As a professional who works in Mental Health, I thoroughly appreciate this video and admire the willpower you have, Cr1tikal. You basically almost practiced CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy - used to tune down and deconstruct OCD behaviours) on yourself, which is NOT an easy feat. What I would add & suggest for anyone experiencing distress, discomfort and/or anxiety with similar thoughts/rituals/obsessions like these is to seek professional help, because not everyone can have that kind of insight. Professional help DOES NOT ALWAYS include medication, so do not be afraid! We (psychologists/therapists/counsellors) are here to help you; and thank you Cr1tikal for being here to help fight the taboo and stigma associated with it! Peace, A long time fan & follower.
yeah you're gonna be ok!! I worked through a lot of mine undiagnosed and I'm now working through treatment bullshit to get rid of the residual stuff, we got this
I hope this helps more people understand that OCD is different from "needing to be organized". OCD is seriously miserable, it's hard hearing people giggle and say "im so ocd" about wanting things in thier place. Thanks for the honesty, Charlie 😍
takeimotion Popular culture often confuses OCPD with OCD, the former of which has more to do with an unhealthy level of perfectionism and self-imposed order.
i have ocd adhd dislexia and asburgers people always make jokes like that especialy ocd people always for some reason say ohh its my ocd and act like they have it i went to my local shop every day and got a letus sandwich and a can of sprite even do i hate letus and i hate sprite but because of my ocd i feel angry upset and tense if i dont get it some one in my class said he had dislexia and that it was like he kneww the word and the speling but couldent wright them wen its no like right know im looking at what i wrote and the red lines and i dont even know how to spell them right
I have OCD pretty fucking bad and I don't mind jokes about it or situations like that. I understand what the person is trying to communicate when they say stuff like "I'm so OCD". It's just a harmless connotation in my opinion.
Thank you. I suffer OCD. My biggest pet peeve is when someone says something like "I'm so OCD, when books aren't straight I need to straighten them" or some shit like that. When I saw the title I thought it would be about that, but it's not. Thanks for spreading the word about OCD, and I love your videos, they are so funny.
It's from a video of the one and only Battlefield Bad Company 2, from his early youtube years, where he crashes a chopper full of c4 into the objective.
"I narrowed it down to two possibilities, the first being OCD, the second being a faulty wireless router" For such a serious subject you have an uncanny ability to make my sides enter fucking orbit regardless
@@smoothbrained4channer976 its just... Something isnt right when we dont do certain things, but we cant figure out why things isnt right, yes we can consiously say "Hey, nobody is forcing me to do this, i can just stop !" and it sometimes work for me, but only for a short period of time, even minutes, i will eventually enter my "Rituals" continously, and again you cant just figure out "why should" you need to do that, all you can think bout is "You need to do this, period" and thats just really destructive for your mind and physique
@@smoothbrained4channer976 and as for why some humans do this is.. No idea, the brain just do its own thing in its own ways most people consider abnormal but thats just the way it is and it needs to be treated to be not the way it is
Glad you're reaching out about this. I have OCD which thankfully got better over the years but it really is an internal struggle. I felt regret like Cr1tikal on keeping it a secret for so long. I'll say Cr1t's advice on taking it in smaller steps REALLY helps. If you think or know you have OCD please talk to literally anyone about it, it helps way more than you think.
I have Pure-O OCD, and it’s been extremely difficult over the past couple of years. there are good and bad days or sometime weeks. I definitely cherish the good days more now.
@@cindyg.2418 I have it too, and my obsessions are sometimes about normal thoughts so it was really hard to figure out the problem, because of the absence of ticks. It has been hard especially now because of the coronavirus but it's getting better! My heart goes out to all sufferers, we are better than the OCD :)
My brother had pretty severe OCD like you in his teen years. Never really understood when i'd watch him go back and pick up and put down the object he was holding 5 times, given I was young. Sort of forgot about it until now, this actually gave me a pretty good idea of what it could be like, and it does sound pretty horrible, glad my brother and you both managed to break out of it.
I keep coming back to this video whenever I feel like I'm slipping and losing control over my own OCD patterns. It's actually quite helpful and calming knowing that this nasty mental condition can be conquered.
@@Kudo005 I'm actually doing way better than before, mate. Thank you for asking. I went through therapy myself but stopped when I got drugs prescribed to me. I'm now more focused on the now and trying to stay occupied with my hobbies/passions as much as I can. I won't tell you that I'm completely "cured" as, when stress occurs, I still get these... "itches." However, I do feel like I have a decent understanding of the situation and am self-aware enough to know when it kicks in. Suffice to say, I've got it down to a level where it's not controlling my life anymore. Don't get me wrong, it's still very present, but you learn to live with it and start to see it more like a part of yourself. If you ever feel the need to talk to someone who's been where you are right now, don't hesitate! I'm always down to just talk about these things as I know how isolating it can feel.
That's great to hear that you're doing much better now. I wish you the best 🙏 and thank you so much! You know for years, I assumed that basically nobody else had these things happening in their mind. I mean, I knew some people had ocd but I wasn't even sure if that's truly what I had. Because I told myself to never research about it because inevitably there's gonna be some conflicting information on how to deal with it or I might misdiagnose myself etc. and I was afraid I'd obsess over that. Which is exactly what happened a couple months ago. Used to be religious/harm OCD/ Pure-o. It still is Harm and Pure-o but now it's got an added component of worrying that everything is a compulsion. There's many times when I do something that makes me happy but once I feel happy, my ocd tells me it must be a compulsion and so I go back to being anxious. For the past 2 years up until a couple months ago, I was generally low stress and usually happy. But now it's almost just as bad in some ways as it was when it first flared up in 2020. Er, I shouldn't say first flared up, since I had a mild flare of it in 4-6 grade. Sorry for the long post 😆 But yeah I wish you the best and thanks for being there if I need someone to talk to. You're too kind!
Trusst me, it can always be f-n worse. My brother has OCD to the degree he is 100% non-functional, he is actually on full disability insurance because of it. When he wants to leave his apartment it takes him about 4 hours of rituals before he can step out of the door. And of course, if he messes up at some point he has to start over again. His OCD revolves around glass: somehow glass is extremely dangerous and needs to be avoided at all costs., Also, glass, according to him, can get crushed into such microscopically small particles that they get "airborne", thus if a glass has broken on a spot that spot is forever off limits since the airborne residue can linger forever. The worst of all his fears are about glass wool insulation material, which is unfortunately, at least here, extremely common. This has significant implications for him: He can't drill a hole or drive a nail into a wall of his apartment since that might cause some of that material to leak out and contaminate everything. Unfortunately, one of the things he would need to do exactly that to mount are lights, which means that the only two light sources in his apartment are the fixed sources in his bathroom mirror and over his stove. Certain places can also be permanently contaminated by the presence of the wrong person; if he sees a carpenter in working clothes in a supermarket he never goes there again. Unfortunately he is now down to just two supermarkets left in the city he lives in, don't know what happens when those go away. It's not always as obvious as a carpenter of course, sometimes it's enough that he sees something that triggers him, like someone wearing a yellow woolen jumper which may, with enough imagination look like the nefarious insulation material. It works outdoors as well, meaning he has to avoid certain places when walking or riding his bike. This unfortunately means that it takes him an hour longer than necessary to get to the activity center where he's supposed to be during daytime. Last year he moved to a new apartment, a really nice one which he payed a pretty penny for. He brought nothing from his old place, buying all new furniture, new computer, new TV, new dinner plates, the lot. After living there for 7 weeks the fire alarm in the house got triggered and everyone was forced to evacuate. The fire department had to enter a few of the apartments to find the source of smoke, which turned out to be a ventilation fan that was malfunctioning. One of the apartments the entered was his, and they had removed a small inspection hatch into the crawl space above his place. Of course, insulation material might have been up there; he never slept another night in that apartment, got a new one, threw everything away and bough everything again.. The saddest part is of course that he's a really nice, smart and even kinda good looking guy, who is deteriorating fast into having to be institutionalized, his entire life destroyed by OCD. So while yea, OCD might be fun at times it's actually a punishment from hell which no one should have to endure. Sorry for the rant!
Damn man, that sounds terrible. I can't imagine having to live life that way, and I feel terrible for your brother. I really hope that through some miracle he can manage to kick his OCD and live a more normal life. Nobody should have to live life like he does.
