"I've been screaming in anguish all my life." Me too, Sam. Me too. I'm still screaming in anguish. But silently now. Everyone is tired of hearing my cries for help. So I cry silently....for nearly 58 years now. Thank you for these videos. A beacon of hope in my dark and cold world. ♥ You're a beautiful soul. So very beautiful.
Friend, remember that we are part of a silent no-nonsense sister/brotherhood around the world who carries our crosses and open our hearts towards the eternal Sun despite it all. We might live in isolation and quiet despair, but Grace is now invited and will heed our calls in some shape or form. Be certain of that.
@@yuliaantonenkovolkovamd552 there is. But like anything else in this world, you can learn to tune him out. But I know he is real because He spoke to me one time. Just one word, but I was in deep distress about my pregnancy. For medical reasons, I didn’t think she would make it to this world safely. I was in tears and crying out to God to just “please get her safely; let her be okay.” He responded fed to me. He named her. I had never even considered the name he gave me, but as soon I “heard” his voice it shook me to my core. It was a sound that you’d image telepathy to be. It reverberate in my brain but did come from inside my brain. It entered it. Like I said, just one word. I was so shocked I immersed stopped praying and went to google the meaning and background of the name, and I A qqqqqqq and no immediately started crying. He named her Isabella. It means “given to God.”
Hello Sam, Your words are so touching. I'm about to go into trauma therapy. I'm almost 60. I've had a crazy life full of abuse. I've been running, and now I'm facing the truth. You're a real encouragement. You have a lovely, gentle spirit . Bless you 🙏
Oh this is so wonderful to hear. I only started proper trauma therapy (I'm utilising both Schema, DBT, ACT and Mindfulness) at 53 years of age after running away from my wounds for so long. I hope you have found the right person to guide you through and that you are able to stick with it until your life changes towards more peace, connection and fulfillment. Facing truth and the maladaptions you developed to survive a traumatic childhood and the traumas that often follow, is painful and contronting but the growth towards leading a better life is worth it. Don't give up when it gets hard. Believe me, I know how hard that can be. Sending you love and encouragement.
@@permissiontoshine I appreciate your comment. Thanks. How are you finding your schema therapy? I've had both DBT and ACT therapies, but am finding schema really challenging and somehow can't embody it. For example, the 'inner child' work, I mean, I just get angry and frustrated that I just can't connect with that part of me!
“We do what we do to survive and until we start feeling again we have no idea at what cost it was to survive.” A comforting statement that helps me bear those consequences!
It is hard, it is painful, allowing ourselves to turn and face all of us and what we did to ourselves to survive. I'm sending you the best of wishes. Be kind to yourself, really be kind and understanding as you come to terms with this. You only have to do it in small pieces, when you feel strong enough to do so.
Keeping you in my prayers tonight Sam! I see your scars, I hear your anguish, I feel your pain. You are doing your best and thank you for sharing so openly.
I second this. It's remarkable to be allowed in, to follow Sam on his path of recovering himself. I feel honoured, honestly, to even watch Sam's videos.
You are being used as a powerful tool for healing of so many souls. Your pain God is turning into help for others. You are created SPECIAL to bless others. Satan is being defeated by your messages of TRUTH. May God continue to bless you with strength and courage for the journey.
I look forward to your videos with both sadness and anger. Sadness at what you have endured and anger at those who inflicted those wounds on the soul of an innocent child. You are an amazing human being and a gift to humanity.
You're so lovely sam. Our traumatic experiences are never identical to one another's and yet eerily similar❤ its tragic really because we know it Fundementally changes the trajectory of our life path and yet it is who we are xx
I totally understand Sam🫶🏻believe it or not…you’re one of the lucky ones….some are pure skeletons….some full of infections….dont know who they are….yet a gentle soul within. World can be cruel…you are an angel🧚♀️
A lot of people say I'm a survivior but I try to refrase it and say i'm thriving and I say, fake until you make it. I'm so glad your'e part of my experience here on this earth. So so much appreciation for the words you speak and I to say...I love you in frienship ~ And yes I still get triggered but, nature and the animals are very healing along the way. Keep speaking.
"Give yourself your life back " So brilliant! I'm so, so sorry you were cared for by irresponsible, ignorant adults as a vulnerable child, dear Sam. But THANK you so much for your perfect articulation of the story of self-harm. It is so spectacular and necessary. So beautiful. Thank you!
"Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:13-14
It's a hard battle feeling worthless. I first heard it from my parents, then from relationships, then I convinced myself that I am a big nothing that is undeserving of anything. Spent years wandering from place to place, person to person, trying to get some sort of approval, which left me broken, traumatized and unrecognisable. Only ourselves can save ourselves. Keep going, Sam ❤
How are you even still alive and thriving, Sam? My theory on trauma and abuse survivors is this: We either turn to violent crime (because violence, neglect and abuse are all we've ever known), indulge in addictive substances and behaviours (because we'd rather do ANYTHING than feel our pain), or transmute our suffering into something spiritual, as you're doing. Or experience some or all of these survival strategies to some extent. You're giving back, and for that alone I send you my sincere love and compassion. Thank you so much for sharing your vulnerabilities, struggles and transcendental experiences with us. x
Thank you so much for your support. YES ! I did all of what you described, thankfully I survived and am being given enough time to share a path that may help others. Thank God.
I have great compassion for you Sam. You are quite courageous. I pray for the peace of God and healing. I m going to also ask for joy, a little uplifting of your soul. Thank you for your video today. It spoke to me where I am today.
I am always so blessed every time I listen to you!! I am very religious spending much time in bible reading and prayer! I love God and I know he loves me!! And I love what you said about all the noise in our head that try’s to drown him out!! It is a daily battle!! I asked God today to forgive me for asking everyday for forgiveness for the same things I have done in the past! lol!! Does not make sense? Be blessed and know you are loved by many!!
Dear Sam. You are an inspiration ❣️God has chosen you to bring His light into a those who are in pain. You are God’s special human to do this❣️ I am blessed to get to know you and keep you always in my heart Thank you 🙏💕💕💕
My experience in life is nothing like yours; yet your words resonate with me for other reasons. They ground me in ways you wouldn't know despite our parallel but different lives. I thank you.
