The Darkness - feat. Rachel Bloom - "Crazy Ex-Girlfriend"
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- Опубликовано: 18 окт 2024
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The Darkness
Starring Rachel Bloom
Written by Rachel Bloom, Adam Schlesinger, Jack Dolgen, and Aline Brosh McKenna
Rebecca:
IN MY LIFE I'VE HAD SO MANY MEN
BUT THERE'S ONE I COME BACK TO AGAIN AND AGAIN
WE'VE BEEN ON AND OFF FOR SUCH A LONG TIME
AND NOW HE'S BACK AND I'M FEELING OH-SO-FINE
HE'S THE DARKNESS
MY FIRST LOVE, MY TRUE LOVE
THE DARKNESS
HE KNOWS ME BETTER THAN ANYONE
HE HOLDS ME CLOSE
AND WHISPERS THINGS
THAT I DON'T WANT TO HEAR
WHEN I FEEL THE BUTTERFLIES OF DREAD
I KNOW THE DARKNESS IS NEAR
WE MET AROUND THE TIME I STARTED FIRST GRADE
EVERY SUMMER AFTER THAT WE'D PLAY SOLITAIRE IN THE SHADE
ON PROM NIGHT HE WAS THE ONLY BOY I KISSED
AND WHEN HE'D VISIT MY DORM I REMEMBERED HOW MUCH I'D MISS
THE DARKNESS
HIS LOVE FOR ME IS PURE
THE DARKNESS
HE'S HANDSOME FOR A METAPHOR
AND HIS NAME IS... TYLER
YEAH, THAT FEELS RIGHT
HIS NAME IS TYLER
HE DRUNK DIALS ME EVERY NIGHT
TYLER, TYLER, TYLER
YOUR KISS FEELS LIKE A CUT
YOU PLAY DRUMS AND WEAR GUYLINER
AND YOUR PET NAME FOR ME IS "SLUT"
FOR SO MANY YEARS I'VE USED THE DARKNESS TO FEEL
BUT NOW THERE ARE THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT ARE ACTUALLY REAL
I GOTTA MAKE A CHOICE, DARLIN' DON'T ASK ME WHY
SO WILL I HAVE THE STRENGTH
TO TELL THE DARKNESS
TO TELL TYLER DARKNESS
GOODBYE?
A song that points out the safe, comfortable familiarity of depression and anxiety and how it can feel easier to just deal with the bad than try to fight your way to the good - is one of the billion reasons this show is so brilliant.
"I miss the comfort in being sad."
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Yeah this song is one of the few that has stuck with me from the entire series. It's brilliant.
or like i did about 4 years ago when i reached the most calm and stable part of my life, freaked out and burned everything to the ground with self destruction 😂 luckily i’ve fixed my life now and truly appreciate stability and good mental health where before it would send me into a tailspin 😂
tyler is so seductice
'he's handsome for a metaphor'
This is accurate
That handsome emo
Proud of Rebecca for realizing that she still needs help. It can be a frustrating thing to admit to yourself, but so crucial if you want to keep moving forwards. It really shows how much she's grown as a character, backsliding is a real thing with mental health problems.
Can we also take a second and appreciate both Nathaniel and Josh for behaving so well and not taking advantage of Rebecca? I know this should be the norm, but sadly still isn't.
Also, kudos to the writing team for raising awareness for the heart attack symptoms in females which are way different that men's!
Old Nathaniel most likely would have taken advantage of that situation, I love how much he's grown since he first showed up. I would have been quite upset if they had thrown his character development out of the window just to create more drama.
I also quite appreciate the parallels drawn between psychological and physiological conditions, and how this episode acknowledges both as medical phenomena.
I was genuinely whispering, "I'm so proud of YOOOOOU" at the screen. Nathaniel especially has grown so much.
@@brauneskamo5974 I wish I understood everything you just said. I would love to hear you elaborate on that.
@@raininess he wouldn't have. The guys on the show are very specifically written to be excellent with consent.
