When I started all in my face went kind of puffy/bloated probably since I was retaining a lot of water. It got a lot better once the extreme hunger subsided! I also gained weight very fast mainly on my stomach but the weight gain does end and it redistributed once my period had been back for a couple of months. You got this!
when people know that they are gaining weight they will perceive themselves differently even though a lot of the time it is all in their head!! I personally can not see any weight gain in your face that you mentioned and any weight put on is healthy weight and what you truly deserve. I am so happy that there are people like you that can act as significant role models for people beginning their recovery, I'm so sick of seeing pro ED content all over social media. you are amazing!!
Loved the big spoon thing, these details make me realise how glad I am we have a supportive-recovery-community on youtube you know? Like *absolutely no one else* other than someone who has/had an ED would understand how 'using a big spoon' is a good thing. Its actually both funny and annoying how our brains work. My ED also has me eating with small spoons sometimes and its honestly such a silly thing, like ??? I know I should stop why can't I be normal and use a normal spoon loll...
honestly girl you are by far my fave RUclipsr at the moment!! you’re so natural at RUclips and you’re videos are so entertaining I can’t wait for your channel to grow. Also you look so gorg in this xx
When you mentioned how other people see you, i figured id let you know. We see someone who is courageous and bold. We see someone who glows when they speak! We see someone who is willing to feel uncomfortable, to save themselves and their future. You are strong, beautiful, and worthy! Im glad to see you being kind to yourself.
I'm in ed recovery, but I always use small spoons not a disordered way bc I genuinely don't like using large spoons like its so much mote satisfying using a small spoon without shoving a massive spoon in ur mouth and it feelings too big in ur mouth and stuff (js a preference I have - not a preference my ed has)
@@merlel.8063 Some ppl with eating disorders feel like they should only use small spoons bc you'll have smaller bites so eat less and also eat slower so (apparently) get fuller faster
one year yesterday i started my "all in journey" after years of ED, promise it gets so much better, i remember everyday of my early recovery and as much as i !!hated!! looking at myself you just have to remember your doing it for your body and health, mind, future like being healthy enough to carry a child, keep going, your body is routing for you !!!!!
thanks so much for this :) soo inspiring ❤️ i wondered what happened with your body and weight? sorry if it’s too personal but did it plateau then distribute or did you lose some after it plateaued? i know it’s different for everyone but just interested :) xxx
@@brookepaintain Well my appetite is pretty big anyway but it has subsided greatly, I don't constantly have food on my mind until I am hungry which is literally a bloody miracle because I never ever thought I would be almost fully recovered from my ED. I gained the most of 4st 5lb then over the last few months I lost 10lbs but I have now gained 4lbs back which I'm totally ok with, I just had to keep reassuring myself that I was doing this for my reason of having a healthy mind with a healthy body, I have so much free head space now that I am not constantly thinking about food, the guilt does go away slowly but surely, however I still gotta check in with myself and make sure I am eating certain foods for the right reason not because ED thinks its healthier or lower in calories, I just don't wanna have anything to do with that shit anymore, it's just depressing! I crave a lot lot less junk! All my weight mainly surrounded my tummy area and upper thighs but I have been reassured that this is due to your body rushing all this fluid retention and weight around our organs for the process of repairing the damage we have done by starving and its trying to protect us for the next crash diet we do! once your body realises and gets food consistently and you are responding to your hunger it will let go of this extra weight and either drop a few pound or redistribute it. I tracked my calorie intake just out of curiosity a couple of weeks back and I'm eating 2300 to 2600 but my weight is still up a few pounds one day then down a few pounds the next, i didn't track throughout my early days cos my food baby told me it was a lot lmao, i hope this helps, please trust the process and don't give up because your body is on a learning journey with you, think of the end result! Oh and please please don't body check through your mirror, windows or mobile, this made it super duper difficult for me mentally but scrap it! The more you block the negative thoughts the quieter and quieter they get, we are all on our own journey of course, so we will all have different out comes physically but will have the same postive mental results
you have honestly helped me so much. I gained so much weight last week and had a mini relapse but today i decided to go all in and this video is helping me cope with all my thoughts. your literally the sweetest person ever and im wishing you the absolute best also ive decided to get mcdonalds tomorrow because of you xxx
Pls pls pls make more of these you are literally helping me so much you don’t even know. And you are doing so amazing and inspiring me and you are so freaking beautiful 🥺💕
You are such a strong beautiful and inspiring girl. Honestly, I can not see any physical change, everything feels so heightened when it comes to yourself! Thankyou for uploading these videos they are so supportive for people on similar journeys xx
Today I challenged a totally irrational fear food with an ed team member, which I never thought i would eat again. This only reason I was motivated or inspired to do so was because of your channel, I can't ever thank you enough for your positivity and inspiration
hey girl just wanted to say that you're doing so amazing and you're looking so much more healthier! you're literally glowing! it's going to be difficult but just think this will benefit you hugely in the future
i m so proud of u for doing this ! and i dont know why but you re the only person that actually inspires me to continue with my all in journey. so i want to thank you very much for that !
