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"I have not seen war or starvation or abuse first hand, all I've done is cry in my own weakness at witnessing others experience such things" storry of my life right there
I deeply relate to Violet, not because of her backstory as a tool of war, but because of her social struggles. When Violet survives and is given a new chance at life, she only knows how to interact with people in a direct and logical way, which makes a lot of the people around her feel that she's cold, rude, unfeeling, etc., when in actuality she has incredible emotional depth but doesn't know how to express it. I relate to this because I'm on the spectrum, and I've had a similar experience of having my logical and matter-of-fact way of communicating misunderstood as coldness, lacking empathy, even creepiness. Violet's journey of overcoming these challenges and learning to relate to others on an emotional level is one I'm still on myself, and probably always will be.
This show is a slow burn. An emotionless person learns what "I love you", AND overall emotions, mean through several episodes. When she feels, you feel it too. Of course the OST is just BEAUTIFUL. And visuals? well just look at it. Exeptional anime. Ive never before or since cried so hard that I had to stop watching.
This is one of those series I’m very drawn towards but I just can’t bring myself to take the plunge knowing it’s going to cut to my core one way or another. That happened after I read Goodnight Punpun for the first time and I get that same feeling of awe and dread whenever I hear about Violet Evergarden
@@ProfessorViral truth is I did watch one episode in particular: episode 10. I was floored. I thought of that not long after my grandma died and I felt like I was stabbed. I’m not planning on having children but the thought of being in that position as a parent enraptures and terrifies me. So despite a quick glance into the mirror I was shocked at what I saw, but I’m still drawn towards it.
I wonder why sometimes. I think it's because I had my excitement used to judge me as a child, and I never quite recovered from that. I just stopped showing it
"She is no longer watching humans, she is human." Man. That's like... "Goals" right there in just a few words, isn't it? Not just for characters of this archetype, from Violet all the way back to Frankenstein's monster from the novel.
I don't usually comment on videos, but this video personally hit really hard for me. Over the past few years my mental health has deteriorated and I struggle to express my emotions because of the fear of being a burden upon the people I love, and repressing my emotions has caused me to barely feel any at all. Sometimes I wonder if I'm truly a normal human being because I feel so isolated and different from other people. I related to a lot of the things you said in your video on a personal level. Anyway I'm sorry for the long comment but I really really like this video, and I'm glad you make these videos. Your channel is great and watching this video made me realize I'm not alone, and that maybe I'll be able to get through this. Thank you, and I hope you have a great day :)
I've always been a deeply emotional AND a deeply rational person. I do a fair bit of academic writing, which has taken a toll on me because I cannot include myself in the work. It hurts me to have things to say, things I believe will help people connect with the material, but can't because of expectations and posturing. It's a very good thing to include your story and I've gotten a lot from you sharing yours :)
I don't get how you do it, posting these insanely well written and well edited videos at such a regular basis. I love the fact you don't shy away from harder topics to tackle and give your own take on things. Your videos have helped me place things in my life I previously had no clue how to handle. These videos encourage you to think, which you don't encounter that often in this dopamine driven era dominated by soul sucking apps like tiktok. I genuinely hope more people find your content because your channel really deserves it, especially considering the quality AND quantity of videos are unlike any other individual creator I've seen before. Thank you for your videos and have a nice rest of your day.
I knew this was gonna be an emotional vid cuz it’s a professor viral vid on violet evergarden but when you started talking about yourself it made it even more emotional we love the videos professor. Can’t wait to see the channel grow ❤️
"I desire simple things that i can hold and understand. Everything else is overwhelming." I wish i could tell that to everyone i met, thats exactly how i feel
Hey boss! Just wanted to say these theme and ideology reviews are crushing it. Incredibly well edited and researched and produced in an entertaining way. Keep it up!! Your vids got me through a tough day at lab today!
I just finished binging the show in three days. I was crying the whole time, but I felt guilty about it because a lot of people called the show ‘chep’ or ‘hollow’. You justified my feelings about Violet’s story by putting them into words, and gave me closure regarding this story. Thank you so, so much.
Wow. When you opened up about your personal experiences, I started crying. A lot of what you said is very relatable to me too. That, and the title of this video helped me understand a little more why I love Violet Evergarden so much. Thank you so much. My heart goes out to you.
I like this story because it reminds me of being raised assigned wrongly male to not feel and be a warrior soldier someday. I have the same problems as her and now I am living as a woman it is hard for me to adjust after so long of repressing who I really was as a female in my mind. I have wartime like P.T.S.D. Terribly nightmares of things done to me or I had to do to survive as a male. Like me, she was not allowed to be a girl and grow into a woman though her body unlike mine is only female. My body tries to be female and I had breasts and hips like a girl at puberty. I was stuck in between two worlds. And now I am learning to love as and be a woman. I still have trouble showing emotion though I am so like a female. I feel overwhelmed as I never learn to be a female tell I was much older. I wanted to be a US Navy seal. Being Transgender and my heart-giving me problems kept me from doing so. I hung with Hell Angels bikers and was on the streets in the middle of gunfights and a lot of trouble like it was a war in the 1990s on our streets going on. I was always ending up in the middle of bad things happening in my life to survive as a male. Used and abused to death. And yet I survive all that. Now I am a woman everyone thinks I am innocent and naive. Little do they know what I have been through that was like hell. Everyone treats me like some kind of angel to be protected. Yet I was once the badass male you did not mess with. It is very confusing for me at times. I am this whole other person. A loving and caring female I always really was now. Those memories of the past of me living as a warrior male seem like someone else's and not mine. I have been dead and came back many times. Been stabbed and shot. Burned badly and broken. Yet here I am still alive. Only hope kept me going I would not give up on of myself someday being the woman I was inside my mind.
