Missed you so much! It’s good to hear that you are doing well. Hope you’re able to find a job soon. And the kittens are absolutely adorable. Maybe you could start volunteering at an animal rescue just to get more comfortable around people. That’s what I did and I LOVED it. It wasn’t paid but I got to spend time with cute kitties 🥰
You have a kind soul and it's sad seeing you unhappy. Please remember that social media has warped our perception of what's real. Your 20s are for making different mistakes and working things out. Your 30s are when you have things figured out but still make mistakes. The best thing I ever did for social anxiety was take a leap and get a job, i remember feeling anxious to the point of vomitting on my way to work but at the end of the day I felt that I did make an improvement and that it wasn't as bad as I thought. Just gotta climb a little bit up that mountain each day and eventually you'll be at the top and hey there might even be points along the mountain that you feel are good enough to stop and star at the view and enjoy the moment.
My words won’t mean much, but I’m proud of you. Life is scary, socializing and failure are intimidating and sometimes paralyzing, but you putting out these videos and sticking through the hard times shows how strong you are. 24 is still young, please don’t feel like a failure, you haven’t let anyone down, the thing telling you that you have is the evil little voice in your head that lies. You’re still young, you have time to find out what you want to do, and I would even say it’s better for you to take time and figure out what you love instead of going straight into some field that you might fall out of love with. Your interactions or relationships with others don’t determine your worth, and you’re not late. In fact, you’re right on time for your own trail to blaze. Hold your chin up, you have beauty even though you can’t see it. Keep moving forward and play with those kittens! You got this
I'm soon 27, unemployed (3 months) and have no idea what to work with yet. Also I've never dated either, no partner (I avoid every social occasion, like I literally only leave home to get groceries). 🤷♂ Btw your username "The Crooked Lady" does not make u justice at all 😭
Yup yup.....thats my life too. I dont know what ta do anymore. I fight 1000 times harder than anyone around me but it amounts to nothing or means nothing too others. Ive been thinking of ending it to be honest but i got a cat who needs me so ill have ta wait. Anyway hun i realize it doesn't help but in my eyes your 100x better than most people on this planet yu got a precious heart please try your hardest to be the one to make it AND WIN! i wish u the best.
I just found your channel! I don't suffer from body dysmorphia, but I struggle with some other things about my appearance. I also suffer from high anxiety and depression. This is not an issue (I actually like having this), but I also have high-functioning autism. I have OCD. Some days it's good. Other days, it's bad. It gets bad around holidays, and other things that I am excited for. I have dyslexia, and possibly ADHD. I love those kittens! I remember when my cats were kittens (they are both male cats named Oliver and Nigel). Nigel will be 13 on March 18th. Oliver will be 13 on April 6th. I still love them just as much as when they were kittens! Oliver is my cat. He hates it when I leave for work. This is my story: I chose to stop going to school (college) because the degree I want is not really guaranteeing me a job that I would want. I also got overwhelmed and there are two classes that are keeping me from going there. Those classes are mental torture for me, and I don't want to step back into my mental health back in much of my high school career. There are people I know who have finished college, and they still do not have a job. Apparently, that is common. My plan is that I am now working at a grocery store, and I will go to Costco, later. I have heard stories of people with college degrees there, and they love it (they pay well, and treat you well--They are also Union-Friendly, I believe). College limits you in many different ways. It is much harder to find a job you like, I have heard. For me, I am just not interested in dating (but that is just me). I do have crushes, but I would much rather be friends than date. I love to be alone (I am 100% Introverted). Also, you are close to my age! I just turned 22 (my birthday is January 21st)! Thanks for making videos! You don't know how much you are helping brighten my day! People who have parallel experiences make me feel like I am not alone in struggling with what I struggle with (mental health stuff)! I am more open with people who have mental health conditions (I have multiple of those) because they understand and actually listen and they don't judge. I also don't feel so alone. - Catherine Lee
I hope you enjoy your grocery store job. My sister and myself have OCD and it is very hard to live with. I have other issues also, fibromyalgia, anxiety disorder. I'm a girl who was bullied terribly at school. You have a lot of issues going on, I hope you are getting some help for your disorders ❤❤
@@steve-gv7yn, I do enjoy my grocery store job! It is a stepping stone to work at Costco, as I have said earlier. My OCD used to be a lot worse when I was younger, but it is a lot better now. It's manageable (for the most part). I was bullied at school. I don't care what people think of me, now (usually). But that is my story. Sometimes, words still cut. I do have a lot going on. I got a lot of therapy when I was younger. I stopped going to therapy. I did not need it anymore. My doctor helped me find the right medication and the correct amount to help me (It took us a bit to find the right medication and the correct dosage for me, which is normal--Especially when going on new medication). I am doing fine, now. Sometimes, my issues still get to me, but everything is manageable. I still write to my therapist. She is awesome! I believe it is her birthday, today, too (February 11th)! If not, it is around February 11th. My medications help a lot with my OCD and everything. I have good days, and I have bad days. Plus, my cats help, too! Thanks for caring! I hope you and your sister are able to find relief, or something to lessen all the OCD. I also hope you are finding some relief for some of your other issues. They (anxiety and OCD) won't go away fully, but are ways to lessen them. You just need to find what works for you. What works for one person, may differ from everyone else. I don't know much about fibromyalgia. I have heard of it, before, though. Also, I hope you are not getting bullied anymore. Nobody deserves to get bullied. ❤❤ - Catherine Lee
That is so sweet you took the kittens in. You have a kind heart and that's good..please stay positive and never stop being so caring. And your face is fine. Keep making these videos. Your gonna be blessed looking out for those kittens.
