i’m constantly torn between serious introvert wanting to live off grid and wishing i can connect with people, strangers, be myself and have a loving sisterhood feeling heard and safe. lol i wish i had a mix of both
"I didn't realize that so much of the disease I felt in the world was a result of not feeling safe within my internal one" You shifted my perspective, it really resonated with me ❤🌾🌿
Universe please help this message get to the ones that need it. Let this be your sign keep doing what your doing, you've got this and your doing good and i love you
Yeah I don’t talk to my parents or siblings like that either. I don’t relate to people that call their parents their best friends and as people to rely on. Thankfully, I’ve unpacked it and had vulnerable convos with my brother and dad, but it’s still generally weird around my family. My upbringing was pretty emotionally unavailable.
this made me tear up being 16 I have realized that my family dynamic isn’t normal I see my own father as a stranger and I am building resentment to mother for forcing me to raise myself and playing the victim when I act grown. I also seem to be the black sheep in my family and it’s like everyone who is my family are strangers who I’m stuck around. I want to be safe like you but even with therapy I still can’t admit my family problems. I’m worried my detachment from others and not caring about relationships will be judged. But your a safe place now so thank you.
I promise you destiny, time heals wounds. And so does being vulnerable. It’s unbelievably hard when you’re starting or early in this journey, but one day you’ll look back from a happy healthy life and be proud of yourself and also wonder how you got through it. But I empathize with you because the part when you’re realizing “this isn’t normal” is scary and can be heartbreaking. Forces you to let go of simple joys you might never even had. When I was 21 I started working at a community health store in this hippie square. I stayed four years and healed sooo much to the point where I’m a hugger, I’ve actually cried in front of people and on them! These people asked me about my past and where I came from and further told me I’m worth so much more! I was encouraged to be my funny weird self. They were a family for some years and I chose to say goodbye and move on the next chapter of my life happily. I feel like life is just full of experiences and when it starts at the bottom it just gets better over the years as long as you keep being vulnerable and open. You’ll find your people who treat you with a lot love, and while they tease you they’ll also worry about you and baby you because you matter ❤️
It's so hard to be vulnerable. Maybe you could be able to gradually share bits of your family dynamics with you therapist and just tell them you only feel comfortable and stable sharing whatever you're able to and whenever. Or if you have a friend you feel safe with maybe you could start with them. I found that once I met other friends who were able to be open about struggles or questions or feelings around their upbringing, the more I was able to share a little bit. But it's so so true that vulnerability is a strength. It can feel so destabilizing to be vulnerable, but I do think that the more in tune you are with your emotions and the more you work through them, the stronger you'll be as a whole. I'm on a journey to be more vulnerable myself, and just about to start therapy. Kudos to you for starting therapy at all!
because they're just as anxious as us. As I myself am soon to be 19 and moving country, I catch glimpses into my parents lives that blow my mind for I do the same. So with that logic, they go through the same mental trials as us and find it just as hard to show it. This realisation has started to break that wall.
its really common in bipoc parents too because of a toxic sense of "respect" for elders that they cant share what they experienced otherwise it would feel like they are badmouthing their parents. i know my parents went thru shit but they won't tell me what for that reason specifically that they dont want to badmouth my gparents and also change my views of them. which is funny bc my gparents live on the other side of the planet and i have met them like 3x in my life and dont know them anyways. my parents are my only family, but in their effort to make me feel more connected to my gparents they have put roadblocks on my ability to connect with them, the only ppl i do have.
Hitomi had embodied a serious guide in my life these past couple years. It is so validating to feel not so alone in my journey and she has given me so much hope that there are people on a similar journey as I am. I’m a weirdo, yes, but there are others out there that are just as weird, spiritual and sensitive, that just want to experience the same beauty In life that I do. I am forever grateful for the reminders and lessons she brings into being ♥️
I let go of my “blood family” a long time ago. I’ve also always been different and growing up in the abuse, my little mantra from a very young age was telling myself that it’s not forever. That what I was experiencing wasn’t normal and I will have a wonderful life as an adult when I am free. I’m 26 now. I didn’t talk to my father or see him in over 7 years. But I went one day to tell him I forgive him and thanked him for trying because I knew he did care about me. He was a raging Alcoholic. And holy **** my dad actually told me it’s because of my absence he reflected and recognizes he was angry and not a good father but that he wanted to be good. And my mother is a complete narcissist. I never loved my father really but I loved my mom and wanted to feel love from her. But some people, even parents, don’t have the capacity to love anyone. I’m so sorry to all others who have parents that don’t love them or care. That hurt far more than my fathers scary and explosive anger episodes. I think it can be a very healing thing to walk away for some time, even years, to experience the world openly and without your past on your shoulder. See there is good, and some people truly are so loving and friends can be paternal. Obviously trauma and grief can follow us around, but it gets easier every year. living the life I always thought of living since I was very little. And I don’t miss my “family” And, sometimes you’ll encounter people who don’t understand and assume you’re a terrible person because you don’t miss or love your family….I just tell him how lucky they are to not understand. There’s no shame in walking away or not loving a family that shoves you down again and again and again.
Am 41 And I do understand exactly what you're talking about... but the worst part is waiting for the apology from them that I will never receive... because since they are your parents...they think they own u....💔... blood is not what makes a family.... and the worst part is being judged by people who have never had the same experience....now I rather be alone...than being sorrounded with people who make me feel alone....I wish you all the best in your life...am sure your a beautiful soul.❤️
@@ronnielola6594 oh yes I waited and hoped for years my mother would apologize or even just once tell me I’m wonderful or that she’s happy to have me or loves me. When I confronted her on all the shit I simply asked if she loves me and there was a pause until she starts shouting into the phone “people loved you! They thought you were so cute and wanted to hold you all the time” 🙄 I’ve made peace by accepting she didn’t love me(or want me) and it’s not my fault. And actually, both my parents(they’ve been divorced and hated eachother for years), but both have told me I’ve got more courage and strength than anyone they know and it doesn’t come from either of them. LOL that’s for sure and that was the nicest thing they’ve said to me. We’re worth so much more than to stay small and beg for anyone to love and appreciate us. There’s billions of other people in the world and thousands that would cherish us as we are ❤️
I was literally just saying how much I’m ready for another Hitomi video and boom. Love u sis, thank u for continuing to show me how important and okay it is to be vulnerable.
