이쁘다는 말 이젠 그만해도 되는데, 너무 이뻐서 이쁘다 이쁘다 너무 청량한 소희슿 너무 이뻐. 태어나서 이쁘다는 소리 소희 한테만 젤 많이 함. 난 눈이 높아서 이쁘다는 소리 잘 못하는 까칠한 나라서 .. 유독 소희 한테만 진심 수억번은 하는것같음. 피부가 아기보다 더 아기피부 말이됨? 🤔🤗
Oink Oink.. I am sitting on the Floor.. there is this Album book.. full of pictures and I am flipping through One page at a time.. looking at the many pictures I have taken of YOU through the Years.. I am smiling as I am missing YOU.. I just came from the back yard.. and I just could not stand out there because I keep on missing YOU.. when you called me on the Phone.. hearing your voice.. I know that I could not tell you how much I loved You.. I know if I asked YOU now.. and what would you say to Me.. I think the time right now is Not.. I am waiting for the perfect timing to ask YOU.. and I would be struggling deep inside when would that time be.. what would happen if I asked YOU and YOU would say.. the Time is Not right.. maybe you are telling me YOU only like my friendship.. but what If I want more than just Your Friendship.. I want more.. I want Your Heart.. I would be looking at the Book of Album.. flipping to the next page.. all these pictures of YOU.. I have pasted so that I can see the different times of your many expressions.. some with a Big smile.. Others with a different smiles.. One or two with tears in your eyes.. and I am just looking.. thinking about the days.. thinking about those days when we use to smile a lot.. I am truly missing YOU right Now.. I keep on wanting to call YOU.. but I know that YOU are busy at this Point.. hearing your voice.. I want to call YOU so I can hear your voice again and I would try to dial but I would pause.. and I turn too look up.. and I see my Bed.. and I see the Pillow.. and I look at it.. did Not think about the Shape of this Pillow.. but.. is it a Heart.. I am wondering.. when did this Pillow came from.. I don't have a Pillow looking or having the Shape of this Heart.. and I am fond of the Shape.. does this means that this is How your Heart has its shape.. and I am wondering.. can I have this Shape of Heart.. I don't need this pillow.. what am I going to do with a Pillow that can not even make the sound of the Beating of your Heart.. I want this Shape of Heart.. not a Pillow but Your Heart.. and I look down looking at a Picture of YOU.. and I am wondering.. if YOU could hear me here in my room.. and I would open my Mouth.. can YOU Please hear me.. why did YOU have to go.. telling me YOU are going some where far and YOU are going on a vacation.. why did YOU not ask me if I wanted to come.. to join you on this vacation.. YOU know in a Heart beat I would gone with YOU.. when I flip the Next page.. and the pages down.. it is blank sheets.. there is NO more pictures after this One Page.. My eyes have stopped on this One Picture.. the Most favorite one.. with a Big Smile.. YOU are holding a Pillow.. the One that is a Shape of a Heart.. when I turn to look at the wall.. and next to the wall is my bed.. I see something that I have Not seen before.. I see a Pillow.. it is a Shape of the Heart.. color is Pink and Baby Blue.. I am looking at my bed.. the Heart shape pillow is sitting on top of the Bed.. Not sure if the Pillow can make the sound of the beating.. but seems like the Pillow Heart shape knows me.. I turn to look down at the Page.. I have pasted a Picture on this Sheet of Page with YOU.. YOU are smiling real big.. arms are holding and wrapping around this Pillow but has a Shape of a Heart.. I am wondering.. are you posing to show me that This is How your Heart looks.. why didn't you tell me that This is Your Heart.. I remember I walked in the room.. and YOU told me that YOU got something.. YOU would sit on the top of my bed and I remember clearly.. telling me to bring the Camera.. Of course I knew what YOU mean.. I left the room.. and Got the camera.. and walked back into the room.. YOU were smiling.. I have never seen such a Beautiful great smile.. and you will telling me to take a picture.. only I thought about at that time was just to take a Picture of YOU because I just love taking pictures when YOU smile.. makes my Stomach.. My Heart jumps with Joy inside when I see YOU smile.. I see the arms wrapping and pressing down on the Pillow.. the Heart shape.. I did not think much of it at that time because all YOU wanted was me to take picture of YOU.. I would press and it clicks few times.. Now.. I am looking at the Pictures.. there are few pictures of YOU holding.. arms wrapped around this Pillow.. of the Shape of a Heart.. I did not know you wanted to tell me something.. show me something.. Now I am noticing everything after YOU are gone.. YOU know that when YOU told me you are going on a long trip.. on a vacation.. I was waiting for YOU to ask me if I could go.. or was it me who was suppose to ask YOU if I was invited to go with YOU.. because I really wanted to go with YOU.. do YOU know why.. If I went with YOU.. I be bringing my Camera.. and I could of taken more pictures of YOU.. there are many empty spaces that needs to be covered by your pictures.. I want to cover this Whole Book Album with YOUR pictures.. think about many places where I can stop to take YOU more pictures.. and I could of collected all the pictures.. and Start too fill in the empty spaces of this Album of Your pictures.. Now.. I just have to wait for you to come back.. But How long will this trip be because I am missing YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to show YOU and ask about this Pillow that is in the top of the Bed.. is this suppose to be here with Me.. because if you are going to leave something behind.. I don't need the pillow One.. the Shape of a Heart.. I wanted to ask YOU.. if this is your Heart.. or the Shape of this Heart is what YOU are trying to tell Me.. at least let me have the Real One.. I don't need a Fake Heart.. I can't even tell this Fake Heart anything.. what am I suppose to do.. Hold this Pillow.. this Shape of Your Heart and cry on it because I be missing YOU.. to tell YOU how Much I love YOU.. and How much I need YOU still.. but I need YOU here.. so that I want to trade this One for the real One.. the One that I need the Most.. I want to ask YOU.. I want Your Heart.. Because I need YOU close.. I want Your Heart so that I can lay my Head of the Heart and ask if It can beat for Me.. can I hear the sound of the beating of your Heart.. if My Head is able to lay on top of Your Heart.. I know for sure I can hear something.. I want to hear Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I want to tell Your Heart.. I need YOU and I miss YOU.. and I want to spend the rest of my life just loving YOU and telling YOU how much I missed you.. to whisper to Your Heart.. do YOU love me too.. will you please give me an answer if YOU can love me too.. I want to hear you say Yes YOU can love me too.. the way I love YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU but always kept on missing YOU.. as I am looking up and at the Pillow.. I would get UP slowly.. walking toward the Bed.. My Hands grabs and holds.. my arms wraps around this Pillow.. the Shape of a Heart.. why is this Heart here.. I want the Real one.. Your Real Heart.. and My arms would squeeze this Pillow softly and gently.. Why did YOU not take this Pillow with YOU.. why did you leave this Pillow behind.. the shape of a Heart.. what are you trying to tell me.. no matter How many times I ask this Heart.. this Pillow.. the Shape of the Heart.. I can ask million times of words.. will it answer me if I ask that much.. that is why I wanted to know are you trying to tell me something because it already hurts me too much unable to tell YOU how much I want to be with YOU.. it hurts me more than YOU that I can't tell you right Now even though YOU know my Heart.. How much more do I must needs to wait for YOU to know how much I need YOU.. I really need you tonight because My Arms.. My arms wants to hold YOU close.. this Pillow cannot say a Word.. the Shape of this Heart can't tell me NO words but I know that YOU can.. if YOU just leave Your Heart.. your real Heart with me.. I know that I can tell YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. do YOU know How much I love YOU.. can you please tell me that YOU know my Heart.. as I am Holding the Shape of the Heart.. the Pillow YOU have left behind.. I am walking Out of the room holding this Shape of the Heart.. I really want to hold YOU.. if I can only see your Real Heart.. and let it falls into my Hands.. I will gently wrap my around your Heart and I will say to Your Heart.. do YOU know how long my arms been waiting for a day like this.. to tell YOU.. Not just by words but even through my eyes and my arms.. Holding your Heart.. as my hand grab the door knob to turn.. opening the Back door and I walk out side as the door closes behind me.. My arms are holding.. wrapped around this Pillow.. the shape of Heart.. as I look Up.. I am standing out side as I turn to look up the Moon.. the Can of Beer is on top of the table.. and I am looking at the MOON again.. Do you see this.. Look at my arms Please.. LOOK what I am holding.. It is a shape of a Heart.. I never thought it be in my room.. the Pillow.. the Shape of the Heart came to the room.. sitting on top of the Bed.. I never expected it be a Shape of a Heart.. I looked at the Pillow closely and I paused.. My Heart jumped within me saying.. I see a Heart.. the Shape of a Heart.. which YOU have left behind.. why didn't you tell me that YOU wanted to leave this Shape of Heart behind.. are you trying to tell me to catch it.. to hold It.. to Love It.. to take care of It until YOU come back.. I wanted to tell YOU.. confess how much I love YOU.. instead I see a Pillow.. a shape of a Heart sitting on top of my bed waiting for me to see it.. I just drank few beers tonight.. I began to miss YOU and wanted to see YOU.. the Pain of missing YOU really hurts me inside.. so I had to open few cans of beer to ease UP my mind.. I know that even tomorrow
I will again start to miss you all over again.. If YOU can see me tonight.. if YOU can come outside.. only if this MOON can show you the reflection.. a Shadow of Me even can be enough.. you will see me Holding a Pillow.. but this Is not just any kind of Pillow.. this Pillow has a shape.. a Shape of a Heart.. and It came from YOU.. so Please come outside.. if YOU can look at the same MOON I am seeing tonight.. I am sure the MOON can tell YOU.. LOOK.. ON the Other side there is a Man who loves YOU.. who is missing YOU just too much.. even a Pillow shape Heart.. only to want to trade with Your Real Heart.. I will be holding it just the way YOU see my arms on it because I want to say I love YOU..I am looking at the Empty Chair.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU sitting on the Chair.. I want YOU home.. I want you here next to Me.. sitting on this chair which right Now I don't see you here.. as I am looking at the table.. I want to sit but I can't.. because I know that I am going to miss YOU if I don't see you across the table.. with YOUR beautiful smile.. I just keeps on missing YOU.. Please come Home.. Please come Home to me because I am missing YOU so bad.. will you please come back.. and I walk over.. I am standing by the Chair.. Your Chair.. the empty chair.. I am asking myself.. when will I see you again.. My hand.. holding your picture.. I lift up my hand.. holding Your picture in my hand.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. YOU are sitting on this chair.. the empty chair which right Now I am standing by.. on your lap is the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. I can't believe YOU are not here.. I still can't believe YOU are Not here.. I been waiting for YOU more than a Month.. where are YOU now.. I been asking for YOU.. even begging YOU to come home.. I am taking pictures on the Phone.. sending you Plates.. your most favorite dishes I would make for dinner.. and Yes.. YOU are receiving the pictures.. because it goes direct to Your Number and yes.. I see that YOU are able to see the Pictures I would take.. looking at the Plates.. the dishes every Night so that I want YOU to come Home.. there are Nights I be waiting.. sitting on my side of the chair.. I am eating alone.. looking across is the empty Chair.. I feel so hurt.. I feel so Bad.. I feel like I have messed UP so bad this time.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do next.. But I need YOU here because I have called you several times.. I would tell YOU with the Voice Message How much I have messed UP and that I am so sorry.. so tell me this.. are you with some one new.. are you with another guy because I truly want to know.. if YOU are leaving me Now for another guy.. please tell me so that I can let YOU go.. I would even write text messages asking you about this many times.. But YOU would Not answer me.. it breaks my Heart because I would call.. Phone number dials.. my ear listening to the ringing on the Phone.. and I am asking Please.. pick UP the phone.. Pretty Please answer so that I can at least hear YOU say that YOU are alright.. But I would call. I would not hear any answers.. and I am speaking to YOU through the Phone asking YOU Please come back to me because it does not matter if YOU are with another guy.. as long as I am still in your Heart.. just please come home.. as I am standing by next to Your Chair.. which is an Empty Chair.. I just want YOU HOME.. I want YOU close to me and I am missing YOU.. why can't you tell me that YOU miss me too.. tell me what is in your Heart so that I know how you are doing.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. I just want to cry.. I want to just pour out my eyes out.. just pour out my tears because I want to see YOU.. it is so hard not seeing YOU for Month.. I need to see YOU.. at least say that YOU do know my Heart.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I have made another Dinner dish.. a steam fish with veggies and I would look at the camera and I would be looking as I would click and I am looking at the picture of Dish I made for YOU this very night and I would look for YOUR Number and I would send it to YOU.. I would be look at my chair.. I would walk and sit on the chair.. and I would start to eat late into the night.. I would be looking across.. looking at Your chair.. the Empty Chair.. I can feel the Heavy in my Heart.. I would look across looking at the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat when we would eat dinner together.. I would open my mouth and say.. I really miss YOU.. why do you have to be the one to Break my Heart.. shattering my Brains and my thought into pieces.