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  • @amandapoulson4341
    @amandapoulson4341 3 года назад +205

    Gemma I am 55 and lost my Mom over three years ago. I miss her every single day. Try and remember all those good times. I know that is really hard sometimes. Don't shy away from talking about your dad, he was a massive part of your life and always will be. Mandy xx

    • @tarjahannu5740
      @tarjahannu5740 3 года назад +3

      My mom lost her mom back in January of 2021. That was the hardest thing to watch my mother cry. She hardly ever does and watching her break down was so hard. I’m just glad that she has me and her children(11 kids) she birthed all of us. My mom has always been a hero in our eyes. God bless you and I’m praying for you💛♥️

    • @islabrooks5154
      @islabrooks5154 3 года назад +5

      i am so sorry about your loss im 13 and cant even begin to imagine what it'd be like withiut a mother or father, stay strong

    • @madamg612
      @madamg612 3 года назад +2

      Big hugs Mandy 💙

    • @dianehen8570
      @dianehen8570 3 года назад

      I'm 55 and lost my mum 3 years ago too ! X

    • @gemqueen1866
      @gemqueen1866 3 года назад +3

      I've got a few years on you and I lost mine over 30 years ago. Some days the feelings of sadness and loss overwhelms me and I find it hard to bear. Some days I can hardly remember him which makes things worse. Then there are days when I remember all the good things, the chats we'd have, what I have to talk to him about now in my life - I miss that.
      The bad days come from nowhere and hit you like a freight train, and yes it 'gets easier' when that time comes I couldn't tell you and seeing Gemma at this point, girl I get it. We get it and you know what. Its fine and its normal! Don't ever feel that it isn't and you must always show the stoic side of yourself.

  • @cynthiatorres6545
    @cynthiatorres6545 2 года назад +3

    Gemma I’m 56 and lost my Mom 5 years ago . When people say it gets easier as time goes by or you get over it it’s not true . You just learn to keep going and hold on to what your loved ones would want for you .
    Your Dad is always with you and watches over you .
    Please don’t let this world change you . I think you’ll find there’s more of us that appreciate and respect the true raw authentic genuine self of people rather than a curated facade .
    I believe in signs from heaven our loved ones send us . For me mine are butterflies, light bugs , feathers and red birds.
    When I see these in the most unexpected random places at random unexpected times I know it’s my Mother letting me know she’s always with me . I’m sure your Dad sends you signs as well .
    God bless , love and light 🦋

  • @sarahkirkland6300
    @sarahkirkland6300 3 года назад +85

    I think it’s really hard to accept that life goes on without someone who’s so important to you. It eventually eases and you don’t feel as suffocated, but the shock never leaves. My dad has been gone for almost 6 years and it affects literally every big decision I have and I think of him every single day. The most important thing is to just let yourself feel. Allow the pain to move through and don’t bottle it up. 🖤

    • @GemmaLouiseMiles
      @GemmaLouiseMiles  3 года назад +13

      Thank you, sending all my love to you 🤍

    • @sarahkirkland6300
      @sarahkirkland6300 3 года назад +3

      We’ll get through it together, thank you for being so open 🖤

    • @Sue-yo3dc
      @Sue-yo3dc 3 года назад

      Beautiful advice xx

  • @tmhopkinds7599
    @tmhopkinds7599 3 года назад +8

    Your dad would be so so so proud of the person you’ve become today, the success you’ve achieved and just the genuine happy self you are❤️

  • @kellstinkerbell71
    @kellstinkerbell71 3 года назад +23

    Oh darling I just wanna give you a massive hug. Don’t ever apologise for being sad or anxious or feeling low. You help so many people out, your so kind and caring but your human with a heart and sometimes the heart needs to off load. You have lost your dad at such a young age but talk to dad he is with you he’s guiding you he’s giving you strength to achieve such amazing goals in your life that’s very special and precious. I’m glad you show some of your hard times and it’s always good to write things down or share your grief, problems, worries etc with someone. Your one of the nicest people on Social Media, I feel for you like I do my friends. Even during your episode your still thinking of others hoping it’s helped people by you sharing your grief, one hell of a strong, kind, beautiful soul. I’m always here to listen to you and I’m sure lots of others are the same. Being real doesn’t mean your being negative one bit, your allowed to feel shit and you shouldn’t hide it either. Get it out, off ya chest, out of ya mind. we all need a rant now and then, does you good. Anyway hope little teddy is recovering from his ordeal. You have lots of lovely things happening. Will be stressful at times but just come and rant to us and we will help you through it. ❤️

  • @pamelacannon3750
    @pamelacannon3750 3 года назад +4

    Gemma, I was crying right along with you as I could literally feel your pain as you described it. Thankfully I haven't lost either of my parents and can't say that I know how you feel, but it gave me an idea of how my friends and family genuinely must feel that have lost parents. You are such a courageous person to share this deeply emotional side of yourself, but I am glad that you did, because, those of us that religiously follow you, want you to be able to talk about this to us. Even though the majority of us don't know you personally, we are still your friends and RUclips family! Hang in there and let the flood gates open when you need to, I for one, will be there to listen and send you much love and a huge comforting hug to help you get through those down days!!! 🤍🤍XOXO🤍🤍

