Siinamota was 20 when his life finally ended, his last tweet was along the lines of "Life is no longer enjoyable, I don't want to grow up." It's heartbreaking and terrifying to think about growing up when you're not ready for the responsibilities of being an adult. I hope he may rest in peace. Fuck TikTok, all my homies hate TikTok.
The word “it’s cold” being repeated in that song, I could understand that he was going through depression. The word “it’s cold” is not commonly used to say that you’re depress. But it’s a feeling of depression, you feel cold. I’ve never really understand this song until now… May he Rest In Peace.
Yeah, I think I understand, at least partly. One time, when I was going through a rough time, I saw something that reminded me of what started that dark period, and it felt cold, like someone had dumped a bucket of cold water on my heart, extinguishing the usual fire.
I remember feeling terribly cold inside during my depressive episodes in middle school. It was awful, it made me feel numb as if I was dying. And sometimes it was just so painful I could only shed a tear or two
Man he's so young. He tried to show his true intentions to why he released this song, then after he died. Tiktok fucked it up, dammit man. Really!?!? Its 2022 and people who have depression are still considered emo people!!??! Goddammit. Pls have respect. Thank you:) Wow thank you all for the likes!!!! I really love this community, and how much i could relate to you guys. Thank you again i hope this community grows larger. Rest in peace powapowa, may your content lead to something better unlike tiktok. Bye ;)
@@shooshiMooshi Man still tho. This community is the best one I ever joined in. Tiktoks community is getting more and more toxic, messing with these poor vocaloid artists with masterpieces. Man this is just the gacha community all over again. Love your content man. Keep up the good work.
@@notmitsukiyololHealthy End made me cry several times. And I feel like the energy and happiness of the "I me my mine" parts were just to kind of mask out the true sadness of the song.
When you see someone comment on a song like this, calling it “edgy”, just remind them that Japanese society tends to look down or downright ignore mental health issues to the point where it’s taboo and the use of mental health services are almost never utilized. It’s one of the many reasons why suicide rates are still high, coupled that with expectations from said society to fit in a mold that has been crafted by people who refuse to understand that everyone is different in their own way. Japan is beautiful, it’s culture is lively and the language is mesmerizing but how it deals with subjects that matter the most, especially towards the very people who live in it, leaves a lot to be desired.
As someone who struggles deeply with severe depression and has had breakdowns almost every night for 7 years, it really resonates with me . The whole smiling and having people ask me why im so optimistic when I’m reality ever night I consider leaving the world. I’m glad the Artist of this song was able to vent his emotions , may he Rest In Peace.
Man... this guy really took the bandaids of his bruises to show to everyone and, half the people who came across his music just punched at what was already sore...
@@Minsai721 Tbh, don't know the situation for him but if there's no one's anymore that you can trust or talk with. The internet is most of ppl's only choice
Powapowa-P has been writing songs since he was 14. His last song was actually "Goodbye, Everyone." "Please give me a red pen" was a re-upload or something-like-that. Many fans believe he committed suicide but the exact cause of his death is undisclosed. But nevertheless, that never changed the fact that he fell into depression. R.I.P RYO MIZOGUCHI
It seems that Please Give Me a Red Pen might have been the closing song for Ryo's life, as people have said that it was released just a few hours before the declaration of his death. Healthy End looks to be a song that the visuals were made by a friend, but he made that before Goodbye Everyone and Please Give Me a Red Pen
So young yet already so determined, but people really ignored his mental health on his artistic journey. When the art exposed to you is clearly in the format of a vent, you have no right to call it edgy.
His final song was "Healthy End" and it was entrusted to a friend to be uploaded after his death, THAT is why people thought that he committed suicide......
I was already upset about Kikuo and MARETU becoming nothing but "aesthetic" and having their songs used for awful things with the true meanings ignored, but the thought that siinamota might be next is HORRIFYING. Hopefully it doesn't go any farther than this...
Siinamota has to be one of my favorite artists, and "Girl A" has to be one of my favorite songs, I also really recommend "Goodbye Everyone", "Fish Sky", "Akapen Onegaishimasu" and "The entry into the cabinet of 3rd class-C No.14 Chiyoko Kubozono.", those really mean a lot to me. Also I completely agree with what you had to say about his music, I think the raw emotion in every single one of his songs is what makes them so unique and beautiful, it is this very personal experience that is transformed into sound waves that we can hear, cry and relate to, for me it's just insane. I hope you're doing better and RIP Siinamota, we'll never forget you.
Have you heard his singing? Him singing "healthy end", titled "war within me" when he sang it was absolutely heart breaking and the lyrics talks about him going to commit suicide. Siinamota holds such a close place to my heart but I'm so frustrated that tiktok is taking "Girl A" and misusing it and writing it off as edgy
I've been wondering recently: what got you into vocaloid? When you first started you seemed to know next to nothing, so how did you decide that vocaloid will be your 'thing' for RUclips? Simmilar question about analog horror and stuff, you seem to really hate scary stuff but now it's one of the main things you do along with vocaloid reactions. Anyways no matter what the answer, love what your doing and thank you for helping me also venture into the dark yet beautiful world of vocaloid. Music has really been a big part of my life recently and connecting meanings that sometimes hit close, discovering interesting lore, and finding new songs to love and listen to has been wonderful and I could not say enough how much I appreciate your content and the community you have created!
1. I made a video on a kikuo song and it gained traction during a time I was trying to find my niche on RUclips. When I kept seeing more traction on vocaloid stuff that’s when I decided to stick with it. Not just because they were doing well but because it’s always an experience whether that be sadness, fear, adrenaline, hype etc. Also you guys are all friendly and I’ve enjoyed your guys’ virtual company :). 2. It’s weird. Yeah I do hate horror but I like the rush I get lol. Also sharing the experience with you guys makes me feel not alone so it’s not as bad haha. Analog horror go brrr. 3. Thank you so much for these words. It’s been my pleasure to bring more attention to not only the songs I watch, but their hidden meanings/stories. The community we’ve made is a beautiful one for sure and I’m sooo grateful for you guys :)
@@shooshiMooshi Vocaloid songs are truly something special. Anyone with enough time and effort can create one without worrying about professional-level vocals. This allows artists to create something so very personal and genuine, that I always thought it was a shame there weren't many videos discussing the stories and messages behind these songs.
I've had this thought for a while when i tried finding other reactors to scary, deep and depressing vocaloid songs before. Mooshi's videos are one of the only kind that does react to these and does so in such an in depth way that i feel like i'm not just learning all about vocaloid alone and it's nice. Love Mooshi's reply to this comment too, makes me happy seeing someone enjoy the niche they're experiencing even if sometimes it scares them shitless haha!
It's always nice to see someone spreading vocaloid especially this specific genre which i'm not sure what you call it, but it's comforting to know that other people enjoy the same things. Seeing you talk about your own experiences for some reason is really comforting, I don't know what you had to go through but glad you got through it if not I wouldn't have been able to know you :).
The way a lot of people on social media talk about mental health and the importance of expressing and discussing it, then mock people's chosen methods of expressing their experiences is disturbing. Like their concern only exists until there's something to make fun of. Treating depression as "just being emo or edgy" is such a harmful stereotype to perpetuate. RIP Siinamota. Still, it's nice to know that you're doing better than in the past, Shooshi
This was such a powerful song that I also cried the first time I listened to it years ago...... Rip to Siinomota, I hope he got the help he needed and passed away peacefully Edit: The fact that Shittokers find this edgy is seriously infuriating..... How can you call a person who's seriously struggling in life to the point that he takes it out by making music out of it edgy and emo I wished they at least tried to understand what Shiinomota was going through instead of chasing clout by "dancing" in front of a camera
It is really difficult to be depressed in a world where people will not aknowledge your feelings. I myself am a victim of this, I was diagnosed with depression when I was 13, but my mom is in denial till this day. But yeah, Powa's songs are an odd comfort for me, they make me feel seem... It breaks my heart that nobody ever was willing to help Powa when he needed it, just to show how much people take mentally-ill people for granted.
When I was 12 I had to get on this medicine that made me depressed from then and now I’m off the medicine but I still get that depressed state. When ever I tried to tell me mom about it she always said “You’re always unhappy nothing I do is good enough for you” she always and still makes me feel ungrateful if I ever bring up how I feel. Whenever someone asks if I’m okay I have to think about it and then I realize that I’m not ok but I can’t ever figure out what’s wrong.
i was diagnosed with depression at the age of 9 of september 10th now i'm almost 17 and battling for years i've been in suicidal thoughts and went to hospital cuz of what i did to myself i couldn't control it only my mom believes that i have depression but not my dad atleast he cares a lot about me even though he doesn't believe it and i'll continue to live my life if i can hope ur doing alright there
It's not that I was an old, old fan of PowaPowaP, but I really do love the songs he made whenever I hear them. There's so much heart in them. TikTok is such an odd thing, isn't it? It's given Vocaloid a bit of a second peak, and making some artists' songs randomly explode, but it gives people a shortcut to adding a song to their videos without a second thought. I'll throw my hat in the ring here-- you mentioned at the beginning 'the song' that retired/passed artists pour all their heart into? I think you'd really love Unknown Mother Goose. It was wowaka's last song, and as confusing as his lyrics always were, it hits the most, and the most personally. There's versions with both Miku and himself, singing, because for once it really is his own song. (I'm also a fan of Odds&Ends-- which was ryo/supercell's 'last hurrah' before moving out of Vocaloid. It's Miku singing directly to him about his depression and insecurities and it never fails to make me cry, too.) Thanks for making these videos, though, seriously! It's always something nice to tune into every week. I got back into vocaloid last year and it's been sort of a thrill watching someone else find the same songs I've been finding. As long as you're enjoying what you're doing, and having this little community of people hang out and watch what you make, that's what matters.