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. you know that by NOW.. I am truly sorry and yes I can feel the suffering and pain in my Heart.. I am in so much ache because I need YOU here.. I am missing YOU so much.. why do you have to do this to me when YOU know that I love YOU.. Please come home.. I am looking at your Picture.. YOU are sitting on the Chair.. smiling with the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your Lap with the Plate.. as I have the Bottle on the top of the Table.. I also placed the Shot Glass.. I just hate feeling this Pain.. Out side I can hear the wind blowing.. and it is lightly raining out side.. I just came from the Out side waiting for YOU.. wondering if I would stand out there.. I would see YOU coming Home.. still having that ray of Hope that YOU would come Home.. knowing at least YOU are receiving all of the Pictures of the dishes I made each night I send.. asking YOU I made this and that.. if YOU come home.. I would be in my room sleeping.. but YOUR Plate.. dinner is set by the Chair.. on top of the table waiting for YOU.. I would wake up each morning.. Hoping that YOU came late last night and had that dinner.. each Night and every morning I walk out of the room.. I would look at the top of the table.. LOOK at the plate and looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. I be heart broken because Nothing has been touched.. the food still be on that Plate.. never been touched.. and I would grab the Plate.. the Food goes into the trash and my Heart be broken because I am hoping that YOU came because I made it just for YOU.. but each night.. I would make it.. and after I am done eating.. I go into the room to sleep.. expecting you to finish the Plate when I wake UP the new next day.. its been a month now.. and I am still wondering.. are you going to come.. because I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that I have to still make the Favorite dinner dish.. the Plate just in case YOU come home and I don't want to see YOU hungry.. I want to see YOU.. I been missing YOU and My Heart is crying inside me.. I just came from Out side.. that is How my Heart feels inside this Home.. like it wants to rain down.. I am looking across.. sitting on my chair.. but my eyes keeps on looking across.. asking for YOU.. I want YOU close.. I want you in my arms so that I can love YOU.. but all my eyes can see right now is Your Chair.. the Chair is empty.. and I feel empty inside like that chair which is empty because YOU are not here.. But I need you here so that I can say it to you how much I am so sorry.. I want to say it to you so that YOU know my real Heart.. that I am missing YOU.. I want you here.. but Now.. I see that I can't see YOU.. as I open the top of the Bottle.. and I would pour into the shot glass.. and I put the bottle Down.. I raise UP the shot glass.. with liquor inside.. I open my mouth and take a Shot.. I hear something ringing.. and I am not sure if it is the Liquor getting to me.. and I would turn too look at my phone.. I see that someone is calling me.. I raise up the Phone to look. I just can't believe it.. and I am wondering.. it must be the Shot glass playing tricks on me.. it must be my eyes seeing things.. and I would pick UP the Phone.. and I hear YOUR voice.. it has been about a Month.. and I have not heard anything from YOU.. and I hear you saying something and only thing I can say is that I am so sorry and that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU because Now I know what YOU really means to me.. YOU means everything to me.. You always been everything but I just couldn't express it how.. but now I am able to tell YOU.. How much I missed YOU because I am looking across.. I have seen that the Chair has been empty.. its been missing.. missing YOU.. and I would hear YOU.. that YOU wanted to come Home.. and I am telling YOU to come home.. because in this house I am waiting for YOU Only.. I am looking at the Phone.. able to look at the screen.. I see your Beautiful Face.. I just can't believe YOU have finally answered.. but why did it take this long for YOU to tell me How you are doing.. why can't you tell me sooner.. I have brought the Giant Teddy Bear.. I wanted to show YOU something.. and Placed the Giant Teddy Bear on your Chair.. able to switch it where YOU are able to see it as I am showing you How much this Giant Teddy Bear been missing YOU.. I am sure more than Me.. usually YOU would sleep with this Giant Teddy Bear and I know without Your Presence.. it does Not feel the same.. and I am showing YOU.. LOOK.. who is waiting for YOU.. as much as Me.. and I see you smile looking at the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on Your Chair.. and I am able to focus on your Plate.. I am not sure if I am dreaming right Now.. because I know that right Now.. I am talking some Shots from the Shot Glass as I am pouring the Bottle on the Shot Glass.. I am hurting so Much.. this Pain does not leave me because I need YOU here.. I need you close to Me.. I am missing YOU.. and I can feel the tears running down my cheeks looking at YOU on the screen.. I been waiting for YOU.. day by day goes By..
It does Not feel the same because YOU are the love of my Life.. do you know how it feels to sit on this side of Chair.. every night.. I am making something to eat.. I am thinking of YOU too.. and I am wondering.. will YOU come Home.. will you eat from this Plate.. what if YOU don't show UP.. it breaks my Heart each time I come Out of the room in the morning.. looking at the table.. looking at the Empty Chair.. I am always looking at the past memories.. YOU be laughing.. telling me too salty.. or too dry.. some times a meat ball flies and hits my face and YOU smile.. just these little things.. I would be laughing too because I am at the most happiest when YOU are smiling.. able to smile back.. grab a meat ball and throw back at YOU.. of course I would of missed YOU.. I just can't help it any more.. I was really thinking maybe it should be the last Dinner plate I should make because may be YOU are Not going to ever come Home and just forget me for good.. as I am looking at YOU through my Phone Screen.. I have missed YOU so much.. I would grab the Shot Glass.. filled with the whiskey and Open my mouth to take another Shot.. I know that My Head is about to fall off.. I can see everything circling around Me.. I know that I can't stand UP straight.. and I know that when I wake UP the next morning.. My Head is going to kill me.. rather this is a dream or Not.. I am smiling looking at YOU through the screen of my Phone.. My Heart been aching for a Long time.. just missing YOU.. why I keep on missing YOU.. I now know how much I love YOU.. because of looking across is the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat.. I am looking across.. the Giant Teddy Bear is sitting there who is waiting for YOU to come back to Her.. all I can say is that I am so Sorry.. and that I love YOU.. as the Phone shuts off.. I would put my head on top of the table and I would sleep.. My Heart hurts.. it feels like something shot inside of me because I need to see YOU.. I need you so Close.. I want to hold YOU once More and tell YOU how much I need to be with YOU and to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. as my both eyes opens.. I would lift UP my Head from the Table.. I know that the Chair is going to be empty again.. the Chair YOU sat down.. and I look across to see.. I just can't believe it.. Is it really YOU.. is this a Dream or am I seeing what I am seeing in reality.. I see YOU sitting on Your Chair.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your lap.. the Plate.. the Dish I made for YOU.. YOU have ate the food.. and I am wiping my tears.. I just can't.. I can't believe that this is you.. it is really YOU.. YOU know that I sat many nights.. just dreaming for YOU to be here.. but ALL I saw on the Other side is the Chair.. it be empty and lonely just like my Heart felt when YOU were not there.. I missed YOU and I love YOU too.. I even took a picture of YOU sitting with that Huge Bear.. I am over here just missing YOU.. WHY did you have to do this to me when YOU don't love me.. I told you that I love YOU.. I told you my heart and my soul.. that I wanted you to be the one who join in forever with me.. As I sat there on the Chair.. looking at the Watch.. Looking at the clock on the wall.. as it was getting late into the Night.. I get Up from the Chair.. my tears just flowing down.. I would walk out of the front door.. as I stand late into the Night.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am wondering.. WHAT DO I must do to earn YOUR LOVE.. Help me to understand.. If I love YOU.. and I am asking you to stay with Me.. why is it so hard for YOU to know that My Heart and what I say is true.. I am Not lying to YOU at all.. I am only expressing of How Much I love YOU.. why don't you trust My Heart.. WHY don't you know that It is me who Loves YOU the most.. I know that I can love you more.. I can love you where you know I can.. as I am looking at that Moon.. I want YOU to be close.. I want to tell YOU that it is Me who YOU need.. it is me who loves YOU the best.. all you got is to trust me in this.. YOU do not know how long of a flight I had to fly.. the years of coming.. Now.. I am here.. please.. just give me Your Hand.. and I will show YOU HOW MUCH I love YOU.. as long as YOU can trust me and understand.. when YOU give me Your Hand.. once I hold the grip of your Hand.. I will never let Your Hand to go because I love YOU.. and as I turn to walk into the House and I come over to sit on the Chair.. I looked UP.. wiping my Tears.. I see YOU.. I see you sitting there on the Chair.. Holding the Huge Bear.. with red ribbon.. smiling.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. One minute YOU are gone.. Next minute I see YOU.. then YOU are gone.. I cry and Now.. I see you again.. as I sat there.. Putting down the Camera.. I see YOU.. I smile.. even though YOU are NOT THERE.. YOU Live in My Heart.. even though YOU may be so Far.. I see the Chair empty.. but also.. I can close my both eyes.. when I open and LOOK.. I see you sitting on that Chair.. it is because I love YOU.. NO matter How far YOU are.. IN MY HEART.. I know YOU live in.. all I do is say.. I see YOU.. I love YOU.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. it is Your Chair.. the chair YOU sat down when we would eat together.. I did not know why YOU left.. I am so sorry for letting YOU down.. but I saw YOU angry at Me.. I know that I am Not perfect.. I make a lot of Mistakes.. of course I do because I am also imperfect Human Being.. But there are times I know I just can't say the right Words to YOU.. making YOU angry and frustrated with situations I am not use to with.. When YOU get mad.. or Angry.. I see the Great storms coming.. it hits my Heart like a Hurricane.. and it blows me to the Floor.. But.. I want the best for Us.. I want us to win in this Life.. YOU know How hard and tough Life can be.. it is Not easy for Me.. But YOU know that NO matter the wrong words I would say to YOU.. I know I should Not say.. which It makes YOU to storm Off the room.. it is because I know that I am Not perfect.. But.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have Never stopped Loving YOU.. it only grows with Time because I know YOU are the One for Me.. and YOU are wondering.. WHY do I choose the wrong Words to say and tell YOU.. because also I go through a lot myself.. I deal with such Hardship.. sometimes It is Not easy to say when I feel unappreciated.. I get hurt Too.. I feel Hurt inside as much as YOU do.. and Yes.. I do regret when YOU walk off the room.. Leaving me just standing here.. I can't explain it sometimes but.. I know that deep inside my Heart.. I do truly love YOU.. I am so sorry for Hurting YOU.. I am so sorry that YOU got Up and left because I could Not say the right words but has chosen to say the wrong words to Hurt YOU.. Now.. I am here all alone.. I been looking at the Clock.. only thing I see is the Clock ticking.. and I am just waiting for YOU to come back Home.. Now I feel so Lost.. I feel so Hurt.. I feel like I know I have wronged YOU but it is because I wanted to say I love YOU.. YOU are wondering.. If I love YOU.. why choose words to say what Hurts YOU the most right.. WHY choose those makes YOU angry and bring frustrations right.. It is because I know I can't make it right.. because I know it is my fault.. I am the One who made the mistake.. so sometimes I would try to say something so that YOU would not respond in a defense.. I know that when YOU fire back.. it hurts Me.. It makes me want to cry but In front of YOU.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. I have already shown YOU enough tears but wants to show YOU smile.. bring a smile to your face.. that is why.. I am waiting for YOU.. I even left a message.. I am not sure if YOU got the Message because I am thinking.. right Now is Not the time.. YOU are truly angry at me.. but.. why did YOU leave without saying a Word to me.. when are YOU coming back.. How far are YOU going.. Are you going to be leaving Me behind.. Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. did YOU go out for some fresh of air.. I am over here.. only wondering where YOU are.. wondering if YOU went Out for a walk.. so Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. I am sitting on the chair on the Other side.. the Chair I been sitting when we would eat together.. But.. it seems like it has been awhile.. I would turn a side to look at the Clock.. the Time has been dragging.. sitting here and just waiting.. the Time seems like it is going by so Slow.. and looking across.. I see the Chair.. Your Chair which YOU sat down.. when I watch YOU in the kitchen.. I see YOU smile when YOU are making a meal.. but.. YOU would also call out to me.. asking if I can be by your side to help YOU in cooking.. I don't like to cook at all.. but.. I know that I love YOU.. I would join in just to be by Your side and to help you to finish.. I would be washing the dishes when we would finish eating.. putting the dishes and cups.. utensils back to its place.. wiping the table to make it clean.. wiping down the counter top when It is wet.. I do love the washing part because I am able to do something that I know I can be a part to help YOU.. but On this very night.. I saw YOU packing UP a Bag.. and I saw YOU out the front door.. YOU did not say a word to me.. Not even said Good Bye or Good Night.. I was shocked.. because
I never thought YOU had this in your Mind and Heart.. I think it was a build up on your Part.. and Now.. YOU are gone.. I am looking across.. only thing I see is the Chair.. the Chair is empty.. I don't see YOU across this table.. I am thinking.. is this a Dream.. or is this really happening to me.. WHY is it has to end this way.. why tell me that YOU love me and Now.. YOU are Gone with the Wind.. I can't help myself but my eyes are looking at this Chair.. Your chair YOU sat.. I would watch YOU smile as you would eat.. we would talk about the day.. the day YOU would spend time at work.. about Your co workers.. But Now.. I only see the Empty Chair.. and it feels so different because of YOU are Not sitting in it.. I cannot go to that kitchen.. because ALL I see is You.. How you love to make food.. brings such a true joy and blessings in my stomach.. every food YOU make.. it tastes so good and really touches my soul.. and I just cannot forget when YOU tell me.. How do I like it or Not.. I would say.. I love it because.. I know that I am eating from Your hands.. your hands which would be busy making.. Your Heart which YOU put in so much.. of how tasty you wanted to make.. my hand would touch my chest knowing that YOU have touched my Heart.. and I would be smiling as I watch YOU sit on that Chair.. I would look at Your eyes and would say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. delicate flower.. The Most beautiful delicate flower I ever saw.. So beautiful.. Not because of the food.. because It is only being YOU.. Now.. all I see is YOU.. but I don't see YOU anywhere Now.. I have been sitting on this Chair.. on this same spot for few hours.. but I here nothing from YOU.. I would send a Message.. There is No word Back.. I would also call YOU on the Phone.. YOU would not pick Up on the Other side.. just leaving me wondering.. is it that Bad what I have said to YOU.. is it because YOU never loved me from the first Place.. I know you left few times.. But.. YOU would tell me YOU are going out for a walk and needed some fresh of air.. YOU needed your Own time and space and wanted to spend alone.. of course I would agree with YOU and let you have Your Time and space.. to think about what I have done.. but this Time.. it feels so different.. YOU would send Word and would reply back.. and also you would answer the call and Let me speak and YOU would speak back.. I would say I am so Sorry.. I would lead out my apology.. Now.. I feel