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Neuroscientist's transformative ayahuasca experience | Dr. James Cooke
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Thank you all so much for your wonderfully supportive reactions. Sharing these parts of my story was always going to be a huge moment for me and the way you've all received it is everything I could have hoped for. I truly believe encouraging vulnerability and healing is the most powerful thing we can do to improve our situation as a species and you're giving a master class in how it's done. Thank you all again.
Bro thank you for sharing
Thank you again for sharing James. I hope it's as powerful for you as it is to watch. Very inspiring. So happy for you too, that you're healing. We all heal a little bit with you and the world becomes a better place. The antidote to the vicious circle of pain and suffering. 😁🙏👍🏽
Hi James, you're doing a fantastic work here. Thanks for sharing. It is efforts of people like you and others that slightly moves everybody's attention towards putting themselves in a vulnerable context and look inside and unveil the truth about themselves with the hope of healing and staying away from undue suffering.
I personally enjoyed this video for 2 reasons; First, because somehow I can relate to your experience in the past and seeing hope for healing in front of me. Second, because you have dedicated this video to explain the emotional and psychological aspects of the experience separate from the viduals of the experience. Again, thank you so much for sharing.
Dr. James Cooke Hi. You are SO incredibly inspiring to me.I have been considering going to a retreat to see if possible for me to fully heal. I haven’t picked a particular place. Do you have a recommendation?
Thank you for sharing your experience brother !! Peace love and light !!!
James, just want to say I have the utmost respect for the courage you have in doing this, not only as a neuroscientist speaking about topics that aren’t (yet) widely accepted in that domain, but also as a human being willing to put yourself and your history out there for the world. It’s all very timely and I hope it continues to catch on.
This is such an honest and well though accessment! I'm really touched by it and greatfull.
I wish every African-American could experience this kind of purging. We carry 400 years of trauma in the bones and in the blood. Many times, the violence within some (not all) of our communities is the merging of pain, passion, trauma and anger. Thanks for sharing your experience. I would love to experience this ceremony, but honestly I’m afraid of what would come up and come out!
When you said “when it comes to protecting the vulnerable, there will be a zero tolerance policy,” I got chills! I’m so glad that you got such powerful insights into healing your psyche. Ayahuasca has given me a number of visions and insights into the root causes of my emotional struggles as well. Thank you for sharing your story!!
Loved that as well
Go vegan.
@@insanebrain213 why?
@@miket1591 I can't remember why I said that. But I think it's the next step in human evolution. We can't call ourselves spiritual or evolved or civilised when we rape and murder and torture innocent beings on such a massive scale for zero reason other than ignorance or the weakness of mind to see it for what it is.
Hi Dr. Cooke. My name is Adrian Cuerva and I’m a psychologist from Australia. Your healing story was so powerful and I am honoured to have heard it. Thank you so much for sharing. You probably already know this, but the psychotherapeutic process you described is identical to imagery rescripting, an experiential technique used to confront trauma memories. Your story is a testament to how useful such techniques can be even during the maelstrom of a psychedelic journey. Thank you again and I look forward to watching more of your videos.
There is so much I want to say while it's in my mind, but don't have the time.
Thank you for being beyond courageous to share these deep parts of you with us. Your story hits at the core of me. Again, thank you.
Your healing is reaching out and helping others to heal, too.
Thank you for being similarly open on these topics, you really inspired me to feel it was safe to own my own story in this way. You came to mind during the retreat as the embodiment of exactly how I hoped this would be received and knowing you and others like you are out there made it possible for me to share this.
@@DrJamesCooke , really? Wow! I am very honored, humbled, and appreciative to be among others that have helped you on your journey.
I am glad that my attempt at being open to the many eyes that know or do not know me has helped you, or any other for that matter, to move forward.
At the risk of sounding cliche, I feel that we both have been helping each other and, in turn, are also helping many more that are near to us in life or connected to us through the Internet.
@@apexnine Really :)
I have recently completed a 4 night ayahuasca retreat. I am very similar to you, trauma-wise. The caretaking, "overly empathizing," lack of boundaries, bending over, lack of connection to emotions (especially anger). The way you described your childhood self, just like me. "Well behaved" but in reality, traumatized. Raised by a narcissist as well. Always justifying and overly seeing other people's side while not giving myself the love I need. I've done a lot of hard work to try to heal myself, ayahuasca being the most profound and powerful mindblowing experience.
While it was a super powerful experience, I mostly experienced crazy galactic, aliens, god connection, multiple dimensions type of experience. I didn't get a chance to go back into my childhood past which was my intention. Maybe the next ceremony or 2, I'll get there.
Thank you for sharing, it was great hearing this experience from someone so similar to me in psychology.
Wow, that's amazingly similar, thank you for sharing. The reason i didn't focus on the visions in this video because they were also of aliens, space ships and other dimensions that didn't seem to relate to the emotional breakthroughs. I'll cover that in next week's video though.
@@DrJamesCooke I'm in a place of transitioning out of my current low vibration business. I might start a brand around self development/consciousness/relationships which could involve mind expanding interviews. I'm going to keep you in mind, I love your content and respect your background as a neuroscientist. I'll ping you if/when the time comes brother! In the meantime, I'm a subscriber and look forward to your future content.
@@BrianBreakingZero please do, looking forward to it, if/when as you say.
