My mom is amazing, but my dad wasn’t around much. The quote “as a daughter, I forgive you. But as a mother, I will never understand” is something I could scream from the mountains. All we can do is be the parent to our kids that our parents weren’t to us and that’s how you break the curse. ❤
I'm in the same boat as you. But dad was around, sometimes, just physically, emotionally an mentally abus!ve. My step dad stepped up and raised me as his own. Now being a mom I think the trauma is worse for me. Its the feeling of "why wasn't I good enough". My dad got a nice slap in the face once he heard that I named my son after my REAL dad who raised me to be the person an mother I am today.
One of the best things that TikTok has helped a lot of us discover is Momma Tot. It’s not often that southerners are seen and it’s rare that women with stories like hers get heard.
To have experienced so much pain, throughout her entire life, so much loss, so much heartache, so much grief, so much trauma, so much suffering, including the worst possible pain and loss a human being can ever experience- the loss of a child- and to still be able to say “I have a good life” after all of that? That’s fucking strength. Absolutely unmatched strength, perseverance, and optimism. Nobody wants to be strong like that, and I wouldn’t wish that kind of strength on my worst enemy because of what has to happen in your life to force you into that strength, but if anybody has it, it’s Ophelia Nichols. So many people would break under the weight of a lifetime of traumas piling up, even with all the good in between. I’m not too prideful to admit there’s no doubt in my mind that I’m one of them. This woman is an inspiration the likes of which we haven’t seen in a very long time. She’s endlessly kind, compassionate, empathetic, and loving. She just exudes love and peace and comfort from her very soul. I’m not religious anymore and I’m not delusional enough to think anyone is perfect, but Ophelia Nichols is truly angelic. The closest I’ve seen to the WWJD mentality that a lot of Christians claim to follow but never actually seem to. She models what it is to be a good Christian in a way that I haven’t even seen from pastors. It’s enough to make me reconsider my distance from religion, and to restore a little faith in humanity. And isn’t that the entire point of being a Christian trying to witness to people? To be such a reflection of Christ in your everyday life that you lead people to him without ever needing to say a word about religion at all, instead of pushing them away with your judgment and contempt and hatred? She accomplishes that without ever even saying the word God, while so many Christians actually trying to witness to others can’t do it while quoting straight from scripture or actively trying to entice people into their religion.
I would give ANYTHING to give all 3 of you a BIG hug!!! 😫🥹💗 So much love for you guys! I’ve followed Paige since before she popped off on TikTok and MamaTot since I joined TikTok, and I followed Cyndi maybe like a year or 2 ago! So much love for you guys! I look up to you 3 and my best friend so much, I strive to be like you guys one day and have a platform to help people and reach people to make them smile! ❤🙏🏼
I’ve been working so hard for 4 years to grow my page and be something on TikTok and I get so hurt and devastated cause I compare my page to others pages who are taking off and doing so well for themselves and their families and I want that so much, but stuff like this makes me kinda glad I haven’t blown up and gained that big of a following cause people are so cruel and I don’t think I could be as strong as you guys! ❤
I heard her say several times… the word alleged and everyone needs to really think about this… that right there… that woman is the most Godly woman I have ever met. If you didn’t love her before this you definitely would now after hearing this! 💕💕💕
The mom talk is what I been dealing with for years, I’m not a mama yet but I’m a teacher and I teach the age I saw my mom battle with addiction. I been called bitter before by her but I am a whole different person when I’m with her. My students are my babies and I love them so much and I think to myself I hope they are safe and loved at home. I love my step mom and dad very much. But I am very thankful for the women in my life to treat me what love is from a mama
You ladies are so lovely. I was having a really bad day today here in Melbourne Australia and this made me remember that there is more good than bad in this world. Love to you all. 🩷🩷
I've been waiting on this one! MamaTot, Cindy, and Paige, you are each moms who Inspire me. MamaTot, you're a beautiful person inside and out and you've helped me in ways you'll never know!