like this has to be something I really done something bad.. because NO words.. No replies.. So Please.. give me YOUR HEART.. Let me love YOU.. help me to Love YOU.. I need YOUR HEART.. because I love YOU.. I just can't wait until YOU come Home.. I am wondering why are YOU not coming Home.. it has been days.. as I am wondering.. I just can't believe you are gone.. Please tell me.. are you ever going to come Home.. because I can't sleep.. as I would walk into the Room.. I look at the open door.. your picture.. it the back pocket of my jeans.. I would reach to take the picture Out.. and Looking into the Picture.. I start to cry.. as I looking on the floor.. I see my tears falling and hitting the Floor.. if this was going to happen to Me.. WHY would I cause this kind of problem in the first Place.. why did I said the words I should Not say.. if It is going to hurt me this Much.. and I feel like dying.. even maybe drowning inside.. I can't even apologize to YOU because YOU would not even answer ANY of the calls.. I have been calling YOU on your Phone but YOU never pick UP.. I don't hear your voice on the Other side.. only to leave the message.. and even I did say something on the Message.. Now days goes By.. I still can't believe YOU are Not coming Home.. when will you return my call.. if I would call you on your Phone.. would you please pick UP on the Other side.. so that I know that YOU are doing alright at least.. tell me something so that I can move On.. am I suppose to move on without YOU.. but what If I refuse to let Go.. what if I just can't let YOU go.. I did not ask YOU to be Mine if forever was Not on my mind in the first place.. there is a reason why I told YOU I love YOU.. I just did not tell you that for YOU to feel good at all.. I meant it from the Bottom of my Heart.. I told you I love YOU because it meant that I want to say it to you for the rest of My Life.. did you not accept when I told you that the first time.. I told you those words because I knew that IN my Heart.. you were the one for Me.. that I meant I was asking YOU.. will you die with me.. will you grow old together with Me.. can I die in your arms if this means It can really means to come true.. I just did not make it up so that YOU can smile.. why would I want to see YOU smile when I meant it true from my Heart.. I wanted to tell you the three words so that I wanted to hear.. YOU are going to accept me.. through the good times.. through the bad times.. even hard and difficult times.. even at the lowest points and rock bottom of any given day.. of course I don't want to take you to those darker days.. I don't like to see YOU cry.. I hate it when YOU are sad and Heart broken.. But not all the days are going to be sun shine and rain bow like in the sky.. you will see cloudy days.. even rains will pour down Hard.. and yes.. I would walk in the rain and I will cry while I am walking through the rain when I am hurting.. when I am dealing with What makes me love YOU from the first place.. I would not tell you these words.. I just can't say it without knowing the meanings of these words I am telling YOU.. But.. I told you the three words because I meant it for Life.. until death to us.. until it all ends.. but I can see that YOU don't want to pick up the Phone.. why are you hurting me.. why do I feel so much pain and sorrow.. I keep on missing YOU.. and I feel like dying right now.. my Heart feels like bleeding indeed.. WHY don't you pick up the Phone.. or why don't you ever call me.. tell me something so that I can say I am so sorry.. But if YOU can't tell me words.. what am I suppose to do right now.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. DO you know that I am facing the Rain.. I can hear my Heart be crying.. because I am so sad.. I feel so gloomy right Now because I can't even hear YOUR voice.. I know I called you several times.. but the same response.. only going to the voice box to leave the message.. I have left YOU my voice message.. if I left it few more times.. would YOU not want to hear me what I has to say.. if YOU can only hear the Voice messages I left behind.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. I am deeply hurt.. wounded in my Heart too.. but YOU just can't forgive me.. YOU told me before that YOU could.. YOU told me that YOU loved me enough that YOU can forgive me.. then.. are you telling me that YOU have never loved me in the first place.. why did you say that YOU love Me.. do you know how that felt when I heard those words Out of your mouth.. you told me that YOU love me and WILL never stop loving me.. But look at right now.. do you still feel the same way or did YOUR heart changed.. How can I get Your Heart back.. I want YOU to love me.. if YOUR heart has changed on me.. then please tell me.. HOW do I get Your Heart back to love me again.. then if YOU can give me the answer.. would you answer the call.. I will call you again to see if YOU would answer YOUR Phone.. as I would look into the room and I step in.. I have the Phone and I would dial YOUR number and I would stand in the dark Room.. hearing it ring few times.. But I stand alone not able to hear your Voice.. I would walk with my Head looking down.. and I stop by the Bed.. I look.. there is the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. sitting on the TOP of the Bed.. leaning on the wall.. I am looking at Your Picture.. I want to see YOU again.. but.. if I can't hear Your voice and YOU don't answer your Phone.. How am I suppose to tell YOU my Heart.. so that YOU can come Back.. and I am looking at the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. and I start to cry More looking at this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I gave YOU this Bear.. but WHY is it here with me.. why didn't YOU take this GIANT TEDDY BEAR with YOU.. what am I suppose to do when this Belongs to YOU.. and I would sit on the Top of the Bed.. I would sit next and I would grab this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. my arms wrap around It.. I am holding it around my arms.. only thing is NOW.. I am wishing that if it was YOU.. but YOU are Not here.. so How can I hold you close.. as I am holding this Giant Teddy Bear.. my arms tights.. and I squeeze it.. as I am crying.. my tears just won't stop.. and I can see that I am getting this Giant TEDDY BEAR to be wet on top of the Head.. I just can't let YOU GO.. I just can't say good bye.. why did YOU have to leave and make me feel so Cold.. I wanted to be with YOU for the rest of my Life.. Now YOU are gone.. leaving me with Nothing but memories.. and My Heart keeps breaking because I only think of YOU.. I only see YOU.. as I am looking across.. I see the CHAIR..
Now that Chair across in the ROOM.. I would see YOU sitting ON it.. WHY.. I only see YOU everywhere.. even though YOU are not here with me.. why do I keep on seeing YOU here.. It must be my mind must be missing YOU.. It must be My Heart be missing YOU.. as My arms wraps around the Center of this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. and my Arms squeezes it.. I would close both of my eyes.. thinking when YOU came into this ROOM.. I would watch YOU walk into the room.. the Chair across the bed.. in the room.. I would be sitting on top of this Bed.. and I see YOU smile walking in and YOU sat on the Chair.. as YOU would look at me asking me WHY to sit.. I tell YOU to close both Eyes.. behind me is the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I did not want to show YOU but to surprise YOU and YOU sat there.. with a Big Smile and I see your two eyes close.. and I would move forward.. reaching back to grab the Giant Teddy Bear and pulling it forward.. I also have the camera with Me.. just to show YOU I wanted to take a Picture.. this picture that I am looking too.. I just can't stop.. it hurts so Much that YOU are not here.. I can't believe you are gone.. look what YOU are putting me through.. I am hurting so much right now because I am only thinking of it.. but unable to be with YOU right Now.. look what YOU have done to Me.. I am so Hurt.. I wish that YOU can be hurt.. maybe more Hurt then me because I love YOU.. YOU are now wondering.. why do I want to see YOU hurt if I truly Love you.. because YOU will think of me More if YOU do.. so that YOU can answer the call.. YOU can answer the Phone when I call YOU.. It sucks to be me when I call YOU but YOU never answer Back.. it hurts that I wish YOU be Hurt.. Please be hurt so that YOU can answer the Phone.. I want to say something.. I needs to hear so that I can say something to you.. as I would Have the GIANT TEDDY BEAR in front of me.. has a Pink RIBBON on the neck.. to show YOU that it is a SHE.. and I ask YOU.. Please Open Your eyes for me.. and I would look across.. the CHAIR you are sitting.. and I see both eyes Opens.. my both Hands.. my arms are holding the Center of this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I see YOU smile.. and I tell YOU.. this is Your Bear.. I have bought this Bear for YOU.. so soft fuzzy and tender.. if I give YOU this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. would you hold it like this.. I want to show YOU another Thing.. Please.. so that I can have something more closer to me.. if YOU are to go far.. I know that I can feel you so Near.. as I would open my arms.. and My hands reach to give YOU this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I see YOU stand UP and walk over.. I watch YOU grab and Hold.. as YOU go back to the CHAIR.. YOU sit on that chair.. and I see Your Hands.. I see Your Arms.. wrapping around the CENTER of the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. My Heart.. I can feel my Heart just beats so Fast.. I wish that I can trade places.. If the Giant Teddy Bear sits on TOP of the Bed and I be the One to be in Your Arms.. the way YOU are holding.. your Arms are holding.. wrapped around the Teddy Bear.. takes my Breathe away.. Can I hold YOU.. would you let me Hold YOU.. the way YOU are holding that GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I showed YOU.. the way I wanted to be held by YOU.. and I can feel my Heart.. it keeps on beating so Fast because I want to come Close.. Can I get close to YOU.. so that I can be in your Arms.. be wrapped in your Arms.. I would watch YOU as I am sitting on the top of this Bed.. I am leaning on the WALL.. as my hand grabs the Camera.. and I wanted to take a picture of YOU.. so that I know I can always look at Your Picture.. even though YOU are sitting on that Chair.. I am always wanting to be with YOU.. to be close to YOU.. to be near YOU.. I put the Camera UP.. and my eye looks Into the Lens.. and I tell YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I would zoom in to get a closer view.. DO YOU know that YOU are so Beautiful.. Holding that GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. the way YOU are holding it so Close.. Your Arms around It.. and I see YOU smile.. But WHY.. but WHY do you hurt me Now.. I just can't believe that YOU are doing this to Me.. WHY are you hurting me.. as I turn to LOOK at the window.. I see Light rain.. it is hitting against the window of the room.. I just feel so SICK right Now.. I am missing YOU.. I need YOU.. why did YOU have to leave me like this.. I am here all alone.. sitting on top of this Bed.. and as My eyes looking through the Lens.. Across.. I see the Empty Chair.. My Other arm.. wrapped around the Giant Teddy Bear.. the Other.. my hand holding the Camera.. I am looking through the Lens.. my tears.. it starts to fall again.. over and over I am feeling only the Heart break.. and my tears keeps dropping.. as I am only seeing the Empty Chair.. I would say.. Where are YOU my Love.. Where are YOU.. why can't you be here with me.. why are you hurting Me.. Now my Heart is breaking so much because I am missing YOU.. Only I see is that Chair.. now the Chair looks so lonely with out you.. Now.. it is only an Empty Chair.. Please come Home.. My Love.. will you come Home.. then WHY don't you pick UP the Phone.. Please answer when I call YOU so that I know YOU are doing good.. I need YOU because I am missing YOU.. Now.. I know that I love YOU.. Now I know how much I love YOU.. so please come Home.. I am only seeing the Chair.. it is only an Empty chair.. I am standing Outside.. I just could Not stay Inside because I started to Miss YOU.. sitting on the Chair.. I am looking across and I still see the Empty Chair.. I am waiting for YOU.. looking at the two Plates.. after making Dinner for us.. I just could not stay inside any longer.. I want you Close.. I want YOU near.. I walked Out the Door.. and I am staring out.. Looking at the Moon.. I am asking myself.. Where are YOU.. WHY don't you want to Come home.. is it because what I said to YOU.. but YOU know that sometimes I would say things I should not say.. but also YOU would tell me things that WOULD hurt me as well.. I am waiting for YOU.. Please Come HOME.. I think the Food on the Plate is getting cold.. I have waited and waited.. Looking at the watch.. Looking at the clock.. I see that YOU are Not here yet.. It is pretty cold Outside.. pretty Chilly this very day and I am still waiting for YOU.. WHY don't you want to come Home.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. Please Come Home.. as I am standing there.. I have your picture in my hand.. and I take a LOOK at your Picture.. What have I done.. WHAT did I say those words to YOU.. I am so sorry.. Please forgive me.. because I am Now sorry for the Words I say to YOU.. DID NOT mean to say it in a way to cause YOU to cry.. I know that the damage is already Done but.. I am hurt too.. YOU know that I am not feeling right.. so Please.. Pretty Please come Home to me.. and tell me.. tell me that YOU are coming Home.. as I stand here IN the Night.. it is getting colder outside.. can feel the blowing of the Wind.. as I stand there.. I look UP to the Moon.. and I just can't take this Pain any more.. I can't take this ache in my Heart.. because I am missing YOU.. YOU know that I have not seen you all day.. did not even see YOU last Night or before that Night.. it has been few days that it went By.. and Yes.. I called YOU on the Phone.. but I see that YOU just don't want to talk to me.. I can hear the ringing on the other side.. but.. I only can leave a Voice message.. I am wondering now.. DID YOU get my Message.. I told YOU on the Phone.. left YOU a Message that I am so Sorry.. that I am not going to do that again.. and Now.. days passes by.. still No answer.. YOU have Not left me any messages.. I am wondering about YOU.. I am missing YOU.. and it drives me crazy because I am not sure what is going through Your Mind and heart.. Please tell me.. so that I don't have to worry about YOU.. I am Looking UP at the Moon.. Can you Hear me.. even though I called Your Phone.. even today this Morning I left a message on Your Phone.. did YOU get the message.. did YOU hear my Voice on the other side.. and yes.. every Night.. for the past few days.. I would clean UP the food ON your Plate and make a New Dinner.. Just in case YOU show up this Very day.. Do you know what Hurts me the Most.. that I would have to get UP from the Chair.. and I have to look across and I see Your Chair.. that chair has been empty for few days Now.. I would sit by myself.. I ache in my Heart as I am eating alone.. just for one meal.. I wanted to take my time to share with YOU.. and I would be looking across.. as Your Picture is laying next to the Plate.. I would take a Look at the Picture of YOU and I would touch my Chest.. telling Your Picture.. while looking.. I would stop eating and say TO your Picture.. How sorry I am and that I love YOU.. you would Not answer me and it hurts because I am missing YOU not wondering what YOU are doing.. I be eating.. Looking across..
Looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. how YOU sat down and we would look at each other.. smile and eat.. just for that One night.. for that Dinner.. I would cook so that YOU know this is what I can give YOU to tell YOU.. I may not be able to give YOU much.. but.. I want to give YOU something from my Heart.. it is a meal for two of us.. But Now.. I sit there alone.. and I hear nothing.. so quiet.. and just silence in that ROOM.. I would get UP after I finish eating alone.. my Plate would be done.. as I walk across.. I would grab Your Plate.. still has Food on the table.. and I would go into the kitchen.. and it goes into the trash.. I would stand and I would wash the Plates and put back into the cabinet.. as I turn around.. I would look at Your Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. and Now I am just missing Your presence.. and I would ask looking at Your Empty Chair.. where are YOU.. DO you know that I am missing YOU.. I just can't believe YOU are gone and has not come home yet.. what If YOU never come Home.. what is going to happen to this Chair.. I don't want this Chair to sit here because of Knowing the memories of YOU.. I just can't take it any more.. I just can't see this Chair.. I can't because I am hurting too.. aching and wishing that YOU can come back.. WHY do you have to leave and Not tell me where YOU are going to go.. Look at me now.. I just feel like I want to break my Heart.. I need YOU because I love YOU.. Please.. Come home and tell me.. Come Home so at least you can hear me tell YOU that I was wrong.. that It was me.. my fault and that I am so sorry for the pain which I caused.. if you can only return and let me know I still have this chance to love YOU.. but.. Are you coming Home.. I would stop.. I would still be looking at the Moon.. just staring.. my tears are filled in my eyes.. why did I let it go so far that Now.. YOU just don't want to come Home.. was it that bad of words I said to YOU.. I mean.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. is Not these words Not enough to say to You.. am I this bad of a person that Now you just don't want to see me anymore.. what can I do to change your mind.. Please tell me.. what must I do so that YOU know that I am so sorry and that you will receive these words.. how can Your Heart change for me.. Please tell me so that I can change too.. so that I can love YOU once again.. but.. if you stay away and Not come Home.. How can I tell you anything.. if you want to be far from me.. YOU know I will not get the chance to apologize of the words and actions I cause to Hurt you.. tell me so that I can be a better man.. a Better person.. as I would look at the Moon.. a hour goes By and I know that it is time for me to Go inside.. so I turn to go back inside.. and I stop.. I am not sure what it is but I would turn around to Look.. I am not sure who it is but I am hearing foot steps walking.. and I can see someone walking and the figure is getting Bigger and Bigger.. Is it YOU.. and I see the figure stops.. and I look.. is it really YOU.. did YOU made up your Mind to return.. to come back Home to me.. and I am still looking.. and I see the figure starts to walk again.. and as I am standing there.. I know it has to be YOU.. I know that it is YOU for sure.. and this Time.. YOUR Plate is still on the Table with Your Food.. I have not toss it in the trash.. but decided to wait and as I see YOU approach.. I see YOU come closer.. my tears fills my eyes once again.. and I point my finger to the MOON..I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. and I just can't take my eyes off.. just wondering when are YOU coming Home.. I been calling you on the Phone.. Do you not here the Phone ringing.. I know that the number is correct because I can hear YOUR voice.. I can here you saying to leave the voice on the message.. I been wondering.. why aren't you picking up the Phone.. you know that this is killing me when YOU do this.. I been thinking a lot lately.. and I even left you a voice message.. telling YOU that I am so sorry.. how many times Must I tell YOU that what I did was wrong.. and I told you that I am so sorry.. will you please give me another chance.. I know that I can do better this time.. of course YOU heard me telling YOU this before.. so what do you want me to do.. So do you want me to stop calling YOU.. I know that I am the one who did fault.. and I even plead and even begged YOU.. I left you a Message on the Phone.. I am still calling you.. because we needs to talk.. YOU needs to tell me something so that I know what Not to do.. so please Pick up the Phone.. as I am dialing Your number.. I am putting my Phone on the ear.. I hear the ringing going through.. as I am standing on the living room.. I walk to the diner room.. standing there.. I see Your Empty chair.. I just can't believe YOU are doing this to Me.. why are YOU hurting me.. I know that it is me who shouted at YOU.. and I was angry.. but.. does it means YOU have to hate me like this.. DO you really Hate Me.. YOU told me that you will Never hate me.. then why are YOU not answering the Phone.. it is getting late.. few days.. Now weeks went by.. I am still here waiting for YOU.. just wondering How you are doing.. Please.. Baby.. Please answer the Phone.. tell me something so that I know.. I can let go.. I can let go of this frustration that is in me.. I know.. I told you already.. I am so sorry.. as I am looking at the empty Chair.. I have set another Plate.. it is by Your Chair.. I would place a cup of water.. with utensils.. with napkin on the side.. I made YOU a steak.. green beans and mash potatoes.. next to the cup of water is another cup of wine.. I have set it.. maybe YOU will come tonight.. Maybe you will stop by later tonight.. but.. just in case you are hungry.. I have placed Your Plate.. Your food on the table by the Chair.. Your Empty Chair.. as I would walk to the front door and I open.. looking outside.. I would walk out with a jacket.. it is pretty cold and I can see the Moon.. as I am walking.. and I stop.. I see the light rain falling from the sky.. I am wondering are you close by.. Can you see the rain.. I know that I am getting hit by the rain.. it does not matter now because I am sick.. My Heart is sick because I am missing YOU.. its been weeks.. and each night.. I would be waiting by the empty Chair.. I would be in the kitchen cooking a meal.. each time I would eat dinner.. I am always looking for YOU.. I would be thinking of YOU.. as I would be sitting down on my side.. I would get back UP.. going back into the kitchen.. I know that I have to bring out another Plate.. I know that you may not come tonight.. maybe Not.. but still.. I am thinking what if YOU would show UP.. what if YOU come.. I would always make a meal for two.. Just in case YOU may show UP later deep in the night.. when I am asleep.. who knows when and I would put Your Plate.. Your dinner on the top of the table.. if I sleep and I don't see you for that day.. at least YOU can come into the night.. late if you want too.. the Meal is ready for YOU.. come and eat if You are hungry.. it has been all prepared and done.. what you love the most.. your favorites I would ask.. and I would watch YOU taking the picture of each plates YOU love and would remind me this is what you like and dislike.. and I would put the picture of the plates YOU love.. in my room.. and from time to time I would take a look at it.. and I would make those meals just for you.. as I am outside in the cold.. with my jacket on.. I am getting wet.. light rain hitting me.. and I would stop.. My Heart hurts Now.. I would go into my room.. and day to day.. I would pull out the picture of the Plate.. each Night I would be in the kitchen.. cooking each of the Meals YOU love.. every night comes.. One Plate.. the Next Night Another Plate YOU love.. your favorite dishes.. and I would sit on my Chair.. waiting for YOU to come Home.. as I would wait.. it becomes late.. and yes.. I would feel so sleepy.. getting UP out of the Chair.. I am looking at the Plate.. and Looking at the Empty Chair.. I can feel my Heart crying inside.. as I would wait for YOU and YOU do not show UP.. I would turn the Other way and walk into the room.. closing the Door behind.. and I lay on the bed.. and I start to cry.. crying a lot because I would miss YOU.. calling YOU on the Phone.. I would sit still just to hear Your Voice.. I would hear the Phone be ringing.. asking myself.. why is it this Hard to love YOU.. why are you making it so Hard for me to get closer.. am I that evil person.. why Hurt me.. I feel only tears in my eyes.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. I told YOU that I missed YOU and that I love YOU.. but why don't you pick up the Phone.. why don't you even show UP to the House.. YOU don't miss me at all.. YOU know that I miss YOU.. I call you every day.. I only want to listen to Your Voice.. I want to hear YOU.. but only at the end to leave the Message YOU tell me too.. it breaks my Heart when YOU do this to Me.. it breaks my heart when YOU stop caring about me.. it breaks my Heart when YOU don't answer.. I even would leave in the Night.. I have prepared YOU a Meal.. a Dinner I made to eat.. I have already eaten.. If you don't want to see me.. I am Not going to force YOU to come to see me.. But Please.. if YOU get hungry and YOU are near by.. Please stop by.. I am ready to sleep for the night.. so Please come tonight.. by the time you get this message.. when YOU come.. I am sure I am already at bed by then.. if YOU ever feel
![[#YouQuiz] Story of mother Ko Hyun-jung, revealed for the first time💬](/img/1.gif)
스탭분들 안소희팀으로 이렇게 채널에 본격적으로 같이 나온거 처음 아닌가?? 소희 혼자 컨텐츠하는것도 좋은데 이렇게 다같이 하는것도 화기애애하고 좋다ㅋㅋ
솧튜브를 통해 소희가 처음 해보는게 많구나 그걸 같이 볼 수 있어서 넘 좋다🥹💛
그리고 피디님 이라고 말 할 때마다 엠티비 원더걸스 찍을 때 생각나ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 여전히 귀여워ㅠㅠ
5:08 진짴ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 너무기얍..
물속에서 보니까….진짜 열다섯 소희누나아닌가요,,, 나이는 왜 나만 먹어 ㅜㅜ
스태프분들의 외마디 비명ㅋㅋㅋ
너무 웃겨욬ㅋㅋ
인턴 소피때부터 피디님들이랑 케미 미쳐쏘…. 예능도 잘하다니🥺🤍 7:33 찐행복ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
스텝들이랑 즐거워보여서 보기 좋아요 안소희팀 화이팅!
다들 즐거워보여서 좋다
이쁘닝 고생 많이 했어 지금도 충분히 잘한거야 🥳
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ아 진짜 웨이크보드가 진행되었다니
운동실력도 짱 못하는게 없는 쏘희🍋🤍🤍☺️
안소희배우님 너무 예쁘십니다
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 요즘 재미있는 활동 많이 해줘서 고마워요!!
소희는 늙지를 않네 ㅎㅎ
꼬기라고 하니깐 혼자서 차박 간 영상 생각나요 제 최애영상ㅠㅜㅠ 혼자서 차박 여름버전도 찍어주세요!ㅠ🐱💛
맞다 꼬기요 추우날에 차박.ㅋ
오늘도 너무 동안인 소희언니 😍😍😍
으앗 고기 맛있어보여요 ㅠㅠ 언니 미모 또 열일하시다니 쉬는 날이 없는 미모네요❤️❤️❤️
진짜 여리여리하고 먼가 정적인거안좋아할이미지인데 엑티비티 익스트림 좋아하고 귀여운얼굴에반전취미를갖구있는소희언니♨😍🥰💖💖
뽀송뽀송 귀여워요 언니 ㅠㅠ
도전하는솧 너무 보기좋아요 ㅎㅎㅎ❤️
구달 사러 고고씽 . 그래 소희가 추천 광고하는건 다 좋긴 좋더라. 인정 명불허전 안솧파 ! 악이 전혀 없는 신실한 거룩한 소녀 영원히 넘 아름답다고요.🥰
울것같은 네~ 귀엽네 ㅋ
짝짝짝 👏 파티를 합니당 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
이쁘다는 말 이젠 그만해도 되는데, 너무 이뻐서 이쁘다 이쁘다 너무 청량한 소희슿 너무 이뻐. 태어나서 이쁘다는 소리 소희 한테만 젤 많이 함. 난 눈이 높아서 이쁘다는 소리 잘 못하는 까칠한 나라서 .. 유독 소희 한테만 진심 수억번은 하는것같음. 피부가 아기보다 더 아기피부 말이됨? 🤔🤗
좋은 사람들과 좋은 시간을 보내는 일만큼 행복한 일이 있을까요
모두 행복합시다
소희씨 늘 응원할게요~~♡♡
안소희 물에 빠지니까 왜 갑자기 2007년 소희 같은데.. 휴 하여튼 중딩.. 한결같아.
