I am someone who needed to hear your Vlogmas today. I’m a surgical nurse who was recently diagnosed with lymphoma. I’m not used to being a patient and finding out so near the holidays has been a challenge. Depression is misunderstood so often. People tend to disregard an illness if they can’t see an outward sign, like a surgical wound. Thank you for your frankness and willingness to share. The Lord was leading you today, for certain. Thank you also for the time and energy your channel requires.
Amber, This time of year can bring on stress and anxiety for so many. Being able to recognize it in ourselves, and respond appropriately without guilt is SO important!! Being an introvert, settling back into my home, doing whatever I feel like doing (cleaning, knitting, dancing, sitting…) is such a comfort and blessing to help me find balance. Your verbal expression of your process regarding anxiety and depression seemed to be cathartic and a blessing for you. And I’m sure it helped others❤ Thank you, and prayers for peace and contentment over the next week or so.
It helps me hearing about your struggles with panic attacks and not wanting Togo out. I had a nervous breakdown in 2019 that was brought on from helping my brother in law with my older sister that had dementia. She is gone now thank the Lord. It was horrible and im also on medication for panic attacks that I can’t seem to get off of completely. I live alone with my dog in a small apartment. I would not go out if I didn’t have to. I avoid running into people and go the other way to avoid tensing up as they get closer. Anyway, I started watching your vlog and wishing I could be like that with a home, husband and have my life be so perfect like I thought yours was. Anyway, I never knew about adding evergreen bows like you put them under the window. It looks so pretty. I’m almost 70 and have slowed down a lot. I enjoy my knitting, crocheting, reading psychological thrillers and watching RUclips. 😁 Rest when you need to lady. ❤
Thank you so much for sharing your story with me. It's so hard to struggle mentally. I am blessed to have a good support system. I hope you have someone whom you can confide in.
❤️ helpful and encouraging to hear your chat today. One thing I do know, is that recognizing when you need an extra bit of help, or more rest, or down time, is half the battle. I know I sure need my down time! Sharing helps, and as you said, you never know who needs to hear it, but there is always someone who does. Love that you are real that way. I especially liked hearing how explained how your help came, but not in the way you expected. That learning from God is so much more than we imagine, but I have learned His way does so much more, and reaches us & teaches us so much deeper. We don’t realize it until we look back. So thank you, this encouraged me in my journey too. God bless.
Thanks for sharing your mental health journey with us. The last few years, post covid, and as my kids enter the puberty stage we have been dealing with similar debilitating anxiety challenges with two of them. It's been so hard as a mom wanting to help and not always knowing what to do. Your story gives me hope for my children's long term mental health future. Working through and management of recovery.
Hello. From experience, I think that is a somewhat common experience for kiddos that age, so take heart! We dealt with that here too, and it would always freak me out because I didn't want them to struggle like I have. When hormones start to balance (which really doesn't happen for quite awhile), the mood and anxiety stuff got much better.
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing about your struggles. We all have something we have to struggle with that’s for sure. As believers we know one day we will be completely healed of ALL THE THINGS!! What great hope we have.
Thanks for sharing. You never know how many people you impact. I follow many knitting podcasts, but it's the Vlogmas episodes that I find truly compelling. ♥
I'm glad you took time to sit and chat to express that time had come to say 'enough'. It's a busy time of year, and Vlogmas adds a huge amount of work. Know that we all appreciate you, and it's OK to step away for a few days and then have a sit and chat. Mental health and struggles aren't talked about enough in our culture. I think it's getting discussed more as people share more on social media. It's a good thing. I have my own struggles as a new Oregon resident. Coming from Texas, I'm not used to the short days, and the grey, and the rain every day. I am grateful to have indoor hobbies. 😉 Sending hugs your way.🤗
Oh my! Yes, moving from TX to OR would be a HUGE adjustment as far as sun exposure. We have a similar amount of grey days here in western PA and it can be really tough. Thank you for watching and for your kind and encouraging words!
I'm happy you're taking care to be more gentle with yourself. People are so good at doing too much. Knowing when to slow down is vital. I'm enjoying your vlog this year. And like you, people tend to overwhelm me, too. I wish you peace
Glad you are taking care of yourself. I was afraid you had caught a virus and was going to be sick for Christmas. It sounds like you have figured out what works best for your mental health. Hope your week goes well.
