childhood signs i was *highkey* into girls
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- these are some lesser-known and not often talked about signs in my childhood that could point to the gay 💅 (wait is that the right emoji?)
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I totally relate to the "being drawn to the community even before I knew I was queer"! That's me too! I felt so lonely and wanted to be a part of it...and, surprise, I actually am! Just didn't know it for aaaages!
Me too!
Me toooooo)
For a long time i was just curious and attached to lgbtq people, videos, interviews......
And then i finally found myself! Even in a bit strange way - being ace 🥲 And now i question my gender idendity...And sure that i'm definetly non-binary. So yeah! My interest wasn't JUST interest)
Yeaahhh haha I was like "this community is so cool oh I wish I was a part of it"
In 6th grade I remember I “wanted” to be a lesbian and I tried to find girls to have a crush on because I wanted to be gay cjwhd it wasn’t until 7th grade that I realized I’m bi lol
The thing is most people will be like "you just decided to be gay!" Lmao ....right......
My childhood gay sign was that I felt my attraction to boys was forced. Like I would have a crush on a guy just cuz all my other girl friends were having crushes on boys
Me too omg, I always felt kinda weird about boy crushes
YEAH!!!! Like, I'd make up crushes in my head because I felt I was "supposed to"!
Omg yes! At one point I told a friend I was secretly 'dating' a guy (I was too young to really be allowed to date), I just wanted to be included in the whole 'boys are cute!' thing.
frrrr i "liked" a guy (or so i thought) but it was bc all my friends told me i did. i didnt actually tho i was j rlly good mates with him. we dont talk anymore
I did the same
One of my signs was the opposite of yours: I was terrified of physical contact with my lady friends lol. I was afraid of gay feelings 😩 so I would hardly even hug them!
Same but it wasn't that I hated physical touch it just made me very uncomfortable
Same
that’s totally common too! haha!
OMG. As a teenager I was really touchy with my best friend. we accidentally kissed twice but I swear it was all innocence. However people started talking and I developed rejection to contact with female friends. In college my best friend and I absolutely adored each other but the physical boundaries were there, we never hugged. Seems like I have a thing for best friends because years later she confessed she was in love with me and never wanted to cross any line by hugging or being physical
@@KearaGraves I've been the same as you and always wanted closeness with female friends. For me both physically and emotionally. I thought I just wanted a really close friendship though... Like a 'best best friend' 🥺😂
when I had "crushes" on boys, I couldn't imagine kissing them without cringing. Also, when I m*sturbated, I couldn't imagine my male crushes without being immediately turned off. I thought it was because my feelings for them were too pure or smth... it was not. Also, every time I met a boy, I would find myself trying to think about him in a romantic way, trying to consider being in a relationship with him. It never came naturally though. I always daydreamed about this perfect life with a guy, but he was always too perfect and everything about him was blurry and if I thought about more details about him i quickly became uninterested. I thought it was completely objective that women were more attractive than men. I thought every straight woman feels a little bit of attraction to other women. I really wished I was a lesbian, because I really didn't like the idea of most men but I thought that sadly, I'm straight, there's nothing I can do about it. I watched lgbtq tiktok and youtube and i always felt really like I found my place, only to get sad when remembering i was straight.
I relate to ALL of this so much!!
@@tb.lr. well I'm glad I'm not alone
Same, I always tried to “choose” a boy to crush on but I thought that none of them were perfect enough to catch my eye
Dude same but for everyone. It took me so long to realise I’m demisexual (panromantic) and I relate to your thoughts so much
omg felt 😭
I was obsessed with Emma Watson and Hailee Steinfeld. Still am but back then I thought it was just “omg they’re so pretty and talented!”, which they are, but I later realised it was all more fruity than that. I had gay crushes and didn’t realise it.
Same and when Hailee Steinfeld played Emily in Dickinson I was just like *gay panic
@@NinaWatsonnn omg yes. and her voicing Vi in Arcane as well. Ngl I do enjoy a "Hailee being gay" compilation on youtube even though she hasn't said so herself.
OMG ME TOO! Especially Emma Watson! Specifically the fourth Harry Potter movie...