강물은...내 맛은 아니다 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ다들 너무 귀여워요 소희팀 앞으로도 파이팅💙
빠지 영상 재밌네요 😆 다음에는 기회가 된다면 캠핑영상도 만들어주세여😃👍
ㅎㅎㅎ 보기만해도 시원하네요
귀여운 돌고래 ㅎㅎ💚💚
중학교때부터 좋아했는데.. 그때랑 어떻게 다른점이 없는건지....
운동의 신 안소히
내사랑 쏘희
수상스키를 먼저 해보셔요!
서프봉봉으로 오세요!!
영상잘봤어요 다양한 활동보기좋습니다 몸조심하시고 자외선 강한여름이니 얼굴관리잘하세요 팟팅요👊
넘재밌고 이쁘다, 돈쭐 출동해야지
소희 졸귀 ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
masarap siguro mag swiming jan kc parang malamig at maganda ang lugar jan at ang cute nag boses mo an so hee parang dolphin ang sigaw mo
LOL but sohee did great for first try 👍🏻 Good job sohee 💖
This EP was fun lov it 👍🏻👍🏻🤣
오오오오오 소희 ㅎㅎㅎㅎ😀
Lesson learned..never make a bet with SoHee😂😂 that was awesome SoHee!! What an experience!!
어성초 수분크림 보고갑니당 헿헿
역시 소희 영상은 생각보다 훨씬 재미있어!! 다양한 도전해줘서 고마워!!
Can your team do more of group team activity 😊🤗 it's so good to see you all
ソヒ💙💙💙
so cute ❤️❤️
so cuteeeee 😍
구매완료 ㅋㅋ
재밌네요 ㅎㅎ
소희 루피랑 똑같넹 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
안녕. ........루피 ㅎㅎㅎ
Love you sohee ♥️
웃기다ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
🥰🥰🥰🥰
그래도 아직은 소희지
메종키츠네 티 사이즈 뭔지 궁금해요 ~
치료적 연구 분야 공부 완성 되면 안소희 님 만나뵈로 갈게요 ^^
I love your film train to busan and city
❤️ S❤️HEE ❤️
😍
☺🤩
❤❤❤
저는 개구리랍니다 물 쪼금만 먹어도 피부가 맨질맨질해지죠 크흡
😹😹😹😹😹
I like your smile
For you and bts
오 베리 👍 👍
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잼있어 ㅋㅋㅋ
안녕하세요
Ily
I am pakistani but soon i came in korea
빠지ㅜ어디에요?
Nice try
pls add some english sub for your international fans
Oink Oink.. I am sitting on the Floor.. there is this Album book.. full of pictures and I am flipping through One page at a time.. looking at the many pictures I have taken of YOU through the Years.. I am smiling as I am missing YOU.. I just came from the back yard.. and I just could not stand out there because I keep on missing YOU.. when you called me on the Phone.. hearing your voice.. I know that I could not tell you how much I loved You.. I know if I asked YOU now.. and what would you say to Me.. I think the time right now is Not.. I am waiting for the perfect timing to ask YOU.. and I would be struggling deep inside when would that time be.. what would happen if I asked YOU and YOU would say.. the Time is Not right.. maybe you are telling me YOU only like my friendship.. but what If I want more than just Your Friendship.. I want more.. I want Your Heart.. I would be looking at the Book of Album.. flipping to the next page.. all these pictures of YOU.. I have pasted so that I can see the different times of your many expressions.. some with a Big smile.. Others with a different smiles.. One or two with tears in your eyes.. and I am just looking.. thinking about the days.. thinking about those days when we use to smile a lot.. I am truly missing YOU right Now.. I keep on wanting to call YOU.. but I know that YOU are busy at this Point.. hearing your voice.. I want to call YOU so I can hear your voice again and I would try to dial but I would pause.. and I turn too look up.. and I see my Bed.. and I see the Pillow.. and I look at it.. did Not think about the Shape of this Pillow.. but.. is it a Heart.. I am wondering.. when did this Pillow came from.. I don't have a Pillow looking or having the Shape of this Heart.. and I am fond of the Shape.. does this means that this is How your Heart has its shape.. and I am wondering.. can I have this Shape of Heart.. I don't need this pillow.. what am I going to do with a Pillow that can not even make the sound of the Beating of your Heart.. I want this Shape of Heart.. not a Pillow but Your Heart.. and I look down looking at a Picture of YOU.. and I am wondering.. if YOU could hear me here in my room.. and I would open my Mouth.. can YOU Please hear me.. why did YOU have to go.. telling me YOU are going some where far and YOU are going on a vacation.. why did YOU not ask me if I wanted to come.. to join you on this vacation.. YOU know in a Heart beat I would gone with YOU.. when I flip the Next page.. and the pages down.. it is blank sheets.. there is NO more pictures after this One Page.. My eyes have stopped on this One Picture.. the Most favorite one.. with a Big Smile.. YOU are holding a Pillow.. the One that is a Shape of a Heart.. when I turn to look at the wall.. and next to the wall is my bed.. I see something that I have Not seen before.. I see a Pillow.. it is a Shape of the Heart.. color is Pink and Baby Blue.. I am looking at my bed.. the Heart shape pillow is sitting on top of the Bed.. Not sure if the Pillow can make the sound of the beating.. but seems like the Pillow Heart shape knows me.. I turn to look down at the Page.. I have pasted a Picture on this Sheet of Page with YOU.. YOU are smiling real big.. arms are holding and wrapping around this Pillow but has a Shape of a Heart.. I am wondering.. are you posing to show me that This is How your Heart looks.. why didn't you tell me that This is Your Heart.. I remember I walked in the room.. and YOU told me that YOU got something.. YOU would sit on the top of my bed and I remember clearly.. telling me to bring the Camera.. Of course I knew what YOU mean.. I left the room.. and Got the camera.. and walked back into the room.. YOU were smiling.. I have never seen such a Beautiful great smile.. and you will telling me to take a picture.. only I thought about at that time was just to take a Picture of YOU because I just love taking pictures when YOU smile.. makes my Stomach.. My Heart jumps with Joy inside when I see YOU smile.. I see the arms wrapping and pressing down on the Pillow.. the Heart shape.. I did not think much of it at that time because all YOU wanted was me to take picture of YOU.. I would press and it clicks few times.. Now.. I am looking at the Pictures.. there are few pictures of YOU holding.. arms wrapped around this Pillow.. of the Shape of a Heart.. I did not know you wanted to tell me something.. show me something.. Now I am noticing everything after YOU are gone.. YOU know that when YOU told me you are going on a long trip.. on a vacation.. I was waiting for YOU to ask me if I could go.. or was it me who was suppose to ask YOU if I was invited to go with YOU.. because I really wanted to go with YOU.. do YOU know why.. If I went with YOU.. I be bringing my Camera.. and I could of taken more pictures of YOU.. there are many empty spaces that needs to be covered by your pictures.. I want to cover this Whole Book Album with YOUR pictures.. think about many places where I can stop to take YOU more pictures.. and I could of collected all the pictures.. and Start too fill in the empty spaces of this Album of Your pictures.. Now.. I just have to wait for you to come back.. But How long will this trip be because I am missing YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to show YOU and ask about this Pillow that is in the top of the Bed.. is this suppose to be here with Me.. because if you are going to leave something behind.. I don't need the pillow One.. the Shape of a Heart.. I wanted to ask YOU.. if this is your Heart.. or the Shape of this Heart is what YOU are trying to tell Me.. at least let me have the Real One.. I don't need a Fake Heart.. I can't even tell this Fake Heart anything.. what am I suppose to do.. Hold this Pillow.. this Shape of Your Heart and cry on it because I be missing YOU.. to tell YOU how Much I love YOU.. and How much I need YOU still.. but I need YOU here.. so that I want to trade this One for the real One.. the One that I need the Most.. I want to ask YOU.. I want Your Heart.. Because I need YOU close.. I want Your Heart so that I can lay my Head of the Heart and ask if It can beat for Me.. can I hear the sound of the beating of your Heart.. if My Head is able to lay on top of Your Heart.. I know for sure I can hear something.. I want to hear Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I want to tell Your Heart.. I need YOU and I miss YOU.. and I want to spend the rest of my life just loving YOU and telling YOU how much I missed you.. to whisper to Your Heart.. do YOU love me too.. will you please give me an answer if YOU can love me too.. I want to hear you say Yes YOU can love me too.. the way I love YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU but always kept on missing YOU.. as I am looking up and at the Pillow.. I would get UP slowly.. walking toward the Bed.. My Hands grabs and holds.. my arms wraps around this Pillow.. the Shape of a Heart.. why is this Heart here.. I want the Real one.. Your Real Heart.. and My arms would squeeze this Pillow softly and gently.. Why did YOU not take this Pillow with YOU.. why did you leave this Pillow behind.. the shape of a Heart.. what are you trying to tell me.. no matter How many times I ask this Heart.. this Pillow.. the Shape of the Heart.. I can ask million times of words.. will it answer me if I ask that much.. that is why I wanted to know are you trying to tell me something because it already hurts me too much unable to tell YOU how much I want to be with YOU.. it hurts me more than YOU that I can't tell you right Now even though YOU know my Heart.. How much more do I must needs to wait for YOU to know how much I need YOU.. I really need you tonight because My Arms.. My arms wants to hold YOU close.. this Pillow cannot say a Word.. the Shape of this Heart can't tell me NO words but I know that YOU can.. if YOU just leave Your Heart.. your real Heart with me.. I know that I can tell YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. do YOU know How much I love YOU.. can you please tell me that YOU know my Heart.. as I am Holding the Shape of the Heart.. the Pillow YOU have left behind.. I am walking Out of the room holding this Shape of the Heart.. I really want to hold YOU.. if I can only see your Real Heart.. and let it falls into my Hands.. I will gently wrap my around your Heart and I will say to Your Heart.. do YOU know how long my arms been waiting for a day like this.. to tell YOU.. Not just by words but even through my eyes and my arms.. Holding your Heart.. as my hand grab the door knob to turn.. opening the Back door and I walk out side as the door closes behind me.. My arms are holding.. wrapped around this Pillow.. the shape of Heart.. as I look Up.. I am standing out side as I turn to look up the Moon.. the Can of Beer is on top of the table.. and I am looking at the MOON again.. Do you see this.. Look at my arms Please.. LOOK what I am holding.. It is a shape of a Heart.. I never thought it be in my room.. the Pillow.. the Shape of the Heart came to the room.. sitting on top of the Bed.. I never expected it be a Shape of a Heart.. I looked at the Pillow closely and I paused.. My Heart jumped within me saying.. I see a Heart.. the Shape of a Heart.. which YOU have left behind.. why didn't you tell me that YOU wanted to leave this Shape of Heart behind.. are you trying to tell me to catch it.. to hold It.. to Love It.. to take care of It until YOU come back.. I wanted to tell YOU.. confess how much I love YOU.. instead I see a Pillow.. a shape of a Heart sitting on top of my bed waiting for me to see it.. I just drank few beers tonight.. I began to miss YOU and wanted to see YOU.. the Pain of missing YOU really hurts me inside.. so I had to open few cans of beer to ease UP my mind.. I know that even tomorrow
