“if you give in and if you lay around and do nothing and you give up on yourself and the season all together, you will fall deeper into a hole” DAMN niki
Can we just take a minuite to apreciate how real open niki is to her fans? Like i can relate to her so much cause shes so open and honest i luv her so much
I love these chill sit down talks while you are cleaning and just being so real and raw and showing the ups and downs and everything I am so thankful for you
Definitely deal with seasonal depression and the holidays feel more sad than happy for me. Even when there's no need to be sad and I want to feel just as excited like everyone. Like genuine excited not trynna fake it. Whats pulling me through this time is moving into a new house and having to stay busy and excited about the move. I feel that I can relate to your videos on a very personal level. Thank you for sharing Niki ❤️
I've just got to tell you, your song Bite of Me came out during the same time as the most terrifying thing that has ever happened in my life and during financial instability. I have listened to it over and over again. You have no idea how much I resonate with it and it has been one of the things that have helped me feel powerful again.
Exactly I've listen to it on repeat as well Because of the Physical and the Emotional abuse My family has Been doing to me So that song is very relatable
I don’t wanna self diagnose. But Niki’s description about her seasonal depression, I really really fucking relate to. But one thing that keeps me going is her videos, they automatically make me smile every time I watch ‘em. I remember being in the hospital after my scoliosis surgery watching Niki, and smiling even though I was on so many fucking drugs. My mom has a video of me yelling ‘I love Niki’ over and over again, loll. It was while I was dowsed up, so I didn’t remember it. Hahah. Anyways, I love you Niki.
Niki has been doing such great content and I love it she has became one of my favorite youtubers cuz she’s so real and when I watch her it’s like we are on ft
For me, it's not the darkness but the actual holiday season itself and how happy it makes everyone else but the past memories I have that are good that are connected to them that are now gone along with the people related to those memories.. It's a lot and seeing everyone love the season also just makes me sad. Thank you for being so open with us and normalizing mental health, Niki!! 👏🏼😚💗
i am somewhere in the middle. i got my holiday spirit back for the first time in years after seasonal depression, so i decorated my whole room in early November, but then the holiday spirit kinda disappeared. now im back in my old ways of depression (yes im diagnosed since 13). i love you niki and thank you for this video
It's so interesting how different people are. I don't mean that in a bad way, before anyone attacks me. I personally love gloomy, cold weather. It makes me feel calm, despite the combination of really bad and really good memories with the holidays, which makes it very confusing. I hate summer because of the bugs, extreme heat and a million hours of sunshine. She is kind of the opposite. It's just interesting how different experiences and points of view affect people.
When she said those symptoms i went like man why am i relating. Ngl i really love her and when she talks about her mental health and stuff i feel like its my bigger sister talking to me. No one really understands mental health around me(im asian lmao) except my friends who are well like one or two. And i absolutely love it when i feel like she's speaking for me.
seasonal depression is so much for me to handle and knowing I'm not the only one like that really gives me hope someday I'll be able to not let it rule over me thanks Niki :))
i have major depression & seasonal depression... so hard. but have to make the most of it. everyday💖 i am a full time nanny & it truly has changed my life for the better. makes me feel like i have a purpose. & i loved that bit of Christmas music! yes
I totally relate to this. I have general depression but I tend to get worse during fall even though I love fall weather and things like that. The holidays give me a distraction to get out of that and bring me back up. Then I go back down in the Spring. Basically during the “transition” seasons I go really really low and during summer and winter I’m more upbeat.
Thank you for opening up about seasonal depression. I deal with it during the summer and it’s horrible specially in the morning when I wake up and everything is sunny , it just gives me so much anxiety. Summer just gets me very unhappy and unmotivated and I also hate sweating. I can relate so much with what you said , thank you for being vulnerable 💙💙
This is not about this video but this morning I was listening to Alone In My Car. It moves me so much I almost started to cry. Your so inspiring Niki and it's my dream one day to meet you. Ilysm and you & Gabi are making quarantine so much more hopeful and happy. Thank you so much!
