sophiemarie.b - hey little girl (live) [official lyric video]
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- Опубликовано: 17 ноя 2018
- we made a new lyric video for the official release! thank you so much for watching. - soph
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LYRICS
Verse 1:
I’m all choked up
I cannot talk
I’ve got a fucked up brain, fucked up thoughts
Thought I was okay
But then I guess not
Hope you know that this is your fault
Want you to feel bad
When you go to sleep
Hope you’re sad when you remember me
Hope you’re feeling bad for all you did to me
And hope you lie there in your misery
Chorus:
Hey little girl
You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you
But it’s hidden too deep
Hey little girl
You never imagined you’d get a little older
You’ll get abandoned
Hey little girl
You know smoking kills
You don’t really care cause you love how it feels
Hey little girl
You’re falling apart
You don’t really care ‘cause they broke your heart
Verse 2:
I’m fighting for all that I have lost
It’s my time to show who's boss
I’ve waited in the dark too long
I’ve got this now, so just stay strong
I know you won’t believe
Until I’m up on stage
Make me bleed when you don't get your way
I hope you're scared when you remember me
I hope you lie there in your misery
Chorus:
Hey little girl
You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you
But it’s hidden too deep
Hey little girl
You never imagined you’d get a little older
You’ll get abandoned
Hey little girl
You know smoking kills
You don’t really care cause you love how it feels
Hey little girl
You’re falling apart
You don’t really care cause they broke your heart
Bridge:
Been in and out of recovery
Remember when I could hardly breath
Sat in front of mirrors thinking to myself
Can't get any clearer, what I’m doing to myself
Been in and out of recovery
I remember when I could hardly breath
I sat in front of mirrors thinking to myself
Can't get any clearer what I’m doing to myself
Chorus:
Hey little girl
You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you
Hidden too deep
Hey little girl
You never imagined you’d get a little older
You’ll get abandoned
Hey little girl
You know smoking kills
You don’t really care cause you love how it feels
Hey little girl
You’re falling apart
You don’t really care cause they broke your heart 
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by age 8 my dad was out of my life entirely. my mom would feed me lies about him. she made me believe that he was the one who abandoned us. with no one around to protect me, thats when the abuse started.
I’m all choked up i cannot talk
I’ve got a fucked up brain, fucked up thoughts
writing songs was my therapy. I wrote the first verse and chorus while still living with her in october 2016.
Thought i was okay but then i guess not
I hope you know that this is your fault
shame, anxiety, depression, self-doubt, anger...it was piling up. something had to change. so after 8 years of being apart I messaged my dad from a secret email address. (It would have been very bad if she found out.) he got me a secret phone (i put my best friends picture on it just in case) and we began planning my escape.
Want you to feel bad when you go to sleep
Hope you’re sad when you remember me
Hope you’re feeling bad for all you did to me
And hope you lie there in your misery
the plan was to begin living with him full time by march, which felt like a long 5 months away.
Hey little girl - You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you
But it’s hidden too deep
would the hopeful, happy, ambitious woman inside of me still be there when I was finally free?
Hey little girl - You never imagined you’d get a little older
You’ll get abandoned
Hey little girl - You know smoking kills
You don’t really care cause you love how it feels
Hey little girl - You’re falling apart
You don’t really care ‘cause they broke your heart
abuse -> rebellion -> breakdown. this was the whole song at first. so I posted a clip on instagram as a failed cry for help. but less than a week later I got worried that my mom would see it and took it down.
then in dec 2016, with 3 months still to go, my mother let it rip in front of the house, for all of my neighbors to see. bruised and crying I ran to my neighbors house and called my dad “we need to do this now”. my neighbors harbored me for a week while my dad prepared to get custody, as he did later that week. I will never forget the feeling the day I saw the police serving my mother the papers. a warm rush went through my body as she screamed in disbelief.
within weeks i was on a beautiful beach vacationing with my dad for new year’s, when I found my song on RUclips, but under another person’s name. who the hell is Quinn Quinn? for those of you who don’t know, this girl on RUclips named Quinn Quinn ripped the audio from my instagram and reposted it as her song. it went kinda viral, on musically too. I was angry and helpless. who fucking does that? whatever! my only defens was to finish the song and post a video of me singing it in front of the piano. by this time, i’m free from my mother, which is why the second verse and bridge come from a whole new perspective.
I’m fighting for all that I have lost
It’s my time to show who's boss
I’ve waited in the dark too long
I’ve got this now, so just stay strong
at 16 I finally had a chance. It was time to start going after my dreams. (I still tell myself this every day.)
I know you won’t believe until I’m up on stage
Make me bleed when you don't get your way
in the mornings she would claim to not remember what she had done. “i hope you wake up and realize what a good mother i am to you" she would say. what a fuking joke.
I hope you're scared when you remember me
I hope you lie there in your misery
Peace out you miserable bitch.
Been in and out of recovery
Remember when I could hardly breathe
Sat in front of mirrors thinking to myself
Can't get any clearer, what I’m doing to myself
its been five years and i’m feeling okay. “You got this...you’re good” i like to tell myself. but sometimes it gets tough and i go back down to feeling like shit. I know i need to forgive her in order to fully move on, but its hard right now. i hope my story helps children and adults around the world recognize the dangers of child abuse and parental alienation. remember, there’s always someone you can go to for help. I just wish i contacted him sooner. - soph
It really felt heartbreaking to read your story, though I am glad you got help and got out of that hell. I hope you'll lead a happy life ahead
Honestly, it's so hard to believe people would *actually* do that. I can't even begin to imagine how horrible that was. Not to mention the girl who literally stole your song. Love your song though, it's wonderful. The backstory to it though- I hope things are better!
You are so inspiring to me
I've been abused and used by my brother and well he drowned me and my sister. I treat him nicely and all I get is a slap, a punch, a kick or an elbow to the throat. But it's hard to believe this, even though I do. This is also my favorite song. It's sooooo good!
Your story is so upsetting. Parents r supposed to care for u and make u feel loved but instead they made u feel misery. Your story rlly inspired me. My mom hits me as well and she also thinks shes some brilliant amazing mother. Im happy u r free from ur mother now!!
parents: ''stop being childish, i've had worse as a child''
Strangers: ''It's okay. I understand.''
If hey have been in worse they why don't they help us
right ?
Exactly, a random stranger who I've never talked to helped me and listened to me while I was venting to them.
I'm the most thankful for them :)
Not only the parents, litterly the while family
Literally what my family just told me again
Kid: 'depressed'
Mom: it's that stupid phone
Kid: that phone is the only thing stopping me from ending my life
So true the only thing that here for me is my phone all the sad times this phone help me stay up all night crying and this what help me
thisgirl lovesroblox so I’m not the only one that does that?
Yay
That’s true-ish. It’s actually family that’s keeping most people alive, people love their family to much to just, let them go
Edit: alright my family doesn’t except me for being Non-binary and being poly.
But I know that they still love me.
Me I have some freinds like two
I’m so sorry for you guys 😭 idk what I would do without my family
I’m pregnant right now at 18. I may not have been prepared for this. But my kids will never know the pain of this song or other like it. I will be nothing like my parents. My kids will be loved and brought up right. They will be listened to and understood. To my future kids. I love you. I’ll always be here for you.
you’re going to be an amazing parent. sending you so much love. ❤️❤️
Congratulations! You're gonna be an amazing mother!!
