My Schizophrenic Dreams
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- Опубликовано: 12 сен 2024
- Today I describe dreams very different from any I've heard of. They're caused by my nortryptaline and psychotic symptoms, and have been getting more realistic from medication.
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This is really interesting, and the drawings are great. I hope you are doing well today!
Thank you! I've been taking art classes in hopes to improve and better depict my experiences, and yes, I am doing well.
It's great to see you exploring small channels like mine, I enjoy your content, especially the video about mentally ill artists. Keep up the good work!
Oh shit! Shrouded Hand is here!!!! Love your channel man! I've been a member since the beginning! I was just saying to this gentleman that I'm very sorry he has to deal with this, but at the same time..... it is extremely interesting!
@@MyOddExperiences I've also enjoyed his art video about people that have mental illnesses or how they have Alzheimer's annd how they depict themselves in the pictures they paint or draw each year until they don't even Recognized themselves. Even if they had a mirror right next to them and drawing they wouldn't recognize themselves or be able to draw that's what the brain does at that point. It's sad truly. :(
Thats great that you are studying art, and you seem to have a raw talent already so you will do well out of it. I studied art too, it was a fun time.
youve sene my stuff too, thats cool. I find mental illness and art very interesting but also dreams as a subject fascinate me. Ive never seen a video that combines the 3 things like this, plus you are talking from personal experience so that makes it even more interesting. Keep up the good work man!
@@foxonoxengames757 these are SH's best videos imo. Very insightful and thought provoking.
There's not many people with disorders talking about their dreams so I really loved this video. Thanks for putting it together and the pictures really helped me understand more.
To start off, I'll just immediately tell you that I have a brain injury caused by high intracranial pressure brought on by some kind of bacterial infection, a few days after I was born. I have had similar dreams and mental problems all of my life. Like you, I have unrealistic dreams that involve many colors, crazy patterns, pain sensations, going out of body, reading or making up non existing words and even complicated music. These often come on as soon as I dose off and immediately something snaps and goes into overdrive, which causes my brain to go haywire. The more coherent dreams involve fighting to death, dying, being buried alive, being dead, being a victim in genocide (!), being electrocuted, being tortured. being stuck in dreamworld, knowing it, and yelling "help me" in my sleep to get out because it lasts too long. Sometimes intense dreams involve extreme physical tinnitus, seemingly brought on by a severe panic state. Other times the dreams involve multiple worlds colliding and interacting, evil or unrealistic characters or beings and Godlike presences that govern worlds. I have been researched for epilepsy, and while they found some irregularities, the most strange thing to me is that during these unrealistic dreams I am, from a neurological point of view at least, ... awake. :(
Unlike you, some dreams simply happen in known places. Yet the events and dialogues tend to be nonsensical. I do not have much energy to spend during the day and I do not hallucinate in daily life apart from experiencing strange smells while being stressed. Irrational paranoia and fear does happen at times, but I still see this separate from reality, for the most part. This has become harder getting older, though.
Anti-psychotics lessen the overal symptoms, but they can also modulate these strange states. For example, on asenapine, I simply got up a few times, skipping the sleep-like state, completely confused while everything sounded superloud and threatening, as if I wasacting out these states in real life instead of being seeminly asleep. As far as lessening these states goes, Seroquel works the best. Lyrica helps too. As do SSRI's. Good ... night? (lol!)
Alaïd Idnalid Wow , intense.
Just wondering if you ever keep journals or do free writing.
I found what you wrote fascinating, frightening, creative .
Lot's of things.
Thanks for sharing
Holy crap
Omg seroquel I hate it, I was put on that because a psych prescribed it and I felt like I was dying, horrendous.
@@keef78 I honestly kind of love Seroquel because it's easy to dose accurately thereby easier to wake up from and all in all it works rather well. And since you can take low doses like 25mg you limit the risk for tardive dyskinesia. My brain works quite inefficient meaning unrelated stuff pops up all of the time and Seroquel slows things down and filters out the noise. The first time you're kind of not expecting how it hits but you get used to it. Asenapine works even better but it tastes bad and is harder to wake up from. I did have a bad expérience with Abilify point being meds are hit or miss. Ability gave me severe akathasia.
