It’s good to hear you’re ok for the most part! I don’t experience dysphoria but I genuinely hope that things get better for you, I’m sure it must be really rough on you :(
"find me a way out" the amount of times i've begged my friends to make it stop because dysphoria hurts me so much is insane. i feel like a constant burden because it just doesn't stop no matter what..
Same here. I’ve struggled a lot with dysphoria related issues and suicidal tendencies and have never been able to tell anyone, because I don’t want to be a burden
@@ephemeralhope8410 Yeah, I feel this. I tend to avoid things in my personal life, and begin to subconsciously act out self-depricating/destructive behavior. This can include neglecting my own mental health, not taking showers, washing my face, brushing my teeth, not sleeping when I should, not eating, distancing myself from people I love, etc. Last year was really rough for the world, but it was specifically rough for me as well. Fact, the last five years have been rough, but 2020 was the breaking point for me. I was the worst I had ever been September-December, and for the first time in my life as a young person, I was suicidal. Since then I'm doing a lot better. I've come out to my friends and some close teachers as a gay trans guy, and have been doing a better job of taking care of myself. I have yet to find a therapist, and slip back into my harmful tendencies sometimes, but I'm trying really hard to dig myself out of this hole. And I get closer and closer everyday. For anyone reading, while life doesn't always stay good, it doesn't stay bad either. Life is constantly changing, and as you grow older and gain new life experiences, you begin to get used to the changes in the tides. All my love to everyone, struggling or not. You're doing your best, and I see that and am proud of you. 💚
"Cause what i am is what im not" that line slaps bro im demimale, but i like dressing up "femme", and I keep trying to tell myself that clothing has no gender, but whenever i do dress that way, it makes me feel like such a fucking poser and unconfident with myself and identity
If it helps Men in Scotland wear kilts and roman men wore togas which is basically the equivalent of a skirt and dress so historically men have worn clothing that is considered "female" in society today.
to people reading this and struggling with dysphoria, you’re not alone and there’s probably a reason why your watching this (this is so underrated btw) but keep your head up! this most likely won’t reach many people but you are worthy to stay in this world :))) ILYSM AND HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!! STAY POSITIVE! (edit: ahhhhh im so happi :))) im so glad this reached so many people!! btw i am non binary so i struggle too and i know what its like, again HAVE AN AMAZING DAY DARLINGS)
"this phantom skin is weird to live in" that hits so fucking hard, i always compare my gender dysphoria to being a ghost inhabiting someone else's body, like it just doesn't feel like mine.
Butterflies are used as metaphors to signify change, and a lot of people think that caterpillars go into their cocoons and re-emerge as these beautiful creatures. In reality, they literally turn into disgusting piles of mush and reconstruct themselves. So if you're a hot mess wrapped in a blanket burrito right now, just remember that one day you'll find who you're really meant to be, and I'll be there every step of the way until you're free
as a trans man who recently fell back into The Dysphoria Pit, these lyrics & this animatic are perfect. they’re so relatable, TOO relatable. and i see myself in the character,, and while that’s scary, i appreciate knowing i’m not alone.
“Don’t let me hear what they say, ‘cause I can’t stand it...” that got me. Is not a pleasant experience going outside hating how others look at you while you can’t even stand yourself. I know I’m weird. I know I don’t belong. But, please, don’t remind me that everyday...ups, a bit too venting 🦘 (Btw, this is so cool, like, you deserve por people to support this pretty art)
"But now I don't remember confort" hits so hard I can't remember the last time I actually felt happy in my body. I hate it so much. And it's not just gender dysphoria I hate my body in general on top of gender dysphoria :(
started listening to cavetown about 3 years ago, i was fine with my gender fast-forward 3 years, i am now struggling with pronoun dysphoria, and this song has a whole new meaning :')
The alternate 'ghost self' is so accurate. it's almost as if everyone are strangers, like I'm lying all the time, as if they are talking to a person and I'm just an infiltrater pretending to be this person everyone thinks I am. At this point it's almost as if no one knows me anymore, I have changed so much since I first started figuring this whole thing out; all the while stopping myself from suppressing emotions that it feels like I never lived the past 15 years of my life. I can hardly remember what I was like and my interactions in the past two years, let alone my childhood. Yet I will get these random flashbacks of moments where my 'transness' showed as a kid, the only problem with that being is that its difficult to decipher what is real, or if my memories were altered or fabricated by my own brain. Sometimes I wonder if what I'm feeling is a delusion, even if it never feels that way - because part of a delusion is being so immersed that it feels like reality, but then the waves of intense pain and agony over my very existence and being come over me - forcing myself to realise that my brain could not fabricate such torture. Still, the logical and objective thought still remains that everything I know