What Is Depersonalization Derealization Disorder?
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- Опубликовано: 4 дек 2018
- Feeling detached from yourself or your surroundings? This video explores depersonalization-derealization disorder (DPDR), its causes (trauma, medication, etc.), and treatment options.
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Literally cried my eyes out because I thought that I was the only one who’s going through this .
So you see you’re not alone 😊
EndOfTheNight I honestly don’t do anything besides whatever happens to me in the moment I let it be until it goes away and, then I become be again, also it’ll not stay with u forever the more u grow the more it happens less
EndOfTheNight plus even tho it can be annoying sometimes when ur in a room full of people and it happens but, just remember that it will go away eventually.
Become me again *
V52 Grateful_latata Alsaffar you are not alone! I honestly thought I was going crazy but this video confirms that I am not crazy just super depressed that I’ve lost myself in my head somewhere. This sucks.
i didn’t know there was a word for this, i legit hate looking in the mirror for to long because i feel like its not my face
I'm going through this right now
Same ive had this issue for as long as I can remember though
Same
I did this last night and i got scared af😭😭😭 honestly i believe stress and fucked up events can make a person literally act crazy
Lola Rodriguez It does. Not alone
It’s gets better! Meditate, exercise, eat healthy, stay away from drugs and alcohol, take cold showers, get out of toxic environments! Praying for everyone going through this. Trust me it gets better!
Did u have it
@@killerskeleton7798 yes
I'm getting better too. The secret is to fight the anxiety and to let dpdr do his job, like it is not even existing.
@@MihaiRasol yeah i had a lot of symptoms like 3 months ago and now im getting better yeah
@@killerskeleton7798 I'm proud of you. I still have dpdr but it is not going that fast. Now i have developed heart anxiety too. I am stressful and sad beacuse of these symptoms that are getting newer almost every month. I am fighting but it is not that easy. Stay tight bro!
I thought I was going insane, many times I’d complain to my family that I don’t feel like I’m in the present moment. Many times I would tell people, but often times wouldn’t understand just what I mean. I’m glad I’m not the only one, it started when I was young and ever since I still have it today. Thank you for this video, I’m glad I’m not the only one.
anxiety (dp,dr included) and crazyness are the same thing. there are just 2 differences. 1- in anxiety person is aware that he is crazy. and 2- in anxiety, that craziness is correctable.
you did this anxiety to yourself in the first place with your thoughts. and you are continuing to do that to yourself until this day.
you may stop doing anxiety to yourself by leaving that thoughts.
I mean, you may stop doing anxiety to yourself. thats a possibility.
I mean, you are already insane. you are saying in your comment that you thought you were going insane. The thing is that is correct. you are insane. just aware of your insanity and just correctable insanity.
Jesus is the answer. He healed me. "So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed."(John 8.36)
@@mariaday4495 tell your story.
These comments are wild, but yeah there are probably a lot of people who have been in that situation and weren't sure what was going on
People with anxiety and panic attacks are more prone to experience this.
That makes a lot of sense. I've been diagnosed with severe anxiety. I suspect i have ptsd, ocd, and bipolar disorder. This is just another reason to look for a therapist i can afford. I didn't expect to click on this and it actually describe something I've been dealing with since I was around 11. I remember kind of freaking out when i looked in the mirror and didn't recognize myself. Like i knew it was me and i couldn't pin point why i looked wrong, but i just knew something about my face, even my whole body was wrong. It happens most often when I'm really upset or feeling a spiral. I don't know if medication will help, but I'm really getting to a point where I'm tired of this affecting my life.
@@mayaroseakennasferu5814 I am glad that you have a clear understanding of the matter that is affecting you. I think all you need is professional advice on how to sort it out. Keep positive company especially of those with similar issues and good understanding. Best wishes.
Thank you for this comment. I don’t feel so alone in this.
@@christinaluv1065 same. I don't know anyone who it happens to around me. I knew it was stress related but i wasn't aware it's a whole thing. I just thought it was another symptom of my anxiety. This is an eye opener.
I first developed severe anxiety at 10 years old and that’s when I first started experiencing derealization.
Sometimes when I look at photos of myself I feel like I'm looking at someone else
i have the same thing.
Same or sometimes when I look in the mirror I can't see myself like I feel like that's person that's looking back isn't me
@@kalliejuoni406 i can see myself, I recognize me, I know who I am, but at the same time the longer i look the more I “detach” as if I’m not the body of the person I’m looking at. Eyes, my eyeballs, freak me out sometimes. I personify them in some ways and it’s creepy to think I have two sentient organisms living in my skull and moving around of their own accord. It’s hard to explain, but many people have a fear of dolls (I do) and it’s kind of the same thing. That something non-sentient actually is. Maybe it’s body dysmorphia because I almost don’t feel “right” or like I “belong” in my body. 🤔 it’s not a disorder to me because it isn’t debilitating nor always unpleasant.
Me too😭😭😭😭😭
True
I had depersonalization last September and it was the worst thing I had ever experienced. I didn't know what was happening but when I found out it was an anxiety based condition I knew it could be resolved. My psychiatrist prescribed me antidepressants and anxiolytics and it helped a lot! After 3 months of taking my pills and cbt focused therapy my condition improved hugely. After 8 months I can say I'm recovered and just have minor anxiety episodes (which don't surprise me).
Also, believing and praying to God was really helpful (I know many persons won't consider this, but for me it was totally meaningful).
Just want to say this is a treatable disorder and for sure people can recover!
Are you recovered? It is so scary.
There are studies showing that strong, religious faith helps depression
do u still have to take medication for it
Jesus is the answer. He healed me. "So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed."(John 8.36)
I haven’t been formally diagnosed yet but DDD is exactly what I’ve been feeling for the past couple of years now.
At times, when i speak, i feel like I’m only making my puppet speak.
I’ve also experienced going somewhere beautiful while vacationing and feeling a sense of “what a shame” because i felt like the beautiful place didn’t really exist even though it was right in front of my eyes.
If someone is reading this and if you’ve ever felt like this, you’re not alone.
Exact same reactions as me!
I had this for 4-5 years but let me tell you, you can cure this as I have but you have to do some deep self reflection
@@TheSgrizliHello, please help me, how you recover yourself? I have had this disorder for approximately 2 years(1,5years) . English is not my native language sorry I can’t explain myself clearly. Pls help me, I can’t afford any medication. I just pray that when I earn money I will apply good psychology or psychogist
I have the same exact experience with beautiful and calm surroundings. I feel like they are a lie and don't even want to breathe the air in. What I think caused it is that I trusted people 100# and slowly got to find out that who they pretended to be around me was not who they really were behind my back. The best of friends mocked and laughed at me behind my back. When I realized I was so broken that now have trust issues that go as far as not believing that the environment around me is real. I feel like I need to investigate a lot and prove that indeed it's beautiful before I believe that it's beautiful but that just can't happen.
@@esthernaseremba3002 How about this: instead of searching for definitive proof that your surroundings are real or indeed beautiful before allowing yourself to appreciate them, you could try accepting that whether or not it's real, you are experiencing it anyway and might as well enjoy it. Whether anything we experience is really real is technically impossible to prove beyond any doubt anyway and beauty is a subjective experience so you can't really be wrong about it. Just a bit of reframing, might help you or not.
I've had a lot of similar experiences with people in the past and even though it's not at the root of my dissociative symptoms, it really hurts. I'm so sorry you were treated that way, it's so natural to develop trust issues from that.