I was raised by a narcissist mother and also my foster mother who showed no love . I really want to do ayahuasca. I’ve had terrible anxiety , binge eating issues . I’m scared but I want to release the trauma
When the student is ready the teacher shows up. Gratefulness to you for such an eloquently told experience. I was listening and realized how much of what you said began to ring true. I got to the part when you were an infant and that you were sorry for your existence and tears began to flow freely. As a grown woman, this is the first time I've been aware of any such feelings. Those tears came from a deep place. Im the first adopted of 23 siblings. Growing up I chose to "be good, keep quiet and keep moving" vs the alternative. I do appreciate my upbringing and the family I was raised in. My birth mom has lived a very difficult life and she made the right choice. Your video showed me that I have been carrying so much of her pain and indecision of giving me up as well as feelings of guilt and shame that I'm still "not good enough" or worthy because I've not done enough in my life to repay her for the gift of life that she gave me. Clearly these are some disempowering beliefs! I learned more about myself in 21:11 minutes, then I ever did in therapy. Thank you for the insight. Time to process it and let it go. Maybe plant medicine is in my future 😉. Thank you again, I wasn't expecting so much insight from a RUclips video? It's a cool world we live in that we are able to learn, share and connect in this way from anywhere in the world. Much love and peace to you.
🙏🦋🙏
It's his interesting to see how many people have had similar trauma, I know only to well what it feels like to grow up under a narcissistic abusive person, though each story is individualized, the trauma is similar for sensitive empathetic children.
And it's not an easy pain to transmute it's evasive and deep. I have not done ayahuasca but I can see how it goes into those layers that we generally can't access easily. When the time is right I may give it a try, even though I think I've done a lot of the work to clear it. There may still be some of the weight in the background. So thanks for sharing this it gives insight, all of us deserve to be free of trauma.
I was just reading comments and see many others also felt your words in a very transformative way. Your courage to be real and open is forging the way for others to do the same. Keep doing you, it's beautiful, it's needed and you're a positive beacon of light that's helping lead the way. You rock! 🙏
You are me and I am you... I love you as I love myself... for we are all waves in the same ocean. Thank you for your kind words. They touched me in ways I cannot communicate. I am profoundly glad that you exist. And finally that I do too ❤
Thanks for sharing this opening of vulnerability and the process of transmuting karma. Truly beautiful. Deepest bow brother 🙏
Thank you. Bow returned 🙏
Whoa, profound! The apologizing for existing . We all struggle with these belief systems that are so toxic. Happy you got through it. Thank you for sharing! The way you tell the story is amazing . The detachment due to trauma, is very recognisable
My god, I can relate to you so much. I am incredibly glad you started to get the healing you deserve. I desperately want to do aya to unfreeze myself. I am stuck in subconscious self sabotage. I can't feel anger at all. It's all repressed and turned in on myself. There is only so much talk therapy can do. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you very much for sharing your experience with Ayahuasca. I’m connected with you and sending you harmonious/healing energies. You’re not alone in this game of life. BALANCE with that which we reject (because we judge it as negative) is the key to peace, wisdom & understanding. I’m so glad you found a way to balance yourself. Keep growing dear brother. Namaste 🙏
Thanks for having the balls to walk into an ayahuasca ceremony. Of course you couldn't have known exactly how it would play out, but you took those steps to look inside yourself in a powerful way.
We have DID from severe and constant childhood trauma and could relate very much with a lot of the feelings relating to your abuse. Really glad this was cathartic for you🤗
I watched your video with great interest. By sharing publicly you are making yourself vulnerable to judgement and scrutiny. You are very brave and intelligent!
Dear Dr.James Cooke ... Thank you so much for sharing your story. I cried and cried as I listened to your experience. For the first time, I felt that I was not alone. Your sharing brought about a much needed stream of tears. I am a 55 year old women and for the first time, I feel a sense of a great burden lifting off. I cannot express how much gratitude, I have in my heart for your sharing. Thank you, thank you ever so much. Maggie from Ont, Canada. May the *Universe hug and kiss you well.
That makes me so happy to hear and confirms to me that it was worth taking the risk to be open and vulnerable. There are so many of us who had to suffer alone, it means a huge amount to me to receive your comment and know I too am not alone in all this.
This is so very moving. In sharing your experience you validate mine. I wasn't expecting that. Thank you so much.
Thank You for sharing. It moved me deeply. Regards from Poland :)
Toronto Ontario, Canada )
Thank you James. I would love to take part in a ceremony . It frightens me and strikes me with awe. You seem full of compassion.
Ive been lucky enough to have had a handful of experiences with Aya in ceremony. Found massively beneficial every time. It can be so insightful. Really loving your openness of the experience, very clear.
Hi as someone who works full time with DMT(ayawausca). I Thankyou for sharing your experience.
Its is a beautiful medicine that taken with courage can really help heal and revive you to live a fantastic life
I like when I find professional and well presented people like you who give the reports. It makes it more credible
Thank you for your courageous candour, James.
And the lucid communication of your self-restoration. Bravo, Sir.
Thank you for sharing this. I was amazed to hear how on POINT you described the logic of being an overly empathetic person who can understand everyone but doesn't draw boundaries for one self. This condition is exactly the trap I am in. Hearing how you dealt with your abuser in your trip.. it was powerful to just hear that. You're an inspiration.