@@elblondie69falconer65 no problem I'll take it as a compliment while in truth this weird stuff comes to me uninvited. The best part of it is that I kind of know it's not real. A blessing that people with psychosis do not have. I guess at the time I needed to vent but I'm at a better place now as long as I'm taking the meds. But of course, it's frustrating since neurologists have a hard time making sense out of it. It all might sound crazy since it's basically like a drug trip but at least I don't have epilepsy (yet). Imho, that's possibly worse as epilepsy is infamous for getting worse over the years when treatment should fail. The funny thing is...in real life...I'm creatively a disaster lol. Can't write a song or a poem for the life of me!
100% respect.
Your dreams sound like how I've heard people describe dmt trips
I think he is in that realm.
@@LogicallyKnot bad dmt and shroom trips sound like schizophrenia. Maybe there is a connection here
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No such thing as a "bad trip". Bad trips comes from people that don't have enough experience in those states of consciousness and go too far. Or people that do have experience but never learned how to cope with a difficult experience.
I’ve dreamt sound but it was a person a reckognisabile voice very common we’re im from but a stranger I don’t know I was lying on a bed and I was looking around and a girl I knew beside me was cut from her leg to her ankle and I could hear the voice in the accent through the door screaming angry and I wasn’t scared just like what is this and then I woke up
The drugs can be worse than the disease. You are one strong individual. Smarter than most shrinks! xo
I'm actually shocked about your description of red, blue, and purple surreal dreams. I've had dreams just like that, though it's only happened three times in my life. The dreams were VERY unlike my usual dreams and I woke remembering them very clearly and obsessing over them for days.
The nortriptyline gives me vivid dreams too. I often wake up mid sentence and i often think i'm smoking a cigarette and I go to flip the ashes and then realize theres no cigarette in my hand, rather I was dreaming I was smoking. It's really weird, but not scary . Normally my dreams I dont remember but now I do, and the dreams seem so real. Well thank you for the video! Your not alone
It’s so interesting hearing about your dreams, thank you for sharing them.
I’m on a mixed anti-depressant/anti-panic drug, and sometimes my dreams are so real that I wonder when I wake up if those things actually happened. (Which sucks when it comes to not realizing if I had certain conversations with people.)
Interestingly, my most reoccurring dream features me as a soldier/government worker for the USSR, but I don’t know why my subconscious loves to focus on that lol.
It's fascinating and terrifying hearing specific similarities between your dreams and mine. My mental health team haven't given me an official diagnosis yet but schizophrenia is the one they most consider. Themes of eyes, bright colours, distortion, mutilation, the disconnection but overdrive of senses, continuing to dream after you've died, etc. It is fucking intense but comforting to hear someone describe it too. Thank you for sharing. Hope it gets easier.
Schizophrenia runs in my family line. My dreams are also incredibly vivid and intense with a lot of animals. I rarely dream of people that I know. I have also died many many times in my dreams. I don't have the physical distortions, but I have a lot of death in my dreams, along with ghosts and dead people trying to eat my body... it's pretty disgusting and disturbing.
I wanted to thank you for sharing your experiences, it helps.
if it adds into it any perspective at all. I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia but I have had a lot of horrible dreams. one of the worst ones I was taken to a caravan in a field inside was really dark looked a bit pirate ship like and I couldn't see/ remember the face (like a lot of my dreams) but all I can remember is have my face slashed to pieces and then being free and then was suddenly in a different place in a city walking round and my face looked like a spaghetti bolognase with eyes. but I do dream with people that I know. but also most my dreams since I was younger I was someone else it was only when I got be about 15 that I started I recognised that it was me in the dream
I also imagined the pain in the dream
+Lee Nup I should also add I'm 18 and kind of scared of going to the doctor
@@user-qt8qk6qb4u Did you go to a doctor after all?
Do you see any spiritual connection to this or do you feel it's only a subconscious thing? I ask because I have been studying western magic for some years now and what you describe fits perfectly with some descriptions of leaving the body and traveling to different realms. I loved your art, very well done for such an abstract concept, I hope you are better these days.
