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As much as I love to hear all the stories. A highlight is always 'Steve' 'Stevie' being shouted out randomly
Do prisoners ever present to be vulnerable to get to the vp wing and try and attack the sex offenders?
Dodgy one you could face outside charges and most wouldn't want to go near vps. People have blagged healthcare and the like to get to people though.
One thumbs down 👎🏽, Amazing that helps your algorithms , that’s not Lee doing it I hope 🤔😁😂
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how do my canadian lovely xxxx
I used to have really bad panic attacks. Part of the problem when they start is that you don't know what's going on and the fear of them becomes a trigger in itself.
I haven't had one for so long now, even though I often feel anxious. The key for me was when I stopped trying to be the big man, stopped trying to soldier on and took time to understand why I felt that way.
Talking to a counsellor was important - ironically, the people closest to you are the last people you can really open up to, both because you don't want to seem vulnerable and because often you want to protect them.
Another key thing is this tactic: when you feel anxious, stop everything. Don't try to power through, just stop and take all pressure off yourself. You can always go again when you're feeling better. Hope this helps anybody out there who's struggling.
Bless ya hope life is treating u well!👊💯‼️
Solid advice mate, anxiety can be a lonely place can't really explain it to someone who hasn't been through it, take care stay well 👍
Brilliant advice
You sir is what i miss most about my Dad, genuinely down to earth with real person problems. No fake pretence or click bate. True gentleman through and through 🍻 i’ve learnt so much from your energy. I have been beaten up by panic attacks and i thought is was low sugars every time very similar feeling. The angry i got from not understanding was horrific. Your honesty has enabled me to see it’s not always black and white an whilst my health is very bad my mind is much more at piece. I don’t wanna go angry i wanna go free. Thank you as always 🙏
I'm a new subscriber. Love hearing your stories. I live in the desert and was completely jealous of all the green grass in the park! So pretty. Love Stephen too. Lovely pup. :)
""Don't be giving me that one Big Lad"" - to Stevie - now were talking Sam....'there's me smile for the day. Chuffed that you're open to discussing potentially sensitive issues in jails mate. Can we expect to see you walking the Big Lad in Yoga Pants in the future..?
lol owt for views..............
I'd watch that 😉🤭yoga pants 🤣❤
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@@RealPorridgePodcast 😂 you 🤐 i think you'd look fantastic 😁😜💛
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The months I've spent watching your output and information has spurned me into the care system.
A long process of acceptance given my criminal record but its historical with no blips since 1998.
I feel a new beginning for me after years of alcohol and drug use.
No crack or heroin.... I always scared away from these things.
Keep up the good work sir x
I really feel for you with the panic attacks, I used to get them on quite a regular basis and they're just horrible. I have overcame them so do yoga, meditation or whatever it takes and you will learn how to deal with them. All the best great listening to you once again👍😊
Thanks Sam and Stephen I appreciate what you do mate and I love to see the English countryside on your walks
Sam checkout sleep apnea.I used to be constantly tired no matter how long I slept.Bottom line was my quality of sleep was poor.I now have a sleep apnea machine which basically keeps me breathing regularly and my sleep is better.
In my youth I was in several sps establishments and I was always going to the gym and I always got a job in cooks on boilers n ovens I ended up getting to build up a rappor due to everyone alwiz saying what I was lifting in da gym n as you will know a lot o warders go to the gym on there break n train n sum compete out with prison but every screw I Eva asked who was da biggest arseholes or dickhead you have met in ur career most would say another screw did you think that way
One Saturday afternoon I was in Leeds shopping with my girlfriend 'then out of the blue the panic button went off ' as you say I felt effing awful and on 'red alert' for absolutely no reason
for about 20 mins everything looked right foreboding. Book (Panic Attacks by Christine Ingham ) she explains what they are and what to do about, regards
I really love listening to your stories, the same way as I did with your book on Audible. Isn’t Stephen a handsome chap. I have always had black Labs since I was a wee girl, and seeing your boy, makes me miss them terribly. ☹️I do have a yellow Lab, a red fox, and 2 Chihuahua’s to keep me busy, thankfully 💖 Great channel, and insight into the world of prisons, for someone who has never been. 🙂
"Did you come across many gay prisoners?" I think that question could have been worded a bit better...
Ha ha
Seems a bit forward right enough
Seems a bit forward right enough
Hi mate, need you to know that it doesn't matter if your struggling with doin the tech side of your channel you need to realise how much your helping people an how much your helping me. I put RUclips on each day waiting for you an Stevie to cheer me up even though your info is very important an serious you put it across in a way where it doesn't seem so bad if that makes sense. I .....just like a lot of people who enjoy this channel struggle with what some people call day to day life an good on you for raising as many issues as you can...
