I suffer from schizoaffective disorder and Derealisation and they’re terrifying! They both leave me questioning what is real and what isn’t. I finally accepted that I have schizoaffective disorder but now I know I have it, and I am aware that I’m prone to hallucinations, I am stuck in a position of not knowing if something/some one is actually real??? And I’ve had Derealisation for about 12 years and it’s awful. It never goes away and sometimes I really have to question whether the world is real, and sometimes can’t tell the difference between my dreams and reality.
I'm so sorry hear you've had to go through all this Hun it sounds terrifying and lonely, but I really hope you have a good support group or someone you can go too to anchor you. You must be really mentally strong though to be able to talk about about it still be here you should be proud of yourself of what you've been able to overcome already 😊
Dementia or Alzheimer’s. While not a mental disorder it does affect the person’s mental state. My grandma is in the mild stage of it and is still able to care for herself (can’t live alone so she lives with my aunt and uncle) but stories about people not recognizing their family members or themselves scares me that one day, my grandma won’t remember anyone
My husband grandfather is in the last stage of dementia and yes it does affect the mental state they can see things that are not there. They sometimes go back in there mind like my grandfather he went back to when he was in service. My tip. To u honey is so spend as much time with your grandmother.
@@momma2009100 I do. They live in Atlanta, Georgia and when we go to North Carolina we always try to visit. My dad and I are going to move down there and possibly have a trip there once a month. She’s doing cognitive empowerment therapy and it does seem to help her. I never would wish for dementia or Alzheimer’s on my worst enemy
My fiancés great grandmother is in late stage; and I was a CNA for Dementia/Alzheimer patients, as sad as it is, at a certain point you get used to it, you kind of need to understand that they have absolutely no control over it. It’s heartbreaking when someone forgets about you but it’s just how aging works sometimes also. When my great grandmother was getting to her late stages when I was in my mid teens my mom explained it like “she knows you exist and she loves you, but she thinks of you as little you, as a kid, so she may not recognize you” and she didn’t but it eased my worries and wasn’t as bad.
This is what happened to my grandfather. I’ll never forget the moment I visited my grandparent’s house, only for him to have no idea who I was nor recognize my father - his own son. He thought we broke into his home. Fortunately, my grandmother was able to calm him down - but he never recognized us again. He confused my father for his brother later, and that’s what my dad went with since it was what made sense to him at that stage of his sickness.
As a caregiver, schizophrenia seems like the scariest psychological condition I've come across. I had one client describe an alien on his chest breathing in his face and trapping him in his sheet every night and governmental agents scouting him out to unalive him. Knew another person not in my care that basically drank draino and had to get a ton of surgeries. He didn't tell anyone he did it so it took a long time to get him care.
@@beanme2422 I’m not saying we should judge all schizophrenia as scary people, nor am I saying all are harmless. Just that we should get to know those with the disorder living a normal life before we jump to any conclusions because they either are indeed harmless or they may need help and not realize it yet, but we won’t know unless we get to know them or at least just talking to them without going into details of who they are. You be surprise how much just small talk can tell someone about you and in vice versa.
I remember watching a episode of beyond belief fact or fiction once where there was a werewolf story. A guy in a mental asylum claimed to be a werewolf. He said a certain moon was coming that would kill all werewolves. He begged to be put in a room with no window. The asylum doctor refused. The next morning the man was found dead, with claw marks on the door. According to the then host, Johnathan Frakes, that was one of the true stories.
4:48 Besides depression, anxiety, and ptsd, my partner has both schizophrenia and DID. When they sleepwalk, it's troubling for me to get him to come back, but I still won't change it for anything else.
I dissociate every once in a while r/t my CPTSD. It is scary for me, but worse for my family. The medical community never takes my mental issues into account when I complain of physical symptoms. I've been gaslit so many times and undermedicated by doctors.
I have both CPTSD and straight up PTSD and while I don't know if I dissociate completely, I do so enough to just not pay attention to what my mom or stepmom would be ranting and raving about. I have made up alter egos, but nothing ever takes me over, I know that they're fiction even though I've met people who really do believe in their delusions. It can be frustrating, but it's not their fault.
5:39 and as someone with a disability, I utterly hate that. I’m not broken just because my blindfold came preinstalled and I don’t have to put it on. I can’t drive a car and I wouldn’t trust me to operate heavy construction machinery, mainly because I’m accident prone, but I can do everything else else just about it. One of these days I’m either going to win 100 games on Jeopardy, become president, or both just approved to this world that we’re not useless.
I have undiagnosed ADHD. And as a chef. It affects it so badly. I need to be focused. But my mind is everywhere. And I can't focus on one thing. I literally need something like music going 24/7 to stay focused.
I’m a psych nurse of 12 years. And I will say that while all these conditions are terrifying they are not as prominent at the media would have you believe. That does mean that the people who do have a condition like one of these is often targeted as a danger by idiots who don’t understand that films like Split are incredibly inaccurate.
No way you're a nurse because that is complete bs 😂. They are very common and alot more people have m than you'd think and are completely well functioning.
Mental illnesses are dramatically hyped up for the movies including showing things that are not used properly in tv/film such as ECT. Psychopathy always means it's a killer (Antisocial Personality Disorder just doesn't have the same ring to it as Psychopath does). PTSD made Rambo go back to his incredibly proficient skills from the war and not have a full mental breakdown, flashbacks, disassociate, and make mistakes like a human with such a condition. Split was . . . . .entertaining, but so inaccurate I don't even know where to begin. Thank you for your work in psych. There are never enough beds and never enough staff and we need all of the help we can get.
I honestly hate it when people compare my disorder with Split because they think that's what DID is. The media needs to do a better job at portraying disorders such as this one because we get targeted and hurt by it.
Depersonalization is more like living everything in third person. You are dissociating completely after all. You’re seeing everything in autopilot and you can only watch. Like a movie in a way and you’re only the audience. It doesn’t happen to me all the friggin time, but it happens often enough to affect my life ✌🏼 I do not know the trigger
Yep, it’s pretty terrifying. I’ve had it constantly for 5 years but I’m so used to it now that I’m not scared anymore and it only becomes really noticeable when I’m experiencing a lot of stress
Yeah it's weird. Like you're watching a narration of your own life. You're doing things but you don't "feel" like you're doing them. It's crazy. It's easy to lose track of time as well. I remember I suffered an episode a few winters ago and I walked to McDonald's at like 6 am and it felt like miles but it was barely 1 and a half. Felt like I was floating or something. Everything around me looked like a was looking through some kind of weird glass or a kaleidoscope. I was questioning all my thoughts and sensations.
I've experienced this when I was a younger and I don't know why. I never told anyone as it didn't last for longer than a few months. Also, I never experienced seeing myself sort of like being out of body, but I felt like I was watching a movie through my eyes. It was scary at times especially when I was trying to pay attention to things like driving and being worried that I'd get into an accident because I didn't feel like I was controlling the car.
Borderline personality disorder is also pretty scary to live with and for an outsider looking in we’re at times unrecognizable. The extremes we go to when angry or upset is mind boggling even to us. Pair that with any of the other disorders in this video it’s beyond nightmare ish to live with or be around. I have DID and BPD and it sucks. It’s even worse unmedicated. There’s no medication specific to the disorder but mood stabilizers paired with antipsychotics have been shown to help. 80% of us will attempt self unaliving and 10% will succeed because it’s not just mentally painful to live with, it’s physical too. It’s the most physically painful mental disorder. There’s subtypes as well. We can be easily manipulated and we engage in risky behavior and self harm and we’re more likely to be addicted to drugs or alcohol but other forms such as shopping has been found. It’s fascinating to learn about but terrifying to live with.
