It took me 33 minutes to realize that one earring was a doll head and the other was a disco ball! That’s the most Kelly-Ann Maddox thing I’ve ever seen, I love it 😂
honestly giving up the ghost and deciding to put everything (and I mean EVERYTHING) in one journal has been so freeing and feels so authentic for me. For so long I've tried to segment everything into separate journals, but I've ended up more anxious about maintaining so many journals. Now I just have my journal and my planner, that's it, and I've felt so much more creatively open since I decided to do so.
I've just realised I've started to journal without realising it. My writing is very untidy and I find it quite stressful to write in a book. However recently I felt really let down by a friend but I didn't want to damage the friendship by confronting them. So I started writing how I felt using a file on my Evernote app. Every bit of anger and upset I felt. I am so glad I did as it soon became apparent that a lot of what I felt was unfounded and I have been able to get over my hurt quickly and without taking it out on the other person and damaging the friendship. I felt really proud of myself afterwards.
I haven't picked up journaling in a while. An experience happened to me where an ex read through my journal that detailed a previous relationship before said relationship with my ex. It detailed my thoughts on being a first-time mom, my mental struggles after the father and I split, what I was feeling when my first son passed away months later. And my ex was really unhinged about it. He tore it up, and did unspeakable things to me after the fact. The worst part was he couldn't handle that I had a life before him, and was probably very insecure about it. 2015 to 2018 was a very difficult point in my life for that reason. Not to mention I had two children while in that destructive relationship, and I wish my ex wasn't the father. If that were the case, I feel like my life would be much better. There's a lot of conflicting feelings, and things I still have to work through. Wonderful video, Kelly! 💜
Your comment moved me in a very personal way. Stay strong! I am a survivor of child abuse and I only journalled twice, when I was about 12 and then 13. My abusive mom found and read it both times (she went through all my things regularly). First time it was romantic girly stuff about a boy I liked and she constantly humiliated me for weeks afterwards by quoting it in a funny voice, mocking me and denigrating what I wrote. I burned the journal and haven't journalled for a year. Then I tried again and I thought I have hidden it perfectly, but of course she found it the next day and all hell broke loose. I wrote about overhearing my best friend spreading around some very unsavoury gossip about me, and I wrote about how astonished, hurt and betrayed I felt. My mother used it to blame me, she kept telling me that something was very obviously wrong with me, that everyone hated me, that I had no friends etc. None of that was true, but decades later I still feel the same shame, guilt and horror as I did when I listened to her as a young girl. She relished telling me, over and over again, how "I should ask myself what kind of evil person I must be since no one loves me," and that gleam of joy as she enjoyed my agony made me never even think of writing a single line about anything private again. Lately, I have been thinking about journaling for shadow work, but it'll take lot of work to overcome years of abuse and the emotional wounds they left behind, because just thinking about journaling still triggers flashbacks...
I’m definitely #3. I was an avid journaler until my mom read it. I know use an iPad that locks and I use notability that has a password protected journal 😂 I have actually grown to love using my iPad for journaling because I can add photos etc. I take a picture of all my tarot readings and write about my interpretations etc.
I have a separate journal totally for negative shadow type work. That journal is in a composition notebook that I burn at the end of each year; it’s totally cathartic for me. That said, I have a few others that are positive journals that I keep for rereading. My favorite one is more of a commonplace book that I fill with things that I research for fun, curiosities, etc.
I am such a nerd for journal-talk! This video gave me so much inspiration for my own journaling practice and I loved hearing about your process, Kelly-Ann. I've been journaling since my twelfth birthday and it's been the making of me to record my life in various forms through the years. I don't know who I would be without the personal, private creative space to really examine all the facets of myself and record the process of becoming myself.
Oh my god, journal thickness. In January I used one of those 800 pages journals, and the thickness was killing me, because my wrist didnt have a proper support while writing. I still filled it, but it wasn't a nice experience. 200-300 pages is perfect, I think.
I have had mine read and from that moment on I made sure no one can get access to them. Even though I have a great so who wouldn't do that I still keep them locked up in a chest that I got from my family. I am the only one with a key.
I appreciate advice on not writing in a beautiful journal. I got used to spiral bound notebooks because you can easily remove pages out of them. And I usually do not do that, but it helps so much to know I can always rip the page (without destroying the book).
💜... & album wise, when you mentioned Pablo Honey, I remembered that my journal moments go lemon Moon minty with Elsiane's Mechanics of Emotion... seems to be so because it's the only music that enables me to relax enough to fall asleep next to someone I am breathtakingly deeply in love with...
I love this video so much. I have no real technique as I’m still trying to get into the habit since my journals were read by my mom in my teens, and during my marriage, my ex husband would constantly ask me what I was writing and what about, what was I writing about him, etc. i couldn’t trust he wasn’t reading them too so I didn’t journal for quite a while, even when I started my witchy/shadow work practice in 2017. It tore me up inside and now I write almost every day, even about random shit that doesn’t matter because I know nobody will bother me, ask me what I’m writing, or read it.
I have been keeping a Journal since I was 13, now I am 37. And I do it in a very decorative way, because I find decorating with stickers, quotes, images and washi tape relaxing, kinda like crafting. I do share my journals on my channel, and this big journal community here and on instagram is very fun and inspiring. My main reason however is to keep memories, as I am quite forgetful. I wouldn't know what I have done a year ago around that time if it wasn't for my journals. ... I am still sometimes re-watching your old journal collection video, where you show those big books, I find that very inspiring :D Peace out, Blessed Samhain & Happy Halloween! 🎃
Really enjoying this discussion. I've journalled in different ways over the years. I'm bipolar and even when I'm high energy I tend to have a lot of negative and distressing thoughts. So I try to focus on the good things. The things that make me smile. Usually little things. Like my eco friendly toothbrush. Then when I am very down and feel like there is no good in the world. No reason to live. I read over my journal and it makes a difference. It's a momentary relief. My sister on the other hand who is a nurse and literally saves lives every day. Has a journal to rage in. Sometimes there are things that are so awful. Situations that are so absurdly ridiculous. And of course most people would not be able to relate. She rages in her journal. And it's one of the tools that allows her to do what she needs to in the minute where she is helping someone. So different things work for different people. Good luck there is no wrong way. 😊❤
So helpful to hear about other people's experiences with feeling like they can't write anything down. This was a huge issue for me for a long time, and I'm just coming up on about ten years now of breaking through that block, I don't think it's spoken about enough in journaling spaces.