That often happened to me as a teenager. I would cry or feel some other emotion strongly but then I would feel like I was just acting or playing pretend and wasn't sure if I actually felt anything at all.
That's crazy me too. Any time I cry (which is probably less than 5 times a year) I wind up feeling like I'm making it up or like I'm watching someone else cry in my body. I even worked myself up to thinking that I was a sociopath (which I'm not, just sociopathic tendencies) because I feel like my emotions aren't mine or aren't real at all.
YES! I recognize that, and when people ask me to talk in those moments I feel like I'm acting everything out, like I'm pretending to be human, so I just shut down and freeze.
Oh my gosh. I thought I was going more crazy than I'm now. When I have my "depression attacks" as I call them (I have bipolar disorder) or have a full mania episode I literally can feel like I'm lost in my thoughts and can't control my actions feelings ect, like I was inside someone else's body. I didn't even know how to describe it to my doctor until now! This video is gold knowledge.
I've never known what it was and I get angry with myself for 'feeling' like that. I always question whether my feelings are real when something gets to me. I started to think I'm crazy . Now I know I'm not the only one...
Holy shit same with the playing pretend thing. I look back and feel like I wasn't really bothered something and then I wonder if I was overreacting. Sometimes I cant tell if I'm upset about something until I talk about it. I choke up and I dont know why, when it hadn't bothered me before.
derealization is like being high but without the high part. but the floaty almost buzzy feeling. it seems like you’re in a simulation and you just figured it out.
Edit; hello! I’ve realized how many people have the same experience so here are some ways I’ve learned to cope with it!
• if you struggle with staying focused and zoning out try carrying an essential oil with you that’s strong and will bring you back to your senses!
• grounding yourself by pointing out what you can see, smell, touch, and hear.
• feel something around you. Squeeze a chair you’re sitting in
• I have adhd and I self stim to calm down; rocking back and forth helps although it may look weird it helps :)
That used to happen to me when I was a kid. I actually liked it. Time moved slowly and I could see everything for what it is and the importance.
Zion that happend to me
Yeah this is something I have caused purposely when I’m stressed cause it kinda feels nice. If I stay up late my brain separates and it’s like I’m high. It’s wonderful. (This has been something I’ve had my whole life)
Yeah it's like when you are high and walking but it's like you dont have to be conscious of your body it's like you go in your head and trip while the body is just going on
Ever since I started getting these I’ve realized that, it’s like being high but only the mental and somewhat visual effects and no physical feeling. But at the same time the effects that it does have aren’t as they are when your high
Watched all these videos about a year and a half ago when it first started. I still lightly “get it” here and there very lightly but I’m proud to say I’ve overcome derealization. Big tips: Go out and live. Do things that make you think and focus on something. Don’t give your head a bunch of time to just think. And don’t fight back every time you feel it. Instead, relax, embrace it, and breathe. Understand that your having derealization and allow yourself to be okay with it in the moment. It sounds impossible but trust me doing this instead of fighting back is how you “get back to normal” !!
This comment is really comforting to me. I just got my first job literally 4 days ago, and it's been difficult staying focused because of the way I've been feeling mentally. These feelings of not being present and not feeling "real" have been coming and going throughout the past 3 years of my life especially since Covid isolation. But now that I'm out in the world, I sometimes fear that I'm not safe because I'm not in my home, which intensifies my stress responses. I often break down and catastrophize because I miss the days when I didn't feel like this, even though I know the best thing would be to accept it. I am literally in the process of reprogramming my brain to a lifestyle that it is not used to and its been so hard. But your comment really did make me feel better and encouraged me to keep going. Honestly other than my mental state, things are actually going pretty well in my life and you reminded of that. You reminded me to have gratitude for the things that are going right. Thank you. ♡♡♡
I’ve been stressed out big time bc im moving in with my fiance very soon so I’ve been experiencing derealization for a while now. But hearing this helps me not feel so alone
Thanks bro 😭🤝
Accepting that I'm living in this reality is what comforted me, thanks for the tips too.
Definitely feeling emotionally blunt and stuck in my head.
Head also feels detached from my body.
this video made me cry a lot.. i don't remember the last time i felt normal. i've been stuck in a dream state for years..
Sam Kieran Walker me too.. that’s exactly that. i don’t know what is to be normal anymore. i leave that for 8 months and I don’t know if i will be able to continue to live😓
Sam Kieran Walker call on Jesus . He helped my friend who has also this condition
Marie-Ange no come on dont say that, we need to talk about this cause 3 weeks ago i smoked weed and i still feel high randomly like for example yesterday i was out with a friend and we were walking and suddenly i felt light and i could hear him talking but i couldnt process it and i felt like i was in a dream and time went really quick, i know how you feel life is shit just now
Liam Mcvey it’s just like really hard.. i did a badtrip and then after life wasn’t normal anymore. but I feel a little better when I see other people who have that too
Marie-Ange do you feel trippy alot of the time tho im scared cause its been 3 weeks it happened again today, think imma see a therapist next week
It's almost like you're there but yet again you aren't
Facts bro
Yeah thats a good way of puting it.
i said them words to my docter i said i feel fully there but i also dont
Same.......
It feels like "yes" but it feels like "no"
YESN'T...
I've had it 12 years now comes and goes... worst usually at the shops or when I'm eating with people. It almost feels like nothing around me is real, my brain is foggy/cant focus or remember things and objects and people tend to feel really distorted either really big or small. I sometimes compare it to living in a dream (nightmare). The struggle is tough and I know I'm not alone just as everyone else isn't alone either I decided to comment on this because I had a bad episode tonight and feel like this is the best place to put it, life is strange but it gets better hang in their guys!
OMG SAME yesterday i went to the shop and when i walked in i just stood there and it felt like i was in a dream (nightmare)
For me direct sunlight seems to exasperate it.
I had derealization for about 13 years from trying pot for the first time.
It really sucks.
@@glointhedark11323same here bro. Got it from weed, slowly learned my way out of it but now I'm left with everything just not feeling real. Like a video game
Jesus is the answer. He healed me. "So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed."(John 8.36)
@@lenas10Jesus is the answer. He healed me. "So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed."(John 8.36)
This happens to me during a full blown anxiety attack. To combat it I have to make sure I’m preoccupying every sense. The other day I had to brush my hair, count from 100-0, and tap my other hand all at once. It made me realize I am in control of my body.
Bruh when I was younger I used to stand in the mirror and be like damn I’m really here
Sameeeeeee
That still happens to me
I keep looking at my hands and be like "look at these, these are ur hands.." It felt like I'm in a vr game lol
2 Lit oh yo me too! I always got made fun of for being vain
YES!!
This is a living hell on earth. But I will never give up.
Whew! I feel the same way!
exactly man! trying to have this mindset
Why?
@@Dolxe_luna Because you feel like your life is stolen from you and all you can do is just be the spectator. Because you feel robotic and disconnected from your body, memories, thoughts, family. You look in the mirror and don't recognise yourself.
You'll get through this!!!! 💖
I had derealization a lot as a child... and a few times as an adult, but it's decreased a lot now. I honestly had no idea what it was all my life.
Exactly the same. It wasn’t until yesterday did I have a conversation with my daughter that brought up the memory. I googled what I had experienced and it was this exactly. I never told my parents or anyone. I haven’t had an episode for over 20+ years.