could still not be reality, perhaps I'm just a creative head in a jar in some other universe, or a bodiless conscience that got tired or bored of the stagnant infinity of time. After all, the only thing I can't doubt is that I am thinking, and a conscience cannot understand itself without an 'other' to negate our being, so I would not know if I am truly alone in the universe and my mind is roaming freely in a made-up world. However, the mere thought of that is so outlandishly absurd that i can't bring myself to truly believe it, no matter how objectively plausible that theory might be. And it is always strange when i start affecting other people's lives, to see how my actions can hurt people, that people actually care, that this all isn't some game that doesn't affect the world, that im not just some outer shell - but that's what makes it terrifying, being this - thing. I feel like I am dying, going through such mental pain and melancholy at times, but other people see it too, they can see the pain - and because they care it hurts them as well, they feel like they have done something wrong but they haven't, I'm what's wrong. Me, simply existing as I am harms them deeply. But its because they don't understand why i am in pain, but i can't tell them why, not yet - because I know they still won't understand, they might brush it off, unbelieving of the truth. So i keep it secret, I lie about why I am so unhappy, because I don't really know how things are going to change once i say what i am - the lies, however, are suffocating. I have come to a roadblock i cannot get around; without emotions everything was so easy, analysing and understanding others, predicting what's going to happen next, what people are feeling, even if i didn't know what to do about it. However, my stupid feelings got the better of me, becoming too violent for even the knives to control, eventually the suppression became the thing hurting other people - the one thing I couldn't escape - others caring.
wow bro wrote a whole paragraph... Really, is sad, but the way you wrote it was beautiful.. I can't do anything but wish you all the best and I hope you're doing atleast a little bit better:( Because you deserve it-
the phantom skin line really hits hard because that’s what it feels like to me. it doesn’t feel like my body, it feels like i’m just borrowing it or something.
reminder that you do not need to have dysphoria to be trans. I am non-binary, and I have little to no dysphoria. I cut my hair short and I don't wear dresses and I feel myself, whatever people tell you, remember that you absolutely do not need what others have to be trans, you don't need their validation and you only need to trust yourself, and if you know yourself, then you know who you are better than anyone else. It took me so much longer to figure it out because of the invalidation I got from others, telling me I needed dysphoria. Just listen to yourself, because you are always right.
@@theosmp3 true! And if you do have gender dysphoria then that’s also normal, and I found out that after figuring out my gender then is when dysphoria came, but before that there was almost nothing but I cut my hair short a lot, and I never wore dresses. That was it. But then I realised “hm. Maybe she/her makes me uncomfortable” and that’s when I realised, but only now after I’ve known for like a year is when I’m getting like dysphoria and even then it’s not that bad, it’s just my chest and my hair.
True, I just can’t stand calling myself a guy, I don’t feel like calling myself a girl fits me either, I mostly feel either neutral or genderless so just being non-binary/agender just feels good for me and I feel content with my body whenever I manage to appeal to my own view of self, I wanna wear dresses in future but as well try some funky pants, I wanna learn to dress however the heck I want, even if it will look weird. It doesnt matter what other say as long as you are happy being yourself and living your life.
I used to listen to this not shortly after this video came out, in the depts of everything really. my dysphoria was, fuck man, debilitating. and now im back, two years later with an entirely new look on life. i just wanted to say thank you, for putting words into a drawing better than i ever could. cavetowns song just adds to it even more
Holy... wow that hit deep.. This actually explains what dysphoria feels like completely. It feels like thinking and feeling only scribbles and.. ah! How words can’t word what this animatic shows!
'cuz what I am is what I'm not' hit me like s truck. I related to this so freaking much I'm kinda crying rn - anyone reading this who's struggling please know you're not alone
"I'm thinking that I should leave now, but I don't think I'm coming back this time" I guess these lyrics are probably up to interpretation, but I'm pretty sure it's talking about suicide and it surprises me how little people understood that... "leave" as in die, pass away
“It’s been over a year, I thought this one was the end” hit me hard. I’m struggling with dysforia and this gives great representation. For me it’s been a year since I’ve put in place he/they pronouns and they are the best. For my child hood it was she/her. I haven’t told my prenatal figure but he calls be mr, dude, guy, kind, price, etc. I think he knows but the representation. So good
nah cuz my “friends” say they accept me (i was afab and i’m a demi boy) and then they only use she/ her pronouns and say oh you’re pretty now it’s ok, your such a cute GIRL, and other things like that but they really make sure to emphasize the “girl” and “pretty” and it makes me so upset cuz no one really accepts me and they seem like they don’t care.
