Breonna Bridges she did, she was treated like absolute dirt. She was nothing but a dollar sign to the greedy movie studios that wanted money. They gave her immortality in some of the most well-known and beloved films of all time but in the end they ultimately took her soul as payment for it. In the kindest way, I wish she didn’t get famous, because she didn’t even get to experience a normal life at any point. God bless her.
"I'm mad... I am mad. I can do something besides sing you know. I don't always have to sing a song. There is something besides The Man That Got Away, Over the Rainbow, or The Trolley Song. There's a woman. There's me. There's a lot of life going here. I wanted to believe, and I tried my damndest to believe, in the rainbow that I tried to get over. And I couldn't. So what. Lot's of people can't. But I'm not lots of people. I'm me. And in the meantime there's been another whole human being. Myself. I'm a good cook, I am a good mother, and I love music. I love a lot of things. In the meantime, how do I find the true Judy Garland?" So so sad...... RIP Judy. I know you finally made it over that rainbow.
Her respect should be coming out of this voice clip. Don't respect her for her voice she didn't choose that. Don't respect her for her tortured life she'd feel insulted. Respect her for having the BALLS to scream this into a recorder. To ADMIT IT TO HERSELF. Most people couldn't do that.
@@kevinroche8657i can say from experience, when you are drunk and this upset. Its all truth, you don't have a filter. This woman was abused beyond anything any of us can really imagine. She was basically a slave to the studio in her formative years. She was used hard and thrown away.
This is Judy Garland showing her true colors, speaking openly about how she really felt about all the circumstances surrounding what looked to be a wonderful career.
Everything she says is true. This is no pity party, this is the truth from a woman who was used and abused from early childhood, whose talent was taken advantage of by LB Mayer, her mother, her husbands, etc. etc. etc. This is the shadow side of Judy, and we need to hear it.
TEK Judy didn't, at at 13, CHOOSE to take amphetamines to keep her weight down, followed by sleeping pills so that she could perform 12 or more hours to churn out movie after movie. The studio caused her to be drug addicted. I am very pro- personal-responsibility. Many people choose drugs. She was given drugs by the doctors at the studio, and her parents told her to go along. The people that should have protected her. Most parents now would have intervened, but that was different time.
I sometimes wonder if mickey deans was hired to "take care" of Judy... She said she was going to talk in this book, and "reveal names", so maybe it was arranged for deans (as he was close enough to administer an overdose) by some group that felt threatened by the threats she's making here
It is very revelatory, it's unfortunate she was never able to take control over her life. Very eye opening and u don't have to be in Hollywood for these same inner struggles this is the voice of a human being with fallacy in some places and crying out in others.
@@christinamitchell6796 she was never able to get over it... because to many folks were handing her pills from a very early age... she was taken advantage of all of her life... with no manager... she deserved better.
@Highinsight7 if this happened to a huge star like Judy can u imagine all the other girls from small towns that got to Hollywood & had their dreams & lives destroyed by people w/ so much more power than they could ever dream of. I read Tatum O'Neal 's book ( man was that the most raw & painfully honest bio ever from an actress in Hollywood. So many horrible things about a lot of big stars from Micheal Jackson Tom cruise which were all positives , to Melanie Griffith that pretended to be her friend just to add another powerful older man to a notch on her 18 year old belt ! Tatum mentions how she walked in on her & her then very famous father Ryan O'Neal in bed together. Which is do gross given Melanie was only 18 & Ryan about 33 legal but Melanie was still only 18. Tatum mentions how Melanie bragged that she had already slept w many big names including Harrison Ford. Which really says a lot about him that he slept w/ carrie Fischer who was only 19 while he was a 33 year old married father of 2. So reading he also slept w/ Melanie sometime when she was 18 or under shows the kind of guy he really was behind the all positive press he constantly received. She also said Melanie slept w/ Warren beatty jack Nicholson & lived w/ Don Johnson when she was only 15 he 25. It seems thats sadly the Hollywood mentality given her mom Tippi hedren was another starlet who's carrer was destroyed b/c Alfred Hitchcock was obsessed w/ her & signed her to an iron clad 7 picture deal. He repeatedly came on to her & Tippi constantly spurned him so hitch got real ugly w/ her & refused to let her out of her contract & told her if she didn't sleep w/ him he'd make sure she never worked again. Tippi who I give huge credit to told him " do what yr gonna do hitch " & he did. I think she did one movie w/ him at that point then he actually treated her like garbage filming " the birds" where he actually went way too far having these mechanical birds really pecking at her take after take getting back at her for not sleeping w/ him. So despicable. Even if she did sleep w/ him her career was over anyway. He wouod have have kept expecting her to sleep w/ him over & over & the moment she got sick of it he'd ruin her anyway. So at least she figured my career is over either way so why give in to this creep. Obviously she knew nobody would listen to her. Cause isn't that considered blackmail ? If u tell someone when money is involved do this or else I'll ruin u. Money obviously her career & livelihood. That's why it's sad that her daughter raised in that environment went the weird opposite way . Maybe it was Melanie's own way of weilding power w/ her sexuality. Anyway the book really gives so much insight not just about her abusive narcissistic father but how Hollywood works. When she spoke of Micheal Jackson she talks about how he had a huge crush on her & invited her as his date to premiere of the wiz. Tatum was maybe 14 & she tells how her power agent forbid her from attending b/c of Micheal being black ! How it would look bad for her career. How sad that even in the late 70s & Micheal not yet " thriller " Micheal that took over the world but still a very famous young guy & imagine Tatum agent saying b/c he's black it would look bad on her career. Tatum said she never forgave herself for blowing him off & Micheal never forgave her either. When Tatum was just a kid & was pressured by her stupid agent to cancel on him last minute. Anyway what was really sad is what she wrote about her mother actress Joanna Moore known mostly for episodic TV & small Parts in westerns in the 60s. Moore came from such a tiny town in Georgie that the town didn't have even one stop light. She also came to Hollywood w/ big dreams got signed by the studio system & they hooked her right away on speed to keep her thin & working everyday that the rest of her life she was addicted to something. Meeting Ryan having 2 of his kids less than a year apart & getting dumped by him as her career was almost completely over at the age of 30. What a sad shame.
It doesn't matter if you're a Celebrity or a Factory worker. If you're setup for failure by the same people who are supposed to Nurture you, you will fail.
There are those rare people who are the exceptions but I agree with you based on personal experience. Im 71 now and, looking back, the plans I had for my life wouldn't have had a snowball's chance in hell. There had been way too much damage done. Hindsight is 20/20.
"There is something besides The Man That Got Away, or Over The Rainbow, or The Trolley Song. There is a woman." Arguably one of the most powerful phrases in this speech. Beautiful
These tapes were not meant to be made for the public. They were recordings made so she could sort ideas for a book. I hear a lot of truth in what she's saying, not self-pity.
