CHILDHOOD SIGNS I WAS GAY

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  • Опубликовано: 8 сен 2024
  • HOW DID I NOT KNOW? 🌈 I'm revealing my childhood signs I was lesbian / gay, and how I knew I liked girls! It was a long time before I realized wasn't straight.
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  • @laurenelloise
    @laurenelloise  2 года назад +81

    AHHH how are we already at the 10th video?? 🥺What were some childhood signs you were LGBTQ+? 🌈P.S. my shirt is from shop.laurenelloise.com/ every purchase goes towards creating MORE videos!

    • @ajsuhcks
      @ajsuhcks 2 года назад +1

      First reply-

    • @fruity9609
      @fruity9609 2 года назад +4

      Omfg I would tell my friend that if she was a guy I would date her

    • @janethart3179
      @janethart3179 Месяц назад

      My best friend and I went to the park one day when I was younger and she asked if I wanted to kiss her and I said yes. For me it just felt right and then we started to hit it off for a couple of months and eventually she became my girlfriend and we got married 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈😍😍💞

  • @sloth_crew
    @sloth_crew 2 года назад +504

    Today I seen a cute lesbian couple holding hands and I thought it was the best thing I’ve seen all day xx

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  2 года назад +100

      Oh my gosh cuteeee I love when that happens. It’s rare that I see it but when I do my heart is happy. !!

    • @froggy2128
      @froggy2128 2 года назад +22

      My friend is gay and her and her gf are so cute it makes me so happy every time

    • @AgnesAbeatrix
      @AgnesAbeatrix 2 года назад +10

      OMG, me too! My gay heart died on the metro station this morning, where I saw them.

    • @rihannnahanvelt
      @rihannnahanvelt 2 года назад +11

      Sammeeee when I see 2 lesbians I’m like awww I like that when I see 2 guys dating I’m like awwww when I see a boy and a girl I don’t really think of anything and I’m lesbian lol

    • @urlocalchestnutmaregirlie3394
      @urlocalchestnutmaregirlie3394 Год назад +3

      I’m lesbian, but I haven’t found the right girl, I’ve only ever had one female crush and can’t find a single other person to interest in.

  • @eeezzzrrraaa8562
    @eeezzzrrraaa8562 2 года назад +107

    I always knew I liked girls but I thought of it as "I'm a girl so I like girls, It's like self-love" yeah

    • @CryssiBear
      @CryssiBear Месяц назад

      i am 27 years old, in a hetero or straight passing relationship and just realized almost a year ago that I am bisexual. And I also did similar to you, I thought every girl would look at girls like that too or that my "girl crushes" were normal lol. it was more so, every girl looks at other girls and admires them/checks them out in my head at that time. But obviously I ended up realizing it was not normal how I was doing it lol.

  • @keylajuandediosloo6234
    @keylajuandediosloo6234 2 года назад +188

    1) the fact that I always felt the obligation of pick a boy to have a crush on him (cause my friends always talks about boys and i didn't want to be excluded)
    2) in every tv show or movie, I've always looked for the prettiest girl
    3) compare myself with other girls
    4) never want to dance with a boy or kiss him at a party
    (sorry for the bad english but it isn't my native tongue) hope these could help you to figure it out

    • @artsy.stay_
      @artsy.stay_ 2 года назад +14

      the first one tho- like same! I thought I had a crush on this one boy but I don't think it was real feelings

    • @psst_iSeeDeadPeople
      @psst_iSeeDeadPeople 2 года назад +11

      THE SECOND ONE IS SO FREAKING RELATABLE WHAT-

    • @Stay_Wild_And_Free
      @Stay_Wild_And_Free 4 месяца назад

      @@psst_iSeeDeadPeopleikr

  • @galpal
    @galpal 2 года назад +306

    1) the total lack of male celebrity crushes 2) the OVERWHELMING love for female celebrity crushes 3) the intense urge to be best friends with every female English teacher / Drama teacher / director / supervisor 4) always playing the "boyfriend" in pretend
    ...
    Yep, definitely gay! 😅💕🏳️‍🌈

    • @karolinakoziskova3634
      @karolinakoziskova3634 2 года назад +17

      Oh yeah. Number 3 is a must hahaha. 🙈 There is always something about female English teachers

    • @jannafreudenberg1878
      @jannafreudenberg1878 2 года назад +1

      Yaaas 100% obvious

    • @psst_iSeeDeadPeople
      @psst_iSeeDeadPeople 2 года назад +1

      Same for me-
      😰

    • @replying105
      @replying105 Год назад +2

      Number 2 I 100% felt that

    • @Sambocha
      @Sambocha Год назад +4

      I literally used to always play the boyfriend when I was a kid. I would always be the male characters when playing with my sisters 😅

  • @maryflowers3825
    @maryflowers3825 2 года назад +69

    This is so relatable, I remember being really uncomfortable when my friends were like “omg! (Insert man name) is so cute!” Turns out I was just gay lol

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  2 года назад +19

      I RELATEEEEE hahah and you'd try and be like "yeah sure ... they are" but you were just lying

  • @zellalaing5439
    @zellalaing5439 Год назад +40

    Im realising watching this how much religion and traditional attitudes created such a block for me to even entertain the question whether i was genuinely straight, the past few months have been eye opening finally taking that time to myself and reflect on everything and listening to other lesbians and finally realising why "my husband" to me sounds so unatural, because saying "my wife" fills me with happiness. Thats what i want, took me a while, but i finally feel happy i know who i am.