Didn’t realize how much I needed this video. I have had the same family issues for awhile. Legit everything you touched on, from parents, to grandparents, and I always felt some type of way about it!! An odd feeling. It feels amazing knowing more people experience this. Not that it’s a good thing. But it’s something I overthink and never knew anyone else who experienced the same thing. I always felt odd. Thank you for being brave enough to be so open, and share. Thank you for creating a safe space for others to do the same. Reading the comments, and seeing how many people can relate to these “issues” that made me feel even more isolated, than I already do, has given be hope and inspiration to heal them. It’s also just nice to feel seen. Blessings to you all ✨🧡
omggggg so needed this!!!! it’s so funny seeing the comments we all missed you so much!!!!! the eclipse n retrograde without hitomi???? we made it out alive and it’s so lovely to hear from you
I dont have anyone to trust in my family either. I have accepted that. I’m glad your dad was mature and open enough to listen to you and share his trauma. Nothing like that will happen in my family due to their gaslighting and self victimizing and dismissing. I would have to disagree I chose my parents.
I adore you hitomi, thank you for opening up about your family trauma. i feel inspired to heal from mine. i also feel distant form my parents, always have. growing up my dad was an alcoholic in denial, and still is. my mum hated their marriage and she disappeared into house chores. i felt emotionally alone and uncared for all my childhood. my home was never a happy or safe place for me to exist and be. i didn't feel seen or heard my ano of them. i wonder how many people grow up like this, without the respect & love they deserve. thank you for sharing your path, it is deeply healing for me. when you said your mom told you "she chose you", it made me emotional because i remember being a teenager and hearing my mom say she didn't want to get pregnant with me because she wasn't ready, that my dad was the one who could not stop insisting on having kids. it was deeply hurtful. i felt like i wasn't wanted or welcomed in the family. i grew up with their anger towards each other always present in my home, my (un)safe space. i thought that's just the way it was with everybody, because my grandparents were like that with each other too. they were all miserable and i felt miserable too. I wasn't allowed to feel joyful. i thought i was wrong and useless, undeserving of their joy & love. i'm slowly diving deeper on my knowing and reframing my entire reality now. even though you've never met me, i've cried with your videos and i've felt immense joy watching you heal and smile from the heart. thank you. i love your stillness and your gentle heart. thank you for showing me how tender and loving i can become. love you lots!
When she said whispering affirmations to myself I really gave my full attention to this video I’m 15 and I’ve been having family issues and trying to educate myself with spirituality so many things that related to me and things that don’t so blessed to watch this video hitomi gives me the energy of the friend who’s older and who has “ been around longer “ and give me advice and wisdom and since I’ve been watching your videos I’ve been more expressive my grandma said it’s like I flirt with everybody now maybe it just my libra too lol hope everybody who reads this receives my my love in my energy !
Welcome home Earth Angel ! Home is where your heart is. I wish you peace, comfort, and solace for as long as your body and soul desire for them ! I send you love and lots of it !
Gosh I needed this video. The introduction almost had me in tears. I am currently in the process of becoming myself and it is so hard. This reminds me that there is nothing wrong with being me
Hitomi, you have such a way with words and sound so intentional and eloquent when you speak. You spread all the positivity I wish everyone could let themselves learn to experience. Your intelligence shines through and inspires me on my never-ending life-long spiritual journey so much more than you know. I resonate with a lot that you say and experience and have been experiencing more gratitude and appreciation for life that my younger self never had. I think about things in a different way and approach life with a more optimistic mindset. And what you said about checking in with yourself to make sure you’ve actually been taking care of yourself rather than getting caught up in an anxious always moving and thinking about putting others first (even when you don’t mean to) you were right and it can be energetically exhausting. I wish I could put myself out there and completely release my fear of people I know and grew up with judging me. People I don’t even care about I subconsciously let influence my decisions and I’m working on that. But for now I think you’re executing all the material I want people to understand just as good as I could if not better. Not to say that I shouldn’t do my own thing and inspire people just because you already do..we could both thrive and empower each other, but it’s an internal fear I’m still working towards getting over (I also don’t have any real 5-10 year plan and I’m scared to risk putting myself in the internet in case I say something misleading or that gets misinterpreted or just doesn’t age well with my life path). I also find myself feeling not credible enough or like I’m just a kid saying recycled positive posts online but I want to voice what I truly believe and understand now about the world. It’s just difficult because I know my younger self heard all the same things I want to preach and didn’t believe it till a switch in my mind flipped and I decided to actively make the changes and perceive my world differently. Anyways sorry for the rant but thank you for posting and being so honest and knowledgeable.
I hope one day I can have a conversation with my family and to just spill out all of my emotions to them without it turning into an argument. Little by little, I try.
i’m grateful for these retrogrades and how many issues they’ve brought up within me. the things that i’ve internalized since i was little are now being let out and released. it hurts so much to feel it all over again but i know i’m healing :) you’ve literally changed my life and how i perceive pain. i embrace every feeling and allow myself to take up space now. you’re a wonderful woman hitomi. thank you so much
I am also really struggling with this feeling of safety, taking up space, speaking my boundaries and the fear of not even getting my basic needs met somehow even though I did not had particular traumatic experiences... I am trying to heal and balance my root chakra but I would love to know some things or practices you did to help you feel safe and grounded in your own body🙏🏻 Thank you for sharing your light Hitomi❤️
I know what it’s like to feel a hollow space where you wish a loving relationship with your parents could fill. I know it’s something I’ll have to deal with for the rest of my life, but it makes it easier knowing my chosen family is by my side.
The lighting and composition during your ancestral healing section is so beautiful. You have so much hope behind your eyes when you look into the light.
4:59 I feel that. It was the same with my mom. I’m a little closer to my dad but I have a lot of unhealthy past trauma with my parents it makes it hard to cope … when you hear someone speaking to their parents everyday
This is a random question, but you mention that when negative emotions arise in your life, it's an opportunity to unpack it and explore why this feeling is happening. I think that's amazing and I have often tried to do the same in my life, but to be honest, I sometimes just get overwhelmed and just simply tired of having to unpack so many things and deal with so many issues. This feeling often keeps me from doing anything, just because I'm simply so tired of putting in so much emotionally exhausting effort. Have you ever felt anything like this, and if so, how do you deal with it?
First off, your feelings are very valid. Its hard to face yourself and your issues, especially when you're not used to giving yourself the emotional space to do so. Whenever you feel overwhelmed, breathe. You dont have to figure things out right away and you dont have to deal with everything at the same time. I think just being aware of your emotions, without being carried away by them, is a great first step. Be patient with yourself and show compassion to the hurt parts of you. Healing takes time
Agree with everything the other person said. if it's happening when you're too exhausted to unpack it, just witness it, acknowledge it. Then breath and go forward. Unpack it a different time. This is something you practice at and get better at and it's so great that you want to do this. To release yourself from that pain, I'm truly happy for you on that journey 🥰
I know hitomi had spoken about how therapy hasn’t always been the right live for her, but for a lot of people (ohhh the right provider) it’s really healing ♥️ I do EMDR with a trauma-focused therapist and I feel like I’m made great strides in the last year alone
sometime if I feel really overwhelmed I will do something like a crossword or sudoku instead of something creative (unless I feel like it) and it gives you a focus on something else for a little while and then go back to a creative outlet to get it out - journal, draw, scream into a field or if you’re in a city a cup or something just to let go! honestly it helps
"Ancestral healing". A lesson that keeps coming over and over to me at the same periods. And the more I heal, listen, let go of anger and forgive the more things become easier with my family, even though things can get hard. and trigger us all. My younger self would never believe that her parents would sit with me around a table for a family therapy. But it happened and for a good reason. Thank you Hitomi for opening up about these subjects, its means a lot !