“Dont let me see what i am” “what i am is what im not” “find me a way out of you love me at all” “I’m thinking that I should leave but I don’t think I’m coming back this time” cavetown is just perfect
i don’t experience dysphoria that much but when i do, it angers me and makes me feel exactly like this. when i see my cis male friends i get so jealous and angry. it makes it even worse that my friend who knows about me being trans still deadnames me. it makes me feel better to remember that im not alone. nice animatic btw. :)
I FINALLY FOUND THIS SONG OMG TYSM❤❤❤ I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH, I HAD A FRIEND WHO LISTENED TO THIS, AND I NEVER KNEW THE NAME, I LOVE THIS SO MUCH OMG ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I know that I'm a couple years late. This is amazing and you are incredibly talented :D This is too relatable, 'What I am is what I'm not." hits like a brick wall.
just the “don’t let me see what i am cause i can’t stand it” i relate to that so much especially because sometimes i’ll avoid the mirror just so i don’t see what i “am” and my parents call me she/her and my deadname still.. so do all my friends. i all met them at church too so they wouldn’t be very accepting. i just wish we lived back in our old town all my old friends that i still talk to accept me
I'm sorry that happens to you, being deadnamed hurts like a bitch. Just know I'm here if u need to talk, I can even call you by ur chosen name everyday if you'd like it.
this legit made me cry. it feels so good to listen to something so relatable. it’s hard to try and balance all this weight around with everything else. i hope you all have a good rest of your day :)
This made me cry, its sad but sort of comforting to know im not alone in these things, and i hope anybody reading this that has experienced any dysphoria knows they will never be alone in their thoughts, you are valid, you are loved and you are worthy. i love you and know that it will get better, it just takes a little while, hugs and cups of tea to all my trans community and i hope you have a lovely day/night 💙💖🤍💖💙
a message to myself listening to this song about 1 year ago; i know it's bad. i know it's hard, i know you want to give up. but i promise, it will get better. you will be able to live as yourself. and who knows, maybe one day i'll finally love myself.
Im trans ftm and this hit home like that part were it said "Hopeless" got me good cause i literally stopped binding cause i have no hope for it anymore like idk-
i'm 17 and my name is Casper/Frog. No one in my family gets that i'm nonbinary and that i use they/his pronouns. i'm alone, stuck in a body i don't want, a life i don't want. in a place that calls me a name i'm not. i've tried so many times to tell them, to help them understand but i'm stuck. i had to get a binder from a friend because my parent won't let me get one and i don't have the money. i hate who i am because i feel like im broken.
I personally don’t struggle with body dysmorphia but I wish I could just give everyone that does a big bear hug💗😭 of corse if their okay with that (Btw it’s literally 2:49 am and I have a fever and I can’t sleep cause I feel miserable so I came to RUclips and this was the first video I saw and honestly I’m it’s love with it, not the dysmorphia part but just how much this made me understand what people with body dysmorphia go through)
I adore the way you drew the eyes at 1:13. it feels so...raw? I can feel the intense judgment behind those eyes in such a vivid way. ...and then 1:21 being a dismissive gesture, trying it play it off like it's fine even when it's destroying you from the inside out. beautiful animatic. //vent from here 1:13-1:24 also hits me really hard personally. I'm coming from the amab/transfem side of the coin so it's not an exact 1:1 copy, but god its so frustrating to have to pretend to be a guy. Everyday. I should be having fun at college, but it's just such a tiring chore knowing everyone sees me as a guy. but I'm not going to get any better by just hiding at home all day, either. right?
omg this is beautiful thank u so much this rlly represents what we trans and anyone who experiences dysphoria goes through and i love how u use the song to rlly show shit like "Cause what i am is what im not" and "find me a way out" cause i rlly felt liike there was no way out i was in constant pain looking at myself hearing myself and with my name and pronouns that everyone used cause i was scared and i always told my parents when we argued about this shit that what i am is what im not and they would roll their eyes at me but it is shown so beautifully here that they kinda accepted me in a way slowly
I am really struggling with dysphoria right now, and I know for the next years its just going to get worse and I cant stop it. I just am starting to want to shout to everyone that my name is Rowin, and that I'm a guy, but I cant. Tbh this is really good to cry to, it really shows how I feel.