Hey, Lady. Glad to see you again. ❤ You turning 24 this year is great! And no worries - I am now 42 and I started to "do meaningful" things after somewhere 32, I think. So before that I just wandered around, done this and that. I am pretty sure you will find your way. 😊
Broski don’t be afraid of judgment 99% of people are not gonna care what you do and that’s ok it’s your life and you should live it the way you want, you just gotta take small steps and keep thuggin it out, I’m sorry to hear about your mental health troubles (I myself struggle with NOS Depression) but just remember the coldest hour is the one that comes just before the dawn
I totally hear ya, it’s all about soul evolution, and I stumbled on your channel a few days ago and began with some of your earlier vids and then kinda popped thru some more and then up to a couple of these latest ones, and I can DEFINITELY say your soul evolution over the last couple of years has been awesomely dramatically fantastic and you are on YOUR “right track”! 🙌🙃🌻 You’re so on it and your perspectives are great and you’re inner beauty is also gradually making its way out in the way you “look” physically, and THAT is some of the best evidence of how you’re evolving spirituality and perspective-wise 😊 anyone REALLY paying attention even to your early vids could tell you’re a good human, and outside now its showing energy-wise and physically, and ultimately these are all YOUR choices, consciously & subconsciously, and you are SO there and on it and just WATCH how blossoms in is many great ways from here on out! Ha I always like to say “when it seems like everything is falling apart it’s really falling into PLACE”, and I I’ve found that to be true always. You’ll see😉🙌 I’m at one of those junctures now, and the last time that happened before this current one I wrote and made an album all about it, written from living DIRECTLY in the BeDo zone as I was living it! Check it out if u feel, I think you’ll relate to it at least lyrically ANYYYYWAY, you are a freakin gem, I send tons of groovy good energy your way and keep up the good “soul work”!!!!! GREAT channel, kudos! Ugh, sorry so long but hey, what the F! 😉🤗🙃🌈❤️🐈✌️ And I mean, you love cats, so you’re GOLDEN forever!! Haha Groove ON, thanks for ALL you’ve shared and all you will share! ✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️ I’ll send the link to the album in another comment right after this so I don’t lose everything I e typed trying to get the link I’m a moron, I shoulda copied it BEFORE I typed all this but I didn’t think my comment would be so loooong 😮 Thanks for reading if you made it thru my book here ha
We all need some luck. But we also need to throw ourselves into situations where luck is able to do its magic. I wish you have more of those occasions.
Hi, I have subscribed to your channel and can understand how it feels when life passes you by. I have had a family friend pressure me so many times to change myself and to "get out of my comfort zone" and it triggers childhood traumas due to being controlled. I have been working on trying to fix my issues one step at a time (as realistically, you can't change everything in a day). It is ok if things don't work straight away, just try your best in a way that works for you.
Gorgeous cats!! ❤️ I’d also like to add being 24 is honestly so so young you have so much life to still live I wrecked my life completely in my 20’s I was a deranged addict but we all heal at the end of the day and if your not healed and happy it’s not the end ❤️
I saw your previous video a year six months ago you’ve come along ways we all have a ways to go, but as far as your looks yeah have a cute face and you’re attractive and you do look 8 to 10 years younger than you are all the thoughts about you have that you’re old and you’re not good enough you just have to realize that those are False beliefs that people might had said to you that those seeds got in you and you believed them and none of that is true. You have a lot to offer the world. You have such a nice personality and even though you look like a young teenager you talk like a 24 you’re very intelligent and you have a lot to offer, God bless you
My mind was going crazy each day that I felt like I was more and more sinking into my own bed when I was in a different place back then. I was genuinely looking for a miracle to happen for me to get up and feel a little better. I eventually learned that there was no one single answer, a method to stray away from that weird point of view, and that I should be dragging myself away one step at a time. But I also realised that fear of missing out was a real thing and that it was too eating me from inside out along with many other things. That was some years back. I hope you can find a suitable job as soon as possible, friend.
I initially clicked on your video because of your ceiling fan. (Yes, I collect vintage ceiling fans, LOL). After listening to your video, I feel it necessary to offer you some friendly advice, hopefully you will take it to heart. There's no need to live too fast, there's no race to achieve the milestones of one's life, these happen at different times for different people. Hold on tight to your dreams, and do what makes you happy. Don't get discouraged, I'm a pretty good judge of character, and I can tell that a lovely young woman like you will be just fine in life!
I was wondering that myself. I'm leaning towards Encon, judging by the blade brackets. It slightly resembles my Evergo; ruclips.net/video/O9OxOPjUnDc/видео.html They definitely don't make them like they used to, hopefully yours will keep you cool for years to come!
You are beautiful and young and have a lot of time to do things in life. Don't care what anyone says because it's YOUR life and you should try to enjoy it as much as you can. We love you ❤
I wasted years in my 20s. I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, that combined with weight again, work stress, marital stress, I turned to alcohol. By the time I was 28, I was a full blown alcoholic. Due to this lifestyle over time, I developed severe debilitating panic attacks. I felt at my all time low. Rock bottom for me. One day, I had enough, i was honest with myself. I had 2 choices. I could throw my hands up, submit to my own destruction and be crushed by my issues, or I could dig my heels in the dirt, grit my teeth and say no, I will no longer be my worst enemy. I will not be suffocated by my mindset. I am now 2 years sober, have lost 75 lbs, my panic attacks went away and I have never felt better about myself. We are the sum of our experiences, we become the habits we repeat. If we repeat positive self love practices and affirmations, we will become those things. Something as simple as buying new clothes for yourself, eating better, telling yourself that you WILL be victorious. Someone who doesn't back down when life kicks you in the teeth. Keep your head up my friend. Dig your heels into the dirt, grit your teeth and work at becoming the best you. If I can do it, anyone can, trust me.
Could you show us more of your art projects ?. Its so cool to see someone my age also still drawing and crafting stuff. The creative adult is the child that survived.
Hi, Love! I would love to know more about you, such as, do you like sports, reading, movies, travel, singing, dancing, etc., what makes you feel happy, safe, etc.. what books do you read? Have you read "The 5 Love Languages" or "Positive Intelligence"? Those are books normally for older people (older than you), but I have a feeling that you might like them. Stay safe, stay healthy, and stay happy! Pops
Good to see you're still out there. As for feeling disheartened about where you are in your life, that's okay. It happens. We don't all get to where we want when we want. Life is not the linear road everyone thinks it is. The longer you're around, the more roads you'll find to places you never even thought to go. I've been ebbing and flowing for years seeing where it takes me. It can be quite the experience when you let it be. I hope you can see it like that one day. I still think you're one of the most interesting and alluring people out there, and i hope you keep being you, because you really are fantastic. Also, VERY, VERY cute. My guess is you have a lot more admirers than you can even imagine. Take care and stay well.
I'm only a few months from you in age and a lot of the stuff you said I can relate to, especially with the SA. I just try to take it one day at a time and each day slowly figure things out how I can. Recently it's been doing research on the things that I am dealing with and gaining more understanding of how to deal with thoughts and so forth. You're not alone :) Also, how is life in the countryside? I have always wondered.