I found your channel thru the rabbit hole somehow. I'm a straight married woman with grown children and grandkids. I've explored the RUclips world to find information to be able to understand my youngest child and the world she lived in before she was ours through adoption as a teen. For some reason many of the things you speak on speak to my soul even though I've never experienced the things you have. I was raised in a home that included my single mom, her sister, parents and extended family. My grandparents had an open door for all who needed refuge. It was havoc at times but my little brain saw it as unconditional love and it may have been but to the detriment of some involved. I never knew racism or homophobic people existed in this world because my world included lgbtq and bi racial people who were loved. But I also see that being raised in that environment also caused me harm. I always give of myself to the detriment of me and those I should protect because that's the way I was raised. I over compensated as a mother because mine was never around, to the point my children didn't have the best and we struggled financially because I thought my presence was more important, because that's what I craved. I refused to punish my children at all because I didn't want to be my mom and smack them. I have always tried to be the peace keeper even if it meant giving up my wants or needs. I have never felt I was a good enough wife or mother or sister or friend. So much of what you speak of about life and healing and loving yourself is what I've always needed to hear. Thank you Sam for being so vulnerable with the world to allow others to find healing.
The path to clarity is painful. You are brave to take responsibility for your actions and the consequences , few really want to but some of seem to be driven to be truthful at all costs. It can be scary and horrifying, but seeing ourselves, seeing the past , seeing the why of everything means we can then make real choices that are not driven by motivations we are unaware of. I wish you well.
Radical self-acceptance. Taking me decades of inching closer as tears blurred the path and avoidance of difficult feelings was chosen over and over. We are and always have been perfect. In Truth. Thank you so kindly for sharing yours, Sam. Its a service to you and others. As you say, process the grief, and let go. We are all here to remember the truth of who we really are. The help cannot reach us till we recognize, and open to receive, the blessings of our true inheritance.❤❤❤
"the darkness has a hunger that's insatiable. And lightness has a call that's hard to hear" 🎶 And yet in silence and even in nature, it can not only be heard, yet felt. May that love encircle you in your hour of need, whoever you may be. Thanks Sam. Much love to you always. ❤️
You are worthy Sam. This is your path, and probably your souls purpose. To find who you are after abuse. You are a beautiful person, with your scars. We are our own worst enemies and critics. You did not deserve the abuse you received as a baby, toddler and young child from the people that are supposed to love and protect you. Bless you Sam thank you for talking your truth. I believe if you wrote about your life to see it in black and white. To see how far you have come. How much you have changed and grown. You deserve happiness and peace. You are loved.
@@Call-Me-Sam So glad to hear you will write it one day! Your spoken words are so gorgeous, you could truly just transcribe your videos! ❤️ You are such a Blessing, Sam!! ❤️
Sam, I cannot express how much this meant to me. I am covered in scars too from self harm and my body turning against me. I have Internal scars that are killing me now. My life has been filled with horror, terror, and running fron myself. I have body dysmorphia, real disfigurement, and severe ptsd from abuse. I hardly ever find people who know this severity and who have run so far from themselves. I've prayed, cried, kicked and screamed from the pain in my life. I deal with depressive psychosis as well. I completely relate to you. The peace and strength you're displaying here is pure beauty to me. Thank you so much for being here and for sharing.
I was worried that I shared too much, so, thank you for letting me know this helped. We walk a very difficult path that few understand , I do know that peace is available, as is contentment. Never doubt that you are enough and always have been.
Sam I admire you so much, what a BRAVE soul uou are. You are a hwlp to so ay. Betterdaysare coming, stay strong. You have a purpose NOW. God is leading ou on it. I love your heartso much.
Hello Sam. I am a cult survivor in South Korea who's in the process of writing about her life. It's been almost 10 years since I left that church on my own. And everything is coming back as if I am going through it for the first time. And somehow that's how I stumbled across your channel. No matter what some people might say, what you say about your experience and just your existence here helps me to keep hoping. That I am doing the right thing. I can't thank you enough. I started to listen to this video feeling so scared but now I feel I can get through this and live with my truth. And not lose a single part of me in the process. And actually this is the only way to keep myself intact and whole. Thank you. Thank you so much❤❤
Thank you. I am lost for words. After each video I go through a kind of doubt, doubt whether this is really and truly helping anyone. I feel so exposed. So thank you very much for letting me know.
@Call-Me-Sam you have no idea how much you've helped me already and probably many others. Here I was thinking that because of my experience I would never be able to connect with anybody with the stories I'm writing and then I found your video and truly felt understood. Here in Seoul halfway across the world from you. It took some courage for me to write the comment above and I never expected you would actually read. Thank you again. Sending you so much love from Asia❤
I understand how difficult it is to show ourselves... whether in the comments, in the pages of a book or in life . We need to inhabit ourselves in vulnerability , to allow ourselves to be found by each moment and by others who have eyes to see and ears to hear. We are invited forward into our own disappearance and discover of who we really are in relationship. I wish you well with your book. May it be catharsis for you.
I have never commented on a video before, but wanted you to know how much these videos mean to me! I have been keeping up with your videos for the last few months and they always bring me to tears. This video today felt like something I really needed to hear, and your commitment to vulnerability is absolutely inspiring. Thank you for making these videos, they really are life changing and have made me feel so seen in my own pursuit of peace/truth amidst confrontation of a life filled with trauma.
Thank you so much for commenting and for letting me know these videos help. I know how difficult it can be to show yourself.. believe me ! I go through a gentle ( some times awful ) torture every time I publish a video. We have to allow ourselves to be found by reality. Life lives us, wants us to participate, unconditionally but in fear we refuse. Just remember that you are here for a reason, just be you and that brings truth into the world.
Thank you Sam. There is so much clarity in what you've expressed, in how you've turned your experiences into these insights. It helps me so much, especially the resolve to show up for myself right now and to know, as you say, we've always been ok but just corrupted by what was put onto us. And that spiritual realm is there for us, looking after us already, even if we don't always realise it. Like you say it's when we let ourselves feel and open up that we connect with that support. You are such a blessing with the light you are shining for others 🙏♥
Dear Sam, I have learned more from binging and repeatedly watching your videos until your wisdom stuck into my head more than I have learned from literal years of reading books and articles about all sorts of topics, in order to understand my anxiety and what lies beneath it. Or better said, your words have made all the theory I learned make sense and put pieces of my own puzzle together, that I was struggling with for a long time. I can of course only speak for myself but I know, if you ever post a 2 hour long video, I will watch that too (and I hope others will too). So I kindly ask you to not censor yourself if it takes 2 hours to express what needs to be expressed. You are articulating extremely nuanced and complex issues that ultimately affect so many people (whether they know it or not), through the lens of your own experience. Of course it can't be done in 5 minutes! It's honestly an honor to listen to someone being so self-aware, so reflective, so kind to themselves, and ready to be vulnerable if front of thousands of people. Anyway, whatever you choose to do, I hope you will keep making videos for as long as you feel it is necessary, because as far as I am concerned, your experience and your journey has been eye-opening to me, and your calm and authentic presence in these organic and heartfelt videos is healing in and of itself. It's just a pleasure to listen to you. All the best to you, and until next time! Hope to see a lovely sausage in there again, too, haha! Take care
Same, Sam. Every time you mention previous attempts at recording and how it was 2 hours long, I’m like, “noooooooo, give me the 2 hour version!!!” I would listen to it. I’ve been helped more by your videos than years of therapy. Thank you for sharing yourself the way you do on this channel. ❤
I thought I'd replied to you already but don't see my response . I will do a longer one soon, Winter is coming so the weather is more challenging, there'll be days to record inside where I can talk for longer
I'm so sorry for what you went through. Totally tragic and devastating. Many blessing And happiness to you now. You are so strong and helping so many with this channel , including me. Thank you and prayers for healing for us All.