Fantastic conversation. You Mamas are excellent souls and I appreciate you sharing your stories. MamaTot I love you and wanted to say you blow me away in the best way. Thank you. Truly, I send you a true southern…thank you. ❤
I felt this but with my dad I lived domestic violence all my childhood until I got married and moved out & I am a grown adult I’ve two girls & omg I can’t even picture my kids going through the hell i went. My husband is an amazing dad and I feel like I am healing my inner child watching my kids have the family I never did ❤️🩹
My brother was shot as well by a drive by shooting.. He was three hours away from us at the time, with some of his friends riding their motorcycle. A young guy came by and shot him in the head.. he held on until we got there and a few days later he held on but there was no chance.. his daughter was only 4 years old. We had the trial a year ago, and he only got 4 years in prison.. we had footage, gun shot residue, dna… witnesses but it wasn’t enough. He still got to talk to his family and things like that. He’s getting out this year which sucks.. but everyone was wanting a death penalty and we just see that as an easy way out.. like it don’t matter cuz it will never ever bring Kyle back. The trial wasn’t as you see on the movies, jury people were falling asleep.. the judge was falling asleep.. there was missing evidence, so many things. We were threatened by some of the members of the guys gang. Not even to mention, we had so many issues with my brothers friends robbing his house.. fighting over his things.. being able to see my niece. It’s just crazy.. I’m so sorry for your loss.. truly am, my family and I understand.. he was at the wrong place at the wrong time. In addition, what really sucks, is how time just passes like the world don’t slow down for you.. it just keeps flying by.. I love you all so much🫶🏼
I've been so fortunate to not have any of these life stories but have been so blessed to have Mamatot on my daily list of prayers and posts😘 The three of you have made such a great memory in making this podcast ❤
This podcast 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻 you all are helping the WORLD! I am a mom of 4 and a stepmom of 3 and life is harrrrddddd, often times I feel alone, but you all have made my feelings normal. This is amazing, you all are pulling me out of some dark places because I don't have a village... I have my husband and that's all. Thank you so much for this.
Yes that’s how it is with my mother I tried for years to get adopted to a new family I was DESPERATE as calling CPS and even getting turned down by them I thought something was wrong with me😢 my mom tries to hug and kiss me it just feels so weird and just yuck. I’m so traumatized that I’ve been with my children’s father for 7 years and it feels so weird being with him. I felt the same like getting anxiety not knowing what kind of mom I have. It was just so many ups and downs. I’m so on the edge of forgiving my mom and letting my kids have contact cause they love her or delete her out our lives 😭 cause mentally I’m so done. I love this podcast so much. I do the same I thank GOD for giving me two daughters ❤ I love on them and give them so much , I’m hurting still but my children are healing me.
My aunt was mom for me. My mother chose men over me. I was thrown into foster care from the time I was age 5 til I was 12. My aunt found me and got guardianship of me and raised me the rest of the way. As an adult I got back in contact with my dad he lives with me and I take care of him. I reached out to my mother not once but twice and it blew up in my face I can't do that anymore
Another motherless woman here. My grandma is my "mama" funny how we find our people after such let down you women have helped so many including myself ♥️♥️♥️ hope you all have a wonderful holiday season 🧑🎄
I can kind of relate to Paige to the step mom thing. My mom and dad only dated then got pregnant with me both got into relationships while my mom was pregnant with me. My step mom was also pregnant with my sister at the same time. So my step mom has been there since before I was born. Back in 2020 1 month before I gave birth to my 2nd baby out of no where my dad messages me telling me they were getting a divorce the whole process had started Dec of 2019 but I didn't get told til Sept of 2020 I was devastating bcuz my step mom had been in my life since I was born. I started my life living full time with my mom and visiting my dad on weeks and vacations til I graduated 5th grade that summer I started living full time with my dad bcuz my mom moved several states away and I didn't want to move there so she allowed me to switch I became closer to my step mom than my dad so when they slit I was hard on me at 1st she did delete me off Facebook and everything but after like a month she added me back and apologized we still talk occasionally when we take our family vacations bcuz we dont live by family I make sure to visit with her it's like nothing changed even tho they aren't together and my dad remarried I have no relationship with my new step mom bcuz I was kind of grossed out with the relationship bcuz she's my age
I loved this episode ❤ Paige I’m from Sherman and recently found out you’re from Texoma! I love all your content and am about to binge all these episodes!
I think most all moms are the non they needed. Yet sometimes that is not the mom that the child needs. When that happens the circle keeps continuing. They then be the mom they needed. That’s great! The sad thing is when that is not the mom the kid wants a and they can’t see that it is the best they could have done. I believe for the most part unless a person has mental illness or something they are doing the best they can. We all try the best we can from what we know. Hugs to anybody who feels pained they didn’t get the mom that they needed.
I was pregnant at 17 i have such a similar situation with my mom and my step mom grooming and abusing me. Thankfully i got away and still am with the father of both of my children after 13 years. Also my first born son is named Cole. I have a daughter named ivy as well... No offense with demps her biggest hate is always out drinking and leaving her kid with sitters and she vocalize it. Loge her... but I feel ahe needs to pit her daughter first before a job and socials.
