TIMESTAMPS 0:00 ~ 2:25 : Top of my school (ft. Joshua Turchin) - Katherine Lynn-Rose 2:25 ~ 5:39 : Are you satisfied - Marina and the Diamonds 5:39 ~ 8:35 : Oh no! - Marina and the Diamonds 8:36 ~ 11:49 : Mirrorball - Taylor Swift 11:50 ~ 15:31 : Successful - Ariana Grande 15:31 ~ 18:47 : Prom Dress - mxmtoon 18:48 ~ 22:16 : Applause - Lady Gaga 22:17 ~ 25:00 : Numb Little Bug - Em Boihold
@@jhalakpoonia7216 I know that feeling. They all tell me i have the perfect life and that i neen to be happy even tho it couldn't be further than the truth
Just do it out of love for yourself. Everyone's doing their best now so how can u give up on yourself ? You can't do everything but do what you can and have nothing to regret ! I know what you're going though to some degree , I've been like that for the first half of my school year but slowly I'm changing . We can do it !
I don't see myself as a gifted nor a smart student however I'm that student who keeps on trying but then was perceived as a 'smart' one for constantly trying and proving to others that I too could learn this, but for me? Im nowhere near from being intelligent, I'm just being compliant.
ADD & Autism & i literally feel i need to be a high achiever in other to receive love…thing is i am a high achiever that just isn’t motivated enough cause i been brought down by my family…
It's nice to have found this playlist, I'm studying mechanical engineering and I've just received 100/100 grade on an exam of vectorial calculus (professor told me I was the only one with that grade between 90 students), for you who are reading this, wish you the best on your studies, we can do it, you can do it and it's worth it, have a wonderful day
I was at the top of my class from elementary until high school. I always had good grades yet someone beat me to it. I felt like i was replaced by her, my classmates hailed her as the smartest one in the class, having the beauty, brains and all. Im nearing my senior years and I about to graduate, it breaks my heart to know that shes the one whos going to deliver the validictiorian speech on stage and not me. I've done my best yet its not enough, hell, i even started hurting myself in hopes that i would start doing better in school for the validation of my relatives and my peers.
I know how you feel. But also don't forget how the other person might feel. You don't know what they've had to sacrifice and endure to get to that point in their life. I've always been pretty smart and worked hard for my grades but others have always been ahead of me. I would put myself down at first and hate that I wasn't at the top but I also think about how the other person might feel and what they don't show to others.
As someone quite a bit older than you - there is a whole, delicious, sparkly life ahead of you beyond education. You can't control what's happened to you, but if you keep your focus on yourself and on building a life full of things you value, you'll have plenty of wonderful experiences and it won't matter to you anymore.
people's expectations are so high to me that i am a consistent honor student, i don't wanna let them down but i'm tired. and i feel like i'm not learning for being this high achiever at school all the time. it's like failing and making a mistake is a crime. the things we do for academic validation ig
Honestly I wasn't always the "highest" scorer. But I tried and tried and got the highest score in my entire school and topped my school with scholarship but now that I'm in college I'm barely passing. I wanna be a doctor, fulfill my mother's dream. In Sha Allah I'll be able to do it💚
I think you have no motivation to achieve this dream because it is not your dream, but the dream of someone else. Make your own dream and start on his path. I know that the parents are dear to us and we must obey them and be aware of them, but when it comes to your life, you must choose it yourself, your dream, your future, and how to form your family. You must choose these things yourself. I am not telling you now that you should retreat from what you are doing, but you have to talk to yourself if this is really the thing you want to do or the thing that your mother wants to do.I wish you success in your life
@MrVargheseantony I was worried only if she did it without personal motivation because in my place I see a lot of people who don't have their own dreams and do it just because their parents asked them to, it would be a waste of life if I was doing what I had to do without having my own dream, maybe I got her feelings wrong.
Ngl, having chill parents probably pushed me to be like this. They’re the best parents ever and will support me no matter what, but idk if it triggered some reverse psychology in me or something because I have an A in a math course two grades higher than I’m supposed to take, and I still feel like a failure.
Mine is the toxic academic validation. Just a week ago, I found myself getting second in almost every subject because of silly mistakes. I was shattered, I couldn't even speak without breaking down in tears. I was always the " either you are the best or useless, pick one". Compared myself with my closest friend cause I competed with her. My friends started to notice that I never opened my results until I got home. Just today, I got a 88 and someone got 92 in one of my best subject where I'm always the first. I need some advice, this is killing me
Heyy it's oki take a deep breath you can do it you're not a failure take a time for yourself even for 30 minutes do something that make you happy then get ready for the comeback study around 3.am-5.am it's where your subconscious is awake plan your study put a score you desire in a place you always look at it will remind you to your goal don't forget to pray to God make him a priority he will be there for you and also when you study make sure you drink water hydration is very important! Also eat nuts, dates and almond they are very good for the brain
Yes, this happens me every time we have to get homework corrected at the start of class and get the results back and I have a few wrong, I have to hold my tears the rest of the class.
I hope anyone who comes across this playlist one day decides that knowing they're trying their best is enough. do everything to make yourself proud, not for the applauses that will eventually fade out, not for the standards that will eventually change in time. you are enough, and while no one can force you too accept that too, make sure you're bettering yourself for yourself. take care, sweetie. you're doing great, even if you're barely getting by everyday. take a rest, but never give up. :>
I'm literally crying here while doing my AP work because I'm so tired. I haven't slept in...I don't really know. All because I have to be the best. Anything less isn't acceptable.
I've been perfect my whole life just to make my parents proud of me, especially my mother she's a teacher at my current high school all the teachers expect me to be a high achiever or else I'm only getting high grades because of her, its not true I really am academically smart but I'm starting to burn out but I yearn for the validation because its the only praise I'll ever get.
