Su***de attempt - My story.

Been thinking a while about making this video.

[@tanniawilson161]

thankyou for sharing Jim. my dog also saved my life. my husband came home one day while i was too low to want to partake in life and said "come on my friends dogs just had have puppies, i know they will make you smile" i wasnt really a dog person. there were 2 puppies without homes yet. well one of them took a liking to me, was kissing me and everything. he refused to leave my lap and cried at me when it was time for us to go home. 6 weeks later Hooch came home to us and helped drag me out of what i can only describe as hell. he gave me a reason to get out of bed, to get dressed and leave the house. mental health illness is still hidden away far too much. too much is unknown by too many people and the stigma is unbelievable. mental health issues in men especially are not spoken about which makes me angry and sad. my mums attitude around mental health still hasn't changed much, she still believes that you just "get on with it" even though i have suffered with bipolar since my teenage years, though undiagnosed untill in my late 20's, but i strongly believe that is because of the way she was brought up, in an era where these "things" just didnt exist. like you say there is help out there, there are people willing to listen. no matter how bad things seem right now for anyone in that dark place please please reach out to someone. there are always other options.

[@frogmaster83]

Dogs are special pets, I am sure they watch over us.

[@paddor]

“Thanks for sharing”, my wife says. I recently found your channel for basha/poncho/camping/knots stuff and like your calm voice. Good stuff. Glad you’re still kicking.

[@frogmaster83]

Welcome along. I am still hanging on, living with cancer but I refuse to quit. 😉

[@Joe-kf4bs]

You are a great man for sharing this, and to make yourself available to talk to for anyone feeling hopeless. You have my total respect

[@frogmaster83]

I appreciate that, thanks.

[@user-gg5zu1mm4v]

Thank God you decided to take the dog back home. Thank you for sharing this very personal and emotional video. We love you Jim Bob. Stay with us buddy 👍🌻🌞

[@frogmaster83]

No getting rid of me now. 😁

[@user-gg5zu1mm4v]

@@frogmaster83 thank God Jim Bob. We need you here with us. 🌞🌻👍😊

[@JoeMac1983]

I was in that same position 11 years ago and for some reason tonight a lot of things that I've compartmentalized and not dealt with emotionally in the last 20 years started to brew up. I'm normally so good at keeping things bottled up so that things can't hurt me but I just had an utter meltdown 2 hours ago over a miscarriage that my wife and I experienced 7 years ago. I never grieved it. I got so good at putting an issue in a box and setting it on the shelf -- never to deal with it. The bottle nearly ended me after a decade of abuse. Been sober 11 years now. I also was flirting with the business end of a shotgun 11 years ago because I couldn't see a way out. My life is great now, I just became unraveled tonight with unresolved trauma from my drinking days and also some bad times since getting sober. Anyway, as I was wiping my eyes a couple hours ago I noticed my 3x3 DD tarp sitting on a shelf and thought I'd search for some cool setups to distract me. Found your channel and binged a few and then saw this one. Hearing you share your story was just what I needed for my heavy heart tonight. I've never met you, I'm sure I never will, but it felt good to connect with you knowing that we've encountered a very similar impasse in our journey. Thank you.

[@frogmaster83]

I think we all have a story, but sadly many are never told. It always helps a little to offload to somebody. Thanks for watching. JB.

[@joereynolds2511]

Allen, you're a wonderful man, and you have given so many of us the wonderful experiences of your adventures. This simple humble video gives so much more hope and inspiration that the so called professional videos out there, mate and thats the truth.
Hope you're having a Great day sir, hope to meet you on my trip to the UK in the near future. American bushcraft meets UK bushcraft. Cheers.

[@frogmaster83]

Happy to meet up if you are in the south east at any point. 👍

[@englishwoodsman]

I just want to say thank you to the dog mate. Because that dog saved you, and now we have your videos to look forward to.

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks Dan.

[@marksadventures3889]

And we're glad you made the right decision too, that took something of yourself to make this video. Appreciated.

[@frogmaster83]

Was not an easy one. No planning, just sat down and did it in one take before I lost my nerve.

