Did you miss the analogy in the " red crescent moons all over my hands? That was so cleverly put.nail marks in your hands after gripping your fists tight
I guess that I’ve never really noticed until you said it. I get that line now, and totally relate to it. YOU just made this song even better 😂 kinda messed up but you get the point.
@@mekboy5744my only objection to that is that those marks wouldn't be all over his hands and they'd most likely be full circles. He's for sure talking about fingernails.
From Micro: Hey friend - rest assured that you did not overshare at all! That's what these spaces are made for, even if it's unusual or just an unknown territory for many of us. Sharing about your life and things that are important to you are never a waste of time or space. Actually an honor to get to know you through this, even if it's just on this little part of the internet. Whenever you display your vulnerability, you also express your authentic self, and that is such a beautiful gift to anyone reading, so, thank you. :heart: Also, 14 months waiting for this appointment? Gosh, I wish for June to come very very soon for you. This must have been quite an endurance race for sure, the kind that challenges your patience so much! I truly commend you for your determination to seek help despite the hurdles or... whatever practical matters get in the way and made you wait for so long. It should be so different. I've been lucky myself to not wait that long to get professional help, although even a couple of months feel like an eternity when you feel like hitting rock bottom. I certainly wasted a lot of time for staying in denial and stuck in my own anxiety -- asking for help has been a no-no for so long in my life. Truly inspired by what you have shared, the hope you provide, the determination you radiates, and just this normalization of getting help. You definitely deserve to get as much support as you need through this rough season of life, and to get back on your feet with even more confidence and fire within. Fingers crossed for June, with the hope that this will be the beginning of a new healing chapter for you, and that it will match your expectations. You got this.
From Micro: Hey friend, thinking of you today as we are now in June - big month with hopefully some positive perspective ahead for you! Just wanted to reiterate that you're doing the right thing and that there are people out there rooting for you and for your own healing. These obstacles that have been in the way are almost behind you, and hopefully a new chapter will begin for you -- with the support, understanding and care that you need. There IS hope, and you are taking practical steps to not just find it, but actually *create* in into your life. Sending good vibes your way. Hoping for your appointment to be an opportunity to get new answers, and to rebuild some trust in the process as well as in YOU.
So I jumped on the BMTH bandwagon a bit late, like a year ago. Heard of them when I was a teen, but that was back when their stuff was too heavy for me… but became obsessed with them when I went to the FOB/BMTH tour last summer, they definitely have saved me this past year and now easily one of my favorite bands. Oli and their lyrics just speak to my mental health 🖤🖤
You need to check out falling in reverse. Promise it won’t disappoint Popular monster Last resort (reimagined) The drug in me (reimagined) Watch the world burn Voices in my head Zombified I’m not a vampire (revamped)
Basically from your talk after the song I can see, that I would have be better off with you as a therapist that those where I used to go a few years ago. There was a point when I realized I’m better off alone than with them. Maybe because I’m well reflected and can work on my mindset alone or something like that. I wasn’t in therapy since then again and it’s 4-5 years since then. But the feeling of being unheard and the constant focus on one specific topic (that doesn’t bother me much) or the tries to medicate me, really scared me off. (And sorry for my slightly poor grammar. I‘m not a native English speaker; I’m from Germany.) Also: really felt in love with your content here!
I love this- this is awesome hearing your analysis to the lyrics. I was always curious how a trained therapist would respond to some of these intense lyrics.
As someone going through maybe the roughest time in their life, your reactions have done a lot to help me understand these feelings and breaking down some of my favourite songs really make me feel closer to my favourite bands So thank you for helping me off the edge day after day ❤️
i also think that "i used to go to therapy but the doctor tried to section me, the next time that i open up to someone will be my autopsy" could be referring to telling a therapist their darker thoughts and the therapist wanting to immediately just send them to hospital because of it.
Having been in and out of the hospital 4 times in the last 2 months due to a long BPD episode with a mixed bipolar episode thrown in this song hits really hard.
From djstarion: @taylorkennedy5352 Hello friend, I can definitely see that! BMTH really opens your eyes when it comes to stuff like this, but it also shows that you're not alone when it comes to dealing with situations, especially bipolar/BPD. It's such a tough disorder to deal with, and can definitely get frustrating, especially when you're going in and out of the hospital. I'm sending you all the love in the world and hopefully things get a whole lot better and it becomes manageable. You've got this!
From Ghost: @taylorkennedy5352 Hi friend, I'm happy you reached out. You have no idea how connected I feel to this. Because I was misdiagnosed and passed around many times (I still don't know - personally I think it's BPD/bipolar as well). This is really gut wrenching for me, I can feel your pain. Lost is one of my favourites and I always tear up at the beginning. *Just a scar somewhere down inside of me* *Something I cannot repair* It feels like that a lot for me. I hope you'll feel better really soon. I wish you all the best. You will get through it! Stay strong!