I may get the highest scores in my tests but i fail to get validation because I'm constantly compared to my mothers classes so i stay up get sleepless nights just to mark higher than everyone she could possibly compare me to
I was the "bad" kid. Fighting people and not doing my homework. But truthly I believe I was Bad and I was horrible. However I was just frustrated at bullies and try to fight them. I liked gaming a lot more than some of my school work. Then in middle school they told us that we had 4 years left of school till we live with all older young adults. So I pushed hard on my last year of middle school. Then I am at the top of the class year with A's and B's in high-school. trust me it's hard as heck. I also was never grounded for my bad grades. Just grounded for Fighting people. [P.s. update I'm graduating and life is hard but not bad]
honestly its so hard to be happy with a "decent" grade. I just came back home with an low A range grade and i really didnt expect myself to cry over it. Its even harder when you have a friend similar to you but expresses it more so you js have to comfort them while your also having a mental breakdown in the inside with no one aware of your feelings. it hurts :(
I try and I try and try, but I always feel like I'm not doing enough or better. 70-90 isn't enough but I'm not smart enough. I'm constantly struggling to find motivation
while I was in school, I was always the top of the class and I spent most of my time alone, studying in our library. as a result, i was socially awkward and didnt have many friends and while this did bring me happiness for years. When I lost my sister in 8th grade, it all started to go downhill, the fact my parents seperated at the same time, didnt help and I havent recovered ever since, I see life as ultimately meaningless and have been recently diagnosed with depression. I see the world for the bleak and sad place it is and I just want to disappear without a trace.
When you feel so pressured to become top student, you retake every test below 100, redo any 'bad' assignment, write long, winding essays much longer than required, and still get compared to a sibling with worse grades. " Oh, you got a C? Go to your room, you're grounded. " " Aw, you got a C? It's okay hun, you tried your best. " It hurts.
When people say it all comes easy to you but they don't see you staying up late and constantly studying and crying after bad tests and struggling with unseen mental health...... On a brighter note I have stayed true to myself throughout everything and now even though things are still stressful and I study and work a lot, I know that I am capable and that I will get through it. If I can do it, then you can too. Good luck on everything stranger
i just feel kind useless. Iif i'm not pretty, physically strong, or good at any hobbies, i should at least be smart or excel academically, yk?? i feel like i have nothing to give. Preeeetty stressed for the future. :,)
i get you, but you don't have to be the best at anything to be useful, promise. there is no need to spend too much time on something if you don't like doing it, just because you feel the pressure to excel in it. if you like studying, spend your time on it, if you would rather spend the time on one of you hobbies, do that. it's your life, do what you enjoy when you have the opportunity to. ps. the future is a far away thing, you have all the time in the world to figure it out and a lot of people who are willing to help you (if you ask them to). you'll make it :)
I am that kid who becomes the top of the grade with barely ever studying. But, people assume that I try hard and that they could rely on me for everything. They started to stereotype me as that nerd who they treat differently, they act very careful in front me as if they're scared I would judge them, and that made me feel very lonely, especially when I am just bad at socializing in general. I grew up having to seek academic validation to feel worthy, because people don't see me as anything more than that, even though I didn't bring this upon myself, so I actually started working to not lose my "title". However, that all changed in quarantine. I got into a slump, barely attended classes and for an entire year, I did not do ANY assignments (fr my google classroom had 140+ works on my to-do-list lol). During that moment, teachers no longer know my name, I was no longer appointed to be group captains, barely anybody wanted me in their group, basically people no longer sees me as a somebody anymore. It felt terrible back then, but hey I'm still alive and it's alright. I think that was what changed my perspective on academic achievements. When I still grinded like my life depended on it, yes I did amazing things, but I did not feel amazing inside too. So, what's the point? If high achievements must come at the expense of mental health, it's not worth it. So, now I'm a high schooler, back at the top of my class, but with a much healthier mindset. I understand that my value lies way more than academic achievements. I still study (a loooot, more actually), but now I do it without pressure. I just do my best without exhausting myself, the top student status is really just a bonus. Besides, regardless of whether or not you are a gifted kid, as a student, doing your best in studies is still a responsibility anyways.
to any who's reading this: its fine if you dont always get the top grades, you are more than ur grades and remember that sometimes stopping and doing some exercise is also good for your mind and drink more water to keep you guy's mind clearer :)
Not acing my tests make me feel disappointed in myself. I feel like all these years, I didn't improve. Im consistent but that's just it. I don't change at all and I hate it. I feel inferior. I don't know if it's valid to feel this way. There is someone who had better grades or higher average grade than me and it made me sad. Happy for her but I feel like I've become irrelevant and sort of not so unique anymore.
I was the top student since I was in preschool but quarantine came and I lost motivation to do it 3 students that were so far away from my throne replaced me. I am still one of the smartest but I'm either in 3rd place or 4th. It breaks me knowing I can beat them but I just lack the motivation at a young age I started to sh bc of it so I'm here rn trying my best to study so that I will make it to the top 1 once again.
I crave Academic validation so much, that if I have a B in any class besides PE, I stress myself out to the point my body will have terrible body aches and I'll lose sleep. My mental health will drag because I have 1 B. I absolutely have no motivation anymore, this playlist can keep me going while I study. Thank you
listening to this while studying for three big tests for tomorrow (chinese, math, english) 😭 i wasnt at school for the past week so i know nothing about the chinese and math and im stressing over it so hard 😅
i've always been second or third in whatever school i've been to (i've changed schools probably 8 times). i've recently felt the need to top my class and study (really put effort in my studies). around 2 or 3 exams have gone by but i haven't been able to succeed. i was 6th in class in 9th grade because i got only 93%, that's how high the competition is. exams are approaching again, and this time i'm more than determined to top this time. wish me luck!
POV you tried your best to surpass that one person or to make your self proud, your parents are either pressuring you or you are pressuring your self, you tried your very best to improve or to make your self/them to feel satisfied and proud of you but someone is still always better then you, you feel disappointed at yourself knowing that you failed even though you did your best
Incredible playlist! You are so underrated, helped me focus a lot. Thank you! Hopefully, you devote your channel to this and make more videos like these! I truly loved it x
Despite having already passed my assignments, projects and solutions, I always check it. I stare at it to point out any mistakes. I make sure it's perfect. It's unhealthy to the point that even though it's already passed, I would not be able to sleep until I get a good grade. If I get a grade lower than what I want or even just a single mistake, I go back and do the same damn thing. I check and I check, and I check. I stare at it for hours, I research for hours, and I won't have a good sleep until I force myself to forget it.
POV: Trying hard to get an acknowledgement from your family but only to brush off and not appreciated enough I feel lucky my mom is not like the other but my friend family is like a typical other family i feel so sorry for her, she gets compared everytime her family compared her to me her friend when our grades came out.