  • @janettehunt6831
    @janettehunt6831 3 года назад +10

    I lost my dad unexpectedly when I was 25 and I’m 60 on Friday. My dad was my world and I thought The pain would never go away but believe me sweet girl,it will ease and time really is a great healer. Over the years at every occasion especially Christmas and even my up coming birthday milestone, I think of him even more. Ifeel for you and you are very brave. He is watching over you and I’m sure he’s very proud of you. I believe he’s guiding you and will give you the energy and strength you need to deal with the grief. Big hugs 😘

  • @sophiejohnson1937
    @sophiejohnson1937 3 года назад +78

    Gemma, I hope your ok! We are all here for you when you need to talk. If we didn’t have the bad days we don’t appreciate the good days! 🥰 we are so proud of you for everything you and Jaime have achieved ❤️

  • @AnnmarieStarx
    @AnnmarieStarx 3 года назад +15

    Don’t ever apologise for being raw you don’t give us negative vibes you always make us happy just you being open and honest we love you so much more
    Always keep it real xxxxxx

  • @rosemarydent5805
    @rosemarydent5805 3 года назад +3

    All I can say is that it does get easier my darling. Never feel guilty about enjoying good times just remember your dad may physically be not around but he's in your heart,
    And I like to think it's not the universe gifting you your dreams but your dad is always around sending hugs xxx

  • @patwilliams676
    @patwilliams676 3 года назад +4

    Grief is a difficult thing. I lost one of my family members 2 years ago suddenly and that was the first time grief had hit me that hard. Therapy/counseling had really helped me. Gemma, thanks for being so genuine and vulnerable with us ❤️. Please know this is helpful to me and not draining.

  • @zahb7583
    @zahb7583 3 года назад +57

    I lost my dad last July we was really close he was in hospital when he passed away and we never got to say goodbye.. he was the only person on this earth who would never let me down I know exactly how you are feeling I miss my dad everyday.. he taught me everything in life but never taught me how to live without him😞 I hope your ok.

    • @GemmaLouiseMiles
      @GemmaLouiseMiles  3 года назад +15

      Sending you so much love x

    • @zahb7583
      @zahb7583 3 года назад +1

      Thank you xx

    • @hollybrierley2
      @hollybrierley2 3 года назад

      I’m

    • @lynnrich5943
      @lynnrich5943 3 года назад +1

      Feel for you I lost my dad in a care home last year and couldn't say goodbye or have many at his funeral x

    • @Mar-iy8il
      @Mar-iy8il 3 года назад +1

      I feel the same about my dad who passed a number of years ago. I miss him everyday, but he lives on in our memories and hearts. I'm sorry for your loss. Keep him close in your memories.

  • @louisecrawford7379
    @louisecrawford7379 3 года назад +8

    Grief is the worst pain - it’s so deep and raw, and sometimes it knocks you down like a steam train …all of a sudden. Feel for you - it’s always okay to talk about it. 🙏🏻❤️

  • @lucywilliamsx1002
    @lucywilliamsx1002 Год назад +1

    I'm literally sobbing watching this my heart goes out to you so much I lost my mum 6 years ago and I still cry it's nothing to be ashamed of and definitely nothing you should apologise for your doing so well putting yourself out there the way you do I have huge respect for you it will get better xxx

  • @traceytaylor3736
    @traceytaylor3736 3 года назад +36

    Gemma sweetheart, you're dad is always with you and he can see how happy you are and I bet he's soooooooooooo proud of you. Grief is a hard thing to deal with huni, you will never get over your dad but I promise it will get easier. Lots of love and big hugs to you. Xxxxx

    • @monaali6008
      @monaali6008 3 года назад

      Why our parents have to leave us behind and die? :'( why?? 😢😢it breaks my heart aloooot.💔

  • @roxannemortimerhunt8285
    @roxannemortimerhunt8285 3 года назад +16

    Hi Gemma I suffer from severe depression anxiety I lost my dad in January of last year and my baby the week later my heart goes out to you your videos inspire me you are an amazing person I'm sure your dad would be very proud of you when I'm having a low day I watch your videos cheer me up no thank you 🙏🙏🙏😇

  • @kianelliott4874
    @kianelliott4874 3 года назад +4

    I’m crying watching this but it’s for the best. I lost my step dad last year and I sometimes think I never Grieved enough. I go through stages where I break down only on my own and just miss him terribly. He was in my life for such a long time that it feels like I lost my real dad and it hurts, but when you see everyone else move on it makes you feel weird. I feel bad opening up to anyone, especially my mum because there dealing with it so well around me. Seeing you feel the same way really comforted me cause it made me no longer feel alone, you’ve honestly been such a light over the past year Gemma and I can’t Thankyou enough. Thankyou for being yourself and the amount of love you give to us 🤍 xx

  • @amywood5591
    @amywood5591 3 года назад +1

    I love your videos! Grief is such a horrible thing losing my mum 18 months ago was the hardest thing ever! Your dad would be so so proud of you and just remember he is always watching you ❤️💙

