I really respect your decision to make your recovery your own and to not try and be perfect or follow any trends. You eat REAL food (not "protein" cookies, brownies made with chickpeas and fake sugar, or perfectly macro-specific meals, etc.) and that's real life. There are no recovery foods - there are just foods, and I think that often gets lost a lot with other people trying to recover. And while it's great to see a FDOE at times, there is no substitute for professional help because it's so different for each person. As for exercise, that's my big downfall and obsession, so your words kind of kicked my flat ass. Long story short, you rock and keep killing it, woman.
Abby Heugel I’m so with you on that!!! She is so great!!!! These days of macro, calorie, clean eating make people to forget how to eat which is not complicated if you just eat a lot of variety of real, wholesome tasty foods that aren’t modified, fortified, sugar free, carb free, protein bars.... Just normal not diet/ fitness related crap The funny part that those foods aren’t going to help you to be any healthier or happier just keep you in diet, restrictive mind
Thanks so much, I want to keep choosing and role modelling healthy eating.... And by healthy I mean eating all foods and not restricting... But yes, it would be too much pressure for me to film EVERYTHING I eat. Hopefully it is helpful anyway. Keep challenging and not giving in to your thoughts xxx
Once a week! How will I cope! (Just kidding, no pressure, your recovery and life is most important!) Honestly I can't tell you how much you've been helping me with my recovery, you appeared on youtube right as I was feeling like giving up and genuinely you've been the force that has got me through it. I'm now a 'healthy' weight, and yesterday I felt so fat and was thinking 'i'm restored now it's horrific and I hate it, time to restrict again!' and then I thought about all the things you've said about sitting with discomfort and pushing through the bad days and feeling the bad feelings but continuing anyway for your ultimate goal, and I went and got myself a frappucino (don't think I'd ever have had one if it weren't for you!) and got on with it! So thank you 💓
YES YES YES! This is wonderful to hear. Well done you. Aren't they fabulous! And that's exactly it, that's the message my psychologist gives me all the time. It's not going to feel comfortable, but if you don't push through regardless then the alternative is a life of AN. NO THANK YOU!
I'm glad I'm not alone!! I'm seeing the weight come on my body and am having a really hard time with it. I've got events coming up in these next few months where I'll be going out for weekends with friends and I keep thinking "well you've got to stay thin for that, you don't want them to think you're letting yourself go!" But like................... what?!?! Who the eff cares!!! Everything will be fine! Ugh. Got to keep pushing through! Thank you for sharing!!
I love when I see your videos post! You are an inspiration and I do love the style of your vlogs. The FDOE videos can also be a slippery slope for us who are starting ED recovery, because we see all those foods folks in recovery are eating, salivate over them, only wish we could eat all that food (sugar, carbs..things I restrict), and then dream about that food, only to then restrict and tell myself "that can never be me". Cycle continues. So your style is SO great! Don't change a thing - you're doing amazing!
I totally agree with that. We're all on our own path, so I hope I'm showing good eating and a good attitude to recovery, but allowing people to get on with their own approach and stage. it's a hard one to get right as food is obviously such a focus for us! Thanks for the message though x
I love your waffles! Please keep right on waffling...there is a lot of wisdom in them. I think sitting with crappy feelings is one of the bravest, and most difficult challenges of all, but it has to be done to do away with eating disorders. I was intermittent fasting because (I told myself) it was healthy for my body. I even defended it to a recovery youtuber who challenged it on her channel (I need to apologize to her!) In reality, although it may have loads of health benefits, it was just another way for me to restrict. Anorexia is very sneaky, and it can come up with all sorts of rationalizations for disordered behavior. Bravo for all the hard work you are doing!
God totally get this. So not your fault, AN weaves its way so deeply into our thoughts that we think they are our own thoughts and we thing they're rational, when really they're totally disordered. I have had thoughts that I thought were "recovery motivated", but now I've moved on a bit I can see how disordered they were. At least you recognise it now. Recovery has to have NO restrictions whatsoever, in my mind. Or you'll never be free!
omg finally! I looooove your opinion on "what I eat in a day" videos! so rare to hear this and exactly what I'm thinking all the time. they are so popular and can so easily be misinterpreted. people ignore how different we all are at that specific time in our lives. you are very inspiring. it's so great to see you are doing so well. lots of love 💕
Love this! Listening to this kicks me in the butt. Makes me see how my thoughts are still so disordered. I have toe tipped into recovery too and then backed off. I always feel like I can do it on my own and I think a big part of that is being so shameful of the illness. I only talk about it online. Ive had therapy appointments set up and then I cancel. My ED thoughts get me thinking that oh you can do this on your own. You just need to eat! But it’s not that simple and you really put it out there and expose it. I hope you never feel any pressure to do anything different on your channel and that you keep doing what helps YOU.
Yes, it has to be directly addressed & challenged. EDs never just get better in their own & you can’t just want them away. It’s ALL about actions & challenging & breaking cycles 😘
Thank you so much for answering a lot of my questions! You are doing a very great job and are not waffling at all! You are saying very helpful things. So if time and your wellbeing allows it, keep them coming! 😀 I totally understand the boundaries you are setting around meal plans and not filming a whole day of eating, you are still in recovery too and it's good that you feel where your boundaries are! I like what your psychologist said about connecting your WHY during the process of eating, but also doing things mechanical and distracting yourself from it helps a lot. I'm so happy that your mood, work and social life are improving. I feel so much digestive discomfort and that makes it sometimes very hard to go out of the house. The pain distracts me a lot when I am with other people and I can't focus on other things than the pain. I'm also feeling full all the time, no hunger signals at all. I'm glad to hear that improvement is possible! Good luck again this week with your recovery path, you are doing awesome! ❤️
You're welcome! Glad you recognised the Qs haha. I think that's it, a lot of recovery is hope, trust and faith in something better. Because we know eating disorders are hell!
I feel like you're a friend of mine. you're so kind and caring and all the advice you give feels like it's coming from a very close friend. Thank you Megsy 💜
Awesome Q&A!!!! I was thinking I was going ok pushing myself but you’ve made me realise I’m only taking baby steps which won’t get me anywhere! Soooo I’m excited to actually EAT some of my husbands chocolate on chocolate birthday cake this weekend... xx
Thought your decision not to show a meal plan was thought out really well! People are so eager to broadcast everything today and it can be hard not to start the comparison game💟
It’s so wonderful that your channel is growing so quickly. You’re videos are so pro recovery and so so helpful and positive. I’m so glad I’ve found your videos. Keep doing what you’re doing, you’re doing amazing ❤️
So your vlog from yesterday had gotten me thinking about why I don't do nice things for myself. So I've made a conscious effort to make good lunches and good breakfast and dinners...this morning I made myself an amazing veggie omelette-tasted so much like my favorite omelette from a restaurant I love back home. It tasted amazing and was such a wonderful and enjoyable way to start my day. You're inspiring me in my own recovery-keep at it!