I have to admit that stories with premises like Violet Evergarden AKA Humanizing a living weapon are those that i am a sucker for, and Violet Evergarden is VERY WELL WRITTEN i fucking cried at the birthday letter episode.
I joined the Violet Evergarden Subreddit writing thing something, I don't know how to say what it was... You sent in an application for a letter and you had to write a letter for someone else. And now? I have been writing to people, I always wanted to talk to again, but never knew how to approach them again. Maybe you can try it out as well, the first ever written letter by Violet was only "I am happy you are still here" and it was the meaning that's important in a letter. I don't want to step out of line here, but why not write a letter to your father, your family, your friends... Just saying "I love you, I admire you, even if I know I might show those emotions in a different way"? It's a small thing but it's impact is massive, a letter has a special meaning these days and you can take as long as you want. And really, I felt the same in your video as when I was watching Violet, just like you were saying in the video. I feel shit for hearing your story, I feel pity, but hearing your story also gives me a sense of pride, because you do something you love right now, but also... Well, I was mentally abused by my father for the first 16 years of my life, knowing now that I can feel love, the love for anime, my job, but also the love for the people around me. And if all else, I wish to be your friend, just by watching your video's, I admire you, if you were a really shy and inward facing kid in your youth? I wish I could start a youtube channel and talk so confidently to the "internet". I never thought you had this more... Sensitive? Side to you if you never started talking about it, so... Thank you for being so open about yourself!
I was born with feelings, and they were worn bare over the course of of many years. And my ex managed to get the final stroke. My emotions were dead and forgotten. Other than a insatiable, numb void The most recent chapter of my life has been about creating a new person, because the person I was has been lost to time. Learning emotions is hard. My missed step is that I learned about fear, pain, loss, hopelessness, and loneliness before I even learned about happiness. Thought that smiles were stupid. It almost killed me. Then I watched Violet Evergarden. It helped so much. I felt so close to her. Living with the scars of Military service sucks. And I learned so much as she got better. Now I am human. It is time to live.
Thank you! Thank you for sharing your story (which I can very much relate to), Thank you for creating such wonderful videos, but most of all: Thank you for being you
Thank you, ProfessorViral for sharing your thoughts on, and life's experience watching Violet Evergarden. I decided to watch this video for comfort as I've recently finished the story and am slowly taking it all in. The way you've expressed your feelings through words truly touched my heart and encapsulated parts of what I felt, learnt and immersed myself in through my own experience watching this heartfelt anime. Watching this video enlightened me on another personal perspective and understanding of VE which made me re-feel and reflect on my own emotions and philosophy. Thank you, again, for sharing your story.
I've never quite been the quiet kid more so the weird kid. I've grown into becoming the queit young adult with a goofy optimistic side. I've never been all too good with being able to read people emotions or to articulate what they feel in real life. I've always been clumsy with words too. Words always been one of my biggest weaknesses. Yet plenty of people, mainly far older adults (ranging from 40 to 60), have come to me to just talk and vent. While a few teenagers have come to me, one a complete stranger, to help calm them down and to talk them out of their suicidal thoughts. (I know I've saved 3 different people lives by just listening and offering kindness.) They've always tell me they feel a bit better after talking to me. This is one of the reasons why I personally relate to Violet and why I fell in love with this story.
This anime had me in tears on so many occasions. I really felt for violet but the ending was so heartwarming when she and the major united at the end I still breakdown in tears when I re-watch that scene.
I understand that comenting in a video like this more than a year after it's publication is a shout into the void. However I find myself compelled to write this nonetheless. To say I stubled into this video just when I needed it is an understatement. Lately I find myself condemning my own emotionality. I have always been rational above anything and yet that made me feel unfit to be human. So I tought myself how to be emotional by repetition. As silly as that may sound, it worked. But after years of heartbreaks I feel as if maybe I made a mistake. Seeing this video however made me remember why I want to be emotional. The desire to be human is intrinsically human, no matter the journey or its method. Thank you for reminding me that we are not alone, we are all human even if our own hands may feel cold and mechanical at times.
You earned my Sub several videos ago, keep up the good work. my advice to how to handle the "You changed my life" messages is, enjoy the fact that you have done good for your fellow human beings. Oh and don't worry about understanding everything, just enjoy that you are alive and experiencing this crazy and wondrous world.
