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    Expectations will be the death of me
    From day one we are told what is expected of us,
    Conform, go to school, get the grades
    You have to be the best, no room to screw up
    We put our fate in the control of others and wait to be judged
    Define ourselves by grades and numbers, forever believing that we’re not good enough
    because our actions do not match our expectations.
    We are expected to know what we want to do for the rest of our lives at the age of just sixteen
    despite up until that point, having no real life experiences,
    I mean how could we, at what point were we given the opportunity?
    The opportunity to grow as individuals, discover ourselves, live free from scrutiny
    From day one it is drilled into our heads that our main goal in life, is stability and financial security.
    Anything else is time wasted.
    Teachers will tell us that if you want success in this life then you need to go to university
    It doesn’t matter if it doesn’t feel right right now,
    Cos once you’ve graduated things will become clear.
    6 years on and I find myself here.
    Thoughts about my future terrify me
    I can’t sleep, or eat
    It’s the reason for my dark thoughts at night, the cause of my anxiety,
    Because I don’t have a 5 year plan, and for some reason that makes me feel guilty.
    See my biggest fear in life is to settle.
    Just the thought of it haunts me in my sleep,
    I’ve seen too many people give up and live a life full of regrets
    and I don’t want that to be me.
    To choose stability over your dreams is to let society win.
    And I can’t do that, I’m sorry.
    Get a 9-5 job, buy a house, get married before 30.
    work, eat, sleep repeat
    the average 21st century daily routine
    No passion or drive, we’re just living machines
    who’s only motivation in life is making enough money
    Ask yourself - Are you living or merely existing?
    I’m 22 yet I fear that I know very little about real stuff
    Like what the world looks like on the other side or how it feels to be in love
    To settle now, would be to give up on discovering who I really am, I want to learn and explore,
    If I don’t get lost now, how will I ever grow?
    And maybe I am wasting time, and nothing will come of it
    but I have to take that chance, I need to know for sure.
    I’m sorry but I cannot be what you want me to be
    cos to do that would be sacrificing everything that makes me me,
    and settling for a life where I’ll never truly be happy
    I’ve spent my whole life trying to please others, it gets tiring and lonely
    I am forever trapped by the expectations of society and I fear that I’ll never escape from this feeling.
    I am calm on the outside, but on the inside I am screaming.
    See despite how hard I try, I don’t know what I’m doing with my life,
    But my gut instinct tells me that the path you’ve got in mind,
    It isn’t right - atleast not for me
    My life should not be dictated by a degree I chose to do when I was sixteen
    because everyone around me told me that university was the right thing for me.
    I look back now and I can’t help but disagree.
    But the truth is, I say I have all these ambitions and dreams
    how I want to change the world, spread love and positivity
    but I fear soon I will have to face reality - I am a university graduate who stacks shelves for a living
    The doubts in my head will soon take over and the passion inside will die
    I’ll surrender to the pressure of society and settle for a comfortable life
    One with no passion, no hopes, no desires,
    Just the same old routine
    Never to know what it feels like, to be alive.

Комментарии • 454

  • @kelseymcadam7288
    @kelseymcadam7288 8 лет назад +735

    you may not have changed the whole world but you've changed mine

    • @af2954
      @af2954 6 лет назад +15

      this is the most precious comment ever

  • @metalmouth8082
    @metalmouth8082 8 лет назад +493

    every video I watch of hers about these poems, I cry.

    • @KAZ2Y5Destiel
      @KAZ2Y5Destiel 7 лет назад +31

      Me too. She says all the things that we feel but just are unable to put into words.

    • @mya-rhyannmorgan67
      @mya-rhyannmorgan67 6 лет назад

      Same

    • @ruchadesai5958
      @ruchadesai5958 6 лет назад +2

      She is like an emotional anchor for me..

  • @ladiieyannz5231
    @ladiieyannz5231 7 лет назад +279

    "I am calm on the outside, but on the inside I am screaming" 😞😞

    • @mahakdeepkohli9773
      @mahakdeepkohli9773 6 лет назад +2

      Poetry

    • @pepega8286
      @pepega8286 5 лет назад +2

      i ready this at the exact time she said it aha

    • @TE-em5kj
      @TE-em5kj 5 лет назад +1

      Elley Henderson Yeah me too hahahha

  • @Kulsum-12
    @Kulsum-12 7 лет назад +162

    Life is truly hard on teenagers, expected to make huge decisions about a life they've barely experienced yet. Being one myself, I feel all those pressures and love this video for its truth. Education will always be more important than my hobbies, because apparently hobbies are just a way to pass time. Does anyone realise the insult in the words "pass time"? As in it's life wasting away, unused. But what if my "pass time" is the only time I'm truly alive? Then will it be worthwhile?
    Anyways, loved the video and the way it made me feel. Thanks for the honesty!