I just found your channel and its so nice to see you looking happy... i really respect the amount of vulnerability youve shared and i find myself really relating with the things you say. I am 24 canadian man and you seem like a genuine and beautiful person, i find you attractive, ik your probably tired of hearing that but i am genuinely reaching out both out of interest in a romantic or platonic relationship. Im serious and i would like you to know you are deserving of love. Your videos give me hope and strength...
You just popped up on my feed and I watched a couple of your vids. You seem really nice. I think you’re pretty and I hope someday you see yourself the way I see you. Good luck.
24 is still super young, you still have so much time to do whatever you want. Dont lose motivation and stay in a routine for the rest of your life because the rest of the world does. Stay strong ❤ : )
Omg yes time moves fast. Your gonna find a job. I believe in you will accomplish everything you want and your gonna have a great life and some guy is gonna come along and love you and be a friend as well a boyfriend and possibly even a husband to you. You can't give up, things get better. Things always don't go the way we expect but you gotta get back up on your two feet and keep moving. You can do it and get things done. I believe things will get better for you.
That first kitten has the same coloring as one of our kitties. I struggled with mental health through much of my 20s but it got much better as I got older and I hope that happens for you.
I'm also afraid of getting rejected but watching youtube channels about psychology like DrJulie, Francesca Psychology and HealthyGamerGG helped me to understand myself, social anxiety and improve my mental health.
You should try to watch their channels. Also, go out of your comfort zone little by little. Don't fear failure but learn from it and improve yourself. Also, accept that you can't be accepted by everyone but hope that one day you will find true friends and true love.
@@dylanl6445 same.. never dated, no social life and as I get older, I get more and more aware of my age and the fact that I've never had any worthwhile experiences and... I've missed out on so much, didnt get the opportunity to be young and free.. healthygamergg's vids have been very helpful.. I just feel better knowing there are ppl in the same boat as me, I thought I'd share.. hope things change and get better for you tho!
I think one major thing people have to understand before straight up bombarding her with "You're beautiful, you are not ugly!" is that this is a real disorder and difficult to live with. I had an encounter with a young lady on Reddit a few years ago, she also struggled with this issue. While private messaging me and talking more personally, she just wouldn't accept or see herself as attractive, and she was definitely not ugly. The problem was, that she kept making posts over and over and over and over again. Did not matter how many people called her pretty. I think it's best you all stop spamming her with those things, she just Will. Not. Believe. It. Even if the 100 most gorgeous guys in the world came to her and called her attractive, she would still not believe it. This needs professional help and therapy, and just really needs to work her issues out from those past experiences that are still bothering her, that's the main issue she isn't really talking about. She has had bad experiences growing up that will not go away, and will require help. Maybe notice how many times she's been called beautiful over these 2 years, but it's still a daily struggle fighting this horrible disorder. You guys are just not helping. Encourage her, pray for her, and remind her that you love her, but do not keep spamming her with these appearance compliments, it's doing more harm than good. It seems over these 4 months she does seem like she is improving, but you know, Rome wasn't built in one day, and this journey will just continue with you. I promise you WILL make it through on the other side, keep fighting!!!
Thanks for saying this! You couldn't have said it any better. This is like telling a depressed person to not be sad, or there is nothing to be sad about. It just does not work. It is the same for any other disorder. Same with anxiety. I suffer from both high anxiety and depression. I have had people say stuff like to stop being sad, or there is nothing to be sad about, or stop worrying. All it did was make me feel worse. I also have some insecurities and issues with my appearance, but I don't suffer from body dysmorphia. I feel more comfortable opening up to people about things I suffer with to those who will understand because they know what it's like, are understanding, and/or will listen to you, and won't make comments that make you feel worse than you did before bringing up anxiety, depression, body dysmorphia, ADHD, OCD, etc. to them. I also feel like I am not alone in dealing with mental health. I also suffer from OCD, and possibly ADHD. I am also dyslexic. This is not an issue (I actually like having this), but I also have high-functioning autism. - Catherine Lee
I forgot to mention that people say I look young for my age, too. They would think I am in high school. I am not. I just turned 22 on January 21st. My mom also had that issue. She got carded when she bought alcohol when she was younger. I also have friends who look younger than they are. I have friends who look older than they are. And my sister also has friends like all of that, too. My sister looks older than she is. She is 20 (she recently turned 20 in December). When she was in high school, people thought she was either an older student, or she was in college. She is taller than me. I am the shortest person in my family. - Catherine Lee
I know it may not be much ,but you should build a brand from your discomforts,and share with others who are in same ,or similar position as you,it's is entertaining i find don't take what am saying ,the wrong way,am not making fun of what you going through,but it will build your channel,i to was in similar position back in 2013 and 2015 . But haven't got over the dating part which can be a task depending where your mind or moods at ,if you get what am saying.So wish you the best and see the great side that's hiding there from you in plain sight.✌️
Not to sound like a simp creep but you are stunning. Anyman with a brain a legit man a legit human being would be lucky to have you as a friend and a miracle worker to have you as their gf. I know trust me I know what it's like to hate yourself to feel stuck to feel lost in your life. I'm 35 and for the first time in a long time I don't think daily about killing myself. What you need to do while you are atill young is sit down and figure out what you want to do in life. I mean for you. What do you like to do. Hobbies. What makes you happy? Painting? Drawing? Music? And go for it. Make it not only a hobby but your income. Mine is pro wrestling. Never thought I would of chased my dream but after years of self doubt and hating myself in trained. Im working out in losing weight trying to better myself. You got this and we are pulling for you. Not everyone on this evil world hates each other. Great work with the kittens You got this.
you ARE not your body dysmorphia. i´m far away from being entitled to teach you any lesson, but i can assure you, there are millions of people out in the world, trying to make the best out of their situation every day. struggling with fear, panic, depression and all the other "good stuff". what i want to say is: you are not alone. i mean it in the best way possible. ( i hope the language barrier doesnt f-up what i wanted to say - english isnt my mother-tongue ) :)
Please make sure to properly check the kittens go to good people who will live and take care if them properly. It is so important. They are the most precious innocent souls.