You are amazingly strong and wise to have overcome so very much grief, despair and incredible pain. Bless you, may you heal and enjoy your new found peace!! Continue sharing and helping others.
Well done Sam. U have walked this life with such courage and bravery. Abused by others and by urself. And yet Ur still here. Ur still here. And finally Ur finding peace in who you are right now, not who UV been in Ur past. Acceptance of all of who u are, scars and all. U are loved by god Sam , forgiven by god, and his peace , will lead u home. Be proud of who u are Sam. Ur words and bravey, have helped many Iam sure. Enjoy Ur wonderful surroundings, and breath. Keep breathing. Who knows what tomorrow might bring. Whatever, u are loved, and u are not alone. Mark.
I frequently watch and listen to your videos, tonight I listened as I walked my dogs. In the dark, both headphones in, all I could hear was your voice and your words of wisdom that penetrated my soul with truth and they carried so much weight as I felt the crisp of the air and the calm of the night. I have shared your channel with friends because your experience has value and you are valuable. I thank God for you Sam. You are amazing. Praying for Father God to heal your heart in those moments when it feels broken. God Bless
Sam, thankyou for your wisdom & your candor, that you were feeling to leave the boy behind, remove him from you. this is what my friend is doing in january. all surgeries envolved. & as you told me, theres nothing i can do to stop him, nothing can change the mind of my 29 yr old friend, willing to put himself through these emotionally & physicaly horribly painfull surgeries. to escape the abuses & traumas hes held... Im so afraid for him, I stand by him, but even as i write this to you Sam, tears run my face for my dear friend. How do i cope.. I will continue to support & love my friend.. & you Sam.. All Love to You ♡Concerned~ Thankyou for your loving & caring words dear....
Heartbreaking though it is, we are all on our own journey and must make our own mistakes , those painful mistakes bring us toward truth. He is lucky to have such a caring, supportive and sensitive friend such as you
I really really needed to hear this message. I was told today at work that I needed to work faster. That made me feel old and useless. I thank you for giving me courage to keep going. Much love❤
Thank you for this. I often think the world wouldn’t care or notice if I was in it. I still have my doubts. But I’m still here and still trying. It’s just exhausting and I’m so tired.
Much wisdom here, thank you for BRAVELY sharing & GIVING HOPE 🌿 28 Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I Will give you REST. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me; for I AM Gentle and Humble in Heart, and you will find REST for your SOULS. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is LIGHT. Matthew 11 🕊💖🙏 ✝️ 🌺 praying for us all
Despite having a very different story, I find this video and the last video profound and life-changing. If I wait for complete healing to live, then I will never live. And I must feel the pain, stop ignoring it or escaping it. The peaks and valleys becoming smaller and smaller provides hope, and a spiritual component is definitely important. Thank you, Sam. Sending love and light to you.
I'm all out of excuses for being me. Thanks Sam I needed that, we are on the same wavelength n I can see all the good n vibrance in you n it's a lovely reflection. Time to step out of the shadows ❤
"Give yourself your life back" Struck a chord with me and I teared up for the first time during this video. I've been making my life so much more miserable than it has to be. And i realise that. Thank you
Please, keep sharing. Even if just for the sake of your own cathartic release. Those on a similar path to you recognize the origin of your authority and the place you’re speaking from straight away and need no justification as to why you speak the way you do. We know from experience it is the only way, the rest is noise. We love you! For me it’s a source of great joy that you’re still around.
Sam... Sam. Wow. Every word you spoke, with your eloquent wisdom, as I looked directly back into your eyes on the video, hit me exactly where it needed to. As someone who survived substantial child abuse and neglect, though different to your own, I hear you, I see you, I relate to your raw and honest expressions. I watch all of your videos, though at times I put them aside because, you know, those overwhelming times when the pain is too much, but I treasure them and I reach back out for them as they provide me comfort and strengthen my will to go on when I don't feel like I can. I will never be able to comprehend what it is like for you to survive what you have. Your bravery... I can't find the words... other than to say, I send you love and support and all of the good energy I can muster. Your videos, you speaking your truth, have impacted me so powerfully. I've shared them with others, off the internet, including this one, which I've sent to even my psychologists. When you are struggling, hold your distress with kindness Sam. Acknowledge, Accept, Allow those feelings. As you know, we have to feel it to heal it. Thankyou, from my heart and my spirit for sharing your recovery with us. It means a lot. Love from Perth, Western Australia.
Thank you so much. I was worried that I over shared in this video. As you know, there is so much we can say , so much painful detail that we could share , I try and keep private what I need to and share enough to let others know that I understand their pain and suffering. Love to you too. Take care .
@@Call-Me-Sam yes Sam, there is so much we can say. Questioning our intentions and purpose to share what we do requires wisdom. As you said, it took you several attempts to get it out in a way you felt comfortable with. For me you struck exactly the right balance. It was raw, but coherent, painful, inspiring yet purposeful. I suspect your intuition kept calling you to share and you heeded that call eventually, because your truth compelled you to. As you said, in the hope it inspired, resonated with and encouraged others. That truth comes across. Sure you share some of your vulnerability (A powerful thing to be able to, especially on the wild streets of the internet) but it is clear your videos are for the greater good (which includes your own of course) and not a self-serving pity party, if you catch my drift. The more raw and shocking bits you talked about, are valuable, as too often the most tragic, more shocking aspect of what extreme child abuse survivors experience, especially post childhood, what we do to ourselves, is still too often glossed over, cowered away from, diminished or disbelieved. Again I am so sorry for all of the pain inflicted on you when you could defend or decide for yourself.
I haven’t lost ANYTHING! I am drying my sad tears so I can see clearly. I am crying tears of joy now. It was not my fault what happened to me. I am and have always been enough. I forgive myself and love myself now! You asked God to help you and He did! Thank you so much for sharing. I love you ❤🙏🏾
You are so brave and wonderful to share your journey! You are helping so many people. I’m sure people watching are gaining strength to fight thru their own progress ❤
There's a lot of good messages there. I hope it catches on because that's exactly what needs to happen with everyone. We have to embrace who we are and allow the light of love to fill the gap where we've pushed ourselves away. If we can do that, then we can manifest heart and that's the magic that we need. All of us.