i gained 10kg so far in recovery and the past weeks have been so hard but ur videos been giving me the motivation to not quit recovery so i thank u for that💖
I've been all in for almost a month now as well (to recover from HA), and I can relate to the endless feelings you have experienced during this process. It has been incredibly tough, but know you're not alone & you are so brave.This will be worth it in the long run
honestly your videos are helping me so much. last year i lost over 35lbs and i had gotten to a point where my body was basically shutting down (i was always cold, lost my period, hair was falling out) and i finally realised i had to change things in order to get better. please please keep posting videos like this, you’re helping a lot of us by showing your up and down moments. you’re such an inspiration, keep going beautiful!💖💖
@@tenzin8580 hi!! I would say yes! In these last few years I am followed by a nutritionist and a psychologist that are helping me with my journey. Of course there are still some days that are harder than others, but now I’m able to live my life without thinking about food/how I look every second.
these videos are so so helpful and inspirational thank you so much. You're doing a great job, I know its hard but it will be worth it and you deserve recovery, good luck girly xxxx
You’re honestly such an angel, loving your vids so much! Something I always go back in recovery is just remembering if you gain weight from eating a normal amount your body needed it there to survive. Personally, I never noticed any weight gain as you said but regardless you look absolutely stunning!!
I'm so happy I found your channel. I've had HA for almost 2 years and have been apprehensive to start the all in process. This is really helping me to feel like everything is gonna be okay. Lots of love
you don't know how much your videos help me. I always see them to eat because they give me the strength to continue. you are beautiful and strong. Keep going ❤️
In all honesty u were gorgeous before u started going all in but now ur even more gorgeous! Ur glowing girl. Ur so encouraging and watching ur progress has been so great. Keep going girly ❤️
Wowow you’ve inspired me so much and I am so freaking proud of you girly!! I remember a couple months ago when I first came across You’re channel I’d always pick up on some ed behaviours that I also struggled with, now seeing you all in gives me so much hope xx
i just discovered your channel this week, i dont struggle with an ED but i love watching your videos to see your progress, keep it up your doing amazing!! 💖
Thank you so so much you’re really my inspiration and you motivate me to listen to my hunger and get rid of the voice in my head!!! You’re gorgeous thank you
this helps me so much, thank you for reminding me that all the fear and thoughts of gaining weight is just in my head. I guess I needed to hear that from someone. I was gonna have only a black coffee for lunch but I decided to go get a burger and fries because I've been thinking and looking at pictures of burgers for so long! thank you so much for uploading this video💓Lots of love xx
you’re honestly such an inspiration 💗💗 been watching your videos since before you posted about your ED and you seem so much more genuinely happier now💕you should be so proud of yourself !! xx
you are smashing all in! inspiring girl well done... omg my cereal cravings were so so strong and regular when I first started recovering now its smaller cravings but I still love some cereal before bed!