I usually get high marks in exchange for studying hard but these days no matter how hard i study i just happen to keep on making mistakes and fail my tests. It's like that even doing my best isn't enough
I was a bright kid who used to be very good at studies but since the pandemic, I became bad at it, I miss the old student me but still I'm trying my best to become that student again ;)
In elementary, my grades were never really high they were average and had nothing special to them, but recently in high school i found myself improving. The reason im improving is most likely the lack of people who can distract me, in elementary i was a popular kid with tons of friends left and right thanks to my older siblings influence but when i had to move to a new school with no one i know i became a loner, always in the corner forgotten even though my grades were high.
Always the top, now i'm failing. But now i'm getting closer to the top again--but I don't really want to be top. Better be the disappointment than be pressured with stressful expectations, huh?
I used to be the kid who had so much potential they said. As soon as I got into high school I can barely catch up with my peers. I'm failing tests left and right and I can't finish anything on time.
Umm how am I that kid that is like this but is always thinking that they aren't good enough always thinking that I'm not the pride and joy but a hopeless mistake that it's my burden to Carry and that I have to be perfect as a picture in order for my parents to accept me
I have high scores on every subject at school, I'm an english prodigy (not native lenguage), I'm studying Italian and I'm learning fast, I have dance lessons every saturday for three hours and a half, I'm writing my second novel and other, shorter, stories and today I started preparing a movie adaptation of my own book which I direct and make the script, I already have more than half of the crew ready. All this and it's still not enough, I hate the feeling because I know that I'll end up burned out.
I have always been a gifted kid but now that I'm in my last year of high school, I feel tired of everything. I have no motivation even though I'm doing okay in school, I know it's not enough and won't ever be enough for me, but I don't want to disappoint anyone close to me. I needed this, honestly.
"Everyone can make mistakes" but when you fail you get yellex at, you're rejected by society, people tell you you'll never accomplish you dreams... And it will continue after high school like... if you fail at a job you'll get fired, then you're unemployed, when you're unemployed society laughs at you... and that way people say you have no life. Like you're always expected to be perfect in everyway. I'm sick of it and at the same time I can't let go because I'll feel like the most useless piece of shit if I do
I wouldn't say that I'm the "smart" nor "gifted student" you know. I'm never the top of the class back in elementary but now that I'm in highschool; I'm starting to achieve everything that I ever wanted. But when I became the second best, I don't even know how I'll show my face in front of the class. It's so humiliating knowing that my teachers will say stuff like "the top of the class is only good at the start" and stuff like that. I feel so down yk, but I always acted like it's fine and ever since then I never accepted failure in my life ever again.
Man,this hits hard. I was a perfect child who scored well always but now suddenly in the important years of my life im doing nothing but i know if i study i can top . Still i dont do anything I feel like i dont even deserve the smart brain i have while others are struggling to for it.
needed to wake up since i was just going with the flow these last few days. To my co-achievers there, we are born to create our own flow. We are born to be unique, we can do this. It is hard but it's supposed to be hard. Padayon!
I got an A+ in drama, but that doesn’t matter to my parents because I got an A- in health (I missed the whole unit except for the test). Even though everything else was an A.
I’m scared. I’ve made good grades my entire life but I’m in junior high. Things are going to get harder and if I’m bad, I’ll be a disappointment. People are talking about being great then failing. I don’t want to fail, but I want to live my own life and not be burnt out. Ive tried to be friends with all the smart kids, but I’ve been losing my friends to being quiet and too busy on work. I want to go places when I’m older, y’a know. Who dosent? The job I want requires big time schooling. I wish to be a US ambassador to france. Ive been learning French and it’s the end of the year. I feel burnt out because my t acheté are still assigning work after the big test, which were surprisingly easy.
not me listening to this and crying over my friend who is always the first person to be acknowledged as the smartest and most knowledgeable and everyone looks to her for help and is nice to her while i'm in the corner getting grades that are the same as her and never being acknowledged :') She's gonna be valedictorian while i'm second best.
"Why do you even study? In the end it's just the same score." My mom said that earlier, while I was studying for the entrance exam for my dream school. I don't even know why I cried, is it because I study too hard and got the same results over and over again? Or the way my mom said that? It was average, I passed all my exams. But I guess she was not satisfied with it, haha.
Till now I did'nt even make an effort and aced everything not only exams but speech competitions, enacting and a lot of of things but since sometime Ive kinda developed this awkwardness on stage and have to add effort to studies to top my class. I just feel that now I'm not enough.
Every quarter of my school, I'm always behind. Thought that I'm probably not enough, not smart enough, and thought that is the reason why I am behind. Lack of motivation, and time. Though I always catch up, I still think I'm not enough, and I will fail, then disappoint my parents. Then more problems will be in their life. I feel responsible for all their problems. I try my best, but no matter how hard I try, I end up failing myself.
In my household, you have to pass a particular scholarship exam to be a worthy daughter. I did and my high school life although still going on, it's quite depressing. Staying up till 2 am to finish assignments, running the extra mile for extra credit, and straight A's, I'm the top of all my classes. It's hard work. nobody is there for me, I got a scholarship into another art school and I really wanted to pursue it, but being a doctor or software student is just always gonna stick around in my family. And I can say goodbye to my sexuality. It's always what my parents want. And don't get me wrong, they love me and want the best for me- but I just can't get a grip on real life, it's as if everything falling apart. This playlist really helped me with my studies, to anyone reading this, don't do what I'm doing, follow your dreams :)
pov: you're the nice, friendly, and smart kid when you're always second in class...most of the time. You're the overthinking one, that even the smartest kid in your class always tries to make you feel better by saying you're smart. It didn't affect much, though, but I'll try to take their compliments too
I was a gifted smart student but i fall in university but i guess try one more time, pray that they wont drop out me. Lets gooo Bismillah may Allah help me. Everyone hère you can do it too, i believe in you, no comparing, you time is just on time
all my life i was molded to become an achiever, raised in an environment that left me no choice but to be one. but I never considered myself smart, because I always had to put twice or even more the effort that other achievers I'm with put into their works. but of course, my parents and other people would not believe that because they always saw me as a gifted child. ever since I have been losing a sense of identity and always worked to impress or put up with the expectations of others. it's too tiring. i never wished to be like this. i wished I was a student who studies to learn and not to get high grades. the weight of the expectations is too heavy and i'm slowly losing my light. i'm too tired of all of this.