    • @onlyhuman5669
      @onlyhuman5669 4 года назад +2

      Ikr, we're a a piece of life on this planet, whatever we do, time passes by anyway. It's best to live this life enjoying what we do, instead of suffering through it💞

  • @melpomale7525
    @melpomale7525 7 лет назад +98

    I feel as if you've just taken my words right out of my mouth.... I can't stop reminding you how beautiful your soul is...

  • @faulle8083
    @faulle8083 8 лет назад +182

    I'm only 11, and yet this hit me so hard. I look up to you. And these words are breathtaking.

    • @sknr.7389
      @sknr.7389 7 лет назад +3

      virthues same with me

    • @af2954
      @af2954 6 лет назад +12

      you're very mature to be 11, thank you for acting your age.

    • @_.Leo_.
      @_.Leo_. 5 лет назад +7

      Areebah .... but if he’s mature for his age, he’s not acting his age ..... -_-#

    • @gaypotato17yearsago5
      @gaypotato17yearsago5 4 года назад

      Areebah how are they mature for their age, they’re just smart

    • @btsarmy4ever935
      @btsarmy4ever935 4 года назад +1

      I am 10 and i am so relatable

  • @christinerichardson5885
    @christinerichardson5885 8 лет назад +383

    the words you speak. they r what I think, what I believe. u r defiantly relatable for me.

    • @christinerichardson5885
      @christinerichardson5885 8 лет назад +3

      I love your poetry. if ever I come across a reason to use it for school or something like that would you allow me to??

    • @ClickForTaz
      @ClickForTaz  8 лет назад +14

      Yeah sure thing!

    • @christinerichardson5885
      @christinerichardson5885 8 лет назад +7

      +ClickForTaz thank you!!!!

    • @zionsky6578
      @zionsky6578 7 лет назад +4

      Your are an inspiration, dont give in or "face reality" you see very clearly. Keep spreading love and positivity your not alone, you will definitely change the world and most certainly already have.

    • @elliechan2909
      @elliechan2909 6 лет назад

      Christine Richardson definitely*

  • @smhyuss3775
    @smhyuss3775 7 лет назад +81

    i feel like crying.. i cry silently at night EVERYDAY cuz it hurts and i cant keep it all in i failed last years exam .. i failed big time and life is getting harder everyday sm to hold on to and to let go

    • @fatumamusasaid1192
      @fatumamusasaid1192 4 года назад +5

      hannah hussain 3 yrs late but I hope life is treating you better now:)

    • @AinyAlam
      @AinyAlam 4 года назад +4

      Same......

    • @edepoops4484
      @edepoops4484 3 года назад +2

      How r u doing now??

  • @PeachyLiv
    @PeachyLiv 7 лет назад +52

    I am at loss of words.. My cheeks are stained with tears, so much pressure. Too much. I want to be free. From my parent's expectations, the whole world, I am NOT perfect. Yet there's nothing I can do to make the world believe that.

  • @thisdudesam4332
    @thisdudesam4332 7 лет назад +8

    "I dont have a 5 year plan, and that makes me feel guilty" - yup.. Thanks for creating this. Love how I've decided to pursue my inner being and the world delivers healing words.

