This is probably the most experimental track I’ve released since going at music full time. I’m not expecting everyone to love it, but for a few of you, it may be really special. It’s about my time living in Fairfield, CA, right before I moved to San Francisco. I partied a lot. I was insecure. I sought validation from everyone but me. My memories of that time are bittersweet. I love the friends I had, but my state of mind was so screwed up. I was such an open nerve. Fast forward to now - for the past few months or so, I’ve had a pretty difficult time due to issues in my personal life. Though I still made music through it, I was just struggling. That can happen, and will happen again, because that’s life. I was going through it when I wrote ‘Bleeding Out in the 415’, and ‘Show Them Who It Made You’, and this one. And I felt the most torn up while writing this one. That’s probably why it’s the most scatter-brained of the three. It leaps from genre to genre, influence to influence. It’s fractured. It’s soothing. It’s explosive. It’s ugly-beautiful. It’s a love-hate letter to a period in my life where I had to grow or die, essentially. And now I see that I wrote it because that’s what these past few months were for me. It’s like I was expressing my current struggles and using my past as a prism. Every time I feel deeply challenged, when I feel lost and out of control, I see it like I’m being given an opportunity to grow tools within myself that weren’t there before. If I was never as lost as I was in Fairfield, or had I not struggled these past three months, I would be lesser for it. So if you, right now, are going through it. If you’re in the dark. If you’re lost. Know that on the other side of all you’re going through is a clearer, more resilient version of yourself. Don’t give up. Every struggle is a cocoon. Text me: (707) 289-3895. First two replies are auto, but after that - it's really me, and I actually reply. I'll send you my drops directly. 💀☀️
I LOVE it SO Much Kai 💀🖤 Its So Raw and Beautiful!! Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us. You were Very forthcoming on your life the other night. It was nice meeting you in a way...Lives are Always Fun!! They'll get easier 😊 Remember to stay a little mysterious, it drives people Crazy!! Lol 😊 Drawn to you like a moth to a Flame 💀💙🔥🖤💀🖤🔥💙💀
Please, don't stop experimenting. It's always inspiring and invigorating to see someone push and test boundaries/make genuinely personalized art that catches all of our ears alight with that pleasant shit. Keep 'em coming!
We sunk so low and painted hell gold, then faked like our wings weren’t broke. This verse has been rolling through my mind for the last couple years. All I can offer is a humble thank you Kai. Much love
I've followed within my own journey since "tragedian's" and " Pinocchio's Soliloquy'. I love your person, your adventure has been amazing! All of your tracks, from 'Slaughterhouse' to this one have impacted me in some way.
I've listened to this song a lot on Spotify over the last 6months, just came on RUclips to thank you for your powerful words that hit a little deep for some of us. Much love brother!
Dude, you killed it with this one. Found it midway through my release radar playlist on spotify this morning while getting groceries, and I’ve had it looping since. Love to hear you trying new things! Keep ‘em comin’, brother; I am eagerly waiting.
Hey man, this is great! I found you on Spotify a few months ago cause my brother's name is Kai so I figured I'd check you out. I'm so glad I did, you're such a talented artist. I really love Everything's Sweet and My Name is Your Language. This one is a new favorite. Keep on rockin' 🤘🏼🤙🏼
Thanks, man! And I really don't mind at all. I encourage it, actually. I just need to whitelist the channel or however that works on the technical side of things. Thank you, though! I'm happy you're feeling this one.
I saw a tree. I was lost and drowning. At times still feel that way. I saw this face take form. It looked like death but it felt familiar It looked like this forming in the trees. Same face. But it didn't scare me. It was telling me life and death both exist choose
This is probably the most experimental track I’ve released since going at music full time. I’m not expecting everyone to love it, but for a few of you, it may be really special. It’s about my time living in Fairfield, CA, right before I moved to San Francisco. I partied a lot. I was insecure. I sought validation from everyone but me. My memories of that time are bittersweet. I love the friends I had, but my state of mind was so screwed up. I was such an open nerve.
Fast forward to now - for the past few months or so, I’ve had a pretty difficult time due to issues in my personal life. Though I still made music through it, I was just struggling. That can happen, and will happen again, because that’s life. I was going through it when I wrote ‘Bleeding Out in the 415’, and ‘Show Them Who It Made You’, and this one. And I felt the most torn up while writing this one.
That’s probably why it’s the most scatter-brained of the three. It leaps from genre to genre, influence to influence. It’s fractured. It’s soothing. It’s explosive. It’s ugly-beautiful. It’s a love-hate letter to a period in my life where I had to grow or die, essentially. And now I see that I wrote it because that’s what these past few months were for me. It’s like I was expressing my current struggles and using my past as a prism.
Every time I feel deeply challenged, when I feel lost and out of control, I see it like I’m being given an opportunity to grow tools within myself that weren’t there before. If I was never as lost as I was in Fairfield, or had I not struggled these past three months, I would be lesser for it. So if you, right now, are going through it. If you’re in the dark. If you’re lost. Know that on the other side of all you’re going through is a clearer, more resilient version of yourself. Don’t give up. Every struggle is a cocoon.
