I was pregnant again, and I had a miscarriage 💔
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My heart breaks for you.
I had 11 miscarriages. after accepting that I wouldn't have biological children... Then a surprise was I gave birth to my only daughter at 39 years old. It was a very hard pregnancy, and she was born prematurely. She's now 7 and thriving.
I've had a few miscarriages since trying to give her a sibling, but we still feel so blessed.
I will continue to pray for you. Your mental, emotional, and physical health as all is included in your journey.
You were blessed, as was I. I had a daughter at 38, our one and only.
You will be blessed again ✨️
I lost two babies in our first year of marriage. Our first was a little girl and we were 17 weeks with her. I didnt know i was having a miscarriage until shortly before she was born, she was born in the hospital waiting room bathroom, and i had to hold her until they finally did something to help. No explanation as to why. We were told it was a fluke and got pregnant again 3 months later. Our little boy was 20 weeks along when my waters broke. He had a heartbeat that morning before my body went into labor and that killed me inside because he was healrhy until my waters broke and i felt like it was my fault, my body wasnt working, i felt like i killed him. He was born at 20 weeks sleeping. I've delivered two babies right into heaven and it stinks. Im so sorry for your loss. Gods getting me through my losses but it is really hard. I see him using it and i just cling to hope that one day we will have our own babies. Trust is so hard in this though and it really made me press more into Christ or I would not have been able to get through it. Prayers for you all and thank you for sharing the hard parts. I felt so alone in the midst of my two losses and while i wouldnt wish it on anyone it means a lot to know there is someone who understands
I am so sorry for your awful loss.
Oh sister!!! My heart breaks for you!!!! I hate you delivered baby in hospital bathroom. I dealt with similar and it's soo traumatizing.
I had a stillbirth at almost 8 months I went on to have a miscarriage, I then went on and had healthy pregnancy. Every women is different there maybe similarity but it's a individual loss to each. I pray for you, hugs
I am so sorry for your losses. Traumatic and heart wrenching are the only words that could begin to describe these experiences.
Oh my gosh, yes! When I had my ectopic pregnancy, that's how I felt. I felt like my body had killed my baby. My testimony is farther down somewhere or up? Anyway, alot of loss on this thread but hope as well. Hope in Christ.
I'm so, so sorry, India😢 "Fear not, for I AM with you; Be not dismayed, for I AM your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
Amen and amen ❤❤❤❤❤
Amen great words from our god
Sweet young lady you are so very brave to share your painful journey. Thank you.
Me and my brother are 11 years apart. My mother suffered 6 miscarriages between us. I do not wish that much loss on anyone, but hope others share similar comments here and it somehow comforts you to know bringing home a baby after multiple losses can be a common occurrence. Much love to you from Texas. ❤
Thank you so much for listening🫶& thank you so much for sharing about your mom 🩷🩷🩷🩷
I'm so sorry for your loss, India. Praying for healing as you and your husband walk this hard, grief filled road. Praying that the knowledge that so many are out here grieving alongside you will give hope and light to that path.
(Preface, the following is information related to recurring pregnancy loss, possible causes, treatments etc. "more medical jargon" is NOT always helpful or appreciated while wading through grief, but sometimes we want answers or ways to research to get more understanding. If that is something anyone here would appreciate pinning for later, or looking into, that's why I'm sharing it. As a woman who has her own host of fertility struggles, I'm shocked and angered that some of this is not more public knowledge. So many of us end up having to reinvent the wheel when it comes to understanding why spontaneous pregnancy loss happens, or still births, or whatever type of loss. Some of us have scoured the Internet and seen so many doctors. We may not ever get answers. But if this info can help anyone, I wanted to share)
1. Stillbirths (past 1st trimester) can be a result of what's called an incompetent cervix. A treatment that is often overlooked/not talked about is something called a TAC- transabdominal cerclage.
2. "Recurrent miscarriage syndrome due to blood coagulation protein/platelet defects: prevalence, treatment and outcome results. DRW Metroplex Recurrent Miscarriage Syndrome Cooperative Group" is a free article in the national library of medicine available online.
Interestingly, Christina Perry (the singer, not to be confused with Katy Perry) has also shared a lot about some serious research and issues in the medical world when it comes to understanding what causes pregnancy loss and how to prevent it.
As a reminder to all of us, though, pregnancy loss is not your fault. It happens and sometimes we don't know why. We do the best with the knowledge that we have. All parents who have experienced loss deserve nothing but compassion and support ❤
I'm so sorry. I know there are no words that can be said that makes any loss any less heartbreaking. I struggled with infertility for 3 years. After 1.5 of treatments, i had a transfer that worked. But I didn't know - my hospital says any hcg under 10 you are not pregnant. Mine was between 5-9. I only discovered I had been pregnant when I went into labor at home. It was awful. That was Aug 2022. Then I had another transfer. This one worked as well. My first hcg was 10 - I wasn't hopeful because of my previous loss. I was about 7 weeks when I lost that pregnancy. 2 things stick out to me when I was in the ER. One, the PA asking me if this was a wanted pregnancy. Two, her telling me I didn't have a pregnancy in my uterus and to come back 10 mins later to say maybe she was wrong. Maybe I wasn't far enough along to see anything (I was - I had already seen my baby on ultrasound). This was Dec 2022.
I did another transfer in Feb 2023 and it failed. I then broke my ankle and had to put treatments on hold (I had issues with healing and had treatments were put on hold until Nov).
I ended up doing another transfer on Dec 5th. I am now pregnant with my double rainbow baby. 16 weeks and 1 day. There isn't a day I'm not terrified something is going to happen. I wish I can have more joy than fear. I wish I didn't have to hold the knowledge of knowing what loss is like.
I send prayers to you. All your feeling are valid and it's okay to feel them. I did group therapy with other women who had just experienced loss and it was healing to have that space to speak with others who could understand what I was going through. That really helped me.
I’m so sorry. You grieve honey both of you for as long as it takes.