I know Judy is messed up here but the truth prevails in everything she bellows... How can one not feel very deep sympathy for this poor lady... Hearing this gives me a whole new respect for her
Janine11155 she is spot on about what happened to her, she got shafted, it is terrible and she would have not been treated as bad, but there again who made Amy winehouse take all the drink and drugs. Not that I'm saying Amy winehouse, was up there with Judy Garland because no one was or will be.
jimbob1 you cant judge people correctly if you’re not in their shoes...do you know what it’s like to be on pills as a young girl? You can’t get off...not safely! There are very few MDs qualified to take someone off the meds she was on...they ARE NOT TAUGHT HOW TO DO THIS SAFELY! If she had tried a detox...it most likely would’ve killed her sooner! They are now calling people detox specialists who REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING by detoxing people quickly in 3 weeks...giving anti seizure meds & high blood pressure meds WITH OUT PUBLIC MEDICAL STUDIES AS TO IF THIS IS SAFE FOR THE CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM INJURY WITHDRAWAL CAUSES! It can be permanent & taking more drugs not to seize...will lead to Permeable Intestine & Adrenal Fatigue If one doesn’t already have it! Bad, bad medicine...perpetuated by the greed of the pharmaceutical industry which cares nothing about you, only their Trillions upon trillions in profits!
Harley Jules This is before Feminism became mainstream. She was a feminist and didn’t know it. At a young age she was surrounded by lecherous and abusive men. Most of her adulthood she was controlled and manipulated by men who saw her as a commodity; she was worked to death. In this rant she is fighting back, which is her attempt to feel empowered for once in her life. It was I imagine therapeutic too.
Judy Garland's voice alone captivates me......To hear her talk like this is.........Well, it is worth my attention; she was so dramatic, and I just love her.
This poor woman...you can hear in her voice how bad she was hurting. It sounds like she had no one around her that really cared enough about her. Not what she could do for them but loved her for her. RIP
Judy was chemically dependent and needed help that wasn’t available back then. These tapes should never have been sold. This is her private hell and shouldn’t be available to the public but at the same time I understand why she was so angry. She will always be beautiful genius to me and nothing can tarnish her amazing talent.
We think it is wrong that her therapy tape is being played on the internet but we still listen. I don't judge myself for this, but I know it is wrong. Her flaws maybe make her more interesting. We can see more in her performances perhaps.
Until I read this comment I didn’t know this was a ‘therapy’ tape. I’ve heard it several times, I thought it was her dictating her book. No, if I’d known I wouldn’t have hit play. After reading the Gerald Clark book, I absolutely love her! So tragic....
I think it's good to publicize this. She was abused by so many people. She has a right to be angry about it. The world needs to know how badly young women are treated in Hollywood.
Her life was beyond stable - she was obviously at her wits end here in this recording... I don't blame her for her hurt and anger and I'm so glad that she got a punch at some of her users and abusers. I know that it is disturbing to hear in many ways, but let's be honest this recording by Judy was as honest and heartfelt. Sure, she sounded angry at times...& I''m even angrier on her behalf...like so many others... She may have lost her life but she has won the hearts of millions and she will never be forgotten. Her tallent & legend is eternal unlike those who drove her to an early grave. A Million Kisses Judy xxx etc....
'There is something besides The Man That Got Away or Over The Rainbow or The Trolley Song, there's a womam, there are three childreen, there's me, there a lot of life going on here" I never felt as close to Judy as I do now
I feel so sorry for Judy, she had to go through that whole nightmare in her life: being forced to take drugs by MGM executives and her mother which started her addiction, she was broke, her agent defrauded her by stealing all the money she earned. If we had the laws that we have now back then, she wouldn’t have gone down this path. She kept on going with her life until the end, all because she knew she had to be there for her children, everything she ever did to fix the problems in her life were to make sure that her children were able to have a mother who could raise them. Sadly she died before she got to see how successful they all became. So sad #RIP
She had every reason to feel this way. Used abused and thrown away by EVERYONE who said they cared. EVERYONE. Friends family kids husbands head of studios, you name it. I pray you have resolved this Miss Garland I pray you have found peace on the other side, the peace you never had here.
To live only once and have to endure so much pain is awful. So sad she won’t ever know how truly talented and adored she was and still is today. There will never be another like her. RIP beautiful Judy 🥺❤️
In a way it’s good that this audio recording was released because those who took advantage of her and abused her all those years (those few who are still alive and their kin) will know who they are and will regret their treatment towards her when hearing this. She had her own demons but also had a lot of negative influences which didn’t help her. So tragic she was gone so young. RIP to a legend.
I think its amazing to me that every one paints her as a tragic figure and a drug addict. When in fact this proof that she was more aware of herself than anyone else around her or in her time. Judy knew her flaws. She was a product of the machine. And people used her till they couldn't get any more out of her. You better be damn she was fucking pissed!!. And yet here we are still in awe of her. JUDY GARLAND FOREVER.
What a confession. It is a shame that as much as she tried to say all of this, and speak up for herself, she wasn't listened to. It's no wonder she was addicted to drugs that L.B. Mayer gave her originally. She ran to them to cope. We need to listen.
@Daniel Lyell IMO, Christina and Christopher told the truth. Joan Crawford succeeded at many things in her life, but motherhood was not one of the skills she came close to mastering.
It all started when I was 6 and molested by a family member, and then it seemed to just keep happening by different people I trusted, even up until my teen and young adult years. For so long I walked through life without any support, so I didn’t know how to be that support for myself. Once I found it, I was opened up to a whole new world of possibilities. What I can tell you, for those that may be seeking answers for their own healing, is that there is still so much value in your life and in who you are. The truth is, despite what someone or multiple people put your physical body through, your energy and spirit remain untouched. Who you are beneath it all can never be harmed, your soul is so precious. Even with this, you are not defined by the acts of another. The fact that we are all still here today, carrying on to bravely share our stories, that is inspiring and earth-shaking. Raw in every sense, pure essence is always authentic and unconditional. If you are still reading this far, I love you from the furthest depths of my heart and soul. I SEE YOU. I hear you. I feel you. We may never fully understand each other’s paths and what it took to get to where we are now, but that is what makes our individual experiences so unique. I wish for you to see the light and beauty within yourself again. To not see your eyes through the lens of a tainted heart. Tap into your true essence and shine as the beacon you are, guiding the rest along the way.
SUCH an Overwhelming Talent, Judy had NO PEER!! She was Treated HORRIBLY by SOOO Many People, Starting with her MOTHER, who was THE ONE who started her out on drugs, not JUST the Studios... And the Fact that she could STILL Produce such AMAZING ART is ASTOUNDING!!! xoxo
Good for you Judy. Thank you for letting them have it. I am one of those people you entertained but what you gave me was more than entertainment. You gave me hope you helped this sad little girl feel better about herself. When you sang it made me feel like you loved me when I had no love. I wish you were around so I could thank you for everything you’ve given me and continue to give. I understand your chemical dependency and I wish they had known more about addiction back in the day.
She was angry, hurt, and fed up but most importantly she was human and was standing up for herself by telling everyone who had used and abused her to leave her alone and get a life
This sums up my life right now. Judy explains why she’s mad and she had every right to. Judy was taken advantage of, molested, and etc. everyone that ever hurt her is evil, she is an amazing person and never should have been treated the way she was
She was like a fragile wounded sparrow. She was brilliant in every aspect of her life. She was brilliant even in this condition. She was robbed to the point of poverty and mistreated by everyone in her world. It breaks my heart. 💔
Judy, Marilyn, and many others were not appreciated or loved until after their death. They were pretty much ridiculed and all mistakes were magnified for all the world to see. What's sad is that we still do it today, as with Jessica, Lohan, Spears and many others. If something (god forbid) was to happen to any of them, everyone would sing another tune and talk about how great they were and act like they never said an unkind word about them.
