No other song I’ve heard has spoken the true feelings of addiction. I heard it while I was drinking, while sober I listen to it to remember why I quit. Sober since 2/15/18
Been clean for a while off pills and other things every time i go to work in the morning this songs plays on the radio. Finally found it. It just hits me in my feels. Nirvana type level! Wish it was all 90’s music again
Everyone is moved by this song for its anti-drug anthem, but when it came out, I was a music major in college, and I was freaking out because they used a 5/4 time signature during the chorus in a rock/pop song on the radio. Their drummer was amazing!!! This song is still absolutely incredible!
Lol! I’m a former druggie and music college graduate and yes the 5/4 is more unique. The lyrics are fairly juvenile;and that’s fine so we’re the Beatles and allot of bands) But the signatures causes swells that if his voice just had a bit more about it, just a bit more give, this could of been an amazingly sung song. As it is it’s really cool and unique and I love it. But I can do much see where it could improve yanno.
I'm a drummer. I'm sure you have heard Dream Theater. If you like progressive rock w odd time signatures listen to Dream Theatre specifically the album Scenes from a Memory. Metropolis. Probably the best progressive rock ever available for public
Glad to hear you're clean. I wish my sis would just try. We had her for a month, yesterday I filed a missing persons report. Addiction is a mf to see outside of yourself.
Congratulations now your at a year and a half. Almost at a month after relapsing for the last year over and over. Had two years clean and fucked up. Keep it going !
It was some of the reason tho I wasn't on anything when I wrecked but had used at earlier day and for long time. It put me losing my husband who used too. Now I'm prescribed it 3x a day b/c of my accident. Nvr wanted this 15 yrs ago but I'm strong b/c my son is 15 yea I wrecked when he was a wk from 7 mos. It's not worth it. It uses u and kills the person u are and kills those we love. Who wants to feel like the only connection u have ever had is only felt halfway thru a song b/c u lose someone u love b/c of something u. could've gotten free help to prevent wth man I mean I'm not talking about connecting thru this song but songs that scream what u long for.. what u wish was able to come true.. Like a person u lost because u were stupid and didn't get it. Don't mess up a healthy mind. Don't fog it. I didn't get to change his diapers, introduce him to my cooking, see him off his first day of school nothing but even tho I'm broken I'm strong and I haven't abused anything in over 8 yrs. God has had my back. He's made me completely bulletproof and my son and I have a solid relationship and he looks identical to me.
I remember my mom rocking out to this album man how time flies, I was coming home from work and far behind was on and I was like man this band was timeless
anyone battling addictions can relate to this song along with those who have to sit back and watch our loved ones battle it. there is nothing I can do for my family members and friends that are addicted and It breaks my heart. this song hits home 👌
I’ve watched her battle for 40 years. She gets so fucking defensive. She is so lucky to be alive. I don’t want it NO MORE!!!! I’ll be there for her but I will have to pray for her. She told me today that she is done with it. I guess she’ll finish off the remaining bag. CMETH. I’m becoming so frustrated. Hard to believe that she has a job still. Her mind is altered and I don’t know if she will be “normal “ again. I love you Annie
Don't give up on them is the best thing you can do. Addiction is 99% mental. Hate the drug not the person. Tough love is the only way you can truly help them. The addiction owns the mind whether they realize it or not. Don't enable them but never turn your back on them that's the worst thing you can do
@@iggystardust9236 Hey Iggy. Thanks for the follow up. Unfortunately she, (not my sister by the way) isn’t making any progress in trying to clean up. I’m just there for her, as that is all I can do. ☮️
I heard this song about a million times and never actually listens to the words until now. I battle my addictions everyday everyday it's a battle for anyone that has addiction in there life. And it takes s much stronger person to not go back and use it takes every ounce of strength to fight it. You'll be in heaven for a second but than it brings you a lifetime of hell.
It's been 12 years now, this song was so very helpful in my battle back then. I remember my 18 year old self screaming the lyrics. Stay strong it gets better. Much better in my case as a family man its hard to believe the battle I once dealt with daily
my brother he has 1 an it herts me to see him that way but I'm the enabler and I don't know how to help him I have lost a lot of friend from meth and a lot of other stuff
George Gonzalez. Don't you push your drugs in my face or I'm going you put you in your place!! Using drugs doesn't make one a bad person.. Just like going to a church doesn't make you a good person Amber and George.. Don't recommend nor condone drug use either.. There are far more evils in this world as we both know.. Why? People use drugs maily to numb pains , to escape and also to elevate their minds... Hmmmm i will give you time to process...