There is a connection between both, or human experience colliding with or spiritual energy still connected to other dimensions. I personally believe in the theory that due to some still well connected to their other(s) lives beyond this dimension (human experience) causes conflict. If you are feed continuous negative words from birth to present you are going to buy in and allow that negative energy in which causes anxiety, depression, fear, etc which leads you down a path of self destruction to include adding meds that hinder your natural ability to find balance and self awareness. Some do fortunately find multiple paths that they are able to seek inner awareness to control and find peace due to having individuals with the same path in life. Unfortunately how we feel emotionally is passed on throughout like a string connected to all or lives in all dimensions. The anxiety he feels before going to bed is also the energy state he will be in on the other side. Which could explain the negative energies being attracted to him on the other side. Since he is still aware (3rd eye) he is able to remember and articulate visually and artistically. I would say he has a gift to manifest easily, I would say he is a Gemini. Geminis are more commonly to be schizophrenia from very mild symptoms, as myself, to extreme cases.
I dropped the meds a long time ago, not soon enough. And I was able to learn about myself spiritual without religion. Just learning that yes we have a connection to everything which is created by one singular conscious. I went to learn from that point on and found inner peace. Most of all control which lead to me being far more healthier physically and mentally. My financial, relationships, friendships, love life, etc all sky rocketed over night. But that is me, I know this talk will turn off many. I was able to detach on self from the other, and that's how I control both sides to me and still satisfy one side that is always looking for a laugh that has no empathy is any situation, and the other who is thoughtful, charming, and intelligent. Basically an old wise soul with a very young heart. That's how I describe me
I would totally like to see more of your stuff. Very inspiring.
I also try to paint my visions, but I'm not that successful :P In my case, the problem is that I can't stick with my plan when creating, I'm very ambivalent.. I think I might have negative symptoms, probably brought up by my use of hallucinogens..
By the way, it's very interesting how similar is the 'nature of patterns', considering schizophrenia and psychedelia.. and not only that; many many things seem to be related... anyway
You seem like a really decent fella. Stay strong friend
It is pretty long overdue, but I'm planning for my 100 sub special to be about my art and the inspirations they come from. Hallucinations in general seem to be hard for people to remember in detail, so it makes sense that they don't end up accurate. My drawings are mostly representative of my hallucinations rather than replicas, and some visions are literally impossible to replicate in a physical image.
I have heard of hallucinogen use causing positive symptoms, mostly sober visual hallucinations, but have never heard of them causing issues like emotional flatness or apathy. I am personally very interested in learning about psychedelics and the effects they can have on people, and I'll probably do a video comparing schizophrenia and psychedelics after some research. I won't be doing these drugs, just comparing descriptions. Best of luck with your mental health, it seems these drugs are generally safe if used responsibly and don't often have long term effects. Don't worry too much :)
I have really weeeriiiirrddd dreams !! I used to have Sleep Paralysis,and my dreams are really vivid.
its interesting because that medication targets the same receptors as DMT would or 5MeO-DMT. Its almost doing the opposite of what i would imagine it would do though for your dreams, as you described "realistic". Very interesting indeed.
You need to keep making videos. These videos have been shown to my friend and it really helped her. PLease, give us updates.
Hello bro!!
I think you could take advantage of your dreams and your talents with drawings in a positive way!
You could become a painter, I will be your client for sure :)
I also thought that you could get in touch with some of the Rick and Morty team, I'm sure they would hire you to create aliens ;)
When I drink a lot of alcohol, I hallucinate too.
Sometimes I see things that don't exist.
And I almost always see plants as "living" beings.
Many times I see it as if each bush were a different living being, some cool, bad, old, children, couples ... in the same tree lol....
I understand the sensation of even rationally knowing that they are only plants, I really believe that they are alive at the moment!
It is very difficult to explain to someone who has never been through such a situation.
Well, think about using your talent to paint those images ;)
Cheers from Brazil :)
The art is really good. I can’t even imagine what it’s like to go through something like this.
