This is such a surreal experience to see myself on this channel that I’ve watched and admired for so long. It’s so cathartic to share my story in a new way than my usual storytelling performances. It felt more vulnerable than usual which is incredible. The comments I’ve seen so far are so kind and make me feel so loved and I’m thankful for that. I hope that anyone who is struggling right now with their mental health progress will remember that even falling flat on their face is still moving forward. Thanks, Mark. Thank you to everyone who took the time to watch my story. It means so much to me.
Thank you for showing me that there is life beyond bipolar disorder. It'll never go away, but life gets easier if we make the choice to take care of ourselves.
thank you so much for not only telling your story, but for telling the story of many others who struggles with bipolar disorder. although lives may be different, we are all in the same battle together.
You are such an amazing strong individual Victoria. Thanks for sharing your story. Hopefully this will help me deal with my own mental health issues and neurological conditions. Such as Avoidant Personality Disorder, ADHD, DCD & APD. Watching from London UK.
Prayers to anyone suffering with a mental illness. Its no joke and know that you are blessed if you don't have to deal with a mental illness. Its bad when people don't understand the illness and think only from their perspective.
All this has helped me understand a family member so much better, loving them is not enough, we need to learn about these issues so we can support /help them better . Thank Victoria for joining the ppl who share this thought issue. 🌷❤🌷👏👏
I also am Bi Polar 1 with rapid cycling. Unfortunately I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 48. She is on point with her explanations. My interpretation is: It’s like being in the middle of the ocean in a small boat. With an anchor in one hand and a kite in the other
I’m 62 that was a great analogy… I call it “it’s like trying to cross the river that is deep and all you have is a stone to use “ I am 62 years old diagnosed At 42 still working on it
Bipolar here, diagnosed at 43. This interview is as so, so familiar and comforting. I feel extra crazy with no one to compare notes with. It’s really made me want to go to group therapy or meetups. Thank you for being so vulnerable! 💓
Victoria you are not pointless. You are going to be an incredible teacher. There are so many children and teenagers going through mental health issues and they will need you to guide them. Please continue with your education and don’t let your bipolar issues make you feel like you can’t join the teaching profession.
As a person with bipolar in the ninth grade, this is all too relatable. The worst part for me was when I went through delirium (the highest level of mania) and severe depression simultaneously. I was literally going through delusions about aliens and experienced schizophrenia type symptoms. It was not fun.
Thanks for taking the time to tell your story Victoria. It really hit home for me. I’d been struggling with depression most of my life (I’m 47) and nearly everything you said hit home with me. Thankfully I finally got help and medication a couple years ago. You’re very courageous. You’ll help a lot of folks seek help. Got bless you. Mark Thanks for all you do. Your efforts don’t go unappreciated.
I'm bipolar as well. Thank you for describing it so accurately. As a bipolar woman I think our symptoms are often attributed to "hormones." I'm 66 now but was only diagnosed at 30. It saddens me to think which direction my life might have gone had I been diagnosed at a younger age.
After this last 3 years I am starting to question what has been in these v a x I n e s. My kids were innoculated 70s into 80's my pregnancy in 81 was the one child that was rough on my uterus and was out of sorts as a baby, she is still out of sorts as a 40ish y.o. adult. Anyone else here have any kids born 1981 with b.p. or bpd symptoms?
@@terywetherlow7970 even if someone like Dr Robert Malone or peter McCullough you wouldn't listen. You'd shut them down before hearing what they had to say about the clot shot even tho they're very accomplished doctors.
I’m diagnosed bipolar with psychotic features. I’m constantly scared of the depression episodes. Everytime I’m feeling okay or happy, I always wonder “how long is this gonna last?” The depression episodes are terrifying.
People are usually only that self-aware after they've spiraled out of control and left a wake of destruction. The self-awareness is often earned through painful measures.
@@samiam2088well, that’s not a good way to say it. Like you don’t. Get how the journey goes and how crazy the society is around the of mental differences
If your depression isn’t curable it means you have low serotonin levels naturally it means you are at the bottom of the dominance hierarchy it means your life sucks so you just need to get it together duhhh Workout study work harder idk work on yourself Depression is curable I have bipolar disorder so don’t tell me that I don’t know what depression is It’s one of the 2 poles in bipolar if you didn’t get it
I'm bipolar and relate to many things she said. Happy childhood, parents married over 35 years. Any person can develop this disorder, even those who had a mostly happy upbringing.
@@who__cares__ I would say actually this with supportive family are more likely to get medical treatment whereas those with abusive childhoods are more likely to self medicate with drugs or get into very bad situation before they get a diagnosis and help.
Only because her parents aren’t divorced and she didn‘t experience traumatic things doesn‘t mean she was happy all the time and that all her needs as a child were met. At 2:18 she basically said what was the problem. Her brother had ADHD so he got all the attention from their parents, while with her it was assumed that „she‘s fine by herself“. This part has a lot to do with her mental disorders. If you have the feeling that you are not allowed to disturb because your brother is already disturbing enough, you will not be able to learn how to deal with your emotions properly.
@@who__cares__ no what do you mean ? Someone with bad childhood is hard to diagnose because of cross symptoms I don’t think someone with good childhood gets 10 different diagnoses before getting diagnosed bipolar But I could be wrong
I really appreciate her testimony. I truly think I may be bipolar but not officially diagnosed or seeking treatment. I never really considered this is something outside my control but have experienced much of what she's talking about and currently in a relationship/marriage where I constantly feel horrible about myself. The cycling is exhausting and toxic to the people who love me. After watching this I realize I need medical help. Thank you Mark. Maybe once I get myself straightened out I can do an interview for you. I've got some stories that's for sure!
if you have trouble go see a psychiatrist for evaluation but don't walk in telling them you have bipolar and then list all the things you related to here. Go in and try to just explain the literal events and things you have trouble with. Don't select and tailor what you tell them to fit the diagnosis. There are many disorders that can look like each other and the treatments can be very different. You can always bring up your concern about having bipolar but stay open to other things.
@@craigslist6988 Definitely. Im sure apon talking to a doctor, she would be referred to a psychologist specifically and someone trained in that field will ask the right questions. I doubt she would immediately receive a bipolar diagnosis without more extensive/personal questioning. Idk why but I could only really see like, a teenager pushing for a specific diagnosis. Lol I 100% agree with your comment though.
Be sure to research BPD also, a lot of mental health professionals and doctors historically misdiagnose people with bipolar when it’s actually BPD. I wish you all the luck with your journey and healing 🙏🏾
@@sparkyskooter911 yes I'm a 35;yr old woman who's been to therapy before. I definitely know not to self diagnose and to in order to truly heal you have to cooperate with the mental health professionals. I just didn't like taking meds... So I guess I'm one of those who likes to remain authentic. But either way I guess it's time to find out what has been the cause of my mental instability.
I appreciate the support in the comments! I have healed from PTSD through my relationship with JESUS CHRIST. I am proud to say that relationship is the strongest and healthiest one I've got. But the reality is I may need professional help in order to truly be in control and free from the destructiveness mental instability causes me and those around me.
I found out I had bipolar disorder when I was 19. I had come down from a manic episode where I became a stripper lol. I’m on lamotrigine, buspirone, and venlafaxine. I understand your struggle girl. We can’t even explain or predict our own behavior sometimes. Medicine and therapy have helped ground me so much
Good morning and so glad you are doing well and are in a great place. As a someone who has anxiety, recovering from depression and PTSD from the death of my mom from cancer 20+ years ago I know how real the different battles of mental health can be! Was curious how the lamotrigine has been working for you? Our daughter takes it but for her seizures with her genetic disorder as a mood stabilizer but primarily to quell background seizure activity. We are in the slow titration phase but have seen amazing results so far, the only thing that scares us is the Stevens Johnson Syndrome.
