as a fellow californian with severe emetophobia who loves the cranberries and chartreuse green, is into alternative fashion, and is always too anxious to leave her house, i feel so seen by your videos and they've been keeping me lovely company while i've been knitting peoples late christmas gifts. u are the coolest and i'm so happy to have found your channel!! :-)
As an autistic person I totally can relate with the how uncomfortable makeup feels 😢😭 i stopped wearing foundation lately since I feel like I can’t breathe with it on🥲 Ur videos have been such a big comfort for me lately when life has been probably the hardest for me and ur videos are such a good distraction for me thank u so much❤
17:32 i had these exact same thoughts when i was about 10-12 years old! not OCD, but a very anxious autistic baptist kid. it took me so long to realize these were intrusive thoughts and not Satan. it was so great to figure out that i wasn’t the only person in the world who went through that
Oh my god the playing gta just to drive around is so real. My friends get mad at me that I’ve basically accomplished nothing in the game but driving is just so fun. Highly recommend taking a motorcycle to those big ramps at the skatepark you can go SUPER HIGH I will genuinely just do that for an hour straight.
Thank you for talking about your OCD. I suffer with compulsive intrusive thoughts as well and I always thought I was a horrible person for it. We are not our mind and I always have to tell myself that. Thank you for bringing awareness to this! I know I’m not alone ❤
immediately came rushing to this vid as soon as i got the notif hehe. thank you so much for speaking about your OCD!! as someone who has highly struggled with it from a young age, it feels very comforting to hear you talk about your own battle with it, especially since OCD can be so stigmatized and misunderstood. i also go through cycles with it too where some months it just hits a lot harder than others, or it will randomly spike after being dormant. i just wanted to remind you that you aren't alone and that the themes you're struggling with WILL pass, even if it takes time or feels never-ending. you're doing great alexah!! :D
youre so amazing alexah!!! you and quitegarish and flowlotl and joob are my fav fashion content creators this year, yall have inspired me to do what i want without worrying what other people think so thanks 4 that. also thanks for being vulnerable about your mental health, im glad u made it through that time :)
43:11 about this! there's not tons of info on it, but me and my twin are mirror because we came from 1 egg that split, so we're a mirror of eachother! i'm not sure if that's how it happens everytime. for example though my twin sister has her brain swapped too, she wrote perfectly backwards as a kid until she was older and her brain learned to swap it! :) her right brain is on the left and left brain is on the right! :D we also have gotten cavities on the same tooth but opposite sides of our mouth. it's a pretty rare thing and i've never encountered anyone else with it so that's why i was curious!!!! thank youu for replyinggg!!
@sleepiiie wait omg I used to write everything backwards as a kid too 😭 idk if that means anything in my case, but I think the whole phenomenon is pretty interesting to read about so thank you for letting me know it’s even a thing lol
U had me at stone roses! ❤ I’m 60 and I still have social anxiety… 😑 u are a breath of fresh RUclips air! Your style is completely bespoke and your voice is super calming…the 90s were really fun! We didn’t have RUclips but the internet was our technology meal ticket! It blew our minds! lol ❤❤❤ if you like stoner doom…you might like ty segal or oh sees or Jeff the brotherhood… I think Jim bowers from eyehategod is such a unique guitarist…perfect sludge…he has his own pedal! lol!
loovvvee this, I've been meaning to recommend Street: The Nylon Book of Global Style (the one with the girl on the front who's wearing that blue military style jacket) because so many of the outfits are so good and it's like a fruits style format but it's from different cities in the US and europe. A lot of the fits remind me of you and I feel like you would really love it edit: your fashion advice is the best tbh, the best thing that has made me the most fulfilled in my personal style is literally just BEING MYSEFL which sounds so corny, but like just working on myself and figuring out what I like and growing in the way I need to for me, means that while my style is not the most insane thing ever, I feel like my personal style is cool as hell
I think you are the coolest person ever. Since discovering you on tik tok I’ve been obsessed with your style and it’s been so helpful with me finding my own personal style. You are so creative and I appreciate you and what you do, you are my comfort youtuber!!!!
