First and foremost: I am SO SO GLAD that you're still here. Your presence has made my life so much better, and I know that's the case for many other people too. So I think it's safe to say that we're all grateful you decided to stick around. I really love how you used this video to show firsthand just how much life is worth living. Two points you made that really stood out to me... 1) Doing nice things for yourself. YES. THIS. SO MUCH THIS. I think society makes most of us feel like we have to earn nice things, so we don't do them for ourselves often enough. But the truth is that we don't need a reason to deserve nice things - we deserve them just because. I know my life got significantly better once I embraced the "treat yourself" mindset, and I'm glad that's been such a big contributing factor into what has made living worth it for you. 2) When you talked about traveling abroad and gaining the perspective that no matter our differences, at the end of the day, we're all human - that reminded me of my own trips to Brazil and Australia as a teenager, which helped me gain that same perspective. It's such a beautiful realization to have. (And it makes me want to take more international trips now as an adult... Canada was fun this year and I'm hoping to get to Japan sometime soon.) Your recent trip to Europe looked like so much fun, and I'm excited to see what countries you visit next! (Also, from a sheer photographer/videographer nerd point of view: The footage you got on this trip is PHENOMENAL. It makes me want to get on a plane to Europe right now and see everything you saw in person. And I absolutely love the way you edited everything together. I AM SHOOKETH, this is seriously some next level work!) Watching this video hit me so hard in the feels that I cried, because even though I've never personally experienced thoughts of wanting to end my life, I know so many people who have. And your story is going to be such a powerful resource for them. Thank you so much for not breaking your streak of 100% survival rate of bad days so that you could make this and share it with all of us.
You are thriving. Every breath you take has been and will continue to be a gift -the world is yours to enhance and explore. You are so loved. Never forget it.
OMG Kit...I am crying watching this, but tears of happines. Now, in deep depression I needed to watch this. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS VIDEO❤ have a wonderful christmas❤ love You Kit❤❤❤
🙋🏻♀️I’m from Aberdeenshire and Inverness is relatively close! I love watching your videos and I’m so glad you (and I) didn’t do that thing all those years ago. Love❤X
You're one if my favorite RUclipsrs. I was diagnosed with MDD a few years ago. My life has been quite rough. I think the roughest part is that I feel a lot of shame for this diagnosis I got years ago. Even after recovering, I feel such a great degree of shame. And it hurts my self esteem.
WOW! That's my first reaction after watching this beautiful video of yours. And I'm going to be honest, I haven't really been on the upper side of mood lately (I'm depressed and in vegetative state at the moment) so I'm just going to leave quick comment not to spoil the atmosphere, and to help in algorithm. After all, it's the algorithm that recommended me one of your videos like a year ago, and I'm so glad it did. And I hope you and all of us beautiful people here never drop below 100% survival rate. Thank you so much :)
You've got a knack for story telling and I can't help but notice you've also got some really impressive editing skills. I just started taking lamotrigine last week. It's been really lonely for me because of the stigma with taking meds. Your content has proven valuable to counteract that loneliness. Thank you for sharing your story.
Wonderful video! I just wish it didn't have to be censored because RUclips doesn't know the difference between a video advocating for and against something.
Kit... this video makes me emotional ... in winter I had intrusive thoughts attacking me about wanting to unalive.... I went to the hospital and fought back against the impulsive urges... I didn't want to give in and didn't.... but I find that when things get hard my mind defaults to some of those thoughts. I also have a fear of heights that seems magnified with this condition. even taking a long escalator or elevator up a tall building makes me nervous, even though the building is structurally sound. since I live in NYC now it's kind of hard to avoid heights. I'm just scared in general. But I hold on, hoping that things will get better. that the bad thing in my brain doesn't take me over and make me do something I will regret. I want to live life with your kind of spirit. I really do. hoping I will have good days again with good people.