Young Carrie Fisher though 😉
ME TOO! I used to have a crush on Selena Gomez and didn't even notice until I turn into my teens
I sometimes looked at girls and was like " I really really want to be 'friends' with them"
I remember being 8yrs old or so and thinking girls were really pretty but didn't give it much thought. I also had friends who would have crushes on so many guys but I didn't. I felt like I was "not like the other girls" cuz of that 🤢. Anyways fast forward to quarantine, I realized I was gay 🏳️🌈💅✨🤪💞
Yes indeed, thx quarantine!!
I remember finding some girls just really attractive and interesting, but also felt intimidated. When they had a boyfriend I was so disappointed. But I never questioned any of that 😂 also I just thought it was a knewn fact that girls or feminine boys are just so much more beautiful
I relate to the being a “passionate straight, cis ally” lol 😂
Ok so when I was like 10 me and my friend were playing episode and I said “what if we put ‘likes girls’” for our female character and It really made me feel some type of way. Also I made my Barbie dolls kiss and stuff.👍🌈
i was the opposite when it came to physical affection towards my friends.. i would try not to be affectionate cause i felt like i was doing something wrong, cause it would trigger something in me and the other girls seemed to not care about it very much. and most of the times, me purposely going far and beyond to not touch any of my friends made things very awkward. big SADGE.
I can relate to the one about wanting to be close to female friends. My best friend and I are both out to each other as bi now and although we don’t like each other we’ve always been quite close/touchy in a non-romantic way… especially her lol and I kinda followed. She’s moved away now and I miss hugging her, lying on her shoulder or her on mine, linking arms etc.
Same! I have a friend like this and I only meet her twice a week and I always miss her lol
YESSS
Oh same my best friend is part of the LGBTQIA+ community and were touchy, but I’m not quite sure if is just a queer thing, because also got other friends how are also affectionate
It's actually not that uncommon for straight women to watch lesbian porn or gay porn. I've read a lot about this type of thing bc it's fascinating to me generally and as a lesbian. With gay porn, sometimes it can be discomfort with seeing a woman (or imagining themselves as the woman) being submissive and "taken" sexually, maybe there is past experience with SA or discomfort with how women are usually portrayed in porn. It can also be a high attraction to the male body and seeing men intimate without having a woman in the way when you don't enjoy looking at or hearing the woman.
With lesbian porn sometimes it can be a discomfort with the aggressive male body or preferring to just think about her own pleasure without all the porn grunting from men and weird angles of men.
Sometimes it can be simply fetishizing gay/lesbian people, not great. But other times it can come from a genuine desire and preference for certain bodies, sounds, and stimuli and different reasons and desires. The porn industry and mindsets that go along with it can be very complex as well as individual sexuality. All that to say it's not super fair to say whatever porn pairings or fantasies you enjoy automatically define you or your sexuality. They can be a good indicator for many lgbtq+ people but it's just not that simple and straightforward as many would like to believe.
totally ageee on thisss, i used to watch and read a lot of yaoi, anime and manga series and im a straight girrlll...also I enjoy same sex love stories because it's sometimes more sensitive and passionate
So I’m a cis lesbian girl. Here are my signs! When I was in elementary school and boys would call each other “gay” in a downgrading kind of way I would tell them that it was wrong and that my cousins were gay (big flex here, we are all now gay cousins). Also, when I had my first major “crush” on a boy (in grade 5) I wrote in my diary that “I am not like those girls who want to have a sexual relationship with their crushes”, later saying that “all I wanted to do was to hug him”. I also have a history of looking away every time a straight couple kisses in a movie because it makes me feel uncomfortable. I can totally relate to liking feminine-looking men! And also the wanting to be closer to your friends thing - I remember in seventh grade gym class there were these two straight girls that would essentially lie on each others laps when we lined up in our groups and I was always super jealous because I wanted to do that with a “friend”.
May I ask to any wlw/wlnb, how do you cope with not being able to play out all the rom-coms you’ve watched? I’m attracted to feminine girls/non-binary folks but I’m also feminine and I just don’t understand who would be they “guy”. Anyone know any good femme/femme lesbian rom-coms? Thank you!
Also, I know this is super long, but I’m essentially a baby-gay and ima till having trouble undertaking what it feels like to like a girl (as most if not all of my boy “crushes” have been mistakes for friendship feelings/ being jealous) and I really do think that I liked my friend and maybe still like her (she knows this, but does not return feelings). I’m just really confused so anything would help!