Jesus is the answer. He healed me. "So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed."(John 8.36)
Me too, as a child! I used to tell my parents "I feel like I'm dreaming, do you feel this?" and they couldn't relate or tell me what was wrong.
I’m sending this message out as a prayer. Recently for the past months I have not been myself. I and 11 years old and have just moved to a new school and things have been getting worse and worse. I am having so much things going on inside my head which an 11 year old should not have. Please god help me, and everyone pray for me so I don’t have to go through this anymore. Thank you
I don’t feel real. Everything feels like a dream.
Me too
Yep that's it. When I went through it i would remind myself i wasn't dreaming and would try to do things to ground myself and take care of myself. It went away eventually. Panicking about it will make it worse.
Exactly how it used to be for me. I know it can be extremely disturbing and terrifying but when it happens, try and take your mind off of it and don't 'focus' on the feeling of nothing being real, if that makes sense. Hope that helps.
@@sparklyunicorn5431 Literally exactly what I used to experience, thankfully mine also went away. Its nice to know that you're not alone.
@@Jacob-dz7bl how long did it take?
this disorder SUCKS. i can’t see why anyone would ever pretend to have his
Some people are misinformed and mistake brief emotional numbness for dpdr. Aside from that I think that dpdr is definitely one of the scariest disorders anyone can have
@@Jack-hi1hq The thing is i have :( it started 2 years ago and its keep on going.
Renagadde IKR mmkk Mo
@@lcrobloxyt3848 I have this since september 2018, before I was never anxious and I would laugh at mental disorder, now I understand everything......
It's so scary, whenever it happens to me I feel like I'm dying
I am so glad I found this video. I am under a lot of stress as I am facing homelessness
In 6 days. I was made homelessness at the age of about 2 and abandonment and sexual abuse followed so it’s no surprise that I am struggling to pack up my home now.
It’s amazing to hear these explanations - I am so grateful. Telling myself where I am and that I will be safe is NOT part of my madness - I’m actually doing the right thing.
You are saving my sanity - thank you. I’m 57 and my mind has not felt like it belonged to me for over 50 years but I am determined to not just survive but thrive 💜
i pray for you to get better🙏🏽
Derealization is something I've definitely experienced. It usually preceeds a major panic attack. It doesn't happen often and experienced it the first time at 32. So, for me it was a trigger moment of a panic disorder and I've learned to kind of enjoy it. Even though it typically initiates a panic attack, I've learned to ride the adrenline spike like a roller coaster ride. I am grateful for my medication that really helps. 😊
For me, it feels like Im living constantly with a VR headset on. I know what I’m looking at, but somehow, it feels like it’s not quite.. there. Like I’m looking at a picture or a computer screen or something. It helps if I’m touching it but even then it still feels like what I’m looking at and touching isn’t quite... what I’m looking at and touching. It’s hard to describe.
SAME. Good to know that I'm not the only one that feels like this.
Cassi-opeia oh my gosh I literally have the same stuff but I feel like I’m not even here and nothing feels real
this is exactly how it feels for me too. like i know what i’m looking at or where i am in the back of my mind but it doesn’t feel like what i’m loooking at is real, it’s barely a feeling but it’s definitely there
@@juneee3136 Ye , i'm having te same. It's like i'm looking from above my body. And what i am looking is real, but feels not real. And it feels like i can't use my body. But when i want i can use my body.
omg that's exactly what i said
It’s actually scary if when I’m at school and I’m walking and I just get to deep in my thoughts and kinda blank out of reality into my thought
yep me too. my friend sat next to me and he was talking to me and suddenly it felt like he was just a part of my imagination. then i started looking around the room at everyone’s faces they all seemed so unreal and nothing seemed real. my friend told me afterwards that i was “glitching” in real life.
@@kuhk2728 same thing happens to me mid conversation I just stop and stare at my friends and they’ll ask me what’s wrong it just feels so unreal and scary I literally have to feel around to get somewhat back to reality I looked into Maladaptive Daydreaming and turns out all the thing depression and loneliness I’ve been feeling is connected and honestly it’s getting hard and I feel like giving up b/c my parents just don’t understand they thinks it’s all just a faze that will pass but it’s not
Honestly! I know the feeling, and it doesn’t happen very often now cuz I’m better at it and have controlled my maladaptive daydreaming, and to anyone who’s still confused, the best way I can describe it is that feeling when you wake up from sleeping and you don’t quite know where you are, you look around and your brain is triggered with familiarity, but imagine being stuck in that feeling 24/7. I can only imagine how terrifying it can be to have it every day, kudos to you all you beautiful legends, I’m proud of you for making it this far!
Me too.
i feel like i’m aimlessly walking and i forget that i’m there for a minute
remember that weed/pot/marijuana can trigger depersonalization. Weed/pot/marijuana is not as harmless and miraculous as people think.
Yes!!!!
Omg this has been happening to me…
@@ceciliagomez1576 unfortunately, people try to sweep it under the rug. It is a very common issue caused by pot.
I had depersonalization and anxiety for 6 months after I had an edible!! It was the most frightening time in my life and I felt detached from body. I got back to normal but I’m never touching weed again.
@@jackied197 Exactly! I am glad you recovered. Did you feel yourself while separating from the body? The moment you detached from your body, did you feel like a glove slipping out of the hand?
With derealization you have just put into words the way I've been feeling for YEARS. The comparison to glass is actually scary because I've been describing it for years as feeling like there's a pane of glass between me and what is real like time is just quickly passing by and I'm only watching and never present but always on autopilot no matter how hard I try to change it.
Like a dream
It got a bit better when I gave up and stopped caring
U feel your arms small?
I’ve experienced derealization many times, and I never knew it was an actual medical disorder until now. It make so much more sense now. I’ve always felt like a crazy person explaining to my friends that I didn’t feel like I was living, like I felt I was in an out of body experience and everything was like a dream. I feel better knowing that other people go through the same thing. Thank you!
You're welcome! It's very satisfying to help you have understanding. Now you know you're not alone. You can see from others' comments.
does it feel like you not seeing what your actually seeing ?
Its almsot impossible to explain to someone what your feeling they LL be like
It s the same thing for me.I Feel like this world doesn t existe. I keep thinking that these people don t exist and I m alone in this life. I m afraid all the time.
@@slimeballjoce3597 exactly
I'm literally crying right now because for the past 3 months I kept having moments where it felt like instead of being real, I was fake and in a dream. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one.
I totally get it, I used to get it at least once a week before, but lately in quarantine it has gotten a lot more intense. I just got back from a trip and literally feel like it didnt happen at all. Im so scared.
What about people around you, did they feel real?
@@Burevestnik9M730 Yes, for me it wasnt really questioning if what I was seeing was real or not bc i knew my experiences and the people were real, but more so feeling like i was in a dream state, like watching in a passenger seat and struggling to really feel present in the situation.
P.s My dissociation has gotten a lot better!!
Same
@Marco Hernandez I mean I can't speak for everyone but for me its been a thing for as long as I can remember. Its different for everyone though
Depersonalization and derealization are also trauma-responses. I developed this dissociative disorder due to a traumatic event and the symptoms slowly diminished as I went through trauma-therapy.
Honestly I am so happy to know that I am not alone with this, I have not been diagnosed with this but i have this kind of horrible feeling all the time basically, seeing others with this helps me understand it more..