I talk to my parents almost daily but I never feel like I can dive deeper than shallow conversations. We talk about my kids or what we’ve been doing, things going on with the house we bought, just kind of basic topics. I don’t ever feel like I can say “hey I’m really depressed and lonely and anxious and I need to talk to *someone* other than my poor (but sweet) husband.” I don’t think I’ll ever feel comfortable doing that and I honestly don’t have anyone I’m close with (friends wise) to talk to either. It is very isolating and lonely even though I’m good at that, it would be nice to just talk.
Hitomi, thank you so much for sharing your private life, past, and familial raising. We love and see and relate to you all differently, but together 💕 Love love love you
wow i’ve never related harder about the family thing. we all barely talk and my partner talks to his mom and dad every day, calling them all the time, facetiming his sister and his sister facetimes her mom every single day multiple times and it just makes me feel so weird... there’s this awkward barrier between my family where we brush everything under the rug when we finally go out to dinner and pretend everything is normal lol idk man i’m just glad i can relate to this though 💓
The way I relate to you is so heart warming . I deal with feeling so belittled everyday, from family, friends, small encounters, the people who are suppose to keep me safe, the people I always put before me & make myself uncomfortable for. It’s never enough, & I’m never heard. I never know if I’m being too much and too little and find myself revolving around everyone. I’m tired of tippy toeing, saying okay when it’s not okay, laughing it off, feeling silenced and discouraged, feeling mocked, angry, sadness and having no other outlet but myself, art, music, nature, photography all these things bring me peace, & then being ridiculed for it, or to snap out of it and constantly reminded how my reality isn’t really mine but I can’t wait to find people who do the same & will accept me for me. I’m truly taking the steps. Much love 💗
This is very weird because I've been on the same path with my parents few months ago and the moment I realized they were something going on, I was away from home one year in Australia and I was just so happy to be me and not having them around, then I went deeply into my journey and wanted to understand why am I avoiding them, I started by making a list and when I came back after the year I just told them everything and let everything go and the most important I forgave them to have raised me that way because they just did the best they could even if it wasn't perfect, now I love my parents and truly admire them to have raised two strong and healthy children :)
When I watch you … you give me angelic energy …. So in touch w/ yourself, the reflection that you’re in the middle of changing lives w/ intention & then I’m reminded that I’m supposed to be here loving and being a light too
Ahh this is such a good video! I did get kind of hyped seeing Ashley in the thumbnail, hoping she would be in this but she's not. All I can say is I'm so pleased to see Hitomi so happy and hope all of her friends are doing well too!
omg i saw her in the thumbnail too and clicked so fast and was scrolling thru the comments to see if anyone mentions her. sad to know she’s not in the actual vid but happy that they’re friends! maybe ashley is trying to live a more private life and requested not to be shown. either way i love both of them and hope they’re happy that’s all i care about :)
that part when you talked about your grandma was really touching for me... I always rationalise on why people may not like me, always thinking about all my flaws and such, when in reality you don't need to be perfect to be loved ❤
You are absolutely GLOWING. You’ve always seemed so wise and enlightened to me but it’s so moving and inspiring to see how much you’ve changed and grown in your most recent videos, I’m so so grateful that you’ve chosen to share your journey with the world
Hi Hitomi, At 10:20 you listed all the emotions this week had brought up for you, and I wanted to know how you’re able to feel so many conflicting emotions at once. When I feel lonely or vulnerable, it’s so easy for those emotions to completely take over. It feels impossible to relax or feel anything else. It’s so inspiring to hear about how you feel all of your emotions, and I hope I can get to that place sometime soon.
Everytime I watch your videos I genuinely feel like your words heal my divine feminine and I cannot express to you how much I appreciate you so much for it ❤
realized the headphone thing too!! it's like you can and are much more present and grounded into your surroundings which is beautiful and also has helped me if feeling anxious
this was so healing to watch. thank u hitomi for being vulnerable and raw with your audience bc your words go straight to the heart and into the consciousness. we appreciate you
Wow Hitomi, I really resonated with what you said about wishing you had the same relationship and closeness you see friends have with their family. No one in my family calls me to see how am I. I only get calls so they can talk about whats happening with them. They call just to speak at me. I try to interject and share some exciting news about me and it's like speaking to a brick wall. No one hears me. Keep in mind I do give myself so much credit for accomplishing things family didn't think was possible and rarely get a genuine "I'm proud of you" or any other validation. I am at peace when I am alone away from family drama. I am still learning to cope with never getting that validation I feel I need.
i strive to be more like you. to be in tune with myself enough to understand why i am certain ways and being forgiving and loving and talking about my emotions. you are amazing
Thank you for sharing about your family. I always feel guilty not talking to my siblings as much but with everything that happened when we were kids it makes sense that we barely have a connection nowadays. It’s really helpful to hear you doing the work and helping the rest of us figure out how to move forward. I’m in therapy now and working on forgiveness and acknowledging all the emotions in my psyche. It’s hard to love ourselves back to life when we’ve been told “you’re too sensitive or you’re overreacting” our entire lives. My inner child just wants to be acknowledged and heard. This is crazy shadow work and I’m glad I’m not the only one on this journey.
Hello Hitomi!! I saw your conversation with your sister that you both did for The Skin Deep!! It was so enlightening and empowering to hear your story as sisters!! You are incredibly gifted!!
Your videos are pure magic. I don't know how you do it but your beautiful energy seeps through the screen and makes me appreciate life so much. Thank you for being a reminder that life can be beautiful and that healing isn't linear. Love you Hitomi!