:( I already feel so much pressure from myself to figure out who I am and I don't think I could handle it if people were telling me that who I was was wrong and that I didn't have a spot on this world. You got this, stay strong, I believe in you :)
I love your artwork so much!!!! I've never heard this song despite lovin Cavetown so I'm really glad that I got to hear it with such an amazing animatic!!! Also the character style kinda reminds me of this character from the comic Magical Boy!!
god your art style is so perfect and how you drew the lyrics fits so much and just,, thank you for making this!! and remember that you are valid and you look fucking handsome!!!
i feel like i keep coming back to videos ive already watch just so i know what happens so i dont need to stress about not finding a way to "fix" any mistakes in any situation i couldnt know would happen
This is wonderful. The taste is immaculate. on a less jokey note, this really is perfect. It hit my heart in a way that made me think i know the person that made this, or that i was the person that made this. im not sure if what i feel is dysphoria, but it hurts. i cant stand looking in mirrors anymore. i hate it here.
I love this so much, you actually do not understand. I cannot put into words how hard this song hits every single time, but the animation is purely truth. It feels like life is a scribble of (for me) femininity around me and im stuck inside a body im not comfortable with. Im not sure what the right terminology is here. Its so safe, empathetic.. fitting. Truly, honestly, my favourite youtube video ever. I love this, i love this, i just.. ive never felt more understood. Thank you
![Little Game animatic [Transgender story] {Dysphoria TW}](/img/1.gif)
at 0:36 i didnt know what i drew was a signal for abuse
im fine guys don't worry (in that respect anyway)
It’s good to hear you’re ok for the most part! I don’t experience dysphoria but I genuinely hope that things get better for you, I’m sure it must be really rough on you :(
Ok thanks for clarifying, hope you’re doing well :D
@@bunny_btch Ty for clarifying
Im glad your okay! :D
Also what app did you use to make the animation?
@@bunny_btch yeah dysphoria sucks
That little ukulele part at the beginning part is enough to trigger a whole community
"find me a way out"
the amount of times i've begged my friends to make it stop because dysphoria hurts me so much is insane. i feel like a constant burden because it just doesn't stop no matter what..
Same here. I’ve struggled a lot with dysphoria related issues and suicidal tendencies and have never been able to tell anyone, because I don’t want to be a burden
@@ephemeralhope8410 Yeah, I feel this. I tend to avoid things in my personal life, and begin to subconsciously act out self-depricating/destructive behavior. This can include neglecting my own mental health, not taking showers, washing my face, brushing my teeth, not sleeping when I should, not eating, distancing myself from people I love, etc. Last year was really rough for the world, but it was specifically rough for me as well. Fact, the last five years have been rough, but 2020 was the breaking point for me. I was the worst I had ever been September-December, and for the first time in my life as a young person, I was suicidal. Since then I'm doing a lot better. I've come out to my friends and some close teachers as a gay trans guy, and have been doing a better job of taking care of myself. I have yet to find a therapist, and slip back into my harmful tendencies sometimes, but I'm trying really hard to dig myself out of this hole. And I get closer and closer everyday. For anyone reading, while life doesn't always stay good, it doesn't stay bad either. Life is constantly changing, and as you grow older and gain new life experiences, you begin to get used to the changes in the tides. All my love to everyone, struggling or not. You're doing your best, and I see that and am proud of you. 💚
@@Staarbo Yeah, i agree, that sounds a lot like what ive experienced, you've got this
stay strong.
@@Staarbo so true. I am also trying to pull myself out to the open
"Cause what i am is what im not"
that line slaps bro
im demimale, but i like dressing up "femme", and I keep trying to tell myself that clothing has no gender, but whenever i do dress that way, it makes me feel like such a fucking poser and unconfident with myself and identity
If it helps Men in Scotland wear kilts and roman men wore togas which is basically the equivalent of a skirt and dress so historically men have worn clothing that is considered "female" in society today.
@Emily Meade :) random fact of the day.
@Emily Meade oh wait for real??
If only we could be who we are without judgment. It's not our place to judge
@Emily Meade I'm goimg to shove that in so many peoples faces
to people reading this and struggling with dysphoria, you’re not alone and there’s probably a reason why your watching this (this is so underrated btw) but keep your head up! this most likely won’t reach many people but you are worthy to stay in this world :))) ILYSM AND HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!! STAY POSITIVE!