I used to like school, cause it's so easy for me to get to the top even without studying,in short I'm gifted. I like being at the top being praised and idolise by others. Then as I grow older I feel like I'm forced to be at the top, the pressure and expectations is so much.now in high school it's just normal if I'm at top, my parents not even satisfied with my grades, no matter how hard I try, they will compare me to others. I am always a good girl never broke any rule, always smiling,that super friendly girl,but that was not the real me, when pandemic hit, I had so much mental breakdown because I lost myself i don't even know who am I. I became the quiet smart kid. Then now I fell in love with a guy who don't care at all at academics we were the complete opposite. He confessed to me 3 times now we tired to be together, but it only last fora a month,then my father found out about our relationship and my parents want me to break up with him or I will stop studying. Of course we broke up I can't give up studying that's my main purpose in life if I give that up I would rather die, but I love him more than I could admit. I love him and I know I hurt him when we broke up. He makes me so happy, he makes me laugh, he makes me fell like im human,he fill up the empty whole of my heart, I really love him but we can't be together I don't know what to do anymore. I want to feel his touch. I want to feel his love. I don't know if I should fight for us or just move on . I have been trying to move on from him for 2 months at least, but it's hard since he sit right next to me at school. My story is more complicated than what I said.
To everyone who are reading this: You are doing great. And know some things that people will take advantage of you, they will cheat you or talk behind your back. So don't be very close to anyone. In the end you'll be hurt for sure. And don't compare yourself to anyone. Everyone is unique in their own way. Just believe in yourself, your strength, your health, and everything about you. Keep the fire alive inside you. If everyone destroys the sweet side of you, then show them who you really are. Your strength is still hidden. Come on guyss..stay motivated❤
I can still remember that im always "top of my school" in our school bcs i always get an ace at test,recitation,reportings etc. and my parents and my relatives were so proud at me. then someone enroll at my school. she was smart,preety.have confidences,preety freinds,rich,popular. i was very jealous about her cuz i think she replaced me, now she got many attention. i was pressure bcs of her. i always gets insecure abt my grade and scores. and now she got so much attention while me pretending that its ok its fine. my parents was not that proud of me rn. i always tried. i think i cant really beat her.
no, my parents don't push me, I push myself, I want to be the best and at the same time it makes me angry XD, I used to be the top in elementary and middle school, I graduated high school with honors, Now what am I going to enter the university I must be the best, although it's still scary :) Thanks for the playlist xd it will make me think about my real goals
I am the student who kept trying but just kept passing not the highest . I was a great with full marks but now I just need more time to learn but people kept seeing that I didn't got a A+ in my math and science. And I don't know whom to explain I am trying . I truly am
Pov: You're an underrated smart person, where you get big opportunities but place the lowest. You have good grades but it doesn't satisfy you, so you started being unhealthy and forcing yourself to be in an academic validation pressure so that more people will love you and notice you.
The whole section always asks for help from you because you're the top student. you do all the hard work and share the merit with them, not until they transcend you.
TIMESTAMPS
0:00 ~ 2:25 : Top of my school (ft. Joshua Turchin) - Katherine Lynn-Rose
2:25 ~ 5:39 : Are you satisfied - Marina and the Diamonds
5:39 ~ 8:35 : Oh no! - Marina and the Diamonds
8:36 ~ 11:49 : Mirrorball - Taylor Swift
11:50 ~ 15:31 : Successful - Ariana Grande
15:31 ~ 18:47 : Prom Dress - mxmtoon
18:48 ~ 22:16 : Applause - Lady Gaga
22:17 ~ 25:00 : Numb Little Bug - Em Boihold
thank u!
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POV: You try your hardest and ace everything, but you still don't feel good enough.
Got a 95 on a test and was genuinely angry about it. Then I was embarrassed for reacting like that 😒..
yeah same , and it is kinda annoying ,everyone keeps telling to me more happy for some reason
@@jhalakpoonia7216 I feel you, it's like you feel down all the time, and they just tell you to toughen it out.
@@jhalakpoonia7216 I know that feeling. They all tell me i have the perfect life and that i neen to be happy even tho it couldn't be further than the truth
I wanna scream! 😣
All my life i always had good grades, i was basically the gifted kid, but now in highschool im failing, its like i have potential just no motivation
Just do it out of love for yourself. Everyone's doing their best now so how can u give up on yourself ? You can't do everything but do what you can and have nothing to regret ! I know what you're going though to some degree , I've been like that for the first half of my school year but slowly I'm changing . We can do it !
@@sirinefakhfakh9834 ur giving me motivation
I shall’ give internet motivation :}
Sameeee thing
i relate so much OMG OmO
I could literally be the highest scorer in my class and still feel like i failed-
same. why is 3.9 good if two other kids got 4?? why
same bruh I literally am 3rd in class
seriously why
Same
im first in my class but i cried cuz i got a 96 instead of full marks
pov: you're the nice, smart kid that everyone takes advantage of.
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@@_Mushroom_Shark_ you're 10???
@@lizziehearts130 12 now LMAO
@@lizziehearts130 that doesn’t even relate to me anymore
I don't see myself as a gifted nor a smart student however I'm that student who keeps on trying but then was perceived as a 'smart' one for constantly trying and proving to others that I too could learn this, but for me? Im nowhere near from being intelligent, I'm just being compliant.
Yes this i also think a lot of people are more capable than they think
THIS. 👏🏽
Me too,im not even near on being smart/intelligent,its just sad that im still not gonna level up
-pov:- the adhd mixes all the questions up and you can't answer it and feel like crying because of your fustration
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Go easy on yourself. Stay calm and make the right mood , review the questions again slowly and calmly. Go through them one by one
@@sirinefakhfakh9834 ty . u .
Bro I’m on my period and I have adhd so it’s hell when I’m emotional…
ADD & Autism & i literally feel i need to be a high achiever in other to receive love…thing is i am a high achiever that just isn’t motivated enough cause i been brought down by my family…
It's nice to have found this playlist, I'm studying mechanical engineering and I've just received 100/100 grade on an exam of vectorial calculus (professor told me I was the only one with that grade between 90 students), for you who are reading this, wish you the best on your studies, we can do it, you can do it and it's worth it, have a wonderful day
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It’s like a subliminal. It gives you your desired results!
girly pops, does it not work on me? Cause i got a low grade from this playlist.. I GOT A 36/100 HUHUHU
"Am I even special anymore if I'm not the best?"
as the unpopular neurodivergent weirdo but iNteLliGenT (not) i feel this..