"And I tell you now how I feel inside. Fuck you. It's for you." Many people swear for no reason. But this has to be the most hear felt " Fuck you" in any song. especially when you can relate to everything in here.
This is hands down my absolute favorite album of all time...as a singer, I woke up and sang the entire album every morning for about a year strait....it was my breakfast...lol always started my day perfectly.... those were good days....
John Henry on the "classic rock" station it's a shit shame all of us who grew up from the 70s to the 90s that enjoyed the rock music from or generation get wired looks from kids thank God my kids know what good music is because of what I did for a living and was raised on good rock music and metal since my dad was military and would hear all kinds of rock and metal in his shop and he knew I was a rocker and metal head.
Not only the drumming and his voice and lyrics, but omg that screaming guitar solo resonates the personal pain . I'm going through it today and I've had this on repeat all day and whenever it gets to that solo. It's like I feel it in my soul. Frfr. I miss music 🎶🎶🎵 that can make me feel it in my soul
it's 3 am my mind is a bit foggy but what if You and Far Behind are the same story from the other person's perspective? "This pain in my heart is all mine, it's mine all alone" vs "Now maybe some would say you're left with what you had, But you couldn't share the pain" "I'll never cry for you people, I'll push you, Push away" vs "I didn't mean to treat you bad, But you left me far behind" "I'll never care, I'll never believe my people, I'll tell you what I say" vs "Your friends they stand around they watch your crumble, As you falter to the ground"
Explains why I've always listened to them one after the other and back to back during that time. Far behind was me, You was her. I still remember how pretty the trees were that day, and the last kiss laying in the grass looking at the sky in the smoke spot in the woods just outside of school skipping class with a ghost, looking at the log I was staning on when she kissed me the last time blaring these songs from some headphones a friend stole from my ex before her.
Hell yeah... if things have changed, be the change you want. Nobody will take care of you but you.. nobody.. you are want you want to be. Good luck to you Darion... I am in the same cyclical boat of bull*hit... let’s turn it and make us great again..
You know, Im a Latin American, my mother tongue is spanish so, at the times of this song, I thought that this song are one of the stereotypicals love's songs...today I remember it for no logical reasson, understand the lyrics and wow, never imagine that this could be so...deep. Also, my deepest hug and moral endorse to all that are now fighting with addictions. (Me too) Sorry, I still completly taken by surprise with this song.
Today is my 3 day being pill free after an eight year Lorcet addiction. It's probably the toughest thing that I've been through in my 42 years. I never thought it would lead to this. From here on out, "I'll take everything as it comes my way".
The pain in my heart is very real too... I have the utmost empathy for anyone battling a heroin/opiate addiction or anyone with any type of addiction really but an addiction to opiates is a very very vicious cycle. Ive lost 10 years of my life and multiple swings at trying to get off of them through every avenue imaginable. Methadone being extremely terrible experience.. and even with this utter detest for the long term effects of opiates, 6 months trying to ween down on buprenorphine, I STILL want to use, im still physically addicted, and it wont let go... Im fighting on the front lines to defeat this evilness & even going to meetings 5 nights a week and knowing im not on the front lines fighting alone, I still feel very alone in this fight.
You can do it man. I've grasped the fact that it's a lifelong battle, and that even after you've stopped and gotten through w/d's and re-establishing your life, it's something that you deal with every day. You just have to stay strong. I know you can do it!
ecstasiaburdened Thanks In the last 10 months I've weaned down with the help of Buprenorphine (Subutex) basically the much better and cheaper cousin to Suboxone because it just has the opiate without the needless naloxone/narcan crap in it that was making my liver sick. I started at 32mg a day and im down to 2mg a day. Cravings under control and feeling so much better. I got my life back after 10 long years. I am so grateful and so happy. Thank you SO MUCH for the kind words. It seems more people enjoy putting "junkies" as they would say, even in recovery, down. Which is sad because it is a progressive disease that kills people. Anyone who has never been not just addicted but dependent on opiates should understand the disease portion. I was started on Fentanyl, Morphine, & Dilaudid at 18yrs old legally from my Dr's and im 29 now. I have to go to meetings every other day still (well I don't have to but I like the support and occasional beautiful females I meet ;-) ) But thank you! Im really doing good! I got my daughter back and life Is good again. This can be beat if u want it bad enough and have the right resources. Since my addiction and dependence were so bad I had to hit 3 ways. IOP (Intensive outpatient rehab), An Addiction specialist Dr who helped me taper, & family all had to be on board! But its possible if you want it!
ecstasiaburdened Just takes one good, great, amazing day to be ruined by the little voice that says, "Imagine how much more fun this would have been on morphine." After 6 years clean, that little voice never goes away. Oddly enough, it doesn't bother me on the shitty days, just the good ones.