  • @vktrbnd
    @vktrbnd 5 месяцев назад +23

    I’ve never been embarrassed of a straight couple kissing in the show, but I was always obsessed with wlw couples, I would watch the whole show just for that couple, even though those weren’t the main characters

  • @Shae29
    @Shae29 2 года назад +95

    Before I realized that I was gay, I grew this obsession with the character Liesl from the movie The Sound of Music. Many people love her dress in the duet she sings with Rolf, but i definitely went to extra mile and tried to find a dress as close to hers, i memorized the choreography to the song and her scenes, and I even bought the actress’ books on the movie🙈🙈

    • @CamCoulombe
      @CamCoulombe 2 года назад +6

      Omg, i also had an obssession with her too😂🏳️‍🌈

  • @thewhiteparrot6611
    @thewhiteparrot6611 2 года назад +102

    I actually found out I was gay only this year as I learn more of different sexualities and the lgbtq+ community and got introduced into it by gay audios and also gay moments in movies/tv series and eventually trying to find out if I am gay through watching videos like yours and other gay content creators and that's when I realised that I am gay and honestly I am happy I am.
    And now to think about it I was never attracted to boys at all and I could never relate to my friends calling certain boys cute and when they talk about boys, I don't join in their conversations cause I really cannot relate and it doesn't sit right with me.
    Also there were also signs that I realised now that I had been gay since I was in primary school even though at that time I never knew what sexuality was. There was always this friend of mine that whenever I see her, I always felt this fuzzy feeling and always felt more awkward than normal when I am close to her and have trouble to even start or have a conversation with her cause I would I trip over my words really often.
    So yea now looking back at these moments it's probably cause I have a crush on her back in primary school. Anyways sorry for the lengthy comment but great video as usual Lauren! 😄

    • @replying105
      @replying105 Год назад +5

      My friends always talk obout about their boy crushes and I never seem to know the reason why so I just tell them I never had a crush and then will be all shocked about it.
      But now I feel like I might be lesbian

    • @thewhiteparrot6611
      @thewhiteparrot6611 Год назад +5

      @@replying105 rightt that's definitely a sign

  • @ameliatropman9729
    @ameliatropman9729 2 года назад +38

    I realized I was a lesbian this year and the biggest sign I was gay from when I was little was
    in preschool i wrote a story (well like i told it to one of the teachers at my preschool and they wrote it down for me) and the story was about two mermaid princesses who save the world and at the end they get married
    one of them was the same name as me and the other was the same name as my best friend

  • @Sophie-mi4cg
    @Sophie-mi4cg 2 года назад +36

    1) the time that I told my best friend that I didn't want to marry a boy in year 1
    2) the time that I had a boyfriend in year 7 and couldn't explain to him why I liked him
    3) I wrote a story with lesbians in it and I thought I was straight
    4) Lesbian couples made me really happy and I thought I was straight
    5) I had this one conversation with my dad in which I mentioned my future husband or wife (I thought I was straight)

  • @kates637
    @kates637 2 года назад +70

    your videos always have such a positive vibe

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  2 года назад +16

      aww this is so good to hear!! 🥰 this vid in particular was fun just to have a lil giggle at myself for being so oblivious

  • @plainoutnobody.justnobody597
    @plainoutnobody.justnobody597 Год назад +12

    When I was in kindergarten I remember thinking “if I were a boy I would have sooooo many crushes” and there was also this one celebrity who I was like “oh my god if I were gay I would like her”. The person was the person who played Meredith in the second parent trap

  • @donut1550
    @donut1550 2 года назад +52

    When I was little, I felt a certain attraction to girls and I think I knew I was bi the whole time, I just never realized it until recently. I feel like I 60% like girls and 40% like boys. Unfortunately my family is kind of homophobic 😞 and I still haven’t come out yet…

    • @gracacarvalho424
      @gracacarvalho424 2 года назад +10

      ❤️ on the same boat. I could never tell my family ..

  • @lani5315
    @lani5315 2 года назад +18

    The love hate relationship with Victoria secret was the deal breaker for me

  • @niat1221
    @niat1221 2 года назад +24

    Before I was introduced to any lgbt+ characters in tv shows and movies I had a harry potter obsession. When I talked with my friends about the cast everyone had a crush on daniel or tom and I just really liked Emma (I even had an ig fan page). I watched every single one of her movies, her interviews and now when I look back I realize how gay this was. Also, the first time I saw 2 girls kissing was on the tv series "the 100" and I was like girls can do that? I guess around that time I started questioning my sexuality. Anyways thanks for sharing this video and doing this content where a lot of people feel seen and comfortable while watching!

    • @abbymaddox7616
      @abbymaddox7616 2 года назад +3

      I remember having a huge crush on Emma Watson and doing the same thing.

  • @stupiddreamer1352
    @stupiddreamer1352 2 года назад +41

    I though it was just a coincidence, but since always my favorite characters were all girls, always, then, in school, I never felt anything for a guy, so everytime one was nice to me, I used to think I was falling for them... no, I just started liking them, in a friend way, because it was a point where there was like 5 guys, so yeah... everytime someone said "omg * male character/actor/person * is soooo attractive"... I couldn't relate to... When playing like a Family with friends, cousins... I was the dog... I never wanted a husband in the family, just a dog... my barbies? Lesbians, and yes, I had a male character, but they were lesbians anyway :)
    I thought I was bi, then pan, but no, just a lesbian, a lesbian who like her pan best friend but she just like me as her friend so... yeah... now I'm sure I'm lesbian

    • @gemmawilson9227
      @gemmawilson9227 2 года назад +6

      I was the same when i was younger. My mum has a memory of me getting a doll set from my grandma when i was 7 and it had a man, woman, two kids and a dog and my mum said i played with the woman, kids and dog and the man doll was lying on the floor at the other side of the living room lol

    • @stupiddreamer1352
      @stupiddreamer1352 2 года назад +2

      @@gemmawilson9227 xD

  • @daisyflower1545
    @daisyflower1545 2 года назад +52

    I had crushes on girl cartoon characters, had the biggest crush on Rihanna, thought kissing girls seemed much more fun than kissing boys, already knew I had no interest in marrying a guy when I was older infact I thought it would be the worst thing to ever happen to me, when I played Dollies I made my favorite doll gay and I made my sim gay when I played Sims.