It's not important to be the best, trying your best is more important.
- wise man
I was at the top of my class from elementary until high school. I always had good grades yet someone beat me to it. I felt like i was replaced by her, my classmates hailed her as the smartest one in the class, having the beauty, brains and all. Im nearing my senior years and I about to graduate, it breaks my heart to know that shes the one whos going to deliver the validictiorian speech on stage and not me. I've done my best yet its not enough, hell, i even started hurting myself in hopes that i would start doing better in school for the validation of my relatives and my peers.
thats so sad hopefully you get it back
I know how you feel. But also don't forget how the other person might feel. You don't know what they've had to sacrifice and endure to get to that point in their life. I've always been pretty smart and worked hard for my grades but others have always been ahead of me. I would put myself down at first and hate that I wasn't at the top but I also think about how the other person might feel and what they don't show to others.
As someone quite a bit older than you - there is a whole, delicious, sparkly life ahead of you beyond education. You can't control what's happened to you, but if you keep your focus on yourself and on building a life full of things you value, you'll have plenty of wonderful experiences and it won't matter to you anymore.
sending virtual hugs! you did great
i know how you feel.. sending virtual hugs :))
people's expectations are so high to me that i am a consistent honor student, i don't wanna let them down but i'm tired. and i feel like i'm not learning for being this high achiever at school all the time. it's like failing and making a mistake is a crime. the things we do for academic validation ig
Honestly I wasn't always the "highest" scorer. But I tried and tried and got the highest score in my entire school and topped my school with scholarship but now that I'm in college I'm barely passing. I wanna be a doctor, fulfill my mother's dream. In Sha Allah I'll be able to do it💚
I think you have no motivation to achieve this dream because it is not your dream, but the dream of someone else. Make your own dream and start on his path. I know that the parents are dear to us and we must obey them and be aware of them, but when it comes to your life, you must choose it yourself, your dream, your future, and how to form your family. You must choose these things yourself. I am not telling you now that you should retreat from what you are doing, but you have to talk to yourself if this is really the thing you want to do or the thing that your mother wants to do.I wish you success in your life
@@ichigo6824 You know it is there choice and while it’s their mother’s dream she has no problems with it and seem to be doing fine with it
@MrVargheseantony I was worried only if she did it without personal motivation because in my place I see a lot of people who don't have their own dreams and do it just because their parents asked them to, it would be a waste of life if I was doing what I had to do without having my own dream, maybe I got her feelings wrong.
Ngl, having chill parents probably pushed me to be like this. They’re the best parents ever and will support me no matter what, but idk if it triggered some reverse psychology in me or something because I have an A in a math course two grades higher than I’m supposed to take, and I still feel like a failure.
bruh if this aint me. all they ask for is for me to not fail or get in trouble yet i feel the need to achieve for so much more lol
oml ive never heard something so relatable i literally try so hard and they’re like “we dont care as long as you’re trying”
@@n0tmxiaxxomg me too- bro I found my people
Mine is the toxic academic validation. Just a week ago, I found myself getting second in almost every subject because of silly mistakes. I was shattered, I couldn't even speak without breaking down in tears. I was always the " either you are the best or useless, pick one". Compared myself with my closest friend cause I competed with her. My friends started to notice that I never opened my results until I got home. Just today, I got a 88 and someone got 92 in one of my best subject where I'm always the first. I need some advice, this is killing me
Heyy it's oki take a deep breath you can do it you're not a failure take a time for yourself even for 30 minutes do something that make you happy then get ready for the comeback study around 3.am-5.am it's where your subconscious is awake plan your study put a score you desire in a place you always look at it will remind you to your goal don't forget to pray to God make him a priority he will be there for you and also when you study make sure you drink water hydration is very important! Also eat nuts, dates and almond they are very good for the brain
Why do I relate? If the same thing happened to me I would've torn my sheets I know it's toxic but I can't help it
When you ace everything, but if you get one thing wrong or one percent less, you feel like a failure.
Exactlyy, on my last math test I got a 15.5 out of 16 and I was really mad :/
198/200 on the big essay of the year. 99 percent. Two points off for an awkward transition phrase. I'm not sure I'd ever felt that bad before.
Literally me.Even if I lose half a mark,I feel like a failure.Like the dumbest person ever.
Ughhhhh thisss
Yes, this happens me every time we have to get homework corrected at the start of class and get the results back and I have a few wrong, I have to hold my tears the rest of the class.
I hope anyone who comes across this playlist one day decides that knowing they're trying their best is enough. do everything to make yourself proud, not for the applauses that will eventually fade out, not for the standards that will eventually change in time. you are enough, and while no one can force you too accept that too, make sure you're bettering yourself for yourself. take care, sweetie. you're doing great, even if you're barely getting by everyday. take a rest, but never give up. :>
I'm literally crying here while doing my AP work because I'm so tired. I haven't slept in...I don't really know. All because I have to be the best. Anything less isn't acceptable.
I've been perfect my whole life just to make my parents proud of me, especially my mother she's a teacher at my current high school all the teachers expect me to be a high achiever or else I'm only getting high grades because of her, its not true I really am academically smart but I'm starting to burn out but I yearn for the validation because its the only praise I'll ever get.
I may get the highest scores in my tests but i fail to get validation because I'm constantly compared to my mothers classes so i stay up get sleepless nights just to mark higher than everyone she could possibly compare me to
People on the internet are more understandable and nicer then our parents.
And it’s the sad truth (T~T)
@@Deez_nuts_in_ur_mom Agree it hurts but it really is the truth
I was the "bad" kid. Fighting people and not doing my homework. But truthly I believe I was Bad and I was horrible. However I was just frustrated at bullies and try to fight them. I liked gaming a lot more than some of my school work. Then in middle school they told us that we had 4 years left of school till we live with all older young adults. So I pushed hard on my last year of middle school. Then I am at the top of the class year with A's and B's in high-school. trust me it's hard as heck. I also was never grounded for my bad grades. Just grounded for Fighting people.