Id love to go to therapy but money and the fear of being sectioned or medicated silly is what keeps me out. I think since covid and since this recession my mental health has plummeted from where it was before covid. I have very high anxiety and social anxiety so im socially awkward and i skin pick, i dont sleep well and when i get reakky sleepless i get those sleep deprived hallucinations and it makes me paranoid. It doesnt help that my fiance cant find a job right now and we cant afford to have our own place he is clinically depressed and the anxiety makes me depressed and we are both suicidal at times but both too depressed to do anything about it. Im just glad i have him and we can talk through the crazy together
From Micro: Hey friend. My heart goes out to you. As I was reading your post, I felt the heaviness ofbeing in this situation. It's so hard when depression and anxiety are in the picture as it really interferes with our ability to *take action*, to do the things that we know would be good, but seem so difficult to reach. When you're depressed, it takes an insane amount of energy to do things that are supposed to be normal actions of daily life. A lot of of people don't understand this and there's still way too much stigma when it comes to depression and anxiety. It's good to heart that with your significant other you can talk about those things. Having this space to reflect on how you feel and sharing these experiences can be a strong asset. Although I hear that it can also feel like a trap at times too. Somehow, when you see the person you share your life with doing things to help themselves, it inspires you at the same time. But when you feel both stuck in the same place, it's hard to figure out what could be the first step to help yourselves. Covid and lockdowns took a real toll on my partner and I as well. I was in the midst of a depressive rut, on a long-term medical leave following a professional burn-out. We're also stuck in a place we don't like and had no perspective of finding a place of our own for a very long time. Then my partner also started to feel really burnt out. It was a rough time during which we were both struggling with our own demons, having a hard time to lift each other up even though we were there for each other of course. These couple of years have been so heavy for so many of us, and it has reactivated traumas in many different ways. It makes completely sense to have been affected by it and to still feel the effects of it today. Social anxiety especially can feel like using a bicycle at times: we don't *forget* how it feels to socialize, but the less we practice and the more it feels like the anxiety grows. I'm truly sorry that things have been so difficult for both you and your partner. It sounds like you really are supportive to each other, but it is completely understandable that it adds a layer of heaviness on top of everything else at times. I hear that you've mentioned being afraid of the consequences of seeing a therapist, which is also understandable. Although I would personally be confident that you wouldn't be forced at all to go to a mental hospital/clinic as these are for very specific situations and struggles. Hospitals are already overcrowded and the main tendency nowadays is to try to provide support as much as possible to people *while* they keep living in their home and living their daily life. Mayve it could be interesting for you to at least see a general practictioner and ask all the questions you need to them? You could even see a therapist once and *only* ask the questions you want regarding what *could* happen and in which cases if you decide to open up about what you're going through. This would not engage you to anything, and could be an opportunity to hear directly from a professional how things are. These are of course only some thoughts and these decisions belong to you <3. I hope that, through all of this, you make sure to ask for help if you need -- it's okay to reach out to someone *external*, someone who's not from your direct environment, as they can bring some neutral outlook and perspective to help and support you. Take care, friend. You will get through this. I believe in you.
If you haven’t you DEFINETLY. Need to react Falling in reverse - The drug in me is You (Remaigined) this is the new, piano version. Will appreciate the lyrics, and the intensity.
How you are not famous I have no idea. Big feels on that one!your voice is the real deal! 💯 What if you showcased it on October Ends' "Dark"? Nick Thurl vibes would be proud! 🤟
When I used to go to therapy, I was always worried that they'd try to section me; so I would often hold back. I think that a lot of people won't go to therapy for that reason. The therapist can just snap their finger and send you to the crazy house against your will. I've heard some real horror stories. I think that therapists being able to do that hurts more than it helps.
From NateTriesAgain: Yeah, it's hard to trust in your most vulnerable places, right? It's such a chicken-and-the-egg thing. To get better, you have to open up, but when you do, you give someone else power over you - the opportunity to snap their fingers and make your life hard, or make it hell - or also, make it better. It's hard to know which type of situation you're in until you're there, and it's hard to trust when you haven't got a lot of good reasons to do so. So you trust where you can, but you also can't really tell whether or not it's going to help you get better fast enough for it to feel worth it. It honestly just feels like you can mind-fuck yourself out of the situation. It's hard to land somewhere and feel like you can really hang your hat on it. So you do your best, but it's hard to feel like it's enough. Makes a lot of sense. If you don't go to therapy now, what've you replaced it with that's helping you continue progress today? Thank you for writing in.
From JennaLouise: Therapy can be a scary thing for someone to try. And, sure, there are plenty of horror stories about any given topic. I had to experience a few tough therapy sessions before I found the right person. I hope that if you’re currently contemplating therapy that you’ll give it a try if you’re able to. Wishing you all the best, friend.
From ThriceTheThird: Sorry if you have met some bad apples, or had bad experiences in therapy. I have had mixed experience with mental health professionals myself, but I think it is important to not that once I found the ones that worked for me. There was always a sense of trust, and ability to recognize they have my best interest in mind. Not all professionals are right for all people, and some are better at their jobs then others. Regardless of this, I think that the majority of times a therapist intervenes in some ones life. It is out of a Genuine concern that they might be in danger.
From Micro: Indeed, a lot of of people fear the power that a therapist can have when it comes to potentially making decisions for *you*. It's something that changes completely from one country to another, and I don't know how it is where you live, but it is true that too often something that prevents people to seek therapeutic help is the question "what is going to happen if I open up?". It's already scary in itself to share what's on your heart - it makes you feel turly exposed and vulnerable -, so on top of it not knowing enough how involuntary admissions work is just frightening. It makes completely sense that this fear has been part of your own experience too. The fear of consequences was one of the reasons why I reframed from seeking therapy for years. On one side, information regarding psychiatric admissions processes are not shared and known enough. On the other side, the very act of sharing how we feel/what we think/what we do is something many of us have to learn as something *safe* to do. I hope that, today, whether it is with therapy or not, you have found ways to gain this sense of safety in your life. Because sharing how you feel and what you go through is *never* a mistake, and should never be something to fear. <3
i think you should react to it never ends by bring me the horizon, few songs make me as emotional as that one. would really love to hear your thoughts on it
You should really check out Falling in reverse - last resort reimagin, they really bring out the heavyness of the lyrics that jacoby wrote. I think it would be a great talk about the really deep depression were you only see suicide as the way out. Thank you for another grate reaction and breakdown of the lyrics i really love your content and i feel more ppl should talk about the lyrics more.