So I live in Baltimore, Maryland now, but originally I am from (middle of nowhere) Missoula, Montana-gorgeous and quirky little city about 3 hours from glacier national park/the Canadian border between the states and Canada. Middle of the Rocky Mountains. Beautiful and will always be home to me.
100% agree that your meal plan is something personal however i wanted to now how much "freedom" you have with it. What i mean is can you pick whatever you want for lunch or everything is already decide in advance or maybe a few options for each meal snack... what is most helpful for you?
At first I had it all defined, because I couldn't cope with choice very well. Now I kind of have options which is so good because ti gives me flexibility if say people are going out for lunch or whatever. I have also had to break away from being terrified of going a calorie over the plan, which has also been very freeing
yeah makes sense!! I ve had such a hard time trying not to count cal but seriously, not counting makes eating more high caloric food/eating more way easier I think (maybe not at first but when you see it doenst really impact your weight then it gets so much easier! :) ) Seriously you could post videos several times a day i d still want more videos! ;) but you re right focus on taking care of yourself and your recovery!
I totally relate to the no hunger going straight to a bottomless pit and the best thing is to just be consistent in eating regardless and if I’m hungry I eat till I’m full and satisfied even if that means a lot more food :)
You are such an inspiration! Your videos are honestly one of the things that are helping me most with my recovery. Thank you from the bottom of my being!
Ahh Meg/Megs/Megsy (not sure which you prefer!); you're videos are so helpful and inspiring. I have a very similar story to yours in terms of the life span of my anorexia/ relapse struggle, as well as the very specific thought patterns that you talk about in the here and now! I now have a 1 year old daughter and feel the weight of the world in responsibility to be a good role model for her, so hearing your insights and realising how much they ring true to me is so incredibly helpful. Can't thank you enough for sharing this! Although, out of curiosity, what made you decide to start a recovery channel on RUclips? Was it seeing others like Jen Brett doing it? Did you/ do you have concerns that people who don't already know about your struggles seeing these videos (e.g. like people from work)? I am always so reluctant to let people know of my ED past/present as I feel like they might assume things about me or judge me... OR even pity me which would make me feel so uncomfortable. How do your family/friends and even your treatment team feel about your RUclips videos? Regardless, I definately appreciate them, if we were ever in the same country (or even on the same side of the world - haha - Im in New Zealand!), i feel like we would have such a laugh hanging out together. All the best to you and yours! X
Ahhhh I really want to go to New Zealand! Maybe one day. I haven't told anyone (friends or family) about my recovery account yet. I was just trying it for a couple of weeks and then it's kind of taken off and I've enjoyed it and it's helping me. I have always been quite embarrassed about being ill, and hidden it and I was SO scared that people might find my channel. But seeing how much it is helping other people and also has helped me, that kind of makes it all worth while and makes me feel less embarrassed if some one does find it. It is a big part of me really, and I can't help that it's happened, and I am doing everything to get well now and use it to do some good in the world. So I hope people can admire that if they do find it.
I feel like "coming out" so to speak would be a MASSIVE commitment to long term recovery for me. A kind of "no going back there" move. I think that'll be next. I am so glad you have your daughter as motivation. I can only imagine how much that must mean for recovery and yeh like you say wanting to be a good role model. I guess also wanting to be present for her and give her all of you. Wishing you both all the best, lots of love xxxxx
You’re so motivated in your recovery which motivated me as well 💪🏻! Love your positivity❤️! Please stay strong & do remember recovery is worth it! 🌟 I had been challenging my fear food by eating out with family everyday, I felt so free & happy for the first time in 2 years 😆! And I tried not to weigh myself because I don’t want the ED voice says like “oh never eat that or that ever again , they make you FAT! “ . In fact, Food is fuel😩 Can’t wait to watch your next video✨✨
This is brilliant. It is so so nice after a period of challenging something to start thinking “huh, that’s just not scary any more”. It’s so liberating. Kind of scary in its own way to NOT have the fears, but that’s what being in life is about! Keep challenging 😘
Megsy Recovery Yes ! It feels so good to eat food that I actually crave & enjoy😆 It’s always scary at first but it’s totally worth it💪🏻 Thinking back that the food I eat during my ED really taste gross & plain ! No wonder I was always craving real food 😩
Thank you for sharing about your life and your journey so far. Its nice to have context and to get to know you! I was wondering, since you said that Brendan has been a real support for you, whether he would be willing to come on camera with you and for you both to discuss what has been useful and what has worked for both someone facilitating recovery and the person themselves? I also wanted to ask how this recovery is different from your previous recovery and what are you putting in place this time to prevent a relapse? Cheers!
I will do a vlog on the relapse at some point, & like what caused it & how to prevent it in future. Just want to do a bit more work with my psychologist first. I don’t think Bren would feel that comfortable with that which is a shame, maybe one day he will catch me recording again & have an unplanned chat. I know reading a lot helped him to understand & talking to me. He prepares all my meals as well which helps to take some of the decisions away from me & loosens my control in the kitchen
I came across your Chanel and have purged on your videos 😂 watched every single in like two days. I just felt I had to write and say a massive thank you to you. You are literally the first person who says everything that’s going on in my own head. I’ve never reached out to anyone before so this is the first. You have made me feel that actually I’m not a weirdo and that other people are having the same distorted way of thinking and at the age of 39 I feel like I should be grown up enough to be a proper adult what ever that is , so keep it up I applaud you from the bottom of my heart, your videos are sooooooo helpful ❤️👍😃
So glad you’re relating. Yeh it’s hard when you’re in proper “adult” territory. I still hide my illness from people I know (share with close friends and family) because I always think you need to appear fine & together. To be honest I think most people are doing the same thing, even if they don’t have an ED! Good luck for you 😘😘😘
Probiotics really help me with my stomach problems, and things like prunes and apples :) and yes it just takes time for your body to get used to the different foods and learn to digest them... one thing is you don`t have the bacteria to do it and enzymes! Apple cider vinegar with some water or spoon full alwayyyysss helps me when I feel to full, sick or bloated after a meal :)
I take probiotic supplements and they help a lot. Also yogurt with live cultures! (Activia, actimel...) Literally this helps me so much I have at least one yog a day (and they tasty!) Also peppermint tea soothes the stomach, and ginger in any form (tea, crystallised pieces, biscuits(!)) xxx
And you can get probiotics in saurkraut, kefir, kombucha and kimchi like the person above says, but honestly they all taste a little odd and I personally find the supplements much easier to commit to every day. xx
Seriously feel you on the pastry addiction exact same thing happened to me in recovery I used to love them as a child but stopped. Ever since I’ve been recovered peacan plaits are all I crave when I want something sweet haha gal you enjoy gal x
That breakfast looked delicious! You spoke of a meal plan, so I'm curious... do you follow a meal plan to keep yourself accountable on getting enough calories, or to make sure you don't go over your calories? I'm just starting this journey without a therapist or dietician and am intuitive eating (I guess) and feel like I am eating everything. I live in a very small town but I would like to find someone to go to for help, I know no one here is a professional. :) I'm not extremely underweight, it was more of overexercise and very restrictive eating. I'm afraid I'll just keep eating and eating!! Peanut butter for dayssss!!!