I love niki she is so open about these things and I think some people give her hate but props to her for opening up and being real bc these things and seasonal depression is REAL .. I love you 💕
Growing up all my life, Christmas and the holidays were always this happy time of year that I looked forward to. This year started to become different though as the days started getting shorter and I started experiencing a lot of these symptoms. I talked to my psychologist about this and was diagnosed. This video really helped me feel like something wasn't completely wrong with me and that there are people that experience this every year. Thank you Niki
I get this so much. The comparison tho. And i always feel unmotivated when it stops snowing and the snow starts to melt, it reminds me of quarentine and crying all the time. I lovveeee watching Xmas movies but they also make me cry a lot because i moved away in December last year and i cry watching them because i would watch them with my dad and his amazing fiance and all my family but now they’re all 3500 miles away so it is amazing to watch them and decorate my room but its still really sad. If something, weather, sky, anything is the same as it was during quarantine then i wont wanna go outside. Period. Even to walk my dogs. This video really helped and i really dont wanna self diagnose but I’m still taking medication for hormones and stuff. I’m tryin. Ily niki. Also this is way too long holy crap.
i can’t stop thinking about when you said “comparison is the thief of joy” i’ve applied it to my life so many times already, so thanks for sharing that
I am currently battling seasonal depression and anxiety and I lost one of my best friends in November 17 I totally relate when you say November is a bad month for you and when you said that you just checked out from the trauma . I feel like it still isn’t real. This video has been helpful for me ! Thanks for sharing
I absolutely love that you really talk and share stuff with your audience and have transparency towards your viewers! You have such amazing vibes! Thanks for being such a genuine person that you are! Lots of Love from India!❤️
I think a lot of the stuff you just said is why I actually like Christmas. I struggle with depression, especially in the winter months when it gets dark so early (I’m in the UK and today sunset is 3:45pm 😢). For me, Christmas is the one bright and happy spot in an otherwise really dull and gloomy season.
I just got diagnosed today by my physician for vitamin D deficiency. He said that it may be a major reason why I am dealing with depression chemically.
it's so nice to know i'm not alone in this. living in the northeast is great until it's cold and dark at 4:30. thank you for making relatable content 💗
Girl I feel ya big time!!!! I live in Pennsylvania myself and I HATE the time change!!!! I too have seasonal depression and it’s hard living in a state that has such terrible winters... stay strong sending good vibes to all!💜
This is one of your best videos, Niki Pls make more and more like this It's soooo therapeutic and calming It made me realize more about what daylight savings can really do to a person
I totally read this title cleaning my bathroom while taking a sh*t. Lmaoo I had to do a double take lmfao. I was like niki getting too damn real. Chill
You are so beautiful, and I genuinely mean inside and out with your style, your personality, your humor, your soul. Love seeing people grow into their best authentic self. Keep shining girl🧡
I am vitamin D deficient because I moved from California to Oregon and stay inside all the time, so I am not getting nearly as much sun anymore. So I take supplements. I am going to try light therapy too though to see if it helps with my depression.
Niki I'm so happy you post videos like this. I was just going through something similar, and your videos, including this one, felt like a warm hug and a motivational push. Ilysm
damn everything you said is so right, i get trapped in this hole and i always wanna sleep or watever and i shouldnt give in and i feel like i've never had someone tell me that. normally people are just like "ahh stop being tired" or "why are you always so tired" this really gave me some motivation and I AM GOING TO TRY TO NOT FALL INTO THAT HOLE
11:16 NIKI ... CAN YOU PLEASE DO US A FAVOUR AND MAKE A DISNEY SONGS COVERRRR YOUR VOICE REALLY SUITE'S THEM. PLEASEEE I WANT TO HEAR MORE HIGH NOTES FROM YOUUUU
The holidays get me so down Niki so I know what its like. I love your content and your such a huge inspiration to me and many others!! Thank you so much for the amazing content.
