Dude, I needed this last week when I was reading Watchmen for the first time! I'm only 10 minutes in and this is great, I can see the panels in my head while listening.
It's 2023, October 10th 02:21 a.m. My heart is beating fast, I can't sleep, I feel sad and overwhelmed. I just have read the chapter Watchmaker for the first time in my life. I knew about the existance of Watchmen for a while. To be exactly, since I was a child. But most of the time my mom put a hand on my eyes at every violent or sexual scene of the movie. I didn't know why we were watching it anyway, in a situation like that she would turn off the tv. I felt intrigued, specially watching at Dr Manhattan. My family is catholic and I was taught about god and jesus from a young age, however for me it was hard to understand how faith should work of feel. I couldn't understand the concept of God either. So watching Manhattan experiencing all the time at all times was the closest moment I could understand how being a god could be. I couldn't understand it consciously, but even then it felt alienating. I wasn't capable to feel what my whole family felt while going to church, and that seed of doubt kept growing until I finally admited to myself that I couldn't believe in god's existance. As a teenager I would have heard a again about Watchmen, but not as that weird movie I watched with my mom that felt like a mature version of The Incredibles, now it was that ground breaking comic that defied and subverted superheroes. So now it was like that thing so sacred that I always hear about when I search about comics on youtube, but that I never felt ready to read it. Another thing is that at that time I was diagnosed with Asperger. At that moment I could finally understand why I felt so disconected from other people. Now as a young adult, that disconection kept growing until I felt quite lonely. The few friends I had were on their own carreers and jobs, and talking to new people became harder to me after the pandemic. Also I kept feeling lost in life, even depressed. There was a point I wasn't afraid to death. People often say I learn things too fast, that I'm so smart and all that stuff. But I don't feel that way, I just can memorize things better than others, but it doesn't make me smarter, or happier, or less lonely. I feel envy when I see my family going through harder things with more courage than me after they have a moment to pray. It is like they can become stronger by pure self-suggestion. It is almost magical how can feel so safe in the unceirtanty just by having faith in it. But I can't do it, I can't feel it, and I can't do anything about it. It is not like I could search for instructions to restore wifi signal with heaven to finally have my spiritual videocall with god. That is the problem with people in general, they can be hard to read, they can be so irrational, but I have to act like I get them just to not be seen as a freak just because I speak my thoughts outloud or something like that. Give me simple instructions with a clear procedure to follow and I'll do it perfectly, but if you give me something as obtuse and complex as understanding social dynamics or understanding metaphysical stuff like faith and I can't do it. So at heart I feel frozen in time while everyone keep moving foward and I feel my heart getting away from people. Then, there was a day I just casually download Watchmen to read on my phone while I listen to music that fits the mood of the moment, so that was how I got here. Then, Dr Manhattan goes to Mars and the chapter of Watchmaker starts while this music keeps playing. Manhattan should be a character I could never empathise with. He has no will of his own, and his way of thinking is so ahead of human understanding, but at that moment I was at Mars with him. That feeling of needing self isolation to escape from the preasure of humanity, that loneliness that comes from being incapable to make others understand you, that feeling of hopelessness from trying to fight your nature to finally giving in to it, all of that felt too close to home. It felt too real, even for a comicbook character that should be so far away from human comprehension. That line of "I'm tired of Earth. These people." was too powerful to me. I still want to think I can find my place amongst society, so seeing Jon giving up felt hard. I'll keep reading later. I can't do it now. I'm overwhelmed, and I'm too tired but I can't sleep. Watchmaker was too powerful to me and this music felt like the ost of my existential crisis Thanks anyway.
Great music while reading the Watchman Graphic Novel. I read it right now for the first time with this as background music and it definitly gives it a whole new comic reading experience
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Dude, I needed this last week when I was reading Watchmen for the first time! I'm only 10 minutes in and this is great, I can see the panels in my head while listening.
It's 2023, October 10th 02:21 a.m.
My heart is beating fast, I can't sleep, I feel sad and overwhelmed.
