@@combat618thats fckd man there are bad energy’s and entities out there that probably attached to you. you need to find someone to cleanse them out of you
I've been using mushrooms for about a year, mainly a couple of pieces of chocolate, had some nice trips, I did the tea method for the first time, and it started off good, then it went south really bad, but once I got past the bad part I realized why I was put through that, my intention was to be more open to emotions, and be more vulnerable. The mushroom put me in a flight or fight situation that made me very vulnerable to see what it is to really deeply need people in my life.
I realised the same after a bad trip. It's all depends on what glasses you're wearing. I mean even if you didn't wear glasses. And you can change your glasses... I think. Sometimes it needed some time and force.
You're really good at putting into words all of the concepts I have learned over the years and know to be true. Thanks for making these videos, they're very helpful to share with friends to reinforce ideas I am not very good at explaining myself
I'd like to recommend another good book: "Reframing - Neurolinguistic Programming and the Transformation of Meaning" by Richard Bandler and John Grinder
I had bad many bad trips on acid but more good than bad because it's all about the energy you are in at the particular time of doing psychedelics, and the benevolent energies that you surround yourself while you're on them
It's easy as finding whatever needle in the haystack is poking your mind. Find the reason for your bad experience to turn it into a good one. Intergration is the key.
On my 3rd psychedelic trip, I did 200ug of some strong ass acid. I had done double 150 about a month before assuming it was a stronger dose cus more acid even though that’s just parachuting 150. On I barely eat, took acid with my mate and walked + smoked for a bit until the come up started, but was getting anxious. By the time I was at his place I was pretty high already and was stressing about it. Then for some stupid reason I hit a bong, and not long after I was on the verge of a breakthrough I was not ready for. It all looked like a paranoid cartoon and I could feel the insane amount of anxiety in my back. I’m pretty sure it was some sort of psychosis, since I forgot what the old world looked like completely and was fully convinced I had fucked my brain permanently.Even through this shitshow, I came out of it and reflected on how I acted. I realised I had been hiding my anxious mindset and that I needed to work on it, same with letting others drag me around. I don’t need to go into the details, but it felt like I was seeing my worst parts of myself from different eyes, which is amazing. I could see my issues as if it was written on paper and for about 3 months after I had more and more realisations about myself. Only negative was that it increased my overall health anxiety, specifically the anxiety of developing schizophrenia (I still have the fear) but with therapy I can fix that. The insight towards something so negative can change something so bad to something absolutely mind blowing. Don’t regret that trip one bit :)
Thank you Tom, i had an insight right at the moment when you talked about awareness, specifically imagining our emotions as energy that flows through you. Makes it much easier to understand and accept these emotions, at the same time focusing on changing "the energy " that flows through you is also much easier to conceptualize and get done, rather than sitting and marinating on thoughts like : "i am a depressed person and that is me" because even depressed people still have some moments of joy and happiness and they know it, but deny it and bury it.
As someone with Autism who has tried to ignore it and acted like it's just about "mental transmutation". Mental transmutation is definitely a thing, but ignoring my diagnosis didn't help me. Focusing on it solely is 100% not a good thing. But it is definitely a solid reason and guideline for how my brain works, and for why I have been treated badly most of my life, and why I don't understand social situations the way that I'd love to. I think there's a disease that people contract, where whenever your life is going right, you think that you have the answers and can tell everyone else how they can live their life. You can try and guide them towards your perspective, but ultimately you aren't even effecting or helping their life only just becoming a distraction towards that person's understanding that they've already gained about that life. I find especially with autism that I have done this, as a way to make my own path seem more meaningful than it actually is. Ironically I'm probably distracting you as well. But perspectives are different and ultimately my own autism has made my life extremely difficult in unnecessary ways that neurotypicals definitely do not have to deal with, and I'm not going to let someone else tell me how I'm supposed to perceive reality that they themselves do not understand.
One thing I will add to my comment is this: it is 100% possible to change your own perspective, no matter how dark or stuck in a place you seem to be in.