Unknown Mother Goose is such a beautiful song, and I feel like Miy_Yuu’s version really helped bring out Wowaka’s music properly, it really felt like a tribute to Wowaka’s legacy and passion, it’s both a sorrowful and joyful listen ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡
Thank you for making videos about Vocaloid. This “genre” tends to be overlooked by content creators, so it brings me joy to see my favorite music being talked about in a very respectful and thoughtful manner. Powa Powa has been my favorite producer, and his death still brings me to tears, especially as I was struggling with similar hardships myself. I don't know what’s the deal on TikTok since I don't go there, but siinamota’s music is not edgy at all. A lot of his songs are hopeful and filled with raw emotions and deep thoughts about life. I have mixed feelings about his music being on-trend.
PowaPowa P was (and still is) such an amazing artist. I listen to Strobe Light and " Year 3 Class C-14, Chiyoko Kubozono's Joining of the Cabinet" practically on the daily. His music is absolutely bittersweet, and continues to make me cry lol. Absolutely beautiful music.
i havent been able to keep up w streams lately, but my god you have outdone yourself again my good sir. I enjoyed watching today’s vid, especially now knowing the eng lyrics it has brought a different perspective, with the consideration of Vocaloids reputation
Siinamota was my favourite vocaloid producer and when he died I was only 14, but I was really mature for my age and already struggled a lot (I never had friends and even now I'm so lonely) so I felt particulary connected to his songs: thank you for defending him. We appreciate it a lot! Seriously, how can they be so shallow and completely lack empathy? It's so sad, it's so cruel. But even if they cannot feel connected to it, I find it very sad that for some people, as soon as somebody says something slightly more deep, they attack it and say it's "cringe" or "edgy". Because of this mentality more and more people avoid to express their feelings with the fear of being considered edgy or as they were just pretending to be sad. People who find everything cringe are trapping themselves and other in cages where there is no freedom to even say what they like. That's why I hate the fact that this song blew up on TikTok. Is it selfish for me to say that I don't want producers like him to become very popular? I hate when they talk with so shallow words of someone or something I like. But in general, please, don't talk about anything in a superficial way! Things are so complex! Humans are so complex! Sorry for my english, and greetings from Italy!
Your English was good I hope things get better for you and I agree with not wanting them to blow up not because I don't want people to enjoy the music and pay respect but because I know how people on tik tok and other places can be its very sad but please don't give up keep being strong you can do it
Respect to Siinamota, such an amazing person who was put down by negative and terrible people and their perception of him. Rest In Peace Ryo Mizoguchi🙏❤️
It really upsets me how some people mock him online. It just really shows how far we still have to go with reducing stigma on mental health and just the knowledge around it. I enjoyed the song a lot and will definitely be looking other songs from him.
it hurts so much to see tiktok kids calling it "emo" and "edgy" because the song practically describes my mindset and struggles. so many verses in that song just hit home. those "edgy" words are just hurting me indirectly. :( some suggestions for reacting; jackpot sad girl composing the future hurting for a very hurtful pain jishou mushoku these reccomendations are indeed inspired by a unit (25-ji, night code de.) from a rhythm game, project sekai. this unit holds the souls of four girls who just want to disappear, and uses songs to try and save themselves (basically, a form of letting their struggles out.) those songs i suggested are covers done by them!! i highly encourage to check the originals out, the meanings of each one are bittersweet; especially jishou mushoku and composing the future
I'm working on handling my issues, sure I'm not yet an adult, but his music really hit me since I gave up everything thanks to my trauma. Hearing you talk a little about your issues really does help me a lot
PowaPowa-P's death hit me really hard. During some of the all-time lows of my depression, his music helped me feel like someone understood - even if my reasons were different - and it made it a little easier for me to keep going. Strobe Light was also one that made me feel a bit lighter as it was one of his songs with a more hopeful ending. It made me so sad that one of the people who indirectly helped me make it through didn't make it themselves. It wasa pretty painful discovery as he was someone I really hoped I could one day maybe talk to, even just online, and thank them for everything.
Everyone has their way of venting, and powapowa-p’s way of venting was making songs It shouldn’t matter if it was “edgy” or not people should have fucking respect for people like him, Rest In Peace PowaPowa-P, you will be missed dearly.
The emotion you give us , the viewers, during these vids. The fear, the sadness, the excitement, the wonder. It helps me feel when I’m used to falling into a void of nothingness when on my phone. Thanks for that
As a person whos been listening to him for 3-4 years, it pisses me off knowing that people only come for one song from a author, and knowing that PowaPowaP uses mental health on most of his music topics and getting the original meaning of the music out of its way, it really boils me. It still upsets me how people make it a trend though, and use it for everything they find that just fit a lyric.
idk about the trend right now with Japanese songs in Tiktok, cause i stopped using it, knowing some people or teens there are really insensitive. idk about this songwriter and composer also, but i feel what Mooshi said about, him (powapowa), not having people to vent out or comfort him and just be with him through his inner struggles is soo sad. I'm stuck at home for almost 4 years already since i stopped college, and started working, and also ended up not working when the 2nd year of pandemic comes in. I'm still going on with my plans in life, solving my own problems on my own... and now knowing what Powapowa felt through this song and the last post he said. I want to make him my push through life. I want to continue life and maybe avenge his death through knowing what I REALLY want with this life. Rest In Peace, Ryo. thank you for living and trying your best through those years of your life. I hope you're in good place now, and not blaming yourself. Let those people say things about you, but know that you did your best. 💐
I heard this from tiktok, and I had no idea what this song was about because of tiktok not showing the full song and honestly that really sucks. This made me tear up and I can really relate to this and so can many others. Its a song that perfectly represents the hopeless feeling of depression.
I used to cry so much to his songs (i still do sometimes) especially after learning more about him. the lyrics might be hard to understand for some people, but for people who are or were going through something... it just speaks to you. there's another one of his songs that really touched me, and its called "strobe light" for me that song is about how every day is the same, youre stuck in a cycle, and youre sinking deeper and deeper into this hole of depression every day, and youre desperately trying to break out of it. dude i cried so much to that because both this meaning and the lyrics there just spoke to me. i actually discovered this song quite recently, and i feel kind of bad for that because i wish i wouldve listened sooner, its truly amazing. anyways, here are some other songs from him i like, again a lot of these (especially "a palette full of you") are songs i really relate to -please give me a red pen (this is his last song, and just the way it ends on piano keys being smashed...) -a palette full of you -chiyoko kubozono's joining of the cabinet -q -the strobe series as a whole (its a series of songs, the main lyrics are the same but there are some differences, especially in the melody) -at the mercy of a dream -memory by stay and also to everyone going through something rn, it'll get better. i don't really know how to help, because i don't even know how to "help myself" but just know that people care for you.
When I knew that song blew up on tiktok and kids was calling "emo" and "edgy" wasn't funny bc It hurt me (with a person with diagnosed depression) it was hard knowing how ppl didn't take it seriously
I dont care if I found out about powapowa because of tiktok, I actually thank those degens for letting me discover some actually great music that goes layers deep than just being a "tiktok edit" or some "slowed+reverb" nonsense. Bless Powapowa's soul. 🕊
The part where he seems unforgiving of his mistakes is reminicent of his song "Please give me a red pen." The song constantly talks about going back in time and that if the singer was more like someone else, would they be happier? A red pen is also used when teachers mark assignments (which by the end of the song, it says something about the singer recieving a mark of zero), and the names of the dead are written in red ink.
I really love that there is a TikTok slander section (◍•ᴗ•◍)✧*。❤️ Please always be considerate of the artists, no matter how good the beat is, someone is/was suffering and crying for help
genuinely love ur ability to be vulnerable thru these vids- im a guy who doesnt have many friends to express that shit to but watching these vids helps me deal with some of my fav artists passing away and also music that makes me feel so many feelings (i love ur vid on aishite so much) thanks again
Those type of fucking tik tok kids genuinely make me upset. It makes me so angry. Because I'm one of the people that's worried that I'm going to be shit on for talking about my emotions. I'm scared of that type of stuff happening to me. I really hope that PowaPowa is at peace. He didn't deserve what happened. He deserved so much better. Fuck those kids on TikTok, man. I hate that damn app.
Sorry if I'm going to admit it! Those stupid 9-year olds on tiktok really fucked it up. I also really hate tiktok I really hate that app!! BURN IN HELL TIKTOK AND YOU STUPID 9-YEAR OLDS ON THE WEB! OH NINE YEAR OLDS ON THE WEB! ALL CRINGE STUFF MUST PERISH FROM THE WEB! LIKE I SAID I'M HIDING IN HELL ITSELF IS THE WORST APP IN THE WORLD. AND THE 9-YEAR-OLDS RUINED EVERYTHING.
I never knew Tiktok did what they did to Powapowa-P's music. He's been my absolute favourite Vocaloid producer since back in 2014, and to see him and his music reduced to this is disgusting. I really hope you check out some of his other music. He actually named his official producer name after the heavy percussion he uses in his songs. Fullkawa-P has also said that Powapowa-P lived his life twice as fast as others, which gives explanation to the melancholic feelings of his songs.