Oh, yeah, I've heard of people who couldn't handle knives, could barely get out of bed, because they're so afraid they're going to stab their entire family. Or they spend hours every day making sure there aren't any poisons in their food and drinks, look for contamination everywhere. I heard about one guy who washed his hands so much that he could lather up just by running water over them-- they were so chapped that soap got in his cracked skin. A friend of mine in college, before I knew her, was so obsessed with the idea of pleasing God that she gave away almost all her clothes (because other people didn't have clothes) and ate so little that she started losing hair (because other people didn't have food). In those cases, the fear of what's going to happen, of hurting someone else, or of doing something wrong out-weighs any logic. People with OCD do generally understand that it makes no sense. The anxiety at not performing the compulsion is just much worse than the compulsion itself. The main point is, compulsions help you avoid anxiety. But when you don't process those anxieties, they just keep coming back, stronger, so it's a self-perpetuating cycle. The anxiety is based on chemical imbalances in the brain. You can change brain structure to a certain extent through behavioral therapy (sounds like you did your own behavioral therapy here), In this case, it'd be like, you couldn't sleep at all, because you had to hear and pay perfect attention to the entire movie before falling asleep. Or you had to watch the same porno for hours and hours on end, because you had to get your facial expressions exactly perfect, or it didn't count. And just going back to the parts where you make the faces would be cheating. You'd have this overwhelming feeling that something terrible would happen if you didn't do the rituals exactly right. In severe cases, while therapy helps, too, medication is usually needed to really help get anxiety and rituals down to a minimum. And even then, it usually never completely goes away.
Holy shit... I can't imagine how you feel seeing him like this... but you know it's never too late, take him to a doctor, talk to him. I think it's obvious that you did those things and I would insult you if I thought you hadn't already tried to help... but you have to keep trying
Hakajin thanks for explaining ocd in a way I could actually understand it, for a good while I thought it was just like extreme habits that were hard to break. Guess not
Hakajin I know this is kind of old but "I heard about one guy who washed his hands so much that he could lather up just by running water over them-- they were so chapped that soap got in his cracked skin." is so relatable. I washed my hands so much that just rinsing them with water and rubbing would cause them to lather. I switched to a different soap because of it, which doesn't do that. Every winter my skin is cracked and dry because of a combination of the scrubbing and the dry(ish) air.
You basically deduced how cognitive behavioral therapy works and implemented it on your own. No small feat for someone young. I went the drugs route, and am basically 99% under control. I probably used most of my life's allotted luck on that.
Im currently going through CBT for anxiety and it's working wonders. but man, is it hard. I have huge respect for Charlie for initiating this and being successful on his own without medication.
I have severe OCD and didn't know until this past winter. I've been watching you for years and didn't know you had it too. It means so much that someone I look up to and watch all the time understands the struggle :)
my OCD came from negative ways to cope with my flashbacks from PTSD. for years these weird habits of locking the door 3 times whenever i leave or enter the house, checking all windows and doors to make sure they're sealed correctly, opening and closing the fridge and freezer, turning the oven on and off, every movement i made every action i took had to be in 3's, I'm a LOT better than i used to be, but this really hit home to me since I've been struggling with my new job at a fast food restaurant. The fast pace is challenging when i have to count my steps and words to make sure its divisible by 3... Idk where Im going with this, just thanks for making me feel not so alone? If you can get through it then so can I
Is you conquering your OCD why you stopped titling your videos, "X gameplay and commentary," and ending your videos with, "remember to like, rate and comment the video and subscribe if you want to see videos similar to this one. See ya"?
To this day, this video was probably the most helpful, comforting thing that I ever came across as a person that suffers from severe OCD. To find out that my hero Charlie suffered from it to and beat it, was the best fuel I could have ever gotten for beating my own OCD. Anyone reading this should know, you can beat it, and you are not alone.
I have severe OCD to, and the weird thing is is I don't want to get rid of it because I've had it my whole life, so it would feel really weird not having OCD, but all power to you if you wanna get rid of it, but it's gonna feel weird
@@Circaninesix true, except the problem is is with my "symptoms" (or whatever it's called) is that it's less like normal OCD, and more like the annoying OCD with rituals and weird thoughts and stuff like that
@@memeologyman9576 Same bro, I hate that people think OCD is just being extra neat. I used to have a lot of germaphobia going on for a long time but I'm doing better than ever after finally getting on some meds.
The whole "It's normal, I'm sure everyone else at this age is also going through it" thing is such a lie. Professional help can help you significantly, specially when you're really young. Wish I'd known that back when I was younger...
@@Lemon_squee The only times I've been able to completely overcome my social anxiety and OCD is the few times I've taken psychedelics. It made me realize that most people feel that way. Not feel high of course, but I mean they have the ability to be around others without extreme fear. It boggles my mind that it's a possibility, like it's legitimately hard to fathom. I hope one day I can feel that way sober and on a regular basis. I really need to bite the bullet and seek professional help.
I have a lot of respect for you for sharing this, it's not something that's easy to talk about for most people, especially with how harsh the RUclips community can be.
You’ve helped me a lot Charlie, I was diagnosed with ocd a few months ago and you have given me a lot of faith today I really opened up about my obserd rituals that I do every day that causes me so much anxiety and I am now on meds and going to therapy, it has helped alot. But knowing someone as great and successful as you comforts me alot with my problems. Thanks so much Charles
In defense of not wanting to change your YT picture, I'm pretty sure most of your fans would also find it wrong to have it changed. So it would be for the better if you kept that profile picture forever.
I have to sleep a certain way, but I cant start in that position, I have to start facing the other way, and after awhile switch to the proper way. can't sleep if I don't.
you do realize that there are varying intensities of the disorder right? It's possible to have minor signs of OCD without having 100+ rituals that you do every day. And some times it's difficult to truly diagnose without professional help due to the fact that humans are naturally habitual. No reason to jump down his throat.
i have ocd intrusive thoughts and repetition based compulsions, thanks for making this video man - its great to hear that youve managed to cope and recover. stay moist
I eat foods in a pattern, it's left left right left, right right left right, right right left right, left left right left, and left right, then I repeat. Or if it's a food like meat or something bigger than chips, I chew left right left right left right and I ALWAYS have to have the final bite before I swallow on the right side of my mouth. Even with RUclips, when I watch a video I have to tap the screen three times on the top and bottom, two times on the top and bottom, and once in the center when I start the video, pause it, or play it. I also am very compulsive about how things are placed, they have to be placed symmetrically or else. Even when I was a kid, I had to draw a picture of Tanooki Mario from Mario 3 whenever an opportunity presented itself, I wouldn't feel right if I didn't. Is that OCD or is it just habits? I have a lot more having to do with patterns, but it's simply too much.
As someone who does have OCD, that sounds a lot like it. One of my own compulsions include having to look at the top right corner of a brightly colored object every time I swallow a piece of food. Another one includes me having to slide my hand across an object (like a phone or a doorknob) and then tap it twice in quick succession when I'm done using it. A big underlying factor in determining if something's either a regular habit or OCD is the anxiety stemming from not doing the compulsion in question. People with OCD (myself included) usually get large pangs of anxiety if they fail a certain compulsion.
Oh, alright, thank you guys. It's funny because when I'm at school sometimes my friend will show me a picture of a candy jar full of blue candies and there is one yellow candy mixed in with it, or something like that. It makes them laugh so I just roll with it, it still bothers me like crazy though. Bye. :)
That is definitely OCD, yeah. A habit is something you do so often you get used to it, but it's usually something practical. Like, I have a habit of constantly checking my e-mail and certain websites almost everytime I have a second to spare. I wouldn't call it ocd, maybe it is but very minor, I just like seeing if there's any new e-mails or facebook messages because notifications piss me off. Actually now that I think about it, I think that IS compulsive obsessive behaviour. Well shit. I guess in a way every habit is like a tiny bit of ocd. Like, someoen that brushes their teeth literally every day feel weird when they don't. Now, that's a good habit to have, but it's still compulsive obsessive behavior technically. It's really about when it becomes an issue. Opening the websites isn't an issue for me because if I'm at work or busy with something I can control myself.It doesn't make me miserable, and if eating foods in a pattern doesn't make you miserable then it's ok. It's probably good for your health because I guess it makes sure you chew properly lol. I'd be worried about it if there were things you literally couldn't do without doing something else first, in which case the ocd would be disrupting your day-to-day life and nobody really wants that. Do you understand what I mean? I'm not sure if I'm being very clear.
Idk if im OCD or a Perfectionist, everytime i need to put, draw , do , or even hang a picture frame i always have to make sure its sitting on a straight line, when i make sandwich one side should be lined up perfectly on the other and everytime im at work and about to close the hood (auto technician) i have to actually touch every single one of those caps , dipstick before i close it. It helps me but sometimes it's getting on my nerves.
Thank you for making this video man, it might help some people out there that are in the midst of suffering. I also have OCD and have been dealing with it much, MUCH better these days. I used to have extremely distressing and anxiety provoking intrusive thoughts and horrible images pop up in my head that I thought I could not control. Now when some of these thoughts come in, they no longer bother me and I hardly notice them anymore. For anyone bothered by their thoughts or mental rituals, just know that these are merely thoughts, they can't harm you and they don't define you. You will get better over time. Exercise, eating healthier and practicing meditation and breathing exercises helps immensely with OCD. Also, if you are addicted to pornography or video games, it perpetuates the OCD even more so a break or reduction in these activities might help you in the long run.
I am grateful that you shared this story, Charlie. Thank you. I am so relieved that others get to hear about all of the ways that OCD can work; education is so crucial for others and the tellers themselves getting help. Plus, you’re hilarious. Keep being you.
