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I'm aware my voice isn't great and definitely worse for more dramatic songs. please don't bash me although CONSTRUCTIVE criticism I don't mind. also I will not be posting for a while because I have a big project I have coming up. I will be putting lyrics and my own ideas into an instrumental song that the artist Atsuover has created. they never did any lyrics or vocals for it but made it clear what the intention of the song was going to be about.
I will try to Incorporate the lyrics to mirror my life of course as much as possible but I will also make as much close adjustments to make it as to the point and theme wise similar to the original idea. before you ask I've checked if it's allowed so don't even try to tell me I'm not allowed.
I needed a more positive project anyway and this way I can give back to an artist who has been a pretty decent part of my recent years. anyway, sorry for the long rants and sorry about my voice because it definitely doesn't suit the theme of the song I was going with but regardless:
I hope you Enjoy!
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