Wow!! The words are definitely powerful. Really describes how I've been feeling. The part where it says No one seems to care if I exist, and wouldn't be missed.. that's something I feel like almost everyday.
06:53 I’ve been lectured by people that might not have known how to deal with a person that has been thinking this way. I’ve met only one person that was able to give me a stable place to realize a lot of this. I learned a lot about myself and how to quickly deal with my mind set because of her. That’s what I think a lot of young adults are missing, is a safe and stable place to work out these thoughts at a pace they’re comfortable with. I know it worked for me, hopefully others will find a place and some time to work things out. We all have our own way of working with it, take care of yourselves when you can Mah peeps! 😁💝
I can relate to everything in song but I definitely wouldn't wish anyone to spend a day in my shoes, but I've felt this way every day for 29 years, and now I wonder how long do I resist when all I have to look forward to is heath condition steadily getting worse, that cause a feedback loop with mental health
Alright here's the poem it's called Surrender Recently I've been feeling so ashamed by these thoughts I've been hiding away from you in my head. I've been holding them down underwater,but they twist me violently. Lately I've been hanging by a thread. This time I don't wanna be saved. So please let me fall! Let me break under everything unsaid! Please just let me die, because I can't take living with what's in my head. If I surrender to the monsters in me What if I surrender to them, will it set me free. What's the point of holding on, when no one seems to care if I exist. There's no agony like being strong when I one you're sick. I'm so sick of hearing I should stay when I know I would never be missed. So why won't you let me fall! Why won't you let me break under everything unsaid! Why won't you just let me die! Because I can't take living with what's in my head. So what would happen if I surrender to the monsters in me? If I did would I finally be set free? If only you could see under my skin, you'd realize why I hold it in. You'd see why it's a fight I don't wanna win. If you could see all my abuse and spend a day inside my shoes, you'd understand why I just wanna lose. Would anyone believe the hell of being me before I decide to be the dying proof! People say, "You're just being dramatic." But I'm not just being dramatic! They say, "Someone has it worse than you." Do you think I don't know someone has it worse than me! Saying that only makes me feel selfish and even worse! They say, "You're not praying enough." Do you think I don't get on my knees and pray for this to go away! I pray every f*cking night for this to go away! They say, "You're just doing this for attention." No, I'm not! I don't want any attention, in fact I want the opposite. They say, "Suicide is selfish." I feel even worse when you tell me that. There are things you shouldn't say because they can and will worsen my mental health. I don't want to feel this way! Please do me a favor. Let me fall! Let me break under everything unsaid! Just let me die! Because I can't take living with what's in my head! If I surrender to my monsters, would I finally be set free? -Numa/Elizabeth D. Hope y'all enjoy it!
Might be a glitch with RUclips because looking at the video on my phone and PC, it says it was released on April 28th xD Maybe I got to it so quickly, it messed RUclips up a bit xD
Thank you for taking time to react! Loved your insight on the new song. Can’t wait to see your future videos
Thanks, guys! Can't wait to hear the newer songs as well! xD
This band is truly a major comfort and inspiration for me. Keep up the great reactions!
They really are. And thank you! Glad you enjoyed! xD
they’re my absolute favorite band
Same here, honestly xD
Citizen Soldier talking about suicide
this dude while saying yeah and *while banging his head*
Wow!! The words are definitely powerful. Really describes how I've been feeling. The part where it says No one seems to care if I exist, and wouldn't be missed.. that's something I feel like almost everyday.
Yea, it's definitely an insanely powerful song with the message it has
This song hits me right in the feels. I cry every time
So do I, man. So do I
Their music and songs are just amazing they always have a way to make me fell better
Same here xD
I love how they can tell these hard stories in so beautiful songs. Love your reaction on this masterpiece! 💜(;)
Thank you! And yea, it's amazing how they're able to tell these stories with music xD
This song spoke to me so much! Definitely a hit
It really is!
This man needs more recognition
Awesome
06:53
I’ve been lectured by people that might not have known how to deal with a person that has been thinking this way. I’ve met only one person that was able to give me a stable place to realize a lot of this. I learned a lot about myself and how to quickly deal with my mind set because of her. That’s what I think a lot of young adults are missing, is a safe and stable place to work out these thoughts at a pace they’re comfortable with. I know it worked for me, hopefully others will find a place and some time to work things out.
We all have our own way of working with it, take care of yourselves when you can Mah peeps! 😁💝
Exactly. Everyone has their own way of working through things xD
I can relate to everything in song but I definitely wouldn't wish anyone to spend a day in my shoes, but I've felt this way every day for 29 years, and now I wonder how long do I resist when all I have to look forward to is heath condition steadily getting worse, that cause a feedback loop with mental health
Well, we're all here for you, man. Feel free to reach out to anyone in the community here and we'll do whatever we can to help
Later I'm going to write a poem because of this song (I'm not doing it now as it's 2 in the morning and I'm going to sleep)
Great song. Could you check out a similar band called Arrows to Athens? I recommend the songs ‘Dust & Gold’, ‘Stars’, and ‘Used to Be’.
Will do! I'll add it to my list! xD
Alright here's the poem it's called Surrender
Recently I've been feeling so ashamed by these thoughts I've been hiding away from you in my head.
I've been holding them down underwater,but they twist me violently.
Lately I've been hanging by a thread.
This time I don't wanna be saved.
So please let me fall!
Let me break under everything unsaid!
Please just let me die, because I can't take living with what's in my head.
If I surrender to the monsters in me
What if I surrender to them, will it set me free.
What's the point of holding on, when no one seems to care if I exist.
There's no agony like being strong when I one you're sick.
I'm so sick of hearing I should stay when I know I would never be missed.
So why won't you let me fall!
Why won't you let me break under everything unsaid!
Why won't you just let me die!
Because I can't take living with what's in my head.
So what would happen if I surrender to the monsters in me?
If I did would I finally be set free?
If only you could see under my skin, you'd realize why I hold it in.
You'd see why it's a fight I don't wanna win.
If you could see all my abuse and spend a day inside my shoes, you'd understand why I just wanna lose.
Would anyone believe the hell of being me before I decide to be the dying proof!
People say, "You're just being dramatic."
But I'm not just being dramatic!
They say, "Someone has it worse than you."
Do you think I don't know someone has it worse than me!
Saying that only makes me feel selfish and even worse!
They say, "You're not praying enough."
Do you think I don't get on my knees and pray for this to go away!
I pray every f*cking night for this to go away!
They say, "You're just doing this for attention."
No, I'm not!
I don't want any attention, in fact I want the opposite.
They say, "Suicide is selfish."
I feel even worse when you tell me that.
There are things you shouldn't say because they can and will worsen my mental health.
I don't want to feel this way!
Please do me a favor.
Let me fall!
Let me break under everything unsaid!
Just let me die!
Because I can't take living with what's in my head!
If I surrender to my monsters, would I finally be set free?
-Numa/Elizabeth D.
Hope y'all enjoy it!
this video was posted apr 27th 2021 the music video in this video says it was posted on apr 28th 2021???
Might be a glitch with RUclips because looking at the video on my phone and PC, it says it was released on April 28th xD
Maybe I got to it so quickly, it messed RUclips up a bit xD