i wondered what it was about you that i found so comforting & we have the same moon sign! i recommend getting the pattern app, it convinced me astrology was even real
I had OCD since I was like 9 and it took me till I was like 16 to figure out what it could be but I was still terrified to tell anyone because if the thoughts terrified me, then of course they would terrify other people (spoiler they didn't because they were sexuality based lmao). I had the worst breakdown in 2020 and had to finally go to a psychiatrist and take anti depressives and anti anxiety pills. I didn't have any psychologist to guide me so I followed the recommendations of a woman specialized in OCD treatment on RUclips and now I don't have to take pills anymore and I'm doing better than I ever thought I would. The pills I was taking were really soft, like even pregnant people could take them, so they didn't make me emotionless or anything. If you're ever going through a really bad episode that you don't think you will come out of, don't be afraid to ask for help and take medicine if needed!
Thank you so very much for sharing all of this. Your videos are inspiring and, on various levels, comforting and grounding for me. Looking forward to more. You. Look. Fabulous. ✨🖤✨
You are the only youtuber I actually watch--I enjoy your company, thoughts, taste, humour, opinions, and don't worry you always speak just fine lol. I'll literally have your vids playing on repeat while I clean my room that's the only way I can do it😂
I'm probably one of your oldest subcribers, 33 y/o, so i just wanted to say that some stuff you shared i still can relate: agoraphobia, interest in fashion that is leaning into alt, not having friends besides your family... idk how to put it but i feel this little parasocial sensation that you're another sister of mine. I have a younger sister, she also deals with anxiety and we both are Adhders. Is a struggle but we really aren't alone when we have each other's company. Thank you for being able to be vulnerable in some of the questions. I'm not gonna say that "it gets better" because mental health is a constant rollercoaster of good days and really bad days, but at my age it definitely feels that things can be more manageable. I wish you so much inner peace and that joy comes your way.
i feel like SO INSPIRED by u i cant even explain how youve changed my life and u dont even know like I had this super intense psychedelic trip this past summer and i was like regressing to my child self and rediscovering myself pretty much and i came across ur account at the same time and Your style is EXACTLY like mine like especially how i would dress as a kid and i totally forgot about it till i seen your vids and now ive been dressing more like myself again and it makes me so happy like im healing my inner child and you literally impacted me so much with that i loev you and i wanna be ur friend so bad Bro the amount of similarities between us is getting creepy
I used to have pretty bad emetophobia too but then my mother decided to have another child and I was stuck with a sister who is 13y younger than me. She used to get sick during every single car ride, it was like exposure therapy. It sucked cus I had to be the one to help clean up. But it helped cus I’m not too bad anymore👍
funny how joober flowlotl and polkadotpidgeon are my current holy trinity of youtubers. if someone knows more fashion related channels that are this fun lmk
17:03 im the one that asked u this question nd i kid u not i also have ocd with similar themes😭, it's definitely a tough illness but as you said it really gets better with time. ❤
Fantastic video, thank you for being so open about your mental health. It is definitely helpful to talk about and hear that others are struggling with it too! I love how close you and your sister are!