You are a gem 🩷🩷
Bawling my eyes out with you. We had a miscarriage a month ago at 10 weeks. It is the worst thing we have even been through, I've never been so emotional and depressed in my entire life. Praying for you 🙏
My heart breaks for you and everyone on this thread who shared their losses. I'm so sorry, and I'm praying for you all.
I saw your post on Instagram and my heart sank....I am so very sorry for your loss 😢 having gone thru one and only one pregnancy after over nine years of infertility only to lose that baby, has me emotional to this day. We never thought we would get pregnant, were told without IVF it would be possible. God gave us a miracle for just a short time, but we were ecstatic! Then hearing my blood work didn't look good, and things were rising, meant I would most likely miscarry...a week after my positive test, our baby left is...they would be turning 7 this year....we didn't get to know the gender, nor see them on an ultrasound, but seeing those positive tests, will stick with me forever...I am confused knowing our baby is in the arms of Jesus, getting to meet all my relatives that have passed and what a reunion that must've been! I cannot imagine going thru loss after loss, I just wanted to jump thru the screen and hug u
I will continue to send u prayers as u navigate this journey
Thank you so much for sharing your story❤ you have such a beautiful soul. I hope our babies are playing together in heaven 🫶
@@indiabatson26 me too
I’m sorry for all the women who go through this. I lost 9 early pregnancy but the tenth was a home run. My daughter is my only child after being told I couldn’t have one successful to term. She is 29 this year , don’t give up.
It’s a horrible feeling to lose a baby, let alone two. I’m so sorry. I’m 37 we’ve been ttc for years. I had a D&C to remove tissue making it hard to conceive and a Hysterosalpingography (HSG) to check my tubes. I’ve had a chemical pregnancy and a miscarriage. It’s so hard to keep waiting, to keep hoping while also fearing another loss and fearing that I’m too old now. Seeing friends and family with their babies/kids makes me happy and incredibly sad. India, thank you for sharing your experience. There aren’t many talking about pregnancy loss and you are helping me and I’m sure many others. I’m rooting for you!
I’m so sorry about your loss. I just did my 8th ivf transfer in January and it worked I got pregnant but unfortunately had an early miscarriage. Also had an early miscarriage back in self last year as well. Will be doing my 9th transfer in April or may now so hopefully it works this time.
I’m so sorry for both of your losses 💔😭 I hope this next transfer grows your family ❤❤❤
Oh India! I know this pain. I’m so sorry😔💜
I have also gone through silent miscarriage and I will say that it’s so difficult to grasp that it’s real. I struggled for weeks thinking they made a mistake. I truly mean this when I say I feel so much empathy for you and your loss. I’m praying for you and wish you peace.
I remember my missed miscarriage.
I also still felt pregnant. I couldn’t believe it. It felt like what was being told to me was a nightmare. Losing all the dreams we had for our baby was so hard. I couldn’t talk about it. You’re so brave. Thank you for sharing 🤍
Hi India. I'm a grandmother of 6 so I'm quite a bit older than you. But tears welled up just reading the title of this video because I knew about your ectopic pregnancy as well and two such devastating loses back to back.😢😢 I too am a Christian and what a beautiful testimony you shared about trusting God's plan even when you hate it and at times rail against it and have to fight your way back to faith and trust.
I too only have a left fallopian tube. I had a ruptured ectopic pregnancy before there were ultrasounds so I was at the point of bleeding out before it was discovered. It took almost a year to get pregnant again. I had two pregnancies after that, one they said looked like a missed miscarriage but after a week of prayer and waiting, they were wrong. I'm so so sorry they weren't wrong in your case. But I so understand that feeling of never trusting future pregnancies. It's so scary to be thrilled and also terrified all at the same time. I did have 2 healthy babies after that, both of whom almost died at aged 3 of different things but they are in their 30's and 40's now. Praise the Lord. One only made it, according to the doctor, because I was still breastfeeding at almost 4 years old. This child refused to stop and we decided there was a reason. Well there was. God knew. She quit on her own soon after her illness.
I've been involved in crisis pregnancy counseling since 1984. When I first started I saw the famous picture of the baby in the sac removed from an ectopic pregnancy. They knew it was a boy. So tiny but so remarkably a baby at 4 weeks gestation (6 weeks from lmp) It had been years but I cried hysterically and carried that picture around for years. His name is Jeremy and he is in Heaven with your babies and 3 of my grandchildren.
There is Hope, India. I know you know that. It helped me to read all the Bible stories of women who pleaded for years for a baby before they were finally blessed beyond measure. Sarah, Hannah, Rachel.... You said it, God's timing though it is so so hard for us mere humans with brains incased in a hard scull to understand His infinitely wise plan.
Much love and prayers. ❤️ 🙏 ❤️ 🙏
Jan, your sister in Christ
I am so sorry for your losses. You are not alone. My first pregnancy in 2016 was a missed miscarriage. We had the ultrasound after Thanksgiving. I refused to believe them and held onto hope because I still felt pregnant. I prayed for a miracle, but in January, I started bleeding and the pain was excruciating - so I opted for D&C. It was so hard to be festive for the holidays when there was this cloud above our heads…. In 2018, I gave birth to my daughter. She is now 5 years old and long to be a big sister. I’ve had 3 losses after her and it breaks my heart every time she asks why she doesn’t have a sibling, and yet I am so thankful for her because she is a miracle. I understand what you mean by pregnancy after loss robs you from the bliss. Praying for you, your husband, your healing, and your journey. ❤
Oh, sweetie I am so sorry. I know your pain. My mom comforted me with the thought of my relatives who had passed decades before holding and being with my baby in heaven. Maybe that thought can bring you comfort as well.
It does get better. You all will be in my prayers.
Oh India, I’m so sorry. 🙏
Thank you so much freind❤❤
So sorry.
I am so sorry for your loss. I too had a missed miscarriage at 14 weeks with my second pregnancy. I am grateful for experiencing the joy of our first pregnancy resulting in our oldest son. I will never forget the combined silence and look of the ultrasound tech before she left the room. My husband was out of town and it hadn’t even occurred to me that there would be anything wrong. I left the office in shock and called my husband in hysterics. He returned home and I underwent a D&C. We awaited an autopsy to find out we lost a girl who had Down syndrome with heart defects. We were blessed with a third pregnancy, but the joy of the first pregnancy was not there and I was anxious waiting for the other shoe to drop the entire time. We now have 2 healthy teenage boys. It happens more than you think and keep the faith for your little blessings to come!