I will again start to miss you all over again.. If YOU can see me tonight.. if YOU can come outside.. only if this MOON can show you the reflection.. a Shadow of Me even can be enough.. you will see me Holding a Pillow.. but this Is not just any kind of Pillow.. this Pillow has a shape.. a Shape of a Heart.. and It came from YOU.. so Please come outside.. if YOU can look at the same MOON I am seeing tonight.. I am sure the MOON can tell YOU.. LOOK.. ON the Other side there is a Man who loves YOU.. who is missing YOU just too much.. even a Pillow shape Heart.. only to want to trade with Your Real Heart.. I will be holding it just the way YOU see my arms on it because I want to say I love YOU..I am looking at the Empty Chair.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU sitting on the Chair.. I want YOU home.. I want you here next to Me.. sitting on this chair which right Now I don't see you here.. as I am looking at the table.. I want to sit but I can't.. because I know that I am going to miss YOU if I don't see you across the table.. with YOUR beautiful smile.. I just keeps on missing YOU.. Please come Home.. Please come Home to me because I am missing YOU so bad.. will you please come back.. and I walk over.. I am standing by the Chair.. Your Chair.. the empty chair.. I am asking myself.. when will I see you again.. My hand.. holding your picture.. I lift up my hand.. holding Your picture in my hand.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. YOU are sitting on this chair.. the empty chair which right Now I am standing by.. on your lap is the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. I can't believe YOU are not here.. I still can't believe YOU are Not here.. I been waiting for YOU more than a Month.. where are YOU now.. I been asking for YOU.. even begging YOU to come home.. I am taking pictures on the Phone.. sending you Plates.. your most favorite dishes I would make for dinner.. and Yes.. YOU are receiving the pictures.. because it goes direct to Your Number and yes.. I see that YOU are able to see the Pictures I would take.. looking at the Plates.. the dishes every Night so that I want YOU to come Home.. there are Nights I be waiting.. sitting on my side of the chair.. I am eating alone.. looking across is the empty Chair.. I feel so hurt.. I feel so Bad.. I feel like I have messed UP so bad this time.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do next.. But I need YOU here because I have called you several times.. I would tell YOU with the Voice Message How much I have messed UP and that I am so sorry.. so tell me this.. are you with some one new.. are you with another guy because I truly want to know.. if YOU are leaving me Now for another guy.. please tell me so that I can let YOU go.. I would even write text messages asking you about this many times.. But YOU would Not answer me.. it breaks my Heart because I would call.. Phone number dials.. my ear listening to the ringing on the Phone.. and I am asking Please.. pick UP the phone.. Pretty Please answer so that I can at least hear YOU say that YOU are alright.. But I would call. I would not hear any answers.. and I am speaking to YOU through the Phone asking YOU Please come back to me because it does not matter if YOU are with another guy.. as long as I am still in your Heart.. just please come home.. as I am standing by next to Your Chair.. which is an Empty Chair.. I just want YOU HOME.. I want YOU close to me and I am missing YOU.. why can't you tell me that YOU miss me too.. tell me what is in your Heart so that I know how you are doing.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. I just want to cry.. I want to just pour out my eyes out.. just pour out my tears because I want to see YOU.. it is so hard not seeing YOU for Month.. I need to see YOU.. at least say that YOU do know my Heart.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I have made another Dinner dish.. a steam fish with veggies and I would look at the camera and I would be looking as I would click and I am looking at the picture of Dish I made for YOU this very night and I would look for YOUR Number and I would send it to YOU.. I would be look at my chair.. I would walk and sit on the chair.. and I would start to eat late into the night.. I would be looking across.. looking at Your chair.. the Empty Chair.. I can feel the Heavy in my Heart.. I would look across looking at the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat when we would eat dinner together.. I would open my mouth and say.. I really miss YOU.. why do you have to be the one to Break my Heart.. shattering my Brains and my thought into pieces.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. you know that by NOW.. I am truly sorry and yes I can feel the suffering and pain in my Heart.. I am in so much ache because I need YOU here.. I am missing YOU so much.. why do you have to do this to me when YOU know that I love YOU.. Please come home.. I am looking at your Picture.. YOU are sitting on the Chair.. smiling with the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your Lap with the Plate.. as I have the Bottle on the top of the Table.. I also placed the Shot Glass.. I just hate feeling this Pain.. Out side I can hear the wind blowing.. and it is lightly raining out side.. I just came from the Out side waiting for YOU.. wondering if I would stand out there.. I would see YOU coming Home.. still having that ray of Hope that YOU would come Home.. knowing at least YOU are receiving all of the Pictures of the dishes I made each night I send.. asking YOU I made this and that.. if YOU come home.. I would be in my room sleeping.. but YOUR Plate.. dinner is set by the Chair.. on top of the table waiting for YOU.. I would wake up each morning.. Hoping that YOU came late last night and had that dinner.. each Night and every morning I walk out of the room.. I would look at the top of the table.. LOOK at the plate and looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. I be heart broken because Nothing has been touched.. the food still be on that Plate.. never been touched.. and I would grab the Plate.. the Food goes into the trash and my Heart be broken because I am hoping that YOU came because I made it just for YOU.. but each night.. I would make it.. and after I am done eating.. I go into the room to sleep.. expecting you to finish the Plate when I wake UP the new next day.. its been a month now.. and I am still wondering.. are you going to come.. because I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that I have to still make the Favorite dinner dish.. the Plate just in case YOU come home and I don't want to see YOU hungry.. I want to see YOU.. I been missing YOU and My Heart is crying inside me.. I just came from Out side.. that is How my Heart feels inside this Home.. like it wants to rain down.. I am looking across.. sitting on my chair.. but my eyes keeps on looking across.. asking for YOU.. I want YOU close.. I want you in my arms so that I can love YOU.. but all my eyes can see right now is Your Chair.. the Chair is empty.. and I feel empty inside like that chair which is empty because YOU are not here.. But I need you here so that I can say it to you how much I am so sorry.. I want to say it to you so that YOU know my real Heart.. that I am missing YOU.. I want you here.. but Now.. I see that I can't see YOU.. as I open the top of the Bottle.. and I would pour into the shot glass.. and I put the bottle Down.. I raise UP the shot glass.. with liquor inside.. I open my mouth and take a Shot.. I hear something ringing.. and I am not sure if it is the Liquor getting to me.. and I would turn too look at my phone.. I see that someone is calling me.. I raise up the Phone to look. I just can't believe it.. and I am wondering.. it must be the Shot glass playing tricks on me.. it must be my eyes seeing things.. and I would pick UP the Phone.. and I hear YOUR voice.. it has been about a Month.. and I have not heard anything from YOU.. and I hear you saying something and only thing I can say is that I am so sorry and that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU because Now I know what YOU really means to me.. YOU means everything to me.. You always been everything but I just couldn't express it how.. but now I am able to tell YOU.. How much I missed YOU because I am looking across.. I have seen that the Chair has been empty.. its been missing.. missing YOU.. and I would hear YOU.. that YOU wanted to come Home.. and I am telling YOU to come home.. because in this house I am waiting for YOU Only.. I am looking at the Phone.. able to look at the screen.. I see your Beautiful Face.. I just can't believe YOU have finally answered.. but why did it take this long for YOU to tell me How you are doing.. why can't you tell me sooner.. I have brought the Giant Teddy Bear.. I wanted to show YOU something.. and Placed the Giant Teddy Bear on your Chair.. able to switch it where YOU are able to see it as I am showing you How much this Giant Teddy Bear been missing YOU.. I am sure more than Me.. usually YOU would sleep with this Giant Teddy Bear and I know without Your Presence.. it does Not feel the same.. and I am showing YOU.. LOOK.. who is waiting for YOU.. as much as Me.. and I see you smile looking at the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on Your Chair.. and I am able to focus on your Plate.. I am not sure if I am dreaming right Now.. because I know that right Now.. I am talking some Shots from the Shot Glass as I am pouring the Bottle on the Shot Glass.. I am hurting so Much.. this Pain does not leave me because I need YOU here.. I need you close to Me.. I am missing YOU.. and I can feel the tears running down my cheeks looking at YOU on the screen.. I been waiting for YOU.. day by day goes By..
It does Not feel the same because YOU are the love of my Life.. do you know how it feels to sit on this side of Chair.. every night.. I am making something to eat.. I am thinking of YOU too.. and I am wondering.. will YOU come Home.. will you eat from this Plate.. what if YOU don't show UP.. it breaks my Heart each time I come Out of the room in the morning.. looking at the table.. looking at the Empty Chair.. I am always looking at the past memories.. YOU be laughing.. telling me too salty.. or too dry.. some times a meat ball flies and hits my face and YOU smile.. just these little things.. I would be laughing too because I am at the most happiest when YOU are smiling.. able to smile back.. grab a meat ball and throw back at YOU.. of course I would of missed YOU.. I just can't help it any more.. I was really thinking maybe it should be the last Dinner plate I should make because may be YOU are Not going to ever come Home and just forget me for good.. as I am looking at YOU through my Phone Screen.. I have missed YOU so much.. I would grab the Shot Glass.. filled with the whiskey and Open my mouth to take another Shot.. I know that My Head is about to fall off.. I can see everything circling around Me.. I know that I can't stand UP straight.. and I know that when I wake UP the next morning.. My Head is going to kill me.. rather this is a dream or Not.. I am smiling looking at YOU through the screen of my Phone.. My Heart been aching for a Long time.. just missing YOU.. why I keep on missing YOU.. I now know how much I love YOU.. because of looking across is the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat.. I am looking across.. the Giant Teddy Bear is sitting there who is waiting for YOU to come back to Her.. all I can say is that I am so Sorry.. and that I love YOU.. as the Phone shuts off.. I would put my head on top of the table and I would sleep.. My Heart hurts.. it feels like something shot inside of me because I need to see YOU.. I need you so Close.. I want to hold YOU once More and tell YOU how much I need to be with YOU and to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. as my both eyes opens.. I would lift UP my Head from the Table.. I know that the Chair is going to be empty again.. the Chair YOU sat down.. and I look across to see.. I just can't believe it.. Is it really YOU.. is this a Dream or am I seeing what I am seeing in reality.. I see YOU sitting on Your Chair.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your lap.. the Plate.. the Dish I made for YOU.. YOU have ate the food.. and I am wiping my tears.. I just can't.. I can't believe that this is you.. it is really YOU.. YOU know that I sat many nights.. just dreaming for YOU to be here.. but ALL I saw on the Other side is the Chair.. it be empty and lonely just like my Heart felt when YOU were not there.. I missed YOU and I love YOU too.. I even took a picture of YOU sitting with that Huge Bear.. I am over here just missing YOU.. WHY did you have to do this to me when YOU don't love me.. I told you that I love YOU.. I told you my heart and my soul.. that I wanted you to be the one who join in forever with me.. As I sat there on the Chair.. looking at the Watch.. Looking at the clock on the wall.. as it was getting late into the Night.. I get Up from the Chair.. my tears just flowing down.. I would walk out of the front door.. as I stand late into the Night.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am wondering.. WHAT DO I must do to earn YOUR LOVE.. Help me to understand.. If I love YOU.. and I am asking you to stay with Me.. why is it so hard for YOU to know that My Heart and what I say is true.. I am Not lying to YOU at all.. I am only expressing of How Much I love YOU.. why don't you trust My Heart.. WHY don't you know that It is me who Loves YOU the most.. I know that I can love you more.. I can love you where you know I can.. as I am looking at that Moon.. I want YOU to be close.. I want to tell YOU that it is Me who YOU need.. it is me who loves YOU the best.. all you got is to trust me in this.. YOU do not know how long of a flight I had to fly.. the years of coming.. Now.. I am here.. please.. just give me Your Hand.. and I will show YOU HOW MUCH I love YOU.. as long as YOU can trust me and understand.. when YOU give me Your Hand.. once I hold the grip of your Hand.. I will never let Your Hand to go because I love YOU.. and as I turn to walk into the House and I come over to sit on the Chair.. I looked UP.. wiping my Tears.. I see YOU.. I see you sitting there on the Chair.. Holding the Huge Bear.. with red ribbon.. smiling.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. One minute YOU are gone.. Next minute I see YOU.. then YOU are gone.. I cry and Now.. I see you again.. as I sat there.. Putting down the Camera.. I see YOU.. I smile.. even though YOU are NOT THERE.. YOU Live in My Heart.. even though YOU may be so Far.. I see the Chair empty.. but also.. I can close my both eyes.. when I open and LOOK.. I see you sitting on that Chair.. it is because I love YOU.. NO matter How far YOU are.. IN MY HEART.. I know YOU live in.. all I do is say.. I see YOU.. I love YOU.