[@TheNatsuguri]

It is very brave of you sharing this (and I'm in no way being clichéd or patronising). I have considered suicide many times throughout my life since I was a teenager, and I'm now in my early 50s. I am a mental health nurse and have worked in mental health for 26 years now and have helped many others who have been suicidal, even when I've felt the same way as them. The only thins that have stopped me are the thought of what it would it do to my mother and, as in your case, what would happen to my dogs. The problem is, when you get so low, is that you start convincing yourself that others would be better off without you around anymore. Fortunately I'm in a more reasonable state of mind at the moment. You are right that you should try to seek help. The problem is, our generation is notoriously bad at that. ❤

[@frogmaster83]

Yes, we just try to deal with things ourselves. I made the video with the thought it might just make someone think 1st.

[@georgeohwell7988]

Permanent solution to a temporary problem, you made the right choice big man...

[@AlanAlanAlanDave]

When I went through my dark time all I could think about was how would my kids feel.
Tough times are on the way for all of us and can be depressing but, knowing what's coming and the reason why is a positive feeling.

[@andysilber2702]

Thank You for making this video.
I am in the funeral industry and see far too many suicides.
You are correct that the effects on others is beyond traumatic.
I have been watching your videos (along with your mates) for a while now.
You have brought me a fair amount of joy.
I am very thankful that you made the decision (the right decision) that you did.

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks for that Andy.

[@benhikescamps]

Thank you Allan for sharing this. Very honest and very brave. Even if just one person is helped, you’ve done something very positive here. We need more men being brutally honest about mental health. Thanks again.

[@frogmaster83]

Bit of a tough one to make, but I felt it was time to say it. Just hope it helps somebody.

[@CliffordShute]

Wise words matey. I've seen how a suicide affects a family first hand, not good. Very brave of you to share that with us. Thank you, take care.

[@Eana-of-Sussex]

Your honesty and openness is very moving.
Thank you for making and sharing this.

[@frogmaster83]

I appreciate that

[@joschmoyo4532]

Living an authentic life pushes you to the edge because that's part of the process. It's a funny thing depression. It can set you free if you ride it or destroy you if you surrender to it. I rode it out and it made a man of me. Long story but a good life should be. Sanity is boring and overrated.

[@frogmaster83]

Just got to take risks sometimes.

[@joschmoyo4532]

@@frogmaster83
Everybody gets clobbered by life.
I chose to keep moving to avoid collapsing in to self pity. But there was one day, just one, where I was suddenly overwhelmed by deep depression out of nowhere and toyed with putting a pistol in my mouth. I was surprised by myself and stepped back to ask why.
Then the desire to pull the trigger just evaporated. Near death is something I confronted a few years later. But by then I had a new partner who I later married.
We saved each other. Gave each other a reason to live and love.
Never give up. Your just giving the devil a free meal. Fuck him.
Most people fear change. I embrace it. That is the best advice I can suggest. Change is letting go of shit. Close the door and another opens. Always.
No point cowering in the corner of an old life and smearing yourself in your own shit.

[@martinwragge9906]

Been there and know how dark it can get, thank you for raising the issue as us older men don't talk about it, we're a different generation who need to learn to talk about it. Thanks for starting a conversation... 🙂

[@frogmaster83]

I appreciate that mate, thanks for watching.

[@adib396]

Came here from Facebook to watch your Night cat review video...odd thing is my first thought is I recognise that accent. Sounds familiar to me. I'm originally from around your neck of the woods. Anyway I'm coming across a few men like yourself who have these outdoor channels who have had similar moments in their lives. Me included. A lot of this thing in society and I still think a lot of attitudes towards mens mental health is to ignore it. People just telling you to pull yourself together. There is more help available than there use to be, but not easy to seek help when you are in that black hole and the last thing you want to be doing is talking about your issues and or popping pills. Subscribed to your channel.

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks mate, welcome along.

[@ccwweeman3385]

Glad you made the right decision mate mans best friend helped to save the day . Keep up the good life and you have many followers that care for you take care and stay strong....colin.

[@frogmaster83]

Cheers mate.