I hope you and your kids the best🫶
I believe in u ❤❤❤❤ u got this I may be 11 but I get underestimated a lot but we all support u stay positive ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
You're going to be an amazing mother❤❤love and blessing for you child❤
The fact I listened to this song for 4 years. And every year it hits more
same
i found this song like 4 years ago and I use to listen to this because it sounded cool, but i slowly realized that i was relating to it more and more :(
Your music taste is absolute ass
Same. It’s sad that you can be even a little eleven year old girl, tearing yourself apart for others and then they get mad at you for it…
@@Your_Local_Moronsame :(
I love how my parents tell me that “everybody has bad days” but strangers will talk with me for hours saying they understand me
This hits too close to home. I’ve been fussed at because I’ve had in depth conversations with people 1 or 2 years older than me because we’ve experienced some of the same things. But because they are older and a bad influence so I lose electronics and just lose any happiness I had.
Its too true i first meet soemone at my school and ahe knew my pain right off the bat and she had the same problem and we became friends for a little i had to move schools so i havent seen her seans
Honestly like we’re your children shut up and do your job which is caring for us
My parents just say sadness/depression in kids doesn’t exist.
@@andreapineda8760 are you kidding me I knew a six year old who committed suicide becuase her dad elft and she was raped when she was five she was from Africa but just becuase she was hung didn’t mean she had seen some shit
this is the kind of sickness
that isn’t excused at school
this is the kind of sickness
that no one ever notices
this is the kind of sickness
that goes unnoticed
*until it kills*
@Minecraft MemeGirl bruh why?
Even when it kills it will pass in a day even for the family believe me I know. I lost my brother to drugs and my family and friends dropped it by the end of the day well 3 years later it still haunts me
You cant tell anyone because they wont understand and ur scared to and u lie about ur happiness even when they are saying they will help but u have hard that to many times till u just stop believing that they will..
kiffy greene it might take other families more than a day to drop it like mine it took my dad like a week to drop the fact that my uncle committed suicide and two years for my dad to get over a friend who died of cancer
I was in the hospital for 5 months recovering from slitting my throat then stabbing myself multiple times. I'm glad I'm with my fiance now. The last 5 months we're horrible without him.
F= Fading slowly
I= Internally crying
N= Never felt more alone
E= Every night I cry myself to sleep
r/im14andthisisdeep
@@luna.fairy. lmao nah💀
every girls when they say "I'm fine":
Well you just caught me didn't ya 🙂
I’m *FINE*
I love it when your parents or parent says “it’ll be fine we can help each other grow” BUT ALL THEY DO IS TEAR YOU DOWN THEY SHOUT AND SCREAM AND ASK WHY when all you do is help them
yep
I know how it feels I get yelled at all the time but my sister helps me
life asked Death: Why do people hate you and love me?
Death said: Because, your a beautiful lie and i'm the painful truth.
Ikr
wow wonderful .
I think death should of asked life that lol
@@abi6063 lmao fr fr fr
Other way around bud
Reasons why you should stay alive.
1. We would miss you.
2. It's not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
4. There's so much you would miss out on doing.
5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
7. You ARE worth it. Don't let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
8. You are amazing.
9. A time will come, once you've battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won't regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.
10. What about all the things you've always wanted to do? What about the things you've planned, but never got around to doing? You can't do them when you're dead.
11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that's still a reason to stay alive.
12. You won't be able to listen to music if you die.
13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You'll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.
15. You're preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?
17. You're gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.
18. Think about your favourite music artist, you'll never hear their voice again...
19. You'll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day
20. Listening to incredibly loud music
21. Being alive is just really good.
22. Not being alive is really bad.
23. Finding your soulmate.
24. Red pandas
25. Going to diners at three in the morning.
26. Really soft pillows.
27. Eating pizza in New York City.
28. Proving people wrong with your success.
29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
31. Being able to help other people.
32. Bonfires.
33. Sitting on rooftops.
34. Seeing every single country in the world.
35. Going on roadtrips.
36. You might win the lottery someday.
37. Listening to music on a record player.
38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
39. Taking really cool pictures.
40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.
41. Hearing crazy stories.
42. Telling crazy stories.
43. Eating ice cream on a hot day.
44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know.
45. Travelling to another planet someday.
46. Having an underwater house.
47. Randomly running into your hero on the street.
48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.
49. Trampolines.
50. Think about your favourite movie, you'll never watch it again.
51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke,
52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it's for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
53. People do care.
54. Treehouses
55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse
55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees
56. I don't even know you and I love you.
57. I don't even know you and I care about you.
58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
59. You won't be here to experience the first cat world emperor.
60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU'LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS!
61. Starbucks.
62. Hugs.
63. Stargazing.
64. You have a purpose, and it's up to you to find out what it is.
65. You've changed somebody's life.
66. Now you could change the world.
67. You will meet the person that's perfect for you.
68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.
69. You have the chance to save somebody's life.
70. If you end your life, you're stopping yourself from achieving great things.
71. Making snow angels.
72. Making snowmen.
73. Snowball fights.
74. Life is what you make of it.
75. Everybody has a talent.
76. Laughing until you cry.
77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
78. The world would not be the same if you didn't exist.
79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down
80. Be yourself, don't take anyone's shit, and never let them take you alive.
81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.
82. Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.
83. One day your smile will be real.
84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds.
86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends.
87. Eating crazy food.
88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one.
89. Sleeping in all day.
90. Creating something you're proud of.
91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn't commit
92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.
93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate
94. The new season of Sherlock
95. Cuddling under the stars.
96. Being stupid in public because you just can.
97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?
98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years
99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn't seem so great right now, literally anything could happen
-
From someone that cares about you
This is so underated
I Read All Of This!
These Are Very Good Reason's Why Not To Commit!
Sis: *Has Fake Depression*
Me: *knows It Because She Always Thought Of Herself As A Psychopath*
Also Me: * Shows This To My Sis* Here Lady!
My Sister: Oh Hell No!!!
Me: Pfftttt
Thanks, it helped me a lot. ❤
Thanks , this made me cry 💕
Jeez this comment is long af
Room:I'll be hear to hide you in your worst times
Bed:I will be here for you when you're tired
Pillow:I'll be here for you to catch your tears
Dream:I'll be here for you to hide you from reality
Music:I'll be here to comfort and sooth you
Mirror reflection:don't worry when you cry I'll be here for you and not laugh
Stay safe everyone 💓
That's beautiful
@@stevenm9026 thanks
Not when you constantly feel like someones watching you. When you get that feeling, its like you can't be yourself. You feel the same when you're around people. (At least for me.)
You forgot one
Plushies:I'll always take hugs from you and be with you when you're tired
Wow this is beautiful and brilliant
I hope you know that through the years, this has been my fight song. Through every abuse from my ex, every abuse from my mother, every day I was further indoctrinated into my family’s cult, and every self abuse I could imagine to make myself feel “normal”. It’s been the most challenging trials of my life, but every time I hear this song, I break down. It makes me feel strong again, it’s been one of my emotional lifelines. When I was 12, 13, 14, I never thought I would be around to see the next birthday. I’m so proud to say that I’ve been able to persevere and that my 17th birthday is in 71 days. You’ve genuinely changed my life with this song, with this message, with you being powerful enough to share your story. Thank you
God bless you. I hope you get the healing that you need. 🌹
I know this is a late response, but I wanted to say you got this girl I didn’t go through verbal abuse but I did go through hurting myself and abusing me. You need to stay strong with the point of me, almost jumping off to end it all at night time and jumping into a creek by my house. You got this just stay strong and don’t be like me. Why are you don’t share your story.
parents: *your ok your having a bad day*
Stranger: *understanding me and listening to me rant for hours* 🥺
this is just facts 😖
@@s1mplxyroblox975 😕
and then that "stranger" becomes an online friend who helps you through so much shit and your parents find out you havent met them in person and they dont want you talking to them (my parents have done this many times and is why i dont have my phone)
@@kenwalker1731 earlier I had ranted to someone, on a yt comment and they actually gave me better advice than any therapist has ever given me
@@heartsfromcatie and thats the thing that parents never seem to understand. sometimes people we meet online as strangers become friends who are there for us when nobody else is :(
I knew a boy who liked to draw,
He drew pictures that nobody saw,
He was most artistic late at night,
In the bathroom out of sight,
He kept a secret no one knew.
