DO*** HAVE TO SUFFER ALONE, BECAUSE LITERALLY NOONE CARES
meh I'm at a spot where I'm super nervous but some people at my school started to talk to me and I decided to stick with them instead of being antisocial.
we stuck for several months and even tho I'm super nervous and awkward, we would talk; lol me and my friend struggle to talk to each other bc we both terrible at conversation lmao
I've yet to talk about heavy stuff but like the little ive exposed they still stuck with me and show they really care, one of them is trying to help me talk about the heavys.
its true, random people at school dont care because they think that u have ur own friends and own stuff but u just gotta find the right people. find a therapist or start talking to a friend about stuff. you could find a friend group online. find people who care.
its fascinating and confusing af how people work, and if u just find the right people it becomes a little bit easier each day. so, dont give up. sorry for the random vent lmao I guess i needed to reflect. dont give up okay? its gonna be amazing when we get there.
I know it seems that way and I'm going through Insanely tough times and I want to End it... But there are people that do care and know you have some Worth out there. It's Easy to say
@@LucresntBlade No, It does not Seem that way and no, it is not easy to say, because it's almost impossible to even think about. Raw? Yes, I am working through Fresh wounds of reaching out to family and getting Bit for the very Last time.
Been through the system, was left to hang in the wind. Struggling my whole life to find someone who cares and is truly willing to help. At 55 I have a childhood friend who lives many miles away, doesn't have a computer and not big on talking on the phone and has a busy life. And a husband I moved away from recently, who didn't learn Empathy and Compassion as a child. I didn't even know that was a thing, it explained a lot of both of our behaviors. Why I married him? A whole other can of worms.
That's it. Weeks go by, months, I'm alone. No talking, sharing, laughing, hugging or just that comfortable silence sitting on the porch, knowing there is another human near who has your best interests at heart and a shoulder to cry on.
After moving out I have made 3 attempts at making friends to no avail. I don't think I would be able to be a true friend anyways given my mental state...? I am in a place of such NEED. When I step away from my computer have to tell myself It's ok, It's alright and get done what I need to get back before I run off to sleep, my favorite space. I have good weeks where I'm sorta able to get a bit done, eating, moving around, stepping outside. The other times I keep my Crises Line near, I've called twice. It's Very difficult phoning and talking to a stranger though.
For some reason I am still breathing...I need to find out what that reason is. Thank you to any who took the time to read this, Namaste
this video made me cry just when it's about to finish. "you can do it, you can recover" just hearing those encouraging words means a lot. thanks kati
I know this is from 10 yrs ago, but it was exactly what I needed today! I don't Have an eating disorder, but depression/anxiety have taken over again. Too much, loss, sickness, etc. I just saw my personal therapist and got an emergency appointment with my psychiatrist for later today. I want you to know that what you do matters, and what you did 10 yrs ago still matters.! Thank you!
Wow.. thank you so much for this. I've never felt like I was worth recovery or strong enough to go through with it. But this, made me feel like I am worth it.
What if there's nothing you want to do. What if there's no goals or desire. I like you and have watch many of your video's and your very intelligent. I'm still looking through your vidios to find something anything because I feel that I'm done.
Swingtreecats tea Same
Even I do feel the same ....
Same. Even if I make myself do things, I am just done
I can't put it into words how much of a wonderful person you are, this made me cry so much. I'm really glad I found your videos, they are amazing and they've honestly helped so much. Thank you.
You’re a really great person, and so sweet. I’m struggling as hard as I can today, and I needed to see your video! I’ve painted two whole walls in my apartment with chalkboard paint so that I can write motivational quotes on them. It helps, because some days I don’t even want to open a journal.
I can't do all of these things. I'm so tired, Kati.
DiDi just reach out. do that first.
U did reach out with this comment.. you’re gonna be fine
Hey, how are you doing now?
I needed this so badly. Thank you so much.
Almost three years ago i stumbled upon this video and it was my first step towards recovery. I remeber i cried so much my whole face was hurting by the end of this video. I seeked help, therapy, friends, family... and now i am fully recovered. Life may be hard but it is worth living and when you let yourself believe it you will start seeing many many many reasons to stay alive. I wish i had kept the page i used to write the reasons to recovery from this video so i could remember what i wrote...
I I had cried with this video. It had helped a lot; seriously you inspire people to get help. Thank you so much
I really needed this today, thank you so much
wtf I’ve ever seen any perosn with this much compassion and empathy.... Kati you are an angel
Thank you for addressing this , it gives immense hope.
Thank you for this video. It's the first time in a long time I have cried. It's good to hear from someone who understands and I feel like you are completely sincere. I just hope those lists of things that I want to do will happen, because I feel like they won't.
I just love how you say we instead of you (:
what about for middle aged people ? what do we have to look forward to? medicare?
