what you're describing actually sounds more like cyclothymia and not bipolar. you might want to look into it. also have you thought about ocd? it's often diagnosed very late because many therapists who don't specialise in it don't think about it + its real symptoms are generally unknown to the public so people don't think they might have it. i'm saying this because i have ocd and i relate so much to the way you describe anxiety, your relationship with art, viewing yourself as an artist, in your other video. it can make you have very black and white thinking and make you cycle between compulsively motivated vs depressed/scared periods in regards to your work. it also can also give you episodes of intense existential dread and just like indescribably intense fear of uncertainty and make you very perfectionist + give you impostor syndrome. but maybe i'm just projecting haha. good luck to you with all your projects
Oh my gosh, I just looked up the symptoms of cyclothymia and it sounds very similar to what I've experienced for many years. Kind of like Bipolar II, but not quite as extreme. Thank you for bringing this to my attention. I've literally never heard of it. I'll definitely bring this up to my therapist during our next session. I really appreciate you taking the time to share. Based on the symptoms I've read online, I don't think I'm ocd but I do share a few tendencies. I can really relate to the experience of having episodes of intense existential dread (I can become extremely nihilistic, especially during bad depressive episodes), intense fear of uncertainty, perfectionism, and more recently imposter syndrome - especially with the unexpected positive reception of my art and videos (x_x;;) Ngl, sometimes I just feel like making a run for it before everyone figures out what a "fraud" I am LOL (ಥ_ಥ) I'd absolutely hate the thought of making everyone worried with me disappearing suddenly though... Again, thank you so much for bringing all of this up. I am going to pin this so that others who relate who may not have come across these terms might see this ♥
@Riniapple i’m so glad i could help!! new subscriber here, thank you for the content on your channel. it’s genuine, vulnerable and authentic yet comfortable, cozy and cute, that’s a very rare combination. i totally understand how you feel about your art and the visibility it’s gaining, i’m sure many artists can relate haha, although most of us don’t have the courage to say it out loud. i’m happy to have found your videos, they keep me company as i work on my own art. excited to support you and your artwork!
Allo :) aurelio here. Just wanted to remind you about time. What you are doing takes time.. to make a name for yourself to gain the respect to get your art out there... you are following your passion and that is the greatest adventure you can ever start :) keep at it, you are gifted, you are unique you are your best you :).. showing your art to the world is like opening your soul to all. Stay strong
Omgosh! Hiii Aurelio!! So happy to see you here! I hope you're doing well ヽ(；▽；)ノ♡ Thank you so much for this beautiful message! You're so right, it's so easy to get ahead of myself (>.
I definitely resonate with this cycle as well! It's funny that I've only realized it very recently haha I had been dealing with depression for years, but now that that's resolved the "down" part of the cycle is not as extreme anymore. However, it's still not fun. For me, I'm really motivated for a while(it also applies to other parts of my life such as work, chores, healthy habits, etc) and want to things completely all in with full intensity. Inevitably, I crash and feel guilty for it. This has lead to burn out several times :s The longest one happened with art, but it recently happened with writing as well. What's really helped me is exactly what you described: being kind to yourself and avoiding the extremes. I'm still working on both, but it really does help! I try to set myself minimum goals to help keep a routine and habit, but make it so doable that it's not hard to do when I'm really tired, not feeling up to it, or don't have the time. When I can't meet the goal, I try to not be so hard on myself. That last part has been really hard for me. But one way I try to get my brain to accept it is by thinking "Would I treat/push someone else like this?" (it especially works if you think of a close/loved one) and if the answer is "no", then I shouldn't do that to myself. Anyways, I really appreciate your videos! Hope that this process gets better for you as well n.n
Oh wow this is like looking into a mirror. I’ve struggled so much with my art and have been in a vicious cycle of burnout for almost thirteen years, and could never find the words to articulate how it felt. I love that you make videos like this, thanks so much!