    • @doratheexplorer87
      @doratheexplorer87 2 года назад +3

      I always make my sims gay

    • @aloha_lax
      @aloha_lax Год назад +1

      @@doratheexplorer87I don’t know how to make boy sims so all of them are gay

  • @mollyd95
    @mollyd95 2 года назад +65

    When I was obsessed with Twilight, I always said I was Team Alice. Definitely a sign! lol

    • @mollyd95
      @mollyd95 2 года назад +7

      And then when I was obsessed with The Hunger Games, I always said I was Team Katniss! ahaha

    • @emmabeck6642
      @emmabeck6642 2 года назад +5

      Oh me too. I always really liked Alice over all the others.

    • @nataliasoto0425
      @nataliasoto0425 Год назад +1

      I was obsessed with Willow and Tara from Buffy the Vampire Slayer 😂😂😂😂 I wanted Tara to be my gf!!!😂😂😂

  • @zalazkar2466
    @zalazkar2466 2 года назад +13

    There was this one girl in fourth grade and i wanted to do everything with her. I was definitely obsessed. Only now am i realizing that I had a crush on her.

    • @replying105
      @replying105 Год назад +2

      There was this one girl in the 5th grade and I was also obsessed with her. I I never thought of her as an actual crush just as some who I always thought about but now I realize the I'm a aro ace lesbian

  • @WynnK_
    @WynnK_ 2 года назад +6

    9:17 okay this is TOO relatable. I always thought I was just comparing. It’s nice hearing someone else had this experience!

  • @SoftieShortcake
    @SoftieShortcake 2 года назад +15

    thank you so much for this video, really. i relate so much to this whole video and it’s really helping with my comphet. to be honest, i really needed this, i’ve been so scared i’ve just been faking it for attention or that i haven’t “met the right guy,” or something- just, thank you so very much!

  • @ceekay3143
    @ceekay3143 Год назад +6

    Oh, I was late to my own sexuality! Being a fat nerd, it wasn't my focus at first. Then the anxiety and trauma meant I was REALLY avoiding potential dates and relationships - not that I was attracting much attention or was good at going places and socialising. Once a guy asked for my number and I panicked, said I didn't know it and needed to go check (I was travelling Europe, so this was true), then just stayed in my room for the rest of the night to avoid him.
    I distinctly remember walking across my uni campus and suddenly just being like "oh yeah, girls are an option for me too!". Like, my best friend and housemate was gay, and we had spent all our time at university hanging with the Queer Collective doing queer things, but it didn't really click that I could also have options?
    But almost every actor I would really admire for their "acting skills" was female. I wasn't obsessing over sex scenes or anything like that, but I would seek out and watch as much of their filmography as I could. Looking back, I think they might have been squishes (asexual crushes).
    TL;DR: I identify as queer (knew and accepted my weirdness before my sexuality, so it seems easy and makes sense). If you want to get specific, I would say panromantic demisexual.
    I didn't enter my first official relationship - or have my first kiss - until I was 33. I'm not sure if we're still in our relationship, taking a break to work on our own issues, or if we are officially broken up. Mental illness and neurodivergence be like that, I guess. I think we are better as friends, but they kind of do relationship things with their friends anyway, so I guess it doesn't matter as long as we are both happy and respecting each other's boundaries? True queer relationship mess lol.

  • @waltissussybakka
    @waltissussybakka 2 года назад +7

    Fuk...every gay has had a crush on their English teacher is relatable af 😭😭❤️....you spoke the words of the gods

  • @14..lily.y
    @14..lily.y 2 года назад +9

    And then there was me having “crushes” on guys bc I internally felt like I had to 😃

  • @hamontequila1104
    @hamontequila1104 2 года назад +6

    I discovered I was aromantic when I noticed that I had never had a romantic relationship or had a celebrity crush. Then jaiden animation released a video about being aromantic. Then it just hit me like a truck. I was aromantic!

  • @elliotmartin2710
    @elliotmartin2710 2 года назад +10

    I don’t know if I’m bi or lesbian because I know I’m attracted to women, and I think I’m lesbian because (specifically Tom Felton) I never found many boys attractive. But I can still see some celebrity boys and agree that they are attractive. So I’m on the fence about that. Also when you were talking about when someone asked you about your crush that reminded me that when I was younger I used to pretend to have crushes on boys in my class because I felt left out that all of my friends had crushed and I didn’t find any of them attractive.

  • @saml.purecats4695
    @saml.purecats4695 2 года назад +17

    I had the same experience about loving 6 girls at the same time in my childhood but for me, at 27, polyamory blew my mind and explained so many things of my life!

  • @nynkeoosterloo5469
    @nynkeoosterloo5469 Год назад +9

    why does every lesbian had a crush on their english teacher

  • @Cake-vf1xy
    @Cake-vf1xy Год назад +3

    i’m a pan female, and for as long as i can remember i have had an attraction to girls, but one i can most vividly remember was in 3rd grade, when i had a crush on my best friend. she was super nice and i guess i just never thought to much of it because i didn’t know what i was feeling and i thought it was normal to feel that way. now i’ve finally figured out who i am and i’m still trying to accept myself, so i hope someday i will feel good about my sexuality 🥹 i actually currently have a girlfriend and i think i’m actually starting to accept myself more 😄

  • @Jess-Rabbit
    @Jess-Rabbit 2 года назад +5

    I am bisexual and it took me a really long time to accept it. My best friend in high school was majorly homophobic and I'm pretty convinced that she is represing her own gay thoughts. But anyway, I remember there being girls in high school that I would almost get obsessed with and I'd want to be their friend so bad. I thought they were so cool and would get embarrassed to talk to them even though I used to be pretty outgoing. I convinced myself that I just wanted to be friends and I admired them or thought the way they dressed was fun. But now I realize I just had a crush and totally wished I could go out with those girls. I wish I realized it sooner.