I just have read the chapter Watchmaker for the first time in my life.
I knew about the existance of Watchmen for a while. To be exactly, since I was a child. But most of the time my mom put a hand on my eyes at every violent or sexual scene of the movie.
I didn't know why we were watching it anyway, in a situation like that she would turn off the tv. I felt intrigued, specially watching at Dr Manhattan.
My family is catholic and I was taught about god and jesus from a young age, however for me it was hard to understand how faith should work of feel. I couldn't understand the concept of God either. So watching Manhattan experiencing all the time at all times was the closest moment I could understand how being a god could be. I couldn't understand it consciously, but even then it felt alienating. I wasn't capable to feel what my whole family felt while going to church, and that seed of doubt kept growing until I finally admited to myself that I couldn't believe in god's existance.
As a teenager I would have heard a again about Watchmen, but not as that weird movie I watched with my mom that felt like a mature version of The Incredibles, now it was that ground breaking comic that defied and subverted superheroes. So now it was like that thing so sacred that I always hear about when I search about comics on youtube, but that I never felt ready to read it.
Another thing is that at that time I was diagnosed with Asperger. At that moment I could finally understand why I felt so disconected from other people.
Now as a young adult, that disconection kept growing until I felt quite lonely. The few friends I had were on their own carreers and jobs, and talking to new people became harder to me after the pandemic. Also I kept feeling lost in life, even depressed. There was a point I wasn't afraid to death.
People often say I learn things too fast, that I'm so smart and all that stuff. But I don't feel that way, I just can memorize things better than others, but it doesn't make me smarter, or happier, or less lonely.
I feel envy when I see my family going through harder things with more courage than me after they have a moment to pray. It is like they can become stronger by pure self-suggestion. It is almost magical how can feel so safe in the unceirtanty just by having faith in it. But I can't do it, I can't feel it, and I can't do anything about it. It is not like I could search for instructions to restore wifi signal with heaven to finally have my spiritual videocall with god.
That is the problem with people in general, they can be hard to read, they can be so irrational, but I have to act like I get them just to not be seen as a freak just because I speak my thoughts outloud or something like that.
Give me simple instructions with a clear procedure to follow and I'll do it perfectly, but if you give me something as obtuse and complex as understanding social dynamics or understanding metaphysical stuff like faith and I can't do it.
So at heart I feel frozen in time while everyone keep moving foward and I feel my heart getting away from people.
Then, there was a day I just casually download Watchmen to read on my phone while I listen to music that fits the mood of the moment, so that was how I got here.
Then, Dr Manhattan goes to Mars and the chapter of Watchmaker starts while this music keeps playing.
Manhattan should be a character I could never empathise with. He has no will of his own, and his way of thinking is so ahead of human understanding, but at that moment I was at Mars with him.
That feeling of needing self isolation to escape from the preasure of humanity, that loneliness that comes from being incapable to make others understand you, that feeling of hopelessness from trying to fight your nature to finally giving in to it, all of that felt too close to home.
It felt too real, even for a comicbook character that should be so far away from human comprehension. That line of "I'm tired of Earth. These people." was too powerful to me.
I still want to think I can find my place amongst society, so seeing Jon giving up felt hard.
I'll keep reading later. I can't do it now. I'm overwhelmed, and I'm too tired but I can't sleep. Watchmaker was too powerful to me and this music felt like the ost of my existential crisis
Thanks anyway.
Great music while reading the Watchman Graphic Novel. I read it right now for the first time with this as background music and it definitly gives it a whole new comic reading experience
A few ideas for future installments:
-Gojira (1954)
-King Kong (1976)
-The Fly (1986)
-Mary Shelley's Frankenstein (1994)
-The Wolfman (2010)
Once you realize what a joke everything is, being the Comedian is the only thing that makes sense.
Mr ambience do ‘the city of Lost Children’
Or or ‘cosmopolis’
How can I watch your Zack Snyder’s Justice League one 😢