I know how hard that must have been for you. Its the anorexic voice that tells us NO!!! Its so hard to ignore, you are handling things really well. Keep it up,youre a very good influence.
@@BecomingSunshine Your so welcome! Your kind words mean a lot to me as well! Watching your videos help relieve anxiety for me, especially after a bad day. I get very down certain days, and a lot of it comes from the aftermath over a poor choice or too much of a certain food that my brain is telling me NOT TO HAVE!!!!! Its a everyday process. 🤔
Brilliant video, this shows how strong anorexia is, how true the fears and emotions are. I actually can’t believe how much you kept pushing through. Amazing hun absolutely amazing
Thank you so much ❤ your words are so kind. I couldn’t have done it without my mum even though it was a huge struggle I know that I can cry but I just need to keep going ❤
Elise, you are so amazing. I applaud you for choosing to do this challenge. This is the next step that I know all about. I had to give up control early in my recovery and though it was beyond hard and I got so angry at my parents, honestly, it was the best thing I ever did. It took all the stress about choosing what to eat and the urge to restrict off my shoulders and it enabled me to actually start real recovery instead of consciously or unconsciously thinking about or restricting when I made my own food. I am also so proud of you for realizing that what you ate was not a lot. Anorexia makes us think that it’s a lot because we are so used to the minuscule amount of food we ate when we where starving ourselves. I believe it’s very important to remember that the meal plan is the MINIMUM of what we need to eat. When I was making my own food and following the meal plan I started unconsciously using the plan as another rule of how much I should eat and I wouldn’t ever go over it. My medical team explained that a meal plan gives the parents an idea of how much we need but it should never become a rule of what we can only eat. It states the bear minimum of what we need to eat, not everything you need to eat. Fully recovery is when you are able to eat anything and everything and not to be tied to only what your meal plan states. You probably know all of this. But this is what I believe and I wanted to mention it to make sure you know you’re not alone. And please do not apologize for being stressed and anxious. I love how real you are. Anorexia is doing that, not you. That is why we are going to kick anorexia in the butt with challenge after challenging! I love that you said that we can have a meltdown but we have to keep going. That is precisely what recovery is. We can cry, we can yell, we can even get angry at our parents but we keep going and keep pushing because this is anorexia, not us, and meltdowns are us facing anorexia and giving it the middle finger. Also, I love sweet potato and I’m actually challenging that right now! So I am so happy you challenged that! And the cake looks divine! Happy Belated Birthday! I am beyond proud of you for challenging that and remember, you don’t have to have a birthday to eat cake 😉 Overall, this video was one of my favorites. You are so amazing and so strong and you so deserve to eat good food and enjoy it. I hope you continue to challenge your parents making your meals off camera. Remember: You are Beautiful. You are Worthy. You are Loved. 💗
Don’t be sorry. This raw real footage of fear and tears and anxiety is what we need to see. You help us see that you pushed thru and shows us we are not alone
Well done for giving the anorexia a good kick up the backside! Keep going, you are stronger than the ED for being able to challenge it. Bless your Mum for supporting you, I'm glad you have her❤
really proud of you & your journey, you’re hella inspiring :) i hope you’re so so proud of the progress you’ve made bc you deserve to feel great. rooting for you!!
Omg I‘m so freaking proud of you for fighting so hard against the voice in your head ! 😩🥰 your videos help me sm as well🥺Thank you for taking us along your journey ❤️
Glad I came across this video. So honest and real. Amazing how string and determined you are; it's very encouraging thankyou! Am gunna go through all your videos nowsince you started the channel and watch them...
I totally understand you :) I'm recovered since 2 yrs now, but at the beginning I was soo terryfied, and I cried a lot (during every meal, actually :) ) But it's fine. You just do it, and this is the point. Not the fears, but the actions. I'm proud of you :)
@@BecomingSunshine and everybody around you is so excited to get to know the real Alyce❤️ Because you are not the illness and you were never meant to be!☺️
Fruit isn’t a fear for me. Curious what the fear was in the banana? I guess I could see the starch and high calorie ofnit being a fear. Was this it for you?
i am so proud of you for pushing through. 💛 never apologise for how you feel. feelings are just a part of being human. keep fighting, gorgeous.
Thank you so much that means the world ❤
I know how hard that must have been for you. Its the anorexic voice that tells us NO!!! Its so hard to ignore, you are handling things really well. Keep it up,youre a very good influence.
Thank you Loren your kind words mean so much to me ❤
@@BecomingSunshine Your so welcome! Your kind words mean a lot to me as well! Watching your videos help relieve anxiety for me, especially after a bad day. I get very down certain days, and a lot of it comes from the aftermath over a poor choice or too much of a certain food that my brain is telling me NOT TO HAVE!!!!! Its a everyday process. 🤔
Brilliant video, this shows how strong anorexia is, how true the fears and emotions are. I actually can’t believe how much you kept pushing through. Amazing hun absolutely amazing
Thank you so much ❤ your words are so kind. I couldn’t have done it without my mum even though it was a huge struggle I know that I can cry but I just need to keep going ❤
Youre truly strong giving over that control and feeling that fear and still doing it. A huge inspiration.