  • @sloth_crew
    @sloth_crew 2 года назад +22

    Yayyy another great video, i love how you put all your time in to make videos for us. They are the best and thank you so much, I love your vids xx 🥰

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  2 года назад +5

      Awww THANK YOI SO MUCH I REALLY MEAN IT 🖤🖤🖤🖤

  • @gracep2910
    @gracep2910 2 месяца назад +1

    I HAD A GIANT POSTER FROM THE RUNAWAYS ON THE BACK OF MY DOOR! so relatable 😂

  • @evaaflower
    @evaaflower 2 года назад +5

    in primary school there was a phase where everyone had crushes on someone and because i wanted to fit in i made up a crush on that one boy and wrote our initials with hearts everywhere. little did we all know i didnt actually liked him xD

  • @r3i4lif3
    @r3i4lif3 8 месяцев назад +2

    I can't tell if im les but i've been showing like around all the signs. I'm thinking of coming out tonight.

  • @sophievul
    @sophievul Год назад +2

    I realised that I was gay not long ago. My main sign was my obsession with female characters. Like literally, I drew Twilight Sparkle from My Little Pony multiple times. This was when I was 6 or something. I also had a crush on Hermione Granger.
    Another sign was that I just chose a guy who I 'liked' randomly.

  • @Tezpovs
    @Tezpovs 2 года назад +5

    The fact I don’t have a clue what I am but I’ve been binge watching all these amazing videos you have ❤️❤️

  • @beanfishislistening
    @beanfishislistening Год назад +2

    About a week after I told my parents I liked girls, which i wasn't even worried about cause my mum used to joke about me being gay all the time, i overheard her talking to my dad and saying she always knew- 💀

  • @aditikrishna23
    @aditikrishna23 2 года назад +3

    whenever i watched a show/movie, i’d always force myself to be interested in the guys just bc all the other girls did 😭

  • @francescagruppuso8161
    @francescagruppuso8161 2 года назад +7

    It always makes me laugh. Cause I didn't have ANY male celebrity crushes growing up. Yet I didn't think anything of it. I was so oblivious😂

    • @veerasofia2499
      @veerasofia2499 2 года назад +2

      One day I scrolled ig and I noticed that it was full of Cardi B and Kylie and other women and then I was embarrased for looking that gay and tried so hard to find some good looking males to follow but couldn’t think of any 🤡 still took me months to figure out that I’m soooo gay

  • @gracechen2397
    @gracechen2397 2 года назад +5

    Yesss I relate so much to the buddy system thing. My buddy wasn’t there during one activity so one buddy had to pick me. I really wanted this one girl in particular to pick and when she did I tried not to show it but in my mind I git sooo happy and excited when she picked me.

  • @leorawong7552
    @leorawong7552 Год назад +2

    I used to like the color blue, purple and pink so much .i mean i still do lol and im currently bisexual lol

  • @airlea.
    @airlea. Год назад +1

    I relate to this so much! But up until recently I convinced myself that I was asexual and all of my crushes were just "girl crushes" and not *real* crushes!

  • @reikomei4557
    @reikomei4557 2 года назад +2

    Idk if I'm or not but I used to stare at the PRETTY GIRLS IN MY CLASS
    all the time.

  • @makyd6275
    @makyd6275 2 года назад +3

    YES for diaries!!! ♥ thank you so much for everything ♥

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  2 года назад +1

      IT'S FINALLY HERE!! just posted it!

  • @ashfellowpansexual7090
    @ashfellowpansexual7090 2 года назад +5

    Omg i can relate to most of this
    1) i like had a crush on a boy and a girl when i was in i think 5th-7th grade (didn’t know)
    2) i liked more than one boy at the same time (didn’t know)
    3) i never really felt like any gender(just found out like a week ago)
    (Im pan, Polyamorous, & Genderfluid) [She/They/He/It]
    💖🏳️‍🌈