  • @emd3987
    @emd3987 8 лет назад +147

    Expectations will be the death of me
    From day one we are told what is expected of us,
    Conform, go to school, get the grades
    You have to be the best, no room to screw up
    We put our fate in the control of others and wait to be judged
    Define ourselves by grades and numbers, forever believing that we’re not good enough
    because our actions do not match our expectations.
    We are expected to know what we want to do for the rest of our lives at the age of just sixteen
    despite up until that point, having no real life experiences,
    I mean how could we, at what point were we given the opportunity?
    The opportunity to grow as individuals, discover ourselves, live free from scrutiny
    From day one it is drilled into our heads that our main goal in life, is stability and financial security.
    Anything else is time wasted.
    Teachers will tell us that if you want success in this life then you need to go to university
    It doesn’t matter if it doesn’t feel right right now,
    Cos once you’ve graduated things will become clear.
    6 years on and I find myself here.
    Thoughts about my future terrify me
    I can’t sleep, or eat
    It’s the reason for my dark thoughts at night, the cause of my anxiety,
    Because I don’t have a 5 year plan, and for some reason that makes me feel guilty.
    See my biggest fear in life is to settle.
    Just the thought of it haunts me in my sleep,
    I’ve seen too many people give up and live a life full of regrets
    and I don’t want that to be me.
    To choose stability over your dreams is to let society win.
    And I can’t do that, I’m sorry.
    Get a 9-5 job, buy a house, get married before 30.
    work, eat, sleep repeat
    the average 21st century daily routine
    No passion or drive, we’re just living machines
    who’s only motivation in life is making enough money
    Ask yourself - Are you living or merely existing?
    I’m 22 yet I fear that I know very little about real stuff
    Like what the world looks like on the other side or how it feels to be in love
    To settle now, would be to give up on discovering who I really am, I want to learn and explore,
    If I don’t get lost now, how will I ever grow?
    And maybe I am wasting time, and nothing will come of it
    but I have to take that chance, I need to know for sure.
    I’m sorry but I cannot be what you want me to be
    cos to do that would be sacrificing everything that makes me me,
    and settling for a life where I’ll never truly be happy
    I’ve spent my whole life trying to please others, it gets tiring and lonely
    I am forever trapped by the expectations of society and I fear that I’ll never escape from this feeling.
    I am calm on the outside, but on the inside I am screaming.
    See despite how hard I try, I don’t know what I’m doing with my life,
    But my gut instinct tells me that the path you’ve got in mind,
    It isn’t right - atleast not for me
    My life should not be dictated by a degree I chose to do when I was sixteen
    because everyone around me told me that university was the right thing for me.
    I look back now and I can’t help but disagree.
    But the truth is, I say I have all these ambitions and dreams
    how I want to change the world, spread love and positivity
    but I fear soon I will have to face reality - I am a university graduate who stacks shelves for a living
    The doubts in my head will soon take over and the passion inside will die
    I’ll surrender to the pressure of society and settle for a comfortable life
    One with no passion, no hopes, no desires,
    Just the same old routine
    Never to know what it feels like, to be alive.

    • @diyavaya9302
      @diyavaya9302 8 лет назад +5

      THANKYOU SO MUCH FOR THIS

    • @ariiposa
      @ariiposa 7 лет назад +23

      Emily Grace all of the words for her poems are in the description......

    • @elainamcclendon5593
      @elainamcclendon5593 6 лет назад +1

      I Don't Know thanks.. I literally had no idea

  • @tofeeeeee1
    @tofeeeeee1 8 лет назад +29

    I've never related to something this much before. I'm depressed and I don't know why, my anxiety is crippling. When I think about the future I feel like throwing up. It's been a year since my graduation and I still work in retail with no social or love life. forced into uni even though I didn't really want to go.
    I just want to say that I'm really glad i found your video tonight.

    • @jesst9105
      @jesst9105 7 лет назад +4

      i feel exactly the same way. ive just graduated uni a few months back and im already sick of getting no where in my life. my plan is to save up and go travelling for a year do the things you want and have dreamed off. life is way too short to live with regrets.

  • @mrsperry5408
    @mrsperry5408 8 лет назад +16

    I've watched like 50 poetry videos and I am on the verge of tears TBH

  • @arshidobani3387
    @arshidobani3387 3 года назад +1

    I feel you Taz! Don’t give into those expectations, you’ve got this figured out. You have a 5-year plan and that is to live everyday and not be what society expects you to be!

  • @beecuzeyecan
    @beecuzeyecan 3 года назад +3

    There’s something about you! Your voice, the words you speak.
    You are so very rare, beautiful, talented and unique.
    I’m very much loving all your poetry. Gobsmacked wow!

  • @jennw.6508
    @jennw.6508 8 лет назад +50

    God all of this is so true. I have no idea what I'm doing with my life and it scares me so freaking much ...

  • @ritablake8456
    @ritablake8456 8 лет назад +3

    Hey, so I'm 21, recently graduated from an amazing university. This video is incredible, because I honestly thought I was the only one who thought this way. It's hard to think otherwise when you are surrounded by people telling you who you are or what you should be. Thank you, for understanding. Great video, honestly, amazing.

  • @Michelle-je9jk
    @Michelle-je9jk 8 лет назад +29

    I love this poetry so much I want people listen/read this I feel all the pressure so much and from teachers and parents expectations

  • @rebeckapetersen2941
    @rebeckapetersen2941 8 лет назад +4

    It's 2:30am where I am, I listen to you at times when I'm upset. It helps a lot. You're my inspiration. I love you so damn much.

  • @stanloonauglies9358
    @stanloonauglies9358 8 лет назад +3

    I literally have tears in my eyes right now.
    This poem is so amazing. You literally took every word out of my mouth. I have felt this way ever since I started high school. The whole thing with "You have to be best, perfect, and not slip down" mentality has fucked me up in so many ways. The thing you mentioned with "We let ourselfs get defined by grades and numbers is so true. I let grades define who I was. But not anymore. The first year in high school for me was hell. It was some sort of competition of grades. If you had all As you got praised for all the hard work. If you were average, well then you don't matter. I think this whole school system is messed up today. Is it even about learning anymore? Or is it a competition? We are like slaves for this awful society. We let society control us and we care what people think. It shouldn't be that way. Thats when we miss the opportunity to live our lives.