I love it when she really talks and connects with her audience :)
She's amazing 💙
Ya she is one of my favorite youtubers
True queen
(Gabi too)
Her and Gabi both, yes!! I love how they like to connect with their fans ❤
Yesss x
“if you give in and if you lay around and do nothing and you give up on yourself and the season all together, you will fall deeper into a hole” DAMN niki
I love her soooooo much
I could listen to her all day
Can we just take a minuite to apreciate how real open niki is to her fans? Like i can relate to her so much cause shes so open and honest i luv her so much
hello fellow weeb and i respect her and HER HAIR LIKE OvO
@@-nottouya-6114 omggg fello weeb yayyy
Yess love her ❤️
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@@choicethetaurus i like your voice a lot
“Welcome to the girl’s room” love the intro Niki
Omg you actually liked my comment 🥺🥰
Thanks Niki 😍
Can u sub to me
Niki’s titles have been extra iconik lately and I ain’t complaining 😂💜
*iconic
@@char388 oh i did iconik cause it’s Niki’s fandom thing :)
@@char388 she did it on purpose
Tell me why I liked this comment cause I thought you said titties and not titles 😅
@@Annalise198 oh i’m dead 😂
I love these chill sit down talks while you are cleaning and just being so real and raw and showing the ups and downs and everything I am so thankful for you
"I LIKE EGGS"
DEBBIE
GIRL, YOU DID NOT JUST-😂😂😂😂 this sent me
“I HATE EGGS ESPECIALLY HARD BOILED”
im living for her ‘cleaning while’ series i feel like we connect with her on a personal level
petition for this “cleaning while” videos to be a series pls. *niki you have no idea how much ur sit down talks like this helps me* 🥺
Definitely deal with seasonal depression and the holidays feel more sad than happy for me. Even when there's no need to be sad and I want to feel just as excited like everyone. Like genuine excited not trynna fake it. Whats pulling me through this time is moving into a new house and having to stay busy and excited about the move. I feel that I can relate to your videos on a very personal level. Thank you for sharing Niki ❤️
I feel this very strongly, as well!
Moving can be so stressful! Good on you for being so positive!
Same here hate the feeling .
I completely agree I'm going through the same thing we love you Niki💓💓💓
Yeah why do the holidays seem more sad then regular days??
LOVE HOW REAL NIKI IS
OMG I LOVE YOU SO MUCH NIKI YOU INSPIRE ME SM
when you were singing the little mermaid i was like “wow she can really sing” but then i remembered you make music HAHAHAH
LOL i love hearing her live! Also i have a beauty channel and would love if you could subscribe!! ❤️
I've just got to tell you, your song Bite of Me came out during the same time as the most terrifying thing that has ever happened in my life and during financial instability. I have listened to it over and over again. You have no idea how much I resonate with it and it has been one of the things that have helped me feel powerful again.
❤️
Exactly I've listen to it on repeat as well Because of the Physical and the Emotional abuse My family has Been doing to me So that song is very relatable
I don’t wanna self diagnose. But Niki’s description about her seasonal depression, I really really fucking relate to. But one thing that keeps me going is her videos, they automatically make me smile every time I watch ‘em. I remember being in the hospital after my scoliosis surgery watching Niki, and smiling even though I was on so many fucking drugs. My mom has a video of me yelling ‘I love Niki’ over and over again, loll. It was while I was dowsed up, so I didn’t remember it. Hahah. Anyways, I love you Niki.
I get REALLY bad seasonal depression and at almost 25 it makes me so ashamed, but it's always SO nice to remember I'm not crazy or alone
I get it too
i completely relate to this
Lack of vitamin D - I.e. daylight saving and more clothes coverage in winter- has been shown to worsen depression.
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I was just ranting about daylight savings this morning. It sucks ass
Why you an extra hour of sleep
@@asiaellis2164 bro did u even watch the video 😂
Can u sub to me
Niki has been doing such great content and I love it she has became one of my favorite youtubers cuz she’s so real and when I watch her it’s like we are on ft
The most relatable RUclips video ever.