I recommend watching the OVA and the movies. In order: The OVA ( an extra episode); Eternity and the auto memory Doll ( for world building); Violet Evergarden the movie. ( for the conclusion of the story.) they are all connected and I think they’re just as good as the series.
i just found your page recnetly and have been watching tons of your old videos, and as you started warming up that heart of yours to more than pschological type anime, i saw you enjoyed some emotional ones, and kept thinking "this guy needs to watch violet evergarden" and then, you post it today! woah :O hahaha
I've been on a weird mix of the two recently I guess. I watched Violet Evergarden a while back, and after my first video really wanted to make this one, but just wasn't sure how to. Guess I figured it out haha
You can never think your way through an emotion, but when they themselves confuse us it can be troubling… It’s a leap of faith, you can’t live life avoiding negative things or else you’re living only half a life my friend. To love another, you must love yourself or else how else could you know what that means. How do you see yourself as a human being; for me personally I remember feeling a massive detachment from my body, and over time I realized that I can channel that to create. While I create my emotion come back to be and I can teach myself how to feel again. But what I do, what to do??? Create the world you want to see, be the best person you could ever be, to be the change you want to see in the world. In a world of chaos, the only point of control and obligation is to yourself at its simplest, however it is your duty to the world you barrow form from to be the best person you think you could ever be. Reach for a dream that’s so big it’s a pipe dream, but I’m doing that anything you create is by nature a small aspect of that reality. And little by little and over time you might see a world worth living and fighting for. I believe im you
You have to GO BEYOND, and that means to go beyond what you think you can do even if just one step at a time, and by doing that you be yourself but PLUS ULTRA. To do the impossible, you have to see the invisible. That means to picture it in your mind, row row fight the power. Break the roof and you’ll see the truth, touch the untouchable, (make your dreams a reality) and break the unbreakable… ALL RAW LIMITS, my guy you’ve got everything you need with you, but you yourself have to see these tools you have for the value of your life. Rap is a man’s soul, so I ask you. What is your soul, what IS THE DRILL you have been given?
I have never written a comment before but Your along with Beyond Ghibli’s video essays are the only ones to stick with me long after it’s over and make me a better person
Violet Evergarden is beloved in military circles, but bringing it up in casual conversation is almost taboo, because the story hits uncomfortably close to home. The idea of returning home and remembering how to be human is one that a lot of us identify with on a personal level. We see ourselves in Violet, and it hurts. There's healing in the pain, but that doesn't make it any more pleasant to experience. This might be the best show I've never once been tempted to revisit.
In my overview, anime has given us a perspective on how to be humans and what roles were like for them to experience the same as anyone else would in the real world. 😥
your cyberpunk video and, especially this one, really resonated with me and why these shows mean a lot to me on such a personal level. You’re good at these, I really appreciate them
God everytime I watch your vids it's like a life lesson. Both your script and the way you story tell hits home. I always say you deserve more subs by the quality of the videos. Keep it up
Professor viral is my auto anime doll. You've gotten me into some excellent anime and then provided passionate Shakespeare esque videos that let me see them in new ways. Keep up the great vids
Wow, genuinely never thought I would encounter another person who's exactly like me in how they perceive their connection to the world. Nothing "happened" to me but I am autistic and possibly alexithymic. Anything someone would normally "feel", I mostly just think. I have plenty of words to describe these concepts in length, and even have a special interest in psychology, but I truly cannot grasp the instincts of human connection that create webs of people who know and love each other. How people stay securely in those webs without enormous levels of mental effort. I swear it's like I'm missing something so obvious and tangible, like a bone or an organ. Aren't I just supposed to _know_ how to be a person?
I love your work man. I have always learned through fiction it broadens the scope of how I understand and reflect on the world. I think at the end of the day we're all learning to be human. Taking in new things to fill ourselves with. Whether in our day to day interactions or through our consumption of fiction .
There is no underlining reason to be with someone other than it makes you both happy It might not make you happy all the time but thats with everything, nothing is a constant flow of one thing. Any other reason to give is personal But at the end of the day it’s just you know you are better person with that person. But I feel these steps work back to back You can’t skip steps So if you can’t find that happiness without them then you will struggle to see it with the white noise that is love You must be able to blindly notice what these feelings are before you can do these things fully and have it work. You can never skip steps . . Always work on baby steps . . If something feels like it’s too much . . Then it is and you need to take a step back and look for what you missed You will always miss something
This anime absolutely destroyed me. I don't think I'll ever relate to another show on the same level... I wasn't a child soldier, but I spent what would've been a childhood fighting and struggling to survive, becoming nothing but a tool following the directions given by the people who were supposed to raise me. Just like Claudia observes in Violet, my body is still on fire and I have so many burns.
@@ProfessorViral I was, a young and fresh soldier 2 years ago. One who's loved ones had either left him, betrayed him, or wanted him to take sides in a pointless conflict. I had signed 6 years of my life away to a country that I was watching burn itself to the ground. Everything I did Everything I put my heart into was just never enough.... I sat alone in a house for a year, content with mere existence and nothing more untill this show and my best friend picked me up and showed me that I had done plenty. And that I wasn't alone. I'm still learning to be a good writer and I enjoy, for the lack if a better phrase, picking things apart much like you do in this video. I hope I can do as well as you have done on this video one day. But untill the thank you.
what does it mean to be human - what is a human -- questions that you get asked in "shiki". i highly recommand you the anime "shiki". watch it! you willl love it!
I need to watch the movie, after the famous cliffhanger of the last episode, i still remember how people thought him may being back ruined the whole anime
Love is a strange word. How we apply it is vauge. Do I love my family or do I just tolerate them? What is it like to love a job? What type of content do I love to watch? Do I even love myself? Its agonizing to even try to find an answer to these questions.