I live with diagnosed BPD. No idea who I am. Feel like I live in a completely different world that everyone else and I don’t fit here. Sometimes the world doesn’t even seem real. Our brains stay in fight or flight mode.
I had Alice in Wonderland syndrome as a child but not with objects ... with time perception instead. Suddenly, everything would go mega fast like someone had pressed fast forward. Was so bizarre, It stopped in adolescents, and I have never had it since.
my partner has DID, and some days it’s good. Other days its not so good. I’m staying by his side. I love him and most of his personalities know me and know I’m safe to come to
Even though they can wreak havoc on your life if you don't get them treated, I personally find them very fascinating which is interesting considering I have a couple of my own. Thanks Mom
Schizophrenic episodes I've had are reminiscent of these disorders. As I've studied and practiced spirituality these episodes began to make sense and cleared on their own. Otherworldly sentient energies or entities are very real, it's my understanding that in severe cases these entities have entangled their frequency, vibration and energy (essence) with your own. If you research stages of enlightenment you'll find the symptoms are similar to schizophrenia. How's it all possible? Study quantum physics, you'll start to piece together how dimensions and consciousness creates, alters and destroys reality within time and space.
That depersonalization disorder sounds very frightening. I think a friend of mine, told me a few years ago, he had a relative that felt “out of place” of their own body.
I suffer from random bouts of depersonalisation, I try to describe it as it feels like I am watching a movie and someone is trying to simulate what I should feel, everything feels muted, even my emotions don't feel like they are my own and honestly it is so scary...
I have OCD, agoraphobia, DPDR, and elements of Alice In Wonderland syndrome (where time and distance are concerned). It’s an interesting life, put it that way. We need to be empathetic to the plight our fellow people might well be experiencing, as in my experience most of us hide these things. Excellent video, thank you for this. Sharing.
My doctor told me I had postpartum anxiety after I had my son back in 2021, but I think it was more so postpartum psychosis because I had some delusions and hallucinations. It was terrifying and after having been up for a few days, I ended up relapsing on alcohol trying to ease the “anxiety” and woke up at rehab four days later. Im still dealing with it over 2.5 years later.
My uncle had Schizophrenia. He sadly isolated himself due to his hallucinations who made him believe people wanted to hurt him so I didn’t get to know him that much. All I can remember are the moments where he would open his apartment window when I passed by with friends (my dad lived closed by) and gave me some money so I could buy myself candies at the corner store. I never felt scared or realized he was “sick”. He passed in 2005. I only learned years later that he had committed sui*ide. It made me really sad. I hope he rest in peace ❤
I work for with people qith schizophrenia and I wish the stigma around schizophrenia would stop. People with schizophrenia are not violent and 1 out of 10 people with schizophrenia will tale their own life
As a sufferer from alice in wonderland syndrome, the most i can describe it for myself is having a 1st person view inside a dolls house walking around. its very scary as i know my blood pressure has dropped too much (orthostatic hypotension) and cereberal hypoperfusion occurs and it messes with my perception. i am only 19.
I have schizophrenia and depression even though I get treatment for it. it's very scary, I still hear voices to this day but the meds help control it thanks Matt for this video it helps getting the word out there about these illnesses
I have DID, but it's atypical. It resulted more from loneliness than trauma. We've had some rough times, but on the whole, it's pretty nice. There's a whole planet in my head full of amazing people.
I had Alice in Wonderland syndrome as a child and things in my room would appear distorted. My mom told me that I would often complain to her that the door was extra tall and that the space between my bed and my sister's bed was further than normal. I remember whenever this happened, I would stand in my hallway afraid to get back into bed.
SAME! In my personal opinion, some others (including alters in my system) may disagree, the south park episode was better, only because it was at least funny. Nothing about Split was entertaining in my opinion. I didn't even know it was a trilogy. I couldn't even make it halfway through the first one 😂
I don't think I have any of the disorders in this video(well, maybe Depersonalization Disorder), but I have autism, and a certain Aussie singer made a movie about a woman taking care of her autistic sister, whom is played by a woman who is NOT autistic, and I heard the portrayal wasn't even good!
@alexhart9267 omg! As a fellow Autistic person that really frustrated me especially since the actor was originally somone with autism but then they didn't like all the needs and adjustments that come with being autistic so they went with a neurotypical actor instead purely because it was easier for them!!!!
D.I.D. is terrifying. I've been diagnosed 3 times, at 16, 19, and 25. I've never been through hypnosis therapy, but I was raised in a cult. I started integration therapy at 19. At 23 started seeing a new therapist. At 25 went to her with all the reasons in which I'm schizophrenic. She played back our previous session and I didn't recognize the voice, but it was an alter explaining who he was and begging her to help him. He still feels imprisoned in a body that isn't his. After 4 years of actual therapy, focused on uncovering and healing the trauma throughout our system, there's communication between alters. There already kinda was which is why I thought I was schizophrenic. I was hearing voices and seeing people I didn't know in my head. That was the key difference, it was in my head and not outside of it. Imagine waking up every day of your life and not recognizing your surroundings or even your own face. Imagine "missing" your kids birthdays while physically being there. It's not all bad though. There's something called the innerworld, not all systems have one from my understanding. It's amazing though and unique to each system. Mine is really similar to the real world except jobs aren't necessary, money isn't necessary, and if you want something you can think it into existence. The flowers and trees are different. There's puff flowers which look like mimosa flowers and the fuzzy seed balls dandelions turn into but grow on trees with bark similar to a black walnut tree. There's tunnels that go to separate areas at like super speed. The sky is purple with orange clouds and the sun is gold but you can look at her. The sun, stars, moon, and specific trees are sentient. The sun and moon are alters themselves. I'm guessing from some sort of escape fantasy as a small child. I don't remember much before the age of 12.
I suffer from temporary Depersonalisation Disorder. It only ever triggers when something really bad happens to me and it can last a few days to a few weeks for me to feel normal again. It got that bad that I could not feel any pain. I was running my hand under scolding hot water and didn't feel a thing. Had to rush to emergency room because of it. It feels like you are watching yourself and you're at the back. I still sometimes get it when I hear my name. Someone will call me by my name and I will be like "oh, is that my name?" It's a weird mental disorder to have. Luckily I haven't had it as bad for a long time.
I have had DPD for as long as I can remember. It’s worse sometimes than other times, and still hoping to feel better”normal” one day. One thing that makes me feel better about it is thinking of it like being in a video game. Kinda weird, but it makes me feel better lol
Well looks like I'm an auto-cannibal.... I sometimes eat my nails, but I always eat the skin around my nails, scabs, and boogers.....damn I'm an autistic auto-cannibal...no wonder why I can't stop...
I have PTSD, DA, Generalized Anxiety, and now my psych thinks I may possibly have Schizoaffective disorder. I feel for all these people 😢 this must be so terrifying.
I am 31 years old & I have DID but my "alters" are still myself but in different ages. So my name is still the same when I dissociate. I can't look into mirrors, be told that I am married, or that I have children. In Feb of this year I had my daughter and 11 days later my mom passed away, I can't even be told that. I have to wear hoodies or long sleeves with gloves to cover up my tattoos that are on my arms and hands. I can't even get my nails done, wear my wedding ring, or change my hair in any way. Before & after I dissociate, I have seizures. But they're called "psychogenic non-epileptic seizures". It's hard, man.