꧁ayahuasca꧂
is not a Psychedelic. ayahuasca is a muddy slurry of many compounds, some of them being hallucinogens. Sadly, most humans confuse the hallucinations they experience from poisonous drugs with the Visions and Revelations they receive from the Psychedelics.
The Psychedelics DMT and sometimes 5-MeO-DMT are the Psychedelic found in that “witches brew” of a tourist trap sensation known as an ayahuasca ceremony. It would be much better for a human to ingest the Pure Psychedelic Molecules, always. ayahuasca is the quintessential act of “drinking from the Cup of the Lord and from the cup of demons”.
Of course the human body recognizes ayahuasca for what it is, poison, and the human body in harm reduction mode causes most humans to reject and eject it. Not before enough has been absorbed to cause hallucinations and very distorted and corrupted communication with God (the DMT and/or 5-MeO-DMT). The sham man explains the vomiting as purging your poisons/toxins, bad spirits, etc. The truth is that your body just rejected and vomited that concoction you were given. We have been shown that it is always better to ingest the Pure Psychedelic Molecule.
The Psychedelics have clearly shown that the humans on the earth right now referring to themselves as a shaman do not know Who God is and is not teaching the Psychedelic’s ways and Laws, but rather, a combination of their own mind’s folly coupled with the ridiculous teachings of the other humans who still belong to the world of darkness.
False prophets of jerusalem = all the humans who purport to teach about the Psychedelics but don’t even know who the Psychedelics are.
At least the sham men use the proper noun to name themselves:
sham
/SHam/
noun
1. 1. a thing that is not what it is purported to be."the alleged teacher of God is a farce and a sham" Similar: pretense fake act fiction simulation imposture fraud feint lie counterfeit putting on an act faking feigning
Opposite: the Truth the genuine article
About all of the false teachers of my Parents in Heaven Who are all True Psychedelics:
“Horrible things have I seen in the prophets of Jerusalem
They follow false gods, they lie, they abet evil doers
Till not a soul will repent
For the prophets of Jerusalem have spread profanity
Over the whole land
This is the warning of the Lord of Hosts
Never listen to what the false prophets say
They fill you up with idle hopes and tell you fancies of their own
Not anything the Lord says
All will be well they repeat to people who scorn what the Lord says
No harm will come to you they tell the folk who follow their own stubborn minds
Which of these prophets ever saw the council of the Lord?
Which of them ever heard or grasped a word of the Creator?
I never sent the prophets yet they ran
I never spoke to them and yet they prophecy
If they had ever stood within my council - and heard a word of mine
They would have made my people turn from evil ways and evil deeds
Am I a God at hand and not a God far off?
Can anyone conceal themselves out of my sight?
Do not I fill Heaven and earth? the Lord asks
Will they never give over these prophets of falsehood?
Who preach their own illusions - and would make my folk forget my name?
By the dreams they tell each other as once their parents forgot me for baal”
(Jeremiah 23:15)
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Hi James thanks for this amazing video I know you posted it a while ago for yourself but its relevant for me at the moment. Im a similar age from a similar area in Essex, and relate to basically everything you said as a child and also have this deep kind of damage inside of me that is always there that various counselling and therapy doesn't help with.
Im off to Brazil in a week and am doing my first ever Ayahuasca experience in around 2 weeks i really hope it will give me some understanding and some internal peace which im lacking. Thanks again for the video 🙏
You're very brave putting this out, kudos for doing so.
I had bad childhood as well, and not this, but under hypnosis/therapy, I too would go back to being at whatever age as baby, infant, even a previous life, and feeling these sad and scary emotions and would literally cry like a baby.
The sharing is also a huge part of the healing. Ayahuacsa helped me change my life in the most profound ways and as I head into my 11th weekend ceremony in about a year and a half...the work, the progress, the mission...continues.
Congratulations and maximum respect for sharing such intimate details - these endow the story with the full punch it deserves. Can't wait to hear the San Pedro follow-up.
Your story sounds much like my own. Thank you for sharing this. I’m so glad you exist!
Wow, I am so moved by the way you relate to the trauma you've experienced. I also appreciate and sympathize with your reasons for taking ayahuasca, and was enthralled to hear how the drug effected your emotional understanding. I learned so much just now, I had no idea this would happen when I clicked on your video. Thank you so much for sharing your experience.
This is beautiful. I was so moved by your story, thanks for sharing it! Peace and love to you!
Sublime 🌿 listening to your story was very healing. I’ve been struggling with similar dynamics and listening to your powerful healing experience opened me up in more ways that I had expected it to, thank you 🙏🏻
So cool, happy for your trip James! Impressed by your openness and courage, no jokes.
Would be interesting to hear more, like for example if there was some spiritual bypassing happening before with this trauma, in your opinion.
Or how this good healthy anger feels in nondual state.
And thought well out!
Thank you so much for this YT video. I recognize myself so much in your childhood experiences. I hope I can also get such a healing through the ayahuasca retreat.