She wasn't "ugly", she was just pretty. When you watch Ziegfeld Girl you notice it. You've got Hedy Lamarr and Lana Turner, two glamorous women, and Judy, who was just sorta cute. No doubt, she definitely was not ugly at all, but she was like the cute girl next door, not the vixen like Lana Turner.
Wow, I am glad she got to tell her own story. I loved you Judy Garland, you brought happiness and joy to a lot of people and still do. I wish they hadn’t gotten you addicted to pills, you are one of the greatest of all time. Your children are talented too and your legacy lives on in our hearts and in your family. ❤️
A true human being who was handling horrible pain and strife is speaking here.. And after all she gave to the world, it's heartbreaking.to hear. One thing we should always remember about "stars" is that they have no one but themselves to go home to. She was a wonderful loving woman, mother and entertainer.... she had issues.....who doesn't?
It's bad enough being an ordinary woman feeling unappreciated by every one around her being the emotional creatures we are. Imagine it on the scale she had to face every single day of her life. Your life published for the world to see. Some true, some not. She tried and she tried and she changed herself to be what everyone wanted her to be so she could just feel that unconditional love she lost in her late father. I can't even imagine the rage she must've felt.
Today is 6/ 22/10. 41 yrs ago the world Lost it's greatest Star & death silenced Judy's heart. Her talent came from her heart & through her voice, did we know it. Every song she sang she told us a story & always with such feeling whether it was happy or sad she gave us 1000% to us. She never looked down at her audience with disdain, she revered us andit came shining through each time she appeared before us. I am sad she is gone but she is @ peace with GOD & her voice is being heard in heaven.
She's my favorite and always will be. She could put over a song like no one else. She had problems, yes, bipolar and drug addiction. It's rare for an icon to speak here as she does. Sometimes, u just gotta let loose!
Debra Chapman Id suspect NPD or Borderline as this houses many other illnesses into one. Someone else commented it’s hard to tell if it was due to excessive adoration or abuse early on. We’ll never know. I have compassion for her and pray she is at peace. She’ll live forever in our hearts.
I SO LOVE JUDY! I feel greatful just to hear her voice ...she speaks her own truth. I have been so in awe of her since I was a little girl. Aside from her sorrows and mistreatment from Hollywood and corporate America, she is a DYNAMO an absolute Great entertainer. I will see her in heaven and sing and dance and Laugh at you all🥰🥰🙋🏻♀️❤🧚♀️
She never deserved the abuse she got in Hollywood! This rant breaks my heart. I feel so bad for her so I am forever going to support and never forget her while she’s gone.
The people around her used her like a tissue, and threw her away. She was a cash cow for her family and MGM. They broke her with criticism of her looks, and controlled her with drugs and intimidation. You can tell from these tapes how prevalent the drug and alcohol abuse was in her life, and how afraid she was of being forgotten. Is it a pity party? Perhaps, but she deserves our pity. She was a powerhouse of talent, paraded around for our entertainment, and when she didn't please us anymore, we discarded her, forgot her, abandoned her for the newer model. She deserved to be loved for the person she was, Baby Francis Gumm, the child with the woman's voice. In many ways, Judy always remained a little girl who just wanted and needed to be loved. We love you, Judy! We will never forget you!
When you let drugs/booze/anger tell your experiences, you lose. Who knows what this woman was beyond the love and adoration of her family but know that the weird stuff of celebrity can do so much. Celebrity is the problem and the craving for it. She was honest in feeling the mess of this, that we must respect.
This is such a fascinating peek into Judy as a person. You can tell performance was what she knew best, because this recording sounds so theatrical. It's like a grand and dramatic monologue filled with pain, denial, regret, anger, and heartbreak.
Bula 88 “Judy Garland” was like a brand or commodity that overshadowed the woman. She is crying out here to be recognised as a human being, rather than just a commodity. If anyone had the right to be angry she did.
The thing about talented people is they usually have more sensitivity than the rest of us, then they're put under more pressure than regular folk to preform..more,more,more..make money, dance, sing, then they break...this happens time and time again to different artists yet nothing changes. When will we learn to treat these people with the respect they deserve?
Dani8132m People like Garland with their sensitivity (it comes with creativity and talent) are like rare orchids. But they are rarely treated as such, certainly not in her case.
We are with you judy. No matter where you are now. You are in a better place. :) also at 6:05 I shivered when she yelled the word bitches. It shows the suffering she went through. Especially in the wizard of oz. She was mistreated, insulted, mocked, drugged, but at least her co-worker Margaret Hamilton was the nicest of all :)
I feel like a lot of her fans must know the pain of speaking and speaking and SCREAMING and screaming and still not one person listens to you. For anyone feeling that or carrying a similar wound, may you find peace and healing the way she finally has.
Amazing how while she is obviously angry (rightfully) she never sounds vicious or nasty. She pulls you in and makes you listen when she talks, just like when she sings.
The wizard of oz producers should had listened to that speech to make them realize how diabolical wicked witches they were to judy when she was young and that she grew up with that.
A beautiful human being, problems like normal people but delt with them being famous! How can you not be drawn to her and also sympathize and love her!
She was mostly surrounded by people who generated money from her talent. It seems that's all they were interested in. I can't imagine working my whole life watching other celebrities make vulgar amounts of money with little ,if any, of the talent she had, and to come out flat broke. The resentment would eat a person alive. Addictions are a horrible thing. Sometimes insurmountable. Betrayal in any form is heartbreaking.Any one of these things alone would be crippling .Combine these things together and with things we as fans have no knowledge of and the torment would have been more than most people could bear. Yet, this fragile human being managed to pull through year after year. For those who felt she was unattractive , they need only to look at the St. Louis picture to see her physical beauty. Combined with the beauty she had inside she was far more beautiful than Turner,Taylor and the others. That is my humble opinion.
“I wanted to believe and I tried my damn best to believe in the rainbow in the rainbow that I tried to get over and I couldn’t” damn that fucking hit hard Rest In Peace Judy❤️ you’re over the rainbow now❤️
Hard to be a legend... & frequently broke... still, she's the greatest talent of that generation, opening the starting gates to the big singers to follow... she set the template
RJ Nuzzi Garland was asked on a chat show what it felt like to be a living legend. She replied that it was like being the Statue of Liberty, and that it was very lonely. Fame has a hefty price tag on it.