Wow, "Your kiss feels like a cut" that line hit right at home.
Wow, just realized that, this hits home for me too unfortunately
Also in the second verse she "on prom night he was the only boy I kissed" ouch
@@luccamalualves8261 holy shit.... oh becca
While naming her darkness "Tyler" lightens the mood, I think it might also be about naming your own darkness and thereby separating yourself from it. That's a thing I've heard people talk about. It's like giving the mean thoughts in your head a name and then telling that person to shut the fuck up.
It’s like that one tumblr post where it said to give the negative voices in your head a name. For example:
Bastard voice: You don’t deserve to live
You: Shut the fuck up, Kyle
Silenzio Bruno! 😡🤬
Shut up Tyler
That's what i was thinking
Exactly
this song hits so hard for me. being infatuated with your depression is a reall thing and im still dealing with having my more comfortable place being when im fucked up and trying to fix that mindset. this song is just too real.
That's such an interesting way to put it. Infatuation with depression
I'm watching the show for the first time right now, and just got to this song. It made me cry, even with the silly "Tyler" part added in. It hurts how much I can relate to this.
AND your name is rebecca 😀
@@maggiedk Yeah. To this day, it’s one of my favorites out of the whole show and one of the most personally hard-hitting for me.
I had a vague thought about this and my situation, how I feel actually comfortable being sad, but dismissed it. It is real still. Hope we can all get through this and get better ways to feel the world.
CXG was a vastly under rated show. The songs and comedy were great. All the actors were triple threats (singing, dancing, and acting). I'd like to see more from them, but I suppose the only place where they can fully utilize their talents is on Broadway (where a lot of them came from originally). Musical comedies are pretty rare on TV or cable.
If you haven't seen it yet, watch Zoey's Extraordinary Playlist. It might give you something ot fill the CXG void for a bit.
It pisses me off that so many people won't give it a chance bc it's a musical. But they'll watch Disney all fuckin day or talk about how cool Hamilton was.
@@KellyRyan-k9k THIS! Also, if someone likes music, and they like movies/tv, what is not to like about musicals? It’s literally a combination of things that most humans love.
"For so many years I've used to darkness to feel, but now there are things in my life that are actually real."
This line resonates so much with my experience dealing with mental illness for half my life. I'm eternally grateful for how this show deals with mental illness. It isn't just about finding treatment, it's also everything that comes after that. The grief over who you could have been. The strength to not fall back into familiar patterns and reach out again and again. It all often feels like a constant leap of faith. I am so grateful this show exists and it has genuinely gotten me through some very low points of my life.
Not to mention, it's hilarious to boot. I'm not hyperbolizing when I say that this show is a blessing to so many people. (Goodbye Tyler Darkness...)
As someone who’s been in and out of therapy for most of her life, I understand the feeling of grief over who you could have been. I’ve lost so much time to crippling anxiety.
We’re never completed, finished, done - we’re always in the process of becoming. Until we’re dead and cold, it’s not too late to blossom and grow. Who we become may not be who we would have been without our struggles, but that doesn’t mean life can’t be full and fulfilling and at times achingly beautiful.
I’m just an internet rando, but I sincerely hope you are doing well and taking care of yourself, because you matter and the work (as much as it sucks sometimes) is worth it.
Thanks.now im crying again to the pointi can't type even more. But you are right. And it FUCKING HURTS.
So important for everyone out there being "drunk dialed every night"... one day we will all block tyler's a$$
I love that her voice is so pure in this, she’s not putting any sort of accent on and that speaks volumes about the meaning of this scene ❤️😩
I feel Tyler is such a great name for the darkness that lives inside us, since in the Fight Club the narrator's inner darkness was also called Tyler, and it needed to disappear.
I love the way you’re thinking. Also it could be a reference to bonnie tyler singing total eclipse of the heart which is also a love song dedicated to darkness, but there darkness is answering
This is a stretch, but what immediately came to mind for me is that the lead singer of Twenty One Pilots is named Tyler, and the concept of Blurryface (which shares the name of their biggest and very popular album, released in 2015) is giving depression and anxiety its own name and separating it from yourself.