I don't know what having OCD is like but I know what compulsive lying disorder feels like. It's not even a proper disorder according to doctors, but it was really messing my life up because lying wasn't just a habit. It was like it was my life. My girlfriend helped me a lot and got rid of my subconscious lying after 6 years of being with me and always asking me to be honest with her. We had this weird habit where if I ever say anything big or tell a story, she would ask "okay and now the truthful version?" and I told her the truth without twisting the story or anything. Anyways, sorry for rambling and thank you if you read this far.
I've still got an embarrassing one where I have to take off all my clothes before I take a shit, so I never use public toilets when I have to go. I have aspergers and bipolar though so my compulsions are generally a smaller part of a different problem.
I remember I had to do that until I was 14. I don't even remember when it started, but I had to do it every time. It was terrible in public when I had those shits I couldn't hold. Just walked into a stall and prayed that no one notices
I still do that mate. Sometimes I compromise slightly, but most of the times I just hold it for 6 long hours before I get home to do the deed. It just doesn't feel right when I go #2 with a shirt on.
Thank you SO much for this! You have no idea how much this helps people who are too proud, ashamed, or afraid to get help. We're so used to everyone telling us the same blanket response "Just get help." You actually gave ideas to do it on your own if you're in that anxious, scared, ashamed, or proud place.
I have OCD. Its really frustrating and annoying to continuously do something over and over or a specific thing just cause it "doesn't feel right". How i managed to suppress the urges is by just accepting it and telling myself nothing will change if i just do something once. I get small urges here and there like turning the stove on and off like 10 times, repeating words over and over, or continuously touching something till it feels right but its a lot better then when i was a kid. Also other ppls opinions of me really made it worse so once i accepted it and told others they really didn't care and didn't see me differently which helped a lot weirdest thing I've done is masturbating in a certain beat... 1 2, 1, 1 2, 1,.... and so on. lol Anyone else with OCD have any strange things they've done?
I kind of have the problem that critical has with his profile picture. Whenever something changes like when I clean my room, I feel some sort of discomfort or anxiety. I don't have many other problems besides that.
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Kidding though, i have germaphobe issues, i see a psychiatrist. She calls it obsessive compulsions but she has not mention it being a disorder. Ohh and yeah i shaved my head twice because someone touched my hair.
I do things similar to you, but usually my compulsiveness happens right before I go to bed. I have a routine that I do in a certain order and it really takes up time for me. Before bed I check the front door repeatedly to make sure it's locked (I'll often stare at the doorknob for a minute or two - my eyes see that it's locked but it's like my brain doesn't believe it). I look into my closet every night, and usually I'll stare into it for 5 to 10 minutes (the closet is the hardest thing for me to pull away from). I used to touch the stove and inside the oven to be completely sure that it's off, but I've luckily stopped doing that. That's not everything I do, but it's the most important ones to me.
I feel your pain, man. There was this one time when I was thirteen when I got really, really obsessed with Lego Pirate junk. And I had a favorite minifigure, a pirate captain, that I really treasured. Unfortunately I got a little TOO interested in that figure, and started to want every copy of him to look exactly like each-other. Don't ask me why, I just did. I would spend like, half an hour of a day just scrutinizing every detail of every minifigure like that I saw, trying to make sure every tiny detail was perfect. That the paint was just the right shade of green, that the color its peg-leg was was the exact brown every time, hell, I even had a minor panic attack for several days when I discovered the molding on one of its epaulettes was slightly off in a magazine. I had several other obsessions that followed that one, each one just as insane, if not more so. It was only later in my life that I finally realized I had OCD. xD
The thing about being good at hiding it is true. Often times our obsessions/ compulsions are gross and really embarrassing or disgusting, which is why nobody talks about really gross thoughts.
Thank you for sharing your story about your ocd. a lot of people have this misconception about mental health and disorders and hearing it from someone they enjoy content from probably helps to educate a lot.
I'm glad things worked out for you, bro. I apparently got diagnosed with OCD in 8th grade but shit didn't hit the fan until 9th. My OCD was extremely visible because it's contamination based, so my hands were always cracked and dry from washing them too much. When I went to the hospital they told me I had first degree burns on my face, arms, hands, and stomach because of it all. By the time I went to inpatient in early 2018 I was just so tired of everything. Good on you for figuring out how to do CBT! I went to a residential facility 2 and 1/2 months after getting out of inpatient, but I also practiced CBT with a psychologist I saw after inpatient, and also by myself. I'm doing better on a combination of meds and therapy, though with the pandemic it has been harder to see one, I mostly rely on the meds now. I'm just glad that time of my life is over and I can recognize the signs and practice CBT myself if it ever gets worse again. OCD is awful and I hope one day we can get rid of the stereotypes surrounding it.
I don't have ocd in particular but rather other mental illnesses that drive me to have my own little rituals and make everything harder for me in general. I haven't gotten help or told anybody I knew out of fear and I don't think I ever will but I think I'll try tackling it in little steps now too!! I'm hoping I can improve even a little to make myself more comfortable with changes. I've been struggling with mental illness for a long time now and not knowing what to do to make it manageable despite the advice friends and professionals give but I feel I can trust you even if we don't know eachother personally (that's a big reason I love your channel too; you come off as friendly and understanding and genuine) but thank you for motivating and inspiring me to try and overcome my illnesses!! you've helped me and many others and I really appreciate it! make sure to take care of yourself too!!!
shit, man. thank you so much for speaking out. i dont think i can even begin to comprehend how much work youve put into dealing with ocd so .. just. mad respect for you, bro. youve come a long way, thats definitely something to take pride in. seriously. it means so much to me that people are coming forward and talking about their illnesses. after suffering alone for 8 years of depression/ptsd/anxiety/whatever the fuck i still havent been diagnosed with, its comforting to see that having a mental illness doesnt mean one cant achieve great things in life. thank you.
Oh wow, this amazes me! I've had OCD since i was a kid, and it took years to get it under control, and that was with therapy! your way of thinking and tackling it is extremely brilliant, and i'm so glad you've shared it. and for the record, medication isn't really seen as a treatment for ocd. it can ease some anxiety MAYBE, but what is most successful is cognitive-behavioural therapy. i want to mention that to anyone else who have the same fears you did. you don't have to take anything you don't want to, and you can express all these concerns to the therapist. but that aside, you're one amazing guy, i gotta say.
Wow. I had no idea about this video and I can't express how happy I am to have found it. Your story is, for the most part, the same as mine. I've been dealing with OCD since I was a kid but it didn't really start getting bad until i was around 12 as well. My OCD is more focused on obsessive, disturbing and unwanted thoughts. I struggle with it to this day and it takes a lot of energy out of me. It affects how I interact with others and how I act throughout my daily life. This shit is really tough but knowing that one of my favorite RUclipsrs has been through the same and is still such a positive impact for others is amazing. Thank you, Charlie. It's great to know I'm not alone in this battle
Oh man, I'm so proud of you for being able to overcome that as much as you have. That's a big thing to take on and more-or-less beat. Hopefully this video can help others get their lives back as well. Thank you for making it.
Truly incredible. As someone who's studied Psychology for 3 years I find it inspirational you were able to develop coping methods and almost completely eliminate such a serious disorder especially without medication or therapy.
SO RELATABLE. I had to go thru this exact practice of getting rid of it. Nobody knew about my OCD at my school until one of my friend girls noticed I wouldn't stop fixing stuff and Cleaning everything. She was like what are you doing? Some of the rituals I had to fallow every time while walking was I could NEVER step on a line in the ground or a crack, or making sure only stepping three times per concrete section of tapping the walls of wherever I was at least three times. Mine wasn't as severe as yours was but I can understand the trouble and pain. Im in sixth grade and I'm still trying to dismiss it or break the rituals. This is nothing close to easy to Do. I'm happy to know that one of my favorite comedic RUclips genius are in a way similar to me.
I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 6 and I’ve always had my family’s help. I could never even imagine trying to deal with it myself. You’re the real OG my guy 👏🏻👏🏻
As someone who is currently being ass blasted by SEVERE OCD. I can’t begin to explain my thoughts and decisions. My OCD has ruined my life completely. I feel crippled. It’s nice to now one of my favorite entertainers can relate
I relate to you a lot man. Over time you'll learn to live with it. It feels impossible rn, but mark my words, in a few years you'll learn to rise above the discomfort and depression.
idk about the opiates but ive had anxiety at 16 and 17, sooo what i did was not drink ANY drinks with caffeine or excess sugar and started eating a lot of food with iron, and took little naps through out the day, or just sleep more hours
Dude thank you so much. My OCD triggered around the same age at 12 when my grandfather passed away. My rituals consisted of things that took 10 hours each day and I missed most of school and work because of it and my bosses acted like I should be fine because on the outside it looked that way. and I went to therapy because of it. Your videos in general help out with that and this video lets me know that I’m not the only one. Unfortunately it’s chronic ocd and I struggle still on a daily basis but this video definitely helps more than you know. Thanks bro
Thanks for sharing that with us. I have the same embarrassment issue at times with my anxiety and panic attacks: I don't like other people seeing how my anxiety affects me, and panic attacks are the worst cause I feel completely out of control. I'm certainly better at managing my anxiety now than I was when I was younger, and asking for help was a big part of getting better. I'm glad you were able to break your OCD routines!
thank you so much for this video, charlie. i also have OCD and as you know, it sucks. it makes life harder and sometimes i just wanna die so i dont have to deal with this shit anymore. but knowing you also have OCD and youre managing it makes me hope that one day like..... i can get to that level. and its encouraging. so. thanks
Thanks for sharing, I imagine it took a lot more courage than many people would think. I too grew up with OCD, but I took the counselling route and I can confirm that it really is great. If nothing else, it's just nice to know that other people are going through the same shit and there are ways to help because at first it's so confusing and worrying. People really underestimate how awful of a condition it is, it genuinely consumes every waking moment. Like you, I'm over it now thankfully, with little remnants here and there. Glad to learn you beat it too!