I'm trying to stop bodybuilding and go all in for the love of food but I somewhat don't feel "entitled" to do it because my self esteem is based around my discipline in bodybuilding and since I would end up eating high calorie dense foods all the time to get that pleasure I feel I wouldn't be at a healthy bodyweight eventually, what are your thoughts?
Hi, Ik it’s tough, but for me, seeking help was the only solution . Don’t be scared to tell someone, life is so much better without an ED! U got this❤️
It is very difficult to get through and if it is of any consolation however a lot of weight is actually water weight and honestly even though your in baggy clothes I really wouldn’t say I can see much difference at all x
want to recover but I also want to burn calories all the time. I can’t sit down or stand still. It is driving me crazy! I have about 900-1000 calories a day. I weigh 25 kgs and I am 152 cm tall. I don’t know what to do. I eat mostly at night around 1 am. It takes me about 2 hrs. to eat. I want to stop but I don’t know how. I get so tired. No one will help me. Please help.
Just for future reference, please don't post specific numbers in the comments as it can be really triggering for others. If you haven't already I would highly recommend watching/reading Tabitha Farrar as she is amazing with the no bullsh*t approach to recovery. You also need to reach out to those around you and ask for help directly. Those numbers you've put down are very worrying and i would advise seeking medical advise immediately. This may sound very scary and daunting, but if you want a full life of freedom and not feeling so trapped and helpless this is what you need to do. You need to take charge and control. Good luck, you've got this! x
@@abbiebaxter7142 There are plenty of companies and organisations you can call to get help. I'm in now way a professional but I do know that if those numbers are correct, you are likely to be dangerously underweight and in need of serious medical help so I do not know why you are being refused. You're clearly desperate for help, which in some ways is a good sign as it shows you want to get better. If people are refusing to help they're clearly not well trained in this illness. Contact your doctor or even emergency services if its that serious (I don't want to make assumptions). The harsh truth is that you need to take control, only you can get better and commit to the actions needed in order to recover. Yes, it may be safer and more comfortable with external help, but in reality it is down to you to chose recovery. Therefore, if you can't access help, you go at it alone. You dive head first into the deep end and fully commit. Its terrifying but if you truly want to be free you have to do this. Just be careful about refeeding syndrome, where if you suddenly significantly increase your calories it can damage your body, so gradually build up over a couple of weeks. The end goal is to listen and respond fully to all mental and physical hunger. This might mean you eat all day which can seen scary but you've starved your body for so long you're simply making up for lost time. I hope this helps xx
@@ionaimpey7244 I can't call anyone. I can't talk and I live in New Zealand. Here there is not really much help except for 1 eating disorders unit with 6 beds for the whole of the South Island. It is very hard to get into. They don't treat you very nice either.
@@ionaimpey7244 the nurses are lazy and blame the patients for everything that goes wrong. The phycologists and top doctors believe them. You also get threatened,sworn at and called names.
I don’t want to go “all in” personally, because I don’t think that’s what my body needs but I’m wondering if you have any tips on stopping restricting or how to stop feeling the need to restrict? Even when I feel like I am listening to my body I can’t help but continue to think that I just *need* to restrict
sorry to be direct and maybe seem rude but all in is what you need tbh cause when you let go of all restrictions and gain the weight you need to gain is when you'll feel better and be able to negate the thoughts and they'll eventually dissapear.If you do it at your pace you'll gain weight slowly and reach a weight that your ed mind that has not been cured,cause you still restricted but gained weight because you did the minimal to gain or your metabolism slowed down,will think is already too high yet your fears won't be conquered so you'll need to go conquer the fear foods thus gaining more weight in the process which means it'd be even more challenging for your ed mind or instead you would get to that point and start trying to maintain only incorporating your safe foods and easier fear foods for your whole life and continue to be in that restrictive mind,not ever achieving true food freedom.Just my 2 cents as i was also on that train of thinking all in is not for me and i needed to do it slowly but surely(once i said fuck this for real and went all in i lived my best life for those months and now i'm the happiest i've ever been due to it!)