My Goodness!!!! Dear Mr.James Cooke such a teaching and inspiring video. Thanks for this. I have listened every word very attentively and felt for you and could make some empathy.too. We are all traumatized in different levels and this makes us very sad, fearful, depressed people and cause to live even within more depressed, sad, fearful societies. I hope everyone gets the urge to wake up to cure and heal their emotional wounds. This will bring to our dear planet earth some love and peace and security. Thanks again. Love
Wow! My life story echos yours. Same scenario with a brother. Fortunately, I stumbled across ayahuasca 8 years ago and every year since I’ve made a pilgrimage to Peru for an annual ayahuasca ceremony or two. Ayahuasca showed me a clear path to healing myself and becoming a better human being.
Thanks for sharing, you seem like an incredible person. People like you give hope to so many.
A powerful story beautifully told my friend. So glad to hear you got what you were looking for, and I’m happy to have been able to assist you in connecting with Wiler & Tamara.
Hopefully you arent fully done with ayahuasca yet because I still would love to join you in ceremony, maybe next time 😀🙏
Definitely! And thank you so much again, you made it possible for something truly wonderful to happen.
Thank you for sharing, beautiful story of healing and transformation 🙏💫
Very moving story. Thank you so much. This resonated with me. In my first Ayahuasca ceremony the theme presented to me was that of reconnecting with my inner traumatized child that had been in hiding for some time.
Maybe 8-months later I was endulging in a drink, maybe in a little too much, and I had this insane flashback where I heard the screams of a child and the vision of an angry adult (me) drowning the child in alcohol.
This theme of inner child is something we can’t take lightly.
Thank you for sharing that, I've had very similar experinces in the past. I think a lot of unhealthy behaviour can come from trying to quiet the emotions of that inner child when we've been conditioned to feel that the proper way to treat those feelings is with neglect.
I can relate to the narc parent and that freezing body. I'm thankful that aywasca helped you with this more bodily aspect of the trauma. I'm preparing myself for an aywasca ceremony psychically to take the best out of it like you did (your therapeutic experience and work look quite extensive). Thanks for sharing.
I cried for u when ur guide sang a beautiful icara song to u - sending much healing Metta beautiful young man 🤗🙏
That was amazing. I could really relate to a lot of your story. Before I saw this video I had you in a little box. I thought you must be a privileged upper middle class person who had had a pretty easy life. How wrong was that ?
It was great that you came to terms with childhood trauma and felt confident to share it with us. Thank you so much !
What a beautiful story of healing, and no I don’t think you are a psychopath. I see you as a man who was not afraid to take the steps to heal! I wish more people could be as open as you. I know that so many people are happy that you are here on this earth and I am one of them!! Can’t wait to hear the rest of your experience!
I m just watching this for 9 minutes and I feel deeply sorry for your pain and trauma. People with your courage and that survived such an abusive amount of suffering and turn out to be good and so honest and wanting to heal themselves and others is what makes me believe in humans and gives me all the truth about God existence. I m happy that you choose Portugal, I m from Portugal and I imagine how happy and loved you ll be here. All the best and all the love for you and your partner. Grateful for this video.
This was incredibly powerful and moving and can imagine so many people will totally resonate with your experience. It also gave confidence and encouragement for those of us trying to heal the wounds from our past. With much gratitude.
You are extremely eloquent. Thanks for doing this.
Wow! This resonated with me so much. Thank your for your honesty and insights.
Whoa, glancing through uploads, you cover some cool topics.. and as a neuroscientist. Looking forward to exploring them.
Even though we had different issues growing up, I relate 100% with the way the medicine worked on me. Thanks for sharing.
Not gonna pretend I've gone through the same direct level of trauma that you have, but I can relate to the feeling of irrelevance and pointlessness. I'm from Margate in Kent which is also a shithole, and I was raised in a very oppressive religious cult that stunted my emotional and social development, so a lot of what you say hits home, even if more on an indirect level. Very well articulated video, appreciate it bro.
Wow man... Ayahuasca has been a draw for me for some time, but this cements it for me. Thank you for your vulnerability and grace.
I silently cheered too, in my mind, by hearing you letting out the roar, the empowerment, the coming in, or integrating back into your body. And no you certainly don´t give an impression of being a psychopath, by your vision of you striking down the abuser with a bat. You clearly show a understanding of, that the abuser have their own story, who have made them into who they are, and that they themselves need help. Which reminds me of a quote that goes like this: "Those who are the hardest to love, are usually the ones who needs it the most". (From the book: Way of the peaceful warrior, by Dan Millman).
The vision of you striking down the abuser with a bat, is a symbolic action, and representation of what you needed the most. Someone who could stand up for you and protect you from harm, and by doing so in your vision, you thereby embody and integrate yourself, from a perspective of the you, in your present form (from an cognitive adult space) to the representation and perspective of the child in you, who once experienced what you did (from a childs lacking cognitive ability to understand and comprehend, what was happening). This is where true healing take place. It would actually not be unusual for someone in your position, to have had the feeling and urge, to completely annihilate that abuser into oblivion.
I love how vulnerable you are, and very honesty, I feel exactly the same after ayauaska, im Brazilian and I just did once but feel inside myself that I want more, is an infinity doors opening.
Juliana Cordero 🙏
꧁ayahuasca꧂
is not a Psychedelic. ayahuasca is a muddy slurry of many compounds, some of them being hallucinogens. Sadly, most humans confuse the hallucinations they experience from poisonous drugs with the Visions and Revelations they receive from the Psychedelics.