I have been part of the journaling community here and on instagram for the past 8 years, and I have come accross many people who struggle with writing. A lot of people love to decorate their pages with stickers and washi tape, but when it comes to the actual writing, there seems to be a blockage of some sort. You are not alone with this issue. Some of my friends feel pressured by the thought of "writing something worthy and important" so it would be beneficial to the psyche or whatever, and I dropped that concept completeley. I just tell stories about my life. About my days. About people I know, and about my hobbys. It is important to me to see who I was ten years ago, even if the pages are just filled with pictures and cringe writings about some random cute dude from the internet. A lot of people like to watch journal videos and flip throughs for inspiration. Maybe you could try that. I wish you best of luck with finding your flow :D
Brilliant video, love the magazine cutouts for prompts, very cool. Currently have 4 journals going: 1. Divine Feminine ~ Oracle card readings, specifically channeled for unconditional love & guidance in order to reread to myself when I'm down (basically to be my own mother & friend *in advance* when the negative self talk is strong. Also been a great replacement for lack of good friends irl, as well as having no contact with mother.) 2. Astrology ~ tarot spreads, to document then in future compare the readings with the astro chart (to learn, predictions similar to card a day reflection) 3. The dumping journal. 4. Daily: Moon phases, list of 2 daily gratitudes, 2 "easy to check off & feel productive" daily goals, (morning entry) 1 good thing about the day. (evening entry) (This is separate, but kept with my planner, for extra and more dedicated space.) #4 is a goal in and of itself. The other 3 have been achieved organically & amazing!!!!
This really helped me reframe how I think about journaling and make it back into something I want to do and not an obligation that I feel has to be done perfectly. I'm excited to get journaling again!
I am working on the shadow work stuff from the rebel witch. I jumped in a little too much so I used ur advice and step back for a few days. I just kept writing more things though
Hi Kelly,I love journaling but I love colour and washi, cut outs from mags,etc so it's a real mishmash of ranting, drawings, brief notes of the world and local news, etc. I do like a nice journal with good paper and unlined as I write in fountain pen in different coloured inks and I scribble when I need and write neatly as well, depending on mood. Have a photos of my recently departed mum, my daughter's elderly horse and all the Otter pictures I can find!. Found a newspaper heading on Tropical Cyclone Julia. At last! One named for me! That's definitely being kept. Anyway, Aroha (love) from New Zealand. I'm really looking forward to receiving my copy of Rebel Witch and saving for your next one.
Elderly horses, tropical cyclones and otters, ohhhh, my Goddess, you might be my soulmate! 🥰🌹 Thanks so much for sharing this, I really needed a reason to smile tonight... Blessed be!
Back for a re-watch. Thank you 🖤 I especially appreciate the discussion of how it can impact you if someone's read your journals in the past. That's what keeps me from writing most of the time 😕
I finally made the decision to not care about my handwriting or wording while journalling. I used to feel that I had to write beautifully both visually and descriptively... Which meant I was sitting around for hours trying to make my experience at the ice cream store into a gosh dang masterpiece 😹. What a waste! I'm the type who journals only for prosperity's sake. I noticed that I was as forgetting all of the events I participated in. I don't need everything to be super detailed, I just need some keywords to remind me of what happened. Though I do get pretty detailed occasionally. But only when I feel like it's necessary. Plus I'm the type of person who will journal faithfully for about a week or two and then drop off for 2 months. Well it's just too much of a burden to try to catch up on two months of stuff. Which makes lists so important in my journalling
I have multiple journals on the go at any given time. I am in the camp of keeping my journals, but I struggle with uneasy emotions around going back and re-reading the older ones. I realize there are lots of self-awareness gems in doing that but I haven't worked through my blocks related to this yet. I keep them for if and when that time comes. Knowing that I would like to work towards re-reading helps me be more honest with myself in writing in the moment. It didn't occur to me to consider doing that till I heard you mention in an older video some time ago. I did have a caregiver read my journals when I was a small child and yes that was quite damaging.
it is so interesting how specific we get with our needs for a certain type of journal. I started out in lined hardbound green cloth covered books my dad brought home from work that were intended as lab notebooks. I have some various softbound and hardbound ones of different sizes and decor from my early 20s but now it must be an unlined sketchbook, 8 1/2 x 11, hardbound, usually black. they typically last me a few months because I do go on, and I also put all my dreams in them and journal all my tarot readings in them so everything is in the same place.
I wish I watched this sooner it might of saved a friendship. I forgot all about my time journaling as a young teen. Sometimes things are best expressed on paper. Thanks for sharing ❤
You and I have such similar journal methods. I think my only difference is I can not have multiple journals going at once. I have one journal that covers EVERYTHING and I don’t get a new one until it’s full.
Your practice sounds very very similar to mine! Really enjoying this. It took me many years to begin journaling again after some unpleasant experiences in teen years, and I'm so glad I did! I now keep mine...roughly a volume a year. It's a delicious practice. 💖
Just a few more little things, I actually laughed out loud at the bit about using my journal to avoid exhausting my friends by going on about the same thing over and over! Yes! And I found the bit about not trying to make my journals pretty really relatable as well. I went through that a while back, and it feels connected to your comment in the 10 crappy habits video about not trying to make your art palatable. I write what I need to write and make what I need to make and I share things or keep them private as I wish, none of these personal things are done to impress others. There are no journal police, that's not a thing! And I love the glasses, I used your code and bought a couple of pairs last time you did a video with them, and I was actually just thinking the other day that I was in the market for some new glasses and wondering if your discount code still worked, so yay! I hope you get a little $ when I use your code. 💕
A lovely treat of a video! I also love journalling and I have a couple of little personal things about how I choose my books that you might enjoy hearing about. I also like a packable size and a plain cover, but I choose blank paper. No lines for me as I find changing the angles and physical patterns of how I write can actually alter how I think and give me access to things I didn't know I had in my mind. Diagonal starting from one corner, or wavy lines, or spiral around the page, whatever feels like it suits in the moment. And I need a book that will stay open flat on the table by itself so I usually choose coil bound. I often work on some kind of knitting or embroidery work as a type of meditative entry point to journalling, something about the feel of the fabric in my hands and the gentle repetitive action of stitching allows my thoughts to settle and the things I want to explore in writing will float to the surface, and I will go back and forth between the writing and the stitching with the book open on the desk. As you can imagine, it is a bit irritating to have the book flapping closed or to the wrong page all the time. My favourite type of book is an A4 artists sketch book, nice medium weight paper with a little texture to it, just pulls me right in 💕
I am starting a study of the Wild Wisdom Companion by Maia Toll and journaling is a key component of that. I have never been very good about journaling, so this was quite helpful. I am sticking with a cheap spiral notebook so I am less likely to get overwhelmed by it.
I've kept a journal on and off since I was about 10. My sister used to read it and recite passages at the dinner table. In my last relationship, my ex read my journal. I have a lot of trauma around people invading my privacy. I think that's had a huge impact on my process because I don't do it like I used to. I miss it. I like to use A6 notebooks and write 3 pages in the morning. I stopped doing that and I miss it. I also keep a bullet journal, a journal for witchcraft classes, one for tarot classes, one for tarot readings, one for tarot meanings and various art journals.