❤mama tot,i got about 30 blu jay feathers i bring to my son hes almost 7 by the way, just cuz they're pretty.where i work we have lots of different birds around.i keep them in a little vase all pretty.and im gunna keep em that way for you too.❤
I had to cut my own mother off for a similar experience, it helps me feel better knowing I’m not alone and that I didn’t make a bad decision when I did that. Thank you Mama tot for giving me the comfort and helping me grieve someone who’s still alive 🫶🏼
My mom is amazing, but my dad wasn’t around much. The quote “as a daughter, I forgive you. But as a mother, I will never understand” is something I could scream from the mountains. All we can do is be the parent to our kids that our parents weren’t to us and that’s how you break the curse. ❤
I'm in the same boat as you. But dad was around, sometimes, just physically, emotionally an mentally abus!ve. My step dad stepped up and raised me as his own. Now being a mom I think the trauma is worse for me. Its the feeling of "why wasn't I good enough". My dad got a nice slap in the face once he heard that I named my son after my REAL dad who raised me to be the person an mother I am today.
One of the best things that TikTok has helped a lot of us discover is Momma Tot. It’s not often that southerners are seen and it’s rare that women with stories like hers get heard.
To have experienced so much pain, throughout her entire life, so much loss, so much heartache, so much grief, so much trauma, so much suffering, including the worst possible pain and loss a human being can ever experience- the loss of a child- and to still be able to say “I have a good life” after all of that? That’s fucking strength. Absolutely unmatched strength, perseverance, and optimism.
Nobody wants to be strong like that, and I wouldn’t wish that kind of strength on my worst enemy because of what has to happen in your life to force you into that strength, but if anybody has it, it’s Ophelia Nichols. So many people would break under the weight of a lifetime of traumas piling up, even with all the good in between. I’m not too prideful to admit there’s no doubt in my mind that I’m one of them.
This woman is an inspiration the likes of which we haven’t seen in a very long time. She’s endlessly kind, compassionate, empathetic, and loving. She just exudes love and peace and comfort from her very soul. I’m not religious anymore and I’m not delusional enough to think anyone is perfect, but Ophelia Nichols is truly angelic. The closest I’ve seen to the WWJD mentality that a lot of Christians claim to follow but never actually seem to. She models what it is to be a good Christian in a way that I haven’t even seen from pastors. It’s enough to make me reconsider my distance from religion, and to restore a little faith in humanity. And isn’t that the entire point of being a Christian trying to witness to people? To be such a reflection of Christ in your everyday life that you lead people to him without ever needing to say a word about religion at all, instead of pushing them away with your judgment and contempt and hatred?
She accomplishes that without ever even saying the word God, while so many Christians actually trying to witness to others can’t do it while quoting straight from scripture or actively trying to entice people into their religion.
Well said. I pray that people see my faith through how I love them. Ophelia is such a gift.
I would give ANYTHING to give all 3 of you a BIG hug!!! 😫🥹💗 So much love for you guys! I’ve followed Paige since before she popped off on TikTok and MamaTot since I joined TikTok, and I followed Cyndi maybe like a year or 2 ago! So much love for you guys! I look up to you 3 and my best friend so much, I strive to be like you guys one day and have a platform to help people and reach people to make them smile! ❤🙏🏼
Oh man, I’m getting to the baby child part, my heart! 😢
Love Her!!❤🙏
I’ve been working so hard for 4 years to grow my page and be something on TikTok and I get so hurt and devastated cause I compare my page to others pages who are taking off and doing so well for themselves and their families and I want that so much, but stuff like this makes me kinda glad I haven’t blown up and gained that big of a following cause people are so cruel and I don’t think I could be as strong as you guys! ❤
I did not know tonight I’d be cryin over feathers but I’m sobbing
I heard her say several times… the word alleged and everyone needs to really think about this… that right there… that woman is the most Godly woman I have ever met. If you didn’t love her before this you definitely would now after hearing this! 💕💕💕
The mom talk is what I been dealing with for years, I’m not a mama yet but I’m a teacher and I teach the age I saw my mom battle with addiction. I been called bitter before by her but I am a whole different person when I’m with her. My students are my babies and I love them so much and I think to myself I hope they are safe and loved at home. I love my step mom and dad very much. But I am very thankful for the women in my life to treat me what love is from a mama
Mama tot and Cindy's videos helped me get through my moms death. Forever thankful ❤
You ladies are so lovely. I was having a really bad day today here in Melbourne Australia and this made me remember that there is more good than bad in this world. Love to you all. 🩷🩷
Hey Cyndi! Imagine my surprise seeing you on my RUclips feed all the way in South Korea. So excited for you!