(edit: ahhhhh im so happi :))) im so glad this reached so many people!! btw i am non binary so i struggle too and i know what its like, again HAVE AN AMAZING DAY DARLINGS)
dude this srsly made my day, thank you
I’m not even depressed but for some reason I really needed that, thanks
Oml, u made my dauy❤️❤️
Thank you so much....I’m crying, I’m crying because I needed this.
Thanks for this
"this phantom skin is weird to live in" that hits so fucking hard, i always compare my gender dysphoria to being a ghost inhabiting someone else's body, like it just doesn't feel like mine.
Butterflies are used as metaphors to signify change, and a lot of people think that caterpillars go into their cocoons and re-emerge as these beautiful creatures. In reality, they literally turn into disgusting piles of mush and reconstruct themselves. So if you're a hot mess wrapped in a blanket burrito right now, just remember that one day you'll find who you're really meant to be, and I'll be there every step of the way until you're free
Yea like I don’t know who “me” is but it’s not the person I look like I am if that makes sense
as a trans man who recently fell back into The Dysphoria Pit, these lyrics & this animatic are perfect. they’re so relatable, TOO relatable. and i see myself in the character,, and while that’s scary, i appreciate knowing i’m not alone.
yeah, its good to know youre not alone
**nervous laughter fades into sobbing**
“Don’t let me hear what they say, ‘cause I can’t stand it...” that got me. Is not a pleasant experience going outside hating how others look at you while you can’t even stand yourself. I know I’m weird. I know I don’t belong. But, please, don’t remind me that everyday...ups, a bit too venting 🦘
(Btw, this is so cool, like, you deserve por people to support this pretty art)
Yeah I agree
"But now I don't remember confort" hits so hard I can't remember the last time I actually felt happy in my body. I hate it so much. And it's not just gender dysphoria I hate my body in general on top of gender dysphoria :(
started listening to cavetown about 3 years ago, i was fine with my gender
fast-forward 3 years, i am now struggling with pronoun dysphoria, and this song has a whole new meaning :')
omg same, when I started listening to Cavetown I was like "why does this feel so relatable, I'm not trans"
and thats what we call foreshadowing
totally didn't just cry for two hours with this on loop
HOW DOES THIS ONLY HAVE 10 LIKES?! AND HOW DO YOU ONLY HAVE 7 SUBS?!? MY GUY SHOULD HAVE AT LEAST 10k BY NOW!
jkfhkjsdfnbjhf thanks
The fact they've grow so much within 3 weeks is amazing
EXACTLY
funnily enough they have 10k now
This song reminds me of how dysphoric I am, yet at the same time, makes me feel comforted
When I'm crying in my friends bedroom at 2:00 because ✨ gender dysphoria ✨
Wish i at least have friends
The alternate 'ghost self' is so accurate. it's almost as if everyone are strangers, like I'm lying all the time, as if they are talking to a person and I'm just an infiltrater pretending to be this person everyone thinks I am. At this point it's almost as if no one knows me anymore, I have changed so much since I first started figuring this whole thing out; all the while stopping myself from suppressing emotions that it feels like I never lived the past 15 years of my life. I can hardly remember what I was like and my interactions in the past two years, let alone my childhood. Yet I will get these random flashbacks of moments where my 'transness' showed as a kid, the only problem with that being is that its difficult to decipher what is real, or if my memories were altered or fabricated by my own brain. Sometimes I wonder if what I'm feeling is a delusion, even if it never feels that way - because part of a delusion is being so immersed that it feels like reality, but then the waves of intense pain and agony over my very existence and being come over me - forcing myself to realise that my brain could not fabricate such torture. Still, the logical and objective thought still remains that everything I know could still not be reality, perhaps I'm just a creative head in a jar in some other universe, or a bodiless conscience that got tired or bored of the stagnant infinity of time. After all, the only thing I can't doubt is that I am thinking, and a conscience cannot understand itself without an 'other' to negate our being, so I would not know if I am truly alone in the universe and my mind is roaming freely in a made-up world. However, the mere thought of that is so outlandishly absurd that i can't bring myself to truly believe it, no matter how objectively plausible that theory might be. And it is always strange when i start affecting other people's lives, to see how my actions can hurt people, that people actually care, that this all isn't some game that doesn't affect the world, that im not just some outer shell - but that's what makes it terrifying, being this - thing. I feel like I am dying, going through such mental pain and melancholy at times, but other people see it too, they can see the pain - and because they care it hurts them as well, they feel like they have done something wrong but they haven't, I'm what's wrong. Me, simply existing as I am harms them deeply. But its because they don't understand why i am in pain, but i can't tell them why, not yet - because I know they still won't understand, they might brush it off, unbelieving of the truth. So i keep it secret, I lie about why I am so unhappy, because I don't really know how things are going to change once i say what i am - the lies, however, are suffocating. I have come to a roadblock i cannot get around; without emotions everything was so easy, analysing and understanding others, predicting what's going to happen next, what people are feeling, even if i didn't know what to do about it. However, my stupid feelings got the better of me, becoming too violent for even the knives to control, eventually the suppression became the thing hurting other people - the one thing I couldn't escape - others caring.
wow bro wrote a whole paragraph...