Of course choosing Tyler may be a total coincidence. It's beautiful that we can all come up with our own meanings.
I relate to every part of the lyric except "in my life I´ve had so many men"
Same
as a lesbian, same
Okay this song is so powerful and intense and then she names the darkness Tyler and it lightens the whole vibe and this is why Rachel is a genius ❤
yes!!! it's one of those classic laugh-while-crying moments that this show does so well.
@@gregolas5873 omg so true!!!
My name is Tyler and when my boyfriend and I watched this he was like "YOOOOO"
And his pet name for you....
Sorry Tyler darkness
Worse nicknames than "the darkness"
Does your kiss feel like a cut
is your petname for him- nvm
Tyler Darkness? Are you sure it isn't Ebony Darkness Dementia Raven Way?
Loooiooil ! 😂
They're cousins.
George glass
This song personally came into my house grabbed me by the nape and told me that it was written to call me out
Babe, same. In the succeeding scene, the medication i was put on was mentioned and i'm like, "I CAME HERE TO HAVE FUN."
This episode had me like, I've been exposed.
Me but with this whole ass show lol. Seriously, this show made me see a psychiatrist because Rebecca’s symptoms were on point to mine and seeing someone else act out the way you do was a huge wake up call.
Big same
Me too
It's almost scary how much I can relate to this song and Rebecca overall.
In half an hour I have my intake for my outpatient program. I will finally tell Tyler that I don't need him anymore. This song has been on repeat in my mind. Thank you Rachel and Adam (RIP💜) for creating the soundtrack that has kept me moving slowly forward, and will surely boost me through the hard work that lies ahead. I don't have words right now for just how much this show has meant to me.
ok but why did I only start crying when she named it Tyler
Maybe because she's giving one of her biggest fear a name to make it less scary. It kinda feels like overcoming a fear🤔
Because a major tear trigger is contradictory emotions, here Humor vs Darkness. That's also how Pixar works its magic.
I can feel her fear and doubt when she says “so will I have the strength to tell the darkness, to tell Tyler darkness goodbye”. Rachel is such a great actress
Man. Only realizing this so many years after the fact, and mainly due to the comments (after first being struck so hard by this scene, I’ve mainly played this song just to listen to it) but it’s so thematically striking how bare-bones the music video for this is. It’s really fitting, and makes it stand out as well. Absolutely love it.
Does anyone else think it’s a total badass porn name? “Hello, I’m Tyler Darkness. I’m here to f--- the light right out of you!”.
Just Matt 😂haha you silly!
Just Matt True! Lol mmmhmmmm Tyler Darkness, that BBC lol
Lyla Light: Strip it all Awayyy.. STRİP İT ALL AWAAAAAAAAYYY!!
I can’t tell you definitively how this song made me feel, because it created a kind of indiscernible emotional casserole, and I can’t quite pick out everything that’s in it. I picked out a bit of that special anxiety reserved for someone figuring out something you’ve been trying so long to hide, though. There was definitely a little nausea in there too. Mostly, though, I recognized the relief.
I’ve never known how to explain that my depression has been with me so long, that it felt more like a comfy companion some days, or why exactly it took eight months of therapy to admit I was in serious trouble in the first place. I still keep it to myself that, for awhile there, I’d skip my meds for a few days, just to see how it felt, because I was forgetting, and that was terrifying. I don’t dare even try anymore, because, in the past, before I even got a few words into the subject, a clearly uncomfortable look or a comment revealing a lack of comprehension of my situation in general would have me shrinking back.
This song felt like talking to a friend that gets it so well, it’s uncomfortable. The conversation is a little unsettling, and a lot sad, but it’s also a relief, because there’s a lot to be said for not being alone, even if the thing you and your companion share is killing you both a little bit.
