That part where you said your family was worried that you wouldn't come back from college because you hurt yourself really hit me. I had my cousin, who I was really good friends with, commit suicide. It broke me as we where such good friends and i just remember a period of time where i didn't see him as his parents didn't let me come, and soon enough the next day he was proven dead by suicide. I relate to this story so much, and Im thankful that you made it. Keep growing.
I'm glad things WORKED OUT. I pulled a sneaky one on ya. In all seriousness tho Im glad you didn't choose to commit suicide because there are at least 68k people who care about you not including your family and friends.
We all should feel grateful for our lives, because it means being able to fully be ourselves. and you made it through all this. Congrats. You're a champ!
damm, I never thought about that.....I am glad you got better and it is great, that you spoke about this, not to us, but to yourself! that is where it counts! Even if you need some days off, you can tell us and we will understand! Health comes first! Keep it up!
Well Mike you deserve a happy life just like all of us.I know that feeling of not wanting to live anymore but my brain just can't let these thoughts in my head for very long.You are example for a lot of people out there.Thank you for making this video.This way you keep the hope of many people alive.I hope such thing never happens to you or anybody else.I just hope everything gets better.I can clearly see how greed slowly destroys our world and I hope we all manage to fix everything in this new decade thanks for the video and have an amazing day people don't forget to be positive!
Good for you Mikey, its hard to get out of a tough place. I glad you found a way to let out your emotions and can still make good content or any content at all for us. We appreciate you and what you do and will support you through any time. Keep on keeping on.
i know exactly how you feel. in 8th grade i went through an "edgy" phase, expecting to leave pretty easily next year like everyone. what i thought was a simple edgy phase turned out to be developing depression. i thought it'd go away so i didn't report it to my parents, but it didn't. every night in 8th grade was pure torture, staying up all night with a broken mindset and growing anxiety that nothing i do will ever matter. yet i didn't report it. somewhere in 9th grade i decided to look up some mental health issues and i came to the conclusion that i may be suffering from depression and sexual frustration. this year, 10th grade, my school sent me to a phychologist due to my moody behavior and trust issues, and it turns out i was right. i was suffering from "severe depression" for nearly 3 years now without me knowing. despite it, i still have my conscious side that prevented me from taking my life, even though i had non-stop suicidal thoughts. the fact that i'd be ruining my parents life if i'd be gone fucking scares to the point where stuff that i used to do daily were out of the equation because i was to scared of scarring my parents. i'm still in a pretty bad mental state at the moment but it definitely gets better around loved ones. if there's one thing i can say for sure about all that from my point of view; the depression severely altered my personality.
I didn't realize you ever made this video till just now. Massive respect to you for making this and trying to help others with their own mental health, man
I can assure you that talking about such a topic publicly is very challenging for many of people and by that you have gained not only my respect but the respect of many more. Please keep doing what you're doing. Life will always consist of bad, horrible and challenging times. But this is where we grow from and become our own better and best. I wish you and your closest only the best for the future!
I've been there myself and it was pretty much exactly the same, the same thoughts, times, however ontop of this I was unknowingly in a really abusive relationship. It's people like you that shared their storys that kept me going. Keep up the amazing channel and let's get you to 70k!
I hope this is proof, that venting and opening yourself up isn't a bad thing, look at the overwhelmingly massive amount of support. And for you mikey, I have a ton of respect for not only opening yourself and sharing all of this, and making it through a terrifying and dark time in life, Keep on goin' bud we'll always be here to make you happier :) Endless amount of respect to you and stay strong
This helps a lot. Already felt like my life was slipping away and the start of this year but lockdown and my social life pretty much dying made everything so much worse. I've decided to regularly exercise and become more healthy starting from next month. Never thought a TF2 RUclipsr would help improve my mental state but thank you.
I'm glad you have the courage to talk to us about you and how you feel, not everyone has that much determination to open to everyone, specially to a couple of strangers. Anyways, you're a good person, and I'm happy that you recovered in a better way. I myself have had some issues with my persona many times in the past, and I know, as many others do, how hard these are. Keep on determinated!