You take great care with crafting your story and your art is recognizable. You have thousands of views and a good amount of subs and patreons. Nobody wants to feel like they are selling out. We just want to draw. But the frightening part is when you reach a moment and realize that maybe you aren't that special and your story isn't that good. When the doubts creep in. I've been there, but in the end all I can think about is drawing and getting back to it. All the other stuff is optional. You just have to draw! And this isn't even about just you anymore. This is about your story! Imagine bringing something to life and then abandoning it. That's cruel. I also made a webtoon as a learning experience and quit, but we both picked up where we left and started a new one with better knowledge. That's evolution, not giving up. If it becomes too much, maybe pull out the social media game. Because your comic will still work without these platforms. They are just portals to scale up viewership. Social media can take you from 10 viewers to 10.000 and then a publisher can scale that up again to 100k or a million. But that's all rubbish, it doesn't matter. Keep on drawing and another door will open somewhere. This is my belief. I have to believe in that and just keep doing the best I can. On the days when I can't or don't draw I still do things that often help me draw better on another day. We are human and we tend to fall into routines and then get bored of them. So I think a little distraction and social context is just helping us gain perspective on our stories. And often improvements will come from people and situations I'd never have expected. Life finds peculiar ways to send its messages. Last week one of my oldest friends, who has a successful business and earns tons of money told me, he is glad I finally decided to draw again. I thought he would consider me a failure, because I dropped out of a well-paying job. But he realized I have something to live for now, and that it makes me bolder. I dare to do things again and not sit and wait for them to happen. And here I was thinking success was the foolish parody of myself, which I had played for a decade before. Don't regret doing anything creative when the alternative is doing nothing at all. If you have that urge it needs to break free. Not everybody feels that way, and not everybody has to be an artist. Many people don't even want this life. But if you make that choice, become it. And don't disappoint yourself on fears of failure or not being enough.
Hii lobster! Wow. Thank you very much for taking the time to leave such a thoughtful comment. I resonate a with a lot of what you've said here. This, right here: *"when you reach a moment and realize that maybe you aren't that special and your story isn't that good. When the doubts creep in."* This is something that crosses my mind regularly. On bad days, it can make me feel like giving up. But it's just as you've said, *"And this isn't even about just you anymore. This is about your story! Imagine bringing something to life and then abandoning it. That's cruel."*
Thanks for sharing your thoughts & feelings on this! Build your pace, it takes awhile to build a habit and that’s perfectly normal. We’ll be here to read your story whenever it’s ready, no rush! It’s definitely not an easy journey to pursue but it is truly fulfilling too.
Hii anj! Thank you so much for your words of encouragement!! (´ω｀)♡ It definitely helps to remember to be patient with myself while building new habits (>_
Your timing for this video is so crazy since I was JUST having this same conversation with my partner about how I was feeling about my art and projects. It's really hard to keep yourself motivated during your lows when you were able to do so much, and plan so much, during the highs. It's even harder when you deal with imposter syndrome because you feel like you've even fooled yourself during the high moments. This is such a humbling video and it's comforting to see many artist, regardless of skill and fame, deal with this feeling! Thank you so much for your tips and opening up about this to us!
I agree so much with you in regards to sitting on the floor when feeling overwhelmed! I do it all the time and it really just help you to focus on single things and feel grounded as you say. I even sometimes lay on the flour, until I feel calm enough to get back up again.
Thank you so much for sharing your story! I also really struggle with the all or nothing mindset when it comes to my art and balancing it with my 9 - 5, like if I’m not working myself to the bone, I’m disappointed in my work ethic. I previously commented on another video about wanting to purchase your artwork if you ever opened a shop, I apologize if that added even a millisecond of pressure! I’m excited to see more of your work in whatever capacity you choose to share it in. :)
hello sweety! well this happends to me a lot of years ago, i have a lot of comics made from my teenage, and i made a comic when i was 21 and i ended after 3 or 4 years, i abandoned for a lot of time, and a day i decided to contined and i made the best final that i never know when i start it, I saw it in a more mature way. i never publish this comic (i will love do that someday) but dont worry for that , i think its normal, even for the best mangakas 😁
i've been rewatching naruto recently and i'm surprised how well it holds up and how relatable some things can be. anyway, i've learned i can't rely on rare high energy moments. even with that in mind, there are inevitable ultra low energy moments that are hard to plan around.