I don’t remember what I was on at the time but I was a lot younger. The dream I I can remember almost completely was based on reality but it included a spirit of a big screaming head hurling towards me in my school hallway after everyone suddenly vanished. Giant serpents that lie on the entire length of my hill. And a goat with human eyes in the formation of a spiders, a big duck bill full of baby teeth, a horrible shriek that I can’t compare with anything natural, gross silver and thin fur, and a double sided butter knife lodged in its head like unicorn horn. It was in my kitchen alone, no one was around and all of my furniture were gone, parts of my apartment that I didn’t venture to were just black voids. I got close to the duck goat but after a while it looked at me, shrieked, then pierced my side with its knife. I can remember the pain, I know it’s not comparable to an actual butter knife managing to puncture you but I did feel a pain. It ran off into the void of my hallway and I was bleeding out on my floor till I woke up. I believe I was 9 at the time, I was starting to go to a therapist because they thought I was beginning to see things. I never told him about my dreams but he never asked, which I feel like he probably should’ve. I died a lot in my dreams. If I had the attention and patience I would love to draw mine. They’re no where near as colorful as yours. This does inspire me though, I really want to put what I saw into something. Not just my dreams but things I’ve seen with my very own eyes that I guess never really existed. When you draw them do you feel any kind of release or did they never really bother you that much to begin with? Probably the one of the worst thing I’ve experienced was having a dream where it was so normal that I wasn’t even aware I was dreaming but then sinking into the sidewalk like it was mud into a void of purple, pink, blue, and black. It looked like silk and it twinkled like a galaxy. But not long after I was there a huge entity arrived. It looked like if a giant blanket of spirits was covering a person. Then it’s thin dead hands lifted over me. For what felt like forever I was being ticked across my entire body. I was screaming and crying alone floating in a different world. At that point I knew that whatever dream I didn’t like I could try to die to change it but there was nothing I can do. I pretty much passed out then popped into a different dream after. I can go on and on and on and on. Dementor like things bursting out of an abandoned house slaughtering everyone I knew around the property, the only escape being a booby trapped bridge being watched over by an old man, then me diving into that bridge in 3rd person to explode.
Or a shadow that leaked out of my wall made of tendrils and mouths tasking me to take out humanity with its ooze that I stored in a coke bottle. I took that bottle and poured it into a pool then told the town that I made the tastiest drink. Word spread and almost everyone in the world was infected with a black ooze that poured out of there eyes and holes. But then to be completely thwarted by a single idiot that drank the rest of the pool before everyone else. Before I could get angry the being jumped out of someone’s mouth then instantly annihilated me, making me wake up.
As horrible as they get the worst ones are when they effect me emotionally. Really I feel like I can’t find peace and I’ll go into phases where I do not want to go to sleep at all so I don’t have to feel pain or see things. My day dreaming and imagination are exhausting though, I have to be watching, listening, or playing something to not think so much. I genuinely don’t know if things I’ve seen a while ago were just my imagination and I remember that more than the actual moment or if it was something that actually happened on the spot. One night I was kept awake because one windy night something was banging on my window. Keep in mind on on the second and top floor of an apartment complex that over looks a big hill. No tree, not even in front of the bottom floor. It was definitely windy but I have zero idea what can be big enough to cast a shadow and consistently bash my window for 30 minutes, because it did go away. My parents didn’t believe me. I saw a woman in my parents bed, I thought she was their one friend. She waved at me and I waved back. I asked my parents why she was there and they told me to wait in the living room so they can look but didn’t find anything. It was that time they finally took me to see someone. Now I’m having dreams where im slowly being pulled off my bed or what feels like my soul trying to fight against crushing gravity, prying out of my body. I’ll be on my side and all the colors will change like a lava lamp or be an intense fog of whatever, usually yellow or green. The furthest I’ve gotten out of body was when I managed to get my head over the end of the bed, using the gravity to make me flop off my bed. But then I got dragged under my bed. But when I was able to stay on my bed and lift my head in the air in a different time I was catapulted into the air. My peripheral was an orange hue and it looked like I was flying in hawaii over the water. The gravity was gone and I felt pretty nice for once. I don’t think I’ve had that kind of dream ever since I succeeded. Im kind of venting right now but it’s the only time im comfortable talking about what’s in my head. I feel like I’ll be less invaded when it’s just data over the internet.