This is a very touching video and I'm glad you're feeling a lot better. As someone who went through something similar around the same time, You're a hero for those going through depression. Knowing this information is so important and you communicated it through this video perfectly! Much respect to my favourite TF2 RUclipsr and fellow Brit!
Your one of the most relatable youtuber many of us have to cling on to, you being here helps many of us, even if people feel cringe or hatred towards anyone else that bothers them. even online games can mess people up, some people are absolute monsters when online, It's not humane to tell someone to kill them self, you don't know if they take that serious, It makes me furious.
This was really engaging and inspiring to watch. I was feeling legitimately hopeful listening to you wrap things up at the end there. Right as you were about to deliver the closing message however, the video cut to an obnoxious and screechy TikTok ad and I had to resist the primal urge to devour my phone.
You say that if you’d discovered exercise sooner; none of your depression would have had to happen, But maybe it had happen for you to find this means of recovery and growth. You’re a stronger person now(physically and emotionally) and I think it’s worth the journey to get there
First of all glad to see you recovered and I’m really happy for you Second if (god forbid) anything happens like this again then remember. Remember that all of the people who support you and watch your videos are there for you and will support you no matter what
Mikey you put so much obvious work into your videos and don’t get enough reward for it. Keep making great content and I’m glad that you are on a road to being the best you can be.
Dude this video is amazing. Well done so much. just know that you're never alone ever. We're all here and I can talk whenever you need it. Congrats on the recovery
This dood should be a heavy main with all of this weightlifting. But seriously, your doing good Mikey, just keep doing what yer doing. We got your back.
Since this was a documentary for university I was able to use a BlackMagic Ursa for all of the recording. I would normally use a Canon 250D though and some shots in this documentary were taken on that camera :)
That part where you said your family was worried that you wouldn't come back from college because you hurt yourself really hit me. I had my cousin, who I was really good friends with, commit suicide. It broke me as we where such good friends and i just remember a period of time where i didn't see him as his parents didn't let me come, and soon enough the next day he was proven dead by suicide. I relate to this story so much, and Im thankful that you made it. Keep growing.
Mike be hitting the gym tho
spikeymikey out here hitting the gym like i hit my wife
Thicc Biceps
You have all of our undying love!
you're very brave to speak up about this. im glad you got better, suicide is never the answer bro. ily!
Good to see you recovered Mikey we are all here to support you
Im happy that your good and recovered. I will always be here to support you
Thanks communism doggo, very cool.
i didnt expect this video, but its beautyful. Im happy that your good and recovered.
One of my biggest inspirations man.
Man I ve been there it's dark, but thank you so much for speaking about this because it is a serious problem.
Hey man, keep on going. Thousands of people love you and your content and think your amazing. Never stop pushing.
It's surprising but also heartwarming to see you speak up about something like this. Don't worry, if all else fails, we all still appreciate you!
I'm glad things WORKED OUT. I pulled a sneaky one on ya. In all seriousness tho Im glad you didn't choose to commit suicide because there are at least 68k people who care about you not including your family and friends.
We all should feel grateful for our lives, because it means being able to fully be ourselves. and you made it through all this. Congrats. You're a champ!
I feel with you man depression sucks
damm, I never thought about that.....I am glad you got better and it is great, that you spoke about this, not to us, but to yourself! that is where it counts! Even if you need some days off, you can tell us and we will understand! Health comes first! Keep it up!
This is beautiful, I'm proud of you! Much love and support
Well Mike you deserve a happy life just like all of us.I know that feeling of not wanting to live anymore but my brain just can't let these thoughts in my head for very long.You are example for a lot of people out there.Thank you for making this video.This way you keep the hope of many people alive.I hope such thing never happens to you or anybody else.I just hope everything gets better.I can clearly see how greed slowly destroys our world and I hope we all manage to fix everything in this new decade thanks for the video and have an amazing day people don't forget to be positive!