Thank you! This was super helpful! I think I need to get a new one. I got a massive journal a couple years back that still has space in it but I really don’t feel called to it anymore. I thought the idea about a journal for when it’s raining sounded sweet but I hear ya about having too many and breaking things up and not getting a full picture so I’m thinking of experimenting with different colored pens for different things. Like I’d keep it all in one journal but when it’s raining I’d write in blue instead of black, something like that. 💖
I reckon give yourself permission to abandon that giant journal - you can slice the paper out for other stuff if you like. But it's the perfect time for a fresh start. 😌
Pressure to document everything when I first started. It actually pushed me away because of the anxiety related to it. I realized the benefits from writing with the 4th step in AA and that was my version of shadow work and I feel so comfortable writing and actually enjoy it so much. I love taking notes on your videos for fun because you have so much stuff that hits me
I journalled as an adolescent for a few years, then stopped. Took it up again when i was in a dark place, about 10 years ago. Will never quit again! Soo i got over 30 volumes now... I put very concise summaries in the back every 10 or so, otherwise i get lost. Life's nuts🤣 and no, i don't write down everything, not by a long shot... Anyone's welcome to them, good luck deciphering my handwriting! My oldest journal I've still got i wrote in when i was 10, I'm so glad i still have that🤗❤️ A5, dummy books, unlined (can't stand lines), red nearly always. Ballpoint pen and crayons for highlights. Big bookmark with pretty pics glued on that's been in use for ages now... Decadent💜💜💜💜💜💜
Kelly-Ann, I loved this video and while I love all your videos as an avid journaler and occasional journal facilitator this one captured my heart. I keep a couple different journals on the go at once and since I'm a collage artist as well most of mine end up with some types of scraps in them but I do tend to keep one that is just straight writing. Aside from my annual writing notebook which is strictly poetry and essays.
This vid is right on time, Kelly-Ann! I have a different journal for a million things and they're all so important to me, yet there are times when I can't muster up the strength to journal no matter how badly I ruminate on it. And then I'll find a way to dive in which makes me journal for weeks at a time before another break. It's bizarre, but I always come back to the act of journaling. Now I'm seeking a way to make it more consistent for my mental health so I've ordered one of those "line a day" 5 yr journals to keep me from falling off the wagon totally. I'll try and report back how it goes, lol.
I love that you say it's like a friend. I've been considering attempting to start journaling as an alternative to, well, babbling at humans 😂 but also as Twitter is burning, and that's a place I've tended to dump my thoughts for the last 15 years of my life. I'm not really interested in adding on more social media, so a journal seems to make sense, but also primarily I think as a thought-processing space because I tend to do the kind of strategizing, problem solving, etc. you describe with people and it often feels a little awkward like "uh, Avory, you could just talk to a rubber duck, not send me a 45-minute Marco Polo." 😂 That said, when you described a few pages as "long" I wondered how much you're like, thinking thoughts in your head that don't go on the page, because it seems if I wrote as much as I spoke I'd have 20 pages a session! The whole "desire to record your life thing" I'm glad I also got out in my teens and twenties-I've compromised down to doing a monthly page in a kind of bullet journal style, just a journal I use for nothing but a recap of the month, and that seems to be enough to feel like I'll have a nice little record of my life over time. Less because I "need" to know that stuff, and more because as an astrologer I love studying cycles, and so it's nice to have dates (not necessarily what I ate on Wednesday, but "oh yeah, that's the month I was having tons of mood swings and health issues" or whatever.) I think I'll get some cheap notebooks so I feel a bit less precious about it and can do this kind of processing. (I have a kind of "witchy journal" that I'll use for tarot and some other ritual type stuff, but I don't use it frequently and everything in it is like This Is Meaningful.) It's not that I'll NEVER read back, but I doubt I would more than a year later-maybe read at the end of the year and if any interesting thoughts came up in the process that I want to commit to computer, I will! I do find those read-throughs of old writing really fascinating, but I don't really want to have stacks and stacks of physical items, because that was such an obstacle to me in moving across the country and I never want to feel that way again. Having a mobile scanner is super handy, though! I also really appreciate your sharing about using your journal around self-harm, psychosis, etc. It made me realize that journaling could also be a really useful tool to avoid public traumatic oversharing when I really just want to share that stuff. Even not being someone who harms, I often feel like I want to share some dark feelings and I know I'm not at risk of any kind, but in my country any honesty in that vein to a therapist, friend, etc. runs a huge list of life destruction. It's some bullshit that just keeps those feelings supressed, not helping anyone, but I can see a journal as a good alternative! Anyway, apologies for the autistic infodump 😂 but I appreciate you sharing your experiences as food for thought ❤
Great video! I’ve been journaling about 45 years. I currently go through one of those Meade composition notebooks about every six weeks. I write most days but occasionally skip a day. I like to write with dark gel pens or the Sharpie thin point ones. I also index each volume, a practice I started only in recent years.
Hi Kelly-Ann 💜 I had such a good journaling session the day after my inner child reading! It was a whopping 10 pages of awesomeness. So f***ing cathartic! It was beautiful! 💀💫💀⚡ Thank you! Much love & blessings~💋 kb
I destroyed several journals over the years because my mum violated my privacy in my late teens and early twenties, and it’s become one of my biggest regrets. Nowadays I can trust the people around me and could easily leave a journal splayed open on the coffee table and they still wouldn’t read it.
First off dis video is very informative and good 4 enticin one 2 journal, but I really want 2 point out how seamless and smooth da sponsorship ad was!!! I actually watched it thru and I always pass thru an ad any chance I get, but dis one I actually enjoyed watchin.
Thank you so much for this! I always love the idea of journaling and the few times I do it I find it rewarding but I never find the time to do it. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the idea of your journal prompt baggie! As a fellow magpie, this is totally speaking to me 😊 Did you just throw some confetti in there for funsies?
Oh yeah my sister read my journal when I was young and I was scared to have one later on so I stopped. But started again now and I have some journals on the app Day One but sometimes I miss being able to be creative in my journal. Because let’s face it : in the application there is no space for that. Writing is a lot different. I do trust my partner though, he would never read it and besides he speaks French not Dutch so no problem anyway. But still he is amazing and I love him and trust him. Still don’t trust my sister though but I don’t live with her anymore 😅 I forgot how great it is to journal. I have a tarot journal too and a tarot study journal too. Keep decks studies separate though.
Kelly-Ann, loved this video and have been an avid watcher on your channel for years. I was curious if you would be willing to share what the name of the company is for the red journal in the intro to this video? I started my bullet journaling practice years ago with a black one just like it and have been searching for another one for years to no avail. When I saw your red one I was so excited to see it again and figured I would reach out in case you are willing to share because it would be so awesome to get another one. Thank you for always being so honest in your videos. They have helped me so much over the years. Much love to you! 💜
Hi darling, let me read any company name on it when I get home. I am pretty sure I bought it from Asda in the UK, but not sure what brand it is. I LOVE it. ❤️
oh yes, I don't reread, lol. I do sometimes use it as a reference and end up rereading for that, but invariably rereading makes me cringe, whether it's 10 years ago or a few months ago. I do keep them though.