  • @tinacarrol6702
    @tinacarrol6702 3 года назад +21

    So Sorry Gemma. I understand Totally. I had a wobble today Crying. Lost My Mum 10th April 2 month's ago . I was out with a Friend Today and a certain song came on the Radio. And That just Threw Me. Crying with you listening , Your Dad would be so proud of you. Lots of love Tina
    Xx 💞

    • @suecoo66
      @suecoo66 3 года назад +1

      It's always the songs that get you isn't it x

    • @nmen4435
      @nmen4435 3 года назад

      ❤️❤️sending love

  • @janetsutheran8603
    @janetsutheran8603 3 года назад +56

    Sending u a big hug losing someone close is painful , my husband is going through it has well losing his brother this year in January xx

  • @samanthalaera4583
    @samanthalaera4583 3 года назад +15

    I'm so sorry but I laughed so much when teddy removed the collar after like 2 sec. of wearing it, bless him😂😂 sending you 4 lots of love♥️

  • @tanyajohnson7714
    @tanyajohnson7714 3 года назад +156

    Everybody needs a good cry at some point ...stay strong.

    • @Posh369
      @Posh369 3 года назад

      Please don’t say stay strong she doesn’t need to - she just needs to be ❤️

    • @tanyajohnson7714
      @tanyajohnson7714 3 года назад

      @@Posh369 excuse me?! ...who are you?? I'm entitled to my own opinion thankyou very much...Gemma didn't have a problem with my comment..if I got a heart from the woman that made the video who are you to scrutinise my own words...stay out of any commet I ever make ...ill apologies to Gemma on your behalf for bringing negativity to her video 👍.

    • @Posh369
      @Posh369 3 года назад

      @@tanyajohnson7714 your poor friends and family if this is how you respond to me asking not to tell grieving people to stay strong. I have been where Gemma is - in fact I’m still there and people telling you to stay strong is quite frankly bullshit. Have a nice day 👍🏼

  • @mechellepillay8801
    @mechellepillay8801 3 года назад +7

    I had to stop watching. I feel your pain. Its such a physical pain loosing a parent. I recently lost my mom and I totally get you. Know you are not alone. 💖

  • @lmanmmmdli137
    @lmanmmmdli137 3 года назад +4

    Its really hard to lost someone, I lost my both auntys in a week for months ago, from cancer.😔 I miss them a lot. So Gemma wipe your tears and smile. All fathers are proud of their daughters😊😍

  • @Jenny_Jen95
    @Jenny_Jen95 3 года назад +29

    Sending you so so much love. Gemma, please talk to a grief counsellor. You need to express how you’re feeling and after, it will feel like the best thing you could ever have done for yourself xx

  • @Donna_Louise
    @Donna_Louise 3 года назад +6

    They say grief is loves way of not letting go & I understand that I really do. Hugs 🤎

  • @ThaniaInteriors
    @ThaniaInteriors 3 года назад +3

    Sending you a huge hug from a girl whose turning 37 in a week and lost her dad 7 years ago and still feels like it was yesterday. I feel you 100% and sympathise so much. You will deal with it as strongly as you can, and yes you will have sad days and maybe days you can’t handle but always remember it is ok. Lots of love my dear

  • @rebenaq4506
    @rebenaq4506 3 года назад +2

    You had me in tears as I remembered my mum. I lost her nearly 5 years ago. The pain never leaves. We just cope. Part of me died too.
    Thank you for sharing, you are not alone.
    You dad is with you with every step you take. Your dad lives through you.
    Hugs n love. ❤

  • @ceecee8890
    @ceecee8890 3 года назад +6

    Don't ever feel you need to justify your feelings. Own your grief however it manifests. You may find it helpful to sit in your car and talk to your Dad, tell him what's going on, what you've been up to and what excites you about your future. His soul will hear you. Sending you all the love in the world and hope Teddy feels better soon. Xx

  • @rachael7303
    @rachael7303 3 года назад +1

    I lost my mum 4 years ago at 17 and it was and still is the hardest thing in the world but I am now coping better than before and you learn to live with it but never gwt over it of course, enjoy the memories you had with him and know he loves you and don't be afraid to ever speak about it grief is something that will inevitably happen to every one of us and we all need to talk about it when needed❤

  • @carolinebrown6865
    @carolinebrown6865 3 года назад +6

    I was crying along with you. I lost my dad last year. I know exactly how you are feeling. The pain of losing someone never goes away. Your dad is so incredibly proud of you and everything you are doing. He is watching over you and cheering you on. Xx

  • @skyelewis1385
    @skyelewis1385 3 года назад

    Never apologise to us for feeling down, we appreciate you showing us the realness of your life that not everything is sunshine and rainbows. xxx

  • @ewapecyna
    @ewapecyna 3 года назад +17

    You are such an amazing person

  • @vickyfisher2843
    @vickyfisher2843 3 года назад +13

    I won’t lie and say that the loss of a parent gets easier, as I don’t think it ever really does but you do learn to live with those sad moments your experiencing. It’s natural to feel the way you do and if you need to cry, you must as it helps to let it out . Xx

  • @vdcmlg8390
    @vdcmlg8390 3 года назад +11

    Thanks for uploading this because i’m going through the same emotions and nobody gets it unless they are in the same situation ❤️ it helps a lot

  • @anapaulapavao9609
    @anapaulapavao9609 3 года назад +1

    I cried with you sister, my dad has been struggling with cancer treatment and it's been so hard....God knows how much we would like to share every good thing with them...