I still haven't seen this anime as I'm trying to find the movie which technically is just two episodes extended so I can see the anime and both movies in one go. Also could you take a look at 3d kanojo real girl the dub is just called real girl, I found it to have some similar things to your lie in April but it's still different
Look man I got stuck on understanding people and why they work the way they do, what I found is that you can’t structure it and you can’t break it down to a complete structure. It’s random and difficult to make sense it’s something you have to just live and learning to understand why someone did those actions in the moment because those decisions are a conglomeration of years and years of choices and outcomes and you can never understand them fully. So stop searching for a logical method as when it comes to emotion logic is swept aside and feeling is the only path to understand why or how someone came to that decision.
id somewhat argue that emotions actually can have some kind of structur: emotions are chain recations(which i would classify as "structures")->sometimes as simple as having missed your train and then being grumpy about it. it gets complex if you factor in the persons personality and everything else tho->its better to then focus on that situation/scenario alone rather than find a formular that works on everyone / maybe dont even think about the emotions/feelings at all and focus on the situation that caused it (for both pos and neg emotions). (its also good to keep in mind that some things have a bigger impact on one than the other/everyone takes things differently.) i do agree that its best to not get hung up with things that dont make sense however long you think about it, regardless of what topic. (unless its literally your job or something)
@@bruhmoment2electricboogalo951 but to see it as a structure, as a script is not good. It’s one way to be able to visualize and recognize those patterns, but it’s not the same nor will it prepare you for the actuality of it.
@@ZoulStar oh ok, makes sense too :0 i personally am already fine with said pattern/i havent had any problems with those somehow. i usually really just see things as simply "this person is sad because this happened: what will you do to help them (if you want to)?"->classic problem solver mentality as far as im aware. but then again, i usually always do things that way, so i might have just skipped anything bigger, where that thought process cant apply/couldnt even recocnize it. (sorry if im missinterpretings stuff (again))
@@bruhmoment2electricboogalo951 Don’t worry about it, it’s fine. You’re not misinterpreting anything. Recognizing/being aware of the situation is always great. Dealing with issues is the matter of the problem, and it’s not a matter of solving, where is that you’re trying to seek out resolutions in the moment to help you get past it and continue on. When it comes to these sorts of things, for me, I tend to focus in on myself to realize my capabilities; my strengths and weaknesses. If the problem is outside my expertise, I ask for help from others that I know I can rely on, to give me advice. Sometimes it’s a matter of perspective and you need others to remind you of who you are, or what’s important and trust in yourself to make the right decision in the end. It’s your life after all. No one else’s to choose for.
Your description of your personal experience of interpersonal relationships makes me wonder if you'd benefit from seeking a diagnosis of autism. If you indeed have it then your experience of emotions and people is actually normal and healthy. Though given that you're in the USA it might be difficult (see: incomprehensibly expensive) to get a diagnosis. If you can try to find an autistic community near you, you might find a place where you actually get and connect with the people there.
For me this is the worst anime I ever seen I stops on ep 5 this is so wrong how could an anime studio make an anime like that on public thus is so disgusting why they are marrying kids wth he have 25 years and he love a 14 years kid this is so wrong why does anyone talked about that?
No one enjoys that about the anime, but it's taking a somewhat historical stance, and never once sexualizes or even implies something of the sort between those characters with large age gaps. Again, I don't enjoy it. But a lot of anime characters are around 14 and receive a lot creepier treatment
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"I have not seen war or starvation or abuse first hand, all I've done is cry in my own weakness at witnessing others experience such things" storry of my life right there
the most we can do is use that to try and help those we can, I guess
It’s not all it’s cracked up to be trust me, just vile ppl doin vile shit.
I deeply relate to Violet, not because of her backstory as a tool of war, but because of her social struggles. When Violet survives and is given a new chance at life, she only knows how to interact with people in a direct and logical way, which makes a lot of the people around her feel that she's cold, rude, unfeeling, etc., when in actuality she has incredible emotional depth but doesn't know how to express it. I relate to this because I'm on the spectrum, and I've had a similar experience of having my logical and matter-of-fact way of communicating misunderstood as coldness, lacking empathy, even creepiness. Violet's journey of overcoming these challenges and learning to relate to others on an emotional level is one I'm still on myself, and probably always will be.
Also, I relate to YOU a lot tbh
Dealing with people is the source of awkwardness
This show is a slow burn. An emotionless person learns what "I love you", AND overall emotions, mean through several episodes. When she feels, you feel it too. Of course the OST is just BEAUTIFUL. And visuals? well just look at it. Exeptional anime. Ive never before or since cried so hard that I had to stop watching.
This is one of those series I’m very drawn towards but I just can’t bring myself to take the plunge knowing it’s going to cut to my core one way or another. That happened after I read Goodnight Punpun for the first time and I get that same feeling of awe and dread whenever I hear about Violet Evergarden
It hits hard for sure. It's one of the few series to make me cry, and with single episode characters at that
@@ProfessorViral truth is I did watch one episode in particular: episode 10. I was floored. I thought of that not long after my grandma died and I felt like I was stabbed. I’m not planning on having children but the thought of being in that position as a parent enraptures and terrifies me. So despite a quick glance into the mirror I was shocked at what I saw, but I’m still drawn towards it.