Good for you Mikey, its hard to get out of a tough place. I glad you found a way to let out your emotions and can still make good content or any content at all for us. We appreciate you and what you do and will support you through any time. Keep on keeping on.
i know exactly how you feel. in 8th grade i went through an "edgy" phase, expecting to leave pretty easily next year like everyone. what i thought was a simple edgy phase turned out to be developing depression. i thought it'd go away so i didn't report it to my parents, but it didn't. every night in 8th grade was pure torture, staying up all night with a broken mindset and growing anxiety that nothing i do will ever matter. yet i didn't report it. somewhere in 9th grade i decided to look up some mental health issues and i came to the conclusion that i may be suffering from depression and sexual frustration. this year, 10th grade, my school sent me to a phychologist due to my moody behavior and trust issues, and it turns out i was right. i was suffering from "severe depression" for nearly 3 years now without me knowing. despite it, i still have my conscious side that prevented me from taking my life, even though i had non-stop suicidal thoughts. the fact that i'd be ruining my parents life if i'd be gone fucking scares to the point where stuff that i used to do daily were out of the equation because i was to scared of scarring my parents. i'm still in a pretty bad mental state at the moment but it definitely gets better around loved ones. if there's one thing i can say for sure about all that from my point of view; the depression severely altered my personality.
We have our support for you mikey!Love your videos..
Hey, were all glad your here. The world wouldn’t be the same without everyone’s favorite scout main.
I didn't realize you ever made this video till just now.
Massive respect to you for making this and trying to help others with their own mental health, man
thanks man :)
I can assure you that talking about such a topic publicly is very challenging for many of people and by that you have gained not only my respect but the respect of many more. Please keep doing what you're doing.
Life will always consist of bad, horrible and challenging times. But this is where we grow from and become our own better and best.
I wish you and your closest only the best for the future!
I've been there myself and it was pretty much exactly the same, the same thoughts, times, however ontop of this I was unknowingly in a really abusive relationship. It's people like you that shared their storys that kept me going. Keep up the amazing channel and let's get you to 70k!
I hope this is proof, that venting and opening yourself up isn't a bad thing, look at the overwhelmingly massive amount of support.
And for you mikey, I have a ton of respect for not only opening yourself and sharing all of this, and making it through a terrifying and dark time in life, Keep on goin' bud we'll always be here to make you happier :)
Endless amount of respect to you and stay strong
Just remember that the dislikes on this video are the people who dislike the thoughts that you were depressed.
Lets go my guy
I love your content and legit am happy you made it.
Beautiful video man. Its great to hear how your journey has healed you over the past 3 years.
This helps a lot. Already felt like my life was slipping away and the start of this year but lockdown and my social life pretty much dying made everything so much worse. I've decided to regularly exercise and become more healthy starting from next month. Never thought a TF2 RUclipsr would help improve my mental state but thank you.
I have a lot of respect for you man.
I'm glad you have the courage to talk to us about you and how you feel, not everyone has that much determination to open to everyone, specially to a couple of strangers. Anyways, you're a good person, and I'm happy that you recovered in a better way. I myself have had some issues with my persona many times in the past, and I know, as many others do, how hard these are. Keep on determinated!
This is a very touching video and I'm glad you're feeling a lot better. As someone who went through something similar around the same time, You're a hero for those going through depression. Knowing this information is so important and you communicated it through this video perfectly! Much respect to my favourite TF2 RUclipsr and fellow Brit!
Your one of the most relatable youtuber many of us have to cling on to, you being here helps many of us, even if people feel cringe or hatred towards anyone else that bothers them. even online games can mess people up, some people are absolute monsters when online, It's not humane to tell someone to kill them self, you don't know if they take that serious, It makes me furious.