I feel like I'm gonna faint and I feel like I'm dreaming
same here.
Exactly it's like I'm going crazy
Yesss same
same
How are you now
I thought i was the only one who was going through this. I tried explaining to so many people in my family, and no one could understand. I hate feeling the feeling of not being real.
Yeah girl no one helped me too because they can't understand it.You're just ashamed of it and I'm super ashamed to feel I'm not real..
same here, i feel like I'm dying slowly, or I'm going mad.. i try my best to feel and act normal knowing that I'm not normal at all...... i know everything but i can't feel my existence,..
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Sameee
So true
Whoever experiencing this you're not alone. This is what I had thought too before I knew there was a thing like this. I've been sufferings for over 10 years now and I had this since I was 12 and recently I become desperate to diagnose myself. I researched a lot everywhere in the web and finally I'm this age when I got a thing to call this condition because I was really ignorant back then and thought I'm only crazy. Depersonalization is real and it's rare. And we know there isn't a cure but only ourselves and some therapy
This is what depersonalization to me.
• Sometimes I wonder of my existence and watch myself in a reflection and thought, "Is this me? Am I myself?" "Am I even real?"
• I feel detach and even question if the place I'm at is even real. Sometimes when I'm in the house or at a certain place I wonder if I even exist at that moment and I question "Am I even here and real?"
• I feel like I'm not real and don't exist but at the same I exist. It's just so complicated to explain.
• Panic attack and depression episodes
• Feel detach from your body and sometimes felt nothing
• Things are sometimes too much or less. The sounds around, your emotions and just everything.
• There are times I don't even know my friends and the people around me and question myself, "are they real?" is this (name)?" "is this my family?"
• sometimes there is a fog and I'm the only one that sees it and felt like a dream.
• everything I see is moving bigger and smaller
• Sometimes I question myself if I'm alive or dead I don't know what's real and unreal around me.
there are still a lot in depersonalization. and I'll tell you it's not easy.
Are you doing better now?
I have this condition. It's not just feeling like I'm living in a dream, it's like living in a nightmare.
If you feel alone just remember there’s 3,500 other people in the comments going through this with you ❤️
we must thank the universe for Dr. Tracey Marks.... I just stumbled upon this RUclips site.... this is SO INFORMATIVE! I didn't even realize that this condition even existed and now feel it is acknowledged, and for that I will be forever thankful to her & her informative videos. As a child I used to leave my body & float to the ceiling of my bedroom & bounce around, thinking that was normal.....as an adult I "check out" of conversations & have had a LOT of trauma in my life. It's good to know there is actually a name for this & I agree, it's nice to know we're not alone :)
And how do they go through this?
I thought i was the only person with that its happen to me due to stress full and fear in age 16 and tell now im 25 .and it get worst i dont who i can visit to help me
I sometimes have moments where im sitting around people and their voices just drown out and my inner narration just comes out, or times where im alone and i look at my hands and im in disbelief that im in control
deckkid101 this is exactly it
Yeaaaah this is kinda fun 🥴 whatever
instead of seeing it as omg im tripping look at it this way think wow the fact that god created my hands and body with such precision he made no mistakes is amazing and your heart will feel at ease and you will calm down “in the rememberance of god hearts find rest” -quran
YEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS THAT HANDS THING IS SOOOO TRUE😭😭😭
THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT IM GOING THRU
Ever since the start of the pandemic I have been experiencing derealization + depersonalization. I noticed they appeared shortly after my first panic attack and intensified after I had experienced a rough depressive episode that lasted about 2 months or so. Although I am still working on healing and improving, this video has helped calm some of the thoughts and questions about what I've been feeling. Thank you so much Dr. Marks for all of the information you have provided and good luck to everyone dealing with this and more :)
I used to have depersonalization phases when I was a kid (7-11 years old). Looking back I think it was due to what I perceived as an unsafe environment (school, unstable family) and I felt like I was trapped in a life I didn't choose.
I was so anxious in my childhood that I would have panick attack "meetings" daily episodes that would last for months. However, knowing one self is the best way not to be afraid of your feelings. I'm now grateful having all that anxiety gave me a billion tools that most people don't have/are starting to learn about in their adulthood.
I often feel like I'm the only person who's real. Like everyone else is an npc in a game. I don't know if that counts, but it's pretty bizarre. The only times I really don't feel like it is when im talking to someone im REALLY close to.
It's probably just a symptom of my likely depression, but thought it was of note
My thoughts all the time!!
But wait i think that too so are you also a npc who thinks the same thing or are you a real person
@@bruh-kj1qw Nothing I say could make certain I am real. Guess you will never know.
Me too
i experience the same thing. I keep thinking others arent real hghh
I found it strange that she didn’t talk about trauma at all and how trauma can be related to this disorder
Nicole B Thank you for mentioning this!!!! I have trauma and I tend to experience this as part of it. Kinda wondering why she didn’t mention it too.
I was going to say. This started happening to me when a friend of mine was murdered a couple years ago. It hasn’t gone away since , life doesn’t feel real
Trauma is the primary factor behind this disorder too
Exactly, becouse i'm pretty sure it has a lot to do with this kind of behavior and simptoms.
NAMASTE
yellow submarine Exactly! I don’t know too many people who experience this that don’t have trauma. It can happen without trauma, but it’s much more common with trauma
Thank you for doing what you are doing. You’ve really improved my understanding of my disorders. It makes me feel so much more confident and validated, especially in how I can tackle my problems. 🙏🏼❤️
This video and the comments have helped me so much. Thank you. I hope anyone else struggling can find this video somehow, so they'll feel less alone.
I’ve had derealization for years since about 16, I’m 26 now. Thank you for helping me to understand the difference between depersonalization and derealization. I feel as if the world isn’t real around me. I lose track of time and almost zone out everything around me. I know I exist, but I feel like I’m on auto pilot. Sometimes I come back into reality for extremely brief periods of time usually only a minute or so, but during those times, I’ve look around at my surroundings and thought “I’m here, I’m in reality, I’m present”, and then I go back into the fog. Nothing triggers it, it happens randomly, but I wish it could be permanent. Having people tell me I’m lazy or don’t care about things is hard when I can’t take certain things seriously because they truly don’t seem real. I wish there was a cure for this.
Me too. I have to force myself to focus and I tell myself "be present, be here, you matter, the other person talking to me matters, be here because I matter and I want to make others feel good and I do care about myself and others. Show it and be present " 🥲
It sounds like you could honestly benefit a lot from mindfulness meditation! It's literally the practice of doing what you just described, slowing down and taking a moment to say " wow, okay, I'm here and this is me and my life, and wow, thats a thought that I just had. " its taking time to be in the moment of you and being mindful and self aware.
Waw that like me ..when i was 16 i had it due to fear and stress and now in 25year .i though im the only one with that
I Feel you. Been there since i'm very young age. Now I am almost 30 and trauma and depression and medicatipn made me feel like that. But the good thing is that therapy and meditation helped me a lot so yes there is a cure my friend don't give up
@@TheAtomicBomb215 i think i have DP-DR since i was 16 year i was fearfull and stress full on something in my religion about 3month later suddenly i felt im like in dream and without soul maybe and dont know who i am or what i am and what i do ...untill now i have these and im 25 year old ..im so broken i dont know how i can back again
youtube really did put this in my recommended for a reason huh
Ava It really snatched my shit too I’m already making a therapy appt
I feel like it reads my mind at times. As sophisticated as things are, who knows maybe it does...