@@lauraluciana8350 yep I was on it for a few years. Felt great while on it. Anxiety and depression were well maintained, sex drive was gone though. The felt absolutely horrible trying to get off it. I had to do it in stages. The worst was the brain zaps. Like electric shocks in the brain.
Shi I was manic and I kept repeating the same topics like how I was gonna go far in life and how I had all these goals and I would be a bodybuilder and all this shi for months
One thing that irks me is when people joke about having bipolar-based on no clinical diagnosis. It’s no joke. I worked closely with individuals with BP and other mental illnesses and it’s no joke. Prayers to anyone out their suffering from mental illness, take care of yourselves 💫❤️
People are finally educating themselves on bipolar disorders, it was a time I had to constantly explain how I felt and the side-effects to the medication I was taking, people have always dismissed mental disorders because they were uncomfortable, but were far more relaxed when discussing physical ailments.
I'm sorry if you are going thru that, and wish you well, the most you can have, my comment was a question of did people think Bipolar is genetic? Or does it just occur? To hear you say she was correct in that it is exhausting hurts, because with no answers, what can we do to help? Like really help you or others thru this? 🤔❤️
@@pambeforethestorm9784it's always difficult to say absolutely but studies indicate there is a significant genetic component on the maternal side. Around 30% chance. One study found that two diagnosed parents had an 80% chance. But it is most likely a mixture of genetic vulnerability that has to be activated by trauma, which is much more likely to occur if your parents are bipolar.
GM swu fam, hope everyone is safe and warm this chilly morning...thanks Mark, I'm very excited for this one, as I've been suffering from depression and anxiety disorders since childhood and always appreciate others stories and lessons from the same...take care all! be kind💜
@@Natalaie I think nice and kind are two different things...kindness to me is WAY more important than niceness or being polite. Kindness to me is having an open and loving heart and just genuinely wishing the best for everyone in this existence. So I think we all should strive to be kind💙
All those meds she named induced psychosis which led to an attempt. That season change is real. Winter is my worst season.. Summer is my best. I had to watch this because ive been bipolar/anxiety/insomnia since 15 but theyve always diagnosed me with just depression/anxiety. I finally got the proper diagnosis at 39 but it was due to my grandmother passing and i went into a dark space and still trying to get out of it at 45. Bipolar/Anxiety/Depression/PTSD and Grief Disorder. My brother is Schizo/Personality Disorder since he was young. Its draining. Cant hold relationships.. my doc said the same thing. "Its not your fault you were born this way. " I dont wish this on my worst enemy. If you dont go through it dont judge it...
As someone who has battled chronic depression for over 40 years, from my experience, having a partner who also has mental health issues is a recipe for disaster! I wish you so much love, strength and peace. Cheers, from Country Victoria, Australia 🇦🇺 🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺
I grew up with childhood schizophrenia and I worked for 13 years and I had to go on disability it got so severe. In the 3rd grade just like her, I started to shake and get nervous and I heard people in the room that were not present and whenever I had to give a book report presentation, my hands would tremor. My mother grew up with bipolar disorder and this is a life long journey! They may seem calm and coy when medicated but it still hits. My best friend has bipolar disorder and the only thing I can do is just let it slide and talk with her the best I can. Love her to death. We are each other's rock!
What percentage of mental health conditions are hereditary ? If the doctors, psychology experts, neurologists etc can find out an individuals family mental health history. That would help a lot in the early stages of diagnosis.
I admire her fighting attitude. She is getting her Master degree. She will be a fantastic teacher. I wish her the best. God bless her and her family for loving her.
I have bipolar 2 and totally get not wanting to change/tweak meds when things don't work 100%. It's so hard to get them right in the first place. I wasn't diagnosed until 33 and can look back at my life and see what scenarios I got myself into because of bipolar. I'm glad I know now that I'm bipolar so I can make better decisions. Thank you for the video!
Hi Mark, I did not know anything about this problem until my brother tried to take his life and i took him in with me thinking i could help him with BP. Mark there is no stability for a person with this,, unless they take something to stablelize them. I tried loving my brother back to health. No love in this world can stablelize a person with this. I thank God, i do not have BP . My heart goes out to any one with it and their. Loved ones who have to see and live what they go through . My brother , like many others would not except he had it, so he lived with me unmedicated for several years. My household went through hell. Mark, the number one problem after they get proper treatment is many of them stop taking their meds and then its hell all over again, for them and usually a hospital stay . I want to thank this women for sharing her story, and congratulate her for excepting her illness and taking her medication. This woman seems like a real nice person, and i wish her much happiness and health always . I would not wish this illness on anyone . It can be a devastating journey.God bless this and all the people who suffer with it.
Wow, I'm so sorry, I can't imagine what you went thru with your brother, I can only relate in the sense I had my brother with me while he was on drugs but that is NO comparison at ALL. I truly hope your brother is now taking his meds regularly, and that you have some semblance of peace at this point in your life, you did ALL you could for him, so I give you several Kudos for that, And you didn't know about the disorder, well not completely! Please take care and as she said be kind to yourself, you did so much to help, and I'm Positive your brother appreciates you to this day ❤️🥰
I think it’s ridiculous that the first thing a lot of people default to on this channel is if the persons telling the truth. What makes you think anyone would want to come on here and lie about bipolar or being a drug addict. Yeah maybe with that kid Kelpy trying to say he’s a pimp. That was laughable But literally every day every interviewee has their integrity, motives and honest overall questioned. It’s ridiculous. I don’t know if anyones telling the truth and I don’t care because it’s not my place to judge that.
@@MatthewAndrewDrake you're just missing common sense then. There are people in the world who need attention, are so addicted to it that they will fabricate an entire persona just to get their high. Anyone who comes on this channel could be one of those people, so you do need to use your critical thinking and judge whether you are getting a true account. You're not enlightened by 'not judging'. Reminds me of the saying: have an open mind, but not so open that your brain falls out.
@@craigslist6988 literally every interview subject’s honesty has been questioned including my own. A tiny amount of people said that I was lying about being a heroin addict 😂 why the f would anyone want to make that up!?