His drawings were different, no paper or pen,
But needed a bandage now and again.
We stood by the river under the stars,
He rolled up his sleeves and showed me his scars.
He felt embarrassed and looked down at his shoe.
Then I rolled up my sleeves and whispered "I draw too"
_I forgot who it was but its called "I draw too"
(EDIT 2: I did not write this poem/song, I just wanted to clear that up!)
Edit: Ok guys, I've seen comments saying "I draw too." I'm late, I just saw this after a year, but guys, cutting is not some beautiful art. Please listen. It is a beautiful poem, but you are a beautiful person. Don't let anyone take that knowledge away from you. I know a girl who I would consider pretty, but is downright nasty. And I mean, bullying nasty.
It put me in a dark place for a while because I was already struggling with some private things, and yes, I have also 'drawn' once or twice.
Still, please listen. You are beautiful. Go and look in the mirror right now and stare directly into your eyes, whatever shade they might be, and say to yourself; "I am beautiful."
Don't look at what you think are flaws. Because you know what? The most beautiful person I have ever seen had a disability, but their smile and eyes just made you want to go up and hug them.
You guys, throwing up your problems won't make them go away, either.
You can't chase them away with a bottle of beer or a handful of pills.
You can't cut them away from your body.
You can't starve them away.
I know you might have heard this before, but please TALK TO SOMEONE. If you just are not comfortable around your parents or think they might not understand, maybe start a chat with a teacher. ("I've been really stressed out lately, and I was wondering if I could just talk to you and ask some questions?")
Either way, please do not self-harm in any way... Physical or mental. Because for me, when I was upset, my form of 'drawing' would be to write hateful words to myself on my arm in marker. Self-hate is NOT good for you. Please talk to someone. If they don't help, don't get discouraged. It took me a while to find the right person, too. I believe in you.
If no one else does, just remember that one random stranger.
Please don't think that suicide would end the pain, either. You'd just pass it on to someone else. If you think no one cares, think about this; every single person who has met you, ever, will wonder- could I have done something about it? Or, I knew her, I could have helped. Or, I saw her crying, once. I should have done something. Even the people who have insulted you will wonder every day if they were the cause of a murder.
It is not ending your pain, it is extending it, giving it to everyone you have passed. Your pain will be in the shadows that people stand in, the ghost of your pain will haunt anyone who brushes past it.
DO NOT DRAW! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!!
I love that poem
I draw too
I saw that in a cringe comp once-
hey Amelia umm i sing and i wanted to know if i could send you a record use ur poem so that kids like you, me, and that boy could know that they aren't the only ones feeling this way (i like 2 get consent before using peoples creations and im glad the you survived ) your anoyher battle survivor know that there are other kids who r glad you survived you are OUR role model.
I like that..its sweet
just a few years ago I was crying like a baby to this song, still am, just like.. a more reasonable adult.. happy New Years everyone 🤍
Be so for real
@@HomelessMattwhat do you mean?
When I listen to this song, I like to imagine I'm talking to my younger self when life was simple and happy. Before the depression, before the confusion, before the trauma...
Yes when the world was better
my parents: "why are you always on that phone"
my mind: "cause its the only place where people understand me"
Yes its true
same
Yea
I relate and understand this
@Elizeth Reyes and your own family like you dont know them but they know you better than your own friends and family it's crazy
It’s hilarious that parents say we’re to young to feel pain, be tired, depressed, feel love, know our sexuality.. we are, but that just shows Society is a messed up thing, but it’s even funnier when they ask what’s wrong like they think they can fix something not many people ever feel, they say get off our phones cus they could live without them, well they didn’t have to live through raping, depression, bullying, and so much more, we’re to young for a lot of things we feel but life’s not fair in that way, if it was... every one would be in heaven but no.. we’re down here in hell where every single day we wonder if we matter, make a difference or even exist as far as I’m concerned
ya society has gone to hell over the past few years
This hit a little to hard
If u don’t matter who would huh?
this this is the real explanation of life
I’m flipping ten and I feel this pain because my friends say I’m too young to know that your lesbian.. they say it’s a phase and I’m so scared of my father I can’t even look him in the eye... and they say I’m not depressed when I really am... I wonder every day “am I enough, how am I not useless... and they say I’m only ten... I’m too young...
It’s crazy when I think of how many perspectives you could put this in. If you end up seeing this, everything will turn out okay, I promise.
I think about this a lot actually. Lovely message tho ❤️❤️
Hey 😥
I will leave this comment here so if someone likes it I will remember it ❤❤❤❤
I dont understand why some parents get mad at their children by being depressed.
My parents yelled at me for cutting myself and my dad even said "if you really wanted to die then sure ill hang you myself!" While i said "then do it its not like im useful" my mother slapped me across my face after that they acted like i didnt have depression and suicidal thoughts. But til this day im still carrying it ..
Update:
Thank you all so much for all of the lovely messages down in the comments i really do appreciate it. It makes me happy that even strangers care about eachother, i know some of you suggested to call 911 on my parents but i love them too much to even do that..not to mention its actually my fault for being useless around the house. So today i talked to my friends about...leaving and going somewhere else which they didnt took seriously of course we laughed about it then i began to get silent, then started crying. Of course the moving away part has another meaning. Im sure all of you know what i mean. I began to cry and they tried comforting me with hugs and affection. I told them i wasnt sure yet..we were just outside my house then one of them suggested i should stop crying or my mom will see, of course i trusted them and told them about how my parents treated me. And even sometimes they can hear me crying and screaming inside of my house because of them, but of course nobody called the police or anything.. i dont know what to do, now with all this online school and quarantine going on everything is harder...i stopped myself from cutting as i sign i would change and so that i wont get myself in trouble. can you please give me some advice on how i can cope with this? Also this is not a cry for help i am onlu sharing my experiences with you. So for the next few months i will be updating this comment to share more
...
November 8, 2020. 10:09 p.m.
Guess ill be updating whenever something bad happens? I guess so..
Anyway, earlier today I woke up at 1 p.m I don't know why but I kept waking up late mostly in mid noon. My mom was cleaning and I had to get up since we share the same room I saw her. After a while I went out to do my regular stuff but then my mom mentioned the modules..that made my head ache just thinking about it but still I went to get them while working on the modules I became frustrated and without thinking I grabbed a bunch of worksheets from weeks ago and torn it my mom saw and began ranting about it telling me that I still am being able to pass them. I didnt knew what to do but I replied the opposite of what she said in a harsh tone she started screaming at me and i cried silently still she can see my tears pouring down but she didnt give a shit. I heard her voice crack and I knew she was really upset and was about to cry and that made me guilty..she grabbed my hair and pulled me back in our shared room and threw me on the bed telling me to sleep..of course I couldn't sleep, while trying I can still hear her saying insults at me like "if you arent interested in learning then you should've told me so that we didn't have to waste money on you. Just get a job as a maid so you'll be more helpful, though you dont know anything about cleaning so I guess you're pretty useless" and ect. It broke my heart I cried silently while thinking about my death and I know sooner or later ill go back to cutting again but more deeply. I know im a coward and I'm scared of dying but sometimes I just wish I had someone to do it for me. I'm really sick of everything im ungreatful and useless they gave me the life some people wish to have but im here being a total brat...I remember what my mom said; "quit acting youre not the victim here, We are! You're making our life harder and I could just die of high blood pressure because of you" im already writing a bunch of goodbye letters for them.."im sorry in bad luck.."