Media is consumed. Art consumes you and changes you. Take the plunge and just be open minded to feelings. This series was banging
Take the plunge. Violet Evergarden is simply outstanding, a true masterpiece. It's an emotional catharsis. also... it ends well.
That bit about not wanting to express too much emotion so that you could deny feeling it hits hard
I wonder why sometimes. I think it's because I had my excitement used to judge me as a child, and I never quite recovered from that. I just stopped showing it
@@ProfessorViral I think its the same case for me
"She is no longer watching humans, she is human." Man. That's like... "Goals" right there in just a few words, isn't it? Not just for characters of this archetype, from Violet all the way back to Frankenstein's monster from the novel.
I don't usually comment on videos, but this video personally hit really hard for me. Over the past few years my mental health has deteriorated and I struggle to express my emotions because of the fear of being a burden upon the people I love, and repressing my emotions has caused me to barely feel any at all. Sometimes I wonder if I'm truly a normal human being because I feel so isolated and different from other people. I related to a lot of the things you said in your video on a personal level. Anyway I'm sorry for the long comment but I really really like this video, and I'm glad you make these videos. Your channel is great and watching this video made me realize I'm not alone, and that maybe I'll be able to get through this. Thank you, and I hope you have a great day :)
If expressing emotions is a burden, then their not real family
I've always been a deeply emotional AND a deeply rational person. I do a fair bit of academic writing, which has taken a toll on me because I cannot include myself in the work. It hurts me to have things to say, things I believe will help people connect with the material, but can't because of expectations and posturing. It's a very good thing to include your story and I've gotten a lot from you sharing yours :)
Violet Evergarden is simply amazing! I need to watch the movie!
Same here still 😅
As a Veteran, I LOVE Violet so much!
I don't get how you do it, posting these insanely well written and well edited videos at such a regular basis. I love the fact you don't shy away from harder topics to tackle and give your own take on things. Your videos have helped me place things in my life I previously had no clue how to handle. These videos encourage you to think, which you don't encounter that often in this dopamine driven era dominated by soul sucking apps like tiktok. I genuinely hope more people find your content because your channel really deserves it, especially considering the quality AND quantity of videos are unlike any other individual creator I've seen before. Thank you for your videos and have a nice rest of your day.
I knew this was gonna be an emotional vid cuz it’s a professor viral vid on violet evergarden but when you started talking about yourself it made it even more emotional we love the videos professor. Can’t wait to see the channel grow ❤️
Thank you, I'll keep trying for everyone : )
"I desire simple things that i can hold and understand. Everything else is overwhelming." I wish i could tell that to everyone i met, thats exactly how i feel
Violet evergarden is a masterpiece! 💙💚💙
For sure!
Bro, I think there is no more personal video on Violet Evergarden than yours. Brilliant job.
Thank you, hearing that means a lot 💙
Hey boss! Just wanted to say these theme and ideology reviews are crushing it. Incredibly well edited and researched and produced in an entertaining way. Keep it up!! Your vids got me through a tough day at lab today!
Thank you, I'm glad the video helped you out today. That's part of why I do this, so it means a lot : )
I just finished binging the show in three days. I was crying the whole time, but I felt guilty about it because a lot of people called the show ‘chep’ or ‘hollow’. You justified my feelings about Violet’s story by putting them into words, and gave me closure regarding this story. Thank you so, so much.
No problem, thank you for the kind words : )
Wow. When you opened up about your personal experiences, I started crying. A lot of what you said is very relatable to me too. That, and the title of this video helped me understand a little more why I love Violet Evergarden so much. Thank you so much. My heart goes out to you.
Thank you very much, it means so much to see how people can respond to what I do : )
I like this story because it reminds me of being raised assigned wrongly male to not feel and be a warrior soldier someday. I have the same problems as her and now I am living as a woman it is hard for me to adjust after so long of repressing who I really was as a female in my mind. I have wartime like P.T.S.D. Terribly nightmares of things done to me or I had to do to survive as a male. Like me, she was not allowed to be a girl and grow into a woman though her body unlike mine is only female. My body tries to be female and I had breasts and hips like a girl at puberty. I was stuck in between two worlds. And now I am learning to love as and be a woman. I still have trouble showing emotion though I am so like a female. I feel overwhelmed as I never learn to be a female tell I was much older. I wanted to be a US Navy seal. Being Transgender and my heart-giving me problems kept me from doing so. I hung with Hell Angels bikers and was on the streets in the middle of gunfights and a lot of trouble like it was a war in the 1990s on our streets going on. I was always ending up in the middle of bad things happening in my life to survive as a male. Used and abused to death. And yet I survive all that. Now I am a woman everyone thinks I am innocent and naive. Little do they know what I have been through that was like hell. Everyone treats me like some kind of angel to be protected. Yet I was once the badass male you did not mess with. It is very confusing for me at times. I am this whole other person. A loving and caring female I always really was now. Those memories of the past of me living as a warrior male seem like someone else's and not mine. I have been dead and came back many times. Been stabbed and shot. Burned badly and broken. Yet here I am still alive. Only hope kept me going I would not give up on of myself someday being the woman I was inside my mind.
I have to admit that stories with premises like Violet Evergarden AKA Humanizing a living weapon are those that i am a sucker for, and Violet Evergarden is VERY WELL WRITTEN i fucking cried at the birthday letter episode.
