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  • Опубликовано: 7 янв 2025

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  • @dezmachado
    @dezmachado  16 часов назад +136

    thanks so much for all your comments & support I had no idea so many people went through the same thing as me😭 I hope everyone is in a better place now💘

    • @yupnoise
      @yupnoise 16 часов назад +8

      you’re the best for wanting to stay home and protect your family like the things you’ve went through and going through like i am SHOCKED youre amazing dez 💗

  • @Arrozconleche04
    @Arrozconleche04 2 дня назад +1019

    “If you get physical with my mom I’ll get physical with your mom” “that’s my grandma, I love her” HAS ME DEAD AFFFFFF

  • @nayelli6239
    @nayelli6239 2 дня назад +791

    This explains why he wasn’t at vickys birthday party :( poor Vicky and all of you I’m so so sorry 🥺 but may God give you all strength and may He always protect ALL of you ❤️

  • @gabyrinconn
    @gabyrinconn 2 дня назад +849

    I’ve watched a few tt lives of your moms but I had no idea how much yall went through, the fact that we all witnessed the house in the mountains being built, the love and money put into it and for him to just crash out, besides that I’m so glad you were there to intervene and protect your mom, I’m beyond sorry, hope everyone’s doing better♥️♥️♥️

  • @tinytron
    @tinytron День назад +639

    how a father destroys his daughter’s home is beyond me. he took his anger on all of yall, not just your mom. that ain’t no dad.

  • @josse1yn
    @josse1yn 2 дня назад +637

    i’m so so sorry you and your family had to go through something so horrific like that :( and honestly it takes a lot to talk about those things on social media but trust me, you’re helping others who have gone through something similar by speaking about your experience and seeing that you’re doing okay regardless of what happened. so happy you’re safe and okay, always wishing you the best 🫶🏻

  • @certifiedgyal
    @certifiedgyal День назад +367

    The way our parents' relationship can fall apart at any moment no matter what stage you are in life is so depressing and scary. I'm so sorry you went through this :( To a new year ❤

  • @graciepoling2534
    @graciepoling2534 14 часов назад +50

    Deliza has the strongest most protective mommy ever ❤️I’m so sorry you guys are going through this

  • @cvvdy
    @cvvdy День назад +126

    i noticed a few videos back on yours and lexi’s that he wasn’t around like before , i hope all of you are doing better mentally! DV is hard to overcome and to witness 🤍 sending lots of love

  • @thatgirl5630
    @thatgirl5630 2 дня назад +235

    That’s insane…it’s a different type of heartbreak when a father does evil to his daughters…I’m so sorry Dez…I hope you and your family heal ❤

  • @daniella.v444
    @daniella.v444 День назад +42

    it’s honestly the worse feeling seeing how our parents can fall apart or loose themselves after being together for years. i can relate to this on so many levels because i personally witnessed this with my parents, it’s honestly the worst feeling. I hope your mom, your siblings and you are doing better. i’m glad you were there for your mom and sisters. wish yall the best ❤❤❤

  • @vvkk3567
    @vvkk3567 День назад +168

    Men r terrifying. He literally messed the house up to avoid fatally hurting one of yall (throwing a disastrous fit cuz he knows he can't hit) That violence was so close to transferring to another person. Im so sorry. So glad it seems the dust has settled❤

  • @nancydrew666
    @nancydrew666 День назад +191

    Domestic violence is real. I’m sorry Dez. Hope you and your family are okay.

  • @jessicamaridel6273
    @jessicamaridel6273 2 дня назад +143

    the chills i felt bro i am so sorry, a new mother should never be put through this let alone by their own father. wish u the best this new year ❤

  • @madi6580
    @madi6580 16 часов назад +17

    wow girl as a supporter that found you BECAUSEE of your family channel with your parents, hearing this is so surreal and saddening. i wouldn’t ever expect him to do that, or to treat people like that, especially the mother of his children, and his DAUGHTERS. im so sorry you and your family had to deal with that, and i hope ur mama stays away from him 😅 im glad you all are safe and weren’t physically harmed❤