Also, Keira, thank you for all you do! Love your channel! 🌈❤️
abt the rom-coms, I gotta say that being feminine doesn't equal to being a top... so don't worry about that :)
I loved the part about "the gay cousins", it's kinda like me and my cousin, we're both the queer cousins now lol (also, I am following the thread in case somebody recommends some good femme/femme lesbian rom-coms, I always have a hard time finding nice wlw content without drama and people dying .___. )
For your rom com request:
"I can't think straight" and "imagine me and you",
"Saving face" is really good too but the girl isnt femme per say...
not butch either, kinda just dresses like a little boy lol.
A sign for me was that I would always seek out compliments from girls and would remember them and relive that moment but I can’t remember a single compliment any guys has given me
You're sweating and I'm freezing!
also, the kitty! 🥺 aww!
" wow! "
" meow! "
my sign that i was gay is I used to actually be really turned off by lgbtq+ people in a way where it used to make me unconfortable and now like I realized I stayed away bc I was scared of how i would be treated until i met more queer people
Honestly same in a way… a lot of my friends would turn out lgbtq+ and I was sort of put off by it. I thought I was the only straight person out of all my friends so I felt left out. Turns out I’m part of the community 🥴
Until 18 I didn't know I was attracted to girls. I swear my feelings for my best friends were absolutely platonic. I had many boyfriends but I never actually cared about them. I felt aroused and all, but I was unable to connect. I remember I was with this guy for 2 years, when I got into college. I met this older girl (rumors about her being gay) and I absolutely crushed on her, like hard. I ended with my boyfriend immediately. I crushed so hard that I never had an identity crisis, I knew I wanted to be with girls
what happened with the older girl? did you end up with her?! I need to know more ahahaha
@@aslbykai8516 I shared a bed with her and she threatened me with a kiss but it was just a game for her.. She had a gf
There were a lot of signs in my childhood I wasn't straight, but my current sign is trying to imagine a future with them.
With a woman I see all the possibilities (dating, travelling together, moving in, getting married, creating a home, maybe a little family, enjoying a loving future together etc)
But for men it's just blank, empty, void...
The majority of people I've been with are men so maybe I'm just over being in that direction.
It also wasn't until the pandemy that I stood back and had a good think (She-ra helped a good bit)
I just can't seem to force myself to continue dating men even when I feel socially compelled to.
I don't feel an intense desire to be with an "attractive" man but I do when I see an attractive woman.
I've also realised a lot of my past attraction to men is kind of because I somewhat want to actually be one, being non binary/ genderfluid and as Keera suggested this idea, I cannot ever be with a guy who isn't at least bi or pan because I do present masc half the time and queerphobic cis men are a big red flag for me, I need to be able to be myself.
These are just some thoughts.
A sign for me, I was OBSESSED with male anime characters who looked like girls (like Kurama from YYH, Aphrodi from Ina11)
You're not the only one. I was always attracted to male characters with pretty faces and long hair. Now it all makes sense!
@@jermainechan8477 :D Haha
SAMEEEEE 😭😭
Same but nigito from danganronpa
One of my signs was that when I used to watch straight love stories, I would much rather prefer the point of view from the boy. Because I could relate to him being in love with a girl. The opposite just made me ick
OMG YES
I think it was when I would get really angry when my parents thought I would like any boy I was talking with. Like full on anger tears and all of that jazz. My parents and family would be like "Ooh, you want to date him?" or something like that. And this happened so many times since I was really young, like 2nd grade. I also felt forced to have a crush on a boy, like he was a good friend and my parents thought I had a crush on him so I was like "I guess I do have a crush on him?" but I hated the fact of ever being in a relationship with him and when I found out he liked me I just didn't really care.
i just wanted to say thank you for making these videos because a couple years ago when i found your channel i didn’t really know what being queer meant, and your videos are just so comforting and helpful for a young person questioning their identity. i remember one of your videos where you explained how you felt in your gender and i remember thinking “wow thats crazy thats exactly how i feel”. now i’ve come out as nonbinary and am pretty happy in my life :)
I'm happy for you! 💚
aww sending u soooo much love & hugs! 🤗💕 thank you for being here and i’m incredibly grateful for YOU!