I guess I have the plan to get some help, because left to myself I don't make the right decisions (yet). And obviously I don't know how much you are eating but 1) our head will always tell us it's more than it is, and 2) not surprising if you want to eat EVERYTHING after restrictive eating, because your body and mind are both crying out for food! Is there some one you could travel to go and see, if you want some advice on diet and meal plan to follow?
Thanks for your response! That makes sense. I need to do some research. This video has helped me see the importance of getting outside help, and to not go at this alone. Thanks!
Hi! You are a great help in my recovery. I'm really struggling with the weight gain. Last week I gained, as was planned, but I'm really having a hard time sticking to my mealplan, knowing I will gain, because that's what happened last week. I know I have to gain, but in my head I am freaking out. I don't want to gain weight anymore and I wonder why I can't just stabalize at this weight, even though I'm underweight. And I'm also scared that all the weight gain will go to my stomach area and I won't have a nice figure and flat stomach when I gain. These things really keep me from sticking to my weight gain plan.. My question: Is the weight you gain distributing evenly over your body of is it all going to your stomach area and if so, how do you cope with that?
I’d try & focus on what weight gain is bringing for you hun. What does it allow you to do? What symptoms have gotten better? Like for me I love having better hair, not being freezing, having more energy, sleeping, having less rigidity in my head. I’m scared of weight gain too & what my body will look like, but then I also want to live my life & im sick of being consumed by thoughts of food & weight
Ooh wow, I follow her too..but she's amazing too. I love your advice/answers to tthe questions. It's helpful. It makes me see and noticed my Ed stuff. Thanx for sharing you personal life and thoughts. Your one of my favs. I guess I am still wondering how did you get through that difficult situation where your actually going to change things...I feel my fears are really strong..I don't understand sometimes why I'm so scared....uugh....I admire you Soo much, your content is soooo encouraging and relatable, I love them. Also, I'm proud of you. You are accomplishing soo much for a better, healthier, happier life. 🖤💟💜🐈 Your videos also make me so happy and enlighted...you challenge yourself and talk about it, you have your kitties around and you share stories/experiences/opinions...I just love it. Thank you🌠
Deyanira Ramos I made a vlog on the yo-yo stage which talks about this, & I’ve done one on coping with weight gain which I’ll post in next couple of weeks whilst I’m away
hi my name is kiana i have both types of eating disorders as well and i can understand what your going through i just came upon these types of videos and they been really helpful to me so its ok to rant because i totally understand where your coming from. i feel the same way. i'm still recovering as well its hard. but we'll get through it
I am struggling with my small portion and my appetite. I am underweight for a long time. My dietitian gives me a meal plan but I can not eat enough. I have lots of indigestion issues and gastritis . Have you experienced any similar issues? How do you make sure you eat enough food?
Have you tried digestive enzymes or probiotics? Both have really been helpful for bloating and just generally tummy issues. omg that bagel sandwich!!!! YUM!!! Going out for lunch today with a friend who is very supportive and I’m planning to NOT plan what I will eat. Love the q&a👌🏼
Ooooh enjoy your lunch with your friend. That’s living!! & no I don’t have probiotics. But I definitely will get some. Do you just buy them as a supplement?
Megsy Recovery At the natural food store. There are so many brands with different strains of cultures. Maybe your nutritionist could recommend one. And...lunch was good. We had so many laughs and I finished the afternoon with a venti white chocolate frappachino!!! Plus we changed cafes at the last minute so even if I wanted to plan my meal, no dice lol
I just found your channel today and your videos motivate me so much to recover! Litarally watching all your videos now haha! But I'm curious where you live. You sound brittish but the weather is way too beautiful for britain heheh
No pressure but maybe sometime you can share how you are dealing with body checking and close fitting different or fitting at all😊....basically changes in body size and shape, feeling jiggly and flabby??? TMI!!😊
Yes, good topic. OK I'll cover it at some point. I don't actually body check (luckily) but the clothes thing I can cover definitely. I was planning to do it when I grow out of something soon because I know it'll be hard
Missy Turner for some reason she doesnt answer this question! I asked in a previous video😂its not like we wanna know her address🤷🏽♀️just curious cos it looks beautiful and sunny ! 😍
Just going through your videos great help. Was wondering have u suffered 3 times from your eating disorder? And did u ever get to a set point do u think? Thanks xx
Hi! I just wanted to say thank you so much for all of your videos- they honestly have helped me immensely in my own recovery. I wanted to ask if you could ever give some advice on going out for meals? I'm starting a new outpatient treatment in March and it's a day program- part of the program consists of going out for meals around 4 times a week. However I still find eating out such a struggle and i tend to feel the need to compensate if i do go out. Sorry if I'm waffling ahaha but yeah just wondering on advice on how to eat out but make sure you continue with your eating plan etc. Thank you again!! ALSO i adore your cats omg!! much love from Australia xx
healing banana hi, yeh I really struggled with this but now I’m brilliant at it (if I can say that myself). I know I can eat anything on the menu, go out unplanned, & never compensate. I don’t have a magic answer on how to get there though. I just had to do it, feel anxious, panic about having “more calories” than I would have had at home, think I was getting fat, wanting to compensate but not letting myself.... it’s really hard at first; but you just have to do it & repeat it for it to get better & become a comfortable experience. I actually love it now!
I know you cant share your meal plan but you also seem to still be able to choose what youre feeling you want to eat. So how is it set up? I want that kind of plan where i dont have to count bc i get obsessed. So does it tell you ok breakfast: x amount of carbs...x amount of fats..etc and you get to pick what that is?
Wow no not at all. I don’t even count calories, never mind fats & carbs. Everything is balanced, so like meals are fats & protein & carbs & then I can be flexible ish within that. I used to have the same thing every day & stick to my plan to the letter, but now I’m just so much more relaxed. If I have something more calories than another thing I just don’t mind. But that’s just come with time & weight gain. So yeh, it’s a rough plan & my dietician does the calories for me. Hope that helps
Ask your health professional about taking apple cider vinegar or bitters before a meal. It helps stimulate HCL acid in the stomach which is what helps break down and digest food. It was a huuge help for me in the beginning phase of increasing my intake with discomfort.
It’s a tincture of naturally bitter herbs that can help your body produce digestive “juices” before eating. Many health food stores will carry different blends!