  • @shantiaselesele
    @shantiaselesele 2 дня назад +104

    girl ive been thru this shii before, that defs takes a toll on your mental but this makes you grow stronger and better 🫶🏽 love you & your family! wishing yous all the best new year ❤️

  • @myraloveschristoph
    @myraloveschristoph 18 часов назад +21

    my dad was like this throughout my entire childhood, i am 21 now. he was an alcoholic and would physically abuse my mother, break the houses belongings that my mom worked hard for, and later when I turned 15 he cheated on my mom. it took my mom for my dad to cheat on her, to finally leave. god bless your mom for leaving, she deserves the world. love you dez, thank you for sharing your story i hope things get better. they will. little by little!

  • @aimearias293
    @aimearias293 2 дня назад +62

    i completely understand and so sorry u had to go through that, but so happy ur better and back now!🩷 love uuuuuu

  • @gabrielavera1049
    @gabrielavera1049 День назад +36

    i went through a similar thing and i havent talked to my dad in years. thank you for sharing your story, makes us all feel a little less alone

  • @nayelli6239
    @nayelli6239 2 дня назад +135

    Don’t pick on yourself girl 🥺 don’t feel bad for moving back with your parents either why? Because what if you hadn’t been there? How would the girls be? WHERE would they be? What would be of mom rn ? ✋🏽🥺 honestly maybe it was a blessing in disguise because you were there for your mom. Alexis is in Mexico and the girls are too young to fully understand. I hope you heal and you’re doing better ❤️ but you’re amazing for protecting and standing up for your mom ❤️ love you 🥺

  • @Nana.ortizx
    @Nana.ortizx День назад +12

    The way I’ve been in the same situation and I know the hurt your family was put through, my heart goes out to you all. Especially seeing the man that’s supposed to love and protect you hurt you like that but it does get better. ❤

  • @itspaola3211
    @itspaola3211 День назад +11

    i love how authentic you are and i am sorry you had to go through that dez that is so hard.I wish nothing but the best for you this new year.

  • @kaianatelise5265
    @kaianatelise5265 2 дня назад +222

    i'm so sorry that's so crazy for you to go through all that freshly postpartum and your sisters ur mom like omg i feel so bad for all of you

  • @angelyselove191
    @angelyselove191 День назад +38

    Hey Dez! I’ve been a silent viewer since high school and all I have to say is that you are loved and amazing. All of your accomplishments have been an inspiration and Im sorry things got taken away. As someone who has recently dealt with the betrayal of my father and stuff I feel you & know u deserve the absolute best in life. ❤

  • @anissamaldonado5698
    @anissamaldonado5698 22 часа назад +9

    Thank you for always being so transparent, this is why you’ve always been my favorite RUclipsr. Everyone goes through real life struggles, I’m happy you have your babygirl to look at & make you feel more of a drive in life & motivation. You’re so strong des! I hope you do go back to school & find hobbies that make you happy to get 2025 going, god got you! 😭❤️❤️

  • @stephanierazo7176
    @stephanierazo7176 День назад +23

    family is so fucked sometimes but as long as u stay as beautiful inside as u r out u will be rewarded with so much more happiness and love im so proud of u

  • @cheezburgerluvr24
    @cheezburgerluvr24 День назад +18

    i am sorry mama that this happened to you it’s so much but you are truly so strong minded and strong overall in general and you always have been getting to watch you over the years and seeing how you have grown and continue is so beautiful like you truly you should be very proud of yourself of how independent you are strong you are not only for yourself and your baby but for your family too like you sticking up for your mom and supporting her just shows how much of a great daughter and person you are you are so loved by all of us we missed you so much and im so glad and relieved that you are in a better stable place by yourself and you did it by yourself truly all love so happy you are okay and your family🙏🏻💗

  • @rileyfullbright1843
    @rileyfullbright1843 4 часа назад +2

    I’ve been going through a hard time too girl I moved away from my parents out of state around 2022 and things are looking better. I’m glad you got out of that situation I missed watching your videos !