Let me say how sorry I am for your loss. I too know the pain of going through such unimaginable grief at what should be such a happy time in your young lives. I had 4 miscarriages in a row then had my one son and then an ectopic pregnancy after him. That’s when I realized God gave me that one son for a reason when it was the right time….His time. I am thankful for him every day and I think I appreciate him and being a mother even more than I would have if I hadn’t gone through what I did. Don’t give up and prayers to you both!!!🙏
This is gut wrenching and I am so sorry this happened to you and your family. Know they are in a beautiful place right now and they know how much you both loved them! I know nothing will take this pain away but I am just so sorry
Thank you so much for listening you are a gem ❤❤❤❤
You are being added to my prayers, India. I’m so sorry you experienced this. Grieving the loss of this precious child with you, crying with you, and praying for an increase in unwavering joy. May God use this for the good & His Glory. Amen ❤
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss 😢 Fertility issues are such a hard and delicate topic and I appreciate your openness to share your story and feelings with us ❤
We have been trying to get pregnant for four years now and despite all health checks coming back positive, I have almost given up hope that I will one day hold our baby in my arms. Not knowing what the problem makes it even more difficult and the "just keep trying" by our doctors feels pointless. It's tough.
Sending out strength and a big hug to all you great women out there who struggle with fertility.
You poor sweet woman. Im so sorry. We will grieve with you support you and send love from all corners of the earth.❤❤❤
I feel the love ❤❤❤❤❤
I have never related to a video more. First of all I'm sorry for your loss. The fear of it happening again and the ever hopeful husband... That was definitely part of my journey too. I had my first pregnancy in august 2023 and miscarried around week 6. Was told that the pregnancy had stopped somewhere in week 5. We were absolutely gutted.
The same week I found out, that I was pregnant, we were also told that my moms cancer had returned for a third time, so I felt like the pregnancy was a blessing to get through this though time og give everyone hope for at positive future. So when I lost my pregnancy, it felt like I might also lose my mom.
I luckily became pregnant again and found out in the beginning of february 2024. We went for early ultrasounds to make sure everything was all right. I wasn't as scared as I thought I would be, but at the same time I was constantly checking if I was bleeding, because I didn't feel anything last time. After a tumultuous week and a half with bloodwork and doctor appointments we finally had some answers. It was a missed abortion, that had stopped somewhere in week 5.. AGAIN. I was supposed to be almost 8 weeks. It's been almost 2 weeks since the abortion and the sorrow hits me on and off.
Seeing you cry definitely helped me to allow myself to cry as well. Something I want and really need to do, but I have found extremely difficult.
I hope your husband is better than mine to let himself feel whatever it is he is feeling. Mine constantly tries to be strong for me, but honestly I just need him to cry so I also can be bawling my eyes out.
There is nothing worse in life that can happen than a parent losing their child. I’m praying God wraps his arms around you in multiple ways India
Oh sweetie… to say I’m sorry is such an understatement. I have 5 Angel babies .. 3 rainbow babies. My boys are each 1/2 of a set of twins. The fear is real.. my youngest is now 17. And yet I still mourn my babies. Sending you loads of love and prayers for Gods peace and comfort for you and your family.
Oh I’m so so sorry for your losses as well 💔🩷 I don’t think uou ever “get over it”. Doesn’t matter how much time passes by 🫶
@@indiabatson26 that is true, but God! I know my babies are with him. He has put people in my life that helped me and he has used me in other peoples lives.. it is easy to praise him when it is good, and so hard when it’s painful. 🌹💕
The 'whys' are part of the suffering as well, and this is so hard. Having suffered infant loss and miscarriage, I do identify and grieve with you and Daniel. Your attitude and trust are remarkable. Thank you.
Thank you for being so brave enough to share your story. The part that really resonates with me is when you said you trust gods timing more than your own because that can be so difficult. I had a miscarriage at 17 weeks last year. I went to the doctor for a check up and everything was perfect and that same night I started having really frequent contractions and I knew something was wrong. My husband had just left out of town for a work conference so I was all alone. After laboring in the ER for hours they gave me an ultrasound and told me my baby boy had no heart tones. I then went to labor and delivery to give birth to him. I remember laying on that bed just questioning so many things but also having a divine peace that I knew it was all going to be ok. I am now 34 week pregnant with our rainbow baby and his due date is the exact same date last year that we lost our baby. My sincerest condolences to you and your husband and thank you so much for being so open ❤❤
Oh gosh I cried through this whole video, there are just no words for the sadness of losing a child. You are not alone. There are so many other moms and moms-to-be out there feeling the pain with you and I hope in some small way you can feel all the love and prayers we are sending your way ❤
I’ve been watching you for years, probably since I was 15 and I am almost 23 now. And watching you go through this is absolutely heart breaking. What you said about praising God through the highs and lows made me tear up. That is truly the best thing you could possibly do in the valley. You both are so strong, keep praising God even when it makes no sense, and is the last thing you want to do. He is faithful and will see you through 💗
I cried watching this whole video. I am so sorry for your loss. I had a miscarriage in December and it absolutely shattered my heart. I was 6 weeks, everything cleared itself out on its own, I'm thankful I didn't have to have surgery. But the whole time I felt like I was in a horror movie. Out of all the days it could have happened, it happened on Christmas eve day. This past Christmas was the worst Christmas I've ever had in my life. I didn't get mad at god, but I was very hurt, still am hurt. It comes and goes, some days I'm okay others I still grieve. We've been trying again, I've had one cycle so far and didn't get pregnant but hoping for the next cycle to be different and praying for my rainbow baby. I will be praying for you and your husband ❤
My heart dropped when I saw this video. I'm so sorry.
Thank you for being so brave and sharing this story. I anticipate fertility struggles because of having PCOS. I would never know what to expect without your video. So I appreciate the education. I'm so so sad to hear of your experience though. I was hoping you wouldn't have more bad news. Hold onto hope, it's there. I'm so sorry.