Keep up your graft mate every minute is worth it
Scott
bless you mate much appreciated x
Hi mate, just found your channel and it's absolutely fascinating. Thank you so much for these brilliant stories, they are really fascinating. Also I suffer from really bad panic attacks, so I know exactly how you're feeling all the best from Cheshire in the UK...
Bless ya mate,all the very best!🤟💯‼️🙏
Sam all you need for this channel is yourself mate! It all lies within. I think we all prefer a natural one rather than someone being told what to say. Keep going. Views are not everything
cheers mucker much appreciated!
Did your panic attacks start during your time in the Ways? I have anxiety disorder - which often develops into severe panic - and that all started during a stay in B Wing DFU, HMP Manchester, 25 yrs ago. Never been in trouble before or since, and to be honest, were it not for half a dozen lying, corrupt NCS cops, should never have been there at all. But... I know the feeling well: fearful that something terrible is going to happen - to the point at which you're actually convinced it's going to happen, and the adreniline starts flowing. Then come the shaking/trembling and cold sweats. It's bloody awful. 25 yrs on and I've finally admitted to myself that I have a problem. I downloaded your book on Kindle and to be honest, it took me back there so completely that I had to stop reading it.
Great channel, just found it. I first saw you on a Shaun A podcast a while ago. Really interesting stuff. Keep up the great work and best wishes and health to you and your family in these crazy times 🙏
Very kind and much appreciated!
panic attacks are fucked up!! I've had one in my life and I'm 30, thing is I had nothing to panic about, actually was in a good position, but doctor told me its a panic attack, I had a pressure at back of my neck also, haven't had one since, fricking crazy, hope u feel better mate. 🤔🤔👍💪🇬🇧🤷♂️🤷♂️🤷♂️
cheers mate very kind
Glad I subscribed sam my lads are in and out of jail atm breaks my heart my mental health is bad atm atleast you have given me a feel what prison life is like opened my bloody eyes thank you gonna have to give meditation ago👍🙂✌
Bless sweet xxx💜🙏
try beginner's guided meditation and find a voice your comfortable with, i like jason Stephenson or the honest guys, also cbd oil is a big help with anxiety can get you a sample sent out?? and also ekert tolle, alan watts and Jordan Peterson are really good to help with mental health and meditation ✌️👍
Another great video fella I myself have been in a lot of prisons in my teens early twenties so I can relate to lot of things you say. Keep up the good work..👍
cheers mate very kind!
Hey Sam love your videos, Meditation really helped me with PA and anxiety, never thought I would meditate 🤪give it a go 😁
I’m new to your channel and enjoy listening to your story’s. I suffered from panic attacks especially on tube trains or enclosed spaces. I used to think I was going to die every time. I have suffered too from depression and was prescribed a drug citalopram, I’ve never had a panic attack since taking it and it’s now 12 years since my last attack. Ah se thee
As a leeds lad I usually feel the same on entering sheffield......just messing sam, keep yer chin up charva!
funny fecker, cheers mucker!
@@RealPorridgePodcast did u come across Dominic noonan sam
🤭tickled me
Good job you were not alone in the motor
Keep safe
Best wishes
Teresa 🐾🐾
cheers very kind x
Mate meditating is brilliant..I never ever thought I’d mediate! Give it a blast ! Try headspace first on Netflix 👍👌
how do will ave a look bro!
Meditation is a real superpower if you can meditate you can overcome addiction and all sorts of obstacles
Panic attacks. You are not wrong.why have I got to 53,and they started?its shit.
Anybody who has a Labrador is alright in my book.
Evening Sam 👍 Quick question... Do people in prison these days grass each other up ? Like if someone had been battered, would they tell a prison officer who did it, or keep quiet ?
Singing mate, everybody!
fucking right mate. They are all quick to shout 'dont grass' but they're ALL fuckin at it LOL.
i havnt been able to drive for the past 15 yrs due to panic attacks ,had them since i was 21 yrs old...they never get better but ive managed to control them....hope you get sorted mate .
Bless ya dude x
No vulnerable prisoner wing when I served in the 70s, they were all thrown in together, cell fires and beatings were common
How it should be sex offenders shouldn’t be protected
Brilliant vlog mate. Yoga is a bit tough for me. TaiChi's a bit more lively and easier!
We had a neighbour who called his dalmatian Ian.
Will you read anything as interesting as that today? I doubt it.
I can say from personal experience, that yoga, meditation and more importantly, mindfulness are incredibly good for wellbeing and are beneficial to mental health.