I think the concept of going 'all in' is to let go of all of your restrictive thoughts really, and give in to what your body and mind is craving. Not to mention, I think it is also really helpful once you accept that changes in your body is going to happen throughout life. The weight gain you experience when letting go of restriction is healthy gains, because that is what your body & mental health actually needs in order to be healthy in the long run! People who experience a chronic restrictive thinking would really benefit from going all in because that is what will eventually lead to a healthy relationship with food ( and more self-confidence!)
well personally I have no fears anymore, I accept that weight fluctuates and I appreciate my body. The only reason i’m doing all in is because I’ve got this bottomless pit extreme hunger even tho i’m a healthy weight now which I gained on minimal calories. I’ve gained quite a bit over the lower end of healthy but I’m just tryna push through, so so so many regrets, I wish I’d just went all in earlier on but I was petrified😔 i feel like i messed up and now i’m suffering consequences even tho it wasn’t rlly “me” who held me back...
@@Niamh-l3p don't worry i started all in 10kg above the weight i was at and thought the same but tbh you have to do it at some point so you did what you should've!!! no regrets cause if you hadn't done it,even late,you'd still be restricting but gaining on minimal calories and thus suffering mentally because your ed would say you're restricting and "doing everything well" but you're gaining weight which scientifically means your body needs more and is saving everything it can to survive and slowing your metabolism.So now you may be at a higher weight than you'd like but at least your metabolism has repaired and you're prob living life way better than before
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gaining weight means gaining life, memories, happiness and so much more!💓you've got this girl💓
When I started all in my face went kind of puffy/bloated probably since I was retaining a lot of water. It got a lot better once the extreme hunger subsided! I also gained weight very fast mainly on my stomach but the weight gain does end and it redistributed once my period had been back for a couple of months. You got this!
Can you pls say how long it took for you to get back your period??
when people know that they are gaining weight they will perceive themselves differently even though a lot of the time it is all in their head!! I personally can not see any weight gain in your face that you mentioned and any weight put on is healthy weight and what you truly deserve. I am so happy that there are people like you that can act as significant role models for people beginning their recovery, I'm so sick of seeing pro ED content all over social media. you are amazing!!
Loved the big spoon thing, these details make me realise how glad I am we have a supportive-recovery-community on youtube you know? Like *absolutely no one else* other than someone who has/had an ED would understand how 'using a big spoon' is a good thing. Its actually both funny and annoying how our brains work. My ED also has me eating with small spoons sometimes and its honestly such a silly thing, like ??? I know I should stop why can't I be normal and use a normal spoon loll...
honestly girl you are by far my fave RUclipsr at the moment!! you’re so natural at RUclips and you’re videos are so entertaining I can’t wait for your channel to grow. Also you look so gorg in this xx
I can't even begin to explain how much you are helping me. I am also 16 and struggling and you seem like such an amazing person! Thank you:)
When you mentioned how other people see you, i figured id let you know. We see someone who is courageous and bold. We see someone who glows when they speak! We see someone who is willing to feel uncomfortable, to save themselves and their future. You are strong, beautiful, and worthy! Im glad to see you being kind to yourself.
Switching back to big spoons was/ still is super difficult for me, so happy for you, stay strong and keep it up! :)
Hey:) What is the big spoon thing all about?
I'm in ed recovery, but I always use small spoons not a disordered way bc I genuinely don't like using large spoons like its so much mote satisfying using a small spoon without shoving a massive spoon in ur mouth and it feelings too big in ur mouth and stuff (js a preference I have - not a preference my ed has)
@@merlel.8063 Some ppl with eating disorders feel like they should only use small spoons bc you'll have smaller bites so eat less and also eat slower so (apparently) get fuller faster
GIRL you look like you're GLOWING (even when you've just woken up!) and your hair is a 10/10!!!
one year yesterday i started my "all in journey" after years of ED, promise it gets so much better, i remember everyday of my early recovery and as much as i !!hated!! looking at myself you just have to remember your doing it for your body and health, mind, future like being healthy enough to carry a child, keep going, your body is routing for you !!!!!