November 19 2:22 pm
I'm scared, I really am I do don't know what I'm doing with my life my mom found out that I slit my tighs Earlier. She ran to our room and started shouting non-stop. She got out and a few seconds later she came back holding a knife I started screaming and crying I was sure that my screams can be heard outside, my baby nephew cried because along side me, she kept threatening me about her killing me instead and her cutting my body into pieces instead of just slicing it. When she left to buy groceries I tried taking multiple pills for me to die from overdosing but I was too scared my heart bearing became rapid while I swear and cry a lot, I was still gripping on the bottle while crying...later I decided I'd take it I was about to swallow them all at once but I was too scared to so I took them one by one..I took three at the time then decided to make up my mind. I could feel my stomach bubble but not enough to hurt and my body felt weak and heavy I kept crashing on the floor when I tried to stand..I'm really scared and tired I just wished I wasn't a coward. I knew that pain was the last thing someone feels before they die, that's why I was scared. I was scared of pain I had enough I just wanted everything to go back to normal. I wished I didn't have any feelings I wish fear ,sadness,depression,disappointment, anger and all of the negative emotions never existed. I kept talking to myself in the mirror, I'm alone. The neighbours didn't give a shig. They only thought of it as normal since me and my mother faught a lot. But earlier...I screamed 10x louder and weeped harder. I wish they would understand I wish this pain in my chest would stop...but I knew that..the only burden that made me feel this way was myself..I wasn't good to them I knew I wasn't a good child and my parents had enough of me, I just wanted to leave and maybe they'd be happy! They can go ahead and sell my things I wouldn't care. Instead of a proper funeral go and throw me in the lake or dig a diy hole. Just to make you happy. I'm not your first propriety since I know I'm not loved that much l, even though I've been fed to and kept safe. Bad luck follows me everywhere and has been stuck with me ever since. I'm not pretty, or smart. But I do know I have a heart. I kept being kind to those who hurt me but if they crossed the line I knew I had to do something else. I tried my best to help her but I was focused on my phone, talking to my friends because I know that they'll make me happy. I focused on my talents and I kept working on my modules to keep up but I kept failing them. I got 1/20 last time and I broke down. I don't know what to do anymore
God I could make a book out of this in wattpad..
December 16, 2020. 11:43 a.m
I did it, I finally escaped my God for Saken house. I'm now out my best friends house. I came asked her if she could let me stay and she did and I came by when it was about 2 am. It was dark a and I had to walk towards her house which is a real exersice, when I was almost there there car pulled up and the color was white, I didn't have my glasses on so I thought it was the police. Turns out it was just a taxi helping me reach my destination for free, thank you. Now I'm scared. What if my mom takes me back? I don't want that
December 27, 2020 9:25 pm:
(Day before my birthday )
So earlier I decided that I would learn how to skate since I have a longboard that had been laying around for years now.
I took it for a test drive and I felt happy that I could be able to skate, our street was empty and it had a almost smooth road it was almost perfect.
I skated for a couple days before this and earlier my long board went haywire and flipped itself making me slip and fall in the process.
I had almost broke a bone but I still managed to make it back home and tell my mother what happened. She scolded me and told me it's all my fault that I did such stupid things and that I could never achieve the success I wanted in skating.
She planned to burn the board and told me to never skate ever again. I cried. All I wanted was support, is that too much to ask? Is it so hard to care for someone you have birth to?
Why is it always have to be like this. Is people deserve love and support, don't think we're only human and can handle it unconditionally like we don't get hurt.
I miss the time where everyone is happy and have their problems solved easily, but as life goes on everything becomes shit and hard.
I know I'm failing in life like I'm failing my grades, I don't know what to do. I swear I'm trying but I was told I'm not trying my best and should do better. I'm sick of it. I really am...
May 13. 1:19 pm
I kind of forgot about this..but theres a bunch of horrible stuff happened in the past few days. I cant start on where, but as i scrolled down to see my past memories it just made me realize how of a horrible life ive lived .
Anyway, i think i might have corona. Im not sure yet but the signs are there.
Heres why i think i have the virus,
me and my 2 friends were going to my other friends house to do our assignments, of course we we had permission. After we spent time and did our work, i felt weak. I felt like i was always tired and my breath was heavy, im sweating even when people thinks its cold, and i get cold easily when a fan is pointed at me. I have diarreah and i pee a lot more, headaches and body pain. I get rashes everywhere at my lower half body abd i dont know where it comes from.
I didnt put any thought into it until i got a call from my friend saying that she was positive, i told my family about it. They didnt mind, as long as i dont go out anymore, yeah its reasonable but why let it slide? Im practically dying. But maybe im just overreacting?...
Let me kno how you are doing i really wanna kno ok because i care about you even tho i dont kno you there is a purpous for everyone but how can i help and its not because your suicidal its because i dont want a world without you in it
Evelynn Houck of course it’s weird I’m numb to emotion but no matter what try to comfort people we all go thro bad stuff and I’m sorry to say sometimes life doesn’t get better but talking helps and I genuinely care about how you are doing both of you
Evelynn Houck I’m always here to talk like I don’t know you but I want to be your friend you seem like such a good person and the people have been through a lot are usually better people because of it
Evelynn Houck yea I would love that
Evelynn Houck Thank you I like your profile picture as well now it’s just a waiting game I guess by the way how old are you
When GEN z become parents, let's promise to be the best parents the universe and multi verse has ever seen. We will understand our kids and wont put them down when they go through sh*t
I promise.
yes
I promise ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡
i hope gen z gets to the age of parenting we all want to kill ourselves
I promise
I’ve known this whole song since I was 8. I’m 13 now, still know every lyric, I heard my sister listening to it, a month later she tried to end it.
Im so sorry. But you will get through it! You got this!
I am so sorry. Do you mind me asking if your sister is okay? I really hope she is…🤞🙏 and you too. ❤️
I remember this when I was in middle school, and now there's a brand new meaning to this song
I love your profile picture
Society: be yourself
Also society: no, not like that
I relate so hard...
This is why I say society is fucked up! They want you to be yourself then bring you down and hate on you when you do. No wonder everyone is a fake anymore!
Sooo ture
Yep
For me life is a game where we have to survive but we survive to learn and do what we like to do not to be a fucking fake person that thinks like all "normal persons"
The normal persons are there humans who tried to become what they want but didn't so they forgot who they are
5~ "I want to be a princess!"
9~ "I want to be a actress!"
12~ "I want to be alone"
15~ "I want to be loved"
18~ "I want to be dead"
6- "I want to be a doctor"
9- "they are calling me smart! I should be a teacher!"
10- "yeah right just call me stupid because I got a B+ and call me fat because of 30 kilograms."
11- "Im tired of this shit. 35 kilograms and still fat. I just want to be dead. Why did you not put me up for adoption if you are gonna tell me that and not let me have my freedom."
Pxarl Forever so true :
3~ “I wanna be a big hero everyone knows!”
5~ “I want to go back to Mexico I don’t wanna be here”
9~ “Why did he betray us, I loved him”
12~ “Why do I feel so alone, why does everyone think I’m fat and ugly”
15~ “Just let me die already”
So true.... Why does depression hit us so fast?...
i rely don't like how u loved because someone when u love them they actually maybe don't love u maybe they love someone else so i rather be alone but its ur decision.