[@johnywaffle1365]

You're a good man and a lot of people are glad you're still here. ❤️

[@frogmaster83]

I appreciate that 👍

[@codlinks78]

Saw your comment on kents camping channel about you doing an ebay camping trip so thought id check your channel out and this is the first video I watched. Just from the thumbnails of the videos in your list Its easy to see you have some amazing moments and made some great friends. Im so glad you didnt go through with it. I can relate with this video. 18 years ago since my attempt in the woods. Went on to save a womans life who thanks me every year as she went on to have kids, get married and is a wonderful mum. You are totally right about having choices at least if you dont do it. Thank you for this video, its raw and its honest and shows what you can achieve after those moments of darkness. Its good to have you still with us. Im subscribed now.

[@frogmaster83]

Welcome along and thanks for the sub. Andy (Kent Survival) is a nice guy. He is local to me and we are actually camping together this weekend. 👍

[@leemichel8199]

Btw a neighbour of mine topped herself yesterday, never would have thought she would have done it ,some people hide their demons well I suppose. God bless

[@frogmaster83]

So sad, help is out there if you just ask.

[@MetallicrealitE]

Thank you for sharing this video, I have read most of the comments and I am saddened and surprised just how many of us have been in that same dark place.
What a brave and amazing thing to do, hearing peoples stories brings us all closer together and shows people who are struggling they are not alone.
Your videos bring peace, beauty and calm to a hectic and spiteful world and videos like this bring support, hope and understanding that will hopefully reach people that feel there is none.
Much love to you chap.
You are amazing and I am very grateful that you took your dog home rather than walking the path the black dog tempted you to follow.

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks mate, I though it was a story worth sharing.

[@MetallicrealitE]

@@frogmaster83 It is a very valuable story and from the heart

[@stephengraham8629]

Thanks for sharing your story Alan, I've had a few dark nights of the soul, but I've got through it, especially when I had my dogs, sadly both gone now. Take care Bud, keep the vids coming.

[@frogmaster83]

Sorry to hear that. 😒

[@SonofChurchill]

JB how did you know what to change and how to change them. I don't see any solution other then I try to stay away from the News! I'll happy your here still.

[@frogmaster83]

All I did was a complete reset. Moved away from everyone and everything I knew. Started from scratch and just see where it took me.

[@colininglis8918]

Your Channel has inspired an awful lot of people to follow and respect you, i am so pleased to go online and listen to to one of the most down to earth person on you tube I have subscribed to. If ever i by chance was to listen to or meet anyone on my wild travels who asked me where i got inspiration from to continue my adventures i would mention your channel, good cheer colin.

[@frogmaster83]

That's a lovely thing to say Colin.

[@dougdixonhull]

My heart goes out to you my friend. You are such a special person and to do a video like this which must be hard but at the same time give some hope to others out there who are experiencing similar issues. You are an amazing person and have our support all the way.
❤

[@frogmaster83]

Thank you so much!

[@charlieramsay3426]

your a good man ! and a very brave one !! hope i get another 26 years of watching your videos

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks for that. 👍

[@Bullhornbeach]

Glad you're still with us brother. Your influence and inspiration reaches around the globe!

[@frogmaster83]

I appreciate that Hank.

[@thesteakdetective]

Thank goodness that Dog was with you. Imagine the stay eof the world without Allan's Mobile Military Surplus gear! Huge respect to you for talking about that and I'm so pleased that you are still here you legend! X

[@Gettinglostwithlea]

Alan thank you for sharing this, really has struck a chord with me ❤ the world is better place with people like you in it ❤ xx

[@frogmaster83]

All we can do is just keep moving forward, and deal with each day as it comes.

[@YTC9]

That was close! thank you for sharing, i'm glad you are still here, dogs are gods 🙏

[@GrizzlyGaz]

Takes balls to make a video like this! I take my hat off to you.

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks mate. 👍

[@stephentrodden1258]

Just watched this and you've saved my life thankyou

[@frogmaster83]

Always here if you need a chat. [e-mail]

[@jeremynorman1330]

Thank you for trusting your followers with your honesty. My ''day'' job was Community mental health nurse...I so wish that some people had reached out more.

[@frogmaster83]

I thought it was time to come clean about it. If my thought help just one person it was worth it.