That must be so tough dealing with these types of dreams and nightmares. Stay strong, brother. Hope you're doing well.
Here by way of Shrouded Hand. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. I hope you are feeling well. Sending you love and light. 💛
This is an awesome video, I love your drawings. Thank you for taking the time and doing this.
Hey I'm like 99% sure you wont see this, but just in case you do, your art is really some great shit, you're a true artist and to make such vivid and well made imagery from your dreams is awesome!
Oh I totally saw it! Thank you very much! I’m actually going to college to become a graphic designer, I’m also working on a video game! Hopefully I can soon show off my new work :)
@@MyOddExperiences Oh wow that's awesome! This is such a weird coincidence, I'm a fellow game developer myself actually, and in fact I found your video because currently I'm working on a horror game about nightmares and I thought it would be interesting to see how dreams from people with schizophrenia might be. Well I hope you do well in your pursuits my friend, your video was very interesting indeed!
Thanks for sharing this video! It’s very interesting.
I was on Amitriptyline for about 6 months to treat migraines, and ended up having very disturbing dreams with lots of death and gore. They were very realistic and I often had difficulty distinguishing whether they had really happened or not. For that reason and the confusion it caused me, I soon stopped taking the meds.
I’m not suggesting to anyone to stop taking their medication, it was just my own person reaction and experiences.
Very insightful stuff.
When I was younger I remember having these unreal dreams myself, but they only occurred when I was ill and in the middle of a fever. I would often get fevers whenever I caught the flu. So this was usually the time I would get these psychedelic dreams.
Many involved some of the most bizarre visuals, I would even feel I wasn't even there but an observer. Sometimes I would even feel like I had no body and my hands would morph and feel like they were not fingers at all but silly putty. It was very disconcerting. I would see checkerboards and trippy animal motifs but they all were abstract, with some visuals almost representing a space invaders game. Abstract objects would whizz above me and gradually become quicker and quicker like the final alien in space invaders, I had this ominous feeling that if I let it reach the ground I would be done for. And lo and behold the dream would end with a thundering crash and total darkness.
The odd part was these visuals were almost entirely the same each time I would have to sleep whilst having a fever. Luckily for me that ended after my early teens. I never liked those episodes and even dreaded going to bed when I was unwell. It felt like a roller-coaster ride that would never end. Totally disconcerting and unsettling. And I don't miss never having them since.
You're in the realm of "hyperspace". I'm very familiar with that realm. Everyone is familiar with that realm, most just don't know it.
You did a very good job describing it. It's very hard to describe with words.
Dmt is interesting
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It is indeed.
Sorry to hear. I remember things in my dreams and think they're real. Like, I'll dream I bought something then I'll spend a while trying to find it. As I've become increasingly aware of this, I've been able to discriminate a bit, but sometimes, yeah, sucks.
Love your videos. Your death dreams reminds me of a novel by Nabokov called the eye. My dreams have gotten really vived and persecutory sense the on set of my schizophrenia .
What I will say is this.... in 2018 I got real into psychedelics and psychology at the same time, bad mix, after 3 months of experimenting with shrooms and lsd I began having vivid dreams filed with the colours and patterns you were talking about, I had a VERY real feeling vision while on a 4g trip, felt like I was there for hours maybe days, it's a long story but I lost sense of self and talked to what I think was some sort of God or at least much greater being than anything we know, anyways I got scared out of psychs that day and the dreams of colours with weird beings kept up for about a month afterwords, I haven't had them since except for one but it wasn't very vivid. Idk if you'll read this but just thought I'd share
Dying in dreams do not mean death. It's moving up on a spiritual level. Don't be afraid of dying in your dreams
you have an amazing sketch skill. Also thanks for sharing your dreams. it's really helpful for my psychology education improvement
Good luck with your psychological education dude
I don’t mean to make light of this, but that cat snake is adorable.
No worries! I think it’s cute as well.