Emily Wallace Grandchildren, job promotions, and it’s never too late to do something new that makes you smile. It may be hard, but it’s not over.❤️
@@kittymellow5864 u can look forward to job promotions, like Kitty Mellow said, but what about ur favorite restaurant, ur favorite foods, ur hobbies...u can't just give these things up! Especially the food, anything but the food😢
@@kittymellow5864 Ya ok
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I'm so grateful to have found your channel. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts because of past traumatic experiences and recent life struggles, but I know they're just thoughts and that doesn't mean my life will never change. I find this very soothing to know that I'm not crazy and I'm not the only one. Wish you all the best.
Kati- you make me proud to be a LMFT! We do get it daily, when someone’s child’s dies, when bad news, when they are tired of being chronically lonely and in pain. Thank YOU for your work. You inspire me as a human, but to be a better therapist and my clients trust me to do
My work. You rock!!!
I will be assigning recovery journey’s immediately. On it,
Your work on the internet matters!
🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
When I felt suicidal, I made a bucket list. :)
dictiosaurus that's a great idea !
I like that!
I might try that
😞...☹️...😕...😐...🙂...😃... thank you 😊
What a lovely video. I struggle and have had many dark crisis points where I felt taking my own life was the only option, having nothing left to give and just needed peace. I just wanted the pain to stop. But Katie you are so right. We all do have the strength to get past that pain, and each time we get through those horrible times we get stronger & grow towards recovery. It takes time but it does get better. Thanks for making these videos Katie. You are an inspiration and full of kindness.
Today was a really rough day for me and what was going through my mind scared the shit out of me. I've never had such vivid thoughts of suicide. Thank you for all that you do. I'm glad I clicked on this video.
today was a really rough day for me Katie cheers me up!
I survived two suicide attempts one at 13 and 39. I guess you can say I failed even at that. What keeps me going is a network of family and friends. Mental illness is no joke. My biggest issue i have not found one doctor who cares all they do is drug you. I go to my friends now for help with my depression forget the professionals I have had no luck with them and it gets costly. I tried therapy and they canceled on me so I laughed it off and never attempted that again either.
I wish I would've watched this video before I tried to end my life two months ago. God, I wish you were my therapist :/
+Katherine Hambrock How are you doing now?
+Mackenzie Clark sorry I just saw this. I'm.....coping
@@7icanonlyimagine Coping is the right word!
Katie.....seven years after you’ve posted this, I’ve stumbled across this video for the first time.
Thank you.
This made me cry...thank you for CARING.
Only just seen this video and I've started to create my own recovery journal:-) it's really helping me at the moment so thankyou so much Kati!:-)
I think you gave me the motivation to write stuff down.
I've made my own quotes and so on over time and I can't really talk about one issue, or maybe two, to anyone really, but the motivation to write might actually get me on my way to make a list before going to a doctor or idk. I've been forcefully "forgetting" problems for awhile, among other things, and I already would've needed shitloads of time to organize all the psychological troubles/variations I've had for the last two years. It might help me to try a real médium for those thoughts, due to me having trouble to actually think much about them.
I wonder, is it a problem if I've lied to my doctor? For example: the three last times I went, I was so stressed out that I really became secretive; first time I got dehydrated, second time he sent me to a cardiologist (I was tachycardizing) and third, I just went into secretive mode again. Is it a problem if it looks totally insincere, as if I was totally unafected by anything I report?
*if I look
I hadn't realized that this video was three years old.
I do not say I love you to people often and so fast but I love you, thank you for everything. You're an angel.
Thank you so much for this video. I have been having a bad few weeks, and my negative coping strategies and depression have been worse recently. But this video has encouraged me to look beyond my feelings, emotions and situation and seek the right support.
This video is so amazing. I've been feeling really anxious for the past few days because I'm getting the results for my maths exam tomorrow. I've always felt my anxiety being the worst when it comes to maths exams. Be it writing it or getting the results back. Because of this I am feeling so bad that I was going to self harm. But this video helped me so much, that I am actually going to go and buy a cute notebook and start a recovery journal tomorrow. Thanks a lot!
what if there is nothing that you want to do anymore? like literally nothing, then what?
help people go to charities you will feel that your life has a meaning that you can be like katie stay with babies and kids see how they laugh from their heart and takes life easily you can be a great person you can be what ever you want talk to god complain to him we all feel what you feel you aren't alone but you will be okay don't worry take care honey
I had this happen to me. I waited until something came up. It could be a glimpse of inspiration that would lift you up or a stranger's smile. if there is one thing to remember, it is that things change, they never stay the same and so with this, it is imperative that in the future something grabs your attention and will to live.
cherie andersen hope you're feeling ok now Cherie. if so ,what worked for you?
verry good question actually
Thank you for your videos Kati. I am so close to giving up, but your videos are giving me the strength to keep holding on.
i come back every so often, regardless of how im feeling, and watch this video. im pretty sure i have even commented similarly to this before too, but i just feel like this i such a sincere and heartfelt video of yours, Kati. its very important. thanks for everything you do.