Your honesty about your struggles was a blessing to me. I also struggle with anxiety. I have prayed for healing and, like you, it didn’t come how I wanted it to come. It is my thorn in my flesh, and I know that God’s grace is sufficient. You have been such a blessing to so many because of you sharing your story. Thank you and God bless you
OMG i can’t believe you’re sharing my story. I suffered from agoraphobia from the time I was 20-40 when I was finally able to take medication which changed my life. I can do most things now but driving long distances by myself is still a struggle. I knew we had more things in common. I did so many therapies over the 20 years but the medication helped the most. I also started a beta blocker which makes a tremendous difference. As you get older, I’m 76, much of the anxiety dissipates. I hear you and understand you. We are sisters from a different mother. I have the same problem with caffeine - it’s really about taking care of you. Thank you so much for sharing!!
Thanks for sharing. I have a hard time with too much social interaction. I’ve been working from home since the shutdown and I think my anxiety about going out has worsened. It helps to see we aren’t alone in the struggle
New sub here. I’ve enjoyed your vlogmas. As someone who used to be very active and social, I’m finding it harder and harder to leave our home. Your sharing was so comforting. Last year my husband had a major medical event which led to a cancer diagnosis and has changed our lives, as you can imagine. We travel 8 hours round trip to another state at least every 3-6 weeks for his medical care because he feels God placed him there at the onset of this ordeal. That is the most graceful blessing, is our newfound relationship with our Lord and Savior. This is why your vlog appealed to me from the first time I watched. Our tree is up. Other than lights, no other decorations. I’ve requested no gifts and with the exception of small handmade gifts for a few friends and family, this is the extent of our Christmas. We will return home from his infusion Christmas Eve and watch our church’s service online. Peace to you and your family and fellow subscribers. Sometimes calm and quiet is necessary for the soul.
So happy you’re taking awareness in yourself, I was so tickled to see you out with your Dad it is lovely where you live…..your camera I was like oh no! I hope it’s ok……fun lily cooking so grown up……thank you for sharing amber stay healthy ….hugs
Thank you for sharing this, I am one who needed to hear this. On a separate note, our son who is a chef, made our Thanksgiving spatchcut turkey like you did the chicken. It was absolutely delicious. God bless, Linda
I think it’s good to talk about things and it may help someone else too. I would to have the recipe for those potatoes. Those socks are really looking nice. I missed your vlogs these past days. Keep well Amber ❤
Hi Elsie! I hope someone who needs some encouragement in that area watches it and feels less alone. There are lots of recipes for Hasselback potatoes. Just Google it and you will find one. It's really in how you slice the potatoes. Thank you for watching, friend!
Amber, thank you for sharing❤❤. It is good for you, so you don't carry all that weight alone. And help me to realize that I am not the only person who struggles. There are a lot of people going through the same. Be gentle with yourself. You deserve it ❤❤❤
Lily is a pretty amazing young woman, she seems a gentle soul, like her mom 😉 I’m from PA (Lehigh Valley) living in the UK now and the walk with your Dad in the woods reminds me of walks with mine…and feeling sad physical distance prevents us from being together right now, as we’re both getting older and life is short. Your words resonated (panic attacks, heart palpitations, anti-anxiety med, caffeine weirdness 🙋🏼♀️ ). While I love my friends and family, large doses of quiet alone time is a requirement for me. I hope your quiet recharge time will be restorative for you ❤
Thank you for your honesty. I understand .❤ 5 months ago, my heart went into A Flutter with a heart rate of 278 bpm. Ended up in Emergency, then ICU as they couldn't get it to go back into Sinus rhythm . Had an infusion that did nothing, so I was sent home with bisoprolol, blood thinner, and the hopes I would convert back , I didn't. So for a month, I was in Flutter with a heart rate of 134- 146 bpm without let up ,day and night. I was a cardiac cripple. Then they did a cardio version, which put me in sinus rhythm, but that only lasted 6 days, and I was back in ICU twice with Flutter again. I had an ablation 5 weeks ago, which has helped,but I discovered I'm in early heart failure because the cardiologist decided to leave me for a month with an unmanageable heart rate. My life has changed. It used to be full of busy, productive knitting, homeschooling, spinning, pets, angora rabbits, gardening, and family. I did have health anxiety, crying, and depression. But.....I have given my anxiety, tears, and grief for my broken heart to our Lord. And He lifts me up. My panic attacks have stopped. I rest in Him, and what will be will be. He has given me that peace that can only come from Him. Thank you Amber, you are a precious soul.