I resonate with this so much. It's so hard when you feel like no one can understand how you're feeling. It's exhausting to be battling internally with yourself and then externally with the world as well. Sometimes it feels like the walls are caving in, but then I remind myself that I'm in a much better place then I had been before and this won't last forever... Even when it feels like it will. Thank you for making me feel seen 💕
I have a mental illness depression and have had to be on medication for over 20 years and how she explains you have to take a positive attitude and learn how to live with the illness is absolutely right on. Extremely high functioning Women I have a lot of respect for her getting the help she needs to have a Normal life. So many people that are Mentally ill self medicate alcohol and drugs that only going to put there lives in a downward spierill that is physically and emotionally dangerous. Bless you and you deserve to have a nice life. Thank you for sharing
1:40 - Hospitalized for BPD. 2:00 - Discovered in High School 2:25 - Mind always racing. 2:50 - Discovered at 19 3:20 - Describe BPD. HUGE mood shifts 4:20 - Feelings of defeat 💔 5:10 - Being able to function on meds 6:20 - Being Suicidal 6:55 - Friends not wanting to hang out 7:30 - Darkest thing/time? 8:25 - Breakdowns. Relationships. 8:50 - Asking for the point of life for something that will never change. 9:20 - Glad for resources and family 10:00 - Tough on romantic partners 10:50 - Hard on former partners. 11:20 - Partner a narcissist/depression 11:45 - Attraction to partners with BPD 12:20 - Current partner Stable. 12:40 - Vulnerable ❤️🥺 13:35 - R/ship History 15:05 - Being a Foodie 😀 17:25 - How Ex's just stop talking 18:00 - He really loved me. ❤️🥺 18:50 - Stabbing with a knife 19:20 - Together for 2years. 19:35 - Safety being so important. 20:10 - The Breakup 💔 20:50 - Sometimes I miss being able to talk to him 🥺 21:30 - 4/5 years later. Still missing them sometimes 22:20 - Having anxiety all the time. 22:45 - Age 29 23:30 - Delicate Balance BPD/Anxiety 25:10 - Wish you knew things earlier? 26:00 - 🥺 Being Diagnosed. 26:50 - Forgiving yourself 27:00 - Guilt of scaring people that were friends. 27:35 - Be Kind to yourself. 28:00 - "I stopped hanging around you because you were so erratic" 28:40 - "Even when you fall flat on your face, you are still moving forward in some way"
Victoria, you are such an inspiration to others that suffer from mental illness. Thank you for sharing your story, and thank you Mark for another awesome interview.
Victoria, healing yourself can happen with easy tools. Write an apology letter to yourself and read it to yourself in the mirror. The next exercise will be to write yourself a forgiveness letter. The third letter will be a love letter to yourself with everything you would want your soul mate to say to you. This process will start a self-healing, love and care for the child within. When you were talking about guilt and pain...made me think of some things I have done. I didn't do them them until someone helped me and shined the light.
I appreciate her sharing her perspective and educating us on bipolar disorder. She is learning her world by sharping her perspective in positive way. She is learning to take care of her mental well been. I hope she knows how wonderful and strong she is.
As a therapist, this was so insightful to listen to. I truly enjoyed when she spoke about medication helping maintain a healthy relationship. Such a wonderful person to listen to!
Thanks for sharing. I’m bipolar 2 and have suffered w anxiety and depression my whole life. My mania was apparently hypomania. Wasn’t diagnosed until I was 40-41, after walking into the er at 95 lbs and asked for medication. The medication has saved me. I relate to a lot of the things you described.
What a gorgeous lady inside and out…..Thankyou so much for your story. Wish you all the best and lots of healing and love. You will make a fantastic teacher…..😍🥰🏴
I love your hair, Victoria and your courage to accept uncontrollable conditions in your life. It’s important to have positive people around and I’m grateful for your new love. Opening up to a mental condition can be very difficult and push some people away, but try not to beat yourself too much and enjoy life. Continue investing time in yourself and improve. Nothing is impossible and thanks for sharing your story 💜
When you mention being w /someone with similar issues, trying to fix each other, and how it's actually dangerous stunned me. I never heard anyone say that in such a (good) way. Good luck to you on your journey. Imagine if it were a placebo this whole time. Loving those earrings!
What a beautiful beautiful caring loving person. In tune with her illness and understanding of others. God bless her and I wish her good health and love 💖
wow. what an incredible human being, and an absolutely bright soul. i’ve had life long depression and anxiety, was recently diagnosed with adhd, and was also prescribed lamictal for suspicions of bipolar. i stopped taking it because it wasn’t for me so my doctor just said i’m not bipolar but i sobbed 99% of this video as it hits so close to home. i’m going to talk to my dr about abilify, not certain i’m bipolar but asking and trying doesn’t hurt. my mental illness has been/is debilitating. i just want a functional brain
To say you had a happy childhood is the most amazing thing ever. My heart goes out to everybody that you’ve interviewed. My childhood was neither happy or sad but life altering. I realized at a early age, I’ve got to reign this shit in. Everyday is a struggle but I am blessed beyond words
She is so on point,I have depression, and it gets bad when the meds don't work any more.Now in my 60s and can't walk well it's hard to get out of bed and feel good.Great interview ❤
this hit so hard. i have rapid cycling bipolar, also.. currently going through finding some way to get in a better place mentally. I’m aware that the current meds are not working for me. It’s a very hard mental illness to live with. and it does easily make you feel worthless when it will never really go away. It makes you sit and wonder sometimes how worth it, it is. But the good things is being able to acknowledge that, and look for the help. Positive vibes to everyone.
I relate to her a lot. Just started 1 of the medications she's on 2 weeks ago & I've noticed I'm able to get out of bed easier....I even went to the grocery store. I know getting up and going to the store doesn't seem like a big deal, but when your brain is depleted of chemicals or there's an imbalance, you realize what was people take for granted. Getting up and ready to start another day....being able to take ourselves to a store if we need aomething... feeling "content" or experiencing excitement again etc....is a blessing for me whenever I was recently probably at my lowest ever. Mental Health is a very serious matter and it should be discussed more. People who aren't suffering can maybe become informed by hearing what others experience & there's a ton of mentally ill people who aren't even aware of being mentally ill to begin with. Perhaps family or a loved one can help them get the help they need at first while they can't help themselves. ♥︎ Sending positive vibes to her - this interview was great to watch. I totally get what she means by having to tell others if her behaviors bother them at times...or constantly feeling like thats why peoppe dont want to be around. She is very self aware, selfless, intelligent , loving and caring and it shows. If she reads this, you're beautiful inside & out and I personally THANK YOU for being so honest and vulnerable to the internet because you're going to help thousands of people, myself included.
As someone who has bipolar this helped me so much in just not feeling alone in this illness. As a male you don't hear about bipolar with males as often as females. I was diagnosed at 22 but have known I had it since 18. This interview has really opened my eyes to the realities of bipolar. I have type 1 as well rapid cycling. I'm looked down on. I don't talk about it because of the stigma towards it. Thank you for speaking up and talking about it.
Victoria, thank you for sharing your story of managing Bipolar Disorder. I hope your story help remove the stigma of mental disorders. Mental health disorders should be treated with the same respect as physical disorders. I'm so glad you found medication that works for you. Your explanation of the disorder is excellent.
I have BP1 and BPD and all I have to say to everyone is please get on medication and go to the therapists/counselors Nothing is worst than untreated/unmanaged BP/BPD
I have BP2 and BPD. Have you done anything that helped with BPD? I tried therapy for months and all she focused on was stupid ass "coping skills" that were just not practical for my life. I went once a week for 3 months and it caused me a fortune. Any advice would be great. Thank you!
Victoria, you are intelligent and insightful. I am Bipolar and I relate so much to your experiences. Also relate to the bipolar med dance, swapping and changing so you can have a stable mood.
It's so interesting to hear about these types of mental illnesses. They really are invisible, she comes across like any other person, actually much more intelligent and well spoken than most. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️ 🙏
Thanks for sharing your story. It is wonderful that you take your illness serious and try hard to live a normal life. It is so sad that so many with mental illness fall through the cracks. There is a shortage of professionals for mental illness. I am on your side. Continue to take care of yourself and be happy.
I haven't even watched this yet and I'm so glad that you're here. I suffer with depression I think I might be bipolar it's impossible to get a correct diagnosis.. Fun fact do you know they say it takes on average about 15 years for a person to get a correct diagnosis.... unacceptable. My mom has a hard time believing that mental illness exists. I can't wait to send this to her. Bless you!!
Thanks for the story and the portrait. I wish Vctoria all the best as she finds her way in the world and becoming more and more secure in life, which includes pain and joy and all the ups and downs to be navigated.