I can’t believe I’ve watched you for years and got to witness your growth over time. And all the subs you have now? Amazing!!!!! Thanks for growing with me
I love hearing you reflect on how you have evolved after all these years, it’s inspiring and reminds me of how much I’ve also been through and overcome
I am so thankful for your open and raw creativity that you share with us, your videos are so beautiful and you are such a stunning woman in your entirety, your journey, your voice and the words of wisdom you speak are truly inspiring. Thank YOU for being, just as you are :)
Ugh, I love everything about this video. I don't think I've ever related to you more, especially when you were talking about how your grandma feels about your tattoos and hiding them. Always grateful for your existence and all the love you so generously share with us. Thank you, angel ❤️
Wow. I think there must be some energy in the air right now that is allowing transformation in familial relationships. I finally got vulnerable in a letter to my dad on father's day. Forgiving him for trauma and offering a more authentic relationship. Even if he can't show up for me the way I am able to show up I can make peace with that. I am grateful to myself for the work I've done. I'm grateful for you Hitomi! Thank you for all the honesty that you share. I'm happy for your continued growth
You are a true inspiration. Your videos feel like such a blessing and gift to receive. You provide so much knowledge and awareness in each one I feel I could watch one video 100 times and still learn something new each time. And spoken so eloquently. Thank you for being you. Also Ram Dass had said, “If you think you’re enlightened, go spend a week with your family,” lol! So that is a huge thing that were able to hold true and find some healing there. It’s all an ongoing process. Much love Hitomi ♥️
I put a virsion of myself to rest today. thank you for your help though this platform. I'm manifesting so much abundance and I'm living through all of this internal and external war and I feel like a champion. I'm sending you so much gratitude and light🙏❤️
i truly missed you, thank you for this! it seriously came in the right time, when i needed a reminder that i can return home and to my own true self with just a breath. thank you for sharing your truth, appreciate u
i felt so connected to you when you spoke about emotions not being inherently bad/good and sadness being a spotlight for an area of discomfort in your life. it totally made me take a step back from my anxious thoughts and view them differently. i seriously cherish you and your channel so much
that intro was incredible. i see so much of myself in you (not feeling safe, and on the journey of seeking that safety within myself). learning that once i’m my own anchor, i’ll finally feel at peace no matter where i am. brought me to tears, thank you for this❤️
I definitely felt this whole video. Idk about the past projections meaning they don’t love you less but I do think it shows a lack of wanting to show love in a vulnerable way. Projections stem from a place of insecurity and lack of faith to me which is not derived from a foundation of love. I think there’s definitely a way to set boundaries with children and still show love through those boundaries, instead of projecting. Maybe that’s just me. It’s nice to see you opening up to people you’ve felt closed off too.
I also moved out when I was 17 (which, I’m 34 now so that was literally half a lifetime ago), and I haven’t kept in touch with my family either. This year I’m fixing that. You are amazing for doing this sooner than I am. Blessed be.
you have an amazingly beautiful soul and i am deeply thankful to exist in the same moment as you, to be able to be influenced by the wisdom you've acquired over time. thank you for opening up to the world and allowing your energy to saturate the lives of others. i know you don't strive for this, but the work does not go unnoticed. blessings to you xx
i love you so so much, your videos are helpful, informative, inspirational...as well as aesthetically pleasing and soothing. watching you gives me so much hope for my own future
Feeling so resonant with your embodiment Hitomi. You have been like a virtual sister to me, accompanying me and helping me to transform alongside you. Always showing me what I can call into my reality
I resonate with this entire video sooo much! so many similar experiences wow. Honestly you are the first spiritual person I found on social media who is so authentic and who shares so much of their life. So much helpful information, basically all the things people don't speak about you do. The way you share all of you with the world is sooo inspiring. You are so strong and powerful , its people like you who really remind us that vulnerability isn't a weakness but in reality a major strength. What you do is sooooo hard for most to do and I thank you for it. I do pray that more and more I will heal and be more vulnerable and share my awesome light with the world. Sending beautiful love and light your way!
I really felt what you said about your family in the first few minutes!! It’s so hard to build trust with in yourself when you didn’t get that from your family when you were younger.
I'm so happy you were able to open up and have that vulnerable connection with him and it was reciprocated! That's amazing. You bring up a lot of really profound insights and I lovee how you take a more spiritual perspective that doesn't just shame.
thank you for being a guide for so many people. This resonated so much. I’ve been focusing a lot on the transition from knowing to truly Being aligned with spiritual wisdom. sending everyone love during their process 💞
i love these big vlogs hitomi. thank you. these days have been like a spiritual rite of passage for me and ive been sleeping a lot and figuring out things about my why and my life. i love all these different casual and deep things you share and how you word your spirit always. thanks babe. my inspiration in your being and way of life makes me feel so joyful that that simply means those things are also in me and that i can make my life be as i would want it. its hard being from a subdeveloped country and a student to think about producing and saving and financial independence but ive been in a path of acceptance and flow, listening to my spiritual guides.. thank you jjst thank you.
i’m constantly torn between serious introvert wanting to live off grid and wishing i can connect with people, strangers, be myself and have a loving sisterhood feeling heard and safe. lol i wish i had a mix of both
Same!!
I feel you 😭 sisters that respect your boundaries and give you the alone time you need would be amazing as well oof
Same here !
I feel the exact same way . You’re not alone 🙏🏽
Yeah same ! It hard tho
"I didn't realize that so much of the disease I felt in the world was a result of not feeling safe within my internal one"
You shifted my perspective, it really resonated with me ❤🌾🌿
Universe please help this message get to the ones that need it. Let this be your sign keep doing what your doing, you've got this and your doing good and i love you
i love you. thank you, i hope you have a wonderful life ahead of you.
Okay I just randomly quick-scrolled through the sea of comments and read your one. Thank you
thank you for this! it's an assurance that I'm on the right track ❤❤❤
Thank you, I’m only 15 but I just started my shadow work I hope this is good way to start my healing process and parent myself.
saw this at 222 likes! thank u for this message and thank u universe❤️
i think you need to write a book. you have a powerful expression of words
right
she shoulddddd
Yeah I don’t talk to my parents or siblings like that either. I don’t relate to people that call their parents their best friends and as people to rely on. Thankfully, I’ve unpacked it and had vulnerable convos with my brother and dad, but it’s still generally weird around my family. My upbringing was pretty emotionally unavailable.
this made me tear up being 16 I have realized that my family dynamic isn’t normal I see my own father as a stranger and I am building resentment to mother for forcing me to raise myself and playing the victim when I act grown. I also seem to be the black sheep in my family and it’s like everyone who is my family are strangers who I’m stuck around. I want to be safe like you but even with therapy I still can’t admit my family problems. I’m worried my detachment from others and not caring about relationships will be judged. But your a safe place now so thank you.
I promise you destiny, time heals wounds. And so does being vulnerable. It’s unbelievably hard when you’re starting or early in this journey, but one day you’ll look back from a happy healthy life and be proud of yourself and also wonder how you got through it.
But I empathize with you because the part when you’re realizing “this isn’t normal” is scary and can be heartbreaking. Forces you to let go of simple joys you might never even had.