“I’m very self-conscious about talking about myself. But I think I’ve got something to write about, at last. If you like, you like it. If you don’t like it, you don’t like it. But you won’t be able to take it lightly! Any more than I’ve been able to take it lightly. I’ve laughed at myself when I should have cried! And I’ve cried […] because I had every reason, I’m god damn mad! I’m an angry lady, I’m a lady who has anger. I’ve been insulted, slandered, humiliated, but still America’s sweetheart. Now I’m rather […] intelligent, I think, or-- and I’m emotional, yeah! I’m a woman. I’m emotional! I’m not something you wind up and put on the stage that sings Carnegie Hall album and you put her in the closet and forget to invite her to the party that’s given for her. The agents leave her behind! I’m mad, I am mad enough and yet still very self-conscious but I’m gonna write a book. And I’m gonna talk. Because I can do something besides sing, you know. I don't always have to sing a song. There is something besides The Man That Got Away or Over the Rainbow or The Trolley Song. There's a woman. There are three children. There's me! There's a lot of life going here! I wanted to believe, and I tried my damndest to believe, in the rainbow that I tried to get over. And I couldn't! So what?! Lots of people can't! But I'm not lots of people. I'm me. I’m the one who’s had to live with me. I don’t wanna hear any resentment from anybody else now about how difficult I am, and I don’t wanna pick up a paper and read how unfit a mother I am when I have three marvellous children who seem to take and have always loved me. Fat, thin, funny, sad, they think I’m pretty good. I think they’re great! I have loved and have never planned revenge. However […] however this book turns out is because I am the result of an audience, of a critic, of critics, of what people have made me! And in the meantime, there's been another whole human being. Myself. That hasn’t been even interesting enough to write good stories in the newspaper that would be printed. They’re not interested. I'm a good cook. I am a good mother. I do believe in going to church. I love music. I love a lot of things that the people around me, that have surrounded me all my life-- all my forty-four goddamn, marvellous, failing, successful and hopelessly tragic and star-glitzed years, I’ve been surrounded by people who are not in my league. They were the disbelievers, now they’re gonna have to put up with their names being printed. They better not sue because I’m only gonna write the truth. In the meantime, how do I find the true Judy Garland, or Francis Gumm, or whatever it is? Is it a girl or a woman? I get angry, but I’ve never been loudly angry. I can get angry in front of my friends. I do […] get so frustrated. It’s very difficult-- it’s all well and good for you people, publishers. Now this is not to be included in my book-- they just take fifty pages, but you can’t write how nervous my hands get, or how lost I might get when I have to remember because I went through five years of psychoanalysis, going back over a life that was no good to begin with, no fun, and is-- I’m doing it purely for money! Because I deserve it. I’ve sung. I’ve entertained. I’ve pleased your children. I’ve pleased your wives. I’ve pleased you, you sons of bitches! And you can’t deny that! Now the government isn’t pleasing me very much! They’re not protecting me, they’re not gonna move the house away, with the kids. Sid Luft […] is some kind of animal-- a lot of people belong in, I think, in Southern California, called the La Brea Tar Pits! I’ve maintained a way of life to not sink with the sludge! And you better write it! You better pay for it! Or don’t listen, and get the hell out of my life!”
You can't blame her for being angry. Everybody starting with her own mother lied to her. I wish she could have had a couple of years to get well. Those who knew her best said she was so peaceful and relaxed when she had the chance to rest and get the pressure off herself. Here she's mad at her mother, Sid Luft and David Begelman. She worked from the age of 2. She was the highest paid performer and she was broke. I'd be mad too!
This is a revealing side to a woman we never thought had one, and she left us too early due to drug addiction. If only she didn't have to put on a face and was recognized for more than just her singing voice, she would still be with us.
If I could press the 'like' button under this video more than once, I would. This star, this talent but most of all this Lady had been used, used by people with no talent. God bless your soul miss Gumm x
go Judy, let it out. that is 25 years building up there--she had every reason to be pissed. Just wish someone had been respectful and loving to her 20 years earlier--then she might still be with us.
Much of what we hear has probably more than a grain of truth to it.We are listening to a drunk Judy ramble on about a life full of resentments because she was F****d over by a lot of people. Judy was very vulnerable and that is what made her so beautiful.
is this really judy! her voice sounds so different! if it is her she had every right to be mad as many times as people took and wasted her money, that she worked very hard for her whole life!! i love you judy! happy birthday!
By the time this was recorded it was too late. Her body had incurred irreparable damage and she was slowly dying. She was so young. She looks twenty years older. She didn’t deserve a lousy life. The saddest victim was Joey. He was carried whilst his mother was an addict and has suffered emotionally and physically as a result. But no one mentions Joey.
She had every reason to be mad as hell, she was taken advantage of all her life.
isn't that truth
And she wasn't gonna take it anymore! 😊
Glad you spoke out, Judy!!!!! I hope you know, in Heaven, that we hate what was done to you. We love you for your TOTALITY.
She was also a drug addict/alcoholic and financially unstable by her own decisions.
Breonna Bridges she did, she was treated like absolute dirt. She was nothing but a dollar sign to the greedy movie studios that wanted money. They gave her immortality in some of the most well-known and beloved films of all time but in the end they ultimately took her soul as payment for it. In the kindest way, I wish she didn’t get famous, because she didn’t even get to experience a normal life at any point. God bless her.
"I'm mad... I am mad. I can do something besides sing you know. I don't always have to sing a song. There is something besides The Man That Got Away, Over the Rainbow, or The Trolley Song. There's a woman. There's me. There's a lot of life going here. I wanted to believe, and I tried my damndest to believe, in the rainbow that I tried to get over. And I couldn't. So what. Lot's of people can't. But I'm not lots of people. I'm me. And in the meantime there's been another whole human being. Myself. I'm a good cook, I am a good mother, and I love music. I love a lot of things. In the meantime, how do I find the true Judy Garland?" So so sad...... RIP Judy. I know you finally made it over that rainbow.
I would have loved to have know her and befriend her. There's a lot of pain in this poor soul and she got it out!
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YOU TELL 'EM JUDY!
Her respect should be coming out of this voice clip. Don't respect her for her voice she didn't choose that. Don't respect her for her tortured life she'd feel insulted. Respect her for having the BALLS to scream this into a recorder. To ADMIT IT TO HERSELF.
Most people couldn't do that.
Respect her period!
well, she was DRUNK when she made this (and other) recordings. I do feel bad for her. She was USED again and again and again
Respect her for menstruating?
@@kevinroche8657i can say from experience, when you are drunk and this upset. Its all truth, you don't have a filter. This woman was abused beyond anything any of us can really imagine. She was basically a slave to the studio in her formative years. She was used hard and thrown away.
This is Judy Garland showing her true colors, speaking openly about how she really felt about all the circumstances surrounding what looked to be a wonderful career.
Everything she says is true. This is no pity party, this is the truth from a woman who was used and abused from early childhood, whose talent was taken advantage of by LB Mayer, her mother, her husbands, etc. etc. etc.
This is the shadow side of Judy, and we need to hear it.
Judy made choices, and those choices she had to live with. That's what ultimately tormented her.
TEK Judy didn't, at at 13, CHOOSE to take amphetamines to keep her weight down, followed by sleeping pills so that she could perform 12 or more hours to churn out movie after movie. The studio caused her to be drug addicted. I am very pro- personal-responsibility. Many people choose drugs. She was given drugs by the doctors at the studio, and her parents told her to go along. The people that should have protected her. Most parents now would have intervened, but that was different time.
brkitdwn excuse me, my comment to tek was actually to you. Although I'd usually agree with you, I think things were different in Judy's case.
TEK what do you mean she's bien abuses ???!??
I sometimes wonder if mickey deans was hired to "take care" of Judy... She said she was going to talk in this book, and "reveal names", so maybe it was arranged for deans (as he was close enough to administer an overdose) by some group that felt threatened by the threats she's making here
I think it's one of the most honest diatribes I've ever heard. I completely empathize with her.