Its hard for what thing's are like, life and alot of problems be in the way. Learning who you are and what you are is whats important. There are challenges but keep your head up and keep going. You are who you are, life is too short its never to late to do things for yourself. Your failures are what helps you overcome the challenges and fears. I see how its like and it be fearful. Always put yourself first and i know you can overcome these obstacles. Life is like a a tube of toothpaste. When you used all the toothpaste down to the last squeeze, thats when you really lived. The struggles be real and the hardships and health problems but what makes u stronger is your courage, spirit, heart, mentality and indomitable spirit. I dont think but i know youll become what u want and i have alot of faith that u can endure the hardships and all the challneges in your way. I know your accomplishments will come. Keep chasing your dreams and never give up. Always do your best and keep getting back up. Fight and keep moving foward and become the champion you were destined to be. Spend the rest of your days as champion were you will achieve whatever you want in life and you will become the victor of your story. You write your own story and you are the teller of your story. Never let anyone change it for you and never let anyone stop you from being who you are. Your dreams can become a reality. Know that you are still here and still making moves. Head up high and say you are strong and determined or any kind of motivational words. I believe in you, you got this and i have faith in you. Never give up🙏🏽
Weird question: How clean is your diet? (Btw, I look younger than my age too) Edit: The way that someone explained to get out of a rut to me: In being too afraid to do anything productive, you need to re-evaluate your standards. Set the bar for success so low it would be impossible to fail. In socializing, literally go to a public place and smile at someone, and boom you've upped your social skills. In learning something new, read one paragraph in a book, and boom you've got another win! I'm trying to say this as nicely as possible, but setting up success in this manner will really help get the ball rolling as they say.
Watching your videos is always tough for me because you hit on things I went through and some I am still going through but also I really want to give you a big hug and talk but then I remember I don't know you. Setbacks are just proof that you're moving forward. You actually need to have them in order to make true progress, as strange as that sounds. You can still have everything you want in life, but you need to truly believe this before you can begin to figure out what that looks like. It doesn't matter what you thought as a teenager, there is so much bad stuff you didn't know about then but the good things are so much deeper than you could have imagined too. You look gorgeous. I'm happy for your kitten surprise. PS The feeling old thing could actually be poor hydration.
It's never too late. I'm 36 now and one of my dreams was to be a musician. I only started music at 31, I have a solo project and I'm part of a band and had my first gig in December. So take your time, figure it out and when you're ready things will start happening. You have a lot of other issues to work through so I know it won't be easy but you have the strength inside. Somehow, you will find a way to tap into it.
You're not ugly, you just need to try and doll yourself up a little to make yourself feel better as one user on here told you. And please realize looks arent everything, I bet you don't judge other people the way you judge yourself, we all tend to do that. Try to do things that build your self worth up like community service or charity work. Try a soup kitchen or food bank. Helping others through community service may help you cultivate skills as you grow into a well rounded person and help you see the beauty in yourself effectively building your self worth. Looks aren't everything sweetie, try your best to do what makes you happy and get hobbies that occupy your time. Looks don't add value to your life, being a good person will help you develop into a more confident and reassured person who knows you have value.
You got a RUclips channel and you’re afraid of failure, judgment and putting yourself out there? You’re far braver than you realize. Don’t be so hard on yourself. The 20’s can be a stressful time. Many of us just do what we assume others want for us instead of going our own way. Get to know yourself a little more and you will figure it out. You should def post more.
I too had a long dark period in my life, but I came out of it after losing 10 years of life, adolescence basically. At every age you can start to get better, not perfect, but better, much better until good enough to be overall serene. It's always worth it if you can do it, because it's worth to get better. I feel a sense of protection towards you bb❤
I don't understand why she thinks she looks ugly. She looks like one of those cute Eastern-European tradwives in some traditionalist festival or music video. I'd be very happy with a gf that looks like her tbh. She looks better than some of my decently expensive escorts. Maybe her age made her more beautiful and the ugly-problem is gone because of that? She could literally be a model.
I’m not sure about you, but for me when I’m on a more animal-based diet 80%+ I’m a lot more calmer and less anxious, especially cutting out sugar. Each diet works differently for each individual though. Some do better on more plant diet, I do better as a meat eater.
godh, I really hope you heal because you really are beautiful, objectively speaking. try using AI beauty calculator, there you will see that you are beautiful.
20 year old here. This might seem random. But you seem really genuine and real compared to 90% of our population. I genuinely enjoy watching your vids, seriously. To be honest, I think you're really cool, more than you give yourself credit for.
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Missed you so much! It’s good to hear that you are doing well. Hope you’re able to find a job soon. And the kittens are absolutely adorable. Maybe you could start volunteering at an animal rescue just to get more comfortable around people. That’s what I did and I LOVED it. It wasn’t paid but I got to spend time with cute kitties 🥰
I wish there was a rescue close. But yes I do love animals and especially nursing them back to health.
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You have a kind soul and it's sad seeing you unhappy. Please remember that social media has warped our perception of what's real. Your 20s are for making different mistakes and working things out. Your 30s are when you have things figured out but still make mistakes. The best thing I ever did for social anxiety was take a leap and get a job, i remember feeling anxious to the point of vomitting on my way to work but at the end of the day I felt that I did make an improvement and that it wasn't as bad as I thought. Just gotta climb a little bit up that mountain each day and eventually you'll be at the top and hey there might even be points along the mountain that you feel are good enough to stop and star at the view and enjoy the moment.
It's great to see you. You are a great woman too. ♥️🙏
My words won’t mean much, but I’m proud of you. Life is scary, socializing and failure are intimidating and sometimes paralyzing, but you putting out these videos and sticking through the hard times shows how strong you are. 24 is still young, please don’t feel like a failure, you haven’t let anyone down, the thing telling you that you have is the evil little voice in your head that lies. You’re still young, you have time to find out what you want to do, and I would even say it’s better for you to take time and figure out what you love instead of going straight into some field that you might fall out of love with. Your interactions or relationships with others don’t determine your worth, and you’re not late. In fact, you’re right on time for your own trail to blaze. Hold your chin up, you have beauty even though you can’t see it. Keep moving forward and play with those kittens! You got this
Thank you! And don’t worry they’re laying on top of me 😂
I'm soon 27, unemployed (3 months) and have no idea what to work with yet. Also I've never dated either, no partner (I avoid every social occasion, like I literally only leave home to get groceries). 🤷♂ Btw your username "The Crooked Lady" does not make u justice at all 😭
I hope you feel better and get a job you like. ❤ Much love to you.