I kept journals episodically for a time in my life, and although I would absolutely never get rid of the filled stack I have accumulated, they feel like horcruxes to me. Predominantly, I would essentially dissociate into them, frantically fill twenty pages in this cathartic trance, and have no recollection of the content of those writings. The only faded memory-bits I have are from the half-conscious outskirts of that state, wherein I would try to narrate the difficult and overwhelming struggle of trying to write out the weight of all these quickly fraying, unravelling thoughts. I'm scared to read any of it because it doesn't exactly feel like 'mine'. The other cause of uneasiness for me is that I anticipate to dissolve all over again, as is the case when handling such collections sometimes, so I don't really 'learn' insights when forgetting repeats. That's not to say I abhor my journals! I deeply care about them, and I'm very fond of them, too. To me, sentimental memorabilia (even when the memories are obscured) is precious. Like a faithful hotel keeper who got the job without applying for it, I feel a certain responsibility to maintain this vault that chronicles my life . I once carried all of my journals to a therapy session and discovered that my _hands_ feel intimately familiar handling with them, playfully ready to flip through. After all, I do have the muscle memory of living in and engaging with each one. The reservation and inhibition reside in my heart and head respectively. I don't know if I will become ready or willing or able to ever really take a look, but I appreciate having the option waiting for me right there if I ever find myself with the respective intuitive knowing all of a sudden. I also burned a journal at sixteen, which I very sorrowfully regret. Unfortunately, my journaling came to a complete stop in the aftershock of a traumatic event five years ago and I have so far found it impossible to restart. It's like I don't understand how to do that anymore. I feel that my thoughts escape me and I'm at a loss for words. I have a notebook for therapy into which I scribble basic bullet points, but it's not the same. I made some attempts to pick up writing sentences again but nothing happens. It's like trust was lost or something. The best I can do is clip conversational comments like this one to my notes app. I have been thinking about printing all of what has washed up in this folder, letting this be my interim practice. I don't know how to help myself repair the original thing, but little bits of writing still happen; they've just hidden into the corners of this too bright room and don't feel safe to be writings, somehow.
Interesting that you wrote about your hands. I also regrettably burned my journal at sixteen, my first love was in there. Have you read writing down the bones, by Natalie Goldberg?
I wrote constantly in high school when life was bad and for a while I would read and reread them. In my mid twenties part of my long process healing CPTSD was throwing them all away and starting anew. Now (in my 40’s) I’m a vomit journaler. I write and make lists and think maybe I’ll read them later but I never need to, I’m on to the next thing. I have mixed feelings about never rereading, like it’s a waste of time if it’s not going to be relevant later, but I know catharsis is still useful.
I love to Journal at my pace too. I journal all my Tarot work and love to intersperse art work such as it is. I won't allow pressure to take hold of me because Why?
I was in a class once discussing the journals of Margery Kempe (just love those nuns) and one student’s criticism of her was that she was so self-focused. Where were the current events, what was going on at the time? I knew it was a silly critique because they were merely bored of her internal processes, but ever since then I’ve felt an unwelcome pressure to include current events, political happenings, like you mentioned.
I can't journal any more. my mum read my journals when i was younger at a point i was verry unstable . the repercussions of that mean I cant write journals any more. she also found my book of music and lyrics and burned it
I am so sorry that this happened to you. It is atrocious that you had your privacy violated like that, and BURNING your lyric book? 😠 That is just beyond.. Do you feel the desire to keep any kind of journal now, darling? Or has have these experiences totally put you off the idea?
I totally feel the same way! My older sister read my journals at a time when I was very vulnerable and she told my mom about it. My sister even had the audacity to tell me what I wrote in it years later. It felt like a complete violation. I now journal on my MacBook for ultimate private thoughts and use a journal to write in symbols (usually through tarot). I write in journals knowing someone might one day read it, so naturally I heavily filter myself.
@@kelly-annmaddox i only just started writing lyrics again now at 30. I have been involved with music this whole time but im only just begining to recover that skill
I love this video. Need some help!! I started journalling in my early teens, living with family, but my mother had found and read my writings ( stuffed behind pipes in a tall cupboard) She humiliated me, made fun of my innermost thoughts, told me I was a slut and weird. I am much older and have my own place, but just so afraid that people may read my words. I am unable to put pen to paper because of this. How can I overcome this fear?
I'm so sorry that happened to you - that is sooo not ok. Get a lockable journal. Get a place to lock the journal into as well, like a lockable security box. This is just to give you the feeling of safety at first.. Try writing in your journal about how the experience of privacy violation affected you and how you're now making a commitment to yourself to keep a journal as a part of your healing and release process. (If you can't manage that right now, use a password protected Google Drive doc or Word doc.)
Bury it in the garden? Do it online? I like to write, so I'm leaving mine in the care of understanding friends when I pass over, to do with as I ask :)
@@kelly-annmaddox I so appreciate your suggestions and energy. Thank you so much.X I like the idea of safety first and the energy towards healing and release. I can move towards a secure place for my writings, which will hopefully also allow freedom of my words. I love your work, your energy- you are divine!
It took me 33 minutes to realize that one earring was a doll head and the other was a disco ball! That’s the most Kelly-Ann Maddox thing I’ve ever seen, I love it 😂
🤣❤️✨️ I made them myself hehe.
honestly giving up the ghost and deciding to put everything (and I mean EVERYTHING) in one journal has been so freeing and feels so authentic for me. For so long I've tried to segment everything into separate journals, but I've ended up more anxious about maintaining so many journals. Now I just have my journal and my planner, that's it, and I've felt so much more creatively open since I decided to do so.
I was just saying the same thing!
I’m the same! It’s also fun to revisit journals when I’m looking for a specific entry. I know my favourite brownie recipe is in the maroon one!
I've just realised I've started to journal without realising it. My writing is very untidy and I find it quite stressful to write in a book. However recently I felt really let down by a friend but I didn't want to damage the friendship by confronting them. So I started writing how I felt using a file on my Evernote app. Every bit of anger and upset I felt. I am so glad I did as it soon became apparent that a lot of what I felt was unfounded and I have been able to get over my hurt quickly and without taking it out on the other person and damaging the friendship. I felt really proud of myself afterwards.
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I write in my phone notes sometimes too as my ocd just doesn’t appreciate my handwriting either 😅
I haven't picked up journaling in a while. An experience happened to me where an ex read through my journal that detailed a previous relationship before said relationship with my ex. It detailed my thoughts on being a first-time mom, my mental struggles after the father and I split, what I was feeling when my first son passed away months later.