[@ajnin1974]

All been there brother ...
Tomorrow is another day and a better one 👍

[@frogmaster83]

Just keep moving on mate.

[@gilesbinyon]

Such a difficult subject tacked in your usual lovely clear presenting style. So sorry to hear you went through this Allen, but perhaps such an experience makes one stronger - I think that's what came across here. Thanks.

[@frogmaster83]

Yep, its made me who I am today. Thanks for watching Giles.

[@garysmith7286]

Very moving words and video, mate. As someone who has also been there I understand. You are right there is more help available now, we just need to look for it.
Male suicide is very common. A high number of blokes seriously consider it, many more than people realise. I echo your feelings, we should talk more.

[@frogmaster83]

Completely agree. 👍

[@sismo5773]

Took true grit to share that Bro - you really needed to make a big change - takes balls to stop when you're that low and so glad you had your beloved mutt with you! To make the big life change decisions makes you look at what really matters and face the truth of your feelings and you had the balls to cut the crap and go. I thank God you're still with us 'cos I love you to bits .

[@frogmaster83]

I appreciate that Mo. Toughest decision but also the best one in the end. xx

[@eightsprites]

Good message. And happy you made the decision you did. Cause who would teach me about tarps otherwise. I used to suffer from depression in my 20s and I had picked out a high bridge to jump from if I depression went to bad. It was 30min from both home and work. So whatever I was doing on a day, I knew it could all be over within an hour.. always. Somehow knowing this helped me struggling through the depression. I obvious never jumped. And am now 46 and life is quiet good. To younger people reading this, if you feel as depressed as I did, talk to someone. And both exercise and nature walks helps too. So do all three. Exercise, take nature walks and Talk to someone. And know there is a good life after depression.

[@frogmaster83]

Its a growing problem with young men, so much pressure on them now.

[@muddymike450]

Hat off to you Allan for making this video and sharing your story. Glad you are still here

[@frogmaster83]

Thank you kindly

[@paganoutdoors3193]

Thank you for your honest video Allan, know where your coming from, I'm back with a cpn, higher meds etc, but made the decision to move out the family home, due to shall we say marital difficulties, after 23 years married, ,into a flat with my eldest son, for the first time in ages, things are looking up hopefully, that was the hardest decision I've had to make, if I hadn't have made that decision, I wouldn't be here ,unfortunately with the mental health services so stretched ,your on your own ,until there's a space available, thankfully, samaritians were there, everyday still being here ,is a win ,one foot in front of the other as they say, thank you for sharing Allan, good health and safe travels my friend, cheers craig

[@frogmaster83]

Always here if you need a chat my friend.

[@14DFASniper]

Glad you are still here with us Jim. That deep lonely black hole leaves an imprint on your future forever so you do everything you can to make your life better to never be in that situation again. You made the right choice for yourself - glad that dog you loved was there to pull you through the darkest of times.

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks mate.

[@thebivouacexperience]

Nice one sir. So glad you are here man I always tune in you are a great guy 🙏👍

[@frogmaster83]

I appreciate that. 👍

[@keepthefaith35]

Glad you stayed with us.

[@randomhato]

Not the only one mate. Ill tell you my story round a campfire one evening. Suffice to say for now, it led me to helping others deal with mental health problems.
You did a good thing posting this. No one need deal with this stuff alone, no matter how alone they may feel.
All the best old chap, Alex.

[@frogmaster83]

Cheers Alex.

[@davidhudson7590]

Very brave of you jim bob to speak of this you could help alot of people suffering with low moods and things by this vid

[@TMxtt]

Brave video mate, and important message for other people out there experiencing depression. Glad things got better for you, buddy.

[@frogmaster83]

Still fighting mate. 👍

[@leemichel8199]

I did same in gibraltar, was no way out ,so I jumped from the top of the rock ,only to land on a ledge 20 foot down ,broke my leg ,was rescued the had no choice to leave my kids behind and came back to uk .Still suffer with cptsd, but I am so glad I failed .I don't know what you went through, but I know how you felt, I suppose, in a way .

[@frogmaster83]

I think we have all been there at some point sadly.

[@leemichel8199]

@frogmaster83 proud of you for not going through with it and for sharing..Lee

[@janvanoverdijk8116]

Damn Bob , dat was een HELL of a story ...
only RESPECT Brother !!!!