Yup yup.....thats my life too. I dont know what ta do anymore. I fight 1000 times harder than anyone around me but it amounts to nothing or means nothing too others. Ive been thinking of ending it to be honest but i got a cat who needs me so ill have ta wait. Anyway hun i realize it doesn't help but in my eyes your 100x better than most people on this planet yu got a precious heart please try your hardest to be the one to make it AND WIN! i wish u the best.
Thank you!
I just found your channel! I don't suffer from body dysmorphia, but I struggle with some other things about my appearance. I also suffer from high anxiety and depression. This is not an issue (I actually like having this), but I also have high-functioning autism. I have OCD. Some days it's good. Other days, it's bad. It gets bad around holidays, and other things that I am excited for. I have dyslexia, and possibly ADHD. I love those kittens! I remember when my cats were kittens (they are both male cats named Oliver and Nigel). Nigel will be 13 on March 18th. Oliver will be 13 on April 6th. I still love them just as much as when they were kittens! Oliver is my cat. He hates it when I leave for work. This is my story: I chose to stop going to school (college) because the degree I want is not really guaranteeing me a job that I would want. I also got overwhelmed and there are two classes that are keeping me from going there. Those classes are mental torture for me, and I don't want to step back into my mental health back in much of my high school career. There are people I know who have finished college, and they still do not have a job. Apparently, that is common. My plan is that I am now working at a grocery store, and I will go to Costco, later. I have heard stories of people with college degrees there, and they love it (they pay well, and treat you well--They are also Union-Friendly, I believe). College limits you in many different ways. It is much harder to find a job you like, I have heard. For me, I am just not interested in dating (but that is just me). I do have crushes, but I would much rather be friends than date. I love to be alone (I am 100% Introverted). Also, you are close to my age! I just turned 22 (my birthday is January 21st)! Thanks for making videos! You don't know how much you are helping brighten my day! People who have parallel experiences make me feel like I am not alone in struggling with what I struggle with (mental health stuff)! I am more open with people who have mental health conditions (I have multiple of those) because they understand and actually listen and they don't judge. I also don't feel so alone. - Catherine Lee
I hope you enjoy your grocery store job. My sister and myself have OCD and it is very hard to live with. I have other issues also, fibromyalgia, anxiety disorder. I'm a girl who was bullied terribly at school.
You have a lot of issues going on, I hope you are getting some help for your disorders ❤❤
@@steve-gv7yn, I do enjoy my grocery store job! It is a stepping stone to work at Costco, as I have said earlier. My OCD used to be a lot worse when I was younger, but it is a lot better now. It's manageable (for the most part). I was bullied at school. I don't care what people think of me, now (usually). But that is my story. Sometimes, words still cut. I do have a lot going on. I got a lot of therapy when I was younger. I stopped going to therapy. I did not need it anymore. My doctor helped me find the right medication and the correct amount to help me (It took us a bit to find the right medication and the correct dosage for me, which is normal--Especially when going on new medication). I am doing fine, now. Sometimes, my issues still get to me, but everything is manageable. I still write to my therapist. She is awesome! I believe it is her birthday, today, too (February 11th)! If not, it is around February 11th. My medications help a lot with my OCD and everything. I have good days, and I have bad days. Plus, my cats help, too! Thanks for caring! I hope you and your sister are able to find relief, or something to lessen all the OCD. I also hope you are finding some relief for some of your other issues. They (anxiety and OCD) won't go away fully, but are ways to lessen them. You just need to find what works for you. What works for one person, may differ from everyone else. I don't know much about fibromyalgia. I have heard of it, before, though. Also, I hope you are not getting bullied anymore. Nobody deserves to get bullied. ❤❤ - Catherine Lee
Hey, good to see you again! Love the kittens!
That is so sweet you took the kittens in. You have a kind heart and that's good..please stay positive and never stop being so caring. And your face is fine. Keep making these videos. Your gonna be blessed looking out for those kittens.
Hey, Lady. Glad to see you again. ❤
You turning 24 this year is great! And no worries - I am now 42 and I started to "do meaningful" things after somewhere 32, I think. So before that I just wandered around, done this and that. I am pretty sure you will find your way. 😊
Broski don’t be afraid of judgment 99% of people are not gonna care what you do and that’s ok it’s your life and you should live it the way you want, you just gotta take small steps and keep thuggin it out, I’m sorry to hear about your mental health troubles (I myself struggle with NOS Depression) but just remember the coldest hour is the one that comes just before the dawn
I totally hear ya, it’s all about soul evolution, and I stumbled on your channel a few days ago and began with some of your earlier vids and then kinda popped thru some more and then up to a couple of these latest ones, and I can DEFINITELY say your soul evolution over the last couple of years has been awesomely dramatically fantastic and you are on YOUR “right track”! 🙌🙃🌻
You’re so on it and your perspectives are great and you’re inner beauty is also gradually making its way out in the way you “look” physically, and THAT is some of the best evidence of how you’re evolving spirituality and perspective-wise 😊
anyone REALLY paying attention even to your early vids could tell you’re a good human, and outside now its showing energy-wise and physically, and ultimately these are all YOUR choices, consciously & subconsciously, and you are SO there and on it and just WATCH how blossoms in is many great ways from here on out!
Ha I always like to say “when it seems like everything is falling apart it’s really falling into PLACE”, and I I’ve found that to be true always. You’ll see😉🙌
I’m at one of those junctures now, and the last time that happened before this current one I wrote and made an album all about it, written from living DIRECTLY in the BeDo zone as I was living it!
Check it out if u feel, I think you’ll relate to it at least lyrically
ANYYYYWAY, you are a freakin gem, I send tons of groovy good energy your way and keep up the good “soul work”!!!!!
GREAT channel, kudos!
Ugh, sorry so long but hey, what the F! 😉🤗🙃🌈❤️🐈✌️
And I mean, you love cats, so you’re GOLDEN forever!! Haha
Groove ON, thanks for ALL you’ve shared and all you will share! ✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️
I’ll send the link to the album in another comment right after this so I don’t lose everything I e typed trying to get the link
I’m a moron, I shoulda copied it BEFORE I typed all this but I didn’t think my comment would be so loooong 😮
Thanks for reading if you made it thru my book here ha
I'm glad you see yourself in a better light, you're a beautiful soul and no one can say otherwise ❤
Beautiful girl, positive energy to you!