@@vividvisions693 Thank you for reading friend. I'm glad that my perspective doesn't fall completely on deaf ears. Even if it may be a little on the harsh side
@@vividvisions693 I think Tom has a lot of great points, but ultimately he blanketed and put his own perception of others intentions of talking about their own disorder as a sort of victim mentality. That's easy for someone to say who isn't a victim and doesn't have to deal with it, to say "pull yourself up by your own bootstraps". And furthermore, when you are already pulling yourself up by your bootstraps, to have someone talk to you on a video saying that you aren't doing that at all is highly unwise and insulting. It's odd to make someone with a mental disorder feel bad for simply stating that they have a mental disorder, then saying that they are doing it because ABC When that's most likely not the case. As if YOU are burdening him to tell him of your own mental disorder. That's a perspective issue. I couldn't continue watching this video, because it was like listening to an angry alcoholic tell me how to live in the "real world". I think he could learn a lot of he actually talked to other people with mental disorders and understood there perspective, especially ones like me who have done psychedelics and followed a similar path of self learning.
It's not up to you to humanise people luv. Especially since they have made their choices, selfish as they are. Very few people care about their neighbours now and all everyone seems to be interested in these days, is feathering their own nest. People stand by while people are physically hurt by others, or worse. Everyone thinks that they are a god now , and expects the world to constantly tell how how precious and wonderful they are. Where whores are celebrated and people look for God in a drug. Real human connection is rare and the only people truly interested in knowing how or what you feel as an autistic person are those who love you. I'm getting on a bit now and have watched 3 generations grow and live. I'm not impressed. We have devolved, not evolved and to be honest I think a generation that chooses to live with mummy and daddy until they're well into their 40s and communicates with the person sitting next to them through texting, is literally ( in the true meaning of the word) about to die out. And not a moment too soon. As an autistic person you are one of the few truly genuine humans...because an autistic person has no artifice. I am not autistic but severely brain damaged....without my paid carer I would die, burn myself to death or forget to eat. And one of the things I lost was MY artifice. To be honest, the path you are taking probably is more meaningful than many . Don't be so quick to make excuses for their shit behaviour
The horror of the void sounds extremely familiar. It's almost like fear had destroyed my ability to extend my mind. I guess that's fear as the "mind killer." I'm not sure why but by the end of this video I was feeling much better. Thank you Tom.
Am watching this vibey video during a storm on the coast.. and far out, my last acid trip was about 3 weeks ago, and I could not stop myself from laughing with my friend.. could barely breathe at some of the things being said.. about the universe.. very funny stuff. Enjoying the content heaps man, surreal topics and well very well explained. Loving it :) .
Dismissing the value of therapy by reducing it to staying stuck in trauma and instead encouraging people to work through their trauma with unlicensed coaches that help with goal setting seems entirely contrary to the point of this video. My therapist has been a crucial resource in recovering from bad trips and finding meaning in them, specifically because of their training and experience in understanding trauma, how it affects the brain and body, and how to process it.
last time i did ayahuasca i thought i was going to die, i had physical symptoms i sweating a lot felt weak af i didn't even have the time do think or pay much attention to my psyche i was in a survival mode i just thought "im mortal i could really die today" shit was intense... but then i lay down and just let go idk how but i just took total responsibility of everything that i was going through and my will power make me face to face to death i wasnt afraid anymore, then eveything became still i started chanting mantras. I called to Green Tara, invoked the presence of the Gods and buddhas that i have affinity it was like i was in the presence of the Gods it was beautiful.
Thanks for sharing, the examples people feeling miserable and identifying with those states of conscioussnes really kicked the shit out of me right now. I would have to skip to the "Good Trip" part but I decided to watch the video in full length another time, when I feel more grounded. Until then, love, peace and light ॐ
It was for me, because it just made me realize that I'm even more autistic. When I'm not trying to mask in public, it's disassociating, making everything seem as if it's a movie or video game. I'm not mentally 'here' most of the time, and that fact scares me. Maybe my mind really is broken.
@@x-_arthurmorgan-_x5528 I think you'd be surprised by the number of people who would call themselves neurotypical that feel like like that in public. I'm on the spectrum too and always find it fun to imagine I'm In a video game or narrate a movie about what's happening in my head or imagine I'm a fictional character when I'm out in public. 😆 It's not like I can't snap straight out of it should circumstances require it. Your mind isn't broken, you're just looking at things from a neurotypical perspective.