Really, is sad, but the way you wrote it was beautiful.. I can't do anything but wish you all the best and I hope you're doing atleast a little bit better:( Because you deserve it-
this is beautifully made
whether you are trans, non binary, or questioning, you are valid and deserve the world and so much love.
the line "this phantom skin is weird to live in" hits so hard
0:42 “What I am is, what I’m not”
Holy crap that’s illegally accurate-
the phantom skin line really hits hard because that’s what it feels like to me. it doesn’t feel like my body, it feels like i’m just borrowing it or something.
Song: find me a way out if you love me at all
Me: finds them a way out 3
"but now i don't remember comfort." ouch that hit hard man
Fr tho 😭😭
Who else just cries after listening to this-
hahaha not m-
shit
reminder that you do not need to have dysphoria to be trans.
I am non-binary, and I have little to no dysphoria. I cut my hair short and I don't wear dresses and I feel myself, whatever people tell you, remember that you absolutely do not need what others have to be trans, you don't need their validation and you only need to trust yourself, and if you know yourself, then you know who you are better than anyone else.
It took me so much longer to figure it out because of the invalidation I got from others, telling me I needed dysphoria. Just listen to yourself, because you are always right.
you don't need gender dysphoria, it's all about gender euphoria.
@@theosmp3 true! And if you do have gender dysphoria then that’s also normal, and I found out that after figuring out my gender then is when dysphoria came, but before that there was almost nothing but I cut my hair short a lot, and I never wore dresses. That was it. But then I realised “hm. Maybe she/her makes me uncomfortable” and that’s when I realised, but only now after I’ve known for like a year is when I’m getting like dysphoria and even then it’s not that bad, it’s just my chest and my hair.
True, I just can’t stand calling myself a guy, I don’t feel like calling myself a girl fits me either, I mostly feel either neutral or genderless so just being non-binary/agender just feels good for me and I feel content with my body whenever I manage to appeal to my own view of self, I wanna wear dresses in future but as well try some funky pants, I wanna learn to dress however the heck I want, even if it will look weird. It doesnt matter what other say as long as you are happy being yourself and living your life.
Ain't nobody gonna talk about how he can draw FLUFFY HAIR like- AAAAAAH *TEACH ME* 👹👹👹👹👹
I used to listen to this not shortly after this video came out, in the depts of everything really. my dysphoria was, fuck man, debilitating. and now im back, two years later with an entirely new look on life. i just wanted to say thank you, for putting words into a drawing better than i ever could. cavetowns song just adds to it even more
This song makes me cry everytime
Holy... wow that hit deep..
This actually explains what dysphoria feels like completely. It feels like thinking and feeling only scribbles and.. ah! How words can’t word what this animatic shows!
"This phantom skin is weird to live in so find me a way out"
couldn't have said it better-
I don’t have dysphoria, but I can still relate to this song, as someone with social anxiety, especially the ‘don’t let me hear what they say’ bit.
Awesome.
*crying in a corner* Awesome-
bruh so forking good howwwww do people like you have so much talent !
satan
@@alexbigmuscleman no you're powerful to get talent from satan *you are satan*
'cuz what I am is what I'm not' hit me like s truck. I related to this so freaking much I'm kinda crying rn - anyone reading this who's struggling please know you're not alone
it hurts understanding this
"I'm thinking that I should leave now, but I don't think I'm coming back this time"
I guess these lyrics are probably up to interpretation, but I'm pretty sure it's talking about suicide and it surprises me how little people understood that...