  • @shadowisinsane845
    @shadowisinsane845 Год назад +2

    I have two memories from earlier in my life that were signs of my sexuality (I too am lesbian!)
    The first memory was when I was somewhere around 5-7.
    I'm not 100% sure if this memory is even real. Sometimes I wonder if I made it up, but it feels so vivid that I'm pretty sure it's real, and I honestly hope its real.
    I was going on a walk with my mom and my older cousin, I'm pretty sure we were going to the playground.
    For some reason we were talking about marriage and babies and all that crap.
    I remember I asked; "can I have babies with another girl?"
    This was years ago so i don't entirely remember everything (OBVIOUSLY I WAS LIKE 6), but if my memory is correct, my mom replied by saying that I'd hve to adopt.
    I really hope this memory was real and not just a dream or my imagination. I want to believe the fact my mom heard her 6 year old daughter ask if she could have babies with a girl, and reply nonchalantly by saying I'd hve to adopt.
    I'm still unsure of my moms stance on LGBTQ+ stuff (though I know shes transphobic, which is really upsetting) and I'm closeted to my parents, so I like to think back to this memory and hope that if I ever like,, asked if I could date a girl, she'd have a similar response.
    Anyways, my next lesbian-memory is something that only came back to me recently, and I find it SO FUCKING FUNNY
    I was 8. I had recently moved into the house I currently lived at, and there was a girl next door who I befriended. She was a friend of my cousin (same cousin from the last memory).
    I was at her house, likely having a sleepover (I think my cousin and another girl were there, but I'm not sure. We had a lot of sleepovers)
    I was playing this game called Episode, a choose your own adventure type of game that had tons of stories to live.
    I was playing the Episode version of Pretty Little Liars, a show my neighbor-friend had got me into (I looked back at it recently, and realized all the LGBTQ+ themes it had, which made me super excited. I guess I never recognized any of the gayness from when I was 8. I mainly just wish I knew how my neighbor-friend reacted to all the gay stuff. I do remember her covering my eyes whenever anyone kissed lmao).
    In the game it gave me the choice to choose the gender of my crush/love interest.
    I'm not entirely sure what went through my 8 year old brain, I either (very stupidly) assumed it was letting me choose my own gender, or maybe I'd subconsciously realized who I really am before even knowing what anything meant.
    I looked at the question of "what gender are you attracted to?" Looked at the two options, "male, and female", and clicked female.
    I vaguely remember being confused afterwards when I saw how my love interest was a female.
    I'm trying really hard to remember what was in my mind at the time. I think I was thinking that I liked girls, despite not even knowing that was possible at the time.
    Sooooo yeah. I really wish I had more memories of signs I was a lesbian. I've never been interested in singers or actors or celebrities, so I never had any celebrity crushes, and I don't remember finding any cartoon characters attractive.
    I've also only ever had one crush in my life, which was when I was 10 and thought I was bi (I sorta had a "crush" on two guys in the past, one of which was an asshole who hurt me a lot, and the other who is still my 'best friend' to this day, but I now know those weren't real crushes. They were either silly childhood crushes, or, more likely, me seeing everyone telling me how great of a couple we'd be and asking if I liked them, that it just made me assume I did (I never had many friends, I think I got confused and thought those platonic feelings I had for my two closest Male friends were more because THATS WHAT EVERYONE TOLD ME)
    Then I found out I had these feelings for a girl who was a close friend in late elementary school. She shipped me with my best friend, and I believed her, despite how I was always feeling super happy and occasionally nervous around her, and found her really pretty. (We were put into separate classes in middle school and drifted apart. I still talk to her sometimes, and I really hope shes happy and doing well, but my crush on her has fizzled out.)
    I am demiromantic (+ asexual), so I guess that explains my lack of crushes.
    This comment is way too long, I got carried away lmao

  • @Iwastoolatetochangemyhandle
    @Iwastoolatetochangemyhandle 6 месяцев назад +1

    I’m proving you wrong. I do not and have not had a crush in a teacher.

  • @user-cd5os1on3t
    @user-cd5os1on3t 2 месяца назад +1

    im gay and remember thinking hmmmm..... whos a relatively popular boy whos wayyy out of my league (making sure nothing will ever happen) and thought, yeah thatll do!! ended up faking this crush for about 1.5 years omg that was a stressful time...

  • @nicolenihon521
    @nicolenihon521 Год назад +2

    OMG YES to Gwen Stefani, I had posters of her with her abs out all over my wall! I even had her calendar and after each month I would add the photo to my wall XD
    I even had her perfume that smelt like Malibu alcohol and was obsessed with Japan and harajuki fashion too. I'm a bit older than you so I listened to No Doubt on repeat as a child and then was fully into her as a teenager when the album you referenced was released! I do the same thing as you when I look back at my childhood - liked all the girls on shows and not the men, and it still didn't click! Doesn't help that no one teaches you what a lesbian is as a child, very confusing!

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  Год назад +1

      oh my goddd, i cannot believe it wasnt just me! this has made me feel soooo much better about going through that as a tiny kid hahah i think by the time i was 13/14 i moved onto The Veronicas, then K-Stew lmao

  • @thisisafamilyshow8805
    @thisisafamilyshow8805 2 года назад +5

    I love how your videos are always so happy, they brighten my day

  • @jenaybrown4971
    @jenaybrown4971 2 года назад +3

    i think i knew i liked girls when this happened. i was at coles and me and my dad were pulling up to the register to pay for our food. the woman who was scanning our food for us was mad pretty and i think my heart like melted when i saw her. she was super nice and she kept talking to me and my dad. i litreally wanted to keep talking to her and kept trying to crack jokes to make her laugh. her hair was pretty, her eyes were so so blue, and her piercings matched her face shape really well. i litreally got nervous and sometimes like froze, because of how beautiful she was. my heart was like beating while talking to her lmaooo. we left and i litreally missed her as soon as we left. after that i kinda knew lmao :😭

    • @VeronicaSawyerOfficial
      @VeronicaSawyerOfficial Год назад +2

      i was walking through woolies and the most STUNNING girl with lovely blonde locks and hazel eyes passed me. i'm setting me standard too high 😭

  • @mysticballistichollyberrie3381
    @mysticballistichollyberrie3381 2 года назад +2

    When I played with dolls when i was seven I only played with the dolls as lesbian couples

  • @maggieo1683
    @maggieo1683 2 года назад +2

    Lol I had such a crush on Kristen Stewart in Twilight too! So many people discussed if they would rather Edward or Jacob and like you I usually said Edward because that was how it was in the books. But I remember being much more intrigued by Bella and thinking she was the most attractive character- lol

  • @oliviakarlsson1276
    @oliviakarlsson1276 2 года назад +4

    High School locker rooms mate, I would panic because I didn't know where to look 😂 all resulted in me changing in the bathroom instead and it was not out of insecurity ill tell you that 😂

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  2 года назад +1

      Awww hahah yeah I would corner myself in the very last change room (but I think it was more because I was very very insecure) 🖤