  • @tazwells1246
    @tazwells1246 3 года назад +5

    Even when they are not there in person, they are there in soul! He probably has the biggest smile on his face because of how well you are doing! Chin up 💖

  • @Wendy-rb9xl
    @Wendy-rb9xl 3 года назад

    The reason I watch all your videos is because you are so real compared to other people on YT. Please don’t think you’re draining energy. It’s so refreshing and needed as we all have things we are going through.

  • @mariamx4884
    @mariamx4884 3 года назад +5

    Hey Gemma, hope you're okay. Just want to say I felt all the emotions you felt when you were missing your dad, I cried with you. I lost my dad almost 7 years ago now and i still get those days where i miss him immensely however, one thing that really helps me is talking to him. You might think thats impossible but I have a diary on my phone in my notes. I write to him about all my accomplishments or anything big that happens in my life or even just to tell him how im feeling and how much i miss him. I find it really helps that empty lonely feeling that you get in your chest, tummy and throat when big things happen and hes not there. I also write poetry and those days all my feelings are just floating out of me, I journal it. Its a really good coping mechanism because like you quoted at the end, grief is like an ocean. From watching your videos it sounds like you are very similar to me in terms of talking about how you're feeling about him to others. The nights i wake up thinking about him i instantly pull out my phone and write to him. I never feel so lonely afterwards because it feels like ive spoken to him as insane as it sounds. You should try it and see if it helps. Its about finding the right coping statergy that helps you get by. ♡

  • @melodyduncan9827
    @melodyduncan9827 3 года назад

    one of the things I love about watching you Gem is that you’re so real. Seeing you cry just shows that you are a real person and just because on youtube videos you seem happy, you still don’t hide your struggles. I lost my bestfriend 3 years ago and I feel I can relate to you with a lot of what you’ve said, you are fine for a while and then something so small can tip you over the edge. Your dad would be so so proud of you and he’s always smiling and watching over you all. You’re doing amazing gal and we are all here for you! I am so glad you didn’t edit that part out of this video because it’s important to know that it’s okay to cry, it’s okay to grieve and it’s okay to grieve for a loved one for as long as you need to! We love you Gem and keep being you beautiful ✨🤍

  • @lynnberg6663
    @lynnberg6663 3 года назад +8

    Someone once said to me that when you think of those that are gone that is when they are the closest to you..

  • @sophiegafga318
    @sophiegafga318 3 года назад +1

    I lost my dad at the end of March this year and I've never heard someone explain the way I feel as closely as you did in the car... it was so comforting, thank you ❤ sending you a big hug xx

  • @amandajones1691
    @amandajones1691 3 года назад +3

    I’ve been in tears with you there Gemma, I’ve had a melt down today all of a sudden over my two dogs ... one died in August last year then her sister died January this year. They were my world & I feel like nobody knows how I’m feeling & life is just so awful. I hope you are ok Gemma. Lots of love sent your way xx

  • @rosdonnelly209
    @rosdonnelly209 3 года назад +1

    Gemma I’ve lost three members of my family over the years my dad my sister & my brother. You are in the early stages of grieving only natural to cry and miss your daddy who you loved so much. I like to think that they are walking beside me. Also I like to picture them in my heart carrying them around with me. Your daddy loves you so much and is very proud of his beautiful daughter hope this helps a little.

  • @suetuhill2848
    @suetuhill2848 3 года назад +6

    O Gemma, I was crying with you. Ive lost both my parents and think about them everyday. The pain never goes, it just gets easier to deal with. Your Dad is looking down on you and is so proud of you. Big hug xo

  • @vandaklap
    @vandaklap 3 года назад +1

    I honestly cried with you ❤️ the pain of loosing a loved one never goes away you just learn to live with it… I pray God give you strength ❤️❤️

  • @Hmrogers97
    @Hmrogers97 3 года назад +5

    Gemma losing a parent is such a hard thing to go through, especially when you’re trying to process it on your own. We will always be here for you and we want you to heal in the best way you can. If you need to reach out to someone like a therapist, there’s absolutely no shame in it and they can give you the tools to help. We love you Gemma and hope you have brighter days ahead.

  • @helendelvin4632
    @helendelvin4632 3 года назад

    Sweet, darling Gemma, you never get over the loss of a parent, but you do learn to accept it and live with it! So many things push me over the edge when it comes to the loss of my mum, a song, a smell, a book....anything really. I totally get how you feel, and so do many others, so do not ever ever feel alone. I do however think that we need to stop feeling guilty about how we are dealing with grief. Each of us deals with grief in different ways and no way is right or wrong. Also there is no set time for grief, no set time for when it will come on, no set time for when it will end. Just know that those feelings are valid and you should not feel bad for feeling them, it is all part of the healing process! Sending you so much love, and please reach out to others who have gone through grief when you are feeling blue!