Jon Wright I am so happy for you!! For me, "wanting to beat it bad enough" wasn't good enough, though. I could want it all day, but at the end of that day, I wanted to not be sick more than I wanted to get sober. That's the truth of it. It helped me a lot to tell myself and, in turn, to know that I was strong enough to do it, that I was stronger than the dependence. I don't know why or how that helped me lol, but it did. Along with having a great family who judged me, yes, but never let me feel alone or ostracized with it. I won't say "Good luck", but I will say "You got this!"
ecstasiaburdened its all in your head. youre just used to life like that. all you have to do is accept the change and ull beat it. addiction isnt real. its just an excuse
whens the last time anyone heard an overtly anti-drug message on a song on the radio? government tells radio stations what and what not to play. government owns the prison and healthcare system. do the math
i remember my oldest brother would play this in the car on our drive to school in the morning, He was a senior, my other brother a junior, and me a freshman... good times
I first got rocking w/candlebox because of my ex- still grateful- I listen today and play it for my kids because it's real... My dad killed himself in '97, but when I heard this song, it spoke to me 🥀 Thank you for your message, its helped me relate to my kid's... And helped me reconcile my father's suicide... That's probably not what you were going for, but I appreciate it very much
I miss the early to mid 90's Candle box was one of the bands I really thought would have made it...I think they must not of been able to deal with the extreme fame that goes with a top album... sad
Not only did I have addictions myself when I was younger but I watched and tried to help my teenage son as he let addiction grab hold of him...I remembered this song and was able to find it here on RUclips and shared it with him on his FaceBook page...he told me he heard the message both in the song as well as the reason why I sent it to him and he entered a rehab program. That was three years ago and though we both struggle to stay strong everyday, we are winning in my opinion and I feel the message in this song had a large part in this....thanks for releasing it and hopefully it has helped others.
Recovering from meth after 11 years of use an have always known this song but wasnt til right before I got clean i really listened to the lyrics month later is when I put it the pipe away an through my dope down the toliet listen to this song all the time
same seen them and soul asylum in concert kind of what inspired me to work in the music industry and did for 10 years till my health got to a point that i cant i enjoyed it but came at a cost lost 2 marriages one because i was always gone working and my last marriage was because of drugs and cheating my ex wife was the one on drugs and cheating.
For me this song expresses the struggle and battle within. It's Not only about taking on the pain of others around u which whom u love that battle addiction, but furthermore the addiction u have within yourself. It shows the will and hope to have the stength to take on all those battles and to conquer them solely within yourself but yet somehow the grasp it has on u never truely fades. U can fight and resist all you want but once u fall under its spell the battle only continues 10 fold. To me in the end when he says its all for you it means for the addiction. The sacrfices we make sometimes dont always result in a happy ending; and facing the reality of that is truly devastating. He is owning up to the intentions of wanting to change but ultimately sacrficing everything,most of all himself, because of being overtaken by addiction. So sad but true.
the chills of withdrawal all of a sudden combine with the chills you get when you hear him say i don’t want your drugs anymore, and it turns from debilitating to liberating.. amazing what the mind can do, how much truly is “physical”?
this is such a sweet video. I've been searching for this song ever since i first heard it on 104.9 here in fulton IL. Thank you so much for uploading. Now i can't wait to buy the album. i so love candlebox. They're an amaising band and this song sends out a deliberate and clear message to all the drug dealers out their. Thank you agin for uploading.
This whole album was heavily influenced by the overdose death of Andrew Wood. He was the lead singer of Mother Love Bone. The remaining members of the band ended up with a new lead singer and formed Pearl Jam
when I see homeless people on the streets with meth additions it reminds me what I went through. even thou I had the chance to pull myself out of it. I feel some can't or don't want to an it hurts
Still listening and loving Candlebox in 2024 ❤️
Candlebox was way ahead of their time with this album. They never got the credit they deserved.