Wow. We seem to have some things in common. I had an episode of SVT in october that lasted about 90 seconds. My heart rate shot up to 240 and stayed there during that episode. I thought I was dying. I am used to frequent pvc's but this was new. Increasing my beta blocker helped it, but it scared me so much that I was afraid to go anywhere myself for a few days. Afraid it would happen again while I was alone in public. Thanks for sharing your story. Cardiophobia has been one of my biggest anxiety struggles. I'm going to be praying for you. Could you tell me your name, so I can pray for you by name?
@@alovelyyarn my name is Fönn. Thank you Amber. Yes the cardio anxiety is real. I still have the odd palpitation and missed beats and blips as I call them. They caused me anxiety, but now when they happen, I just ask for Jesus to help me and He does.💙💚🩵 I don't like going anywhere on my own. And while in ICU I lay there crying, thinking I was going to die.
I would never have bet that the Felix sweater would have turned out as it did with the two yarns you combined. You might want to try reading a physical book rather than exposing your eyes to blue light just before bed. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to be on medicines, but I had a stroke at 57. We should all be self-accepting of having to be on medicines that makes us feel normal, even though we wish it didn't have to be.
Hello Jillian! I read on a Kindle paperwhite that isn't supposed to emit blue light. I would read a physical book, but I read in bed and my husband is next to me trying to sleep. I used to read under the covers with a flashlight which kind of got hot and was hard to quietly flip pages, so Brad bought me this kindle for my birthday two years ago. I can just tent the covers over the book and it hardly emits any light so he is able to fall asleep while i read for a bit.
I am someone who needed to hear your Vlogmas today. I’m a surgical nurse who was recently diagnosed with lymphoma. I’m not used to being a patient and finding out so near the holidays has been a challenge.
Depression is misunderstood so often. People tend to disregard an illness if they can’t see an outward sign, like a surgical wound.
Thank you for your frankness and willingness to share. The Lord was leading you today, for certain.
Thank you also for the time and energy your channel requires.
Amber, This time of year can bring on stress and anxiety for so many. Being able to recognize it in ourselves, and respond appropriately without guilt is SO important!! Being an introvert, settling back into my home, doing whatever I feel like doing (cleaning, knitting, dancing, sitting…) is such a comfort and blessing to help me find balance.
Your verbal expression of your process regarding anxiety and depression seemed to be cathartic and a blessing for you. And I’m sure it helped others❤
Thank you, and prayers for peace and contentment over the next week or so.
It helps me hearing about your struggles with panic attacks and not wanting Togo out. I had a nervous breakdown in 2019 that was brought on from helping my brother in law with my older sister that had dementia. She is gone now thank the Lord. It was horrible and im also on medication for panic attacks that I can’t seem to get off of completely. I live alone with my dog in a small apartment. I would not go out if I didn’t have to. I avoid running into people and go the other way to avoid tensing up as they get closer. Anyway, I started watching your vlog and wishing I could be like that with a home, husband and have my life be so perfect like I thought yours was. Anyway, I never knew about adding evergreen bows like you put them under the window. It looks so pretty. I’m almost 70 and have slowed down a lot. I enjoy my knitting, crocheting, reading psychological thrillers and watching RUclips. 😁 Rest when you need to lady. ❤
Thank you so much for sharing your story with me. It's so hard to struggle mentally. I am blessed to have a good support system. I hope you have someone whom you can confide in.
❤️ helpful and encouraging to hear your chat today. One thing I do know, is that recognizing when you need an extra bit of help, or more rest, or down time, is half the battle. I know I sure need my down time! Sharing helps, and as you said, you never know who needs to hear it, but there is always someone who does.
Love that you are real that way. I especially liked hearing how explained how your help came, but not in the way you expected. That learning from God is so much more than we imagine, but I have learned His way does so much more, and reaches us & teaches us so much deeper. We don’t realize it until we look back. So thank you, this encouraged me in my journey too.
God bless.
Thanks for sharing your mental health journey with us. The last few years, post covid, and as my kids enter the puberty stage we have been dealing with similar debilitating anxiety challenges with two of them. It's been so hard as a mom wanting to help and not always knowing what to do. Your story gives me hope for my children's long term mental health future. Working through and management of recovery.
Hello. From experience, I think that is a somewhat common experience for kiddos that age, so take heart! We dealt with that here too, and it would always freak me out because I didn't want them to struggle like I have. When hormones start to balance (which really doesn't happen for quite awhile), the mood and anxiety stuff got much better.
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing about your struggles. We all have something we have to struggle with that’s for sure. As believers we know one day we will be completely healed of ALL THE THINGS!! What great hope we have.
Yes! I do look forward to that promise!!!!
Thanks for sharing. You never know how many people you impact. I follow many knitting podcasts, but it's the Vlogmas episodes that I find truly compelling. ♥
Yes, I love vlogmas because you get to learn so much more about the actual person. Thank you for following along!