I’ve had ocd pretty much my entire life and started taking medication for it around 5 years ago and it’s helped exponentially I’m still undergoing treatment but I’m getting better
I was born with, and continue to have OCD and ADHD to this very day, and after a while you start to control it if you set your mind to it. You start by breaking certain patterns and working through the ensuing panic, and slowly dial down the obsessions and episodes and rituals into manageable sized things. But having both I am sure they cancelled each other out to a certain extent, especially as many counting rituals I lost due to my ADHD ability to focus on counting. And my family did help, but honestly most people with it usually learn to control it over time.
Not to put anyone who is still suffering with it or the seriousness of the disorder. For those who are still dealing with it, keep at it. It can be controlled.
You can't be born with either one of those two things. It's always mixture of genetic disposition, education of you parents and family, social life etc. You certainly cannot be born with ocd, that makes no sense at all.
+Jonathan Graber they could just mean that they had OCD from an early age, as in as long as they could rember? saying since they where born probably an easier way yo say it.
It's nice to hear someone you look up to talk about something you have too. I have ocd and even if I don't really relate too much since I mostly struggle with intrusive thoughts and not rituals, it makes me feel...idk normal? Nice? It feels good to air out the dirty laundry, I guess. Thanks man
i'm glad you're better now dude. thank you for this video, it was insightful AND funny. i struggled a lot with ocd back in middle and high school, and i still have some rituals, but they do not interfere with my life nearly as much anymore. you're right, it really is all about the tiny changes to routine.
Thank you for posting this, Charlie. I have Aspergers and a part of having this means I have some form of ocd (I have a lot of bizarre rituals, like you said you had). While I am on medication, and have been on them for probably over 10 years now (I turned 18 in April), after this Friday (my last exam) I'm going to begin lowering the dosage, and begin to ease myself off of them. I know I can't go cold turkey, especially since I forgot to take them once about two weeks ago and while I was fine on that day, the next day I suffered from some withdrawal which was no fun at all. I struggle to move away from my own routines, and I think I'll definitely try the methods you used as I trust that they have worked. So once again, thank you.
Thank you Charlie. It does help a lot. I'm medicated, but it doesn't help all the way, and hearing your stories might help me with some of my compulsions
really appreciate you talking about this. been struggling with tourettic ocd for a long time (with medication and a therapist lol). you basically did what a therapist would tell you to do, and it’s actually insane. got a lot more strength and willpower than i.
I have major ocd and I really understand what Charlie means when he talks about how bad it was in his teenage years. I remember it being it’s worst at 11-14. no one had a clue I had ocd including myself. I was very good at hiding it. I tried to tell my parents multiple times but I didn’t know how to explain it to them or how to get them to understand how much it was affecting me. I was too embarrassed to tell them the actual rituals because I knew they made no sense.
Pogchamp, thanks for talking about this, it’s nice to see someone talking about OCD, this is years old but it’s comforting to see people talking about this in a serious manor
it fascinates me that he can talk about such a serious subject and still use words like "assblasted"
There's never a wrong time to say "assblasted."
grose zero stay noided brother
holy fuck youre here
That's TWO words
grose zero you must not know much about Charlie
"I'm not miserable because of it anymore, now i'm just miserable in general"
me irl
i think he said "or miserable in general"
Anal Vacuum I think it said or just miserable in general, but that's funny.
im your 1,800th liker!
@@cheesecakegamer2543 congrats
It’s funny how I always read these type of comments right when they’re saying it in the videos 😂
So, when is the Moist Meter for National Treasure?
I searched that right after I heard it. disappointed...
Cr1tikal finally got over his profile pic problem. Proud of you man
what was his profile picture before
@@romans4452 It was like a fish tank and he had it for years. I was shocked when he changed it to Beef Testosterone.
@@milesedgeworth132 no it wasnt, it was a screenshot of a black hawk from battlefield
You know its serious when the description doesn't say "This is the greatest _____ of all time"
of All Time*
I have to wonder if that was just a running joke or of that's some remnant of his OCD that every video has that description
+Mr. Stebb that's true
that sentence is triggering me right now, i got a bit of ocd
funny cause i just got his greatest shirt of all time in the mail today
"Jigsaw puzzle of anus." This shit was very honest and hilarious. Thanks for sharing man.
GG then
Never knew you watch cr1tkal.Good to know I enjoy your content
Where are you
@@cheercheese4388 he was busy going fast
this is fascinating, thanks for sharing man
fancy seeing you here
kandyrew oh dang its that kandy guy
Wtf you everywhere man.
There are 666 likes
"Despite being held hostage to Nicholas Cage's acting for two years."
The truth reveals itself, and he is but the messenger.
Ok
Is this why you tried to throw a lighter into a shot glass for 2 hours?
Link?
+Diana, the Inorganic Vegan
it was on Snapchat
It was on snapchat
+Diana, the Inorganic Vegan it was on his snapchcat history
lol i saw that shit that was funny
As a professional who works in Mental Health, I thoroughly appreciate this video and admire the willpower you have, Cr1tikal. You basically almost practiced CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy - used to tune down and deconstruct OCD behaviours) on yourself, which is NOT an easy feat. What I would add & suggest for anyone experiencing distress, discomfort and/or anxiety with similar thoughts/rituals/obsessions like these is to seek professional help, because not everyone can have that kind of insight. Professional help DOES NOT ALWAYS include medication, so do not be afraid!
We (psychologists/therapists/counsellors) are here to help you; and thank you Cr1tikal for being here to help fight the taboo and stigma associated with it!
Peace,
A long time fan & follower.
pexpix I know this is two years late, but you can’t call it CBT anymore
Trogel 138 Just curious- what would it be called now?
Trogel 138 damn it, you got me 😂😂
Inspiring. Facts. Helpful. Thanks bri
pexpix all this and you don’t know how to spell counselor
Theory: He broke another OCD thing by making the description different.
I saw that too. How poetic.
This is the greatest OCD self-healing of All Time
As someone who's currently going through OCD treatment bullshit, this is actually really comforting. Thanks dude
yeah you're gonna be ok!! I worked through a lot of mine undiagnosed and I'm now working through treatment bullshit to get rid of the residual stuff, we got this
emiiyd 100th like
You are weird Fuckers 😂😂😂😂😂😂
Gun Nut which person are you replying to
@@zstruckdownz7272 "lol you weirdos, stop being mentally ill"
I hope this helps more people understand that OCD is different from "needing to be organized".
OCD is seriously miserable, it's hard hearing people giggle and say "im so ocd" about wanting things in thier place. Thanks for the honesty, Charlie 😍
takeimotion Popular culture often confuses OCPD with OCD, the former of which has more to do with an unhealthy level of perfectionism and self-imposed order.
i have ocd adhd dislexia and asburgers people always make jokes like that especialy ocd people always for some reason say ohh its my ocd and act like they have it i went to my local shop every day and got a letus sandwich and a can of sprite even do i hate letus and i hate sprite but because of my ocd i feel angry upset and tense if i dont get it some one in my class said he had dislexia and that it was like he kneww the word and the speling but couldent wright them wen its no like right know im looking at what i wrote and the red lines and i dont even know how to spell them right
I have OCD pretty fucking bad and I don't mind jokes about it or situations like that. I understand what the person is trying to communicate when they say stuff like "I'm so OCD". It's just a harmless connotation in my opinion.
@@moviedude9945 I need to watch it, but I'm scared that if I watch the movie I'll adopt some of the compulsions as my own.
@@wedoliveinasocietydowenot I developed OCD this very year and I watched that movie before that, thank god I did that.
you're a great human being
also i love your profile picture for some reason lmao
+Purple Skurp i dont even know what it is 😂
austen lockhart i always thought it was someone aiming down sights at the camera but another comment said it was a helicopter
It's a blurry screenshot of a helicopter from Battlefield 2, I think
More specifically, Bad Company 2.
National .. Fucking.. Treasure..
this man has been through hell every night for 2 fucking years
Oh, come on. It's not that bad. I even liked it as a kid.
