God gave ne one hell of a mother. She's gone now. She left here 7 years ago at 93. My mother was the type of mother that you do not mess with her children. There were several times I had to jump up and stop my mother from attacking someone. My mother did not play when it comes down to her children.😂😂 Don't I miss her.
@@cornellsanders95 Thank God for your mother’s intuition! My mother had a lot of regrets, but I forgave her free and clear once I learned her own story as a woman.
@theconversationllc Bless you, Bless you, Bless you. That's so comforting to hear that you forgave her. Over my lifetime I have learned that we can't be judgemental towards anyone because we don't know their back story. There are people who have gone through so much pain, that their response is drugs and alcohol to cope with everyday life. My siblings were always saying that our mother should have left our father. I told them, where was she going to go? She was born in 1924. In 1945, 1950, society wasn't going to give her a job, or permit her to become the head of the household. Just as she said herself, she had to stay and endure the hardship. That's probably what made her so defensive over her kids.
@@cornellsanders95 I just published a book in my mother’s honor. Even after being raped, sold by my mother for drugs, and molested by my brother, I was able to see her struggles of growing up under Jim Crow laws, turning to prostitution to feed her children after her husband left in the early 70s. She made tough, yes bad, but tough choices to keep us alive. And I’m here to tell both of our stories.
@@theconversationllc Look at how strong God has made you. Now you are ready to tell your story and begin to heal other people. It looks like God has made both of us a healer. I'm going to start a podcast just as soon as I write my ending. I'm also writing a book. It is titled, You Are Not Listening. It's about when I was fasting and praying, I was writing down what I believe God was saying to me. I realized over the years that he was answering me, I just wasn't listening. I have gone through a lot of pain myself and he has brought me through it all. When I got with my ex she had 2 boys ages 8 months and 1 1/2. She was an architect and I was a computer programmer. I didn't know then and I still don't know till this day what made her turn to drugs and destroyed our home. Through the last 28 years, I lost all of my money, my home, my health, my job and my family members. My blood count was at 2 and needed a blood transfusion. I developed pneumonia afterwards. My lung collapsed 3 times before they found out what caused it. When they did the surgery my brother died. He was the first one in the family. I've had surgeries on both lungs and someone was always dying. My brother, sister and mother died right behind each other. When my lung collapsed and I was discharged from the hospital, my mother died. 2 months later my sister died and they did the surgery 2 days after her funeral. I have been crying by myself for 28 years. Now God is telling me that it's time to live again and come forth and tell my story. My ex left in the middle of the night. It was 10 years before I saw them again. My son was 8 months and my 2 girls were 2, and 4. They don't care too much for me. They don't know that their mother turned to drugs and prostitution. What's going to happen when they learn the truth. What happens when they learn that I don't think that 2 of them are mine. I didn't know how to leave her. When I was growing up I was taught that a man says. My question that I have been asking is, How do you walk off and leave a family because I don't know how? As you could probably see, there's a lot more to this story. I'm nervous, not scared, just nervous about moving on. God said that I'll be fine, then I'll be fine.
God gave ne one hell of a mother. She's gone now. She left here 7 years ago at 93. My mother was the type of mother that you do not mess with her children. There were several times I had to jump up and stop my mother from attacking someone. My mother did not play when it comes down to her children.😂😂 Don't I miss her.
@@cornellsanders95 Thank God for your mother’s intuition! My mother had a lot of regrets, but I forgave her free and clear once I learned her own story as a woman.
@theconversationllc Bless you, Bless you, Bless you. That's so comforting to hear that you forgave her. Over my lifetime I have learned that we can't be judgemental towards anyone because we don't know their back story. There are people who have gone through so much pain, that their response is drugs and alcohol to cope with everyday life. My siblings were always saying that our mother should have left our father. I told them, where was she going to go? She was born in 1924. In 1945, 1950, society wasn't going to give her a job, or permit her to become the head of the household. Just as she said herself, she had to stay and endure the hardship. That's probably what made her so defensive over her kids.
@@cornellsanders95 I just published a book in my mother’s honor. Even after being raped, sold by my mother for drugs, and molested by my brother, I was able to see her struggles of growing up under Jim Crow laws, turning to prostitution to feed her children after her husband left in the early 70s. She made tough, yes bad, but tough choices to keep us alive. And I’m here to tell both of our stories.
@@theconversationllc Look at how strong God has made you. Now you are ready to tell your story and begin to heal other people. It looks like God has made both of us a healer. I'm going to start a podcast just as soon as I write my ending. I'm also writing a book. It is titled, You Are Not Listening. It's about when I was fasting and praying, I was writing down what I believe God was saying to me. I realized over the years that he was answering me, I just wasn't listening. I have gone through a lot of pain myself and he has brought me through it all. When I got with my ex she had 2 boys ages 8 months and 1 1/2. She was an architect and I was a computer programmer. I didn't know then and I still don't know till this day what made her turn to drugs and destroyed our home. Through the last 28 years, I lost all of my money, my home, my health, my job and my family members. My blood count was at 2 and needed a blood transfusion. I developed pneumonia afterwards. My lung collapsed 3 times before they found out what caused it. When they did the surgery my brother died. He was the first one in the family. I've had surgeries on both lungs and someone was always dying. My brother, sister and mother died right behind each other. When my lung collapsed and I was discharged from the hospital, my mother died. 2 months later my sister died and they did the surgery 2 days after her funeral. I have been crying by myself for 28 years. Now God is telling me that it's time to live again and come forth and tell my story. My ex left in the middle of the night. It was 10 years before I saw them again. My son was 8 months and my 2 girls were 2, and 4. They don't care too much for me. They don't know that their mother turned to drugs and prostitution. What's going to happen when they learn the truth. What happens when they learn that I don't think that 2 of them are mine. I didn't know how to leave her. When I was growing up I was taught that a man says. My question that I have been asking is, How do you walk off and leave a family because I don't know how? As you could probably see, there's a lot more to this story. I'm nervous, not scared, just nervous about moving on. God said that I'll be fine, then I'll be fine.
😢. This is so awful