Any one in 2024
Here 🖐
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🙋
Meeee
Me😊
The fact that I’m 14 now and have been relating to this for way to long is sad and the fact that this song is literally becoming how my life is
Me too honestly some days it;s just unbearable but Im here for you fr and it will get better dw you're not alone
“You get little older you get abandoned” hits so close to home
That’s so sad :(
Same. My mom uses me for my talent in singing and I'm still in school😢
It also hit me hard, when i was smaller i was happy when i turned 12 i got abandoned im just a waste of space in my home, i rasied myself to hide my emotions and pretend to be happy
We all know that we all die in someway. Even with suicide. I'll get abandoned when I get older
Awww I am so sorry :(((
Kid: *depressed*
Mom/Dad/Gaurdian: ItS cAuSe ThAt DaNg PhOnE.
But little do they know its what is keeping them from giving up
@@summerhardwick689 I laughed until I seen your comment
My mom says this all the time. It gets so annoying. They say that I'm depressed because I'm in my room all the time when in reality that's what helps me the most.
@@summerhardwick689 I agree phones block out the world around us and provide u with people who care and music so it helps calm us down and let us forget for at least a few hours.
@@summerhardwick689 I feel
for all the people that are sad:
Your skin is not paper, so don’t cut it”
“Your neck is not a coat, so don’t hang it”
“Your body isn’t a book, so don’t judge it”
“Your life is not a movie, so don’t end it”
These are good words
Thanks☺
The sad part is that I cry to this comment
What if it doesn't matter anyway?
@cakebiites You shouldn't try and tell others what they would feel or how they feel. Remember, that happens to depressed people all the time.
When I first found this song I only listened to it because it sounded pretty. A couple years later I became pretty depressed and started cutting myself especially with coming out and stuff, and today I was scrolling through listening to jack stained and I come upon this! Thank you for making this song, even if I'm not into the genre anymore I still love the song. So no matter what's happening in your life just know that there is a better ending that you have to wait for, ALL lives matter❤💛💚💙💜
Jack stauber* is what I meant
its funny to see strangers understand your pain more then your own friends
Yeah
its true
For real
fr :
Honestly. All my friends say they understand, but they really don't. I can guarantee they wouldn't last an hour in my life. But they say they can
It’s funny how random people understand us more than our own parents
Right
Agree, but my parents r amazing
you are right, my parent are anazing but i still feel.. empty?💔🔪😞
i know right?!?
Yeah totally
I listened to this on repeat 4 years ago, I never ever thought that i would connect to every single line of this song now.
To everyone out there,
I know you might be sad, or scared, or angry, or a combination of all these things.
That's ok.
It's ok to not be ok.
You've made it through so much, and I hope you see how much you're worth. Sometimes, you just need to take a deep breath. You've made it so far, and you still have so much more to go.
Even if you doubt it, you are amazing. I really hope, one day, you'll be able to enjoy your life.
And if that's not now?
That's ok. It's small steps.
Getting out of bed in the morning.
Making sure to eat when you need too.
Getting help if you need it: no shame in that whatsoever.
I'm proud of you for making it so far. Just keep going.
From, Leanna, a stranger on the internet who cares.
I have no idea why no one responded to you, thank you so much for caring about random strangers helping through stuff that no one could imagine! Your a amazing person ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for this ❤ I have been very depressed and started thinking about my mistakes all the horrible things I did and want to end it all but your comment is amazing. It gives me strength when everyone around me just ignores my pain, my misery and all. Thank you for your inspiration to keep going in life❤❤
*”Cause they broke your.....heart”*
*Felt that :(*
I read this right as that lyric comes
Same I cried during that
It hit hard and my ex is in the room with me...
Victoria_funk 34 me to
Me too.
The people who disliked clearly don't know what pure talent is.
she sang from her heart
Yeah~!
True
Yes
They dont know what depression is and how it affects people every single day.
This bring me so much nostalgia,it makes me remember how i had too fend dor myself and ive gon into depression and the always try too team up on me no matter how much love i show them.
I remember listening to this exact video over and over when I was younger. I never really understood the lyrics, (I didn't know what they meant) but hearing it now, I'm realizing now that I used to think it couldn't get any worse. I thought I was sad back then. But little did I know that it would get worse. Not being able to cry is worse than all the things I used to cry abt.
Plot twist:
The one who is singing is the ghost inside of that little girl, and the ghost is just an older her
That actually makes sense!
Plot twist: The girl's talking about the past and its her from the future.
Ivein Marie Jønsson that got in my feelings
Isn’t that what she means? I assumed she meant that with the song.
Hmmmmm.... No because ghosts don't speak. Don't tell me that it's the little girl! Little girls don't have voices like that. BTW and TBH so many idiot kids down here.
They don’t notice:
Your pain,
Your tears,
Your thoughts,
Your corruption,
But what they notice?
YOUR MISTAKES!
Yousif Pierce
Yeah.... ={
This hit s me
...I have seen 3 true comments... this is one
Animal Master
Thanks... 🥺
LUKA
Ik, it hits me too..
I cried for my grandma 👵🏽listening to this 😭I miss her so much 😖
💖💖💖
I never thought I'd listen to this song with a small smile on my face while remembering all the pain i felt when i was just 11 years old
At least now i know i made it through that pain, and im better than i was
Yes im still a mess, but atleast now i have something to look forward to
This song go me through so much, while i hope no child has to relate to this song like many of us had, i know atleast some will. And maybe it can be their reason to keep going just like it was mine
Me : “I don’t have a favorite song.”
Me again: *listens to this all the time*
SAME-
Well yeah it’s good if you have depression and wanna cry behind doors and stuff
Same
never could of related more
“It’s not the fact that they don’t understand, it’s that they don’t care.”
“People who let themselves down don’t want to be successful, parents try to help them be successful” -Angelo Fisherman
I want to be alone but not fell alone don’t give up on me........
Aakira Coleman I know the feeling well. I hope you feel better. 🥺
Ikr😭
mina ashido NO! Don’t please. I’m sorry about my comment. Don’t do it
I’m so sorry for everyone who relates to this song just know that the light will come stay strong angels ❤❤
True!♥️
it makes me feel like my soul is talking to me . I love this song Thank you🙏 for making this song it makes me feel like theres someone out there who can understand me the best of best.❤
wow, thank you for this comment. i’m happy i could help in some way 💖💖
My skin: im pretty
My heart: im broken
My brain: im smarter
My soul: im dying
My lips: im beautiful
My wirst/arm: im not
My life: get off me
My death: hello..wanna have tea?
Ur death sounds British
@ANNABELLE RIDDLE PWHAHA YE I WAS ALSO SAD- but when they said that I immediately thought of it
@Samy Sagastume LMAO PLS YOUR DOTS MAKE IT SO MUCH FUNNIER BYE 😭😭😭🤚
STFU I SWEAR TO GAWD
@@stilesstilinski774 Man I love tea and I am notBritish dont get those stereotypes.
Talking at school-30 seconds
Talking to family-1 minutes
Talking to bestie and online friend-3 minutes
Talking to myself-10 hours
Yeah I talk to myself about I'm fine but I'm not
Your me but I talk to my family for 100 hours UvU
@@Julianametzger to everyone in the comment section:
Let us form a group to stop this from ever happening again......gen z's only but gen alpha's can join aswell my email : Lhikawolf@gmail.com
I talk to myself as a way to express who I am and parents think I am weird and brother thinks I am mental but it just helps me with life it like another best friend in my head that just listen to me and does not judge
@Victoria Rushing yeah..