It is very revelatory, it's unfortunate she was never able to take control over her life. Very eye opening and u don't have to be in Hollywood for these same inner struggles this is the voice of a human being with fallacy in some places and crying out in others.
@@christinamitchell6796 she was never able to get over it... because to many folks were handing her pills from a very early age... she was taken advantage of all of her life... with no manager... she deserved better.
@Highinsight7 if this happened to a huge star like Judy can u imagine all the other girls from small towns that got to Hollywood & had their dreams & lives destroyed by people w/ so much more power than they could ever dream of. I read Tatum O'Neal 's book ( man was that the most raw & painfully honest bio ever from an actress in Hollywood. So many horrible things about a lot of big stars from Micheal Jackson Tom cruise which were all positives , to Melanie Griffith that pretended to be her friend just to add another powerful older man to a notch on her 18 year old belt ! Tatum mentions how she walked in on her & her then very famous father Ryan O'Neal in bed together. Which is do gross given Melanie was only 18 & Ryan about 33 legal but Melanie was still only 18. Tatum mentions how Melanie bragged that she had already slept w many big names including Harrison Ford. Which really says a lot about him that he slept w/ carrie Fischer who was only 19 while he was a 33 year old married father of 2. So reading he also slept w/ Melanie sometime when she was 18 or under shows the kind of guy he really was behind the all positive press he constantly received. She also said Melanie slept w/ Warren beatty jack Nicholson & lived w/ Don Johnson when she was only 15 he 25. It seems thats sadly the Hollywood mentality given her mom Tippi hedren was another starlet who's carrer was destroyed b/c Alfred Hitchcock was obsessed w/ her & signed her to an iron clad 7 picture deal. He repeatedly came on to her & Tippi constantly spurned him so hitch got real ugly w/ her & refused to let her out of her contract & told her if she didn't sleep w/ him he'd make sure she never worked again. Tippi who I give huge credit to told him " do what yr gonna do hitch " & he did. I think she did one movie w/ him at that point then he actually treated her like garbage filming " the birds" where he actually went way too far having these mechanical birds really pecking at her take after take getting back at her for not sleeping w/ him. So despicable. Even if she did sleep w/ him her career was over anyway. He wouod have have kept expecting her to sleep w/ him over & over & the moment she got sick of it he'd ruin her anyway. So at least she figured my career is over either way so why give in to this creep. Obviously she knew nobody would listen to her. Cause isn't that considered blackmail ? If u tell someone when money is involved do this or else I'll ruin u. Money obviously her career & livelihood. That's why it's sad that her daughter raised in that environment went the weird opposite way . Maybe it was Melanie's own way of weilding power w/ her sexuality. Anyway the book really gives so much insight not just about her abusive narcissistic father but how Hollywood works. When she spoke of Micheal Jackson she talks about how he had a huge crush on her & invited her as his date to premiere of the wiz. Tatum was maybe 14 & she tells how her power agent forbid her from attending b/c of Micheal being black ! How it would look bad for her career. How sad that even in the late 70s & Micheal not yet " thriller " Micheal that took over the world but still a very famous young guy & imagine Tatum agent saying b/c he's black it would look bad on her career. Tatum said she never forgave herself for blowing him off & Micheal never forgave her either. When Tatum was just a kid & was pressured by her stupid agent to cancel on him last minute. Anyway what was really sad is what she wrote about her mother actress Joanna Moore known mostly for episodic TV & small Parts in westerns in the 60s. Moore came from such a tiny town in Georgie that the town didn't have even one stop light. She also came to Hollywood w/ big dreams got signed by the studio system & they hooked her right away on speed to keep her thin & working everyday that the rest of her life she was addicted to something. Meeting Ryan having 2 of his kids less than a year apart & getting dumped by him as her career was almost completely over at the age of 30. What a sad shame.
Judy was a one in a million. And many people need to get out of her lifr
You can hear the frustration and anguish in her voice. To those that dream of fame and fortune: there's a terrible price to be paid for it.
Any relation to Mickey Deans?
@@gandhiroupoulas Thank God, no! I was surprised when I first heard his name as Dean is much more common that Deans.
@@mattdeans9873 Oh oke
It doesn't matter if you're a Celebrity or a Factory worker. If you're setup for failure by the same people who are supposed to Nurture you, you will fail.
There are those rare people who are the exceptions but I agree with you based on personal experience. Im 71 now and, looking back, the plans I had for my life wouldn't have had a snowball's chance in hell. There had been way too much damage done. Hindsight is 20/20.
Wow. “I’m the one who’s had to live with me!” Feel that way a lot myself.
Me too man.
"There is something besides The Man That Got Away, or Over The Rainbow, or The Trolley Song. There is a woman."
Arguably one of the most powerful phrases in this speech. Beautiful
Poor Judy ... it’s simply heartbreaking.... sure deserved compassion and love
These tapes were not meant to be made for the public. They were recordings made so she could sort ideas for a book. I hear a lot of truth in what she's saying, not self-pity.
I know Judy is messed up here but the truth prevails in everything she bellows... How can one not feel very deep sympathy for this poor lady... Hearing this gives me a whole new respect for her
Janine11155 she is spot on about what happened to her, she got shafted, it is terrible and she would have not been treated as bad, but there again who made Amy winehouse take all the drink and drugs. Not that I'm saying Amy winehouse, was up there with Judy Garland because no one was or will be.
Such a tragedy
I actually did this myself as a form of self therapy. Recording your thoughts while speaking them out loud can be a good release.
jimbob1 you cant judge people correctly if you’re not in their shoes...do you know what it’s like to be on pills as a young girl? You can’t get off...not safely! There are very few MDs qualified to take someone off the meds she was on...they ARE NOT TAUGHT HOW TO DO THIS SAFELY! If she had tried a detox...it most likely would’ve killed her sooner! They are now calling people detox specialists who REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING by detoxing people quickly in 3 weeks...giving anti seizure meds & high blood pressure meds WITH OUT PUBLIC MEDICAL STUDIES AS TO IF THIS IS SAFE FOR THE CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM INJURY WITHDRAWAL CAUSES! It can be permanent & taking more drugs not to seize...will lead to Permeable Intestine & Adrenal Fatigue If one doesn’t already have it! Bad, bad medicine...perpetuated by the greed of the pharmaceutical industry which cares nothing about you, only their Trillions upon trillions in profits!
Thank God for her. Her struggles and pain reach far and wide and relates to so many people who are NEVER fine.
Tear it up, girl. Back then women were told to be quiet. She is mad as hell and not going to take it anymore!
Let us all embrace and celebrate our inner Judy.
@Michele Ellis Who mentioned feminism?
Harley Jules This is before Feminism became mainstream. She was a feminist and didn’t know it. At a young age she was surrounded by lecherous and abusive men. Most of her adulthood she was controlled and manipulated by men who saw her as a commodity; she was worked to death. In this rant she is fighting back, which is her attempt to feel empowered for once in her life. It was I imagine therapeutic too.
She was and is the icon of feminism and equality. This is her. Judy, powerhouse. Not some frail lady, but a POWERHOUSE
@@elspethcoogan1499 it’s the 60s feminism was mainstream
Judy Garland's voice alone captivates me......To hear her talk like this is.........Well, it is worth my attention; she was so dramatic, and I just love her.