Text me: (707) 289-3895. First two replies are auto, but after that - it's really me, and I actually reply. I'll send you my drops directly. 💀☀️
damn - you keep getting right to my feels on these drops. love you and this song.
@@matthewbroskie5393 Glad you're feeling it, brother!
I LOVE it SO Much Kai 💀🖤 Its So Raw and Beautiful!! Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us. You were Very forthcoming on your life the other night. It was nice meeting you in a way...Lives are Always Fun!! They'll get easier 😊
Remember to stay a little mysterious, it drives people Crazy!! Lol 😊
Drawn to you like a moth to a Flame 💀💙🔥🖤💀🖤🔥💙💀
Don't hesitate to experiment. Unironically, you're one of my favorite artists of all time. Keep it up!
Please, don't stop experimenting. It's always inspiring and invigorating to see someone push and test boundaries/make genuinely personalized art that catches all of our ears alight with that pleasant shit. Keep 'em coming!
We sunk so low and painted hell gold, then faked like our wings weren’t broke.
This verse has been rolling through my mind for the last couple years. All I can offer is a humble thank you Kai. Much love
This ones just the right amount of all your styles.
I like the new style
Thank you!
This song gives me fucking chills
Man, thank you. One of the greatest compliments a musician can receive, I feel like.
YESSSSS!!!
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I've had this on repeat for an hour now, so much growth since your earliest stuff, I'm proud to be a fan of yours for 5ish years now💕💕
Man, thanks for sticking with me.
Damien, you introduced me to his music!! We've been big fans! Hope you come to NY, Kai!!
@@TOKANITZ I'm happy he did, man, thanks for listening to my stuff!
If I become someone else after this trust me it wasn’t by accident And I don’t me my soul will change but how I’m perceived will go through changes
I've followed within my own journey since "tragedian's" and " Pinocchio's Soliloquy'. I love your person, your adventure has been amazing! All of your tracks, from 'Slaughterhouse' to this one have impacted me in some way.
This comment doesn't make sense but I hope you understand
I love this one
Ah, amazing, thank you!
I've listened to this song a lot on Spotify over the last 6months, just came on RUclips to thank you for your powerful words that hit a little deep for some of us. Much love brother!
Your voice has so much emotion behind it. I love it
Yeah, this one was hard to write, and hard to perform, just because it was so personal. I kinda buried this part of my life,
Here before it blows up!
Dude, you killed it with this one. Found it midway through my release radar playlist on spotify this morning while getting groceries, and I’ve had it looping since. Love to hear you trying new things! Keep ‘em comin’, brother; I am eagerly waiting.
A million thanks, brother! And will do. Many more on the way.
YOU JUST KEEP DELIVERING WTF HOW DID YOU NOT BLOW UP YET!
Haha thank you! Show some people, man, and we'll see how things go.
this is one of my favorites, its so good, you killed it again man i love it
Man, thank you. Many more on the way.
Bro, thank you for this dope ass song. This song is what I'm going through. I always ask my self am I losing my mind, Much love bro.
Glad you're feelin' this one, man, thank you.
What a great beat. Had this on repeat... This must explode.
You’re probably the most underrated artist I listen to currently. I love your songs, and I really hope you get the attention you deserve to get soon.
One of the most underrated Musicians ever❤️ keep it up tho love ur music
Will do, and thank you! ❤️
this is increible
Thank you!
Beautiful as always fam.
Thanks, brother!
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Nice song
Thank you
Once again, amazing.
This is amazing. Thank you. This.
Love this so much I'm putting out in the universe someday goin to your show in Philly .. this is sooo goooood thank u thank u
Fire
I know talent when i hear it. Great job, and thank you. I appreciate it!
Great song, Kai!! ❤️🎶
Thanks, Susan! ❤️
sorry had to break the 420 likes 😎🤙 love. all your ,music this. is dopppeee
Absolute vibe 🙏🖤 can't wait to hear more
Your voice is very extraordinary and beautiful:)
Thank you!
Hey man, this is great! I found you on Spotify a few months ago cause my brother's name is Kai so I figured I'd check you out. I'm so glad I did, you're such a talented artist. I really love Everything's Sweet and My Name is Your Language. This one is a new favorite. Keep on rockin' 🤘🏼🤙🏼
Thank you, and will do! Tell your brother Kai, Kai says what's up.
Production on this was crazy, how do you feel about letting streamers show your song to their viewers?
Thanks, man! And I really don't mind at all. I encourage it, actually. I just need to whitelist the channel or however that works on the technical side of things. Thank you, though! I'm happy you're feeling this one.
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I saw a tree. I was lost and drowning. At times still feel that way.
I saw this face take form.
It looked like death but it felt familiar
It looked like this forming in the trees.
Same face.
But it didn't scare me.
It was telling me life and death both exist choose
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Let’s play a house with me