thanks so much for this :) soo inspiring ❤️ i wondered what happened with your body and weight? sorry if it’s too personal but did it plateau then distribute or did you lose some after it plateaued? i know it’s different for everyone but just interested :) xxx
@@brookepaintain Well my appetite is pretty big anyway but it has subsided greatly, I don't constantly have food on my mind until I am hungry which is literally a bloody miracle because I never ever thought I would be almost fully recovered from my ED. I gained the most of 4st 5lb then over the last few months I lost 10lbs but I have now gained 4lbs back which I'm totally ok with, I just had to keep reassuring myself that I was doing this for my reason of having a healthy mind with a healthy body, I have so much free head space now that I am not constantly thinking about food, the guilt does go away slowly but surely, however I still gotta check in with myself and make sure I am eating certain foods for the right reason not because ED thinks its healthier or lower in calories, I just don't wanna have anything to do with that shit anymore, it's just depressing! I crave a lot lot less junk! All my weight mainly surrounded my tummy area and upper thighs but I have been reassured that this is due to your body rushing all this fluid retention and weight around our organs for the process of repairing the damage we have done by starving and its trying to protect us for the next crash diet we do! once your body realises and gets food consistently and you are responding to your hunger it will let go of this extra weight and either drop a few pound or redistribute it. I tracked my calorie intake just out of curiosity a couple of weeks back and I'm eating 2300 to 2600 but my weight is still up a few pounds one day then down a few pounds the next, i didn't track throughout my early days cos my food baby told me it was a lot lmao, i hope this helps, please trust the process and don't give up because your body is on a learning journey with you, think of the end result! Oh and please please don't body check through your mirror, windows or mobile, this made it super duper difficult for me mentally but scrap it! The more you block the negative thoughts the quieter and quieter they get, we are all on our own journey of course, so we will all have different out comes physically but will have the same postive mental results
also my face got pretty puffy but that has also gone down a lot! as well as bloating everywhere else!! xx
you have honestly helped me so much. I gained so much weight last week and had a mini relapse but today i decided to go all in and this video is helping me cope with all my thoughts. your literally the sweetest person ever and im wishing you the absolute best also ive decided to get mcdonalds tomorrow because of you xxx
AHH this is amazing!! i am SO proud of you :) you deserve the world stay strong ❤️
Pls pls pls make more of these you are literally helping me so much you don’t even know. And you are doing so amazing and inspiring me and you are so freaking beautiful 🥺💕
I've just come from one of your videos from November you look so much happier and healthier
You are such a strong beautiful and inspiring girl. Honestly, I can not see any physical change, everything feels so heightened when it comes to yourself! Thankyou for uploading these videos they are so supportive for people on similar journeys xx
U are literally the reason im trying to recover so thank you ❤️❤️
Today I challenged a totally irrational fear food with an ed team member, which I never thought i would eat again. This only reason I was motivated or inspired to do so was because of your channel, I can't ever thank you enough for your positivity and inspiration
Girl, youre not alone in this. I gain a lot each week and my face is puffy and my belly looks huge, but it will change over time. I trust my body.❤️❤️
hey girl just wanted to say that you're doing so amazing and you're looking so much more healthier! you're literally glowing! it's going to be difficult but just think this will benefit you hugely in the future
You’re doing incredible.. I know how hard it can be but you’ll come out the other end! 💓
only just come across your channel a week ago and im honestly in love with you and your channel xx
You’re literally the most inspiring person I’ve come across for ED recovery💛 you’re also insanely pretty!! Such a lovely person🥰
i m so proud of u for doing this ! and i dont know why but you re the only person that actually inspires me to continue with my all in journey. so i want to thank you very much for that !
i gained 10kg so far in recovery and the past weeks have been so hard but ur videos been giving me the motivation to not quit recovery so i thank u for that💖
These videos are sooo helpful for meee I cant explain
I've been all in for almost a month now as well (to recover from HA), and I can relate to the endless feelings you have experienced during this process. It has been incredibly tough, but know you're not alone & you are so brave.This will be worth it in the long run
you are so prettyyyy. you got this brooke
This is so helpful and inspiring. You are doing amazing and I’m so proud of you!!!🤍🤍
honestly your videos are helping me so much. last year i lost over 35lbs and i had gotten to a point where my body was basically shutting down (i was always cold, lost my period, hair was falling out) and i finally realised i had to change things in order to get better. please please keep posting videos like this, you’re helping a lot of us by showing your up and down moments. you’re such an inspiration, keep going beautiful!💖💖
Hey.. how you doing now? Did you recover??