[@jonathanpork-sausage617]

Courageous and insightful. Thanks. There may be a bit more help around (though it can be a bit patchy) but there IMHO have never been more people in personal distress. We need to come together a bit more and see others as brothers (and sisters, of course).

[@frogmaster83]

I agree mate, at least people are a bit more open now.

[@russeljohn3471]

Thanks for sharing your story. I'm glad your still here to share it with us. 👍

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks for listening

[@WyeExplorer]

Thumbs up from me bro. So, good to get an insight into your life path. I have been in that dark pit wanting to die more times than I can count. I've prepped it and all but, no! There are options - like rivers with arteries we're not trapped. Your dog opened a door. Good going. Mark

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks mark, us old gits are just built different. 👍

[@WyeExplorer]

@@frogmaster83 A pleasure. Yeah, been through the mill.

[@tamirew9247]

Damn, I’ve got to get ready for an appointment when this notification came on. I hope your vid is still here when I get back❤

[@frogmaster83]

I hope so. 😒

[@armedpatriot8611]

Thank you for sharing. Very powerful and glad you are here.

[@frogmaster83]

Thank you so much!

[@stevesmith5717]

Good on you and great that you can go back and talk about it ❤

[@andrewlilley1115]

Lost my dad to prostrate cancer and youngest brother to suicide weeks later, he couldn’t cope.
Mind blowing for months after, thank goodness for the company of my GSD got through the pain.
It’s good to talk, just do it.

[@frogmaster83]

Agreed. 👍👍

[@gabrielferaud8360]

Glad to know a furry angel helped you. Thanks for sharing, Jim.

[@frogmaster83]

They really are special.

[@gabrielferaud8360]

@@frogmaster83 Yes, they are. Just Anthropocentric people can't get it.

[@rufuspage6210]

Thanks for making this Jim, must have taken a lot of courage. We're all glad you didn't go through with this!

[@frogmaster83]

Still here annoying people. 😁

[@rufuspage6210]

@@frogmaster83 😂

[@mrbeeoutdoors3213]

Wish I had time to watch this right now!😮
Will catch up this evening.
But glad whatever happened you didn't do it!

[@Slappa31]

Well done for making this.
My dad comitted suicide, i raised money for suicide prevention... then attempted it myself. Its a cunt of a thing and more people need to be brave and bare all like you habe just done
Well done and im glad you are here!

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks for that. All we can do is talk and just keep moving forward.

[@Arctutus1]

It takes a large set of conkers to be open about all that, mate. Top man. Have to get out on a camp soon.

[@frogmaster83]

Cheers Trev, we must catch up soon.

[@jerrygl9213]

Alan that took a lot of guts mate thank you for sharing that with us.❤

[@frogmaster83]

Its in the past, but I just wanted to tell people the is another option.

[@BurtonOutdoors]

Wow! didn't know this Scout, im glad youre still about.

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks Lee. 👍😎

[@ricker76er]

I attempted in 2009. Thanks for speaking out. If more people do, the more people will realize they’re not alone and help is out there. Glad you “failed.”

[@frogmaster83]

Glad you are still with us too. 👍

[@duckypam]

So glad you’re still here with us!

[@frogmaster83]

Me too. 😁x

[@WHUTOM88]

Glad your still here to share your story Alan, it takes balls to sit there and talk about it!

[@frogmaster83]

Just hope it helps someone.

[@WHUTOM88]

@@frogmaster83 I’m sure someone out there that’s in a bad place watching this will listen and realise things can get better and there is people to talk to 👍🏻

[@vi0205]

Thank you for sharing your Story Allan!😘

[@leeroberts6809]

I’m glad you made the right choice

[@PokeEyeSlapSlap]

Alan, you’re a good honest Man. We will have that Camp this coming Winter my friend. We will sink a few whilst talking bollocks and putting the world to rights…..
I’ll be in touch buddy.
👏👏👏👏

[@frogmaster83]

Look forward to it.

[@tonymac4656]

Respect Alan 🤜🤛

[@AdamSmith-pk9xf]

Very brave. Thank you for sharing

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks for watching!