@@x-_arthurmorgan-_x5528 Acceptance and struggle are often sides of the same coin. And we all get to decide which side that coin falls on. Being on the spectrum doesn't mean you're broken, we're just different to average people. And who wants to be average?
I really loved the video! Your way of explaining is great and I could feel and visualize what were you saying. P.S. The LOTR part was perfectly placed. P.P.S. In the end of the video you showed us a practical way of dealing with sudden and strong emotions.
I dont think depression is a sickness as many people, even profesionals say. I think It's a normal natural reaction to something traumatic, whether it is false flag or not, that we as humans experience, sometimes shorter and sometimes faster. We can either keep living in trauma and deepen it, or we can move on and live the rest of the days in peace. Perhaps that's why everyone is so depressed, media full of news of dead people all around the world. Can't be good for the human spiritual psyche. Perhaps we should try to do less depressing shit all around the world.
i just looked at your channel & it said '356 videos' & '365 subscribers!' the only thing that would be complete would be if i were drinking my 365 (whole foods) soda from the fridge but i picked different bottle . . .
I had a bad trip on a questionable chocolate bar that caused me to have gastric problems for over a year. Still managing them but it’s lead to losing unhealthy weight and I quit vaping because of it. I’m not sure if I’d owe it all to the trip but it seems like I’ve gotten better since quitting
Hey Tom, great video! Could you give me the names of some of your videos in which you are dealing with the very difficult trip you mention in this video? I have a recurring bad trip; it doesn't happen every time, but it always has the same theme every time it does come back around and it just scares the shit outta me and causes paranoid thought processes. From what you said in this video it sounds like there might be some similarities to the paranoia caused by your devastating experience . Thanks.
Tom do you know of any mushroom varieties that are not terribly strong and somewhat predictable that youd recommend?ive looked into producing my own bc the psilocybe cubensis that grow wild here in Florida are all over the place in terms of potency which makes them very unpredictable.
Every variety varies in potency from shroom to shroom within the same batch even. That said, in my experience golden teachers are consistently milder than other varieties I've come across.
I had a heavy trip 2 years ago and so called reality wasnt the same anyomre felt like after the trip i came back to earth 2.0. I took 5G liberty caps on empty stomach doing lemon tech. This trip wasnt like anything i experienced before and ive had heavy trips on acid before. This was like THE TRIP.
Thank you so much this is very helpful and clear. I appreciate you so much Tom for to take the time out of your day to share this gold with us is huge. It's beautiful and motivating seeing you go from such a dark place to where you are now. Thank you and your friend for me for this amazing story about his reaction to getting diagnosed. Its very profound, reaction and perspective is very important in life. It's what creates your reality✨ Love, peace
I love you and your content, really do. But I’ve noticed an increased use of AI art. It’s distracting and seems lazy, which I know you aren’t. Thats all I got.
After a few bad trips I found the meaning of life.. is to survive. And then I go into warrior mode 🫡. And then the trip normally goes good 😅 like really good it's a mind fk, the switch. Maybe it is just the act of accepting and truly facing my fear of dying idk
I had a super bad trip and thought I'd never recover from it, but one week went by and I was back to my old self
Brother I am relieved to hear this. That kinda thing is no joke 🫶💪
What was ur bad trip?
I had a super bad trip and since then my life is pure suffering for 4 years. Diagnosed with chronic HPPD, anxiety disorder and paranoid schizophrenia
@@combat618 thats rough brother. Do you still smoke weed?
@@combat618thats fckd man there are bad energy’s and entities out there that probably attached to you. you need to find someone to cleanse them out of you
I've been using mushrooms for about a year, mainly a couple of pieces of chocolate, had some nice trips, I did the tea method for the first time, and it started off good, then it went south really bad, but once I got past the bad part I realized why I was put through that, my intention was to be more open to emotions, and be more vulnerable. The mushroom put me in a flight or fight situation that made me very vulnerable to see what it is to really deeply need people in my life.
You're a fuggin legend Tom. Good to have you back man
I realised the same after a bad trip. It's all depends on what glasses you're wearing. I mean even if you didn't wear glasses.
And you can change your glasses... I think. Sometimes it needed some time and force.