There are so many relatable components of that conversation for me. Bipolar really sucks sometimes. Like Victoria said, I've found it can be a lot of fun, but mainly if you're single and alone, and your behaviour doesn't impact anyone else, generally speaking. Now I'm in a long term relationship and have a young child, it can feel incredibly suffocating and irritating if I have a bit of a hypomanic episode and feel held back by the people around me. Finding the right medication and constantly monitoring it can be a really arduous process, but it's worth it, for a better life. I wish Victoria all the best. She obviously has great insight into her mental health and is set on ensuring she maintains it. She's a great role model.
I wasn’t diagnosed w bipolar until age 40. I’m grateful for a good doctor who saw clearly what I’d been trying to get help with since my teens. Finding the right medication combo is key, weekly therapy and working a 12-Step program has changed my life and I feel genuinely happy and stable. If you’re suffering w mental illness and/or alcoholism, you can recover! Please know you’re not alone. God bless everyone!
What an articulate, sensitive, and brave young lady she is, to discuss what is sadly still a stigmatized and comcplex disorder. She is on the right track with med compliance and her hard work to stay stabilized as much as possible. Wish her all the best.
To be honest, it's rare to meet someone who doesn't have a mental disorder. I think one day, they will say that mental disorders are a normal part of life. I don't even think it will be called a disorder it will be growing up during this age. You'll feel this way or that way.
I love her ❤so self aware and taking charge going through the steps to have an abundant life. Accurately describing the pharmaceutical industry and interpersonal relationships. So smart. I’m routing for you.
I’m sorry your mom suffers from depression. Tears actually one of the greatest hardships kids will face. You’re doing so well by doing your best. I’m glad you found good help. My daughter benefited from a screening questionnaire at her pediatrician’s that got her into counseling in middle school.
I can completely understand this whole discussion. Just want her to know SHE IS NOT ALONE. Everything she said I can relate to so much! You only know what you know when you know it. Self analysis is so tough. But I totally get why thinking about adjusting meds is scary. Especially since it took so long to find a tiny bit of stability in your mind. Losing that almost isn’t worth playing with meds for a piece of the issue that you can sorta manage. Like the Bipolar trumps the anxiety in a way. But super smart person and I wish her the best. Great episode! ❤
Radical acceptance of having bipolar take times even years to accept. Stay on your meds first and foremost. Alcohol will exacerbate the disorder. Get sleep. Caffeine can even exacerbate the disorder. Exercise regularly. Get a good psych and therapist and be on top of your appointments. Complete an inpatient program where you are ready to learn. Look into support groups. Do not be afraid to lose relationships or even experience another hospitalization. This comes with the territory accept it and don't live with that fear.
Awesome_amazing_beautiful interview! What a super soul. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. I have Bipolar2 , and this interview is such an inspiration to me. 💗💗💗💗💗
This is THE BEST interview! You are so self aware and your message is powerful. Thank you for sharing your story! Keep going! You’ve got this! You are beautiful, intelligent, self aware and a great advocate.
You are such an inspiration, and positive person. You're really amazing! Thank you so for your honesty and bravery. Your introspection and care for others is such a good thing. It's clear that you care for other people. Thank you for sharing. Wish most people were as good as you. Take Care Victoria
i know this is only a month old interview but ive come back to watch it a lot. ive always had a hard time putting my thoughts and experiences with rapid cycling bipolar 1 into words. ive experienced situations similar to theirs and have felt so alone in my experiences. thank you for sharing your story
Thank you so much for posting this, it is so educational and lovely to be able to hear other’s experiences, which can really give people hope! I want to correct something here-BP type 2 can also be rapid cycling. It’s not always long and drawn out, and moods can flip in a single day just like she says with her type 1. The only difference is type 2 does not have mania/manic episodes. They have a lower level of elevated mood which is different, called hypomania. Just felt the need to clarify some information here. If you’d like to fact check me, feel free to read the DSM guidelines on bipolar. 🙂
I relate very hard in a lot of ways. As someone with several mental health and other health issues, balancing meds and deciding what you can just live with to not mess with meds is a struggle...
I'm Bipolar 2 and borderline. It sucks but it's manageable. I learned being off my meds isn't for me. I totally can relate to when she said having to deal with this for the rest of her life. I hate that for me
I could swear I've seen her on another channel quite some time ago and she wasn't nearly as sorted out yet as she is here...... If it this is the same person and finding the appropriate medication has been this beneficial in her life this is truly a miracle.
The fact that her doctor directed her to take that many klonopin and for that long is INSANE. Some doctors have no idea how the very medications they’re prescribing work or the severity of effects they can pose on a person.
i would love to do an interview with y’all. i’ve had bipolar since i was 5 years old. it’s effected my whole life. i’m 24 now and on disability bc of it. it’s heartbreaking to go through this.
This is such a surreal experience to see myself on this channel that I’ve watched and admired for so long. It’s so cathartic to share my story in a new way than my usual storytelling performances. It felt more vulnerable than usual which is incredible. The comments I’ve seen so far are so kind and make me feel so loved and I’m thankful for that. I hope that anyone who is struggling right now with their mental health progress will remember that even falling flat on their face is still moving forward. Thanks, Mark. Thank you to everyone who took the time to watch my story. It means so much to me.
Your a insperation to us all love from scotland 💙💙
Thank you for showing me that there is life beyond bipolar disorder. It'll never go away, but life gets easier if we make the choice to take care of ourselves.
thank you so much for not only telling your story, but for telling the story of many others who struggles with bipolar disorder. although lives may be different, we are all in the same battle together.
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You are such an amazing strong individual Victoria. Thanks for sharing your story. Hopefully this will help me deal with my own mental health issues and neurological conditions. Such as Avoidant Personality Disorder, ADHD, DCD & APD. Watching from London UK.
“Even if you fall flat on your face….you’re still moving forward in some way. Progress isn’t perfect.” Loved that!! Thank you Victoria ❤️
She’s so pleasant. Very grounded, insightful, self aware, and empathetic. She inspires me to want to take better care of myself.
Doctor says this, treat as you are a stranger. This helped me
I appreciate this comment so much. I hope for nothing else than the absolute best for you.
Yeah that's her happy State wait till she becomes bipolar and becomes a b****😄
Prayers to anyone suffering with a mental illness. Its no joke and know that you are blessed if you don't have to deal with a mental illness. Its bad when people don't understand the illness and think only from their perspective.
You worded this perfectly ! You’re 100% correct.
Maybe its a blessing it means you have sensitive heart.
All this has helped me understand a family member so much better, loving them is not enough, we need to learn about these issues so we can support /help them better . Thank Victoria for joining the ppl who share this thought issue. 🌷❤🌷👏👏
I have bipolar, so I'm really excited to see watch this. Thanks, Mark and thanks to this lovely lady for being vulnerable
I also am Bi Polar 1 with rapid cycling. Unfortunately I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 48. She is on point with her explanations.
My interpretation is:
It’s like being in the middle of the ocean in a small boat. With an anchor in one hand and a kite in the other
I’m 62 that was a great analogy… I call it “it’s like trying to cross the river that is deep and all you have is a stone to use “ I am 62 years old diagnosed At 42 still working on it
I'm 40 and got diagnosed at 25 with mixed episodes but primary depression. This was the best way to ever describe it.
@@lobster4501 🤭omg… I’m just seeing your comment. 🤦🏼♀️ I like your analogy also. Thank you!
Bipolar here, diagnosed at 43. This interview is as so, so familiar and comforting. I feel extra crazy with no one to compare notes with. It’s really made me want to go to group therapy or meetups. Thank you for being so vulnerable! 💓
Victoria you are not pointless. You are going to be an incredible teacher. There are so many children and teenagers going through mental health issues and they will need you to guide them. Please continue with your education and don’t let your bipolar issues make you feel like you can’t join the teaching profession.
Thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate it.
As a person with bipolar in the ninth grade, this is all too relatable. The worst part for me was when I went through delirium (the highest level of mania) and severe depression simultaneously. I was literally going through delusions about aliens and experienced schizophrenia type symptoms. It was not fun.
Yeah, the good old mixed mood. Unadulterated hell. Feel ya!
I had a thing with demons in the night from the shadows on the wall at night. It's totally embarrassing but it's nice to hear others relate.
So aware, empathic and responsible in a good way. I'm not bipolar but can relate a lot. Love this interview
Thanks for taking the time to tell your story Victoria. It really hit home for me. I’d been struggling with depression most of my life (I’m 47) and nearly everything you said hit home with me. Thankfully I finally got help and medication a couple years ago. You’re very courageous. You’ll help a lot of folks seek help. Got bless you.
Mark Thanks for all you do. Your efforts don’t go unappreciated.
I'm bipolar as well. Thank you for describing it so accurately. As a bipolar woman I think our symptoms are often attributed to "hormones." I'm 66 now but was only diagnosed at 30. It saddens me to think which direction my life might have gone had I been diagnosed at a younger age.
ditto,
After this last 3 years I am starting to question what has been in these v a x I n e s. My kids were innoculated 70s into 80's my pregnancy in 81 was the one child that was rough on my uterus and was out of sorts as a baby, she is still out of sorts as a 40ish y.o. adult. Anyone
else here have any kids born 1981 with b.p. or bpd symptoms?
@@jacobus57 Oh. Where did you get ur virology degree from?
And the word you missed is : Preventable.
@@terywetherlow7970 even if someone like Dr Robert Malone or peter McCullough you wouldn't listen. You'd shut them down before hearing what they had to say about the clot shot even tho they're very accomplished doctors.
I’m diagnosed bipolar with psychotic features. I’m constantly scared of the depression episodes. Everytime I’m feeling okay or happy, I always wonder “how long is this gonna last?” The depression episodes are terrifying.
You're a wonderful speaker, and described your experiences so eloquently. Thanks for sharing. Hope you have a good winter this year.
"Progress isn't perfect" That's my new favorite quote. Thank you, much peace and many many blessings.
Yeah...fuck what people say. We all struggle. Perfect isn't real...and real isn't perfect.
She’s so self aware of her illness, wish more people were like that. Refreshing interview thanks for posting.
People are usually only that self-aware after they've spiraled out of control and left a wake of destruction. The self-awareness is often earned through painful measures.
@@samiam2088well, that’s not a good way to say it. Like you don’t. Get how the journey goes and how crazy the society is around the of mental differences
She is VERY articulate! I have depression and anxiety as well. It is AWFUL.
Cure it then
Bipolar can’t cure anything depression comes and goes it’s just a symptom of the illness
@@rebornx19 that's literally not how any of it works
It if were that easy depression wouldn't be so prevalent 🥱
@@rebornx19 cure it with WHAT exactly??
If your depression isn’t curable it means you have low serotonin levels naturally it means you are at the bottom of the dominance hierarchy it means your life sucks so you just need to get it together duhhh
Workout study work harder idk work on yourself
Depression is curable I have bipolar disorder so don’t tell me that I don’t know what depression is
It’s one of the 2 poles in bipolar if you didn’t get it
And if you have low serotonin levels naturally you don’t have depression
The symptoms are the same that’s all but not the cure
I'm bipolar and relate to many things she said. Happy childhood, parents married over 35 years. Any person can develop this disorder, even those who had a mostly happy upbringing.
Some people develop it with terrible childhood to the point where bipolar is just a drop in the ocean
@@rebornx19 yeah but the ones with happy upbringings are often overlooked compared to the obvious terrible childhood ones
@@who__cares__ I would say actually this with supportive family are more likely to get medical treatment whereas those with abusive childhoods are more likely to self medicate with drugs or get into very bad situation before they get a diagnosis and help.
Only because her parents aren’t divorced and she didn‘t experience traumatic things doesn‘t mean she was happy all the time and that all her needs as a child were met. At 2:18 she basically said what was the problem. Her brother had ADHD so he got all the attention from their parents, while with her it was assumed that „she‘s fine by herself“. This part has a lot to do with her mental disorders. If you have the feeling that you are not allowed to disturb because your brother is already disturbing enough, you will not be able to learn how to deal with your emotions properly.
@@who__cares__ no what do you mean ?
Someone with bad childhood is hard to diagnose because of cross symptoms
I don’t think someone with good childhood gets 10 different diagnoses before getting diagnosed bipolar
But I could be wrong
I really appreciate her testimony. I truly think I may be bipolar but not officially diagnosed or seeking treatment. I never really considered this is something outside my control but have experienced much of what she's talking about and currently in a relationship/marriage where I constantly feel horrible about myself. The cycling is exhausting and toxic to the people who love me. After watching this I realize I need medical help. Thank you Mark. Maybe once I get myself straightened out I can do an interview for you. I've got some stories that's for sure!
if you have trouble go see a psychiatrist for evaluation but don't walk in telling them you have bipolar and then list all the things you related to here. Go in and try to just explain the literal events and things you have trouble with. Don't select and tailor what you tell them to fit the diagnosis. There are many disorders that can look like each other and the treatments can be very different. You can always bring up your concern about having bipolar but stay open to other things.
@@craigslist6988 Definitely. Im sure apon talking to a doctor, she would be referred to a psychologist specifically and someone trained in that field will ask the right questions. I doubt she would immediately receive a bipolar diagnosis without more extensive/personal questioning. Idk why but I could only really see like, a teenager pushing for a specific diagnosis. Lol I 100% agree with your comment though.
Be sure to research BPD also, a lot of mental health professionals and doctors historically misdiagnose people with bipolar when it’s actually BPD. I wish you all the luck with your journey and healing 🙏🏾
@@sparkyskooter911 yes I'm a 35;yr old woman who's been to therapy before. I definitely know not to self diagnose and to in order to truly heal you have to cooperate with the mental health professionals. I just didn't like taking meds... So I guess I'm one of those who likes to remain authentic. But either way I guess it's time to find out what has been the cause of my mental instability.
I appreciate the support in the comments! I have healed from PTSD through my relationship with JESUS CHRIST. I am proud to say that relationship is the strongest and healthiest one I've got. But the reality is I may need professional help in order to truly be in control and free from the destructiveness mental instability causes me and those around me.
I found out I had bipolar disorder when I was 19. I had come down from a manic episode where I became a stripper lol. I’m on lamotrigine, buspirone, and venlafaxine. I understand your struggle girl. We can’t even explain or predict our own behavior sometimes. Medicine and therapy have helped ground me so much
Good morning and so glad you are doing well and are in a great place. As a someone who has anxiety, recovering from depression and PTSD from the death of my mom from cancer 20+ years ago I know how real the different battles of mental health can be! Was curious how the lamotrigine has been working for you? Our daughter takes it but for her seizures with her genetic disorder as a mood stabilizer but primarily to quell background seizure activity. We are in the slow titration phase but have seen amazing results so far, the only thing that scares us is the Stevens Johnson Syndrome.
Venlafaxine is sooooo hard to get off of 😭
@@EbonynIvory83 I been on it for about three months, and I just heard the same thing about it.. scares me
@@lauraluciana8350 yep I was on it for a few years. Felt great while on it. Anxiety and depression were well maintained, sex drive was gone though. The felt absolutely horrible trying to get off it. I had to do it in stages. The worst was the brain zaps. Like electric shocks in the brain.