Wow, this resonated with me. I also had my "high period" like a month ago and I had been very excited about it, but in the past days/weeks, I've been feeling unproductive and unmotivated, most of those days i just lay on my bed and procrastinate, and mostly i overthink about my life decisions. I guess i'm burned out from my fulltime job, I've been very exhausted and I can't have enough time to focus one thing at a time. Thank you for reminding me/us to take things slow and be kinder to ourselves. Take care of yourself always~ 💖
Thanks for sharing your thoughts! INFJ team here! We are on the same boat, and yes, winters can be VERY hard sometimes 😅 your videos keep me company on my own journey, it can be quite lonely but it's soo rewarding at the end, let's do our best 😊
I struggle a lot with this as I have strong pms for 2 weeks of the month where my energy levels drop so much that I cant motivate myself to anything and i also start to feel very guilty and like abondoning my goals and passions 😢 I also found this approach super helpful to keep some steady but very low effort routine. I do the same in running / sport that I commit to one or two runs per week instead of 3 or 4. And everything extra is a bonus for high energy weeks 😊 thank you for sharing your vurnerability it inspires me too to get back into my own youtube. I took a break when my laptop broke and I just surrendered to the circumstance and gave up haha but like you said its important to commit and have responisbility even if things get in the way because this is our journey our passion just taking it slow and easy and in little steps 😊❤ well I loved everything you said
Thank you for bringing this topic up. I have a similar mindset and sometimes it gets really challenging to stay motivated in the lower period. I am glad I am not the only one who struggles with this haha. :D
Not sure if you have this or what the likeliness is of it, is but this whole video hit home for me on what I'm going through. I have ADHD I'm interested in doing the very same thing that you are now. Which is make art, make comic, upload on social media, make it a fun, creative and personal thing. Right now I've been doing a lot of Art Journaling. Life in general is a chaotic roller-coaster for us all. However I can also be SUPER ambitious, all in or all out and I described as super passionate, then get in these lower periods and feel much much worse about even being in that state, being super hard on myself and being ADHD does cause your EMOTIONS to all be pretty extreme. Inspiration becomes innovation, happiness becomes uncontained joy. Sadness/Disappointment becomes depression, Frustration becomes rage. Just wanted to bring up the whole ADHD thing because it is the most known yet, completely misunderstood mental disorder, often being misdiagnosed and underdiagnosed. Either way we are all so much similar than we ever think, we all share just about the same experience's to a certain level. I been in the process of well processing these things myself so thanks for sharing!
@Riniapple I'm just really happy we have true passionate artist on youtube that are open and sharing like you've been! Its very inspiring and Ive enjoyed your content a lot 😊
OH MY GOSH! First of all soooo happy you posted again rini I love all your videos and it always puts a smile on my face when you post. Second, I too am an INJ -T!!!! Hoollyyyyyy moly I knew it!! You sound so relatable I was sure you'd be an INFJ, but to think you're the exact same type as me that is INFJ-T! Goshhh I completely understand all your thoughts and relate to them so much! Thanks again for making the awesome content you are coming up with and keep ti up, it makes me so so happy!
Hii Anuksha! Thank for for taking the time to watch my videos as always ＼(´▽｀*)/ Yessss!!! A fellow INJ-T here!! It's so funny, I feel like INFJs naturally gravitate towards each other?? I know it's one of the rarest personality types, yet I feel like I've come across so many in my life, especially online where I tend to share my Meyers Briggs type pretty openly! Glad you can relate so much to my thoughts and feelings ( ; ▽ ; )❤
Yeah I love art too. I have diabetes. I get weak. My sugar few times drop . I get weak . I need food for energy. I too am mental ill. I feel on going battle every day to be healthy mind and body.thank you for sharing and second I hope best for you too and all the artist .I agree loving art is greater power quirk anime we have.