Wellllp! This is only like the fourth comment I've ever left on a yt vid! But I wanted to say how much this one hit with me...alot said in this video that struck accord and made me go "oh other people go through that too!?" One after the other. Pigeon making me think alot lmao🖤🦇🖤
im coming around to skinny jeans but i like when they are ripped and they actually fit me comfortably, i think a lot of people have bad associations because they didn't fit but when you find fitted jeans it's actually nice and similar to leggings. Also omg I'm also an aries sun and virgo rising (I have a aries moon) :0
please try going vegan edit: i'm saying it because i know you care about sustainability and going vegan is the most sustainable and ethical option. i would love to see you try it and eventually stick with it. i love your channel. thanks
Fr it makes me feel so stupid sometimes but I’ve heard of plenty of ppl who have the same fears so then I’m like “ok so I’m not actually and insane this is an actual thing” lmaooo
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the getting outfit inspo from shake it up is REAL ASF. rocky was my biggest inspo in like 5th grade LOLLLL
as a fellow californian with severe emetophobia who loves the cranberries and chartreuse green, is into alternative fashion, and is always too anxious to leave her house, i feel so seen by your videos and they've been keeping me lovely company while i've been knitting peoples late christmas gifts. u are the coolest and i'm so happy to have found your channel!! :-)
Lackluster is not a word I would associate with you. You are SO interesting and entertaining.❤
As an autistic person I totally can relate with the how uncomfortable makeup feels 😢😭 i stopped wearing foundation lately since I feel like I can’t breathe with it on🥲 Ur videos have been such a big comfort for me lately when life has been probably the hardest for me and ur videos are such a good distraction for me thank u so much❤
17:32 i had these exact same thoughts when i was about 10-12 years old! not OCD, but a very anxious autistic baptist kid. it took me so long to realize these were intrusive thoughts and not Satan. it was so great to figure out that i wasn’t the only person in the world who went through that
Oh my god the playing gta just to drive around is so real. My friends get mad at me that I’ve basically accomplished nothing in the game but driving is just so fun. Highly recommend taking a motorcycle to those big ramps at the skatepark you can go SUPER HIGH I will genuinely just do that for an hour straight.
Thank you for talking about your OCD. I suffer with compulsive intrusive thoughts as well and I always thought I was a horrible person for it. We are not our mind and I always have to tell myself that. Thank you for bringing awareness to this! I know I’m not alone ❤
immediately came rushing to this vid as soon as i got the notif hehe. thank you so much for speaking about your OCD!! as someone who has highly struggled with it from a young age, it feels very comforting to hear you talk about your own battle with it, especially since OCD can be so stigmatized and misunderstood. i also go through cycles with it too where some months it just hits a lot harder than others, or it will randomly spike after being dormant. i just wanted to remind you that you aren't alone and that the themes you're struggling with WILL pass, even if it takes time or feels never-ending. you're doing great alexah!! :D
youre so amazing alexah!!! you and quitegarish and flowlotl and joob are my fav fashion content creators this year, yall have inspired me to do what i want without worrying what other people think so thanks 4 that. also thanks for being vulnerable about your mental health, im glad u made it through that time :)
43:11 about this!
there's not tons of info on it, but me and my twin are mirror because we came from 1 egg that split, so we're a mirror of eachother! i'm not sure if that's how it happens everytime. for example though my twin sister has her brain swapped too, she wrote perfectly backwards as a kid until she was older and her brain learned to swap it! :) her right brain is on the left and left brain is on the right! :D we also have gotten cavities on the same tooth but opposite sides of our mouth. it's a pretty rare thing and i've never encountered anyone else with it so that's why i was curious!!!! thank youu for replyinggg!!
@sleepiiie wait omg I used to write everything backwards as a kid too 😭 idk if that means anything in my case, but I think the whole phenomenon is pretty interesting to read about so thank you for letting me know it’s even a thing lol
YASS iron giant mention. I freaking love that movie so so much. And Robots that movie is so fire
genuinely watching ur videos is healing
twenty one pilots, sam smith, and calvin harris was the perfect answer you're so real
U had me at stone roses! ❤ I’m 60 and I still have social anxiety… 😑 u are a breath of fresh RUclips air! Your style is completely bespoke and your voice is super calming…the 90s were really fun! We didn’t have RUclips but the internet was our technology meal ticket! It blew our minds! lol
❤❤❤ if you like stoner doom…you might like ty segal or oh sees or Jeff the brotherhood… I think Jim bowers from eyehategod is such a unique guitarist…perfect sludge…he has his own pedal! lol!