Agreed 💯💯✊
This album went triple platinum.
@@thetemplelaboratory as it should, it's a masterpiece!
I agree 💯
Right on the money !!!
No other song I’ve heard has spoken the true feelings of addiction. I heard it while I was drinking, while sober I listen to it to remember why I quit. Sober since 2/15/18
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Been clean for a while off pills and other things every time i go to work in the morning this songs plays on the radio. Finally found it. It just hits me in my feels. Nirvana type level! Wish it was all 90’s music again
Awesome wish u the best
Everyone is moved by this song for its anti-drug anthem, but when it came out, I was a music major in college, and I was freaking out because they used a 5/4 time signature during the chorus in a rock/pop song on the radio. Their drummer was amazing!!! This song is still absolutely incredible!
6/8 not 5/4 but agree that's it's awesome to see in a hit rock song
Lol! I’m a former druggie and music college graduate and yes the 5/4 is more unique. The lyrics are fairly juvenile;and that’s fine so we’re the Beatles and allot of bands) But the signatures causes swells that if his voice just had a bit more about it, just a bit more give, this could of been an amazingly sung song. As it is it’s really cool and unique and I love it. But I can do much see where it could improve yanno.
I'm a drummer. I'm sure you have heard Dream Theater. If you like progressive rock w odd time signatures listen to Dream Theatre specifically the album Scenes from a Memory. Metropolis. Probably the best progressive rock ever available for public
@@EnDependance123 Easy now...I could throw some Tool up against Dream Theatre and seriously compete with that claim
Danny is incredible as well just different music
I quit drugs about 5 months ago & forgot about the ""Fuck You, I don't want it no more" lyric & it just brought tears to my eyes...
Merkin678 5 years and 5 months later. How ya doin?
Merkin678 That line is why I stopped watching the official video and found this one, without it the song loses too vital a piece of the song
I got tears in mine because I let them back in. ☮❤😀
I hope you’re all doing well with your recoveries! 🙏❤️✊
Just got out of rehab Wendsday. Looking forward to new beginnings.
Great song.
candlebox will not be forgotten.
never
agreed NEVER FORGET CANDLEBOX
just saw them live. great show.
lol hell yea
hell yeahhhhh thumbs up 4 candlebox
38 and this never gets old. Love this album and passing it down to the next generation.
I celebrate my year clean and sober tonight... This song speaks to my soul for the one's who've lost the battle to addiction.
Glad to hear you're clean. I wish my sis would just try. We had her for a month, yesterday I filed a missing persons report. Addiction is a mf to see outside of yourself.
Congratulations now your at a year and a half. Almost at a month after relapsing for the last year over and over. Had two years clean and fucked up. Keep it going !
Hope all are doing well with your recoveries! 🙏❤️✊
Peace to u sister/brother. My lifestyle brought me to my kneez. I'm paralyzed from the chestdown.
It was some of the reason tho I wasn't on anything when I wrecked but had used at earlier day and for long time. It put me losing my husband who used too. Now I'm prescribed it 3x a day b/c of my accident. Nvr wanted this 15 yrs ago but I'm strong b/c my son is 15 yea I wrecked when he was a wk from 7 mos. It's not worth it. It uses u and kills the person u are and kills those we love. Who wants to feel like the only connection u have ever had is only felt halfway thru a song b/c u lose someone u love b/c of something u. could've gotten free help to prevent wth man I mean I'm not talking about connecting thru this song but songs that scream what u long for.. what u wish was able to come true.. Like a person u lost because u were stupid and didn't get it. Don't mess up a healthy mind. Don't fog it. I didn't get to change his diapers, introduce him to my cooking, see him off his first day of school nothing but even tho I'm broken I'm strong and I haven't abused anything in over 8 yrs. God has had my back. He's made me completely bulletproof and my son and I have a solid relationship and he looks identical to me.
"This pain in my heart is all MINE!"
I just love that lyric. I own my pain, nobody can have it but me. A love story of sorts.
I'm glad I'm not alone in this feeling. All the best to you
Unfortunately I've shared my pain with many, few could handle it
this song really goes to heart...you can feel it in your soul.
exactly!