[P.s. update I'm graduating and life is hard but not bad]
POV: your the smart friend that everyone cheats off of 😕
true 🙂
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True can relate
Too relatable it hurts
Only for english and math-
honestly its so hard to be happy with a "decent" grade. I just came back home with an low A range grade and i really didnt expect myself to cry over it. Its even harder when you have a friend similar to you but expresses it more so you js have to comfort them while your also having a mental breakdown in the inside with no one aware of your feelings. it hurts :(
this playlist keeps me motivated while studying📚✏💞
same !
I try and I try and try, but I always feel like I'm not doing enough or better. 70-90 isn't enough but I'm not smart enough. I'm constantly struggling to find motivation
You don't find motivation, you build habit. Because, motivation gets you started. Habit is what keep you going.
while I was in school, I was always the top of the class and I spent most of my time alone, studying in our library. as a result, i was socially awkward and didnt have many friends and while this did bring me happiness for years. When I lost my sister in 8th grade, it all started to go downhill, the fact my parents seperated at the same time, didnt help and I havent recovered ever since, I see life as ultimately meaningless and have been recently diagnosed with depression. I see the world for the bleak and sad place it is and I just want to disappear without a trace.
Since it's exam season, it's the time to search for these types of playlists again :)
When you feel so pressured to become top student, you retake every test below 100, redo any 'bad' assignment, write long, winding essays much longer than required, and still get compared to a sibling with worse grades. " Oh, you got a C? Go to your room, you're grounded. " " Aw, you got a C? It's okay hun, you tried your best. " It hurts.
Pov: your finally working up to your sister Academic success, but are looking at what it cost you
Literally my life
pov: you’re scared your younger sibling will follow in your path because the two of you are constantly compared
When people say it all comes easy to you but they don't see you staying up late and constantly studying and crying after bad tests and struggling with unseen mental health......
On a brighter note I have stayed true to myself throughout everything and now even though things are still stressful and I study and work a lot, I know that I am capable and that I will get through it. If I can do it, then you can too. Good luck on everything stranger
pov i always push myself to do the best but feel like a failure when theres someone better at something than me
i just feel kind useless. Iif i'm not pretty, physically strong, or good at any hobbies, i should at least be smart or excel academically, yk??
i feel like i have nothing to give. Preeeetty stressed for the future. :,)
i get you, but you don't have to be the best at anything to be useful, promise. there is no need to spend too much time on something if you don't like doing it, just because you feel the pressure to excel in it. if you like studying, spend your time on it, if you would rather spend the time on one of you hobbies, do that. it's your life, do what you enjoy when you have the opportunity to.
ps. the future is a far away thing, you have all the time in the world to figure it out and a lot of people who are willing to help you (if you ask them to). you'll make it :)
@@esther9688 thank you :) i really needed this. I hope whatever is bothering you rn will eventually disappear.
It's true we need to do sth for our future but your peace is important too. Do what u can and what u enjoy . Hard work and fun time ❤.
I am that kid who becomes the top of the grade with barely ever studying. But, people assume that I try hard and that they could rely on me for everything. They started to stereotype me as that nerd who they treat differently, they act very careful in front me as if they're scared I would judge them, and that made me feel very lonely, especially when I am just bad at socializing in general. I grew up having to seek academic validation to feel worthy, because people don't see me as anything more than that, even though I didn't bring this upon myself, so I actually started working to not lose my "title". However, that all changed in quarantine. I got into a slump, barely attended classes and for an entire year, I did not do ANY assignments (fr my google classroom had 140+ works on my to-do-list lol). During that moment, teachers no longer know my name, I was no longer appointed to be group captains, barely anybody wanted me in their group, basically people no longer sees me as a somebody anymore. It felt terrible back then, but hey I'm still alive and it's alright. I think that was what changed my perspective on academic achievements. When I still grinded like my life depended on it, yes I did amazing things, but I did not feel amazing inside too. So, what's the point? If high achievements must come at the expense of mental health, it's not worth it. So, now I'm a high schooler, back at the top of my class, but with a much healthier mindset. I understand that my value lies way more than academic achievements. I still study (a loooot, more actually), but now I do it without pressure. I just do my best without exhausting myself, the top student status is really just a bonus. Besides, regardless of whether or not you are a gifted kid, as a student, doing your best in studies is still a responsibility anyways.
to any who's reading this:
its fine if you dont always get the top grades, you are more than ur grades and remember that sometimes stopping and doing some exercise is also good for your mind and drink more water to keep you guy's mind clearer :)
Not acing my tests make me feel disappointed in myself. I feel like all these years, I didn't improve. Im consistent but that's just it. I don't change at all and I hate it. I feel inferior. I don't know if it's valid to feel this way. There is someone who had better grades or higher average grade than me and it made me sad. Happy for her but I feel like I've become irrelevant and sort of not so unique anymore.
POV: You try so hard at school that you don't even remember if you're trying anymore. Nothing pleases them. They don't accept that you aren't perfect.
I was the top student since I was in preschool but quarantine came and I lost motivation to do it 3 students that were so far away from my throne replaced me. I am still one of the smartest but I'm either in 3rd place or 4th. It breaks me knowing I can beat them but I just lack the motivation at a young age I started to sh bc of it so I'm here rn trying my best to study so that I will make it to the top 1 once again.
I crave Academic validation so much, that if I have a B in any class besides PE, I stress myself out to the point my body will have terrible body aches and I'll lose sleep. My mental health will drag because I have 1 B. I absolutely have no motivation anymore, this playlist can keep me going while I study. Thank you
I feel you. stay strong.
The fact that i always get blinded by reality and these songs always makes me realize everytime i hear it
listening to this while studying for three big tests for tomorrow (chinese, math, english) 😭 i wasnt at school for the past week so i know nothing about the chinese and math and im stressing over it so hard 😅
Good luck!!
@@saige.6309 i got a 64% at chinese (sad but im fine wit it), 96% math, and 100% english :DD
@@royaltypiixies3352 congrats i have a test coming up to! ( MAPEH, HELE and COMPUTER)
@@sawsansalem4400
POV:You actually try your best and do everything but it's still not enough..
i've always been second or third in whatever school i've been to (i've changed schools probably 8 times). i've recently felt the need to top my class and study (really put effort in my studies). around 2 or 3 exams have gone by but i haven't been able to succeed. i was 6th in class in 9th grade because i got only 93%, that's how high the competition is. exams are approaching again, and this time i'm more than determined to top this time. wish me luck!