Passionate and vulnerable...Not Dramatic
I didn't think I could love Judy any more than I do now. So powerful, raw, and so REAL. You go Judy! I love you!!!!!!!!
This poor woman...you can hear in her voice how bad she was hurting. It sounds like she had no one around her that really cared enough about her. Not what she could do for them but loved her for her. RIP
She said she was a good cook. I for one would have loved to be her dinner guest without a song.
She gave her whole life, body and soul, to the world. She made millions of people happy, and she had a glorious voice. That was more than enough. ❤
this woman was used and abused and still was able to create an incredible amazing body of work!
there is no drug that can ECLIPSE ENORMOUS TALENT!
Well said !!!
Judy was chemically dependent and needed help that wasn’t available back then.
These tapes should never have been sold. This is her private hell and shouldn’t be available to the public but at the same time I understand why she was so angry.
She will always be beautiful genius to me and nothing can tarnish her amazing talent.
Absolutely true... thank you Linda.
We think it is wrong that her therapy tape is being played on the internet but we still listen. I don't judge myself for this, but I know it is wrong. Her flaws maybe make her more interesting. We can see more in her performances perhaps.
I am glad her voice got out. Absolute respect from an entirely new generation.
Until I read this comment I didn’t know this was a ‘therapy’ tape. I’ve heard it several times, I thought it was her dictating her book.
No, if I’d known I wouldn’t have hit play. After reading the Gerald Clark book, I absolutely love her! So tragic....
I think it's good to publicize this. She was abused by so many people. She has a right to be angry about it. The world needs to know how badly young women are treated in Hollywood.
I can still remember how disturbed I was when I first heard this. Even now, it's a little unnerving.
Her life was beyond stable - she was obviously at her wits end here in this recording...
I don't blame her for her hurt and anger and I'm so glad that she got a punch at some of her users and abusers. I know that it is disturbing to hear in many ways, but let's be honest this recording by Judy was as honest and heartfelt. Sure, she sounded angry at times...& I''m even angrier on her behalf...like so many others...
She may have lost her life but she has won the hearts of millions and she will never be forgotten. Her tallent & legend is eternal unlike those who drove her to an early grave.
A Million Kisses Judy xxx etc....
6:54 that clip always gets me. She was being put down since she was a little girl. Despite her immense talent, her self esteem was in the gutter.
I have much respect for this woman. I stand by every word she says here. Period.
'There is something besides The Man That Got Away or Over The Rainbow or The Trolley Song, there's a womam, there are three childreen, there's me, there a lot of life going on here"
I never felt as close to Judy as I do now
It's too bad she never did write the book.
it would still be selling to this day!
Yeah especially with the movie! I hope Judy looks down at us and know that we will never forget her! Even after 50 years
@@jackchen7003 80 now :)
I feel so sorry for Judy, she had to go through that whole nightmare in her life: being forced to take drugs by MGM executives and her mother which started her addiction, she was broke, her agent defrauded her by stealing all the money she earned. If we had the laws that we have now back then, she wouldn’t have gone down this path. She kept on going with her life until the end, all because she knew she had to be there for her children, everything she ever did to fix the problems in her life were to make sure that her children were able to have a mother who could raise them.
Sadly she died before she got to see how successful they all became.
So sad #RIP
I was looking all over this. It's sad but I can understand Judy's anger.
She had every reason to feel this way. Used abused and thrown away by EVERYONE who said they cared. EVERYONE. Friends family kids husbands head of studios, you name it. I pray you have resolved this Miss Garland I pray you have found peace on the other side, the peace you never had here.
it’s devastating how you can hear the anguish and struggle she’s been through in her voice here
To live only once and have to endure so much pain is awful. So sad she won’t ever know how truly talented and adored she was and still is today. There will never be another like her. RIP beautiful Judy 🥺❤️
In a way it’s good that this audio recording was released because those who took advantage of her and abused her all those years (those few who are still alive and their kin) will know who they are and will regret their treatment towards her when hearing this. She had her own demons but also had a lot of negative influences which didn’t help her. So tragic she was gone so young. RIP to a legend.
I think its amazing to me that every one paints her as a tragic figure and a drug addict. When in fact this proof that she was more aware of herself than anyone else around her or in her time. Judy knew her flaws. She was a product of the machine. And people used her till they couldn't get any more out of her. You better be damn she was fucking pissed!!. And yet here we are still in awe of her. JUDY GARLAND FOREVER.
Luis Miranda She had immense talent, but she was literally a creation of the machine. They’re told what do and how to do it.
Luis Miranda Yes, she was very self-aware as a person and performer. This is why, I think, many people empathise with her.
This was very deep and let's people know that she is a real person! I hear her pain . She was both talented, yet vulnerable, a true artist.
I'll forever love this woman. I love how real she is.
Bless her heart. I love Judy, and it was so sad to hear the pain in her voice that was there due to the way people had done her.
What a confession. It is a shame that as much as she tried to say all of this, and speak up for herself, she wasn't listened to. It's no wonder she was addicted to drugs that L.B. Mayer gave her originally. She ran to them to cope. We need to listen.
Her mother was giving her seconal and benzedrine before the studio did
absolutely agree
Judy did the very best she could and not one of her children have ever said she was a terrible mama. That would be Joan Crawford
Confidential Magazine ruined many careers and slandered many people in Hollywood, including Joan Crawford.
@Daniel Lyell I believe her.
@Daniel Lyell
IMO, Christina and Christopher told the truth. Joan Crawford succeeded at many things in her life, but motherhood was not one of the skills she came close to mastering.
@@Heartbeat214 Joan had her issues too and its sad she never got the help she needed.
It all started when I was 6 and molested by a family member, and then it seemed to just keep happening by different people I trusted, even up until my teen and young adult years. For so long I walked through life without any support, so I didn’t know how to be that support for myself. Once I found it, I was opened up to a whole new world of possibilities. What I can tell you, for those that may be seeking answers for their own healing, is that there is still so much value in your life and in who you are. The truth is, despite what someone or multiple people put your physical body through, your energy and spirit remain untouched. Who you are beneath it all can never be harmed, your soul is so precious. Even with this, you are not defined by the acts of another. The fact that we are all still here today, carrying on to bravely share our stories, that is inspiring and earth-shaking. Raw in every sense, pure essence is always authentic and unconditional. If you are still reading this far, I love you from the furthest depths of my heart and soul. I SEE YOU. I hear you. I feel you. We may never fully understand each other’s paths and what it took to get to where we are now, but that is what makes our individual experiences so unique. I wish for you to see the light and beauty within yourself again. To not see your eyes through the lens of a tainted heart. Tap into your true essence and shine as the beacon you are, guiding the rest along the way.
We all need to speak our mind. Get things off our chest. Vent things that is inside us and Judy is no different.
Kemp Design But in today's society's it's like one can't even breathe for fear someone will complain about you stealing air.
SUCH an Overwhelming Talent, Judy had NO PEER!! She was Treated HORRIBLY by SOOO Many People, Starting with her MOTHER, who was THE ONE who started her out on drugs, not JUST the Studios... And the Fact that she could STILL Produce such AMAZING ART is ASTOUNDING!!! xoxo
Yep she had no friends
Good for you Judy. Thank you for letting them have it.