Glad to see you are back, Hope you are doing better ☺️☺️❤❤
We all need some luck. But we also need to throw ourselves into situations where luck is able to do its magic. I wish you have more of those occasions.
doesn't matter how often You upload videos we are here for You
Hi, I have subscribed to your channel and can understand how it feels when life passes you by. I have had a family friend pressure me so many times to change myself and to "get out of my comfort zone" and it triggers childhood traumas due to being controlled.
I have been working on trying to fix my issues one step at a time (as realistically, you can't change everything in a day). It is ok if things don't work straight away, just try your best in a way that works for you.
I really genuinely hope for the best for you. Don't ever worry about gaps between when you upload videos. Just do what is best for you.
I'm J apanese and I Love the manes of your cats. I hope they help with your mood swings.
They definitely do ❤
Gorgeous cats!! ❤️ I’d also like to add being 24 is honestly so so young you have so much life to still live I wrecked my life completely in my 20’s I was a deranged addict but we all heal at the end of the day and if your not healed and happy it’s not the end ❤️
I saw your previous video a year six months ago you’ve come along ways we all have a ways to go, but as far as your looks yeah have a cute face and you’re attractive and you do look 8 to 10 years younger than you are all the thoughts about you have that you’re old and you’re not good enough you just have to realize that those are False beliefs that people might had said to you that those seeds got in you and you believed them and none of that is true. You have a lot to offer the world. You have such a nice personality and even though you look like a young teenager you talk like a 24 you’re very intelligent and you have a lot to offer, God bless you
Just relax darling. Things will always get better. You are still young. And those kittens are cute.
My mind was going crazy each day that I felt like I was more and more sinking into my own bed when I was in a different place back then. I was genuinely looking for a miracle to happen for me to get up and feel a little better. I eventually learned that there was no one single answer, a method to stray away from that weird point of view, and that I should be dragging myself away one step at a time. But I also realised that fear of missing out was a real thing and that it was too eating me from inside out along with many other things. That was some years back.
I hope you can find a suitable job as soon as possible, friend.
I initially clicked on your video because of your ceiling fan. (Yes, I collect vintage ceiling fans, LOL). After listening to your video, I feel it necessary to offer you some friendly advice, hopefully you will take it to heart. There's no need to live too fast, there's no race to achieve the milestones of one's life, these happen at different times for different people. Hold on tight to your dreams, and do what makes you happy. Don't get discouraged, I'm a pretty good judge of character, and I can tell that a lovely young woman like you will be just fine in life!
What kind of fan do I have?
I was wondering that myself. I'm leaning towards Encon, judging by the blade brackets. It slightly resembles my Evergo; ruclips.net/video/O9OxOPjUnDc/видео.html They definitely don't make them like they used to, hopefully yours will keep you cool for years to come!
You are beautiful and young and have a lot of time to do things in life. Don't care what anyone says because it's YOUR life and you should try to enjoy it as much as you can. We love you ❤
I wasted years in my 20s. I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, that combined with weight again, work stress, marital stress, I turned to alcohol. By the time I was 28, I was a full blown alcoholic. Due to this lifestyle over time, I developed severe debilitating panic attacks. I felt at my all time low. Rock bottom for me. One day, I had enough, i was honest with myself. I had 2 choices. I could throw my hands up, submit to my own destruction and be crushed by my issues, or I could dig my heels in the dirt, grit my teeth and say no, I will no longer be my worst enemy. I will not be suffocated by my mindset. I am now 2 years sober, have lost 75 lbs, my panic attacks went away and I have never felt better about myself. We are the sum of our experiences, we become the habits we repeat. If we repeat positive self love practices and affirmations, we will become those things. Something as simple as buying new clothes for yourself, eating better, telling yourself that you WILL be victorious. Someone who doesn't back down when life kicks you in the teeth. Keep your head up my friend. Dig your heels into the dirt, grit your teeth and work at becoming the best you. If I can do it, anyone can, trust me.
Could you show us more of your art projects ?. Its so cool to see someone my age also still drawing and crafting stuff.
The creative adult is the child that survived.
Hey, Im happy to see you post again. I like your band-aids. You ever heard of Nelly? He wore a band-aid under his eye back in early 2000's.
Hi, Love! I would love to know more about you, such as, do you like sports, reading, movies, travel, singing, dancing, etc., what makes you feel happy, safe, etc.. what books do you read? Have you read "The 5 Love Languages" or "Positive Intelligence"? Those are books normally for older people (older than you), but I have a feeling that you might like them.
Stay safe, stay healthy, and stay happy!
Pops
Good to see you're still out there. As for feeling disheartened about where you are in your life, that's okay. It happens. We don't all get to where we want when we want. Life is not the linear road everyone thinks it is. The longer you're around, the more roads you'll find to places you never even thought to go. I've been ebbing and flowing for years seeing where it takes me. It can be quite the experience when you let it be. I hope you can see it like that one day. I still think you're one of the most interesting and alluring people out there, and i hope you keep being you, because you really are fantastic. Also, VERY, VERY cute. My guess is you have a lot more admirers than you can even imagine. Take care and stay well.
How old are you, and what is your preference of career and passion in your life? Please answer!
I'm only a few months from you in age and a lot of the stuff you said I can relate to, especially with the SA. I just try to take it one day at a time and each day slowly figure things out how I can. Recently it's been doing research on the things that I am dealing with and gaining more understanding of how to deal with thoughts and so forth. You're not alone :) Also, how is life in the countryside? I have always wondered.
I just found your channel and its so nice to see you looking happy... i really respect the amount of vulnerability youve shared and i find myself really relating with the things you say. I am 24 canadian man and you seem like a genuine and beautiful person, i find you attractive, ik your probably tired of hearing that but i am genuinely reaching out both out of interest in a romantic or platonic relationship. Im serious and i would like you to know you are deserving of love. Your videos give me hope and strength...
You really are amazing. I mean that sincerely. Keep on keeping on!!
You just popped up on my feed and I watched a couple of your vids. You seem really nice. I think you’re pretty and I hope someday you see yourself the way I see you. Good luck.