I did the same choice the 28 of october last year and just like you, i will never go back, i'm gonna continue to go forward as much as i can because i found the support and i know that with them i can build my worth living life even if im 30years old
I LOVE love love your content! You are doing such a good thing by posting things like this and by still being here! My girlfriend has schizoaffective disorder and has been coming out of an episode and I have been sharing your content with her to help her get better and process her trauma! Thank you so much for this, from the bottom of my heart thank you ❤
I’m soooo glad you’re still here! Thank you for all your encouraging words. I am currently experiencing some psychosis but I know I have to stay strong. My psychiatrist increased my medication and I just have to wait for it to start working.Thank you for being such an inspiration, I love your videos!
Something interesting is that your content often seems to pop up right when I need it. I was shit faced while your community post about alcohol cane up. I was planning on unaliving before I saw this. I can't say it fixed anything but I think I'll hold on to living until this depressive episode ends and then I'll probably want to live again. It feels like something is looking out for me or deliberately placing these things into my consciousness to guide me, but it is benevolent. Sometimes I start getting the feeling its speaking to me through metaphors and symbology and that the direct experience of life is illusory. I've been missing my medication a lot and I'm sure there's something more going on to life than I've been aware of, it feels like I'm in the Truman Show being watched by a higher power orchestrating my life keeping me tethered by a string puppeteering me through my life as I pull back on the strings and tangle them into filigree webs of self deception, it gave me a Midas touch where everything I touch turns into shit. My life is free form and dissociated, I don't even really know what's going on anymore but I've decided I'll keep living. I know I won't feel this way forever and that all that is hidden from me by whatever is doing this will be revealed in due time.
i always wanted to be a filmmaker, but unfortunately my mental health has kept me from ever achieving that dream. this winter i've tried to get back into writing via short stories but with the voices it's incredibly difficult. one of the highlights of my life was a trip to europe in 2014 on the back of a manic episode that changed my life and my poor husband's life in a negative way. i love your gentle, caring heart that wants to help people. as a clefted person, your desire to help people with clefts really makes me cry
I might as well live. I'm here. Now that I am medicated properly for the first time I am beginning to find enjoyment. Turns out psychotic depression is a thing.
Thank you for being as strong as you are. Your videos help me not feel alone. And this video came at a very important time in my life. You really are special. Thank you for being you. ❤
Hi, your video inspires me. My daughter is diagnosed with SZA and you give us hope one day she might get to where you are right now.. can you please make a video on how you manage traveling, especially a place so far away. I understand breaking from routine, organizational skill and time difference is hard..so its awesome that you can do all of that
Thank you so much for this content. I’m a parent and looking for info and answers about early psychosis for my son. We caught it early so he’s stable. The one symptom we aren’t making headway on is his emotional numbness, which he says is unbearable bc with no feelings at all there is no reason to live. Have you ever experienced this? I haven’t seen you talk about this one. Thank you so much, again. You are helping so many people not feel alone.
I get emotionally numb when I’m in depressive episodes, but I know that it is temporary so my mind doesn’t go to dangerous places. But when I’m in it, it’s not good. Hard to do anything I like or enjoy. I hope the two of you can figure it out, because there has to be some kind of solution! And thanks for your kinds words. Hang in there!
Thank you! No matter what, even when you go through a bad spurt and the worst of the worst, just remember you made a difference for me giving me security that amazing good hearted smart adorable funny sensitive people like you are living well with this difficulty, and helping us all along the way. ❤
do they let you take all of your medications with you traveling overseas? Legitimate prescriptions (some tightly controlled like alpraz olam). I'm not talking about smuggling anything (all declared). I want to travel, but some of my meds are like a ball and chain.