  • @claire4167
    @claire4167 3 года назад +10

    When you lose someone I think you do lose a little piece of yourself because you're never the same again, the experience changes you. Yes the grief will hit you in waves but gradually the happy memories will be more prominent, the sadness doesnt go its just a little less. Never feel guilty about saying how you really feel, not only will it help you in managing the feelings but it helps others who are in a similar situation. I can only imagine how proud your dad was of you and would still be during all of your life experiences x

    • @katrinaryan1739
      @katrinaryan1739 3 года назад

      Claire, that’s so true you do lose a little piece of yourself and you are never quite the same again. It’s 20 years now since I lost my mum and a corner of my heart went dark when she died. Take care💜

    • @claire4167
      @claire4167 3 года назад

      @@katrinaryan1739 you too Katrina x

  • @loveisblonde92
    @loveisblonde92 3 года назад

    Don’t ever be afraid to ask for help, you might find comfort in speaking to someone and you can just talk, and let it all out. Grief is such a personal and painful thing, and it never truly goes away, but there are people out there that can help, sending lots of love💜

  • @debbytownsend2907
    @debbytownsend2907 3 года назад +3

    You’re dad would be so proud of you Gemma, he’s watching you and encouraging you all the way. You have achieved so much in the last few months, he is always around you . It’s ok to cry and feel the pain but he wouldn’t want to see you upset. You have so much to look forward to and you have the amazing support of Jamie. Big hug to you. 💕

  • @ireneray2558
    @ireneray2558 3 года назад

    Never apologize for being raw. This is you and we love you. This is life. It can't be glitter and glamour every day on youtube. You are such a humble and amazing person💗

  • @georgiehind6910
    @georgiehind6910 3 года назад +3

    I lost my dad 3 years ago & I still struggle knowing I’ll never see him again. I try to think about how proud he would be of everything I’ve achieved & I’d bet your dad would think exactly the same. You’ve achieved so much at such a young age and have been a massive support to a lot of people throughout the recent tough times. You should be so incredibly proud of yourself & understand that everyone has different ways of coping. Grief is more than an emotion, but is a process which you just have to ride. You’ve obviously got such an amazing support bubble around you and I hope you really know how appreciated you are 💛

  • @nessiepenguin
    @nessiepenguin 2 года назад +1

    I enjoy your videos so much, thanks for being so open about your feelings, I guess it’s a year later so I hope you aren’t in as much pain now. I just feel like your openness has made me realise I don’t necessarily need to keep the pain I feel from my sisters death inside which is what I feel like I have to do to get through each day even though it happened 5 years ago. Anyway, just going to binge watch more of you videos whilst I cleaning today 😊

  • @elviralanza
    @elviralanza 3 года назад +23

    Hi Gemma. I just hope you can get rid of that pain one day, I can’t imagine what you are going through now and I’m sorry… I’m sure he’s proud of you wherever he his now 🤍✨ Lots of love xx

  • @SerenaDAlexander
    @SerenaDAlexander 3 года назад +1

    I really just want to give you a huge hug. Completely admire your honesty and bravery. For me what helps is having conversations with them still or writing things I would tell them down. So I don't miss the conversation as much. And like you just knowing what they would say back.
    I can not wait for the moving vlogs and just know that your father is watching every step of the next part of your journey 🤍

  • @staceyindia3206
    @staceyindia3206 3 года назад +6

    Crying my eyes out watching this- knowing your pain, knowing exactly how you feel. For me it’s 4 years July and it still feels painful, it’s still so raw and I still have so many bad days. Sending you so much love and know how proud of you your dad is 💖

  • @annp97
    @annp97 3 года назад

    Gemma, I understand your pain. Grief can be a physical, palpable thing. I lost my dad 23 years ago, when I was 17 years old. I was very much a daddy's girl, like you with your dad. Events like my graduation from high school & college, meeting my BF/fiancé/husband, my wedding, buying my 1st house, having a baby...not to mention birthdays/holidays/special days are so hard. Sometimes a bad day just washes over me and I have what I call a pity party...cry for a few minutes or hours and it passes. It is exactly like your quote, waves washing over you. It does eventually become less intense as you learn how to navigate those storms and big waves without drowning in them. It does help tremendously to talk about your dad, share memories and treasured family stories with close friends or relatives, but it also just as important to find someone to talk about your grief with.

  • @amylove4439
    @amylove4439 3 года назад +6

    Crying is never a display of weakness, in fact you crying on camera is so empowering, and a reminder to everyone that it is ok to cry...it is ok to feel your emotions. You have a wonderful trait which is always putting others interests ahead of your own...even us strangers on the internet. If it means anything we all want to see what’s best for you not for us...I wish more than anything we could reciprocate all the love you show us. I wish I could tell you these words to your face, and tell you that you deserve to cry, no you NEED to cry. Grieving is so,so,so hard, and you never ever have to cover up how you really feel for the sake of others. Listen to your emotions and let it all out. I promise you, as you say time is a healer. You are a genuinely good person and you will attract so much good into your life, so I know there are easier times coming. Even so you still never have to stop grieving or justify the fact that you’re still grieving! I wish I could hug you and tell you how incredibly strong you are. You’re a superhero Gemma. I hope you will be just as proud of yourself as we all are of you, and as I’m sure your dad is of you! It’s time for you to start putting yourself and your emotions first. Sending all my love, and all the love in the world ( along with loads of hugs ). 💖💖💖💖💖💖