Thank You Sam, was waiting, since you did mention a response to your last video. 🙏🕊🌹💕 I have recently found out all this time, 67 now, I have been Autistic. Yes this past year has been the gentlest one I can remember. My diagnosis was revealed just this past week. So, I am crying again. I always thought I was at fault for all that happened, now I hurt for many tepid take advantage of me. I have no physical scares, but as you deep hidden wounds! Thank you dear, you have shown me I was never alone in this horrific pain! 🙏🕊🌹💕
Thank goodness you survived all that you have Sam, listening to you and witnessing your courage makes me feel worthy and seen 😊 When I saw you've put an extra video up, felt so elated after a crazily tough week and facing my abuser(s) - you are a gift Sam 💞
I'm amazed and humbled by all the horror you've endured. You're a survivor, definitely not worthless and immensely courageous. I wish you much love, continuing strength and healing. ❤🙏 ♥
Hi Sam, your videos have been really helping me recently. I need the reminder often and I notice I feel less in pain after watching your videos. So, thank you.
I have never listened to your content before today - your title was a hook for me. TYSM for this wisdom. Subbed. I am being a little cheeky here, but I think you have made peace with yourself. No small feat. Congratulations Sam. ❣🕊
Thank you. Most of the time I do feel at peace with myself. Being at peace with ourself is one thing but after the decades of trauma , flight or flight and hardwired responses, the body needs to learn how to be a different way. Takes time. Thank you very much for your lovely comment.
Thanks for your perseverance. The beauty of talking is it engages different parts of our brains. I spent 30 years ruminating about being trans, replying on a primitive part of my brain only to process the thoughts. It wasn't until I started speaking out loud to a counsellor about gender, when the rest of my brain was ignited and I could finally start to see a way through. So although it's frustrating you're having to re do the attempts, I hope its still beneficial for you too x
Your description is exactly what I went through, deprogramming myself from the idea and engaging the other parts of me that I had denied for so long. Thank you
You're truly beautiful Sam ,I don't know your suffering but I can relate and I thank you for being so transparent and vulnerable Suffering is seeking , a movement from what is actually happening , mind /memory takes us into the past or imaginary future to avoid what is. and here ,just this right here IS the only place we can feel peace . Take care you beautiful soul ,I wish for you peace .
Disrespecting yourself after trauma with drugs, processed foods, stimulants, substances, chemicals doesn't heal you within. What goes into the body and mind has either positive or negative energy psychological effects.
Love, Light, Truth, Life, Peace & Rest, Abundance and Divine Health. We are made in the image of our Creator. All we need is found in Him as we are His fractal-body, mind and spirit. Divest. Let go. Fall into the arms of Love. He is our home.
Thank you Sam. I write this for my husband. I don't know if he will watch this. His story is not exactly like yours but certainly he has issues from his childhood that have totally destroyed his entire life. God bless you.
Sam, thank you for all the effort you put into these videos. I can feel every word you share. I've survived so much. Just to breath is exhausting most of the time.
Thank you very much again Sam! I recognise a lot of what you say. And you are a bit ahead of me in the proces so I feel so lucky to watch your stories and get inspired and get some directions from what you say! What I take home now- is that I will say to myself: I did my best today! And be kinder and kinder to my self, looking back on my life.
It is a good thing to say to ourselves I think. Kindness for ourselves cannot help but spill over into our relationships, no matter how small or casual.
The Divine Light within is what allows me to continue to put one foot in front of the other. Self-love & Self-forgiveness is a painstaking process. Deep gratitude to you Sam for revealing your True & Authentic Self, you are a beautiful soul. We are not alone - GOD help me/us.
💔Some of the most poisonous people are disguised as family...
Yes, and friends, unfortunately.
And the sad part is that children get trapped into Stockholm Syndrome with those beasts 😢💔
Bless You Sam 'a million times over.' May you have 'Joy' for your remaining years on earth.
"I've been screaming in anguish all my life." Me too, Sam. Me too. I'm still screaming in anguish. But silently now. Everyone is tired of hearing my cries for help. So I cry silently....for nearly 58 years now. Thank you for these videos. A beacon of hope in my dark and cold world. ♥ You're a beautiful soul. So very beautiful.
Thank you. Keep reaching out, allow yourself to be found , we are not supposed to live in the isolation of our own self.
Friend, remember that we are part of a silent no-nonsense sister/brotherhood around the world who carries our crosses and open our hearts towards the eternal Sun despite it all. We might live in isolation and quiet despair, but Grace is now invited and will heed our calls in some shape or form. Be certain of that.
God hears you
@@smalltownhomesteadACThere is obviously no god
@@yuliaantonenkovolkovamd552 there is. But like anything else in this world, you can learn to tune him out. But I know he is real because He spoke to me one time. Just one word, but I was in deep distress about my pregnancy. For medical reasons, I didn’t think she would make it to this world safely. I was in tears and crying out to God to just “please get her safely; let her be okay.” He responded fed to me. He named her. I had never even considered the name he gave me, but as soon I “heard” his voice it shook me to my core. It was a sound that you’d image telepathy to be. It reverberate in my brain but did come from inside my brain. It entered it. Like I said, just one word. I was so shocked I immersed stopped praying and went to google the meaning and background of the name, and I A qqqqqqq and no immediately started crying. He named her Isabella. It means “given to God.”
Hello Sam,
Your words are so touching. I'm about to go into trauma therapy. I'm almost 60.
I've had a crazy life full of abuse. I've been running, and now I'm facing the truth. You're a real encouragement. You have a lovely, gentle spirit . Bless you 🙏
Thank you. Well done, I wish you strength in your own process.
All the best, sending 🧡 and strength.
Perfectly written
Oh this is so wonderful to hear. I only started proper trauma therapy (I'm utilising both Schema, DBT, ACT and Mindfulness) at 53 years of age after running away from my wounds for so long. I hope you have found the right person to guide you through and that you are able to stick with it until your life changes towards more peace, connection and fulfillment.
Facing truth and the maladaptions you developed to survive a traumatic childhood and the traumas that often follow, is painful and contronting but the growth towards leading a better life is worth it. Don't give up when it gets hard. Believe me, I know how hard that can be. Sending you love and encouragement.
@@permissiontoshine I appreciate your comment. Thanks.
How are you finding your schema therapy? I've had both DBT and ACT therapies, but am finding schema really challenging and somehow can't embody it. For example, the 'inner child' work, I mean, I just get angry and frustrated that I just can't connect with that part of me!