I never shrink back from sharing with friends and acquaintances how good this show is, but I want to make sure that you know it, too: This show means so much to me. Some days, it means everything. Today was one of those days.
Me too 💜
♥
Ooooof do I get your comment far, far too well.
Four years later I read your wonderfully written response. Thank you. Even at age 76 I occasionally wrestle with sadness ...being widowed, having had depression in the past. The state of the world and so on. Still lots of joy and some hope. Have to carry on 😊😊
This song is so perfect, it gives me goosebumps.
This episode feels like Rebecca's narrative has nearly completed its arc. So bittersweet that our beloved show is almost over 😢
I don’t think enough people talk about how safe and comfortable the darkness feels for people who’ve dealt with depression their entire lives.
For me, and I’m sure many others, it’s part of why healing can be so difficult. We don’t want to let that comfort go.
Anyone else notice how most songs in this show are over the top but this one is just Rebecca walking around and reflecting on her “good” times with the darkness
Two years has past since I watch the show, and just now I realised the real meaning behind the line “your kiss feels like a cut”
The darkness, no matter how many times you get rid of her, she's persistent. She’ll sit there and wait. Then, when you’re alone, at your lowest point, she strikes, and she’ll do her damnest to tail-spin you into the abyss.
I'll name her Jezebel.
"for so many years, i used the darkness to feel. but now there are things in my life that are actually real."
...still using the darkness over here, and striving to get to the realness...
I'm just starting to get to the realness. It's hard, but oh so worth it.
I miss this show so much
These comments are amazing. I sometimes come back to the songs not just because they're (often painfully) relatable, but for the insights people leave.
Never thought I'd say that about youtube comments, but seriously!
I feel really supported in here
Not gonna lie, despite the boyfriend-y language I was 100% sure she was talking about her dad at first. But I mean, in a way, she is.
Well she also never addressed the issue with Robert, who was the first person who reinforced her sense that she isn't actually important or valuable
That's what I thought until she mentions meeting him in 1st grade.
@@gensai93 isn't that when he left?
I thought so, too! Then it became this and... well, this is beautiful.
@@AlyssaRicks no I think she was older than first grade
Hello darkness my old friend
Or do you mean "hello tyler my old friend"
so many comments and only you hit point. I've come to talk with you again
This episode has terrified me in a way I can’t describe.
So well sung... I'm speechless, always love her singing but this was something else, it was transformative.
I found something really strange about this song; like most of them always feel like 50/50 parody/genuinely good song but this feels only like 25% parody. Like, this is genuinely great lyricism in relation to the darkness in the mind, especially when you have mental health issues.
I honestly don't know whether or not to treat Tyler Darkness like an actual character now.
underrated
its so easy to fall down the rabbit hole with any minor incovinience being the trigger, felt exactly this way yesterday, im so glad someone put this complex feeling into a beautiful song - which is also funny
I only watched that episode last night & when Rebecca sung that song it triggered something deep inside of me which made me tear up. And I played it over & over again. I've always felt a connection with her character but this time it's like.. hey this is ME! the "darkness" to me is that self destructive part of me that I go to when I don't want to be good or take responsibility for my actions when life gets hard or serious I let the darkness into the drivers seat & just be the passenger going along the road to total destruction of my self. I also have depression, anxiety & other "issues"& bad choices when it comes to guys. I think relationships for me are a distraction from working on healing my mental health?
I was kind of hoping that Tyler would be some kind of terrifying full-costume puppet with a big nametag who would dance with her.
Its silly but she could still on a stage version.
Or someone make that video instead It might even have meme potential. Put a tyler tag on a decent monster costume
I just came here to say she not only suits this look so much, but it’s PERFECT for her voice. Like it fits so beautifully that no one else could sing this like she can
When the darkness come back to me i try to listen to this song. I just cried while singing with rebecca and now i feel much better :) i can say the darkness a little goodbye. Thank you Rachel. I love this. ❤
What an unbelievable song
Oh god Im crying next episode arent I? also the cognitive dissonance in this is great. It took me a while to realize she was talking about The Darkness instead of someone who was toxic to her and that's much much better and... fuck, too relatable as always
I’m so thankful I got help early.