I’m so sorry for the pain that this relationship with your mom has caused!
I just happened to find this podcast…..this comment is for pushing this in the algorithm….what a treat!
Mamatot you being so vulnerable is so beautiful I have followed you since the beginning and your family have been in my prayers everyday❤
This podcast is where I find my peace!❤I love you all so much. Thank you for putting all the work into this podcast, it’s amazing.
I've been waiting on this one! MamaTot, Cindy, and Paige, you are each moms who Inspire me. MamaTot, you're a beautiful person inside and out and you've helped me in ways you'll never know!
came for momma tot come on my fyp and def became a new fan of yall omg. yall are wonderful mothers you can so tell.
Fantastic conversation. You Mamas are excellent souls and I appreciate you sharing your stories. MamaTot I love you and wanted to say you blow me away in the best way. Thank you. Truly, I send you a true southern…thank you. ❤
MamaTot is the absolute BEST!!!!
This podcast was incredibly healing for me and I know for many others. Thank you for being such beautiful and pure souls ❤️
I absolutely enjoyed this episode! The topic of your mothers hits home so much for me
The blue jay feather is crazy like you can’t take something that falls on the ground what I’m Soo shocked that’s a stupid law
I LOVE MAMA TOT
I`m now reading green light., And it is very good .
Wow ! This was the best podcast I've ever watched !!!!! God bless you all y'all have made a difference ! ❤❤❤❤
I love that all of you are in pajamas kicking back on the couch like a group of best friends that's having a sleep over!!!
I love the vibes … everyone wearing PJ love it!!!! Amazing ladies 🙏🏻❤️ thank you!!
I felt this but with my dad I lived domestic violence all my childhood until I got married and moved out & I am a grown adult I’ve two girls & omg I can’t even picture my kids going through the hell i went. My husband is an amazing dad and I feel like I am healing my inner child watching my kids have the family I never did ❤️🩹
I love me some Luke Combs and Cody Johnson!
My brother was shot as well by a drive by shooting.. He was three hours away from us at the time, with some of his friends riding their motorcycle. A young guy came by and shot him in the head.. he held on until we got there and a few days later he held on but there was no chance.. his daughter was only 4 years old. We had the trial a year ago, and he only got 4 years in prison.. we had footage, gun shot residue, dna… witnesses but it wasn’t enough. He still got to talk to his family and things like that. He’s getting out this year which sucks.. but everyone was wanting a death penalty and we just see that as an easy way out.. like it don’t matter cuz it will never ever bring Kyle back. The trial wasn’t as you see on the movies, jury people were falling asleep.. the judge was falling asleep.. there was missing evidence, so many things. We were threatened by some of the members of the guys gang. Not even to mention, we had so many issues with my brothers friends robbing his house.. fighting over his things.. being able to see my niece. It’s just crazy.. I’m so sorry for your loss.. truly am, my family and I understand.. he was at the wrong place at the wrong time. In addition, what really sucks, is how time just passes like the world don’t slow down for you.. it just keeps flying by.. I love you all so much🫶🏼
I’m so sorry for your loss. God Bless
I've been so fortunate to not have any of these life stories but have been so blessed to have Mamatot on my daily list of prayers and posts😘 The three of you have made such a great memory in making this podcast ❤
For anyone who can cause pain and suffering to a grieving mother is just sick and needs to be evaluated. This poor lady, my heart breaks 💔💔💔💔
How does this not have more views!!! I love all y'all so much 💞
Thank you ladies !
IVE BEEN WAITINGGGGGG FOR THISSSSS ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I LOVE ALL OF YOU OMGGGG
This podcast 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻 you all are helping the WORLD! I am a mom of 4 and a stepmom of 3 and life is harrrrddddd, often times I feel alone, but you all have made my feelings normal. This is amazing, you all are pulling me out of some dark places because I don't have a village... I have my husband and that's all. Thank you so much for this.