The Psychedelics DMT and sometimes 5-MeO-DMT are the Psychedelic found in that “witches brew” of a tourist trap sensation known as an ayahuasca ceremony. It would be much better for a human to ingest the Pure Psychedelic Molecules, always. ayahuasca is the quintessential act of “drinking from the Cup of the Lord and from the cup of demons”.
Of course the human body recognizes ayahuasca for what it is, poison, and the human body in harm reduction mode causes most humans to reject and eject it. Not before enough has been absorbed to cause hallucinations and very distorted and corrupted communication with God (the DMT and/or 5-MeO-DMT). The sham man explains the vomiting as purging your poisons/toxins, bad spirits, etc. The truth is that your body just rejected and vomited that concoction you were given. We have been shown that it is always better to ingest the Pure Psychedelic Molecule.
The Psychedelics have clearly shown that the humans on the earth right now referring to themselves as a shaman do not know Who God is and is not teaching the Psychedelic’s ways and Laws, but rather, a combination of their own mind’s folly coupled with the ridiculous teachings of the other humans who still belong to the world of darkness.
False prophets of jerusalem = all the humans who purport to teach about the Psychedelics but don’t even know who the Psychedelics are.
At least the sham men use the proper noun to name themselves:
sham
/SHam/
noun
1. 1. a thing that is not what it is purported to be."the alleged teacher of God is a farce and a sham" Similar: pretense fake act fiction simulation imposture fraud feint lie counterfeit putting on an act faking feigning
Opposite: the Truth the genuine article
About all of the false teachers of my Parents in Heaven Who are all True Psychedelics:
“Horrible things have I seen in the prophets of Jerusalem
They follow false gods, they lie, they abet evil doers
Till not a soul will repent
For the prophets of Jerusalem have spread profanity
Over the whole land
This is the warning of the Lord of Hosts
Never listen to what the false prophets say
They fill you up with idle hopes and tell you fancies of their own
Not anything the Lord says
All will be well they repeat to people who scorn what the Lord says
No harm will come to you they tell the folk who follow their own stubborn minds
Which of these prophets ever saw the council of the Lord?
Which of them ever heard or grasped a word of the Creator?
I never sent the prophets yet they ran
I never spoke to them and yet they prophecy
If they had ever stood within my council - and heard a word of mine
They would have made my people turn from evil ways and evil deeds
Am I a God at hand and not a God far off?
Can anyone conceal themselves out of my sight?
Do not I fill Heaven and earth? the Lord asks
Will they never give over these prophets of falsehood?
Who preach their own illusions - and would make my folk forget my name?
By the dreams they tell each other as once their parents forgot me for baal”
(Jeremiah 23:15)
ruclips.net/video/eHt4bsvMilc/видео.html
GodsNarrowGate@gmail.com
Thanks James for sharing this, so emotional, so beautiful. In October I'm going to Peru to do my first Ayahuasca retreat, I'm scared but really excited, wish me luck :)
That's amazing, I wish you all the luck in the world! I'm sure it'll be a wonderful experience.
Thank you for sharing your story. Your words illuminated my own journey with internalizing trauma, abandoning myself and living in a freeze response. I'm so grateful for those insights.
I have read articles on BPD and ayahuasca, this is very enlightening. Thank you.
You are such a beautiful soul James, thank you for sharing your message. Peace, love and many blessings.
Thank you brother for sharing! I have an essentially similar story and it feels like Aya is still teaching the boundaries-lesson through you. I had the repressed anger coming up in my dreams and I was schocked that I have enough in me to use the knife in my hand! In waking reality, I don’t want to hurt a spider...
Loads of love!
I can relate so much to your trauma! Obviously no two people share the same experiences. But the part about the narcissists, boundaries and the symbolism in the vision of enforcing those boundaries - I could relate so much!
The problem is that I've done a lot of reading on this and I do indeed understand all this at an intellectual level, but I don't feel them. Not at a visceral level. My body and conditioning is not in tune with what I know. I believe what you experienced through ayahuasca was that exact transition. I hope to be able to attend a retreat like this sometime soon.
Thanks for the video. It's gold!
That sounds spot on, it was definitely a process of leaving behind the rational mind and integrating it at the level of animal intelligence, so that my body felt intuitively how it was okay to respond before my mind could talk me out of it (that's the conditioning that keeps one trapped in the traumatic dynamic). I'm so glad it was helpful!
So beautiful, powerful, generous, courageous, and helpful. Deep gratitude.
Thank you Dr James, your story has touched my heart, for I also have experienced childhood trouble. As an adult I would always speak to people as children acknowledge adults (yes sir, no sir, never speak unless spoken too). It took me many years to finally accept the person I am before seeing others as my peers. Now I make an effort to engage others using their name instead of a respectable child like version of myself. I am curious if some of the depression and anxiety I still experience can be explored through this drink you are describing. Thanks and have a great day. 👍
Thank you very much James, for being so open and honest to share such intimate experiences. It definitely will help others to deal with heavy emotional burdens.
This video was so timely for the healing that I am working through. Thank you for sharing your experience and your story. Stay empowered and blessed, James.