Niki and her connection with her fans! genuinely her energy is so welcoming! I love watching, feels warm.
“My name is Debby and I like eggs” iykyk 😭
"comparison is the thief of joy". i've NEVER had anyone put my feelings into words so well, whew i needed that .
Im loving how real you have been. Its like listen to your friend vent not a youtube video.
I could not describe it any better, PREACH!
"It's hard when you're going through it, and everybody else is so happy around you"
-Niki Demar
can we all just agree that niki is the best RUclipsr out there because she is just so honest about the stuff she struggles with.
For me, it's not the darkness but the actual holiday season itself and how happy it makes everyone else but the past memories I have that are good that are connected to them that are now gone along with the people related to those memories.. It's a lot and seeing everyone love the season also just makes me sad. Thank you for being so open with us and normalizing mental health, Niki!! 👏🏼😚💗
i am somewhere in the middle. i got my holiday spirit back for the first time in years after seasonal depression, so i decorated my whole room in early November, but then the holiday spirit kinda disappeared. now im back in my old ways of depression (yes im diagnosed since 13). i love you niki and thank you for this video
your organization and “facetime talk” vids are soo the best
It’s all about the power of spoken words and having a positive mindset ✨
Who else read this as “cleaning my bathroom while taking a shit” (Daylight saving )
I think that was on purpose 😅
Lol
😂😂
Meeee
Maybeeee...........:)
She's So Honest With Us And It Makes Me Feel Like Someone Actually Wants To Share Stuff With Me!
I love how honest and genuine she is :)
I agree with the training yourself part. Things that make her happy and dive into it. Love it.
It's so interesting how different people are. I don't mean that in a bad way, before anyone attacks me. I personally love gloomy, cold weather. It makes me feel calm, despite the combination of really bad and really good memories with the holidays, which makes it very confusing. I hate summer because of the bugs, extreme heat and a million hours of sunshine. She is kind of the opposite. It's just interesting how different experiences and points of view affect people.
It’s the same thing for me, I love winter.
Me too! And some people don’t like storms or rain but I feel like they wash away all my stress and sadness.
i feel the same way and i live at a place where its summer all year round ;(
@@zyler578 Please let's switch places then haha cause that's exactly what I need :(
@@VideosForYou90 i'd be happy to u have no idea
Finally someone talks about seasonal depression.. Niki you are a boss and true role model . Sending positive vibes your way ..
I am currently stuck in a hole, and I hope together out soon. Good luck Niki, I’m rooting for you
Hearing that you have sad makes me feel a lot more comfortable in my own skin so thanks niki !
When she said those symptoms i went like man why am i relating. Ngl i really love her and when she talks about her mental health and stuff i feel like its my bigger sister talking to me. No one really understands mental health around me(im asian lmao) except my friends who are well like one or two. And i absolutely love it when i feel like she's speaking for me.
You and your videos really make my day so much brighter and I love how you are so open about depression as I can relate and don’t feel so alone ❤️
ok but like her style tho-
it’s immaculate 🤩
Hello I am also a queer indie kid
@@katherineeastham yess another one hehe
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@@choicethetaurus wow, imagine good self promo
@@choicethetaurus your lucky this sounds good
seasonal depression is so much for me to handle and knowing I'm not the only one like that really gives me hope someday I'll be able to not let it rule over me thanks Niki :))
I feel this but kind of the opposite I’m generally more sad and depressed in the summer and happier in the fall and winter.💙
i have major depression & seasonal depression... so hard. but have to make the most of it. everyday💖 i am a full time nanny & it truly has changed my life for the better. makes me feel like i have a purpose. & i loved that bit of Christmas music! yes
I totally relate to this. I have general depression but I tend to get worse during fall even though I love fall weather and things like that. The holidays give me a distraction to get out of that and bring me back up. Then I go back down in the Spring. Basically during the “transition” seasons I go really really low and during summer and winter I’m more upbeat.