Another dream I had recently involved knife wielding psychopaths living inside the walls and under the floors of my house. There were about six to eight of them, and they would come out of the walls just long enough to leer at me before dissapearing back into the house. I came into a room to find one of them dangling out of the ceiling to try and snatch my baby niece. I ran in there to try and grab him and beat the fuck out of him, but he just laughed and dissapeared back into the ceiling while somehow replacing the drywall so I couldn't follow him. They seemed to be part of some kind of cult, and they all looked dirty and disheveled like homeless people. I used a pry bar to tear up part of the floor to get to them, because the police would do nothing when I called, and I confronted them in some sort of lair they had dug under my floors. One of them attacked me with a linoleum knife. If you have never seen one of those, they are shaped like bladed hooks. It was terrifying.
I have taken shrooms a few times and I have experienced similar things. I believe you saw everything you said you experienced in your dreams. I hope they continue to stay positive most of the time ❤️
Tremendous props for still having a quality of life... My four walls are well reassuring. Great that you're highlighting that not all schizos are dangerous... Crime podcasts/shows/books would beg to differ...meds keep me safe.... 🙃
Also having vivid and bad dreams due to (I think?) my antidepressant medication. They are crystal clear, almost exactly like reality, and time passes incredibly slow.
The weird thing about my nightmares is that there's not technically anything scary about them most of the time. A lot of the nightmares are actually somewhat mundane: family dinners, walking on the sidewalk, driving, etc. And they often weirdly seem to be based on memories of my own that I'm very nostalgic for. Even though nothing scary is usually happening in the dream, I still feel incredibly uneasy, like something is very wrong and I don't know what. Over time, this feeling of dread builds up and I start panicking or just generally feeling horrible. I cry very frequently in my dreams, sometimes so violently that I *wake up crying*
But the worst part is, whenever I have a dream like that, I feel like I'm still in a dream for the rest of the day after I wake up. It's one of my least favorite feelings.
Last time I died in my dream I could feel the spade cutting me in half but there was no pain, just the feeling of being cut in half and then feeling very tired and realizing I couldn't feel pain
In my schizophrenia dreams, i usually dream of marine goddeses and monsters, that was because i was a christain. And when i pray, it got worst. I also had sleep paralyses. I also saw witchescin my dreams
I know all about the ultra-vivid dreams from meds. On occasion, I also end up w/ sleep paralysis, which is very annoying when it happens.
This is very interesting. Thank you for sharing. Your illustrations are excellent ! Many of these experiences sound more like dimensional travel, though many people don't believe in that.
I was intrigued by the turtle dream you mentioned. The Lenape, the Iroquois, and others believed the earth is carried on the back of a giant sea turtle. The Hindu have a myth or belief that a giant turtle supports 4 elephants that hold up the world. Interesting that you would see that as well. Best wishes to you.
You are a talented artists!!!
When you see those things, are you aware of the fact that they do not exist, or you realize it just when they go away? I mean, while dreaming I'm not aware that I'm dreaming until I wake up, is it the same with those things you see? Even though you see them while awake and the "real world" is around you? Can you tell those things are not real since you have seen them before? Can you still perceive the world correctly and move normally and safely? Sorry for all the questions, probably stupid questions, I admit my ignorance on the subject and I'm trying to understand and learn more. Thanks, I hope you are well.
I'm one of the riches schizophrenics known to have lived and I am very successful in doing so.i just want to tell you a little about me I have childhood schizophrenia witch is probably the worst but it comes with greatness.i am the person responsible for pretty much everything the world has to offer in the United states, I've created plenty websites such as facebook,Google,and others.i also made music like Drake and mostly everything after 2000s tho I was just a kid when I started to create these things but I was a genius and it showed.harvard accepted me to thier school when I turned 9 and buy that time I had aready became sick.so we schizoprenics are a key to this role of history and keep up with the videos you are doing good.
thank you for sharing. there is a hidden pattern in our reality that will appear everytime you make a mirror in a chaotic pattern. i think is linked to your dreams
Wow your art is pretty good
This was fascinating. I have “died” in my dreams. I have had some where my car goes off a cliff or a bomb goes off and I feel myself starting to “float” up. I am currently on ant-depressants but when I had these, I was not. I would love to know what parts of my brain were firing (or not firing) when I started to “float.”