Oh India, I am so, so, so sorry. I resonated with your first loss and now unfortunately with the second. My husband and I had a miscarriage last July at 7 weeks and again in November at 6 weeks. It has completely devastated us, and the only thing we can cling to is Jesus. Grateful beyond all measure we have him.
One thing that has comforted me is that I truly don’t think it was God’s plan for my children to die. I don’t think he decided to end the lives of my unborn children. I think, heartbreakingly, this is just a part of the fall of man and that Jesus is sitting and weeping with us. I think through our trials we can testify to God’s goodness even in the hard times, which is what you are doing. Thank you for sharing your story, I know God is with you and Daniel in these grave times. Praying for peace and comfort for you both.
What an encouragement and beautifully written. God is so good. I also believe it isn’t His plan for this to happen. But He is with you India and Daniel in every moment of happiness and grief. ❤
I am so sorry that you and Daniel have experienced another loss. I lost one around 7 weeks. I know there are no words. Praying for you both and that God will wrap you in His arms and comfort you.
I’m pretty sure everyone who watches this just wishes they give you a big southern mama bear hug through the screen🤍praying for you and Daniel through this journey. Thank you for sharing your heart with us.
I'm so sorry! I've had 1 miscarriage and then years of infertility leading to IVF which resulted in my miracle rainbow baby in Feb 2022. Praying for you!
I’m so sorry for the loss of your sweet babies. I am praying for your physical, emotional, and spiritual healing. My first pregnancy was a missed miscarriage. Then I had my beautiful daughter who is now almost 8, followed by another missed miscarriage and then my sweet little boy who is 5. In 2020, I had a stillborn baby girl, Vivian Drew. In the time since, I’ve had two more miscarriages. All losses were “unexplained.” All bloodwork came back normal. God has held me closer with each loss, and I pray for you as you wrestle with Him. It is incredibly hard! There are no words to describe the hurt and the questioning. Just know you are being covered in prayer and love.
I had a miscarriage with my first pregnancy. I had passed my baby in my bathroom under a lot of bleeding and cramping. I had so much back pain too and was 7 weeks & 6 days. The following day the technician confirmed that there was nothing there. Then, a few months later, after taking a test I find out I’m pregnant again. I start with super heavy bleeding again & tell my husband it’s happening again. I went to my doctor who told me it was a chemical pregnancy. I wanted to be pregnant so bad that my body had tricked itself into thinking I was pregnant. Then, last September, I find out I’m pregnant again. This time still so scared and didn’t wanna go through what I went through before. My pregnancy was going really well until I went into labor & deliver at 27 weeks (just two weeks ago). The nurses call my baby a super premie. They say she’s very feisty & knows how to get what she wants. It was/is hard not coming home with her, not being pregnant anymore, watching her hooked up to so many tubes & stuff. Now, I look forward to just being able to bring my baby home. Both of our situations are hard and it SUCKS. But, I’m a believer also & I can say that I wouldn’t be able to get through this if it wasn’t for my husband & God. ❤️ Going to pray for you! For healing, His peace that surpasses ALL understanding, His strength, and His joy. Love you my sister in Christ. 🥰
I had a ectopic pregnancy 41 yrs ago. I know one day I’ll see that baby in heaven. I didn’t grieve and later got depressed and we had to go back and grieve. I’m so sorry you had two heart breaks. Bless your heart blessing to you both. I pray for a pregnancy and baby soon.
I’m so sorry for all of the loss you’ve endured these last months. Thankfully you had options so you could make the choice that worked best for you and your body. ❤
So important!
I am so very sorry this happened to you. My granddaughter experienced the same thing last year in the identical time frame. This would have been their second child and it would have been a girl. She was so devastated after the D and C, and so was the rest of the family. You are so brave sharing your story, and I am certain you will have your baby in time. May God bless you. Sending you love and light.
I’m so sorry 🤍🤍🤍I am so sorry
When you said you cried on and off on and off on and off that was me for over a year. It’s been almost 5 years and thinking about that day when I heard those words.. I don’t even want to say them now but she was looking at his beautiful heart that had been beating just the day before and then… anyway. Grief is a process, it’s your love showing and it’s different for everyone. I love what you said about trusting the Lord and praising him no matter what. I have felt his love so many times since it happened and I knew he was there holding my hand and I know for anyone reading this going through something similar he will be right there with you holding you. He will help you every step of the way, and he allows our babies to show us in different ways they are still with us and I love for those moments. Thank you for sharing your journey and this sacred experience with us 🤍🙏🏼 I send you a hug
I went through the same thing and hopefully you can receive some advice. I had to change doctors, I explained to the next doctor what happened and he said as soon as you know you're pregnant contact the office and we will have a prescription ready for you. He prescribed a compounded (made for me specifically) progesterone suppository. I had to insert it and let it melt and lay in my bed for an hour a day in the morning and I did this for the first trimester. Worked like a charm. Since then I have learned that the previous doctor just had to give me a progesterone shot as soon as I started to spot and it would have stopped the loss. Then just do the suppository. I did grief counseling and it helped also. Give your children names, because you will see them again. We had planned and prepared for so long and you need to grieve the future you lost. My son is now fifteen and is an amazing child. I know several women that did the shot that stopped the loss, I don't know why some doctors don't just do it, it won't hurt anything. Amazing to me that most doctors don't even check your hormone levels. It will happen, take heart.
Oh hon, I'm so sorry you went through that pain again! I myself had 5 miscarriages, a stillborn (23 weeks) and a son who died at 3 years old. I praise God that I have 3 children who are now 33, 31 and 23, walking with 3 bonus children. I'm here if you ever need someone to cry with, talk to, or anything else. God's ways are not our ways... and sometimes that brings us great sorrow. ❤ I am praying for you to get that beautiful rainbow baby that you get to raise.