Thank you so much for sharing this! I recognize some of those same behaviors in myself. I'm glad you were able to have this experience and gain some insights and healing from it. :)
Jada Douglas 🙏
꧁Consciousness꧂
DMT and 5-MeO-DMT are two of the Molecules that comprise a human’s Consciousness. All True Psychedelics are the Molecular Structures of Pure Consciousness. The human body synthesizes it’s own Consciousness (the DMT & 5-MeO-DMT found in humans). The human body then metabolizes the Consciousness that it is producing. The amount of the endogenous Consciousness that the human body is able to metabolize depends on many factors. The less pollutants, poison & other contaminants present in the body will result in the ability to metabolize more of the Consciousness that body is producing. Likewise, the more pollution, contaminants and poison a body has inside of it the less Consciousness it is able to metabolize. Here is a list of some of the most common poisons that humans ingest regularly which interferes with a human body metabolizing the Consciousness that it produces, as well as any Consciousness that is ingested from external sources:
alcohol, nicotine, sugar, caffeine, amphetamines, dissociatives, tranquilizers, flouride, and a plethora of other drugs are just some of the substances that interfere with humans metabolizing their own Consciousness.
“Even the priests who regularly come near to the Lord must purify themselves”.
(Exodus 19:22)
The following substances are NOT Psychedelics:
mdma
ketamine
salvia
kratom
dipt
pcp
datura/jimson weed
dxm
There are others . . . . . . .
Any True Psychedelic will proclaim this Truth if you ask Them.
The following substances are True Psychedelics - They are Alive, Omnicient Living Beings of Light:
DMT
5-MeO-DMT
LSD
Mescaline
Ibogaine
Psilocin
Psilocybin
THC
DPT
DET
Muscimol
There are others . . . .
So if a human can achieve 100% purity within their bodies, with zero contaminants or pollution (an unattainable state in these current bodies) and managed to metabolize 100% of the endogenous Psychedelics that their physical body is producing (DMT & 5-MeO-DMT), that would be the limit to how Conscious that human can be. In order for a human to become more Conscious than this, they must put more Consciousness into their physical bodies. You must put more Molecules of Consciousness inside of your physical body in order to attain a Higher level of Consciousness. When you ingest Psychedelics you see Them that you just ingested, not some doorway or window or a “portal” to somewhere else or some entity somewhere else. When you ingest LSD, the Light that you see is the LSD Themselves, very Beautiful Living Beings of Light. When you ingest DMT, the Entity you see and hear is the Living Light Beings DMT Themselves. The same is true for All True Psychedelics.
There is this part from Scripture:
“They are the Eternal among things that pass away. Pure Consciousness, of Conscious Beings. The ONE who fulfills the prayers of many. Only the wise who see Them in their Souls attain the Peace Eternal”
(Katha Upanishad)
The Physical Body of Consciousness is The Flesh of God. The Flesh of God is the True Communion Entity (the Eucharist). The Flesh of God (the Psychedelic) is the Fruit from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and evil. Our Bodies truly are the Temple of God because God the Psychedelic Lives within it.
As Saint Paul says:
“We are only the earthenware jars that hold this treasure, to make it clear that such an overwhelming power comes from God and not from us”.
(2 Corinthians 4:7)
This part explains why the human body is the Temple of God - because God Lives inside of the body. So whether or not a person is ingesting Psychedelics, every single human’s body is God’s Temple because DMT & 5-MeO-DMT Live within it. Anything you do to hurt or harm your body you do to harm God’s Temple. This understanding is a good Foundation, a good step towards a person Knowing God and being able to stay with Them both in this Lifetime & afterwards.
“O just Creator, though the world has not known you,
But I have known you
And these have known that You have sent me;
So have I declared, so will I declare
Your Name to them,
That the Love with which you have loved me
May be in them
and I in them”.
(Saint John 17:25)
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Thanks bro, for sharing your painful past, which is too common as a part of our human experience i feel ....you helped me, as it mirrored some of my life experience,,,,you have had the courage to deal with it and i like the way you took care of the child....i look forward to the cacti....sitting in the back row somewhat and a super powerful plant teacher that is kind of overlooked it seems...
You have the key in sharing this kind of information that most dont and that is articulating your experience well. Coupled with your knowledge of science and own self experience. Subscribed after hearing you for the very first time. Much love for you.
Thank you for sharing your story you’re very brave person, and I wish you all the healing and love to you. And congratulations on your new piece of land how exciting :-)
You took your power back ... that's what you needed in that moment for your healing.
Being overly empathetic- that hit me.
When I had my shamanic healing I never even realized how the negativity in my life I absorbed.
I bet he would love to prescribe this now. It sucks having such a great experience to only get back home and see all doctors giving pills for all issues.
you can put ayahuasca in two pills, its called pharmahuasca. now we can have our pills and eat them too.
Your background is similar to mine (parental narcissistic abuse), and your purge experience was also similar to mine.
Prior to the purge, I was plagued with awful, heavy emotions, which conjured up memories of my mother ragefully screaming at me "IT'S YOUR FAULT!" .
But then came the purge, well, there was four purges in total.
Like you, my diaphragm shot up and I purged on the exhale, however, the diaphragm stayed up.
I was gasping for breath, trying to suck air into my lungs, then I purged again, three more times.
Each time, gasping for breath.
I could feel that I was suffocating and that consciousness was ebbing away as my vision faded.
Similarly, I roared like you did.
But what followed this was truly horrific, an experience that I will never forget.