Thank you for opening up about seasonal depression. I deal with it during the summer and it’s horrible specially in the morning when I wake up and everything is sunny , it just gives me so much anxiety. Summer just gets me very unhappy and unmotivated and I also hate sweating. I can relate so much with what you said , thank you for being vulnerable 💙💙
This is not about this video but this morning I was listening to Alone In My Car. It moves me so much I almost started to cry. Your so inspiring Niki and it's my dream one day to meet you. Ilysm and you & Gabi are making quarantine so much more hopeful and happy. Thank you so much!
I love niki she is so open about these things and I think some people give her hate but props to her for opening up and being real bc these things and seasonal depression is REAL .. I love you 💕
OK GIRL your cleaning videos are killing it 🤩
- the lookbook
i love how you're expressing ur true self & connecting wit us!
The moment I realized I had every symptom of seasonal depression
Growing up all my life, Christmas and the holidays were always this happy time of year that I looked forward to. This year started to become different though as the days started getting shorter and I started experiencing a lot of these symptoms. I talked to my psychologist about this and was diagnosed. This video really helped me feel like something wasn't completely wrong with me and that there are people that experience this every year. Thank you Niki
I get this so much. The comparison tho. And i always feel unmotivated when it stops snowing and the snow starts to melt, it reminds me of quarentine and crying all the time. I lovveeee watching Xmas movies but they also make me cry a lot because i moved away in December last year and i cry watching them because i would watch them with my dad and his amazing fiance and all my family but now they’re all 3500 miles away so it is amazing to watch them and decorate my room but its still really sad. If something, weather, sky, anything is the same as it was during quarantine then i wont wanna go outside. Period. Even to walk my dogs. This video really helped and i really dont wanna self diagnose but I’m still taking medication for hormones and stuff. I’m tryin. Ily niki. Also this is way too long holy crap.
i can’t stop thinking about when you said “comparison is the thief of joy” i’ve applied it to my life so many times already, so thanks for sharing that
Niki is like my personal Pinterest board in a way. Love the bathroom so much :)
I am currently battling seasonal depression and anxiety and I lost one of my best friends in November 17 I totally relate when you say November is a bad month for you and when you said that you just checked out from the trauma . I feel like it still isn’t real. This video has been helpful for me ! Thanks for sharing
I love ur cleaning videos. So excited to watch💜
Niki is a whole vibe and I wish I had an inch of that self awareness.
I absolutely love that you really talk and share stuff with your audience and have transparency towards your viewers! You have such amazing vibes! Thanks for being such a genuine person that you are! Lots of Love from India!❤️
I love that I am cleaning my clothes and room and getting it ready for winter while niki is!!!!
Girl your channel has been popping off this year
I feel the same way in the winter. Thank you for validating and connecting. I feel happier, understood, and cozy after watching this!
This is random but my bird loves to talk when he hears noises he enjoys and he talks so much during your videos.
I think a lot of the stuff you just said is why I actually like Christmas. I struggle with depression, especially in the winter months when it gets dark so early (I’m in the UK and today sunset is 3:45pm 😢). For me, Christmas is the one bright and happy spot in an otherwise really dull and gloomy season.
I love these types of videos, it feels like I’m actually listening to a friend talk lol. 🥰
I love watching these videos and I love how open you are niki. It always makes me feel better watching your videos. My life is so fucked up. 💖💖
I just got diagnosed today by my physician for vitamin D deficiency. He said that it may be a major reason why I am dealing with depression chemically.
it's so nice to know i'm not alone in this. living in the northeast is great until it's cold and dark at 4:30. thank you for making relatable content 💗
i love when she is open. she is always honest and that’s what makes her a great creator
this is great. real advice. i love the introspectiveness and the vulnerability of it all. so proud how authentic
you are with everything
I feel like if she moved to Australia she would enjoy the holidays cause it’d be summer there lol
Lol ya
I absolutely love these videos Niki. They're so genuine and wholesome. Just you being authentic and it makes the content 100000 times more relatable 💓
Just want to say that when you were singing that little mermaid song you sounded like a Disney Princess! You sound so good, so proud of you. 🖤
I have been struggling so much. This came just at the right moment. I love you Niki. Thank you a million times!!