As someone who suffers from derealization, i feel i need to explain this. Depersonalisazation is a discinnect from ones self. Where as derealization is a disconnect from reality. It is horrific yes and theres no proper treatment for it. However, i would strongly urge anyone suffering the symptoms to reach out for help as sinply having the causes explained can help a lot. Trauma is a common cause and when you find how and why the brain deals with things the way it does, its a lot easier to see why you may feel this way. I had my first experience at 8 and am now in my thirties living fairly well. Please don't suffer in silence! There is support out there. Stay strong
Matthew, my ex wife has Disassociative Disorder. I met a baby, toddler, teenager activities in her from day to day. Once she told me her psychologist said she had a dark, evil entity speak out. Very scary. She left me, May God saved me from her.
I’m surprised the syndrome when you can’t sleep isn’t number 1. That would be terrifying knowing you’re going to die and can’t even do anything about it just gotta suffer till you eventually die.
Fatal familial Insomnia? If so yeah I can see that being scary for those that have it. There’s an entire clan in Italy that has the gene that cause it and shows up so many times in their family that the family was considered cursed. One man from the family allowed himself be tested and studdied by experts he know once he recognize him having the earliest symptom from watching his family suffer from it and even donated his brain to science after his death to try and find the cause. Experts not only learned a lot from studying the guy but realize the gene being the main cause thanks to that man
I saw a video on Top 15 that mention in one of the countdowns of a RUclipsr who use to do videos on his tattoos before showing symptoms of a chronic diseases or disorder that eventually claimed his life. I don’t remember the symptoms he had but one of the possible causes was Fatal Familial Insomnia which brought up memories of what I knew about it. I ended up leaving a comment that if it was Fatal Familial Insomnia, that RUclipsr would have died from it anyways
I have psychosis and I hate it. I can't do anything that requires socializing. mates in college who see my behavior bully me or call me "Hey, autist!" loud. I shouldn't say anything about it or I'd be sent to a public asylum. My country considers any mental illnesses (that's not down syndrome) to be a shame. I barely graduated and I have to find a job ... any job, but you know. My symptoms: when I see someone at level of my vision (not even looking at them directly), my brain gets overloaded with attention towards them and getting too much thoughts about that if they're doing malicious things towards me or thinking about me in a bad way, ..etc. I start freaking out and my body twitching when someone touches me. I basically become out of reality and can get crazy like an actual crazy person. That was before I went to doctor and start taking the medicines. I gained more control over my thoughts and behavior. But the illness still annoys me when I go outside my house.
I have schizophrenia , with hallucinations and severe paranoia. I was diagnosed in 2018 . My son is my caregiver hes 25 years old so i dont think he truly believes me. My sister came to visit me and had to sit my kids and my dad down to explain what it is i have and i think my dad understands a little bit more but my son is still not convinced. I see spirits and have full on conversations with them. I think ive given my phone number to at least 2 of them. Its hard to live with this diagnosis and noone believes me . I also have agoraphobia. My mental health is so hard to deal with I have no one to talk to about it . I only see my psychiatrist 1 time a month. Ughhh
My son has DID, but they really don't refer to it as that now. It's PTSD with dissociative identities. He's had it since he was 10 after a severe early childhood trauma at age 6. He's 19 now. Therapy and meds have not really helped at all. He's mostly just learned to live with the near constant inner dialogue and brain fog as he retreats with any trigger. His life is miserable and it's hard to see people "faking" this condition for clicks on Tiktok. It's nothing like these kids think. You don't just close your eyes and call upon an 'alter'. He experiences deep fogs and amnesia and he's hurt himself many times. It's not something he can just call upon to put on a show.
I have D.I.D. schizophrenia, had it since childhood, because of traumas. Definitely something you learn to live with and always adapting. But The Lord knows me. And He's the one who defines me.. It's taking me so long to even open up about it. And even saying it on here to share a small portion of myself, is a bit hard. But. Wanted to put that out there
I have dissociative identity disorder, and I'd like to correct some information real quick. First off I want to say that yes it is portrayed horribly in media, making it seem as if the disorder causes us to become serial killers or go insane because of it. In actuality, the condition doesn't make us bad people. It makes us confused due to the amnesia barriers we experience and it can make us feel scared at first due to the fact that we don't know right away what's happening. It also isn't a personality disorder because yes while the personality does change, it's because the different parts of us (known as alterations/alters) are fronting. Fronting means that a specific alter is in control of the body at that moment, kind of like driving a car. The others are tucked away somewhere inside what we call headspace and aren't in control. That explains why we have amnesia barriers. Just wanted to say it's an identity thing because the brain splits the identity into multiple parts. This disorder is caused by traumatic events that we've experienced in childhood. That can be a range from physical to emotional trauma of any kind. Some misconceptions are that you can get the disorder at any time in your life, but actually the disorder forms between the ages of infancy to around 9 or 10 years old. You can be diagnosed later in life with the condition, but in order for the disorder to officially form, you need to have been traumatized to a certain degree in childhood. Hopefully that covers some information. I've been diagnosed with this since 2023 officially, but I knew back in 2020 that this was most likely what was going on.
I have D.I.D and it's terrifying, missing chunks of time and coming to somewhere that you don't know or with someone you don't know is beyond unnerving .
I understand how you feel. I suffer from DID, BPD and ADHD. Therapists don't want to treat me. I live in a big city, and even those that offer the treatment I need, will not accept me. This is our governments way of population control. They want us to end it, so they don't have to deal with us.
My adopted daughter started suffering with schizophrenia around age 19. I tried having her move in (she was homeless) after 3 days I couldn’t handle it anymore but not from lack of trying. I’ve been a caregiver for 27 years so it wasn’t anything new. I finally got her to the point where she commited herself for a month. On a routine and meds she was great. However when the discharged her against her wishes she quit taking her meds. I took the city to court to have her admitted to a state hospital but they said it wasn’t necessary. She was pulled out of the middle of heavy traffic by 7 different police officers, and wouldn’t take her meds if they weren’t handed to her. 1 week after she was discharged she was ran over and killed after she was found allaying under a car with her head behind the wheel. The poor lady didn’t even know she was there. If the state had listened to any one of us that cared for her on a daily basis she would still be alive today. I have to remind myself that at least she isn’t having to deal with her demons anymore. Mental health is still so stigmatized it’s ridiculous
I grew up with Alice in wonderland syndrome as a child. I remember it stopping as I learned sleep was important . Used to happen more often while exhausted.
This video brings me to your back in the day vids. Highly enjoyed this video. Informative and intriguing. Your cadence in vids is always fantastic. I'm not a gamer so this content is nice. Though do at times watch a bit of you on Twitch. Keep going bro.
My hand throws things or slaps close things if nothing is being carried. That is a part of having Epilepsy in every section of my brain though. LOL. It actually can get funny sometimes. You have to see it that way.
I have depersonalization and derealization from a dissociative disorder along with dissociative amnesia. I still don't know who or what is in control when I lose time, but the whole idea has been difficult for me to wrap my mind around. It makes me question my own reality and my perception of it.
Here’s one: anti-NMDA receptor encephalitis. Often misdiagnosed as something else by doctors it is an autoimmune disorder where antibodies attacks the brain causing inflamation of the brain, leading to fever headaches and tiredness in early stages before progressing to psychosis, delusions, and hallucinations and in later stages: seizures decrease breathing, and increase/decrease of heart rate. Some even go Catalonia. The disorder became more notable after Susannah Callahan who had suffered from the disorder before a doctor tried a different test from the rest that made him realize one side of her brain wasn’t working well wrote a book on her experience with it: “Brain on Fire: My Month of Madness” which gained so much popularity she been on talk shows about it and even help families who saw those shows who had a love one also suffering from the disorder but kept being misdiagnosed. Which was the writer’s goal in the first place since lack of knowledge and rarity of the disorder is what led to her misdiagnosis when she started showing symptoms. There is even a movie based off her book called Brain on Fire
Depersonalization/derealization is often also a symptom of DID - I live with DID, and experience both. I'm several years into realization and treatment, so I have co-conciousness quite often. Experiencing depersonalization/derealization for me often comes with being co-concious with another alter.