loovvvee this, I've been meaning to recommend Street: The Nylon Book of Global Style (the one with the girl on the front who's wearing that blue military style jacket) because so many of the outfits are so good and it's like a fruits style format but it's from different cities in the US and europe. A lot of the fits remind me of you and I feel like you would really love it
edit: your fashion advice is the best tbh, the best thing that has made me the most fulfilled in my personal style is literally just BEING MYSEFL which sounds so corny, but like just working on myself and figuring out what I like and growing in the way I need to for me, means that while my style is not the most insane thing ever, I feel like my personal style is cool as hell
I think you are the coolest person ever. Since discovering you on tik tok I’ve been obsessed with your style and it’s been so helpful with me finding my own personal style. You are so creative and I appreciate you and what you do, you are my comfort youtuber!!!!
I'm so happy the algorithm made me find your channel, I love you and you deserve all the happiness in the world 🍀
omg the sparrows on the hips brings me back to my scene kid childhood!!
i wondered what it was about you that i found so comforting & we have the same moon sign! i recommend getting the pattern app, it convinced me astrology was even real
I had OCD since I was like 9 and it took me till I was like 16 to figure out what it could be but I was still terrified to tell anyone because if the thoughts terrified me, then of course they would terrify other people (spoiler they didn't because they were sexuality based lmao). I had the worst breakdown in 2020 and had to finally go to a psychiatrist and take anti depressives and anti anxiety pills. I didn't have any psychologist to guide me so I followed the recommendations of a woman specialized in OCD treatment on RUclips and now I don't have to take pills anymore and I'm doing better than I ever thought I would. The pills I was taking were really soft, like even pregnant people could take them, so they didn't make me emotionless or anything. If you're ever going through a really bad episode that you don't think you will come out of, don't be afraid to ask for help and take medicine if needed!
Thank you so very much for sharing all of this. Your videos are inspiring and, on various levels, comforting and grounding for me. Looking forward to more. You. Look. Fabulous. ✨🖤✨
You are the only youtuber I actually watch--I enjoy your company, thoughts, taste, humour, opinions, and don't worry you always speak just fine lol. I'll literally have your vids playing on repeat while I clean my room that's the only way I can do it😂
I'm probably one of your oldest subcribers, 33 y/o, so i just wanted to say that some stuff you shared i still can relate: agoraphobia, interest in fashion that is leaning into alt, not having friends besides your family... idk how to put it but i feel this little parasocial sensation that you're another sister of mine. I have a younger sister, she also deals with anxiety and we both are Adhders. Is a struggle but we really aren't alone when we have each other's company.
Thank you for being able to be vulnerable in some of the questions. I'm not gonna say that "it gets better" because mental health is a constant rollercoaster of good days and really bad days, but at my age it definitely feels that things can be more manageable. I wish you so much inner peace and that joy comes your way.
Omg I love how long you played with barbies!! That's so awesome!!!
i feel like SO INSPIRED by u i cant even explain how youve changed my life and u dont even know like I had this super intense psychedelic trip this past summer and i was like regressing to my child self and rediscovering myself pretty much and i came across ur account at the same time and Your style is EXACTLY like mine like especially how i would dress as a kid and i totally forgot about it till i seen your vids and now ive been dressing more like myself again and it makes me so happy like im healing my inner child and you literally impacted me so much with that i loev you and i wanna be ur friend so bad Bro the amount of similarities between us is getting creepy
This means a lot I never thought I could have such an impact on someone like that ❤️🙏🫂 thank you for your support and kind words 🩷
I love your content and channel. you make me feel less alone and I love your style so much. love this vid and how long it is :)
I used to have pretty bad emetophobia too but then my mother decided to have another child and I was stuck with a sister who is 13y younger than me. She used to get sick during every single car ride, it was like exposure therapy. It sucked cus I had to be the one to help clean up. But it helped cus I’m not too bad anymore👍
i love iron giant!! also i genuinely love your videos so much and ive been finding myself watching them more and more
also! lashe kinda look like avante-garde by kiss! tho they might be shorter they do look similar
i love it when it's polkadot pigeon posting day 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
funny how joober flowlotl and polkadotpidgeon are my current holy trinity of youtubers. if someone knows more fashion related channels that are this fun lmk
17:03 im the one that asked u this question nd i kid u not i also have ocd with similar themes😭, it's definitely a tough illness but as you said it really gets better with time. ❤
love your honesty. metoo getting all emotional here
My best friends fear for the longest time was also throwing up so you’re definitely not alone ❤
The first thing I thought of when you mentioned being skinny without eyebrows was models are skinny without eyebrows.💐
Fantastic video, thank you for being so open about your mental health. It is definitely helpful to talk about and hear that others are struggling with it too! I love how close you and your sister are!