  • @veerasofia2499
    @veerasofia2499 2 года назад +1

    After already having a child and having been in a crappy relationship with the only guy who’s ever shown any interest at me one day watching Friends it kinda just popped in my head and I cried at my boyfriend I THINK I’M GAY 🥺🥺 I had always been thinking I’m just bi but I had become obsessed with the thought that I wanna be with women and for months I just googled Am I bi How do I know if I’m bi and I realized that I was watching every movies and series just staring the beautiful women and their bodies and when I finally got that I don’t have to be with men EVER I was just so relieved and so happy that I actually cried and smiled for a couple of days 🤯 I just wasn’t ready to accept the facts when I was a teenager cause I was bullied by my very toxic friends about everything I ever did but now I have the confidence to be who I am! It’s still very hard to give myself the permission to look at girls and I still feel like it was forbidden and wrong for some reason but I’m still so happy and much less depressed than ever 💪🏻

    • @veerasofia2499
      @veerasofia2499 2 года назад +2

      The signs in the past would be that I was very obsessed with Emma Watson, Kristen Stewart and other female actresses and singers, I was jealous when my friends had other friends and they weren’t completely mine, I felt so awkward changing clothes with friends and even family members, my clothing style has been kinda masculine my whole life and cool boys were my role models; I didn’t want to attract them but wanted to be seen as cool as them, I had ’crushes’ on boys that I just decided and complained that I can’t get them but never even bothered to try, I dated my (guy) friend and got very anxious when I agreed to date him, I thought he was just bad at stuff cause I wasn’t satisfyed, I didn’t like kissing, I didn’t get what’s the fuss about men cause I found them lame and stupid, I was 10 years old when my friends asked do I like girls or boys and I answered girls and then changed my answer cause they were like eww, I hated everything related to pride stuff, I told everyone that I’m so not gay even though I’m an electrician who fixed mopeds and drank beer and even started studying practical nurse stuff to not seem gay 🤡 so much effort to ignore all this and even my ex boyfriend didn’t realize this EVER

  • @irismagic4667
    @irismagic4667 Год назад +2

    "every single gay has had a crush on their English teacher" me thinking of my main English teacher like what, no I don't think i ever did....
    Think of my other English teacher : ohhh ye, ye i did

  • @Alliepenguins
    @Alliepenguins 2 года назад +1

    Biggest signs for me was when I was in kindergarten I asked every girl in my class to marry me rather than the boys, and I had an OBSESSION with Melanie Martinez for a few years

  • @Samanthagacha
    @Samanthagacha 4 месяца назад +1

    I know that I'm 2 years late.😂
    But I am trying to figure out my sexuality right now, and it's been kind of hard. I watched this vid and grabbed a paper and for every thing you said, I would put how much I could relate on a scale of 1-5. After taking watching vids, watching this video and thinking for a long time. I think I might be Lesbian... (It's exciting and scary at the same time🏳‍🌈
    😳)

  • @clauduchiha
    @clauduchiha 2 года назад +3

    For me it was when I confessed my crush on my best friend in middle school and her distancing herself and I was thinking what I felt was wrong

  • @tiffany.blewsXx
    @tiffany.blewsXx 2 года назад +2

    I saw a girl in my sisters grade so pretty at her grade 12 grand march that I started crying about it later💀

  • @Why_are_all_good_names_chosen
    @Why_are_all_good_names_chosen 2 года назад +1

    Omg this helped me so much!!
    I also had all these things in my childhood , i remember when my friends asked me who my crush was i just sayed a random name of a boy in our class now i know why i never was attracted to boys!

  • @julessjuul
    @julessjuul 2 года назад +5

    I am pretty sure I’m gay but I’m not out of the closet yet btw. But now I look back to my childhood and I think I just realized a huge sign 🤣 When I was younger I had a best friend and we used to play with dolls a lot. We always pretended that the male doll dated the girl. And I always wanted to be the boy. Now I realize I wanted to play the boy because that way I could kiss the girl 🤣🤣🤣
    Another sign for me is that I always wanted to play a guy on the sims so I could date girls 😀 (I didn’t know I could make the sims gay) But I think that’s also a sign?
    Oh another sign is that when I started watching porn I always watched the girl and never the boy.

  • @nikkimelo
    @nikkimelo 11 месяцев назад +1

    I think my biggest childhood sign (I'm still a kid tho lol) is the fact that I was literally 4/5 yrs old and I had watched twilight with my mom and like Bella was so beautiful that I started trying to find friends who looked like her.
    for me it's so funny bc I'm still friends with one of the girls (and no, she doesn't look a thing like Bella, but in my head she once did)

    • @nikkimelo
      @nikkimelo 11 месяцев назад +1

      Things that would usually come to my mind in 3rd grade (which was when some of my friends started talking abt boys and stuff. I always felt a little too childish bc i took a little longer to like someone) were "what if I ever like one of my girl friends" how would they react and if they would think I was weird.
      It took me very very long to like someone and the boy I started liking was the same boy my friend liked.
      And In 8th grade I started liking a boy just bc my friends told me he looked like my only male celebrity crush.
      Every boy I liked(2 lol) I stepped back once I had a chance with them... Which apparently doesn't happen with girls bc i actually try to talk to them and conquer them.
      I've always been obsessed with too many girls celebrities, idk why it took so long for me to figure things out lol
      Also every time I would watch a tv show (since very little) my favorite character would be a girl.
      I haaate this one, but when my friends and I were younger we used to shower together and I remember thinking like "I have to be careful and not look at them bc they may think I'm weird" but I was very young and I didn't care about their bodies 😭 I was just scared.

  • @kjartist494
    @kjartist494 2 года назад +1

    One sign for me:
    Realising that I'm obsessed over the Catradora ship and Lumity ship and Nicoangelo ship and obsessed with She-ra.