OCD is also a terrifying disorder. Perfectionism/cleanliness obsession is one of many obsessions a sufferer can have. Others include fear of harming loved ones, doubting your sexuality, doubting the evidence you get when you see it in front of you... there's also existential ocd, and so much more. No matter how much reassurance you get, the fear is always there, intense or not.
I live with bipolar and I would tell I never wish it on any one it's like a demon it cause me to snap at people my family and any who I think is conspiring against me it like a demon that disability is just awful I hate having it it's sad
Depersonalization disorder is freaky. It's like watching a movie of your own life. That last comment on it kinda weirded me out too. It's gotten better for me over time but it's a scary thought for things to always be like that
I have Todd's syndrome and have migraines. I have learned to be careful not to drive or anything once headaches start. It's mostly active at night. Mainly shadows, even in a bright room still gets me.
As someone with DID, it is pretty terrifying but theres ways of coping through it. Theres physical symptoms we experience such as headaches, when someone in headspace touches me and Im fronting Ill also feel that touch physically to a very vivid degree. DID is formed from severe childhood trauma that is repetitive over a long period. I didn’t know that people with DID honestly k/lled themselves over it but I see why, it can be very draining to the body, mental state and the alters themselves especially when we front to do our jobs. Im the host but each one of my alters are here for a specific purpose, I have a relationship protector, an animal alter, a caregiver, a cohost, soother.. theres a lot of roles but yeah if you guys want to do more research you can. I feel like more people should be educated on this anyways
Depersonalization Disorder is scary to go through especially if you don't know what it's called. Medication can help, usually for anxiety or depression
I have DID, schizophrenia, and possible Alice in Wonderland Syndrom (not sure I understand it enough to be sure), PTSD, AND depression. It's a nasty combination. Although TBH the one that's the most "scary" is the schizophrenia which is actually the paranoid type so yay me! Sometimes I feel more like a bundle of symptoms rather than a person. I really want it said that these disorders are scary for the people that have them, people with these disorders aren't inherently dangerous.
my friend has alice in wonderland syndrome, one of my closest friends. He's amazing but it is scary when he has his symptoms appear. He's had it for years now and now he said he's used to it.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar at 31 and its friends depression and anxiety. And then was diagnosed with ADHD at 35. Mental health diagnoses need to be recognized earlier 🙏🏻
Hey Matthew. I don’t really watch you often. But I just wanna say how much I respect how long you’ve been in the game and how you’ve stuck to your routes. I see the effort you’ve always put into the content. Great video 👍
About the auto cannibalism: some people pick at the skin on their fingers and peel off the skin and eat it. Does that count as auto cannibalism? Crazy stuff!
Due to me being diagnosed with these I think they are the most scariest mental health disorders: 1.D.I.D 2. Domestic-Stockholm syndrome 3. addictive personality disorder(causes you to easily become addicted to anything including another person)
I have depersonalization disorder and derealization disorder. It’s quite overwhelming at times, but the way I’ve dealt with it is by imagining that I’m just in a video game. It’s worse when overwhelmed by external factors like loud noises or uncomfortable environments.
as someone who has Dissociative Identity Disorder ( some of my symptoms are similar to schizophrenia) it scared when you don't know whats real and whats not on the daily basis
I live in Japan and the Paris syndrome is absolutely true!
People have a very romantic image of Paris and get horrified when they see how it really is
I live in Europe and I find it horrifying what Paris has become.
Yes, filled with black people and arabs
I was just in Paris and it was quite nice. Maybe I was just lucky.
It smells like a toilet by the Eiffel Tower. So sad.
Parisians hate everyone else. You are not crazy.
I suffer from schizoaffective disorder and Derealisation and they’re terrifying! They both leave me questioning what is real and what isn’t. I finally accepted that I have schizoaffective disorder but now I know I have it, and I am aware that I’m prone to hallucinations, I am stuck in a position of not knowing if something/some one is actually real??? And I’ve had Derealisation for about 12 years and it’s awful. It never goes away and sometimes I really have to question whether the world is real, and sometimes can’t tell the difference between my dreams and reality.
I'm so sorry hear you've had to go through all this Hun it sounds terrifying and lonely, but I really hope you have a good support group or someone you can go too to anchor you. You must be really mentally strong though to be able to talk about about it still be here you should be proud of yourself of what you've been able to overcome already 😊
I have derealization, too! Sucks! I got it and AIWS with VSS
I can't imagine the schizophrenia but I've had depersonalization and derealization. I'm sorry that you're going through that.
Dementia or Alzheimer’s. While not a mental disorder it does affect the person’s mental state. My grandma is in the mild stage of it and is still able to care for herself (can’t live alone so she lives with my aunt and uncle) but stories about people not recognizing their family members or themselves scares me that one day, my grandma won’t remember anyone
My husband grandfather is in the last stage of dementia and yes it does affect the mental state they can see things that are not there. They sometimes go back in there mind like my grandfather he went back to when he was in service. My tip. To u honey is so spend as much time with your grandmother.
@@momma2009100 I do. They live in Atlanta, Georgia and when we go to North Carolina we always try to visit. My dad and I are going to move down there and possibly have a trip there once a month. She’s doing cognitive empowerment therapy and it does seem to help her. I never would wish for dementia or Alzheimer’s on my worst enemy
I lost my grandma just recently from those disorders.
My fiancés great grandmother is in late stage; and I was a CNA for Dementia/Alzheimer patients, as sad as it is, at a certain point you get used to it, you kind of need to understand that they have absolutely no control over it. It’s heartbreaking when someone forgets about you but it’s just how aging works sometimes also. When my great grandmother was getting to her late stages when I was in my mid teens my mom explained it like “she knows you exist and she loves you, but she thinks of you as little you, as a kid, so she may not recognize you” and she didn’t but it eased my worries and wasn’t as bad.
This is what happened to my grandfather. I’ll never forget the moment I visited my grandparent’s house, only for him to have no idea who I was nor recognize my father - his own son. He thought we broke into his home.
Fortunately, my grandmother was able to calm him down - but he never recognized us again. He confused my father for his brother later, and that’s what my dad went with since it was what made sense to him at that stage of his sickness.
As a caregiver, schizophrenia seems like the scariest psychological condition I've come across. I had one client describe an alien on his chest breathing in his face and trapping him in his sheet every night and governmental agents scouting him out to unalive him.
Knew another person not in my care that basically drank draino and had to get a ton of surgeries. He didn't tell anyone he did it so it took a long time to get him care.
It's not so bad once you've got it
Not all cases are like that. My maternal grandma had schizophrenia. But if not managed properly or gets severe, yeah I can see it be scary.
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@@beanme2422 I’m not saying we should judge all schizophrenia as scary people, nor am I saying all are harmless. Just that we should get to know those with the disorder living a normal life before we jump to any conclusions because they either are indeed harmless or they may need help and not realize it yet, but we won’t know unless we get to know them or at least just talking to them without going into details of who they are. You be surprise how much just small talk can tell someone about you and in vice versa.
That movie a Beautiful Mind with Russel Crowe was a good and sad movie. He had paranoid schizophrenia. I wouldn't want it.