I lost my fiancé to suicide about 1 and a half years ago. She’d been struggling for unipolar depression for a number of years and it eventually escalated into bipolar disorders where her manic episodes were characterised by so much worry and anxiety. Every day I still think about what could have been if I had been better with helping her
You did your best with what you knew at the time. That’s all any of us can do. I try to remember that with my own life all the time when I’m overcome with guilt and anxiety over things I’ve done/things that have happened to me. The world is not kind, and the evidence of that is brutal to see. I am sorry for your loss though, and I hope you can move on the best way you can. Stay strong, and I’m sure you are strong, but I’m gonna say stay strong anyways. Thanks for the comment.
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First and foremost: I am SO SO GLAD that you're still here. Your presence has made my life so much better, and I know that's the case for many other people too. So I think it's safe to say that we're all grateful you decided to stick around.
I really love how you used this video to show firsthand just how much life is worth living. Two points you made that really stood out to me...
1) Doing nice things for yourself. YES. THIS. SO MUCH THIS. I think society makes most of us feel like we have to earn nice things, so we don't do them for ourselves often enough. But the truth is that we don't need a reason to deserve nice things - we deserve them just because. I know my life got significantly better once I embraced the "treat yourself" mindset, and I'm glad that's been such a big contributing factor into what has made living worth it for you.
2) When you talked about traveling abroad and gaining the perspective that no matter our differences, at the end of the day, we're all human - that reminded me of my own trips to Brazil and Australia as a teenager, which helped me gain that same perspective. It's such a beautiful realization to have. (And it makes me want to take more international trips now as an adult... Canada was fun this year and I'm hoping to get to Japan sometime soon.) Your recent trip to Europe looked like so much fun, and I'm excited to see what countries you visit next!
(Also, from a sheer photographer/videographer nerd point of view: The footage you got on this trip is PHENOMENAL. It makes me want to get on a plane to Europe right now and see everything you saw in person. And I absolutely love the way you edited everything together. I AM SHOOKETH, this is seriously some next level work!)
Watching this video hit me so hard in the feels that I cried, because even though I've never personally experienced thoughts of wanting to end my life, I know so many people who have. And your story is going to be such a powerful resource for them. Thank you so much for not breaking your streak of 100% survival rate of bad days so that you could make this and share it with all of us.
Delighted your still. Well because you're still here. Everyone's mental health Priestes!
So glad you are still here! What a good word of encouragement to those struggling. Blessings!
You are thriving. Every breath you take has been and will continue to be a gift -the world is yours to enhance and explore. You are so loved. Never forget it.
You are truely a inspiration for all of us who are suffering from this illness. Life is worth living.
OMG Kit...I am crying watching this, but tears of happines. Now, in deep depression I needed to watch this. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS VIDEO❤ have a wonderful christmas❤ love You Kit❤❤❤
So so glad I could help, makes me happy I made it after all. I hope you have a wonderful Christmas as well
🙋🏻♀️I’m from Aberdeenshire and Inverness is relatively close! I love watching your videos and I’m so glad you (and I) didn’t do that thing all those years ago. Love❤X
You're one if my favorite RUclipsrs. I was diagnosed with MDD a few years ago. My life has been quite rough. I think the roughest part is that I feel a lot of shame for this diagnosis I got years ago. Even after recovering, I feel such a great degree of shame. And it hurts my self esteem.
Thank you for making this channel. I also have schizo affective and althought it can be hard at times I have to find a reason to keep living
WOW! That's my first reaction after watching this beautiful video of yours. And I'm going to be honest, I haven't really been on the upper side of mood lately (I'm depressed and in vegetative state at the moment) so I'm just going to leave quick comment not to spoil the atmosphere, and to help in algorithm. After all, it's the algorithm that recommended me one of your videos like a year ago, and I'm so glad it did. And I hope you and all of us beautiful people here never drop below 100% survival rate. Thank you so much :)
I appreciate you so much Kinzhe and I love your comments! I'm glad you liked the video!!! Thanks so much!
You've got a knack for story telling and I can't help but notice you've also got some really impressive editing skills. I just started taking lamotrigine last week. It's been really lonely for me because of the stigma with taking meds. Your content has proven valuable to counteract that loneliness. Thank you for sharing your story.