Yes that’s how it is with my mother I tried for years to get adopted to a new family I was DESPERATE as calling CPS and even getting turned down by them I thought something was wrong with me😢 my mom tries to hug and kiss me it just feels so weird and just yuck. I’m so traumatized that I’ve been with my children’s father for 7 years and it feels so weird being with him. I felt the same like getting anxiety not knowing what kind of mom I have. It was just so many ups and downs. I’m so on the edge of forgiving my mom and letting my kids have contact cause they love her or delete her out our lives 😭 cause mentally I’m so done. I love this podcast so much. I do the same I thank GOD for giving me two daughters ❤ I love on them and give them so much , I’m hurting still but my children are healing me.
Best episode 🥰🥰 thank you all ❤
Just love mama Tot such a fan. Great interview!
Love you momma tot!!
My aunt was mom for me. My mother chose men over me. I was thrown into foster care from the time I was age 5 til I was 12. My aunt found me and got guardianship of me and raised me the rest of the way. As an adult I got back in contact with my dad he lives with me and I take care of him. I reached out to my mother not once but twice and it blew up in my face I can't do that anymore
Such a good episode!!
Breaking the cycle by being a wonderful mother is huge.
Another motherless woman here. My grandma is my "mama" funny how we find our people after such let down you women have helped so many including myself ♥️♥️♥️ hope you all have a wonderful holiday season 🧑🎄
i lost my brother 2 months after she lost her son and mamatot got me thru some dark days. 😢
I am so excited for this love all three of you so much❤❤❤❤❤ can't wait until I can be a mom or that I even get the chance
Relate so much to all 😢❤
I can kind of relate to Paige to the step mom thing. My mom and dad only dated then got pregnant with me both got into relationships while my mom was pregnant with me. My step mom was also pregnant with my sister at the same time. So my step mom has been there since before I was born. Back in 2020 1 month before I gave birth to my 2nd baby out of no where my dad messages me telling me they were getting a divorce the whole process had started Dec of 2019 but I didn't get told til Sept of 2020 I was devastating bcuz my step mom had been in my life since I was born. I started my life living full time with my mom and visiting my dad on weeks and vacations til I graduated 5th grade that summer I started living full time with my dad bcuz my mom moved several states away and I didn't want to move there so she allowed me to switch I became closer to my step mom than my dad so when they slit I was hard on me at 1st she did delete me off Facebook and everything but after like a month she added me back and apologized we still talk occasionally when we take our family vacations bcuz we dont live by family I make sure to visit with her it's like nothing changed even tho they aren't together and my dad remarried I have no relationship with my new step mom bcuz I was kind of grossed out with the relationship bcuz she's my age
I loved this episode ❤ Paige I’m from Sherman and recently found out you’re from Texoma! I love all your content and am about to binge all these episodes!
I love you all so much. Y'all are amazing mommas!
I think most all moms are the non they needed. Yet sometimes that is not the mom that the child needs. When that happens the circle keeps continuing. They then be the mom they needed. That’s great! The sad thing is when that is not the mom the kid wants a and they can’t see that it is the best they could have done. I believe for the most part unless a person has mental illness or something they are doing the best they can. We all try the best we can from what we know. Hugs to anybody who feels pained they didn’t get the mom that they needed.
Man. Yall sound like my mom and I and my kids. 😢
Mama tot, I LOVE woody harrelson. He’s from where I grew up and live. He’s a fox. ❤😂
Thank you! 😂😂😂
Honestly we should be making pages to be loving positivity encouragement caring and compassionate
I’m not a mom and I most likely will never be one but I love it here. You ladies have made such a safe space, I can listen all day. ❤
I wish I opened up more about my life but I’m so scared of all the hate .
I was pregnant at 17 i have such a similar situation with my mom and my step mom grooming and abusing me. Thankfully i got away and still am with the father of both of my children after 13 years. Also my first born son is named Cole. I have a daughter named ivy as well...
No offense with demps her biggest hate is always out drinking and leaving her kid with sitters and she vocalize it. Loge her... but I feel ahe needs to pit her daughter first before a job and socials.
❤mama tot,i got about 30 blu jay feathers i bring to my son hes almost 7 by the way, just cuz they're pretty.where i work we have lots of different birds around.i keep them in a little vase all pretty.and im gunna keep em that way for you too.❤
I had to cut my own mother off for a similar experience, it helps me feel better knowing I’m not alone and that I didn’t make a bad decision when I did that. Thank you Mama tot for giving me the comfort and helping me grieve someone who’s still alive 🫶🏼
My bonus babies have a very similar story . And I pray they feel the same way about me as adults . 🥹
I’m not a mom and I most likely will never be one but I love it here. You ladies have made such a safe space, I can listen all day. ❤