I'm glad you took time to sit and chat to express that time had come to say 'enough'. It's a busy time of year, and Vlogmas adds a huge amount of work. Know that we all appreciate you, and it's OK to step away for a few days and then have a sit and chat.
Mental health and struggles aren't talked about enough in our culture. I think it's getting discussed more as people share more on social media. It's a good thing. I have my own struggles as a new Oregon resident. Coming from Texas, I'm not used to the short days, and the grey, and the rain every day. I am grateful to have indoor hobbies. 😉
Sending hugs your way.🤗
Oh my! Yes, moving from TX to OR would be a HUGE adjustment as far as sun exposure. We have a similar amount of grey days here in western PA and it can be really tough.
Thank you for watching and for your kind and encouraging words!
I'm happy you're taking care to be more gentle with yourself. People are so good at doing too much. Knowing when to slow down is vital. I'm enjoying your vlog this year. And like you, people tend to overwhelm me, too. I wish you peace
Thank you so much for your kind words. I appreciate you being here!
Glad you are taking care of yourself. I was afraid you had caught a virus and was going to be sick for Christmas. It sounds like you have figured out what works best for your mental health. Hope your week goes well.
Hello! Healthy as of right now!
And, yes, years of dealing with it has meant I've learned a lot!
Your honesty about your struggles was a blessing to me. I also struggle with anxiety. I have prayed for healing and, like you, it didn’t come how I wanted it to come. It is my thorn in my flesh, and I know that God’s grace is sufficient. You have been such a blessing to so many because of you sharing your story. Thank you and God bless you
Thanks for sharing your mental health journey. Your honesty is refreshing.
Thank you for listening, Sarah. ❤️
OMG i can’t believe you’re sharing my story. I suffered from agoraphobia from the time I was 20-40 when I was finally able to take medication which changed my life. I can do most things now but driving long distances by myself is still a struggle. I knew we had more things in common. I did so many therapies over the 20 years but the medication helped the most. I also started a beta blocker which makes a tremendous difference. As you get older, I’m 76, much of the anxiety dissipates. I hear you and understand you. We are sisters from a different mother. I have the same problem with caffeine - it’s really about taking care of you. Thank you so much for sharing!!
Happy Warm Christmas ⛄🎁 Advent Holidays! Thank you, so very much for your beautiful craft sharing and decorating!😊🎉
Thanks for sharing. I have a hard time with too much social interaction. I’ve been working from home since the shutdown and I think my anxiety about going out has worsened. It helps to see we aren’t alone in the struggle
Thanks for sharing Amber. Knowing yourself is important self care.
That is for sure!
New sub here. I’ve enjoyed your vlogmas. As someone who used to be very active and social, I’m finding it harder and harder to leave our home. Your sharing was so comforting. Last year my husband had a major medical event which led to a cancer diagnosis and has changed our lives, as you can imagine. We travel 8 hours round trip to another state at least every 3-6 weeks for his medical care because he feels God placed him there at the onset of this ordeal. That is the most graceful blessing, is our newfound relationship with our Lord and Savior. This is why your vlog appealed to me from the first time I watched. Our tree is up. Other than lights, no other decorations. I’ve requested no gifts and with the exception of small handmade gifts for a few friends and family, this is the extent of our Christmas. We will return home from his infusion Christmas Eve and watch our church’s service online. Peace to you and your family and fellow subscribers. Sometimes calm and quiet is necessary for the soul.
So happy you’re taking awareness in yourself, I was so tickled to see you out with your Dad it is lovely where you live…..your camera I was like oh no! I hope it’s ok……fun lily cooking so grown up……thank you for sharing amber stay healthy ….hugs
Hi Rhonda! Yeah, thankfully my phone still works!
Thank you for sharing this, I am one who needed to hear this. On a separate note, our son who is a chef, made our Thanksgiving spatchcut turkey like you did the chicken. It was absolutely delicious. God bless, Linda
Thanks for sharing, Amber. It's great that you're helping to reduce the stigma. ❤
Thank you for your kindness, Dana!
Hey! I recognize those types of roads! Most of my family lives in and around Cranberry Township PA.
I think it’s good to talk about things and it may help someone else too. I would to have the recipe for those potatoes. Those socks are really looking nice. I missed your vlogs these past days. Keep well Amber ❤
Hi Elsie! I hope someone who needs some encouragement in that area watches it and feels less alone. There are lots of recipes for Hasselback potatoes. Just Google it and you will find one. It's really in how you slice the potatoes.