When I was 21 I started working at a community health store in this hippie square. I stayed four years and healed sooo much to the point where I’m a hugger, I’ve actually cried in front of people and on them! These people asked me about my past and where I came from and further told me I’m worth so much more! I was encouraged to be my funny weird self. They were a family for some years and I chose to say goodbye and move on the next chapter of my life happily. I feel like life is just full of experiences and when it starts at the bottom it just gets better over the years as long as you keep being vulnerable and open. You’ll find your people who treat you with a lot love, and while they tease you they’ll also worry about you and baby you because you matter ❤️
@@kurlykaitlyn thank you so much for the sweet comments this made my day
I’m sending you so much love and light!❤️❤️
I’m the same exact way, hugs
It's so hard to be vulnerable. Maybe you could be able to gradually share bits of your family dynamics with you therapist and just tell them you only feel comfortable and stable sharing whatever you're able to and whenever. Or if you have a friend you feel safe with maybe you could start with them. I found that once I met other friends who were able to be open about struggles or questions or feelings around their upbringing, the more I was able to share a little bit. But it's so so true that vulnerability is a strength. It can feel so destabilizing to be vulnerable, but I do think that the more in tune you are with your emotions and the more you work through them, the stronger you'll be as a whole. I'm on a journey to be more vulnerable myself, and just about to start therapy. Kudos to you for starting therapy at all!
You're actually lucky that your dad opened up about his own traumas because not a lot of parents are willing to do that
because they're just as anxious as us. As I myself am soon to be 19 and moving country, I catch glimpses into my parents lives that blow my mind for I do the same. So with that logic, they go through the same mental trials as us and find it just as hard to show it. This realisation has started to break that wall.
its really common in bipoc parents too because of a toxic sense of "respect" for elders that they cant share what they experienced otherwise it would feel like they are badmouthing their parents. i know my parents went thru shit but they won't tell me what for that reason specifically that they dont want to badmouth my gparents and also change my views of them. which is funny bc my gparents live on the other side of the planet and i have met them like 3x in my life and dont know them anyways. my parents are my only family, but in their effort to make me feel more connected to my gparents they have put roadblocks on my ability to connect with them, the only ppl i do have.
@@ambireptorm My parents never talk negatively about their parents, but occasionally I hear snippets of what they went through.
Hitomi had embodied a serious guide in my life these past couple years. It is so validating to feel not so alone in my journey and she has given me so much hope that there are people on a similar journey as I am. I’m a weirdo, yes, but there are others out there that are just as weird, spiritual and sensitive, that just want to experience the same beauty In life that I do. I am forever grateful for the reminders and lessons she brings into being ♥️
Fellow weirdo! Such a beautiful comment☺️
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I let go of my “blood family” a long time ago. I’ve also always been different and growing up in the abuse, my little mantra from a very young age was telling myself that it’s not forever. That what I was experiencing wasn’t normal and I will have a wonderful life as an adult when I am free. I’m 26 now. I didn’t talk to my father or see him in over 7 years. But I went one day to tell him I forgive him and thanked him for trying because I knew he did care about me. He was a raging Alcoholic. And holy **** my dad actually told me it’s because of my absence he reflected and recognizes he was angry and not a good father but that he wanted to be good. And my mother is a complete narcissist. I never loved my father really but I loved my mom and wanted to feel love from her. But some people, even parents, don’t have the capacity to love anyone. I’m so sorry to all others who have parents that don’t love them or care. That hurt far more than my fathers scary and explosive anger episodes.
I think it can be a very healing thing to walk away for some time, even years, to experience the world openly and without your past on your shoulder. See there is good, and some people truly are so loving and friends can be paternal. Obviously trauma and grief can follow us around, but it gets easier every year.
living the life I always thought of living since I was very little. And I don’t miss my “family”
And, sometimes you’ll encounter people who don’t understand and assume you’re a terrible person because you don’t miss or love your family….I just tell him how lucky they are to not understand.
There’s no shame in walking away or not loving a family that shoves you down again and again and again.
Am 41 And I do understand exactly what you're talking about... but the worst part is waiting for the apology from them that I will never receive... because since they are your parents...they think they own u....💔... blood is not what makes a family.... and the worst part is being judged by people who have never had the same experience....now I rather be alone...than being sorrounded with people who make me feel alone....I wish you all the best in your life...am sure your a beautiful soul.❤️
@@ronnielola6594 oh yes I waited and hoped for years my mother would apologize or even just once tell me I’m wonderful or that she’s happy to have me or loves me. When I confronted her on all the shit I simply asked if she loves me and there was a pause until she starts shouting into the phone “people loved you! They thought you were so cute and wanted to hold you all the time” 🙄 I’ve made peace by accepting she didn’t love me(or want me) and it’s not my fault.
And actually, both my parents(they’ve been divorced and hated eachother for years), but both have told me I’ve got more courage and strength than anyone they know and it doesn’t come from either of them. LOL that’s for sure and that was the nicest thing they’ve said to me.
We’re worth so much more than to stay small and beg for anyone to love and appreciate us. There’s billions of other people in the world and thousands that would cherish us as we are ❤️
thank you for this ❤️
I was literally just saying how much I’m ready for another Hitomi video and boom. Love u sis, thank u for continuing to show me how important and okay it is to be vulnerable.
found this at 111 likes!!!
@@bhavyakum4r ah the synchronicity is beautiful
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Was saying the same thing we called it in 🙏🏽❤️
Right!! I was just thinking this today !
omg we used to live like a block away from each other ✿ bed-stuy has my heart! thank you for your magic sistar
Love ur artwork 💜
I love you Caro!
Didn’t realize how much I needed this video. I have had the same family issues for awhile. Legit everything you touched on, from parents, to grandparents, and I always felt some type of way about it!! An odd feeling. It feels amazing knowing more people experience this. Not that it’s a good thing. But it’s something I overthink and never knew anyone else who experienced the same thing. I always felt odd. Thank you for being brave enough to be so open, and share. Thank you for creating a safe space for others to do the same. Reading the comments, and seeing how many people can relate to these “issues” that made me feel even more isolated, than I already do, has given be hope and inspiration to heal them. It’s also just nice to feel seen. Blessings to you all ✨🧡
Same I miss bedstuy dearly
omggggg so needed this!!!! it’s so funny seeing the comments we all missed you so much!!!!! the eclipse n retrograde without hitomi???? we made it out alive and it’s so lovely to hear from you
I dont have anyone to trust in my family either. I have accepted that. I’m glad your dad was mature and open enough to listen to you and share his trauma. Nothing like that will happen in my family due to their gaslighting and self victimizing and dismissing.
I would have to disagree I chose my parents.
I know what you mean ❤️
I thought I was the only that didn’t speak to my parents/family like that... love the fact that I’ve came across your channel I relate so much!