  • @mondragon-mel
    @mondragon-mel День назад +21

    I really hope this year goes well for all of you and yours sisters and mom I’ve been following you since I was in 9th grade and I’ve seen you go through so much I know you can push through

  • @ssp1der
    @ssp1der 2 дня назад +34

    hope this year is better and brings you happiness dez

  • @fatyxar
    @fatyxar День назад +8

    i've been going through a tough time with my dad this past month as well. the betrayal and heartbreak is something i can't even begin to explain. i wish you a good new year!

  • @kensleypoole5634
    @kensleypoole5634 День назад +2

    you’re so strong like literally, i’m sure that was so hard to deal with and so stressful and not to mention going through postpartum and a break up at the same time! i’ve always loved watching your content, legit since 2018 and it breaks my heart to hear you had a difficult year but i’ll be manifesting for you queen🥹

  • @__robochick__8165
    @__robochick__8165 День назад +4

    I’m sooooo sorry you went through that . All of you are so strong and have such beautiful bright auras. I’m happy you’re going much better now .

  • @odalysrg
    @odalysrg День назад +7

    I’m proud of u Des no matter how things get we improve glad yall are okay we will always support your family love u godbless your family and more

  • @ameliasnyder5345
    @ameliasnyder5345 День назад +10

    It’s not easy being the mediator in family arguments, I bet it took a toll on your mental, hope everything is okay now❤

  • @davonnyslifestyle7786
    @davonnyslifestyle7786 День назад +5

    So glad you felt comfortable to share with us. So happy you are doing better ❤

  • @hm-ye4kq
    @hm-ye4kq День назад +4

    I feel u every way possible about protecting ur mom. I’ll really risk my life for my mom. it lwky got me emotional bro but i’m so proud of u dez cus lord u are strong asf for putting up w all that shit. 2025 is gonna be a better year for you and your family fs. ❤

  • @dianaaramos376
    @dianaaramos376 День назад +31

    Something similar SO CLOSE LITERALLY TO THE TEA happened to our family as well. I was in my junior year and when you say that literally flips your whole world around. Cus it DOES!! I was so down bad at such a horrible horrible place but when you say good times come you’re so right they do!! So much quicker than what we think too. I understand you dez and thank you for this explanation you are so heard and everything you feel even now is so valid and I hear you sis and I understand you. Thank god you’re headed in a better place for both you and your baby I’m so excited for you to be posting your regular content again I can’t wait to see what’s coming for you and what blessings are in store for you this year sis. GOD BLESS YOU ❤ and get your ass back on that content shit and get your bag back up baddie b we love you😘😘

    • @dezmachado
      @dezmachado  День назад +5

      I hope you’re doing better sis it’s the worst situation ever 😭 thank you for the love 💕

  • @mayas7134
    @mayas7134 19 часов назад +2

    im so glad you and your baby girl have the stability now you both deserve and need❤

  • @Prettytattoogirll
    @Prettytattoogirll Час назад +1

    Aww Im glad ur better u deserve peace and love God Bless you Dez ❤

  • @Iheartthegoodshepard
    @Iheartthegoodshepard 2 часа назад +3

    I’m sorry how difficult all this must’ve been for u but im glad to hear u feel like u grew and matured. Keep praying about you and your family and your baby❤ God will bless you for relying on His strength. We get burnt out from tryna do everything ourselves and we dont need to!
    “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight” Proverbs 3:5-6💓

  • @laylastaggs
    @laylastaggs День назад +17

    I went through a similar situation with my family when I was about 12. It’s so hard and no one ever understands that feeling unless they’ve been through it. It’s the worst feeling when you’re watching your family fall apart. You are so strong!

  • @ashley-ih9jq
    @ashley-ih9jq 12 минут назад

    i agree, when you go through something so life changing , it actually helps you to be stronger. my bd broke up with me out of nowhere when my daughter was only 1 month old, i was going to school and had to do the mom thing myself and had to do it with a broken heart. And ofc family issues, alcoholic mom and my dad was toxic. But i honestly am glad that my bd left because i know that i deserved more than him. My daughter just turned a year old two days ago, Im planning to go to college too and I have two jobs, But im happier than When i was in a toxic relationship. It gets sm better and you start to open your eyes, Im only 19 But its better for this to have happened now than later. Glad to see you doing good, I have been watching since your middle school vlogs💗