Aww Shooshi... I felt all those emotions overflow in that clarification moment and I just wanted to hug you cuz you seemed in pain to bring those thoughts back. This to me shows that you're really authentic when it comes to those kind of songs and you're not over-reacting to grab subs which I really admire in your videos Keep it up!
VENT!!!!! This has become one of my favourite songs of all time. Everyone would laugh at me because I listened to music similar to powapowa/this song. Like bro what the hell?!?! My friend also called me “emo” because I made vent art :( I’m sorry my life isn’t as perfect as yours? What do you want me to do, just magically be happy? RIP powapowa
This made me cry so much when you started talking about it. Being open is so hard. Opening up started to get harder for me because of how many people I’ve let in just for them to take advantage of me and leave me in my tears and pain when you find someone to connect with it’s special and it starts to get better when you find someone. I haven’t found someone to connect with yet but I hope a human reading this comment does :) have a nice day person reading this comment :)
I remember seeing this video when it first came out. I was crying tears of joy seeing someone finally listen to this song while acknowledging the lyrics and realizing what Powapowa-P/Siinamota went through. I think it was 2018 when I first heard Siinamota, and Girl A was actually the first song I heard from him. My brother introduced me to this song and many other songs by siina. I actually wanted to become a musician because of Siinamota. It really was Siinamota who helped me open my eyes and made me realize that I can express my feelings through songs. Expressing my feelings in words is so hard for me. I love drawing my feeling. So when I found out about this, I was so excited to become a musician, because I actually wanted express my feelings. Even if maybe no one may listen, it’s out there. Someone is gonna pick it up and listen, and I will be free. I love Siinamota. He’s my favorite musician. I found myself through his music. I wouldn’t have changed and tried to pick myself up if I have never heard Siinamota. I love his music, I would’ve loved to meet him. Just a hug or anything. I have regretted so much things but my biggest regret will always be that I have never heard his music earlier.
_This song just hits really hard, and it's sad to think that just like wowaka I enjoyed the music of both of them a few years ago and they are just gone, and falling in love with these songs again just hurts but I'm glad to find them again and know that people still listen to them_ _I almost cried when i heard girl A on tik tok, it was like a shock-_
Suicide is NOT a joke. It happened even to young people and depression is the problem. Life had just begun for him and it ended early because of kids who justified him wrongly. It’s 2022 and TikTok already had to mess it up, not knowing what is happening to him-he took his life because of it. You can hear him crying for help as depression swallows him whole. Rest in Peace, siinamota.
I actually had friend like these. They're always mocking me when i was yalking about sensitive things. Even if i cried. They called me "coward" and whats more worse is that someone who said "coward"to me was acually my bff. I can't believe she said that with no HESITATION she didnt even apologize and keeps calling me "emo" and "edgy" whenever i feel like, i cant feel emotions. Like and emotionless coward. I cant believe that im still her bff. I do ANYTHING for her. I let her borrow my only notebook that lasted in my bag cuz she forgot to buy the notbooks,i let her use my drawing book that was supposed to be a diary of mine,i comfort her whenever shes crying. And this is what she gives me back. How "wonderful". She didnt even comfort me ONCE. I comforted my family,i comforted my friends and besties,i comforted EVERYONE that i see them sad. Now i just feel like a flipping puppet to her being manipulated.
I've heard a couple of Siinamota's songs, and they're always so good at expressing a feeling I don't think I've felt, but I can understand and relate to. I keep putting off listening to the rest because I feel kinda empty when I remember he's gone. I first heard that little part of this song through a tiktok edit, and now I feel super bad learning that people are making fun of it.
I been going through a lot of shit and I even tried telling my old friend about it, and he told me to kill myself. "Cool, kill yourself." Those 3 words literally ruined me, and I actually tried to, and I ended up in the hospital for about 2 weeks. People need to understand others have feelings, but yet they don't give a shit. They only care for your attention. They never cared about my feelings. When I listen to any of these songs, I cry, knowing that nobody cared about my life till I tried ending it all. That's when they understood. Yet some of them still make fun of you for it. Living your life knowing people in reality don't give a shit messes your head up.
Probably the best reaction I've seen in a while, not just expressing the creators raw emotion but also your own, and the title F**k tiktok, yes, know that the worlds a small place when you know the right people
PowapowaP's songs always send me back to when I discovered his music in my highschool years in 2012. Everything he made always left some emotions that I ended up resonating with and I was very grateful for his songs. God, my heart hurts now.
im glad that it reached 100 million. it was the third vocaloid song on yt to ever do so. plus, at the moment, its projected to pass the current most viewed vocaloid song on youtube (goodbye sengen) in just a few months. he got the recognition and support he deserved in his life almost ten years too late, but im happy that he's getting the recognition he always deserved. the song is rlly relatable to my life currently and i won't rlly get into it bc it's personal but him and his influence on this community won't be forgotten. hope he rests peacefully
I completely understand this song... I hate to admit it but it's truly scary not having dreams or knowing the dreams and aspirations that you once had all died. knowing that you let so many people down just because they had such high hopes for you only to be where you are today is scary- terrifying even. I've been dealing with this all for years now and I didn't have a stable support system from middle school to high school grad. and i'm still getting back on my feet even if i am unstable still. enough about me but what really struck a chord with me is how it sounds like Siinamota is crying out for help by repeating the various words or phrases until it dies out. or another way to put this is the reverb in your head when you're stuck in a situation that hurts you. all you hear is the same words or phrases being repeated over and over again in your mind like there's no end to them until whatever you're dealing with is resolved.
TO BE HONEST, I like listening to paranoia, by (i forgot) and i didnt know it was Girl A. Once I figured out, the song reminded me what his last moments felt like, panic, fright. Man, is it sad.
'Ah I watch my dreams and thought they could come true" that hit me hard and you talking about your experience hit me hard too. But you're amazing and valid
I was just a kid when I heard about his tragic passing and I was heartbroken. Ever since I was a kid I tried to off myself due to my home and life. His songs were something I used to figure out my emotions at such an age, because everything felt so confusing and overwhelming, and just so painful at the same time. It's disgusting how disrespectful this generation is, and it shocks me how it keeps getting worse and worse. PowaPowap does not deserve the disrespect in and after life for simply expressing his feelings and emotions, and basically giving a cry for help each song.
This just really made me cry because even though I’m much younger then you I feel this so bad and just made me realize I’m still not ok… but I’d like to pay respect to powa powa because I want to be like him and I think he deserves so much more and I hope he’s happy wherever he is.
I, myself, learned of this song from Tik Tok. Thank you for reacting to it. Honestly, I almost cried when you were talking about your struggles. I almost cried when you talked about how it’s hard to open up about your feelings and how some people dismiss your feelings. :(
I'm still new to the vocaloid fandom, only three months in, but every time i hear this song, i break down into tears. The fact that Siinamota has passed away definitely doesn't help. May Siinamota rest in peace.
Man, it's the first time when I'm listening this (found out in one of my close friend's playlist) and I really hate my generation for hating this "trend" (for context, I'm 16 now, and for the past months I've been stressed out, to the point where I don't find anything valuable to do in life) . It's not even a trend, if you ask me. I don't know what happened in that period of time, since I don't have tiktok, but this geniunely makes me feel sad and empty, I'd wish he would've got help in time. Rest in peace, Ryo Mizoguchi. Thank you for this video. This explained the meaning of the music video better than what I understood initially. I'll make sure to both listen to the music that he created, and to take a look at your videos, in case I'll not understand the music videos completely ❤
I found PowaPowa-P's music when I was in my early second year of highschool, and I was new to vocaloid just coming off of the Kagerou project by Jin. At first I didn't really focus on artist names as I was just jumping from one translation channel on RUclips to another. But after a year I realized that a vast majority of the songs I liked were by PowaPowa-P so I started to look up his songs directly and I put them in a prominent place in my playlist. And years later after I graduated highschool and got my first job I happened to see a video in my recommendations called "vocaloid producers that passed away" or something similar. And when I saw his name in the video my heart sank; I did my research and saw that it was indeed true. I still find it hard to believe that I listened to his music for 5 whole years without knowing that he had already passed away. I will always hold his music in high regard, and even all these years later his music invokes a grand variety of emotions within me. Rest in piece.
This song definitely didn’t need to be explained to me when I first heard it (but I still went digging), it just immediately has that tune or progression that made me feel a sense of slow, built up, devastating dread creep up.
I remember discovering siinamota about 5 or so years ago. I was in a bad place mentally at the time but I also found friends who I could rely on, and hearing about his passing was really soul-crushing to me cause I could've easily been in his place as well. I couldn't stop feeling guilty for no reason, thinking how differently things would've gone for him if he only got the help I did. I still tear up listening to his songs now, most especially "Goodbye, Everyone" and "Strobe Light". Those songs saved me. It sucks that he can't see all the people that support him now anymore, but I always keep him in my heart, a reminder to go on.
This is such a good song and I remember that when I found out the lyrics I almost cried lmao- This is why I barely like tiktok because of the toxicity and all
Thank you for listening to Powapowa-P's song👏✨I like his beautiful sounds n soft singing voice😌I think that his songs sometimes may make us sad, but I want to enjoy them as one song💭I think there are various interpretations, but I'm very happy that shooshi listened to this song👀Thank you so much
I did not find out until today about Siinamota's passing. I've listened to this song countless times yet before today never read the lyrics. It pains me to think about how many people just don't know about this song and the countless others that are an outlet of frustration, depression, and just how fucked up life can be. Right before this I watched a video by "Breadbox" titled "Remembering Shiina Mota and Samfree" which went in depth on both these legendary artists and the general meaning and inspiration behind their music. I don't cry often, but the lyrics on Siinamota's songs have put me on the verge of tears several times today. Rest in Peace.