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. it is Your Chair.. the chair YOU sat down when we would eat together.. I did not know why YOU left.. I am so sorry for letting YOU down.. but I saw YOU angry at Me.. I know that I am Not perfect.. I make a lot of Mistakes.. of course I do because I am also imperfect Human Being.. But there are times I know I just can't say the right Words to YOU.. making YOU angry and frustrated with situations I am not use to with.. When YOU get mad.. or Angry.. I see the Great storms coming.. it hits my Heart like a Hurricane.. and it blows me to the Floor.. But.. I want the best for Us.. I want us to win in this Life.. YOU know How hard and tough Life can be.. it is Not easy for Me.. But YOU know that NO matter the wrong words I would say to YOU.. I know I should Not say.. which It makes YOU to storm Off the room.. it is because I know that I am Not perfect.. But.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have Never stopped Loving YOU.. it only grows with Time because I know YOU are the One for Me.. and YOU are wondering.. WHY do I choose the wrong Words to say and tell YOU.. because also I go through a lot myself.. I deal with such Hardship.. sometimes It is Not easy to say when I feel unappreciated.. I get hurt Too.. I feel Hurt inside as much as YOU do.. and Yes.. I do regret when YOU walk off the room.. Leaving me just standing here.. I can't explain it sometimes but.. I know that deep inside my Heart.. I do truly love YOU.. I am so sorry for Hurting YOU.. I am so sorry that YOU got Up and left because I could Not say the right words but has chosen to say the wrong words to Hurt YOU.. Now.. I am here all alone.. I been looking at the Clock.. only thing I see is the Clock ticking.. and I am just waiting for YOU to come back Home.. Now I feel so Lost.. I feel so Hurt.. I feel like I know I have wronged YOU but it is because I wanted to say I love YOU.. YOU are wondering.. If I love YOU.. why choose words to say what Hurts YOU the most right.. WHY choose those makes YOU angry and bring frustrations right.. It is because I know I can't make it right.. because I know it is my fault.. I am the One who made the mistake.. so sometimes I would try to say something so that YOU would not respond in a defense.. I know that when YOU fire back.. it hurts Me.. It makes me want to cry but In front of YOU.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. I have already shown YOU enough tears but wants to show YOU smile.. bring a smile to your face.. that is why.. I am waiting for YOU.. I even left a message.. I am not sure if YOU got the Message because I am thinking.. right Now is Not the time.. YOU are truly angry at me.. but.. why did YOU leave without saying a Word to me.. when are YOU coming back.. How far are YOU going.. Are you going to be leaving Me behind.. Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. did YOU go out for some fresh of air.. I am over here.. only wondering where YOU are.. wondering if YOU went Out for a walk.. so Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. I am sitting on the chair on the Other side.. the Chair I been sitting when we would eat together.. But.. it seems like it has been awhile.. I would turn a side to look at the Clock.. the Time has been dragging.. sitting here and just waiting.. the Time seems like it is going by so Slow.. and looking across.. I see the Chair.. Your Chair which YOU sat down.. when I watch YOU in the kitchen.. I see YOU smile when YOU are making a meal.. but.. YOU would also call out to me.. asking if I can be by your side to help YOU in cooking.. I don't like to cook at all.. but.. I know that I love YOU.. I would join in just to be by Your side and to help you to finish.. I would be washing the dishes when we would finish eating.. putting the dishes and cups.. utensils back to its place.. wiping the table to make it clean.. wiping down the counter top when It is wet.. I do love the washing part because I am able to do something that I know I can be a part to help YOU.. but On this very night.. I saw YOU packing UP a Bag.. and I saw YOU out the front door.. YOU did not say a word to me.. Not even said Good Bye or Good Night.. I was shocked.. because
I never thought YOU had this in your Mind and Heart.. I think it was a build up on your Part.. and Now.. YOU are gone.. I am looking across.. only thing I see is the Chair.. the Chair is empty.. I don't see YOU across this table.. I am thinking.. is this a Dream.. or is this really happening to me.. WHY is it has to end this way.. why tell me that YOU love me and Now.. YOU are Gone with the Wind.. I can't help myself but my eyes are looking at this Chair.. Your chair YOU sat.. I would watch YOU smile as you would eat.. we would talk about the day.. the day YOU would spend time at work.. about Your co workers.. But Now.. I only see the Empty Chair.. and it feels so different because of YOU are Not sitting in it.. I cannot go to that kitchen.. because ALL I see is You.. How you love to make food.. brings such a true joy and blessings in my stomach.. every food YOU make.. it tastes so good and really touches my soul.. and I just cannot forget when YOU tell me.. How do I like it or Not.. I would say.. I love it because.. I know that I am eating from Your hands.. your hands which would be busy making.. Your Heart which YOU put in so much.. of how tasty you wanted to make.. my hand would touch my chest knowing that YOU have touched my Heart.. and I would be smiling as I watch YOU sit on that Chair.. I would look at Your eyes and would say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. delicate flower.. The Most beautiful delicate flower I ever saw.. So beautiful.. Not because of the food.. because It is only being YOU.. Now.. all I see is YOU.. but I don't see YOU anywhere Now.. I have been sitting on this Chair.. on this same spot for few hours.. but I here nothing from YOU.. I would send a Message.. There is No word Back.. I would also call YOU on the Phone.. YOU would not pick Up on the Other side.. just leaving me wondering.. is it that Bad what I have said to YOU.. is it because YOU never loved me from the first Place.. I know you left few times.. But.. YOU would tell me YOU are going out for a walk and needed some fresh of air.. YOU needed your Own time and space and wanted to spend alone.. of course I would agree with YOU and let you have Your Time and space.. to think about what I have done.. but this Time.. it feels so different.. YOU would send Word and would reply back.. and also you would answer the call and Let me speak and YOU would speak back.. I would say I am so Sorry.. I would lead out my apology.. Now.. I feel like this has to be something I really done something bad.. because NO words.. No replies.. So Please.. give me YOUR HEART.. Let me love YOU.. help me to Love YOU.. I need YOUR HEART.. because I love YOU.. I just can't wait until YOU come Home.. I am wondering why are YOU not coming Home.. it has been days.. as I am wondering.. I just can't believe you are gone.. Please tell me.. are you ever going to come Home.. because I can't sleep.. as I would walk into the Room.. I look at the open door.. your picture.. it the back pocket of my jeans.. I would reach to take the picture Out.. and Looking into the Picture.. I start to cry.. as I looking on the floor.. I see my tears falling and hitting the Floor.. if this was going to happen to Me.. WHY would I cause this kind of problem in the first Place.. why did I said the words I should Not say.. if It is going to hurt me this Much.. and I feel like dying.. even maybe drowning inside.. I can't even apologize to YOU because YOU would not even answer ANY of the calls.. I have been calling YOU on your Phone but YOU never pick UP.. I don't hear your voice on the Other side.. only to leave the message.. and even I did say something on the Message.. Now days goes By.. I still can't believe YOU are Not coming Home.. when will you return my call.. if I would call you on your Phone.. would you please pick UP on the Other side.. so that I know that YOU are doing alright at least.. tell me something so that I can move On.. am I suppose to move on without YOU.. but what If I refuse to let Go.. what if I just can't let YOU go.. I did not ask YOU to be Mine if forever was Not on my mind in the first place.. there is a reason why I told YOU I love YOU.. I just did not tell you that for YOU to feel good at all.. I meant it from the Bottom of my Heart.. I told you I love YOU because it meant that I want to say it to you for the rest of My Life.. did you not accept when I told you that the first time.. I told you those words because I knew that IN my Heart.. you were the one for Me.. that I meant I was asking YOU.. will you die with me.. will you grow old together with Me.. can I die in your arms if this means It can really means to come true.. I just did not make it up so that YOU can smile.. why would I want to see YOU smile when I meant it true from my Heart.. I wanted to tell you the three words so that I wanted to hear.. YOU are going to accept me.. through the good times.. through the bad times.. even hard and difficult times.. even at the lowest points and rock bottom of any given day.. of course I don't want to take you to those darker days.. I don't like to see YOU cry.. I hate it when YOU are sad and Heart broken.. But not all the days are going to be sun shine and rain bow like in the sky.. you will see cloudy days.. even rains will pour down Hard.. and yes.. I would walk in the rain and I will cry while I am walking through the rain when I am hurting.. when I am dealing with What makes me love YOU from the first place.. I would not tell you these words.. I just can't say it without knowing the meanings of these words I am telling YOU.. But.. I told you the three words because I meant it for Life.. until death to us.. until it all ends.. but I can see that YOU don't want to pick up the Phone.. why are you hurting me.. why do I feel so much pain and sorrow.. I keep on missing YOU.. and I feel like dying right now.. my Heart feels like bleeding indeed.. WHY don't you pick up the Phone.. or why don't you ever call me.. tell me something so that I can say I am so sorry.. But if YOU can't tell me words.. what am I suppose to do right now.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. DO you know that I am facing the Rain.. I can hear my Heart be crying.. because I am so sad.. I feel so gloomy right Now because I can't even hear YOUR voice.. I know I called you several times.. but the same response.. only going to the voice box to leave the message.. I have left YOU my voice message.. if I left it few more times.. would YOU not want to hear me what I has to say.. if YOU can only hear the Voice messages I left behind.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. I am deeply hurt.. wounded in my Heart too.. but YOU just can't forgive me.. YOU told me before that YOU could.. YOU told me that YOU loved me enough that YOU can forgive me.. then.. are you telling me that YOU have never loved me in the first place.. why did you say that YOU love Me.. do you know how that felt when I heard those words Out of your mouth.. you told me that YOU love me and WILL never stop loving me.. But look at right now.. do you still feel the same way or did YOUR heart changed.. How can I get Your Heart back.. I want YOU to love me.. if YOUR heart has changed on me.. then please tell me.. HOW do I get Your Heart back to love me again.. then if YOU can give me the answer.. would you answer the call.. I will call you again to see if YOU would answer YOUR Phone.. as I would look into the room and I step in.. I have the Phone and I would dial YOUR number and I would stand in the dark Room.. hearing it ring few times.. But I stand alone not able to hear your Voice.. I would walk with my Head looking down.. and I stop by the Bed.. I look.. there is the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. sitting on the TOP of the Bed.. leaning on the wall.. I am looking at Your Picture.. I want to see YOU again.. but.. if I can't hear Your voice and YOU don't answer your Phone.. How am I suppose to tell YOU my Heart.. so that YOU can come Back.. and I am looking at the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. and I start to cry More looking at this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I gave YOU this Bear.. but WHY is it here with me.. why didn't YOU take this GIANT TEDDY BEAR with YOU.. what am I suppose to do when this Belongs to YOU.. and I would sit on the Top of the Bed.. I would sit next and I would grab this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. my arms wrap around It.. I am holding it around my arms.. only thing is NOW.. I am wishing that if it was YOU.. but YOU are Not here.. so How can I hold you close.. as I am holding this Giant Teddy Bear.. my arms tights.. and I squeeze it.. as I am crying.. my tears just won't stop.. and I can see that I am getting this Giant TEDDY BEAR to be wet on top of the Head.. I just can't let YOU GO.. I just can't say good bye.. why did YOU have to leave and make me feel so Cold.. I wanted to be with YOU for the rest of my Life.. Now YOU are gone.. leaving me with Nothing but memories.. and My Heart keeps breaking because I only think of YOU.. I only see YOU.. as I am looking across.. I see the CHAIR..