And my ex was really unhinged about it. He tore it up, and did unspeakable things to me after the fact. The worst part was he couldn't handle that I had a life before him, and was probably very insecure about it.
2015 to 2018 was a very difficult point in my life for that reason. Not to mention I had two children while in that destructive relationship, and I wish my ex wasn't the father. If that were the case, I feel like my life would be much better.
There's a lot of conflicting feelings, and things I still have to work through.
Wonderful video, Kelly! 💜
Your comment moved me in a very personal way. Stay strong! I am a survivor of child abuse and I only journalled twice, when I was about 12 and then 13. My abusive mom found and read it both times (she went through all my things regularly). First time it was romantic girly stuff about a boy I liked and she constantly humiliated me for weeks afterwards by quoting it in a funny voice, mocking me and denigrating what I wrote. I burned the journal and haven't journalled for a year. Then I tried again and I thought I have hidden it perfectly, but of course she found it the next day and all hell broke loose. I wrote about overhearing my best friend spreading around some very unsavoury gossip about me, and I wrote about how astonished, hurt and betrayed I felt. My mother used it to blame me, she kept telling me that something was very obviously wrong with me, that everyone hated me, that I had no friends etc. None of that was true, but decades later I still feel the same shame, guilt and horror as I did when I listened to her as a young girl. She relished telling me, over and over again, how "I should ask myself what kind of evil person I must be since no one loves me," and that gleam of joy as she enjoyed my agony made me never even think of writing a single line about anything private again. Lately, I have been thinking about journaling for shadow work, but it'll take lot of work to overcome years of abuse and the emotional wounds they left behind, because just thinking about journaling still triggers flashbacks...
I’m definitely #3. I was an avid journaler until my mom read it. I know use an iPad that locks and I use notability that has a password protected journal 😂 I have actually grown to love using my iPad for journaling because I can add photos etc. I take a picture of all my tarot readings and write about my interpretations etc.
I have a separate journal totally for negative shadow type work. That journal is in a composition notebook that I burn at the end of each year; it’s totally cathartic for me. That said, I have a few others that are positive journals that I keep for rereading. My favorite one is more of a commonplace book that I fill with things that I research for fun, curiosities, etc.
A book of interesting stuff and curiosities, that sounds lovely! 💚
I am such a nerd for journal-talk! This video gave me so much inspiration for my own journaling practice and I loved hearing about your process, Kelly-Ann.
I've been journaling since my twelfth birthday and it's been the making of me to record my life in various forms through the years. I don't know who I would be without the personal, private creative space to really examine all the facets of myself and record the process of becoming myself.
Oh my god, journal thickness. In January I used one of those 800 pages journals, and the thickness was killing me, because my wrist didnt have a proper support while writing. I still filled it, but it wasn't a nice experience. 200-300 pages is perfect, I think.
Yeah the thicker ones are soooo annoying unless you have a soft pillow at hand to sink the journal into, to get the right angle. 😅🙄
I have had mine read and from that moment on I made sure no one can get access to them. Even though I have a great so who wouldn't do that I still keep them locked up in a chest that I got from my family. I am the only one with a key.
I appreciate advice on not writing in a beautiful journal. I got used to spiral bound notebooks because you can easily remove pages out of them. And I usually do not do that, but it helps so much to know I can always rip the page (without destroying the book).
💜... & album wise, when you mentioned Pablo Honey, I remembered that my journal moments go lemon Moon minty with Elsiane's Mechanics of Emotion... seems to be so because it's the only music that enables me to relax enough to fall asleep next to someone I am breathtakingly deeply in love with...
I just recently have revisited that album and found your comment so poetically beautiful 🖤
I love this video so much. I have no real technique as I’m still trying to get into the habit since my journals were read by my mom in my teens, and during my marriage, my ex husband would constantly ask me what I was writing and what about, what was I writing about him, etc. i couldn’t trust he wasn’t reading them too so I didn’t journal for quite a while, even when I started my witchy/shadow work practice in 2017. It tore me up inside and now I write almost every day, even about random shit that doesn’t matter because I know nobody will bother me, ask me what I’m writing, or read it.
I have been keeping a Journal since I was 13, now I am 37. And I do it in a very decorative way, because I find decorating with stickers, quotes, images and washi tape relaxing, kinda like crafting. I do share my journals on my channel, and this big journal community here and on instagram is very fun and inspiring. My main reason however is to keep memories, as I am quite forgetful. I wouldn't know what I have done a year ago around that time if it wasn't for my journals.
... I am still sometimes re-watching your old journal collection video, where you show those big books, I find that very inspiring :D Peace out, Blessed Samhain & Happy Halloween! 🎃
Really enjoying this discussion.
I've journalled in different ways over the years. I'm bipolar and even when I'm high energy I tend to have a lot of negative and distressing thoughts. So I try to focus on the good things. The things that make me smile. Usually little things. Like my eco friendly toothbrush. Then when I am very down and feel like there is no good in the world. No reason to live. I read over my journal and it makes a difference. It's a momentary relief.
My sister on the other hand who is a nurse and literally saves lives every day. Has a journal to rage in. Sometimes there are things that are so awful. Situations that are so absurdly ridiculous. And of course most people would not be able to relate. She rages in her journal. And it's one of the tools that allows her to do what she needs to in the minute where she is helping someone.
So different things work for different people. Good luck there is no wrong way. 😊❤
So helpful to hear about other people's experiences with feeling like they can't write anything down. This was a huge issue for me for a long time, and I'm just coming up on about ten years now of breaking through that block, I don't think it's spoken about enough in journaling spaces.
You're not alone, it's very common. ❤️ I hope you and others feel that they can push through and write journals because it can feel so beneficial. 🥲
I have been part of the journaling community here and on instagram for the past 8 years, and I have come accross many people who struggle with writing. A lot of people love to decorate their pages with stickers and washi tape, but when it comes to the actual writing, there seems to be a blockage of some sort. You are not alone with this issue. Some of my friends feel pressured by the thought of "writing something worthy and important" so it would be beneficial to the psyche or whatever, and I dropped that concept completeley. I just tell stories about my life. About my days. About people I know, and about my hobbys. It is important to me to see who I was ten years ago, even if the pages are just filled with pictures and cringe writings about some random cute dude from the internet. A lot of people like to watch journal videos and flip throughs for inspiration. Maybe you could try that. I wish you best of luck with finding your flow :D
Brilliant video, love the magazine cutouts for prompts, very cool. Currently have 4 journals going:
1. Divine Feminine ~ Oracle card readings, specifically channeled for unconditional love & guidance in order to reread to myself when I'm down (basically to be my own mother & friend *in advance* when the negative self talk is strong. Also been a great replacement for lack of good friends irl, as well as having no contact with mother.)