It’s always heartbreaking to see the path he went down with the songs being like a cry for help. I got into his music 6 years ago and my opinion stays the same. I loved his music and I hope he can see the people that miss him and know that his footprint will forever help people despite the meaning of his songs.
As someone who struggles severely with mental illness this song and the lyrics strikes a deep cord inside of me and always makes me sob crying because I’ve experienced a lot of what he’s talking about and feel like this song talks about a lot of my life and since I can’t cry over my past myself and this song just brings out all the pent up emotions and makes me vulnerable. I tried to open up even now about my emotions even to the ppl who did the most harm and I’m undeminded and the ppl who hurt me most gaslit me into thinking that they didn’t do anything to hurt me and idk I can relate too much to his songs
Recently came across the video. God, fuck the people telling you to not cry. It's okay to cry. It's an emotional song. Combine this with the knowledge of knowing the artist lost the fight with their emotions. It hits. And it hurts. But... The song while sad and painful has become something good. A song that has helped others push and motivate others to keep going.
PowapowaP is my favourite vocaloid producer. Thank you for bringing some attention to his beautiful music. If you consider reacting to any of his other songs, here are some I'd suggest - Strobe Light - My Pallete is full of you - Q - Please give me a red pen - goodbye everyone - help yourself to seconds - Year 3 class C-14, Chiyoko Kubozono's joining of the cabinet - At the mercy of a dream - City Lights Honestly I could suggest many more but these are a few that are very close to my heart
Rolling girl , girl A and some other songs helped me through hard times my life when I was really sucicidal I remember one time where I was going to commit sucicide but I stopped becasue I thought of my brother and a stupid promise I made to myself which was to read a book I really liked when become an artist I cried really hard after that anyways now Im going to therapist so Im getting better thank you to all those artist music I listened to and helped through hard times but most importantly Thank you Shooshimooshi I dont know what you did but I thank you for all the times where I found comfort in your vidoes thank you a lot
I wish this song was more recognized as a masterpiece and a remembrance for him, rather than some song that plays over a “epic scene” or an “edgy edit”. It really breaks my heart. This song is great. R.I.P Siinamota. Its almost been 9 years since his passing. Hope he is having a better time up there.
Well hopefully is reincarnation does exist. I hope his life is better. I don't know what is after we but I definitely hope it's not a lot of the other things.
bro istg songs like this make me just SO SAD. Because that feeling of not being able to open up because you feel like someone will completely invaladate your feelings, so you try to completely ignore them, but someone or something will ignite those feelings again so the only thing you can do is cry all by yourself and feel all the more alone. Music like this reminds me of situations like these so I try to avoid them from time to time. Rest in Peace, Siinomota, you will be greatly missed.
Ббоже, какое же это тяжелое видео. Не в плохом смысле! Сама тема того как PowaPowa высмеивали, просто агх, ужасно. Так страшно осознавать, что у некоторых совсем нет эмоциональной поддержки и когда ты выплескиваешь эмоции в творчестве, ты становишься объектом смеха. а текст песни, аааа, я нашла перевод на русский, одним словом, как же это тяжело воспринимать и перечитывать, буквально все эмоции из песни переносятся в мою голову. Спасибо тебе shooshiMooshi, за твой контент, я уже эмоционально выбита из колеи с этими воколойдами, но так хорошо, что я узнаю больше и вижу в комментах единомышленников!!
F tiktok seriously people have struggle and you call them Emo seriously what’s wrong with you and I struggle with that too and it’s not funny is serious and they are not emo or edgy because their struggle 🤨 and good I don’t have tiktok because it’s a toxic place and Rest In Peace for that guy he was a great guy making great music
I miss siinomota, the first time I listened to his song, I was so captivated by the way his music goes, I decided to search up about him as I do with all vocaloid artist I listen to and found out about the sad truth. It was hard and not long after that point, Wowaka passed away. That was the first time I somewhat cried for a person I barely know personally about.
This video hit me hard, for which gonna turn 18 soon, watching this video in the class make me feel a sense of insecurity and worries as I'm heard of what people around talk about Siinamota, who I just known and listen to his music a few month ago, and when found out about his death as such a young age, it make me take more consideration and thinking when listen to his song and the lyrics. The early song I heard of him are actually pretty joyful and had some energetic energy in it, the later song of him have a more sad and depressed tone, which already hit me hard at the time of depression I experienced during secondary,for which i hate myself alot at the time, to the point of having suicidal thought, and until now it got little less harsh, still , it's haunting. Siinamota is actually one of my favorite singer/music producer(Vocaloid), your video is one of the few that actually convey some personal comment on the song itself while the other only hear the song and can only comment for many reason. This comment might be more of a redundant words to anyone who read this, but I just want to expressed my thought on him, for his last song ( Sayonara Minasan & Please Give Me a Red Pen ) despite its sad message and the descending feeling , probably want people who heard it not to be sad or worries, but rather wanting everyone to move on from the harshmenship that we all endure. On the Tiktok part, I have no comment on the stupidity and the lack of understanding of people who suffered from depression and need for help, many said that they are just kid or they just joking, f**k them, words hurt a lot more than they thought on people, especially who died of it. Rest In Peace, Siinamota (1995-2015).
Dude made some bangers and didn’t live to see how much ppl can relate to it now more than ever… no disrespect but could’ve waited a little longer to pull the plug and see how many new friends and followers he’d make now.
stop no whenever you started crying i started crying toooooo.....the fact that the song resonated so much with you and your genuine expression you had with it. it really touched me bro tbh. thank you so much for sharing your experiences with us!!!
This entire video hit too hard. Every time you're seriously stuggling, and try to let it out by expressing youself in whatever way (drawings, music, clothing, could be anything really) way to many people come at you and call you "an edgy emo kid", "cringe", or stuff similar to that. It's already hard to get the courage to let those feelings out, and those people only disregard them, treat everything as a joke, and look down on you for geninually going through a bad time and making that clear in a form of art. It makes me sick, it truley makes me enraged. You can't even suffer without being mocked. You can't do anything, absolutely anything, without someone calling you "cringe". Even after death. This world truley sucks, I hope all those tiktok shits get what they deserve for mocking someone for their true feelings until driving them to end their own life.
"please give me a red pen" This song was made by siinamoto and was sung by him too. What is so sad and tragic about it, is the fact that he posted it 30 minutes before he committed suicide.
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All thoghts on girl a is cute❤
Siinamota was 20 when his life finally ended, his last tweet was along the lines of "Life is no longer enjoyable, I don't want to grow up."
It's heartbreaking and terrifying to think about growing up when you're not ready for the responsibilities of being an adult. I hope he may rest in peace.
Fuck TikTok, all my homies hate TikTok.
I didn't even know this song was on tiktok😔☹️
I had no idea about thar that just makes it all a whole lot sadder
I’m not your homie but I absolutely hate TikTok for these kinds of things
whats his twitter-? just for purpose
@@blackbeaniz siinamota
The word “it’s cold” being repeated in that song, I could understand that he was going through depression. The word “it’s cold” is not commonly used to say that you’re depress. But it’s a feeling of depression, you feel cold.
I’ve never really understand this song until now…
May he Rest In Peace.
Yeah, I think I understand, at least partly. One time, when I was going through a rough time, I saw something that reminded me of what started that dark period, and it felt cold, like someone had dumped a bucket of cold water on my heart, extinguishing the usual fire.
I remember feeling terribly cold inside during my depressive episodes in middle school. It was awful, it made me feel numb as if I was dying. And sometimes it was just so painful I could only shed a tear or two
Yeah its cold a hug can make it warm but i wish i have one
@@idk-qc9zy Now I want to give you a hug🥺🥺
@@glitchymajora thanks buddy u are so nice
Man he's so young. He tried to show his true intentions to why he released this song, then after he died. Tiktok fucked it up, dammit man. Really!?!? Its 2022 and people who have depression are still considered emo people!!??! Goddammit. Pls have respect. Thank you:)
Wow thank you all for the likes!!!! I really love this community, and how much i could relate to you guys. Thank you again i hope this community grows larger. Rest in peace powapowa, may your content lead to something better unlike tiktok. Bye ;)
Exactly right. I agree with you 10000%
@@shooshiMooshi Man still tho. This community is the best one I ever joined in. Tiktoks community is getting more and more toxic, messing with these poor vocaloid artists with masterpieces. Man this is just the gacha community all over again. Love your content man. Keep up the good work.
People need to realise depression is way more serious than just being 'emo'.
@@qlysa Agreed
What is happening in TikTok and what does it have to do with Powapowa?
Powapowa's music is literally the perfect representation of "melancholy." I recommend checking out his other songs, such as At the mercy of a dream.
that is one of my fave songs from him, a real masterpiece
or Healthy End
I'm just getting back into this kinda thing and like melancholy, thanks I think I will
or please give me a red pen
@@notmitsukiyololHealthy End made me cry several times. And I feel like the energy and happiness of the "I me my mine" parts were just to kind of mask out the true sadness of the song.