@@tenzin8580 hi!! I would say yes! In these last few years I am followed by a nutritionist and a psychologist that are helping me with my journey. Of course there are still some days that are harder than others, but now I’m able to live my life without thinking about food/how I look every second.
you are looking so healthy im so so proud
this is real recovery. so so pleased for you, you are doing amazing!
Honestly you have given me the inspiration to trust the process thank you and you’re doing amazing! So proud:)
oml !! you’re literally so gorgeous 💓 i swear you’re smile is just so pretty xx
these videos are so so helpful and inspirational thank you so much. You're doing a great job, I know its hard but it will be worth it and you deserve recovery, good luck girly xxxx
You’re honestly such an angel, loving your vids so much! Something I always go back in recovery is just remembering if you gain weight from eating a normal amount your body needed it there to survive.
Personally, I never noticed any weight gain as you said but regardless you look absolutely stunning!!
I'm so happy I found your channel. I've had HA for almost 2 years and have been apprehensive to start the all in process. This is really helping me to feel like everything is gonna be okay. Lots of love
i really like how you put cereal without measurement like a huge bowlll
you don't know how much your videos help me. I always see them to eat because they give me the strength to continue. you are beautiful and strong. Keep going ❤️
Brooke I love you honestly your my fav person in the recovery community rn
In all honesty u were gorgeous before u started going all in but now ur even more gorgeous! Ur glowing girl. Ur so encouraging and watching ur progress has been so great. Keep going girly ❤️
Amazing to see this all-in journey xoxo
Wowow you’ve inspired me so much and I am so freaking proud of you girly!! I remember a couple months ago when I first came across You’re channel I’d always pick up on some ed behaviours that I also struggled with, now seeing you all in gives me so much hope xx
i love watching these while i eat lmao xx
i just discovered your channel this week, i dont struggle with an ED but i love watching your videos to see your progress, keep it up your doing amazing!! 💖
I can't even begin to explain how glad I am I found your channel, please keep doing what you are doing, there is so much potential in you girl❤
Thank you so so much you’re really my inspiration and you motivate me to listen to my hunger and get rid of the voice in my head!!! You’re gorgeous thank you
love these videos!!!
i am so proud of you, and you’re motivating me to keep going so thankyou! we’ve got this together gal💕
this helps me so much, thank you for reminding me that all the fear and thoughts of gaining weight is just in my head. I guess I needed to hear that from someone. I was gonna have only a black coffee for lunch but I decided to go get a burger and fries because I've been thinking and looking at pictures of burgers for so long! thank you so much for uploading this video💓Lots of love xx
big spoons !! why have I never seen someone talk about this before ! really looking forward to the q&a :))
You are a huuuuge inspirations for me and for many many more people struggling with EDs, thank you for your content
Omg i really needed to see this video im so glad i found this thank u thank u thank u!💖
you’re honestly such an inspiration 💗💗 been watching your videos since before you posted about your ED and you seem so much more
genuinely happier now💕you should be so proud of yourself !! xx
you are smashing all in! inspiring girl well done... omg my cereal cravings were so so strong and regular when I first started recovering now its smaller cravings but I still love some cereal before bed!
love love your videos - theyre making me consider doing all in too
I love you sososo much, you are helping me to build up the courage and start recovery once for all.
you’re literally STUNNING
Proud of you. Love how real you are❤
YAY I LOVE THIS PLEASE MAKE MOREE!!
plllleeeeaaassseee do more of these they help so much!!!!!!! xxxxxx
Thank you so much for the reminder at the beginning of the video. It was exactly what I needed. You really are an inspiration!!! 💛
Love you girllll❤️
You are so brave and I'm really proud!