I joined the Violet Evergarden Subreddit writing thing something, I don't know how to say what it was... You sent in an application for a letter and you had to write a letter for someone else.
And now? I have been writing to people, I always wanted to talk to again, but never knew how to approach them again.
Maybe you can try it out as well, the first ever written letter by Violet was only "I am happy you are still here" and it was the meaning that's important in a letter.
I don't want to step out of line here, but why not write a letter to your father, your family, your friends... Just saying "I love you, I admire you, even if I know I might show those emotions in a different way"? It's a small thing but it's impact is massive, a letter has a special meaning these days and you can take as long as you want.
And really, I felt the same in your video as when I was watching Violet, just like you were saying in the video.
I feel shit for hearing your story, I feel pity, but hearing your story also gives me a sense of pride, because you do something you love right now, but also... Well, I was mentally abused by my father for the first 16 years of my life, knowing now that I can feel love, the love for anime, my job, but also the love for the people around me.
And if all else, I wish to be your friend, just by watching your video's, I admire you, if you were a really shy and inward facing kid in your youth? I wish I could start a youtube channel and talk so confidently to the "internet". I never thought you had this more... Sensitive? Side to you if you never started talking about it, so... Thank you for being so open about yourself!
I was born with feelings, and they were worn bare over the course of of many years. And my ex managed to get the final stroke. My emotions were dead and forgotten. Other than a insatiable, numb void
The most recent chapter of my life has been about creating a new person, because the person I was has been lost to time. Learning emotions is hard.
My missed step is that I learned about fear, pain, loss, hopelessness, and loneliness before I even learned about happiness. Thought that smiles were stupid. It almost killed me.
Then I watched Violet Evergarden. It helped so much. I felt so close to her. Living with the scars of Military service sucks. And I learned so much as she got better. Now I am human. It is time to live.
Thank you!
Thank you for sharing your story (which I can very much relate to),
Thank you for creating such wonderful videos,
but most of all:
Thank you for being you
Thank you, ProfessorViral for sharing your thoughts on, and life's experience watching Violet Evergarden. I decided to watch this video for comfort as I've recently finished the story and am slowly taking it all in. The way you've expressed your feelings through words truly touched my heart and encapsulated parts of what I felt, learnt and immersed myself in through my own experience watching this heartfelt anime. Watching this video enlightened me on another personal perspective and understanding of VE which made me re-feel and reflect on my own emotions and philosophy. Thank you, again, for sharing your story.
i think you would really enjoy the anime film "The Garden of Words" as well. its also a 10/10 imo and is an emotional tear-jerker.
I'll keep it in mind!
@@ProfessorViral i look forward to your video about it ;)
I've never quite been the quiet kid more so the weird kid. I've grown into becoming the queit young adult with a goofy optimistic side. I've never been all too good with being able to read people emotions or to articulate what they feel in real life. I've always been clumsy with words too. Words always been one of my biggest weaknesses. Yet plenty of people, mainly far older adults (ranging from 40 to 60), have come to me to just talk and vent. While a few teenagers have come to me, one a complete stranger, to help calm them down and to talk them out of their suicidal thoughts. (I know I've saved 3 different people lives by just listening and offering kindness.) They've always tell me they feel a bit better after talking to me. This is one of the reasons why I personally relate to Violet and why I fell in love with this story.
This anime had me in tears on so many occasions. I really felt for violet but the ending was so heartwarming when she and the major united at the end I still breakdown in tears when I re-watch that scene.
I understand that comenting in a video like this more than a year after it's publication is a shout into the void. However I find myself compelled to write this nonetheless. To say I stubled into this video just when I needed it is an understatement. Lately I find myself condemning my own emotionality. I have always been rational above anything and yet that made me feel unfit to be human. So I tought myself how to be emotional by repetition. As silly as that may sound, it worked. But after years of heartbreaks I feel as if maybe I made a mistake.
Seeing this video however made me remember why I want to be emotional. The desire to be human is intrinsically human, no matter the journey or its method. Thank you for reminding me that we are not alone, we are all human even if our own hands may feel cold and mechanical at times.
You earned my Sub several videos ago, keep up the good work. my advice to how to handle the "You changed my life" messages is, enjoy the fact that you have done good for your fellow human beings. Oh and don't worry about understanding everything, just enjoy that you are alive and experiencing this crazy and wondrous world.
I recommend watching the OVA and the movies.
In order: The OVA ( an extra episode); Eternity and the auto memory Doll ( for world building); Violet Evergarden the movie. ( for the conclusion of the story.) they are all connected and I think they’re just as good as the series.
I do need to finally see them for sure, I really should get to it 😭
I can always feel the pieces of you in your work. A certain personal feeling it gives off when relating to the characters you analyse
I lovee when people talk about this anime!
Happy to do so myself!
i just found your page recnetly and have been watching tons of your old videos, and as you started warming up that heart of yours to more than pschological type anime, i saw you enjoyed some emotional ones, and kept thinking "this guy needs to watch violet evergarden" and then, you post it today! woah :O hahaha
I've been on a weird mix of the two recently I guess. I watched Violet Evergarden a while back, and after my first video really wanted to make this one, but just wasn't sure how to. Guess I figured it out haha
You can never think your way through an emotion, but when they themselves confuse us it can be troubling…
It’s a leap of faith, you can’t live life avoiding negative things or else you’re living only half a life my friend.