You're really good at putting into words all of the concepts I have learned over the years and know to be true. Thanks for making these videos, they're very helpful to share with friends to reinforce ideas I am not very good at explaining myself
I'd like to recommend another good book: "Reframing - Neurolinguistic Programming and the Transformation of Meaning" by Richard Bandler and John Grinder
@@syiunshi thanks for recommending! Will look into this. Cheers
I had bad many bad trips on acid but more good than bad because it's all about the energy you are in at the particular time of doing psychedelics, and the benevolent energies that you surround yourself while you're on them
My mate Tom, i'm happy your content has shifted towards addressing the meaning crisis. It feels like the right fit for you.
It's easy as finding whatever needle in the haystack is poking your mind. Find the reason for your bad experience to turn it into a good one. Intergration is the key.
A Good view on such a topic! Have a nice day Brother
On my 3rd psychedelic trip, I did 200ug of some strong ass acid. I had done double 150 about a month before assuming it was a stronger dose cus more acid even though that’s just parachuting 150. On I barely eat, took acid with my mate and walked + smoked for a bit until the come up started, but was getting anxious. By the time I was at his place I was pretty high already and was stressing about it. Then for some stupid reason I hit a bong, and not long after I was on the verge of a breakthrough I was not ready for. It all looked like a paranoid cartoon and I could feel the insane amount of anxiety in my back. I’m pretty sure it was some sort of psychosis, since I forgot what the old world looked like completely and was fully convinced I had fucked my brain permanently.Even through this shitshow, I came out of it and reflected on how I acted. I realised I had been hiding my anxious mindset and that I needed to work on it, same with letting others drag me around. I don’t need to go into the details, but it felt like I was seeing my worst parts of myself from different eyes, which is amazing. I could see my issues as if it was written on paper and for about 3 months after I had more and more realisations about myself. Only negative was that it increased my overall health anxiety, specifically the anxiety of developing schizophrenia (I still have the fear) but with therapy I can fix that. The insight towards something so negative can change something so bad to something absolutely mind blowing. Don’t regret that trip one bit :)
Thank you Tom, i had an insight right at the moment when you talked about awareness, specifically imagining our emotions as energy that flows through you.
Makes it much easier to understand and accept these emotions, at the same time focusing on changing "the energy " that flows through you is also much easier to conceptualize and get done, rather than sitting and marinating on thoughts like : "i am a depressed person and that is me" because even depressed people still have some moments of joy and happiness and they know it, but deny it and bury it.
As someone with Autism who has tried to ignore it and acted like it's just about "mental transmutation". Mental transmutation is definitely a thing, but ignoring my diagnosis didn't help me. Focusing on it solely is 100% not a good thing. But it is definitely a solid reason and guideline for how my brain works, and for why I have been treated badly most of my life, and why I don't understand social situations the way that I'd love to. I think there's a disease that people contract, where whenever your life is going right, you think that you have the answers and can tell everyone else how they can live their life. You can try and guide them towards your perspective, but ultimately you aren't even effecting or helping their life only just becoming a distraction towards that person's understanding that they've already gained about that life. I find especially with autism that I have done this, as a way to make my own path seem more meaningful than it actually is. Ironically I'm probably distracting you as well. But perspectives are different and ultimately my own autism has made my life extremely difficult in unnecessary ways that neurotypicals definitely do not have to deal with, and I'm not going to let someone else tell me how I'm supposed to perceive reality that they themselves do not understand.
One thing I will add to my comment is this: it is 100% possible to change your own perspective, no matter how dark or stuck in a place you seem to be in.
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@@vividvisions693 Thank you for reading friend. I'm glad that my perspective doesn't fall completely on deaf ears. Even if it may be a little on the harsh side
@@vividvisions693 I think Tom has a lot of great points, but ultimately he blanketed and put his own perception of others intentions of talking about their own disorder as a sort of victim mentality. That's easy for someone to say who isn't a victim and doesn't have to deal with it, to say "pull yourself up by your own bootstraps". And furthermore, when you are already pulling yourself up by your bootstraps, to have someone talk to you on a video saying that you aren't doing that at all is highly unwise and insulting. It's odd to make someone with a mental disorder feel bad for simply stating that they have a mental disorder, then saying that they are doing it because ABC When that's most likely not the case. As if YOU are burdening him to tell him of your own mental disorder. That's a perspective issue. I couldn't continue watching this video, because it was like listening to an angry alcoholic tell me how to live in the "real world". I think he could learn a lot of he actually talked to other people with mental disorders and understood there perspective, especially ones like me who have done psychedelics and followed a similar path of self learning.
