i do not know what the artists intent was with this animation, but to me, as someone who has been victim of abuse from a young age, this represents that twisting feeling in your stomach when a seemingly innocent childhood memory of flakes apart and the trauma associated comes seeping in drowning out any semblance of nostalgia, peace or innocence. beautiful and cathartic to say the least
i get that feeling daily. ive been through alot. enough that sometimes i cant even look at my family. ive given up because i feel like this daily, that swirling anxiety and depravity of safety and love, the lack of worth. it gets better. i just need to leave first.
I had a dream once about a garden near my childhood home with worms that slowly unraveled into threads of living yarn. A tapestry of organic matter writhing in pain under the uncaring beauty of the sun and the flowers above. This reminded of the feeling that gave me. Very cathartic, yet unnerving. Well done.
This feels exactly like the memories from my childhood, bittersweet yet scary, not knowing what was real and what i made up in my head. Those ugly flashbacks that feel exactly like those scribbles. I don´t know who you are, but thank you for this animation it made me feel understood
This is exactly the same thing I feel, these ugly flashbacks that you don't know if it's real or your head created it, but deep down you know it's true and that it's your head trying to lie to you that nothing happened and everything is fine, trying to block everything.
this video reminds me of the feeling of praying safety will one day be at home, so you keep reaching out. but as you feel the prick of a needle you are reminded that all there is inside is just like the outside, but covered by a bed of flowers.
I had a dream once that i was in this white room with a few boxes and things inside... and there was this guy that stabbed me in my...eye or head with a needle. I called for help and someone came. That same guy hammered the guy whomwas trying to help me to the wall...there was no blood, i didnt feel anything, i just felt so numb. No one screamed. We just looked at eachother. The guy who stabbed us just dissappeared i guess...and i also saw this girl that looked almost exactly like me. I told here "i want this to end" and she said "were all dead'' or something related to death...then i woke up. Thats all the scariest parts of my dream...or nightmare.
i was about four or five and at a wedding with my parents. my dad got tired of me talking during the wedding (I didn't understand what was going on), took me to a bathroom stall behind the venue and beat me. i came back in with him crying but i cried a lot and wasn't gonna tell anybody about it anyway. aunt picked me up and tried to calm me down. neighborhood kid across the street told me she came to my house & was going to knock and asked if I wanted to play, said she overheard my dad hitting me and decided to leave. i don't know what i said to her. ive never felt safe in my life
TW: slight mention of CSA ig This video reminds me of how my childhood was, as much as I can remember it. It felt numbingly painful but peaceful in a way, a kind of hurt you'd feel detached to. A nostalgic feel to the pain maybe? I especially resonate with the visuals relating to the needle stabbung through the body parts (eyes, tongue, etc.) because after the things that happened to me, I've been told to just shut up and forget about it since it was family. Not only that, but I was punished for it because I was "sinful and dirty" because I "didn't say no to it". I was 6 at the time and I've forgotten everything except for the fact it happened. Sorry for the oversharing, I just felt like it was needed I guess. Just to make myself feel better :p
I think i just saw the devil in this animatio, like, this is one of the most evil things I have ever watched, my god, I felt the hurt, the needles and the dread. 10/10 great vid
This was beautiful. It made me feel an ache and old pain, like when I was a child and I was bullied by my own family 😔. But these are the things that made me me, and I saw truth in the film, too. Well done!
what really struck me about this video was the audio component. im not sure how you got these sounds or what you would even call them, but they are insanely unsettling and really help the tone youre trying to convey. really cool stuff
@@cucumbersalad8547 thank you very much :^) i love audio design, experimental music, and visual arts so video art is a great chance for me to do all 3 at once
this is cool it makes me feel scared but its cool and it makes me think about my own childhood and the way the video keeps going reminds me of sometimes when i remember the memories i dont want to remember but then its all ok for a while wow ramble hahaha sorry
i do not know what the artists intent was with this animation, but to me, as someone who has been victim of abuse from a young age, this represents that twisting feeling in your stomach when a seemingly innocent childhood memory of flakes apart and the trauma associated comes seeping in drowning out any semblance of nostalgia, peace or innocence. beautiful and cathartic to say the least
Thank you very very much, may catharsis always be found on the other side
i get that feeling daily. ive been through alot. enough that sometimes i cant even look at my family. ive given up because i feel like this daily, that swirling anxiety and depravity of safety and love, the lack of worth. it gets better. i just need to leave first.
@@mochilatte9792 find safety, you can do it!
There's really no place like home, it's hell.
the walls of our boxes become so familiar
I had a dream once about a garden near my childhood home with worms that slowly unraveled into threads of living yarn. A tapestry of organic matter writhing in pain under the uncaring beauty of the sun and the flowers above. This reminded of the feeling that gave me.
Very cathartic, yet unnerving. Well done.