  • @krissygold5699
    @krissygold5699 8 лет назад +6

    all i typed in the search box was i hate myself and your video was the first to catch my eye.....i want to thank you so much for that video. i really feel better. To know I'm not the only one. I am watching all your videos right now.... Thank you for sharing your peaceful words.

  • @alycandy1721
    @alycandy1721 8 лет назад +17

    your Spoken Poems has help me to day I feel like that day by day even worst theses days. Your words inspire me . Thank you for those Spoken Poems

    • @ClickForTaz
      @ClickForTaz  8 лет назад +5

      +Aly Candy Thank you so much Aly, hope you feel better soon! x

  • @korneliapochec4074
    @korneliapochec4074 6 лет назад

    I am guessing you know how Spoken word poetry makes people feel. You show society that we do not need to be perfect, we can live our dreams or at least we can try. So much love for ya cos you are doin' great thing

  • @aiswarya3017
    @aiswarya3017 2 года назад

    Looking back on all these poerty... I can really see how much you have grown and can't be more proud 😭

  • @SEBOuni919
    @SEBOuni919 4 года назад +2

    you know what's even harder to manage than expectations from people? expectations from inside..

  • @jaredangelugloria7882
    @jaredangelugloria7882 3 года назад +1

    presented this poetry when i was 17 for a school activity. i chose this bc i find it sad and appealing.
    it has been 4 years now, im at my 20 and at this point i literally dont know what to do in my life. then i remembered this poetry, watching this again had me in tears, i never understood the message of this poetry the way i understood it today. it's like i can relate and understand each and every word, line, and stanza. esp with today's "new normal" cos of the pandemic, this poetry speaks more than volumes

  • @cherylcai1517
    @cherylcai1517 7 лет назад

    i'm on the verge of crying my eyes out in the middle of a quiet library. this really hit hard

  • @bhargavishukla4263
    @bhargavishukla4263 3 года назад

    I have been at my worst lately. Just like Taz when she posted this, I am 21, a law student and scared. This poem felt like Taz saying my story. I also started a RUclips channel this year and I just hope that I am as happy and successful in life as Taz is in some years. Lots of love. Thanks for this Taz

  • @joshualukasmaigana
    @joshualukasmaigana 8 лет назад +2

    You really drew it out of me, waters in the well.
    Very life-giving.

  • @dexdude60
    @dexdude60 7 лет назад +1

    whenever I'm sad I put on you spoken word play list and it makes me feel better. i just wanted to thank you for helping me through the tough times

  • @user-pv3up1gk8r
    @user-pv3up1gk8r 7 лет назад

    your poems just expresses what i and a lot of people feel and whenever i listen to your poems i just cry... thanks for making me feel not lonely and please keep writing

  • @christopherrobin3077
    @christopherrobin3077 6 лет назад

    I left England six years ago with these thoughts and feelings choking me to death. I've never looked back. I've been on a spiritual journey ever since. Keep putting it into words. That's what I do. :)

  • @seialofia
    @seialofia 6 лет назад

    i understand what you were saying. as a 16 year old, i am now becoming faced with the constant pressure of doing well this year so that i can get in to a good college or go to college. one of my triggers now is hearing the word college everyday in my household. i like you am a people pleaser. for as a long as i remember, i believed that if i made other people happy then i would be happy too. but for the past three years now it has made me feel more sad because of how i try to solve everyone's problems or just be the best person in order to make other people happy. a lot of people have been telling me that i need to take time for myself and it has been the hardest thing because i never learned to when i was little because of the fact that i want to please others. that's the reason why i get so warped and cry for the simple reason of maybe i pissed off that person when i really didn't. that's why i'm anxious all the time and afraid of social situations even though it seems like it's easy as pie for me. so thank you for this poem, and it makes me happy that there is someone out there who can relate to what i am feeling every day

  • @soniamendes9948
    @soniamendes9948 3 года назад +1

    I discovered u last Thursday and he been binge watching all ua videos..I'm 16 rn..I'm depressed,anxious and tired of listening to ppl telling me wt 2 b..I don't know what I wanna do or who I wanna b
    This video put all my feelings into words Taz tq❤

  • @lilliannanderson8951
    @lilliannanderson8951 7 лет назад

    Life hit hard in the worst way possible recently and I fell behind in my studies. I meant to go to summer school but I don't even have a place to call home at the moment so now I don't know if I'll be able to graduate highschool. This poem made my bawl because I'm feeling all this pressure to "do better" to graduate and go to college and "do better". I don't know what it means to "do better" because all I want to do is live but what is expected of me does not feel like living. So, thank you for this poem, it makes me feel like I'm not the only odd one out.