Shi I was manic and I kept repeating the same topics like how I was gonna go far in life and how I had all these goals and I would be a bodybuilder and all this shi for months
One thing that irks me is when people joke about having bipolar-based on no clinical diagnosis. It’s no joke. I worked closely with individuals with BP and other mental illnesses and it’s no joke. Prayers to anyone out their suffering from mental illness, take care of yourselves 💫❤️
People are finally educating themselves on bipolar disorders, it was a time I had to constantly explain how I felt and the side-effects to the medication I was taking, people have always dismissed mental disorders because they were uncomfortable, but were far more relaxed when discussing physical ailments.
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤love p ppl 😅
She summed it-up.
This illness is exhausting.
I'm sorry if you are going thru that, and wish you well, the most you can have, my comment was a question of did people think Bipolar is genetic? Or does it just occur? To hear you say she was correct in that it is exhausting hurts, because with no answers, what can we do to help? Like really help you or others thru this? 🤔❤️
@@pambeforethestorm9784 Make sure they stay on their meds.
@@pambeforethestorm9784it's always difficult to say absolutely but studies indicate there is a significant genetic component on the maternal side. Around 30% chance. One study found that two diagnosed parents had an 80% chance.
But it is most likely a mixture of genetic vulnerability that has to be activated by trauma, which is much more likely to occur if your parents are bipolar.
@@craigslist6988 Ohh ok thank you so much 😊!! This was an excellent break down of it for me
GM swu fam, hope everyone is safe and warm this chilly morning...thanks Mark, I'm very excited for this one, as I've been suffering from depression and anxiety disorders since childhood and always appreciate others stories and lessons from the same...take care all! be kind💜
Yes ! This gathering of people is therapeutic. Thank you all for not judging and kindly understanding.
No, you don't have to be nice 🍉
@@Natalaie I think nice and kind are two different things...kindness to me is WAY more important than niceness or being polite. Kindness to me is having an open and loving heart and just genuinely wishing the best for everyone in this existence. So I think we all should strive to be kind💙
I'm diagnosed manic depressive and complex PTSD it's excruciating I know your pain
All those meds she named induced psychosis which led to an attempt. That season change is real. Winter is my worst season.. Summer is my best.
I had to watch this because ive been bipolar/anxiety/insomnia since 15 but theyve always diagnosed me with just depression/anxiety. I finally got the proper diagnosis at 39 but it was due to my grandmother passing and i went into a dark space and still trying to get out of it at 45. Bipolar/Anxiety/Depression/PTSD and Grief Disorder.
My brother is Schizo/Personality Disorder since he was young. Its draining. Cant hold relationships.. my doc said the same thing. "Its not your fault you were born this way. " I dont wish this on my worst enemy. If you dont go through it dont judge it...
As someone who has battled chronic depression for over 40 years, from my experience, having a partner who also has mental health issues is a recipe for disaster! I wish you so much love, strength and peace. Cheers, from Country Victoria, Australia 🇦🇺 🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺
I grew up with childhood schizophrenia and I worked for 13 years and I had to go on disability it got so severe. In the 3rd grade just like her, I started to shake and get nervous and I heard people in the room that were not present and whenever I had to give a book report presentation, my hands would tremor. My mother grew up with bipolar disorder and this is a life long journey! They may seem calm and coy when medicated but it still hits. My best friend has bipolar disorder and the only thing I can do is just let it slide and talk with her the best I can. Love her to death. We are each other's rock!
What percentage of mental health conditions are hereditary ? If the doctors, psychology experts, neurologists etc can find out an individuals family mental health history. That would help a lot in the early stages of diagnosis.
@@tudormiller887 If I could tell you that, I am either Aquarius or I have a degree in neurology or psychomologicamology. I have no clue.
Medicine calls it a disease; a mental disorder, but this is something spiritual.. it’s in the Bible
I admire her fighting attitude. She is getting her Master degree. She will be a fantastic teacher. I wish her the best. God bless her and her family for loving her.
I have bipolar 2 and totally get not wanting to change/tweak meds when things don't work 100%. It's so hard to get them right in the first place. I wasn't diagnosed until 33 and can look back at my life and see what scenarios I got myself into because of bipolar. I'm glad I know now that I'm bipolar so I can make better decisions. Thank you for the video!
Hi Mark, I did not know anything about this problem until my brother tried to take his life and i took him in with me thinking i could help him with BP. Mark there is no stability for a person with this,, unless they take something to stablelize them. I tried loving my brother back to health. No love in this world can stablelize a person with this. I thank God, i do not have BP . My heart goes out to any one with it and their. Loved ones who have to see and live what they go through . My brother , like many others would not except he had it, so he lived with me unmedicated for several years. My household went through hell. Mark, the number one problem after they get proper treatment is many of them stop taking their meds and then its hell all over again, for them and usually a hospital stay . I want to thank this women for sharing her story, and congratulate her for excepting her illness and taking her medication. This woman seems like a real nice person, and i wish her much happiness and health always . I would not wish this illness on anyone . It can be a devastating journey.God bless this
and all the people who suffer with it.
Wow, I'm so sorry, I can't imagine what you went thru with your brother, I can only relate in the sense I had my brother with me while he was on drugs but that is NO comparison at ALL. I truly hope your brother is now taking his meds regularly, and that you have some semblance of peace at this point in your life, you did ALL you could for him, so I give you several Kudos for that, And you didn't know about the disorder, well not completely! Please take care and as she said be kind to yourself, you did so much to help, and I'm Positive your brother appreciates you to this day ❤️🥰
I know she's telling the truth because I live like she does but she's done more work on herself than I have she understands herself Bless her 🙏
I think it’s ridiculous that the first thing a lot of people default to on this channel is if the persons telling the truth. What makes you think anyone would want to come on here and lie about bipolar or being a drug addict. Yeah maybe with that kid Kelpy trying to say he’s a pimp. That was laughable But literally every day every interviewee has their integrity, motives and honest overall questioned. It’s ridiculous. I don’t know if anyones telling the truth and I don’t care because it’s not my place to judge that.
@@MatthewAndrewDrake you're just missing common sense then.
There are people in the world who need attention, are so addicted to it that they will fabricate an entire persona just to get their high. Anyone who comes on this channel could be one of those people, so you do need to use your critical thinking and judge whether you are getting a true account. You're not enlightened by 'not judging'.
Reminds me of the saying: have an open mind, but not so open that your brain falls out.
@@craigslist6988 literally every interview subject’s honesty has been questioned including my own. A tiny amount of people said that I was lying about being a heroin addict 😂 why the f would anyone want to make that up!?
I resonate with this so much. It's so hard when you feel like no one can understand how you're feeling. It's exhausting to be battling internally with yourself and then externally with the world as well. Sometimes it feels like the walls are caving in, but then I remind myself that I'm in a much better place then I had been before and this won't last forever... Even when it feels like it will. Thank you for making me feel seen 💕
I have a mental illness depression and have had to be on medication for over 20 years and how she explains you have to take a positive attitude and learn how to live with the illness is absolutely right on. Extremely high functioning Women I have a lot of respect for her getting the help she needs to have a Normal life. So many people that are Mentally ill self medicate alcohol and drugs that only going to put there lives in a downward spierill that is physically and emotionally dangerous. Bless you and you deserve to have a nice life. Thank you for sharing
1:40 - Hospitalized for BPD.