POV
you tried your best to surpass that one person or to make your self proud, your parents are either pressuring you or you are pressuring your self, you tried your very best to improve or to make your self/them to feel satisfied and proud of you but someone is still always better then you, you feel disappointed at yourself knowing that you failed even though you did your best
Incredible playlist! You are so underrated, helped me focus a lot. Thank you! Hopefully, you devote your channel to this and make more videos like these! I truly loved it x
tysm !!
@@brknchll Ofc!! You so deserve it x
Despite having already passed my assignments, projects and solutions, I always check it. I stare at it to point out any mistakes. I make sure it's perfect. It's unhealthy to the point that even though it's already passed, I would not be able to sleep until I get a good grade. If I get a grade lower than what I want or even just a single mistake, I go back and do the same damn thing. I check and I check, and I check. I stare at it for hours, I research for hours, and I won't have a good sleep until I force myself to forget it.
yo wait this is actually a really fire playlist. first time a playlist had a huge impact on my mood. this is awesome, thank you.
POV: Trying hard to get an acknowledgement from your family but only to brush off and not appreciated enough
I feel lucky my mom is not like the other but my friend family is like a typical other family i feel so sorry for her, she gets compared everytime her family compared her to me her friend when our grades came out.
I usually get high marks in exchange for studying hard but these days no matter how hard i study i just happen to keep on making mistakes and fail my tests. It's like that even doing my best isn't enough
I was a bright kid who used to be very good at studies but since the pandemic, I became bad at it, I miss the old student me but still I'm trying my best to become that student again ;)
In elementary, my grades were never really high they were average and had nothing special to them, but recently in high school i found myself improving. The reason im improving is most likely the lack of people who can distract me, in elementary i was a popular kid with tons of friends left and right thanks to my older siblings influence but when i had to move to a new school with no one i know i became a loner, always in the corner forgotten even though my grades were high.
this playlist makes me feel like im that one girl in school who has the highest grades but gets the lowest amount of sleep , and i love it
the pain when u were the top one of your school all ur life but there comes this boy who takes my place as the top one and gets compared to him
Always the top, now i'm failing. But now i'm getting closer to the top again--but I don't really want to be top. Better be the disappointment than be pressured with stressful expectations, huh?
i loved it sm
tysm 💓
It's hard to be on the top, when people who are below you keep bringing you down. When I get a perfect or high score, they get so irritated.
I used to be the kid who had so much potential they said. As soon as I got into high school I can barely catch up with my peers. I'm failing tests left and right and I can't finish anything on time.
my motivation when studying
Umm how am I that kid that is like this but is always thinking that they aren't good enough always thinking that I'm not the pride and joy but a hopeless mistake that it's my burden to Carry and that I have to be perfect as a picture in order for my parents to accept me
cheer up ! 💓
Turns out that it's called imposter syndrome....I googled it
I have high scores on every subject at school, I'm an english prodigy (not native lenguage), I'm studying Italian and I'm learning fast, I have dance lessons every saturday for three hours and a half, I'm writing my second novel and other, shorter, stories and today I started preparing a movie adaptation of my own book which I direct and make the script, I already have more than half of the crew ready.
All this and it's still not enough, I hate the feeling because I know that I'll end up burned out.
I have always been a gifted kid but now that I'm in my last year of high school, I feel tired of everything. I have no motivation even though I'm doing okay in school, I know it's not enough and won't ever be enough for me, but I don't want to disappoint anyone close to me. I needed this, honestly.
the first song is really a vibe for me
I'm listening to this song every time I study for any of my exams or quizzes, now I ace and ALMOST (49/50) perfect my exams.
"Everyone can make mistakes" but when you fail you get yellex at, you're rejected by society, people tell you you'll never accomplish you dreams...
And it will continue after high school like... if you fail at a job you'll get fired, then you're unemployed, when you're unemployed society laughs at you... and that way people say you have no life. Like you're always expected to be perfect in everyway.
I'm sick of it and at the same time I can't let go because I'll feel like the most useless piece of shit if I do
this is such a good playlist!
Amazing. I don't really listen to music when I'm studying but this- 😍
I wouldn't say that I'm the "smart" nor "gifted student" you know. I'm never the top of the class back in elementary but now that I'm in highschool; I'm starting to achieve everything that I ever wanted. But when I became the second best, I don't even know how I'll show my face in front of the class. It's so humiliating knowing that my teachers will say stuff like "the top of the class is only good at the start" and stuff like that. I feel so down yk, but I always acted like it's fine and ever since then I never accepted failure in my life ever again.
Man,this hits hard. I was a perfect child who scored well always but now suddenly in the important years of my life im doing nothing but i know if i study i can top . Still i dont do anything I feel like i dont even deserve the smart brain i have while others are struggling to for it.
this playlist makes me to be more motivated to study :>>
Seriously pushing myself and trying harder on studying because i cannot afford to fail.
And everytime i study, i listen to this to get motivated.
im in love with this playlist! tysm
needed to wake up since i was just going with the flow these last few days. To my co-achievers there, we are born to create our own flow. We are born to be unique, we can do this. It is hard but it's supposed to be hard. Padayon!
I am working, but this is a hell of a bopper. haha thanks for this!
PLEASE ADD PRICE OF PERFECTION TO THIS. I REALLY LOVE THIS PLAYLIST❤️🩹
I got an A+ in drama, but that doesn’t matter to my parents because I got an A- in health (I missed the whole unit except for the test). Even though everything else was an A.
I’m scared.
I’ve made good grades my entire life but I’m in junior high. Things are going to get harder and if I’m bad, I’ll be a disappointment. People are talking about being great then failing. I don’t want to fail, but I want to live my own life and not be burnt out. Ive tried to be friends with all the smart kids, but I’ve been losing my friends to being quiet and too busy on work. I want to go places when I’m older, y’a know. Who dosent? The job I want requires big time schooling. I wish to be a US ambassador to france. Ive been learning French and it’s the end of the year. I feel burnt out because my t acheté are still assigning work after the big test, which were surprisingly easy.
not me listening to this and crying over my friend who is always the first person to be acknowledged as the smartest and most knowledgeable and everyone looks to her for help and is nice to her while i'm in the corner getting grades that are the same as her and never being acknowledged :') She's gonna be valedictorian while i'm second best.