When I was in fourth grade me and my old friend used to sing this together, it was our favorite song. I haven't heard this song in at least a year..
i sang this song for a talent show, i won it and i even told a little bit about your music and your story. people loved it, and now you have inspired me to write my own songs about my past experiences. thank you so much sophie❤. oh! also my music class is doing a music artist presentation and i’m doing you! you have inspired me so much i love you ❤. and thank you sophie ❤❤❤❤
Parents don’t realize their kids thoughts, their depression, their anger, or their pain until it’s too late.
Edit: thank you for all the likes. To anyone who reads this, live life like there is no tomorrow. You can do whatever you put your mind to. And no matter what, NEVER put your life on the line because of someone or something ur going through
why don't they ever know?
This is true
its true
Truee
I lost my best friend coz she wouldnt talk to anyone untill it was too late and i was the one that found her but it really was too late and i would never forget that day and that is what has caused me to be like this and i have tryrd many times to join her but i was not successful 😭💔
"Suicide doesn't get rid of the pain, it gives it to someone else."
- Random Person
Then they will finally know how I felt
I thought suicide before but there is a reason why I kill myself. No not because I love my parents but because I want to help my siblings so they don't feel the same way i feel.
@@estefanypelcastre3375 i hope thing will get better for you, i wish the best for you and your siblings💐💛
@@yourlocalghost6517 thank you
Trust me it doesn’t fix any thing it just causes the people in your life more problems my brother committed suicide in 2013 it controlled my life for years because of an act he did
Hey everyone, i remember listening to this song a cpl years ago, and i can confirm it gets better, keep going, you will find happiness and acceptance❤
I only found this song recently, but I can't even begin to explain how much I relate to the words; though I "read" the meaning slightly differently.
I don't think people really understand what it's like to be abandoned at an early age. My father left my mother and I when I was 2-3 years old. I didn't understand it then. I really didn't. I saw him twice after he left; both times, he ignored me and acted as though I wasn't there. My 6th b-day; he played video games with my three boy cousins, then fell asleep on our couch. Christmas when I was 8; was at my paternal grandparents house, when mom and I got there, I walked in and immediately went to the kitchen to help my grandma cook. In addition to the little memory I have of those days; my mom told me at that Christmas, I gave him a taste of his own medicine; basically showing them that I was doing fine without him there. Regardless, I despise both holidays/celebratory days because I'm reminded of these memories; it still hurts so much every day feeling like I'm not enough and never will be because "if I was people I loved and cared about, wouldn't have left."
To add on to him leaving, my paternal (fathers side) grandparents; specifically grandmother, is misogynistic and manipulative. The same goes for my maternal (mothers' side) grandma.
Throughout my childhood, I spent most of my time away from my mother because she worked long hours, and it was a decently far drive. My weekdays were spent with a babysitter that hated me (and me specifically) for whatever reason. Most of my weekends were spent with paternal grandparents.
The babysitter I went to; I mentioned she hated me, but it wasn't just that. She treated me like absolute trash. I got blamed and punished for everything at her house; it didn't matter if I was even there the day it happend, everything was just my fault. There was a time when she smacked me across the mouth for "talking back" when I was actually explaining a situation to her; i still have the scar on my lip from her acryllic nails. She mentally, physically, and emotionally abused me for 13 years of my life. I was constantly shamed for eating and not eating; things I did as a kid (she would repeatedly bring up that I was a "cry baby" when I was an infant/young toddler? just to embarrass me in front of the other kids). Not only this, but she would constantly degrade me and tell me I was always wrong or that I was a failure. To add, she always got really pissed off when I stayed somewhere else for a day. She called me a liar 24/7 even when I wasn't lying and was always yelling at me for the randomest, most out-of-pocket things.
She's the reason I have ptsd and cry when anybody raises their tone slightly when talking to me. I have trust issues, anger issues, and abandonment/attachment issues (from my "father"). I got anxiety and have become an extreme pefectionist because if there's one thing I learned from her, it's that no matter what I do, whether I'm perfect or not, it's never good enough.
For my actual family, I can't go to them with anything because, surprise, surprise, I have family issues too. My one aunt is a beach; she starts so much sugar-honey-iced-tea that I'm pretty sure it's an addiction. She typed in a group chat that my mom is a "spawn of Satan and needs to go to hell" and has cut off almost all communication between other family members and her and her boys (my cousins). Not to mention that she lies constantly and threatened to show up on our doorstep with cops because we "stole" something that belonged to a deceased family member, which was actally offered to us by her husband (they were in charge of the house and stuff; I forget what its called).
I did see a therapist at one point for a bit; but as I continue to say, you can't schedule feelings, and tbh I can't talk to people about my issues in person unless it's someone I fully trust and I'm having a breakdown; I've learned how to listen and bottle up my emotions so that no one knows. To add, as I saw a wise person once comment, "I feel my feelings are invalid because there are people going through/that have gone through so much worse than me."
To all of you that read this; thank you, and I hope you're all doing well ❤
Parents: "Your fine, just deal with it!"
Strangers, Music, Online friends, Social Media, Your Real Friends: "I'm always here for you no matter what."
Thats my situation rn.. My parents call me useless and pathetic all the time my mum sometimes hits me so i told my head of yr that i didnt wanna go home i was actually planning on running away cuz my friend said i can stay wiv her but then her mom said theres no where for me to sleep and thats why i told the teachers. im still living here with my parents rn im not okay i dont wanna be here.. My parents used to get hit by there parents as well but worse but then if ur parents did that to u why the heck would u do that to ur child. IT HURTS SO MUCH!!
I know how it feels....... I used to think I was the only person in the world who ever got hurt, or only got to see there dad on special acasions, but I know that's not true..... Today is the 4th of July my 10yr anniversary of my parents getting a divorce, and I found out a week earlier that there was a way that I could spend my 4th of July with both my parents...... But then my dad planned a vacation to Tennessee....... All I did while no one was watching was cry because I thought that I would finnaly get to spend time with both my parents like all of my friends...... I was so heart broken.... Even though I loved the vacation and all, I will have to here about my friends stupid summer going to Florida with her mom and dad...... She is my best friend but she doesn't now how much she kills me every day talking about how her mom AND dad grounded her, or how her mom AND dad went shopping for shoes but couldn't find any that they liked in there size......
Wait what’s friends again I had some when I was like 2 people say I was faking sucicidal thoughts at nine but u can feel broke whenever
Ikr it’s crazy how strangers understand you more than your own parents! This is the reason why kids are always on there phones cause that’s the only place where people understand them😔
You're*
"you get little older, you'll get abandoned"
.....that hits
Fr tho....
//glares at my ex-bestfriend//
*glares at all the people I’ve ever trusted*
Sadly it’s true tho
That's kinda what happened with me But I was taken away from my mom and Dad when I was like 3 or 4
This song never gets old no matter how long you listen to it for. As long as you relate to it you never stop listening to it. I first discovered this song when I was in around third grade and now I’m going into eighth and I’ve been listening to it on repeat whenever I feel sad and I relate to it so much I’m so glad you made this song it has helped many people
Doing this song today for my schools talent show wish me luck guys ❤
Good luck 👍
how was it? :)
How was itt
Embarassing
hey treat your pillow well, it accept your tears when no one else doesnt.
My pillow is my imaginary friend somehow.. dont ask- so I treat them wel
My pillow is a anime person....
I punch my pillow when I get annoyed or angry because I'm too scared of myself to face anyone, in fear that I'll hurt them..
If you have a best friend that understands that to treat them well
I know how that feels. I pinned a person at school in the corridor after having enough of them bullying me and I regretted it so much after as I normally am not like that and don't like hurting people
I’m currently laying in my bed on Christmas night, 2am, it’s pitch black, I’m my room, staring up at my ceiling, balling my eyes out as I replay all the family fights today.