I wouldn't say no to a drink either but I find it so hard not to compensate! It's like I literally see the calories swimming in my glass of wine and my brain goes "well you can't have all that food to go with it you little greedy piggy" - it's so stressful! Have you experienced that as well? how do you cope with it?
yes I do, alcohol is a current challenge for me because I want to be able to drink and I love wine but I do get those thoughts of "well you need to make up for it". I'm currently challenging it with just totally going against it and doing the opposite. It's hard, but I'm doing it to get to a point where I can just enjoy a glass of wine and not see it as something which needs to be substituted in x
Hi! I'm not sure if you have answered this before but how does Bren help you in your recovery? Does he aide in helping you to recover? Thank you for being so inspiring!💖
Yes, we talk together a lot and he prepares a lot of my food. Just to take some of it away from me and because I can't quite trust my judgment. He does a lot of reading and watching vlogs to help him understand
It's SO interesting how the stomach tells the brain whether we're full or not. There are so many nerves in the gut its literally like a second brain. There's also the microbiome which are the good bacteria which produce chemicals to say 'more fooood' or 'OOOH I'm stuffed'. And there's the hormones as well AND there's stretch mediated responses, which basically see how much your stomach has expanded and then relay that to the brain. It's SUPER COMPLICATED and there's all these systems at work, which is probably why the hunger signals are a bit effed up in recovery.
Does your dietician plan exactly what you have each day? Or do you mean she has given you a general plan that you choose the actual food? (Don't answer if you don't want to!)
i've decided to go raw vegan cause being vegan help with disorders . i have the same issues and struggles as you. sometimes i feel sick. i'm still struggle with that pain. it's hard to recover. i've been to the hospital so many times . and they didn't know what was wrong up until now
Not any more. Used to, It stopped with weight gain and also I force myself not to do it now because it is odd and I used to be embarrassed eating in public because of it.
I love this account so much! Idk how I found you, but I saw you on Instagram and saw you had a RUclips channel, and I thought “I’ll watch one” Fast forward 5 hours and I had watched all your videos. I LOVE you!!! You are so inspiring, and I aspire to be like you! I follow you on insta, and I’d love to dm you! It’s @recovery_for_music . I do have one question though: I use a lot of olive oil/butter in my cooking to up my calories, but some think my meals are too small....what are your suggestions for easing up on the oil and increasing portions?
Of course lovely, go ahead I DM me & we can chat on there! I don’t know how well I can advise you on your diet though. Do you have help from a dietician or anything?
I enjoy listening to you, and each episode is more inspiring--and thank you for eating for you, yourself, not for voyeurs. Megsy youtube is a reality check. For those of us who do not participate in any social media, this is a bit of a special thing, so please know that. You are a breath of fresh air, the most un-disordered eating disorder touch point online:) So, one question:: what do you want to be when you grow up?! This is opening so much for you, for us... the life perspective changes, with a fed brain!! Big thanks, and keep it up! Challenge, challenge, challenge :)
THAT is the question of the hour for me at the moment, it's kind of scaring me getting a freer head because I'm like shiiiiiit what do I fill that with now haha. Just trying to be patient and not worry that I don't have all the answers or something perfect in place straight away. I'm sure I'll find my space (eek!). Thanks for your lovely message x
Eleonore Constant I work in HR & my degree is in Psychology. Dream job ooooh not sure. Something working closer to people I think but I don’t know what I would be good at 😂
How can we best support you, in order to support ourselves? This is a beautiful community. I would love to have you consider sharing a weekly challenge--maybe for yourself--that we all can share. Meow
Yeh I'll definitely keep sharing with people what I am challenging. Everyone's challenges are probably quite personal to them but hopefully it's helpful to be able to see the process of me getting over fears. It's literally happening daily at the moment! Yikes.
Hi .... OK lets Start with the fun part first ... I realy realy like what you are doing but this TV show has scared me soooooo mutch ... Sorry now i have to go in the kitchen and wrap some Aluminium folie around my head ;-) hihihi But now without any jokes ... Hmmmm you can say i am the other side of the coin ... I work until the last 3 years on my "devorce" from obesity ... Some big steps are done ... And i have found a way thats works for me ... But now we came to the point were i have to thank you sooooooo mutch ... To see how brave you push yourself it makes me to do one of the last steps of my own plans .. After 15 years i look for a job that is better for me and the health ... Again a big thank you for this ... Hope you have a great day ... Get your goals for today and take care of you and look out for something realy jummy ;-)
OK little update i have survived the Interview and tomorrow is the "try the work day" you know ... We want to See how you work and do you fit into the team ... So again a big thank you for your inspiration ... ;-)
Job is so important, I think we have to have a sense of purpose in our lives and meaningfulness to be able to choose health over disordered eating. And no matter what the disorder, we all share distorted thoughts and deserve a better life than one focused on food and weight!
I really respect your decision to make your recovery your own and to not try and be perfect or follow any trends. You eat REAL food (not "protein" cookies, brownies made with chickpeas and fake sugar, or perfectly macro-specific meals, etc.) and that's real life. There are no recovery foods - there are just foods, and I think that often gets lost a lot with other people trying to recover. And while it's great to see a FDOE at times, there is no substitute for professional help because it's so different for each person. As for exercise, that's my big downfall and obsession, so your words kind of kicked my flat ass. Long story short, you rock and keep killing it, woman.
Abby Heugel
I’m so with you on that!!!
She is so great!!!!
These days of macro, calorie, clean eating make people to forget how to eat which is not complicated if you just eat a lot of variety of real, wholesome tasty foods that aren’t modified, fortified, sugar free, carb free, protein bars....
Just normal not diet/ fitness related crap
The funny part that those foods aren’t going to help you to be any healthier or happier just keep you in diet, restrictive mind
Thanks so much, I want to keep choosing and role modelling healthy eating.... And by healthy I mean eating all foods and not restricting... But yes, it would be too much pressure for me to film EVERYTHING I eat. Hopefully it is helpful anyway. Keep challenging and not giving in to your thoughts xxx
Yes YES YES. And yes! no games! this is the revolution!!!
Once a week! How will I cope! (Just kidding, no pressure, your recovery and life is most important!) Honestly I can't tell you how much you've been helping me with my recovery, you appeared on youtube right as I was feeling like giving up and genuinely you've been the force that has got me through it. I'm now a 'healthy' weight, and yesterday I felt so fat and was thinking 'i'm restored now it's horrific and I hate it, time to restrict again!' and then I thought about all the things you've said about sitting with discomfort and pushing through the bad days and feeling the bad feelings but continuing anyway for your ultimate goal, and I went and got myself a frappucino (don't think I'd ever have had one if it weren't for you!) and got on with it! So thank you 💓
YES YES YES! This is wonderful to hear. Well done you. Aren't they fabulous! And that's exactly it, that's the message my psychologist gives me all the time. It's not going to feel comfortable, but if you don't push through regardless then the alternative is a life of AN. NO THANK YOU!
I'm glad I'm not alone!! I'm seeing the weight come on my body and am having a really hard time with it. I've got events coming up in these next few months where I'll be going out for weekends with friends and I keep thinking "well you've got to stay thin for that, you don't want them to think you're letting yourself go!" But like................... what?!?! Who the eff cares!!! Everything will be fine! Ugh. Got to keep pushing through! Thank you for sharing!!
I love when I see your videos post! You are an inspiration and I do love the style of your vlogs. The FDOE videos can also be a slippery slope for us who are starting ED recovery, because we see all those foods folks in recovery are eating, salivate over them, only wish we could eat all that food (sugar, carbs..things I restrict), and then dream about that food, only to then restrict and tell myself "that can never be me". Cycle continues. So your style is SO great! Don't change a thing - you're doing amazing!