I think the most positive change I've made in my life was just finally giving up on ever being healthy or happy. I gave up on being normal a long time ago, and that was great. I know I'm weird, and embracing that made me more popular and made life more fun, but I'm not any happier. My life isn't any better. It isn't ever going to be. I go to a doctor. I go to therapy. I do everything I can and everything I'm supposed to. The fact is that society gave up on me, I'm a second-class citizen now, and it's legal to discriminate against me. I'm just going through the motions. I don't know why. I don't honestly care anymore. None of this matters to me. I will say, though, now that I don't have that false expectation of improvement, I'm not as disappointed when I wake up to the same miserable life every day, and I don't stress myself out so much over it.
From KyleGouldOfficial: @Arkeis121 Hello, Some changes are good and some may become harder don't push to a healthy and happy lifestyle... Sometimes we tend to push ourselves to these expectations where they could be to point of overcontrolling. This tend to put more on yourself because you're constantly focus on changing this part of yourself when it may be hard to change that side of you. Don't be hard on yourself take it little step at a time to change something and some may not be so easy to do. You will find that out and it good that you are trying to put these positive steps to become happy and healthy. But, it could also be alot so i get where you're going through with and your not alone through whatever you're dealing with. Take Care & Hold Fast.
From KyleGouldOfficial: @Arkeis121 Hello, Some changes are good and some may become harder don't push to a healthy and happy lifestyle... Sometimes we tend to push ourselves to these expectations where they could be to point of overcontrolling. This tend to put more on yourself because you're constantly focus on changing this part of yourself when it may be hard to change that side of you. Don't be hard on yourself take it little step at a time to change something and some may not be so easy to do. You will find that out and it good that you are trying to put these positive steps to become happy and healthy. But, it could also be alot so i get where you're going through with and your not alone through whatever you're dealing with. Take Care & Hold Fast.
From I-Am-Reclaimer: @Arkeis121 Hey Friend, Thank you for sharing this with us and I'm happy you found HeartSupport. On one hand, I think it's a good thing to let go of all the expectations you have of yourelf and others in the sense of it's good to be weird, it's good to be different and it's good to march to the beat of your own drum. Being your authentic self and embracing who you are fully is a huge step toward living a life of fulfillment. On the other hand, how we talk to ourselves is important. Things like depression, trauma, sickness, greif, etc. is agnostic in who it affects. You can be rich or poor, black or white, tall or short, it hits us all. The only difference in how it effects people is how people let it effect them. I've been there. Every single thing that did not go in my favor I used as an excuse as to why I wasn't cabable to to X or Y. I let that dominate my life for a long time and that kind of thinking eventually lead me to my own rock bottom. In my bounce back up off that bottom was a realization in the way I talk to myself. To live is to suffer and to keep telling yourself it doesn't matter or it just is this way and there's nothing to do about it can be crushing. It can suck your soul dry of the passion it has for living. The creative things that you always wanted to do, the places you always wanted to go see, the experiences you always wanted to have all sort of become "whatever." I went from telling myself that I wasn't going to amount to anything (among many other things) to finding joy and beaty in the smallest things. This morning, for example, I didn't want to get out of bed. I didn't want to go to work, I started feeling bad for myself and telling myself all the reasons why I wasn't going to have a good day. I caught myself and look at how beautiful the morning clouds were out my window. This little observeation of the profound beaty in the shape shifting clouds I was looking at was enough for me to reverse that and tell myself, "I don't know how, but today will be anazing day." It was enough to get myself out of bed and get to work...then come here and do some good in the world. In short, the world may suck. You may be surrounded by cruddy things and people. You may be suffering in whatever way you are.... but there is always...always something of beauty to be seen and it's that little hint of beauty that can carry you through the darkness and lead you to light... a brighter future. Stay strong my friend. I'm glad you're here. Hold Fast.
From I-Am-Reclaimer: @Arkeis121 Hey Friend, Thank you for sharing this with us and I'm happy you found HeartSupport. On one hand, I think it's a good thing to let go of all the expectations you have of yourelf and others in the sense of it's good to be weird, it's good to be different and it's good to march to the beat of your own drum. Being your authentic self and embracing who you are fully is a huge step toward living a life of fulfillment. On the other hand, how we talk to ourselves is important. Things like depression, trauma, sickness, greif, etc. is agnostic in who it affects. You can be rich or poor, black or white, tall or short, it hits us all. The only difference in how it effects people is how people let it effect them. I've been there. Every single thing that did not go in my favor I used as an excuse as to why I wasn't cabable to to X or Y. I let that dominate my life for a long time and that kind of thinking eventually lead me to my own rock bottom. In my bounce back up off that bottom was a realization in the way I talk to myself. To live is to suffer and to keep telling yourself it doesn't matter or it just is this way and there's nothing to do about it can be crushing. It can suck your soul dry of the passion it has for living. The creative things that you always wanted to do, the places you always wanted to go see, the experiences you always wanted to have all sort of become "whatever." I went from telling myself that I wasn't going to amount to anything (among many other things) to finding joy and beaty in the smallest things. This morning, for example, I didn't want to get out of bed. I didn't want to go to work, I started feeling bad for myself and telling myself all the reasons why I wasn't going to have a good day. I caught myself and look at how beautiful the morning clouds were out my window. This little observeation of the profound beaty in the shape shifting clouds I was looking at was enough for me to reverse that and tell myself, "I don't know how, but today will be anazing day." It was enough to get myself out of bed and get to work...then come here and do some good in the world. In short, the world may suck. You may be surrounded by cruddy things and people. You may be suffering in whatever way you are.... but there is always...always something of beauty to be seen and it's that little hint of beauty that can carry you through the darkness and lead you to light... a brighter future. Stay strong my friend. I'm glad you're here. Hold Fast.