Indeed mate cheers
sam,in scotland,perth prison had sps nursing team who hadnt a clue,a new doctor was hired and gave out detoxes if u said ur gettin addicted...hed help...no fights or drug problems or staff assaults but the sps ganged up on him got him sack cos he was nearly spending budget on detox n treatments..after they sacked him,an inquiry was made and all sps healthcare nurses were let go and replaced by nhs nurses who cut the detoxs down from 14 days to 7 and those who were quiet n contempt cos they got meds suddenly told they werent gettin anymore so assaults have shot up,drug captures risen,self harming n hangings cos they thought they were ultimate team to sort this jail out...i think all staff are nhs in all prisons in scotland now....was your prisons nhs or jails own english prison service?
At first mate all nurses were prison staff, then NHS, now alot of trusts put in bids to run prison healthcares! Thanks for that mate all the very best!
Ow do. Try a joint before bed mate - will work wonders.. don’t mess with the sleepers and other pharmas
All ways trust a person who's best pal is an animal, you have empathy, x
💜🐾🙏very kind x
Thumbs Up 👍🏼 , Panic attack , Horrible!! sorry to here, If you keep yoga and Meditation up your never look 👀 back , Mindfulness meditation to help going to sleep can work very well. Take care ❤️
Is the black lad called Danny
aye
Did you ever get Purple Aki in Strangeways? I’m not sure he falls under this category
been in a few times had very little to do with him tho mate
@@RealPorridgePodcast Stephen french ever in sam
Highly recommend meditation. I always thought it was a load of bollox, but when I was at a very low point, it changed my life.
Sam can you share what prisoner you dealt with that had the most sadistic crime. Cheers love your work
will have a think mate, cheers.
Question mark over the warden you gave your suspicion to,not listening because he's a good cleaner! That's a big problem!
Panic attacks feel like a massive heart attack, despite how used to them a person gets. I've had them since I was 16, now 49. Horrible feeling.
Nothing worse panic attacks mate feel like your dying heart going ten the dozen, hope your okay though now brother I know this video was months ago but I assume u still suffer from them, history of them in my family too Sam me mam used to suffer bad with them awful I sympathise with u pal
hi Sam did you have anything to do with the handless corpse case andrew maher and others
I got locked in my cell- protection. Told them open it am going out told them I was put in as I am gay- diferent word used. Screws said I placed myself in serious danger. Nae no really. No agro- banter but wasn't in fear. First time ion remand as made no application for bail- wanted to see inside and fuck off from the word.
Iam not gay but one of my friends are he is a. Knock out merchant definitely would be ok or. Just knock someone out don't get me wrong he's no bully. 🇮🇲🇮🇲🇮🇲🇮🇲🏍️🏍️🏍️🏍️🏍️ cheers MR S . PAUL 🇮🇲👍🇮🇲
How do, your sleep and panic and your attacks your not on your own 11years I e done my greyhounds and your stuff keeping me going STEPHEN is looking well 🏍️🇮🇲🏍️✌️ stay safe 🇮🇲🏍️🙏
There's probably a Buddhist Chaplain in your prison. He or She can teach you meditation. It'll probably be Samatha (Calm Abiding, Serenity) Vipassana (Insight) or Zen (Silent Illumination). Meditation helps many people in the Services to let go of Anxiety, PTSD, Combat Stress and other Mental Health issues.
Interesting vlog as always Sam your daily vlogs have become a big part of my day.respect as always.
Take yourself on holiday with your family when you can travel go to a place called Boracay in the Philippines.
I sleep like a baby there but here.
will look it up cheers
so just like in US prisons then
panic attacks...smell flowers,blow out candles is best way to reverse or try the breathing and inhaling into brown or any bag,breathe your expelled breath back in.....insomnia....try white noise,i listen to sound of rain hitting car but in jail id use a radio off station,the hiss is best white noise,also incidentally its sound of the big bangs radiation radios catch...look in mirror and use auto suggestion,look in mirror and say n beleive what u tell your reflection...feel down? tell yourself "im ok,im strong and im alive"...bugger sound n cam angles on podcast , we want stories mr samworth ,ur doing well..fast learner
Mr Sam worth how do I find that video about the quiet man in strange ways I want to watch it again please
im thinking?
Look into metabolic syndrome for anxiety cut out all carbs. We are all being compromised.
Don't try the yoga move Pose of a Mountain in a caravan !!!