Literally same! They said how they feel about pronouns and I was like “THATS ME”
Now that I look back to when I was younger, I realize how badly I wanted to be “friends” with some girls… at the time I thought I wanted to be friends or I was jealous… but I think I just had a crush on them lol
i would choose my boyfriends according to what my friend's ideal types were cause i wanted to feel included and have something to talk about around them, and sometimes they would start hating me cause i would end up stealing their crushes on accident.. kinda awkward XD
Childhood gay signs: the only sign I can think of is having THOSE DREAMS about my ex best friend from church. And to this day I still sometimes do
I actually never wanted to cuddle with my female friends. I don't really know why but it was always way too intimate for me and that would've been crossing a line for me in my had. Now that I'm out I really don't care and like to cuddle with them. I still don't understand but hey, that's life 😂
willow’s little meows made my entire week oh my god
Oh my gosh the ‘wishing my boyfriend was queer’ thing IS A THING!
I’m actually bi, and the first boy I ever dated was bi too. I just felt this immediate attraction towards him, because he was also very feminine.
The next boy I also fell I love with was bi as well, also really defying gender norms. When I was at a trip with a female best friend I asked her if she ever thought about doing it with a woman or kissing a woman. She replied that she had never thought of that…my mind was stunned. I was like: really?!?!?
Because I was thinking about it all the time, and looking back if she would’ve said yes, who would’ve known…🌝
Anyways soon after that I started dating my now girlfriend, and was struggling a long time with my sexuality (bi erasure is real lol). To find out, I am bi, only attracted to really certain men, very feminine, mostly not straight as well.
I also had thoughts about how dating a boy at this point would feel like. It was weird. I could never imagine me dating a straight boy, ever. That would feel like a prison…also over the last months I kind of felt my gender was shifting a lot and I started questioning, I’m still unsure. But on some days I just look in the mirror and I see a boy, straight up. And if I was to date a boy…he must like that 😄 I think in my mind I see him looking at me as a boy, not a girl.
Anyhow, gender, sexuality, attraction and all that jazz: it’s complicated, don’t try to force it, it’s a process, enjoy exploring it ♥️🌈
(Maybe someone can relate)
once when i was with my dad (my parents are divorced, he lives in sweden, and i live in hungary with my mom and im out to both of them) i was doing my eyeliner upstairs, and my 5 years old brother comes to the room, and just starts watching. when i asked him why was he staring at me, he happened to say "im watching 'couse i wanna learn how to do this when i grow older" no explanation needed. idk why he sayed that, but i can't get over it. (im sorry if i make any grammar mistakes, but as i metioned, english isn't my first language)
Awwwwwwe 😭😍
It's not an official Keara video without a Willow conversation! 🥰🐱
Can kinda relate to wanting to be a nun, I wanted to be a Virgin my whole life, and at one point, was completely adverse to getting married. (When I thought I was straight)
I was the opposite- I didn’t want to be affectionate with my friends but probably because their touch would have made me nervous. Now that I know what it is I start getting more comfortable with the touch of friends 😊
My signs : the thought of dating a man gave me the ick 😂😂 it still does and I always told everyone since I was little that I would never get married not knowing the only reason I was against it was because I had to marry a man 😂😂😂
I’m pretty sure my first crush was my kindergarten teacher’s aid who was like in her 20’s or 30’s. And then over the years I really liked alll the pretty teachers but was completely intimidated by them.
my worst childhood sign i was gay was definitely when i went up to my friend and was like “hey, after school, can we move in together?” and she was like “uh… sure?” and then i rambled about how i’d basically be her housewife. how did i miss that-
I had two ‘crushes’ on boys - one more intense than the other. The first I distinctly remember looking at this guy (he was new at my school) and thinking “he’s kinda nice-imma have a crush on him”😂😂. For the second, my friend used to go to school with him and would always talk about how she had a crush on him. When I meet him (he was pretty ‘feminine’ in personality) and I developed a crush on him. Looking back I would never have wanted to kiss or date him and I think my whole crush was just me subconsciously being like “girls like this guy so imma like this guy”😂🤦♀️
okay but the video with georgia is ACTUALLY how i found you!! damn i didn't realise its been that long
Thank you so much for making such amazing content and for being yourself!! 🥰
As for the wanting your partner to be bisexual I kind of relate! It just feels different for me to be dating a queer person, it feels like I can just share my world with them on a different level and it's different than dating an ally - which is not to say that that would make a relationship any less wholesome, but dating a queer person for the first time im my life just really hit me on a different level. Of course, they are just amazing in every aspect and that also plays a huge role 🥰
Looking back now, I can see all the signs too, it’s so funny but cool :D
I’m a gay guy, and when I was 7 I would imagine the boys in my class shirtless. Back then I didn’t know why I did it, but now that I’m out of the closet I see why.