When you see someone comment on a song like this, calling it “edgy”, just remind them that Japanese society tends to look down or downright ignore mental health issues to the point where it’s taboo and the use of mental health services are almost never utilized. It’s one of the many reasons why suicide rates are still high, coupled that with expectations from said society to fit in a mold that has been crafted by people who refuse to understand that everyone is different in their own way. Japan is beautiful, it’s culture is lively and the language is mesmerizing but how it deals with subjects that matter the most, especially towards the very people who live in it, leaves a lot to be desired.
As someone who struggles deeply with severe depression and has had breakdowns almost every night for 7 years, it really resonates with me . The whole smiling and having people ask me why im so optimistic when I’m reality ever night I consider leaving the world. I’m glad the Artist of this song was able to vent his emotions , may he Rest In Peace.
me too omg it's been six years. The fact that there's an artist out there who understands and was able to convey his emotions, makes me feel seen.
hey, I hope the part about considering leaving is not as strong now, I hope youre doing better than 7 years ago even though it still may be hard :((
Im so sorry thats been happening to you i hope you’re doing better
I have felt depression before and I hope you guys are ok❤
Man... this guy really took the bandaids of his bruises to show to everyone and, half the people who came across his music just punched at what was already sore...
That's why you don't show your problems to strangers.
@@Minsai721oh please shut up! it sounds like you're victim blaming and it's not cool dude.
@@Minsai721 Tbh, don't know the situation for him but if there's no one's anymore that you can trust or talk with. The internet is most of ppl's only choice
I understand your point. But, when you vent on internet, not everyone will be be kind. I think it's important to be aware of that.
@@DZTWoo pretty sure his problem wasnt nor having anyone to talk with, he was scared of growing up
Powapowa-P has been writing songs since he was 14. His last song was actually "Goodbye, Everyone." "Please give me a red pen" was a re-upload or something-like-that.
Many fans believe he committed suicide but the exact cause of his death is undisclosed. But nevertheless, that never changed the fact that he fell into depression. R.I.P RYO MIZOGUCHI
I thought his last song was healthy end? I might be wrong though
It seems that Please Give Me a Red Pen might have been the closing song for Ryo's life, as people have said that it was released just a few hours before the declaration of his death. Healthy End looks to be a song that the visuals were made by a friend, but he made that before Goodbye Everyone and Please Give Me a Red Pen
So young yet already so determined, but people really ignored his mental health on his artistic journey. When the art exposed to you is clearly in the format of a vent, you have no right to call it edgy.
I remember when I heard please give me a red pen, I cried so hard and I didn’t even know why.
His final song was "Healthy End" and it was entrusted to a friend to be uploaded after his death, THAT is why people thought that he committed suicide......
I was already upset about Kikuo and MARETU becoming nothing but "aesthetic" and having their songs used for awful things with the true meanings ignored, but the thought that siinamota might be next is HORRIFYING. Hopefully it doesn't go any farther than this...
I think I had a heartattack seeing it on tiktok
Girl A kept being used with random
Scenes
I-
I kept seeing my r and other kikuo videos being made by gahca kids ( literal children) and I'm like you idk the meaning of this song
@@bluedrago144 I'm a child and someone who uses gacha and I know the meaning of a song before I use it
You know it’s emotional when you got him crying bro
🥲
@@shooshiMooshi :’)
Got me crying too, shit
This song got everyone crying
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Siinamota has to be one of my favorite artists, and "Girl A" has to be one of my favorite songs, I also really recommend "Goodbye Everyone", "Fish Sky", "Akapen Onegaishimasu" and "The entry into the cabinet of 3rd class-C No.14 Chiyoko Kubozono.", those really mean a lot to me.
Also I completely agree with what you had to say about his music, I think the raw emotion in every single one of his songs is what makes them so unique and beautiful, it is this very personal experience that is transformed into sound waves that we can hear, cry and relate to, for me it's just insane.
I hope you're doing better and RIP Siinamota, we'll never forget you.
"Q"is good too
Have you heard his singing? Him singing "healthy end", titled "war within me" when he sang it was absolutely heart breaking and the lyrics talks about him going to commit suicide.
Siinamota holds such a close place to my heart but I'm so frustrated that tiktok is taking "Girl A" and misusing it and writing it off as edgy
I've been wondering recently: what got you into vocaloid? When you first started you seemed to know next to nothing, so how did you decide that vocaloid will be your 'thing' for RUclips? Simmilar question about analog horror and stuff, you seem to really hate scary stuff but now it's one of the main things you do along with vocaloid reactions. Anyways no matter what the answer, love what your doing and thank you for helping me also venture into the dark yet beautiful world of vocaloid. Music has really been a big part of my life recently and connecting meanings that sometimes hit close, discovering interesting lore, and finding new songs to love and listen to has been wonderful and I could not say enough how much I appreciate your content and the community you have created!
1. I made a video on a kikuo song and it gained traction during a time I was trying to find my niche on RUclips. When I kept seeing more traction on vocaloid stuff that’s when I decided to stick with it. Not just because they were doing well but because it’s always an experience whether that be sadness, fear, adrenaline, hype etc. Also you guys are all friendly and I’ve enjoyed your guys’ virtual company :).
2. It’s weird. Yeah I do hate horror but I like the rush I get lol. Also sharing the experience with you guys makes me feel not alone so it’s not as bad haha. Analog horror go brrr.
3. Thank you so much for these words. It’s been my pleasure to bring more attention to not only the songs I watch, but their hidden meanings/stories. The community we’ve made is a beautiful one for sure and I’m sooo grateful for you guys :)
@@shooshiMooshi Vocaloid songs are truly something special. Anyone with enough time and effort can create one without worrying about professional-level vocals. This allows artists to create something so very personal and genuine, that I always thought it was a shame there weren't many videos discussing the stories and messages behind these songs.
I've had this thought for a while when i tried finding other reactors to scary, deep and depressing vocaloid songs before. Mooshi's videos are one of the only kind that does react to these and does so in such an in depth way that i feel like i'm not just learning all about vocaloid alone and it's nice.
Love Mooshi's reply to this comment too, makes me happy seeing someone enjoy the niche they're experiencing even if sometimes it scares them shitless haha!
@@shooshiMooshi :D
bro i am NOT reading allat
It's always nice to see someone spreading vocaloid especially this specific genre which i'm not sure what you call it, but it's comforting to know that other people enjoy the same things. Seeing you talk about your own experiences for some reason is really comforting, I don't know what you had to go through but glad you got through it if not I wouldn't have been able to know you :).
Thank you 😭
The way a lot of people on social media talk about mental health and the importance of expressing and discussing it, then mock people's chosen methods of expressing their experiences is disturbing. Like their concern only exists until there's something to make fun of. Treating depression as "just being emo or edgy" is such a harmful stereotype to perpetuate. RIP Siinamota.
Still, it's nice to know that you're doing better than in the past, Shooshi
This was such a powerful song that I also cried the first time I listened to it years ago......
Rip to Siinomota, I hope he got the help he needed and passed away peacefully
Edit: The fact that Shittokers find this edgy is seriously infuriating..... How can you call a person who's seriously struggling in life to the point that he takes it out by making music out of it edgy and emo
I wished they at least tried to understand what Shiinomota was going through instead of chasing clout by "dancing" in front of a camera
Some people just don’t have any sympathy and it’s sad
I didn’t know about that but ifind it kinda sad but at the same doesnt this sound like hastune miku?
Siina rets in peace they hate you because you are too good ❤❤
@@kind-hearted191
The vocaloid used for this song was Kagamine Rin. Yeah it does sound like Miku.
@@elle3311nevermind
It is really difficult to be depressed in a world where people will not aknowledge your feelings. I myself am a victim of this, I was diagnosed with depression when I was 13, but my mom is in denial till this day. But yeah, Powa's songs are an odd comfort for me, they make me feel seem... It breaks my heart that nobody ever was willing to help Powa when he needed it, just to show how much people take mentally-ill people for granted.
When I was 12 I had to get on this medicine that made me depressed from then and now I’m off the medicine but I still get that depressed state. When ever I tried to tell me mom about it she always said “You’re always unhappy nothing I do is good enough for you” she always and still makes me feel ungrateful if I ever bring up how I feel. Whenever someone asks if I’m okay I have to think about it and then I realize that I’m not ok but I can’t ever figure out what’s wrong.
i was diagnosed with depression at the age of 9 of september 10th now i'm almost 17 and battling for years
i've been in suicidal thoughts and went to hospital cuz of what i did to myself i couldn't control it
only my mom believes that i have depression but not my dad atleast he cares a lot about me even though he doesn't believe it
and i'll continue to live my life if i can
hope ur doing alright there
It's not that I was an old, old fan of PowaPowaP, but I really do love the songs he made whenever I hear them. There's so much heart in them. TikTok is such an odd thing, isn't it? It's given Vocaloid a bit of a second peak, and making some artists' songs randomly explode, but it gives people a shortcut to adding a song to their videos without a second thought.
I'll throw my hat in the ring here-- you mentioned at the beginning 'the song' that retired/passed artists pour all their heart into? I think you'd really love Unknown Mother Goose. It was wowaka's last song, and as confusing as his lyrics always were, it hits the most, and the most personally. There's versions with both Miku and himself, singing, because for once it really is his own song. (I'm also a fan of Odds&Ends-- which was ryo/supercell's 'last hurrah' before moving out of Vocaloid. It's Miku singing directly to him about his depression and insecurities and it never fails to make me cry, too.)
Thanks for making these videos, though, seriously! It's always something nice to tune into every week. I got back into vocaloid last year and it's been sort of a thrill watching someone else find the same songs I've been finding. As long as you're enjoying what you're doing, and having this little community of people hang out and watch what you make, that's what matters.