I was a Train driver and at Waterloo Station a guy in pink short top and skirt in the late 90s. Once again great podcast Sam.Kenny
If the officer on G wing refused to do anything with regards to your suspicions about the murderer being a bully, why did you and your other colleague not report the him to his superior? After all, part of your job is making sure that the health and well-being of all of the prisoners is in tact. Julie Gill, Glasgow, Scotland.
O,rite Sam was on k wing and a few times we met ? You was a fair sound bloke respect for what your doing m8 Nem
Got to get your chakra open,get doing them yoga poses,the squat,childs repose,the dancing butterfly and not forgetting the good old two dogs f#cking,think that's what it was called or am I getting mixed up with the name of a native American chief,keep smiling and breathing Sam x 😁
thats an old joke but funny as cheers! lol
Doctors should prescribe getting a Stevie for mental health..he's ace
How do Stephen, hi Mr Samworth 👍🇮🇪
How do Brian!
@@RealPorridgePodcast rootting for you in the Irish republic
I wouldn't think it would be appropriate to 'come across' any man in prison if you're an officer even if they are gay. It could easily be seen as an abuse of power even if it was with consent. It feels like it crosses a line.
I’m gay and I’m going to prison soon my dad was murdered in prison I will stick up for myself by I can’t help but feel like it’s coming full circle I’m going to prison for defending myself I’m just so scared that I’m going to be raped bullied and murdered
" Stephen! Don't be Eating Sticks. "
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Did you ever come across any high profile ones like Huntley Cregan or Levi bellfield ? Great vlogs
Nobody can have any idea what a panic attack is like or about unless they have one. They will f know then. They will spend the rest of their life in fear waiting for the next one. It's not about weakness or being feart of anything It's just THERE.
Yep, going to A&E thinking you're having a Heart Attack!
Meditation helped me with Dilated Cardiomyopathy and chronic AF, I am now fighting sinosis and the pain is Horrific. I do meditation twice a day do not fight pain embrace it as yours make friends with it
My cardio take you up to 5 Yr then you are dead. I am still hear after 10yr?
I love your dog has my name kinda. Those panuc attacks are no joke. I can sort of bring myself out of them now imagine being told your going to die very soon brutally thatsvthe fear. Its fucking scary af. Im not a pussy by a long way and that shit terrafies me being honest.
Apologies for spelling abd dhite grammar brsin damage. Admittedly mostly from drug abuse although i hsve had a stroke abd brain bleed the former nothing to do with drugs.
Sam take deep breath in through your nose hold breath same time tense every muscle in body hold then release repeat ( works for me I have(COPD
Ive got the temper to tske a life but like that prisoner not the ability to deal with it. Nope not for me. Couldn't cope especially if they were younger. I couldn't live with that. Just couldn't. Truth be told its why i dint drive anymore i was going to lill someone including myself im old enough now as a man to admit flaws of character abd i have plenty. Funny isn't it as a man we cabt admit shit for years odd.
I was padded up with gay Dave for 6 months on C wing outer it was Mr Wise lol who asked me if I'd pad up with him. The pad was always clean 😜
Meditation is excellent for anxiety. It has a bad rap because of all the ridicule it's had. I teach meditation and have seen big improvements in people's anxiety levels. Go get some Reiki as well. Ignore what you've been told. Your health is worth more than a perception.
have you tried cbd oil mate?? it really calms the nerves. , I make my own if you can give me a place to send a sample or somewhere we can talk in private?? its helped me alot and meditation also. Guided sleep meditation for beginners, jason Stephenson, will have you asleep within half hour ✌️👍
Email me dude ! realporridgesam@gmail.com
I’m going to prison soon as a gay man who anyone would be able to tell that I’m hay I’m scared but the only thing I’m worried about is being killed by men in a cold concrete cell away from my friends and family I would rather die outside than away from the people I love
When I was in lindholme....they caught 2 at it.... and shipped them out ....ASAP
Yoga is amazing enjoy mr s, love yea channel.
Gay for the stay I believe respect who are openly. Respect too all that won’t tolerate bullies inside for nothing in return pet Stephen from me sorry u had panic attack not good at all
When I was on K wing the landings were caged off and a officer had to open them to get from one landing to the other, I don’t know if them was the times your on about or before that!!!!
Where ya been mate? Best podcast out there and I’m friends with Marvin and billy Moore.. keep it up mate
Wasn't something that appealed to me but in hmp Parc, there was a fair few who were "Gay for the stay"!!
I'm gay but would never come out in prison. I'm careful who I tell now. Love your videos.
Steven! He a Lovely Boy he IS!! Godbless You Both 🙏👍😁
back at ya mate!
