Also I completely relate as a teenager in the mid-late 90’s.. I had wet dreams about two fictional characters (sailormoon fan? Haruka and Michiru 😂) and I was like ‘shit - I liked that ALOT - it’s official’ bc before that I too had a very close best friend who I knew from a kid I loved her but as I became a teen and she got a boy friend and being gay was bad(her my space had ‘I kissed a girl and I liked it’ so maybe I could’ve had a date it I had the courage? No probably not ) anyway I was so scared and ashamed that I cried and sobbed to my mom that I’m sorry I am an evil sinner and I’m going to hell but I knew I liked girls. Ugh.This was when I was 14 or 15 and my mom completely freaked out. She loved bringing it up to my family to start fights, she made me talk to her therapist who was anti gay, she said I was a cold hearted bitch and was dead to her when I finally met my now partner of 20 years and wanted to move out at 19. Yeah. So I never treated my partner or myself right. 😢 shame is definitely an issue Oh yeah speaking of ppl who are homophobic - pretty sure my mom was gay as a teen bc she was in reform school and sometimes she’ll shame me and damn means then sometimes she’ll ask me really cringy questions like she was no curious 🤢🤮 so yeah
@@soaringheart2203 this is an all too common story unfortunately! Inner shame around one’s own sexuality shows up as a homophobia or judging others. Classic projection!
Also I completely relate as a teenager in the mid-late 90’s.. I had wet dreams about two fictional characters (sailormoon fan? Haruka and Michiru 😂) and I was like ‘shit - I liked that ALOT - it’s official’ bc before that I too had a very close best friend who I knew from a kid I loved her but as I became a teen and she got a boy friend and being gay was bad(her my space had ‘I kissed a girl and I liked it’ so maybe I could’ve had a date it I had the courage? No probably not )
anyway I was so scared and ashamed that I cried and sobbed to my mom that I’m sorry I am an evil sinner and I’m going to hell but I knew I liked girls. Ugh.This was when I was 14 or 15 and my mom completely freaked out. She loved bringing it up to my family to start fights, she made me talk to her therapist who was anti gay, she said I was a cold hearted bitch and was dead to her when I finally met my now partner of 20 years and wanted to move out at 19.
Yeah.
So I never treated my partner or myself right. 😢 shame is definitely an issue
Oh yeah speaking of ppl who are homophobic - pretty sure my mom was gay as a teen bc she was in reform school and sometimes she’ll shame me and damn means then sometimes she’ll ask me really cringy questions like she was no curious 🤢🤮 so yeah
@@soaringheart2203 this is an all too common story unfortunately! Inner shame around one’s own sexuality shows up as a homophobia or judging others. Classic projection!
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@@soaringheart2203 thank you 🙏 💜