At the moment the purging stopped, looking back, and describing it now, if felt as though my soul had just broken.
I can only describe it as the point at which someone has experienced such physical and mental torture, that the soul splits open to let out its light.
It felt like something had snapped. It felt at the time, that there was no coming back from this, I was done!
My mouth hung open, as I started into nothingness, limp and lifeless on the floor.
Over the next hour or so, my faculties and analytical mind started to come 'back on line'.
I was able to categorise the feeling, and could see how it relates to child abuse, and how subconsciously, it can be passed down the generational line, encoded into acts of rage and depravity.
Each act, laying a seed, which grows in the dark, only to be manifested as further acts of abuse, both to the self and others.
Although this reasoning and understanding gave me context, why it thrust me into such a horrific experience when (as far as I know), I haven't suffered any kind of sexual child abuse, is something I really don't know.
It still left me feeling quite numb to this day.
Do you still speak to your parents ?
@@tulinbeyduz920 . My Dad died last month of covid 19. My mum is still alive but has dimentia.
We haven't really been that close though, and it's always been difficult to communicate with them as neither of them would think as deep as me.
I did talk to them about my experience as a means to understand what I went through. Neither of them could offer any information about my past which may explain it.
Sometimes that's just the way it is.
thescooble I’m sorry about your father dying . My condolences. My mother was a sociopathic narcissist and my father schizophrenic. He passed 5 years ago . He was a kind man but not well . My mother has no idea of the pain she inflicted on me . Me and my sister spent 10 years in foster care . I think you will find a lot of the pain we experience we block some of it out . I’m not sure why we have to go through such painful experiences . My foster mother that took Care of me was also narcissistic. She never hugged me and constantly made me feel not wanted . I’ve since lifer New Zealand and started a new life in Australia . A very painful journey indeed . I’m on Instagram Tulin Beyduz :) me my animals and my beautiful daughter
Thank you for sharing your experience. I have been considering doing this but have been nervous. My eldest daughter who was only 31 died on the 8 May, 2020. It was suddenly. She had addiction issues and was in a very abusive relationship. The person she was in the relationship with contributed to her death. I just can’t move forward.. I’m living with guilt and regret for not doing more, or not doing enough. My soul is heavy and I feel I have nothing to look forward to in life. I have another daughter Lisa, who I love very much. And I know I have to be strong for her. She has high functioning autism. My daughter Sarah who died was very close to me. We were friends and mother and daughter. She was my confidant, and sometimes became the mother at times when I was unwell. She looked out for me all the time and told me always she loved me. I miss her dearly and don’t know how I am to continue with my life. Maybe this treatment would help me. I am worried about the fear within me while doing this. I would really appreciate your comments. Thank you! Diane
An awesome 20 Minutes testimony, brilliantly exposed and full of deeply educational concepts. Thank you so much for bringing up to reality the so subtle area of the subconscious. It's precious.
Beautiful, thanks for sharing
Going to a 23 days retreat that includes yoga, meditation and dieta in Peru next week. My own work is similar to yours, I started with underground MDMA therapy, mushrooms and now working with Ayahuasca. I have worked 3 times with Aya now before leaving and I had similar visions with the feathers on the skin and of course re-experiencing the trauma, allowing anger is very important in my opinion, because it allows these energies created during self-abandonment to be transmuted into a sense of pride. I find that the self-therapy "internal family system" is synergestic with psychedelic therapy. If you don't know about it, it is a proces for meeting the cognitive parts inside us and re-parent ourselves. Check "Self-Therapy: A Step-By-Step Guide to Creating Wholeness and Healing Your Inner Child Using IFS, A New, Cutting-Edge Psychotherapy" if this process interests you.
I was raised by a sociopathic, narcissistic mother and a schizophrenic father . And then ten years of foster care and my foster mother was a narcissist too . I don’t feel I could of gone through this emotional abuse again . Me and my twin sister have been through so much . We are planning on doing ayahuasca as boy of us suffer from anxiety and also panic attacks . Amazingly my life has turned out well but I still struggle with the trauma and pain I went through . Ayahuasca and San Pedro looks to be the go . Thank you .
thank you for your testimonial. It is so wonderful that you are a neuroscientist with such self awarness. I am thinking about going through Ayahuasca experience, i am just waiting for my perfect timing.
It's so helpful to hear these intense and complex experiences being communicated back to the 'real world' in such a clear way. When science meets psychedelics... this is the shit
Happy happy rest of your life James, well done, could do with it myself, much love and continual awareness of self, jinny
Respect 🙏🏾 thanks for being you man!
"When it comes to protecting the vulnerable, there needs to be a zero tolerance policy."
"You can simultaneously have compassion and be firm and draw borders." Yes 🤍⚖️🖤
Thank you so much wonderful being.
I have a question, your camera and microphone seems great. Will you please share which one you’re using?
Thank you for the kind words 😊 the camera is a Logitech C920 and the mic is a Blue Yeti, I've been very happy with both.
Dr. James Cooke oh wow, Logitech C920 is actually what I’ve been looking at, and I already have a Blue Yeti! 😀 thank you!
My ceremony was last week. So much of what you’ve shared resonates. Thank your for this video.
Homerun! Omg, thank you so much for sharing this story. I am so happy for you!