2. Astrology ~ tarot spreads, to document then in future compare the readings with the astro chart (to learn, predictions similar to card a day reflection)
3. The dumping journal.
4. Daily: Moon phases, list of 2 daily gratitudes, 2 "easy to check off & feel productive" daily goals, (morning entry) 1 good thing about the day. (evening entry)
(This is separate, but kept with my planner, for extra and more dedicated space.)
#4 is a goal in and of itself. The other 3 have been achieved organically & amazing!!!!
This really helped me reframe how I think about journaling and make it back into something I want to do and not an obligation that I feel has to be done perfectly. I'm excited to get journaling again!
Ahh I'm so glad it helped! x
Thanks so much, Kelly-Ann, this was quite a freeing video regarding journaling; echoing Ace 100%👏
I am working on the shadow work stuff from the rebel witch. I jumped in a little too much so I used ur advice and step back for a few days. I just kept writing more things though
Hi Kelly,I love journaling but I love colour and washi, cut outs from mags,etc so it's a real mishmash of ranting, drawings, brief notes of the world and local news, etc. I do like a nice journal with good paper and unlined as I write in fountain pen in different coloured inks and I scribble when I need and write neatly as well, depending on mood. Have a photos of my recently departed mum, my daughter's elderly horse and all the Otter pictures I can find!. Found a newspaper heading on Tropical Cyclone Julia. At last! One named for me! That's definitely being kept. Anyway, Aroha (love) from New Zealand. I'm really looking forward to receiving my copy of Rebel Witch and saving for your next one.
Your journal sounds ACE! 😍✂️🎨🖌
Elderly horses, tropical cyclones and otters, ohhhh, my Goddess, you might be my soulmate! 🥰🌹 Thanks so much for sharing this, I really needed a reason to smile tonight... Blessed be!
Back for a re-watch. Thank you 🖤
I especially appreciate the discussion of how it can impact you if someone's read your journals in the past. That's what keeps me from writing most of the time 😕
At the Caffè with a Journal, yes! 💓
I finally made the decision to not care about my handwriting or wording while journalling. I used to feel that I had to write beautifully both visually and descriptively... Which meant I was sitting around for hours trying to make my experience at the ice cream store into a gosh dang masterpiece 😹. What a waste!
I'm the type who journals only for prosperity's sake. I noticed that I was as forgetting all of the events I participated in. I don't need everything to be super detailed, I just need some keywords to remind me of what happened. Though I do get pretty detailed occasionally. But only when I feel like it's necessary.
Plus I'm the type of person who will journal faithfully for about a week or two and then drop off for 2 months. Well it's just too much of a burden to try to catch up on two months of stuff. Which makes lists so important in my journalling
I have multiple journals on the go at any given time. I am in the camp of keeping my journals, but I struggle with uneasy emotions around going back and re-reading the older ones. I realize there are lots of self-awareness gems in doing that but I haven't worked through my blocks related to this yet. I keep them for if and when that time comes. Knowing that I would like to work towards re-reading helps me be more honest with myself in writing in the moment. It didn't occur to me to consider doing that till I heard you mention in an older video some time ago. I did have a caregiver read my journals when I was a small child and yes that was quite damaging.
it is so interesting how specific we get with our needs for a certain type of journal. I started out in lined hardbound green cloth covered books my dad brought home from work that were intended as lab notebooks. I have some various softbound and hardbound ones of different sizes and decor from my early 20s but now it must be an unlined sketchbook, 8 1/2 x 11, hardbound, usually black. they typically last me a few months because I do go on, and I also put all my dreams in them and journal all my tarot readings in them so everything is in the same place.
I wish I watched this sooner it might of saved a friendship. I forgot all about my time journaling as a young teen. Sometimes things are best expressed on paper. Thanks for sharing ❤
I've journaled all my life and could not even think about destroying any of them. Great to re read and understand more about myself. Good info.
Love listening to you Kelly I do not journal but I wish to begin, for all the reasons stated...
You and I have such similar journal methods. I think my only difference is I can not have multiple journals going at once. I have one journal that covers EVERYTHING and I don’t get a new one until it’s full.
Your practice sounds very very similar to mine! Really enjoying this. It took me many years to begin journaling again after some unpleasant experiences in teen years, and I'm so glad I did! I now keep mine...roughly a volume a year. It's a delicious practice. 💖
[ 14:04 bookmarking to sit with my feelings and to come back after]
Just a few more little things, I actually laughed out loud at the bit about using my journal to avoid exhausting my friends by going on about the same thing over and over! Yes! And I found the bit about not trying to make my journals pretty really relatable as well. I went through that a while back, and it feels connected to your comment in the 10 crappy habits video about not trying to make your art palatable. I write what I need to write and make what I need to make and I share things or keep them private as I wish, none of these personal things are done to impress others. There are no journal police, that's not a thing! And I love the glasses, I used your code and bought a couple of pairs last time you did a video with them, and I was actually just thinking the other day that I was in the market for some new glasses and wondering if your discount code still worked, so yay! I hope you get a little $ when I use your code. 💕
A lovely treat of a video! I also love journalling and I have a couple of little personal things about how I choose my books that you might enjoy hearing about. I also like a packable size and a plain cover, but I choose blank paper. No lines for me as I find changing the angles and physical patterns of how I write can actually alter how I think and give me access to things I didn't know I had in my mind. Diagonal starting from one corner, or wavy lines, or spiral around the page, whatever feels like it suits in the moment. And I need a book that will stay open flat on the table by itself so I usually choose coil bound. I often work on some kind of knitting or embroidery work as a type of meditative entry point to journalling, something about the feel of the fabric in my hands and the gentle repetitive action of stitching allows my thoughts to settle and the things I want to explore in writing will float to the surface, and I will go back and forth between the writing and the stitching with the book open on the desk. As you can imagine, it is a bit irritating to have the book flapping closed or to the wrong page all the time. My favourite type of book is an A4 artists sketch book, nice medium weight paper with a little texture to it, just pulls me right in 💕
Loving your journal videos... and your earrings 😊
Thanks! I made them myself x
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I am starting a study of the Wild Wisdom Companion by Maia Toll and journaling is a key component of that. I have never been very good about journaling, so this was quite helpful. I am sticking with a cheap spiral notebook so I am less likely to get overwhelmed by it.
I've kept a journal on and off since I was about 10. My sister used to read it and recite passages at the dinner table. In my last relationship, my ex read my journal. I have a lot of trauma around people invading my privacy. I think that's had a huge impact on my process because I don't do it like I used to. I miss it. I like to use A6 notebooks and write 3 pages in the morning. I stopped doing that and I miss it. I also keep a bullet journal, a journal for witchcraft classes, one for tarot classes, one for tarot readings, one for tarot meanings and various art journals.