Yes it does
Absolutely
I remember my mom rocking out to this album man how time flies, I was coming home from work and far behind was on and I was like man this band was timeless
Me too.got my love of Candlebox from my mom
This song sounds as good as it did 20 years ago when I was 16.I’ll never get tired of listening to this
anyone battling addictions can relate to this song along with those who have to sit back and watch our loved ones battle it. there is nothing I can do for my family members and friends that are addicted and It breaks my heart. this song hits home 👌
This is exactly what I'm seeing in my sister. 5 years of meth
I’ve watched her battle for 40 years. She gets so fucking defensive. She is so lucky to be alive. I don’t want it NO MORE!!!! I’ll be there for her but I will have to pray for her. She told me today that she is done with it. I guess she’ll finish off the remaining bag. CMETH. I’m becoming so frustrated. Hard to believe that she has a job still. Her mind is altered and I don’t know if she will be “normal “ again. I love you Annie
Don't give up on them is the best thing you can do. Addiction is 99% mental. Hate the drug not the person. Tough love is the only way you can truly help them. The addiction owns the mind whether they realize it or not. Don't enable them but never turn your back on them that's the worst thing you can do
@@TheSyarman How is your sister doing?? I hope you'll see this. I'm curious. Hope all is well.
@@iggystardust9236 Hey Iggy. Thanks for the follow up. Unfortunately she, (not my sister by the way) isn’t making any progress in trying to clean up. I’m just there for her, as that is all I can do. ☮️
most under rated album of the 90's
Simon Glen Coco Alice in Chains Sap
Simon Glen Coco agreed
3eb self titled takes that honor...lol
That's awesome congrats!!
I doubt it, I remember this being on the radio all the time. I bought it.
Candlebox is so underrated.
I think the uncensored version like this speaks louder than the radio edit. Thanks for putting up the real song
I agree. I need to feel the f 💣
I heard this song about a million times and never actually listens to the words until now.
I battle my addictions everyday everyday it's a battle for anyone that has addiction in there life. And it takes s much stronger person to not go back and use it takes every ounce of strength to fight it. You'll be in heaven for a second but than it brings you a lifetime of hell.
soooo very true ❤ one day at a time
It's been 12 years now, this song was so very helpful in my battle back then. I remember my 18 year old self screaming the lyrics. Stay strong it gets better. Much better in my case as a family man its hard to believe the battle I once dealt with daily
yup. truer words have never been spoken brother. \m/
my brother he has 1 an it herts me to see him that way but I'm the enabler and I don't know how to help him I have lost a lot of friend from meth and a lot of other stuff
George Gonzalez. Don't you push your drugs in my face or I'm going you put you in your place!! Using drugs doesn't make one a bad person.. Just like going to a church doesn't make you a good person Amber and George.. Don't recommend nor condone drug use either.. There are far more evils in this world as we both know.. Why? People use drugs maily to numb pains , to escape and also to elevate their minds... Hmmmm i will give you time to process...
one of my all time favorites!! Love the 90's 😆👍😆
He sung his heart out on this song. I love it !
3:07 is one of the most gut wrenching, painful happiness in music history
"And I tell you now how I feel inside. Fuck you. It's for you." Many people swear for no reason. But this has to be the most hear felt " Fuck you" in any song. especially when you can relate to everything in here.
+chef josh you think
FUCK YOU its for you
+April Estrada well i swear tough shit if you don't like it
chef josh fuck yeah bro! Its for US!
absolutely!
Truest comment ever. My favorite part of the song! Will always love this band!
This is hands down my absolute favorite album of all time...as a singer, I woke up and sang the entire album every morning for about a year strait....it was my breakfast...lol always started my day perfectly.... those were good days....
You can tell in his voice he really means the lyrics- where is this kind of energy in modern day radio?
absolutely agree
John Henry on the "classic rock" station it's a shit shame all of us who grew up from the 70s to the 90s that enjoyed the rock music from or generation get wired looks from kids thank God my kids know what good music is because of what I did for a living and was raised on good rock music and metal since my dad was military and would hear all kinds of rock and metal in his shop and he knew I was a rocker and metal head.
holy shit, this song just touched my soul.
Not only the drumming and his voice and lyrics, but omg that screaming guitar solo resonates the personal pain . I'm going through it today and I've had this on repeat all day and whenever it gets to that solo. It's like I feel it in my soul. Frfr. I miss music 🎶🎶🎵 that can make me feel it in my soul
it's 3 am my mind is a bit foggy but what if You and Far Behind are the same story from the other person's perspective?