Wish you a bright and fruitfull future❤
24 is still super young, you still have so much time to do whatever you want. Dont lose motivation and stay in a routine for the rest of your life because the rest of the world does. Stay strong ❤ : )
Omg yes time moves fast. Your gonna find a job. I believe in you will accomplish everything you want and your gonna have a great life and some guy is gonna come along and love you and be a friend as well a boyfriend and possibly even a husband to you. You can't give up, things get better. Things always don't go the way we expect but you gotta get back up on your two feet and keep moving. You can do it and get things done. I believe things will get better for you.
That first kitten has the same coloring as one of our kitties.
I struggled with mental health through much of my 20s but it got much better as I got older and I hope that happens for you.
This is relatable to me, I'm 24, I hate my body and I never dated. I'm also afraid of missing my life and I don't have a social life.
I'm also afraid of getting rejected but watching youtube channels about psychology like DrJulie, Francesca Psychology and HealthyGamerGG helped me to understand myself, social anxiety and improve my mental health.
You should try to watch their channels. Also, go out of your comfort zone little by little. Don't fear failure but learn from it and improve yourself. Also, accept that you can't be accepted by everyone but hope that one day you will find true friends and true love.
@@dylanl6445 same.. never dated, no social life and as I get older, I get more and more aware of my age and the fact that I've never had any worthwhile experiences and... I've missed out on so much, didnt get the opportunity to be young and free.. healthygamergg's vids have been very helpful.. I just feel better knowing there are ppl in the same boat as me, I thought I'd share.. hope things change and get better for you tho!
❤❤❤❤ gorgeous
I think one major thing people have to understand before straight up bombarding her with "You're beautiful, you are not ugly!" is that this is a real disorder and difficult to live with. I had an encounter with a young lady on Reddit a few years ago, she also struggled with this issue. While private messaging me and talking more personally, she just wouldn't accept or see herself as attractive, and she was definitely not ugly. The problem was, that she kept making posts over and over and over and over again. Did not matter how many people called her pretty.
I think it's best you all stop spamming her with those things, she just Will. Not. Believe. It. Even if the 100 most gorgeous guys in the world came to her and called her attractive, she would still not believe it. This needs professional help and therapy, and just really needs to work her issues out from those past experiences that are still bothering her, that's the main issue she isn't really talking about. She has had bad experiences growing up that will not go away, and will require help.
Maybe notice how many times she's been called beautiful over these 2 years, but it's still a daily struggle fighting this horrible disorder. You guys are just not helping. Encourage her, pray for her, and remind her that you love her, but do not keep spamming her with these appearance compliments, it's doing more harm than good.
It seems over these 4 months she does seem like she is improving, but you know, Rome wasn't built in one day, and this journey will just continue with you. I promise you WILL make it through on the other side, keep fighting!!!
Thanks for saying this! You couldn't have said it any better. This is like telling a depressed person to not be sad, or there is nothing to be sad about. It just does not work. It is the same for any other disorder. Same with anxiety. I suffer from both high anxiety and depression. I have had people say stuff like to stop being sad, or there is nothing to be sad about, or stop worrying. All it did was make me feel worse. I also have some insecurities and issues with my appearance, but I don't suffer from body dysmorphia. I feel more comfortable opening up to people about things I suffer with to those who will understand because they know what it's like, are understanding, and/or will listen to you, and won't make comments that make you feel worse than you did before bringing up anxiety, depression, body dysmorphia, ADHD, OCD, etc. to them. I also feel like I am not alone in dealing with mental health. I also suffer from OCD, and possibly ADHD. I am also dyslexic. This is not an issue (I actually like having this), but I also have high-functioning autism. - Catherine Lee
Wow, i swear I relate to everything you said.
Missed you! Happy to see you again!
I forgot to mention that people say I look young for my age, too. They would think I am in high school. I am not. I just turned 22 on January 21st. My mom also had that issue. She got carded when she bought alcohol when she was younger. I also have friends who look younger than they are. I have friends who look older than they are. And my sister also has friends like all of that, too. My sister looks older than she is. She is 20 (she recently turned 20 in December). When she was in high school, people thought she was either an older student, or she was in college. She is taller than me. I am the shortest person in my family. - Catherine Lee
You look so lovely.❤
Happy u are back. Hope u fing a gig.
I know it may not be much ,but you should build a brand from your discomforts,and share with others who are in same ,or similar position as you,it's is entertaining i find don't take what am saying ,the wrong way,am not making fun of what you going through,but it will build your channel,i to was in similar position back in 2013 and 2015 . But haven't got over the dating part which can be a task depending where your mind or moods at ,if you get what am saying.So wish you the best and see the great side that's hiding there from you in plain sight.✌️
You’re looking really beautiful!
Just be your own sweet self u are beautiful and kind dont forget that
Not to sound like a simp creep but you are stunning. Anyman with a brain a legit man a legit human being would be lucky to have you as a friend and a miracle worker to have you as their gf. I know trust me I know what it's like to hate yourself to feel stuck to feel lost in your life. I'm 35 and for the first time in a long time I don't think daily about killing myself.
What you need to do while you are atill young is sit down and figure out what you want to do in life. I mean for you. What do you like to do. Hobbies. What makes you happy? Painting? Drawing? Music? And go for it. Make it not only a hobby but your income. Mine is pro wrestling. Never thought I would of chased my dream but after years of self doubt and hating myself in trained. Im working out in losing weight trying to better myself.
You got this and we are pulling for you. Not everyone on this evil world hates each other.
Great work with the kittens
You got this.
Love you! Plz make more vlogs. I love hearing u. I aslo have body desmorphia. I pray for you and plz pray for me too. I can relate to u alot sis..
You look like you should be the lead actress in a romcom. Seriously lol
That’s so sweet 😅
You are beautiful ❤️ Jesus Christ loves you. John 3:16 KJV Holy Bible.❤ Hugs and much love to you.🤗❤️🙏🙏🙏
you ARE not your body dysmorphia. i´m far away from being entitled to teach you any lesson, but i can assure you, there are millions of people out in the world, trying to make the best out of their situation every day. struggling with fear, panic, depression and all the other "good stuff". what i want to say is: you are not alone. i mean it in the best way possible. ( i hope the language barrier doesnt f-up what i wanted to say - english isnt my mother-tongue ) :)
So super cute!!!!! You are so awesome and so amazing!!!!!