It's not up to you to humanise people luv. Especially since they have made their choices, selfish as they are. Very few people care about their neighbours now and all everyone seems to be interested in these days, is feathering their own nest. People stand by while people are physically hurt by others, or worse. Everyone thinks that they are a god now , and expects the world to constantly tell how how precious and wonderful they are. Where whores are celebrated and people look for God in a drug. Real human connection is rare and the only people truly interested in knowing how or what you feel as an autistic person are those who love you.
I'm getting on a bit now and have watched 3 generations grow and live. I'm not impressed. We have devolved, not evolved and to be honest I think a generation that chooses to live with mummy and daddy until they're well into their 40s and communicates with the person sitting next to them through texting, is literally ( in the true meaning of the word) about to die out. And not a moment too soon.
As an autistic person you are one of the few truly genuine humans...because an autistic person has no artifice. I am not autistic but severely brain damaged....without my paid carer I would die, burn myself to death or forget to eat. And one of the things I lost was MY artifice.
To be honest, the path you are taking probably is more meaningful than many . Don't be so quick to make excuses for their shit behaviour
Really great content here! You're very wise beyond your years.
The horror of the void sounds extremely familiar. It's almost like fear had destroyed my ability to extend my mind. I guess that's fear as the "mind killer." I'm not sure why but by the end of this video I was feeling much better. Thank you Tom.
Am watching this vibey video during a storm on the coast.. and far out, my last acid trip was about 3 weeks ago, and I could not stop myself from laughing with my friend.. could barely breathe at some of the things being said.. about the universe.. very funny stuff. Enjoying the content heaps man, surreal topics and well very well explained.
Loving it :) .
Dismissing the value of therapy by reducing it to staying stuck in trauma and instead encouraging people to work through their trauma with unlicensed coaches that help with goal setting seems entirely contrary to the point of this video.
My therapist has been a crucial resource in recovering from bad trips and finding meaning in them, specifically because of their training and experience in understanding trauma, how it affects the brain and body, and how to process it.
last time i did ayahuasca i thought i was going to die, i had physical symptoms i sweating a lot felt weak af i didn't even have the time do think or pay much attention to my psyche i was in a survival mode i just thought "im mortal i could really die today" shit was intense... but then i lay down and just let go idk how but i just took total responsibility of everything that i was going through and my will power make me face to face to death i wasnt afraid anymore, then eveything became still i started chanting mantras. I called to Green Tara, invoked the presence of the Gods and buddhas that i have affinity it was like i was in the presence of the Gods it was beautiful.
This is very good! Keep making videos like this please 😊
Thanks for sharing, the examples people feeling miserable and identifying with those states of conscioussnes really kicked the shit out of me right now. I would have to skip to the "Good Trip" part but I decided to watch the video in full length another time, when I feel more grounded.
Until then, love, peace and light ॐ
The thought that enlightenment could be a heavy burden doesn't seem to cross most people's minds.
It was for me, because it just made me realize that I'm even more autistic. When I'm not trying to mask in public, it's disassociating, making everything seem as if it's a movie or video game. I'm not mentally 'here' most of the time, and that fact scares me. Maybe my mind really is broken.
@@x-_arthurmorgan-_x5528 I think you'd be surprised by the number of people who would call themselves neurotypical that feel like like that in public.
I'm on the spectrum too and always find it fun to imagine I'm In a video game or narrate a movie about what's happening in my head or imagine I'm a fictional character when I'm out in public. 😆
It's not like I can't snap straight out of it should circumstances require it.
Your mind isn't broken, you're just looking at things from a neurotypical perspective.
@@commodiousvestibuleI think my mind is still struggling to accept the very high possiblity that I am on the spectrum. It makes sense though.
@@x-_arthurmorgan-_x5528 Acceptance and struggle are often sides of the same coin. And we all get to decide which side that coin falls on.