From HC-PinGviini: @Arkeis121 Hey, thank you for sharing your story! A lot of what you say sounds very relatable and I am sorry to hear that you're not feeling any happier with your life. It is especially rough when you go through these motions month after month, year after year and it feels like nothing will ever get any better. Life can feel like a Groundhog Day when there's little changes in life and you go through the same routines in the same environment endlessly in a loop. Being normal is one thing. Trying to be normal and going by the social norms around you can feel really depressing as you're not living authentically yourself and you keep hiding the real you from the world around you. There's not much use in being normal outside of the usual boundaries of decent human behaviour. Being treated as a second class citizen and feeling/knowing that there's no punishment for treating you badly is very discouraging for anyone and I'm sorry that you have to go through that where you are. I can tell you for certain that no matter who you are, you're not a second class anything. Every person is a unique, wonderful being and you matter just as much as anyone else in this world matters. I would like to encourage you to not give up on yourself. Because I'm part of the people and I believe in you and I believe that you can get better and that your better days are still ahead of you. I'm so proud of you for going to the doctor, to go to therapy and that you keep working on yourself. The fact of the matter is that as long as you do, you can believe it that a part of you wants to change and wants to be healthy and happy. And I think you're worth all of it. You got the fight in you still and I hope you keep the light inside you burning bright for your life ahead. Because you matter and that's a fact.
The fire Careful who you love Because mountains do not move And seas do not shake Those butterflies are just escaping the quake That dagger is made From a past time of hate A blacksmith of shame In the mirror that forsakes All my feelings just a lie in tomb A past that has the weight Lowering slow to the chains Fell to the bottom And shattered into splinters Can’t glue them together Anymore … These tides like rivers running down my face Still salty like those waves that were made I can’t ride the wake in a composition baby Wrote those things down but it all lands hastily So fuck !!!!!!!! So fuck !!!!!!!! So. Fuck!!!!!!!!!! That mirror that resides in me!!!! Let the fire burn down this place That clock keeps on ticking To a metronome of pleas I’m guided by the spirit of an absentee A vessel to the ground, dear god I’m listening This hope in a lantern Guided by me Is shadowed by the cross I bare on my sleeves These tides like rivers running down my face Still salty like those waves that were made I can’t ride the wake in a composition baby Wrote those things down but it all lands hastily So fuck !!!!!!!! So fuck !!!!!!!! So. Fuck!!!!!!!!!! That mirror that resides in me!!!! Let the fire burn down this place -Ariel Endure
Huh. While I respect your perspective I think your interpretation is coming from a very biased place and is intentionally skewing the actual message of this song. To me this song is a life time of trauma trying to figure yourself out whilst being pulled in different directions from health “professionals” that really don’t care about digging deep and have allowed that to be their reason for becoming static to helping others. “Why am I this way? Stupid medicine not doing anything, what the hell is fucking wrong with me? I guess there’s no remedy I’m so terribly lost” This is clearly coming from a place of years of misdiagnosis from westernized health and the trauma that comes along with that and knowing somethings off but not actually getting the help you need. This song is a middle finger to the pharmaceutical industry and healthcare professionals that get paid too much to do nothing and drag people into a further depression. This song is liberation from years of western medicine preying on the vulnerable and causing a lifetime of damage only to carry that into the next generations; over and over.
This is the first time I’ve seen one of your reactions and I’d like to offer my reaction. I’ve worked in the field of behavioral health for over 21 years,, I have lived with bipolar type 1 with psychotic features and co-occurring substance use disorder with my first major experience being in 1981,, when I was a college freshman. While I appreciated your remarks I’m blown away that you didn’t say anything about the video itself. It was extremely stigmatizing and served to show people who live with mental illness as being deranged and dangerous. People living with mental illness are 12 times more likely to be victims than perpetrators. As someone who spent a significant amount of time as a young person in an institutional setting, I was really disturbed by the imagery portrayed in the video. My other comment is, why do you not provide a message about the 988 suicide prevention lifeline with the video? I’m not sure what you do with your other ones however I’ve found it a good practice on my radio show to share it. It’s Mindful Music on 88.7 WBFO Buffalo www.wbfo.org/show/mindful-music
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Did you miss the analogy in the " red crescent moons all over my hands? That was so cleverly put.nail marks in your hands after gripping your fists tight
I miss that, OMG so good
I guess that I’ve never really noticed until you said it. I get that line now, and totally relate to it. YOU just made this song even better 😂 kinda messed up but you get the point.
That, or the marks left by prescription bottles used repetitively
That, or the marks left by prescription bottles used repetitively
@@mekboy5744my only objection to that is that those marks wouldn't be all over his hands and they'd most likely be full circles. He's for sure talking about fingernails.