The times I recall dying in my dreams I woke up instantly. I once dreamed I was a Roman soldier on the battlefield and I got stabbed in the stomach, I woke up gasping.
@@Archon... I left out that I, too, woke up immediately after feeling myself start to float up.
I recently had a dream that involved clown-like interdimensional beings somehow inserting themselves into people's bodies, posessing their minds, and altering their physical structure to allow them to bend and twist and stretch in unnatural ways. A man who was a father of a family I was having Dinner with, suddenly started convulsing and threw himself through his living room window. When we got up to see if he was okay, he stood up with a big Joker grin on his face, giggling like a mad man, and his eyes were black as night or maybe even gone. He then proceeded to grab his head and stretch his neck to like 5 feet long as his legs and arms lengthened, then he started laughing as he came through the window he had just broken to come after me.
Thanks for sharing this. It is truly interesting and you're a genuinely courageous person.
Thank you for sharing your dreams. I was on the same medications for migraines and it really helped. Hope you are doing well.
I almost never remember my dreams unless they are a nightmare
Yeah dreams are very hard to remember for me too, but I keep a dream journal which helps more than you might expect. It can also be worth it to train yourself to be able to wake up from dreams.
Part of my daily life is doing reality checks too so it may help with lucid dreaming.
WOOOOWZA THIS IS INSANE
When I was younger (Like maybe 4 to 7) I had the SAME experience EVERY MORNING without fail.
As soon as i wake up, I would literally hear something like a bell in the distance, then I would see a green Face thing with a big eye in it (VERY similar to your first picture), the eye would open and I would get pinched on my bum, always the same place, sharp pinch.
After years of this, I got to the point where id wake up and wait for the bell, then the eye to open (I cant say where the eye was, its like i would automatically see it wherever it was, almost like i was remote viewing it), wait for my pinch, then id start my day. That first picture is VERY similar.
This stuff is not dreams, its real, but most people are not exposed to these things.
I also had to deal with a man on a wolf-like creature, the wolf was spiky like its back looked like this ^^^^^^^, spiky like that, if it touched you, you would get electrocuted. Horrible it was, had that EVERY night for many years.
Its a shame that you are taught that its your imagination, you guys are seeing things beyond the 3 dimensions for various reasons. I know my reason, i dont have any kind of mental health problem, so you dont have to have an issue with your brain to see these things. Well people can access this with DMT too.
The eyes isnt a common theme for you, it is just what they look like. It goes without saying, if you mention the name Jesus Christ, these creatures will flee.
Ive had similar experience when it comes to 'dying' in dreams. I've been shot once in two different dreams and remember almost kinda feeling the impact of the bullet(s). It was startling the first time but thr second time I was more intrigued than anything.
I hear voices and see my dead papa john and jimmy its scary
We're you prone to create artwork on your own or is it something that a health care provider suggested for you to do?
hey.....thank you soo much for sharing i wish you achieve everthing you wanted to achieve in life.....i have a friend with schizophrenia and he never tells me about his dreams he says either he forgot or its disformed i dont know how to help him he dont even sleep rarely an hr or two ....to ignore he play esports and always play with no rest im worried please advice me something i could do for him i appreciate and you are the bravest person i have ever seen
The cat snake is actually cool!!
Your drawings look great!
I’v been on Nortriptyline for almost 9 years. I’ve never had weird dreams.
Ur a whole different person fam everybody has different experiences
Gnarly! Lol i love Alice in Wonderland. I have similar dreams sometimes. N i love this type of trippy n surreal or bizarre stuff.
I'm sorry you have to deal with that my friend. :( but I do have to say it is extremely interesting at the same time
i dont see faces. i get put in situations that messes with my head. no faces tho
Just had a dream like that rn
Then I started looking up this shit to jnderstand
Thank you for sharing ! Always curious on what these visions look like
Thanks you for sharing this. I think it is great to talk about this anti think other going through this can see they are not alone.