"This pain in my heart is all mine, it's mine all alone" vs "Now maybe some would say you're left with what you had, But you couldn't share the pain"
"I'll never cry for you people, I'll push you, Push away" vs "I didn't mean to treat you bad, But you left me far behind"
"I'll never care, I'll never believe my people, I'll tell you what I say" vs "Your friends they stand around they watch your crumble, As you falter to the ground"
That's because it is. :)
I like it, and now when I hear either song I'll hear them as one.
Explains why I've always listened to them one after the other and back to back during that time. Far behind was me, You was her. I still remember how pretty the trees were that day, and the last kiss laying in the grass looking at the sky in the smoke spot in the woods just outside of school skipping class with a ghost, looking at the log I was staning on when she kissed me the last time blaring these songs from some headphones a friend stole from my ex before her.
Dang..Could be. Nice observation!
they are from 2 perspectives I listen to them back to back because it's like a story
This song keeps me off drugs. 1 year sober.
Praying 2 years now~ Bless Up
Good for you 5 years sober you can do it.
Hell yeah... if things have changed, be the change you want. Nobody will take care of you but you.. nobody.. you are want you want to be. Good luck to you Darion... I am in the same cyclical boat of bull*hit... let’s turn it and make us great again..
You keep yourself off drugs..,
Proud if you Brother,
I hope you’re still straight.
25 years here off of the horse.
this song brings back memories of when I was a kid my mom used to listen to this song over and over again
+Sara Ideker Same here. Gotta love the nostalgia.
God the emotion behind this song......
Wow this song gives me chills.
+Amber Skye what's up haha
Every time
You know, Im a Latin American, my mother tongue is spanish so, at the times of this song, I thought that this song are one of the stereotypicals love's songs...today I remember it for no logical reasson, understand the lyrics and wow, never imagine that this could be so...deep.
Also, my deepest hug and moral endorse to all that are now fighting with addictions. (Me too)
Sorry, I still completly taken by surprise with this song.
Candlebox is so fukn REAL..I literally just went online and bought a cool T shirt from them...support the bands that give us this great music!! 🤘🤘
Don't worry people like u will keep it alive
His voice is one of kind. Great band. Brings back memories of middle school.
God, I'll never stop loving candlebox.. got to see them live in July. Best moment ever.
love this song...totally describes what im going thru and feeling right now at this point of time in my life
Drugs are out
Recovery is in!
Great lyrics and piece and sound... with profound message. Powerful.
I know this sounds cliche... but damn man 90s had bangers everywhere
This is About Beating Addiction! !! It's Real ..and Feels like that in it and After its a lifetime of misery
Yup I bet most don't know that they were always doped up like the rest of Seattle
Most underrated song EVER!!!!
Powerful as it was when it came out. Underrated gem of a song.
Today is my 3 day being pill free after an eight year Lorcet addiction. It's probably the toughest thing that I've been through in my 42 years. I never thought it would lead to this. From here on out, "I'll take everything as it comes my way".
4 years later. Did you get clean
@@LinksQuest Yes I have, thanks for asking.
@@smitty31560 You had said it was your third day at the time, and that first week is rough!! Good job 👍 three years sober myself
One of the all time favorite song!!
I've never heard this cut before today, I definitely dig it.
Thank you for this song.
🖤 I still love it
The pain in my heart is very real too... I have the utmost empathy for anyone battling a heroin/opiate addiction or anyone with any type of addiction really but an addiction to opiates is a very very vicious cycle. Ive lost 10 years of my life and multiple swings at trying to get off of them through every avenue imaginable. Methadone being extremely terrible experience.. and even with this utter detest for the long term effects of opiates, 6 months trying to ween down on buprenorphine, I STILL want to use, im still physically addicted, and it wont let go... Im fighting on the front lines to defeat this evilness & even going to meetings 5 nights a week and knowing im not on the front lines fighting alone, I still feel very alone in this fight.
You can do it man. I've grasped the fact that it's a lifelong battle, and that even after you've stopped and gotten through w/d's and re-establishing your life, it's something that you deal with every day. You just have to stay strong. I know you can do it!
ecstasiaburdened
Thanks In the last 10 months I've weaned down with the help of Buprenorphine (Subutex) basically the much better and cheaper cousin to Suboxone because it just has the opiate without the needless naloxone/narcan crap in it that was making my liver sick. I started at 32mg a day and im down to 2mg a day. Cravings under control and feeling so much better. I got my life back after 10 long years. I am so grateful and so happy. Thank you SO MUCH for the kind words. It seems more people enjoy putting "junkies" as they would say, even in recovery, down. Which is sad because it is a progressive disease that kills people. Anyone who has never been not just addicted but dependent on opiates should understand the disease portion. I was started on Fentanyl, Morphine, & Dilaudid at 18yrs old legally from my Dr's and im 29 now.