  • @thatonefrog5649
    @thatonefrog5649 Год назад +1

    Istg I literally just remembered this 🤣 so when I was younger (like 5 or 6) I used to be out shopping or whatever and I randomly sometimes thought about who I was going to marry when I was older bc I used to have a look around me and think, ‘well I don’t like any of these boys, I never get a crush on a boy! And in the movies the girls are like walking on the street and then they bump into a boy who they think is cute and they end up marrying each other in the end and I’ll need to marry some boy!’ I didn’t even THINK about being gay! I knew it was a thing, but I just didn’t ever think about it or include it as an option bc I was little yk lol. So I was like stressing in my head and I was like ‘I need to marry a boy! What if I never find a boy to marry?’ And I literally didn’t think anything of being gay and now I look back and I like: 👁 👄 👁 😂😂

  • @ellet4227
    @ellet4227 2 года назад +1

    So, I don’t know how many people know the game Episode, but basically it’s like a choose your own adventure type thing. Anyway, in most of the stories you were able to choose who you had as a S.O, whether it was a girl or a boy. I was like 9 or 10 at the time and I remember being really intrigued at the idea of having a girlfriend in the game, so, that is what I chose. I don’t know how I didn’t realise that it was gay but looking back I did a lot of gay crap like that that went way over my head

  • @fieryblaze1737
    @fieryblaze1737 Год назад +1

    I remember my first girl crush was Alicia Keys as a teenager and remember not being too much into boys at all like normal teenagers should have.

  • @bluecheshirecat13109
    @bluecheshirecat13109 2 года назад +5

    Yeah, thank you for the amazing video, loved it

  • @Poppy_viccytoria
    @Poppy_viccytoria 11 месяцев назад

    My signs: (found out at 13)
    1. When kids said ‘what boy do you like’ I was like, nope
    2. I liked about 4 of my teacher, obsessed, teachers pet but in a more flirty way.
    I have had a crush on my English teacher, my current one. She really defends LGBTQ+ community and has amazing hair and I could talk about her for hours. Also summer one of the maintenance people, she’s gay and is the ONLY person other than my friends that know/knows to this day

  • @LenaKovacevic-g4b
    @LenaKovacevic-g4b Месяц назад

    when i was a kid I chose who I liked I was basically like :”oh everyone has a crush hmmm I’m gonna have a crush on Max”idk why I did this 😭😭😭

  • @LIlyMason-yf2ew
    @LIlyMason-yf2ew 9 месяцев назад

    I remember when I was eight, my friends asked me what my dream guy looked like. I sincerely made it up completely because I just... I don’t know... didn’t know??
    I also remember being obsessed with Marceline and Princess Bubblegum, their relationship....
    I was so desperate to be them, I always thought about that and I wanted it for myself!
    Fast forward to now and I’m living my childhood dream with my girlfriend ❤

  • @al-muwaffaq341
    @al-muwaffaq341 6 месяцев назад +1

    As a gay Muslim man I've ben trying to reflect as this is somethin I've buried down my whole life

  • @StrayKidsAreSlayKids
    @StrayKidsAreSlayKids Месяц назад +1

    I dont know in im lesbian or bi, so i just use sapphic for myself(im closeted btw), but i dont know how i didnt know i was gay. When i would imagine a wedding i saw a girl, i would always (and still) imagine kissing a girl, like that was normal. I dont ever see men in my fantasies, but ive had one male crush,so idk if im bi?

  • @annyway5636
    @annyway5636 2 года назад +1

    and i've been obsessed with this girl from my school since i was 13

  • @A_DAM_PROBLEM_ANDREW
    @A_DAM_PROBLEM_ANDREW Год назад +1

    When I was like 7 or 8 my mom and dad walked into my room while I was listening to I kissed a girl and I recently came out as bi to my parents a few months ago and now it's I've seen the signs, there are so much more to lol. (I'm a teenager now)

  • @ameliepfeiffer7432
    @ameliepfeiffer7432 2 года назад +1

    OH MY GOSH BUT I ALSO HAD A THING FOR CHARLIE FROM HI-5 AIOWAIJI!!! Also, I had a huge thing for Katie McGrath after watching Merlin and also really like Clara Oswald from Doctor Who. I had a poster, and like your pillow, I would kiss it goodnight... I was so gay haha

  • @wannabeasquid1138
    @wannabeasquid1138 2 года назад +3

    I was wondering, do straight girls search throughout these type of videos?
    Also I question how straight girls find boys attractive

  • @ultimatetoelicker
    @ultimatetoelicker 2 года назад +2

    A childhood sogn for me is in 1st grade there was a sub for the gym teacher and he had abs and muscles and stuff and all my friends were like "omg hes so hot" and i was like "yep.." i didnt like him lol

  • @hansmuller340
    @hansmuller340 2 года назад +3

    I would love to see a video of you reading diaries

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  2 года назад

      I just uploaded it!!! better late than never heeh

  • @alltoounwell
    @alltoounwell 2 года назад +3

    the english teacher thing is real

  • @nataliasoto0425
    @nataliasoto0425 Год назад +1

    I really enjoyed yor video😂😂!! Reminds me when I was 5 years old and I always played with boy toys cars, water guns, hulk, he man toys, cowboys etc. It always felt weird my mom and dad let me play with it. I think they were ahead of time 😂😂. I used to play with my friend who was a boy and we changed roles and today Im a lesbian and he is gay so it was true😂😂😂. Many, many stories we can tell!! Take care!! 😊😊

  • @annyway5636
    @annyway5636 2 года назад

    I'M 14 AND I AM SOOOO OBSESSED WITH SADIE SINK AND ESPECIALLY WITH THE CHARACTER SHE PLAYED IN STRANGER THINGS (MAX MAYFIELD)

  • @e7267
    @e7267 2 года назад +1

    A huge sign for me was creating myself in the sims and creating my perfect lesbian family

    • @replying105
      @replying105 Год назад +1

      Now imagine that but in gacha club form

  • @yooooooobrooooo
    @yooooooobrooooo Год назад

    how did i only just realize i was lesbian like a month ago with ALL THESE SIGNS LOL whenever i watch movies or read books im always wanting to hear about the women and ive gotten those obsessions with my friends where id like some more than others because i thought they were pretty… how did i never register thissss

  • @thenerdnmk
    @thenerdnmk 2 года назад +1

    As a straight man, my only cartoon character crush was Daphne from Scooby-Doo.