Cool stuff my dreams seem to be a lot about faeries and vampires and stuff had one the other night I got bit by a pigeon and transformed into some vampire pigeon hybrid dreams are so wierd
If shrouded hand links a vid in a community post, you watch it.
U r seeing into other dimensions in your dreams
I have similar dreams with distorted people
I don't want to change my way because I like it
stay in the light!
This comment section is almost equally as interesting as the video
That's true, old and new comments.
I saw giant cat ppl (lyrans) in one of my dreams. I also have schizophrenia.
That first drawing was very Tool-ish like Alex Grey's artwork he did for the band. Do u like Tool's music? Or Alex Grey's artwork?
glass4breakfast I love Alex Grey’s artwork and visionary art in general. I’ve seen a lot of figures from this style in my dreams and waking visuals, mostly because I look at so many images and I’m very suggestible.
I like Tool but I don’t listen to it. My music taste is pretty random.
fuck dude this sounds terrible, im on acid right now and its really making me think why people take acid like i do in order to feel these feelings that sound so terrible in your words.
I hope I didn't ruin your trip!
I'm happy to say that my nightmares are much more rare and much less severe than at the time of making this video. My average dream is less surreal than when this video was made too, probably due to my antipsychotics.
I can't say how alike a schizophrenic episode is to an acid trip, and I don't want to promote drugs on my channel, but I do believe that psychedelics shouldn't be thought of as temporary schizophrenia. Delusions are more of a factor in schizophrenia and visuals are less of a factor than in a psychedelic trip. And of course, schizophrenia isn't very fun or euphoric. I'll be making a video about delusions and one comparing schizophrenia to different descriptions of drugs within the next couple weeks of you are interested.
I don't think the average acid trip is at all similar to schizophrenia from how you explain it, the only time I could say I've experienced something similar on drugs is when I mixed weed, alcohol, cocaine, ketamine, acid and mdma and around the house were shadow people talking to each other and socialising, and i had an intense fear that i was going to be arrested by the police in the morning
Also, I've died a few times in my dreams before (although i don't have schizophrenia) especially from drowning, most people say it's impossible to die, but i disagree.
i tell myself I am dreaming while dreaming and then I do pretty much what I want but I can't go to far away or I wake up also but sometimes it's like I wake up but iam still dreaming there is almost always music playing in my dreams sometimes I can't wake up at all I try to but it's hard to I have been called Devi worshiper over my dream pretty much my whole life I also dream things that happen I am now a very alone person. I die in my dreams all the time. I am afraid to tell a dr about any of this
Bro, you saw the Demiurge.
It’s people in the magic universe messing with people in the physical world, sadly.
Have you ever seen yourself tethered to an entity?
Looks like beings from a Lovecraftion world?
Cool art!
Are you sure you wasnt experiencing astral projection
Major schizophrenic vocal fry.
My vocal fry is partially an anxiety thing and partially just how my voice is. I'm working to improve it but it's hard.
Hey there🥰
😢 im just so sorry
Suzanne Farmer Don’t be, things can be difficult but I still live a good life :)
@@MyOddExperiences i have schizoaffective disorder my delusion are not visual. I used to have very bad nightmares and sleep paralysis. Im so glad u responded and are good 😌
I’m on amitriptyline. Can it also affect dreams?
Nrg Bunni Can’t say for sure but probably? I’m on medications that help with most things that Amitryptiline treats and my doc says almost all my meds normally affect dreams/sleep. Unless nightmares are an issue I think it’s nice :) Good for creative inspiration
Damn
You need drugs to do that?
stargate
Very interesting but drink some water damn
this is the territory of shamanism man, you are not sick, you are a shaman
Justin Lutz please think more before you make a statement like this.
It is very harmful to tell people this when they are experiencing such a disorder. It is much more scary from personal experience to think you are part of something such as you stated than knowing it is a chemical imbalance.
Justin Lutz it's better to say that shamans who actually 'see things' do have the illness. Then that psychotic people are shamans.
Those things look demonic. I will pray for you.
why you make this creepy voice?
Bruh