I adore you hitomi, thank you for opening up about your family trauma. i feel inspired to heal from mine.
i also feel distant form my parents, always have. growing up my dad was an alcoholic in denial, and still is. my mum hated their marriage and she disappeared into house chores. i felt emotionally alone and uncared for all my childhood. my home was never a happy or safe place for me to exist and be. i didn't feel seen or heard my ano of them.
i wonder how many people grow up like this, without the respect & love they deserve.
thank you for sharing your path, it is deeply healing for me.
when you said your mom told you "she chose you", it made me emotional because i remember being a teenager and hearing my mom say she didn't want to get pregnant with me because she wasn't ready, that my dad was the one who could not stop insisting on having kids.
it was deeply hurtful. i felt like i wasn't wanted or welcomed in the family.
i grew up with their anger towards each other always present in my home, my (un)safe space. i thought that's just the way it was with everybody, because my grandparents were like that with each other too. they were all miserable and i felt miserable too. I wasn't allowed to feel joyful.
i thought i was wrong and useless, undeserving of their joy & love.
i'm slowly diving deeper on my knowing and reframing my entire reality now.
even though you've never met me, i've cried with your videos and i've felt immense joy watching you heal and smile from the heart. thank you.
i love your stillness and your gentle heart. thank you for showing me how tender and loving i can become.
love you lots!
WHEN SHE GIVES YOU ANOTHER WEEK IN HER LIFE VIDEO AND ITS 26 MINUTES LONG MMMM MY WEEK IS MADE TY😭😌💜💜
When she said whispering affirmations to myself I really gave my full attention to this video I’m 15 and I’ve been having family issues and trying to educate myself with spirituality so many things that related to me and things that don’t so blessed to watch this video hitomi gives me the energy of the friend who’s older and who has “ been around longer “ and give me advice and wisdom and since I’ve been watching your videos I’ve been more expressive my grandma said it’s like I flirt with everybody now maybe it just my libra too lol hope everybody who reads this receives my my love in my energy !
You chose the path for a reason ❤ sending u all my love
i love ur vibes !!!! best of luck on ur journey
Welcome home Earth Angel ! Home is where your heart is. I wish you peace, comfort, and solace for as long as your body and soul desire for them ! I send you love and lots of it !
Gosh I needed this video. The introduction almost had me in tears. I am currently in the process of becoming myself and it is so hard. This reminds me that there is nothing wrong with being me
Hitomi, you have such a way with words and sound so intentional and eloquent when you speak. You spread all the positivity I wish everyone could let themselves learn to experience. Your intelligence shines through and inspires me on my never-ending life-long spiritual journey so much more than you know. I resonate with a lot that you say and experience and have been experiencing more gratitude and appreciation for life that my younger self never had. I think about things in a different way and approach life with a more optimistic mindset. And what you said about checking in with yourself to make sure you’ve actually been taking care of yourself rather than getting caught up in an anxious always moving and thinking about putting others first (even when you don’t mean to) you were right and it can be energetically exhausting. I wish I could put myself out there and completely release my fear of people I know and grew up with judging me. People I don’t even care about I subconsciously let influence my decisions and I’m working on that. But for now I think you’re executing all the material I want people to understand just as good as I could if not better. Not to say that I shouldn’t do my own thing and inspire people just because you already do..we could both thrive and empower each other, but it’s an internal fear I’m still working towards getting over (I also don’t have any real 5-10 year plan and I’m scared to risk putting myself in the internet in case I say something misleading or that gets misinterpreted or just doesn’t age well with my life path). I also find myself feeling not credible enough or like I’m just a kid saying recycled positive posts online but I want to voice what I truly believe and understand now about the world. It’s just difficult because I know my younger self heard all the same things I want to preach and didn’t believe it till a switch in my mind flipped and I decided to actively make the changes and perceive my world differently. Anyways sorry for the rant but thank you for posting and being so honest and knowledgeable.
Holy shit sorry for the novel 😅I’m only halfway through the video too but I always have so much to contribute to what you talk about
I hope one day I can have a conversation with my family and to just spill out all of my emotions to them without it turning into an argument. Little by little, I try.
I not do that. But I wish you strength and a great outcome. 🪴
i’m grateful for these retrogrades and how many issues they’ve brought up within me. the things that i’ve internalized since i was little are now being let out and released. it hurts so much to feel it all over again but i know i’m healing :) you’ve literally changed my life and how i perceive pain. i embrace every feeling and allow myself to take up space now. you’re a wonderful woman hitomi. thank you so much
I am also really struggling with this feeling of safety, taking up space, speaking my boundaries and the fear of not even getting my basic needs met somehow even though I did not had particular traumatic experiences... I am trying to heal and balance my root chakra but I would love to know some things or practices you did to help you feel safe and grounded in your own body🙏🏻 Thank you for sharing your light Hitomi❤️
Hitomi your vulnerability cracks my heart right open. Thank you.
I know what it’s like to feel a hollow space where you wish a loving relationship with your parents could fill. I know it’s something I’ll have to deal with for the rest of my life, but it makes it easier knowing my chosen family is by my side.
Your words touch my heart and soul. Bless you, Hitomi.
i really want a hitomi podcast series that i can just listen to throughout the day to calm down and feel safe
The lighting and composition during your ancestral healing section is so beautiful. You have so much hope behind your eyes when you look into the light.
the voice over in the beginning is so beautiful. I watched it 3 times over and noticing different details every time and learning over and over
4:59 I feel that. It was the same with my mom. I’m a little closer to my dad but I have a lot of unhealthy past trauma with my parents it makes it hard to cope … when you hear someone speaking to their parents everyday
This is a random question, but you mention that when negative emotions arise in your life, it's an opportunity to unpack it and explore why this feeling is happening. I think that's amazing and I have often tried to do the same in my life, but to be honest, I sometimes just get overwhelmed and just simply tired of having to unpack so many things and deal with so many issues. This feeling often keeps me from doing anything, just because I'm simply so tired of putting in so much emotionally exhausting effort. Have you ever felt anything like this, and if so, how do you deal with it?
First off, your feelings are very valid. Its hard to face yourself and your issues, especially when you're not used to giving yourself the emotional space to do so. Whenever you feel overwhelmed, breathe. You dont have to figure things out right away and you dont have to deal with everything at the same time. I think just being aware of your emotions, without being carried away by them, is a great first step. Be patient with yourself and show compassion to the hurt parts of you. Healing takes time
Agree with everything the other person said. if it's happening when you're too exhausted to unpack it, just witness it, acknowledge it. Then breath and go forward. Unpack it a different time. This is something you practice at and get better at and it's so great that you want to do this. To release yourself from that pain, I'm truly happy for you on that journey 🥰
I know hitomi had spoken about how therapy hasn’t always been the right live for her, but for a lot of people (ohhh the right provider) it’s really healing ♥️ I do EMDR with a trauma-focused therapist and I feel like I’m made great strides in the last year alone
Everyone is different though, but it’s important to know that there are a lot of ways to grow and heal ♥️
sometime if I feel really overwhelmed I will do something like a crossword or sudoku instead of something creative (unless I feel like it) and it gives you a focus on something else for a little while and then go back to a creative outlet to get it out - journal, draw, scream into a field or if you’re in a city a cup or something just to let go! honestly it helps
love to see how bright Hitomi looks this time around in NYC. keep on keepin' on, babe
"Ancestral healing". A lesson that keeps coming over and over to me at the same periods. And the more I heal, listen, let go of anger and forgive the more things become easier with my family, even though things can get hard. and trigger us all.