“We do what we do to survive and until we start feeling again we have no idea at what cost it was to survive.” A comforting statement that helps me bear those consequences!
It is hard, it is painful, allowing ourselves to turn and face all of us and what we did to ourselves to survive. I'm sending you the best of wishes. Be kind to yourself, really be kind and understanding as you come to terms with this. You only have to do it in small pieces, when you feel strong enough to do so.
Keeping you in my prayers tonight Sam! I see your scars, I hear your anguish, I feel your pain. You are doing your best and thank you for sharing so openly.
I second this. It's remarkable to be allowed in, to follow Sam on his path of recovering himself. I feel honoured, honestly, to even watch Sam's videos.
You are being used as a powerful tool for healing of so many souls. Your pain God is turning into help for others. You are created SPECIAL to bless others. Satan is being defeated by your messages of TRUTH. May God continue to bless you with strength and courage for the journey.
Thank you
Sam, you are a Beautiful soul! I’m sorry you had to endure such horrific times. Know you are loved by many! ❤❤❤ Keep speaking your mind!
Wounded healer days are here. Blessings to you! 🌹
I'm so glad that YOU are here!
I look forward to your videos with both sadness and anger. Sadness at what you have endured and anger at those who inflicted those wounds on the soul of an innocent child. You are an amazing human being and a gift to humanity.
Bless you. I forgive. It was the brokenness of others passed down through generations.
Thankyou Sam, Today, I did my best.
Good work Cheryl. X
You're so lovely sam. Our traumatic experiences are never identical to one another's and yet eerily similar❤ its tragic really because we know it Fundementally changes the trajectory of our life path and yet it is who we are xx
So true ! Thanks Karen.
I totally understand Sam🫶🏻believe it or not…you’re one of the lucky ones….some are pure skeletons….some full of infections….dont know who they are….yet a gentle soul within. World can be cruel…you are an angel🧚♀️
Thank you. I really don't know how I made it but I did, there are so many that don't
Keeping you and all going through similar things in prayer 🙏🙏🙏
God spreads his wings of protection over you and holds on to you with his hand.
“Grief is the acknowledgment of how we really feel” 💯❤️
A lot of people say I'm a survivior but I try to refrase it and say i'm thriving and I say, fake until you make it. I'm so glad your'e part of my experience here on this earth. So so much appreciation for the words you speak and I to say...I love you in frienship ~ And yes I still get triggered but, nature and the animals are very healing along the way. Keep speaking.
"Give yourself your life back " So brilliant! I'm so, so sorry you were cared for by irresponsible, ignorant adults as a vulnerable child, dear Sam. But THANK you so much for your perfect articulation of the story of self-harm. It is so spectacular and necessary. So beautiful. Thank you!
Thank you
"Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:13-14
You are a sage and a poet, thank you for this powerful message! Blessed be
It's a hard battle feeling worthless. I first heard it from my parents, then from relationships, then I convinced myself that I am a big nothing that is undeserving of anything. Spent years wandering from place to place, person to person, trying to get some sort of approval, which left me broken, traumatized and unrecognisable. Only ourselves can save ourselves. Keep going, Sam ❤
Thank you, you too. I wish you peace.
How are you even still alive and thriving, Sam?
My theory on trauma and abuse survivors is this: We either turn to violent crime (because violence, neglect and abuse are all we've ever known), indulge in addictive substances and behaviours (because we'd rather do ANYTHING than feel our pain), or transmute our suffering into something spiritual, as you're doing. Or experience some or all of these survival strategies to some extent.
You're giving back, and for that alone I send you my sincere love and compassion. Thank you so much for sharing your vulnerabilities, struggles and transcendental experiences with us. x
Thank you so much for your support. YES ! I did all of what you described, thankfully I survived and am being given enough time to share a path that may help others. Thank God.
@@Call-Me-Sam You're a heaven-sent example of the proverbial phoenix from the ashes. xx
Thank you Sam for showing me just how raw courage can be.
I have great compassion for you Sam. You are quite courageous. I pray for the peace of God and healing. I m going to also ask for joy, a little uplifting of your soul. Thank you for your video today. It spoke to me where I am today.
Thank you. I do have joy as well. Dogs provide much of it !
I am always so blessed every time I listen to you!! I am very religious spending much time in bible reading and prayer! I love God and I know he loves me!!
And I love what you said about all the noise in our head that try’s to drown him out!!
It is a daily battle!! I asked God today to forgive me for asking everyday for forgiveness for the same things I have done in the past! lol!! Does not make sense?
Be blessed and know you are loved by many!!
Thank you and yes, makes perfect sense
May you find true peace, Sam.
Thanks so much
Dear Sam. You are an inspiration ❣️God has chosen you to bring His light into a those who are in pain. You are God’s special human to do this❣️
I am blessed to get to know you and keep you always in my heart
Thank you 🙏💕💕💕
Thank you
My experience in life is nothing like yours; yet your words resonate with me for other reasons. They ground me in ways you wouldn't know despite our parallel but different lives. I thank you.
So Much gratitude for your ruthless honesty. Much love
Thank you
I found your channel thru the rabbit hole somehow. I'm a straight married woman with grown children and grandkids. I've explored the RUclips world to find information to be able to understand my youngest child and the world she lived in before she was ours through adoption as a teen. For some reason many of the things you speak on speak to my soul even though I've never experienced the things you have. I was raised in a home that included my single mom, her sister, parents and extended family. My grandparents had an open door for all who needed refuge. It was havoc at times but my little brain saw it as unconditional love and it may have been but to the detriment of some involved. I never knew racism or homophobic people existed in this world because my world included lgbtq and bi racial people who were loved. But I also see that being raised in that environment also caused me harm. I always give of myself to the detriment of me and those I should protect because that's the way I was raised. I over compensated as a mother because mine was never around, to the point my children didn't have the best and we struggled financially because I thought my presence was more important, because that's what I craved. I refused to punish my children at all because I didn't want to be my mom and smack them. I have always tried to be the peace keeper even if it meant giving up my wants or needs. I have never felt I was a good enough wife or mother or sister or friend. So much of what you speak of about life and healing and loving yourself is what I've always needed to hear. Thank you Sam for being so vulnerable with the world to allow others to find healing.
The path to clarity is painful. You are brave to take responsibility for your actions and the consequences , few really want to but some of seem to be driven to be truthful at all costs. It can be scary and horrifying, but seeing ourselves, seeing the past , seeing the why of everything means we can then make real choices that are not driven by motivations we are unaware of.
I wish you well.