I remember watching a episode of beyond belief fact or fiction once where there was a werewolf story. A guy in a mental asylum claimed to be a werewolf. He said a certain moon was coming that would kill all werewolves. He begged to be put in a room with no window. The asylum doctor refused. The next morning the man was found dead, with claw marks on the door. According to the then host, Johnathan Frakes, that was one of the true stories.
Uuuuh! I love that episode! I think it was called "eclipse".
@@lenastorm6280 I think it was! Great show wasn't it?
@@CrazyAnimeGamer3 Yeah, it was one of my favorites as a kid. Honestly, I still love watching it.
@@lenastorm6280 You used to be able to find it on RUclips. Not sure if you still can though.
Yes, same. Loved that show growing up 😊
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Besides depression, anxiety, and ptsd, my partner has both schizophrenia and DID. When they sleepwalk, it's troubling for me to get him to come back, but I still won't change it for anything else.
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And I thought that having chronic depression was bad enough.
I dissociate every once in a while r/t my CPTSD. It is scary for me, but worse for my family. The medical community never takes my mental issues into account when I complain of physical symptoms. I've been gaslit so many times and undermedicated by doctors.
I don't think I dissociated, but my C-ptsd is pretty bad sometimes and coupled with bipolar disorder, life gets pretty miserable 😢
I have both CPTSD and straight up PTSD and while I don't know if I dissociate completely, I do so enough to just not pay attention to what my mom or stepmom would be ranting and raving about. I have made up alter egos, but nothing ever takes me over, I know that they're fiction even though I've met people who really do believe in their delusions. It can be frustrating, but it's not their fault.
5:39 and as someone with a disability, I utterly hate that. I’m not broken just because my blindfold came preinstalled and I don’t have to put it on. I can’t drive a car and I wouldn’t trust me to operate heavy construction machinery, mainly because I’m accident prone, but I can do everything else else just about it. One of these days I’m either going to win 100 games on Jeopardy, become president, or both just approved to this world that we’re not useless.
I have undiagnosed ADHD. And as a chef. It affects it so badly. I need to be focused. But my mind is everywhere. And I can't focus on one thing. I literally need something like music going 24/7 to stay focused.
Try to get diagnosed and try medication/supplements! It helped me alot even though i still feel my adhd symptoms at times
Same! I like to listen to narration stories or music to keep me grounded
Whatever it takes dude
I’m a psych nurse of 12 years. And I will say that while all these conditions are terrifying they are not as prominent at the media would have you believe. That does mean that the people who do have a condition like one of these is often targeted as a danger by idiots who don’t understand that films like Split are incredibly inaccurate.
No way you're a nurse because that is complete bs 😂.
They are very common and alot more people have m than you'd think and are completely well functioning.
@@Ruinedtri and you know this because……? What? You googled it?
Mental illnesses are dramatically hyped up for the movies including showing things that are not used properly in tv/film such as ECT. Psychopathy always means it's a killer (Antisocial Personality Disorder just doesn't have the same ring to it as Psychopath does). PTSD made Rambo go back to his incredibly proficient skills from the war and not have a full mental breakdown, flashbacks, disassociate, and make mistakes like a human with such a condition. Split was . . . . .entertaining, but so inaccurate I don't even know where to begin.
Thank you for your work in psych. There are never enough beds and never enough staff and we need all of the help we can get.
I honestly hate it when people compare my disorder with Split because they think that's what DID is. The media needs to do a better job at portraying disorders such as this one because we get targeted and hurt by it.
I had experience with Psyciatry cause i had in-born Hydrocephalus,i stopped going in psychiatrist for 3 years now
I've been watching this guy for years now never gets old 💯 keep it up bro
Depersonalization is more like living everything in third person. You are dissociating completely after all. You’re seeing everything in autopilot and you can only watch. Like a movie in a way and you’re only the audience. It doesn’t happen to me all the friggin time, but it happens often enough to affect my life ✌🏼 I do not know the trigger
Yep, it’s pretty terrifying. I’ve had it constantly for 5 years but I’m so used to it now that I’m not scared anymore and it only becomes really noticeable when I’m experiencing a lot of stress
Yeah it's weird. Like you're watching a narration of your own life. You're doing things but you don't "feel" like you're doing them. It's crazy. It's easy to lose track of time as well. I remember I suffered an episode a few winters ago and I walked to McDonald's at like 6 am and it felt like miles but it was barely 1 and a half. Felt like I was floating or something. Everything around me looked like a was looking through some kind of weird glass or a kaleidoscope. I was questioning all my thoughts and sensations.
I've experienced this when I was a younger and I don't know why. I never told anyone as it didn't last for longer than a few months. Also, I never experienced seeing myself sort of like being out of body, but I felt like I was watching a movie through my eyes. It was scary at times especially when I was trying to pay attention to things like driving and being worried that I'd get into an accident because I didn't feel like I was controlling the car.
Borderline personality disorder is also pretty scary to live with and for an outsider looking in we’re at times unrecognizable. The extremes we go to when angry or upset is mind boggling even to us. Pair that with any of the other disorders in this video it’s beyond nightmare ish to live with or be around. I have DID and BPD and it sucks. It’s even worse unmedicated. There’s no medication specific to the disorder but mood stabilizers paired with antipsychotics have been shown to help. 80% of us will attempt self unaliving and 10% will succeed because it’s not just mentally painful to live with, it’s physical too. It’s the most physically painful mental disorder. There’s subtypes as well. We can be easily manipulated and we engage in risky behavior and self harm and we’re more likely to be addicted to drugs or alcohol but other forms such as shopping has been found. It’s fascinating to learn about but terrifying to live with.
I was wondering if someone was gonna mention bpd
I was diagnosed with it. I couldn't even imagine juggling it and did at the same time.
I have bpd to
I live with diagnosed BPD. No idea who I am. Feel like I live in a completely different world that everyone else and I don’t fit here. Sometimes the world doesn’t even seem real. Our brains stay in fight or flight mode.
Yes!!! I have BPD!! It can get scary🎉
I sadly have bpd
The creepy videos are why I subscribed all those years ago, glad they're as awesome as always :)
Me too and the missing people ones too
I had Alice in Wonderland syndrome as a child but not with objects ... with time perception instead. Suddenly, everything would go mega fast like someone had pressed fast forward. Was so bizarre, It stopped in adolescents, and I have never had it since.
I had it during the 14 day isolation from having rona in 2021 or 22. Shook it off a few months after
I think the same applies to me. Also stopped at 18.
This is pretty normal for adolescence with time
I have it too, it started when my mother passed away. I get chronic migraines. It affects me with time as well. Glad you’re doing better :)
I had this to the extreme from ketamine brain damage
my partner has DID, and some days it’s good. Other days its not so good. I’m staying by his side. I love him and most of his personalities know me and know I’m safe to come to
pyschological disorders are the worst.
It's all the same thing. Whether you see this in your vision, or that, is a technicality.
They can be if not treated properly. I've learned to accept mine at this point.
Even though they can wreak havoc on your life if you don't get them treated, I personally find them very fascinating which is interesting considering I have a couple of my own. Thanks Mom
The Alien hand syndrome reminds me of the scene in the Evil Dead movie where the guy’s hand is possessed by a demon and tries to kill the guy.
Schizophrenic episodes I've had are reminiscent of these disorders. As I've studied and practiced spirituality these episodes began to make sense and cleared on their own. Otherworldly sentient energies or entities are very real, it's my understanding that in severe cases these entities have entangled their frequency, vibration and energy (essence) with your own. If you research stages of enlightenment you'll find the symptoms are similar to schizophrenia. How's it all possible? Study quantum physics, you'll start to piece together how dimensions and consciousness creates, alters and destroys reality within time and space.