I totally agree with that. We're all on our own path, so I hope I'm showing good eating and a good attitude to recovery, but allowing people to get on with their own approach and stage. it's a hard one to get right as food is obviously such a focus for us! Thanks for the message though x
I love your waffles! Please keep right on waffling...there is a lot of wisdom in them. I think sitting with crappy feelings is one of the bravest, and most difficult challenges of all, but it has to be done to do away with eating disorders. I was intermittent fasting because (I told myself) it was healthy for my body. I even defended it to a recovery youtuber who challenged it on her channel (I need to apologize to her!) In reality, although it may have loads of health benefits, it was just another way for me to restrict. Anorexia is very sneaky, and it can come up with all sorts of rationalizations for disordered behavior. Bravo for all the hard work you are doing!
God totally get this. So not your fault, AN weaves its way so deeply into our thoughts that we think they are our own thoughts and we thing they're rational, when really they're totally disordered. I have had thoughts that I thought were "recovery motivated", but now I've moved on a bit I can see how disordered they were. At least you recognise it now. Recovery has to have NO restrictions whatsoever, in my mind. Or you'll never be free!
Those pastries though... yum! Your smile and laugh is everything. Keep pushing on gorgeous girl xx
omg finally! I looooove your opinion on "what I eat in a day" videos! so rare to hear this and exactly what I'm thinking all the time. they are so popular and can so easily be misinterpreted.
people ignore how different we all are at that specific time in our lives.
you are very inspiring. it's so great to see you are doing so well. lots of love 💕
Love this! Listening to this kicks me in the butt. Makes me see how my thoughts are still so disordered. I have toe tipped into recovery too and then backed off. I always feel like I can do it on my own and I think a big part of that is being so shameful of the illness. I only talk about it online. Ive had therapy appointments set up and then I cancel. My ED thoughts get me thinking that oh you can do this on your own. You just need to eat! But it’s not that simple and you really put it out there and expose it. I hope you never feel any pressure to do anything different on your channel and that you keep doing what helps YOU.
Yes, it has to be directly addressed & challenged. EDs never just get better in their own & you can’t just want them away. It’s ALL about actions & challenging & breaking cycles 😘
Thank you so much for answering a lot of my questions! You are doing a very great job and are not waffling at all! You are saying very helpful things. So if time and your wellbeing allows it, keep them coming! 😀 I totally understand the boundaries you are setting around meal plans and not filming a whole day of eating, you are still in recovery too and it's good that you feel where your boundaries are! I like what your psychologist said about connecting your WHY during the process of eating, but also doing things mechanical and distracting yourself from it helps a lot. I'm so happy that your mood, work and social life are improving. I feel so much digestive discomfort and that makes it sometimes very hard to go out of the house. The pain distracts me a lot when I am with other people and I can't focus on other things than the pain. I'm also feeling full all the time, no hunger signals at all. I'm glad to hear that improvement is possible! Good luck again this week with your recovery path, you are doing awesome! ❤️
You're welcome! Glad you recognised the Qs haha. I think that's it, a lot of recovery is hope, trust and faith in something better. Because we know eating disorders are hell!
I feel like you're a friend of mine. you're so kind and caring and all the advice you give feels like it's coming from a very close friend. Thank you Megsy 💜
Digestion absolutely gets way better girly💚
Really needed to hear this....14:26 is great motivation. This entire video (and channel) gives me so much hope for recovery.
Awesome Q&A!!!! I was thinking I was going ok pushing myself but you’ve made me realise I’m only taking baby steps which won’t get me anywhere! Soooo I’m excited to actually EAT some of my husbands chocolate on chocolate birthday cake this weekend... xx
Mmmm yes, enjoy it! That's living. He will never have a birthday cake at this age again, so it'd be a shame if you couldn't enjoy it with him!
Great answers, thank you! You don't waffle! 💛
A lot of waffle was edited out hahahaha
Megsy Recovery I think you are fantastic at describing things that are difficult to describe, please keep waffling! 😛💜
Thought your decision not to show a meal plan was thought out really well! People are so eager to broadcast everything today and it can be hard not to start the comparison game💟
It’s so wonderful that your channel is growing so quickly. You’re videos are so pro recovery and so so helpful and positive. I’m so glad I’ve found your videos. Keep doing what you’re doing, you’re doing amazing ❤️
So your vlog from yesterday had gotten me thinking about why I don't do nice things for myself. So I've made a conscious effort to make good lunches and good breakfast and dinners...this morning I made myself an amazing veggie omelette-tasted so much like my favorite omelette from a restaurant I love back home. It tasted amazing and was such a wonderful and enjoyable way to start my day. You're inspiring me in my own recovery-keep at it!
Ooooh amazing, sounds so nice! Keep treating yourself! Where is home for you?
So I live in Baltimore, Maryland now, but originally I am from (middle of nowhere) Missoula, Montana-gorgeous and quirky little city about 3 hours from glacier national park/the Canadian border between the states and Canada. Middle of the Rocky Mountains. Beautiful and will always be home to me.
oooooh that sounds like my kind of beautiful place!
ruclips.net/video/RaziZgWRCNE/видео.html If you ever find yourself in the Western US, highly recommend Glacier Park. So gorgeous.
100% agree that your meal plan is something personal however i wanted to now how much "freedom" you have with it. What i mean is can you pick whatever you want for lunch or everything is already decide in advance or maybe a few options for each meal snack... what is most helpful for you?
At first I had it all defined, because I couldn't cope with choice very well. Now I kind of have options which is so good because ti gives me flexibility if say people are going out for lunch or whatever. I have also had to break away from being terrified of going a calorie over the plan, which has also been very freeing
yeah makes sense!! I ve had such a hard time trying not to count cal but seriously, not counting makes eating more high caloric food/eating more way easier I think (maybe not at first but when you see it doenst really impact your weight then it gets so much easier! :) ) Seriously you could post videos several times a day i d still want more videos! ;) but you re right focus on taking care of yourself and your recovery!
Yeh not counting has helped me SO much. After the initial anxiety of it. Life is not a number and we should not be defined by them!
I totally relate to the no hunger going straight to a bottomless pit and the best thing is to just be consistent in eating regardless and if I’m hungry I eat till I’m full and satisfied even if that means a lot more food :)
Value all you say and your honesty. I’ve not quite started recovery yet( next week! 🤯) but, I feels doable by listening to you xx
I just love watching your videos so much😘😘😘
Your recovery path is leading to a normal unrestrictive and happy life!!!!
So proud of you!!!! 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼
That's the aim! Thank you x
You are such an inspiration! Your videos are honestly one of the things that are helping me most with my recovery. Thank you from the bottom of my being!