Radical self-acceptance. Taking me decades of inching closer as tears blurred the path and avoidance of difficult feelings was chosen over and over.
We are and always have been perfect. In Truth. Thank you so kindly for sharing yours, Sam. Its a service to you and others. As you say, process the grief, and let go. We are all here to remember the truth of who we really are. The help cannot reach us till we recognize, and open to receive, the blessings of our true inheritance.❤❤❤
"the darkness has a hunger that's insatiable. And lightness has a call that's hard to hear" 🎶 And yet in silence and even in nature, it can not only be heard, yet felt.
May that love encircle you in your hour of need, whoever you may be. Thanks Sam. Much love to you always. ❤️
Beautiful. Thank you
You are worthy Sam. This is your path, and probably your souls purpose. To find who you are after abuse. You are a beautiful person, with your scars. We are our own worst enemies and critics.
You did not deserve the abuse you received as a baby, toddler and young child from the people that are supposed to love and protect you. Bless you Sam thank you for talking your truth.
I believe if you wrote about your life to see it in black and white. To see how far you have come. How much you have changed and grown. You deserve happiness and peace. You are loved.
Thank you Catherine, one day I shall write it all down. Thank you for your donation too.
@@Call-Me-Sam So glad to hear you will write it one day! Your spoken words are so gorgeous, you could truly just transcribe your videos! ❤️ You are such a Blessing, Sam!! ❤️
@@Over60sowhat Thank you
Bless your heart. Thank you❤
Sam, I cannot express how much this meant to me. I am covered in scars too from self harm and my body turning against me. I have Internal scars that are killing me now. My life has been filled with horror, terror, and running fron myself. I have body dysmorphia, real disfigurement, and severe ptsd from abuse. I hardly ever find people who know this severity and who have run so far from themselves. I've prayed, cried, kicked and screamed from the pain in my life. I deal with depressive psychosis as well. I completely relate to you. The peace and strength you're displaying here is pure beauty to me. Thank you so much for being here and for sharing.
I was worried that I shared too much, so, thank you for letting me know this helped. We walk a very difficult path that few understand , I do know that peace is available, as is contentment.
Never doubt that you are enough and always have been.
Sam I admire you so much, what a BRAVE soul uou are. You are a hwlp to so ay. Betterdaysare coming, stay strong. You have a purpose NOW. God is leading ou on it. I love your heartso much.
I’ve heard you. I see you Sam.
Thank you from the depth of my soul to your beautiful soul.❤️
Hello Sam. I am a cult survivor in South Korea who's in the process of writing about her life. It's been almost 10 years since I left that church on my own. And everything is coming back as if I am going through it for the first time. And somehow that's how I stumbled across your channel. No matter what some people might say, what you say about your experience and just your existence here helps me to keep hoping. That I am doing the right thing. I can't thank you enough. I started to listen to this video feeling so scared but now I feel I can get through this and live with my truth. And not lose a single part of me in the process. And actually this is the only way to keep myself intact and whole. Thank you. Thank you so much❤❤
Thank you. I am lost for words. After each video I go through a kind of doubt, doubt whether this is really and truly helping anyone. I feel so exposed. So thank you very much for letting me know.
@Call-Me-Sam you have no idea how much you've helped me already and probably many others. Here I was thinking that because of my experience I would never be able to connect with anybody with the stories I'm writing and then I found your video and truly felt understood. Here in Seoul halfway across the world from you. It took some courage for me to write the comment above and I never expected you would actually read. Thank you again. Sending you so much love from Asia❤
I understand how difficult it is to show ourselves... whether in the comments, in the pages of a book or in life . We need to inhabit ourselves in vulnerability , to allow ourselves to be found by each moment and by others who have eyes to see and ears to hear.
We are invited forward into our own disappearance and discover of who we really are in relationship.
I wish you well with your book. May it be catharsis for you.
58 years ... Im not giving up. You inspire me. Love you, Sam ❤️
Thank you for being you :) today I did my best!!! 💙
YES ! Good work .
I have never commented on a video before, but wanted you to know how much these videos mean to me! I have been keeping up with your videos for the last few months and they always bring me to tears. This video today felt like something I really needed to hear, and your commitment to vulnerability is absolutely inspiring. Thank you for making these videos, they really are life changing and have made me feel so seen in my own pursuit of peace/truth amidst confrontation of a life filled with trauma.
Thank you so much for commenting and for letting me know these videos help. I know how difficult it can be to show yourself.. believe me ! I go through a gentle ( some times awful ) torture every time I publish a video.
We have to allow ourselves to be found by reality. Life lives us, wants us to participate, unconditionally but in fear we refuse.
Just remember that you are here for a reason, just be you and that brings truth into the world.
Thank you Sam. There is so much clarity in what you've expressed, in how you've turned your experiences into these insights. It helps me so much, especially the resolve to show up for myself right now and to know, as you say, we've always been ok but just corrupted by what was put onto us. And that spiritual realm is there for us, looking after us already, even if we don't always realise it. Like you say it's when we let ourselves feel and open up that we connect with that support. You are such a blessing with the light you are shining for others 🙏♥
Dear Sam,
I have learned more from binging and repeatedly watching your videos until your wisdom stuck into my head more than I have learned from literal years of reading books and articles about all sorts of topics, in order to understand my anxiety and what lies beneath it. Or better said, your words have made all the theory I learned make sense and put pieces of my own puzzle together, that I was struggling with for a long time. I can of course only speak for myself but I know, if you ever post a 2 hour long video, I will watch that too (and I hope others will too). So I kindly ask you to not censor yourself if it takes 2 hours to express what needs to be expressed. You are articulating extremely nuanced and complex issues that ultimately affect so many people (whether they know it or not), through the lens of your own experience. Of course it can't be done in 5 minutes! It's honestly an honor to listen to someone being so self-aware, so reflective, so kind to themselves, and ready to be vulnerable if front of thousands of people.
Anyway, whatever you choose to do, I hope you will keep making videos for as long as you feel it is necessary, because as far as I am concerned, your experience and your journey has been eye-opening to me, and your calm and authentic presence in these organic and heartfelt videos is healing in and of itself. It's just a pleasure to listen to you.
All the best to you, and until next time! Hope to see a lovely sausage in there again, too, haha! Take care
Thank you, I'm glad to be of help.
Same, Sam. Every time you mention previous attempts at recording and how it was 2 hours long, I’m like, “noooooooo, give me the 2 hour version!!!” I would listen to it. I’ve been helped more by your videos than years of therapy. Thank you for sharing yourself the way you do on this channel. ❤
I thought I'd replied to you already but don't see my response . I will do a longer one soon, Winter is coming so the weather is more challenging, there'll be days to record inside where I can talk for longer
Thank so much, really 🤍☺️🥰🙏🏻✨ beautiful being
Thank you!