Holis :) Thank you for this video, i really love watching them⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ Also i wanted to thank you for opening up and to remind you that it will pass like a kidney stone, but it will pass
Hola hola, this video was like listening to the me from a few years ago! I think we have similar personalities, I am an artist, I am also INFJ and we have gone through depressive periods throughout our lives... So I feel the need to tell you that for me everything changed when I got my diagnosis of autism and ADHD. That explains many decisions I have made, that somewhat different rhythm of energy-burnout and so many other things... I'm not saying that you are one too, but perhaps a diagnosis or starting to investigate neurodivergences wouldn't hurt.
@@Riniapple The mind has so many mysteries! I hope you can find the best answer for you. I love how you are so honest and open in your videos, you are a great inspiration :) Keep going!!
Have you looked into SAD and taking around 5000UI vitamin D everyday? I know, very specific, but I can relate a lot and it was just ADHD + SAD (thanks Canada!)
Oh my gosh yes!! Thank you so much for this reminder!! This is ESPECIALLY relevant for those living through Canadian winters (x_x;;) In fact, last winter I did a blood test and my vitamin D came back so dangerously low I had to be given prescription vitamin D supplements to bring me back to normal levels. The doctor told me to take 1000UI every day after that incident, but I've definitely not kept on top of it (x_x;;) Literally going to take a supplement right now. Thank you!! ♡
@@Riniapple Hope you keep it up! It really works and has the added benefit of helping fend off or soften the blow of any eventual colds. :) My doc told me they're reviewing min requirements too, and in Canada even started selling 2,5K UI pills when the limit was previously 1K. I'm not a doctor, of course, but if you feel 1000UI is just not doing anything try talking to a doctor again. The official guidelines say anything up to 4K UI should be ok. www2.gov.bc.ca/gov/content/health/practitioner-professional-resources/bc-guidelines/vitamin-d-testing Good luck! :)
I feel like your habit of journaling helps you explain your thoughts in words really well.. I can relate to everything you said, even things I had never thought of or realized about myself... I feel like you know me better than myself 🤣 I dont think I've ever seen other artist be so open about their struggles and vulnerability behind the scenes, it kind of makes me see other artists as perfect which ends up making me feel like I'm not good enough
Aww thank you so much hagiym ( ; v ; )❤ I try my best to be as open and vulnerable as possible in my videos, especially when it comes to my artistic journey since I know it can feel very isolating at times (>.
Your words resonate so much with me as I told you on Patreon, and I'm so proud of you for having this maturity and honesty! 😊💚Creative tasks are always more draining than we think and it's no wonder we have so many unmotivated periods in our artistic journeys :) Even if I noticed the same tendencies in myself a while ago, I still need to work on finding ways to stop the negative self-talk😢😢... Ganbarimashô! 😘🧏🏻♀✨ Gera
what you're describing actually sounds more like cyclothymia and not bipolar. you might want to look into it. also have you thought about ocd? it's often diagnosed very late because many therapists who don't specialise in it don't think about it + its real symptoms are generally unknown to the public so people don't think they might have it. i'm saying this because i have ocd and i relate so much to the way you describe anxiety, your relationship with art, viewing yourself as an artist, in your other video. it can make you have very black and white thinking and make you cycle between compulsively motivated vs depressed/scared periods in regards to your work. it also can also give you episodes of intense existential dread and just like indescribably intense fear of uncertainty and make you very perfectionist + give you impostor syndrome. but maybe i'm just projecting haha. good luck to you with all your projects
Oh my gosh, I just looked up the symptoms of cyclothymia and it sounds very similar to what I've experienced for many years. Kind of like Bipolar II, but not quite as extreme. Thank you for bringing this to my attention. I've literally never heard of it. I'll definitely bring this up to my therapist during our next session. I really appreciate you taking the time to share. Based on the symptoms I've read online, I don't think I'm ocd but I do share a few tendencies. I can really relate to the experience of having episodes of intense existential dread (I can become extremely nihilistic, especially during bad depressive episodes), intense fear of uncertainty, perfectionism, and more recently imposter syndrome - especially with the unexpected positive reception of my art and videos (x_x;;) Ngl, sometimes I just feel like making a run for it before everyone figures out what a "fraud" I am LOL (ಥ_ಥ) I'd absolutely hate the thought of making everyone worried with me disappearing suddenly though...