Absolutely crazy! I wanted to google this feeling but I felt it didn’t make sense , how do I explain this in a sentence, never looked it up.. now this pops out. I’m in relief!
Mysticum Lavandula same!! I told my doctor just 2 weeks ago, I don’t know how to describe this but I said sometimes I feel like I’m not in my body but I am, but I feel so weird like it’s not me.
Stay alive fren ||-//
Throughout most of my life, I always felt like I was going through a dream. This describes some of my feelings fairly well. I used to have more extreme episodes that would literally last years. I ended up pursuing meditation and mindfulness techniques which improved upon it. I also got on medication which seems to have removed it mostly. Glad to know I wasn't just imagining things, that this is indeed real.
Which medication
Which medication?
Dr Marks, thank you for uploading this video. As a sufferer of DPDR, this video is a God-send and a great explanation.
All of my memories feel like dreams. If I can remember anything. I also keep forgetting what I look like if that makes sense. I know I’m black and my eyes are big. Otherwise it’s a surprise every time I look in the mirror
Yeah i would remember childhood memories and I'd be liked damn wait i did that or was that someone else? And looking in the mirror to make sure it is me is something I did alot. Its weird because I remember my memories so clearly but then I'm like wait but how? Its scary.
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Sometimes when I'm driving, I feel like it's not me driving. I arrive at my destination and realize I made it and wonder what kind of symptom I'd just had.
Sheila Turner sounds like dissociation
Nope it's just that you done so many times it's like second nature to you so your brain kinda just log off while your heading home it's normal
True Same but not driving walking for me
Sheila Turner there’s actually a certain term for that in psychology ... something along the lines going on autopilot. Its not a disorder, but that’s pretty normal.
That happens to me I get to my destination and can't recall driving at all.
Why do I relate to this so much.. for me it happens randomly, like one second I'm chilling, the other second I don't feel real and panic, then later I feel real again. But the moments I don't feel real feel like an eternity
I like that you just keep going if you fumble your words. This makes it feel REAL. Like this is not just a show or presentation.
I feel like my soul is trying to separate from my body but is still attached while is hovering
Peggy Winters-Stevens exactly
Same....
Thats just how it feels
That’s literally exactly how I’ve felt for months.
😶 This.
Sometimes when I’m talking to friends and family I suddenly feel as if I don’t know them, but my brain is telling me that I do. Could this be a form of depersonalisation?
MmKay yeah it is I feel you. Like someone could be talking to me then out of nowhere they feel like robots and yeah. It’s kinda hard to explain
this
Yeah, I think so. It happens to me way too much
I think so. But then it wouldn't be depersonalization instead it would be derealization
Yes, it's like your mind is wondering who's these people are and something else tells you they are you friends or family but more and more questions surged and you question reality and the purpose of life and all, at least in my case
This makes so much sense. Currently I’m having an episode- I wanted to know more. I feel like I’m floating. But I feel like someone else is taking control. Idek how to describe it. You described this better than I can lol
You're a blessing Dr. Tracey! I've felt both for years. Often times when I try to think of what my face looks like, I can't conjure up anything in my mind. I look at my face in the mirror so often and yet I cannot remember it. I've been feeling very "out-of-body" the last few days I think due to a newer medication I started, so I will bring this up to my psychiatrist. :) I'm hoping to get into a psilocybin trial so I'm finally over my depressive disorder! Fingers crossed :) thanks for your help
I experienced this a lot in high school, just felt like I was watching a movie
And how are u now
@@gleamysoul9016 I'm good, there's still times where I notice it occasionally but it just helps knowing there's nothing wrong with me and that this isn't uncommon
has it gotten any better as you’ve gotten older? has it eased compared to when you were in high school?
@@karybajis7649 definitely! I might notice it once in a while but it doesn't really bother me anymore
Kaimac95 im in highschool now , i feel like im not here all the sudden and it weirds me out , i just dont feel right. Does it make your vision feel weird such as just looking at stuff and thinking how it is there and stuff
I have been asking my sisters “what’s real” ever since we were kids, sometimes I feel like I’m actually going insane
I think I’ve felt this for as long as I can remember. I have memories from when I was around 5-6 trying to “break out” of that out of touch depersonalization feeling, and also trying to “make my eyes” aware that my surroundings are real. I’ve had small moments of feeling real that last up to around 30 seconds. But it’s been so long that it doesn’t freak me out anymore. Idk if its normal, and I’ve only realized recently that it’s a mental disorder thing and not something that everyone experiences. But after years of dealing with it, it’s easy to stay calm about it now
I think I'm starting fights with people now cuz I keep thinking of people as a game and they are always right and I'm not in a everyone is right mood .
I thought I was just zoning out but now realizing I wasn’t😅
I've had this since about 7years old. Initially a coping mechanism to deal with years of sexual abuse. Once my abuser was removed the dpdr subsided through my teens. It returned in my 20's during a toxic relationship and then only appeared during times of stress. I'd always hidden it from everyone feeling I was alone and probably mad. 10 years ago it came back with a vengeance due to being triggered by my mother who abandoned me as a toddler. I was finally diagnosed 4years ago. I'm still struggling and can't work. I'm now 55 and no longer find pleasure in anything. My grandchildren are all that's keeping me here
I used this as a way of coping with sexual abuse from my father. Im guessing is was a fight or flight technique that’s inbuilt as I was only 8 years old. Im 55 and I still have the zoning out when things get too hard or my brain feels too much pressure. As it’s a learned coping mechanism it’s something that I can’t unlearn so I’ve always had it. I didn’t know it was a thing until I saw this video. Life is hard living under the shadows of abuse. It’s not something anyone can see looking at us, and we are never free from it. Not a day goes by without a reminder from something I see or smell or touch. I’ve had good counselling and I can talk about it, but it never leaves you. We have the life sentence that they deserve. 😢
i recently found out that i probably have this. i every minute in my life i feel like everything is unreal. i can't remember a time where i didn't feel like a ghost floating through my own life. maybe for a few seconds when im in the moment it feels real, but as soon as that's gone im plagued with a feeling of disconnect and fog. every time i try to get out of my head it feels like im sucked even further down. every time i tell myself this is real i feel like it gets even more fake. it's hard to take anything seriously when it feels like im in a video game. it's hard to feel happy or sad or really any emotion. i just feel dull and depressed and bored. it's not that i don't have those emotions, it's just that when i do have them, they feel dull. the only time my emotions really pierce me is if im having an anxiety attack or am overwhelmed.
I’ve been feeling the exact same way recently, i was chilling on my pc and started overthinking about myself. And i felt like my soul left my body and i was no longer in control of my own body. I felt like someone took control over my brain and my Memories. I’ve experienced this for 2 weeks now, scary af.
This was spot on
That's exactly how I feel. I wish I knew how to stop it
Same with me
Everytime I look at the mirror it's feels like a first time. It's like, reality would hit me 'oh this is how I look', 'have I always looked like this?'. it felt weird.😒
Tell me about it everything seems like an imagination
Char Ching me yesterday 😩😂😂
And then starts touching random things and telling urself that this is shampoo, hanger, stuff lol
@@hanahanifah9282 and then I repeat words over and over again until they sound like random sounds. Like saying shit like “water” who decided that this should be called “water?” Why not “spoogly?” Or why is a zebra called a zebra. Or an elephant an elephant? Thinking stuff like this makes me feel weird like I’m just an object with a random sound that is my name.