My younger self would never believe that her parents would sit with me around a table for a family therapy. But it happened and for a good reason.
Thank you Hitomi for opening up about these subjects, its means a lot !
I talk to my parents almost daily but I never feel like I can dive deeper than shallow conversations. We talk about my kids or what we’ve been doing, things going on with the house we bought, just kind of basic topics. I don’t ever feel like I can say “hey I’m really depressed and lonely and anxious and I need to talk to *someone* other than my poor (but sweet) husband.” I don’t think I’ll ever feel comfortable doing that and I honestly don’t have anyone I’m close with (friends wise) to talk to either. It is very isolating and lonely even though I’m good at that, it would be nice to just talk.
Hitomi, thank you so much for sharing your private life, past, and familial raising. We love and see and relate to you all differently, but together 💕
Love love love you
wow i’ve never related harder about the family thing. we all barely talk and my partner talks to his mom and dad every day, calling them all the time, facetiming his sister and his sister facetimes her mom every single day multiple times and it just makes me feel so weird... there’s this awkward barrier between my family where we brush everything under the rug when we finally go out to dinner and pretend everything is normal lol idk man i’m just glad i can relate to this though 💓
The way I relate to you is so heart warming . I deal with feeling so belittled everyday, from family, friends, small encounters, the people who are suppose to keep me safe, the people I always put before me & make myself uncomfortable for. It’s never enough, & I’m never heard. I never know if I’m being too much and too little and find myself revolving around everyone. I’m tired of tippy toeing, saying okay when it’s not okay, laughing it off, feeling silenced and discouraged, feeling mocked, angry, sadness and having no other outlet but myself, art, music, nature, photography all these things bring me peace, & then being ridiculed for it, or to snap out of it and constantly reminded how my reality isn’t really mine but I can’t wait to find people who do the same & will accept me for me. I’m truly taking the steps. Much love 💗
This is very weird because I've been on the same path with my parents few months ago and the moment I realized they were something going on, I was away from home one year in Australia and I was just so happy to be me and not having them around, then I went deeply into my journey and wanted to understand why am I avoiding them, I started by making a list and when I came back after the year I just told them everything and let everything go and the most important I forgave them to have raised me that way because they just did the best they could even if it wasn't perfect, now I love my parents and truly admire them to have raised two strong and healthy children :)
Talking about your relationship with your parents is sooooo helpful. Feel free to touch that topic more please. Thank you ♡
When I watch you … you give me angelic energy …. So in touch w/ yourself, the reflection that you’re in the middle of changing lives w/ intention & then I’m reminded that I’m supposed to be here loving and being a light too
Is that ashley from bestdressed? So happy to see her on thumbnail, thank you so much for the inspiring words Hitomi!
I saw the same thing and was really happy that they met!!. Ashley isn't posting on RUclips these days and I was worried. . I'm soo happy 💕💕
@@chubalajamir9118 she is Posting more on instagram and i hope she is well too 😊
You remind me of how this world, our worlds are filled with joy and beauty.
Missed your healing energy much love from Florida🌴❤️🌴
Ahh this is such a good video! I did get kind of hyped seeing Ashley in the thumbnail, hoping she would be in this but she's not. All I can say is I'm so pleased to see Hitomi so happy and hope all of her friends are doing well too!
omg i saw her in the thumbnail too and clicked so fast and was scrolling thru the comments to see if anyone mentions her. sad to know she’s not in the actual vid but happy that they’re friends! maybe ashley is trying to live a more private life and requested not to be shown. either way i love both of them and hope they’re happy that’s all i care about :)
Honestly it's the only reason I clicked the video. But the video ended up being good so I'm happy I clicked.
that part when you talked about your grandma was really touching for me... I always rationalise on why people may not like me, always thinking about all my flaws and such, when in reality you don't need to be perfect to be loved ❤
Thank you. I am 55 and just now starting to deal with my trauma. Listening to you is so helpful.
You are absolutely GLOWING. You’ve always seemed so wise and enlightened to me but it’s so moving and inspiring to see how much you’ve changed and grown in your most recent videos, I’m so so grateful that you’ve chosen to share your journey with the world
Watching Hitomi makes me feel so seen and safe. Thank you for sharing your life experiences with us
Hi Hitomi,
At 10:20 you listed all the emotions this week had brought up for you, and I wanted to know how you’re able to feel so many conflicting emotions at once. When I feel lonely or vulnerable, it’s so easy for those emotions to completely take over. It feels impossible to relax or feel anything else.
It’s so inspiring to hear about how you feel all of your emotions, and I hope I can get to that place sometime soon.
Everytime I watch your videos I genuinely feel like your words heal my divine feminine and I cannot express to you how much I appreciate you so much for it ❤
realized the headphone thing too!! it's like you can and are much more present and grounded into your surroundings which is beautiful and also has helped me if feeling anxious
I have come to these realizations of inner truth recently at 45! You have a beautiful life ahead! Congratulations!
this was so healing to watch. thank u hitomi for being vulnerable and raw with your audience bc your words go straight to the heart and into the consciousness. we appreciate you
Wow Hitomi, I really resonated with what you said about wishing you had the same relationship and closeness you see friends have with their family. No one in my family calls me to see how am I. I only get calls so they can talk about whats happening with them. They call just to speak at me. I try to interject and share some exciting news about me and it's like speaking to a brick wall. No one hears me. Keep in mind I do give myself so much credit for accomplishing things family didn't think was possible and rarely get a genuine "I'm proud of you" or any other validation. I am at peace when I am alone away from family drama. I am still learning to cope with never getting that validation I feel I need.
So much pure love, joy, and truth in this video.
i strive to be more like you. to be in tune with myself enough to understand why i am
certain ways and being forgiving and loving and talking about my emotions. you are amazing
Thank you for sharing about your family. I always feel guilty not talking to my siblings as much but with everything that happened when we were kids it makes sense that we barely have a connection nowadays. It’s really helpful to hear you doing the work and helping the rest of us figure out how to move forward. I’m in therapy now and working on forgiveness and acknowledging all the emotions in my psyche. It’s hard to love ourselves back to life when we’ve been told “you’re too sensitive or you’re overreacting” our entire lives. My inner child just wants to be acknowledged and heard. This is crazy shadow work and I’m glad I’m not the only one on this journey.
Hello Hitomi!! I saw your conversation with your sister that you both did for The Skin Deep!! It was so enlightening and empowering to hear your story as sisters!! You are incredibly gifted!!