Wonderful video! I just wish it didn't have to be censored because RUclips doesn't know the difference between a video advocating for and against something.
Yup I agree, and thanks!
Kit... this video makes me emotional ... in winter I had intrusive thoughts attacking me about wanting to unalive.... I went to the hospital and fought back against the impulsive urges... I didn't want to give in and didn't.... but I find that when things get hard my mind defaults to some of those thoughts.
I also have a fear of heights that seems magnified with this condition. even taking a long escalator or elevator up a tall building makes me nervous, even though the building is structurally sound.
since I live in NYC now it's kind of hard to avoid heights. I'm just scared in general.
But I hold on, hoping that things will get better. that the bad thing in my brain doesn't take me over and make me do something I will regret.
I want to live life with your kind of spirit. I really do.
hoping I will have good days again with good people.
I am glad that you didn't end it and that you are doing something with your life. ❤️🙏
I'm really happy to see you living your best life.
You make me cry… in a hopeful way, More than anything to know there’s a light
Always a light 💡
I did the same choice the 28 of october last year and just like you, i will never go back, i'm gonna continue to go forward as much as i can because i found the support and i know that with them i can build my worth living life even if im 30years old
I LOVE love love your content! You are doing such a good thing by posting things like this and by still being here!
My girlfriend has schizoaffective disorder and has been coming out of an episode and I have been sharing your content with her to help her get better and process her trauma!
Thank you so much for this, from the bottom of my heart thank you ❤
@@canadia5017 ❤️
I’m soooo glad you’re still here! Thank you for all your encouraging words. I am currently experiencing some psychosis but I know I have to stay strong. My psychiatrist increased my medication and I just have to wait for it to start working.Thank you for being such an inspiration, I love your videos!
Glad I can help, and best of luck with your symptoms! You got this 💪
@@SchizoKitzo Thank you Kit!
Something interesting is that your content often seems to pop up right when I need it. I was shit faced while your community post about alcohol cane up. I was planning on unaliving before I saw this. I can't say it fixed anything but I think I'll hold on to living until this depressive episode ends and then I'll probably want to live again. It feels like something is looking out for me or deliberately placing these things into my consciousness to guide me, but it is benevolent. Sometimes I start getting the feeling its speaking to me through metaphors and symbology and that the direct experience of life is illusory. I've been missing my medication a lot and I'm sure there's something more going on to life than I've been aware of, it feels like I'm in the Truman Show being watched by a higher power orchestrating my life keeping me tethered by a string puppeteering me through my life as I pull back on the strings and tangle them into filigree webs of self deception, it gave me a Midas touch where everything I touch turns into shit. My life is free form and dissociated, I don't even really know what's going on anymore but I've decided I'll keep living. I know I won't feel this way forever and that all that is hidden from me by whatever is doing this will be revealed in due time.
i always wanted to be a filmmaker, but unfortunately my mental health has kept me from ever achieving that dream. this winter i've tried to get back into writing via short stories but with the voices it's incredibly difficult. one of the highlights of my life was a trip to europe in 2014 on the back of a manic episode that changed my life and my poor husband's life in a negative way. i love your gentle, caring heart that wants to help people. as a clefted person, your desire to help people with clefts really makes me cry
I might as well live. I'm here. Now that I am medicated properly for the first time I am beginning to find enjoyment. Turns out psychotic depression is a thing.
Thanks Kit. ! Most beautiful video I've seen all year. !
Wow, thank you!
Amazing. Insightful. Brave. Vulnerable. Courageous! A brilliant 2024 to you!!! 💜
Thank you so much!
Thank you for being as strong as you are. Your videos help me not feel alone. And this video came at a very important time in my life. You really are special. Thank you for being you. ❤
I feel like we're friends. I'm so glad you're here
Oh wow that was needed. It brought me to tears. Thank you Kit.