I missed you 😕. It’s okay though, take your time. 😁 I’m proud to be a fan!
I wish I could make you realize just how beautiful and awesome and amazing you are, and I wish I could make your life wonderful and awesome!!!!!
Your literally beautiful
Please make sure to properly check the kittens go to good people who will live and take care if them properly. It is so important. They are the most precious innocent souls.
Its hard for what thing's are like, life and alot of problems be in the way. Learning who you are and what you are is whats important. There are challenges but keep your head up and keep going. You are who you are, life is too short its never to late to do things for yourself. Your failures are what helps you overcome the challenges and fears. I see how its like and it be fearful. Always put yourself first and i know you can overcome these obstacles. Life is like a a tube of toothpaste. When you used all the toothpaste down to the last squeeze, thats when you really lived. The struggles be real and the hardships and health problems but what makes u stronger is your courage, spirit, heart, mentality and indomitable spirit. I dont think but i know youll become what u want and i have alot of faith that u can endure the hardships and all the challneges in your way. I know your accomplishments will come. Keep chasing your dreams and never give up. Always do your best and keep getting back up. Fight and keep moving foward and become the champion you were destined to be. Spend the rest of your days as champion were you will achieve whatever you want in life and you will become the victor of your story. You write your own story and you are the teller of your story. Never let anyone change it for you and never let anyone stop you from being who you are. Your dreams can become a reality. Know that you are still here and still making moves. Head up high and say you are strong and determined or any kind of motivational words. I believe in you, you got this and i have faith in you. Never give up🙏🏽
All your subscribers cheer up for you!!! 🙌
Have you ever thought the possibility to have autism?
Weird question: How clean is your diet? (Btw, I look younger than my age too)
Edit: The way that someone explained to get out of a rut to me: In being too afraid to do anything productive, you need to re-evaluate your standards. Set the bar for success so low it would be impossible to fail. In socializing, literally go to a public place and smile at someone, and boom you've upped your social skills. In learning something new, read one paragraph in a book, and boom you've got another win! I'm trying to say this as nicely as possible, but setting up success in this manner will really help get the ball rolling as they say.
hey are you free say late October, some time in the fall? tryna find a venue for our wedding 😘😆
Watching your videos is always tough for me because you hit on things I went through and some I am still going through but also I really want to give you a big hug and talk but then I remember I don't know you.
Setbacks are just proof that you're moving forward. You actually need to have them in order to make true progress, as strange as that sounds. You can still have everything you want in life, but you need to truly believe this before you can begin to figure out what that looks like. It doesn't matter what you thought as a teenager, there is so much bad stuff you didn't know about then but the good things are so much deeper than you could have imagined too.
You look gorgeous. I'm happy for your kitten surprise. PS The feeling old thing could actually be poor hydration.
It's never too late. I'm 36 now and one of my dreams was to be a musician. I only started music at 31, I have a solo project and I'm part of a band and had my first gig in December. So take your time, figure it out and when you're ready things will start happening. You have a lot of other issues to work through so I know it won't be easy but you have the strength inside. Somehow, you will find a way to tap into it.
That's amazing!
You're not ugly, you just need to try and doll yourself up a little to make yourself feel better as one user on here told you. And please realize looks arent everything, I bet you don't judge other people the way you judge yourself, we all tend to do that. Try to do things that build your self worth up like community service or charity work. Try a soup kitchen or food bank. Helping others through community service may help you cultivate skills as you grow into a well rounded person and help you see the beauty in yourself effectively building your self worth. Looks aren't everything sweetie, try your best to do what makes you happy and get hobbies that occupy your time. Looks don't add value to your life, being a good person will help you develop into a more confident and reassured person who knows you have value.
And it’s nothing to be ashamed of to use makeup, almost every woman does it. If she put makeup on.. damn. She would be absolutely stunning.
You got a RUclips channel and you’re afraid of failure, judgment and putting yourself out there? You’re far braver than you realize. Don’t be so hard on yourself. The 20’s can be a stressful time. Many of us just do what we assume others want for us instead of going our own way. Get to know yourself a little more and you will figure it out. You should def post more.
Glad to see you're back.
Some times I think that,being happy it's or have a happy ending its not for all of us
I too had a long dark period in my life, but I came out of it after losing 10 years of life, adolescence basically. At every age you can start to get better, not perfect, but better, much better until good enough to be overall serene. It's always worth it if you can do it, because it's worth to get better.
I feel a sense of protection towards you bb❤
You are the most beautiful lady in the world
Ur not ugly just letting you know. Just don't overthink and breathe.
you are truly so beautiful
you're very beautiful, also let me tell you those braces worked like magic !!!
You will be fine. God bless you and best wishes from Spain.
Actually you are beautiful,if we were in same country we could be together
I don't understand why she thinks she looks ugly. She looks like one of those cute Eastern-European tradwives in some traditionalist festival or music video. I'd be very happy with a gf that looks like her tbh. She looks better than some of my decently expensive escorts. Maybe her age made her more beautiful and the ugly-problem is gone because of that? She could literally be a model.
I’m not sure about you, but for me when I’m on a more animal-based diet 80%+ I’m a lot more calmer and less anxious, especially cutting out sugar. Each diet works differently for each individual though. Some do better on more plant diet, I do better as a meat eater.
An instant like, before I even watch the video.🙏
I never dated either and i am single and i have no passion for anything, i also have 0 friends what a waste of my life.
I really missed you pretty lady
The beautiful Queen 👑 is back 🌷🌷🌷💕those are the most adorable kitties 🤍🤍🤍
Happy to see you again!
Nice 👍
godh, I really hope you heal because you really are beautiful, objectively speaking. try using AI beauty calculator, there you will see that you are beautiful.
Nice to see you again.
i wish i was in your future b/c you are cute and nice person
Mademoisselle....No reasons to worry..You are so.....pretty.
Cute cat.
👍
20 year old here. This might seem random. But you seem really genuine and real compared to 90% of our population. I genuinely enjoy watching your vids, seriously. To be honest, I think you're really cool, more than you give yourself credit for.
I would love to be your man because I want nothing more than to help you feel better about yourself by being your greatest supporter
love ur flower crown!!
your face is naturally beautiful
Welcome back again
I feel bad for you I cry every day for you I hope and pray for you 😢
I want her to keep them two kittens they like her