Avalanche is another mental health song, btw, that Oli wrote about his ADHD diagnosis
From Micro: Hey friend - rest assured that you did not overshare at all! That's what these spaces are made for, even if it's unusual or just an unknown territory for many of us. Sharing about your life and things that are important to you are never a waste of time or space. Actually an honor to get to know you through this, even if it's just on this little part of the internet. Whenever you display your vulnerability, you also express your authentic self, and that is such a beautiful gift to anyone reading, so, thank you. :heart: Also, 14 months waiting for this appointment? Gosh, I wish for June to come very very soon for you. This must have been quite an endurance race for sure, the kind that challenges your patience so much! I truly commend you for your determination to seek help despite the hurdles or... whatever practical matters get in the way and made you wait for so long. It should be so different. I've been lucky myself to not wait that long to get professional help, although even a couple of months feel like an eternity when you feel like hitting rock bottom. I certainly wasted a lot of time for staying in denial and stuck in my own anxiety -- asking for help has been a no-no for so long in my life. Truly inspired by what you have shared, the hope you provide, the determination you radiates, and just this normalization of getting help. You definitely deserve to get as much support as you need through this rough season of life, and to get back on your feet with even more confidence and fire within. Fingers crossed for June, with the hope that this will be the beginning of a new healing chapter for you, and that it will match your expectations. You got this.
From Micro: Hey friend, thinking of you today as we are now in June - big month with hopefully some positive perspective ahead for you! Just wanted to reiterate that you're doing the right thing and that there are people out there rooting for you and for your own healing. These obstacles that have been in the way are almost behind you, and hopefully a new chapter will begin for you -- with the support, understanding and care that you need. There IS hope, and you are taking practical steps to not just find it, but actually *create* in into your life. Sending good vibes your way. Hoping for your appointment to be an opportunity to get new answers, and to rebuild some trust in the process as well as in YOU.
Trust me. We all felt his heart in this one.
So I jumped on the BMTH bandwagon a bit late, like a year ago. Heard of them when I was a teen, but that was back when their stuff was too heavy for me… but became obsessed with them when I went to the FOB/BMTH tour last summer, they definitely have saved me this past year and now easily one of my favorite bands. Oli and their lyrics just speak to my mental health 🖤🖤
10:55 I think Oli also snuck that into the song so he could use it in/before/during an actual metal breakdown ;)
You need to check out falling in reverse. Promise it won’t disappoint
Popular monster
Last resort (reimagined)
The drug in me (reimagined)
Watch the world burn
Voices in my head
Zombified
I’m not a vampire (revamped)
Basically from your talk after the song I can see, that I would have be better off with you as a therapist that those where I used to go a few years ago. There was a point when I realized I’m better off alone than with them. Maybe because I’m well reflected and can work on my mindset alone or something like that. I wasn’t in therapy since then again and it’s 4-5 years since then. But the feeling of being unheard and the constant focus on one specific topic (that doesn’t bother me much) or the tries to medicate me, really scared me off. (And sorry for my slightly poor grammar. I‘m not a native English speaker; I’m from Germany.)
Also: really felt in love with your content here!
This feels very good seeing someone being happy because of listening to music they like
I love this- this is awesome hearing your analysis to the lyrics. I was always curious how a trained therapist would respond to some of these intense lyrics.
This band is my favorite. They got me through so much. I got a bmth tattoo. It's awesome to see the joy they bring.
As someone going through maybe the roughest time in their life, your reactions have done a lot to help me understand these feelings and breaking down some of my favourite songs really make me feel closer to my favourite bands
So thank you for helping me off the edge day after day ❤️
Using the line “I think I’m gonna breakdown” leading into a breakdown is a master stroke 🙌🙌
i also think that "i used to go to therapy but the doctor tried to section me, the next time that i open up to someone will be my autopsy" could be referring to telling a therapist their darker thoughts and the therapist wanting to immediately just send them to hospital because of it.
this song has been on repeat lately and everytime I hear I feel like crying but choose not to cry.
Having been in and out of the hospital 4 times in the last 2 months due to a long BPD episode with a mixed bipolar episode thrown in this song hits really hard.
From djstarion: @taylorkennedy5352 Hello friend,
I can definitely see that! BMTH really opens your eyes when it comes to stuff like this, but it also shows that you're not alone when it comes to dealing with situations, especially bipolar/BPD. It's such a tough disorder to deal with, and can definitely get frustrating, especially when you're going in and out of the hospital. I'm sending you all the love in the world and hopefully things get a whole lot better and it becomes manageable. You've got this!
From Ghost: @taylorkennedy5352 Hi friend,
I'm happy you reached out. You have no idea how connected I feel to this. Because I was misdiagnosed and passed around many times (I still don't know - personally I think it's BPD/bipolar as well). This is really gut wrenching for me, I can feel your pain.
Lost is one of my favourites and I always tear up at the beginning.
*Just a scar somewhere down inside of me*
*Something I cannot repair*
It feels like that a lot for me.
I hope you'll feel better really soon. I wish you all the best. You will get through it! Stay strong!
No idea why but whenever I heard the end of this song it makes me tear up
Same same ✊👊❤
This song is currently my 'go to' song 🤔🫠
Id love to go to therapy but money and the fear of being sectioned or medicated silly is what keeps me out. I think since covid and since this recession my mental health has plummeted from where it was before covid. I have very high anxiety and social anxiety so im socially awkward and i skin pick, i dont sleep well and when i get reakky sleepless i get those sleep deprived hallucinations and it makes me paranoid. It doesnt help that my fiance cant find a job right now and we cant afford to have our own place he is clinically depressed and the anxiety makes me depressed and we are both suicidal at times but both too depressed to do anything about it. Im just glad i have him and we can talk through the crazy together
From Micro: Hey friend. My heart goes out to you. As I was reading your post, I felt the heaviness ofbeing in this situation. It's so hard when depression and anxiety are in the picture as it really interferes with our ability to *take action*, to do the things that we know would be good, but seem so difficult to reach. When you're depressed, it takes an insane amount of energy to do things that are supposed to be normal actions of daily life. A lot of of people don't understand this and there's still way too much stigma when it comes to depression and anxiety. It's good to heart that with your significant other you can talk about those things. Having this space to reflect on how you feel and sharing these experiences can be a strong asset.