To love another, you must love yourself or else how else could you know what that means.
How do you see yourself as a human being; for me personally I remember feeling a massive detachment from my body, and over time I realized that I can channel that to create.
While I create my emotion come back to be and I can teach myself how to feel again.
But what I do, what to do???
Create the world you want to see, be the best person you could ever be, to be the change you want to see in the world.
In a world of chaos, the only point of control and obligation is to yourself at its simplest, however it is your duty to the world you barrow form from to be the best person you think you could ever be.
Reach for a dream that’s so big it’s a pipe dream, but I’m doing that anything you create is by nature a small aspect of that reality.
And little by little and over time you might see a world worth living and fighting for.
I believe im you
You have to GO BEYOND, and that means to go beyond what you think you can do even if just one step at a time, and by doing that you be yourself but PLUS ULTRA.
To do the impossible, you have to see the invisible. That means to picture it in your mind, row row fight the power.
Break the roof and you’ll see the truth, touch the untouchable, (make your dreams a reality) and break the unbreakable… ALL RAW LIMITS, my guy you’ve got everything you need with you, but you yourself have to see these tools you have for the value of your life.
Rap is a man’s soul, so I ask you.
What is your soul, what IS THE DRILL you have been given?
I have never written a comment before but Your along with Beyond Ghibli’s video essays are the only ones to stick with me long after it’s over and make me a better person
Violet Evergarden is beloved in military circles, but bringing it up in casual conversation is almost taboo, because the story hits uncomfortably close to home. The idea of returning home and remembering how to be human is one that a lot of us identify with on a personal level. We see ourselves in Violet, and it hurts. There's healing in the pain, but that doesn't make it any more pleasant to experience. This might be the best show I've never once been tempted to revisit.
In my overview, anime has given us a perspective on how to be humans and what roles were like for them to experience the same as anyone else would in the real world. 😥
your cyberpunk video and, especially this one, really resonated with me and why these shows mean a lot to me on such a personal level.
You’re good at these, I really appreciate them
God everytime I watch your vids it's like a life lesson. Both your script and the way you story tell hits home. I always say you deserve more subs by the quality of the videos. Keep it up
Thank you, that really does mean a lot : )
Don’t mind me, just preparing myself to cry because I know I will when watching any Violet Evergarden videos.
Edit: I cried.
This provokes a self reflection i had never known I needed. Please keep up the vids dude :,)
That means so much to me, thank you, I'm happy I could provide that 💙
Professor viral is my auto anime doll. You've gotten me into some excellent anime and then provided passionate Shakespeare esque videos that let me see them in new ways. Keep up the great vids
Ah, thank you so much! That's such a validating awesome thing to hear!
Wow, genuinely never thought I would encounter another person who's exactly like me in how they perceive their connection to the world. Nothing "happened" to me but I am autistic and possibly alexithymic. Anything someone would normally "feel", I mostly just think. I have plenty of words to describe these concepts in length, and even have a special interest in psychology, but I truly cannot grasp the instincts of human connection that create webs of people who know and love each other. How people stay securely in those webs without enormous levels of mental effort. I swear it's like I'm missing something so obvious and tangible, like a bone or an organ. Aren't I just supposed to _know_ how to be a person?
I love your work man.
I have always learned through fiction it broadens the scope of how I understand and reflect on the world.
I think at the end of the day we're all learning to be human. Taking in new things to fill ourselves with. Whether in our day to day interactions or through our consumption of fiction .
Keep it up, I'll support you👋♥️ frm PH
I absolutely loved your video, keep up the amazing work.
Man I relate to you too much.
Thats why I'm making all this self discovery so public. I know I'm not alone, and I hope it can help others with their own : )
There is no underlining reason to be with someone other than it makes you both happy
It might not make you happy all the time but thats with everything, nothing is a constant flow of one thing.
Any other reason to give is personal
But at the end of the day it’s just you know you are better person with that person. But I feel these steps work back to back
You can’t skip steps
So if you can’t find that happiness without them then you will struggle to see it with the white noise that is love
You must be able to blindly notice what these feelings are before you can do these things fully and have it work.
You can never skip steps . . Always work on baby steps . . If something feels like it’s too much . . Then it is and you need to take a step back and look for what you missed
You will always miss something
A deep and beautiful video, exploring the rebirth of the heart. 👊♥️
Thank you 💙
@@ProfessorViral Keep being the best, happiest human you can be bro. You are one of the gems of YT!
This anime absolutely destroyed me. I don't think I'll ever relate to another show on the same level... I wasn't a child soldier, but I spent what would've been a childhood fighting and struggling to survive, becoming nothing but a tool following the directions given by the people who were supposed to raise me. Just like Claudia observes in Violet, my body is still on fire and I have so many burns.
I'm sorry to hear that. I hope everything has been able to improve since, and that you're able to live a life that finds you value
@@ProfessorViral it's a work in progress. thank you.
thank you
No problem : )
@@ProfessorViral I was, a young and fresh soldier 2 years ago. One who's loved ones had either left him, betrayed him, or wanted him to take sides in a pointless conflict. I had signed 6 years of my life away to a country that I was watching burn itself to the ground. Everything I did Everything I put my heart into was just never enough.... I sat alone in a house for a year, content with mere existence and nothing more untill this show and my best friend picked me up and showed me that I had done plenty. And that I wasn't alone.