"leave" as in die, pass away
“It’s been over a year, I thought this one was the end” hit me hard. I’m struggling with dysforia and this gives great representation. For me it’s been a year since I’ve put in place he/they pronouns and they are the best. For my child hood it was she/her. I haven’t told my prenatal figure but he calls be mr, dude, guy, kind, price, etc. I think he knows but the representation. So good
I have watched this so many time thanks for the animatic. I would love to see more.
it's so accurate and perfectly encapsulates the pain it almost makes it hurt worse
nah cuz my “friends” say they accept me (i was afab and i’m a demi boy) and then they only use she/ her pronouns and say oh you’re pretty now it’s ok, your such a cute GIRL, and other things like that but they really make sure to emphasize the “girl” and “pretty” and it makes me so upset cuz no one really accepts me and they seem like they don’t care.
i love him sm cavetown consistently makes me cry every time i hear his songs :’]
“Dont let me see what i am” “what i am is what im not” “find me a way out of you love me at all” “I’m thinking that I should leave but I don’t think I’m coming back this time” cavetown is just perfect
i don’t experience dysphoria that much but when i do, it angers me and makes me feel exactly like this. when i see my cis male friends i get so jealous and angry. it makes it even worse that my friend who knows about me being trans still deadnames me. it makes me feel better to remember that im not alone. nice animatic btw. :)
I FINALLY FOUND THIS SONG OMG TYSM❤❤❤
I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH, I HAD A FRIEND WHO LISTENED TO THIS, AND I NEVER KNEW THE NAME, I LOVE THIS SO MUCH OMG ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I know that I'm a couple years late. This is amazing and you are incredibly talented :D
This is too relatable, 'What I am is what I'm not." hits like a brick wall.
"Bc what I am is what I not" it slaps me on the face...
still my favorite animatic of all time.
just the “don’t let me see what i am cause i can’t stand it”
i relate to that so much especially because sometimes i’ll avoid the mirror just so i don’t see what i “am” and my parents call me she/her and my deadname still.. so do all my friends. i all met them at church too so they wouldn’t be very accepting. i just wish we lived back in our old town all my old friends that i still talk to accept me
I'm sorry that happens to you, being deadnamed hurts like a bitch. Just know I'm here if u need to talk, I can even call you by ur chosen name everyday if you'd like it.
this legit made me cry. it feels so good to listen to something so relatable. it’s hard to try and balance all this weight around with everything else. i hope you all have a good rest of your day :)
This made me cry, its sad but sort of comforting to know im not alone in these things, and i hope anybody reading this that has experienced any dysphoria knows they will never be alone in their thoughts, you are valid, you are loved and you are worthy. i love you and know that it will get better, it just takes a little while, hugs and cups of tea to all my trans community and i hope you have a lovely day/night 💙💖🤍💖💙
and this is how you get depression folks.
BY RELATING TO THIS.
a message to myself listening to this song about 1 year ago; i know it's bad. i know it's hard, i know you want to give up. but i promise, it will get better. you will be able to live as yourself. and who knows, maybe one day i'll finally love myself.
Bro im in tears im shaking lol
This is amazing and really underrated! I hope you’re doing okay :)
Damn 24 subscribers? Your animating is amazing! I love the colors and your style!
Also I love this song it’s so relatable
THIS ART IS AMAZING
Im trans ftm and this hit home like that part were it said "Hopeless" got me good cause i literally stopped binding cause i have no hope for it anymore like idk-
This is so accurate to my life, its scary
i'm 17 and my name is Casper/Frog. No one in my family gets that i'm nonbinary and that i use they/his pronouns. i'm alone, stuck in a body i don't want, a life i don't want. in a place that calls me a name i'm not. i've tried so many times to tell them, to help them understand but i'm stuck. i had to get a binder from a friend because my parent won't let me get one and i don't have the money. i hate who i am because i feel like im broken.
Everything is going to get better,I promise.Your life matters to me.Stay strong!You are valid and loved
Same
WHERE ARE THE PEOPLE WHO DISLIKED THIS?!? I'LL FIND YA!
and force help on you.
this made me cry sm, dysphoria is so horrible. i love this video tho. you are so valid and its okay to feel this way :))
You signaled something worrying at 0:36 you doing okay? You wanna talk bro?
What did they say..?