How long does it take for you to write that? It impressive to me of how long you write it
Unknown Mother Goose is such a beautiful song, and I feel like Miy_Yuu’s version really helped bring out Wowaka’s music properly, it really felt like a tribute to Wowaka’s legacy and passion, it’s both a sorrowful and joyful listen ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡
@@christinatoo801 agreed, it's so beautiful in a really sad way. Really reminds me in that way of Ai no Sagashite by Kikuo.
Thank you for making videos about Vocaloid. This “genre” tends to be overlooked by content creators, so it brings me joy to see my favorite music being talked about in a very respectful and thoughtful manner.
Powa Powa has been my favorite producer, and his death still brings me to tears, especially as I was struggling with similar hardships myself. I don't know what’s the deal on TikTok since I don't go there, but siinamota’s music is not edgy at all. A lot of his songs are hopeful and filled with raw emotions and deep thoughts about life. I have mixed feelings about his music being on-trend.
PowaPowa P was (and still is) such an amazing artist. I listen to Strobe Light and " Year 3 Class C-14, Chiyoko Kubozono's Joining of the Cabinet" practically on the daily. His music is absolutely bittersweet, and continues to make me cry lol. Absolutely beautiful music.
i havent been able to keep up w streams lately, but my god you have outdone yourself again my good sir. I enjoyed watching today’s vid, especially now knowing the eng lyrics it has brought a different perspective, with the consideration of Vocaloids reputation
Thanks Sam :)
man
i remember the times i sobbed to this song. it was always there for me when people weren't.
thanks powapowa.
rest in peace.
Siinamota was my favourite vocaloid producer and when he died I was only 14, but I was really mature for my age and already struggled a lot (I never had friends and even now I'm so lonely) so I felt particulary connected to his songs: thank you for defending him. We appreciate it a lot!
Seriously, how can they be so shallow and completely lack empathy? It's so sad, it's so cruel. But even if they cannot feel connected to it, I find it very sad that for some people, as soon as somebody says something slightly more deep, they attack it and say it's "cringe" or "edgy". Because of this mentality more and more people avoid to express their feelings with the fear of being considered edgy or as they were just pretending to be sad. People who find everything cringe are trapping themselves and other in cages where there is no freedom to even say what they like.
That's why I hate the fact that this song blew up on TikTok. Is it selfish for me to say that I don't want producers like him to become very popular? I hate when they talk with so shallow words of someone or something I like. But in general, please, don't talk about anything in a superficial way! Things are so complex! Humans are so complex!
Sorry for my english, and greetings from Italy!
Your English was good I hope things get better for you and I agree with not wanting them to blow up not because I don't want people to enjoy the music and pay respect but because I know how people on tik tok and other places can be its very sad but please don't give up keep being strong you can do it
@@veryspookyJeIIy thank you so much! ^^
@@twinklelittlestar1238 you're welcome! 💙
Respect to Siinamota, such an amazing person who was put down by negative and terrible people and their perception of him. Rest In Peace Ryo Mizoguchi🙏❤️
It really upsets me how some people mock him online. It just really shows how far we still have to go with reducing stigma on mental health and just the knowledge around it. I enjoyed the song a lot and will definitely be looking other songs from him.
it hurts so much to see tiktok kids calling it "emo" and "edgy" because the song practically describes my mindset and struggles. so many verses in that song just hit home. those "edgy" words are just hurting me indirectly. :(
some suggestions for reacting;
jackpot sad girl
composing the future
hurting for a very hurtful pain
jishou mushoku
these reccomendations are indeed inspired by a unit (25-ji, night code de.) from a rhythm game, project sekai. this unit holds the souls of four girls who just want to disappear, and uses songs to try and save themselves (basically, a form of letting their struggles out.)
those songs i suggested are covers done by them!! i highly encourage to check the originals out, the meanings of each one are bittersweet; especially jishou mushoku and composing the future
I'm working on handling my issues, sure I'm not yet an adult, but his music really hit me since I gave up everything thanks to my trauma. Hearing you talk a little about your issues really does help me a lot
PowaPowa-P's death hit me really hard. During some of the all-time lows of my depression, his music helped me feel like someone understood - even if my reasons were different - and it made it a little easier for me to keep going. Strobe Light was also one that made me feel a bit lighter as it was one of his songs with a more hopeful ending. It made me so sad that one of the people who indirectly helped me make it through didn't make it themselves. It wasa pretty painful discovery as he was someone I really hoped I could one day maybe talk to, even just online, and thank them for everything.
Everyone has their way of venting, and powapowa-p’s way of venting was making songs
It shouldn’t matter if it was “edgy” or not people should have fucking respect for people like him, Rest In Peace PowaPowa-P, you will be missed dearly.
Just re-adding this song to the "Hard to listen to for the sake of mental health" but it's such a good song...but so freaking sad---
I despise anyone who think vocaloid songs like this as edgy..
Like sorry expressing true feelings offends you??
The emotion you give us , the viewers, during these vids. The fear, the sadness, the excitement, the wonder. It helps me feel when I’m used to falling into a void of nothingness when on my phone. Thanks for that
Sorry if I’m dumb but.. what is pbc ? LOL
@@shooshiMooshi idk if u know already but i think they mean pink bitch club !
As a person whos been listening to him for 3-4 years, it pisses me off knowing that people only come for one song from a author, and knowing that PowaPowaP uses mental health on most of his music topics and getting the original meaning of the music out of its way, it really boils me.
It still upsets me how people make it a trend though, and use it for everything they find that just fit a lyric.
idk about the trend right now with Japanese songs in Tiktok, cause i stopped using it, knowing some people or teens there are really insensitive.
idk about this songwriter and composer also, but i feel what Mooshi said about, him (powapowa), not having people to vent out or comfort him and just be with him through his inner struggles is soo sad.
I'm stuck at home for almost 4 years already since i stopped college, and started working, and also ended up not working when the 2nd year of pandemic comes in. I'm still going on with my plans in life, solving my own problems on my own... and now knowing what Powapowa felt through this song and the last post he said. I want to make him my push through life. I want to continue life and maybe avenge his death through knowing what I REALLY want with this life.
Rest In Peace,
Ryo.
thank you for living and trying your best through those years of your life. I hope you're in good place now, and not blaming yourself. Let those people say things about you, but know that you did your best. 💐
I heard this from tiktok, and I had no idea what this song was about because of tiktok not showing the full song and honestly that really sucks. This made me tear up and I can really relate to this and so can many others. Its a song that perfectly represents the hopeless feeling of depression.
I used to cry so much to his songs (i still do sometimes) especially after learning more about him.
the lyrics might be hard to understand for some people, but for people who are or were going through something... it just speaks to you.
there's another one of his songs that really touched me, and its called "strobe light"
for me that song is about how every day is the same, youre stuck in a cycle, and youre sinking deeper and deeper into this hole of depression every day, and youre desperately trying to break out of it. dude i cried so much to that because both this meaning and the lyrics there just spoke to me.
i actually discovered this song quite recently, and i feel kind of bad for that because i wish i wouldve listened sooner, its truly amazing.
anyways, here are some other songs from him i like, again a lot of these (especially "a palette full of you") are songs i really relate to
-please give me a red pen (this is his last song, and just the way it ends on piano keys being smashed...)
-a palette full of you
-chiyoko kubozono's joining of the cabinet
-q
-the strobe series as a whole (its a series of songs, the main lyrics are the same but there are some differences, especially in the melody)
-at the mercy of a dream
-memory by stay
and also to everyone going through something rn, it'll get better. i don't really know how to help, because i don't even know how to "help myself" but just know that people care for you.
I am begging you to play Omori. It deals with thoughts and concepts just like this and it’s extremely beautiful, emotional, and well made
Oh my goodness im not the only person who was thinking of omori!
I think I can confidently say that ShooshiMooshi led me to Omori through sparking an interest in vocaloid and then MafuMafu and finally Omori tbh
OH MY GOD YES.
Rest in peace to PowaPowa. He would've been 27 today. He had almost the same age as my sister
? his birthday is in march. he died in july. he would be 27 _now_
When I knew that song blew up on tiktok and kids was calling "emo" and "edgy" wasn't funny bc It hurt me (with a person with diagnosed depression) it was hard knowing how ppl didn't take it seriously
I dont care if I found out about powapowa because of tiktok, I actually thank those degens for letting me discover some actually great music that goes layers deep than just being a "tiktok edit" or some "slowed+reverb" nonsense. Bless Powapowa's soul. 🕊
The part where he seems unforgiving of his mistakes is reminicent of his song "Please give me a red pen." The song constantly talks about going back in time and that if the singer was more like someone else, would they be happier? A red pen is also used when teachers mark assignments (which by the end of the song, it says something about the singer recieving a mark of zero), and the names of the dead are written in red ink.
I really love that there is a TikTok slander section (◍•ᴗ•◍)✧*。❤️
Please always be considerate of the artists, no matter how good the beat is, someone is/was suffering and crying for help
genuinely love ur ability to be vulnerable thru these vids- im a guy who doesnt have many friends to express that shit to but watching these vids helps me deal with some of my fav artists passing away and also music that makes me feel so many feelings (i love ur vid on aishite so much) thanks again
Those type of fucking tik tok kids genuinely make me upset.
It makes me so angry. Because I'm one of the people that's worried that I'm going to be shit on for talking about my emotions. I'm scared of that type of stuff happening to me.