Hellll yea day just got so much better
I had my first girlfriend when I was 8 years old. She was my first kiss and partner (I didn't know I was gay I thought all love was the same.) To this day I am still a lesbian. I have never kissed a man but I know I'm gay, so I don't need to. :)
I love your videos so much and wishing you all the best! I love your rings too! I do have a question for you, though. How can you tell if a girl likes you? My best friend has been really, like, PDA and pretending like she's going to kiss me, but I don't know if that's her having a crush or her being funny? I'm so confused honestly. Thank you so much for making these awesome videos and have a great day, y'all! Also, you and Willow is the sweetest thing ever!
Edit: OMG GUYS WE WERE AT DISNEY AND SHE ASKED ME OUT AND I SAID YES MY FIRST GFFFF YAYAYYA
Yayyyyy congratulations!! I feel like the pretending to kiss you thing is a good indicator (tho not always) of wanting to be closer than friends/not platonic
Omg I'm so happy for you!
So I'm a queer woman, and yea I really relate to being affectionate with female friends. But I was also very awkward around guys... It was almost as if I didn't want guys to be attracted to me so I just wouldn't even hug them goodbye, which is something you'd do often in my culture. BUT I also was deprived of physical affection as a child. So I had that need too... And then I met my best friend who had the same needs so it all worked out fine except for our classmates gossiping about whether or not we were lesbians lol. I was out to most of my friends as queer at that point but so we laughed A LOT about it. :)
ahh I relate to this so much! I too was an ~extremely~ passionate lgbtq+ ally ahaha little did I know...
That video and your life story really resonates to me.... I thought I'm the only one... But we're all weird and queer in our own way! Thank you for being there! My fav video so far
Keara: 2019 seems like five years ago
Me, watching this in 2024: 2019 was five years ago
I related a little TOO much to one particular story here. When I was 12 I ran into my mom's room at night in tears asking her "what if I end up being a lesbian when I'm older". (This was after I found out what lesbians were via a talk show I watched and I guess it awakened something in me). In her half asleep state she was just like "idc some people are gay you do you". This wasn't the only time. she did not know peace for many nights all because of my sexuality crisis.
Also when I was 14 my best friend straddled me so she could get a better angle when doing my makeup and I just about hyper ventilated.
I have so many little stories like this that its so funny to me that it took to age 20 to stop being in denial.
Like I was so obsessed with Cher Lloyd when she was on X factor that I had a friend tell me to shut up about her because I would bring her up unprompted in every conversation. Apparently she swept me off my feet with her performance of "Swagger Jagger" idek 😭
the affectionate one is definitely a gay thing. my gay friend acted the exact same way
Before I knew I was a lesbian, I was super drawn to the lgbtq+ community and was such a strong "ally" too lol but I thought that it was just because my older brother is gay and I just felt super strongly for lgbtq+ rights 😂 at age 15, I realized that it wasn't just that haha. Also, the last one about wanting to be affectionate with friends that were girls was so true for me! I didn't have many girl friends (mainly because I was always too nervous to talk to them 😂) but the couple that I did have, I would always want to be extra close to them and wanted to be their best BEST friend! Looking back it's so obvious lol
Oh my god, talking about feeling drawn to the community XD When I moved to London for uni (I am Italian), I met some amazing queer people, in particular two bisexual people, and my immediate reaction (recorded in my journal and also said out loud) was "OMG THIS IS SO COOL, I WISH I COULD BE BI, TOO". Well, well, well... what can I say, sometimes dreams do come true lol That was just the most obvious and ridiculous sign, but the list could be looong. I think most queer people can look back at their childhood and be like "yep, in retrospective, that wasn't very straight of me". Always love your content
your cat is so cuteee
I would make my Girl barbies "Scissor"
no way i did the same thing with my bff when we were playing barbies together💀
i always used to cuddle with my bsf because i wanted affection from another girl and i’d always be extra vocal towards girls that i thought were pretty and that’s when my mom knew i was into girls
I had a few but honestly figured out my sexuality early
Started questioning at 11 accepted at 13
One of the main signs were watching music videos like girls like girls then avoiding them because i felt something and deep down knew what it was but avoided it for as long as possible
I think I’ve seen you mention this in a previous video as well so I just wanted to point out that implying that very homophobic people are just secretly gay/dealing with internalised homophobia isn’t helpful to our community because it’s kind of putting the blame back on queer people for causing problems, plus some people are just hateful and it’s not because they’re gay and closeted. Matt Bernstein talks about this and it made a lot of sense. It’s kind of like how it can be harmful to tell someone a boy is being mean to them because they have a crush on them, it’s putting the responsibility onto the victim/gaslighting them a bit. Hope that makes sense, love you and your videos
luna lovegood started my gay awakening I'm not joking
I love that
When I was 12 we were talking about crushes in SexEd and the teacher went 'You can have crushes on girls too' and that was that and I didn't even know the word gay but I just felt so happy for a moment. I didn't really think too much about it because I don't think I fully understood what she meant but it was an almost euphoric experience
i feel so bad cause before i knew i was queer i would straight up bully the gays but now were like best friends. I always apologize to them cause i would like go next level if it meant i could prove that i was straight.