[@user-zm2yj2us2d]

Thank you for sharing your story.

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks for listening

[@danh8726]

Nice 1 al wise words 👏

[@ProcyonAlpha]

Top bloke

[@davef5916]

bless you mate

[@MarkARhodie]

I've been there, but not as far, the first time I was able to get it out my head quite quick, then when I came down with depression it was harder.

[@frogmaster83]

Happens to us all mate at one time or another.

[@DaveCollierCamping]

Good to see you

[@trinovantian1]

Good on you mate. Who knows you may have just saved a life.

[@frogmaster83]

If I can help just one person, its a result.

[@rachaelwyatt754]

My dog was called Sheba and she was a boxer and everything to me. Nothing more to add.

[@tamirew9247]

The very best content that you’ve ever put out! Facebook is so out of touch. Thank you🫶🏼🙏🫶🏼

[@frogmaster83]

Wow, thank you!

[@HomesteadFrance]

Well done mate 👍

[@frogmaster83]

Thank you! Cheers!

[@hiddenvalleyfootpaths2561]

Hey if you feel like a break.....look me up down here in the badlands of North Cornwall. Stay strong brother. We can look for the beast of Bodmin Moor, lol.

[@frogmaster83]

I am all good now mate. I have adopted the idea that thinks things could never be as bad as the past. I got through that, so nothing can stop me. 😁👍

[@shermancase1494]

Bless You

[@nayanpandya7697]

Top man ❤

[@yorkshire.woodsman_outdoor5454]

❤ "legend" ❤

[@tactical8842]

Thanks for making this video and sharing

[@frogmaster83]

No problem. Not an easy one to make.

[@derekstynes9631]

Good for You and the Dog and I had a Question Popped in My Mind , Are You Ex Forces ?

[@frogmaster83]

Lot of friends and family are, but not me personally. Closest I came was working as civilian instructor for the Marine Training Corps.

[@hazzardoutdoors]

Totally there, it was my dog who stopped me. Of she would've gotten a home during that time when I was trying, I wouldn't be here. Up till now it sounding like the most pathetic reason, but I'm glad I wasn't the only one to survive for a dog. We'll have to compare shit magnet status next time I see you fella...
..

[@frogmaster83]

Think we all have been there at some point in our lives. I am old so have had more time to cock up.

[@Benzknees]

So getting thru things & the feelings of others is justification for not killing yourself on the day?

[@frogmaster83]

Well its complicated. Every situation is different but the reason I stopped on the day was the dog, simple as that. It gave me time to work out what I needed to do and change my future.

[@WilderhopeAdventures]

We need to do a camp together...life is tough

[@frogmaster83]

It can be, but we just keep moving forward. 👍

[@tobi.hat.frei.0815]

You a good man 👍

[@frogmaster83]

Thanks, I try. 🙂

[@meteor177]

bugger,mate thats ballsy,you was meant to be here

[@frogmaster83]

Maybe, we all have a path to follow.

[@outlander8890]

❤

[@onlycompetitions5083]

Not a path I have ever considered and I’m not going to give my opinion.

[@paulaboyland2946]

Hi Jim Bob 💝💝💝💝💝🌲🏕🌲🌻🌞🌻.......🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿💝😊 xxxxxx

[@emmanuel-_-5092]

🧡💛💚

[@frogmaster83]

Thankyou for watching. 🙂

[@emmanuel-_-5092]

@@frogmaster83 massive love brother 🫂💕

[@frogmaster83]

@@emmanuel-_-5092 who knows what around the corner, or in the future.

[@emmanuel-_-5092]

I wish it gets better. I'm gonna try and break out of this cage. And hopefully I'm set free.

[@frogmaster83]

@@emmanuel-_-5092 you need to talk things over with someone. Dont have to be a professional, just a friend you can trust. Unloading to somebody helps a lot.

[@englishwoodsman]

Shit magnet 😂😂😂

[@frogmaster83]

👍👍

[@jasonpip5417]

I've failed twice

[@frogmaster83]

Just keep going mate, who knows what the future holds for us. 👍

[@derekeverson9442]

such a fine line thats so easy to step over 💯%