Although I hear that it can also feel like a trap at times too. Somehow, when you see the person you share your life with doing things to help themselves, it inspires you at the same time. But when you feel both stuck in the same place, it's hard to figure out what could be the first step to help yourselves. Covid and lockdowns took a real toll on my partner and I as well. I was in the midst of a depressive rut, on a long-term medical leave following a professional burn-out. We're also stuck in a place we don't like and had no perspective of finding a place of our own for a very long time. Then my partner also started to feel really burnt out. It was a rough time during which we were both struggling with our own demons, having a hard time to lift each other up even though we were there for each other of course.
These couple of years have been so heavy for so many of us, and it has reactivated traumas in many different ways. It makes completely sense to have been affected by it and to still feel the effects of it today. Social anxiety especially can feel like using a bicycle at times: we don't *forget* how it feels to socialize, but the less we practice and the more it feels like the anxiety grows.
I'm truly sorry that things have been so difficult for both you and your partner. It sounds like you really are supportive to each other, but it is completely understandable that it adds a layer of heaviness on top of everything else at times. I hear that you've mentioned being afraid of the consequences of seeing a therapist, which is also understandable. Although I would personally be confident that you wouldn't be forced at all to go to a mental hospital/clinic as these are for very specific situations and struggles. Hospitals are already overcrowded and the main tendency nowadays is to try to provide support as much as possible to people *while* they keep living in their home and living their daily life. Mayve it could be interesting for you to at least see a general practictioner and ask all the questions you need to them? You could even see a therapist once and *only* ask the questions you want regarding what *could* happen and in which cases if you decide to open up about what you're going through. This would not engage you to anything, and could be an opportunity to hear directly from a professional how things are. These are of course only some thoughts and these decisions belong to you <3. I hope that, through all of this, you make sure to ask for help if you need -- it's okay to reach out to someone *external*, someone who's not from your direct environment, as they can bring some neutral outlook and perspective to help and support you.
Take care, friend. You will get through this. I believe in you.
I’m so glad I found your page!! 🤘🏻💗
If you haven’t you DEFINETLY. Need to react Falling in reverse - The drug in me is You (Remaigined) this is the new, piano version. Will appreciate the lyrics, and the intensity.
Also LOVE the idea behind the channel!! I love psychology
Yes I agree!!! This song is really amazing. Very deep
Standing uplaus for jordan this part synth so masterpiece bro 🤘🙏👊🇮🇩
Beautiful reaction video ❤❤❤
How you are not famous I have no idea. Big feels on that one!your voice is the real deal! 💯 What if you showcased it on October Ends' "Dark"? Nick Thurl vibes would be proud! 🤟
Thanks 👑👑
React to their new song with Corpse. I think that one is a really cool one to analyze from a therapist's point of view.
Awesome reaction!)
When I used to go to therapy, I was always worried that they'd try to section me; so I would often hold back. I think that a lot of people won't go to therapy for that reason. The therapist can just snap their finger and send you to the crazy house against your will. I've heard some real horror stories. I think that therapists being able to do that hurts more than it helps.
From NateTriesAgain: Yeah, it's hard to trust in your most vulnerable places, right? It's such a chicken-and-the-egg thing. To get better, you have to open up, but when you do, you give someone else power over you - the opportunity to snap their fingers and make your life hard, or make it hell - or also, make it better. It's hard to know which type of situation you're in until you're there, and it's hard to trust when you haven't got a lot of good reasons to do so. So you trust where you can, but you also can't really tell whether or not it's going to help you get better fast enough for it to feel worth it. It honestly just feels like you can mind-fuck yourself out of the situation. It's hard to land somewhere and feel like you can really hang your hat on it. So you do your best, but it's hard to feel like it's enough. Makes a lot of sense. If you don't go to therapy now, what've you replaced it with that's helping you continue progress today? Thank you for writing in.
From JennaLouise: Therapy can be a scary thing for someone to try. And, sure, there are plenty of horror stories about any given topic. I had to experience a few tough therapy sessions before I found the right person. I hope that if you’re currently contemplating therapy that you’ll give it a try if you’re able to. Wishing you all the best, friend.
From ThriceTheThird: Sorry if you have met some bad apples, or had bad experiences in therapy. I have had mixed experience with mental health professionals myself, but I think it is important to not that once I found the ones that worked for me. There was always a sense of trust, and ability to recognize they have my best interest in mind. Not all professionals are right for all people, and some are better at their jobs then others. Regardless of this, I think that the majority of times a therapist intervenes in some ones life. It is out of a Genuine concern that they might be in danger.
From Micro: Indeed, a lot of of people fear the power that a therapist can have when it comes to potentially making decisions for *you*. It's something that changes completely from one country to another, and I don't know how it is where you live, but it is true that too often something that prevents people to seek therapeutic help is the question "what is going to happen if I open up?". It's already scary in itself to share what's on your heart - it makes you feel turly exposed and vulnerable -, so on top of it not knowing enough how involuntary admissions work is just frightening. It makes completely sense that this fear has been part of your own experience too. The fear of consequences was one of the reasons why I reframed from seeking therapy for years. On one side, information regarding psychiatric admissions processes are not shared and known enough. On the other side, the very act of sharing how we feel/what we think/what we do is something many of us have to learn as something *safe* to do. I hope that, today, whether it is with therapy or not, you have found ways to gain this sense of safety in your life. Because sharing how you feel and what you go through is *never* a mistake, and should never be something to fear. <3
I'm guessing the intro to the music vid knocked you back a bit lol
It would be awesome if you react to their song Hospital for Souls ❤
i think you should react to it never ends by bring me the horizon, few songs make me as emotional as that one. would really love to hear your thoughts on it
If you haven't listened to falling in reverse, you should consider: Popular Monster, Voices in my head, watch the world burn
You should really check out Falling in reverse - last resort reimagin, they really bring out the heavyness of the lyrics that jacoby wrote. I think it would be a great talk about the really deep depression were you only see suicide as the way out.