I'm glad you did!
Thank you Rachel and everyone for giving us such as beautiful TV show, I don't think I'll ever stop rewatching it.
Her vocals are just amazing in this.
“for so many years i’ve used the darkness to feel” okay well that hurt
Absolutely my favorite scene in the show.
I want to marry this show
This one was my favourite song...It brought shivers on my spine for real...
Love this show! They need to make something like this again! ❤
This song is incredible in so many ways. Thankful that this show exists.
Anyone else here part of the BPD crew and found this a bit too relatable? 😂
Every song is a personal attack.
SAME THO
YES!
I don't know if I'm part of said crew, but I definitely felt this song in my belly...
Not part of the crew, but after 4 seasons of, "Ha! This is everything I've felt! Bring on the loathing and humor!" I don't know
Rachel, I love your stuff so much. CXG is brilliant and I can't wait to watch s4 (when it's out some time in the future on Netflix Germany) (I hope). Until then I'm living vicariously through the music vids you upload, tysm! All the best!
Is it available for streaming on CW app?
There's also torrent options.
I'm aware of illegal options but I don't want to be thrown into jail :/ also the CW app isnt available in Europe/Germany unfortunately
@@l.langeneckert915 Tbh, wenn es keine anderen Alternativen gibt, nicht Mal legale, ich hätte die Staffel sonst gekauft, was will man machen? :/
@@nxt_tim ich warte auf die Netflix Release... die 3. Staffel wurde ja auch vor kurzem hinzugefügt
This hits differently 🥺
I’ve just binge watched Crazy ex girlfriend, again. And this song always makes me cry. I’ve felt the darkness too many times! 😢
i was going to cry when she screamed "TYLER!" why does that name fit so perfectly lmao
LYRICS:
In my life I've had so many men
But there's one I come back to again and again
We've been on and off for such a long time
And now he's back and I'm feeling oh so fine
He's the darkness
My first love, my true love
The darkness
He knows me better than anyone
He holds me close and whispers things that I don't want to hear
When I feel the butterflies of dread, I know the darkness is near
We met around the time I started first grade
Every summer after that we'd play solitaire in the shade
On prom night, he was the only boy I kissed
And when he'd visit my dorm, I'd remember how much I'd missed
The darkness
His love for me is pure
The darkness
He's handsome for a metaphor
And his name is Tyler
Yeah, that feels right
His name is Tyler
He drunk-dials me every night
Tyler, Tyler, Tyler
Your kiss feels like a cut
You play drums and wear guyliner
And your pet name for me is "Slut"
For so many years I've used the darkness to feel
But now there are things in my life that are actually real
I gotta make a choice, darlin' don't ask me why
So will I have the strength to tell the darkness
To tell Tyler Darkness
Goodbye?
This song made me cry and laugh and cry again bc it represented exactly how I feel. I know I'm not the only one when I say that I identified with this show and with Rebecca, which helped me to get treatment for my own issues and made me feel like I was getting a hug through the screen. Thank you so much, Crazy Ex Girlfriend was a masterpiece and it will always have a piece of my heart.
When I heard Rachel sing the title, it sent me back to my childhood when I used to watch Barbie movies with my older sister and I spent, like, 10 minutes racking my brain trying to remember the song that those 3 notes reminded me of. The song is 'Connected' (from The Diamond Castle according to Google and RUclips- specifically when they sing _Connected._ I'd leave a link but I don't want this comment marked as spam.).
Side note- not gay or anything but at 8 years old, the Barbie movies slapped. I'd never watch them on my own but whenever my sister started watching one on RUclips (the good old days when movies were uploaded in 20-40 1-2 minute parts. I remember the swan one being a 12 parter or so with 5ish minutes each.), I'd watch with her.
what a powerful, poignant, and pretty song. hits the feels in so many ways. beautiful music, lyrics, & singing.