Oh my god, I’m so sorry. My parents would argue nonstop when I was little, and I would cry almost every night until they got divorced. I remember them having a huge argument in the car while we were driving our Christmas tree home about 2 years before they got divorced. The argument continued for almost the rest of the afternoon and I hated it. After they got divorced, I started visiting my dad during the summer and on most holidays, so I got to see both of my parents. They still argue over text sometimes, but at least I don’t have to hear it anymore. Trust me, family arguments are horrible, but it’ll get better. Now, I still get sad sometimes, but it’s much better than before. It’ll get better. And I might not know you, but I believe you can get through this.
I'm so sorry. I totally understand, my family can't seem to keep it together either. You'd think the holidays would improve the situation, wouldn't you?
I'm here for you. Maybe not physically but if you need to vent to anyone or you want a distraction from anything bothering you please let me know, I'd love to talk about anything like your favorite TV show even. I just know what it's like to feel alone and I don't want you to feel like that. Love you ❤️
@@cjkrunk7649 oh.. I dont get to see my real dad anymore.. I have a step dad that i hate so fucking god dam much, he hurt my mom infront of me once they were in a fight and he was on top of her trying to idk... I didnt understand and i was scareming a them to stop and its his fault and her fault that i am depressed not only that its school too.. I just wish i could have a good life with a perfect happy family... But it wont happen ...👀
@@cjkrunk7649 I know this wasn’t meant for me but it helps so much.
As a little girl myself, this song makes me feel so fuzzy. Almost as if ur talking directly to me, never felt more precious in my life. Keep up the good work!!
This song is beautiful, it’s amazing how you can still fight, and even record a whole song after all this pain, I feel mad respect and sorrow for the, your, backstory (respect) ❤
“Hey little girl
U know smoking kills
But u don’t rly care
Cuz u love how it feels”
Yep I felt that one 😔
This song makes me really emotional
Hey it’s fine stay strong
Same
Alyssa Ledesma my dad does too
lowkey lorna my parents used to smoke and drink around me and said “it made them feel better” so I started doing it too
Hey little girl
You know smoking kills
You dont really care
Cause you love how it feels
Nanxi 😪
@@santava3778 sis who? Cause u most definitely not talkin to me ☺.
@@Lanibaeee i knowwwww girl don't worry i wasnt talking to youu 😽 its just a meme
This song reminds me of all the friends and "lovers" that messed me up and abandoned me...
Stop
6: Im going to be a princess
7:im going to be a Candy factor owner
8:im going to be a C.E.O
9:Im going to be a singer
10: I DONT WANT TO BE USED
11:I want a new family
12:I WANT SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME
13:I wanna be happy like when i was 6
13:I want dad to love me again...
14:I WANT MOM TO TAKE CARE OF ME!!!
15: I tried
15: im going to be dead when i grow up!😊
This song hit hard for 12-13 year old me. My dad and stepmother(i considered her to be my mother) were constantly getting into fights, some abusive but those were always in a different room from me and my siblings, but we could hear them. And all awhile, my brother was r@ping me, every single day and I couldnt bring myself to tell anyone because I knew that it would be the last straw that broke my family. They got divorced and when they did my world collapsed. My stepmother turned against me and took my other siblings away from me, they were the only ones I had because my dad doesnt pay much attention to me. So I started spiraling out of control, I eventually got help and still going through the healing process. I am now 15 and still come back to this song, remembering everything that was happening. I wish I could go back and hold that little girl and tell her its going to get better, that she is going to be safe one day, and that she has so mich to live for.
I am so thankful that you shared your story. we can still keep going because yes, there is still so much to live for. we'll get out of the rough periods one day, i hope.
Age:3: Im going to be a princess!
Age:7: Will they miss me if I ran away?
Age:9: Why are people scared of me?
Age:11: Leave me alone, your going to leave me anyways
This was and still is my thought process.
Not everyone will leave you
Kay-Lay C yes they do it’s the sad truth and the one that I live
@@nooodles_memes, everyone leaves you. At some point. Wait until reality hits you. Reality hit me when I was 10.
Feel the same as you
...Hey Little girl..
...Your falling apart...
...But you don't really care...
...Cuz they broke your heart...
*Felt that*
You're*
@@user-eo3gq9tz8c 💀
Yeah
Thank you. I've known this since it became popular. I learned about it at first from my sister, and I've been coming back to it since then, but I think for different reasons than others here. I once listened to it because I liked the beat and it was really smooth, then I went through trauma when I was younger, so then I related to it more. Then, when my sister left on and off for a couple years, I came back to this a couple times because I felt like it let me relate to how she might've felt at the time. And how we are now. And now I think I almost completely relate to this song. Because now I'm starting to heal, and we're better, and I thank you.
I am the only one here in 2024 lol
Not anymore🫶🏼
No ur not
Hiiii
Hiiii
Me also in 2024
the dislikes are from the parents that don't understand how their kids feel
facts
luckly my parents understand me but i think it must be verry hard for kids who dont have that parents
@@Dakota_The_Apollo_Kid I’m so glad you have understanding parents
so true
@@Dakota_The_Apollo_Kid I wish I had a parent like yours my mum is supportive and all but my dad just wants me to become a lawyer to help him with money
I.nvisible
M.any broken hearts
F.earful
I.mpossible
N.ot who I'm meant to be
E.motionless
It’s not deep it’s just made to look deep
Sadly i relate
Cup of Tae with a Suga Kookie
It’s not very creative it’s just a fake acronym
@@liaetc this isnt a comfort lmao its 2014 tumblr
but if your emotionless how do you fear?
this hit close to home. I’m really glad that people are making stuff like this and basically saying “I’m not prefect and neither is my life. Deal with it, because it’s my experiences not yours.”
I was in a really bad mental state for around 3 years because my mom was dating a a$$hole and I’m pretty sure what he did was mental abuse. And I use to regularly think about $*icide. But me, my mom and my sister are now moving out and I couldn’t be happier. So if you’re going/have been through something like this, know you’re not alone, and that if you try to make a difference things can and should hopefully get better.❤
Ur scars shows all the battels u have thought ur ghost in u is ur story and u lived a tough life stay strong ❤I love u all I'm 13 going through the samm
Let’s be honest, when our parents and “friends” weren’t there..who was?
Our electronics :
Anime :
Social Media :
Online friends :
Music :
Anything that comforted you :
@@summerhardwick689 And they have the AUDACITY to call themselves good people. I swear...Some parents are actually understanding tho..
@@summerhardwick689 Well, Damn.
@@summerhardwick689 Kill- I mean Ignore both of your parents.
@@summerhardwick689 😊 Ah, yes. I now understand, you have an amazing heart.
.........Yes 😊
This reminds me that as a 10 year old, the way you feel isn't really ever taken seriously. Like "you're to young to feel depressed". Remember everyone feels pain. No matter they're age.
It’s so true thoughh
Yep....
As a 11 year old can i just say this human is spitting FACTS
I was 9 when my depression stared hitting really bad and it has only been going downhill since then. I am 14 now and only just got medically diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. Really wish my voice was heard all those years ago so I could have gotten the help I needed sooner.
I know I want to go to a mental hospital I'm not
The song and it's meaning are all honestly heartbreaking. I've been through something similar to this but rather it being family doing it, it was friends, and people I thought I trusted. Music is generally my therapy, and this is one of me and my closest friend's favorite song that we both heavily relate to, her more than me. It's truly a moving song to anyone, and I feel bad for everyone who's experienced this, including the song artist.