I think you are very right about this
That depersonalization disorder sounds very frightening. I think a friend of mine, told me a few years ago, he had a relative that felt “out of place” of their own body.
I have schizoaffective disorder and these are still way more creepy..😮
I also have Schizoaffective and I agree
I suffer from random bouts of depersonalisation, I try to describe it as it feels like I am watching a movie and someone is trying to simulate what I should feel, everything feels muted, even my emotions don't feel like they are my own and honestly it is so scary...
I have OCD, agoraphobia, DPDR, and elements of Alice In Wonderland syndrome (where time and distance are concerned). It’s an interesting life, put it that way. We need to be empathetic to the plight our fellow people might well be experiencing, as in my experience most of us hide these things. Excellent video, thank you for this. Sharing.
My doctor told me I had postpartum anxiety after I had my son back in 2021, but I think it was more so postpartum psychosis because I had some delusions and hallucinations. It was terrifying and after having been up for a few days, I ended up relapsing on alcohol trying to ease the “anxiety” and woke up at rehab four days later. Im still dealing with it over 2.5 years later.
My uncle had Schizophrenia. He sadly isolated himself due to his hallucinations who made him believe people wanted to hurt him so I didn’t get to know him that much. All I can remember are the moments where he would open his apartment window when I passed by with friends (my dad lived closed by) and gave me some money so I could buy myself candies at the corner store. I never felt scared or realized he was “sick”. He passed in 2005. I only learned years later that he had committed sui*ide. It made me really sad. I hope he rest in peace ❤
I work for with people qith schizophrenia and I wish the stigma around schizophrenia would stop. People with schizophrenia are not violent and 1 out of 10 people with schizophrenia will tale their own life
@@kims4766 True! Most of the times they are more “dangerous” for themselves than others.
As a sufferer from alice in wonderland syndrome, the most i can describe it for myself is having a 1st person view inside a dolls house walking around. its very scary as i know my blood pressure has dropped too much (orthostatic hypotension) and cereberal hypoperfusion occurs and it messes with my perception. i am only 19.
I have bipolar II and recently have been suffering from terrifying hallucinations. I'm glad I'm not experiencing any of these disorders as well.
Glad you are doing these top 10 videos again
Paris syndrome must be common. So many people claiming to be disliked or victims when they aren’t.
I have schizophrenia and depression even though I get treatment for it. it's very scary, I still hear voices to this day but the meds help control it thanks Matt for this video it helps getting the word out there about these illnesses
I have DID, but it's atypical. It resulted more from loneliness than trauma. We've had some rough times, but on the whole, it's pretty nice. There's a whole planet in my head full of amazing people.
I had Alice in Wonderland syndrome as a child and things in my room would appear distorted. My mom told me that I would often complain to her that the door was extra tall and that the space between my bed and my sister's bed was further than normal. I remember whenever this happened, I would stand in my hallway afraid to get back into bed.
That sounds pretty much what you would see on LSD or mushrooms damn
I wonder what can cause that I bet it has something to do with the eyes focus because that just sounds too weird to not be a medical problem
@@andriagarriott8629VSS for me.
Dude Matt love you and your friends are helping you threw the censorship, hope you keep making great content!
As someone with D.I.D I’m beyond relieved you didn’t mention the Split trilogy in this episode as the movies portray extremely negative stigma
Ugh, Hollywood sucks. I have BPD and so did Glenn’ Close’s character in “fatal attraction”. We are not all crazy stalkers ! In fact most of us aren’t.
SAME! In my personal opinion, some others (including alters in my system) may disagree, the south park episode was better, only because it was at least funny. Nothing about Split was entertaining in my opinion. I didn't even know it was a trilogy. I couldn't even make it halfway through the first one 😂
I don't think I have any of the disorders in this video(well, maybe Depersonalization Disorder), but I have autism, and a certain Aussie singer made a movie about a woman taking care of her autistic sister, whom is played by a woman who is NOT autistic, and I heard the portrayal wasn't even good!
@alexhart9267 omg! As a fellow Autistic person that really frustrated me especially since the actor was originally somone with autism but then they didn't like all the needs and adjustments that come with being autistic so they went with a neurotypical actor instead purely because it was easier for them!!!!
@@Chaos.HQ05 god.....if I wanna watch a movie about autism, I'd watch this really good stop motion animated movie called "Mary and Max!"
I'm glad your alive and healthy man
D.I.D. is terrifying. I've been diagnosed 3 times, at 16, 19, and 25. I've never been through hypnosis therapy, but I was raised in a cult. I started integration therapy at 19. At 23 started seeing a new therapist. At 25 went to her with all the reasons in which I'm schizophrenic. She played back our previous session and I didn't recognize the voice, but it was an alter explaining who he was and begging her to help him. He still feels imprisoned in a body that isn't his. After 4 years of actual therapy, focused on uncovering and healing the trauma throughout our system, there's communication between alters. There already kinda was which is why I thought I was schizophrenic. I was hearing voices and seeing people I didn't know in my head. That was the key difference, it was in my head and not outside of it. Imagine waking up every day of your life and not recognizing your surroundings or even your own face. Imagine "missing" your kids birthdays while physically being there. It's not all bad though. There's something called the innerworld, not all systems have one from my understanding. It's amazing though and unique to each system. Mine is really similar to the real world except jobs aren't necessary, money isn't necessary, and if you want something you can think it into existence. The flowers and trees are different. There's puff flowers which look like mimosa flowers and the fuzzy seed balls dandelions turn into but grow on trees with bark similar to a black walnut tree. There's tunnels that go to separate areas at like super speed. The sky is purple with orange clouds and the sun is gold but you can look at her. The sun, stars, moon, and specific trees are sentient. The sun and moon are alters themselves. I'm guessing from some sort of escape fantasy as a small child. I don't remember much before the age of 12.
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It's called Depersonalization Derealisation Disorder, also known as DpDr
Psychotherapy and certain medication is the only "treatment" we get
I suffer from temporary Depersonalisation Disorder. It only ever triggers when something really bad happens to me and it can last a few days to a few weeks for me to feel normal again. It got that bad that I could not feel any pain. I was running my hand under scolding hot water and didn't feel a thing. Had to rush to emergency room because of it. It feels like you are watching yourself and you're at the back. I still sometimes get it when I hear my name. Someone will call me by my name and I will be like "oh, is that my name?" It's a weird mental disorder to have. Luckily I haven't had it as bad for a long time.
I have had DPD for as long as I can remember. It’s worse sometimes than other times, and still hoping to feel better”normal” one day. One thing that makes me feel better about it is thinking of it like being in a video game. Kinda weird, but it makes me feel better lol
I'm so sorry to hear that 😔
Ohh... Horrifying mental disorders? Lovin it. Have a great day Matt
Matthew!! Always a great day to see that you posted. Hope you’re doing well!
I have heard voices all my life but have kept it to myself so family and others never knew…
They would have certainly freak to know what I have heard!
Thanks!
Thanks for the super thanks!
No more sleep tonite keep it up 😂
How could this make you sleepless? Its just a video😮
I suffered from depersonalization some years ago and it's not fun at all. Questioning reality, feelings and even sensations. It's terrible
It’s nice to see your face on my feed again first time in a while ❤
Well looks like I'm an auto-cannibal.... I sometimes eat my nails, but I always eat the skin around my nails, scabs, and boogers.....damn I'm an autistic auto-cannibal...no wonder why I can't stop...