Now that Chair across in the ROOM.. I would see YOU sitting ON it.. WHY.. I only see YOU everywhere.. even though YOU are not here with me.. why do I keep on seeing YOU here.. It must be my mind must be missing YOU.. It must be My Heart be missing YOU.. as My arms wraps around the Center of this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. and my Arms squeezes it.. I would close both of my eyes.. thinking when YOU came into this ROOM.. I would watch YOU walk into the room.. the Chair across the bed.. in the room.. I would be sitting on top of this Bed.. and I see YOU smile walking in and YOU sat on the Chair.. as YOU would look at me asking me WHY to sit.. I tell YOU to close both Eyes.. behind me is the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I did not want to show YOU but to surprise YOU and YOU sat there.. with a Big Smile and I see your two eyes close.. and I would move forward.. reaching back to grab the Giant Teddy Bear and pulling it forward.. I also have the camera with Me.. just to show YOU I wanted to take a Picture.. this picture that I am looking too.. I just can't stop.. it hurts so Much that YOU are not here.. I can't believe you are gone.. look what YOU are putting me through.. I am hurting so much right now because I am only thinking of it.. but unable to be with YOU right Now.. look what YOU have done to Me.. I am so Hurt.. I wish that YOU can be hurt.. maybe more Hurt then me because I love YOU.. YOU are now wondering.. why do I want to see YOU hurt if I truly Love you.. because YOU will think of me More if YOU do.. so that YOU can answer the call.. YOU can answer the Phone when I call YOU.. It sucks to be me when I call YOU but YOU never answer Back.. it hurts that I wish YOU be Hurt.. Please be hurt so that YOU can answer the Phone.. I want to say something.. I needs to hear so that I can say something to you.. as I would Have the GIANT TEDDY BEAR in front of me.. has a Pink RIBBON on the neck.. to show YOU that it is a SHE.. and I ask YOU.. Please Open Your eyes for me.. and I would look across.. the CHAIR you are sitting.. and I see both eyes Opens.. my both Hands.. my arms are holding the Center of this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I see YOU smile.. and I tell YOU.. this is Your Bear.. I have bought this Bear for YOU.. so soft fuzzy and tender.. if I give YOU this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. would you hold it like this.. I want to show YOU another Thing.. Please.. so that I can have something more closer to me.. if YOU are to go far.. I know that I can feel you so Near.. as I would open my arms.. and My hands reach to give YOU this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I see YOU stand UP and walk over.. I watch YOU grab and Hold.. as YOU go back to the CHAIR.. YOU sit on that chair.. and I see Your Hands.. I see Your Arms.. wrapping around the CENTER of the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. My Heart.. I can feel my Heart just beats so Fast.. I wish that I can trade places.. If the Giant Teddy Bear sits on TOP of the Bed and I be the One to be in Your Arms.. the way YOU are holding.. your Arms are holding.. wrapped around the Teddy Bear.. takes my Breathe away.. Can I hold YOU.. would you let me Hold YOU.. the way YOU are holding that GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I showed YOU.. the way I wanted to be held by YOU.. and I can feel my Heart.. it keeps on beating so Fast because I want to come Close.. Can I get close to YOU.. so that I can be in your Arms.. be wrapped in your Arms.. I would watch YOU as I am sitting on the top of this Bed.. I am leaning on the WALL.. as my hand grabs the Camera.. and I wanted to take a picture of YOU.. so that I know I can always look at Your Picture.. even though YOU are sitting on that Chair.. I am always wanting to be with YOU.. to be close to YOU.. to be near YOU.. I put the Camera UP.. and my eye looks Into the Lens.. and I tell YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I would zoom in to get a closer view.. DO YOU know that YOU are so Beautiful.. Holding that GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. the way YOU are holding it so Close.. Your Arms around It.. and I see YOU smile.. But WHY.. but WHY do you hurt me Now.. I just can't believe that YOU are doing this to Me.. WHY are you hurting me.. as I turn to LOOK at the window.. I see Light rain.. it is hitting against the window of the room.. I just feel so SICK right Now.. I am missing YOU.. I need YOU.. why did YOU have to leave me like this.. I am here all alone.. sitting on top of this Bed.. and as My eyes looking through the Lens.. Across.. I see the Empty Chair.. My Other arm.. wrapped around the Giant Teddy Bear.. the Other.. my hand holding the Camera.. I am looking through the Lens.. my tears.. it starts to fall again.. over and over I am feeling only the Heart break.. and my tears keeps dropping.. as I am only seeing the Empty Chair.. I would say.. Where are YOU my Love.. Where are YOU.. why can't you be here with me.. why are you hurting Me.. Now my Heart is breaking so much because I am missing YOU.. Only I see is that Chair.. now the Chair looks so lonely with out you.. Now.. it is only an Empty Chair.. Please come Home.. My Love.. will you come Home.. then WHY don't you pick UP the Phone.. Please answer when I call YOU so that I know YOU are doing good.. I need YOU because I am missing YOU.. Now.. I know that I love YOU.. Now I know how much I love YOU.. so please come Home.. I am only seeing the Chair.. it is only an Empty chair.. I am standing Outside.. I just could Not stay Inside because I started to Miss YOU.. sitting on the Chair.. I am looking across and I still see the Empty Chair.. I am waiting for YOU.. looking at the two Plates.. after making Dinner for us.. I just could not stay inside any longer.. I want you Close.. I want YOU near.. I walked Out the Door.. and I am staring out.. Looking at the Moon.. I am asking myself.. Where are YOU.. WHY don't you want to Come home.. is it because what I said to YOU.. but YOU know that sometimes I would say things I should not say.. but also YOU would tell me things that WOULD hurt me as well.. I am waiting for YOU.. Please Come HOME.. I think the Food on the Plate is getting cold.. I have waited and waited.. Looking at the watch.. Looking at the clock.. I see that YOU are Not here yet.. It is pretty cold Outside.. pretty Chilly this very day and I am still waiting for YOU.. WHY don't you want to come Home.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. Please Come Home.. as I am standing there.. I have your picture in my hand.. and I take a LOOK at your Picture.. What have I done.. WHAT did I say those words to YOU.. I am so sorry.. Please forgive me.. because I am Now sorry for the Words I say to YOU.. DID NOT mean to say it in a way to cause YOU to cry.. I know that the damage is already Done but.. I am hurt too.. YOU know that I am not feeling right.. so Please.. Pretty Please come Home to me.. and tell me.. tell me that YOU are coming Home.. as I stand here IN the Night.. it is getting colder outside.. can feel the blowing of the Wind.. as I stand there.. I look UP to the Moon.. and I just can't take this Pain any more.. I can't take this ache in my Heart.. because I am missing YOU.. YOU know that I have not seen you all day.. did not even see YOU last Night or before that Night.. it has been few days that it went By.. and Yes.. I called YOU on the Phone.. but I see that YOU just don't want to talk to me.. I can hear the ringing on the other side.. but.. I only can leave a Voice message.. I am wondering now.. DID YOU get my Message.. I told YOU on the Phone.. left YOU a Message that I am so Sorry.. that I am not going to do that again.. and Now.. days passes by.. still No answer.. YOU have Not left me any messages.. I am wondering about YOU.. I am missing YOU.. and it drives me crazy because I am not sure what is going through Your Mind and heart.. Please tell me.. so that I don't have to worry about YOU.. I am Looking UP at the Moon.. Can you Hear me.. even though I called Your Phone.. even today this Morning I left a message on Your Phone.. did YOU get the message.. did YOU hear my Voice on the other side.. and yes.. every Night.. for the past few days.. I would clean UP the food ON your Plate and make a New Dinner.. Just in case YOU show up this Very day.. Do you know what Hurts me the Most.. that I would have to get UP from the Chair.. and I have to look across and I see Your Chair.. that chair has been empty for few days Now.. I would sit by myself.. I ache in my Heart as I am eating alone.. just for one meal.. I wanted to take my time to share with YOU.. and I would be looking across.. as Your Picture is laying next to the Plate.. I would take a Look at the Picture of YOU and I would touch my Chest.. telling Your Picture.. while looking.. I would stop eating and say TO your Picture.. How sorry I am and that I love YOU.. you would Not answer me and it hurts because I am missing YOU not wondering what YOU are doing.. I be eating.. Looking across..
Looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. how YOU sat down and we would look at each other.. smile and eat.. just for that One night.. for that Dinner.. I would cook so that YOU know this is what I can give YOU to tell YOU.. I may not be able to give YOU much.. but.. I want to give YOU something from my Heart.. it is a meal for two of us.. But Now.. I sit there alone.. and I hear nothing.. so quiet.. and just silence in that ROOM.. I would get UP after I finish eating alone.. my Plate would be done.. as I walk across.. I would grab Your Plate.. still has Food on the table.. and I would go into the kitchen.. and it goes into the trash.. I would stand and I would wash the Plates and put back into the cabinet.. as I turn around.. I would look at Your Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. and Now I am just missing Your presence.. and I would ask looking at Your Empty Chair.. where are YOU.. DO you know that I am missing YOU.. I just can't believe YOU are gone and has not come home yet.. what If YOU never come Home.. what is going to happen to this Chair.. I don't want this Chair to sit here because of Knowing the memories of YOU.. I just can't take it any more.. I just can't see this Chair.. I can't because I am hurting too.. aching and wishing that YOU can come back.. WHY do you have to leave and Not tell me where YOU are going to go.. Look at me now.. I just feel like I want to break my Heart.. I need YOU because I love YOU.. Please.. Come home and tell me.. Come Home so at least you can hear me tell YOU that I was wrong.. that It was me.. my fault and that I am so sorry for the pain which I caused.. if you can only return and let me know I still have this chance to love YOU.. but.. Are you coming Home.. I would stop.. I would still be looking at the Moon.. just staring.. my tears are filled in my eyes.. why did I let it go so far that Now.. YOU just don't want to come Home.. was it that bad of words I said to YOU.. I mean.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. is Not these words Not enough to say to You.. am I this bad of a person that Now you just don't want to see me anymore.. what can I do to change your mind.. Please tell me.. what must I do so that YOU know that I am so sorry and that you will receive these words.. how can Your Heart change for me.. Please tell me so that I can change too.. so that I can love YOU once again.. but.. if you stay away and Not come Home.. How can I tell you anything.. if you want to be far from me.. YOU know I will not get the chance to apologize of the words and actions I cause to Hurt you.. tell me so that I can be a better man.. a Better person.. as I would look at the Moon.. a hour goes By and I know that it is time for me to Go inside.. so I turn to go back inside.. and I stop.. I am not sure what it is but I would turn around to Look.. I am not sure who it is but I am hearing foot steps walking.. and I can see someone walking and the figure is getting Bigger and Bigger.. Is it YOU.. and I see the figure stops.. and I look.. is it really YOU.. did YOU made up your Mind to return.. to come back Home to me.. and I am still looking.. and I see the figure starts to walk again.. and as I am standing there.. I know it has to be YOU.. I know that it is YOU for sure.. and this Time.. YOUR Plate is still on the Table with Your Food.. I have not toss it in the trash.. but decided to wait and as I see YOU approach.. I see YOU come closer.. my tears fills my eyes once again.. and I point my finger to the MOON..I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. and I just can't take my eyes off.. just wondering when are YOU coming Home.. I been calling you on the Phone.. Do you not here the Phone ringing.. I know that the number is correct because I can hear YOUR voice.. I can here you saying to leave the voice on the message.. I been wondering.. why aren't you picking up the Phone.. you know that this is killing me when YOU do this.. I been thinking a lot lately.. and I even left you a voice message.. telling YOU that I am so sorry.. how many times Must I tell YOU that what I did was wrong.. and I told you that I am so sorry.. will you please give me another chance.. I know that I can do better this time.. of course YOU heard me telling YOU this before.. so what do you want me to do.. So do you want me to stop calling YOU.. I know that I am the one who did fault.. and I even plead and even begged YOU.. I left you a Message on the Phone.. I am still calling you.. because we needs to talk.. YOU needs to tell me something so that I know what Not to do.. so please Pick up the Phone.. as I am dialing Your number.. I am putting my Phone on the ear.. I hear the ringing going through.. as I am standing on the living room.. I walk to the diner room.. standing there.. I see Your Empty chair.. I just can't believe YOU are doing this to Me.. why are YOU hurting me.. I know that it is me who shouted at YOU.. and I was angry.. but.. does it means YOU have to hate me like this.. DO you really Hate Me.. YOU told me that you will Never hate me.. then why are YOU not answering the Phone.. it is getting late.. few days.. Now weeks went by.. I am still here waiting for YOU.. just wondering How you are doing.. Please.. Baby.. Please answer the Phone.. tell me something so that I know.. I can let go.. I can let go of this frustration that is in me.. I know.. I told you already.. I am so sorry.. as I am looking at the empty Chair.. I have set another Plate.. it is by Your Chair.. I would place a cup of water.. with utensils.. with napkin on the side.. I made YOU a steak.. green beans and mash potatoes.. next to the cup of water is another cup of wine.. I have set it.. maybe YOU will come tonight.. Maybe you will stop by later tonight.. but.. just in case you are hungry.. I have placed Your Plate.. Your food on the table by the Chair.. Your Empty Chair.. as I would walk to the front door and I open.. looking outside.. I would walk out with a jacket.. it is pretty cold and I can see the Moon.. as I am walking.. and I stop.. I see the light rain falling from the sky.. I am wondering are you close by.. Can you see the rain.. I know that I am getting hit by the rain.. it does not matter now because I am sick.. My Heart is sick because I am missing YOU.. its been weeks.. and each night.. I would be waiting by the empty Chair.. I would be in the kitchen cooking a meal.. each time I would eat dinner.. I am always looking for YOU.. I would be thinking of YOU.. as I would be sitting down on my side.. I would get back UP.. going back into the kitchen.. I know that I have to bring out another Plate.. I know that you may not come tonight.. maybe Not.. but still.. I am thinking what if YOU would show UP.. what if YOU come.. I would always make a meal for two.. Just in case YOU may show UP later deep in the night.. when I am asleep.. who knows when and I would put Your Plate.. Your dinner on the top of the table.. if I sleep and I don't see you for that day.. at least YOU can come into the night.. late if you want too.. the Meal is ready for YOU.. come and eat if You are hungry.. it has been all prepared and done.. what you love the most.. your favorites I would ask.. and I would watch YOU taking the picture of each plates YOU love and would remind me this is what you like and dislike.. and I would put the picture of the plates YOU love.. in my room.. and from time to time I would take a look at it.. and I would make those meals just for you.. as I am outside in the cold.. with my jacket on.. I am getting wet.. light rain hitting me.. and I would stop.. My Heart hurts Now.. I would go into my room.. and day to day.. I would pull out the picture of the Plate.. each Night I would be in the kitchen.. cooking each of the Meals YOU love.. every night comes.. One Plate.. the Next Night Another Plate YOU love.. your favorite dishes.. and I would sit on my Chair.. waiting for YOU to come Home.. as I would wait.. it becomes late.. and yes.. I would feel so sleepy.. getting UP out of the Chair.. I am looking at the Plate.. and Looking at the Empty Chair.. I can feel my Heart crying inside.. as I would wait for YOU and YOU do not show UP.. I would turn the Other way and walk into the room.. closing the Door behind.. and I lay on the bed.. and I start to cry.. crying a lot because I would miss YOU.. calling YOU on the Phone.. I would sit still just to hear Your Voice.. I would hear the Phone be ringing.. asking myself.. why is it this Hard to love YOU.. why are you making it so Hard for me to get closer.. am I that evil person.. why Hurt me.. I feel only tears in my eyes.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. I told YOU that I missed YOU and that I love YOU.. but why don't you pick up the Phone.. why don't you even show UP to the House.. YOU don't miss me at all.. YOU know that I miss YOU.. I call you every day.. I only want to listen to Your Voice.. I want to hear YOU.. but only at the end to leave the Message YOU tell me too.. it breaks my Heart when YOU do this to Me.. it breaks my heart when YOU stop caring about me.. it breaks my Heart when YOU don't answer.. I even would leave in the Night.. I have prepared YOU a Meal.. a Dinner I made to eat.. I have already eaten.. If you don't want to see me.. I am Not going to force YOU to come to see me.. But Please.. if YOU get hungry and YOU are near by.. Please stop by.. I am ready to sleep for the night.. so Please come tonight.. by the time you get this message.. when YOU come.. I am sure I am already at bed by then.. if YOU ever feel
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