I'm currently off work because of burnout. Prior to the day where I had a mental break down, I remember feeling detached from my body.
I watched the video you made about burnout, which was very helpful.
I've been off work since last Wednesday, and finally had a good night's sleep last night. As I'm learning to relax and give myself permission to do nothing, I find that its helping me feel more like myself again.
Going forward I'm going to make a care plan for myself.
Thank you doctor.
Thank you for this video, Dr. Marks. I have been dealing with this for almost 20 years and thought it was just social anxiety because it only happens when I’m around other people. I sort of black out and can’t see anything and go into autopilot. I can still have conversations and walk, etc but I can’t see what’s right in front of me. I can hear someone talking to me and respond, but I can’t see the person. Thankfully it goes away within a couple of minutes.
I feel so relieved to know that this is a thing. I’m not alone anymore
you aren’t i’m feeling this does it get better?
@@autoN55 it does get better :)
You’re not
@@leticiaskata3031 omg yes. I started feeling weird and like not real sometimes at 11 it was so bad I hated it so much. It’s been a little bit I’m 13 now and it’s gotten a lot better. Happens once every couple months or it happens sometimes but it’s not that affective idk.
Hey how are you now? I stared feeling it march and I completely hate it
Derealization is a tough thing too go thru you HAVE to be strong to go thru this bc i promise you will wanna give it all up , but the thing to know is that everything is normal and your ALRIGHT , i’m going thru derealization as i type this paragraph right now! but i pray that EVERYONE who is going thru this will fully recover in the name of jesus! ❤️
How are you doin now ?
How are you doin now ?
@@Ogloonetime24 still going thru it 🤦🏽♂️, but hopefully it will be gone soon.
@@ynwmelly35 still going thru it🤦🏽♂️, but hopefully it will be gone soon.
@@XenCantSnipe how is your daily life ?
Thank you doctor Marks for your video!
I experienced derealization every time I had to leave the house after being physically threatened by someone who lives around the corner from where I live. It stopped when I started fearing less for my physical integrity (bc the likelihood of being physically hurt in the street by that person lowered due to them choosing another way to threaten me). I am actually very happy that I had these derealization moments, because otherwise I wouldn't be able to leave the house at all (which I couldn't afford to). It was an absolutely conscious experience: I would step outside, feel a traumatic response that made me hypervigilant, decide that there was logically no reason for being hypervigilant as that person wouldn't attack me in public even if we met, so I would simply derealise/dissociate and stay only co-conscious enough to navigate the street not to bump into street lights. Interestingly enough, now that I am not in danger anymore, I can't "turn on" this derealization at will. Brain is a wonderful thing!
My particular flavor of problems is severe Bi Polar 1 with a side of anxiety and OCD symptoms for desert.. I've dealt with it since a very early age. The loneliness and self doubt are sometimes unbearable. You channel is both empathetic and informative. It helps. I know I'm not the one defective person in the world with mental health problems. This illness has done a serious number on my thinking lately. Sorry for getting my mess going, this was meant to be a compliment. Thanks for your work.
I’m literally so scared of the world ending or what comes after death like where do I go and thinking about the world asking myself if it’s even real? Am I real? Am I gonna wake up from this dream? Does anyone else feel like that or am I the only one?
Yes, I did. I’m 36 and I felt like that for a long time. What truly helps is praying and turning your life towards Jesus. He DOES heal, comfort, and help you. And he will bring people into your life that are healing for you. He leads you to a better life and changes the unhealed parts of you bringing understanding to your life, heart, and mind.
watch the netflix documentary called « surviving death » they bring real people who experienced near death experiences or even people who died for a short amount of time ( their heart stopped beating ) then came back to life and they tell you about what they experienced/felt etc.. it might help
I literally thought I was "crazy" and the only one thinking about that! I seem to always be worrying about what you are describing. The emotions are so intense that I have to just distract myself from it by doing something. You're not alone. We don't know what life is, or what comes after. We truly don't. I feel like we just need to accept that, and to just go about our lives with gratefulness, empathy and enjoyment. We are here for a reason, that I do believe. I also believe that if we live a virtuous life as a good person, we will end up somewhere peaceful after we die. Just my thoughts though!
Oh my god all the time
This is me 24/7 all the time
I just feel like everything is too fast and nothing is working everything is a lie and fake life feels fake
I feel you. Sometimes I can just be sitting down or in a car and I feel like everything is fast.
It does I feel you
Thank you for this. As an adolescent I experienced this, mostly the unreal feeling. It was like watching a movie of myself. Later in my teens I tried pot, and when I found myself very high, I felt the same thing, and would go into a panic attack. One day in my 20s I started to experience, ( no weed involved), these feelings so I just leaned into it, like- bring it on. The experience went away almost immediately. I’ve had a few moments through out my life, mostly tied to feeling alone, and would just realize that there was people that loved me and understanding this, and leaning into the feelings made me feel better. I’m 65 and haven’t had one of these episodes in decades, even through a divorce. Any way just relating.
Great video. My young Nephew 14 had this before his 14th birthday and would not go out of his home. After 6 months he was prescribed anti anxiety drugs which helped immensely but never took it away. He at least has some quality of life now whereas he had none.
I didn't even know this had a name.😢 Thank you for this
You're welcome. Thanks for watching.🙂
@@DrTraceyMarks it wont go away I feel like I'm not in my body and that I'm not here for example I feel like I'm just looking through two holes😪 I just want it to go away jm only 12😪😪
Korvous Davis I’m 15 and its really bad rn, I feel like Everything is fake and not real. Im scared I’m gonna do something bad to myself but i notice its only bad when I have anxiety and worry about depersonalization alot. I started to get this on November but on december i didnt really feel it anymore because I stopped letting it take over my life, but I’ve recently been having lots of panic attacks and it came back and its worse.
Murling bro i’m 13 going through this have u been doing better and if u did cure it how did u do it😔
How are you all doing? Any improvements?
I got this condition from over thinking life and death, and then having panic attacks when I couldn't make sense of it. During those panic attacks, I would experience derealization where everything felt unreal...it brings a lot of confusion to my mind. It has made me more grateful and mindful about life. I'm more mindful about my physical and mental health. My contribution to my family and friends. And just enjoying life although I have this condition that makes me depressed
Edit: I hope we all get through this condition and love life for the good things it has...lets do the things we're passionate about and spread positive engery. Stay real fam
oh my god same
I feel you.
Thinking of death is what triggered mine
@@JohnnyJayVisuals Same
Omg yess. I had derealization a bit often before. Then I started overthinking life and death and I don’t know what it means to be alive anymore or what life is. Now I’m just stuck in my own mind and idk how to get back to real life and accept that I’m alive. I cry everytime idk what to do
We need more awareness out there, thank you for spreading the word
Thank you so much for this video. I have severe anxiety and OCD and have been dealing with derealization for a long time. It's always scary but bearable. Today I had a very strong one and I had to lay down. I started to think about the things that make me who I am, to try and be myself again. Things like "My name is.. I live in... I like...". I think it helped me to calm down a little and would recommend to anyone suffering from this. Stay strong ✌🏻
Yes, just connecting with the basics and getting out of your head.