2:00 - Discovered in High School
2:25 - Mind always racing.
2:50 - Discovered at 19
3:20 - Describe BPD. HUGE mood shifts
4:20 - Feelings of defeat 💔
5:10 - Being able to function on meds
6:20 - Being Suicidal
6:55 - Friends not wanting to hang out
7:30 - Darkest thing/time?
8:25 - Breakdowns. Relationships.
8:50 - Asking for the point of life for something that will never change.
9:20 - Glad for resources and family
10:00 - Tough on romantic partners
10:50 - Hard on former partners.
11:20 - Partner a narcissist/depression
11:45 - Attraction to partners with BPD
12:20 - Current partner Stable.
12:40 - Vulnerable ❤️🥺
13:35 - R/ship History
15:05 - Being a Foodie 😀
17:25 - How Ex's just stop talking
18:00 - He really loved me. ❤️🥺
18:50 - Stabbing with a knife
19:20 - Together for 2years.
19:35 - Safety being so important.
20:10 - The Breakup 💔
20:50 - Sometimes I miss being able to talk to him 🥺
21:30 - 4/5 years later. Still missing them sometimes
22:20 - Having anxiety all the time.
22:45 - Age 29
23:30 - Delicate Balance BPD/Anxiety
25:10 - Wish you knew things earlier?
26:00 - 🥺 Being Diagnosed.
26:50 - Forgiving yourself
27:00 - Guilt of scaring people that were friends.
27:35 - Be Kind to yourself.
28:00 - "I stopped hanging around you because you were so erratic"
28:40 - "Even when you fall flat on your face, you are still moving forward in some way"
BPD stands for borderline personality disorder, not Bipolar
Victoria, you are such an inspiration to others that suffer from mental illness. Thank you for sharing your story, and thank you Mark for another awesome interview.
Victoria's candor regarding this disorder is refreshing.
Victoria, healing yourself can happen with easy tools. Write an apology letter to yourself and read it to yourself in the mirror. The next exercise will be to write yourself a forgiveness letter. The third letter will be a love letter to yourself with everything you would want your soul mate to say to you. This process will start a self-healing, love and care for the child within. When you were talking about guilt and pain...made me think of some things I have done. I didn't do them them until someone helped me and shined the light.
Please post more people with mental illness this was a really great interview
I appreciate her sharing her perspective and educating us on bipolar disorder. She is learning her world by sharping her perspective in positive way. She is learning to take care of her mental well been. I hope she knows how wonderful and strong she is.
As a therapist, this was so insightful to listen to. I truly enjoyed when she spoke about medication helping maintain a healthy relationship. Such a wonderful person to listen to!
Thanks for sharing. I’m bipolar 2 and have suffered w anxiety and depression my whole life. My mania was apparently hypomania. Wasn’t diagnosed until I was 40-41, after walking into the er at 95 lbs and asked for medication. The medication has saved me. I relate to a lot of the things you described.
What a gorgeous lady inside and out…..Thankyou so much for your story. Wish you all the best and lots of healing and love. You will make a fantastic teacher…..😍🥰🏴
I love your hair, Victoria and your courage to accept uncontrollable conditions in your life. It’s important to have positive people around and I’m grateful for your new love. Opening up to a mental condition can be very difficult and push some people away, but try not to beat yourself too much and enjoy life. Continue investing time in yourself and improve. Nothing is impossible and thanks for sharing your story 💜
I should add,I like her hair style too. Tee
When you mention being w /someone with similar issues, trying to fix each other, and how it's actually dangerous stunned me. I never heard anyone say that in such a (good) way. Good luck to you on your journey. Imagine if it were a placebo this whole time. Loving those earrings!
What a beautiful beautiful caring loving person. In tune with her illness and understanding of others. God bless her and I wish her good health and love 💖
wow. what an incredible human being, and an absolutely bright soul. i’ve had life long depression and anxiety, was recently diagnosed with adhd, and was also prescribed lamictal for suspicions of bipolar. i stopped taking it because it wasn’t for me so my doctor just said i’m not bipolar but i sobbed 99% of this video as it hits so close to home. i’m going to talk to my dr about abilify, not certain i’m bipolar but asking and trying doesn’t hurt. my mental illness has been/is debilitating. i just want a functional brain
To say you had a happy childhood is the most amazing thing ever. My heart goes out to everybody that you’ve interviewed. My childhood was neither happy or sad but life altering. I realized at a early age, I’ve got to reign this shit in. Everyday is a struggle but I am blessed beyond words
She is so on point,I have depression, and it gets bad when the meds don't work any more.Now in my 60s and can't walk well it's hard to get out of bed and feel good.Great interview ❤
Such a sweet person and beautiful soul
this hit so hard. i have rapid cycling bipolar, also..
currently going through finding some way to get in a better place mentally. I’m aware that the current meds are not working for me. It’s a very hard mental illness to live with. and it does easily make you feel worthless when it will never really go away.
It makes you sit and wonder sometimes how worth it, it is.
But the good things is being able to acknowledge that, and look for the help.
Positive vibes to everyone.
I relate to her a lot. Just started 1 of the medications she's on 2 weeks ago & I've noticed I'm able to get out of bed easier....I even went to the grocery store. I know getting up and going to the store doesn't seem like a big deal, but when your brain is depleted of chemicals or there's an imbalance, you realize what was people take for granted. Getting up and ready to start another day....being able to take ourselves to a store if we need aomething... feeling "content" or experiencing excitement again etc....is a blessing for me whenever I was recently probably at my lowest ever. Mental Health is a very serious matter and it should be discussed more. People who aren't suffering can maybe become informed by hearing what others experience & there's a ton of mentally ill people who aren't even aware of being mentally ill to begin with. Perhaps family or a loved one can help them get the help they need at first while they can't help themselves. ♥︎ Sending positive vibes to her - this interview was great to watch. I totally get what she means by having to tell others if her behaviors bother them at times...or constantly feeling like thats why peoppe dont want to be around. She is very self aware, selfless, intelligent , loving and caring and it shows. If she reads this, you're beautiful inside & out and I personally THANK YOU for being so honest and vulnerable to the internet because you're going to help thousands of people, myself included.
Thank you so much! That is incredibly kind of you to say and I take it to heart.
@@hurrayvictoria ♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎ :]
I hope you read this. Thank you for sharing. How I wish my son could meet good people like you that can help him understand that he is not alone.
As someone who has bipolar this helped me so much in just not feeling alone in this illness. As a male you don't hear about bipolar with males as often as females. I was diagnosed at 22 but have known I had it since 18. This interview has really opened my eyes to the realities of bipolar. I have type 1 as well rapid cycling. I'm looked down on. I don't talk about it because of the stigma towards it. Thank you for speaking up and talking about it.
I love the way she explained It. My daughter hass bipolar 2 and It's heartbreaking.
Victoria, thank you for sharing your story of managing Bipolar Disorder. I hope your story help remove the stigma of mental disorders. Mental health disorders should be treated with the same respect as physical disorders. I'm so glad you found medication that works for you. Your explanation of the disorder is excellent.
Thank you so much for telling your story Victoria. You’re such a beautiful lady.
I have BP1 and BPD and all I have to say to everyone is please get on medication and go to the therapists/counselors
Nothing is worst than untreated/unmanaged BP/BPD
I believe I'm developing some form of bipolar, but what if I don't mind the way I am or don't like the medication?
I have BP2 and BPD. Have you done anything that helped with BPD? I tried therapy for months and all she focused on was stupid ass "coping skills" that were just not practical for my life. I went once a week for 3 months and it caused me a fortune. Any advice would be great. Thank you!