Sitting in the bathroom with my friends while we cry and vent about our shitty home lives and trying to find ways to make it easier on ourselves with eachother. Emancipation, early college, getting a job as soon as possible, saving up, buying a house together, pursuing our passions seperately, each doing what we love.
I told my mom about my depression. She didn’t believe it. I turned to self harm. She saw them and I broke down. She said I was doing it for attention. I will always remember those words
Edit: Wow I didn’t expect all the responds. I am so sorry that some of you related to my story.
maybe once ask your mom 'if im doing this for attention, then where's my attention?' because people with depression tend to get ignored/avoided, so if were doing it for attention then wheres our attention?
Don't worry darling everything will be alright just hang in there even if you feel like giving up. I may be young but as a suicidal person who had lost many people I once loved, it's hard. You'll reach the end of your battle one day and find happiness ❤️
-a friendly stranger :)
that's just heart breaking and im here for u and i care have a nice day/night ily
Its always your doing it for attention but its not it takes the pain away even if its a little
Well I hope your okay now 🌹💐
this is actually the most depressing comment section i've ever seen.
edit:
oh my god it just gets worse..
this comment section makes me cry more than the song called Dead Mom
cant say the same for me......i listen to these types of songs as i can relate so i hv seen many comment section......also guys, b strong and dont giv up hope...who know, mayb latr on u might get someone tht loves u truly....do u really wanna miss tht?
Welcome to the world
Is it a bad thing??
I think its a good thing.
Hey you listen to girl in red? Just asking-
@@mikelbarr
i have listened to
we met in october
I listened to this song 4 years ago, it was the pandemic and a lot was going on. And a lot continued to go on, and more bad things happened but looking back to that little girl who listened to this song for comfort? I’m proud of her. She faced it and now when I look back on all of it? It doesn’t hurt. I healed. And you all will too. In years from now it won’t hurt anymore, at least not as bad as it does now because although I’m still going through a lot, my past experiences shaped me and made me ready for the future. It doesn’t make it any better, but you’ll heal. Everyone does. Keep holding on to that little girl or boy inside of you
I had a panic attack whilst listening to this song and the only way I got myself out of it was listening to the lyrics THANK YOU
little girl: what’s on your arm?
me: they’re battle scars.
little girl: you fought in a war?
me: yeah. a long and hard one.
little girl: that’s so cool! can i get one?
me: no. please do not ever get any. but i’ll tell you what. whenever you see someone else with battle scars, i want you to hug them. okay? can you promise me?
little girl: yes. i promise.
a few days later we went on a short shopping spree. suddenly the little girl let go of my hand and ran up to another random teenager
teen: why are you hugging me?
little girl: because.. (*points*) you have battle scars just like my babysitter.
the teen looked up at me, and i rolled up my sleeves to show her. with tears in her eyes, she said one thing to me..
teen: my war is far from being finished right now, but i am not done fighting.
she bends down at eye level with the little girl
teen: thanks for giving me the strength to keep . you are forever my war hero.
⚠️ this is not my story, but i saw it somewhere else and decided to share it too because i want you to do the same to anyone with “battle scars” ⚠️
I need everyone to pass this on.
i have a lot of *battle scars* but nobody has done that to me thats so nice
I SAW THE EXACT SAME THING IN ANOTHER VIDEO
Omg im crying right now. Its so true
@@xavier5204 same
but like can someone do this for me my battle is over but it would be nice and wholesome
The fact that alot of adults don't believe that their children are having depression is shocking. Some adults believe that children are doing it for attention and that some adults don't seek help. Thousands of children are dying from suicide and adults still blame the children for not telling them. How toxic can this environment be?
I show any form of emotion = more pills
my family thinks im faking the fact that im sad. so now i just fake being happy. and it’s believable i guess.
This need to be top commeng ever
I stopped telling my mom how sad I was after she said "if I help you, you will just cry more..."
And this is why I as a medicated depressed person I want to try to help when I have kids of my own, I think I would even help any children that would come to me, if they are ever feeling this way. But as someone who has gone through therapy multiple times in my life I can understand why it would be hard for kids to get help even if the parent is helpful. I was told that I had long term depression that I mostly likely had since I was 5. I wasn't given the help I needed until my senior year of high school, so the toxic environment runs deep, but this is my personal experience, other people could have had better experiences than me.
i love this songs so much. thank you for releasing this, this is the top song i've listened to in the last couple months since i first found this song. i love it
thank you 🥹❤️❤️
I listened to this song when i was depressed and in such a dark place now im doing better and it just reminds me to keep going to anyone who is suffering right now i want you to know this is temporary there is a light at the end of that dark tunnel keep going keep fighting ❤
“I *HATE* when people tell you to be yourself,and than they don’t accept you for it”
“I HATE when people tell you to be yourself,and than they don’t accept you for it”
My Mother~
@@nikkimacbride7982 your mother is smart :) be who you are
@Patience Fish aww that great :)
@Patience Fish THAT'S AMAZING I'M SO PROUD OF YOU AAA
I'm telling ya
“Everybody loves you,but nobody likes you and that is the loneliest feeling I’m the world” - bojack horseman
I will love to keep that in mind thanks
Almost everybody can know your name, but almost nobody will ever really know you.
i hate that my ex ruined bojack horseman for me.
@@gummy6337 I hate that for you it truly taught me some shit.
This song has truly sent me into tears. The fact that it says little girl and smoking kills I jaut love it ❤
It’s crazy she wrote this song at 16 with so much emotion in it
❤️❤️
*"Why cry if you didn't even help me when I was suffering? You stood there and laughed at me. You didn't even bother to ask what's wrong. Now I'm dead."*
:,(
I wish I was 12,15,and18
That is soooo sad man
@@idk2116 ohhhhhhhhhhhhh 😭😭😭😭😭
thats why i dont go to normal school anymore (im not dead tho)
Incredible voice and beautiful song overall.
🖤☺
I hope no one changes the amount of likes. It's 666 rn
Someone did, but I liked it again and it's back at 666 😂👌
I wanna like but I don't wanna ruin it 😂
Ah 667! I must unlike to keep peace in all the nations
To the 100 people who ruined it.
WHYYYY IT WAS PERFECT WHYYY!?!? ╰（‵□′）╯
┭┮﹏┭┮
Time to get to 777
All teh hard work....‾᷄꒫‾᷅
Edit: again yes again. Now to 888....😐🙄
I felt this deep. 😢 Hope everyone can heal from their childhood tramas.
I remember being around 12 and this song meaning so much to me, now I’m only a weeks away from 17. So I wanna say what I needed to hear back then. You’ll make it through this, even if I’m just some stranger on the internet, I believe in you, don’t give up. ❤️
When you realise that people you don’t know care more than the ones who you thought loved you.
There will always be someone to love and care about you, even if you don’t know it. And, who knows, maybe the person who cares the most is the one you least expect.
I love youu 💗💗💗
Damn that hit me hard and its true....
The only way I stay strong now is by knowing that there’s someone out there who’s gonna love me, that I’ll have a future with, it’s how I smile everyday.
It’s nice to think that there’s someone waiting for you who loves you they just don’t know it yet 💖
Then stay alive for those who really care and love you
No one:
not a soul:
Me: eating cheese and crying to this song
I was eating chicken legs
I was eating cake
Thanks for the little giggle I needed it :) (I really needed it)
@@Kageyamas_expiredmilk I hope you have a great night or day ❤️❤️❤️ stay safeee!
@@kealaniyamini2888 thank you! You to 💜
i been in and out of recovery so many times due to myself in general. its so crazy how one part of a song can relate to so many humans.. love you all