It’s so wild to hear the same exact thoughts I’ve had, said by another person..it’s comforting. One thing I used to do was be obsessed by what other people were eating and were not eating; now that I’m semi recovered I realize it’s probably because I was jealous of that person for being able to eat whatever they wanted, while I could only have my safe foods. I still feel that way sometimes because I still have some minor forms of subconscious restriction popping up; I’m nervous about going all in but trying my best. What a journey this is, am I right? Thanks for another great video!
thank you so much as always! I had forgotten about the obsession around other peoples foods... also obsessively scrolling through photos of food on my phone and saving recipes. Wishing you the very best, you've got this xx
I have terrible aggression towards anything food-related, especially when it is other people's food and not mine. I think it stems from the fact that it pains me to see other people having a normal relationship with food and I don't. I would get angry when I smell other people's cooking/food, I hate seeing non-diet/"unsafe" food in the fridge, I intentionally throw my own food out just so I can find comfort looking at an empty pantry.
you perfectly have described what life feels like as someone with anorexia, some of these feelings and experiences are ones i struggle to communicate to others due to anorexia (and all other eating disorders) being so misunderstood and romanticised. these videos bring me a weird sense of comfort because i feel less alone knowing that i am not weird for feeling this way
I didn't even know my obsession with cleanliness, especially kitchens might come from my ed which makes a lot of sense. And for symptoms; lack of sex drive, hair loss, dry skin, and shakey hands. :)
It’s so wild to hear the same exact thoughts I’ve had, said by another person..it’s comforting. One thing I used to do was be obsessed by what other people were eating and were not eating; now that I’m semi recovered I realize it’s probably because I was jealous of that person for being able to eat whatever they wanted, while I could only have my safe foods. I still feel that way sometimes because I still have some minor forms of subconscious restriction popping up; I’m nervous about going all in but trying my best. What a journey this is, am I right? Thanks for another great video!
thank you so much as always! I had forgotten about the obsession around other peoples foods... also obsessively scrolling through photos of food on my phone and saving recipes. Wishing you the very best, you've got this xx
I have terrible aggression towards anything food-related, especially when it is other people's food and not mine. I think it stems from the fact that it pains me to see other people having a normal relationship with food and I don't. I would get angry when I smell other people's cooking/food, I hate seeing non-diet/"unsafe" food in the fridge, I intentionally throw my own food out just so I can find comfort looking at an empty pantry.
If I ever ate from someone else’s plate, I didn’t feel as “ guilty “ because I didn’t own the food, because it was someone else’s and not mine.
you perfectly have described what life feels like as someone with anorexia, some of these feelings and experiences are ones i struggle to communicate to others due to anorexia (and all other eating disorders) being so misunderstood and romanticised. these videos bring me a weird sense of comfort because i feel less alone knowing that i am not weird for feeling this way
thank you SO MUCH for this comment. I'm glad I have helped in some way. sending hugs your way xx
I didn't even know my obsession with cleanliness, especially kitchens might come from my ed which makes a lot of sense.
And for symptoms; lack of sex drive, hair loss, dry skin, and shakey hands.
:)
A lot of the physical symptoms you were describing that you couldn’t make sense of sound like hypoglycaemia, which can be caused by anorexia
this is so interesting thank you!! I know what I will be reading about tonight
@@nicfstr no problem, keep fighting
Linda.❤