Yea I liked it too
Mine is ghostbusters 2
Look on the bright side, at least is wasn't the second movie.
Thank you. I suffer OCD. My biggest pet peeve is when someone says something like "I'm so OCD, when books aren't straight I need to straighten them" or some shit like that. When I saw the title I thought it would be about that, but it's not. Thanks for spreading the word about OCD, and I love your videos, they are so funny.
Did you recover
@@fuckk-popandtiktok3388did you recover
Dude change your icon one pixel at a time.
What even is his icon?
It's a screenshot of GTA V
This is a great suggestion
But at random days, you don't want to make changing pixels on your profile a ritual
It's from a video of the one and only Battlefield Bad Company 2, from his early youtube years, where he crashes a chopper full of c4 into the objective.
"I narrowed it down to two possibilities, the first being OCD, the second being a faulty wireless router"
For such a serious subject you have an uncanny ability to make my sides enter fucking orbit regardless
OCD is torture and I would not wish it upon my WORST enemy. It’s mentally draining and it has made me hate myself.
Same
i dont understand how you cant just stop doing OCD rituals and stuff...? its not like someones holding you hostage.
@@smoothbrained4channer976 it's a mental disorder dude, the human brain isn't a logical thing
@@smoothbrained4channer976 its just... Something isnt right when we dont do certain things, but we cant figure out why things isnt right, yes we can consiously say "Hey, nobody is forcing me to do this, i can just stop !" and it sometimes work for me, but only for a short period of time, even minutes, i will eventually enter my "Rituals" continously, and again you cant just figure out "why should" you need to do that, all you can think bout is "You need to do this, period" and thats just really destructive for your mind and physique
@@smoothbrained4channer976 and as for why some humans do this is.. No idea, the brain just do its own thing in its own ways most people consider abnormal but thats just the way it is and it needs to be treated to be not the way it is
Glad you're reaching out about this. I have OCD which thankfully got better over the years but it really is an internal struggle.
I felt regret like Cr1tikal on keeping it a secret for so long. I'll say Cr1t's advice on taking it in smaller steps REALLY helps.
If you think or know you have OCD please talk to literally anyone about it, it helps way more than you think.
oh damn eddy
Me too, medicine basically wiped out the OCD however, which was relieving af!
I have Pure-O OCD, and it’s been extremely difficult over the past couple of years. there are good and bad days or sometime weeks. I definitely cherish the good days more now.
@@cindyg.2418 I have it too, and my obsessions are sometimes about normal thoughts so it was really hard to figure out the problem, because of the absence of ticks. It has been hard especially now because of the coronavirus but it's getting better! My heart goes out to all sufferers, we are better than the OCD :)
My brother had pretty severe OCD like you in his teen years. Never really understood when i'd watch him go back and pick up and put down the object he was holding 5 times, given I was young.
Sort of forgot about it until now, this actually gave me a pretty good idea of what it could be like, and it does sound pretty horrible, glad my brother and you both managed to break out of it.
Of all movies, National Treasure. You poor soul.
@nick gurr I haven't watched YOU in years
I keep coming back to this video whenever I feel like I'm slipping and losing control over my own OCD patterns.
It's actually quite helpful and calming knowing that this nasty mental condition can be conquered.
My OCD has flared up alot recently. I'm hopefully going to therapy soon tho. I hope you're doing well now mate
@@Kudo005
I'm actually doing way better than before, mate.
Thank you for asking.
I went through therapy myself but stopped when I got drugs prescribed to me.
I'm now more focused on the now and trying to stay occupied with my hobbies/passions as much as I can.
I won't tell you that I'm completely "cured" as, when stress occurs, I still get these... "itches."
However, I do feel like I have a decent understanding of the situation and am self-aware enough to know when it kicks in.
Suffice to say, I've got it down to a level where it's not controlling my life anymore.
Don't get me wrong, it's still very present, but you learn to live with it and start to see it more like a part of yourself.
If you ever feel the need to talk to someone who's been where you are right now, don't hesitate!
I'm always down to just talk about these things as I know how isolating it can feel.
That's great to hear that you're doing much better now. I wish you the best 🙏 and thank you so much! You know for years, I assumed that basically nobody else had these things happening in their mind. I mean, I knew some people had ocd but I wasn't even sure if that's truly what I had. Because I told myself to never research about it because inevitably there's gonna be some conflicting information on how to deal with it or I might misdiagnose myself etc. and I was afraid I'd obsess over that. Which is exactly what happened a couple months ago. Used to be religious/harm OCD/ Pure-o. It still is Harm and Pure-o but now it's got an added component of worrying that everything is a compulsion. There's many times when I do something that makes me happy but once I feel happy, my ocd tells me it must be a compulsion and so I go back to being anxious. For the past 2 years up until a couple months ago, I was generally low stress and usually happy. But now it's almost just as bad in some ways as it was when it first flared up in 2020. Er, I shouldn't say first flared up, since I had a mild flare of it in 4-6 grade. Sorry for the long post 😆 But yeah I wish you the best and thanks for being there if I need someone to talk to. You're too kind!
Trusst me, it can always be f-n worse. My brother has OCD to the degree he is 100% non-functional, he is actually on full disability insurance because of it. When he wants to leave his apartment it takes him about 4 hours of rituals before he can step out of the door. And of course, if he messes up at some point he has to start over again. His OCD revolves around glass: somehow glass is extremely dangerous and needs to be avoided at all costs., Also, glass, according to him, can get crushed into such microscopically small particles that they get "airborne", thus if a glass has broken on a spot that spot is forever off limits since the airborne residue can linger forever.
The worst of all his fears are about glass wool insulation material, which is unfortunately, at least here, extremely common. This has significant implications for him: He can't drill a hole or drive a nail into a wall of his apartment since that might cause some of that material to leak out and contaminate everything. Unfortunately, one of the things he would need to do exactly that to mount are lights, which means that the only two light sources in his apartment are the fixed sources in his bathroom mirror and over his stove.
Certain places can also be permanently contaminated by the presence of the wrong person; if he sees a carpenter in working clothes in a supermarket he never goes there again. Unfortunately he is now down to just two supermarkets left in the city he lives in, don't know what happens when those go away. It's not always as obvious as a carpenter of course, sometimes it's enough that he sees something that triggers him, like someone wearing a yellow woolen jumper which may, with enough imagination look like the nefarious insulation material. It works outdoors as well, meaning he has to avoid certain places when walking or riding his bike. This unfortunately means that it takes him an hour longer than necessary to get to the activity center where he's supposed to be during daytime.
Last year he moved to a new apartment, a really nice one which he payed a pretty penny for. He brought nothing from his old place, buying all new furniture, new computer, new TV, new dinner plates, the lot. After living there for 7 weeks the fire alarm in the house got triggered and everyone was forced to evacuate. The fire department had to enter a few of the apartments to find the source of smoke, which turned out to be a ventilation fan that was malfunctioning. One of the apartments the entered was his, and they had removed a small inspection hatch into the crawl space above his place. Of course, insulation material might have been up there; he never slept another night in that apartment, got a new one, threw everything away and bough everything again..
The saddest part is of course that he's a really nice, smart and even kinda good looking guy, who is deteriorating fast into having to be institutionalized, his entire life destroyed by OCD. So while yea, OCD might be fun at times it's actually a punishment from hell which no one should have to endure.
Sorry for the rant!
Damn man, that sounds terrible. I can't imagine having to live life that way, and I feel terrible for your brother. I really hope that through some miracle he can manage to kick his OCD and live a more normal life. Nobody should have to live life like he does.
Oh, yeah, I've heard of people who couldn't handle knives, could barely get out of bed, because they're so afraid they're going to stab their entire family. Or they spend hours every day making sure there aren't any poisons in their food and drinks, look for contamination everywhere. I heard about one guy who washed his hands so much that he could lather up just by running water over them-- they were so chapped that soap got in his cracked skin. A friend of mine in college, before I knew her, was so obsessed with the idea of pleasing God that she gave away almost all her clothes (because other people didn't have clothes) and ate so little that she started losing hair (because other people didn't have food). In those cases, the fear of what's going to happen, of hurting someone else, or of doing something wrong out-weighs any logic. People with OCD do generally understand that it makes no sense. The anxiety at not performing the compulsion is just much worse than the compulsion itself. The main point is, compulsions help you avoid anxiety. But when you don't process those anxieties, they just keep coming back, stronger, so it's a self-perpetuating cycle. The anxiety is based on chemical imbalances in the brain. You can change brain structure to a certain extent through behavioral therapy (sounds like you did your own behavioral therapy here),
In this case, it'd be like, you couldn't sleep at all, because you had to hear and pay perfect attention to the entire movie before falling asleep. Or you had to watch the same porno for hours and hours on end, because you had to get your facial expressions exactly perfect, or it didn't count. And just going back to the parts where you make the faces would be cheating. You'd have this overwhelming feeling that something terrible would happen if you didn't do the rituals exactly right. In severe cases, while therapy helps, too, medication is usually needed to really help get anxiety and rituals down to a minimum. And even then, it usually never completely goes away.