Thank you for another grate reaction and breakdown of the lyrics i really love your content and i feel more ppl should talk about the lyrics more.
Could you make a react Video to the Songs strangers and die for you?😊
Should do a reaction to "Avalanche" if you like BMTH
I think the most positive change I've made in my life was just finally giving up on ever being healthy or happy. I gave up on being normal a long time ago, and that was great. I know I'm weird, and embracing that made me more popular and made life more fun, but I'm not any happier. My life isn't any better. It isn't ever going to be. I go to a doctor. I go to therapy. I do everything I can and everything I'm supposed to. The fact is that society gave up on me, I'm a second-class citizen now, and it's legal to discriminate against me. I'm just going through the motions. I don't know why. I don't honestly care anymore. None of this matters to me. I will say, though, now that I don't have that false expectation of improvement, I'm not as disappointed when I wake up to the same miserable life every day, and I don't stress myself out so much over it.
From KyleGouldOfficial: @Arkeis121 Hello,
Some changes are good and some may become harder don't push to a healthy and happy lifestyle...
Sometimes we tend to push ourselves to these expectations where they could be to point of overcontrolling. This tend to put more on yourself because you're constantly focus on changing this part of yourself when it may be hard to change that side of you. Don't be hard on yourself take it little step at a time to change something and some may not be so easy to do. You will find that out and it good that you are trying to put these positive steps to become happy and healthy. But, it could also be alot so i get where you're going through with and your not alone through whatever you're dealing with.
Take Care & Hold Fast.
From KyleGouldOfficial: @Arkeis121 Hello,
Some changes are good and some may become harder don't push to a healthy and happy lifestyle...
Sometimes we tend to push ourselves to these expectations where they could be to point of overcontrolling. This tend to put more on yourself because you're constantly focus on changing this part of yourself when it may be hard to change that side of you. Don't be hard on yourself take it little step at a time to change something and some may not be so easy to do. You will find that out and it good that you are trying to put these positive steps to become happy and healthy. But, it could also be alot so i get where you're going through with and your not alone through whatever you're dealing with.
Take Care & Hold Fast.
From I-Am-Reclaimer: @Arkeis121 Hey Friend,
Thank you for sharing this with us and I'm happy you found HeartSupport.
On one hand, I think it's a good thing to let go of all the expectations you have of yourelf and others in the sense of it's good to be weird, it's good to be different and it's good to march to the beat of your own drum. Being your authentic self and embracing who you are fully is a huge step toward living a life of fulfillment.
On the other hand, how we talk to ourselves is important. Things like depression, trauma, sickness, greif, etc. is agnostic in who it affects. You can be rich or poor, black or white, tall or short, it hits us all. The only difference in how it effects people is how people let it effect them.
I've been there. Every single thing that did not go in my favor I used as an excuse as to why I wasn't cabable to to X or Y. I let that dominate my life for a long time and that kind of thinking eventually lead me to my own rock bottom.
In my bounce back up off that bottom was a realization in the way I talk to myself. To live is to suffer and to keep telling yourself it doesn't matter or it just is this way and there's nothing to do about it can be crushing. It can suck your soul dry of the passion it has for living. The creative things that you always wanted to do, the places you always wanted to go see, the experiences you always wanted to have all sort of become "whatever."
I went from telling myself that I wasn't going to amount to anything (among many other things) to finding joy and beaty in the smallest things. This morning, for example, I didn't want to get out of bed. I didn't want to go to work, I started feeling bad for myself and telling myself all the reasons why I wasn't going to have a good day.
I caught myself and look at how beautiful the morning clouds were out my window. This little observeation of the profound beaty in the shape shifting clouds I was looking at was enough for me to reverse that and tell myself, "I don't know how, but today will be anazing day."
It was enough to get myself out of bed and get to work...then come here and do some good in the world.
In short, the world may suck. You may be surrounded by cruddy things and people. You may be suffering in whatever way you are.... but there is always...always something of beauty to be seen and it's that little hint of beauty that can carry you through the darkness and lead you to light... a brighter future.
Stay strong my friend. I'm glad you're here.
Hold Fast.
From I-Am-Reclaimer: @Arkeis121 Hey Friend,
Thank you for sharing this with us and I'm happy you found HeartSupport.
On one hand, I think it's a good thing to let go of all the expectations you have of yourelf and others in the sense of it's good to be weird, it's good to be different and it's good to march to the beat of your own drum. Being your authentic self and embracing who you are fully is a huge step toward living a life of fulfillment.
On the other hand, how we talk to ourselves is important. Things like depression, trauma, sickness, greif, etc. is agnostic in who it affects. You can be rich or poor, black or white, tall or short, it hits us all. The only difference in how it effects people is how people let it effect them.
I've been there. Every single thing that did not go in my favor I used as an excuse as to why I wasn't cabable to to X or Y. I let that dominate my life for a long time and that kind of thinking eventually lead me to my own rock bottom.
In my bounce back up off that bottom was a realization in the way I talk to myself. To live is to suffer and to keep telling yourself it doesn't matter or it just is this way and there's nothing to do about it can be crushing. It can suck your soul dry of the passion it has for living. The creative things that you always wanted to do, the places you always wanted to go see, the experiences you always wanted to have all sort of become "whatever."