I am one of those people you entertained but what you gave me was more than entertainment. You gave me hope you helped this sad little girl feel better about herself. When you sang it made me feel like you loved me when I had no love.
I wish you were around so I could thank you for everything you’ve given me and continue to give. I understand your chemical dependency and I wish they had known more about addiction back in the day.
linda nelson I can picture Judy beaming with joy if she could read what you wrote about her. Thank you for sharing it with us.
...the poor girl was actually always gorgeous!! ...just surrounded by awful people...
she was a great person .it wasn't her fault .she's been abused
She was indeed gorgeous.
She was angry, hurt, and fed up but most importantly she was human and was standing up for herself by telling everyone who had used and abused her to leave her alone and get a life
" l've maintained a way of life to not sink with the sludge"...
YAS KWEEN
This sums up my life right now. Judy explains why she’s mad and she had every right to. Judy was taken advantage of, molested, and etc. everyone that ever hurt her is evil, she is an amazing person and never should have been treated the way she was
She was like a fragile wounded sparrow. She was brilliant in every aspect of her life. She was brilliant even in this condition. She was robbed to the point of poverty and mistreated by everyone in her world. It breaks my heart. 💔
Judy, Marilyn, and many others were not appreciated or loved until after their death. They were pretty much ridiculed and all mistakes were magnified for all the world to see. What's sad is that we still do it today, as with Jessica, Lohan, Spears and many others. If something (god forbid) was to happen to any of them, everyone would sing another tune and talk about how great they were and act like they never said an unkind word about them.
She wasn't "ugly", she was just pretty. When you watch Ziegfeld Girl you notice it. You've got Hedy Lamarr and Lana Turner, two glamorous women, and Judy, who was just sorta cute. No doubt, she definitely was not ugly at all, but she was like the cute girl next door, not the vixen like Lana Turner.
“I am an angry lady yet I am America’s sweetheart”
Wow, I am glad she got to tell her own story. I loved you Judy Garland, you brought happiness and joy to a lot of people and still do. I wish they hadn’t gotten you addicted to pills, you are one of the greatest of all time. Your children are talented too and your legacy lives on in our hearts and in your family. ❤️
A true human being who was handling horrible pain and strife is speaking here.. And after all she gave to the world, it's heartbreaking.to hear. One thing we should always remember about "stars" is that they have no one but themselves to go home to. She was a wonderful loving woman, mother and entertainer.... she had issues.....who doesn't?
So right! That old saying,"where ever you go, there you are".
It's bad enough being an ordinary woman feeling unappreciated by every one around her being the emotional creatures we are. Imagine it on the scale she had to face every single day of her life. Your life published for the world to see. Some true, some not. She tried and she tried and she changed herself to be what everyone wanted her to be so she could just feel that unconditional love she lost in her late father.
I can't even imagine the rage she must've felt.
Today is 6/ 22/10. 41 yrs ago the world Lost it's greatest Star & death silenced Judy's heart. Her talent came from her heart & through her voice, did we know it. Every song she sang she told us a story & always with such feeling whether it was happy or sad she gave us 1000% to us. She never looked down at her audience with disdain, she revered us andit came shining through each time she appeared before us. I am sad she is gone but she is @ peace with GOD & her voice is being heard in heaven.
She's my favorite and always will be. She could put over a song like no one else. She had problems, yes, bipolar and drug addiction. It's rare for an icon to speak here as she does. Sometimes, u just gotta let loose!
Debra Chapman Id suspect NPD or Borderline as this houses many other illnesses into one. Someone else commented it’s hard to tell if it was due to excessive adoration or abuse early on. We’ll never know. I have compassion for her and pray she is at peace. She’ll live forever in our hearts.
I SO LOVE JUDY! I feel greatful just to hear her voice ...she speaks her own truth. I have been so in awe of her since I was a little girl. Aside from her sorrows and mistreatment from Hollywood and corporate America, she is a DYNAMO an absolute Great entertainer. I will see her in heaven and sing and dance and Laugh at you all🥰🥰🙋🏻♀️❤🧚♀️
She never deserved the abuse she got in Hollywood! This rant breaks my heart. I feel so bad for her so I am forever going to support and never forget her while she’s gone.
The people around her used her like a tissue, and threw her away. She was a cash cow for her family and MGM. They broke her with criticism of her looks, and controlled her with drugs and intimidation. You can tell from these tapes how prevalent the drug and alcohol abuse was in her life, and how afraid she was of being forgotten.
Is it a pity party? Perhaps, but she deserves our pity. She was a powerhouse of talent, paraded around for our entertainment, and when she didn't please us anymore, we discarded her, forgot her, abandoned her for the newer model. She deserved to be loved for the person she was, Baby Francis Gumm, the child with the woman's voice. In many ways, Judy always remained a little girl who just wanted and needed to be loved. We love you, Judy! We will never forget you!
When you let drugs/booze/anger tell your experiences, you lose. Who knows what this woman was beyond the love and adoration of her family but know that the weird stuff of celebrity can do so much. Celebrity is the problem and the craving for it. She was honest in feeling the mess of this, that we must respect.
I cried a lot while listening to this tape. It's so intense, so REAL. What on earth have they been doing to her? How could they??
This is such a fascinating peek into Judy as a person. You can tell performance was what she knew best, because this recording sounds so theatrical. It's like a grand and dramatic monologue filled with pain, denial, regret, anger, and heartbreak.
She is also extremely honest in this tape.
That's Horribly Sad
This Is Real Judy Garland
The person, not the name. Yes
You mean Frances Gumm
Bula 88 “Judy Garland” was like a brand or commodity that overshadowed the woman. She is crying out here to be recognised as a human being, rather than just a commodity. If anyone had the right to be angry she did.
The thing about talented people is they usually have more sensitivity than the rest of us, then they're put under more pressure than regular folk to preform..more,more,more..make money, dance, sing, then they break...this happens time and time again to different artists yet nothing changes. When will we learn to treat these people with the respect they deserve?
Dani8132m People like Garland with their sensitivity (it comes with creativity and talent) are like rare orchids. But they are rarely treated as such, certainly not in her case.
We are with you judy. No matter where you are now. You are in a better place. :) also at 6:05 I shivered when she yelled the word bitches. It shows the suffering she went through. Especially in the wizard of oz. She was mistreated, insulted, mocked, drugged, but at least her co-worker Margaret Hamilton was the nicest of all :)
I feel like a lot of her fans must know the pain of speaking and speaking and SCREAMING and screaming and still not one person listens to you. For anyone feeling that or carrying a similar wound, may you find peace and healing the way she finally has.
Amazing how while she is obviously angry (rightfully) she never sounds vicious or nasty. She pulls you in and makes you listen when she talks, just like when she sings.
bless you heart judy ! judy is a human being and a wonderfull mother, bless her
The wizard of oz producers should had listened to that speech to make them realize how diabolical wicked witches they were to judy when she was young and that she grew up with that.
This is so moving ! She really shares something very deep with the listener!!!!
A beautiful human being, problems like normal people but delt with them being famous! How can you not be drawn to her and also sympathize and love her!