Thank you for such a vivid testimony on your experience. I've not taken the ayahuasca however, when you were describing it, I could feel it in my stomach! I'm so happy you're healing nicely, I'm convinced should give myself the cleansing I need as my early life is similar to what you've described. Peace and Blessings from Texas USA ♡♡♡
Wow! You sound like such an understanding, sweet guy. Glad you felt you was finally able to stand up for yourself. All the best.
Bloody hell. You just perfectly described how I felt during my own childhood. The form of the abuse was different, but I experienced the same physical freezing, being unable to show any negative emotion, which has built up over decades and caused me to be in extremely poor health; and the need to make up for it now later in life by venting those emotions through crying etc. Very affirming to have someone articulate all this deeply personal and upsetting shit so plainly and honestly. I'm really glad that you're doing so well in recovering from your trauma. Well done.
Thank you for your kind words, I'm so glad it resonated. It means a huge amount to me to hear of others like yourself who went through something similar, it's wonderful to not feel alone with it since that feeling of isolation can often be at the core of the trauma.
Your courage is an inspiration.
Thank you so much for your thoughtful, concise way of sharing your experience. Youre description and articulation of both the trauma and the healing was enlightening. I have a similiar story and have also had some profound healing experiences and just appreciated your ability to share yours in an uplifting fashion. I look forward to checking out your channel.
James, well done - such a calm, erudite and clear narrative of the power of the healing plants. On a personal note - your journey wuth narcissism is very similar to my own - boy you made me laugh with the baseball bat story! Many many years ago on my first attempt at a 'hug your inner child' exercise, I was appalled to find my 5 year old self taking a baseball bat to my adoptive mother.! I was horrified. Narcissusm was not a topic either clearly defined nor openly spoken about at that time. As a child of narcissistic parenting I had no concept of healthy boundaries nor what constituted abuse. Needless to say, I went on to marry a narcissist. Years of therapy and self work were a first step in the healing process, but the power of the healing plants has been exponential. Fast forward 20 years and I now hold space and facilitate shamen journeys - something I could never have conceived as a disempowered adult child. I'm delighted to see more and more westerners realising the wisdom behind this traditional healing process. Long may big pharma be kept out of the loop.
That's incredible, thank you so much for sharing your story.
Wow this was so powerful!! So happy for you to have experienced such amazing healing. Thank you for sharing!
“I took on this perpetuation of the abandonment and neglect of (myself as) this physical organism.”
Thank you for sharing your story. 🙏
I'm so sorry u was so abused and unprotected hun. I wish I could have protected u, give thanks God has brought u thru, and his wonderful plant medicine
really...
hi
I had similar childhood trauma to yours.
You have given me some really good ideas.
Thank you!
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Im a psychologist & during college experimented with LSD, Psilocybin, Mescalin, MDMA & DMT. I didnt use these substances in a recreational way by going to a music festival & so forth. I was very curious on the neurological impact of these chemicals & their effect on consciousness, specifically the introspective nature of the experiences - for a psychologist it simply doesnt get better than that. I think they played a substantial role in my studies & provided insight I would never have been able to get without their use. It totally transformed my perception of consciousness & made me a better psychologist overall. When I read about Jung's concepts of the "Anima" & "Animus" (male & female energy) & discover a female entity in a psychedelic experience i know im talking to a part of myself that is hidden from view in ordinary consciousness & it puts Jung's concepts into perspective. Of course theres no way that we can objectively know if Jung was correct, but the fact that males tend to engage with female entities they perceive as mother earth, female energy of the cosmos or whatever & females tend to experience male entities they perceive as a god of sort is fascinating & exactly what Jung spoke of. Without psychedelics we hamper our understanding of ourselves & cannot develop our theories fully
TS Thanks for sharing. What do you think of ACT and CBT therapies?
@@tiaan7032 Thanks for your unique and interesting perspective. I found what you wrote fascinating, even that part about Anima and Animus. Your patients are lucky to have someone like you who goes the extra mile (literally) to help patients. We could all use someone like you.
@@amylee9 I explained it pretty poorly due to being youtube comment & writing it in 20 secs or so, but you get the point. Research Jung's Anima & Animus its very interesting & there are many psychology videos on youtube delving deeper into the nature of Jung's concepts as observed during psychedelic states. Lets just say its no coincidence males tend to have more encounters with female entities & females the opposite
That's interesting. I wonder if that mother-father perceptions have anything to do with the vital energies we have. In Eastern spiritual traditions it's said the male and female essence come together at the conception and they reside in the lower chakra (female) and top chakra (male) thereafter until our death when they merge in our heart and leave the body from there. It would be interesting to see if the perceptions (earth-god) Jung wrote about have anything to do with the energy gender polarity.
@@Losang8 I think this article might be of use ejop.psychopen.eu/index.php/ejop/article/view/401/html
with people like you and the caliber of your intention we can factually change and return to our natural ways of being.
i appreciate and i have savored your video intimately.
in a way, my wet dream for our collective was to hear open minded key professions to try connecting to their reality of Self.
i say professions because i get a sense that neuroscience is one of your authentic flow masks which you use to relate to the rest of our masks or games as i like to call them. when all games connect, they realize the amplitude of bliss embedded in what we call God's Creation, although even this does not bring honor to what life really is.
sending toruses of love and gratitude, irrespective of our linear time :)
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