Ahh Meg/Megs/Megsy (not sure which you prefer!); you're videos are so helpful and inspiring. I have a very similar story to yours in terms of the life span of my anorexia/ relapse struggle, as well as the very specific thought patterns that you talk about in the here and now! I now have a 1 year old daughter and feel the weight of the world in responsibility to be a good role model for her, so hearing your insights and realising how much they ring true to me is so incredibly helpful. Can't thank you enough for sharing this! Although, out of curiosity, what made you decide to start a recovery channel on RUclips? Was it seeing others like Jen Brett doing it? Did you/ do you have concerns that people who don't already know about your struggles seeing these videos (e.g. like people from work)? I am always so reluctant to let people know of my ED past/present as I feel like they might assume things about me or judge me... OR even pity me which would make me feel so uncomfortable. How do your family/friends and even your treatment team feel about your RUclips videos? Regardless, I definately appreciate them, if we were ever in the same country (or even on the same side of the world - haha - Im in New Zealand!), i feel like we would have such a laugh hanging out together. All the best to you and yours! X
Ahhhh I really want to go to New Zealand! Maybe one day. I haven't told anyone (friends or family) about my recovery account yet. I was just trying it for a couple of weeks and then it's kind of taken off and I've enjoyed it and it's helping me. I have always been quite embarrassed about being ill, and hidden it and I was SO scared that people might find my channel. But seeing how much it is helping other people and also has helped me, that kind of makes it all worth while and makes me feel less embarrassed if some one does find it. It is a big part of me really, and I can't help that it's happened, and I am doing everything to get well now and use it to do some good in the world. So I hope people can admire that if they do find it.
I feel like "coming out" so to speak would be a MASSIVE commitment to long term recovery for me. A kind of "no going back there" move. I think that'll be next. I am so glad you have your daughter as motivation. I can only imagine how much that must mean for recovery and yeh like you say wanting to be a good role model. I guess also wanting to be present for her and give her all of you. Wishing you both all the best, lots of love xxxxx
You are so amazing to reply so honestly and kindly to my message. Thank you SO MUCH, you are hands down my favourite RUclipsr X
Love that you set boundaries!!
Stop everything you're doing. A new video is up! Thank you 💜
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I LOVE IT WHEN U RAMBLE..KEEP RAMBLING😆💕😆💕😆
your fur-baby is beyond adorable!
I wish I had someone to share my struggles but I am so glad for your vids
I love your videos, Meg! Thank you for them.
You’re so motivated in your recovery which motivated me as well 💪🏻! Love your positivity❤️! Please stay strong & do remember recovery is worth it! 🌟 I had been challenging my fear food by eating out with family everyday, I felt so free & happy for the first time in 2 years 😆! And I tried not to weigh myself because I don’t want the ED voice says like “oh never eat that or that ever again , they make you FAT! “ . In fact, Food is fuel😩 Can’t wait to watch your next video✨✨
This is brilliant. It is so so nice after a period of challenging something to start thinking “huh, that’s just not scary any more”. It’s so liberating. Kind of scary in its own way to NOT have the fears, but that’s what being in life is about! Keep challenging 😘
Megsy Recovery Yes ! It feels so good to eat food that I actually crave & enjoy😆 It’s always scary at first but it’s totally worth it💪🏻 Thinking back that the food I eat during my ED really taste gross & plain ! No wonder I was always craving real food 😩
Thank you for sharing about your life and your journey so far. Its nice to have context and to get to know you! I was wondering, since you said that Brendan has been a real support for you, whether he would be willing to come on camera with you and for you both to discuss what has been useful and what has worked for both someone facilitating recovery and the person themselves? I also wanted to ask how this recovery is different from your previous recovery and what are you putting in place this time to prevent a relapse? Cheers!
I will do a vlog on the relapse at some point, & like what caused it & how to prevent it in future. Just want to do a bit more work with my psychologist first. I don’t think Bren would feel that comfortable with that which is a shame, maybe one day he will catch me recording again & have an unplanned chat. I know reading a lot helped him to understand & talking to me. He prepares all my meals as well which helps to take some of the decisions away from me & loosens my control in the kitchen
I came across your Chanel and have purged on your videos 😂 watched every single in like two days. I just felt I had to write and say a massive thank you to you. You are literally the first person who says everything that’s going on in my own head. I’ve never reached out to anyone before so this is the first. You have made me feel that actually I’m not a weirdo and that other people are having the same distorted way of thinking and at the age of 39 I feel like I should be grown up enough to be a proper adult what ever that is , so keep it up I applaud you from the bottom of my heart, your videos are sooooooo helpful ❤️👍😃
So glad you’re relating. Yeh it’s hard when you’re in proper “adult” territory. I still hide my illness from people I know (share with close friends and family) because I always think you need to appear fine & together. To be honest I think most people are doing the same thing, even if they don’t have an ED! Good luck for you 😘😘😘
I love your analogies!!!!
i love your personality💕 thank you! you help me so much in my recovery and i am so happy that i found your channel:)
love from germany
the background of your balcony looks so beautiful!
Would you be able to share what reading materials Bren found helpful and what blogs he watched. Thank you! X
Probiotics really help me with my stomach problems, and things like prunes and apples :) and yes it just takes time for your body to get used to the different foods and learn to digest them... one thing is you don`t have the bacteria to do it and enzymes! Apple cider vinegar with some water or spoon full alwayyyysss helps me when I feel to full, sick or bloated after a meal :)
Natural probiotics not fake ones: Sauerkraut, Kefir, Kombucha, Kimchi and stay away from natural sweeteners soo bad for your gut 0.0
Do you mean artificial sugars or what kind of sweeteners do you mean?
So helpful, thank you! Do you get these probiotics as supplements then? or are they found in foods? I don't know much about this
I take probiotic supplements and they help a lot. Also yogurt with live cultures! (Activia, actimel...) Literally this helps me so much I have at least one yog a day (and they tasty!) Also peppermint tea soothes the stomach, and ginger in any form (tea, crystallised pieces, biscuits(!)) xxx
And you can get probiotics in saurkraut, kefir, kombucha and kimchi like the person above says, but honestly they all taste a little odd and I personally find the supplements much easier to commit to every day. xx
You are like a daily inspiration/therapy session for me! Stay strong :)!
Thank you for all you do! You’re so helpful. Helping me challenge my exercise
Seriously feel you on the pastry addiction exact same thing happened to me in recovery I used to love them as a child but stopped. Ever since I’ve been recovered peacan plaits are all I crave when I want something sweet haha gal you enjoy gal x
Awwww pecan plait craving twins!!
That breakfast looked delicious! You spoke of a meal plan, so I'm curious... do you follow a meal plan to keep yourself accountable on getting enough calories, or to make sure you don't go over your calories? I'm just starting this journey without a therapist or dietician and am intuitive eating (I guess) and feel like I am eating everything. I live in a very small town but I would like to find someone to go to for help, I know no one here is a professional. :) I'm not extremely underweight, it was more of overexercise and very restrictive eating. I'm afraid I'll just keep eating and eating!! Peanut butter for dayssss!!!