Thank you! This was super helpful! I think I need to get a new one. I got a massive journal a couple years back that still has space in it but I really don’t feel called to it anymore. I thought the idea about a journal for when it’s raining sounded sweet but I hear ya about having too many and breaking things up and not getting a full picture so I’m thinking of experimenting with different colored pens for different things. Like I’d keep it all in one journal but when it’s raining I’d write in blue instead of black, something like that. 💖
I reckon give yourself permission to abandon that giant journal - you can slice the paper out for other stuff if you like. But it's the perfect time for a fresh start. 😌
Pressure to document everything when I first started. It actually pushed me away because of the anxiety related to it. I realized the benefits from writing with the 4th step in AA and that was my version of shadow work and I feel so comfortable writing and actually enjoy it so much. I love taking notes on your videos for fun because you have so much stuff that hits me
I journalled as an adolescent for a few years, then stopped. Took it up again when i was in a dark place, about 10 years ago. Will never quit again!
Soo i got over 30 volumes now... I put very concise summaries in the back every 10 or so, otherwise i get lost. Life's nuts🤣 and no, i don't write down everything, not by a long shot... Anyone's welcome to them, good luck deciphering my handwriting! My oldest journal I've still got i wrote in when i was 10, I'm so glad i still have that🤗❤️
A5, dummy books, unlined (can't stand lines), red nearly always. Ballpoint pen and crayons for highlights. Big bookmark with pretty pics glued on that's been in use for ages now...
Decadent💜💜💜💜💜💜
Ooh I love how specific you are about your preferences 😍
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Kelly-Ann, I loved this video and while I love all your videos as an avid journaler and occasional journal facilitator this one captured my heart. I keep a couple different journals on the go at once and since I'm a collage artist as well most of mine end up with some types of scraps in them but I do tend to keep one that is just straight writing. Aside from my annual writing notebook which is strictly poetry and essays.
This vid is right on time, Kelly-Ann! I have a different journal for a million things and they're all so important to me, yet there are times when I can't muster up the strength to journal no matter how badly I ruminate on it. And then I'll find a way to dive in which makes me journal for weeks at a time before another break. It's bizarre, but I always come back to the act of journaling. Now I'm seeking a way to make it more consistent for my mental health so I've ordered one of those "line a day" 5 yr journals to keep me from falling off the wagon totally. I'll try and report back how it goes, lol.
That 5 year journal might be something for me! Off to do some research, thank you so much for the idea. Blessed be! 🙏💚🌹
@@gaiagreen2690 I've been using it consistently and love it so 10/10 can recommend!
I love that you say it's like a friend. I've been considering attempting to start journaling as an alternative to, well, babbling at humans 😂 but also as Twitter is burning, and that's a place I've tended to dump my thoughts for the last 15 years of my life. I'm not really interested in adding on more social media, so a journal seems to make sense, but also primarily I think as a thought-processing space because I tend to do the kind of strategizing, problem solving, etc. you describe with people and it often feels a little awkward like "uh, Avory, you could just talk to a rubber duck, not send me a 45-minute Marco Polo." 😂 That said, when you described a few pages as "long" I wondered how much you're like, thinking thoughts in your head that don't go on the page, because it seems if I wrote as much as I spoke I'd have 20 pages a session! The whole "desire to record your life thing" I'm glad I also got out in my teens and twenties-I've compromised down to doing a monthly page in a kind of bullet journal style, just a journal I use for nothing but a recap of the month, and that seems to be enough to feel like I'll have a nice little record of my life over time. Less because I "need" to know that stuff, and more because as an astrologer I love studying cycles, and so it's nice to have dates (not necessarily what I ate on Wednesday, but "oh yeah, that's the month I was having tons of mood swings and health issues" or whatever.)
I think I'll get some cheap notebooks so I feel a bit less precious about it and can do this kind of processing. (I have a kind of "witchy journal" that I'll use for tarot and some other ritual type stuff, but I don't use it frequently and everything in it is like This Is Meaningful.) It's not that I'll NEVER read back, but I doubt I would more than a year later-maybe read at the end of the year and if any interesting thoughts came up in the process that I want to commit to computer, I will! I do find those read-throughs of old writing really fascinating, but I don't really want to have stacks and stacks of physical items, because that was such an obstacle to me in moving across the country and I never want to feel that way again. Having a mobile scanner is super handy, though! I also really appreciate your sharing about using your journal around self-harm, psychosis, etc. It made me realize that journaling could also be a really useful tool to avoid public traumatic oversharing when I really just want to share that stuff. Even not being someone who harms, I often feel like I want to share some dark feelings and I know I'm not at risk of any kind, but in my country any honesty in that vein to a therapist, friend, etc. runs a huge list of life destruction. It's some bullshit that just keeps those feelings supressed, not helping anyone, but I can see a journal as a good alternative! Anyway, apologies for the autistic infodump 😂 but I appreciate you sharing your experiences as food for thought ❤
Great video! I’ve been journaling about 45 years. I currently go through one of those Meade composition notebooks about every six weeks. I write most days but occasionally skip a day. I like to write with dark gel pens or the Sharpie thin point ones. I also index each volume, a practice I started only in recent years.
I am here 👏 for 👏 this 👏
I’ve been thinking about restarting journaling and need some advice. Divine timing, Kelly-Ann!
Hi Kelly-Ann 💜
I had such a good journaling session the day after my inner child reading! It was a whopping 10 pages of awesomeness. So f***ing cathartic! It was beautiful! 💀💫💀⚡ Thank you!
Much love & blessings~💋
kb
I destroyed several journals over the years because my mum violated my privacy in my late teens and early twenties, and it’s become one of my biggest regrets. Nowadays I can trust the people around me and could easily leave a journal splayed open on the coffee table and they still wouldn’t read it.
That's awesome ur bathing and Journaling. You are great. ❤❤❤ you help me more than you even know
Stab scribbling ftw!!! I HEART journaling. Loved hearing your thoughts on it 🙏
First off dis video is very informative and good 4 enticin one 2 journal, but I really want 2 point out how seamless and smooth da sponsorship ad was!!! I actually watched it thru and I always pass thru an ad any chance I get, but dis one I actually enjoyed watchin.
You make my heart happy.
Thank you so much for this! I always love the idea of journaling and the few times I do it I find it rewarding but I never find the time to do it. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the idea of your journal prompt baggie! As a fellow magpie, this is totally speaking to me 😊
Did you just throw some confetti in there for funsies?
Oh yeah my sister read my journal when I was young and I was scared to have one later on so I stopped. But started again now and I have some journals on the app Day One but sometimes I miss being able to be creative in my journal. Because let’s face it : in the application there is no space for that. Writing is a lot different.
I do trust my partner though, he would never read it and besides he speaks French not Dutch so no problem anyway. But still he is amazing and I love him and trust him. Still don’t trust my sister though but I don’t live with her anymore 😅
I forgot how great it is to journal. I have a tarot journal too and a tarot study journal too. Keep decks studies separate though.