Boogers boy you are disgusting
Omg same! My fingers are basically disfigured because I constantly pick and chew the skin around my nails. I’ve done that since I was a kid.
I have PTSD, DA, Generalized Anxiety, and now my psych thinks I may possibly have Schizoaffective disorder. I feel for all these people 😢 this must be so terrifying.
I've always enjoyed your videos, Matt! Have an awesome day
I am 31 years old & I have DID but my "alters" are still myself but in different ages. So my name is still the same when I dissociate. I can't look into mirrors, be told that I am married, or that I have children. In Feb of this year I had my daughter and 11 days later my mom passed away, I can't even be told that.
I have to wear hoodies or long sleeves with gloves to cover up my tattoos that are on my arms and hands. I can't even get my nails done, wear my wedding ring, or change my hair in any way.
Before & after I dissociate, I have seizures. But they're called "psychogenic non-epileptic seizures". It's hard, man.
1:19 "I'm a snnnaaake... I'm a snnnaaake... I'm a slithery little snnnaaake"
As someone who suffers from derealization, i feel i need to explain this. Depersonalisazation is a discinnect from ones self. Where as derealization is a disconnect from reality. It is horrific yes and theres no proper treatment for it. However, i would strongly urge anyone suffering the symptoms to reach out for help as sinply having the causes explained can help a lot. Trauma is a common cause and when you find how and why the brain deals with things the way it does, its a lot easier to see why you may feel this way. I had my first experience at 8 and am now in my thirties living fairly well. Please don't suffer in silence! There is support out there. Stay strong
I have gone thru both. Some days I am still convinced that this “reality” is not the true one. Who’s to say it is?
Matthew, my ex wife has Disassociative Disorder. I met a baby, toddler, teenager activities in her from day to day. Once she told me her psychologist said she had a dark, evil entity speak out. Very scary. She left me, May God saved me from her.
I’m surprised the syndrome when you can’t sleep isn’t number 1. That would be terrifying knowing you’re going to die and can’t even do anything about it just gotta suffer till you eventually die.
insomnia? or FFI? FFI is not considered a mental illess but a degenerative brain disease, that may be why
Fatal familial Insomnia? If so yeah I can see that being scary for those that have it. There’s an entire clan in Italy that has the gene that cause it and shows up so many times in their family that the family was considered cursed. One man from the family allowed himself be tested and studdied by experts he know once he recognize him having the earliest symptom from watching his family suffer from it and even donated his brain to science after his death to try and find the cause. Experts not only learned a lot from studying the guy but realize the gene being the main cause thanks to that man
I saw an episode of it on the show “something is killing me” on HBOMax
I saw a video on Top 15 that mention in one of the countdowns of a RUclipsr who use to do videos on his tattoos before showing symptoms of a chronic diseases or disorder that eventually claimed his life. I don’t remember the symptoms he had but one of the possible causes was Fatal Familial Insomnia which brought up memories of what I knew about it. I ended up leaving a comment that if it was Fatal Familial Insomnia, that RUclipsr would have died from it anyways
@@ashleighstratmann7783 I believe it's not listed because it's more of a neurological disorder, than a psychiatric one
I have psychosis and I hate it. I can't do anything that requires socializing. mates in college who see my behavior bully me or call me "Hey, autist!" loud. I shouldn't say anything about it or I'd be sent to a public asylum. My country considers any mental illnesses (that's not down syndrome) to be a shame.
I barely graduated and I have to find a job ... any job, but you know.
My symptoms: when I see someone at level of my vision (not even looking at them directly), my brain gets overloaded with attention towards them and getting too much thoughts about that if they're doing malicious things towards me or thinking about me in a bad way, ..etc. I start freaking out and my body twitching when someone touches me. I basically become out of reality and can get crazy like an actual crazy person.
That was before I went to doctor and start taking the medicines. I gained more control over my thoughts and behavior. But the illness still annoys me when I go outside my house.
I have schizophrenia , with hallucinations and severe paranoia. I was diagnosed in 2018 . My son is my caregiver hes 25 years old so i dont think he truly believes me. My sister came to visit me and had to sit my kids and my dad down to explain what it is i have and i think my dad understands a little bit more but my son is still not convinced. I see spirits and have full on conversations with them. I think ive given my phone number to at least 2 of them. Its hard to live with this diagnosis and noone believes me . I also have agoraphobia. My mental health is so hard to deal with
I have no one to talk to about it . I only see my psychiatrist 1 time a month. Ughhh
My son has DID, but they really don't refer to it as that now. It's PTSD with dissociative identities. He's had it since he was 10 after a severe early childhood trauma at age 6. He's 19 now. Therapy and meds have not really helped at all. He's mostly just learned to live with the near constant inner dialogue and brain fog as he retreats with any trigger. His life is miserable and it's hard to see people "faking" this condition for clicks on Tiktok. It's nothing like these kids think. You don't just close your eyes and call upon an 'alter'. He experiences deep fogs and amnesia and he's hurt himself many times. It's not something he can just call upon to put on a show.
Good to see you back on here regularly boss
I have D.I.D. schizophrenia, had it since childhood, because of traumas. Definitely something you learn to live with and always adapting. But The Lord knows me. And He's the one who defines me..
It's taking me so long to even open up about it. And even saying it on here to share a small portion of myself, is a bit hard. But. Wanted to put that out there
I have heard of Alien Hand Syndrome and DID. But the others....😮 it's scary to think these disorders exist.
I’ve had depersonalization for 5 years. Nice to see it on here, it definitely is very scary
Omfg u are back I can't believe it I. So happy u bck😊
Putting this on while i lay down to get sleep, no matter the content i find your voice so calming, perfect dream fuel😊
I have dissociative identity disorder, and I'd like to correct some information real quick. First off I want to say that yes it is portrayed horribly in media, making it seem as if the disorder causes us to become serial killers or go insane because of it. In actuality, the condition doesn't make us bad people. It makes us confused due to the amnesia barriers we experience and it can make us feel scared at first due to the fact that we don't know right away what's happening. It also isn't a personality disorder because yes while the personality does change, it's because the different parts of us (known as alterations/alters) are fronting. Fronting means that a specific alter is in control of the body at that moment, kind of like driving a car. The others are tucked away somewhere inside what we call headspace and aren't in control. That explains why we have amnesia barriers. Just wanted to say it's an identity thing because the brain splits the identity into multiple parts.
This disorder is caused by traumatic events that we've experienced in childhood. That can be a range from physical to emotional trauma of any kind. Some misconceptions are that you can get the disorder at any time in your life, but actually the disorder forms between the ages of infancy to around 9 or 10 years old. You can be diagnosed later in life with the condition, but in order for the disorder to officially form, you need to have been traumatized to a certain degree in childhood. Hopefully that covers some information. I've been diagnosed with this since 2023 officially, but I knew back in 2020 that this was most likely what was going on.
I have D.I.D and it's terrifying, missing chunks of time and coming to somewhere that you don't know or with someone you don't know is beyond unnerving .
I’m sorry ❤ you have been through a LOT. I have BPD and on some level, I get it ❤
@@kateashby3066 sorry you have BPD my daughter has it and it's so hard to go through.
I understand how you feel. I suffer from DID, BPD and ADHD. Therapists don't want to treat me. I live in a big city, and even those that offer the treatment I need, will not accept me. This is our governments way of population control. They want us to end it, so they don't have to deal with us.
@@westcoastwonderers1060how is this the case?
@@IrishMike22 Read my original comment.