I'm so sorry India. My first pregnancy ended in miscarriage. My second I ended up having to get a D&C as well. This was 1999 so I don't know if things were different but I wasn't offered anesthesia. I had to listen to my baby being sucked out of me. Clogging the vacuum every now and then, seeing the tissue going through the tube. It was beyond traumatic. I'm so glad you were offered anesthesia. I ended up accidentally pregnant before I even had a period again and he was my rainbow baby. You'll be in my thoughts for sure. Hugs.
I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine the hurt you feel. I had 2 chemical pregnancies prior to my first baby and it was like emotional whiplash, the highest of highs followed by the lowest of lows.
Im so sorry for your loss 💔 I have every faith you will be a mother in time 🙏🏼 my daughter had an ectopic pregnancy wih her 1st pregnancy, 2 more miscarriages and now she has 2 beautiful babies and I believe it will happen to you also 🙏🏼
There are no words of comfort I can offer. I’m glad you have your husband and your faith to support you through this really tough time ❤
India, I am so sorry. And, thank you for sharing your story. We, who have gone through fertility struggles feel less alone when we share our stories. I hope this is therapeutic for you as well. I’m praying we all get our miracle soon 🙏
I’m so so sorry for your losses. I’m e also had a few pregnancy losses..
My first pregnancy ever in 2019 was a complete molar pregnancy (it’s when an empty egg gets fertilized and developed into a tumor like growth). Then we had our healthy son in 2021 ❤️ And then we had a missed miscarriage in June 2023 at 9 weeks but the baby quit growing at 6 weeks. Then we had a late missed miscarriage a couple months ago at 16 weeks but that baby had stopped growing and passed away at 12 weeks and 3 days. Drs have ran blood tests, did the autopsy on our most recent loss, tested the placenta, they’ve tested everything and it all came back perfectly normal.. I agree that God’s plan is better than our own. And I too don’t believe that we’ll ever understand why it had to be like this.. But God does know why and all we can do is lean on Him and trust in Him. Sending huge hugs and prayers India 🙏❤️ You’re not alone.
Sending you all my love. I had a miscarriage on my second pregnancy and it was devastating. Praying you feel God’s arms around you holding you tight at this difficult time. Have you read the Heaven’s Nursery poem. I found it brought me great comfort. ❤
I had my first miscarriage with my first pregnancy and ended up having a D&C on Feb 21 2024 (same day as you it sounds like) the tissue and placenta formed but an embryo never formed. I still don’t know why or what caused an embryo to form but they said we’re good to start trying again whenever we’re ready. During the time of my miscarriage I watched your ectopic rupture story. I’m so so sorry for your losses. I find myself having all the same feelings as you. I’m following your journey and pray you get your rainbow baby so so soon ❤
Ohh.. that silence during the ultrasounds. That awful silence. We lost 2 before I was able to carry my identical twins to term. Our twins were given a 50% chance of survival. Despite the odds; I have my boys now (thank God) but I did not get to enjoy any of my pregnancies.
I’m so sorry for everything you’re going through. You’re not alone and I’m so proud of you for telling your story. I’ve been following you for years and I hate to see you go through this. Just know that you are already a GREAT mom.
I lost 11 babies you will never heal from the loss. I had one pregnancy beginning of year and one at the end of same year
I am going through this journey along side you. I had a chemical pregnancy the week of Thanksgiving, I got pregnant again immediately after and we announced to our family on New Years. The weekend before Valentines Day I went to the ER with bleeding and cramping, I should have been almost 12 weeks but instead they found no heart beat a d saod the baby had been gone for a while. It has been a long dreadful month of multiple rounds of medication that keep failing. I'm 7 ultrasounds in and if the next one shows theres still retained tissue I'll have a D&C. I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone and I'm so sorry you are going through this. Praying we all get our rainbows at the end of this darkness💔🌈
So sorry to hear this. I pretty much don’t ever comment on anything but I have always been so frustrated at how taboo it still seems to be to share our experiences with the trauma of a miscarriage.
I lost my third baby in a missed miscarriage at 14 weeks back in 2012. The experience was horrific and something I’ll never get over. It will never matter what anyone says, I will always feel that it was my fault somehow and I got to the point where I wanted to punch every well meaning “everything happens for a reason” person in the throat. Logically I understood that there was nothing I could have done to change the outcome but logic doesn’t really matter in the face of grief.
My heart goes out to anyone who is or has experienced this kind of loss and I hope we get to a place where none of us feel we have to pretend it didn’t happen to us because it might make someone uncomfortable to hear about it.
I had 3 children already so when I had my first of four miscarriages after that, nobody really cared. Just a shrug of the shoulder and “oh well” is all I got. The MCs all occurred between 1990 and 1996 so I’m happy to see ppl are more sympathetic these days. 🙂
I am so sorry, an can totally understand what you are going through. I had an incomplete miscarriage with my first pregnancy, although i didnt know it was incomplete until i got an infection and ended up in the emergency dept, hooked up on IV antibiotics. I was so frightened to try again, i feared it would happen again. We went on to have 2 healthy, great pregnancies, timed 3 years apart. Thank you for sharing your experience, i know its very difficult, but we can all support each other through times like this, by sharing, listening and caring.
Holding space, and storming the gates of heaven for you. ❤ I lost 5 babies early on, and gave up the idea of another baby. I felt selfish for grieving because I already have 2 sweet little girls, and I know some people are grieving their only.. it took a lot of anger, bitterness, and brokenness within myself with God, but I truly gave up and gave it all to him. I felt an unexplainable peace when I gave up and said “if I never have anymore children, I’ll still praise You..” it took a long time for me to get there, but I’m thankful for a Father of patience.
I am now 20 weeks with a rainbow baby. I am scared EVERY DAY of something going wrong, but I am trusting God to fulfill the desires of my heart, just as He will yours. ❤ your day is coming, mama. Keep holding on.