Thanks for this playlist, i relate- this hits hard
"Why do you even study? In the end it's just the same score." My mom said that earlier, while I was studying for the entrance exam for my dream school. I don't even know why I cried, is it because I study too hard and got the same results over and over again? Or the way my mom said that? It was average, I passed all my exams. But I guess she was not satisfied with it, haha.
Till now I did'nt even make an effort and aced everything not only exams but speech competitions, enacting and a lot of of things but since sometime Ive kinda developed this awkwardness on stage and have to add effort to studies to top my class. I just feel that now I'm not enough.
Every quarter of my school, I'm always behind. Thought that I'm probably not enough, not smart enough, and thought that is the reason why I am behind. Lack of motivation, and time. Though I always catch up, I still think I'm not enough, and I will fail, then disappoint my parents. Then more problems will be in their life. I feel responsible for all their problems. I try my best, but no matter how hard I try, I end up failing myself.
THANK YOU FROM HIGH HONORS TO HIGHEST HONOR BECAUSE OF THIS
In my household, you have to pass a particular scholarship exam to be a worthy daughter. I did and my high school life although still going on, it's quite depressing. Staying up till 2 am to finish assignments, running the extra mile for extra credit, and straight A's, I'm the top of all my classes. It's hard work. nobody is there for me, I got a scholarship into another art school and I really wanted to pursue it, but being a doctor or software student is just always gonna stick around in my family. And I can say goodbye to my sexuality. It's always what my parents want. And don't get me wrong, they love me and want the best for me- but I just can't get a grip on real life, it's as if everything falling apart. This playlist really helped me with my studies, to anyone reading this, don't do what I'm doing, follow your dreams :)
pov: you're the nice, friendly, and smart kid when you're always second in class...most of the time. You're the overthinking one, that even the smartest kid in your class always tries to make you feel better by saying you're smart.
It didn't affect much, though, but I'll try to take their compliments too
honestly, if we aren’t the best students, who are we?
bro keep going with all these great songs🙏
first 3 got me SOOOO motivated tysm bro
I was a gifted smart student but i fall in university but i guess try one more time, pray that they wont drop out me. Lets gooo Bismillah may Allah help me. Everyone hère you can do it too, i believe in you, no comparing, you time is just on time
all my life i was molded to become an achiever, raised in an environment that left me no choice but to be one. but I never considered myself smart, because I always had to put twice or even more the effort that other achievers I'm with put into their works. but of course, my parents and other people would not believe that because they always saw me as a gifted child. ever since I have been losing a sense of identity and always worked to impress or put up with the expectations of others. it's too tiring. i never wished to be like this. i wished I was a student who studies to learn and not to get high grades. the weight of the expectations is too heavy and i'm slowly losing my light. i'm too tired of all of this.
I used to like school, cause it's so easy for me to get to the top even without studying,in short I'm gifted.
I like being at the top being praised and idolise by others. Then as I grow older I feel like I'm forced to be at the top, the pressure and expectations is so much.now in high school it's just normal if I'm at top, my parents not even satisfied with my grades, no matter how hard I try, they will compare me to others. I am always a good girl never broke any rule, always smiling,that super friendly girl,but that was not the real me, when pandemic hit, I had so much mental breakdown because I lost myself i don't even know who am I. I became the quiet smart kid.
Then now I fell in love with a guy who don't care at all at academics we were the complete opposite. He confessed to me 3 times now we tired to be together, but it only last fora a month,then my father found out about our relationship and my parents want me to break up with him or I will stop studying.
Of course we broke up I can't give up studying that's my main purpose in life if I give that up I would rather die, but I love him more than I could admit. I love him and I know I hurt him when we broke up.
He makes me so happy, he makes me laugh, he makes me fell like im human,he fill up the empty whole of my heart, I really love him but we can't be together I don't know what to do anymore.
I want to feel his touch.
I want to feel his love.
I don't know if I should fight for us or just move on . I have been trying to move on from him for 2 months at least, but it's hard since he sit right next to me at school.
My story is more complicated than what I said.
To everyone who are reading this:
You are doing great. And know some things that people will take advantage of you, they will cheat you or talk behind your back. So don't be very close to anyone. In the end you'll be hurt for sure. And don't compare yourself to anyone. Everyone is unique in their own way. Just believe in yourself, your strength, your health, and everything about you. Keep the fire alive inside you. If everyone destroys the sweet side of you, then show them who you really are. Your strength is still hidden. Come on guyss..stay motivated❤
I can still remember that im always "top of my school" in our school bcs i always get an ace at test,recitation,reportings etc. and my parents and my relatives were so proud at me. then someone enroll at my school. she was smart,preety.have confidences,preety freinds,rich,popular. i was very jealous about her cuz i think she replaced me, now she got many attention. i was pressure bcs of her. i always gets insecure abt my grade and scores. and now she got so much attention while me pretending that its ok its fine. my parents was not that proud of me rn. i always tried. i think i cant really beat her.
no, my parents don't push me, I push myself, I want to be the best and at the same time it makes me angry XD, I used to be the top in elementary and middle school, I graduated high school with honors, Now what am I going to enter the university I must be the best, although it's still scary :) Thanks for the playlist xd it will make me think about my real goals
I am the student who kept trying but just kept passing not the highest . I was a great with full marks but now I just need more time to learn but people kept seeing that I didn't got a A+ in my math and science. And I don't know whom to explain I am trying . I truly am
I did my best but my best wasn't always enough
Are you okay people? Don't overwork yourself, you can do this. I believe in you. 💗
The first song sounds like a musical!
cheer up to all of you babies.
finally I got it, I am now with honor 😭😭
Pov: You're an underrated smart person, where you get big opportunities but place the lowest. You have good grades but it doesn't satisfy you, so you started being unhealthy and forcing yourself to be in an academic validation pressure so that more people will love you and notice you.
The whole section always asks for help from you because you're the top student. you do all the hard work and share the merit with them, not until they transcend you.
When you are disappointed in yourself even after getting top of your class and being the "perfect" student.
Academic playlist but actually in a positive way