Kelly-Ann, loved this video and have been an avid watcher on your channel for years. I was curious if you would be willing to share what the name of the company is for the red journal in the intro to this video? I started my bullet journaling practice years ago with a black one just like it and have been searching for another one for years to no avail. When I saw your red one I was so excited to see it again and figured I would reach out in case you are willing to share because it would be so awesome to get another one. Thank you for always being so honest in your videos. They have helped me so much over the years. Much love to you! 💜
Hi darling, let me read any company name on it when I get home. I am pretty sure I bought it from Asda in the UK, but not sure what brand it is. I LOVE it. ❤️
@@kelly-annmaddox Thank you so much! That would be awesome!
Hey Kelly-Ann. Glad you made this video. Curious if you’ve ever read Anais Nin?
oh yes, I don't reread, lol. I do sometimes use it as a reference and end up rereading for that, but invariably rereading makes me cringe, whether it's 10 years ago or a few months ago. I do keep them though.
I love this and definitely needed this. Especially since our chats. I feel more confident to start journaling again. 🥰🎃
I kept journals episodically for a time in my life, and although I would absolutely never get rid of the filled stack I have accumulated, they feel like horcruxes to me. Predominantly, I would essentially dissociate into them, frantically fill twenty pages in this cathartic trance, and have no recollection of the content of those writings. The only faded memory-bits I have are from the half-conscious outskirts of that state, wherein I would try to narrate the difficult and overwhelming struggle of trying to write out the weight of all these quickly fraying, unravelling thoughts. I'm scared to read any of it because it doesn't exactly feel like 'mine'. The other cause of uneasiness for me is that I anticipate to dissolve all over again, as is the case when handling such collections sometimes, so I don't really 'learn' insights when forgetting repeats. That's not to say I abhor my journals! I deeply care about them, and I'm very fond of them, too. To me, sentimental memorabilia (even when the memories are obscured) is precious. Like a faithful hotel keeper who got the job without applying for it, I feel a certain responsibility to maintain this vault that chronicles my life . I once carried all of my journals to a therapy session and discovered that my _hands_ feel intimately familiar handling with them, playfully ready to flip through. After all, I do have the muscle memory of living in and engaging with each one. The reservation and inhibition reside in my heart and head respectively. I don't know if I will become ready or willing or able to ever really take a look, but I appreciate having the option waiting for me right there if I ever find myself with the respective intuitive knowing all of a sudden. I also burned a journal at sixteen, which I very sorrowfully regret. Unfortunately, my journaling came to a complete stop in the aftershock of a traumatic event five years ago and I have so far found it impossible to restart. It's like I don't understand how to do that anymore. I feel that my thoughts escape me and I'm at a loss for words. I have a notebook for therapy into which I scribble basic bullet points, but it's not the same. I made some attempts to pick up writing sentences again but nothing happens. It's like trust was lost or something. The best I can do is clip conversational comments like this one to my notes app. I have been thinking about printing all of what has washed up in this folder, letting this be my interim practice. I don't know how to help myself repair the original thing, but little bits of writing still happen; they've just hidden into the corners of this too bright room and don't feel safe to be writings, somehow.
Interesting that you wrote about your hands. I also regrettably burned my journal at sixteen, my first love was in there. Have you read writing down the bones, by Natalie Goldberg?
I love how you always reference music. Do you have any faves? I have a feeling we might have the same taste :)
I wrote constantly in high school when life was bad and for a while I would read and reread them. In my mid twenties part of my long process healing CPTSD was throwing them all away and starting anew. Now (in my 40’s) I’m a vomit journaler. I write and make lists and think maybe I’ll read them later but I never need to, I’m on to the next thing. I have mixed feelings about never rereading, like it’s a waste of time if it’s not going to be relevant later, but I know catharsis is still useful.
I love to Journal at my pace too. I journal all my Tarot work and love to intersperse art work such as it is. I won't allow pressure to take hold of me because Why?
Lefty too :)
I was in a class once discussing the journals of Margery Kempe (just love those nuns) and one student’s criticism of her was that she was so self-focused. Where were the current events, what was going on at the time? I knew it was a silly critique because they were merely bored of her internal processes, but ever since then I’ve felt an unwelcome pressure to include current events, political happenings, like you mentioned.
I love journaling and have so much in my head but when I go to write it down I can't get it down on paper like it's in my head
Maybe making images would help
I can't journal any more. my mum read my journals when i was younger at a point i was verry unstable . the repercussions of that mean I cant write journals any more. she also found my book of music and lyrics and burned it
I am so sorry that this happened to you. It is atrocious that you had your privacy violated like that, and BURNING your lyric book? 😠 That is just beyond..
Do you feel the desire to keep any kind of journal now, darling? Or has have these experiences totally put you off the idea?
I totally feel the same way! My older sister read my journals at a time when I was very vulnerable and she told my mom about it. My sister even had the audacity to tell me what I wrote in it years later. It felt like a complete violation. I now journal on my MacBook for ultimate private thoughts and use a journal to write in symbols (usually through tarot). I write in journals knowing someone might one day read it, so naturally I heavily filter myself.
@@kelly-annmaddox i only just started writing lyrics again now at 30. I have been involved with music this whole time but im only just begining to recover that skill
i fuking love your earrings.
I actually learned a foreign language just for the sake of keeping a diary insecret from my mom lol
My run on sentences and proper punctuation is another setback. Anxiety goes into all parts of my life I didn't even notice. Odd
I've got a book of shadows
Poems
Climaxes
Marketing ideas
I just noticed - you write with your left hand, too!
Oh yes, I am VERY sinister ;)
@@kelly-annmaddox Delightfully so! If I don't get the chance to say it later, have a Blessed Samhain, cariad!
@@AlexGreeneHypnotist Same to you, doll! 🧙♀️😈🤡☠️🎃👻
I love this video. Need some help!! I started journalling in my early teens, living with family, but my mother had found and read my writings ( stuffed behind pipes in a tall cupboard) She humiliated me, made fun of my innermost thoughts, told me I was a slut and weird. I am much older and have my own place, but just so afraid that people may read my words. I am unable to put pen to paper because of this. How can I overcome this fear?
I'm so sorry that happened to you - that is sooo not ok. Get a lockable journal. Get a place to lock the journal into as well, like a lockable security box. This is just to give you the feeling of safety at first.. Try writing in your journal about how the experience of privacy violation affected you and how you're now making a commitment to yourself to keep a journal as a part of your healing and release process. (If you can't manage that right now, use a password protected Google Drive doc or Word doc.)
Bury it in the garden? Do it online? I like to write, so I'm leaving mine in the care of understanding friends when I pass over, to do with as I ask :)
@@kelly-annmaddox I so appreciate your suggestions and energy. Thank you so much.X I like the idea of safety first and the energy towards healing and release. I can move towards a secure place for my writings, which will hopefully also allow freedom of my words. I love your work, your energy- you are divine!
@@bonnroberts1722 I love that idea- thanks so much
@@kelly-annmaddox Great advice. Thank you for understanding.
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