A whole year went by I have no clue how, I feel like I’m repeating the same day everyday wtf,
I feel the same shit 😔
@@lukea2646 I cant go to sleep, sometimes its not even scary it's just annoying
I can't believe that people around me real, that everything actually happening.
I feel this! Like I’m not real, no one is real, what is life? It’s too much
@@ore208 it first happened to me when I fell and hit my elbow
It is very helpful to have you explain the disorders etc in down to earth understandable terms. I tend to understand symptoms and disorders better after listening to you
For me I'd say the tunnel vision view is very accurate. It also feels like having one eye closed. It also feels like you're disappearing into oblivion, like you're half-asleep, etc... It's weird because you can clearly see, and you know you can see and read, but you still feel like you aren't seeing, or thinking. It's like you're conscious, but your stream of consciousness isn't being written down in your memory, making it almost impossible to feel present in the moment. Another good way that you described it is like "being trapped inside your head." One time when I had it I literally felt like my brain was entombed in darkness inside my skull (ironic I know, since that's exactly the description for your brain inside your skull).
I can handle any symptom of depression except the derealization feeling. I'd rather feel the tightness in my chest and unable to breathe profound sadness that just make you want to cry than derealization. I don't even consider myself having a depressive episode unless I'm feeling derealization. For me, that's the line between "feeling depressed" and "having depression."
When I feel like that I'm at my worst, but paradoxically never suicidal. I don't want to die because I already feel half dead, and it makes me more depressed because I don't feel alive. It's also when I have the biggest fear of death, because it feels like what you would think of in the atheist's view of death: that you're just going to disappear. I can't even draw on faith or logic to calm that kind of fear if I'm in that state.
I'm convinced Hell isn't fire and brimstone; it's being in that derealized state, as if your soul itself was being destroyed.
This is the most relatable comment I’ve ever read about DPDR
its been hell for me,i dont remember being happy and normal person cause of this.
@@_czhai How are you now?
It's been 5 years for me
Thats my problem, but... i do remember being happy. I just wish i could get back.
@@Phillygthemessenger same
Me too. I’ve formed hard core beliefs about myself because of this, like ‘I’m not normal’
If everyone is struggling with DpDr, You can definitely heal and get back to normal. I am the proof, I have pure OCD and started developing secondary PTSD. I had traumas, stress and anxiety accumulated since years and one day I took a weed edible(it was the first time I ever tried it) and i had a badtrip. During the badtrip i started having panic attacks and depersonalization and derealization. I noticed that the day after, I still got the same effects "like if I was still high" and the feelings never went away. I tried seeing a therapist, talking to my friends about it, reading POSITIVE things about DpDr and using tips I read and saw in videos. I had DpDr for almost 2 months but I cured my self. I recovered fully. Even with my OCD and traumas. If I can, you can. My OCD always made me think that I wouldn't recover never, that I would always live like that and that I would end up killing myself. It was hard but I recovered and you can because even if you feel like u dont have the strength or the power to recover, you actually can. And the best, is that the cure is all in you!!!! You are your DpDr and you are the cure for it!!!! My tips to recover fully are:
● no matter what, DpDr is never a lifelong condition and one day you will come through it. It is a condition that is designed from your brain to protect you from feeling too much anxiety and to protect you from trauma but it is only made to be temporary.
●STOP watching videos and reading things about DpDr, you have to stop being obsessed with this condition. It's ok, you have it. It will go away but stop searching it on Google.
●Live your life, sleep 8 hours(not sleeping well makes dissociation worse) LAUGH! LAUGH ABOUT IT, LOVE IT, ACCEPT IT WITH ALL YOUR HEART. love yourself, and live others.
●Ignore your symptoms and just keep going with your life, work, study, go to school, go out with your friends.
●take care of you. If you do drugs, stop. It only makes DpDr worse. Take care of your feelings, of you, take time for you, if you feel like you need help, talk to other people, go see a therapist.
To end this message, I just wanna say that I'm proud of all you battling this condition! You are strong and you can recover even if you feel like you cant!!! And If it's too worse ask your doctor about Lamictal(Lamotrigrine) for DpDr. But you dont need meds to recover because I never needed them. GOOD LUCK!!!:))
So glad to hear you both commenting your experiences!! Because I’ve been struggling more with mine since jan last year, I smoked dope back when I was younger 8 years ago I went on such a horrible trip and I was in a really bad (suicidal depressed headspace at the time) and I got rushed to emergency I still have moments and get paranoid it’s so horrible, and not many people understand I’ve been on anxiety meds for a year and a half now which do help but some days shits tough 😫😫😅😅 thanks for giving me hope !!
Thank you for this
Its been over 20 years I suffer from derealization and I can surely say that it is a life long condition.
What I needed to read today! Thanks. A little encouragement goes a long way!
Diego Torres lamictal seriously saved me from depersonalization and derealization. I honestly couldn’t remember what it was like to feel like a real human until I was on Lamictal for a few weeks. It was pretty amazing
Needed this God bless this woman and everyone in this chat !!!!
I'm going through a spiritual awakening, and everything around me no longer feels real, and the old identity is slowly being taken away.
Can this disorder make you freak out about being alive, I've been experiencing severe anxiety and it feels like I'm in a really bad dream I can't wake up from I feel numb in side and very scared at the same time.
Yes this also happens to me frequently
Yea I have been feeling that too
How do you feel now ??
Yes it’s constant, you aren’t alone!
@@mikemeechapro1 are u better know i keep having the realization of existence and its freking me out
It's great to know that my high school and early college years of intense depersonalization were real. I had to really work on myself to accept that I'm a physical being.
I called it the zone, where I would be watching the world or simply not exist for moments in time -from minutes to days. It was like I was in my head, watching everyone through an old television screen from the backseat of my mind. I slept a lot to lower the feeling.
You just cleared up 18 months of my life. I was convinced I had Ms or a Brian tumor. Thank you for this video.
I’m having this fear rn, hopefully I’m going through exactly what you’re going through too and it’s not something physical 😣
For anyone experiencing this, it definitely can stop. I used to suffer deeply from this constantly as a teenager which caused my anxiety to spike as a result of being terrified of how I was feeling. Now in my mid 20s I rarely feel this way at all
What did you do I’m 15 going threw this
@@nickthealphamale535 Unfortunately my dude, I think it takes time, patience, and self-care. I'm 24 and am experiencing it off and on due to an experience with weed, and it's not very fun.
Best thing I can say is that I try to distract myself. And I try to know that I'm gonna be okay, and that with time and therapy things will be alright.
@@ESOInTeNsE how long have you been experiencing it?
@@k1j It's been about 2 months now, and it's already improving.
But I'm just taking it day by day and being patient with myself. Also, therapy helps.
@@ESOInTeNsE thanks dude, I've been dealing with this for the last 2 weeks and im so tired of it, going to therapy soon I think
whenever i reminisce my childhood, i remember myself in a 3rd person view. like what i see myself doing is someone else's memory of me. sometimes the view is overhead, sometimes it's bottom left, sometimes it's behind but mainly it's like seeing myself through the eyes of a person taller than me.
the earliest one i can recall is having a conversation with my mom. she's sat on the bed while im standing in front of her. the view is placed by the entrance of her room at my eye-level. then the view pans closer with me facing my mom while her back's facing the view. it's like watching a movie, or someone recorded it and sent it to my brain?? i was 5 at the time.
another one is when we arrived to our new apartment with my mom when i was around 3 or 4. the memory is a still image of the living room but it's slowly panning to the right. like the kind of picture you'd see in home design magazines.
idk how else to explain it other than playing a vr game in 1st person mode but the person you're viewing through another character is yourself.