Wellllp! This is only like the fourth comment I've ever left on a yt vid! But I wanted to say how much this one hit with me...alot said in this video that struck accord and made me go "oh other people go through that too!?" One after the other. Pigeon making me think alot lmao🖤🦇🖤
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im coming around to skinny jeans but i like when they are ripped and they actually fit me comfortably, i think a lot of people have bad associations because they didn't fit but when you find fitted jeans it's actually nice and similar to leggings. Also omg I'm also an aries sun and virgo rising (I have a aries moon) :0
Please do a video diving through flickr outfits with us! ❤
Ayyyyy my question made it
this was like asmr for me this morning thank u ❤
Ahh so excited for this and to get to know you more ✨
Omg your sweater and hair combo is so cute!!!
Thank you for this ❤ Good morning vid to watch with my breakfast pizza 🍕
youre my favourite channel rn 🫶🫶🫶
i thought the video wasnt loading but it was just paused and i mistook your septum piercing for the loading circle thing
your eyes look so awesome!!
6:13, gooood reminder
omg what dye is that i love your hair like that
my purpose is definitely to chill 😩
Thank u for answering my questions!💜 love ur content!
Swans is sick🤍 rlly loving ur videos!
cecily mary barker is my fav fairy artist
52:45 nice!
love u and ur channel
I too have emetophobia and I feel your pain
Thank you for sharing ily
finding out you like twenty one pilots made me SO giddy ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Growing up was SO weird mentally
True, this made me laugh lol
3:30 wow that’s genuinely so fucked up😭
please try going vegan
edit: i'm saying it because i know you care about sustainability and going vegan is the most sustainable and ethical option. i would love to see you try it and eventually stick with it. i love your channel. thanks
Fear of leaving the house and shitting ur pants and vomiting is soooooo real
Fr it makes me feel so stupid sometimes but I’ve heard of plenty of ppl who have the same fears so then I’m like “ok so I’m not actually and insane this is an actual thing” lmaooo
You might like Windhand if you like Electric Wizard! My boyfriend loves doom metal
Love windhand 🙌
omg, we have the same big 3! i’m also aries sum, virgo moon/rising!!!
omg can you do a video styling skinny jeans? 🫶🏾
yay one of my questions was put in!
U have such a relaxing voice 😎
Omg you're my Aries twin.. I never knew
Currently healing a bridge piercing… December 25th I can finally switch out my original jewelry. It’s a pain in the booty. 😅
First comment yay! I love your videos
I love caseoh too😭😭😭
Is your emetophobia apart of your ocd?
Brilliant, beautiful & a strong💪 girl❤
Bruhhhhhh Weedeater! You should check out Bongripper's Satan Worshipping Doom
Dopelord and Electric wizard too ❤️🔥
It works> ❤
Awesome 👏
Thank you 😊
I wanna be adored is SUCH a good song, hot take I like King Woman's version better ☝️☝️☝️
bro you look really really really good bald lol
Thanks 😎
Nice Video 🖤 Hope you have an wonderful day 🖤 greetings from Bremen Germany please cuddle Mona 🥰🖤
What's her instagram I can't find itt
My purpose is also to chill 🫡 28:50