Utmost respect !! Thank you so much for sharing. So inspiring
Im crying, you are speaking my life soul sister😢I have just gotten help in the past 4 yrs...
Beautiful, authentic human being. Wish her all the best.
Victoria, you are intelligent and insightful. I am Bipolar and I relate so much to your experiences. Also relate to the bipolar med dance, swapping and changing so you can have a stable mood.
I have bipolar as well & really appreciate you sharing your story Victoria
It's so interesting to hear about these types of mental illnesses. They really are invisible, she comes across like any other person, actually much more intelligent and well spoken than most. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️ 🙏
Thanks for sharing your story. It is wonderful that you take your illness serious and try hard to live a normal life. It is so sad that so many with mental illness fall through the cracks. There is a shortage of professionals for mental illness. I am on your side. Continue to take care of yourself and be happy.
A great interview. It taught me that my mental illness is ok and that I am ok. Thank you.
I am so glad for you. We will be okay.
I haven't even watched this yet and I'm so glad that you're here. I suffer with depression I think I might be bipolar it's impossible to get a correct diagnosis.. Fun fact do you know they say it takes on average about 15 years for a person to get a correct diagnosis.... unacceptable. My mom has a hard time believing that mental illness exists. I can't wait to send this to her.
Bless you!!
maybe send her the inteerview he did with the ocd young woman aswell, she explains the internal process of her symptoms well
Thanks for the story and the portrait. I wish Vctoria all the best as she finds her way in the world and becoming more and more secure in life, which includes pain and joy and all the ups and downs to be navigated.
Victoria, thank you so much for sharing your story. The courage, the strength, and the perseverance is an inspiration to us all.
There are so many relatable components of that conversation for me. Bipolar really sucks sometimes. Like Victoria said, I've found it can be a lot of fun, but mainly if you're single and alone, and your behaviour doesn't impact anyone else, generally speaking. Now I'm in a long term relationship and have a young child, it can feel incredibly suffocating and irritating if I have a bit of a hypomanic episode and feel held back by the people around me. Finding the right medication and constantly monitoring it can be a really arduous process, but it's worth it, for a better life. I wish Victoria all the best. She obviously has great insight into her mental health and is set on ensuring she maintains it. She's a great role model.
Wow I wish you could come talk to the kids I work with… you have incredible insight thank you ❤
I wasn’t diagnosed w bipolar until age 40. I’m grateful for a good doctor who saw clearly what I’d been trying to get help with since my teens. Finding the right medication combo is key, weekly therapy and working a 12-Step program has changed my life and I feel genuinely happy and stable. If you’re suffering w mental illness and/or alcoholism, you can recover! Please know you’re not alone. God bless everyone!
Mental illness is no joke. I being well controlled by medication thankful for my physiatrist and Therapist and all my counselors I have
What an articulate, sensitive, and brave young lady she is, to discuss what is sadly still a stigmatized and comcplex disorder. She is on the right track with med compliance and her hard work to stay stabilized as much as possible. Wish her all the best.
She's soooo Amazzzzzing! I Loved her interview! She speaks so well, and can clearly see her big heart♥️ hugs from tara 🇨🇦
Hi Tara! 🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦
This one hits me! So meaningful narrative, so elecuent and so relatable. Thank you for sharing ❤
To be honest, it's rare to meet someone who doesn't have a mental disorder. I think one day, they will say that mental disorders are a normal part of life. I don't even think it will be called a disorder it will be growing up during this age. You'll feel this way or that way.
What an amazing person!!! It takes a lot of introspection to come to those kinds of conclusions and self care!
I love her ❤so self aware and taking charge going through the steps to have an abundant life. Accurately describing the pharmaceutical industry and interpersonal relationships. So smart. I’m routing for you.
I’m sorry your mom suffers from depression. Tears actually one of the greatest hardships kids will face. You’re doing so well by doing your best. I’m glad you found good help. My daughter benefited from a screening questionnaire at her pediatrician’s that got her into counseling in middle school.
I can completely understand this whole discussion. Just want her to know SHE IS NOT ALONE. Everything she said I can relate to so much! You only know what you know when you know it. Self analysis is so tough. But I totally get why thinking about adjusting meds is scary. Especially since it took so long to find a tiny bit of stability in your mind. Losing that almost isn’t worth playing with meds for a piece of the issue that you can sorta manage. Like the Bipolar trumps the anxiety in a way. But super smart person and I wish her the best. Great episode! ❤
Radical acceptance of having bipolar take times even years to accept. Stay on your meds first and foremost. Alcohol will exacerbate the disorder. Get sleep. Caffeine can even exacerbate the disorder. Exercise regularly. Get a good psych and therapist and be on top of your appointments. Complete an inpatient program where you are ready to learn. Look into support groups. Do not be afraid to lose relationships or even experience another hospitalization. This comes with the territory accept it and don't live with that fear.
I have been waiting for this.
Thank you. ❤
Awesome_amazing_beautiful interview! What a super soul. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. I have Bipolar2 , and this interview is such an inspiration to me. 💗💗💗💗💗
This is THE BEST interview! You are so self aware and your message is powerful. Thank you for sharing your story! Keep going! You’ve got this! You are beautiful, intelligent, self aware and a great advocate.
What a beautiful soul your strength and vulnerability is so beautiful! Thank you for sharing. Wishing you the best for your future ❤️
Bless you girl!! I'm just now getting my diagnosis..its been a journey ❤
You are such an inspiration, and positive person. You're really amazing! Thank you so for your honesty and bravery. Your introspection and care for others is such a good thing. It's clear that you care for other people. Thank you for sharing. Wish most people were as good as you. Take Care Victoria
Very relatable. Great interview!
As someone who is also Bi-Polar I relate to so much of what you said. Thankfully, through a lot of work and trial & error, my condition is manageable.
i know this is only a month old interview but ive come back to watch it a lot. ive always had a hard time putting my thoughts and experiences with rapid cycling bipolar 1 into words. ive experienced situations similar to theirs and have felt so alone in my experiences. thank you for sharing your story
Thank you so much for posting this, it is so educational and lovely to be able to hear other’s experiences, which can really give people hope!
I want to correct something here-BP type 2 can also be rapid cycling. It’s not always long and drawn out, and moods can flip in a single day just like she says with her type 1. The only difference is type 2 does not have mania/manic episodes. They have a lower level of elevated mood which is different, called hypomania. Just felt the need to clarify some information here. If you’d like to fact check me, feel free to read the DSM guidelines on bipolar. 🙂
I relate very hard in a lot of ways. As someone with several mental health and other health issues, balancing meds and deciding what you can just live with to not mess with meds is a struggle...
Thanks for sharing your story, it helped me on a day when I really needed it
I'm Bipolar 2 and borderline. It sucks but it's manageable. I learned being off my meds isn't for me. I totally can relate to when she said having to deal with this for the rest of her life. I hate that for me
I could swear I've seen her on another channel quite some time ago and she wasn't nearly as sorted out yet as she is here......
If it this is the same person and finding the appropriate medication has been this beneficial in her life this is truly a miracle.
The fact that her doctor directed her to take that many klonopin and for that long is INSANE. Some doctors have no idea how the very medications they’re prescribing work or the severity of effects they can pose on a person.
Latuda saved my life after years of trying to figure out what was wrong.
She’s so beautiful and intelligent i wish her all the best ❤️
i would love to do an interview with y’all. i’ve had bipolar since i was 5 years old. it’s effected my whole life. i’m 24 now and on disability bc of it. it’s heartbreaking to go through this.