These vids are so helpful and motivating💘💘 Thankyou!!
Your videos are amazing, just subscribed ❤
Yay! You are glowing girl love the hair😻😻Thanks for doing these they help loads🥺❤️
Wow you look amazing your skin is glowing!
your always glowing and so positive and gorgeous!! 💗. Please could you do some days in the life or vlog videos too? Xx
Your so strong, you’ve got this 💞
I love u sm thank u for being so open, you helped me a lot
Well done girl keep fighting! Also ur so pretty x
this makes me so happy
Your makeup is soooo cute!!
you are doing so well. Your videos help me so much
really want to go all in as i’ve been trying to recover for 2 months, but am terrified! any advice to get started x
You are strong and inspiring ✨❤!!
Your doing so well you help me so much and I subscribed hope it makes your day !
Film a makeup routine 😍 you are stunning and doing amazing 💛
Lovee this video! Please can u do some different videos soon?🥺
yesss!! a clothing haul on sunday❤️
@@brookepaintain thankyouu🥺
Can you do what i eat in a week 'all in'?
yessss
The thumbnail made me laugh 😂😂
you seem like the loveliest girly ever xx
I'm trying to stop bodybuilding and go all in for the love of food but I somewhat don't feel "entitled" to do it because my self esteem is based around my discipline in bodybuilding and since I would end up eating high calorie dense foods all the time to get that pleasure I feel I wouldn't be at a healthy bodyweight eventually, what are your thoughts?
Love watching you, but I would find it really helpful to see the times on screen of when you are eating all these foods and snacks x
you’re so beautiful!!
Any tips for not restricting anymore ? I wanna eat pizza and stuff but I’m scared 😔someone please help me
Hi, Ik it’s tough, but for me, seeking help was the only solution . Don’t be scared to tell someone, life is so much better without an ED! U got this❤️
@@Marialuvesyou thank you 💛💛
Very good video... Go girl👌💐❤️
Can you do more lives on tiktok because they are really fun and help
this might sound like a stupid question but how did you know you needed to go all in?
It is very difficult to get through and if it is of any consolation however a lot of weight is actually water weight and honestly even though your in baggy clothes I really wouldn’t say I can see much difference at all x
do u watch stephanie buttermore?
yes :) x
I eat then I make myself sick I exercise 2 times a day I was 20 stone I'm now 15 stone.
Hello. I am bowled over by how mature and strong you are by doing this. I so wish I had been so wise at your age. Do not go back .
Yeeaaah! Xxx
I think you’re honestly beautiful and doing brilliantly Brooke! So glad I stumbled across you - I’ve been referred back to services again 😥
Just came to comment this, but I honestly thought your channel name was Brooke *Plantain* if you know, you know :D
want to recover but I also want to burn calories all the time.
I can’t sit down or stand still. It is driving me crazy!
I have about 900-1000 calories a day. I weigh 25 kgs and I am 152 cm tall.
I don’t know what to do. I eat mostly at night around 1 am. It takes me about 2 hrs. to eat. I want to stop but I don’t know how.
I get so tired. No one will help me. Please help.
Just for future reference, please don't post specific numbers in the comments as it can be really triggering for others. If you haven't already I would highly recommend watching/reading Tabitha Farrar as she is amazing with the no bullsh*t approach to recovery. You also need to reach out to those around you and ask for help directly. Those numbers you've put down are very worrying and i would advise seeking medical advise immediately. This may sound very scary and daunting, but if you want a full life of freedom and not feeling so trapped and helpless this is what you need to do. You need to take charge and control. Good luck, you've got this! x
@@ionaimpey7244 how are they triggering? What does triggering mean?I have tried to get help but they refuse to treat me .