I have to go to meetings every other day still (well I don't have to but I like the support and occasional beautiful females I meet ;-) ) But thank you! Im really doing good! I got my daughter back and life Is good again. This can be beat if u want it bad enough and have the right resources. Since my addiction and dependence were so bad I had to hit 3 ways. IOP (Intensive outpatient rehab), An Addiction specialist Dr who helped me taper, & family all had to be on board! But its possible if you want it!
ecstasiaburdened Just takes one good, great, amazing day to be ruined by the little voice that says, "Imagine how much more fun this would have been on morphine." After 6 years clean, that little voice never goes away. Oddly enough, it doesn't bother me on the shitty days, just the good ones.
Jon Wright I am so happy for you!! For me, "wanting to beat it bad enough" wasn't good enough, though. I could want it all day, but at the end of that day, I wanted to not be sick more than I wanted to get sober. That's the truth of it. It helped me a lot to tell myself and, in turn, to know that I was strong enough to do it, that I was stronger than the dependence. I don't know why or how that helped me lol, but it did. Along with having a great family who judged me, yes, but never let me feel alone or ostracized with it. I won't say "Good luck", but I will say "You got this!"
ecstasiaburdened its all in your head. youre just used to life like that. all you have to do is accept the change and ull beat it. addiction isnt real. its just an excuse
Finally, the full version. Didn't know for years that there was like a 30 second radio edit. Thanks for posting the WHOLE song.
MOST TRUTHFUL SONG. PEOPLE WILL DO JUST ABOUT ANYTHING TO SUCH THE HAPPINESS RIGHT OUT OF YOUR SOUL. 😠 BUT, IT IS UP TO US TO TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT. 😐
I bought this album in 1993, I can't believe it's been that long, this song was awesome back then and now 24 years later it's even better then ever.
I love Candlebox to begin with, but this song really speaks to me as I am working on staying clean for myself and my family.
Great show at Hampton beach casino NH last night. Thanks guys you rocked the place.
1st place i saw them
Seen Megadeth there as well.
Epic 90s masterpiece! Thank you Madonna for signing this band!!!
I never understood why the radio version cut the part of the verse where he refuses drugs.
@Selene that was my assumption until I heard this full version, makes more sense now
whens the last time anyone heard an overtly anti-drug message on a song on the radio? government tells radio stations what and what not to play. government owns the prison and healthcare system. do the math
I grew up with this (unfortunately) short lived band. They were totally awesome in my opinion!
True! Arrow and Far Behind are their best songs also
I just saw them 2 months ago jn concert...still there
this has got to be one of the most underrated bands of the 90s
Always have loved this song ..see I struggle with addictions & depression in my life so I always have related to this song !
Matt Radford me too
One of the best songs ever recorded
This version of this song is so much better than the watered down radio version
miss this era SO much!
This song always gets stuck in my head. This and Plowed by Sponge.
How huge is the guitarist's tone during the solo! My goodness, what a killer sound.
Brent Jackson omg yes dude
The perfection of this song is that it can be about what you want it to be about. It crosses over boundaries of common judgement.
Yes. Exactly...so well put. 20+ yrs and going strong.
Thank you so much for having the uncensored version i hate when music gets censored
i remember my oldest brother would play this in the car on our drive to school in the morning, He was a senior, my other brother a junior, and me a freshman... good times
I first got rocking w/candlebox because of my ex- still grateful- I listen today and play it for my kids because it's real... My dad killed himself in '97, but when I heard this song, it spoke to me 🥀
Thank you for your message, its helped me relate to my kid's... And helped me reconcile my father's suicide... That's probably not what you were going for, but I appreciate it very much
The guitar solo is amazing. 3:55 and on I love it and feel it deep inside for other reasons but it relates
I miss the early to mid 90's Candle box was one of the bands I really thought would have made it...I think they must not of been able to deal with the extreme fame that goes with a top album... sad
they still tour.
They didn't whore themselves out like a lot of bands and didn't decide to become a Kurt Klone - suicide for a band in the 90's
Rest In Peace Andrew Wood
Mother love bone!!!!