Holy shit... I can't imagine how you feel seeing him like this... but you know it's never too late, take him to a doctor, talk to him. I think it's obvious that you did those things and I would insult you if I thought you hadn't already tried to help... but you have to keep trying
Hakajin thanks for explaining ocd in a way I could actually understand it, for a good while I thought it was just like extreme habits that were hard to break. Guess not
Hakajin I know this is kind of old but "I heard about one guy who washed his hands so much that he could lather up just by running water over them-- they were so chapped that soap got in his cracked skin." is so relatable. I washed my hands so much that just rinsing them with water and rubbing would cause them to lather. I switched to a different soap because of it, which doesn't do that. Every winter my skin is cracked and dry because of a combination of the scrubbing and the dry(ish) air.
god forbid you get a PO Box... you'll be drowning in National Treasure...
A national treasure... of National Treasures, if you will.
Really awesome of you to do this video :D
Also holy crap, the comments section is a memefest. Never really read the comments before.
Yeah, even the best youtubers have terrible comment sections.
You basically deduced how cognitive behavioral therapy works and implemented it on your own. No small feat for someone young.
I went the drugs route, and am basically 99% under control. I probably used most of my life's allotted luck on that.
Im currently going through CBT for anxiety and it's working wonders. but man, is it hard. I have huge respect for Charlie for initiating this and being successful on his own without medication.
I too often perform CBT
@@tangytim6699cock and ball torture
cbt is pretty harmful for ocd. Erp is better
I have severe OCD and didn't know until this past winter. I've been watching you for years and didn't know you had it too. It means so much that someone I look up to and watch all the time understands the struggle :)
I'd rather have OCD than CoD
***** 21 fam take a joke
+Aaron Cassidy think you got that backward bud
Funny how you get called a kid for everything you say on the internet and the most people who do call you a kid are the kids themselves XD
+Aaron Cassidy 12 year old spotted. He's calling people 10 again
+Kris Warner CoD is Call of Duty.
this is very admirable of you. it's not easy to talk about shit like this
you seen some of the other stuff he has talked about?
@@gangstasteve5753 I've watched his videos for years prior to this. My man 💪
@@thataintfalc0 yeah he's talked about a lot of crazy shit about himself.
my OCD came from negative ways to cope with my flashbacks from PTSD. for years these weird habits of locking the door 3 times whenever i leave or enter the house, checking all windows and doors to make sure they're sealed correctly, opening and closing the fridge and freezer, turning the oven on and off, every movement i made every action i took had to be in 3's, I'm a LOT better than i used to be, but this really hit home to me since I've been struggling with my new job at a fast food restaurant. The fast pace is challenging when i have to count my steps and words to make sure its divisible by 3... Idk where Im going with this, just thanks for making me feel not so alone? If you can get through it then so can I
Keep your icon. You're the only big RUclipsr that has a video thumbnail as icon.
Ow.
what video is it?
Looks like a picture from one of his ancient Battlefield videos.
Blipblobit Battlefield Bad Company 2 to be precise.
+NOVILA [MUSIC] I always thought it was a fish tank.
Wait, did you try turning yourself on and off again?
That's basically what ECT is.
+Rebecca Johnson Sorta
Problem is, Cr1TiKaL is always turned on.
*****
Truer words have never been spoken.
+Starman dx it crowd reference
Is you conquering your OCD why you stopped titling your videos, "X gameplay and commentary," and ending your videos with, "remember to like, rate and comment the video and subscribe if you want to see videos similar to this one. See ya"?
First thing I thought of too
i dont think so. p much every youtuber follows those. it becomes your thing and people recognize it and its cool
+glithch but he stopped doing it.
+Gabe Merritt yea, but i dunno if it would be an ocd thing
If Nicolas cage movies can be a symptom of OCD, everything can.
To this day, this video was probably the most helpful, comforting thing that I ever came across as a person that suffers from severe OCD. To find out that my hero Charlie suffered from it to and beat it, was the best fuel I could have ever gotten for beating my own OCD. Anyone reading this should know, you can beat it, and you are not alone.
Take care
I have severe OCD to, and the weird thing is is I don't want to get rid of it because I've had it my whole life, so it would feel really weird not having OCD, but all power to you if you wanna get rid of it, but it's gonna feel weird
@@memeologyman9576 You just gotta find ways to control it and use it. It's really just being a perfectionist which isn't necessarily a bad thing
@@Circaninesix true, except the problem is is with my "symptoms" (or whatever it's called) is that it's less like normal OCD, and more like the annoying OCD with rituals and weird thoughts and stuff like that
@@memeologyman9576 Same bro, I hate that people think OCD is just being extra neat. I used to have a lot of germaphobia going on for a long time but I'm doing better than ever after finally getting on some meds.
The whole "It's normal, I'm sure everyone else at this age is also going through it" thing is such a lie. Professional help can help you significantly, specially when you're really young. Wish I'd known that back when I was younger...
@@Lemon_squee The only times I've been able to completely overcome my social anxiety and OCD is the few times I've taken psychedelics. It made me realize that most people feel that way. Not feel high of course, but I mean they have the ability to be around others without extreme fear. It boggles my mind that it's a possibility, like it's legitimately hard to fathom. I hope one day I can feel that way sober and on a regular basis. I really need to bite the bullet and seek professional help.
out of curiousity what was that porn vid you had to watch for ocd?
Asking the real questions here
We are obligated to know what is behind that door.
Muted incest
Belgian horse-feeding fart-vaping dwarf sneeze porn
That is my kink.
I have a lot of respect for you for sharing this, it's not something that's easy to talk about for most people, especially with how harsh the RUclips community can be.
You’ve helped me a lot Charlie, I was diagnosed with ocd a few months ago and you have given me a lot of faith today I really opened up about my obserd rituals that I do every day that causes me so much anxiety and I am now on meds and going to therapy, it has helped alot. But knowing someone as great and successful as you comforts me alot with my problems. Thanks so much Charles
🙏
Is anybody else oddly proud of Cr1tikal finally changing his channel icon?
Allyson Moore I just started watching him what was the original
what was his profile picture before
@@clematis726 fish tank
@@romans4452 fish tank
In defense of not wanting to change your YT picture, I'm pretty sure most of your fans would also find it wrong to have it changed. So it would be for the better if you kept that profile picture forever.
lol i always thought it was a fish in a pond
I thought it was from the Dreamcast game "Seaman"
i agree. it is a reminder of the old days the simple days. the days of Qwop. those days are what makes our love for him deeper than other RUclipsr.
p
+SpeedWeed It's a helicopter from one of his first Battlefield videos.
Faulty wireless router had me in stitches
I have to sleep a certain way, but I cant start in that position, I have to start facing the other way, and after awhile switch to the proper way. can't sleep if I don't.
same
holy shit me too
That's not OCD. That's being a normal person. It's shameful that people will say they have OCD to feel special when they really don't.
Catissloth I didn't say I had OCD. I was just relating to the sleeping thing critical said in the the video.
you do realize that there are varying intensities of the disorder right? It's possible to have minor signs of OCD without having 100+ rituals that you do every day. And some times it's difficult to truly diagnose without professional help due to the fact that humans are naturally habitual. No reason to jump down his throat.
i have ocd intrusive thoughts and repetition based compulsions, thanks for making this video man - its great to hear that youve managed to cope and recover. stay moist
How are u doing now?
Also notice how Charlie didn't put the "of All Time" gag in his description (Breaking rituals)
I eat foods in a pattern, it's left left right left, right right left right, right right left right, left left right left, and left right, then I repeat. Or if it's a food like meat or something bigger than chips, I chew left right left right left right and I ALWAYS have to have the final bite before I swallow on the right side of my mouth. Even with RUclips, when I watch a video I have to tap the screen three times on the top and bottom, two times on the top and bottom, and once in the center when I start the video, pause it, or play it. I also am very compulsive about how things are placed, they have to be placed symmetrically or else. Even when I was a kid, I had to draw a picture of Tanooki Mario from Mario 3 whenever an opportunity presented itself, I wouldn't feel right if I didn't. Is that OCD or is it just habits? I have a lot more having to do with patterns, but it's simply too much.
You're like me. I just made a long comment about it and if you read that we are pretty similar. It's like minor OCD lol
As someone who does have OCD, that sounds a lot like it. One of my own compulsions include having to look at the top right corner of a brightly colored object every time I swallow a piece of food. Another one includes me having to slide my hand across an object (like a phone or a doorknob) and then tap it twice in quick succession when I'm done using it.
A big underlying factor in determining if something's either a regular habit or OCD is the anxiety stemming from not doing the compulsion in question. People with OCD (myself included) usually get large pangs of anxiety if they fail a certain compulsion.
Oh, alright, thank you guys. It's funny because when I'm at school sometimes my friend will show me a picture of a candy jar full of blue candies and there is one yellow candy mixed in with it, or something like that. It makes them laugh so I just roll with it, it still bothers me like crazy though. Bye. :)
That is definitely OCD, yeah. A habit is something you do so often you get used to it, but it's usually something practical. Like, I have a habit of constantly checking my e-mail and certain websites almost everytime I have a second to spare. I wouldn't call it ocd, maybe it is but very minor, I just like seeing if there's any new e-mails or facebook messages because notifications piss me off.