Girlll my heart breaks for your experience. Our first pregnancy was a chemical which is the best kind I guess considering. I was devastated. We tried again 4 months later got pregnant again and I was terrifieddddd. Always worried and celebrated every single day. Thankfully I had a beautiful girl and she’s two now. I’m 19 weeks pregnant now with a boy and I’m still worried and I’ve been sick. It’s just something you never forget. Sending so much love. 💕
Currently pregnant with my first and the fear of "something happening" is somehow always lurking above your head (especially in the first trimester, because everyone talks about the possibility of misscarriage). It totally steals away the joy you should be feeling in this new, beautiful beginning. It's only now in my fourth month that's I'm "surrendering" to this pregnancy, so now I kind of wish I had done it from the beginning. Yes, "something" could still happen, but if nothing happens, than I robbed myself and this baby of joy we deserve for no reason - and *even if* something happens - the baby still deserves joy from the mama, because we love the child endlessly no matter how short or long their life is. So India, even though I cannot imagine how hard it must be and how big the fear is after everything you went through, give yourself the grace to feel endless joy when a new pregnancy happens. Loss makes you wary of happiness, maybe we're even subconsciosly thinking we're gonna "jinx it" if we're not careful and we're "too happy". I don't believe God works those ways. He wouldn't steal joy because there was too much of it. We don't know his reasons but he is a good God and he rejoices in our joy too, so don't forget to not fear happiness!
My heart cries for your loss. I suffered from infertility issues and had four miscarriages, two in my second trimester. I so deeply grieved the loss of my babies as well as the loss of the dreams I had for them. I have two beautiful young adult children! My fourth pregnancy resulted in the birth of my son and it was hard not to be afraid. One of my best friend’s who had terminal cancer sensed my fear and told me to celebrate the life I had inside of me at that moment. Her words meant so much to me. I believe you did the right thing having the DNC. My second pregnancy I took off work and waited one long and miserable week to miscarry naturally. I ended up with an infection and had to have the DNC anyway. My message to you is: 1. Never give up hope. 2. It is ok to rage at God. I remember screaming at him as I drove away from an appointment where I had been given terrible news. 3. Be kind and loving toward yourself. Give yourself grace. I was not and remember standing in front of the mirror hating myself and telling myself I was defective, useless and not really a full woman. I am so sorry to my younger self. Even if I had not gone on to have children, it was not true. When I was pregnant with both my son and daughter, one of the scriptures I relied upon is “For God did not give us a Spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.” Also, “He makers the barren woman to keep house, and to be a joyful mother of children”. Before I knew I was pregnant with my daughter, I had a dream that I gave birth to a little baby girl. She spoke to me and said “I have been trying to get to you for a very long time.” I found out a few days later that I was pregnant with her.
Sending lots of love to you! I'm glad you are able to get the autopsy done to know maybe why this happened.
When I miscarried it was around 8 weeks, we had just gotten the first ultrasound done, saw the heart beat and everything was great. A few days later though I stopped feeling pregnant and knew something wasn't right but I was trying not to let my anxiety get the best of me. Around week 10 I ended up having contractions and lots of bleeding which sent me to the ER. Unfortunately, they only did an abdominal ultrasound and didn't see anything. It kind of hurt when they kept asking if I was sure I was pregnant because they didn't see anything. No sign of anything. What they didn't realize it because they didn't do a transvaginal ultrasound, they missed seeing the baby I am convinced I passed into the hospital toilet right after the ultrasound. I was so convinced I wanted to reach in and grab it but being a hospital toilet I didn't think that would be wise because of germs. That was an excruciatingly hard moment for me. So I totally understand you not wanting to take that route.
Thank you so much for sharing such a raw and real part of your life! I am so sorry for your loss! Sending so much love ❤️! Xx 🥰
I'm so sorry! This is terrible, and I'm glad you had a medical team to help you with this process. This happened to my daughter and she wasn't given the d&c option. Thank you for sharing. I love your positive attitude. Keep the faith. Love to you both...
My Aunt could not get pregnant or lost a baby for 10 years. After 10 years of trying she had a baby boy went on to have 5 more children. She kept the faith. Praying for you and your husband.🙏🏻✝️
abnormally high hCG in early pregnancy often indicates a chromosomal abnormality in the embryo. i'm so sorry for your loss.
So sorry for your loss. Keep praying. Keep the faith. God has the perfect child coming for you. As for the two you have lost, give them names. They will be waiting for you in heaven
Thank you for sharing and allowing other women to share their experiences with you. May the Lord bless you. I have a beautiful two year old girl who was not planned but God truly blessed my husband and I with her precious life. We decided to try for #2 last August. We got pregnant 3 month after trying. We never got to see or hear a heartbeat. A day before I turned 12 weeks pregnant, and one day from my scheduled ultrasound I began to bleed. I ended up passing out from blood loss and needing to go to the ER where I had my first ultrasound and seeing an empty sack. It was devastating, but never the less God saw me where I was. We are still healing but praying for new life to come into our lives. I will be praying or you and all these women and pray they to cling to Jesus. There is no other strength but through Him. Thank you again for sharing your story.
Coming back to say I have also lost a ‘rainbow baby” 4 days after testing positive. Clinging to Christ right now.
I have no words other than I am soo sorry for your loss!!! Thats soo heart breaking!!! Praying that God stays close to you and your family during the very difficult time.🙏🩷
India I just have love and care for your family. I am so sorry for the losses you’ve experienced. I will be praying over you and Daniel. Thank you for being so vulnerable when you don’t have to be. 🫶🏽
I’m praying for you! This has to be so overwhelming hard. Though God never intended this to be your story He knows what your fertility journey will look like and is with you giving you strength to overcome whatever it takes to experience bringing new life into this world. You are loved by 2 babies in heaven mama! This isn’t our forever home.❤️
I’m so sorry 💔💔💔💔 I had a missed miscarriage in 2020 and was so sick for weeks after no heartbeat at the 8 week appointment 😢 I ended up having surgery too. My best friend was same far along in her pregnancy and she got to keep her baby so that made it even more complicated and heartbreaking 💔 sending you much love and hugs 🫂
Girl, I just had one in February too at 10 weeks. No heartbeat at our first US. So devastating and traumatic. I chose the pill but no one told me what was going to happen. I had no idea I would pass the baby. I had no idea I would be pouring blood from my body in the worst pain I've ever experienced. We buried our baby in the hills behind our house. I am so sorry for your loss. I understand your grief. Much love to you.