Thank you for watching, friend!
Amber, thank you for sharing❤❤. It is good for you, so you don't carry all that weight alone. And help me to realize that I am not the only person who struggles. There are a lot of people going through the same.
Be gentle with yourself. You deserve it ❤❤❤
Amber, thanks for sharing ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you for watching, friend! ❤️
Thanks for sharing your struggles…be kind to yourself❤
Thank you, Janice!
Hello from Swansea, Illinois. ❤❤❤❤
Lily is a pretty amazing young woman, she seems a gentle soul, like her mom 😉 I’m from PA (Lehigh Valley) living in the UK now and the walk with your Dad in the woods reminds me of walks with mine…and feeling sad physical distance prevents us from being together right now, as we’re both getting older and life is short. Your words resonated (panic attacks, heart palpitations, anti-anxiety med, caffeine weirdness 🙋🏼♀️ ). While I love my friends and family, large doses of quiet alone time is a requirement for me. I hope your quiet recharge time will be restorative for you ❤
💜💜💜
You are NOT ALONE ❤❤❤
Hi Kathie. Thank you. ❤️
I’d love the name of the book. Being self aware and following your own needs is hard. Take time when you need to. We will see you when you post.
Haha! Forgot to write that in the description. It is "Murder for Christmas" by Francis Duncan. Also, thanks for your understanding and kindness. ❤️
Thank you for your honesty.
I understand .❤
5 months ago, my heart went into A Flutter with a heart rate of 278 bpm. Ended up in Emergency, then ICU as they couldn't get it to go back into Sinus rhythm .
Had an infusion that did nothing, so I was sent home with bisoprolol, blood thinner, and the hopes I would convert back , I didn't. So for a month, I was in Flutter with a heart rate of 134- 146 bpm without let up ,day and night. I was a cardiac cripple.
Then they did a cardio version, which put me in sinus rhythm, but that only lasted 6 days, and I was back in ICU twice with Flutter again. I had an ablation 5 weeks ago, which has helped,but I discovered I'm in early heart failure because the cardiologist decided to leave me for a month with an unmanageable heart rate. My life has changed. It used to be full of busy, productive knitting, homeschooling, spinning, pets, angora rabbits, gardening, and family.
I did have health anxiety, crying, and depression.
But.....I have given my anxiety, tears, and grief for my broken heart to our Lord.
And He lifts me up.
My panic attacks have stopped.
I rest in Him, and what will be will be. He has given me that peace that can only come from Him.
Thank you Amber, you are a precious soul.
Wow. We seem to have some things in common. I had an episode of SVT in october that lasted about 90 seconds. My heart rate shot up to 240 and stayed there during that episode. I thought I was dying. I am used to frequent pvc's but this was new. Increasing my beta blocker helped it, but it scared me so much that I was afraid to go anywhere myself for a few days. Afraid it would happen again while I was alone in public. Thanks for sharing your story. Cardiophobia has been one of my biggest anxiety struggles. I'm going to be praying for you. Could you tell me your name, so I can pray for you by name?
@@alovelyyarn my name is Fönn.
Thank you Amber.
Yes the cardio anxiety is real.
I still have the odd palpitation and missed beats and blips as I call them.
They caused me anxiety, but now when they happen, I just ask for Jesus to help me and He does.💙💚🩵
I don't like going anywhere on my own.
And while in ICU I lay there crying, thinking I was going to die.
❤❤ take care amber,,,,🎉🎉
ELAINE 🏠 💗
Love to be home,,😮
I've never seen potatos prepared that way. What is that called? Take care!
Hasselback potatoes! Google it! They are really yummy!
Amber
You are a beautiful soul
Relax
Everything is fine
Virtual hugs from your pa friend
Thank you for your kindness. That means a lot to me. ❤️
I would never have bet that the Felix sweater would have turned out as it did with the two yarns you combined.
You might want to try reading a physical book rather than exposing your eyes to blue light just before bed.
Sometimes I wish I didn't have to be on medicines, but I had a stroke at 57. We should all be self-accepting of having to be on medicines that makes us feel normal, even though we wish it didn't have to be.
Hello Jillian! I read on a Kindle paperwhite that isn't supposed to emit blue light. I would read a physical book, but I read in bed and my husband is next to me trying to sleep. I used to read under the covers with a flashlight which kind of got hot and was hard to quietly flip pages, so Brad bought me this kindle for my birthday two years ago. I can just tent the covers over the book and it hardly emits any light so he is able to fall asleep while i read for a bit.