Actually now that I think about it, I think that IS compulsive obsessive behaviour. Well shit.
I guess in a way every habit is like a tiny bit of ocd. Like, someoen that brushes their teeth literally every day feel weird when they don't. Now, that's a good habit to have, but it's still compulsive obsessive behavior technically. It's really about when it becomes an issue. Opening the websites isn't an issue for me because if I'm at work or busy with something I can control myself.It doesn't make me miserable, and if eating foods in a pattern doesn't make you miserable then it's ok. It's probably good for your health because I guess it makes sure you chew properly lol. I'd be worried about it if there were things you literally couldn't do without doing something else first, in which case the ocd would be disrupting your day-to-day life and nobody really wants that. Do you understand what I mean? I'm not sure if I'm being very clear.
Idk if im OCD or a Perfectionist, everytime i need to put, draw , do , or even hang a picture frame i always have to make sure its sitting on a straight line, when i make sandwich one side should be lined up perfectly on the other and everytime im at work and about to close the hood (auto technician) i have to actually touch every single one of those caps , dipstick before i close it. It helps me but sometimes it's getting on my nerves.
Thank you for making this video man, it might help some people out there that are in the midst of suffering.
I also have OCD and have been dealing with it much, MUCH better these days. I used to have extremely distressing and anxiety provoking intrusive thoughts and horrible images pop up in my head that I thought I could not control.
Now when some of these thoughts come in, they no longer bother me and I hardly notice them anymore.
For anyone bothered by their thoughts or mental rituals, just know that these are merely thoughts, they can't harm you and they don't define you. You will get better over time.
Exercise, eating healthier and practicing meditation and breathing exercises helps immensely with OCD. Also, if you are addicted to pornography or video games, it perpetuates the OCD even more so a break or reduction in these activities might help you in the long run.
Lots of respect for you making this video and talking about it so openly. Gives hope hearing that you overcame such a rough time.
I didn't think I could love you even more than I already do Cr1tikal, but here we are.
I dont have OCD but im glad you made this video to help anyone who does.
I am grateful that you shared this story, Charlie. Thank you.
I am so relieved that others get to hear about all of the ways that OCD can work; education is so crucial for others and the tellers themselves getting help.
Plus, you’re hilarious. Keep being you.
This is really comforting, thanks for posting it.
I don't know what having OCD is like but I know what compulsive lying disorder feels like. It's not even a proper disorder according to doctors, but it was really messing my life up because lying wasn't just a habit. It was like it was my life. My girlfriend helped me a lot and got rid of my subconscious lying after 6 years of being with me and always asking me to be honest with her. We had this weird habit where if I ever say anything big or tell a story, she would ask "okay and now the truthful version?" and I told her the truth without twisting the story or anything. Anyways, sorry for rambling and thank you if you read this far.
I've still got an embarrassing one where I have to take off all my clothes before I take a shit, so I never use public toilets when I have to go. I have aspergers and bipolar though so my compulsions are generally a smaller part of a different problem.
I remember I had to do that until I was 14. I don't even remember when it started, but I had to do it every time. It was terrible in public when I had those shits I couldn't hold. Just walked into a stall and prayed that no one notices
not to be an ass or anything, but I do that when the shit intensify
my teacher in elementary told us about a boy who had this ritual is this not uncommon?
I do the same thing only when I'm at home though. Come to think of it, I only take shits at home.
I still do that mate. Sometimes I compromise slightly, but most of the times I just hold it for 6 long hours before I get home to do the deed. It just doesn't feel right when I go #2 with a shirt on.
"Well my world got ass-blasted when I was 12 years-old." -Beautiful Man
Thank you SO much for this! You have no idea how much this helps people who are too proud, ashamed, or afraid to get help. We're so used to everyone telling us the same blanket response "Just get help." You actually gave ideas to do it on your own if you're in that anxious, scared, ashamed, or proud place.
I have OCD. Its really frustrating and annoying to continuously do something over and over or a specific thing just cause it "doesn't feel right". How i managed to suppress the urges is by just accepting it and telling myself nothing will change if i just do something once. I get small urges here and there like turning the stove on and off like 10 times, repeating words over and over, or continuously touching something till it feels right but its a lot better then when i was a kid. Also other ppls opinions of me really made it worse so once i accepted it and told others they really didn't care and didn't see me differently which helped a lot
weirdest thing I've done is masturbating in a certain beat... 1 2, 1, 1 2, 1,.... and so on. lol
Anyone else with OCD have any strange things they've done?
I kind of have the problem that critical has with his profile picture. Whenever something changes like when I clean my room, I feel some sort of discomfort or anxiety. I don't have many other problems besides that.
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Kidding though, i have germaphobe issues, i see a psychiatrist. She calls it obsessive compulsions but she has not mention it being a disorder.
Ohh and yeah i shaved my head twice because someone touched my hair.
I do things similar to you, but usually my compulsiveness happens right before I go to bed. I have a routine that I do in a certain order and it really takes up time for me. Before bed I check the front door repeatedly to make sure it's locked (I'll often stare at the doorknob for a minute or two - my eyes see that it's locked but it's like my brain doesn't believe it). I look into my closet every night, and usually I'll stare into it for 5 to 10 minutes (the closet is the hardest thing for me to pull away from). I used to touch the stove and inside the oven to be completely sure that it's off, but I've luckily stopped doing that. That's not everything I do, but it's the most important ones to me.
I feel your pain, man.
There was this one time when I was thirteen when I got really, really obsessed with Lego Pirate junk. And I had a favorite minifigure, a pirate captain, that I really treasured. Unfortunately I got a little TOO interested in that figure, and started to want every copy of him to look exactly like each-other. Don't ask me why, I just did.
I would spend like, half an hour of a day just scrutinizing every detail of every minifigure like that I saw, trying to make sure every tiny detail was perfect. That the paint was just the right shade of green, that the color its peg-leg was was the exact brown every time, hell, I even had a minor panic attack for several days when I discovered the molding on one of its epaulettes was slightly off in a magazine.
I had several other obsessions that followed that one, each one just as insane, if not more so. It was only later in my life that I finally realized I had OCD. xD
I know this is a serious thing but national treasure bit choked me
The thing about being good at hiding it is true. Often times our obsessions/ compulsions are gross and really embarrassing or disgusting, which is why nobody talks about really gross thoughts.
Thank you for sharing your story about your ocd. a lot of people have this misconception about mental health and disorders and hearing it from someone they enjoy content from probably helps to educate a lot.
"I'm not miserable because of it anymore, now i'm just miserable in general"
is this why he sounds always so bored
I'm glad things worked out for you, bro. I apparently got diagnosed with OCD in 8th grade but shit didn't hit the fan until 9th. My OCD was extremely visible because it's contamination based, so my hands were always cracked and dry from washing them too much. When I went to the hospital they told me I had first degree burns on my face, arms, hands, and stomach because of it all. By the time I went to inpatient in early 2018 I was just so tired of everything. Good on you for figuring out how to do CBT! I went to a residential facility 2 and 1/2 months after getting out of inpatient, but I also practiced CBT with a psychologist I saw after inpatient, and also by myself. I'm doing better on a combination of meds and therapy, though with the pandemic it has been harder to see one, I mostly rely on the meds now. I'm just glad that time of my life is over and I can recognize the signs and practice CBT myself if it ever gets worse again.
OCD is awful and I hope one day we can get rid of the stereotypes surrounding it.
I don't have ocd in particular but rather other mental illnesses that drive me to have my own little rituals and make everything harder for me in general.
I haven't gotten help or told anybody I knew out of fear and I don't think I ever will but I think I'll try tackling it in little steps now too!! I'm hoping I can improve even a little to make myself more comfortable with changes. I've been struggling with mental illness for a long time now and not knowing what to do to make it manageable despite the advice friends and professionals give but I feel I can trust you even if we don't know eachother personally (that's a big reason I love your channel too; you come off as friendly and understanding and genuine)
but thank you for motivating and inspiring me to try and overcome my illnesses!! you've helped me and many others and I really appreciate it! make sure to take care of yourself too!!!
shit, man. thank you so much for speaking out. i dont think i can even begin to comprehend how much work youve put into dealing with ocd so .. just. mad respect for you, bro. youve come a long way, thats definitely something to take pride in.
seriously. it means so much to me that people are coming forward and talking about their illnesses. after suffering alone for 8 years of depression/ptsd/anxiety/whatever the fuck i still havent been diagnosed with, its comforting to see that having a mental illness doesnt mean one cant achieve great things in life. thank you.