I guess I have the plan to get some help, because left to myself I don't make the right decisions (yet). And obviously I don't know how much you are eating but 1) our head will always tell us it's more than it is, and 2) not surprising if you want to eat EVERYTHING after restrictive eating, because your body and mind are both crying out for food! Is there some one you could travel to go and see, if you want some advice on diet and meal plan to follow?
Thanks for your response! That makes sense. I need to do some research. This video has helped me see the importance of getting outside help, and to not go at this alone. Thanks!
Mar Pete massive luck to you with it 😘😘
Hi! You are a great help in my recovery. I'm really struggling with the weight gain. Last week I gained, as was planned, but I'm really having a hard time sticking to my mealplan, knowing I will gain, because that's what happened last week. I know I have to gain, but in my head I am freaking out. I don't want to gain weight anymore and I wonder why I can't just stabalize at this weight, even though I'm underweight. And I'm also scared that all the weight gain will go to my stomach area and I won't have a nice figure and flat stomach when I gain. These things really keep me from sticking to my weight gain plan..
My question: Is the weight you gain distributing evenly over your body of is it all going to your stomach area and if so, how do you cope with that?
I’d try & focus on what weight gain is bringing for you hun. What does it allow you to do? What symptoms have gotten better? Like for me I love having better hair, not being freezing, having more energy, sleeping, having less rigidity in my head. I’m scared of weight gain too & what my body will look like, but then I also want to live my life & im sick of being consumed by thoughts of food & weight
I love all your analogies and the way you look at things. 😘😘
Ooh wow, I follow her too..but she's amazing too. I love your advice/answers to tthe questions. It's helpful. It makes me see and noticed my Ed stuff. Thanx for sharing you personal life and thoughts. Your one of my favs. I guess I am still wondering how did you get through that difficult situation where your actually going to change things...I feel my fears are really strong..I don't understand sometimes why I'm so scared....uugh....I admire you Soo much, your content is soooo encouraging and relatable, I love them. Also, I'm proud of you. You are accomplishing soo much for a better, healthier, happier life. 🖤💟💜🐈 Your videos also make me so happy and enlighted...you challenge yourself and talk about it, you have your kitties around and you share stories/experiences/opinions...I just love it. Thank you🌠
Deyanira Ramos I made a vlog on the yo-yo stage which talks about this, & I’ve done one on coping with weight gain which I’ll post in next couple of weeks whilst I’m away
Megsy Recovery that's great. Thaaaaaank you😎👍🖤🌠💜
It is honestly scary HOW much of what you say I relate to.... it's haunting to be honest... wow...
hi my name is kiana i have both types of eating disorders as well and i can understand what your going through i just came upon these types of videos and they been really helpful to me so its ok to rant because i totally understand where your coming from. i feel the same way. i'm still recovering as well its hard. but we'll get through it
New here. Your personality is so cute!! Enjoying your videos!!
Love everything you do & say. So helpful!!!!!! 😘
Your answers are perfect💕💕💕
Really helpful advices! Thank You.
Omg I love your t shirt when you're eating the bagel.. where can I buy that!?
Haha think it was forever 21 😘
I am struggling with my small portion and my appetite. I am underweight for a long time. My dietitian gives me a meal plan but I can not eat enough. I have lots of indigestion issues and gastritis . Have you experienced any similar issues? How do you make sure you eat enough food?
Yue Qi yeh I follow a meal plan with 3 meals & 3 snacks a day to make sure I eat enough
Have you tried digestive enzymes or probiotics? Both have really been helpful for bloating and just generally tummy issues. omg that bagel sandwich!!!! YUM!!! Going out for lunch today with a friend who is very supportive and I’m planning to NOT plan what I will eat. Love the q&a👌🏼
Ooooh enjoy your lunch with your friend. That’s living!! & no I don’t have probiotics. But I definitely will get some. Do you just buy them as a supplement?
Megsy Recovery
I just take digestive enzymes, gas prevention pills before meals from local drug store
It helps a bit with bloating
Optibac probiotics are really good!
Megsy Recovery At the natural food store. There are so many brands with different strains of cultures. Maybe your nutritionist could recommend one. And...lunch was good. We had so many laughs and I finished the afternoon with a venti white chocolate frappachino!!! Plus we changed cafes at the last minute so even if I wanted to plan my meal, no dice lol
Yes as a supplement. Same for the enzymes.
How do you know when your weight restored? Do you have to fall to a certain BMI or
I always LOVE your analogies 😂
I just found your channel today and your videos motivate me so much to recover! Litarally watching all your videos now haha!
But I'm curious where you live. You sound brittish but the weather is way too beautiful for britain heheh
No pressure but maybe sometime you can share how you are dealing with body checking and close fitting different or fitting at all😊....basically changes in body size and shape, feeling jiggly and flabby???
TMI!!😊
Yes, good topic. OK I'll cover it at some point. I don't actually body check (luckily) but the clothes thing I can cover definitely. I was planning to do it when I grow out of something soon because I know it'll be hard
Thank you Thank you Thank You! I loved every word you said!!!!
What country do you live in? it always looks so sunny
Missy Turner for some reason she doesnt answer this question! I asked in a previous video😂its not like we wanna know her address🤷🏽♀️just curious cos it looks beautiful and sunny ! 😍
Rachel Blair she lives in Dubai!
Just going through your videos great help. Was wondering have u suffered 3 times from your eating disorder? And did u ever get to a set point do u think? Thanks xx
May be way off topic but any tips on how to shop for a good avocado haha. I am awful when it comes to buying them
Hahahaha such a funny comment. Where do you live? I actually have no idea, I’m very new to the world of avocados. It’s a mine field!! 😱😂
Aren't you supposed to eat more when you're still hungry even after meals?
Love your videos, you're so inspiring and kind ! Sending you good vibes from France lovely !!!❤️
Hi! I just wanted to say thank you so much for all of your videos- they honestly have helped me immensely in my own recovery. I wanted to ask if you could ever give some advice on going out for meals? I'm starting a new outpatient treatment in March and it's a day program- part of the program consists of going out for meals around 4 times a week. However I still find eating out such a struggle and i tend to feel the need to compensate if i do go out. Sorry if I'm waffling ahaha but yeah just wondering on advice on how to eat out but make sure you continue with your eating plan etc. Thank you again!!
ALSO i adore your cats omg!! much love from Australia xx
healing banana hi, yeh I really struggled with this but now I’m brilliant at it (if I can say that myself). I know I can eat anything on the menu, go out unplanned, & never compensate. I don’t have a magic answer on how to get there though. I just had to do it, feel anxious, panic about having “more calories” than I would have had at home, think I was getting fat, wanting to compensate but not letting myself.... it’s really hard at first; but you just have to do it & repeat it for it to get better & become a comfortable experience. I actually love it now!
How did you start recovery? When can i say iam in recovery and not quasi recovery?
Ivona Javorovic about 6 months ago, & I don’t know the 2nd answer I’m afraid. Maybe it depends what you want & how much you want to be well vs ill
Second question you have answered with recent video, thank YOU for that.