  • @abbiemart2
    @abbiemart2 5 лет назад

    I was told that my ELA final was going to be a slam poem. I changed my topic 6 times and each time, it got worse. I wasn’t happy with it. I wasn’t happy with myself.
    “Why can’t I write a poem? I can’t do anything.” I beat myself up about it and looked to RUclips for inspiration. You.
    I decided to write a poem about expectations. You were my inspiration. I only listened to the first line because I didn’t want to take your ideas. I wrote my own poem using your line.
    “Expectations will be the death of me.”
    My poem was the best in the class. I won first place and got the $50 prize.
    Thank you.

  • @bubbles5280
    @bubbles5280 4 года назад

    It's been years since I've seen this video. I told myself that I was going to change in 2015, I was going to work myself up and when I think I've reached that point, I was going to look back at this video and tell myself, " I've changed this, I've changed me for myself. " Coming back after scrolling, I see nobody but a grown version of the old me. I thought it would've been quicker but I am the least bit grateful that maybe, I am getting better. If you are reading this, anyone at all. It may take longer, it may fee like forever, but don't limit the time for yourself. It may take years on edge, years of your tears, blood, sweat and more; but it's only the journey you take, the decisions you make that will make a different. Don't give up, keep going. You'll get there.

  • @Maddy-ne4kt
    @Maddy-ne4kt 7 лет назад

    This inspired me to write a poem. I showed this to my parents. They didn't expect me to feel like this. I want to say thank you so much for putting what I feel and probably what everyone feels into words. You helped me so much.

  • @karlakarla4357
    @karlakarla4357 6 лет назад

    I teared up at every single one of your Spoken Word Poetry videos. They describe such deep feelings I have, but don't let out, but crying feels so freeing at the end and I'm very grateful for the positivity and awareness you spread. ❤️ You've got amazing talent and I'm really interested how you write these poems!

  • @LeaElfArt
    @LeaElfArt 6 лет назад +2

    Even though I struggle with anxiety and depression, and I have horrible thoughts and feelings a lot, I lean on Jesus, who gently and sweetly loves me, and tells me the truth of who I am, why I am here and that I am loved.

  • @r3I4x
    @r3I4x 5 лет назад

    Don’t know if you went to Harvard but you wearing that shirt really matches this poem. The enemy of every graduate of those types of schools is the lifelong pressure and expectations that follow after they leave.

  • @lyndsiewong5705
    @lyndsiewong5705 6 лет назад

    Honestly, this poem was so relatable, I want to cry.

  • @qiaotonglim6464
    @qiaotonglim6464 5 лет назад

    Your spoken word poetry are really straight to the point and detailed of expressing emotional pain felt from this pressurizing world/ society, and it is very true where I also felt the same.
    Right now, in the transition to adulthood, I'm forced to make decision between money or dream, and it is hard to choose between the tool to survive or the tool to being an actual alive human being. Honestly, I know I need to choose my dream, where I will be happy doing what I love, because I just can't make myself to give up on happiness, i don't think i can even live without it, it's my passion and my drive that keeps me going.... (sorry for writing too much) and thank you for all these poetry you have been uploading, it does make living feel less harder

  • @HalleShow
    @HalleShow 7 лет назад +4

    Tbh I feel like you speak well about the real deals of society.....Ever since I started listening to your words... I became in deep thought ever since. The of being in science class, talking about brains and their development. I realized I can only see and feel everything about me. i will see my birth and death over again..... you spoke to me. thank you

  • @ridac8802
    @ridac8802 8 лет назад +4

    i would absolutely love to see a spoken word poetry about solely educational expectations!
    btw, your words are honestly magical :))

  • @campbellthomas4782
    @campbellthomas4782 8 лет назад +1

    Beautifully written yet again. Poignant, thought provoking and current. I started stacking shelves, it's the most humble of beginnings that make us appreciate the smallest improvements in our lives though, and I'm a lot happier now. Keep on with your message of love and positivity. People are listening.

  • @e-radiance
    @e-radiance 7 лет назад

    I have been living off your voice off your poems for years...... im glad i finally found you

  • @maria901
    @maria901 5 лет назад

    Never settle. You say you're not changing lives but trust me you are

  • @getreadywithmaddie4656
    @getreadywithmaddie4656 7 лет назад

    I can't even describe what I'm feeling. This is exactly what I fear... The anxious thoughts that haunt me everyday. Thank you so much for this. Thank you for letting me know I'm not alone.