II takes immeasurable courage and blessings for a wounded human to heal others! Thank you! 🕊🌹
@@enough1494 Amen and Amen!❤️
I'm so sorry for what you went through. Totally tragic and devastating.
Many blessing And happiness to you now. You are so strong and helping so many with this channel , including me. Thank you and prayers for healing for us All.
Thank you. Yes, prayers for all in the process of healing
You are amazingly strong and wise to have overcome so very much grief, despair and incredible pain. Bless you, may you heal and enjoy your new found peace!! Continue sharing and helping others.
Thank you
One day at time, my friend. God bless you.
Well done Sam. U have walked this life with such courage and bravery. Abused by others and by urself. And yet Ur still here. Ur still here. And finally Ur finding peace in who you are right now, not who UV been in Ur past. Acceptance of all of who u are, scars and all. U are loved by god Sam , forgiven by god, and his peace , will lead u home. Be proud of who u are Sam. Ur words and bravey, have helped many Iam sure. Enjoy Ur wonderful surroundings, and breath. Keep breathing. Who knows what tomorrow might bring. Whatever, u are loved, and u are not alone. Mark.
Thank you Mark
I frequently watch and listen to your videos, tonight I listened as I walked my dogs. In the dark, both headphones in, all I could hear was your voice and your words of wisdom that penetrated my soul with truth and they carried so much weight as I felt the crisp of the air and the calm of the night. I have shared your channel with friends because your experience has value and you are valuable. I thank God for you Sam. You are amazing.
Praying for Father God to heal your heart in those moments when it feels broken.
God Bless
Thank you, God bless you too
Sam, thankyou for your wisdom & your candor, that you were feeling to leave the boy behind, remove him from you. this is what my friend is doing in january. all surgeries envolved. & as you told me, theres nothing i can do to stop him, nothing can change the mind of my 29 yr old friend, willing to put himself through these emotionally & physicaly horribly painfull surgeries. to escape the abuses & traumas hes held... Im so afraid for him, I stand by him, but even as i write this to you Sam, tears run my face for my dear friend. How do i cope.. I will continue to support & love my friend.. & you Sam..
All Love to You ♡Concerned~
Thankyou for your loving & caring words dear....
Heartbreaking though it is, we are all on our own journey and must make our own mistakes , those painful mistakes bring us toward truth. He is lucky to have such a caring, supportive and sensitive friend such as you
I really really needed to hear this message. I was told today at work that I needed to work faster. That made me feel old and useless. I thank you for giving me courage to keep going. Much love❤
Amazing courage and wishing you all the very best in your journey forward.
Thank you
Psalm 23 ✨️🙏
Psalm 23 got me through months of terror after I had a breakdown.
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There's something genuinely powerful about Psalms 23 🙏
"I did my best and I'm doing my best now."
Amen.
Thank you for this. I often think the world wouldn’t care or notice if I was in it. I still have my doubts. But I’m still here and still trying. It’s just exhausting and I’m so tired.
The world wants you here... never doubt it ....
@@HappyCat1111 Each and every person is an integral thread in God's tapestry, dear Happy Cat! Without you, we would unravel and be less beautiful! 💗
Love you so dearly Sam. 💓 x
Thank you, Sam, for sharing. The vulnerability and strength this truth takes is humbling to me. Your positive impact is rippling towards others.
Much wisdom here, thank you for BRAVELY sharing & GIVING HOPE 🌿 28 Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I Will give you REST. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me; for I AM Gentle and Humble in Heart, and you will find REST for your SOULS. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is LIGHT. Matthew 11 🕊💖🙏 ✝️ 🌺 praying for us all
Despite having a very different story, I find this video and the last video profound and life-changing. If I wait for complete healing to live, then I will never live. And I must feel the pain, stop ignoring it or escaping it. The peaks and valleys becoming smaller and smaller provides hope, and a spiritual component is definitely important. Thank you, Sam. Sending love and light to you.
Thank you. I'm happy these videos have helped .
Love your soul, Sam. So grateful to God for you. Thank you for sharing so that others can be helped. Many prayers for you. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
I'm all out of excuses for being me. Thanks Sam I needed that, we are on the same wavelength n I can see all the good n vibrance in you n it's a lovely reflection. Time to step out of the shadows ❤
I was a hot emotional mess before watching the video! Thank you for your bravery in sharing. I hold you in the highest regard. With love Suzanne.
Hello you. Glad to help.
I am beyond grateful for finding your page. God is at work through you. Much love to you Sam
Love you friend.
"Give yourself your life back" Struck a chord with me and I teared up for the first time during this video. I've been making my life so much more miserable than it has to be. And i realise that. Thank you
Please, keep sharing. Even if just for the sake of your own cathartic release. Those on a similar path to you recognize the origin of your authority and the place you’re speaking from straight away and need no justification as to why you speak the way you do. We know from experience it is the only way, the rest is noise. We love you! For me it’s a source of great joy that you’re still around.
Thank you
Give yourself your life back......THIS times a thousand. Thank you Sam for your love and light!
Keep shinning Sam! You are amazing. The present moment is all we have. The rest is phantom or phantasy.
Sam... Sam. Wow. Every word you spoke, with your eloquent wisdom, as I looked directly back into your eyes on the video, hit me exactly where it needed to. As someone who survived substantial child abuse and neglect, though different to your own, I hear you, I see you, I relate to your raw and honest expressions.
I watch all of your videos, though at times I put them aside because, you know, those overwhelming times when the pain is too much, but I treasure them and I reach back out for them as they provide me comfort and strengthen my will to go on when I don't feel like I can.
I will never be able to comprehend what it is like for you to survive what you have. Your bravery... I can't find the words... other than to say, I send you love and support and all of the good energy I can muster. Your videos, you speaking your truth, have impacted me so powerfully. I've shared them with others, off the internet, including this one, which I've sent to even my psychologists.
When you are struggling, hold your distress with kindness Sam. Acknowledge, Accept, Allow those feelings. As you know, we have to feel it to heal it.
Thankyou, from my heart and my spirit for sharing your recovery with us. It means a lot. Love from Perth, Western Australia.
Thank you so much. I was worried that I over shared in this video. As you know, there is so much we can say , so much painful detail that we could share , I try and keep private what I need to and share enough to let others know that I understand their pain and suffering.
Love to you too. Take care .
@@Call-Me-Sam yes Sam, there is so much we can say. Questioning our intentions and purpose to share what we do requires wisdom. As you said, it took you several attempts to get it out in a way you felt comfortable with.
For me you struck exactly the right balance. It was raw, but coherent, painful, inspiring yet purposeful.