I know you cant share your meal plan but you also seem to still be able to choose what youre feeling you want to eat. So how is it set up? I want that kind of plan where i dont have to count bc i get obsessed. So does it tell you ok breakfast: x amount of carbs...x amount of fats..etc and you get to pick what that is?
Wow no not at all. I don’t even count calories, never mind fats & carbs. Everything is balanced, so like meals are fats & protein & carbs & then I can be flexible ish within that. I used to have the same thing every day & stick to my plan to the letter, but now I’m just so much more relaxed. If I have something more calories than another thing I just don’t mind. But that’s just come with time & weight gain. So yeh, it’s a rough plan & my dietician does the calories for me. Hope that helps
Megsy Recovery so us making sure you get your fats..carbs and protein at each meal and she just tells you an approximate of how much?
Ask your health professional about taking apple cider vinegar or bitters before a meal. It helps stimulate HCL acid in the stomach which is what helps break down and digest food. It was a huuge help for me in the beginning phase of increasing my intake with discomfort.
Amazing, thank you! What are bitters?
It’s a tincture of naturally bitter herbs that can help your body produce digestive “juices” before eating. Many health food stores will carry different blends!
Love your videos 😍
Peppermint tea always helps my tummy
I wouldn't say no to a drink either but I find it so hard not to compensate! It's like I literally see the calories swimming in my glass of wine and my brain goes "well you can't have all that food to go with it you little greedy piggy" - it's so stressful! Have you experienced that as well? how do you cope with it?
yes I do, alcohol is a current challenge for me because I want to be able to drink and I love wine but I do get those thoughts of "well you need to make up for it". I'm currently challenging it with just totally going against it and doing the opposite. It's hard, but I'm doing it to get to a point where I can just enjoy a glass of wine and not see it as something which needs to be substituted in x
Megsy Recovery
I’m the same way!
ED’s rule is not to drink calories 😊
Can you list your medical team?
Hi! I'm not sure if you have answered this before but how does Bren help you in your recovery? Does he aide in helping you to recover? Thank you for being so inspiring!💖
Yes, we talk together a lot and he prepares a lot of my food. Just to take some of it away from me and because I can't quite trust my judgment. He does a lot of reading and watching vlogs to help him understand
Megsy Recovery thanks so much for replying! So glad he tries to understand and support you the best he can! So sweet!
Married at first sight is a laugh and a half 😂
It's SO interesting how the stomach tells the brain whether we're full or not. There are so many nerves in the gut its literally like a second brain. There's also the microbiome which are the good bacteria which produce chemicals to say 'more fooood' or 'OOOH I'm stuffed'. And there's the hormones as well AND there's stretch mediated responses, which basically see how much your stomach has expanded and then relay that to the brain. It's SUPER COMPLICATED and there's all these systems at work, which is probably why the hunger signals are a bit effed up in recovery.
Love your waffling 😂
Does your dietician plan exactly what you have each day? Or do you mean she has given you a general plan that you choose the actual food? (Don't answer if you don't want to!)
i've decided to go raw vegan cause being vegan help with disorders . i have the same issues and struggles as you. sometimes i feel sick. i'm still struggle with that pain. it's hard to recover. i've been to the hospital so many times . and they didn't know what was wrong up until now
Oh bless you, wish you all the luck to get better
Megsy Recovery thank you it's tough but we'll make it
What are your favourite recovery related RUclips channels?
Jen Brett, Hanne Arts, Blossoming Gem. What about you?
Megsy Recovery actually obsessed with watching you and jen!!
you you feel the need to eat slowly and take little bites?
Not any more. Used to, It stopped with weight gain and also I force myself not to do it now because it is odd and I used to be embarrassed eating in public because of it.
I love this account so much! Idk how I found you, but I saw you on Instagram and saw you had a RUclips channel, and I thought “I’ll watch one”
Fast forward 5 hours and I had watched all your videos.
I LOVE you!!! You are so inspiring, and I aspire to be like you!
I follow you on insta, and I’d love to dm you! It’s @recovery_for_music . I do have one question though:
I use a lot of olive oil/butter in my cooking to up my calories, but some think my meals are too small....what are your suggestions for easing up on the oil and increasing portions?
Of course lovely, go ahead I DM me & we can chat on there! I don’t know how well I can advise you on your diet though. Do you have help from a dietician or anything?
thanks for the videos! you look like blake lively:)
Hahaha a couple of people have said that 😂
I enjoy listening to you, and each episode is more inspiring--and thank you for eating for you, yourself, not for voyeurs. Megsy youtube is a reality check. For those of us who do not participate in any social media, this is a bit of a special thing, so please know that. You are a breath of fresh air, the most un-disordered eating disorder touch point online:) So, one question:: what do you want to be when you grow up?! This is opening so much for you, for us... the life perspective changes, with a fed brain!! Big thanks, and keep it up! Challenge, challenge, challenge :)
THAT is the question of the hour for me at the moment, it's kind of scaring me getting a freer head because I'm like shiiiiiit what do I fill that with now haha. Just trying to be patient and not worry that I don't have all the answers or something perfect in place straight away. I'm sure I'll find my space (eek!). Thanks for your lovely message x
what's your job and what did you study in college/university? any dream job?
Eleonore Constant I work in HR & my degree is in Psychology. Dream job ooooh not sure. Something working closer to people I think but I don’t know what I would be good at 😂
How can we best support you, in order to support ourselves? This is a beautiful community. I would love to have you consider sharing a weekly challenge--maybe for yourself--that we all can share. Meow
Yeh I'll definitely keep sharing with people what I am challenging. Everyone's challenges are probably quite personal to them but hopefully it's helpful to be able to see the process of me getting over fears. It's literally happening daily at the moment! Yikes.
Hi ....
OK lets Start with the fun part first ... I realy realy like what you are doing but this TV show has scared me soooooo mutch ... Sorry now i have to go in the kitchen and wrap some Aluminium folie around my head ;-) hihihi
But now without any jokes ... Hmmmm you can say i am the other side of the coin ... I work until the last 3 years on my "devorce" from obesity ... Some big steps are done ... And i have found a way thats works for me ... But now we came to the point were i have to thank you sooooooo mutch ... To see how brave you push yourself it makes me to do one of the last steps of my own plans .. After 15 years i look for a job that is better for me and the health ... Again a big thank you for this ... Hope you have a great day ... Get your goals for today and take care of you and look out for something realy jummy ;-)
OK little update i have survived the Interview and tomorrow is the "try the work day" you know ... We want to See how you work and do you fit into the team ... So again a big thank you for your inspiration ... ;-)
Job is so important, I think we have to have a sense of purpose in our lives and meaningfulness to be able to choose health over disordered eating. And no matter what the disorder, we all share distorted thoughts and deserve a better life than one focused on food and weight!
If i stopped exercising just for one day i would kill myself
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you need to get a hobby to fill that emptiness
Haha yep. I’ll keep trying different bits & bobs. I’d quite like to learn the piano
So go ahead and do it that sounds awesome!
Eating while holding and rubbing cats. Just no. No and no. 😷🤮😷 congrats on your commitment to recovery, tho, from a cat-hater.