I could just sit and listen to you talk all day, giving me so much food for thought
i am so grateful for you sharing your story
So brave of you to be so open and really appreciate how honest you are 🥺
You look absolutely stunning in 02:11, the long straight hair, simple clothes ~~ the less glam the better! Your natural beauty shines through
Your videos are pure magic. I don't know how you do it but your beautiful energy seeps through the screen and makes me appreciate life so much. Thank you for being a reminder that life can be beautiful and that healing isn't linear. Love you Hitomi!
i love you and maryv together, your friendship seems so wholesome
You are perfect, thank you for being so vulnerable with us. Your words and vibration are so so beautiful you are such a kind soul.
I can’t believe I’ve watched you for years and got to witness your growth over time. And all the subs you have now? Amazing!!!!! Thanks for growing with me
I love hearing you reflect on how you have evolved after all these years, it’s inspiring and reminds me of how much I’ve also been through and overcome
I am so thankful for your open and raw creativity that you share with us, your videos are so beautiful and you are such a stunning woman in your entirety, your journey, your voice and the words of wisdom you speak are truly inspiring. Thank YOU for being, just as you are :)
Ugh, I love everything about this video. I don't think I've ever related to you more, especially when you were talking about how your grandma feels about your tattoos and hiding them. Always grateful for your existence and all the love you so generously share with us. Thank you, angel ❤️
Wow. I think there must be some energy in the air right now that is allowing transformation in familial relationships. I finally got vulnerable in a letter to my dad on father's day. Forgiving him for trauma and offering a more authentic relationship. Even if he can't show up for me the way I am able to show up I can make peace with that. I am grateful to myself for the work I've done. I'm grateful for you Hitomi! Thank you for all the honesty that you share. I'm happy for your continued growth
You are a true inspiration. Your videos feel like such a blessing and gift to receive. You provide so much knowledge and awareness in each one I feel I could watch one video 100 times and still learn something new each time. And spoken so eloquently. Thank you for being you. Also Ram Dass had said, “If you think you’re enlightened, go spend a week with your family,” lol! So that is a huge thing that were able to hold true and find some healing there. It’s all an ongoing process. Much love Hitomi ♥️
I put a virsion of myself to rest today. thank you for your help though this platform. I'm manifesting so much abundance and I'm living through all of this internal and external war and I feel like a champion. I'm sending you so much gratitude and light🙏❤️
i truly missed you, thank you for this! it seriously came in the right time, when i needed a reminder that i can return home and to my own true self with just a breath. thank you for sharing your truth, appreciate u
i felt so connected to you when you spoke about emotions not being inherently bad/good and sadness being a spotlight for an area of discomfort in your life. it totally made me take a step back from my anxious thoughts and view them differently. i seriously cherish you and your channel so much
that intro was incredible. i see so much of myself in you (not feeling safe, and on the journey of seeking that safety within myself). learning that once i’m my own anchor, i’ll finally feel at peace no matter where i am. brought me to tears, thank you for this❤️
I definitely felt this whole video. Idk about the past projections meaning they don’t love you less but I do think it shows a lack of wanting to show love in a vulnerable way. Projections stem from a place of insecurity and lack of faith to me which is not derived from a foundation of love. I think there’s definitely a way to set boundaries with children and still show love through those boundaries, instead of projecting. Maybe that’s just me. It’s nice to see you opening up to people you’ve felt closed off too.
I also moved out when I was 17 (which, I’m 34 now so that was literally half a lifetime ago), and I haven’t kept in touch with my family either. This year I’m fixing that. You are amazing for doing this sooner than I am. Blessed be.
Some of your videos makes me feel so insipred and not alone.
THANK YOU!
That is probably the most beautiful and genuine intro I've ever watched.
you have an amazingly beautiful soul and i am deeply thankful to exist in the same moment as you, to be able to be influenced by the wisdom you've acquired over time. thank you for opening up to the world and allowing your energy to saturate the lives of others. i know you don't strive for this, but the work does not go unnoticed. blessings to you xx
You really remind me of so much and I feel like you’re always there whenever I’m in a funk to tell me to just live
i love you so so much, your videos are helpful, informative, inspirational...as well as aesthetically pleasing and soothing. watching you gives me so much hope for my own future
Feeling so resonant with your embodiment Hitomi. You have been like a virtual sister to me, accompanying me and helping me to transform alongside you. Always showing me what I can call into my reality
"Focusing on what brings me joy right now" love that ❤ it's what I came to realize and do as well this last year and it's been so freeing
FINALLLYYYYY😭😭♥️♥️♥️
Your voice and your energy just gets to me 💚 so comforting
I used to watch your old NYC vids all the time! This takes me back lol
I love you Hitomi, your words are the most soothing and healing. Thank you for existing, you are an angel.
My heart is so warmed watching and empathizing with your videos. So free and at peace you are. Many more blessings, love 🙏🏽♥️
I resonate with this entire video sooo much! so many similar experiences wow. Honestly you are the first spiritual person I found on social media who is so authentic and who shares so much of their life. So much helpful information, basically all the things people don't speak about you do. The way you share all of you with the world is sooo inspiring. You are so strong and powerful , its people like you who really remind us that vulnerability isn't a weakness but in reality a major strength. What you do is sooooo hard for most to do and I thank you for it. I do pray that more and more I will heal and be more vulnerable and share my awesome light with the world. Sending beautiful love and light your way!
It takes maturity and a big heart to share yourself the way you do..so hats off 🙏
I really felt what you said about your family in the first few minutes!! It’s so hard to build trust with in yourself when you didn’t get that from your family when you were younger.
I truly loved the beginning when you spoke about what's true for you it really impacted me in a good way
i love how even when this videos about your life you make sure we are being mindful too
I'm so happy you were able to open up and have that vulnerable connection with him and it was reciprocated! That's amazing. You bring up a lot of really profound insights and I lovee how you take a more spiritual perspective that doesn't just shame.
thank you for being a guide for so many people. This resonated so much. I’ve been focusing a lot on the transition from knowing to truly Being aligned with spiritual wisdom. sending everyone love during their process 💞
Hitomi, you are love and light. You are such an encouraging being. Thank you for being you. Thank you for radically radiating love 💫😘
i love these big vlogs hitomi. thank you. these days have been like a spiritual rite of passage for me and ive been sleeping a lot and figuring out things about my why and my life. i love all these different casual and deep things you share and how you word your spirit always. thanks babe. my inspiration in your being and way of life makes me feel so joyful that that simply means those things are also in me and that i can make my life be as i would want it. its hard being from a subdeveloped country and a student to think about producing and saving and financial independence but ive been in a path of acceptance and flow, listening to my spiritual guides.. thank you jjst thank you.
It’s the poetry for me, you better speak from ya heart
you are a true blessing