Oh wow, this amazes me! I've had OCD since i was a kid, and it took years to get it under control, and that was with therapy! your way of thinking and tackling it is extremely brilliant, and i'm so glad you've shared it. and for the record, medication isn't really seen as a treatment for ocd. it can ease some anxiety MAYBE, but what is most successful is cognitive-behavioural therapy. i want to mention that to anyone else who have the same fears you did. you don't have to take anything you don't want to, and you can express all these concerns to the therapist. but that aside, you're one amazing guy, i gotta say.
Wow. I had no idea about this video and I can't express how happy I am to have found it. Your story is, for the most part, the same as mine. I've been dealing with OCD since I was a kid but it didn't really start getting bad until i was around 12 as well. My OCD is more focused on obsessive, disturbing and unwanted thoughts. I struggle with it to this day and it takes a lot of energy out of me. It affects how I interact with others and how I act throughout my daily life. This shit is really tough but knowing that one of my favorite RUclipsrs has been through the same and is still such a positive impact for others is amazing. Thank you, Charlie. It's great to know I'm not alone in this battle
Oh man, I'm so proud of you for being able to overcome that as much as you have. That's a big thing to take on and more-or-less beat. Hopefully this video can help others get their lives back as well. Thank you for making it.
Thank you for sharing this man. I also have OCD, and it's always nice hearing from other people with the disorder. You're a gem.
Truly incredible. As someone who's studied Psychology for 3 years I find it inspirational you were able to develop coping methods and almost completely eliminate such a serious disorder especially without medication or therapy.
that sucks man, it's really cool to hear your story, and we're always here for you if you need it
SO RELATABLE. I had to go thru this exact practice of getting rid of it. Nobody knew about my OCD at my school until one of my friend girls noticed I wouldn't stop fixing stuff and Cleaning everything. She was like what are you doing? Some of the rituals I had to fallow every time while walking was I could NEVER step on a line in the ground or a crack, or making sure only stepping three times per concrete section of tapping the walls of wherever I was at least three times. Mine wasn't as severe as yours was but I can understand the trouble and pain. Im in sixth grade and I'm still trying to dismiss it or break the rituals. This is nothing close to easy to Do. I'm happy to know that one of my favorite comedic RUclips genius are in a way similar to me.
I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 6 and I’ve always had my family’s help. I could never even imagine trying to deal with it myself. You’re the real OG my guy 👏🏻👏🏻
As someone who is currently being ass blasted by SEVERE OCD. I can’t begin to explain my thoughts and decisions. My OCD has ruined my life completely. I feel crippled. It’s nice to now one of my favorite entertainers can relate
I relate to you a lot man. Over time you'll learn to live with it. It feels impossible rn, but mark my words, in a few years you'll learn to rise above the discomfort and depression.
I used to have OCD with Anxiety. OCD went away. I started using opiates for the anxiety though, and that's when I started to struggle with addiction.
Lol
+JustANobody HAHAHA DRUG ADDICITON SO FUNNY. Fuck off
It is really sad that the guy that said lol got 6 likes. Fucked up people
idk about the opiates but ive had anxiety at 16 and 17, sooo what i did was not drink ANY drinks with caffeine or excess sugar and started eating a lot of food with iron, and took little naps through out the day, or just sleep more hours
To be fair this does have some irony to it. Though I don't condone that comment.
Dude thank you so much. My OCD triggered around the same age at 12 when my grandfather passed away. My rituals consisted of things that took 10 hours each day and I missed most of school and work because of it and my bosses acted like I should be fine because on the outside it looked that way. and I went to therapy because of it. Your videos in general help out with that and this video lets me know that I’m not the only one. Unfortunately it’s chronic ocd and I struggle still on a daily basis but this video definitely helps more than you know. Thanks bro
Thanks for sharing that with us. I have the same embarrassment issue at times with my anxiety and panic attacks: I don't like other people seeing how my anxiety affects me, and panic attacks are the worst cause I feel completely out of control. I'm certainly better at managing my anxiety now than I was when I was younger, and asking for help was a big part of getting better. I'm glad you were able to break your OCD routines!
thank you so much for this video, charlie. i also have OCD and as you know, it sucks. it makes life harder and sometimes i just wanna die so i dont have to deal with this shit anymore. but knowing you also have OCD and youre managing it makes me hope that one day like..... i can get to that level. and its encouraging. so. thanks
Thanks Charlie, you inspired me to break my own rituals and get my OCD under control. :)
Thanks for sharing, I imagine it took a lot more courage than many people would think.
I too grew up with OCD, but I took the counselling route and I can confirm that it really is great. If nothing else, it's just nice to know that other people are going through the same shit and there are ways to help because at first it's so confusing and worrying. People really underestimate how awful of a condition it is, it genuinely consumes every waking moment.
Like you, I'm over it now thankfully, with little remnants here and there. Glad to learn you beat it too!
This is a huge help, thank you for making this video, the way you explained was done in a way ive been trying to find for about 5 years now.
I’ve had ocd pretty much my entire life and started taking medication for it around 5 years ago and it’s helped exponentially I’m still undergoing treatment but I’m getting better
I was born with, and continue to have OCD and ADHD to this very day, and after a while you start to control it if you set your mind to it. You start by breaking certain patterns and working through the ensuing panic, and slowly dial down the obsessions and episodes and rituals into manageable sized things. But having both I am sure they cancelled each other out to a certain extent, especially as many counting rituals I lost due to my ADHD ability to focus on counting. And my family did help, but honestly most people with it usually learn to control it over time.
Not to put anyone who is still suffering with it or the seriousness of the disorder. For those who are still dealing with it, keep at it. It can be controlled.
Self diagnosed OCD? What is this, Tumblr?
You can't be born with either one of those two things. It's always mixture of genetic disposition, education of you parents and family, social life etc.
You certainly cannot be born with ocd, that makes no sense at all.
+Jonathan Graber they could just mean that they had OCD from an early age, as in as long as they could rember? saying since they where born probably an easier way yo say it.
+Angry Bidoof could be yeah
It's nice to hear someone you look up to talk about something you have too. I have ocd and even if I don't really relate too much since I mostly struggle with intrusive thoughts and not rituals, it makes me feel...idk normal? Nice? It feels good to air out the dirty laundry, I guess. Thanks man
Oh my god this video made me have an epiphany i DO struggle with rituals its why my sleep schedules so shite. Holy mother of God
i'm glad you're better now dude. thank you for this video, it was insightful AND funny. i struggled a lot with ocd back in middle and high school, and i still have some rituals, but they do not interfere with my life nearly as much anymore. you're right, it really is all about the tiny changes to routine.
Proud of you for changing your profile picture
I know this is an old video, but you’ve done something really beautiful here, man.
I have OCD, I’ve been diagnosed for years and this video is really comforting, it gives me hope, thank you Charlie
Awesome work! Thanks for sharing about this. It's so helpful when people are open about OCD and recovery.
Thank you for posting this, Charlie.
I have Aspergers and a part of having this means I have some form of ocd (I have a lot of bizarre rituals, like you said you had).
While I am on medication, and have been on them for probably over 10 years now (I turned 18 in April), after this Friday (my last exam) I'm going to begin lowering the dosage, and begin to ease myself off of them. I know I can't go cold turkey, especially since I forgot to take them once about two weeks ago and while I was fine on that day, the next day I suffered from some withdrawal which was no fun at all. I struggle to move away from my own routines, and I think I'll definitely try the methods you used as I trust that they have worked.
So once again, thank you.
Hi, how have you been doing since you posted your comment?
He changed his picture!
He's still fighting. Good on him.
Thank you Charlie. It does help a lot. I'm medicated, but it doesn't help all the way, and hearing your stories might help me with some of my compulsions
im so proud of you seeing you improve and seeing you have a good time makes me really happy man
When this man said “a faulty wireless router” to say I lost my shit is an understatement
I'm still trying to work out what the profile picture is. It's such low quality that I can't work it out and I really want to know more than ever now
It's a helicopter from Bad Company 2.
Halowars10232 Thank you, i now finally know. It has been bugging me for the longest time
WAT!? I thought it was a fucking fish tank or something
it's a screenshot of one of the oldest videos he did
+Remnant Productions same exact thought
Thank you so much, I've had a problem with this and has grown bigger over the years
really appreciate you talking about this. been struggling with tourettic ocd for a long time (with medication and a therapist lol). you basically did what a therapist would tell you to do, and it’s actually insane. got a lot more strength and willpower than i.
i dont think i have ocd, but im proud of him for overcoming his, i hope i can do the same one day with my bpd
I have major ocd and I really understand what Charlie means when he talks about how bad it was in his teenage years. I remember it being it’s worst at 11-14. no one had a clue I had ocd including myself. I was very good at hiding it. I tried to tell my parents multiple times but I didn’t know how to explain it to them or how to get them to understand how much it was affecting me. I was too embarrassed to tell them the actual rituals because I knew they made no sense.
Pure-O or Typical OCD, because I have pure-o and it's a pain in the arse
Hi I was recently diagnosed with OCD. It means the world hearing how u overcame yours, and it gives me hope. Thank you
Pogchamp, thanks for talking about this, it’s nice to see someone talking about OCD, this is years old but it’s comforting to see people talking about this in a serious manor