Being on the spectrum doesn't mean you're broken, we're just different to average people. And who wants to be average?
I really loved the video!
Your way of explaining is great and I could feel and visualize what were you saying.
P.S. The LOTR part was perfectly placed.
P.P.S. In the end of the video you showed us a practical way of dealing with sudden and strong emotions.
I dont think depression is a sickness as many people, even profesionals say. I think It's a normal natural reaction to something traumatic, whether it is false flag or not, that we as humans experience, sometimes shorter and sometimes faster. We can either keep living in trauma and deepen it, or we can move on and live the rest of the days in peace. Perhaps that's why everyone is so depressed, media full of news of dead people all around the world. Can't be good for the human spiritual psyche. Perhaps we should try to do less depressing shit all around the world.
i just looked at your channel & it said '356 videos' & '365 subscribers!' the only thing that would be complete would be if i were drinking my 365 (whole foods) soda from the fridge but i picked different bottle . . .
Lead to Gold ❤
Keep em coming tom 🤩
Great video! Rules for life!
MEANINGWAVE EXISTS 🎉🎉🎉
I had a bad trip on a questionable chocolate bar that caused me to have gastric problems for over a year. Still managing them but it’s lead to losing unhealthy weight and I quit vaping because of it. I’m not sure if I’d owe it all to the trip but it seems like I’ve gotten better since quitting
MEANINGWAVE EXISTS 🎉
Hey Tom, great video! Could you give me the names of some of your videos in which you are dealing with the very difficult trip you mention in this video? I have a recurring bad trip; it doesn't happen every time, but it always has the same theme every time it does come back around and it just scares the shit outta me and causes paranoid thought processes. From what you said in this video it sounds like there might be some similarities to the paranoia caused by your devastating experience . Thanks.
Ur cool Tom 😎
16:40 Choosing a coucher without understanding yourself to chase false goals. Not the best route IMO.
Tom do you know of any mushroom varieties that are not terribly strong and somewhat predictable that youd recommend?ive looked into producing my own bc the psilocybe cubensis that grow wild here in Florida are all over the place in terms of potency which makes them very unpredictable.
Golden teacher is the best!
Steer clear of Penis Envy until you've worked your way up with Golden Teacher
@@loganstroganoff1284 B+ or golden teacher are great intro strains.
Every variety varies in potency from shroom to shroom within the same batch even. That said, in my experience golden teachers are consistently milder than other varieties I've come across.
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Tom did you read "realms of the human unconscious" by stanislav grof recently? I am guessing from some statements in this video
Good
How easily people can fall into victim blaming!
Who was the oldest brother in the story ?
The problem is that during the trip you don’t remember to change something.
I had a heavy trip 2 years ago and so called reality wasnt the same anyomre felt like after the trip i came back to earth 2.0. I took 5G liberty caps on empty stomach doing lemon tech.
This trip wasnt like anything i experienced before and ive had heavy trips on acid before. This was like THE TRIP.
Original thumbnail was better
Anyone here done a 20 gram trip ?
Niiiiiceee
Finding out why your mother told smthng and stuff is more about psychoanalysis than actual psychotherapy and psychiatry.
Thank you so much this is very helpful and clear. I appreciate you so much Tom for to take the time out of your day to share this gold with us is huge.
It's beautiful and motivating seeing you go from such a dark place to where you are now.
Thank you and your friend for me for this amazing story about his reaction to getting diagnosed. Its very profound, reaction and perspective is very important in life. It's what creates your reality✨
Love, peace
thanks tom :)
luckily ive never had a bad trip....
This doesn't mean it can't happen, trust me
@@jackb6925 of course not but I am confident in my abilities to control my journey....be aware
I've got some cool invention ideas if you want to help a broke stoner make it in the world
bro im so ha[ppy
I love you and your content, really do. But I’ve noticed an increased use of AI art. It’s distracting and seems lazy, which I know you aren’t. Thats all I got.
Next do how to stay up for long periods of time on meth and not slip into sleep deprivation psychosis.
After a few bad trips I found the meaning of life.. is to survive. And then I go into warrior mode 🫡. And then the trip normally goes good 😅 like really good it's a mind fk, the switch. Maybe it is just the act of accepting and truly facing my fear of dying idk