Yes! RIP Stargazer.
RIP Andy
Not only did I have addictions myself when I was younger but I watched and tried to help my teenage son as he let addiction grab hold of him...I remembered this song and was able to find it here on RUclips and shared it with him on his FaceBook page...he told me he heard the message both in the song as well as the reason why I sent it to him and he entered a rehab program.
That was three years ago and though we both struggle to stay strong everyday, we are winning in my opinion and I feel the message in this song had a large part in this....thanks for releasing it and hopefully it has helped others.
Nice lyrics and beat these dudes kick ass live!!!
So unbelievably good live
im in love with this song!
Recovering from meth after 11 years of use an have always known this song but wasnt til right before I got clean i really listened to the lyrics month later is when I put it the pipe away an through my dope down the toliet listen to this song all the time
This song takes me back!😍
We are all Alone Together...
nihilist.
Great song! This song will never get old to me
First group I ever saw in concert.
Kristina Wentz it was one of my first real rock concerts also.I saw them at pine knob amphitheater I believe in 95.I was 17
same seen them and soul asylum in concert kind of what inspired me to work in the music industry and did for 10 years till my health got to a point that i cant i enjoyed it but came at a cost lost 2 marriages one because i was always gone working and my last marriage was because of drugs and cheating my ex wife was the one on drugs and cheating.
My favorite candlebox song..... what a great album.. emotions felt every time I listen..
who knew when we were teens listening to and a appreciating these lyrics, we'd one day actualize them??
Chiguy44 ain't that just the mother of all reality checks. Totally felt like I got bitch smacked by life.
For me this song expresses the struggle and battle within. It's Not only about taking on the pain of others around u which whom u love that battle addiction, but furthermore the addiction u have within yourself. It shows the will and hope to have the stength to take on all those battles and to conquer them solely within yourself but yet somehow the grasp it has on u never truely fades. U can fight and resist all you want but once u fall under its spell the battle only continues 10 fold. To me in the end when he says its all for you it means for the addiction. The sacrfices we make sometimes dont always result in a happy ending; and facing the reality of that is truly devastating.
He is owning up to the intentions of wanting to change but ultimately sacrficing everything,most of all himself, because of being overtaken by addiction. So sad but true.
One of the most underrated bands ever
the chills of withdrawal all of a sudden combine with the chills you get when you hear him say i don’t want your drugs anymore, and it turns from debilitating to liberating.. amazing what the mind can do, how much truly is “physical”?
HELP ME I CANT STOP LISTENING TO THIS SONG
Devin Kennington it gets in your blood!
Devin Kennington Tool no quarter... hope i helped a lil bit
ive loved this song for years
It's 2017 and I still listen daily. You dont need help 😂😂
Devin Kennington that happened to me, you are good soul
this is such a sweet video. I've been searching for this song ever since i first heard it on 104.9 here in fulton IL. Thank you so much for uploading. Now i can't wait to buy the album. i so love candlebox. They're an amaising band and this song sends out a deliberate and clear message to all the drug dealers out their. Thank you agin for uploading.
I don't want it no more!!
I really appreciate this lyrics format, thank you for creating this
This song is soooo deep it gives me goosebumps every time i hear it👍
Listened to this throughout my youth while struggling with addiction. Sober now and it means so much more.
Pain in my heart is real!!
one of the best songs by them and this version is NOT edited!!!
This whole album was heavily influenced by the overdose death of Andrew Wood. He was the lead singer of Mother Love Bone. The remaining members of the band ended up with a new lead singer and formed Pearl Jam
One of, if not, the most accurate song in tone, lyrics, and feel about addiction...
2 years, 8 months in 4 days
when I see homeless people on the streets with meth additions it reminds me what I went through. even thou I had the chance to pull myself out of it. I feel some can't or don't want to an it hurts
Become a recovery coach, help change what you know.
Easily 1 of my favorite songs, period. Thanks for posting it, with Lyrics - now... to practice it...
Don't push your drugs in my face or i'm gonna put you in your place!
Amen!
for daddy havo
rest in peace
Fuck you, I don't want it no more
No profit is intended but yet you have enabled commercials to be shown.
I am thankful for music i can relate to. fucking awesome, and honest, thanks.
Saw them at the 2013 Leesburg FL, Bikefest They were great.
love to hear what ever I can think of
Congrats man on overcoming something many people can't!
this song reminds me of my past and how i changed my life :)