I really hope that PowaPowa is at peace. He didn't deserve what happened. He deserved so much better.
Fuck those kids on TikTok, man. I hate that damn app.
Sorry if I'm going to admit it! Those stupid 9-year olds on tiktok really fucked it up. I also really hate tiktok I really hate that app!!
BURN IN HELL TIKTOK AND YOU STUPID 9-YEAR OLDS ON THE WEB! OH NINE YEAR OLDS ON THE WEB! ALL CRINGE STUFF MUST PERISH FROM THE WEB! LIKE I SAID I'M HIDING IN HELL ITSELF IS THE WORST APP IN THE WORLD. AND THE 9-YEAR-OLDS RUINED EVERYTHING.
この曲はいつ聞いても心に深く響く
自分の支えになってる曲です
I never knew Tiktok did what they did to Powapowa-P's music. He's been my absolute favourite Vocaloid producer since back in 2014, and to see him and his music reduced to this is disgusting. I really hope you check out some of his other music. He actually named his official producer name after the heavy percussion he uses in his songs. Fullkawa-P has also said that Powapowa-P lived his life twice as fast as others, which gives explanation to the melancholic feelings of his songs.
Aww Shooshi...
I felt all those emotions overflow in that clarification moment and I just wanted to hug you cuz you seemed in pain to bring those thoughts back.
This to me shows that you're really authentic when it comes to those kind of songs and you're not over-reacting to grab subs which I really admire in your videos
Keep it up!
VENT!!!!!
This has become one of my favourite songs of all time. Everyone would laugh at me because I listened to music similar to powapowa/this song. Like bro what the hell?!?! My friend also called me “emo” because I made vent art :( I’m sorry my life isn’t as perfect as yours? What do you want me to do, just magically be happy? RIP powapowa
That is not a friend ml i know it may be hard but try to keep your distance your feelings matter and are valid i hope the best for you
I hope you dropped that friend
I'm a guy who cant shed tear easily, but this still deeply made me so sad. I only wished if I could see his grave and give him some new flowers.
This made me cry so much when you started talking about it. Being open is so hard. Opening up started to get harder for me because of how many people I’ve let in just for them to take advantage of me and leave me in my tears and pain when you find someone to connect with it’s special and it starts to get better when you find someone. I haven’t found someone to connect with yet but I hope a human reading this comment does :) have a nice day person reading this comment :)
It made me cry too since I could relate
I remember seeing this video when it first came out. I was crying tears of joy seeing someone finally listen to this song while acknowledging the lyrics and realizing what Powapowa-P/Siinamota went through. I think it was 2018 when I first heard Siinamota, and Girl A was actually the first song I heard from him. My brother introduced me to this song and many other songs by siina. I actually wanted to become a musician because of Siinamota. It really was Siinamota who helped me open my eyes and made me realize that I can express my feelings through songs. Expressing my feelings in words is so hard for me. I love drawing my feeling. So when I found out about this, I was so excited to become a musician, because I actually wanted express my feelings. Even if maybe no one may listen, it’s out there. Someone is gonna pick it up and listen, and I will be free. I love Siinamota. He’s my favorite musician. I found myself through his music. I wouldn’t have changed and tried to pick myself up if I have never heard Siinamota. I love his music, I would’ve loved to meet him. Just a hug or anything. I have regretted so much things but my biggest regret will always be that I have never heard his music earlier.
_This song just hits really hard, and it's sad to think that just like wowaka I enjoyed the music of both of them a few years ago and they are just gone, and falling in love with these songs again just hurts but I'm glad to find them again and know that people still listen to them_
_I almost cried when i heard girl A on tik tok, it was like a shock-_
Suicide is NOT a joke. It happened even to young people and depression is the problem. Life had just begun for him and it ended early because of kids who justified him wrongly.
It’s 2022 and TikTok already had to mess it up, not knowing what is happening to him-he took his life because of it.
You can hear him crying for help as depression swallows him whole.
Rest in Peace, siinamota.
I actually had friend like these. They're always mocking me when i was yalking about sensitive things. Even if i cried. They called me "coward" and whats more worse is that someone who said "coward"to me was acually my bff. I can't believe she said that with no HESITATION she didnt even apologize and keeps calling me "emo" and "edgy" whenever i feel like, i cant feel emotions. Like and emotionless coward. I cant believe that im still her bff. I do ANYTHING for her. I let her borrow my only notebook that lasted in my bag cuz she forgot to buy the notbooks,i let her use my drawing book that was supposed to be a diary of mine,i comfort her whenever shes crying. And this is what she gives me back. How "wonderful". She didnt even comfort me ONCE. I comforted my family,i comforted my friends and besties,i comforted EVERYONE that i see them sad. Now i just feel like a flipping puppet to her being manipulated.
I've heard a couple of Siinamota's songs, and they're always so good at expressing a feeling I don't think I've felt, but I can understand and relate to.
I keep putting off listening to the rest because I feel kinda empty when I remember he's gone. I first heard that little part of this song through a tiktok edit, and now I feel super bad learning that people are making fun of it.
I been going through a lot of shit and I even tried telling my old friend about it, and he told me to kill myself.
"Cool, kill yourself."
Those 3 words literally ruined me, and I actually tried to, and I ended up in the hospital for about 2 weeks.
People need to understand others have feelings, but yet they don't give a shit. They only care for your attention. They never cared about my feelings.
When I listen to any of these songs, I cry, knowing that nobody cared about my life till I tried ending it all. That's when they understood. Yet some of them still make fun of you for it.
Living your life knowing people in reality don't give a shit messes your head up.
i love you dude
I know I'm just a random person on the internet but, I hope your doing well now
Probably the best reaction I've seen in a while, not just expressing the creators raw emotion but also your own, and the title F**k tiktok, yes, know that the worlds a small place when you know the right people
PowapowaP's songs always send me back to when I discovered his music in my highschool years in 2012. Everything he made always left some emotions that I ended up resonating with and I was very grateful for his songs. God, my heart hurts now.
im glad that it reached 100 million. it was the third vocaloid song on yt to ever do so. plus, at the moment, its projected to pass the current most viewed vocaloid song on youtube (goodbye sengen) in just a few months. he got the recognition and support he deserved in his life almost ten years too late, but im happy that he's getting the recognition he always deserved.
the song is rlly relatable to my life currently and i won't rlly get into it bc it's personal but him and his influence on this community won't be forgotten. hope he rests peacefully
this song holds such a special place in my heart
I completely understand this song... I hate to admit it but it's truly scary not having dreams or knowing the dreams and aspirations that you once had all died. knowing that you let so many people down just because they had such high hopes for you only to be where you are today is scary- terrifying even. I've been dealing with this all for years now and I didn't have a stable support system from middle school to high school grad. and i'm still getting back on my feet even if i am unstable still.
enough about me but what really struck a chord with me is how it sounds like Siinamota is crying out for help by repeating the various words or phrases until it dies out. or another way to put this is the reverb in your head when you're stuck in a situation that hurts you. all you hear is the same words or phrases being repeated over and over again in your mind like there's no end to them until whatever you're dealing with is resolved.
TO BE HONEST, I like listening to paranoia, by (i forgot) and i didnt know it was Girl A. Once I figured out, the song reminded me what his last moments felt like, panic, fright. Man, is it sad.
'Ah I watch my dreams and thought they could come true" that hit me hard and you talking about your experience hit me hard too. But you're amazing and valid
I was just a kid when I heard about his tragic passing and I was heartbroken. Ever since I was a kid I tried to off myself due to my home and life. His songs were something I used to figure out my emotions at such an age, because everything felt so confusing and overwhelming, and just so painful at the same time. It's disgusting how disrespectful this generation is, and it shocks me how it keeps getting worse and worse. PowaPowap does not deserve the disrespect in and after life for simply expressing his feelings and emotions, and basically giving a cry for help each song.
This just really made me cry because even though I’m much younger then you I feel this so bad and just made me realize I’m still not ok… but I’d like to pay respect to powa powa because I want to be like him and I think he deserves so much more and I hope he’s happy wherever he is.
I, myself, learned of this song from Tik Tok. Thank you for reacting to it. Honestly, I almost cried when you were talking about your struggles. I almost cried when you talked about how it’s hard to open up about your feelings and how some people dismiss your feelings. :(
I'm still new to the vocaloid fandom, only three months in, but every time i hear this song, i break down into tears. The fact that Siinamota has passed away definitely doesn't help. May Siinamota rest in peace.
Man, it's the first time when I'm listening this (found out in one of my close friend's playlist) and I really hate my generation for hating this "trend" (for context, I'm 16 now, and for the past months I've been stressed out, to the point where I don't find anything valuable to do in life) . It's not even a trend, if you ask me. I don't know what happened in that period of time, since I don't have tiktok, but this geniunely makes me feel sad and empty, I'd wish he would've got help in time. Rest in peace, Ryo Mizoguchi.
Thank you for this video. This explained the meaning of the music video better than what I understood initially. I'll make sure to both listen to the music that he created, and to take a look at your videos, in case I'll not understand the music videos completely ❤
I found PowaPowa-P's music when I was in my early second year of highschool, and I was new to vocaloid just coming off of the Kagerou project by Jin. At first I didn't really focus on artist names as I was just jumping from one translation channel on RUclips to another. But after a year I realized that a vast majority of the songs I liked were by PowaPowa-P so I started to look up his songs directly and I put them in a prominent place in my playlist. And years later after I graduated highschool and got my first job I happened to see a video in my recommendations called "vocaloid producers that passed away" or something similar. And when I saw his name in the video my heart sank; I did my research and saw that it was indeed true. I still find it hard to believe that I listened to his music for 5 whole years without knowing that he had already passed away. I will always hold his music in high regard, and even all these years later his music invokes a grand variety of emotions within me. Rest in piece.