  • @Nevaeh586
    @Nevaeh586 Год назад +1

    I’m gay and I’m so scared to come out to my mom

  • @katekat4522
    @katekat4522 2 года назад +1

    I came out accidentally a few days ago to my mom (though still in the closet to everyone else). Happy pride month :D

  • @moonbaby3334
    @moonbaby3334 Год назад +11

    My signs from childhood is 1) my mom had a girl friend and i find her pretty and i always gave my dolls her name
    2)i was obsessed with ariana grande
    3) when i was playing dolls i always kiss one barbie with other barbie and also they had sex (idk why i knew how it work)

  • @cierajones4847
    @cierajones4847 Год назад

    I remember I use to just get excited whenever Vanessa (Phineas and Ferb) showed up and I didn't know why. I also never made my barbies have a husband (I literally just cut one of the barbies hair short and have them marry if they ever did-). And I too never knew what it felt like to "like-like" anyone. I just know I liked the way girls looked (and was "interested" in what they looked like without- yk. When i was like 10 or 11) And just watching the 2019 Charlie's Angles just to see Kristen stewart and I was still clueless as to why. And I also ended up crushing on Gwen Stacy (Spider-Man into the spiderverse) when I was 13. Still didn't know why. (Tbh I didn't know about the lgbtq community till I was 15). And the thought of devoting my love to a guy never rlly sat right with me. And at the time, I didn't think I had a choice. So I just thought I would never get married. And then I found out about lgbtq n stuff and it all started making sense. (Geez this was a long paragraph)

  • @sloth_crew
    @sloth_crew 2 года назад +4

    Can you please read your old diaries, it could be part of the 12 gays of Christmas. It would a great idea and would be a very creative video

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  2 года назад +4

      I would loveeee to! I’ll have to do some digging to find the hay things because I’ve got years YEARS worth of writing. The last 2 videos for the 12 gays will be one with my sis and then the Q&Gay, but I could def do it after the series 🥺

    • @sloth_crew
      @sloth_crew 2 года назад +3

      @@laurenelloise yayyy can’t wait to see it, and I don’t want the 12 gays of Christmas to end. It’s my favourite series

    • @laurenelloise
      @laurenelloise  2 года назад +2

      :’)) aww this is so sweet!

    • @sloth_crew
      @sloth_crew 2 года назад +3

      @@laurenelloise your the best xx 🥰

  • @alexiscryne6399
    @alexiscryne6399 Год назад +1

    I'm having trouble figuring out whether im bi or a lesbian anyone have any advice?

  • @TotallyxKatiee
    @TotallyxKatiee 7 месяцев назад +1

    All my sims were gay when I was a kid….

    • @Bingo-yj9pg
      @Bingo-yj9pg 5 месяцев назад

      I wish I could be this open about being a gay guy it's embarrassing

  • @sziszi2.023
    @sziszi2.023 Год назад +1

    I only have gay cuples in the sims4😅 i guess 1 more sing that im gay😄

  • @artsy.stay_
    @artsy.stay_ 2 года назад +1

    me and my friends would play 'family' and there would always be a female 'husband' and nobody said anything about it, we just went along with it. another thing is that I would only obsess over female characters/singers/actors. also, I find my english teacher pretty even though she's getting married in july. and when I was in year 5, once I found a girl a year younger than me pretty. I also always skipped over straight kiss scenes in movies/tv shows. another one is that I have two collages of two ofmy favorite singers (Ariana grande and Billie eilish) but i also liked girl in red before I found out I was gay. and my Barbie's... even though I had a male, they would ALWAYS be lesbian. there's way more signs I was gay but those are the ones I'm willing to share.
    also, I would ALWAYS play the 'husband' role in the family game....
    DEFINITELY GAY

  • @Tvdfanpraypetrova
    @Tvdfanpraypetrova 2 года назад +1

    I knew at age 8 and its hard knowing so long

  • @ianlee4565
    @ianlee4565 2 года назад

    I myself am not a member of the LGBTQ+ community (I at least don’t think I am unless you count *very* strong allies as members. I have *so many* LGBTQ+ friends as I’m a junior in Uni where so many people are figuring out these sexual things for the first time, but I myself have always had crushes on girls ever since Kindergarten.)
    I am an English major at my Uni and I always have ideas for books I want to write (and sometimes do). One of my favorites is a lesbian edition of TFIOS set in my hometown (I keep trying to decide exactly how I want to write it-waffling between prose/poetry, but those are constants) I found your Siblings/Dating video, then your how to come out, and now this, and it’s all been so helpful in making sure that I represent the relationship between Sophia and Addison (my two MCs) as authentically as possible and I just wanted to thank you.
    Also, the video of your diary entries sounds like it would be incredibly interesting-and I’m not just saying that because it would help me write my book (as it currently stands it’s all diary entries written by my MC Sophia.)
    Thanks again, Lauren.
    Love from America (specifically Michigan)

  • @waltissussybakka
    @waltissussybakka 2 года назад +1

    Hopefully you can relate to some of them... Are you kidding me I can relate to all of them

  • @evee6100
    @evee6100 3 месяца назад

    I was so dumb too I was obsessed with a german charakter Carla columna for years and I didnt notice it.