I can remember that day clearly, we were walking home, laughing and yapping about our days, then, when it was time for him to go, he smiled like a child and saluted me, at first I did not understand, I did not understand what was happening to him, why was he so happy that afternoon? Brian commited suicide about 2 years ago by hanging himself in his bathroom, he was found cold by his little 8 years old sister. To this day the cause is still unknown even tho the police thinks that his dad heavily abused him, but you know, you can't trust cops can you?
Giving into love and sharing my time Letting someone into my misery I told it all step by step How I landed on the island And how I swam across the sea And it crosses my mind That I may wake to a knife in me No more breath in my hair Or ladies' underwear Tossed up over the alarm clock Blood dripping from the bed To a neatly written poem A heartfelt last line reading There is no more mystery It it going to happen my love It's all in your head she said Morning after nightmare You're building a wall she said Higher than the both of us So try living life Instead of hiding in the bedroom Show me a smile And I'll promise not to leave you It happened under a rainy cloud Passing through the dark south We went into a big house And slept in a small bed I didn't know you then As well as you of me We talked of our sad lives And we went off separately I found your overseas souvenirs Holiday greeting cards And some long forgotten high school fears It's all in my head I said Banging a piano I've not been so alone I thought Since kicking in the womb I drank so much tea I wrote my letters in kanji Around the block I walked and walked Pretending you were with me Not wanting to die out here Without you The hurting never ends Like birthdays and old friends We forget what is flesh blood and bone is human Turning phone lines to airlines Unwilling to face The love is found on the inside not the outside And like a medicine bottle In the cabinet I'll keep you And like a medicine bottle In my hand I will hold you And swallow you slowly As to last me a lifetime Without holding too tight I do not want to lose The thrill that it gives me To look out from my window And scowl at the houses From my world in the bedroom It's all in my head she read In her girlfriend's self-help book It's all his own making A war with himself Like two sides of a wall That separates two countries He shuts out the world And wants only to love you Not wanting to die out here Without you
I'm honestly exhausted I won't lie, I'm tired of all the drama I'm tired of all the gossip n extra bullshit I just want to be happy.. I'm getting straight up bullied by the person I love most and it keeps me up at night alot. Everything spreads up there in that building like wildfire and I'm left looking like the fool I've always been in the end.
I am now I wasn’t for a long time But for now things are tolerable Due to some circumstances I had to join the us army I chose infantry despite qualifying for every mos against the council of almost everyone But it ended up being worth it I’ve excelled at this job Through being an asset to my platoon, I’ve built self-worth Through others relying on me, I’ve found a purpose in continuing to live Through being competent, I’ve become liked and respected, which has improved my social life as I actually have “friends” that I see every week now For now (and for once), living is breaking even instead of spiraling downwards
Oh man please don't ever think of leaving us you're worth more than just your platoon. I don't know you but I'd rather have you stick around than not okay man I'm sending you my love and I bid you goodluck, HOOAH! (you're doing good keep doing good) @@AgentK83
7:21 sounds so much more ominous in this version
I can remember that day clearly, we were walking home, laughing and yapping about our days, then, when it was time for him to go, he smiled like a child and saluted me, at first I did not understand, I did not understand what was happening to him, why was he so happy that afternoon?
Brian commited suicide about 2 years ago by hanging himself in his bathroom, he was found cold by his little 8 years old sister.
To this day the cause is still unknown even tho the police thinks that his dad heavily abused him, but you know, you can't trust cops can you?
Woah, does this song correlate to those moments at all?
sorry for your loss brother
at least you were there to be a good friend to him
RIP to him.
@@0rc-- Probably not, but the tone of the song evokes memories.
ooh
Giving into love and sharing my time
Letting someone into my misery
I told it all step by step
How I landed on the island
And how I swam across the sea
And it crosses my mind
That I may wake to a knife in me
No more breath in my hair
Or ladies' underwear
Tossed up over the alarm clock
Blood dripping from the bed
To a neatly written poem
A heartfelt last line reading
There is no more mystery
It it going to happen my love
It's all in your head she said
Morning after nightmare
You're building a wall she said
Higher than the both of us
So try living life
Instead of hiding in the bedroom
Show me a smile
And I'll promise not to leave you
It happened under a rainy cloud
Passing through the dark south
We went into a big house
And slept in a small bed
I didn't know you then
As well as you of me
We talked of our sad lives
And we went off separately
I found your overseas souvenirs
Holiday greeting cards
And some long forgotten high school fears
It's all in my head I said
Banging a piano
I've not been so alone I thought
Since kicking in the womb
I drank so much tea
I wrote my letters in kanji
Around the block I walked and walked
Pretending you were with me
Not wanting to die out here
Without you
The hurting never ends
Like birthdays and old friends
We forget what is flesh blood and bone is human
Turning phone lines to airlines
Unwilling to face
The love is found on the inside not the outside
And like a medicine bottle
In the cabinet I'll keep you
And like a medicine bottle
In my hand I will hold you
And swallow you slowly
As to last me a lifetime
Without holding too tight
I do not want to lose
The thrill that it gives me
To look out from my window
And scowl at the houses
From my world in the bedroom
It's all in my head she read
In her girlfriend's self-help book
It's all his own making
A war with himself
Like two sides of a wall
That separates two countries
He shuts out the world
And wants only to love you
Not wanting to die out here
Without you
I'm honestly exhausted I won't lie, I'm tired of all the drama I'm tired of all the gossip n extra bullshit I just want to be happy.. I'm getting straight up bullied by the person I love most and it keeps me up at night alot. Everything spreads up there in that building like wildfire and I'm left looking like the fool I've always been in the end.
I'm sorry bro. I understand.
bro are you ok
I am now
I wasn’t for a long time
But for now things are tolerable
Due to some circumstances I had to join the us army
I chose infantry despite qualifying for every mos against the council of almost everyone
But it ended up being worth it
I’ve excelled at this job
Through being an asset to my platoon, I’ve built self-worth
Through others relying on me, I’ve found a purpose in continuing to live
Through being competent, I’ve become liked and respected, which has improved my social life as I actually have “friends” that I see every week now
For now (and for once), living is breaking even instead of spiraling downwards
Oh man please don't ever think of leaving us you're worth more than just your platoon. I don't know you but I'd rather have you stick around than not okay man I'm sending you my love and I bid you goodluck, HOOAH! (you're doing good keep doing good) @@AgentK83