Ah brilliant I get asked have u come over any gay men inside lol xxx
Pmr medatation is good for that. best of luck
Looks like sams touched a nerve. 1 person giving the thumbs down on every vid iv watched. 👍 Love these videos
I tap myself too stop my panic attacks too I thought it was just me lol..horrible innit I've lost jobs coz off em and been hospital thinking having a heart attack the first time very scary..cheers
Cheers dude all the very best
The more of you I watch the more I see you need help
How unfortunate if they were to meet you see id be no good, doing this job.
Hi brother, not sure how I came across your channel, but there’s no coincidence in life and everything happens for a reason….
I used to suffer horrendous panic attacks, and when I say panic attacks 😳
I really mean I was in HELL!
If you know, they then through the vicious cycle turn into serious anxiety, depression and insomnia.
I started suffering these 25 years ago, and trust me doctors didn’t know what they were ! 😳
I don’t tell lies. I’d run to the doctors every single day!!!!!!
I’ve tried hundreds of medications..
I was a criminal when younger 17-31..
Done a few sentences, but not serious Charges….
Anyway I had my spiritual awakening through deep meditation, breathing techniques, Qi Gong, yoga, plant based diet, and real water..
Now I help people get out of HELL..,
I believe this was my destiny..
The sentences started and I’m not ashamed, because we all have our coping mechanism.
I tried heroin and bingo my panic attacks were gone, well I put plasters over the cuts shall I say, I hated taking it, to be normal. Again I lost my life!!!
Now I help people… So if you are suffering!! Please reply and I promise you I’ll get rid of your panic attacks, depression, etc!
I don’t want 1p for helped anyone.
I’ll get pleasure from helping you, because I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy, and I don’t have an enemy.
You have to understand everything is energy, what you put out you attract!
What you tell your mind! You manifest into your reality. It’s that simple…
Anyway coming back to you my friend, some hated screws. I never did!
I treat people, how I’d like to be treated, and 👁 know! You are a man of your words.. I believe you were like that with prisoners. Because respect has to be earned, in any situation!
I’ve subscribed to you..
I can read your energy, because I’m an intuitive empath and sensitive.
We all are. Most just don’t know how to unlock the gifts they all have within…
So I know you’re a nice person, who just did there job. ❤️✌🏼
What a fantastic message mate, thank u for your honesty and kind words your change of life is amazing, drop us an email if you would like to talk more, wishing u and yours all the very best x🙏🤟
I really enjoy listening about your time in the service well done did you ever feel sorry for a prisoner
And did you ever meet someone that said they were innocent (they all do ) but as time went on eventually was proved he was innocent saw a man on a talent show he served 35 years for a crime he never committed
Keep up the good videoing have you got a job now why did you pack up being a officer
Met a few who were definitely innocent, sadly.
@@RealPorridgePodcast good thing then you wasnt a officer during the death panalty days then!!
How do. Panic attacks suck. Strange that. I was out on my motorbike this morning. Dropped my daughter at school. Set off again. Hat to stop. Same thing panic Attack. Do you know when there about to happen like me. Hope everything OK mate
ok dude! knew it was coming! take it easy cheers.
Yeah me too. I remember the exact moment it started. Major chances were happening in my life. Lost job, lost girlfriend, lost car. I suppose you could say it was a bad year, but I was only young still, 23 -24, so decided to use the money I saved and go travelling around the world for laughs. Prepping for this event, I remember going to a surfer shop in the Mander Center, Wolverhampton. The shop assistant guy in there immediately made me feel uncomfortable, like I wasn't the sort of customer they were looking for. It was an expensive shop, maybe he thought I was shoplifting. Not sure if it was how I was dressed or what but it was obvious, always dressed in suit and tie normally. I had never had this feeling before, like I was despised, it was palpable. And then it happened. I continued to look at things but it was obvious to me that something serious was going on. I left the shop and went to sit on a bench. Stayed there for 15 mins or so and then it went. I was absolutely shocked and devastated. After that time happened on a regular basis. I'm over fifty now and don't get them anymore but had them for years and years. Got used to them in the end. I knew exactly what to do. Just sit and deep breath and eventually it would subside. Funny things, just sharing.
Sam who is your barber
easy tiger!
Aren't you supposed to keep all this quiet under the official secrets act? Never heard of a dog with a human name btw.
Will vlog it mate!
75% of the inmates swing both ways. Bunch of predators who've been unfortunately abused themselves which has tainted here distorted minds. Facts admit it
I feel you nothing worse then panic attacks even tho you know it's a panic attack you can't stop that fight or flight .exercise and good deit will go along way to helping plus breathing techniques maybe CBT treatment or exposure techniques worked well for me
Tough gig mate for lots of people, bless!