I am so sorry you went through that and I hate that they didn’t warn you. I’m a doctor so with my miscarriage at 11 weeks I chose the D&C because I knew what would happen if I didn’t. I can’t imagine how traumatic that must have been for you. Sending hugs and healing, and baby dust ❤️
I suffered infertility and then after finally getting pregnant, a miscarriage. After two years of heartbreak, I became pregnant with twins. God has a plan and as I have found, your experiences will help you to help others in the future. May God comfort you and encourage you.
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I feel for you. I too experienced a similar story to you. Loss at the end of my first trimester. The doctors office I went to at that time was quite terrible. No compassion. I had to deal with another dr in the group who was not my regular physician. I remember being told there was no heartbeat. The dr didn’t explain the options the way they were explained to you. A very long story summarized the miscarriage did not happen naturally after a couple of months called the dr office, went in and was told I was still testing that I was pregnant. The dr said they were going to check to see if there was a twin. There was not. Ultimately had a D&C. Such a painful experience and loss. When I became pregnant again I was scared. As you say the free feeling of excitement is tainted. We did successfully have our daughter who is now 14. Prayers for you and your husband. You are not alone.
I'm so sorry darling. I pray for you and all the warriors that are sharing their stories in the comment section. I had a chemical last year. The day of the positive pregnancy tests were unbelievably joyful. Baby dust to us all ✨️
I'm so very sorry. My best friend went through this as well. She chose to wait and after 2 weeks, opted for the D&C. It was beyond heartbreaking.
I’m so sorry for your loss. My second child was diagnosed with a cystic hygroma, which is a problem with the lymphatic system. They found it at my 10 week ultrasound. There was a chance that it might resolve itself, or a chance that the baby could live with a disability and many surgeries so we wanted to give him a chance. It was agonizing and I was trying to care for my 1 year old son at the same time. I was so sick. I could barely get off the couch. At 20 weeks an ultrasound showed that it had progressed to the point that he was already in heart failure and the diagnosis was “incompatible with life”. I was induced and delivered a stillborn. Days later my milk came in. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through. About 5 months later I was pregnant again and delivered a healthy boy. He is now 21 and the light of my life. I can’t imagine life without him. I will be praying for you to have a healthy baby.
Also, the autopsy on my little boy was “inconclusive”. My next pregnancy was terrifying the whole 9 months, because I was so afraid something would go wrong. It was such a leap of faith to try again. My two sons are now 21 and 24 and know about the brother we lost between them. Your heart will heal but it will take time. I didn’t think grief counseling would help, but I had to do something so I tried. It helped a lot. Thank you for sharing publicly. I didn’t think I knew anyone who lost a baby as late as I did until it happened and people started talking to me about it. You aren’t alone.
I’m so sorry. There is NEVER enough sorry to go around. I had a miscarriage myself before having my son this year. It’s true, Gods timing is a real thing!!! In the moment, it doesn’t make sense and I don’t think it ever will.. but his timing I truly believe it. ❤
When we were married 7 years we finally did fertility treatments, lost the baby, and the next pregnancy was FULL of the unknown, it's so hard. India, praying for you both, it's okay to carry multiple emotions at once, but it's unimaginable. You will meet these babies in heaven, and I will meet mine ❤
I’m so sorry for your loss. I understand what you went through with a ruptured tube. Here was my testimony on February 26, 2018
As you know, I never post anything of myself... ever.
But today I am. I want to give God praise and glory today, you see, 18 years ago I should of died. I had a tubal pregnancy that had actually ruptured at home two days earlier. So as I went to the ER at 9pm on a Saturday, they broke the news to me. There's no baby in the womb... we're thinking tubal. As I tried to let that sink in I asked, could it have ruptured a couple days ago? Because I haven't hurt like that since Thursday. No they told me. You would of died by now.
So I'm laying on the operating table scared out of my wits, praying oh God, don't let me die! I have a 8 1/2 year old son that needs me still! And also I'm apologizing to my unborn baby, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry... not knowing that his short life was already gone. In surgery, they realized yes it had already busted. The baby was gone, my tube ruptured and was fused to my ovary. They did manage to save my ovary. But gangrene was already setting in they told me. So 18 years later, I would like to thank Dr.
Plumintosh and Dr. Carl Patty. But most of all I owe my life to Jesus... He did save me and let me raise my son, who is now 26 1/2. And my baby I lost? I feel like what King David said about his son that died in 2 Samuel ... can I bring him back to me again? I shall go to him but he shall not return to me.
I can see God’s strength shining through you. Even through the tears and talking about these traumatic experiences. Thank you for sharing your story for other women to be encouraged by ❤
India. Dear India. I know your pain. I miscarried when I was 7 weeks, before we even had a chance to see or hear our baby, and before we even had the joy of telling our families we were pregnant. Miscarried at home and vomited from the pain.
My sister also had a miscarriage. She was farther along and had a D&C. She got to see and take her little baby home, and they buried their baby in a section of the cemetery meant just for babies and children.
I'm literally crying with you. We all are...all us mommas of angels. I'm so sorry hon. I wish I could hug you tight and cry with you.
Being sad is healthier than being angry....when people ignored the existence of my baby, I felt so angry, but when people asked about my baby, I felt sad and cried, but, oh, grief is so healing. That's it's purpose. Grieve as long and hard as you need. I'm so sorry, India and Daniel.
My rainbow baby is named Jeremiah after Jeremiah 29:11. Do not lose hope. God has GOOD plans for you. xo
I read somewhere that mothers retain a tiny bit of the DNA of their children, even from a MC. I like to think it’s true. I also named my losses and I know I’ll be with them again someday along with my beautiful 41 yo son who passed away last summer.
My heart breaks for you both. I had an early miscarriage once, where I didn’t even know I was pregnant and only later realised and I also thought I lost my planned for baby after bleeding excessively, only to then find out I had not but I’d already processed in my head that he was gone (I even went alone to the hospital because I couldn’t face having to deal with my husband’s emotions as well as mine). It’s such an odd thing, regardless how early, once you have processed you are and start to make those little plans in your head, they are here and they are real and the loss is very real. This is so common and we don’t really talk about it so this is an important video you have shared and hopefully helped other women to have their feelings validated. This will happen for you, have faith. You are such a loving, wonderful person and you will make a wonderful mummy ❤
You are so incredibly brave to discuss this. I’m so sorry this happened to you 😢.