  • @jessicagaleano807
    @jessicagaleano807 18 часов назад +2

    “life gets better, HAVE HOPE”🙏🏼🙏🏼 preach mama we love u sm love!!!🗣️🗣️

  • @melissahcat123
    @melissahcat123 День назад +2

    You’re an amazing big sister dez, I remember my sister being there for me when my parents had their own issues as well. I promise your sisters will never forget the moments you show up for them! ❤️

  • @adeliagonzalez6172
    @adeliagonzalez6172 День назад +1

    ive been a silent viewer for years I been watching your videos since i was in HS you’re my comfort influencer/ youtuber (even tho im a bit older than you lol) and my goodness i couldn’t imagine dealing with all that postpartum you are such a strong young woman and i admire you truly for sticking up for your mom and supporting her but also supporting yourself and your baby girl. you’re going to just keep coming out of everything in life stronger and brighter. you didn’t deserve that, neither did your family you “dad” is so wrong. i wish i could give you a hug Dez thank you for your strength, you’re a wonderful mother

  • @goat6340
    @goat6340 Час назад

    my parents were also going through a divorce last year and it was the worst. I feel like i’ve been numb and couldn’t express my feelings on how i truly felt and how it has affected me to anyone. also seeing my parents in a different light was hard because the ugliness of divorce brings out the worst in your parents and a side of them i never thought i’d see. I understand your feelings and i hope this year brings you and your family some peace and light to y’all’s lives 💓

  • @joycee2199
    @joycee2199 3 часа назад +1

    you are an amazing mother and daughter! God will continue to bless you

  • @fridagarcia7191
    @fridagarcia7191 26 минут назад

    so glad ur back and better 😢😢❤

  • @lizliz4813
    @lizliz4813 6 часов назад

    So sorry you guys went through that, wishing you guys a better year this year 🩷🩷
    P.s. this makes Michael and Vickys dance at her sweet 16 makes me cry harder

  • @kellyneverett7245
    @kellyneverett7245 8 часов назад

    Dez 🥺 we love you
    I was not expecting to cry tbr
    I’m so sorry mommas! I hope you can heal from this traumatic experience! Sincerely
    Praying for you and your momma 🫶🏼❤️ keep your heads up

  • @carmenarcelia444
    @carmenarcelia444 День назад +4

    awww i missed you dezzy im glad things are turning rightside up for you and your babygirl, i hope for nothing but the best for you and your family ❤️

  • @vampz5195
    @vampz5195 2 дня назад +6

    so happy to see that you’re continuing to grow and heal yourself ❤ sending sm love

  • @lmourfou
    @lmourfou 2 дня назад +12

    had a similar experience a few months ago & my father crashing out, clothes ended up in garbage bags ;( i’m so sorry dez sending u sm healing

  • @sharxxii
    @sharxxii 23 часа назад +1

    I’m so sorry about your parents and your situation 🥺❤️ I hope everyone is in a much better place now.

  • @spider-web6655
    @spider-web6655 19 часов назад

    I’m really happy you’re okay dez! you’re amazing daughter and mother and I’m so happy to see how much you’ve grown over the years, I hope 2025 only gets brighter for you and your daughter!

  • @gaellej_29
    @gaellej_29 День назад +4

    omg dezzie im so sorry for you and ya fam love hope 2025 brings you peace and love for you and baby liza

  • @hippygf
    @hippygf 2 дня назад +10

    That is so traumatizing I have been in that situation several times and it does get easier I am sorry you went through that no one deserves that

  • @kimberlyyyyyyaaaanneee
    @kimberlyyyyyyaaaanneee День назад +8

    for all that you went through recently, so happy to see you came out thinking positively and eager to keep pushing! 🫶🏼
    Congrats on your new apartment! Hoping we get an apartment tour soooon 😊
    STAY UP QUEEEEENNNN DONT LET UR CROWN FALL🤪

  • @rebeca.taylor
    @rebeca.taylor 2 дня назад +9

    so we all went trough it in 2024 but glad to see u back n posting ❤

  • @Yadmunz
    @Yadmunz 2 часа назад +2

    So now it makes sense what your posted in your instagram, I’m so sorry for what you went through 😕🥺

  • @jayleejeez3621
    @jayleejeez3621 6 часов назад

    Deeezzzz 😭❤️❤️❤️ I literally got so happy to see you posting a video!!! Im so sorry that happened with your dad, im glad to see you’re in a better space now. Looking forward to your videos in the future ❤

  • @RiverFrancis111
    @RiverFrancis111 День назад +1

    Hey girl. Sending you love and light to both you and you family and just know things will turn around and life wont always be like this. Keep your head up and keep doing you !