Coming back to this video because on the way home I literally just heard a little girl singing this and she most likely heard it from TikTok
The fact that shooshiMooshi cried because he genuinely felt empathy for Siinamota.
thank you for these types of deeper videos , they bring a sense of comfort and i really appreciate it :[
Any time :,)
Please you just made me tear up in the living room.. im really glad your doing fine or atleast better, rest in peace to him🙏
This song definitely didn’t need to be explained to me when I first heard it (but I still went digging), it just immediately has that tune or progression that made me feel a sense of slow, built up, devastating dread creep up.
I remember discovering siinamota about 5 or so years ago. I was in a bad place mentally at the time but I also found friends who I could rely on, and hearing about his passing was really soul-crushing to me cause I could've easily been in his place as well. I couldn't stop feeling guilty for no reason, thinking how differently things would've gone for him if he only got the help I did. I still tear up listening to his songs now, most especially "Goodbye, Everyone" and "Strobe Light". Those songs saved me. It sucks that he can't see all the people that support him now anymore, but I always keep him in my heart, a reminder to go on.
This is such a good song and I remember that when I found out the lyrics I almost cried lmao-
This is why I barely like tiktok because of the toxicity and all
日本人です。あなたのリアクションがとても響きました。私自身も、この曲に救われた事が何度もあり、音楽を聴き終えたあとのあなたのコメントが、その救われた日々を鮮明に思い出させてくれました。ありがとう
Thank you for listening to Powapowa-P's song👏✨I like his beautiful sounds n soft singing voice😌I think that his songs sometimes may make us sad, but I want to enjoy them as one song💭I think there are various interpretations, but I'm very happy that shooshi listened to this song👀Thank you so much
I did not find out until today about Siinamota's passing. I've listened to this song countless times yet before today never read the lyrics. It pains me to think about how many people just don't know about this song and the countless others that are an outlet of frustration, depression, and just how fucked up life can be. Right before this I watched a video by "Breadbox" titled "Remembering Shiina Mota and Samfree" which went in depth on both these legendary artists and the general meaning and inspiration behind their music. I don't cry often, but the lyrics on Siinamota's songs have put me on the verge of tears several times today.
Rest in Peace.
It’s always heartbreaking to see the path he went down with the songs being like a cry for help. I got into his music 6 years ago and my opinion stays the same. I loved his music and I hope he can see the people that miss him and know that his footprint will forever help people despite the meaning of his songs.
As someone who struggles severely with mental illness this song and the lyrics strikes a deep cord inside of me and always makes me sob crying because I’ve experienced a lot of what he’s talking about and feel like this song talks about a lot of my life and since I can’t cry over my past myself and this song just brings out all the pent up emotions and makes me vulnerable. I tried to open up even now about my emotions even to the ppl who did the most harm and I’m undeminded and the ppl who hurt me most gaslit me into thinking that they didn’t do anything to hurt me and idk I can relate too much to his songs
Recently came across the video. God, fuck the people telling you to not cry. It's okay to cry. It's an emotional song. Combine this with the knowledge of knowing the artist lost the fight with their emotions. It hits. And it hurts. But... The song while sad and painful has become something good. A song that has helped others push and motivate others to keep going.
You and me sis you and me
PowapowaP is my favourite vocaloid producer. Thank you for bringing some attention to his beautiful music. If you consider reacting to any of his other songs, here are some I'd suggest
- Strobe Light
- My Pallete is full of you
- Q
- Please give me a red pen
- goodbye everyone
- help yourself to seconds
- Year 3 class C-14, Chiyoko Kubozono's joining of the cabinet
- At the mercy of a dream
- City Lights
Honestly I could suggest many more but these are a few that are very close to my heart
Rolling girl , girl A and some other songs helped me through hard times my life when I was really sucicidal
I remember one time where I was going to commit sucicide but I stopped becasue I thought of my brother and a stupid promise I made to myself which was to read a book I really liked when become an artist
I cried really hard after that anyways now Im going to therapist so Im getting better thank you to all those artist music I listened to and helped through hard times but most importantly
Thank you Shooshimooshi I dont know what you did but I thank you for all the times where I found comfort in your vidoes thank you a lot
I started listening to this recently and I'm so glad you made a video on it
I wish this song was more recognized as a masterpiece and a remembrance for him, rather than some song that plays over a “epic scene” or an “edgy edit”. It really breaks my heart. This song is great.
R.I.P Siinamota. Its almost been 9 years since his passing. Hope he is having a better time up there.
Well hopefully is reincarnation does exist. I hope his life is better. I don't know what is after we but I definitely hope it's not a lot of the other things.
bro istg songs like this make me just SO SAD. Because that feeling of not being able to open up because you feel like someone will completely invaladate your feelings, so you try to completely ignore them, but someone or something will ignite those feelings again so the only thing you can do is cry all by yourself and feel all the more alone. Music like this reminds me of situations like these so I try to avoid them from time to time. Rest in Peace, Siinomota, you will be greatly missed.
Ббоже, какое же это тяжелое видео. Не в плохом смысле! Сама тема того как PowaPowa высмеивали, просто агх, ужасно. Так страшно осознавать, что у некоторых совсем нет эмоциональной поддержки и когда ты выплескиваешь эмоции в творчестве, ты становишься объектом смеха.
а текст песни, аааа, я нашла перевод на русский, одним словом, как же это тяжело воспринимать и перечитывать, буквально все эмоции из песни переносятся в мою голову.
Спасибо тебе shooshiMooshi, за твой контент, я уже эмоционально выбита из колеи с этими воколойдами, но так хорошо, что я узнаю больше и вижу в комментах единомышленников!!
Большое спасибо за просмотр, и я рад, что вам понравилось мое видео :)
F tiktok seriously people have struggle and you call them Emo seriously what’s wrong with you and I struggle with that too and it’s not funny is serious and they are not emo or edgy because their struggle 🤨 and good I don’t have tiktok because it’s a toxic place and Rest In Peace for that guy he was a great guy making great music
I miss siinomota, the first time I listened to his song, I was so captivated by the way his music goes, I decided to search up about him as I do with all vocaloid artist I listen to and found out about the sad truth. It was hard and not long after that point, Wowaka passed away. That was the first time I somewhat cried for a person I barely know personally about.
This video hit me hard, for which gonna turn 18 soon, watching this video in the class make me feel a sense of insecurity and worries as I'm heard of what people around talk about Siinamota, who I just known and listen to his music a few month ago, and when found out about his death as such a young age, it make me take more consideration and thinking when listen to his song and the lyrics. The early song I heard of him are actually pretty joyful and had some energetic energy in it, the later song of him have a more sad and depressed tone, which already hit me hard at the time of depression I experienced during secondary,for which i hate myself alot at the time, to the point of having suicidal thought, and until now it got little less harsh, still , it's haunting. Siinamota is actually one of my favorite singer/music producer(Vocaloid), your video is one of the few that actually convey some personal comment on the song itself while the other only hear the song and can only comment for many reason.
This comment might be more of a redundant words to anyone who read this, but I just want to expressed my thought on him, for his last song ( Sayonara Minasan & Please Give Me a Red Pen ) despite its sad message and the descending feeling , probably want people who heard it not to be sad or worries, but rather wanting everyone to move on from the harshmenship that we all endure.
On the Tiktok part, I have no comment on the stupidity and the lack of understanding of people who suffered from depression and need for help, many said that they are just kid or they just joking, f**k them, words hurt a lot more than they thought on people, especially who died of it.
Rest In Peace, Siinamota (1995-2015).
Dude made some bangers and didn’t live to see how much ppl can relate to it now more than ever… no disrespect but could’ve waited a little longer to pull the plug and see how many new friends and followers he’d make now.
It made me cry too it just gives me flashbacks something I don't want to talk about
Just expressing your feelings is super hard and brave of you, your truly human, unlike a lot of people who just stereotype everything
stop no whenever you started crying i started crying toooooo.....the fact that the song resonated so much with you and your genuine expression you had with it. it really touched me bro tbh. thank you so much for sharing your experiences with us!!!
I have so much respect for you man, I was crying along with you...
I still listen to PowaPowa's Healthy End weekly, his music was great and may he rest in peace.
This entire video hit too hard. Every time you're seriously stuggling, and try to let it out by expressing youself in whatever way (drawings, music, clothing, could be anything really) way to many people come at you and call you "an edgy emo kid", "cringe", or stuff similar to that. It's already hard to get the courage to let those feelings out, and those people only disregard them, treat everything as a joke, and look down on you for geninually going through a bad time and making that clear in a form of art. It makes me sick, it truley makes me enraged. You can't even suffer without being mocked. You can't do anything, absolutely anything, without someone calling you "cringe". Even after death. This world truley sucks, I hope all those tiktok shits get what they deserve for mocking someone for their true feelings until driving them to end their own life.
Man, i genuinely hope siinamota is in a better place. Bro deserved so much, i'm genuinely in fucking tears again
"please give me a red pen" This song was made by siinamoto and was sung by him too. What is so sad and tragic about it, is the fact that he posted it 30 minutes before he committed suicide.