i love you, lauren and willow so much 🥺 and i love getting to know younger keara SM!! ALSO OITNB IS SOOO GOOD! i’m on the second season and i’m OBSESSED
My first sign might have been, that in 7th grade I had this “straight” friend and we had so many insider jokes and ones she drew me an unicorn (we were like 11) and I glued it in my diary and was like “she is so smart and beautiful and awesome.. but I don’t like her that way.. let’s talk about *name of a boy* he’s so cute”… lol nope. Haven’t come out to my parents yet because my sister is a lesbian and I am “the hope for grandchildren” love to everyone growing up in a catholic family..🫶🏻
My queer awakening was when my straight friend put her head on my shoulder at a sleepover. Was not attracted to her at all but something just clicked... later reexamined some of my past friendships and I think I had more than one crush without even realizing it as far back as elementary. I'm a cis biromantic ace now :)
one of the biggest things for me looking back (i’m bi) is like any time i’d watch something with romance i’d be like relating to the guy and thinking omg she is so so pretty he is so lucky lol
and i thought i was straight🤦♀️
Lol this is me in every movie 😆
12:31 omg the first time erin and halstead kissed on chicago pd i was watching with my family and after it was over i yelled GO BACK because erin looked so pretty 😭 (they did not go back i had to go on youtube later)
Editing keara really called me out i was literally so homophobic once i even said i wouldnt date a bi man or a trans person I regret it sm lol
Honestly I wish I had more of these signs growing up. I was completely blindsided by a crush on a female character, like, barely six months ago. The only thing I can think of that *maybe* alluded to me eventually liking girls was that a few of my boy crushes had pretty androgynous and/or feminine qualities (no joke: my first crush ever was a fictional guy that, to this day, a lot of people confuse for a girl)
Omg yesss i can relate to finding the fem boys sm more attractive 😭
Same here👌💯
@8:02 The cat was sooo adorable 😻😻😻😻😻❤️🔥
You know it's gonna be a good day when they upload a video 😌
awww ily🥰
@@KearaGraves aww 🥰 ily too!
My childhood gay signs were I loved all the gay characters in the books I read, and I would read too much into whenever my friends, who were the same gender, would say 'love you' or give each other compliments. I wouldn't think much about if they were opposite gender, though. Signs I want cis was me having breakdowns saying I didn't want to be my assigned gender.
i remember thinking once that it would be easier to be a boy because it would be easier to have crush on girls :D and i hated boys so much without any proper reason and i was always so offended when i was asked if i had anyone in mind etc
When I was younger, there were so many times where I wanted to befriend girls because I thought they were pretty. All of my favorite characters in games and movies were girls because I thought they were pretty. And somehow I thought I was straight.
Lol this is me I choose all my pretty friends and then I fall in love with them happens too often lol
lmao the #1 #2 etc having titles written out and #6 is just lol 😭😭
For me, it was paying attention to only the women in couples on tv, even when the two characters were equally big roles, thee guy just sort of was part of the background.