This is an absolutely amazing and haunting song!
I sweat to God this show is like my autobiography. It's almost creepy.
SAAMMEEEEE
Same here.
When this came on I legit went ‘eheheee THERES 3 SONGS’ bc the last few episodes only had 1 or 2😹
If you look, there's a shadow following Rebecca around on the wall for the entire song here. Since this seems to be the only song of Rebecca's where she has a shadow, it's probably not a coincidence that the shadow only goes away when she's standing in front of the glass door of the outpatient clinic.
Great catch!
Omg I saw that shadow out of the corner of my eye and it looked scary to me and I convinced myself my mind was playing tricks on me lmao. This show is brilliant tho
Thank you so much for writing and performing this. It was the first time I ever felt like someone understood. This show was truly special and I will treasure it forever.
For so long I used the darkness to feel is most accurate in this song
Great song, sung beautifully. She won me back after losing me for most of Season 4.
This song is too real and based on current events on my life and I feel attacked.
I get crazy anxiety at times. It's annoying
Same. I love how relatable this show is, but it also makes me how sad just how relatable it is.
The Darkness being her true love is literally me wtf
Oh... just beautiful
This song made me cry. The show hits close to home. I named my darkness Rick.
I've just found out about this show 2 weeks ago and I am completely obsessed (in an adorable way ofc)! I binged watched all 4 seasons and I was so sad to find out it's ending. I absolutely adore the songs and characters, you did an amazing job with this! I love that the show talks about real issues and doesn't sugarcoat or romanticize it. Many of the songs speak to me on a personal level. I already made myself a Spotify playlist so I can listen to my favorite CXG songs 24/7. Really excited to see what you're gonna do in the future! Lots of love
Yes Tyler works for the darkness because the worst person I know is named Tyler
😂😂
you know what
I think because we all know a horrible Tyler lol
This one hit really close to home.
This episode made me want to reconsider meds. S/o to Netflix for having this in their lineup. #BPDawareness
Very Lykke Li "sadness is a blessing" - but just darker
Linette Floutrup THIS IS WHAT I THOUGHT TOO!!!!
Love the foreshadowing in this episode!
This hits so hard. I love it so much. ❤️
Al Angel que tradujo esta canción en español, la vida no me alcanza para agradecerte 😍🥰
I didn't expect to be called out like this. I feel attacked 😫
Me and my wife welcomed our son Tyler last November, pretty sure you can imagine our reaction to this song lol
"To tell the darkness, to tell Tyler Darkness, goodbyeee"
can relate to this song so much... except... my sons name is Tyler 😂😂😂
My darkness’s name is Filbert
Organization XIII approves of this song.
A CXGxKingdom Hearts crossover after my own heart
BIG MOOD
Honestly, sometimes I feel this show is personally attacking me from the past.
Last year, One Day at a time gave me a reality check and that one is also supposed to be comedy.
Sometimes it is in comedy we find the best ways to speak truth.
Ugh. One Day At A Time is totally ANOTHER show that’s great along similar lines to this one. Way more light-hearted for sure, but man it was great!
@@BlueGeen , I cried on THAT episode.
You know the one where all of us who have ever said "I feel better now so I can slip up" were called out by a comedy show.
Has to be one of my new favourite songs from CEG! 💗
The songs from this episode are so good!
I love this it’s beautiful lmao my fiancé’s name is Tyler so awkward but hey this is still amazing 😅❤️
You should sing that part to him
kidflashgirl123 😂😂😂
Wow.
“I’m in this picture and I don’t like it”
i love this one ♥
Mood. 😍
I feel bad for all the guys named Tyler that just got brought into this. :D
Lol they should blame their parents
@@aesinam but actually they should blame the big bang :v
@@nxt_tim Everything is the big bang's fault.
Tylers everywhere know what they did wrong .. it's fine
Ok but literally every tyler I've ever known was a complete asshole lol.
Sending this to my Friend Tyler