  • @jonilopez1
    @jonilopez1 2 часа назад +1

    I’m so sorry I can never see my dad the same way after he put his hands on my mom.. the things I said to my dad when I found out he hit my mom were insaneee!!! This is so relatable

  • @ramonamorris
    @ramonamorris 2 дня назад +9

    i pray this year is lighter for you & your family dez 💕💕✨

  • @briieraula6467
    @briieraula6467 День назад +1

    I’ve been watching you and your sister for a long time and it breaks my heart to find out what happened, I’ve been there girl! I’ll forever support you and your family❤

  • @christinemartinez9186
    @christinemartinez9186 День назад +1

    im so sorry you had to go through that dez, i've definitely been there before with my parents. I hope at the least your dad can reconcile with you all and sincerely apologize but even if he doesn't you have such a strong support system with your mom and siblings and us here! we're rooting or you all and i hope you all can live peacefully now.

  • @HeavenlyGarcia-p1k
    @HeavenlyGarcia-p1k День назад +1

    Ugh girl I get that, ppl say I’m materialistic but I just value my stuff sm ik the pain of coming back home and everything’s destroyed

  • @userrrrr78019
    @userrrrr78019 19 часов назад

    Hope everything gets better love you and i’m praying for you and your family bbggg🩷

  • @Isabellaarose
    @Isabellaarose 22 часа назад

    Girl you are so beautiful and just know that we all support you, trust me that so many of us have been through similar situations ❤sending you and your family prayers and healing positivity 🥹

  • @elizabethod
    @elizabethod 2 часа назад +1

    Hope your ok gurl he’s crazy ❤

  • @kyleesanchez4147
    @kyleesanchez4147 День назад +1

    Aww you are so beautiful and strong des so proud of you it’s a lot to speak on this on the internet 💕💕it’s gonna be an amazing year

  • @myraloveschristoph
    @myraloveschristoph 18 часов назад

    ily dez i hope everything gets better for you

  • @cassandrapreciado8512
    @cassandrapreciado8512 21 час назад

    Sending y’all love ! Hoping everyone is doing better 🩷

  • @Cinnabbyxoart
    @Cinnabbyxoart 16 часов назад

    Im so sorry for what you went through 💓 i had a simular situation happen to me w a father figure and taking time for yourself and removing yourself from the situation helps alot. Also, i would look into a counselor or something thats what i did and it helped alot i hope you and your family can heal ❤️

  • @ih8uxo
    @ih8uxo 15 часов назад

    I’m so sorry yall went through that😢 praying for new beginnings💞

  • @veevivanco7457
    @veevivanco7457 7 часов назад

    we missed you omgg, so happy once i seen thiss

  • @unicornzzexist2273
    @unicornzzexist2273 День назад +11

    we love you dez, I’m so sorry for what your family and what you have been going through this past almost year now.

  • @kiara.g2166
    @kiara.g2166 День назад +6

    damn bro yall went thru too much makes me feel horrible thank hod you guys are ok

  • @vivelise16
    @vivelise16 День назад +3

    omg girl i been watching you since i was in middle school and i can't believe he would do that to y'all. especially since your mom JUST had another kid w him. i'm so sorry 🫶🏼 but it does get better i promise. if things fall apart again there just know we are always here for you

  • @hihowareya7840
    @hihowareya7840 День назад +18

    I hope your mom pressed charges that’s terrifying behavior. And it’s not your fault, it’s more than normal to rely on your parents at such a young age. A toxic environment created was not on you at all. I’m so so sorry that’s all awful.