I keep coming back to this video, and to your channel. Thank you.
You’re very welcome
Happy New Year! Stephen and I talk about your content a lot. Hope you and Stephen collaborate in 2024. Respect!
Oh my gosh thanks so much I’m so glad to hear that! And sounds like an awesome idea to me. Respect right back! Y’all’s content is awesome too ^_^
Thank you, I didn't know I needed this video.
Glad it helped!
Hi, your video inspires me. My daughter is diagnosed with SZA and you give us hope one day she might get to where you are right now.. can you please make a video on how you manage traveling, especially a place so far away. I understand breaking from routine, organizational skill and time difference is hard..so its awesome that you can do all of that
I made this one a while back, maybe it will help
ruclips.net/video/4rIHufQBZCs/видео.html
This is so inspiring!!! This video is awesome. Thank you for sharing ❤
The music you used throughout the whole video was perfect
Love hearing this, thank you!
@@SchizoKitzo yw
This video is so awesome, thank you for making it
Thanks so much!
Thanks so much for that inspiring video!
Great video life is worth it and inspirational
Thank you😊😊❤
Thank you so much for this content. I’m a parent and looking for info and answers about early psychosis for my son. We caught it early so he’s stable. The one symptom we aren’t making headway on is his emotional numbness, which he says is unbearable bc with no feelings at all there is no reason to live. Have you ever experienced this? I haven’t seen you talk about this one. Thank you so much, again. You are helping so many people not feel alone.
I get emotionally numb when I’m in depressive episodes, but I know that it is temporary so my mind doesn’t go to dangerous places. But when I’m in it, it’s not good. Hard to do anything I like or enjoy. I hope the two of you can figure it out, because there has to be some kind of solution! And thanks for your kinds words. Hang in there!
Thank you! No matter what, even when you go through a bad spurt and the worst of the worst, just remember you made a difference for me giving me security that amazing good hearted smart adorable funny sensitive people like you are living well with this difficulty, and helping us all along the way. ❤
It’s a beautiful message
3:35 that’s my local town of Greenock 😇🏴 glad you where here and the weather didn’t seem to bad haha 😜
It was lovely! The weather was awesome.
do they let you take all of your medications with you traveling overseas? Legitimate prescriptions (some tightly controlled like alpraz olam). I'm not talking about smuggling anything (all declared). I want to travel, but some of my meds are like a ball and chain.
Hi Schizo 😊 I was just wondering I’m Schizoeffective myself. What do you do for work?
I lost my fiancé to suicide about 1 and a half years ago. She’d been struggling for unipolar depression for a number of years and it eventually escalated into bipolar disorders where her manic episodes were characterised by so much worry and anxiety.
Every day I still think about what could have been if I had been better with helping her
You did your best with what you knew at the time. That’s all any of us can do. I try to remember that with my own life all the time when I’m overcome with guilt and anxiety over things I’ve done/things that have happened to me. The world is not kind, and the evidence of that is brutal to see.
I am sorry for your loss though, and I hope you can move on the best way you can. Stay strong, and I’m sure you are strong, but I’m gonna say stay strong anyways. Thanks for the comment.
Thank you! It was very inspiring! Keep slayin!
Will do!
I got energy, thanks
thank u
What an awesome story!!!!
Thank you!!!!
Goodness.
Life may be worth continuing but is it worth starting?
Gawd i love this video!!!!
Thank you!!! It’s one of my all time favs!
Nice!! Must have been awesome!
I glad it has worked out for you, but it is not the same for me.
Beautiful
just keep swimming :)
Team SK 🎉
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Hey,just want to ask,are you on medication? Because im schizophrenia as well.im about to off medication
Visit Italy, it's a good place
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I love labradors
Jesus loves you
Shes not religious
I dont condone you going to Jamaica. It is a dangerous hellhole
i’m amazed you made it through college..its uplifting
I’m so glad I did too!
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