  • @beth9450
    @beth9450 3 года назад

    Even on the days that your really struggling you still crack me up "crying in the car with a camera on the dash" your so lovely !
    Intrusive thoughts can be very daunting but always know your dad will be watching over you and no doubt be so so proud of you !
    Sending so much love too you, heres to your next chapter 🕊🤍 xxxx

  • @blessings3
    @blessings3 3 года назад +16

    I can’t wait for the new house vlogs. It’s my fav thing ever

  • @janeforrest778
    @janeforrest778 3 года назад

    Hi Gemma firstly I wanted to say I found you last year during lockdown .I love all your vlogs and feel like I know you personally that is only dut to your wonderful warm personality.I can honestly say I wait for your next vlogs all the time and always enjoy them.You are so personable and that is what draws people to you.YOU WILL DEFINITELY have helped people by showing your sad days along with the happier ones.I cried so much this evening and had to comment.I am 61 and I completely understand that you want to share all of these important events in your life with your dad.I hope that sharing your grief with us has helped you,sending you a big cosy hug.Look after yourself xxx

  • @lauryngroom5405
    @lauryngroom5405 3 года назад +5

    So brave of you to put yourself out there like that with how your feeling and so important to show that it’s ok to feel these things. Stay strong lovely xx

  • @mairefarley3588
    @mairefarley3588 3 года назад

    Hi Gemma grief is like a rollercoaster. It is not easy losing someone we love so dearly. My dad was my hero and like you when things change I always think of what he would say. The quote at the end sums it up. Take care. Virtual hugs xx

  • @annie-qt1wz
    @annie-qt1wz 3 года назад +6

    I love your videos, you're the reason why I started my youtube account! Thank you for producing such amazing content Gemma! We appriciate you so much :)

  • @georgiahamidon5010
    @georgiahamidon5010 3 года назад +2

    I can only imagine the pain of loosing a parent. Sending so much love and strength to you xx your kicking butt and your dad would be so proud.

  • @darlenedrummer7834
    @darlenedrummer7834 3 года назад +6

    I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ! MY DADDY PASSED AWAY LAST WEEK ! ❤

  • @haylsandlife2116
    @haylsandlife2116 3 года назад

    I have watched you for years and never comment on yt, but feel as though I needed to because I have just sat and cried for the last 20 minutes watching you cry in your car😩❤️ no one is 100% perfect all the time and it would be extremely exhausting trying to pretend to be. Your dad seemed to be incredibly proud of you and still would be! It has been amazing these last few years watching you grow so I can only imagine how proud of you he is while he watches from above. Seeing the raw, vulnerable side of you just makes you even more relatable and has made me love your videos even more. I know it sounds strange, but it’s still uplifting to see someone’s struggle, because it shows others that they are not alone in theirs❤️

  • @chloeevans8451
    @chloeevans8451 3 года назад +4

    So so brave for talking about something so raw, we are all hear for you, weather that be to cry or laugh with ❤️

  • @EloraSmith
    @EloraSmith 3 года назад +1

    'What is grief, if not love persevering' your honesty is inspiring ❤️

  • @cassymay6240
    @cassymay6240 3 года назад +3

    I lost my dad last year and I can 100 percent relate to how you feel. The feeling you described, it’s always there always. I know my dad is around me and I have had a lot of signs where he has let me know that. You are very strong and it’s so lovely of you to share. I honestly feel your pain. I know exactly what you are going through. The way you described the feeling in your stomach the pain. Your dad would be so so proud of you. Thank you ❤️🦋

  • @pattireinheimer5612
    @pattireinheimer5612 3 года назад

    I lost my mom & dad more than 10 years ago, and it does get easier to live with but it never completely leaves you. Those moments that hit you like a sledgehammer get fewer and farther between, but they can still sneak up on you. You never stop missing them.

  • @charlottetate9401
    @charlottetate9401 3 года назад +4

    Aww Gemma, my heart truly breaks for you, I can't even imagine what you must be going through. I'm sending you so much love and I really hope this pain passes. My dad saw a grief counsellor when his dad died and it helped him so much. I did DM you on Father's Day because I was thinking of you all day (not in a weird way aha) you were just in my thoughts along with my own dad and other people I know who've lost their dad. Sending you all the love xx

  • @karenmachado7957
    @karenmachado7957 3 года назад

    Losing a parent is one of the most difficult things. Every year gets better and you reach a point where you can cherish the happy times more. You are a special person and I’m sure he’s watching over you and your accomplishments. 💝🙏🏻

  • @edychiucconi95
    @edychiucconi95 3 года назад +6

    I lost my Dad 4 years ago, killed by an old woman with her car. The pain never goes away but we must remember the good times together and we must live as they were still here. A big hug❤️

  • @anetakluba1531
    @anetakluba1531 3 года назад +1

    Gemma, I cried with you in this vlog when you were talking about your feelings about Dad. He is seeing you from heaven and is happy and proud of you. Stay strong xx Lots of love ❤

  • @basic_m3033
    @basic_m3033 3 года назад +8

    YAY! I rlly needed this😭

  • @auraaofbeauty3826
    @auraaofbeauty3826 3 года назад

    Gemma, so proud of your of braveness. We need more moments like yours on RUclips! It’s hard to really connect with all the pranks and fun experiences everyone’s always having when sometimes life’s just not fun and we need to feel it and not numb it and explore those thoughts so we can process it all the way. Losing a parent is life altering. Feel what you feel for as long as you feel. Love is so powerful emotion and so is sadness it can bring so much clarity and closeness in a way you can’t get when you’re content or comfortable.