  • @adri2584
    @adri2584 13 часов назад

    im so sorry des smh don’t apologize for not posting this is such a horrible thing to happen to anyone. I hope you and alexis post when you’re ready 💕 I wish all 4 of y’all the best 💝

  • @HopePrudholme
    @HopePrudholme День назад

    I went thru this growing up with my parents and especially my dad. It only ever got worse. I’m glad your okay girl💕

  • @leeknaur
    @leeknaur День назад +1

    i was watching alexis's vlogs during the summer and i had no idea:( God bless y'all

  • @ruvimboholloman
    @ruvimboholloman 6 часов назад

    felt this video it really do be your own blood but after experiences like that you come out the strongest woman ever

  • @lexialvarez3546
    @lexialvarez3546 8 часов назад +2

    I use to be the middle man just to stop him from going after her. Then one day it was me and him fighting. I moved out and i forgave him we go to church. its way better now. God bless you and your family.

  • @yanetraya177
    @yanetraya177 2 дня назад +1

    Im happy to see u push through, god will continue to be with you and life does get better. ❤

  • @belflor
    @belflor 2 дня назад +2

    i missed you dezzz i’m so glad you posted 💗💗

  • @Lovest3r
    @Lovest3r 7 часов назад

    Sorry this happened to you, Dez. I’m happy everyone is safe!💕💕

  • @reesepeterpaul143
    @reesepeterpaul143 День назад +5

    What he did to your belongings is so unfair. I can’t imagine how it felt knowing your own father did that you. I’m so sorry you all went through that❤️‍🩹

  • @mk-hs2yo
    @mk-hs2yo День назад +3

    literally grew up with you dez, deadass since i was 14 now i’m 20. to see you still staying positive for you and your daughter even through all this trauma is so inspiring. so similar to my family situation too so this be feeling like therapy watching fr. we love you 🫶🏻

  • @dakotaramirez6537
    @dakotaramirez6537 22 минуты назад

    No one truly understands. I watched my mom get beat up by her boyfriend when I was a child and even then I did what I could to protecter her. I still think about it and it still affects me to this day. I see you girl ❤

  • @jenniferlesher972
    @jenniferlesher972 2 дня назад +4

    Hoping for nothing but success for you and your daughter. ❤

  • @tanialozano7906
    @tanialozano7906 5 часов назад +1

    I grew up with a dad like that, alcoholic. My mom left him when I was 13 after 17 years of cheating and abuse. Once I was 15, I made it clear to my dad that I wouldn’t see him unless he handled his shit. he’s been in AA for almost 7 years now I believe. I hope one day you were able to reconcile with your dad because your feelings are valid right now it may seem unforgivable, but he just needs to work through his own shit. It’s not our fault that we are product of our environment, but it’s our responsibility to get help for the toxic traits that we continue to exhibit. My dad is a good grandpa. I see him once a year because you never really forget like they do. They probably were on pills or ❄️ too if I’m being honest drug induced rage. It’s hard to move on from it but I promise it’s possible. Stay strong mama. So proud of you.

  • @ixchel420
    @ixchel420 День назад

    I always look forward to your videos 🥲 I’m so happy you posted!!

    • @ixchel420
      @ixchel420 День назад

      But regardless I’m so sorry about your situation. ❤️ I hope your family is safe and happy ❤️

  • @lizzie0003
    @lizzie0003 День назад

    I missed ur videos I’m glad ur doing better ur my favorite ever and don’t let the worries of the world get u down ❤❤

  • @kennykenniah
    @kennykenniah 6 часов назад

    Missed youuu girly 😊🎉🎉

  • @AlexandJesus
    @AlexandJesus 2 дня назад +2

    So excited!!! Missed you!❤

  • @melissaborland497
    @melissaborland497 День назад +2

    you don’t understand the fear of someone hurting your mother until you’re in that position I’m so sorry that happened to you but I have gone through something very similar and it’s very traumatic 🥺

  • @lizzie51804
    @lizzie51804 16 часов назад +1

    I have been keeping up with your moms tt and little mentions here and there of whats been happening, I have been praying for you and your fam 🙏🏼🤍