Again, thank you so much for bringing all of this up. I am going to pin this so that others who relate who may not have come across these terms might see this ♥
@Riniapple i’m so glad i could help!! new subscriber here, thank you for the content on your channel. it’s genuine, vulnerable and authentic yet comfortable, cozy and cute, that’s a very rare combination. i totally understand how you feel about your art and the visibility it’s gaining, i’m sure many artists can relate haha, although most of us don’t have the courage to say it out loud. i’m happy to have found your videos, they keep me company as i work on my own art. excited to support you and your artwork!
Allo :) aurelio here. Just wanted to remind you about time. What you are doing takes time.. to make a name for yourself to gain the respect to get your art out there... you are following your passion and that is the greatest adventure you can ever start :) keep at it, you are gifted, you are unique you are your best you :).. showing your art to the world is like opening your soul to all. Stay strong
Omgosh! Hiii Aurelio!! So happy to see you here! I hope you're doing well ヽ(；▽；)ノ♡ Thank you so much for this beautiful message! You're so right, it's so easy to get ahead of myself (>.
I definitely resonate with this cycle as well! It's funny that I've only realized it very recently haha
I had been dealing with depression for years, but now that that's resolved the "down" part of the cycle is not as extreme anymore. However, it's still not fun.
For me, I'm really motivated for a while(it also applies to other parts of my life such as work, chores, healthy habits, etc) and want to things completely all in with full intensity. Inevitably, I crash and feel guilty for it. This has lead to burn out several times :s The longest one happened with art, but it recently happened with writing as well.
What's really helped me is exactly what you described: being kind to yourself and avoiding the extremes. I'm still working on both, but it really does help! I try to set myself minimum goals to help keep a routine and habit, but make it so doable that it's not hard to do when I'm really tired, not feeling up to it, or don't have the time. When I can't meet the goal, I try to not be so hard on myself.
That last part has been really hard for me. But one way I try to get my brain to accept it is by thinking "Would I treat/push someone else like this?" (it especially works if you think of a close/loved one) and if the answer is "no", then I shouldn't do that to myself.
Anyways, I really appreciate your videos! Hope that this process gets better for you as well n.n
Oh wow this is like looking into a mirror. I’ve struggled so much with my art and have been in a vicious cycle of burnout for almost thirteen years, and could never find the words to articulate how it felt. I love that you make videos like this, thanks so much!
You take great care with crafting your story and your art is recognizable. You have thousands of views and a good amount of subs and patreons. Nobody wants to feel like they are selling out. We just want to draw. But the frightening part is when you reach a moment and realize that maybe you aren't that special and your story isn't that good. When the doubts creep in. I've been there, but in the end all I can think about is drawing and getting back to it. All the other stuff is optional. You just have to draw!
And this isn't even about just you anymore. This is about your story! Imagine bringing something to life and then abandoning it. That's cruel. I also made a webtoon as a learning experience and quit, but we both picked up where we left and started a new one with better knowledge. That's evolution, not giving up.