@@abbiebaxter7142 There are plenty of companies and organisations you can call to get help. I'm in now way a professional but I do know that if those numbers are correct, you are likely to be dangerously underweight and in need of serious medical help so I do not know why you are being refused. You're clearly desperate for help, which in some ways is a good sign as it shows you want to get better. If people are refusing to help they're clearly not well trained in this illness. Contact your doctor or even emergency services if its that serious (I don't want to make assumptions). The harsh truth is that you need to take control, only you can get better and commit to the actions needed in order to recover. Yes, it may be safer and more comfortable with external help, but in reality it is down to you to chose recovery. Therefore, if you can't access help, you go at it alone. You dive head first into the deep end and fully commit. Its terrifying but if you truly want to be free you have to do this. Just be careful about refeeding syndrome, where if you suddenly significantly increase your calories it can damage your body, so gradually build up over a couple of weeks. The end goal is to listen and respond fully to all mental and physical hunger. This might mean you eat all day which can seen scary but you've starved your body for so long you're simply making up for lost time. I hope this helps xx
@@ionaimpey7244 I can't call anyone. I can't talk and I live in New Zealand. Here there is not really much help except for 1 eating disorders unit with 6 beds for the whole of the South Island. It is very hard to get into. They don't treat you very nice either.
@@ionaimpey7244 the nurses are lazy and blame the patients for everything that goes wrong. The phycologists and top doctors believe them. You also get threatened,sworn at and called names.
i’ve messaged you on instagram (@kat.recovers0)🥰
I don’t want to go “all in” personally, because I don’t think that’s what my body needs but I’m wondering if you have any tips on stopping restricting or how to stop feeling the need to restrict? Even when I feel like I am listening to my body I can’t help but continue to think that I just *need* to restrict
sorry to be direct and maybe seem rude but all in is what you need tbh cause when you let go of all restrictions and gain the weight you need to gain is when you'll feel better and be able to negate the thoughts and they'll eventually dissapear.If you do it at your pace you'll gain weight slowly and reach a weight that your ed mind that has not been cured,cause you still restricted but gained weight because you did the minimal to gain or your metabolism slowed down,will think is already too high yet your fears won't be conquered so you'll need to go conquer the fear foods thus gaining more weight in the process which means it'd be even more challenging for your ed mind or instead you would get to that point and start trying to maintain only incorporating your safe foods and easier fear foods for your whole life and continue to be in that restrictive mind,not ever achieving true food freedom.Just my 2 cents as i was also on that train of thinking all in is not for me and i needed to do it slowly but surely(once i said fuck this for real and went all in i lived my best life for those months and now i'm the happiest i've ever been due to it!)
I think the concept of going 'all in' is to let go of all of your restrictive thoughts really, and give in to what your body and mind is craving. Not to mention, I think it is also really helpful once you accept that changes in your body is going to happen throughout life. The weight gain you experience when letting go of restriction is healthy gains, because that is what your body & mental health actually needs in order to be healthy in the long run! People who experience a chronic restrictive thinking would really benefit from going all in because that is what will eventually lead to a healthy relationship with food ( and more self-confidence!)
@@avokado7410 couldn't agree more ;)
well personally I have no fears anymore, I accept that weight fluctuates and I appreciate my body. The only reason i’m doing all in is because I’ve got this bottomless pit extreme hunger even tho i’m a healthy weight now which I gained on minimal calories. I’ve gained quite a bit over the lower end of healthy but I’m just tryna push through, so so so many regrets, I wish I’d just went all in earlier on but I was petrified😔 i feel like i messed up and now i’m suffering consequences even tho it wasn’t rlly “me” who held me back...
@@Niamh-l3p don't worry i started all in 10kg above the weight i was at and thought the same but tbh you have to do it at some point so you did what you should've!!! no regrets cause if you hadn't done it,even late,you'd still be restricting but gaining on minimal calories and thus suffering mentally because your ed would say you're restricting and "doing everything well" but you're gaining weight which scientifically means your body needs more and is saving everything it can to survive and slowing your metabolism.So now you may be at a higher weight than you'd like but at least your metabolism has repaired and you're prob living life way better than before