  • @pamkirby4390
    @pamkirby4390 3 года назад +2

    Totally understand Gemma, my dad went to heaven 4 years ago. Yes you are right that it changes everything! Because your dad is the leader of the family and if you have a close relationship it’s even harder. My dad was always my biggest fan, but when I get sad I think about how blessed I was to have him as my dad and how much wisdom I learned from him. Life has to go on and he would want you to be happy and use what he left you with to grow. When I walk sometimes I talk with my dad, as if he were right beside me and I think that’s ok because it helps me so much. Blessings, prayers and love to you and yours 🙏🇺🇸💛

  • @xpurpledawn
    @xpurpledawn 3 года назад

    Oh Gemma, there's so much love for you here!❤️ You might not be able to see your dad anymore but be sure he's always around! There is no 'away' in this world. Soon your grief will transform and you will remember your dad's wonderful soul with a big smile on your face and much love in your heart! I'm wishing you all the best on this journey!

  • @laurab11389
    @laurab11389 3 года назад

    I lost my dad unexpectedly 6 years ago, you’re right it’s not something you ever “get over” I feel exactly the same even now when good things happen I wish he was here to share it with me. I’ve found that as time passes I can remember him and imagine what he would say with a smile on my face instead of tears. Sending you lots of love 💕 xxx

  • @allthatglitters4111
    @allthatglitters4111 3 года назад +1

    We’re here for you. You’re Dad would be so proud of you. My Mum passed away suddenly when she was 52 and it ripped my world apart and everything good that happened in my life for a long time I longed for my Mum to be there and experience it with me but I promise you it will get better ❤️‍🩹 your heart will mend and the pain will lessen and you’ll smile when you think of him more than cry. Lots of love xxx

  • @joycelynlewis5286
    @joycelynlewis5286 3 года назад +1

    Oh my lovely ... I feel your struggle ... I lost my dad coming up to 5yrs in August and it still is painful to me and I've also recently lost my grandma in March (2021) one week before her 100th birthday. My dad would have loved my new home as he was a decorator and with all the issues that we had, he would have been in his element in fixing them. The pain of losing my dad has changed me forever....I feel like half of me is missing too. He loved to watch the movie "Snatch" and would always quote "Bricktop" characters in the movie...lol...and "Superman 2". He loved his music so much and it took me a long time to even listen to certain genres of music. I will never get over losing him but I try to live life to the fullest. I had a breakdown last November (2020) when I dropped on my living room floor, curled up like a baby, and just cried my eyes out and that's when I made the decision to see a therapist (Feb 2021). So far so good and she has really helped me to put things into perspective. I'm sending you loads of love sweetie, just know you're not alone and I'm sure your viewers will virtually send you loads of love. xxxx ... 80% of the time I'm good but the other 20% I'm still working on. xxx . Have a blessed day

  • @roey7913
    @roey7913 3 года назад

    I was crying with you bless ,i lost my mam ,it was her anniversary yesterday , grieving is a normal part of the healing process,going through them allows you to move on ,it does get easier over time . you alway's cheer me up when ive watched your video's ,such a lovely person . hug's sent.

  • @rosemaria6669
    @rosemaria6669 3 года назад +2

    You’re so genuine! I’m a huge empath, but it’s not often I cry while watching you tubers (she says as she sits here with tears rolling down her face) Btw you’re definitely my fav. But it’s ok to be raw and human. You have so much love around you and I’m so sure your dad is looking down with a smile from ear to ear and so so proud❤️ you got this babe (at your own pace) Never change. lots of love Xxx

  • @kazindam3331
    @kazindam3331 3 года назад

    Aw gemma 😢 this made me cry! It must be so difficult to try and live in a world where the one constants (our parents) in life are no longer there. There are no words for the grief that it causes. As for your channel it’s the most uplifting place but as the saying goes “you cannot pour from an empty cup” so whilst it’s lovely to be uplifting you can’t possibly be that all the time and that’s perfectly fine. Well done for being so real and raw. I wish you nothing but healing and love xx

  • @elaineevason6258
    @elaineevason6258 3 года назад +2

    These feelings are so normal to feel when you lose someone you love so much, I lost my dad 8 years ago and I still have these days now, take care Gemma your dad will be so proud of you 😘

  • @jasminebarnhardt9794
    @jasminebarnhardt9794 3 года назад

    Gemma, you don’t have to be sorry about grieving, it’s a natural thing. Just know that your dad is always going to be with you, not in the physical sense but his energy is there with you every step of the way, everything you’ve accomplished he is right there cheering you on!!