If it becomes too much, maybe pull out the social media game. Because your comic will still work without these platforms. They are just portals to scale up viewership. Social media can take you from 10 viewers to 10.000 and then a publisher can scale that up again to 100k or a million. But that's all rubbish, it doesn't matter. Keep on drawing and another door will open somewhere. This is my belief. I have to believe in that and just keep doing the best I can.
On the days when I can't or don't draw I still do things that often help me draw better on another day. We are human and we tend to fall into routines and then get bored of them. So I think a little distraction and social context is just helping us gain perspective on our stories. And often improvements will come from people and situations I'd never have expected. Life finds peculiar ways to send its messages.
Last week one of my oldest friends, who has a successful business and earns tons of money told me, he is glad I finally decided to draw again. I thought he would consider me a failure, because I dropped out of a well-paying job. But he realized I have something to live for now, and that it makes me bolder. I dare to do things again and not sit and wait for them to happen. And here I was thinking success was the foolish parody of myself, which I had played for a decade before.
Don't regret doing anything creative when the alternative is doing nothing at all. If you have that urge it needs to break free. Not everybody feels that way, and not everybody has to be an artist. Many people don't even want this life. But if you make that choice, become it. And don't disappoint yourself on fears of failure or not being enough.
Hii lobster! Wow. Thank you very much for taking the time to leave such a thoughtful comment. I resonate a with a lot of what you've said here. This, right here: *"when you reach a moment and realize that maybe you aren't that special and your story isn't that good. When the doubts creep in."* This is something that crosses my mind regularly. On bad days, it can make me feel like giving up. But it's just as you've said, *"And this isn't even about just you anymore. This is about your story! Imagine bringing something to life and then abandoning it. That's cruel."*
Thanks for sharing your thoughts & feelings on this! Build your pace, it takes awhile to build a habit and that’s perfectly normal. We’ll be here to read your story whenever it’s ready, no rush! It’s definitely not an easy journey to pursue but it is truly fulfilling too.
Hii anj! Thank you so much for your words of encouragement!! (´ω｀)♡ It definitely helps to remember to be patient with myself while building new habits (>_
Your timing for this video is so crazy since I was JUST having this same conversation with my partner about how I was feeling about my art and projects. It's really hard to keep yourself motivated during your lows when you were able to do so much, and plan so much, during the highs. It's even harder when you deal with imposter syndrome because you feel like you've even fooled yourself during the high moments. This is such a humbling video and it's comforting to see many artist, regardless of skill and fame, deal with this feeling! Thank you so much for your tips and opening up about this to us!
I agree so much with you in regards to sitting on the floor when feeling overwhelmed! I do it all the time and it really just help you to focus on single things and feel grounded as you say. I even sometimes lay on the flour, until I feel calm enough to get back up again.
you’re doing great rini !! your art is really amazing 😭 thank you for sharing this.. had the same thoughts as you.. the pressure is real ;-;
Hii rhanahj!! Ahh, thank you so much for your encouragement!! ヽ(；▽；)ノ♡ I'm so glad you were able to resonate with this video (>.
Thank you so much for sharing your story! I also really struggle with the all or nothing mindset when it comes to my art and balancing it with my 9 - 5, like if I’m not working myself to the bone, I’m disappointed in my work ethic. I previously commented on another video about wanting to purchase your artwork if you ever opened a shop, I apologize if that added even a millisecond of pressure! I’m excited to see more of your work in whatever capacity you choose to share it in. :)
hello sweety! well this happends to me a lot of years ago, i have a lot of comics made from my teenage, and i made a comic when i was 21 and i ended after 3 or 4 years, i abandoned for a lot of time, and a day i decided to contined and i made the best final that i never know when i start it, I saw it in a more mature way. i never publish this comic (i will love do that someday)
but dont worry for that , i think its normal, even for the best mangakas 😁
i've been rewatching naruto recently and i'm surprised how well it holds up and how relatable some things can be. anyway, i've learned i can't rely on rare high energy moments. even with that in mind, there are inevitable ultra low energy moments that are hard to plan around.