Thank you so much! Yeah it feels almost wrong being ‘old’ but it’s so important to have the supports ❤
Meal plans should only ever be a minimum lovely, keep pushing xxx
Elise, you are so amazing. I applaud you for choosing to do this challenge. This is the next step that I know all about. I had to give up control early in my recovery and though it was beyond hard and I got so angry at my parents, honestly, it was the best thing I ever did. It took all the stress about choosing what to eat and the urge to restrict off my shoulders and it enabled me to actually start real recovery instead of consciously or unconsciously thinking about or restricting when I made my own food.
I am also so proud of you for realizing that what you ate was not a lot. Anorexia makes us think that it’s a lot because we are so used to the minuscule amount of food we ate when we where starving ourselves. I believe it’s very important to remember that the meal plan is the MINIMUM of what we need to eat. When I was making my own food and following the meal plan I started unconsciously using the plan as another rule of how much I should eat and I wouldn’t ever go over it. My medical team explained that a meal plan gives the parents an idea of how much we need but it should never become a rule of what we can only eat. It states the bear minimum of what we need to eat, not everything you need to eat. Fully recovery is when you are able to eat anything and everything and not to be tied to only what your meal plan states. You probably know all of this. But this is what I believe and I wanted to mention it to make sure you know you’re not alone.
And please do not apologize for being stressed and anxious. I love how real you are. Anorexia is doing that, not you. That is why we are going to kick anorexia in the butt with challenge after challenging! I love that you said that we can have a meltdown but we have to keep going. That is precisely what recovery is. We can cry, we can yell, we can even get angry at our parents but we keep going and keep pushing because this is anorexia, not us, and meltdowns are us facing anorexia and giving it the middle finger.
Also, I love sweet potato and I’m actually challenging that right now! So I am so happy you challenged that! And the cake looks divine! Happy Belated Birthday! I am beyond proud of you for challenging that and remember, you don’t have to have a birthday to eat cake 😉
Overall, this video was one of my favorites. You are so amazing and so strong and you so deserve to eat good food and enjoy it. I hope you continue to challenge your parents making your meals off camera.
Remember: You are Beautiful. You are Worthy. You are Loved. 💗
Your words have literally bought me to years thank you so much ❤ I am so lucky to have connected with you ❤
@@BecomingSunshine I am so blessed to have connected with such a wonderful person like you too and I am honored to recover along side you 💗
Don’t be sorry. This raw real footage of fear and tears and anxiety is what we need to see. You help us see that you pushed thru and shows us we are not alone
Well done for giving the anorexia a good kick up the backside! Keep going, you are stronger than the ED for being able to challenge it. Bless your Mum for supporting you, I'm glad you have her❤
Thank you I’m very lucky ❤
I’m so proud of you and your intentions behind it showing love to your mom was sweet. Love your videos! Inspiring
Thank you so much!!
wau probably the most honest and real video i have seen from you. Thank you:) keep going🎉
You’re so welcome and thank you ❤
Your mum sounds so lovely 😍 I am really envious of that amazing encouragement and support 😍
Thank you so much!! I am very lucky
really proud of you & your journey, you’re hella inspiring :) i hope you’re so so proud of the progress you’ve made bc you deserve to feel great. rooting for you!!
Thank you so much ❤
Omg I‘m so freaking proud of you for fighting so hard against the voice in your head ! 😩🥰 your videos help me sm as well🥺Thank you for taking us along your journey ❤️
keep it up, your doing so well. I know that it is hard but that only serves to show the level of your achievement.
Thank you ❤ I’ve got amazing supports and people like you that keep me going ❤
Glad I came across this video. So honest and real. Amazing how string and determined you are; it's very encouraging thankyou! Am gunna go through all your videos nowsince you started the channel and watch them...
Aww thank you ❤
I totally understand you :) I'm recovered since 2 yrs now, but at the beginning I was soo terryfied, and I cried a lot (during every meal, actually :) ) But it's fine. You just do it, and this is the point. Not the fears, but the actions. I'm proud of you :)
You are so strong! I hope you can be a little bit proud of yourself, I know I am! :)
Thank you ❤ I am just the anorexia voice telling me I shouldn’t be but the real Alyce is ❤
@@BecomingSunshine and everybody around you is so excited to get to know the real Alyce❤️ Because you are not the illness and you were never meant to be!☺️
The cake looks so good I will have to try it!
It's so good!
Keep going! Keep pushing yourself! That is the only way for you to get free
Thank you, I will ❤
Fruit isn’t a fear for me. Curious what the fear was in the banana? I guess I could see the starch and high calorie ofnit being a fear. Was this it for you?
Where is your breakfast spoon from!!!
I wish I was at stage you are. Thank you for sharing xx
You can do it!
im so pround, its a BIG CHALLANGE for us
It is really crazy to see what EDs can do to us🥺 I also have still a long way to go✨🫶
But we’re getting closer just a little bit each day ❤ don’t give up ❤