  • @Ni_kki__
    @Ni_kki__ 3 года назад +1

    Gemma can I just say I love your bangs more and more on you each time see them! And your dad would be so proud of everything you have achieved since he’s been gone babe! 🤍🤎

  • @leigha1609
    @leigha1609 3 года назад

    Oh Gemma please don’t feel bad for sharing your raw emotion with us. Your dad would be amazingly proud of you & all of your achievements. I’ve recently lost my grandad & although it’s not the same I was really close to him & I miss him terribly. It is so important to talk about it & im so grateful to you for showing us it’s normal to have bad days. Thank you for sharing xx

  • @EmmaWilliamsHome
    @EmmaWilliamsHome 3 года назад

    Your dad would be so proud of you and all the amazing things happening in your life, he’s always with you my lovely 🤍 never apologise for being real and raw, completely understand 🤍 giving you a huge hug xxx

  • @sarahfrederiksenx3
    @sarahfrederiksenx3 3 года назад

    We love you Gemma, in your positive upbeat moments and especially in your vulnerable moments. It’s not draining, it’s relatable. We are here for you like your videos are here for us on our bad days. I lost my dad as well and it’s so hard being a young adult and still needing your parent and how shocking the pain really is. I feel you so much and you are correct - time will help the sad spells be less frequent. These big life changes and events you have are making them come up and that’s very normal!! It is important to get those feelings and emotions out. It’s okay not to be okay every day! I know it’s hard, but I promise you are not a shell. You are strong. Sending you so much love, sweet girl. Your dad is so proud of you. xoxo

  • @TheDarlingCasey
    @TheDarlingCasey 3 года назад

    Gemma, we grow around our grief. It doesn't get smaller over time, it's always there we just learn to grow around it. Don't feel bad about having these feelings, everyone who has lost someone close to them feels them too. I wish you healing and endless happiness

  • @amyhutchinson8442
    @amyhutchinson8442 3 года назад

    Sweetheart being you and feeling as you do is absolutely what life is. I too have lost my Da (15yrs now) and I totally get how you’re feeling. Time helps healing the void in your life but it is always there and always will be, but time does help to better deal with it. As you said a major part of your life is no longer literally walking beside you (but believe me darling, he is and always will walk beside you and watch over you) this is the best comfort I can give you ❤️ My Da was the closest person I had lost until last year I lost my best friend and because of covid and all the shit that has happened in last year I found I didn’t talk about my feelings and what I have realised is that doesn’t help anyone, least of all myself. I know your channel is your work but please know us followers (fans) love the fact that you treat us as friends and people to reach out too. Keep being you gorgeous, I promise not only talking about it will help you but it keeps us all real. Big love and kisses lovely, I promise we do care 🥰😘❤️💜💛♥️xxx

  • @annawatts1294
    @annawatts1294 3 года назад +1

    Oh Gemma it breaks my heart to see you grieving but also at the same time, you are so brave and courageous for sharing your grief. I hope you take comfort in knowing that you are really helping others to grieve and go through the process which is so often done behind closed doors. By showing your raw emotions you are encouraging others to allow themselves to grieve openly which I truly believe is the healthiest way to getting back to feeling yourself again given your loss.

  • @lisamillership1204
    @lisamillership1204 3 года назад

    I know exactly how you feel. I lost my mom 3 and half year ago and my Dad at the end of Feb. I feel lost and alone most of the time, even at the age of 44 with a grown family and can be fine then just in a puddle of tears. Its refreshing to see someone expose that side of themselves and make us feel less alone in our grief.

  • @ELR28092
    @ELR28092 3 года назад

    Sending you hugs and love gemma ❤ my mum got Diagnosed with cancer the Beginning of last year and is currently going through chemotherapy and it is so hard but I find talking about your emotions helps so much! A good cry and getting everything out that's going around in your head helps so so much!
    Stay strong beautiful 🤗

  • @karendejong3473
    @karendejong3473 3 года назад

    Gemma , Never feel bad for sharing your feelings, grief. It truly does help your friends on here. It does get easier, time heals. You’ll never forget your wonderful Dad . Ps awww Teddy, lovely little cat. Hope his neck has healed .🥰

  • @melissadallisonx
    @melissadallisonx 3 года назад

    I lost my dad 10 years ago this year, I know people say it gets better with time but I feel as though actually you just learn to cope with the grief better. I still have waves of pain like you were describing and hearing you talk about your pain has actually helped me. I hate to speak about it myself, I hold it all in because I feel like after all these years I should be over it but I think I’m finally accepting I never will and it is okay to feel this way. Sending you all the love Gemma, I hope you’re feeling okay and please never ever apologise for talking about how you feel, your dad will be so proud of everything you’ve achieved ❤️

  • @lauragreenaway3521
    @lauragreenaway3521 3 года назад

    It's wonderful that you always want to be positive for us Gemma but it's also important that you take care of yourself. Your Dad would not want you to be sad, celebrate how much you love him. I am sending you big hugs x