  • @alistairwinder5769
    @alistairwinder5769 6 лет назад +1

    The problem is that we trust those around us who are older to be wise to know what's best; yet they are full of hidden regret for following their own advice but can't see that saying the same thing will lead to the same for us.

  • @rubyjules167
    @rubyjules167 7 лет назад

    This is my favorite poem of yours. It's what I feel inside, and it's such a relief that you understand. I've come to understand that you are having a hard time, and I am greatly sorry. You're a strong woman, you are kind, and passionate. Whatever trial comes your way, I believe in you. You can do all things through him.

  • @lilydreams8761
    @lilydreams8761 5 лет назад

    So I woke up full of anxiety, panicking about the chemistry exam I have to appear tomorrow and then I watched this, *poof* I'm relieved. Your words are as beautiful as your soul

  • @hannahbaker7028
    @hannahbaker7028 7 лет назад +2

    I've never been more sad than this time in my life.I am only surrounded by fake people,fake friends that i just had a fight and swore to then i will never talk to them again.A brother that is in love with one of my "best friends" and is always on their side,a mother who doesnt know how to behave like a mother,the names she calls me,everything she does to me,the ways she hurts me everyday,i just don't want to say anything I'll regret but she is the worst mother there is.A father who one day is happy and all and the next doesnt want to say hi to me.My weight,i hate my body so much,i weight 128 pounds,but i am still so big and i dont understand it.I tried starving but i kept failing.All my childhood i had BDD,i was so embarrassed of my body that i wouldn't take my jacket off even if it was summer.My family having problems with money,and me not being eble to tell my friends i can't just take money and buy some clothes with them.My face,i am so ugly it hurts.I had crooked teeth all my life,i got braces but they are still bad,a huge scar in the middle of my forehead,an overbite,a big nose and i hate when ppl look at me from my side profile.Uneven lips that look so weird,my mouth is always open,when i close mu mouth there are lines on my chin,i don't know why,maybe my teeth ruined my whole mouth.I just have everything no one else has,i swear i dont know a person who has these things on their faces but me.My crush,i actually once thought he likes me even if he is way too good for me.He would look at me often and we used to text a lot,then he just stopped.He started ignoring me,then 2 days ago he was looking at me again and my friend saw him look really quick and then look away.He keeps sending mixed signals,and what's funny is that i actually love this guy.I loved him for 2-3 years and i can't forget him,but all he does is make me sad because when i think about someone like him liking someone like me i think that is impossible and i just want to cry.Why are the teen years so hard? why can't i just be happy for one day?
    nobody is going to read this anyway,no one cares

  • @Nicolebaruela
    @Nicolebaruela 6 лет назад

    i honestly really love this because this is just so relatable. i’m 17 and i’m scared that i chose the wrong course and that i’ll end up doing something i don’t like. i really love this poem because it talks about things that a lot of people don’t tell you or talk about. ❤️❤️❤️❤️thanks taz

  • @yulianas1145
    @yulianas1145 6 лет назад

    your poem is truly right . I'm 22 now , and feeling stuck .. Everyday I get to work 9-5 job with no feeling inside , no love , no life just keep working to make secure of financial stability for my future.. which is I dont know what will happen tough in the future, but now what I feeling in my present life is stuck and not a happy life 😭😔😟

  • @lauraallen5572
    @lauraallen5572 8 лет назад

    Taz, I just wanted to say thank-you. You have managed to word how I have felt so many times through out all of your spoken word videos. Sometimes it's so hard and so easy to think that no one else understands. Your videos have been a helpful reminder :) Keep posting cause it helps x

  • @arifatalukder2442
    @arifatalukder2442 6 лет назад +1

    watched this video 5 times now.....can't believe my eyes how many of us going through the same thoughts, same feelings and anxiety in life!

  • @derekmazer6496
    @derekmazer6496 3 года назад

    Wow, this was me.... it makes me sad now.... wish this video was around when I was starting out. It would have made me take a step back and think, and might have changed my direction in life.
    From high school I entered the Navy to serve as my grandfather did. 4 years later when my enlistment was up, I was “encouraged” to establish stability before I find someone to start a family. The problem was, I spent the next 25 years working for that stability and only in the past 5-6 years have I realized I wasted my life on my career. I am due to retire next year (if I choose to), but I will retire alone... no children, never married and not sure what to do now. I think I missed my opportunity for a family. Saddens me if I think about it to much.
    Thank you for the video... I know it’s 5 years after you posted it and you probably won’t even see this post... but it will be here anyway!!! 👍😊👍

  • @marjoriedimzon9162
    @marjoriedimzon9162 8 лет назад +2

    So much tears but i cant stop watching your videos.