My adopted daughter started suffering with schizophrenia around age 19. I tried having her move in (she was homeless) after 3 days I couldn’t handle it anymore but not from lack of trying. I’ve been a caregiver for 27 years so it wasn’t anything new. I finally got her to the point where she commited herself for a month. On a routine and meds she was great. However when the discharged her against her wishes she quit taking her meds. I took the city to court to have her admitted to a state hospital but they said it wasn’t necessary. She was pulled out of the middle of heavy traffic by 7 different police officers, and wouldn’t take her meds if they weren’t handed to her. 1 week after she was discharged she was ran over and killed after she was found allaying under a car with her head behind the wheel. The poor lady didn’t even know she was there. If the state had listened to any one of us that cared for her on a daily basis she would still be alive today. I have to remind myself that at least she isn’t having to deal with her demons anymore. Mental health is still so stigmatized it’s ridiculous
I am so sorry for your loss and the struggles your daughter faced. I believe she is at peace now, in a far better place ❤
I grew up with Alice in wonderland syndrome as a child. I remember it stopping as I learned sleep was important . Used to happen more often while exhausted.
This video brings me to your back in the day vids. Highly enjoyed this video. Informative and intriguing. Your cadence in vids is always fantastic. I'm not a gamer so this content is nice. Though do at times watch a bit of you on Twitch. Keep going bro.
I have a number of diagnosed disorders but BPD is the worst. I don’t have split identities, just, no identity.
My hand throws things or slaps close things if nothing is being carried. That is a part of having Epilepsy in every section of my brain though. LOL. It actually can get funny sometimes. You have to see it that way.
I have depersonalization and derealization from a dissociative disorder along with dissociative amnesia. I still don't know who or what is in control when I lose time, but the whole idea has been difficult for me to wrap my mind around. It makes me question my own reality and my perception of it.
Here’s one: anti-NMDA receptor encephalitis. Often misdiagnosed as something else by doctors it is an autoimmune disorder where antibodies attacks the brain causing inflamation of the brain, leading to fever headaches and tiredness in early stages before progressing to psychosis, delusions, and hallucinations and in later stages: seizures decrease breathing, and increase/decrease of heart rate. Some even go Catalonia.
The disorder became more notable after Susannah Callahan who had suffered from the disorder before a doctor tried a different test from the rest that made him realize one side of her brain wasn’t working well wrote a book on her experience with it: “Brain on Fire: My Month of Madness” which gained so much popularity she been on talk shows about it and even help families who saw those shows who had a love one also suffering from the disorder but kept being misdiagnosed. Which was the writer’s goal in the first place since lack of knowledge and rarity of the disorder is what led to her misdiagnosis when she started showing symptoms. There is even a movie based off her book called Brain on Fire
Depersonalization/derealization is often also a symptom of DID - I live with DID, and experience both. I'm several years into realization and treatment, so I have co-conciousness quite often. Experiencing depersonalization/derealization for me often comes with being co-concious with another alter.
OCD is also a terrifying disorder.
Perfectionism/cleanliness obsession is one of many obsessions a sufferer can have.
Others include fear of harming loved ones, doubting your sexuality, doubting the evidence you get when you see it in front of you... there's also existential ocd, and so much more.
No matter how much reassurance you get, the fear is always there, intense or not.
I got OCD, too. 😢
Its no fun. I'm doing my best to resist compulsions and stuff atm so that my mind can clear up.
@@justicedreams not all OCDs are about cleanliness and perfectionism. Hoarding is a type of OCD.
I think everyone has OCD to an extent. But I hear you there. My roomate has it very deeply similar to all the things you just mentioned.
@@ashleighstratmann7783 ik, I said it in my post
I live with bipolar and I would tell I never wish it on any one it's like a demon it cause me to snap at people my family and any who I think is conspiring against me it like a demon that disability is just awful I hate having it it's sad
These psych conditions seem like curses to me. 😢😢😢
I have experienced Depersonalisation before. I have never been so afraid in my entire life.
I had a patient that had DID I felt so bad for her
She doesn't need your pity
Depersonalization disorder is freaky. It's like watching a movie of your own life. That last comment on it kinda weirded me out too. It's gotten better for me over time but it's a scary thought for things to always be like that
I have Todd's syndrome and have migraines. I have learned to be careful not to drive or anything once headaches start. It's mostly active at night. Mainly shadows, even in a bright room still gets me.
The scariest part about mental illness is not knowing that you have one. 😔
As someone with DID, it is pretty terrifying but theres ways of coping through it. Theres physical symptoms we experience such as headaches, when someone in headspace touches me and Im fronting Ill also feel that touch physically to a very vivid degree. DID is formed from severe childhood trauma that is repetitive over a long period. I didn’t know that people with DID honestly k/lled themselves over it but I see why, it can be very draining to the body, mental state and the alters themselves especially when we front to do our jobs. Im the host but each one of my alters are here for a specific purpose, I have a relationship protector, an animal alter, a caregiver, a cohost, soother.. theres a lot of roles but yeah if you guys want to do more research you can. I feel like more people should be educated on this anyways
I'm loving your new Top 10 videos! Keep it up. 🥰
MATT!! You are doing great!! Hope you're well & feel just as content making these vids as we feel watching them
Depersonalization Disorder is scary to go through especially if you don't know what it's called. Medication can help, usually for anxiety or depression
I have DID, schizophrenia, and possible Alice in Wonderland Syndrom (not sure I understand it enough to be sure), PTSD, AND depression. It's a nasty combination. Although TBH the one that's the most "scary" is the schizophrenia which is actually the paranoid type so yay me! Sometimes I feel more like a bundle of symptoms rather than a person. I really want it said that these disorders are scary for the people that have them, people with these disorders aren't inherently dangerous.
my friend has alice in wonderland syndrome, one of my closest friends. He's amazing but it is scary when he has his symptoms appear. He's had it for years now and now he said he's used to it.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar at 31 and its friends depression and anxiety. And then was diagnosed with ADHD at 35. Mental health diagnoses need to be recognized earlier 🙏🏻
I live with depersonalization and it is genuinely terrifying at times
I suffered from Alice in wonderland syndrome as a kid. I still get episodes from time to time as an adult.
good job matt I'm so glad you are back . even if the topic is a bit terrifying
Hey Matthew. I don’t really watch you often. But I just wanna say how much I respect how long you’ve been in the game and how you’ve stuck to your routes. I see the effort you’ve always put into the content. Great video 👍
Good god I've been watching your videos for over a decade now surreal feeling
About the auto cannibalism: some people pick at the skin on their fingers and peel off the skin and eat it. Does that count as auto cannibalism? Crazy stuff!
No, not the same. auto cannibalism is much more extreme and dangerous than biting your nails.
@@scretladyspider I didn’t even say anything about biting freaking nails for Christ sakes! I said peeling skin off of your body and consuming it.
I had depersonalization disorder which has gotten better with therapy but my goodness I would be driving and be confused as to how or why I got home
Never going to Paris now…
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That was interesting. Thank you for sharing that video Matthew.
Due to me being diagnosed with these I think they are the most scariest mental health disorders: 1.D.I.D 2. Domestic-Stockholm syndrome 3. addictive personality disorder(causes you to easily become addicted to anything including another person)
I have depersonalization disorder and derealization disorder. It’s quite overwhelming at times, but the way I’ve dealt with it is by imagining that I’m just in a video game. It’s worse when overwhelmed by external factors like loud noises or uncomfortable environments.
as someone who has Dissociative Identity Disorder ( some of my symptoms are similar to schizophrenia) it scared when you don't know whats real and whats not on the daily basis