I'm still learning to be a good writer and I enjoy, for the lack if a better phrase, picking things apart much like you do in this video. I hope I can do as well as you have done on this video one day. But untill the thank you.
what does it mean to be human - what is a human -- questions that you get asked in "shiki". i highly recommand you the anime "shiki". watch it! you willl love it!
I just saw a bit about that one today, it did look interesting!
This video was phenomenal! It’s so amazing to see you grow.
Words would only spoil the conveying of emotion so... just thank you....
This was authentic and true af 💔💔
Thank you, it's all I can be so I wanted to embrace and share it all 💙
I need to watch the movie, after the famous cliffhanger of the last episode, i still remember how people thought him may being back ruined the whole anime
I need to watch the movie as well, I'm really happy with how the series itself ended though, so at times I don't want to
@@ProfessorViral i actually feel the same
Love is a strange word. How we apply it is vauge. Do I love my family or do I just tolerate them? What is it like to love a job? What type of content do I love to watch? Do I even love myself? Its agonizing to even try to find an answer to these questions.
You’re becoming abit too relatable.
I feel you this is hard
>2022
>wanting your humanity back
I haven’t seen this anime but the story her jobs reminds me a lot of the character Joaquin Phoenix plays in the movie Her
I haven't seen that one myself to say
Great video as usual man.
Really beautiful script, what is the music in the background?
Thank you! The music for this one is Eddy - Lish Grooves
I still haven't seen this anime as I'm trying to find the movie which technically is just two episodes extended so I can see the anime and both movies in one go. Also could you take a look at 3d kanojo real girl the dub is just called real girl, I found it to have some similar things to your lie in April but it's still different
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can you make one for berzerk his the same violet just trying to live
Look man I got stuck on understanding people and why they work the way they do, what I found is that you can’t structure it and you can’t break it down to a complete structure. It’s random and difficult to make sense it’s something you have to just live and learning to understand why someone did those actions in the moment because those decisions are a conglomeration of years and years of choices and outcomes and you can never understand them fully. So stop searching for a logical method as when it comes to emotion logic is swept aside and feeling is the only path to understand why or how someone came to that decision.
^This
id somewhat argue that emotions actually can have some kind of structur: emotions are chain recations(which i would classify as "structures")->sometimes as simple as having missed your train and then being grumpy about it. it gets complex if you factor in the persons personality and everything else tho->its better to then focus on that situation/scenario alone rather than find a formular that works on everyone / maybe dont even think about the emotions/feelings at all and focus on the situation that caused it (for both pos and neg emotions).
(its also good to keep in mind that some things have a bigger impact on one than the other/everyone takes things differently.)
i do agree that its best to not get hung up with things that dont make sense however long you think about it, regardless of what topic. (unless its literally your job or something)
@@bruhmoment2electricboogalo951 but to see it as a structure, as a script is not good. It’s one way to be able to visualize and recognize those patterns, but it’s not the same nor will it prepare you for the actuality of it.
@@ZoulStar oh ok, makes sense too :0
i personally am already fine with said pattern/i havent had any problems with those somehow. i usually really just see things as simply "this person is sad because this happened: what will you do to help them (if you want to)?"->classic problem solver mentality as far as im aware.
but then again, i usually always do things that way, so i might have just skipped anything bigger, where that thought process cant apply/couldnt even recocnize it.
(sorry if im missinterpretings stuff (again))
@@bruhmoment2electricboogalo951 Don’t worry about it, it’s fine. You’re not misinterpreting anything.
Recognizing/being aware of the situation is always great. Dealing with issues is the matter of the problem, and it’s not a matter of solving, where is that you’re trying to seek out resolutions in the moment to help you get past it and continue on. When it comes to these sorts of things, for me, I tend to focus in on myself to realize my capabilities; my strengths and weaknesses. If the problem is outside my expertise, I ask for help from others that I know I can rely on, to give me advice. Sometimes it’s a matter of perspective and you need others to remind you of who you are, or what’s important and trust in yourself to make the right decision in the end. It’s your life after all. No one else’s to choose for.
The movie actually soured the whole thing for me but I'm glad to be reminded of how beautiful the show was.
Sorry, if the question is discourteous, but why do you sound in every video as if you are about to cry?
Your description of your personal experience of interpersonal relationships makes me wonder if you'd benefit from seeking a diagnosis of autism. If you indeed have it then your experience of emotions and people is actually normal and healthy. Though given that you're in the USA it might be difficult (see: incomprehensibly expensive) to get a diagnosis. If you can try to find an autistic community near you, you might find a place where you actually get and connect with the people there.
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For me this is the worst anime I ever seen I stops on ep 5 this is so wrong how could an anime studio make an anime like that on public thus is so disgusting why they are marrying kids wth he have 25 years and he love a 14 years kid this is so wrong why does anyone talked about that?
No one enjoys that about the anime, but it's taking a somewhat historical stance, and never once sexualizes or even implies something of the sort between those characters with large age gaps. Again, I don't enjoy it. But a lot of anime characters are around 14 and receive a lot creepier treatment
Absolutely begging you to make a video on cyberpunk edgerunners, you’ll love it
This video was phenomenal! It’s so amazing to see you grow.
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