  • @alexcheato6769
    @alexcheato6769 8 лет назад

    I watched it the other day and still cant stop thinking about it because it struck at my core. Thank you for this and amazing job!

  • @Sabirab33
    @Sabirab33 6 лет назад

    I recently graduated High School and am turning 18 in a month. This poem speaks to me.

  • @VikushBren
    @VikushBren 4 года назад +1

    You Are Amazing!! make me cry a little bit.. ❤️

  • @liskafly599
    @liskafly599 4 года назад +1

    i've seen and listen to this a couple years ago, when I was still at school and it so made sense to me, I totally felt it. I totally forgot about this video throughout the years and now I found it again. Now I am 21 years old and I feel it so much more. I am currently settling down, have a job my own flat and everything. But a couple moths ago I got really sick. And since then everything has changed for me. I still have my job, my flat, my friends, family and everything. But it's not enough. I feel like this is not what I want in life, this is not me anymore. Actually I'm not sure if that has ever been me. But I feel so stuck in all this. I don't know how to get out of it anymore, how to be myself again...

  • @ElaraGalexia
    @ElaraGalexia 7 лет назад

    I'm so impressed. The poetry you write is amazing, filled with so much emotion. I feel like you've found the words I haven't. Your words are so touching, and truthful. And I want to thank you, because I feel less alone now, with all my fears about my future and what people expect from me. You just said it. And never give up doing this.
    Thank you.

  • @noobie_mia97
    @noobie_mia97 6 лет назад

    taz. thanks for this. thank you. i could not be more grateful for this poem. hearing this poem made me cry. Ad im certainly grateful that you helped me open my eyes. you know expectations were always my demons. but thanks to you i finally know that I can fight them. thanks.

  • @mary-opalhurt2377
    @mary-opalhurt2377 8 лет назад +1

    this poem strikes such a chord with me, and i am only 17, about to be 18. thank you for putting my feelings into words.

  • @a_smole_potato4065
    @a_smole_potato4065 8 лет назад +30

    plz make one on being lonely

  • @skyicee4801
    @skyicee4801 8 лет назад

    I love how deep this poem is

  • @victoriarz646
    @victoriarz646 7 лет назад

    'To choose stability over your dreams is to let society win.'

  • @ivylynne97
    @ivylynne97 7 лет назад +1

    thank you for putting my thoughts into words and not just this video every video you've put out here. you give me strength every day so thank you for understanding when those closest to me don't.

  • @luckylaki4480
    @luckylaki4480 3 года назад

    You're such a great poet. I wish you didn't stop posting your spoken word poetry here on RUclips.

  • @MeesBorg
    @MeesBorg 4 года назад

    Heard you do poetry today in your newest vid, you are a real OG. Before this narative poetry was a thing on the internet you had already done it. Thanks for being you and showing that its not about the end goal but the journey towards it.

  • @KomalGill
    @KomalGill 7 лет назад

    i not only want you as a friend but really need you

  • @sagecassidy5986
    @sagecassidy5986 8 лет назад

    I just found your plans today and they have like these emotions behind them, I don't know if there actually there but it feels like they are. I love these.

  • @eveoxo7874
    @eveoxo7874 6 лет назад +1

    your so talented taz, these messages throughout your poetry are so pure, and most real they could get and I can see it, that in your eyes, you mean it. X

  • @madisonmorris2495
    @madisonmorris2495 7 лет назад

    I want to say thank you. Thank you for opening my eyes. Thank you for showing me that I'm good, that I'm great. For showing me that I'm worth it. And most of all, for showing me that I can be me.

  • @abeautifullife5982
    @abeautifullife5982 7 лет назад

    I'm just falling for your words Accent and poetry. My thoughts so perfectly carved into words

  • @hollyxx3972
    @hollyxx3972 8 лет назад

    Every single one of your poems are thoughts that go through my head everyday, your words describe my feeling perfectly, I thought I was the only one who felt this way

  • @JonasMaria
    @JonasMaria 8 лет назад

    The quality of this video is stunning and so is the poem. Thank you!

  • @btssuejibae8130
    @btssuejibae8130 6 лет назад +1

    I wish I could say this to my parents. I'm way too shy. One time I told my mother how I think the bank tellers seem to have really repititive routines and that I never would want to be one. And she was like "why what else would u wanna do? They earn good amount as well". And from that, I knew that they value money a lot. And i know they want me to get a good job in the future as well bc it's so hard to earn but, even though I respect those workers, I couldnt shake off the thought that they could have done something more

  • @kikacm8062
    @kikacm8062 6 лет назад

    These thoughts were always locked in my head as a kid. I literally would make up a profession when asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, all of the other kids always had this answer but I hated the question because I really didn't know what I wanted to be. I always thought something was wrong with me. Never felt like I fit in. School/kids were bitter sweet.