This just motivated me to clean my bathroom
Girl I feel ya big time!!!! I live in Pennsylvania myself and I HATE the time change!!!! I too have seasonal depression and it’s hard living in a state that has such terrible winters... stay strong sending good vibes to all!💜
0:56, did she just sit down on the toilet without the lid down
Me: (starts cleaning myself)
living for these chat videos bc it feels like im just chilling with my friends lmao
You need to come to New Zealand for Christmas. It's Summer time, so our Christmas is like spending time at the beach and stuff.
your videos are amazing lately
Ok but I think niki should get a ferret she would look so good with a ferret
LMAOO SO RANDOM BUT I SEE HER WITH A FERRET 😍🥰
why did this comment SEND ME INTO ORBIT LOLOLOL.
OMG so random but like yeah
Totally
I never knew I needed this until now 😅
This is one of your best videos, Niki
Pls make more and more like this
It's soooo therapeutic and calming
It made me realize more about what daylight savings can really do to a person
I totally read this title cleaning my bathroom while taking a sh*t. Lmaoo I had to do a double take lmfao. I was like niki getting too damn real. Chill
You are so beautiful, and I genuinely mean inside and out with your style, your personality, your humor, your soul. Love seeing people grow into their best authentic self. Keep shining girl🧡
I am vitamin D deficient because I moved from California to Oregon and stay inside all the time, so I am not getting nearly as much sun anymore. So I take supplements. I am going to try light therapy too though to see if it helps with my depression.
Niki is doing whatever the fuck she wants and im living for it
ok but what if you love and hate the holidays at the same time?? is there even an inbetween?? cuz i get depressed and happy like it comes in waves
Thanks for openning up, I thought I was the only person with seasonal depression and now I don't feel so alone 🥰
This is criminal that shirt got me weak brah
Niki I'm so happy you post videos like this. I was just going through something similar, and your videos, including this one, felt like a warm hug and a motivational push. Ilysm
Wow, it might just be lockdown, but i literally have seasonal depression
I love how open Niki is and it makes it so nice to watch her videos!
One time my seasonal depression was so bad I didn’t eat all before Christmas and threw up Christmas morning :)
I didn’t know this was a thing! Wow
Same but it was thanksgiving
@@tomifowora-zs2xp 🥺❤️
damn everything you said is so right, i get trapped in this hole and i always wanna sleep or watever and i shouldnt give in and i feel like i've never had someone tell me that. normally people are just like "ahh stop being tired" or "why are you always so tired" this really gave me some motivation and I AM GOING TO TRY TO NOT FALL INTO THAT HOLE
definitely thought this said cleaning my bathroom while taking a sh*t ...
i literally love these videos. cleaning and deep talks is my fav thing please do it more often ily
11:16 NIKI ... CAN YOU PLEASE DO US A FAVOUR AND MAKE A DISNEY SONGS COVERRRR YOUR VOICE REALLY SUITE'S THEM. PLEASEEE I WANT TO HEAR MORE HIGH NOTES FROM YOUUUU
niki has come to be MY FAVORITE youtuber 🤍 your content is effortlessly YOU , love you
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LOL such a throw back! Also i have a beauty channel and would love if you could subscribe!! ❤️
The holidays get me so down Niki so I know what its like. I love your content and your such a huge inspiration to me and many others!! Thank you so much for the amazing content.
I’m neither. I like the holidays. I hate snow. I don’t really watch movies. I love decor. What am I?
Needed this! Seasonal depression is the worst. Glad I’m not the only one