I went from telling myself that I wasn't going to amount to anything (among many other things) to finding joy and beaty in the smallest things. This morning, for example, I didn't want to get out of bed. I didn't want to go to work, I started feeling bad for myself and telling myself all the reasons why I wasn't going to have a good day.
I caught myself and look at how beautiful the morning clouds were out my window. This little observeation of the profound beaty in the shape shifting clouds I was looking at was enough for me to reverse that and tell myself, "I don't know how, but today will be anazing day."
It was enough to get myself out of bed and get to work...then come here and do some good in the world.
In short, the world may suck. You may be surrounded by cruddy things and people. You may be suffering in whatever way you are.... but there is always...always something of beauty to be seen and it's that little hint of beauty that can carry you through the darkness and lead you to light... a brighter future.
Stay strong my friend. I'm glad you're here.
Hold Fast.
From HC-PinGviini: @Arkeis121 Hey, thank you for sharing your story! A lot of what you say sounds very relatable and I am sorry to hear that you're not feeling any happier with your life. It is especially rough when you go through these motions month after month, year after year and it feels like nothing will ever get any better. Life can feel like a Groundhog Day when there's little changes in life and you go through the same routines in the same environment endlessly in a loop.
Being normal is one thing. Trying to be normal and going by the social norms around you can feel really depressing as you're not living authentically yourself and you keep hiding the real you from the world around you. There's not much use in being normal outside of the usual boundaries of decent human behaviour.
Being treated as a second class citizen and feeling/knowing that there's no punishment for treating you badly is very discouraging for anyone and I'm sorry that you have to go through that where you are. I can tell you for certain that no matter who you are, you're not a second class anything. Every person is a unique, wonderful being and you matter just as much as anyone else in this world matters.
I would like to encourage you to not give up on yourself. Because I'm part of the people and I believe in you and I believe that you can get better and that your better days are still ahead of you. I'm so proud of you for going to the doctor, to go to therapy and that you keep working on yourself. The fact of the matter is that as long as you do, you can believe it that a part of you wants to change and wants to be healthy and happy.
And I think you're worth all of it. You got the fight in you still and I hope you keep the light inside you burning bright for your life ahead. Because you matter and that's a fact.
Damn u cut the best part of video 😆
Can you do a reaction to Bullet by Hollywood Undead???
Or let me know if you have.
Modern day AFI
So how is a Director of Communications / Writer for Heart Support a qualified Therapist???
The fire
Careful who you love
Because mountains do not move
And seas do not shake
Those butterflies are
just escaping the quake
That dagger is made
From a past time of hate
A blacksmith of shame
In the mirror that forsakes
All my feelings just a lie in tomb
A past that has the weight
Lowering slow to the chains
Fell to the bottom
And shattered into splinters
Can’t glue them together
Anymore …
These tides like rivers
running down my face
Still salty like those
waves that were made
I can’t ride the wake
in a composition baby
Wrote those things down
but it all lands hastily
So fuck !!!!!!!!
So fuck !!!!!!!!
So. Fuck!!!!!!!!!! That mirror that resides in me!!!!
Let the fire burn down this place
That clock keeps on ticking
To a metronome of pleas
I’m guided by the spirit of an absentee
A vessel to the ground, dear god I’m listening
This hope in a lantern
Guided by me
Is shadowed by the cross
I bare on my sleeves
These tides like rivers
running down my face
Still salty like those
waves that were made
I can’t ride the wake
in a composition baby
Wrote those things down
but it all lands hastily
So fuck !!!!!!!!
So fuck !!!!!!!!
So. Fuck!!!!!!!!!! That mirror that resides in me!!!!
Let the fire burn down this place
-Ariel Endure
huh. interesting.
Huh. While I respect your perspective I think your interpretation is coming from a very biased place and is intentionally skewing the actual message of this song.
To me this song is a life time of trauma trying to figure yourself out whilst being pulled in different directions from health “professionals” that really don’t care about digging deep and have allowed that to be their reason for becoming static to helping others.
“Why am I this way? Stupid medicine not doing anything, what the hell is fucking wrong with me? I guess there’s no remedy I’m so terribly lost”
This is clearly coming from a place of years of misdiagnosis from westernized health and the trauma that comes along with that and knowing somethings off but not actually getting the help you need.
This song is a middle finger to the pharmaceutical industry and healthcare professionals that get paid too much to do nothing and drag people into a further depression. This song is liberation from years of western medicine preying on the vulnerable and causing a lifetime of damage only to carry that into the next generations; over and over.
Mfs be calling this a masterpeace and he said "my ego is not my amigo"
This is the first time I’ve seen one of your reactions and I’d like to offer my reaction. I’ve worked in the field of behavioral health for over 21 years,, I have lived with bipolar type 1 with psychotic features and co-occurring substance use disorder with my first major experience being in 1981,, when I was a college freshman.
While I appreciated your remarks I’m blown away that you didn’t say anything about the video itself. It was extremely stigmatizing and served to show people who live with mental illness as being deranged and dangerous. People living with mental illness are 12 times more likely to be victims than perpetrators. As someone who spent a significant amount of time as a young person in an institutional setting, I was really disturbed by the imagery portrayed in the video.
My other comment is, why do you not provide a message about the 988 suicide prevention lifeline with the video? I’m not sure what you do with your other ones however I’ve found it a good practice on my radio show to share it.
It’s Mindful Music on 88.7 WBFO Buffalo
www.wbfo.org/show/mindful-music