  • @djStrimmer
    @djStrimmer 4 года назад

    One of those lessons in life we can only really find out ourself. Alongside this is the need to just take responsibility for our own thoughts, words and actions. 🙏

  • @antonellabugeja3297
    @antonellabugeja3297 6 лет назад

    I came across this channel a few days ago and Its so amazing how relatable I found all these videos. this in specific, it's like you have just said everything that's been in my mind and that I've been trying to explain to people, especially my family.
    Thank you. You are amazing!

  • @RabiaMakeupArtistry
    @RabiaMakeupArtistry 6 лет назад

    You’re words got me through so much.

  • @chocmama1017
    @chocmama1017 4 года назад +1

    OMG Taz I never realised your so deep. Thank you so much for this I need to hear this and it's made so much sense to me. Thank you so much.

  • @gabbyowens4063
    @gabbyowens4063 8 лет назад

    You say everything I'm always thinking and can never say. Thank you. I want to tell my parents what goes through my head constantly but can never word it out. I'm thinking of showing them your spoken poetry to speak for me. Thank you for helping.

  • @samsamdive8781
    @samsamdive8781 8 лет назад

    I don't understand how this is not viral yet

  • @rukayaalnasiry5020
    @rukayaalnasiry5020 7 лет назад

    i never went to school until i was 12. i thought school was so easy and fun but it wasn't. my life is a living hell, i all ways feel like everybody hates me for some reason and im not good at school and i never had real friends. i feel so alone in this world but watching ur vidoe's give's me hope. i never comment on any video's bc i thought to myself who in the hell cares about me, nobody does. i just wanted to give it a try

  • @miastock5943
    @miastock5943 7 лет назад

    Thank you !!! You don't know how relatable this is !!

  • @andyschannel9670
    @andyschannel9670 Год назад

    You've changed my entire outlook about life Taz. You probably hear that kinda praise alot though. Just wanted to say you make me cry 😢 I hate crying 😂. You made me laugh ,cry, and last but not least you have given me more motivation and confidence in my self to enjoy everyday and live my best life. I would love to buy your book. Also I I love turquoise and yellow. And your book is yellow. Idk maybe I'm just overthinking how much we got in common. But I will buy your book one day and even the hoodie " I've hit a new low". I wish you made more merchandise for men. Like a black and yellow hoodie with new low or it's fine , but I'm probably just annoying you and I'm sorry but yes I stand by my word when I say I want or wish you can make more merch for us guys that watch your channel. Please and thank you for everything Taz!!!

  • @kiileetsoku2397
    @kiileetsoku2397 6 лет назад +1

    My goodness😭😭😭 This is literally what I think about all the time but could never find the words to express it💔💔💔 Thank you...

  • @delaneygalloup2232
    @delaneygalloup2232 5 лет назад

    “I don’t have a 5 year plan...” ugh this is so spot on

  • @bilaalbilaalbill1490
    @bilaalbilaalbill1490 5 лет назад

    You are a true inspiration.Your words are powerful.I always constantly struggle with anxiety but this video gives me life.Your maturity about life is beyond amazing.Love you🤗❣

  • @AM-gy2fy
    @AM-gy2fy 8 лет назад

    These words are utter truth. and beautiful.

  • @charlesdominicvillano234
    @charlesdominicvillano234 7 лет назад

    Every video I watched is like watching all the thoughts in my head being said out loud.😭 I love it!

  • @lancekaheu3600
    @lancekaheu3600 4 года назад

    I had this 4 years ago, when you had less than 1mil subs. I just came across this on my phone, and then came back here to check, to see you hit over 1mil subs 🥰💯 I'm so happy for you girl

  • @bricysantana14
    @bricysantana14 7 лет назад

    I literally cried because i didn't know how much I feared the thought of having to settle until this. i want so much more in life than the basics but life is hard man...

  • @snehaltrivedi9165
    @snehaltrivedi9165 6 лет назад

    hearing your words gives me goosebumps... it connects straight to my heart

  • @oyinkansolaayoola331
    @oyinkansolaayoola331 4 года назад

    Thanks a lot for sharing these videos, you have no idea how much you encourage and I am sure many others.

  • @MrMonchydr
    @MrMonchydr 5 лет назад +1

    If we would just change the way we looked at the world. It can be VERY hard to change your mind and point of view, but I promise that if people were to change the way they view the world, things would change. I love the video it's really good.❤❤