That’s an interesting observation. Some people do have trouble remembering their childhood and see it similarly to how you describe. I think it tends to be more common though if you experienced your childhood as traumatic or upsetting. But that doesn’t have to be the case.
Omg this jus so perfectly descriped did got help yet
gotjoos I always thought I was the only one who thought or remembered that way
gotjoos YES! That’s EXACTLY how I would describe it! It’s like being in a simulation/ video game
Yes! I see lots of memories in observer point of view
DPDR is one of the worst feelings in the world and no matter how many videos are about it in youtube, it’s indescribable unless you feel it , thankfully i found my way out of it and note that its all in your head and it will be gone for sure , stay strong
Thank you for spreading information about DPDR. It should also be mentioned that it can be caused by PTSD and anxiety. I've had it for about 6 years 24/7 due to PTSD and while overcoming it, my DPDR has become more episodic instead of constant. Symptoms and severity ranging from:
inability to recognise myself in the mirror, inability to recognise family members faces (still knowing who they are), feelings of floating, feeling detached from my body, not recognising familiar places at all, feeling like i'm on autopilot or am a robot, remembering my memories as if they happened to someone else or complete inability to remember anything, etc, etc.
I wish more people could recognise how much something like this can affect someones life. There is very limited information about it even if you know where to look for it
Ty.
I remember the fucking day it started. 12 yrs old.
Now 39 and it's every day
@@erintaylor7322 Fucking crazy. I know. For me I was 9…. was staring at a mirror and had a panic attack. I knew something was wrong; like my mind went into “simulation” mode thinking I was no longer real.
26 now and tried a THC gummy a few weeks ago and it literally took me back to that moment I so vividly remember. Still lingering right now but I have to fight this and live normally. The mind is too powerful.
Dont do drugs Kids, I should have tanken that statement seriously
Me too
K2 did this to me when I was 15 in May 2012, I haven't been right since.
me too I have a heavy marijuana smoker and was taking acid then when i stopped doing drugs it all hit me in the face and nothing felt real
@@laina5920 mine was when I stopped smoking
Guys I did mdma 3 days ago and it may have triggerd this dissorder. I have used it in the past and it didnt trigger the dissorder thats what makes it so weird. I have called professional help today and they said it happens to more people and that there is a big chance the dissorder is triggerd because I had a bad trip, but that in the end of the week I could be feeling like normal again. I hope you all are doing fine and that I will heal in the next couple of days.
Do you guys ever feel like you're going to forget how to move and breathe like it's almost paralyzing 🥺
yea especially before going to sleep
Yes 100% like right now 😞
I literally can’t tell if I’m breathing in or out anymore. Everything feels so unreal and if I don’t think about it, I’m gonna drift away.
This and I fear forgetting my family sometimes I look at my father and I don't recognize him, like I know he's my dad but my brain is s disconnected. its hard to explain
Same.. me this morning 🥺 I would like take slow breathing because I feel like if I think about it I’ll actually stop making myself breathing
It feels assuring that I am not alone with this experience. I am praying for all of the people like me experiencing this. I hope that we will get through this situation. The first thing always is acceptance. As what I watched with other videos. Sending hugs to everyone ❤❤🤗🤗
it’s so reassuring to know that there’s other people who have this
Don’t worry guys, I get episodes of DP/DR sometimes. It’s been more than 6 months now, it has lessened now. Your mind is stuck on the point of being dissociated. I know how hard it is to explain your family and friends about it but don’t worry, sooner or later you will be fine. When the feeling of DP/DR comes, don’t label it as good or bad feeling. Just remember that it makes you think you are stressed but you aren’t. Say to yourself- “I’m not stressed, I’m getting a feeling of being stressed”. Try meditation too. It will get better. It can also be classified as OCD because even when you’re not feeling dissociated, your mind feels you are. Try to cut the thoughts gradually. Check memories on phone, good times you spent with people you love. Distract yourself. You’ll be back to normal. Trust the process.
Ay, does anyone after looking at their parents think that who are these people and why am I living with them? Help me out.
@@akshitasaraswat512 Yes, I have gotten that feeling too. My mom seemed like a random woman sitting in her bed like if she was allowed to. In "reality" it was her home and everything was in place according to the common sense.
@@insideoli yeah Same,, for how long have you been suffering from this? Are you recovering?
@@akshitasaraswat512 It was an episode that lasted a few hours, I am fully recovered by now. And what I can say is that, nothing is worth the stress. Just live lightly and smoothly, there's absolutely no need to be all suffocated to deal with hard things.
Do you still have it ? Does it go away forever?
Sometimes I look at the mirror and I think "oh wait I exist." It's a very strange realization, remembering I'm in control of this body, and sometimes it takes a bit to come back. I never really knew what to make of it but I'm looking at the comments and finding too many things I relate to.
Same for me. I would start wondering things like. Who am I really? What makes me “me?” Am I my body? Am I the soul? Am I the brain and the body is just a container for said brain? Am I the skeleton under my skin? Which part of me is really me? Is it the whole package? Or one part? When someone dies people don’t really say “look that’s John.” It’s more like “look that’s John’s body.” That’s John’s body? Where did “John go then?” If a body is something that can be possessed or considered something that belongs to someone then what really makes John “John.?” What makes me “me?”
@@adibadnan238 eh I’ve kinda just been in the same state of mind for a while. Especially with COVID I’ve just been doing the same thing every day. The days just kinda blur together and my perception of time as well as my perception of the self have also started to get all messed up.
I have had DPDR for 9 months now there are stages
You will panic
You will be annoyed
You won’t give a crap (Im here)
Your all Better?
Anyone else have this experience
Oh your recovery goes up and down takes time but you got this your strong keep fighting y’all!!!!
I am so happy I ran into this video and your channel. Your explanation was easy to understand and so informative. The most comments I have seen on a video which helped me to realize I am not alone. I am 68 and had a small TIA 6 years ago. Then in May of 2021 had a severe attack of vertigo which put me in physical shock as it lasted so long. After that episode (and I have had this experience before in many years past) I feel as if "my life force" was leaving my body, which is the one of the ways I describe it. It feels as if there is an actually separation or separateness of body and soul (or spirit). Recently, I had Omicron and this feeling really set in. I actually thought my soul was leaving my body and that I would die, eyes opened or closed. I sometimes get a feeling that I am only on the inside, looking out, perhaps as an observer. My Doctor recommended Escitaopram but I am afraid to start taking it. I need to hold on to as much reality as I can, but it's true, I am anxious and depressed. I think almost anyone that has had the virus would feel the same. It is frightening enough to cause anxiety, depression and fear of death. Thank you Doctor for making this video!
This video was scheduled for January. But by popular demand I moved it up. Because of this, I refer to a video on Cannabis that hasn't published yet. It will in a couple of weeks. Stay tuned.
Dr. Tracey Marks I tried them none of them do not work at all I’m just as worse or a higher dosage
Thanks for this video..and I came to know this is just a anxiety symptom ...so now a days I am not worried..but it's annoying.
@@sarithad7 You're welcome!
@@jodiescore1555 Yes, the SSRI's don't always work. I'll keep my eye out for other solutions.
Do long periods of emotional stress and anxiety result in this disorder?