@@spotato7248 Oh ty and I do hope the creator is ok
They made a comment saying that they're okay and they didn't realize they were signaling that
Wow this is just wonderful because it’s relatable
Just so kinda touches my heart…
I personally don’t struggle with body dysmorphia but I wish I could just give everyone that does a big bear hug💗😭 of corse if their okay with that
(Btw it’s literally 2:49 am and I have a fever and I can’t sleep cause I feel miserable so I came to RUclips and this was the first video I saw and honestly I’m it’s love with it, not the dysmorphia part but just how much this made me understand what people with body dysmorphia go through)
ok so i didn't expect to cry today. this was really good
Sometimes it feels like the more you do to reach your goal the worse your dysphoria gets
I've been graced with the knowledge this song ezists, thank you
when Robbie said “I don’t remember comfort” it hit me like a rock. Because I don’t. I don’t remember it, but now I know. And I can’t get rid of it
This made me cry the song and art go so well together and I love your art style
I adore the way you drew the eyes at 1:13. it feels so...raw? I can feel the intense judgment behind those eyes in such a vivid way. ...and then 1:21 being a dismissive gesture, trying it play it off like it's fine even when it's destroying you from the inside out. beautiful animatic.
//vent from here
1:13-1:24 also hits me really hard personally. I'm coming from the amab/transfem side of the coin so it's not an exact 1:1 copy, but god its so frustrating to have to pretend to be a guy. Everyday. I should be having fun at college, but it's just such a tiring chore knowing everyone sees me as a guy.
but I'm not going to get any better by just hiding at home all day, either. right?
Bro, this explains E V E R Y T H I N G.
This so fucking relatable 😭
man, i'm crying
Dude this is bloody amazing.
bro got me crying
I love this, why is this so underrated?!?!?!?!
I come here over and over again because it just helps. My family constantly misgenders me and I can't get away from it.
Its incredible keep up the good work! I'm bigender so It's so relatable honestly
omg this is beautiful thank u so much this rlly represents what we trans and anyone who experiences dysphoria goes through and i love how u use the song to rlly show shit like "Cause what i am is what im not" and "find me a way out" cause i rlly felt liike there was no way out i was in constant pain looking at myself hearing myself and with my name and pronouns that everyone used cause i was scared and i always told my parents when we argued about this shit that what i am is what im not and they would roll their eyes at me but it is shown so beautifully here that they kinda accepted me in a way slowly
Not me falling into the rabbit hole of sad animatics at 4 am because I forgot to sleep
I've never cried at a video this much lol I'm such a baby
I am really struggling with dysphoria right now, and I know for the next years its just going to get worse and I cant stop it. I just am starting to want to shout to everyone that my name is Rowin, and that I'm a guy, but I cant. Tbh this is really good to cry to, it really shows how I feel.
Thanks for making me cry this early in they morning! It’s ok it was an awesome animation
i’m crying omg this is exactly how it feels
man i cried for like five minutes after watching this, im experiencing the same thing and it sucks a whole lot. i hope you find peace one day
sad because they dont have this on spotify
woah !! this animation is SO well done !!
god it sucks
people at school dont get it so they tell me "oh yeah! im a helicopter!" blah blah blah it sucks it sucks it sucks.
omg yes im so scared to come out to my year they are all so toxic and transphobic its so scary to me
:( I already feel so much pressure from myself to figure out who I am and I don't think I could handle it if people were telling me that who I was was wrong and that I didn't have a spot on this world. You got this, stay strong, I believe in you :)
I love your artwork so much!!!! I've never heard this song despite lovin Cavetown so I'm really glad that I got to hear it with such an amazing animatic!!!
Also the character style kinda reminds me of this character from the comic Magical Boy!!
im literally sobbinh
god your art style is so perfect and how you drew the lyrics fits so much and just,, thank you for making this!! and remember that you are valid and you look fucking handsome!!!
Im watching this already tenth time and im still crying qwq
i feel like i keep coming back to videos ive already watch just so i know what happens so i dont need to stress about not finding a way to "fix" any mistakes in any situation i couldnt know would happen
This is wonderful. The taste is immaculate.
on a less jokey note, this really is perfect. It hit my heart in a way that made me think i know the person that made this, or that i was the person that made this. im not sure if what i feel is dysphoria, but it hurts. i cant stand looking in mirrors anymore. i hate it here.
This song is beautiful :)
we do be crying
He's still hearting comments after this long? Nice dude
ugly crying to this rn ugh
i keep coming back to this and can i just say it’s so good
this just came onto my recommended - i really hope you're doing okay!! this is so beautiful but really sad at the same time.
I love this so much, you actually do not understand.
I cannot put into words how hard this song hits every single time, but the animation is purely truth.
It feels like life is a scribble of (for me) femininity around me and im stuck inside a body im not comfortable with.
Im not sure what the right terminology is here. Its so safe, empathetic.. fitting.
Truly, honestly, my favourite youtube video ever.
I love this, i love this, i just.. ive never felt more understood.
Thank you
never heard the song before, but the lyrics fit your video very well❤️