This video is going to help so many women . I admire you greatly ♥️
I haven’t experienced a child loss, but I truly understand your pain. I am honored to be able to hear Daniel and your story. I am constantly praying for y’all to have confronting angels to surround you in this time of need. Keep remembering that the Lord is always on your side. I love y’all.
im so sorry India, my sister also lost two before her miracle baby boy & it was incredibly hard. Praying for you & your family, loss is never easy
I am so very sorry for your losses. ❤ I have had 3 pregnancy losses. My first ever pregnancy, we lost at just barely 8 weeks. That miscarriage was the most difficult physically. I got pregnant with my daughter right after. She was born in 2020. After she was born I had two more very early losses, one at 5 weeks and the third at barely 4 weeks. The last one was the hardest emotionally for me. Loss is something you never think to write into your own story until it’s forced upon you. Luckily by Gods grace I carried my 5th pregnancy to term and our son was born two days before Christmas in 2022. I’m now almost 11 weeks into my 6th pregnancy, and praying for things to continue smoothly.
I just had a missed miscarriage, made it to about 8 weeks when we found out things were not progressing as expected on Feb 22nd and confirmed with a follow up ultrasound on the 29th. I related so much to your story, not knowing you could miscarry but your body still thinks you're pregnant. Being given "options" right after learning we weren't having our baby. We hadn't told anyone I was pregnant yet so nobody knows about the miscarriage and it's been so hard pretending everything's ok. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It's really helped me to not feel so alone. I don't know why things like this happen, but they do, and we will get through this. I will take some time to grieve, but eventually, I have faith we'll both have happy news to celebrate. ❤️
My heart goes out to you and others here that have gone through loss. My sister has two beautiful adult children now, but she also went through almost half a dozen loses to get those children. Some of her pregnancies only got to between 8-12 weeks and one went all the way to 6 months. The grief that i saw my sister go through was like no other. God Bless to you and your husband, you are right in saying that God's ways aren't ours, but it sure does sting. Will definitely keep you in my prayers.
Praying for you and your healing. I just experienced this horrific loss as well. My second child was born March 14, 2024 at 3:15pm my first son, he still had a heart beat as I held him before he left us. 16 weeks pregnant. I have never been this heartbroken in my life. I do not know when I will ever be okay again.
Rip my sweet baby boy River Schultz.
Praying for you and thank you for this video it truly does help someone like me. God does have a plan for us even when we don’t see it, thank you for the reminder I am struggling with why something like this would happen but I am trusting God and hoping I will have the strength to be able to have more children one day.
I am so sorry to hear this news. Praying for you . I send a hug .
Thank you so much friend ❤❤❤❤
India Batson I am so sorry for your lose. Nothing anyone says or does makes the pain go away. I've had many miscarriages before conceiving my son Lucas who is about to turn 4 on April 30 of this year. God gave my 1 son and my youngest son Michah was going to be 2 years younger than my son Lucas and we made it all the way thru the pregnancy until 1 month before Michahs due date and I woke up one day and I couldn't feel my son moving in my belly. I had a feeling of dread and went to the emergency room of the hospital I was going to be giving birth in. They did an ultra sound and informed me my son Michah didn't have a heart beat and had passed away during the night. I still had to give birth to him and it's a horrifying experience to look upon your deceased child whom I bonded so closely to during the pregnancy. I must say it's a loss I to this day have never gotten over and I don't think I ever will. I will mourn him and miss him until my last breath. It tears my heart to shreds to hear anyone losing a child no matter the circumstances it's a pain like no other and I will be praying for you India and your family to find your own way to move on past this horrifying event. God is holding our children close and they will never know all the pain and struggles of this earth and that's something I find comforting is knowing we will see them again in perfect bodies in everlasting joy with our God and Savior. God Bless you and your family India Batson. I will pray for God's will and I'll be watching to see you have a miracle child like my son Lucas is too me.
I’m so sorry India. I have never been through a pregnancy loss but during my pregnancy with my son I bled the whole time. Sometimes there were clots and I remember sobbing hoping and praying that I wasn’t having a miscarriage. I am incredibly lucky and didn’t but I remember that fear and that gut wrenching feeling the first time I saw that blood. Gods plans are better than ours but it is okay and understandable to be upset about them and be angry. He can take it. You and Daniel are so strong for sharing your story. My husband and I are added to your list of prayer warriors. We will continue to pray for incredible healing from this pain as well as peace in the process.
India darling, my heart breaks for you. I've been there. Missed miscarriage at 11 weeks in october last year, also had a D&C and the tests revealed she (she was confirmed to be a girl) had a major chromosomal disorder. I'll never forget the doctor's face, the still image on the screen, and his first words being "guys I'm so sorry, this isn't good news". I cried nonstop for a month. You're not alone, we're all here with you. And we'll all celebrate with you when you get your rainbow baby. I'm pregnant again, 12 weeks so far, it will happen for you. All my love xxxx
PD: the first trimester after a pregnancy loss is horrific. The fear, the uncertainty, the sheer anxiety. My heart goes out to anyone going through any kind of loss or pregnancy after loss ❤
I’m so sorry you are going thru this!! I had 14 miscarriages and I completely feel your pain whether you have one or 14 it doesn’t hurt any less. I do have 2 grown amazing daughters now. I also lost my so when he was 5 days old. If you ever want to know about what treatments they finally found for me I would be very willing to talk ❤.
I’m so sorry India and Daniel 😢 what an awful experience to have to go through, especially after your first loss. I’m praying for you both ❤
I am so sorry you are not alone, one of my favorite youtubers Karlee Stee also lost her first baby its incredibly hard but you will get better❤
And now she's about to have her daughter!
Oh, India. God bless you both. Thank you for sharing the inner most private, painful story ever as it may help another woman. I fervently pray that you and Daniel will be blessed with a baby. ❤️