I suspect your intuition kept calling you to share and you heeded that call eventually, because your truth compelled you to. As you said, in the hope it inspired, resonated with and encouraged others. That truth comes across. Sure you share some of your vulnerability (A powerful thing to be able to, especially on the wild streets of the internet) but it is clear your videos are for the greater good (which includes your own of course) and not a self-serving pity party, if you catch my drift.
The more raw and shocking bits you talked about, are valuable, as too often the most tragic, more shocking aspect of what extreme child abuse survivors experience, especially post childhood, what we do to ourselves, is still too often glossed over, cowered away from, diminished or disbelieved.
Again I am so sorry for all of the pain inflicted on you when you could defend or decide for yourself.
Thank you for your beautiful words, Sam.
Thanks for sharing Sam. ❤ You are a spiritual warrior.
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I haven’t lost ANYTHING! I am drying my sad tears so I can see clearly. I am crying tears of joy now. It was not my fault what happened to me. I am and have always been enough. I forgive myself and love myself now!
You asked God to help you and He did!
Thank you so much for sharing.
I love you ❤🙏🏾
What a great comment for me to read . Thank you.
Thank You, Sam! ❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing your story. It will give a lot of people hope. May God grant you increasing peace and healing.
You are so brave and wonderful to share your journey!
You are helping so many people.
I’m sure people watching are gaining strength to fight thru their own progress ❤
Every video, profound, heartfelt. Thank you.
There's a lot of good messages there. I hope it catches on because that's exactly what needs to happen with everyone. We have to embrace who we are and allow the light of love to fill the gap where we've pushed ourselves away. If we can do that, then we can manifest heart and that's the magic that we need. All of us.
Thank You Sam, was waiting, since you did mention a response to your last video.
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I have recently found out all this time, 67 now, I have been Autistic. Yes this past year has been the gentlest one I can remember. My diagnosis was revealed just this past week. So, I am crying again. I always thought I was at fault for all that happened, now I hurt for many tepid take advantage of me.
I have no physical scares, but as you deep hidden wounds!
Thank you dear, you have shown me I was never alone in this horrific pain!
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You're definitely not alone. I wish you well.
Thank goodness you survived all that you have Sam, listening to you and witnessing your courage makes me feel worthy and seen 😊 When I saw you've put an extra video up, felt so elated after a crazily tough week and facing my abuser(s) - you are a gift Sam 💞
Hi Grace. As you, a gift .
You are a beautiful soul. Your strength helps me move forward. Yes please keeping making these! Thank you.
Thank you
Please keep making these@@Call-Me-Sam
I shall
Sam I listen to you. I am thankful, grateful, comforted. Discernment. Peace. Spiritual awareness is enough for now, in this world.
Agreed. Our reality is a spiritual one, the physical that seems so real I think is illusion.
@@Call-Me-SamIll-usion idd bc this life-eats-life to survive hell realm is nothing but suffering until U die
I'm amazed and humbled by all the horror you've endured. You're a survivor, definitely not worthless and immensely courageous. I wish you much love, continuing strength and healing. ❤🙏 ♥
Thank you
Hi Sam, your videos have been really helping me recently. I need the reminder often and I notice I feel less in pain after watching your videos. So, thank you.
Thats good news, you really are not alone , the inner language we know so well is shared by many others.
I have never listened to your content before today - your title was a hook for me. TYSM for this wisdom. Subbed.
I am being a little cheeky here, but I think you have made peace with yourself. No small feat. Congratulations Sam. ❣🕊
Thank you. Most of the time I do feel at peace with myself. Being at peace with ourself is one thing but after the decades of trauma , flight or flight and hardwired responses, the body needs to learn how to be a different way.
Takes time.
Thank you very much for your lovely comment.
God your videos have warmed my heart. I understand you! Wish i could talk to you in person. ❤
Thank you. I regularly talk to people who reach out. My address is under each video.
Thanks for your perseverance. The beauty of talking is it engages different parts of our brains. I spent 30 years ruminating about being trans, replying on a primitive part of my brain only to process the thoughts. It wasn't until I started speaking out loud to a counsellor about gender, when the rest of my brain was ignited and I could finally start to see a way through. So although it's frustrating you're having to re do the attempts, I hope its still beneficial for you too x
Your description is exactly what I went through, deprogramming myself from the idea and engaging the other parts of me that I had denied for so long. Thank you
You're truly beautiful Sam ,I don't know your suffering but I can relate and I thank you for being so transparent and vulnerable Suffering is seeking , a movement from what is actually happening , mind /memory takes us into the past or imaginary future to avoid what is. and here ,just this right here IS the only place we can feel peace . Take care you beautiful soul ,I wish for you peace .
Thank you, Sam. Much love always so insightful, and I can really relate ❤
Disrespecting yourself after trauma with drugs, processed foods, stimulants, substances, chemicals doesn't heal you within. What goes into the body and mind has either positive or negative energy psychological effects.
💜💜💜 Thank you for sharing Sam 💜💜💜
Love, Light, Truth, Life, Peace & Rest, Abundance and Divine Health. We are made in the image of our Creator. All we need is found in Him as we are His fractal-body, mind and spirit. Divest. Let go. Fall into the arms of Love. He is our home.
Change is possible. Such a great message. Thank you Sam. ❤
Thank you Sam. I write this for my husband. I don't know if he will watch this. His story is not exactly like yours but certainly he has issues from his childhood that have totally destroyed his entire life. God bless you.
Thank you Sam. I love you and appreciate you
Sam, thank you for all the effort you put into these videos. I can feel every word you share. I've survived so much. Just to breath is exhausting most of the time.
Thank you. Keep breathing ever deeper
Thank you very much again Sam! I recognise a lot of what you say. And you are a bit ahead of me in the proces so I feel so lucky to watch your stories and get inspired and get some directions from what you say! What I take home now- is that I will say to myself: I did my best today! And be kinder and kinder to my self, looking back on my life.
It is a good thing to say to ourselves I think. Kindness for ourselves cannot help but spill over into our relationships, no matter how small or casual.
Words fail me Sam. I thank God for you sharing yours ❤
Thank you
So grateful for your insights ❤
Thank you. I just work it out as I go, stumbling into truthful presence. As the outer self becomes more porous, the light begins to shine.
I LOVE you Sam. Thank you so much. The radical self acceptance you speak of is key for me. Thank you for your loving words ❤
The Divine Light within is what allows me to continue to put one foot in front of the other. Self-love & Self-forgiveness is a painstaking process. Deep gratitude to you Sam for revealing your True & Authentic Self, you are a beautiful soul. We are not alone - GOD help me/us.