Wow, this resonated with me. I also had my "high period" like a month ago and I had been very excited about it, but in the past days/weeks, I've been feeling unproductive and unmotivated, most of those days i just lay on my bed and procrastinate, and mostly i overthink about my life decisions. I guess i'm burned out from my fulltime job, I've been very exhausted and I can't have enough time to focus one thing at a time. Thank you for reminding me/us to take things slow and be kinder to ourselves.
Take care of yourself always~ 💖
Thanks for sharing your thoughts! INFJ team here! We are on the same boat, and yes, winters can be VERY hard sometimes 😅 your videos keep me company on my own journey, it can be quite lonely but it's soo rewarding at the end, let's do our best 😊
I struggle a lot with this as I have strong pms for 2 weeks of the month where my energy levels drop so much that I cant motivate myself to anything and i also start to feel very guilty and like abondoning my goals and passions 😢 I also found this approach super helpful to keep some steady but very low effort routine. I do the same in running / sport that I commit to one or two runs per week instead of 3 or 4. And everything extra is a bonus for high energy weeks 😊 thank you for sharing your vurnerability it inspires me too to get back into my own youtube. I took a break when my laptop broke and I just surrendered to the circumstance and gave up haha but like you said its important to commit and have responisbility even if things get in the way because this is our journey our passion just taking it slow and easy and in little steps 😊❤ well I loved everything you said
Thank you for bringing this topic up. I have a similar mindset and sometimes it gets really challenging to stay motivated in the lower period. I am glad I am not the only one who struggles with this haha. :D
Well said, thanks for sharing :)
This is all stuff I think about a lot. Thank you for sharing this.
Hii coolcool! Thank you so much for watching!! It's something many of us grapple with, right?! I'm glad you were able to relate a bit ( ; ω ; ) 💕
Not sure if you have this or what the likeliness is of it, is but this whole video hit home for me on what I'm going through. I have ADHD I'm interested in doing the very same thing that you are now. Which is make art, make comic, upload on social media, make it a fun, creative and personal thing. Right now I've been doing a lot of Art Journaling. Life in general is a chaotic roller-coaster for us all. However I can also be SUPER ambitious, all in or all out and I described as super passionate, then get in these lower periods and feel much much worse about even being in that state, being super hard on myself and being ADHD does cause your EMOTIONS to all be pretty extreme. Inspiration becomes innovation, happiness becomes uncontained joy. Sadness/Disappointment becomes depression, Frustration becomes rage.
Just wanted to bring up the whole ADHD thing because it is the most known yet, completely misunderstood mental disorder, often being misdiagnosed and underdiagnosed.
Either way we are all so much similar than we ever think, we all share just about the same experience's to a certain level. I been in the process of well processing these things myself so thanks for sharing!
Hii thetrueholybob!! Thank you so much for watching my video and for sharing your similar experiences (>.
@Riniapple I'm just really happy we have true passionate artist on youtube that are open and sharing like you've been! Its very inspiring and Ive enjoyed your content a lot 😊
I relate so hard. I have so many ideas and stuff I want to do but I have 0 motivation 99% of the time 😭
OH MY GOSH! First of all soooo happy you posted again rini I love all your videos and it always puts a smile on my face when you post. Second, I too am an INJ -T!!!! Hoollyyyyyy moly I knew it!! You sound so relatable I was sure you'd be an INFJ, but to think you're the exact same type as me that is INFJ-T! Goshhh I completely understand all your thoughts and relate to them so much! Thanks again for making the awesome content you are coming up with and keep ti up, it makes me so so happy!
Hii Anuksha! Thank for for taking the time to watch my videos as always ＼(´▽｀*)/ Yessss!!! A fellow INJ-T here!! It's so funny, I feel like INFJs naturally gravitate towards each other?? I know it's one of the rarest personality types, yet I feel like I've come across so many in my life, especially online where I tend to share my Meyers Briggs type pretty openly! Glad you can relate so much to my thoughts and feelings ( ; ▽ ; )❤
2:59 it's my ninja way!!!