This was really engaging and inspiring to watch. I was feeling legitimately hopeful listening to you wrap things up at the end there. Right as you were about to deliver the closing message however, the video cut to an obnoxious and screechy TikTok ad and I had to resist the primal urge to devour my phone.
i am so happy for you bud. you are my best favorite tf2 gamer so far good to hear u recovered
I will never stop watching your videos promise
We all are happy that you recovered we would hate to see you gone I think its awesome that you recovered from something so hard to deal with
You say that if you’d discovered exercise sooner; none of your depression would have had to happen, But maybe it had happen for you to find this means of recovery and growth. You’re a stronger person now(physically and emotionally) and I think it’s worth the journey to get there
Thanks bro. I quit running a few weeks ago and I’ve been letting myself go. I’m running 3 miles tomorrow for sure now!
First of all glad to see you recovered and I’m really happy for you
Second if (god forbid) anything happens like this again then remember. Remember that all of the people who support you and watch your videos are there for you and will support you no matter what
so powerful, thank you for making this, it means so much, thank you for being so strong and being here for us now:)
Thank god u are still here making content that u love and making people happy
The wonders of enough sleep are just amazing
Mikey you put so much obvious work into your videos and don’t get enough reward for it. Keep making great content and I’m glad that you are on a road to being the best you can be.
This is very inspirational. Thank you for talking about this important topic, very happy you recovered.
Well this was terrifyingly relatable
I'm glad your okay bud😁🙏
Dude this video is amazing. Well done so much. just know that you're never alone ever. We're all here and I can talk whenever you need it. Congrats on the recovery
We’re here for you man. Keep up the good work!
you're probably strong enough to go to the club or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up, because you're raising the bar
Didn't steal that from Eminem whatsoever.
@@digitbeats8939 well that's the whole thing here
@@tuutelis Oh i thought u meant it like you came up with it ur self.
Your content is good but the reason I like your channel so much is cause of you keep up the good work man
Thanks! I needed this.
Man that was mad inspiring, thank you for sharing this!
This was a really nice documentary :)
its great to see that you are good and recovered, thanks for giving us entertainment, you will get 70K subs in no time!
This really hit home, thanks man.
Dayum, hitting the gym and the 10 minute mark, impressive
It's great to see you speaking out
Took a ton of inspo from this for a big school project. Perfect timing
hope you the best. love you!
I'm the guy from insta! (the_only_calum), glad your speaking about this :))
This dood should be a heavy main with all of this weightlifting. But seriously, your doing good Mikey, just keep doing what yer doing. We got your back.
Good job making it also your video’s are great
just keep up man i hope all the good things for you
Glad to hear that you're better, although I didn't know that you were feeling bad beforehand.
keep going Mike
you're great : )
Just remember you got alot of people that care about you
Thank you
You dropped this👑
Man, dont worry, your content is the best. :3
You have my respect 👌
Respect.
quality content
Good job!
Happy for you, man
I'm happy that you got through it m8.
Love u dude!
You look nice)))
Who disliked this? Great video, very inspirational
Me: Spikey what you use to record
Spikey: Actually responds
Me:😱🙀
Since this was a documentary for university I was able to use a BlackMagic Ursa for all of the recording. I would normally use a Canon 250D though and some shots in this documentary were taken on that camera :)
Noice XD
always remember spikey we need you :) ! so hang in there buddy
He's spittin straight facts tho
I always thought that our current societal climate was accountable for this.
Ey randolph and ksi 😂 but seriously nice work i cant believe that you did this youre a legend👍
he just made a workout montage
It was a bit more than a workout montage, but yeah, there was one
Mike getting hella swole I see u big man get those muscles
alright this video was wicked, btw what camera were you using? It's really good
I used a BlackMagic Ursa and a Canon 250d :)
My guys literally 69k 🔥 🔥
If Mikey hits me once, I will go flying.
Nice video, am I the only who noticed that his monitor is vertical?
Seemed like Texas.
I'm glad you didn't, we're all glad you didn't. Stay safe dude.
Mikey do be spikey tho
The vertical monitor thou
damn.
This was unexpected
Omg the hair revival, but where's the real burning unusual?
dumbell emoji
this is were the:"PRESS F TO PAY RESPECT" comes in.
(btw F)
Oh shit 20 seconds