She was mostly surrounded by people who generated money from her talent. It seems that's all they were interested in. I can't imagine working my whole life watching other celebrities make vulgar amounts of money with little ,if any, of the talent she had, and to come out flat broke. The resentment would eat a person alive. Addictions are a horrible thing. Sometimes insurmountable. Betrayal in any form is heartbreaking.Any one of these things alone would be crippling .Combine these things together and with things we as fans have no knowledge of and the torment would have been more than most people could bear. Yet, this fragile human being managed to pull through year after year. For those who felt she was unattractive , they need only to look at the St. Louis picture to see her physical beauty. Combined with the beauty she had inside she was far more beautiful than Turner,Taylor and the others. That is my humble opinion.
She's an idol...period!!! I wish she could have stayed around long enough to be able to see and realize how much she'd have been adored!
The La braya tar pits! She always had a comedy side to her
Oh Judy, wish you were still here. You were a good mother and a good person and were surrounded by vultures. RIP 💕
“I wanted to believe and I tried my damn best to believe in the rainbow in the rainbow that I tried to get over and I couldn’t” damn that fucking hit hard Rest In Peace Judy❤️ you’re over the rainbow now❤️
Hard to be a legend... & frequently broke... still, she's the greatest talent of that generation, opening the starting gates to the big singers to follow... she set the template
RJ Nuzzi Garland was asked on a chat show what it felt like to be a living legend. She replied that it was like being the Statue of Liberty, and that it was very lonely. Fame has a hefty price tag on it.
Made me cry. This is heart wrenching. 😢
“I’m very self-conscious about talking about myself. But I think I’ve got something to write about, at last. If you like, you like it. If you don’t like it, you don’t like it. But you won’t be able to take it lightly! Any more than I’ve been able to take it lightly. I’ve laughed at myself when I should have cried! And I’ve cried […] because I had every reason, I’m god damn mad! I’m an angry lady, I’m a lady who has anger. I’ve been insulted, slandered, humiliated, but still America’s sweetheart. Now I’m rather […] intelligent, I think, or-- and I’m emotional, yeah! I’m a woman. I’m emotional! I’m not something you wind up and put on the stage that sings Carnegie Hall album and you put her in the closet and forget to invite her to the party that’s given for her. The agents leave her behind! I’m mad, I am mad enough and yet still very self-conscious but I’m gonna write a book. And I’m gonna talk. Because I can do something besides sing, you know. I don't always have to sing a song. There is something besides The Man That Got Away or Over the Rainbow or The Trolley Song. There's a woman. There are three children. There's me! There's a lot of life going here! I wanted to believe, and I tried my damndest to believe, in the rainbow that I tried to get over. And I couldn't! So what?! Lots of people can't! But I'm not lots of people. I'm me. I’m the one who’s had to live with me. I don’t wanna hear any resentment from anybody else now about how difficult I am, and I don’t wanna pick up a paper and read how unfit a mother I am when I have three marvellous children who seem to take and have always loved me. Fat, thin, funny, sad, they think I’m pretty good. I think they’re great! I have loved and have never planned revenge. However […] however this book turns out is because I am the result of an audience, of a critic, of critics, of what people have made me! And in the meantime, there's been another whole human being. Myself. That hasn’t been even interesting enough to write good stories in the newspaper that would be printed. They’re not interested. I'm a good cook. I am a good mother. I do believe in going to church. I love music. I love a lot of things that the people around me, that have surrounded me all my life-- all my forty-four goddamn, marvellous, failing, successful and hopelessly tragic and star-glitzed years, I’ve been surrounded by people who are not in my league. They were the disbelievers, now they’re gonna have to put up with their names being printed. They better not sue because I’m only gonna write the truth. In the meantime, how do I find the true Judy Garland, or Francis Gumm, or whatever it is? Is it a girl or a woman? I get angry, but I’ve never been loudly angry. I can get angry in front of my friends. I do […] get so frustrated. It’s very difficult-- it’s all well and good for you people, publishers. Now this is not to be included in my book-- they just take fifty pages, but you can’t write how nervous my hands get, or how lost I might get when I have to remember because I went through five years of psychoanalysis, going back over a life that was no good to begin with, no fun, and is-- I’m doing it purely for money! Because I deserve it. I’ve sung. I’ve entertained. I’ve pleased your children. I’ve pleased your wives. I’ve pleased you, you sons of bitches! And you can’t deny that! Now the government isn’t pleasing me very much! They’re not protecting me, they’re not gonna move the house away, with the kids. Sid Luft […] is some kind of animal-- a lot of people belong in, I think, in Southern California, called the La Brea Tar Pits! I’ve maintained a way of life to not sink with the sludge! And you better write it! You better pay for it! Or don’t listen, and get the hell out of my life!”
Jack Brading I love this
Heather Elliott : Why read it and then bother to comment and criticize??
Heather Elliott It needs to be written down; it actually reads as though it would have been a very worthwhile book!
We are witnessing Britney go through her own abuse, as Judy did.
You can't blame her for being angry. Everybody starting with her own mother lied to her. I wish she could have had a couple of years to get well. Those who knew her best said she was so peaceful and relaxed when she had the chance to rest and get the pressure off herself. Here she's mad at her mother, Sid Luft and David Begelman. She worked from the age of 2. She was the highest paid performer and she was broke. I'd be mad too!
Judy. This is breaking my heart. I wish I could have done something... I still wish I could do something. I just feel helpless.
actressindemaking , amen wish we could have helped her.
I love her...now more than ever.
I feel sorry for Judy Garland.
I feel just like this... I was a child performer from 77...at 4 till 1990...and to this day I'm a bass player..
Poor woman had a LOT of anger; justifyingly so.....
they always come down the hardest on the nice people
This is a revealing side to a woman we never thought had one, and she left us too early due to drug addiction. If only she didn't have to put on a face and was recognized for more than just her singing voice, she would still be with us.
If I could press the 'like' button under this video more than once, I would. This star, this talent but most of all this Lady had been used, used by people with no talent. God bless your soul miss Gumm x
go Judy, let it out. that is 25 years building up there--she had every reason to be pissed.
Just wish someone had been respectful and loving to her 20 years earlier--then she might still be with us.
I've always thought that too. I thought she was stunning i have never been able to see what those who said she was ugly saw.
Much of what we hear has probably more than a grain of truth to it.We are listening to a drunk Judy ramble on about a life full of resentments because she was F****d over by a lot of people.
Judy was very vulnerable and that is what made her so beautiful.
...Yet she left us too soon. Poor Lovely woman, with a WORLD of amazing talent.
is this really judy! her voice sounds so different! if it is her she had every right to be mad as many times as people took and wasted her money, that she worked very hard for her whole life!! i love you judy! happy birthday!
Yes it is her but sorry im 11 years late to tell u 😂
The wizard of oz directors and all her husbands made her like that, I just wish she knows that her fans truly love her
Love you Judy! You are forever in my prayers.
Simply JUDY ....Simply Honest
By the time this was recorded it was too late. Her body had incurred irreparable damage and she was slowly dying. She was so young. She looks twenty years older. She didn’t deserve a lousy life. The saddest victim was Joey. He was carried whilst his mother was an addict and has suffered emotionally and physically as a result. But no one mentions Joey.
Always loved Ms. Garland. Still do. RIP sweet lady.