Hahaha! YESS!!! Dattebayo!! 🍥👊
Yeah I love art too. I have diabetes. I get weak. My sugar few times drop . I get weak . I need food for energy. I too am mental ill. I feel on going battle every day to be healthy mind and body.thank you for sharing and second I hope best for you too and all the artist .I agree loving art is greater power quirk anime we have.
you are literally the cutest human being evvaaaaa (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)
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Holis :) Thank you for this video, i really love watching them⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
Also i wanted to thank you for opening up and to remind you that it will pass like a kidney stone, but it will pass
Ahahaha!! I love this rouse! XD Yes! Everything will pass, just like a kidney stone ٩(๑˃́ꇴ˂̀๑)۶
Hola hola, this video was like listening to the me from a few years ago! I think we have similar personalities, I am an artist, I am also INFJ and we have gone through depressive periods throughout our lives... So I feel the need to tell you that for me everything changed when I got my diagnosis of autism and ADHD. That explains many decisions I have made, that somewhat different rhythm of energy-burnout and so many other things... I'm not saying that you are one too, but perhaps a diagnosis or starting to investigate neurodivergences wouldn't hurt.
Hello fellow INFJ!! ☆*･゜ﾟ･(^O^)/･゜ﾟ･*☆ Thank you so much for listening to my rambles (>.
@@Riniapple The mind has so many mysteries! I hope you can find the best answer for you. I love how you are so honest and open in your videos, you are a great inspiration :) Keep going!!
Have you looked into SAD and taking around 5000UI vitamin D everyday? I know, very specific, but I can relate a lot and it was just ADHD + SAD (thanks Canada!)
Oh my gosh yes!! Thank you so much for this reminder!! This is ESPECIALLY relevant for those living through Canadian winters (x_x;;) In fact, last winter I did a blood test and my vitamin D came back so dangerously low I had to be given prescription vitamin D supplements to bring me back to normal levels. The doctor told me to take 1000UI every day after that incident, but I've definitely not kept on top of it (x_x;;) Literally going to take a supplement right now. Thank you!! ♡
@@Riniapple Hope you keep it up! It really works and has the added benefit of helping fend off or soften the blow of any eventual colds. :)
My doc told me they're reviewing min requirements too, and in Canada even started selling 2,5K UI pills when the limit was previously 1K.
I'm not a doctor, of course, but if you feel 1000UI is just not doing anything try talking to a doctor again. The official guidelines say anything up to 4K UI should be ok.
www2.gov.bc.ca/gov/content/health/practitioner-professional-resources/bc-guidelines/vitamin-d-testing
Good luck! :)
Watching this tomorrow i need to sleep it’s 1:30am here in Australia haha zzzzz
Ahh! Julius!! LOL I'll be here when you wake up, no worries! Hope you had a good sleepヽ(；▽；)ノ♡
I feel like your habit of journaling helps you explain your thoughts in words really well.. I can relate to everything you said, even things I had never thought of or realized about myself... I feel like you know me better than myself 🤣 I dont think I've ever seen other artist be so open about their struggles and vulnerability behind the scenes, it kind of makes me see other artists as perfect which ends up making me feel like I'm not good enough
Aww thank you so much hagiym ( ; v ; )❤ I try my best to be as open and vulnerable as possible in my videos, especially when it comes to my artistic journey since I know it can feel very isolating at times (>.
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Your words resonate so much with me as I told you on Patreon, and I'm so proud of you for having this maturity and honesty! 😊💚Creative tasks are always more draining than we think and it's no wonder we have so many unmotivated periods in our artistic journeys :) Even if I noticed the same tendencies in myself a while ago, I still need to work on finding ways to stop the negative self-talk😢😢... Ganbarimashô! 😘🧏🏻♀✨ Gera