What does Bipolar Disorder feel like?
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- Опубликовано: 6 окт 2024
- In this video, I share my perspective as someone living with bipolar type I, on what it feels like to have bipolar disorder; focusing in particular on the differences between manic and depressive episodes.
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im 16, I cant be officially diagnosed as bipolar but i was allowed to be described as manic depressive (something along those lines). For me, its very hard to even feel like i have it at times. I’ve had moments in my life where I felt completely neutral and balanced, but then i’d be hit w mania or a depressive episode that would last months or a year.
when i was manic i also felt depressed. I’ve always been very self aware about all this so my manic episodes, although I felt it vividly I tried my hardest to contain myself (I would describe this as invisible mania). considering i am young i dont imagine it would present as severe as an adult might.
Does this describe anything you might have felt? my “mania” was delusional but very on and off and no where near as extreme as yours. I’m medicated now so Its hard to recall or describe it. its thankfully been a while since ive been unwell
Hey notapaypal, thanks for your comment. I can definitely relate to what you said about having mania or depressive episodes that last an extended period of time. My manic episode lasted about 5 months and my depressive episode(which feels like it’s nearing its end finally) lasted close to 2 years. Even though I wasn’t diagnosed until age 23, I feel like there were plenty of ‘early signs’ that I had the condition, particularly signs from when I was in high school; major depression episodes, going days without sleep, fast pressured speech, suicide attempt, etc. I was thinking about doing a video on that sometime soon. You mentioned feeling depressed while manic. This was very much my experience as well. For many people mania can feel euphoric and like you’re on top of the world. But it manifests differently in everyone. In my case, my manic symptoms coincided with issues of trust and feelings of loneliness. Living in a frat house probably contributed somewhat because I’ve always been fairly introverted and being in such a loud crowded environment full of people who are so naturally sociable made me feel inadequate in some ways. I wouldn’t describe my 5 month manic episode as on and off, but I feel I’ve had many manic symptoms throughout the years that came and went. I do know that when I first came out of my 5 month manic episode I couldn’t remember anything. I was in such a state of shock and my memory only gradually became restored as time went on. I do remember reading somewhere that manic episodes cause brain damage so this could potentially be a reason for why some people have difficulty remembering after a manic episode. All I know is that the condition is serious and I’m glad to see that you’re taking it serious. One in five people diagnosed with bipolar successfully complete suicide. You seem to have a lot of insight about the condition. I didn’t take my mental health anywhere near as serious when I was your age but I wish I did. It’s been said that knowledge is power and I feel like I would be In a much better position in life if I had been educated on the disorder, it’s symptoms, it’s triggers, earlier in life. I appreciate your comment notapaypal. I hope you take care and have an excellent 2024!
@@tyleradolfo7213 thank you for replying, and thanks for these videos they really help. hope you have a good 23 too!
I have this condition but it’s different. Do you ever feel young? Do people tell you, you need to grow up? I’m 49 and majority of the time I’m in a good mood, I laugh a lot, smile, and make jokes. But there is the down side I do not have motivation to do anything as in go back to college, go to the gym or socialize like I use to you. I’m too comfortable doing nothing. I hate it.
Hey watersign, thank you for your comment. Even though I’m only 26, I wouldn’t say I feel young. If anything, I’d say my diagnosis of bipolar has aged me slightly. My energy and perception have completely changed since being diagnosed. It’s good that you are able to find humor in life despite your struggles. I am a big fan of George Carlin the late comedian and I’ve found his comedy in particular to be a great medicine. Watching his performances always seems to improve my mood. I can relate to you about feelings of complacency. I spent a large part of these last 2 years doing nothing. What I would say is that sometimes less is more. There is value in being at peace with the present moment. We don’t need to hold ourselves to the same standards as others because we are all individually unique and we all have diverse experiences. Not everyone struggles with the same condition that we do but they definitely have some struggles. One thing I’ve learned in my recovery these past 2 years is that taking things one step at a time is all it takes to affect meaningful and positive change. Going back to college, getting in the gym, and socializing are all worthy and attainable goals. But you don’t have to do all of them at once right away. Maybe start off with just going to the gym. That’s what I started doing a few days ago and I’ve been feeling excellent. I wish you the best my friend. Please don’t be too hard on yourself. Bipolar is a serious condition and as odd as this may sound, it’s ok to not be ok. You can do this watersign. You can accomplish the goals you’ve set for yourself. Never give up and never lose hope. Have a wonderful new year!
You are a remarkable young man. You are a gift from God.
@@tyleradolfo7213 I’ve been studying and working on my chakras. It’s pretty cool working on keeping calm and falling asleep to meditation music. I even have my cats listening to it to stop fighting and relax. Lol.
Hi, I stumbled onto your channel today! I have a question regarding what you told us about. First of all, I am sorry that you have to live with this condition and just hearing about it sounds hard and exhausting. Do you only have these two moods of mania and depression? Meaning that, if you aren’t manic right now, you‘re depressed? Is there any way to cure this? I don‘t think there is, but maybe something like medication to help you with the episodes maybe? How did this disorder occur? And is there a possibility of you turning maniac again? I‘m sorry if these are a lot of questions, you don‘t have to answer them if you don‘t want to. Anyways, whenever you‘re reading this I hope you‘re having a good time and I‘m sending you lot of luck and happiness!
Hey Greta, thanks for leaving a comment. Those are all great questions. So for the first question, the way my psychiatrist explained it, is that bipolar people can experience either manic mood, depressed mood, or stable mood. Stable mood is the goal of treatment and is often accompanied with medications. So just because I’m not in mania, it doesn’t necessarily mean I’m in a depressive episode, or vice-versa. Unfortunately there is no cure for bipolar disorder yet. It is a lifelong chronic illness that tends to get progressively worse with age. I take 5 medications for this illness, 3 of which I have found helpful in making me ‘stable’. The other 2 though have had debilitating side effects and I plan to get off of them soon. There is always a possibility of going manic again but the odds of this happening are much lower while in medications. I hope this helps answer your questions. If you ever have any more, don’t hesitate to ask. Thanks again for leaving a comment and watching the video. I appreciate it a lot. Take care greta!
@@tyleradolfo7213 Thank you for your reply! This sounds like a tough condition. When was it diagnosed for you? And what were the symptoms? This sounds really interesting, I will definitively look forward to more of your videos regarding this.
I was diagnosed in October 2021 during my junior year of college. During mania the most severe symptoms were that I was experiencing delusions and hallucinations. During my depressive episode(which I’m in now), my main symptoms have been social withdrawal and weight gain.
@@tyleradolfo7213 Okay, I understand. Thank you so much for sharing! I‘ll definitely keep following your journey.