@@TheFeetCrusader thank you very much my friend 🤝👁️🕯️
Watching this is like eating a new type of pickle
🤔🥒
@@augustyourstruly I love them so much 🥒💛
@@Stevie-J 😊🥒
This feels exactly like the memories from my childhood, bittersweet yet scary, not knowing what was real and what i made up in my head. Those ugly flashbacks that feel exactly like those scribbles. I don´t know who you are, but thank you for this animation it made me feel understood
@@alexp6757 Thank you for being here
@@augustyourstrulyyou are a wonderful soul 🖤
@@alexp6757 😊💛
This is exactly the same thing I feel, these ugly flashbacks that you don't know if it's real or your head created it, but deep down you know it's true and that it's your head trying to lie to you that nothing happened and everything is fine, trying to block everything.
tottaly creepy, but also captured the fears and vibes well, awesome!
thank you!! 👁️🪡🤍
Very interesting mixture of media and styles. I made me feel weird.
Thank you for watching!
this video reminds me of the feeling of praying safety will one day be at home, so you keep reaching out. but as you feel the prick of a needle you are reminded that all there is inside is just like the outside, but covered by a bed of flowers.
covered by a bed of flowers, yes
Conflicted feelings for the little girl whose sewing was an escape… 😢
@@flatlandtigress8685 she is tired
Very effective story telling! Well done, keep it up!
Thank you so much!!
I had a dream once that i was in this white room with a few boxes and things inside... and there was this guy that stabbed me in my...eye or head with a needle. I called for help and someone came. That same guy hammered the guy whomwas trying to help me to the wall...there was no blood, i didnt feel anything, i just felt so numb. No one screamed. We just looked at eachother. The guy who stabbed us just dissappeared i guess...and i also saw this girl that looked almost exactly like me. I told here "i want this to end" and she said "were all dead'' or something related to death...then i woke up. Thats all the scariest parts of my dream...or nightmare.
@@carlostendons messages from the universe 🧵 they thread us together while we sleep
i was about four or five and at a wedding with my parents. my dad got tired of me talking during the wedding (I didn't understand what was going on), took me to a bathroom stall behind the venue and beat me. i came back in with him crying but i cried a lot and wasn't gonna tell anybody about it anyway. aunt picked me up and tried to calm me down.
neighborhood kid across the street told me she came to my house & was going to knock and asked if I wanted to play, said she overheard my dad hitting me and decided to leave. i don't know what i said to her. ive never felt safe in my life
@@petergriffinfortnite69 our scars make us who we are, but we are not bound by them
@@augustyourstrulythank you, love your video ❤
thanking my fyp for recommending me even more random creative works.
@@mhyajensen3333 thanking you for watching!!
TW: slight mention of CSA ig
This video reminds me of how my childhood was, as much as I can remember it. It felt numbingly painful but peaceful in a way, a kind of hurt you'd feel detached to. A nostalgic feel to the pain maybe?
I especially resonate with the visuals relating to the needle stabbung through the body parts (eyes, tongue, etc.) because after the things that happened to me, I've been told to just shut up and forget about it since it was family. Not only that, but I was punished for it because I was "sinful and dirty" because I "didn't say no to it". I was 6 at the time and I've forgotten everything except for the fact it happened.
Sorry for the oversharing, I just felt like it was needed I guess. Just to make myself feel better :p
@@sakushi1732 thank you sharing, art is for connecting with eachother in ways we cannot normally. i wish you the best ☀️
I think i just saw the devil in this animatio, like, this is one of the most evil things I have ever watched, my god, I felt the hurt, the needles and the dread.
10/10 great vid
@@eduardobonilla444 thank you ! 😈
this is for when you realize you've always known hell and it's always known you
@@chloec7556 but you learn comfort all the same
This was beautiful. It made me feel an ache and old pain, like when I was a child and I was bullied by my own family 😔. But these are the things that made me me, and I saw truth in the film, too. Well done!
@@Brucebod thank you very much my friend 🤝🙏
This is beautiful. This truly spoke to me. I love videos like this. Thank you. ❤
@@maryjaneppkk thank you so very much
ohhh yeah thatll do it
oh yeah
Ahh surrealism! My favorite!
@@joeycrooks6217 me too my friend 👁️🙌
what really struck me about this video was the audio component. im not sure how you got these sounds or what you would even call them, but they are insanely unsettling and really help the tone youre trying to convey. really cool stuff
@@cucumbersalad8547 thank you very much :^) i love audio design, experimental music, and visual arts so video art is a great chance for me to do all 3 at once
Loved it!
Thank you :^)
why is this so familiar?
because you lived this in another life
@@augustyourstrulythat actually explains a lot
This feels like anxiety.
Unsettling in a good way! Well done!! ❤
thank you very much!!
Childhood trauma i see
I love it!
thank you!!
this is cool it makes me feel scared but its cool and it makes me think about my own childhood and the way the video keeps going reminds me of sometimes when i remember the memories i dont want to remember but then its all ok for a while wow ramble hahaha sorry
@@cheeseburger-m8u thank you friend
Buried
real.
@@REDIRECTEDUSER 😶🌫️
is RUclips trying to tell me something?
@@a-nothere712 yes
Nightmare on elm st
@@angelo-v1f3v good movie
i like you. can we be friends?
What’s this supposed to mean?
@@AJzilllaPro the truest answer is in your heart