Thank you for showing this Keara as it is nice to see pictures of your childhood and you look absolutely adorable and show how much you've grown since then as it made my Tuesday feel much better ❤️🏳️🌈
I was also very drawn to the community and whenever there was a part in a show or movie that was gay I would get butterflies lol
i would always be afraid my mom would come in
8:58 I REMEMBER U TELLIN THIS STORY 😭
My biggest sign was: my dream future was growing old with my female best friend, both not married to men, living together or close to eo, doing everything together... Yeah
Thank you
I am a lesbian and one of the signs was that I alway used to think relationships(straight) are going to be so boring and I didn’t want a relationship because of that, I also cried after an argument in my class about lgbtq people because one of my classmates said they were disgusting and I was sooo upset
Omg I still rewatch super gay scenes from tv shows and I’ve been out to myself for around a year or so lmao. Have you watched Dickinson? I’m in love with that show and I will never stop saying that haha
Looking back, one definate sign was that I was always enfatuated with older girls as a kid. For instance, my kindergarten teacher had a daughter who was like five or six grades above me, and she would come hang out in the kindergarten room sometimes and whenever she did, I would follow her around like a puppy. Also, in kindergarten I had a friend who I was friends with, but we weren't all that close, but whenever I'd go to her house, I would ditch my friend to go hang out with her older sister and HER friends (they were like three grades above me). And finally, I went to a K-8 school, and in second grade, the some of eighth graders would come in to the classroom and help us with our knitting projects and I kind of developed a kid-crush on two of them who helped me.
something that majorly indicated that i was trans* is, that i LOVED the movie “she’s the man”. I rewatched it so many times when i still didn’t know about who i am.
i keep replaying 11:22 … the way you look up and laugh at lauren reminds me of how my friend looks at me sometimes and it makes me nervous lol
It would be so fun to see you on the WHGS podcast!
Thanks for posting this :)
I also worked to create a GSA in middle school!
Im not sure if this is a childhood sign or not but…..
Im always daydreaming constantly like even when while I’m gaming , but also like when I’m not gaming like now.
But I jus always daydream a lot , but what I do daydream about is…..
Is about me having S. E. X to all of the girls in my daydreams.
Cuz I always daydream a lot about that , but also I’m always crushing on all of the females.
But back then I never knew about that from back then.
7:36 Oh my...It was me too. I remember at the age of maybe 11/12 I was arguing with my classmate that being lgbt isn't normal. I also wrote in my diary that I was not lgbt and I was so aggressive in it that now I can't believe it really had a place. I stopped being like that when I saw the song girl in red "we fell in love in october". It was somehow in 2018/19 and then I became straight ally. Ofc not only because of this. I think tiktok changed me too and that I was just changing and maturing. And guess what, now I'm 16, genderfluid and bi.
sign i was gay: had a GIANT crush on my elementary school gym teacher
Thanks for sharing that with us :)
Keara: " Why am I apologizing" me: "laughs" your Canadian.
Hey Keara!
You helped me a lot come to terms with the fact that i'm a lesbian back in 2020 and now I watch your patreon lives with my dearest gilfriend (Madness) on sundays, and am much much happier. Thanks for everything you do for the community! 🥰
one sign i can think of for me being trans is the fact that i always wanted to be/look like zane from lego ninjago ever since i first saw him when i was like around 10. over 7 years later, finally came to terms with the fact that i'm trans-
one of my signs was playing the game episode and i was only dating the women not the men 😭
Same! and in stories where that wasn't an option I would secretly ship my character with her best friend 🤭
@@misu3043 PLS SAMEE 😭😭
6:12 NO LITERALLY I GET WHAT YOU MEAN WHEN YOU SAID THAT YOU DIDNT THINK THAT BEING GAY WAS AN ACTUAL THING, I imagined it in my head but I didn’t think it was a real concept until like gr. 6 or 7. And I relate especially hard on the Catholic school thing.
“i never knew that sex with a woman was possible” this reminds me of something my nephew said the other day. he’s 6, but he said “how can two girls get married?” when that came up somehow … and i was like “they just do” it’s so interesting that some kids think that way. especially him because his parents have never drilled that into his head since they’re very accepting. maybe in his school someone said something … but if not, why would he think like that just in his own?
Or maybe he is straight and just doesn't know?
Before I knew gay was a thing i wanted to be a nun too lmfao
I totally relate to when she was talking about being homofobic when you were in the closet cus I remember talking to my Christian bestie when I was in the 6th grade about it being wrong because I wanted so bad to be straight because of the Christian environment I grew up in I came out to that same best friend 2 years later as the first person I came out to and to this day they are still my biggest ally now I am fully out a year later and I can finally confident ly say that I am starting to love myself as the person I am and I have kera to thank for that ❤️
This was long but it's the first time I've shared that kera reminded me of that❤️😁